WEBVTT - 4) Lessons From a Sex Spy

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<v Speaker 2>Warning, the following contains graphic descriptions of violence and sexual

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<v Speaker 2>assault that may be too intense or triggering to some listeners.

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<v Speaker 2>Discretion is advised.

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<v Speaker 3>Three Alia Rosa is demonstrating one of the tactics she

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<v Speaker 3>learned during her espionage training. The idea is that through

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<v Speaker 3>certain breathing exercises, is she can deepen the residence and

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<v Speaker 3>power of her voice.

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<v Speaker 4>I know that sometimes you feel lonely.

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<v Speaker 5>I know this.

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<v Speaker 4>Sometimes you feel betrayed. I know this. Sometimes you feel.

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<v Speaker 3>Sad and speak to the deeper part of her target's

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<v Speaker 3>subconscious mind.

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<v Speaker 4>And it's okay because I feel the same. And I

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<v Speaker 4>want to tell you that you're not by yourself in

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<v Speaker 4>this world. I feel you. I'm very very proud of you,

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<v Speaker 4>and you're so beautiful.

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<v Speaker 3>But there is a price to pay for this.

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<v Speaker 4>You have a beautiful soul and beautiful spirit.

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<v Speaker 3>Because after a certain point.

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<v Speaker 4>Please always remember that, no matter what, promise me that

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<v Speaker 4>you will never give up.

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<v Speaker 3>You get so good faking your emotions.

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<v Speaker 4>Because I believe in you. I know you can do it.

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<v Speaker 3>You lose touch with your real feelings.

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<v Speaker 4>I love you.

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<v Speaker 6>To kill you, I'm really sorry I had to.

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<v Speaker 3>Do it that. I go on my.

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<v Speaker 6>Juts away funds, my god, I go to to have you.

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<v Speaker 6>I had to kill you.

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<v Speaker 5>Uses So what.

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<v Speaker 3>Episode four, chapter ten, Seduce Yourself.

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<v Speaker 4>At the first day, the female teachers said to us,

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<v Speaker 4>you are very privileged to be here because those knowledges

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<v Speaker 4>which you will learn here in these roles will change

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<v Speaker 4>your life because you will become almost like a superhero

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<v Speaker 4>super humans. Why because you would know how to make

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<v Speaker 4>anyone to do what you want.

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<v Speaker 3>This is a Lei Rosa talking about her first special

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<v Speaker 3>training class at the Russian Military Academy. She was being

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<v Speaker 3>trained to become a seduction spy or a swallow for

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<v Speaker 3>Russian intelligence training. Though may not be the right word

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<v Speaker 3>for it, violated, manipulated and traumatized might be more acts.

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<v Speaker 3>Her introduction to the Russian world of sexpionage came a

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<v Speaker 3>day earlier, when, after her horrifying experience with the main

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<v Speaker 3>colonel at the academy, she was called into the office

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<v Speaker 3>of a lower ranking officer, a lieutenant colonel for another

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<v Speaker 3>one on one.

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<v Speaker 5>So I walked.

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<v Speaker 4>Into her room and she was sitting at the huge

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<v Speaker 4>wooden table with the big on a big like you know,

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<v Speaker 4>like Soviet Union style cheer, like her throne, like she

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<v Speaker 4>was like the queen. And in fact, she was really

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<v Speaker 4>the queen of the academy because everybody respected her. She

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<v Speaker 4>had really big assignments in the past. And you know,

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<v Speaker 4>she was a corneal. I mean, like that's a high

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<v Speaker 4>rank for a woman. And she was about fifty each

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<v Speaker 4>She looked just perfect in her uniform. Everything was so

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<v Speaker 4>clean and nice, and her haircut was just so perfect.

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<v Speaker 4>I felt so shy and so stupid and so small

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<v Speaker 4>in front of her. And she told me, why are

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<v Speaker 4>you standing there like a fool? Come and see it.

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<v Speaker 4>So I followed her order, I said, and she said,

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<v Speaker 4>where is Thank you, ma'am. I was like, I'm so sorry,

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<v Speaker 4>thank you, ma'am. Okay, So do you know why are

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<v Speaker 4>you here? I said, well, I am happy to serve

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<v Speaker 4>my country. And she said that I am the lucky

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<v Speaker 4>one because I've been chosen. I will be studying additional.

