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Speaker 1: What's up, guys. This is Matt from Lost Culture Stas

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Speaker 1: And as you know, we had a little bit of

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Speaker 1: a special episode yesterday with me Bow and Cat and

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Speaker 1: Pat called Seek Culture. That was part one and part

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Speaker 1: two was about hit you right now, right across your

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Speaker 1: dumb little face. So if you haven't listened to part

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Speaker 1: one of Seek Culture, please listen to that episode on

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Speaker 1: Seek Treatment and uh, here we go. We're about to

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Speaker 1: do part two of Seek Culture right here on Lost

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Speaker 1: Culture Stas. Look man, oh I see you? Why Bow

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Speaker 1: and look over there? How is that culture? Yes? Goodness,

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Speaker 1: We're gonna move on. So this comes from Canada. This

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Speaker 1: comes from Canada. This person provided their own um. This

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Speaker 1: person provided their own pseudonym. It's Canada. So this is

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Speaker 1: um what they say, Hello darlings. As a forty year

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Speaker 1: old woman, I'm coming to you tiny young things for

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Speaker 1: advice because I'm absused. I have been working in the

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Speaker 1: creative arts as a theater director for more than fifteen years,

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Speaker 1: working with youth. There is a woman in the same

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Speaker 1: community that used to work with me and now actively

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Speaker 1: disparages me to others in our small theater. I love drama.

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Speaker 1: I hear this from people that I work with, as

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Speaker 1: well as thinly veiled social media post that she makes

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Speaker 1: about our productions or as a person. I believe that

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Speaker 1: this behavior comes from jealousy, as our shows are well

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Speaker 1: attendant and quickly acclaimed. Her negative attitude towards me makes

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Speaker 1: in our town. Despite having a lot of friends in

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Speaker 1: the community and having worked with many people, I worry

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Speaker 1: about her gossip spreading and it discourages me from getting

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Speaker 1: involved with other projects as an actor or even continue

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Speaker 1: with my own. I rise above it and continue as

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Speaker 1: a creative contributor to our community. Signed I'm not good.

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Speaker 1: I'm not bad. I'm just right Canada. I'm like acted

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Speaker 1: to her. We love you, love you. I'm so sorry

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Speaker 1: that's happening. That's so shitty. It's like this person clearly

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Speaker 1: has needs so much treatment. I feel like the only

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Speaker 1: to everyone you come across, and yes, just they'll they'll

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Speaker 1: see that it's not true and truly this sounds so

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Speaker 1: this might sound simplistic, but it is one of those

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Speaker 1: things where you just stay in your lane. My mom,

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Speaker 1: for some reason always tells me, reminds me just like God,

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Speaker 1: work is really stressful. I have these enemies at work,

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Speaker 1: but you know what, I just stay in, Like I

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Speaker 1: keep my eyes on my own paper, and I smile

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Speaker 1: at them. I'm nice to them. I do everything I

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Speaker 1: can to just also stand my own ground, stake my

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Speaker 1: own claim on things. But like, all you can do

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Speaker 1: is just ignore those fucking shitty people and also always

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Speaker 1: remember that people can see that behavior, like you're not

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Speaker 1: the only one who's not Like people can see that

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Speaker 1: like passive aggressive and even sometimes flat out aggressive behavior

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Speaker 1: like hello whenever, like anyone's acting crazing in our community?

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Speaker 1: Do we not all talk about it? Yes, takes all

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Speaker 1: the fact that this person is getting ship talked on

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Speaker 1: her for sure. Yeah, it's just she sounds like this

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Speaker 1: It sounds like your shows are great, sounds sound untalented.

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Speaker 1: Can I ask you guys, do you guys have haters?

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Speaker 1: I have one specific hater. Really, when I said screen

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Speaker 1: treat the screen grab and You're like, no, that's intense.

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Speaker 1: Oh that random person. Yeah, oh yeah, of course, I

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Speaker 1: think sometimes will you talk about this sometimes, Like it's

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Speaker 1: just people putting certain things on us that aren't necessary,

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Speaker 1: And I get I don't forgrudge them of that. I'm

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Speaker 1: only just like, wow, that's just not true. And like

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Speaker 1: at a certain point, and Study says that said this

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Speaker 1: at that. And that's the thing too, is with this situation,

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Speaker 1: truly yeah, C I'm telling you please email back in.

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Speaker 1: Some of my closest friendships start with drama and I'll

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Speaker 1: talk about you, see, yes, I mean hello, alright, So

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Speaker 1: I'm a newly graduated young professional l m F a O.

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Speaker 1: It was supposed to be a one time thing, but

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Speaker 1: it has turned into more than that. I stop too.

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Speaker 1: I just got a bad haircut. It's way too short

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Speaker 1: for me. I continue living now. I love all of you.

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Speaker 1: Thank you. I would say there's no reason to stop

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Speaker 1: it's fun, yeah, I don't. I don't know about co worker.

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Speaker 1: I don't care about like is this right. It's like,

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Speaker 1: But it doesn't sound like it's turning in haircut, you

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Speaker 1: I think with the cowork, I think, just yeah, just

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Speaker 1: If you're if there is potential for this to end

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Speaker 1: It could even be feelings. So if it's feelings, then

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Speaker 1: Do we have anything else for this? No? I feel

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Speaker 1: what's this person? Everybody? I'm going to call this person CUTI? Cutie?

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Speaker 1: Matt saw his photo and truly it's just because he's

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Speaker 1: like what's that? What's his name? Bonds? Really? Either? Okay?

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Speaker 1: York works, Catherine, How does New York work? New York

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Speaker 1: is emails, coffee is crugslist, New York is walking through

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Speaker 1: it's fabric. It's now as it's music, but it's also rhythm.

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Speaker 1: let me ask you what we're all going on and saying, ok,

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Speaker 1: I found a great place and they send me the application.

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Speaker 1: I'm like, I don't know what any of this means.

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Speaker 1: helps to have like some internal physical anchor in you.

424
00:23:31,520 --> 00:23:35,199
Speaker 1: And this sounds crazy, Okay, So I've been meditating and

425
00:23:35,200 --> 00:23:38,879
Speaker 1: then one of the guided things for like compare like

426
00:23:38,960 --> 00:23:41,119
Speaker 1: for like something to listen to, like before you go

427
00:23:41,200 --> 00:23:44,200
Speaker 1: into like a creative setting or something, is like they

428
00:23:44,240 --> 00:23:46,840
Speaker 1: tell you to like find like a point of focus

429
00:23:46,920 --> 00:23:49,360
Speaker 1: in your body and you just rest your focus on that.

430
00:23:49,400 --> 00:23:54,200
Speaker 1: But for me, literally it's from my groin. I feel

431
00:23:54,280 --> 00:23:57,440
Speaker 1: like I just like anchor. I do a kegle basically,

432
00:23:57,440 --> 00:23:59,479
Speaker 1: but it's a mental cagle where I just like as

433
00:23:59,480 --> 00:24:01,720
Speaker 1: soon as I happened to that, like everything else falls

434
00:24:01,760 --> 00:24:03,840
Speaker 1: into place, and like I'm on and like I might

435
00:24:04,720 --> 00:24:07,200
Speaker 1: make me horny. I think I'd have to drugle. No no, no, no, no,

436
00:24:07,240 --> 00:24:09,959
Speaker 1: it like it really like as soon as I like,

437
00:24:10,520 --> 00:24:14,160
Speaker 1: like I anchor myself into my own body. It's something

438
00:24:14,200 --> 00:24:15,679
Speaker 1: that like no one else can take away from you.

439
00:24:15,760 --> 00:24:18,719
Speaker 1: It's like it's something that's only about you. It's like

440
00:24:18,800 --> 00:24:24,160
Speaker 1: not about your extenuating circumstances, like find that in yourself,

441
00:24:24,280 --> 00:24:26,600
Speaker 1: whether it's from whether you're going to perform from from

442
00:24:26,640 --> 00:24:28,760
Speaker 1: your groin or from your shoulder or whatever the funck

443
00:24:29,720 --> 00:24:31,959
Speaker 1: find add to that, I also think that you just

444
00:24:32,160 --> 00:24:34,199
Speaker 1: has to keep going back to like I'm doing this

445
00:24:34,240 --> 00:24:36,960
Speaker 1: because at the end of the day, I want to

446
00:24:37,000 --> 00:24:39,280
Speaker 1: do this and I want to create something meaningful to

447
00:24:39,320 --> 00:24:41,919
Speaker 1: me and like um, and yeah, I think that the

448
00:24:42,000 --> 00:24:45,360
Speaker 1: question about motives and like fame and career and stuff

449
00:24:45,400 --> 00:24:48,560
Speaker 1: like I've recent like Trulli in the last month, gotten

450
00:24:48,560 --> 00:24:52,920
Speaker 1: to this place where it's not um, I don't feel

451
00:24:52,920 --> 00:24:54,840
Speaker 1: a need to chase that anymore. I think it's like

452
00:24:54,840 --> 00:24:58,080
Speaker 1: even just doing the pod, like having a small, little,

453
00:24:58,720 --> 00:25:03,000
Speaker 1: a small broaden of my scope, like um of people

454
00:25:03,040 --> 00:25:06,640
Speaker 1: I'm reaching, Like, um, it's a huge it's a huge deal.

455
00:25:06,760 --> 00:25:08,359
Speaker 1: It's it's it was a jump from where I was

456
00:25:08,400 --> 00:25:09,960
Speaker 1: before the POD, and I was like, oh, this is

457
00:25:09,960 --> 00:25:11,720
Speaker 1: like what I wanted, like having people know who I

458
00:25:11,760 --> 00:25:14,560
Speaker 1: am more. And then even that small thing, I was like, oh,

459
00:25:14,600 --> 00:25:18,119
Speaker 1: I actually like, I don't necessarily like or want this.

