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Speaker 2: Warning, the following contains graphic descriptions of violence and sexual

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Speaker 2: assault that may be too intense or triggering to some listeners.

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Speaker 2: Discretion is advised.

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Speaker 3: Three Alia Rosa is demonstrating one of the tactics she

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Speaker 3: learned during her espionage training. The idea is that through

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Speaker 3: certain breathing exercises, is she can deepen the residence and

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Speaker 3: power of her voice.

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Speaker 4: I know that sometimes you feel lonely.

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Speaker 5: I know this.

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Speaker 4: Sometimes you feel betrayed. I know this. Sometimes you feel.

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Speaker 3: Sad and speak to the deeper part of her target's

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Speaker 4: And it's okay because I feel the same. And I

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Speaker 4: want to tell you that you're not by yourself in

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Speaker 4: this world. I feel you. I'm very very proud of you,

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Speaker 4: and you're so beautiful.

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Speaker 3: But there is a price to pay for this.

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Speaker 4: You have a beautiful soul and beautiful spirit.

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Speaker 3: Because after a certain point.

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Speaker 4: Please always remember that, no matter what, promise me that

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Speaker 4: you will never give up.

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Speaker 3: You get so good faking your emotions.

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Speaker 4: Because I believe in you. I know you can do it.

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Speaker 3: You lose touch with your real feelings.

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Speaker 4: I love you.

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Speaker 6: To kill you, I'm really sorry I had to.

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Speaker 3: Do it that. I go on my.

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Speaker 6: Juts away funds, my god, I go to to have you.

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Speaker 6: I had to kill you.

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Speaker 5: Uses So what.

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Speaker 3: Episode four, chapter ten, Seduce Yourself.

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Speaker 4: At the first day, the female teachers said to us,

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Speaker 4: you are very privileged to be here because those knowledges

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Speaker 4: which you will learn here in these roles will change

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Speaker 4: your life because you will become almost like a superhero

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Speaker 4: super humans. Why because you would know how to make

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Speaker 4: anyone to do what you want.

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Speaker 3: This is a Lei Rosa talking about her first special

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Speaker 3: training class at the Russian Military Academy. She was being

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Speaker 3: trained to become a seduction spy or a swallow for

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Speaker 3: Russian intelligence training. Though may not be the right word

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Speaker 3: for it, violated, manipulated and traumatized might be more acts.

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Speaker 3: Her introduction to the Russian world of sexpionage came a

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Speaker 3: day earlier, when, after her horrifying experience with the main

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Speaker 3: of a lower ranking officer, a lieutenant colonel for another

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Speaker 5: So I walked.

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Speaker 4: Into her room and she was sitting at the huge

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Speaker 4: She looked just perfect in her uniform. Everything was so

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Speaker 4: I felt so shy and so stupid and so small

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Speaker 4: So I followed her order, I said, and she said,

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Speaker 4: you here? I said, well, I am happy to serve

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Speaker 3: Aliyah was then briefed on the special program she'd be

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Speaker 4: She asked me straight when it was the last time

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Speaker 4: I just I think, like that moment, I felt like

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Speaker 3: Leah hesitated trying to decide whether to tell the female

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Speaker 4: I wanted to tell her that because I felt that

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Speaker 4: But then inside of me, something told me I should

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Speaker 4: And I just said no, I'm not. Okay, Well, I

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Speaker 5: That likes so much work to do.

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Speaker 3: The interview, already unusual, became even more uncomfortable at this point.

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Speaker 4: Okay, so do you know how to receive an organism?

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Speaker 4: And I said, well, I think, I think I do.

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Speaker 4: Go to your dorm this evening and there is a

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Speaker 4: task for you. You have to masturbate in order to

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Speaker 4: why would she ask me such a weird thing to do. Besides,

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Speaker 5: And she said okay, go and I left absolutely.

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Speaker 3: Confused, overwhelmed on every level. Alia did not do the

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Speaker 4: He looked at me a few times with these eyes

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Speaker 3: At four PM, Eliah had her first top secret class.

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Speaker 3: It took place in a smaller adjacent building that she

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Speaker 4: I entered the class, I saw these beautiful, blonde, blue

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Speaker 4: Cornell came in and we all stand up and we

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Speaker 3: At this point, the teacher appealed to their sense of

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Speaker 4: She continued, knowledges such as manipulation, influence, seduction, programming of

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Speaker 4: The first question, the female cornel asked us, how did

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Speaker 4: And she started to ask each of us did you

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Speaker 5: She said, okay, the meriat to you.

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Speaker 3: The female colonel, then lecturally in front of her classmates.

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Speaker 4: And I was like, that's interesting, kind of like sentence,

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Speaker 3: As Aleah spoke, I wondered at first why a Russian

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Speaker 4: He came closer to me and he's like, oh, you're

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Speaker 4: He just fucked me, and I just couldn't do anything.

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Speaker 4: And I said myself, like I cannot handle this, and

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Speaker 3: Each day the techniques became deeper and more elaborate, until

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Speaker 5: She asked me, now you talk.

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