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<v Speaker 3>Aliyah was then briefed on the special program she'd be

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<v Speaker 3>placed in where she'd be trained in the art of

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<v Speaker 3>seduction along with four other female recruits. She was then

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<v Speaker 3>sternly ordered not to share a word about these classes

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<v Speaker 3>or techniques with anyone else at the academy or in

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<v Speaker 3>the outside world.

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<v Speaker 4>She asked me straight when it was the last time

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<v Speaker 4>you had sex? And she asked me so directly, so

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<v Speaker 4>I just I think, like that moment, I felt like

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<v Speaker 4>my cheeks were blushing so much that she noticed that.

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<v Speaker 3>Leah hesitated trying to decide whether to tell the female

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<v Speaker 3>colonel that the last time was when she'd been assaulted

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<v Speaker 3>earlier that day.

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<v Speaker 4>I wanted to tell her that because I felt that

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<v Speaker 4>she's so powerful and she just knows what to do.

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<v Speaker 4>But then inside of me, something told me I should

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<v Speaker 4>not tell her, they think, because it might be bad

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<v Speaker 4>for me, because it's not safe. My father always taught

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<v Speaker 4>me never share with anyone anything. You always have to

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<v Speaker 4>have your secret. And I didn't tell her anything. I

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<v Speaker 4>was just blushing, and she asked me, are you fucking virgin?

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<v Speaker 4>And I just said no, I'm not. Okay, Well, I

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<v Speaker 4>guess you don't know anything about sexy either.

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<v Speaker 5>That likes so much work to do.

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<v Speaker 3>The interview, already unusual, became even more uncomfortable at this point.

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<v Speaker 4>Okay, so do you know how to receive an organism?

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<v Speaker 4>And I said, well, I think, I think I do.

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<v Speaker 4>I guess And then she said, okay, I got it right.

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<v Speaker 4>Go to your dorm this evening and there is a

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<v Speaker 4>task for you. You have to masturbate in order to

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<v Speaker 4>please yourself. And then tomorrow I am going to ask

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<v Speaker 4>you in front of your classmates and you will you

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<v Speaker 4>will start your education. I was so confused. I was like,

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<v Speaker 4>why would she ask me such a weird thing to do. Besides,

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<v Speaker 4>I didn't really masturbate before because I didn't really study

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<v Speaker 4>my body, and it's according to my culture and my religion,

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<v Speaker 4>it was forbidden.

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<v Speaker 5>And she said okay, go and I left absolutely.

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<v Speaker 3>Confused, overwhelmed on every level. Alia did not do the

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<v Speaker 3>task she was assigned that night. The next morning, at

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<v Speaker 3>shooting class, she saw the mail colonel again.

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<v Speaker 4>He looked at me a few times with these eyes

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<v Speaker 4>like checking on me, and every time he looked at me,

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<v Speaker 4>I had very disgusting feeling inside of me, and I

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<v Speaker 4>was just holding myself together, not to cry, not to scream,

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<v Speaker 4>not to run away. During that shooting class. I noticed

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<v Speaker 4>that Na, who was my future classmate in that special program,

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<v Speaker 4>she was smiling and looking at the Cornal and he

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<v Speaker 4>was kind of like smiling bag. I noticed that there

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<v Speaker 4>is some kind of like connection going on, but I

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<v Speaker 4>didn't know exactly what was that, so I decided to

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<v Speaker 4>just collect more information.

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<v Speaker 3>At four PM, Eliah had her first top secret class.

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<v Speaker 3>It took place in a smaller adjacent building that she

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<v Speaker 3>hadn't been to before. She walked into the classroom, treading

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<v Speaker 3>what faced her and saw four other women sitting there.

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<v Speaker 4>I entered the class, I saw these beautiful, blonde, blue

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<v Speaker 4>eyes girls, and I thought myself, when I'll never make it.

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<v Speaker 4>I felt so ugly and just different and so stupid.

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<v Speaker 4>And all these girls, they were just so gorgeous. They

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<v Speaker 4>all had they note books ready to learn, and everybody

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<v Speaker 4>was so excited.

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<v Speaker 5>All female.

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<v Speaker 4>Cornell came in and we all stand up and we

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<v Speaker 4>said hello Cornel, and then she led us to sit down.

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<v Speaker 4>So the lesson has started.