460
00:25:18,200 --> 00:25:20,160
Speaker 1: I just thought I didn't. Yeah, and then I'm like, well,

461
00:25:20,160 --> 00:25:21,720
Speaker 1: I'm not doing it for that. While I'm doing I'm like, oh,

462
00:25:21,760 --> 00:25:24,080
Speaker 1: because I like to try to make people laugh. That's

463
00:25:24,119 --> 00:25:26,480
Speaker 1: really what it is. And I've had the same realization

464
00:25:26,520 --> 00:25:28,960
Speaker 1: it's never been Actually I thought it was about like

465
00:25:29,040 --> 00:25:31,479
Speaker 1: fame and attention, and that's been like annoying to deal with.

466
00:25:31,520 --> 00:25:35,200
Speaker 1: But really, like, even as like our audience has grown,

467
00:25:35,320 --> 00:25:37,600
Speaker 1: I've still had this thing, which is like, how am

468
00:25:37,640 --> 00:25:40,840
Speaker 1: I going to creatively like fulfill myself? And that's how

469
00:25:40,840 --> 00:25:42,600
Speaker 1: you're That's when you know you're a true creative is

470
00:25:42,640 --> 00:25:45,840
Speaker 1: it's like you're still craving something. So this thing of

471
00:25:46,280 --> 00:25:49,960
Speaker 1: other people, it's not necessarily about them. Just celebrate them

472
00:25:50,000 --> 00:25:52,280
Speaker 1: and find what's gonna like make you better. And I

473
00:25:52,320 --> 00:25:55,280
Speaker 1: was just gonna say one of the like most interesting

474
00:25:55,320 --> 00:25:57,680
Speaker 1: things I've felt the past few years meeting people in

475
00:25:57,720 --> 00:25:59,600
Speaker 1: the biz, I feel like the most successful people I've

476
00:25:59,600 --> 00:26:02,640
Speaker 1: met are the most complimentary to other people. They're the nicest.

477
00:26:03,280 --> 00:26:05,919
Speaker 1: It's like crazy when someone who I think it's so

478
00:26:05,960 --> 00:26:08,879
Speaker 1: successful and talented like says something nice to me, I'm like,

479
00:26:09,119 --> 00:26:10,679
Speaker 1: you did not have to do that. I think that's

480
00:26:10,720 --> 00:26:13,399
Speaker 1: why people, some people like that get to work so much,

481
00:26:13,440 --> 00:26:15,360
Speaker 1: because there's such a delight and they bring this good

482
00:26:15,400 --> 00:26:18,160
Speaker 1: vibe and they're they're really happy for other people. And I, yeah,

483
00:26:18,240 --> 00:26:20,760
Speaker 1: I've been trying a lot more lately to really, like,

484
00:26:21,800 --> 00:26:24,920
Speaker 1: especially younger comedians, to like, you know, give them opportunities

485
00:26:24,920 --> 00:26:27,080
Speaker 1: and be like, yeah, totally, I can't wait. I really

486
00:26:27,119 --> 00:26:32,679
Speaker 1: want to because I can help other people. That's been

487
00:26:32,760 --> 00:26:34,840
Speaker 1: so different thing about like I don't think so honey,

488
00:26:34,960 --> 00:26:37,280
Speaker 1: is knowing that, like, yes, that's fun to be a

489
00:26:37,320 --> 00:26:38,800
Speaker 1: part of. It's like, you know, we give a lot

490
00:26:38,840 --> 00:26:42,280
Speaker 1: of people like not even opportunity. You know, I don't

491
00:26:42,720 --> 00:26:44,800
Speaker 1: giving them that, but it's like, you know, it's cool

492
00:26:44,880 --> 00:26:46,880
Speaker 1: to know that it's a place where so many people

493
00:26:46,920 --> 00:26:49,920
Speaker 1: can get it there and say they're feelings. It's really

494
00:26:50,040 --> 00:26:52,320
Speaker 1: we have a good question right here. Okay, who's it from?

495
00:26:52,359 --> 00:27:03,200
Speaker 1: This is from? Okay, Johnny, Johnny pass the left of

496
00:27:03,520 --> 00:27:06,320
Speaker 1: it makes me? Here we go, hey, Cat, Pat, Matt

497
00:27:06,359 --> 00:27:08,480
Speaker 1: and Bowen? Is it weird to listen to both of

498
00:27:08,520 --> 00:27:12,800
Speaker 1: your pods religiously? If I'm straight? Okay, I'm horny? Oh

499
00:27:13,240 --> 00:27:15,679
Speaker 1: my god, never mind. Also, if I'm in high school,

500
00:27:20,359 --> 00:27:24,040
Speaker 1: I'm no longer horny. Even when Catherine is coming to Chicago,

501
00:27:24,119 --> 00:27:27,520
Speaker 1: I can't go because I'm not over love both pods. Mike,

502
00:27:27,600 --> 00:27:32,479
Speaker 1: I think you are, Oh ship, that's his name, Johnny.

503
00:27:34,359 --> 00:27:35,960
Speaker 1: I think we all when we do you wish? Do

504
00:27:36,000 --> 00:27:39,240
Speaker 1: you think we all knew whose name was? Mike? Okay?

505
00:27:39,480 --> 00:27:41,560
Speaker 1: John I want to say, I think you're evolved, your

506
00:27:41,560 --> 00:27:44,239
Speaker 1: ahead of your time or an ally, you're doing important work.

507
00:27:44,320 --> 00:27:45,880
Speaker 1: You'll be twenty one soon, you can come hang out

508
00:27:45,920 --> 00:27:49,080
Speaker 1: all the fun shows. Um, I think you are. Yeah,

509
00:27:49,160 --> 00:27:51,040
Speaker 1: you're ahead of your time, and I thank you. You

510
00:27:51,160 --> 00:27:52,960
Speaker 1: get it and then you get to know that you

511
00:27:53,040 --> 00:27:55,359
Speaker 1: get it and not everyone else. And I love people

512
00:27:55,400 --> 00:27:58,080
Speaker 1: like Johnny because it's like when you find when you

513
00:27:58,119 --> 00:28:00,200
Speaker 1: find a straight who just like he gets it, it's

514
00:28:00,240 --> 00:28:02,720
Speaker 1: you know, like I had a long chat last night

515
00:28:02,760 --> 00:28:09,119
Speaker 1: with and you will shout him out Martin Nirvana, a

516
00:28:09,320 --> 00:28:11,840
Speaker 1: rare straight who just like completely gets it, and it's

517
00:28:11,920 --> 00:28:17,240
Speaker 1: so fucking funny. I die every time I see him,

518
00:28:17,280 --> 00:28:18,760
Speaker 1: and like the stage friends are good and then just

519
00:28:18,840 --> 00:28:21,600
Speaker 1: chatting with it, I was like, you're you're a diamond

520
00:28:21,600 --> 00:28:23,560
Speaker 1: in that you're a straight man that you can actually

521
00:28:23,560 --> 00:28:27,720
Speaker 1: talk to and he's so he and Kelsey are so sweet. Yeah,

522
00:28:27,800 --> 00:28:30,760
Speaker 1: they're great, And I just think like, yeah, I think

523
00:28:30,800 --> 00:28:33,119
Speaker 1: it's faking great that that you're straight and you're like

524
00:28:33,320 --> 00:28:35,840
Speaker 1: these pods, and also that's cool that you're in high school.

525
00:28:35,840 --> 00:28:38,880
Speaker 1: I think you're obviously developing into an extremely cool person

526
00:28:38,920 --> 00:28:41,280
Speaker 1: and get a fake idea and see Catherine, And I

527
00:28:41,280 --> 00:28:43,760
Speaker 1: think depending on where my clothes that could be important

528
00:28:43,760 --> 00:28:45,440
Speaker 1: to people in high school for there to be straight

529
00:28:45,480 --> 00:28:48,520
Speaker 1: people that I think it's so important that there's I

530
00:28:48,560 --> 00:28:51,840
Speaker 1: mean sorry, I think it's so important for them to

531
00:28:51,880 --> 00:28:54,120
Speaker 1: be straight people in high schools all around America that

532
00:28:54,120 --> 00:28:58,440
Speaker 1: listening to our podcast. Although here's my thing with the

533
00:28:58,480 --> 00:29:02,320
Speaker 1: straits that let that get it. I'm often so attractive,

534
00:29:02,560 --> 00:29:04,720
Speaker 1: so horny for them, and then I get angry, Wait,

535
00:29:04,720 --> 00:29:06,040
Speaker 1: who is your straight? Who is the Who are other

536
00:29:06,040 --> 00:29:10,880
Speaker 1: straights who got it? In the commune? Tim Platt, Matt Grossman,

537
00:29:11,120 --> 00:29:15,240
Speaker 1: Bryan Heaney, Oh in our community? Yeah, Tim Platt, he

538
00:29:15,280 --> 00:29:18,239
Speaker 1: gets it. And everyone that's been on Game Show gets it.

539
00:29:18,280 --> 00:29:22,120
Speaker 1: Brian and Nick big at it. That was so fun.

