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Speaker 2: Warning, the following contains graphic descriptions of violence and sexual
Speaker 2: assault that may be too intense or triggering to some listeners.
Speaker 2: Discretion is advised.
Speaker 3: Three Alia Rosa is demonstrating one of the tactics she
Speaker 3: learned during her espionage training. The idea is that through
Speaker 3: certain breathing exercises, is she can deepen the residence and
Speaker 3: power of her voice.
Speaker 4: I know that sometimes you feel lonely.
Speaker 5: I know this.
Speaker 4: Sometimes you feel betrayed. I know this. Sometimes you feel.
Speaker 3: Sad and speak to the deeper part of her target's
Speaker 3: subconscious mind.
Speaker 4: And it's okay because I feel the same. And I
Speaker 4: want to tell you that you're not by yourself in
Speaker 4: this world. I feel you. I'm very very proud of you,
Speaker 4: and you're so beautiful.
Speaker 3: But there is a price to pay for this.
Speaker 4: You have a beautiful soul and beautiful spirit.
Speaker 3: Because after a certain point.
Speaker 4: Please always remember that, no matter what, promise me that
Speaker 4: you will never give up.
Speaker 3: You get so good faking your emotions.
Speaker 4: Because I believe in you. I know you can do it.
Speaker 3: You lose touch with your real feelings.
Speaker 4: I love you.
Speaker 6: To kill you, I'm really sorry I had to.
Speaker 3: Do it that. I go on my.
Speaker 6: Juts away funds, my god, I go to to have you.
Speaker 6: I had to kill you.
Speaker 5: Uses So what.
Speaker 3: Episode four, chapter ten, Seduce Yourself.
Speaker 4: At the first day, the female teachers said to us,
Speaker 4: you are very privileged to be here because those knowledges
Speaker 4: which you will learn here in these roles will change
Speaker 4: your life because you will become almost like a superhero
Speaker 4: super humans. Why because you would know how to make
Speaker 4: anyone to do what you want.
Speaker 3: This is a Lei Rosa talking about her first special
Speaker 3: training class at the Russian Military Academy. She was being
Speaker 3: trained to become a seduction spy or a swallow for
Speaker 3: Russian intelligence training. Though may not be the right word
Speaker 3: for it, violated, manipulated and traumatized might be more acts.
Speaker 3: Her introduction to the Russian world of sexpionage came a
Speaker 3: day earlier, when, after her horrifying experience with the main
Speaker 3: colonel at the academy, she was called into the office
Speaker 3: of a lower ranking officer, a lieutenant colonel for another
Speaker 3: one on one.
Speaker 5: So I walked.
Speaker 4: Into her room and she was sitting at the huge
Speaker 4: wooden table with the big on a big like you know,
Speaker 4: like Soviet Union style cheer, like her throne, like she
Speaker 4: was like the queen. And in fact, she was really
Speaker 4: the queen of the academy because everybody respected her. She
Speaker 4: had really big assignments in the past. And you know,
Speaker 4: she was a corneal. I mean, like that's a high
Speaker 4: rank for a woman. And she was about fifty each
Speaker 4: She looked just perfect in her uniform. Everything was so
Speaker 4: clean and nice, and her haircut was just so perfect.
Speaker 4: I felt so shy and so stupid and so small
Speaker 4: in front of her. And she told me, why are
Speaker 4: you standing there like a fool? Come and see it.
Speaker 4: So I followed her order, I said, and she said,
Speaker 4: where is Thank you, ma'am. I was like, I'm so sorry,
Speaker 4: thank you, ma'am. Okay, So do you know why are
Speaker 4: you here? I said, well, I am happy to serve
Speaker 4: my country. And she said that I am the lucky
Speaker 4: one because I've been chosen. I will be studying additional.
Speaker 3: Aliyah was then briefed on the special program she'd be
Speaker 3: placed in where she'd be trained in the art of
Speaker 3: seduction along with four other female recruits. She was then
Speaker 3: sternly ordered not to share a word about these classes
Speaker 3: or techniques with anyone else at the academy or in
Speaker 3: the outside world.
Speaker 4: She asked me straight when it was the last time
Speaker 4: you had sex? And she asked me so directly, so
Speaker 4: I just I think, like that moment, I felt like
Speaker 4: my cheeks were blushing so much that she noticed that.
Speaker 3: Leah hesitated trying to decide whether to tell the female
Speaker 3: colonel that the last time was when she'd been assaulted
Speaker 3: earlier that day.
Speaker 4: I wanted to tell her that because I felt that
Speaker 4: she's so powerful and she just knows what to do.