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<v Speaker 3>At this point, the teacher appealed to their sense of

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<v Speaker 3>patriotism and to their egos, telling them how lucky they

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<v Speaker 3>were to receive this powerful information. And the coveted field

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<v Speaker 3>assignments that would follow.

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<v Speaker 4>She continued, knowledges such as manipulation, influence, seduction, programming of

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<v Speaker 4>someone's brain, you can use as an agent to recruit

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<v Speaker 4>informers from different countries. First of all, you need to

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<v Speaker 4>understand that everybody has the big spots and their goals

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<v Speaker 4>and dreams, so you have to manipulate his dreams and

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<v Speaker 4>his weaknesses in order to get what you want. And

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<v Speaker 4>this is very powerful because you don't just use it

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<v Speaker 4>for seducing someone. You use it for anything and for everyone.

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<v Speaker 4>The first question, the female cornel asked us, how did

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<v Speaker 4>you do your assignment? Did you succeed with your task?

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<v Speaker 4>And she started to ask each of us did you

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<v Speaker 4>do your task your homework and said yes, did you

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<v Speaker 4>have any difficulties? She said, now I do it quite often.

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<v Speaker 4>It's okay, it's normal to me. Then another girl she said, yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>everything is okay. I did it, it's fine. So then

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<v Speaker 4>I had to answer the question and I said, honestly,

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<v Speaker 4>you know, I just couldn't do it because it was

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<v Speaker 4>too loud and I couldn't concentrate, and I just I

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<v Speaker 4>didn't feel like this way, you know. So she said

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<v Speaker 4>in a very strict way, and almost like angry way.

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<v Speaker 5>She said, okay, the meriat to you.

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<v Speaker 3>The female colonel, then lecturally in front of her classmates.

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<v Speaker 4>If you want to do any homework I give you,

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<v Speaker 4>then you can tell goodbye to this academy and to

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<v Speaker 4>this position. You don't understand how privileged you are to

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<v Speaker 4>have this job. You don't understand how privileged you to

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<v Speaker 4>be here in this room and getting this secret knowledge

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<v Speaker 4>is nobody has. You have to be so honored that

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<v Speaker 4>you are here right this moment and you didn't do

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<v Speaker 4>such a simple task. How are you supposed to seduce

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<v Speaker 4>any criminals if you don't even know how to seduce yourself?

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<v Speaker 4>And I was like, that's interesting, kind of like sentence,

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<v Speaker 4>that's interesting thing. So how are supposed to seduce myself?

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<v Speaker 4>She explained to us. You need to know how to

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<v Speaker 4>experience an orgasm in order to have organism with any

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<v Speaker 4>man you sleep with, so they feel that you really come,

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<v Speaker 4>you're not pretending. How can you do it if you

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<v Speaker 4>never experience orgasm yourself?

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<v Speaker 3>As Aleah spoke, I wondered at first why a Russian

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<v Speaker 3>military colonel is talking like an American self improvement teacher.

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<v Speaker 3>Then I realized she wasn't She was talking like a

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<v Speaker 3>cult leader. And sure, maybe the idea was that in

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<v Speaker 3>order to connect with someone else, we must first make

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<v Speaker 3>that connection with ourselves. But behind these lectures and assignments

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<v Speaker 3>was a far more sinister motive. We are conditioning you,

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<v Speaker 3>step by step to surrender your body and your pleasure

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<v Speaker 3>to the state, to turn you from a human being

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<v Speaker 3>with natural desires for love and sex into an emotionally

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<v Speaker 3>void soldier for whom love, sex and pleasure are weapons

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<v Speaker 3>to protect national security.

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<v Speaker 4>Then she gave us the task to find the sex

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<v Speaker 4>partner in academy, so we should practice our skills on someone.

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<v Speaker 4>I was really shocked and I was really surprised. The

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<v Speaker 4>first day was difficult, and I was super tired. I

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<v Speaker 4>just wanted to go to my dorm and just lay

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<v Speaker 4>down and sleep. I was exhausted.

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<v Speaker 3>As Aleah walked to the female side of the dorm

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<v Speaker 3>and approached her room, she heard men talking the hallway outside,

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<v Speaker 3>which was out of the ordinary. They were senior students

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<v Speaker 3>and seemed to know that some of the female students

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<v Speaker 3>had been asked to find sexual partners. One of these

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<v Speaker 3>men began talking to Aliah as she walked into her room.

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<v Speaker 4>He came closer to me and he's like, oh, you're

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<v Speaker 4>the new one, and he said yes, and.