540
00:29:22,120 --> 00:29:25,040
Speaker 1: I know we were on their night. It was truly, truly, truly,

541
00:29:25,080 --> 00:29:26,520
Speaker 1: and I gotta do another one, and then I got

542
00:29:26,520 --> 00:29:29,400
Speaker 1: to judge Straits pageant and it was Brian and Nick

543
00:29:29,440 --> 00:29:31,400
Speaker 1: were there, and Brian made it to the finals, and

544
00:29:31,440 --> 00:29:33,000
Speaker 1: I wanted so and I wanted I was like, I

545
00:29:33,040 --> 00:29:35,840
Speaker 1: felt like a judge at the end, being like being like,

546
00:29:35,920 --> 00:29:39,240
Speaker 1: I watched your whole straight pageant journey and I'm so

547
00:29:39,480 --> 00:29:43,280
Speaker 1: pleased the next pageant. Literally, Catherine, I made like a

548
00:29:43,320 --> 00:29:46,000
Speaker 1: list of like my guest the judges that I wanted

549
00:29:46,040 --> 00:29:47,920
Speaker 1: the next straight pageant. It's on a Wednesday. What did

550
00:29:48,120 --> 00:29:52,080
Speaker 1: janus so sad sa when I couldn't come to the

551
00:29:52,160 --> 00:29:55,320
Speaker 1: last one. I know, I just got triggered. I just

552
00:29:55,360 --> 00:29:59,760
Speaker 1: got because you know when you go skiing and there

553
00:29:59,840 --> 00:30:02,040
Speaker 1: is they give you a lift ticket and has the

554
00:30:02,120 --> 00:30:06,400
Speaker 1: date on it one how it's on February and for

555
00:30:06,560 --> 00:30:08,880
Speaker 1: an entire and I just left it on my jacket

556
00:30:09,040 --> 00:30:11,280
Speaker 1: and for like an entire winter. This this kind of

557
00:30:11,280 --> 00:30:12,640
Speaker 1: like bully hid would it come up to me and

558
00:30:12,680 --> 00:30:17,240
Speaker 1: flip it and like February are yeah? Crazy? And I

559
00:30:17,280 --> 00:30:20,200
Speaker 1: know that was January. Put me back in that place. Okay,

560
00:30:20,240 --> 00:30:21,840
Speaker 1: I'm sorry. We can hit that out if you want.

561
00:30:21,880 --> 00:30:23,240
Speaker 1: Do you know in high school of my guy friends,

562
00:30:23,240 --> 00:30:25,040
Speaker 1: this thing where you would they would flip our boobs

563
00:30:25,040 --> 00:30:26,920
Speaker 1: and go flip the burger and we thought it was

564
00:30:26,960 --> 00:30:29,920
Speaker 1: funny and we left. Isn't that we have a question

565
00:30:29,920 --> 00:30:32,600
Speaker 1: that's sort of seek Treatment centric? But I also think

566
00:30:32,640 --> 00:30:34,600
Speaker 1: because Boonen and I have been on a Seek Treatment pod,

567
00:30:34,680 --> 00:30:37,600
Speaker 1: we can it's it's forever one for everyone everyone, So well,

568
00:30:37,760 --> 00:30:45,160
Speaker 1: go ahead, Okay, what's this person's name? Jo Joo definitely

569
00:30:45,160 --> 00:30:49,360
Speaker 1: doing that kind of J exclamation J very much. Jo

570
00:30:50,960 --> 00:30:55,840
Speaker 1: Jocko Joco asks what qualities are you looking for in

571
00:30:55,960 --> 00:31:02,880
Speaker 1: your crush of the Week selection? They my dick move. Um.

572
00:31:03,040 --> 00:31:05,440
Speaker 1: I think it's a it's like it's like a thing

573
00:31:05,600 --> 00:31:07,920
Speaker 1: of Um, what depends because sometimes we do kind of

574
00:31:08,000 --> 00:31:09,680
Speaker 1: kind of you a little cop out one, or it's

575
00:31:09,720 --> 00:31:11,680
Speaker 1: like someone we just want to celebrate, and sometimes we

576
00:31:11,760 --> 00:31:16,360
Speaker 1: do like someone I'm watching TV and like something really

577
00:31:16,400 --> 00:31:18,360
Speaker 1: turned like I was my most recent crush of the

578
00:31:18,360 --> 00:31:21,800
Speaker 1: week as Aita as Ambross from Sabrina the Teenage where

579
00:31:21,800 --> 00:31:25,640
Speaker 1: it either you watch it, the New New Adventures, The

580
00:31:25,640 --> 00:31:29,160
Speaker 1: New Adventures, you know, the t g I f ABC

581
00:31:30,520 --> 00:31:33,360
Speaker 1: Melissa Joan Harten vehicle. My crush of the Week was

582
00:31:33,400 --> 00:31:36,680
Speaker 1: from that project, and ultimate crush of the Week is

583
00:31:36,680 --> 00:31:40,200
Speaker 1: Harvey though from the originality I know, yeah, no, I know.

584
00:31:40,320 --> 00:31:43,360
Speaker 1: He never was someone who who ignited my loins. I

585
00:31:43,480 --> 00:31:46,440
Speaker 1: was much more of like um, Steve from Full House.

586
00:31:46,600 --> 00:31:48,600
Speaker 1: It's my kind of but I get, I get what

587
00:31:48,640 --> 00:31:51,520
Speaker 1: you're qualities. But so it's like so it's like Ambrose's

588
00:31:51,520 --> 00:31:55,040
Speaker 1: Sabrina's cousin, and like he's British and like, um, he's

589
00:31:55,120 --> 00:31:57,000
Speaker 1: chopped in the house and he is gay and is

590
00:31:57,040 --> 00:31:59,480
Speaker 1: like hooking and he's like cooking up with this guy

591
00:31:59,520 --> 00:32:01,200
Speaker 1: and like you don't and he's like just sitting in

592
00:32:01,200 --> 00:32:03,320
Speaker 1: his room. They had this like flirtation and then and

593
00:32:03,360 --> 00:32:04,880
Speaker 1: the guys in the far areas you can tell. And

594
00:32:04,880 --> 00:32:07,760
Speaker 1: then like he's kind of like the other guy. And

595
00:32:07,760 --> 00:32:09,560
Speaker 1: then like Ambross is sitting in his room and this

596
00:32:09,680 --> 00:32:11,800
Speaker 1: like silk robe and the guy just shows up in

597
00:32:11,800 --> 00:32:13,400
Speaker 1: his room and they just like start hooking up and

598
00:32:13,440 --> 00:32:18,000
Speaker 1: it's like exciting, exciting. I'm looking for excitement and a crushes.

599
00:32:18,040 --> 00:32:21,280
Speaker 1: You're looking for excite, something excites me. Speaking of British, Katherine,

600
00:32:21,320 --> 00:32:24,600
Speaker 1: did you hook up with any British? Oh my god, really,

601
00:32:24,640 --> 00:32:27,880
Speaker 1: it's so jealous. Oh my god, I've never hooked up

602
00:32:27,880 --> 00:32:29,840
Speaker 1: with the British. She held up her She held up

603
00:32:29,840 --> 00:32:41,160
Speaker 1: at number with how many again wow in British. Really no,

604
00:32:41,360 --> 00:32:44,080
Speaker 1: just just for the just for the moment, but no

605
00:32:44,200 --> 00:32:52,880
Speaker 1: Els l baby L was fleeting. I was beautiful, l lns, blonde,

606
00:32:53,240 --> 00:32:55,640
Speaker 1: Catherine inequalities that you look for. So we've got dick

607
00:32:55,680 --> 00:32:59,640
Speaker 1: move excitement. For me, it's about it's an eminous surprise.

608
00:32:59,680 --> 00:33:01,400
Speaker 1: I like and if I like, if I see a

609
00:33:01,400 --> 00:33:02,920
Speaker 1: picture of you and I don't feel anything, and then

610
00:33:02,920 --> 00:33:05,480
Speaker 1: I meet you and I'm like, oh shit, like that

611
00:33:05,720 --> 00:33:09,960
Speaker 1: that confidence that we have, that chemistry with someone. Like

612
00:33:10,600 --> 00:33:13,239
Speaker 1: I remember meeting someone at a show once and I

613
00:33:13,360 --> 00:33:15,080
Speaker 1: didn't I was like not, I was like not thinking

614
00:33:15,080 --> 00:33:16,760
Speaker 1: about crushes. I was like thinking. I turned and we

615
00:33:16,800 --> 00:33:20,920
Speaker 1: made eye contact and I was just like oh some things. Yeah.

616
00:33:21,040 --> 00:33:22,520
Speaker 1: And then when like you're sort of like drawn to someone,

617
00:33:22,560 --> 00:33:25,560
Speaker 1: you have to keep talking to them. Oh my god,

618
00:33:25,560 --> 00:33:27,600
Speaker 1: I'm the horniest one in America right now. Yeah, I

619
00:33:28,160 --> 00:33:31,800
Speaker 1: have to say. I it's an intangible thing for me,

620
00:33:31,920 --> 00:33:34,200
Speaker 1: like and I'm kind of missing it right now, Like

621
00:33:34,240 --> 00:33:35,840
Speaker 1: I don't have like I mean, I have that one

622
00:33:35,880 --> 00:33:38,360
Speaker 1: person that I like think about a lot, which is toxic,

623
00:33:38,680 --> 00:33:42,080
Speaker 1: but I'm missing like a crush like I'm I really

624
00:33:42,120 --> 00:33:44,520
Speaker 1: like I don't know, I just missed that feeling of

625
00:33:44,560 --> 00:33:47,760
Speaker 1: like liking someone in that way. I'm coming out of

626
00:33:47,760 --> 00:33:50,959
Speaker 1: a very deep, obsessive crush that, um, I'm coming at

627
00:33:51,080 --> 00:33:53,239
Speaker 1: a catel. It's ending and I'm excited. It's I'll have

628
00:33:53,360 --> 00:33:56,160
Speaker 1: some Do you feel like you're getting over it or

629
00:33:56,160 --> 00:33:57,680
Speaker 1: you're like you're letting it go. I think I'm letting

630
00:33:57,720 --> 00:34:00,680
Speaker 1: it go. I think that I was just I just

631
00:34:00,760 --> 00:34:02,400
Speaker 1: I texted to Cathy the other day. I've reached the

632
00:34:02,440 --> 00:34:04,640
Speaker 1: point of I've reached the point of the obsession where

633
00:34:04,680 --> 00:34:06,320
Speaker 1: I don't even I can't even keep check up if

634
00:34:06,320 --> 00:34:08,040
Speaker 1: I like the person or not. It's not about that,

635
00:34:09,280 --> 00:34:12,920
Speaker 1: And um, it's been pretty intense. Yeah, it's been really intense.