Speaker 4: But then inside of me, something told me I should
Speaker 4: not tell her, they think, because it might be bad
Speaker 4: for me, because it's not safe. My father always taught
Speaker 4: me never share with anyone anything. You always have to
Speaker 4: have your secret. And I didn't tell her anything. I
Speaker 4: was just blushing, and she asked me, are you fucking virgin?
Speaker 4: And I just said no, I'm not. Okay, Well, I
Speaker 4: guess you don't know anything about sexy either.
Speaker 5: That likes so much work to do.
Speaker 3: The interview, already unusual, became even more uncomfortable at this point.
Speaker 4: Okay, so do you know how to receive an organism?
Speaker 4: And I said, well, I think, I think I do.
Speaker 4: I guess And then she said, okay, I got it right.
Speaker 4: Go to your dorm this evening and there is a
Speaker 4: task for you. You have to masturbate in order to
Speaker 4: please yourself. And then tomorrow I am going to ask
Speaker 4: you in front of your classmates and you will you
Speaker 4: will start your education. I was so confused. I was like,
Speaker 4: why would she ask me such a weird thing to do. Besides,
Speaker 4: I didn't really masturbate before because I didn't really study
Speaker 4: my body, and it's according to my culture and my religion,
Speaker 4: it was forbidden.
Speaker 5: And she said okay, go and I left absolutely.
Speaker 3: Confused, overwhelmed on every level. Alia did not do the
Speaker 3: task she was assigned that night. The next morning, at
Speaker 3: shooting class, she saw the mail colonel again.
Speaker 4: He looked at me a few times with these eyes
Speaker 4: like checking on me, and every time he looked at me,
Speaker 4: I had very disgusting feeling inside of me, and I
Speaker 4: was just holding myself together, not to cry, not to scream,
Speaker 4: not to run away. During that shooting class. I noticed
Speaker 4: that Na, who was my future classmate in that special program,
Speaker 4: she was smiling and looking at the Cornal and he
Speaker 4: was kind of like smiling bag. I noticed that there
Speaker 4: is some kind of like connection going on, but I
Speaker 4: didn't know exactly what was that, so I decided to
Speaker 4: just collect more information.
Speaker 3: At four PM, Eliah had her first top secret class.
Speaker 3: It took place in a smaller adjacent building that she
Speaker 3: hadn't been to before. She walked into the classroom, treading
Speaker 3: what faced her and saw four other women sitting there.
Speaker 4: I entered the class, I saw these beautiful, blonde, blue
Speaker 4: eyes girls, and I thought myself, when I'll never make it.
Speaker 4: I felt so ugly and just different and so stupid.
Speaker 4: And all these girls, they were just so gorgeous. They
Speaker 4: all had they note books ready to learn, and everybody
Speaker 4: was so excited.
Speaker 5: All female.
Speaker 4: Cornell came in and we all stand up and we
Speaker 4: said hello Cornel, and then she led us to sit down.
Speaker 4: So the lesson has started.
Speaker 3: At this point, the teacher appealed to their sense of
Speaker 3: patriotism and to their egos, telling them how lucky they
Speaker 3: were to receive this powerful information. And the coveted field
Speaker 3: assignments that would follow.
Speaker 4: She continued, knowledges such as manipulation, influence, seduction, programming of
Speaker 4: someone's brain, you can use as an agent to recruit
Speaker 4: informers from different countries. First of all, you need to
Speaker 4: understand that everybody has the big spots and their goals
Speaker 4: and dreams, so you have to manipulate his dreams and
Speaker 4: his weaknesses in order to get what you want. And
Speaker 4: this is very powerful because you don't just use it
Speaker 4: for seducing someone. You use it for anything and for everyone.
Speaker 4: The first question, the female cornel asked us, how did
Speaker 4: you do your assignment? Did you succeed with your task?
Speaker 4: And she started to ask each of us did you
Speaker 4: do your task your homework and said yes, did you
Speaker 4: have any difficulties? She said, now I do it quite often.
Speaker 4: It's okay, it's normal to me. Then another girl she said, yeah,
Speaker 4: everything is okay. I did it, it's fine. So then
Speaker 4: I had to answer the question and I said, honestly,
Speaker 4: you know, I just couldn't do it because it was
Speaker 4: too loud and I couldn't concentrate, and I just I
Speaker 4: didn't feel like this way, you know. So she said
Speaker 4: in a very strict way, and almost like angry way.
Speaker 5: She said, okay, the meriat to you.
Speaker 3: The female colonel, then lecturally in front of her classmates.