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<v Speaker 5>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 4>He just fucked me, and I just couldn't do anything.

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<v Speaker 4>Then he left and I just was laying there as

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<v Speaker 4>an idiot.

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<v Speaker 5>He basically he came and he just used my buddy.

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<v Speaker 5>And that said.

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<v Speaker 4>And I said myself, like I cannot handle this, and

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<v Speaker 4>every day I cannot allow everyone in my body any

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<v Speaker 4>moment they want. And I was super angry at myself

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<v Speaker 4>and just lost, and just I felt so hopeless because

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<v Speaker 4>I couldn't do anything, and I didn't know how to

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<v Speaker 4>stand for myself. I was angry for myself that I

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<v Speaker 4>couldn't say no, and I couldn't reject anyone. I couldn't

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<v Speaker 4>do anything. I just I was just used. I was

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<v Speaker 4>so confused from the beginning of the education and that

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<v Speaker 4>event which happened with Coronell. So I just wanted only

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<v Speaker 4>one thing. I wanted to be strong enough so not

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<v Speaker 4>like I could reject, but I could protect myself. I

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<v Speaker 4>just wanted protection, that's all. And I didn't want for

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<v Speaker 4>sure give my body to anyone whoever wanted it. And

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<v Speaker 4>that night I decided that to find the way out

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<v Speaker 4>of this circle of sexual abuse, but I didn't know.

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<v Speaker 3>How Chapter eleven Killing Tools. After her experiences, Aliah began

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<v Speaker 3>not just to be a student at the academy, but

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<v Speaker 3>an observer, silently trying to figure out how the system worked,

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<v Speaker 3>who was important at the academy, and how she could

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<v Speaker 3>keep herself safe. Meanwhile, the classes continued. After a week

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<v Speaker 3>or so of lessons on human psychology, the instructor introduced

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<v Speaker 3>a new female teacher, a major, who then took over

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<v Speaker 3>a portion of the class going forward.

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<v Speaker 5>I looked at her and she was so beautiful.

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<v Speaker 4>I was so shy, and I thought myself, Wow, I

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<v Speaker 4>want to look like her. She was just perfect. She

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<v Speaker 4>was tall, she had beautiful skin and features, and she had,

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<v Speaker 4>you know, this sexonist about her. I remember something was

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<v Speaker 4>inside of her eyes. She looked so powerful and beautiful,

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<v Speaker 4>but her eyes were full of this pain or loneliness,

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<v Speaker 4>and I felt like I liked her.

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<v Speaker 3>For her first lesson, the new instructor asked to lee

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<v Speaker 3>at a stand up and come to the front of

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<v Speaker 3>the room.

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<v Speaker 4>She asked me to walk in front of the whole class.

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<v Speaker 4>I walked, and then she stopped me and she asked

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<v Speaker 4>the whole class, Okay, so tell me what mistakes in

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<v Speaker 4>working does she do. My classmates Elena and Natalie and

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<v Speaker 4>other girls, they were telling, Okay, she, you know, she

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<v Speaker 4>walks too shy, she dropped her head down, she doesn't

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<v Speaker 4>look in front of her, and she has this, you know,

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<v Speaker 4>very unstable walk. And I was so embarrassed. So she

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<v Speaker 4>probably saw it in my eyes and she said, that's okay.

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<v Speaker 4>We all start from something. So she was quite nice

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<v Speaker 4>to me in the beginning, and she said, just copy

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<v Speaker 4>me and just do what I do, and just walk

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<v Speaker 4>with me. And she showed us how does she walk,

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<v Speaker 4>so we could copy her and do the same, and

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<v Speaker 4>she walked like a Victoria's Secret model. She explained to us.

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<v Speaker 4>The body has to be fully relaxed, and your hands

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<v Speaker 4>have to be relaxed, and when you walk, you look

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<v Speaker 4>straight in front of you, and you don't drop your

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<v Speaker 4>face down on too much up because your eyes have

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<v Speaker 4>to be on the same direction that your target, so

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<v Speaker 4>you look more or less into the eyes. The next

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<v Speaker 4>day was much more fun, and I just loved it

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<v Speaker 4>because it was all girly stuff and I felt like

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<v Speaker 4>I'm a Cinderella or something.

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<v Speaker 5>Like that.