636
00:34:13,160 --> 00:34:15,680
Speaker 1: It's it's been one of my most intense ones. And

637
00:34:17,040 --> 00:34:20,799
Speaker 1: it's I think that I think that I'm just letting

638
00:34:20,840 --> 00:34:22,880
Speaker 1: it play out however it will, and I'm like a

639
00:34:22,920 --> 00:34:24,600
Speaker 1: piece with it. I have one loose end of where

640
00:34:24,640 --> 00:34:26,680
Speaker 1: I discussed it too much on a podcast and I'm

641
00:34:26,680 --> 00:34:30,000
Speaker 1: hoping they can edit things out, but we need the

642
00:34:30,000 --> 00:34:36,000
Speaker 1: producers working all hands on. I texted the team and

643
00:34:36,040 --> 00:34:37,800
Speaker 1: I said, this is an all hands on duck situation,

644
00:34:39,920 --> 00:34:44,120
Speaker 1: can't clear your week, cancel your obligations? Speaking to do

645
00:34:44,160 --> 00:34:49,160
Speaker 1: that with thirty still is homosexuality. We have another question.

646
00:34:49,160 --> 00:34:50,839
Speaker 1: I feel like we answered that, but what was your crush?

647
00:34:50,880 --> 00:34:57,439
Speaker 1: What do you look for? Oh? Next? Also it's would

648
00:34:57,680 --> 00:34:59,960
Speaker 1: I think we should just point for transparency's sake. Often

649
00:35:00,040 --> 00:35:03,200
Speaker 1: won't say your actual crushes as right? I mean, come on,

650
00:35:05,000 --> 00:35:08,239
Speaker 1: let's do two more? Um hi, big fan? Oh this

651
00:35:08,280 --> 00:35:14,840
Speaker 1: person is um asks Hi, big fan? Also, could you

652
00:35:14,840 --> 00:35:17,480
Speaker 1: please tell Patty Harrison and Loria La Ramirez to release

653
00:35:17,560 --> 00:35:21,120
Speaker 1: more a woman's smile? Please? Thanks, We'll tell them, We'll

654
00:35:21,160 --> 00:35:24,839
Speaker 1: tell them. Question. I'm mad at that one, but my

655
00:35:24,880 --> 00:35:35,560
Speaker 1: friends my question why from question? I am a gay

656
00:35:35,600 --> 00:35:39,480
Speaker 1: that hates anal sex topping the whole thing. What do

657
00:35:39,560 --> 00:35:41,640
Speaker 1: I do? It doesn't necessarily turn me off. I can

658
00:35:41,640 --> 00:35:44,279
Speaker 1: do either fine, I just don't really get anything from it.

659
00:35:44,320 --> 00:35:46,319
Speaker 1: Everything else is great. Sometimes I feel like a fake

660
00:35:46,400 --> 00:35:47,960
Speaker 1: gay because of it. Tell me what to do? Let

661
00:35:48,040 --> 00:35:51,000
Speaker 1: me have to You are not allowed we have to

662
00:35:51,040 --> 00:35:54,200
Speaker 1: talk about this, but I have gone through. I've taken

663
00:35:54,239 --> 00:35:57,520
Speaker 1: a turn in my journey. Um, because you both kind

664
00:35:57,520 --> 00:35:59,880
Speaker 1: of expressed to me that you didn't love a grew.

665
00:36:00,880 --> 00:36:06,720
Speaker 1: I used to be so secretly closet anti anal um,

666
00:36:06,800 --> 00:36:09,799
Speaker 1: and I was like, it's so messy, it's gross, like

667
00:36:09,920 --> 00:36:13,759
Speaker 1: just and blah blah blah blah blah. And then at

668
00:36:13,760 --> 00:36:15,520
Speaker 1: a certain point, I don't know if this is like

669
00:36:15,560 --> 00:36:20,399
Speaker 1: politically to like controversial to say there's some there's some

670
00:36:20,520 --> 00:36:25,040
Speaker 1: level of like there's some level of like internalized homophobia there,

671
00:36:25,160 --> 00:36:27,160
Speaker 1: and there's some thin level of it where you're like,

672
00:36:27,239 --> 00:36:30,200
Speaker 1: what I do with my sex is disgusting for me.

673
00:36:30,239 --> 00:36:33,480
Speaker 1: It just hurts, and it hurts. But here's my talking

674
00:36:34,200 --> 00:36:39,239
Speaker 1: exclusively and here's my turn. Um gotten. Some guys they

675
00:36:39,280 --> 00:36:42,600
Speaker 1: there's such a thing as a trainer dildo. I bought

676
00:36:43,040 --> 00:36:46,839
Speaker 1: and it's changed everything. Trainer Dilda, I got a trainer Delda.

677
00:36:46,880 --> 00:36:48,879
Speaker 1: I got a good lube. Just go to your look,

678
00:36:48,960 --> 00:36:51,880
Speaker 1: go to a local sex shop. Trainer dildo, good lube,

679
00:36:51,880 --> 00:36:55,239
Speaker 1: and poppers And like I said, I just clock clock

680
00:36:55,280 --> 00:36:58,320
Speaker 1: on my computer, stick it up my ass, do poppers.

681
00:36:58,400 --> 00:37:00,439
Speaker 1: And then I get and then I'm like, oh wait,

682
00:37:00,480 --> 00:37:02,600
Speaker 1: this is I'm meant to this. And now I'm like

683
00:37:03,080 --> 00:37:05,600
Speaker 1: kind of ramping up to like being intangled, but but

684
00:37:05,680 --> 00:37:09,719
Speaker 1: nothing I want more than to enjoy getting fucked. I look,

685
00:37:10,480 --> 00:37:12,200
Speaker 1: it looks so funny. And the guys that like it,

686
00:37:12,280 --> 00:37:14,839
Speaker 1: they say it's like being on a wild ride. Yeah.

687
00:37:15,880 --> 00:37:17,800
Speaker 1: But what I will also say, though, is I think

688
00:37:19,040 --> 00:37:21,759
Speaker 1: I think we're just This question doesn't read to me

689
00:37:21,880 --> 00:37:26,719
Speaker 1: as h no, no, not that it doesn't read to

690
00:37:26,760 --> 00:37:30,680
Speaker 1: me as um, bottoming being painful. It reads to me

691
00:37:30,719 --> 00:37:34,600
Speaker 1: as a conceptual kind of oh yeah, disconnectedness to anal

692
00:37:34,640 --> 00:37:39,000
Speaker 1: sex as a practice. But but what I will say is, um,

693
00:37:39,120 --> 00:37:40,840
Speaker 1: I think that's fine. I think that I'm in a

694
00:37:40,880 --> 00:37:47,400
Speaker 1: place right now with thirty where where like, um, I

695
00:37:47,440 --> 00:37:49,719
Speaker 1: think that's fine. You don't have to like anything. And

696
00:37:49,719 --> 00:37:53,200
Speaker 1: I think that maybe you'll have to find someone who

697
00:37:53,400 --> 00:37:55,600
Speaker 1: likes the ship that you like. But everyone, you know,

698
00:37:55,880 --> 00:37:58,279
Speaker 1: I'm in this place where I'm talking to someone and

699
00:37:58,280 --> 00:38:01,360
Speaker 1: they were like a total bottom and I generally would

700
00:38:01,520 --> 00:38:04,279
Speaker 1: probably be that too, but like but they were like, yeah,

701
00:38:04,280 --> 00:38:05,719
Speaker 1: I were like this guy, but he's ver us. I

702
00:38:05,719 --> 00:38:07,160
Speaker 1: need a total top, you know what it's like. And

703
00:38:07,160 --> 00:38:09,360
Speaker 1: I'm like, well, if you find someone you really like,

704
00:38:09,400 --> 00:38:12,600
Speaker 1: you'll figure out how to get each other off. And

705
00:38:13,200 --> 00:38:15,080
Speaker 1: if they like you back, and they really it's like,

706
00:38:15,160 --> 00:38:19,080
Speaker 1: don't worry about to cooking up I think it can

707
00:38:19,120 --> 00:38:20,960
Speaker 1: become warped your brains how important it is and how

708
00:38:21,000 --> 00:38:23,319
Speaker 1: important these roles are and like, um, how important, like

709
00:38:23,320 --> 00:38:25,160
Speaker 1: what the kind of brass tacks of what we do

710
00:38:25,280 --> 00:38:28,200
Speaker 1: is and like ultimately, like if you find someone that

711
00:38:28,239 --> 00:38:30,080
Speaker 1: you really like, and even if you like different things,

712
00:38:30,120 --> 00:38:31,719
Speaker 1: but you really like each other, you will figure out

713
00:38:31,719 --> 00:38:34,200
Speaker 1: a way to make each other come. And like don't

714
00:38:34,239 --> 00:38:36,880
Speaker 1: overthink it. You know, your sex is your sex, And

715
00:38:37,080 --> 00:38:39,440
Speaker 1: I think, like, don't ever think that you have to

716
00:38:39,520 --> 00:38:43,920
Speaker 1: do like what's important that ship is crazy, Like I

717
00:38:43,960 --> 00:38:46,239
Speaker 1: could never you can't physically do what they do because

718
00:38:46,280 --> 00:38:50,200
Speaker 1: they're also like nothing, they're professionals. They do that they live.