Speaker 4: If you want to do any homework I give you,
Speaker 4: then you can tell goodbye to this academy and to
Speaker 4: this position. You don't understand how privileged you are to
Speaker 4: have this job. You don't understand how privileged you to
Speaker 4: be here in this room and getting this secret knowledge
Speaker 4: is nobody has. You have to be so honored that
Speaker 4: you are here right this moment and you didn't do
Speaker 4: such a simple task. How are you supposed to seduce
Speaker 4: any criminals if you don't even know how to seduce yourself?
Speaker 4: And I was like, that's interesting, kind of like sentence,
Speaker 4: that's interesting thing. So how are supposed to seduce myself?
Speaker 4: She explained to us. You need to know how to
Speaker 4: experience an orgasm in order to have organism with any
Speaker 4: man you sleep with, so they feel that you really come,
Speaker 4: you're not pretending. How can you do it if you
Speaker 4: never experience orgasm yourself?
Speaker 3: As Aleah spoke, I wondered at first why a Russian
Speaker 3: military colonel is talking like an American self improvement teacher.
Speaker 3: Then I realized she wasn't She was talking like a
Speaker 3: cult leader. And sure, maybe the idea was that in
Speaker 3: order to connect with someone else, we must first make
Speaker 3: that connection with ourselves. But behind these lectures and assignments
Speaker 3: was a far more sinister motive. We are conditioning you,
Speaker 3: step by step to surrender your body and your pleasure
Speaker 3: to the state, to turn you from a human being
Speaker 3: with natural desires for love and sex into an emotionally
Speaker 3: void soldier for whom love, sex and pleasure are weapons
Speaker 3: to protect national security.
Speaker 4: Then she gave us the task to find the sex
Speaker 4: partner in academy, so we should practice our skills on someone.
Speaker 4: I was really shocked and I was really surprised. The
Speaker 4: first day was difficult, and I was super tired. I
Speaker 4: just wanted to go to my dorm and just lay
Speaker 4: down and sleep. I was exhausted.
Speaker 3: As Aleah walked to the female side of the dorm
Speaker 3: and approached her room, she heard men talking the hallway outside,
Speaker 3: which was out of the ordinary. They were senior students
Speaker 3: and seemed to know that some of the female students
Speaker 3: had been asked to find sexual partners. One of these
Speaker 3: men began talking to Aliah as she walked into her room.
Speaker 4: He came closer to me and he's like, oh, you're
Speaker 4: the new one, and he said yes, and.
Speaker 5: I don't know.
Speaker 4: He just fucked me, and I just couldn't do anything.
Speaker 4: Then he left and I just was laying there as
Speaker 4: an idiot.
Speaker 5: He basically he came and he just used my buddy.
Speaker 5: And that said.
Speaker 4: And I said myself, like I cannot handle this, and
Speaker 4: every day I cannot allow everyone in my body any
Speaker 4: moment they want. And I was super angry at myself
Speaker 4: and just lost, and just I felt so hopeless because
Speaker 4: I couldn't do anything, and I didn't know how to
Speaker 4: stand for myself. I was angry for myself that I
Speaker 4: couldn't say no, and I couldn't reject anyone. I couldn't
Speaker 4: do anything. I just I was just used. I was
Speaker 4: so confused from the beginning of the education and that
Speaker 4: event which happened with Coronell. So I just wanted only
Speaker 4: one thing. I wanted to be strong enough so not
Speaker 4: like I could reject, but I could protect myself. I
Speaker 4: just wanted protection, that's all. And I didn't want for
Speaker 4: sure give my body to anyone whoever wanted it. And
Speaker 4: that night I decided that to find the way out
Speaker 4: of this circle of sexual abuse, but I didn't know.
Speaker 3: How Chapter eleven Killing Tools. After her experiences, Aliah began
Speaker 3: not just to be a student at the academy, but
Speaker 3: an observer, silently trying to figure out how the system worked,
Speaker 3: who was important at the academy, and how she could
Speaker 3: keep herself safe. Meanwhile, the classes continued. After a week
Speaker 3: or so of lessons on human psychology, the instructor introduced
Speaker 3: a new female teacher, a major, who then took over
Speaker 3: a portion of the class going forward.
Speaker 5: I looked at her and she was so beautiful.
Speaker 4: I was so shy, and I thought myself, Wow, I
Speaker 4: want to look like her. She was just perfect. She
Speaker 4: was tall, she had beautiful skin and features, and she had,
Speaker 4: you know, this sexonist about her. I remember something was
Speaker 4: inside of her eyes. She looked so powerful and beautiful,
Speaker 4: but her eyes were full of this pain or loneliness,
Speaker 4: and I felt like I liked her.