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<v Speaker 4>That day she brought all kind of makeup, mascaras and

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<v Speaker 4>eyeliners and lipsticks and like so many things. She basically

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<v Speaker 4>taught us how to do the good makeup by applying

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<v Speaker 4>like toner first and then a cream and then the powder.

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<v Speaker 3>The major then tell the students a less and about

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<v Speaker 3>one of the most vulnerable parts of a man, his eyes.

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<v Speaker 4>Men when they look at the face of the woman,

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<v Speaker 4>they look at her eyes and lips. There's two things.

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<v Speaker 4>Eyes is a very important tool to seduce your target.

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<v Speaker 4>When you put eyeliner and you put mascara, you can

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<v Speaker 4>play with your eyes to make it more intriguing and

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<v Speaker 4>sexy look, and that's what your target wants. And I

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<v Speaker 4>remember I was like taking different lipstick and trying on,

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<v Speaker 4>and she explained that red lips associated with the female

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<v Speaker 4>vagina for men, so when men look at female lips,

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<v Speaker 4>the most attractive for a man red lipstick. The next

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<v Speaker 4>technique was important, of like our appearance the wavy dress,

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<v Speaker 4>so we were wearing uniform, but in a civilian world,

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<v Speaker 4>of course, we had to learn how to work clothes

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<v Speaker 4>men like basically and if you would start okay, so

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<v Speaker 4>as less close as possible. This is wrong because men

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<v Speaker 4>they want to have imagination, They want to see some

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<v Speaker 4>small part of body, but they want the woman to

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<v Speaker 4>be covered so they can imagine what her body looks like.

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<v Speaker 4>A basic black pencil skirt and white shirt which is

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<v Speaker 4>like unbuttoned and your target can see you cleavage and

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<v Speaker 4>also like black high hills when it's always a game,

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<v Speaker 4>always intrigue all this maybe yes, maybe no, that's the

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<v Speaker 4>most sexist clothes for any male target.

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<v Speaker 3>There was also another reason for this type of clothing,

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<v Speaker 3>what a magician would call misdirection.

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<v Speaker 4>Should always put accents on your butt and on your

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<v Speaker 4>breast if you will have a very deep neckline. When

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<v Speaker 4>she needs to seduce target and eventually kill the target,

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<v Speaker 4>the focus of the target eyes would be on her breast.

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<v Speaker 4>When he focused on her breast, basically right on her voice.

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<v Speaker 4>And having this conversation on a drink, she can basically

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<v Speaker 4>give his briefcass to another agent or he would walk

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<v Speaker 4>by and put the buck on his suit.

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<v Speaker 3>When it came to make up, Leah was taught an

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<v Speaker 3>additional lesson that less is more.

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<v Speaker 4>Let's makeup as well less lipstick in terms of like

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<v Speaker 4>not too much like lipstick and powder.

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<v Speaker 3>This was for two different reasons. One is that if

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<v Speaker 3>you're seducing a married man, you want to make sure

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<v Speaker 3>he comes home clean without evidence of an affairs clothing.

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<v Speaker 3>The second reason Lee explained is also related to evidence.

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<v Speaker 4>If you need to kill your target, and you need

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<v Speaker 4>to kill your target after sex or like during sex,

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<v Speaker 4>you cannot leave any evidences behind you. So no glitter,

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<v Speaker 4>no even like makeup, no perfume as well. It's important

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<v Speaker 4>because then even like smell can stay on pillows or

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<v Speaker 4>on his short hair as well, like either you were

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<v Speaker 4>a weak pointytail or something. So you don't leave your

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<v Speaker 4>hair next to his body because then they can truck

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<v Speaker 4>you and it's easy. Also, no earrings unless it's like

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<v Speaker 4>not that easy to unlock. Heels have to be very

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<v Speaker 4>comfortable because like heel is a good tool to kill

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<v Speaker 4>as well, Like you can really punch someone with a heel.

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<v Speaker 4>It's like really good for eye my balls. Like nails

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<v Speaker 4>are good if you also know how to use them.

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<v Speaker 4>You can kill with nails, you know, like literally like

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<v Speaker 4>with the could nails if I go like to your

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<v Speaker 4>head like this and then put these two fingers into

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<v Speaker 4>your eyeballs and I just punch like that then straight

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<v Speaker 4>away you will feel pain.

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<v Speaker 5>You will go down.