719
00:38:50,719 --> 00:38:53,480
Speaker 1: They have to be able to perform that way. And

720
00:38:53,520 --> 00:38:56,000
Speaker 1: that's sort of like fantasy sex world. And also I

721
00:38:56,000 --> 00:38:58,759
Speaker 1: think sometimes it's like something they have enhancements that they're

722
00:38:58,800 --> 00:39:00,560
Speaker 1: able to do the things that they do. But also

723
00:39:00,640 --> 00:39:04,239
Speaker 1: this trainer Dould, I'm going to have to highly recommend it,

724
00:39:04,440 --> 00:39:06,279
Speaker 1: but you don't have to have You also don't have

725
00:39:06,320 --> 00:39:09,080
Speaker 1: to have anal sex. You don't have to partake in it. Um.

726
00:39:09,320 --> 00:39:11,400
Speaker 1: For me, it's just if you if you are in

727
00:39:11,440 --> 00:39:15,239
Speaker 1: a place um grew, if you that you want to

728
00:39:15,360 --> 00:39:18,120
Speaker 1: arrive at that and enjoying it, then I would recommend

729
00:39:19,080 --> 00:39:22,920
Speaker 1: if you're if you're open to bottoming more, just doing that,

730
00:39:23,200 --> 00:39:26,080
Speaker 1: then the trainer DELDO has leveled me up to the

731
00:39:26,120 --> 00:39:28,720
Speaker 1: actual deld that for the longest time. Yeah, it sounds

732
00:39:28,719 --> 00:39:30,480
Speaker 1: like he doesn't even just like it. It sounds like

733
00:39:30,640 --> 00:39:35,360
Speaker 1: glue Um has come, has top has bottomed, and it's like,

734
00:39:35,400 --> 00:39:39,160
Speaker 1: I don't really care. It's not my thing. Yes, no,

735
00:39:39,280 --> 00:39:41,200
Speaker 1: And I know I get that, and I get that.

736
00:39:41,880 --> 00:39:46,320
Speaker 1: I get that about glue Um. My thing is sometimes

737
00:39:46,320 --> 00:39:48,000
Speaker 1: with the anal sex thing is like, because I don't

738
00:39:48,040 --> 00:39:51,400
Speaker 1: like the way that we have literal intracourse, I sometimes

739
00:39:51,440 --> 00:39:54,399
Speaker 1: get sad that I will never be able to experience

740
00:39:54,480 --> 00:39:57,200
Speaker 1: true sexual connection. And I'm just like that makes me

741
00:39:57,320 --> 00:39:59,640
Speaker 1: very wait because because you don't think because I don't want,

742
00:39:59,719 --> 00:40:02,239
Speaker 1: because I don't, I don't know, Like it's it's it's

743
00:40:02,239 --> 00:40:04,160
Speaker 1: like a weird thing where I'm like, am I missing

744
00:40:04,160 --> 00:40:06,680
Speaker 1: out on I've had sex with a woman and it

745
00:40:06,800 --> 00:40:10,920
Speaker 1: was not connected. Yeah, I think there's been there's been

746
00:40:10,960 --> 00:40:14,560
Speaker 1: things that aren't full penetration that are so much more

747
00:40:14,640 --> 00:40:21,279
Speaker 1: intimate pleasurable than like, so I mean it doesn't matter.

748
00:40:21,320 --> 00:40:23,000
Speaker 1: I mean I'm just thinking of the people I sucked,

749
00:40:23,120 --> 00:40:29,799
Speaker 1: know how deeply disconnected? Okay, so one more and this one.

750
00:40:29,880 --> 00:40:33,960
Speaker 1: This was a simple fun one. So um, what's this

751
00:40:34,000 --> 00:40:43,080
Speaker 1: person's name? Oh, Barbara Gina Barbara's as Gina Barbara's has

752
00:40:43,200 --> 00:40:46,239
Speaker 1: asked well says, my favorite thing to do in the

753
00:40:46,280 --> 00:40:48,520
Speaker 1: world is to go to the movies by myself and

754
00:40:49,040 --> 00:40:51,080
Speaker 1: Nari sushi and then have a little cry over the

755
00:40:51,160 --> 00:40:53,560
Speaker 1: end credits. I even did this during TAG. Not my

756
00:40:53,600 --> 00:40:56,879
Speaker 1: finest hour, but I guess a more functional adult human

757
00:40:56,880 --> 00:40:58,880
Speaker 1: would seek out other people and try to convince them

758
00:40:59,239 --> 00:41:01,840
Speaker 1: beyond my person nod into my body. How do I

759
00:41:01,880 --> 00:41:04,399
Speaker 1: switch modes from socially anxious and fond of snacks too

760
00:41:04,440 --> 00:41:06,880
Speaker 1: slightly less likely to never need a plus one invite

761
00:41:06,920 --> 00:41:10,320
Speaker 1: to a formal social events like she's putting crush on herself.

762
00:41:10,880 --> 00:41:16,080
Speaker 1: Solitary Gene Barbara's as Gene Barbara's evolved, We're all working

763
00:41:16,120 --> 00:41:19,439
Speaker 1: towards being okay with our solitary. What I will say

764
00:41:19,520 --> 00:41:22,839
Speaker 1: JBZ is that I'm someone who swings back and forth

765
00:41:32,960 --> 00:41:42,840
Speaker 1: Gina Barbara's as. I'm someone who swings back and forth

766
00:41:42,880 --> 00:41:48,640
Speaker 1: in a pendulum between someone who who isolates very much

767
00:41:48,640 --> 00:41:51,320
Speaker 1: and like, well, well, we'll not we will not respond

768
00:41:51,320 --> 00:41:54,520
Speaker 1: to emails about hanging out and will not make any

769
00:41:54,560 --> 00:41:58,800
Speaker 1: plans to be alone for an extended poo of time.

770
00:41:59,400 --> 00:42:01,200
Speaker 1: And then sometimes I'm central place where I get done

771
00:42:01,200 --> 00:42:02,120
Speaker 1: what I have to do for the day, and it

772
00:42:02,120 --> 00:42:03,759
Speaker 1: would be nice to sleep, but I can't just go

773
00:42:03,840 --> 00:42:05,680
Speaker 1: home and be myself. I have to be around people.

774
00:42:05,680 --> 00:42:07,680
Speaker 1: And then and then there's that compulsion and I kind

775
00:42:07,680 --> 00:42:09,160
Speaker 1: of go back and with me those two things, and

776
00:42:09,200 --> 00:42:11,680
Speaker 1: I think neither one of them is better than the other.

777
00:42:11,719 --> 00:42:14,399
Speaker 1: But like a balance is healthy and like if but

778
00:42:14,640 --> 00:42:18,080
Speaker 1: this sounds like a uh self care thing that you

779
00:42:18,120 --> 00:42:20,319
Speaker 1: do once in a while and it's fine, it's fine.

780
00:42:20,360 --> 00:42:21,800
Speaker 1: I just think it's like you don't want to always

781
00:42:21,800 --> 00:42:24,680
Speaker 1: be alone, maybe, but you don't have to always be

782
00:42:24,719 --> 00:42:31,680
Speaker 1: with people. Being invited to events is one so overrated.

783
00:42:31,719 --> 00:42:34,160
Speaker 1: I don't get invited to ship. Also, whenever I do

784
00:42:34,200 --> 00:42:36,879
Speaker 1: get invited to ship, oftentimes you go to events and

785
00:42:37,239 --> 00:42:42,200
Speaker 1: speaking people is like, it's not enjoyable. I've been going

786
00:42:42,440 --> 00:42:44,480
Speaker 1: the last three movies I've seen Anyone alone to Alam

787
00:42:44,480 --> 00:42:47,839
Speaker 1: the Drafthouse. I think movies should be seen alone. I'm

788
00:42:47,800 --> 00:42:49,760
Speaker 1: gonna don't want to see happy that they do alone

789
00:42:49,800 --> 00:42:54,560
Speaker 1: with me? Is it not yet? I just had a preview.

790
00:42:55,360 --> 00:42:57,440
Speaker 1: I think happy that they was so good. I want

791
00:42:57,440 --> 00:43:01,719
Speaker 1: to watch. It's really like movie, Catherine. It's not the

792
00:43:01,760 --> 00:43:03,799
Speaker 1: idea I do, but I don't. It's honestly not that

793
00:43:03,800 --> 00:43:05,360
Speaker 1: they came me up at night, but I like them.

794
00:43:05,400 --> 00:43:07,440
Speaker 1: It honestly is not that scary. It really is more

795
00:43:07,480 --> 00:43:10,000
Speaker 1: of it. It's really more of a think piece. And um,

796
00:43:10,280 --> 00:43:12,160
Speaker 1: it's a vibe for you because it's at AIG it's

797
00:43:12,160 --> 00:43:14,960
Speaker 1: a college college, which is even more fun because it's

798
00:43:15,000 --> 00:43:23,480
Speaker 1: rarer and it's it's rarer and June, um. But for that,

799
00:43:23,640 --> 00:43:25,799
Speaker 1: they was so good and I think that they too

800
00:43:25,800 --> 00:43:29,800
Speaker 1: will be so good. Well, um, j June. Barbara's is

801
00:43:29,920 --> 00:43:33,760
Speaker 1: as I think you. It's can Katherine's completely right, your revolved.

802
00:43:33,840 --> 00:43:36,560
Speaker 1: Let me just finish this, um And I was going

803
00:43:36,560 --> 00:43:45,759
Speaker 1: to okay, no, you literally cut it in. Stop you.

804
00:43:46,120 --> 00:43:49,320
Speaker 1: Cavin's right, you were so evolved for being for finding

805
00:43:49,320 --> 00:43:52,000
Speaker 1: this comfort like sushi and a cry at the end

806
00:43:52,040 --> 00:43:55,600
Speaker 1: credits sounds so perfect. You are really getting to the

807
00:43:55,640 --> 00:43:58,320
Speaker 1: emotional honest of who you are on a regular basis,

808
00:43:58,360 --> 00:44:01,160
Speaker 1: and you know what what triggers it and I think

809
00:44:01,360 --> 00:44:03,360
Speaker 1: you have nothing to do. You don't need to do anything.