Speaker 3: For her first lesson, the new instructor asked to lee
Speaker 3: at a stand up and come to the front of
Speaker 3: the room.
Speaker 4: She asked me to walk in front of the whole class.
Speaker 4: I walked, and then she stopped me and she asked
Speaker 4: the whole class, Okay, so tell me what mistakes in
Speaker 4: working does she do. My classmates Elena and Natalie and
Speaker 4: other girls, they were telling, Okay, she, you know, she
Speaker 4: walks too shy, she dropped her head down, she doesn't
Speaker 4: look in front of her, and she has this, you know,
Speaker 4: very unstable walk. And I was so embarrassed. So she
Speaker 4: probably saw it in my eyes and she said, that's okay.
Speaker 4: We all start from something. So she was quite nice
Speaker 4: to me in the beginning, and she said, just copy
Speaker 4: me and just do what I do, and just walk
Speaker 4: with me. And she showed us how does she walk,
Speaker 4: so we could copy her and do the same, and
Speaker 4: she walked like a Victoria's Secret model. She explained to us.
Speaker 4: The body has to be fully relaxed, and your hands
Speaker 4: have to be relaxed, and when you walk, you look
Speaker 4: straight in front of you, and you don't drop your
Speaker 4: face down on too much up because your eyes have
Speaker 4: to be on the same direction that your target, so
Speaker 4: you look more or less into the eyes. The next
Speaker 4: day was much more fun, and I just loved it
Speaker 4: because it was all girly stuff and I felt like
Speaker 4: I'm a Cinderella or something.
Speaker 5: Like that.
Speaker 4: That day she brought all kind of makeup, mascaras and
Speaker 4: eyeliners and lipsticks and like so many things. She basically
Speaker 4: taught us how to do the good makeup by applying
Speaker 4: like toner first and then a cream and then the powder.
Speaker 3: The major then tell the students a less and about
Speaker 3: one of the most vulnerable parts of a man, his eyes.
Speaker 4: Men when they look at the face of the woman,
Speaker 4: they look at her eyes and lips. There's two things.
Speaker 4: Eyes is a very important tool to seduce your target.
Speaker 4: When you put eyeliner and you put mascara, you can
Speaker 4: play with your eyes to make it more intriguing and
Speaker 4: sexy look, and that's what your target wants. And I
Speaker 4: remember I was like taking different lipstick and trying on,
Speaker 4: and she explained that red lips associated with the female
Speaker 4: vagina for men, so when men look at female lips,
Speaker 4: the most attractive for a man red lipstick. The next
Speaker 4: technique was important, of like our appearance the wavy dress,
Speaker 4: so we were wearing uniform, but in a civilian world,
Speaker 4: of course, we had to learn how to work clothes
Speaker 4: men like basically and if you would start okay, so
Speaker 4: as less close as possible. This is wrong because men
Speaker 4: they want to have imagination, They want to see some
Speaker 4: small part of body, but they want the woman to
Speaker 4: be covered so they can imagine what her body looks like.
Speaker 4: A basic black pencil skirt and white shirt which is
Speaker 4: like unbuttoned and your target can see you cleavage and
Speaker 4: also like black high hills when it's always a game,
Speaker 4: always intrigue all this maybe yes, maybe no, that's the
Speaker 4: most sexist clothes for any male target.
Speaker 3: There was also another reason for this type of clothing,
Speaker 3: what a magician would call misdirection.
Speaker 4: Should always put accents on your butt and on your
Speaker 4: breast if you will have a very deep neckline. When
Speaker 4: she needs to seduce target and eventually kill the target,
Speaker 4: the focus of the target eyes would be on her breast.
Speaker 4: When he focused on her breast, basically right on her voice.
Speaker 4: And having this conversation on a drink, she can basically
Speaker 4: give his briefcass to another agent or he would walk
Speaker 4: by and put the buck on his suit.
Speaker 3: When it came to make up, Leah was taught an
Speaker 3: additional lesson that less is more.
Speaker 4: Let's makeup as well less lipstick in terms of like
Speaker 4: not too much like lipstick and powder.
Speaker 3: This was for two different reasons. One is that if
Speaker 3: you're seducing a married man, you want to make sure
Speaker 3: he comes home clean without evidence of an affairs clothing.
Speaker 3: The second reason Lee explained is also related to evidence.
Speaker 4: If you need to kill your target, and you need
Speaker 4: to kill your target after sex or like during sex,
Speaker 4: you cannot leave any evidences behind you. So no glitter,
Speaker 4: no even like makeup, no perfume as well. It's important
Speaker 4: because then even like smell can stay on pillows or
Speaker 4: on his short hair as well, like either you were
Speaker 4: a weak pointytail or something. So you don't leave your
Speaker 4: hair next to his body because then they can truck
Speaker 4: you and it's easy. Also, no earrings unless it's like
Speaker 4: not that easy to unlock. Heels have to be very
Speaker 4: comfortable because like heel is a good tool to kill
Speaker 4: as well, Like you can really punch someone with a heel.