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<v Speaker 4>Like this, and then it's easy just to put you

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<v Speaker 4>down and I punch you with my knee.

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<v Speaker 3>As Aleah tells me this, I question whether or not

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<v Speaker 3>it was right to do these interviews in my home.

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<v Speaker 3>She goes down to discuss another reason why the right

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<v Speaker 3>clothing was important, also familiar to magicians, concealment.

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<v Speaker 4>If you need to hide some sort of information like USB,

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<v Speaker 4>then you need to think where to put it. So

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<v Speaker 4>for example, when you cut your heel and you put

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<v Speaker 4>it inside in your heel, you can go anywhere. It's

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<v Speaker 4>in your heel, so it's always with you. The hiding

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<v Speaker 4>place the best for female agents would be their own

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<v Speaker 4>vagina to store some important things which you know they

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<v Speaker 4>cannot lose. Sometimes you have to be in the situation

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<v Speaker 4>where they can take all your clothes off and your bags,

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<v Speaker 4>so it's only one place really to hide something.

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<v Speaker 3>After posture, clothing and makeup, Aliyah was taught about another

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<v Speaker 3>important tool voice.

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<v Speaker 4>The tone of your voice, the way you speak with

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<v Speaker 4>your target. It could be also like deep or high

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<v Speaker 4>the tone, so when you start to speak with your target,

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<v Speaker 4>you need to adapt your tone to his tone. And

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<v Speaker 4>if you do the same poses when you speak, and

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<v Speaker 4>the same stress and accent onwards, so it also helps.

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<v Speaker 3>It's like, I'm amazed as I listen to Eliah speak

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<v Speaker 3>how in depth their classes went. At this point, She's

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<v Speaker 3>had weeks of training and hasn't even gotten to the

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<v Speaker 3>first word exchange with a stranger. The only other people

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<v Speaker 3>I've ever heard discussed social dynamics at this level of

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<v Speaker 3>micro manipulation before with a pickup artist I wrote about

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<v Speaker 3>in the book The Game. In fact, the technique she

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<v Speaker 3>just mentioned was actually in the book called mirroring.

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<v Speaker 4>You need to become his mirror in everything and body language,

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<v Speaker 4>in speaking, intonation like voice, tone, everything, eyes, same interests,

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<v Speaker 4>same goals, same ideas. Everything has to be so mutual.

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<v Speaker 4>So then eventually your target developed think like, oh, it

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<v Speaker 4>feels like I know you for many years, so I

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<v Speaker 4>can trust to you and my friend. And when you

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<v Speaker 4>do this, then you can you know, all the focus

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<v Speaker 4>on the trust, and then at the same time, behind

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<v Speaker 4>you can you can do what you want, kill, get information, betray,

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<v Speaker 4>recruit wherever.

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<v Speaker 3>Each day the techniques became deeper and more elaborate, until

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<v Speaker 3>Aliah learned the hypnotics speaking method you heard at the

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<v Speaker 3>beginning of this episode.

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<v Speaker 4>She told me that there is a breathing technique which

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<v Speaker 4>I can use to make my voice sound deeper and

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<v Speaker 4>sound more sexier. And she said, okay, breathe in. I

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<v Speaker 4>breathe in, and she said place your air like down

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<v Speaker 4>there where it's like your bottom of your body. And

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<v Speaker 4>now she said, now feel your place, feel your vagina,

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<v Speaker 4>feel your sexuality, and now you exhale.

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<v Speaker 3>The instructions continued.

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<v Speaker 5>She asked me, now you talk.

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<v Speaker 4>When I started to speak, I sound just different, so

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<v Speaker 4>deep and sex see and sensitive. And she told me, now,

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<v Speaker 4>remember how your voice sound, So every time you want

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<v Speaker 4>to seduce your target, you have to sound like that.

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<v Speaker 3>As the lessons continued, they became more and more extreme,

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<v Speaker 3>until one day.

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<v Speaker 4>I walked into the class and I took my seat

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<v Speaker 4>as always, and every table we had dilda, we had

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<v Speaker 4>lubricant and condoms.

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<v Speaker 5>I was really shocked.

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<v Speaker 4>Then our female teachers said, today we have a special

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<v Speaker 4>lesson and this is very powerful techniques which I will

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<v Speaker 4>just show you if you want to terminate your target,

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<v Speaker 4>it's very important.

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<v Speaker 3>Elia's story continues in episode five, which is available now.

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