810
00:44:03,440 --> 00:44:09,640
Speaker 1: You have nothing to change June. Jabba isn't June a thing?

811
00:44:10,000 --> 00:44:15,360
Speaker 1: J June means like um, like really like basic, basically simplistic,

812
00:44:15,440 --> 00:44:19,719
Speaker 1: like so you were using you brought that word into

813
00:44:19,719 --> 00:44:22,240
Speaker 1: my life at the annoyance June about your old boss

814
00:44:24,040 --> 00:44:27,680
Speaker 1: annoyance pot WERENAE never told me about June. Well we don't.

815
00:44:27,680 --> 00:44:29,480
Speaker 1: We weren't close friends about He kept that from it.

816
00:44:31,160 --> 00:44:32,839
Speaker 1: He wasn't ready to share that part of his life

817
00:44:32,840 --> 00:44:36,520
Speaker 1: with me. And I hope one day you're ready. Okay,

818
00:44:36,960 --> 00:44:42,200
Speaker 1: were you gonna say? I can connect Gina Barbara's as

819
00:44:42,200 --> 00:44:44,560
Speaker 1: our last question back to one of our first questions,

820
00:44:45,080 --> 00:44:48,279
Speaker 1: my on to get off again kind of sister, I

821
00:44:48,360 --> 00:44:50,120
Speaker 1: kind of fight with e C. What was the name?

822
00:44:50,600 --> 00:44:53,040
Speaker 1: You see? But I think that was the start of

823
00:44:53,080 --> 00:44:56,040
Speaker 1: the episode. I think thematically you can connect to two

824
00:44:56,080 --> 00:45:00,200
Speaker 1: questions because Gina Barbara's as feels so much guilt doing

825
00:45:00,280 --> 00:45:02,560
Speaker 1: things she wants to do alone. That's why we get

826
00:45:02,560 --> 00:45:04,279
Speaker 1: to this place where we need our partners to like

827
00:45:04,440 --> 00:45:07,520
Speaker 1: the same things as USO, because we can't just do

828
00:45:07,560 --> 00:45:09,719
Speaker 1: the things ourselves. We need to have our person that

829
00:45:09,719 --> 00:45:12,960
Speaker 1: we're dating. We can go as two people, but on

830
00:45:13,120 --> 00:45:15,480
Speaker 1: some level you do want to share those things on

831
00:45:15,520 --> 00:45:18,240
Speaker 1: some level, on some level it is it adds meaning

832
00:45:18,280 --> 00:45:20,960
Speaker 1: to the relationship, and I understand that. But there's no requirement,

833
00:45:21,000 --> 00:45:24,680
Speaker 1: like what the compulsion as long as the compulsion doesn't

834
00:45:24,719 --> 00:45:27,759
Speaker 1: consume all of it. Thank you? Can I just say

835
00:45:27,760 --> 00:45:29,560
Speaker 1: I saw one more question that's really good, and then

836
00:45:29,560 --> 00:45:34,399
Speaker 1: we can we can, right, this person asks, and this

837
00:45:34,440 --> 00:45:37,359
Speaker 1: person is named this person this person. Is it bad

838
00:45:37,400 --> 00:45:41,319
Speaker 1: that I want someone who's done me wrong to suffer? Oh? No,

839
00:45:41,360 --> 00:45:44,080
Speaker 1: not at all. No, But I think think it's wrong.

840
00:45:44,160 --> 00:45:48,279
Speaker 1: I think it's I think it will ultimately make you sadders.

841
00:45:49,440 --> 00:45:51,799
Speaker 1: I just don't want everyone to suffer. I want every

842
00:45:51,840 --> 00:45:54,680
Speaker 1: single person. Besides, I just think that everything it's so hard,

843
00:45:55,000 --> 00:46:00,200
Speaker 1: Everything is so hard, and everyone's everyone's inst level. Everyone.

844
00:46:00,520 --> 00:46:02,799
Speaker 1: You can't live in a place where negativity. You just can't.

845
00:46:02,840 --> 00:46:05,200
Speaker 1: You're right, You're right to quote the series finale of

846
00:46:05,360 --> 00:46:12,200
Speaker 1: Hbos Girls, everyone's an emotional pain. Yeah, go ahead, You're

847
00:46:12,200 --> 00:46:13,800
Speaker 1: going to sit in the seeling and it's going to

848
00:46:13,920 --> 00:46:16,360
Speaker 1: hurt you. Girl drinking boys and helping other person dies.

849
00:46:16,680 --> 00:46:19,440
Speaker 1: But also I get I'm saying this intellectually, but I

850
00:46:19,480 --> 00:46:22,719
Speaker 1: fully do this every yaday. We all trap ourselves in

851
00:46:22,840 --> 00:46:25,600
Speaker 1: that thought. But you're right, you guys, you guys, are

852
00:46:25,640 --> 00:46:27,640
Speaker 1: you guys are teaching me compassion? And thank you because

853
00:46:27,680 --> 00:46:30,200
Speaker 1: I came in hot, like yes, it's fine to do it.

854
00:46:30,600 --> 00:46:32,120
Speaker 1: And actually, none of these mikes have been on this

855
00:46:32,160 --> 00:46:34,440
Speaker 1: whole time. This has all been a forest to teach bo. Yes,

856
00:46:34,719 --> 00:46:43,000
Speaker 1: thank you, Um, this has been seek I don't know.

857
00:46:43,080 --> 00:46:44,960
Speaker 1: I think it has to be an event. It must

858
00:46:45,120 --> 00:46:46,960
Speaker 1: do you want to It's like a wrap up where

859
00:46:46,960 --> 00:46:48,840
Speaker 1: I like, like a garden are you mad at me?

860
00:46:48,920 --> 00:46:52,759
Speaker 1: Or like are you mad? And then and then we'll

861
00:46:52,800 --> 00:46:54,360
Speaker 1: all do one. I don't think it's any at the

862
00:46:54,360 --> 00:46:57,960
Speaker 1: same time, alright, okay, if you're holding my hands like

863
00:46:58,200 --> 00:47:00,040
Speaker 1: which by what I said, if you're holding me, what

864
00:47:00,080 --> 00:47:07,360
Speaker 1: I meant was, can you guys who wants to go?

865
00:47:05,920 --> 00:47:11,799
Speaker 1: I want to say when we all yes, it's I'm

866
00:47:11,840 --> 00:47:17,279
Speaker 1: happening here. I honestly, I think this is like a

867
00:47:17,400 --> 00:47:19,319
Speaker 1: very vulnerable and nice episode. And I think it's good

868
00:47:19,320 --> 00:47:20,920
Speaker 1: that we can all talk about our diseases with each other.

869
00:47:20,960 --> 00:47:23,839
Speaker 1: And I'm open to um. I'm always open to all

870
00:47:23,880 --> 00:47:27,399
Speaker 1: of your critiques that I trust your opinions. I feel

871
00:47:27,400 --> 00:47:28,759
Speaker 1: the exact same way. Are we doing? Are you? Are

872
00:47:28,840 --> 00:47:30,399
Speaker 1: you mad at me? I don't know? That wasn't really one?

873
00:47:31,000 --> 00:47:35,000
Speaker 1: Can I see that? Can I know something I was?

874
00:47:35,760 --> 00:47:39,719
Speaker 1: I was reporting Bowen's hand is so warm, Pat's hands.

875
00:47:40,360 --> 00:47:43,480
Speaker 1: Are you feeling this at all? Are you feeling this? Yes?

876
00:47:43,640 --> 00:47:49,120
Speaker 1: For I'm like a pizza. I'm got pizza cooking for me.

877
00:47:49,320 --> 00:47:52,319
Speaker 1: Cathain's hands room tamp and Matt's hand is a little warm.

878
00:47:52,360 --> 00:47:54,600
Speaker 1: Matt's hand is warm. So the hottest person name is Bonn.

879
00:47:55,040 --> 00:47:59,520
Speaker 1: Then that that made them? That's it bad? And that tap?

880
00:48:00,160 --> 00:48:02,800
Speaker 1: Who are you? Okay? So Pat, I'm not mad at you.

881
00:48:03,320 --> 00:48:05,600
Speaker 1: I feel like we still haven't hung out, I know,

882
00:48:06,560 --> 00:48:09,400
Speaker 1: even though we spent truly most of making got back

883
00:48:09,400 --> 00:48:14,439
Speaker 1: from Britiship love all. There's so much to talk about.

884
00:48:14,680 --> 00:48:16,279
Speaker 1: We've also been in the company of others I know,

885
00:48:17,200 --> 00:48:19,160
Speaker 1: which is good, which is fine, but we keep having

886
00:48:19,200 --> 00:48:22,800
Speaker 1: one on ones where there's another person there, so definitely

887
00:48:22,800 --> 00:48:26,520
Speaker 1: sex the one on one, Okay, I'm not. I was like, actually,

888
00:48:26,560 --> 00:48:29,120
Speaker 1: there's like, where's Matt been? Like, I haven't seen you

889
00:48:29,160 --> 00:48:31,759
Speaker 1: in a while. I'm and you seem really good. I'm

890
00:48:32,400 --> 00:48:34,040
Speaker 1: the last time I saw you, you were and now

891
00:48:34,160 --> 00:48:38,640
Speaker 1: you're great and bo like everything. It's such a such

892
00:48:38,680 --> 00:48:40,600
Speaker 1: a treat to see you, such a treat. You seem

893
00:48:41,560 --> 00:48:43,080
Speaker 1: so good. And the last time I saw you was

894
00:48:43,160 --> 00:48:45,759
Speaker 1: the car ride. And I'm glad things are are good.