Speaker 4: It's like really good for eye my balls. Like nails
Speaker 4: are good if you also know how to use them.
Speaker 4: You can kill with nails, you know, like literally like
Speaker 4: with the could nails if I go like to your
Speaker 4: head like this and then put these two fingers into
Speaker 4: your eyeballs and I just punch like that then straight
Speaker 4: away you will feel pain.
Speaker 5: You will go down.
Speaker 4: Like this, and then it's easy just to put you
Speaker 4: down and I punch you with my knee.
Speaker 3: As Aleah tells me this, I question whether or not
Speaker 3: it was right to do these interviews in my home.
Speaker 3: She goes down to discuss another reason why the right
Speaker 3: clothing was important, also familiar to magicians, concealment.
Speaker 4: If you need to hide some sort of information like USB,
Speaker 4: then you need to think where to put it. So
Speaker 4: for example, when you cut your heel and you put
Speaker 4: it inside in your heel, you can go anywhere. It's
Speaker 4: in your heel, so it's always with you. The hiding
Speaker 4: place the best for female agents would be their own
Speaker 4: vagina to store some important things which you know they
Speaker 4: cannot lose. Sometimes you have to be in the situation
Speaker 4: where they can take all your clothes off and your bags,
Speaker 4: so it's only one place really to hide something.
Speaker 3: After posture, clothing and makeup, Aliyah was taught about another
Speaker 3: important tool voice.
Speaker 4: The tone of your voice, the way you speak with
Speaker 4: your target. It could be also like deep or high
Speaker 4: the tone, so when you start to speak with your target,
Speaker 4: you need to adapt your tone to his tone. And
Speaker 4: if you do the same poses when you speak, and
Speaker 4: the same stress and accent onwards, so it also helps.
Speaker 3: It's like, I'm amazed as I listen to Eliah speak
Speaker 3: how in depth their classes went. At this point, She's
Speaker 3: had weeks of training and hasn't even gotten to the
Speaker 3: first word exchange with a stranger. The only other people
Speaker 3: I've ever heard discussed social dynamics at this level of
Speaker 3: micro manipulation before with a pickup artist I wrote about
Speaker 3: in the book The Game. In fact, the technique she
Speaker 3: just mentioned was actually in the book called mirroring.
Speaker 4: You need to become his mirror in everything and body language,
Speaker 4: in speaking, intonation like voice, tone, everything, eyes, same interests,
Speaker 4: same goals, same ideas. Everything has to be so mutual.
Speaker 4: So then eventually your target developed think like, oh, it
Speaker 4: feels like I know you for many years, so I
Speaker 4: can trust to you and my friend. And when you
Speaker 4: do this, then you can you know, all the focus
Speaker 4: on the trust, and then at the same time, behind
Speaker 4: you can you can do what you want, kill, get information, betray,
Speaker 4: recruit wherever.
Speaker 3: Each day the techniques became deeper and more elaborate, until
Speaker 3: Aliah learned the hypnotics speaking method you heard at the
Speaker 3: beginning of this episode.
Speaker 4: She told me that there is a breathing technique which
Speaker 4: I can use to make my voice sound deeper and
Speaker 4: sound more sexier. And she said, okay, breathe in. I
Speaker 4: breathe in, and she said place your air like down
Speaker 4: there where it's like your bottom of your body. And
Speaker 4: now she said, now feel your place, feel your vagina,
Speaker 4: feel your sexuality, and now you exhale.
Speaker 3: The instructions continued.
Speaker 5: She asked me, now you talk.
Speaker 4: When I started to speak, I sound just different, so
Speaker 4: deep and sex see and sensitive. And she told me, now,
Speaker 4: remember how your voice sound, So every time you want
Speaker 4: to seduce your target, you have to sound like that.
Speaker 3: As the lessons continued, they became more and more extreme,
Speaker 3: until one day.
Speaker 4: I walked into the class and I took my seat
Speaker 4: as always, and every table we had dilda, we had
Speaker 4: lubricant and condoms.
Speaker 5: I was really shocked.
Speaker 4: Then our female teachers said, today we have a special
Speaker 4: lesson and this is very powerful techniques which I will
Speaker 4: just show you if you want to terminate your target,
Speaker 4: it's very important.
Speaker 3: Elia's story continues in episode five, which is available now.
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