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Speaker 1: Every day clicks up the Breakfast Club, finish for y'all

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Speaker 1: done morning.

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Speaker 2: Everybody is Steve j n V Jess hilarious, Charlamagne the guy.

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Speaker 2: We are the Breakfast Club. We got a special guest

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Speaker 2: in the building. Yes, sir at Gerbo, Welcome and congratulations.

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Speaker 2: Man the number one record a couple of weeks ago, grass.

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Speaker 1: Man, thank you.

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Speaker 3: I'm good.

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Speaker 1: I'm good.

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Speaker 3: I'm glad to be here.

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Speaker 1: I's a field number one record.

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Speaker 4: I feel good. I'm not gonna lie.

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Speaker 1: I feel great.

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Speaker 4: It feel great. I'll just be trying to like stay

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Speaker 4: in the moment real just just keep it like up,

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Speaker 4: you know, like when you where you got those type

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Speaker 4: of moments you just trying to figure out like all right,

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Speaker 4: well I me personally, like I gotta figure out what's

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Speaker 4: the next best thing, Like what do I do next?

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Speaker 3: From that? Like I try to live in a moment

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Speaker 3: and grasp up that energy. But just keep it going.

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Speaker 3: You're not trying to catch another number one.

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Speaker 4: I'm just trying to keep it going.

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Speaker 2: Did you expect that to be the record because it's

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Speaker 2: not your typical of course, Well, it was just you

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Speaker 2: just spitting.

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Speaker 4: Nah, Hell Noah, for sure. I was just literally, I

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Speaker 4: can't say it enough. It was just me just having

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Speaker 4: fun in the studio. I was in New York and

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Speaker 4: was in the studio me south Side Smack and you

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Speaker 4: know south Side Like I really, I'd be having to

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Speaker 4: give a lot of credit to Big Bro because he

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Speaker 4: want the only people that could tell me, like, rap

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Speaker 4: on this, just rap on this and figure it out

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Speaker 4: like just rap And that's what I did and that

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Speaker 4: that should changed my life?

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Speaker 2: Who picked it as a single? Like was it just

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Speaker 2: I'm just gonna release and see what happened?

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Speaker 1: And it just took over.

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Speaker 3: That's what I'm saying.

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Speaker 4: That's why I like, as artists, you gotta like really

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Speaker 4: just bet on yourself for real, for real. Because I

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Speaker 4: was in the in a mold of just trying to

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Speaker 4: do music and see what the streets connected to.

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Speaker 3: I didn't even like that.

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Speaker 4: Song came out and December on my app. I got

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Speaker 4: an app on my own app, like where I just

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Speaker 4: put out music material content. All this is just for

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Speaker 4: the people who really support me. Like you know what

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Speaker 4: I'm saying, My fans, they know about the g app.

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Speaker 4: I put it out on my app on a project

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Speaker 4: that I was just recording all samples too, Like I

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Speaker 4: did a project with all samples and it couldn't even

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Speaker 4: go on Apple Music.

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Speaker 3: It couldn't go on DSPs.

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Speaker 4: You know what I'm saying. Like I put it out

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Speaker 4: on the APP in December, and the label put it

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Speaker 4: out on DSPs in like March April. So it's like

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Speaker 4: you gotta just trash it and just see what the

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Speaker 4: streets fuck with you? App I appreciate it. Has it

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Speaker 4: changed the bag? Has that single changed your bag?

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Speaker 3: Absolutely?

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Speaker 1: Because see I'll be thinking that.

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Speaker 5: You know a lot of people be fronting on like

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Speaker 5: the power of radio and having a big radio record.

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Speaker 1: Speak to that.

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Speaker 4: Man for sure, And you gotta put money in radio though,

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Speaker 4: like you gotta, like you know what I'm saying.

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Speaker 3: What you put in it, come out. We'll go out

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Speaker 3: on the wash, come out on the wrist.

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Speaker 4: Whatever they're saying is you know what I'm saying.

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Speaker 3: So like.

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Speaker 4: I've always been like I knew because I've been independent

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Speaker 4: this whole time. So I know about like analytics, I

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Speaker 4: know about like residuals, I know what, Like one record

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Speaker 4: can really change your life, you know what I'm saying, Like,

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Speaker 4: and I finally caught that record that like that life

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Speaker 4: changing records.

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Speaker 3: So yeah, the bag been.

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Speaker 5: Crazy and the royalties from radio are better than the streaming.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, absolutely for sure. And it's like once you once

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Speaker 4: you get a song that really go radio, it's like

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Speaker 4: it's just like it just changed everything for real.

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Speaker 1: Change the places you actually perform at for sure.

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Speaker 4: Exactly like you could put you could put you put

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Speaker 4: money in radio for sure for what to do what

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Speaker 4: it's supposed to do. But just like even like it's

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Speaker 4: a difference between like putting something in radio for just

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Speaker 4: get on the radio for shit to get like rhythmic

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Speaker 4: play playlists, you know what I'm saying, Like all of that.