895
00:48:45,800 --> 00:48:49,200
Speaker 1: Since I'm glad things are with you. I'm not mad

896
00:48:49,200 --> 00:48:52,879
Speaker 1: at you, and I'm I'm so in awe of all

897
00:48:52,960 --> 00:48:55,120
Speaker 1: you do and I'm sorry that you were distressed. No,

898
00:48:55,640 --> 00:48:57,680
Speaker 1: you came in. Thank you, UM, I love thank you

899
00:48:57,719 --> 00:49:01,600
Speaker 1: for saying that. UM, I love you very much for

900
00:49:01,719 --> 00:49:03,719
Speaker 1: saying it's an old catch phrase, thank you, thank you

901
00:49:03,760 --> 00:49:09,239
Speaker 1: for saying about that. I do remember, Cat. I love

902
00:49:09,280 --> 00:49:10,759
Speaker 1: you so much. I'm so happy to see you. I'm

903
00:49:10,760 --> 00:49:13,279
Speaker 1: so happy that British was such a good trip, um.

904
00:49:13,760 --> 00:49:16,200
Speaker 1: And all the success that you've you've been experiencing lately

905
00:49:16,400 --> 00:49:20,600
Speaker 1: so deserved, and I'm so thrilled. UM. Not mad at you, Cat.

906
00:49:21,239 --> 00:49:23,040
Speaker 1: I'm sorry if there was a little bit of aggression today,

907
00:49:23,080 --> 00:49:25,400
Speaker 1: But that's that is our that is your that is

908
00:49:25,520 --> 00:49:28,640
Speaker 1: your tenor with all three of us, and then that

909
00:49:28,680 --> 00:49:30,200
Speaker 1: it is beautiful because you know what, at the end

910
00:49:30,200 --> 00:49:32,040
Speaker 1: of the day, all three of us love you. And

911
00:49:32,320 --> 00:49:35,320
Speaker 1: I'm not mad at you, but I'm always willing to

912
00:49:35,760 --> 00:49:37,800
Speaker 1: exchange candor with you, even if it means that some

913
00:49:38,200 --> 00:49:43,560
Speaker 1: barbs are are barbed. Um, Matt, I feel like this

914
00:49:43,680 --> 00:49:45,239
Speaker 1: is the same thing where that Katherine was saying about Pat.

915
00:49:45,239 --> 00:49:46,440
Speaker 1: I feel like I haven't seen you in so long

916
00:49:46,480 --> 00:49:50,239
Speaker 1: we will we literally have not. I I miss you

917
00:49:50,360 --> 00:49:54,319
Speaker 1: every day. I love you so much, and I broke

918
00:49:54,360 --> 00:49:55,560
Speaker 1: my heart that I wasn't able to come down and

919
00:49:55,640 --> 00:50:00,480
Speaker 1: think so Honey in New York last week stepped in,

920
00:50:00,600 --> 00:50:07,160
Speaker 1: thank you so much, and you have so much. I

921
00:50:07,239 --> 00:50:09,120
Speaker 1: love you so much. I'm not mad at you, but

922
00:50:09,200 --> 00:50:10,920
Speaker 1: are you at me? You couldn't you go? Now it's

923
00:50:10,920 --> 00:50:14,160
Speaker 1: my turn to go, not mad at you at all,

924
00:50:14,320 --> 00:50:17,080
Speaker 1: only overjoyed to see you. I'm happy that you had

925
00:50:17,480 --> 00:50:20,080
Speaker 1: um a good, nice piece in the show last year.

926
00:50:20,800 --> 00:50:22,880
Speaker 1: And um, I have a lot to tell you about

927
00:50:23,080 --> 00:50:25,719
Speaker 1: l about l Well. I was gonna say, also, yes, sorry.

928
00:50:25,800 --> 00:50:27,799
Speaker 1: My last thing is you look great. You. I feel

929
00:50:27,800 --> 00:50:29,680
Speaker 1: a difference. I feel a change. There's definitely a change.

930
00:50:29,960 --> 00:50:31,640
Speaker 1: And it's almost like there's such a change where I

931
00:50:31,640 --> 00:50:34,880
Speaker 1: couldn't possibly be mad. And even if I was, and

932
00:50:34,880 --> 00:50:37,520
Speaker 1: I'll say this like my spirits were truly lifted. This morning,

933
00:50:37,560 --> 00:50:39,719
Speaker 1: and I am only on two hours of sleep I

934
00:50:39,760 --> 00:50:42,920
Speaker 1: can believe. So it's crazy. Catherine literally not mad at

935
00:50:42,920 --> 00:50:45,799
Speaker 1: you at all, only overjoyed to see you and gotta

936
00:50:45,880 --> 00:50:50,320
Speaker 1: say like, like we will have to carve out some

937
00:50:50,440 --> 00:50:52,840
Speaker 1: time maybe for one on one time for us, because

938
00:50:52,840 --> 00:50:56,040
Speaker 1: I sometimes feel that that has the monopoly. What about

939
00:50:56,040 --> 00:50:59,960
Speaker 1: odd Fox? I would love I would love Odd Fox,

940
00:51:00,239 --> 00:51:02,000
Speaker 1: but we just need to go at one time because

941
00:51:02,080 --> 00:51:05,360
Speaker 1: often no, because often times I'll see like it'll be

942
00:51:05,480 --> 00:51:07,480
Speaker 1: crazy because and this is not jealousy, this is just

943
00:51:07,600 --> 00:51:10,359
Speaker 1: a foam a moment where literally it feels like Cat

944
00:51:10,440 --> 00:51:12,759
Speaker 1: and Pat always are together and Bow and Young do

945
00:51:12,840 --> 00:51:15,000
Speaker 1: to the nature of his schedule, cannot always be available

946
00:51:15,080 --> 00:51:18,399
Speaker 1: to me. And sometimes I'm like, I feel I look

947
00:51:18,440 --> 00:51:20,520
Speaker 1: at you guys whatever this well, the thing is you

948
00:51:20,600 --> 00:51:25,280
Speaker 1: also have friends at your Yeah, I just got okay,

949
00:51:25,320 --> 00:51:27,360
Speaker 1: so and then just to go around the room. So Catherine,

950
00:51:27,360 --> 00:51:31,239
Speaker 1: absolutely not mad, Pat not mad, not mad at all,

951
00:51:31,520 --> 00:51:33,760
Speaker 1: Always a joy to see you. Always make me laugh,

952
00:51:33,960 --> 00:51:36,440
Speaker 1: and I love this, this moment of all four of

953
00:51:36,520 --> 00:51:39,759
Speaker 1: us being together. I think that if I was mad,

954
00:51:40,120 --> 00:51:41,680
Speaker 1: it would be like that you had to go to

955
00:51:41,719 --> 00:51:43,279
Speaker 1: the bathroom that other time. But it's only because I

956
00:51:43,320 --> 00:51:46,319
Speaker 1: wanted you in the room the whole time. Okay, I'm

957
00:51:46,320 --> 00:51:47,800
Speaker 1: a little bit mad that while I'm talking to you,

958
00:51:47,920 --> 00:51:50,080
Speaker 1: you decided to do a duck face while Hopper I

959
00:51:50,120 --> 00:51:54,520
Speaker 1: takes a picture. I wonder, I wonder if you heard

960
00:51:54,560 --> 00:51:59,719
Speaker 1: the last So I guess now it's Pat's turns' going

961
00:51:59,800 --> 00:52:02,040
Speaker 1: to my toolbag and take out duct face every time

962
00:52:02,080 --> 00:52:06,920
Speaker 1: there's a camera. And that's okay. If we haven't we

963
00:52:07,000 --> 00:52:08,520
Speaker 1: invented that. We all you have to use the same

964
00:52:08,560 --> 00:52:16,480
Speaker 1: old wheel. Okay, find your groin. I feel something You're special.

965
00:52:16,600 --> 00:52:22,040
Speaker 1: Find it works. I'm finding my grain. And then do

966
00:52:22,120 --> 00:52:25,880
Speaker 1: you feel something emanated out? You feel something like energy

967
00:52:25,960 --> 00:52:28,440
Speaker 1: emanating out from your groin. My daughter's name will be

968
00:52:28,520 --> 00:52:35,640
Speaker 1: my groin. I don't feel my son. My son named

969
00:52:35,719 --> 00:52:40,640
Speaker 1: Chris and Mike and Chris and Mike. I want to

970
00:52:40,719 --> 00:52:42,440
Speaker 1: be gay. I want to be straight. Famously, it's a

971
00:52:42,440 --> 00:52:46,479
Speaker 1: real culture number sixteen. All Chris is our gay straight Pat.

972
00:52:47,120 --> 00:52:51,320
Speaker 1: I'm going okay, Catherine, Yeah, I'm not mad at you

973
00:52:52,120 --> 00:52:56,200
Speaker 1: at all, but no, it's no. But I miss I know,

974
00:52:56,560 --> 00:52:57,719
Speaker 1: I don't know why we were in this place. We

975
00:52:57,880 --> 00:52:59,880
Speaker 1: keep hanging up, but we keep missing. I would like

976
00:53:00,400 --> 00:53:02,000
Speaker 1: when we were at club coming I was, I was

977
00:53:02,080 --> 00:53:08,120
Speaker 1: with you and no, um no, I just I think

978
00:53:08,160 --> 00:53:12,440
Speaker 1: it's like we're getting Um not mad at you. I

979
00:53:12,520 --> 00:53:14,320
Speaker 1: think this whole thing has been so special. I know.

980
00:53:14,760 --> 00:53:16,960
Speaker 1: I think we have this extra level of safety from

981
00:53:17,000 --> 00:53:19,719
Speaker 1: our special and it's going to become an from Lady

982
00:53:20,120 --> 00:53:26,759
Speaker 1: Mom's restaurant. Who I just saw it did the show

983
00:53:26,800 --> 00:53:31,880
Speaker 1: in l A. She went last. She was a closing number. Okay,

984
00:53:31,960 --> 00:53:34,080
Speaker 1: here's the thing. Every single I don't think so, honey,

985
00:53:34,120 --> 00:53:36,200
Speaker 1: I forget because you know this, we have to present

986
00:53:36,239 --> 00:53:38,040
Speaker 1: for every single one and then it's like a total

987
00:53:38,200 --> 00:53:40,399
Speaker 1: until I have to like put so much energy into

988
00:53:40,440 --> 00:53:42,440
Speaker 1: listening to every single one so that I forget them.

989
00:53:42,880 --> 00:53:45,960
Speaker 1: But um, she she I remember hers, she literally did.

990
00:53:46,000 --> 00:53:47,400
Speaker 1: I don't think so, honey. The fact that I'm the

991
00:53:47,440 --> 00:53:52,320
Speaker 1: closer of this event. Um and Uncle b s J

992
00:53:52,480 --> 00:53:56,520
Speaker 1: was there too, anyway, Okay, now go back, and I'm

993
00:53:56,560 --> 00:53:58,080
Speaker 1: not mad at you, and I have to say this

994
00:53:58,280 --> 00:53:59,960
Speaker 1: is the both of you. I have a new foundress

995
00:54:00,040 --> 00:54:01,600
Speaker 1: fact for what you guys do. I don't think the

996
00:54:01,680 --> 00:54:03,120
Speaker 1: only live because when I was sitting I was like

997
00:54:03,200 --> 00:54:04,560
Speaker 1: there were so many points where I was like, oh

998
00:54:04,600 --> 00:54:07,080
Speaker 1: my God, like I can't believe I'm still on stage.

999
00:54:07,120 --> 00:54:09,640
Speaker 1: I'm so hard. I'm so tired. Sometimes Matt would say

1000
00:54:09,680 --> 00:54:11,240
Speaker 1: things and I would just look at him and not respond,

1001
00:54:11,480 --> 00:54:14,239
Speaker 1: like I can't do this one. I'm sorry, like and

1002
00:54:14,320 --> 00:54:15,800
Speaker 1: I would just like say another thing, and I was like,

1003
00:54:16,160 --> 00:54:19,439
Speaker 1: but it's so hard, that's sorry. I'm on all the time.

1004
00:54:19,680 --> 00:54:20,880
Speaker 1: It was I got and then I got off and

1005
00:54:20,920 --> 00:54:22,279
Speaker 1: I was so tired, and I was like, I can't

1006
00:54:22,320 --> 00:54:25,640
Speaker 1: believe they do this regularly. It's so difficult. Um, but

1007
00:54:25,880 --> 00:54:28,359
Speaker 1: I'm not mad, not at all. I do enjoy your

1008
00:54:28,440 --> 00:54:33,640
Speaker 1: kind of tip for tatt mouse spander, Tom and Jerry Beach.

1009
00:54:34,239 --> 00:54:36,000
Speaker 1: I don't know who's the cat and who's the mouse,

1010
00:54:36,320 --> 00:54:40,520
Speaker 1: but um, but yes, definitely there was a little bar

1011
00:54:40,640 --> 00:54:42,479
Speaker 1: when you just let me finish, because I definitely feel

1012
00:54:42,480 --> 00:54:44,919
Speaker 1: like there's a narrative that gets constructed that I talked

1013
00:54:44,920 --> 00:54:46,600
Speaker 1: too much. And I was like, okay, you're definitely kind

1014
00:54:46,600 --> 00:54:51,279
Speaker 1: of adding a brick to that house. But it's a

1015
00:54:51,360 --> 00:54:55,320
Speaker 1: note that I need and I know what I thought today,

1016
00:54:55,680 --> 00:54:59,720
Speaker 1: but so connected to you, and I felt like scorpio sisters,

1017
00:55:00,800 --> 00:55:05,080
Speaker 1: we have similar diseases, were bonded through that our struggles.

1018
00:55:05,160 --> 00:55:08,680
Speaker 1: I started different, but similar are different strains of disease.

1019
00:55:12,320 --> 00:55:16,160
Speaker 1: I can have my kids to hear this up. None Chris,

1020
00:55:16,320 --> 00:55:19,120
Speaker 1: who is going to live on for two hours and

1021
00:55:19,600 --> 00:55:23,320
Speaker 1: four doors, just jerking themselves off on a table. Addicted

1022
00:55:24,320 --> 00:55:28,279
Speaker 1: Matt Roger could never be mad in the mill. I

1023
00:55:28,440 --> 00:55:30,360
Speaker 1: was so thankful when you asked me to do I

1024
00:55:30,400 --> 00:55:32,000
Speaker 1: don't think so. Did we have such a fun time,

1025
00:55:32,200 --> 00:55:34,440
Speaker 1: such a fun time. It was so fun special and

1026
00:55:34,520 --> 00:55:37,000
Speaker 1: talk about giving an opportunity because I got new fans

1027
00:55:37,080 --> 00:55:39,960
Speaker 1: at night, Yes, absolutely, and their friends. What's the different?

1028
00:55:41,880 --> 00:55:44,800
Speaker 1: It opened the door to kind of smoking a cigarette,

1029
00:55:45,360 --> 00:55:49,320
Speaker 1: no hands, It's one of our talents. I think it

1030
00:55:49,400 --> 00:55:50,920
Speaker 1: opened the door and we decided that we are going

1031
00:55:51,000 --> 00:55:54,560
Speaker 1: to do a show together. Yes, the incredible chat pat

1032
00:55:54,719 --> 00:55:59,759
Speaker 1: the incredible that I know, also saying that one bone

1033
00:56:00,239 --> 00:56:02,839
Speaker 1: my Matt and Cat have their one on one. Yeah,

1034
00:56:03,680 --> 00:56:06,759
Speaker 1: and I gonna have one on but then ends. I

1035
00:56:06,840 --> 00:56:19,040
Speaker 1: want to say that when Patent have their show catam Bow,

1036
00:56:19,239 --> 00:56:24,800
Speaker 1: catam Bow and the great show, and that we sometimes

1037
00:56:24,840 --> 00:56:29,239
Speaker 1: collaborate because of the Cabernet chops. Whenever you need me, yes,

1038
00:56:29,760 --> 00:56:33,000
Speaker 1: and He'll be opening for me my little show and

1039
00:56:33,080 --> 00:56:36,000
Speaker 1: I will. I'm always there. I'm sad that you're going

1040
00:56:36,040 --> 00:56:39,680
Speaker 1: to be gone gone in fab and March. Well, aren't

1041
00:56:39,680 --> 00:56:41,759
Speaker 1: you also going to be We're gonna be an We're

1042
00:56:41,760 --> 00:56:43,440
Speaker 1: gonna But then who's going to do the show? Now,

1043
00:56:44,280 --> 00:56:45,400
Speaker 1: I'm mean, sorry, who's going to do the show? And

1044
00:56:45,800 --> 00:56:48,479
Speaker 1: you'll find someone they'll be but your number one? Okay,

1045
00:56:48,600 --> 00:56:51,440
Speaker 1: so the final bit, let's le raise hands. Here's what

1046
00:56:51,440 --> 00:56:53,000
Speaker 1: I think we should do. I think we should each

1047
00:56:53,040 --> 00:56:55,080
Speaker 1: do a fifteen second I don't think so, and that'll

1048
00:56:55,120 --> 00:56:57,880
Speaker 1: be one minute, all right, okay, okay, so okay, so,

1049
00:56:58,200 --> 00:57:00,799
Speaker 1: um god, I have one one. I don't have one.

1050
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Speaker 1: I don't have one. But here we go. Um, I'll start,

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Speaker 1: and then Pat goes, and then Katherine will go and

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Speaker 1: then close. Okay, this is Matt's I don't think so, honey,

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Speaker 1: times It's okay, I don't think so, honey. Welcome to Marrowin.

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Speaker 1: What the fun is it? Seriously? Trailer is so unclear,

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Speaker 1: Steve Carrell, It's maybe not always just a good idea

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Speaker 1: to do a drama just because you get a scrimp

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Speaker 1: that is a drama, is it? Barbies? I have no

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Speaker 1: fucking idea. What's happening? Literally, Janemo, n I'm so happy

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Speaker 1: for your Grammy nomination. I don't think I wanted to

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Speaker 1: live in seconds. I don't think so honey, hybrow culture,

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Speaker 1: it's pretentious. I'm so sick of people trying to make

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Speaker 1: themselves better than other people by like assigning more value

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Speaker 1: to but they like them when other people like. I

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Speaker 1: think that everything is a construct, especially taste, and I

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Speaker 1: think that there's no value in any taste. I don't

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Speaker 1: think so honey. Meeting a stupid bitch ordering food and

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Speaker 1: I have to keep myself awake to receive my food.

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Speaker 1: You drunk, horror? Why do you need Indian food at

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Speaker 1: two am? You dumb? A salute? I don't think, so, honey.

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Speaker 1: Mean buying a pack of cigarettes last week, finally smoking,

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Speaker 1: finishing it. But also I've bumped it to a lot

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Speaker 1: of people, and this is the last one I will

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Speaker 1: ever smoke. I will never buy another package. Segrets ever

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Speaker 1: again and point in my body and truly I have

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Speaker 1: one body and it is the one body I have

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Speaker 1: to live in this life. Wow, you guys, we maybe

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Speaker 1: we'll do more if you want to. Fine. This has

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Speaker 1: been a Forever Dog production executive produced by Brett Boham,

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