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Speaker 4: It's just a big super difference. Like I'll be talking

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Speaker 4: to like Make all the time. It's just like once

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Speaker 4: you get a record, Like I'm not even talking about

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Speaker 4: what legit Like there's certain records that like the format

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Speaker 4: where you know it could go radio, you know what

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Speaker 4: I'm saying, Like I feel like every artist, all you

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Speaker 4: need is like one radio record a year, just one, like.

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Speaker 1: You feel I'm saying, it ain't that easy to get one.

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Speaker 4: It's not easy at all. But like you know, hit Maker,

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Speaker 4: that's my big brother, Like he the god of this

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Speaker 4: ship like you fee what I'm saying, Like he know

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Speaker 4: the whole formula he do it like and that's why

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Speaker 4: he's so rich, like that Nigga richest shit because he

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Speaker 4: on radio every year at least.

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Speaker 1: Point it out right for sure.

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Speaker 4: Wallow Herb, Willow Herb. I was just trying to like

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Speaker 4: tap into like that old hunger, like my old self.

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Speaker 4: And when I be rapping good and shit, like I

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Speaker 4: be reading comments and shit, sometimes my fans be like,

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Speaker 4: oh that ain't they Ain't.

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Speaker 3: You heard what?

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Speaker 4: That's little herd, you know what I'm saying. Like I

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Speaker 4: feel like that was like one of my best errors

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Speaker 4: of rap. Like I always been able to rap. I'm

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Speaker 4: an EMC, so it's like I don't care if I'm

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Speaker 4: not even all the way tapped into like my confidence

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Speaker 4: and all of that shit. I'm always gonna be able

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Speaker 4: to rap good. You feel me, But like once you

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Speaker 4: really focus on straight rap, it's different.

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Speaker 3: That's what I was trying to do.

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Speaker 4: So that's why I went and like name my album

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Speaker 4: of Herb like I was going up like listening to

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Speaker 4: old interviews, listen to old music videos. I mean, watch

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Speaker 4: old music videos, listen to old songs and shit like that,

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Speaker 4: and like I was just trying to find like a

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Speaker 4: higher level of rap for myself, you know what I'm saying.

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Speaker 4: And I say this all the time, like you could

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Speaker 4: really get caught up in what's in front of you,

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Speaker 4: Like always been the type of person like I say

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Speaker 4: this a lot a lot of rooms that I was in,

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Speaker 4: I wasn't really in the rooms, you know what I'm saying,

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Speaker 4: because I'm thinking about like my past. I'm thinking about

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Speaker 4: what I gotta do when I get out the room.

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Speaker 4: Like I'm just saying what's up, Like there's certain conversations

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Speaker 4: that I really couldn't have because my mind is all

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Speaker 4: over the place. You feel me, Like so like in

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Speaker 4: this like era where I am mentally, I was just

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Speaker 3: Like find that old hunger that made me enjoy what.

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Speaker 4: I have now, you know what I'm saying, Like like

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Speaker 4: that's that's why I really named my project Little Herb,

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Speaker 4: because like you were, like on the day to day,

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Speaker 4: I'm thirty years old. I've been rapping since I was

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Speaker 4: like sixteen for real, for real, like you feel me,

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Speaker 4: And I was trying to figure out like damn, like

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Speaker 4: it's like all the steps to that it took me

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Speaker 4: to get here. You feel what I'm saying, Like I

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Speaker 4: forgot a lot. I'm not gonna lie. It's a lot

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Speaker 4: of shit that I did that I forgot.

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Speaker 3: So it's like I.

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Speaker 4: Wanted to make myself remember, so I had to like

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Speaker 4: go back in and like tap in with my old

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Speaker 4: self for real.

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Speaker 5: I heard you say, Little Herb is a full circle

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Speaker 5: moment and it's a return to the fundamentals. But you

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Speaker 5: closing the chapter on the little Herb area, what what

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Speaker 5: is closing that chapter actually look like?

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Speaker 4: Closing that chapter is like for real, just letting go,

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Speaker 4: Like it's a lot of shit that I held on

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Speaker 4: to that I just don't need no more.

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Speaker 3: Like for real, for real, like the.

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Speaker 1: Street therapy talk right there.

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Speaker 4: Just letting go for real real and it is. It

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Speaker 4: is definitely therapy that helped me. It's like a lot

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Speaker 4: of that you hold on to you just like just

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Speaker 4: let it go, Just let it go and just let

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Speaker 4: it find you. You know what I'm saying, Like, no,

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Speaker 4: for real, Like I was one of the people that

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Speaker 4: just like my heart is so big, and I feel

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Speaker 4: like people knew that, Like people knew that, Like they

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Speaker 4: grab me and I'm grabbing them back. You fee what

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Speaker 4: I'm saying, Like I'm holding on to that type of shit.

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Speaker 4: It's like that's just letting that chapter go like.

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Speaker 3: I should.

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Speaker 4: Like and people been saying this to me for years

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Speaker 4: and I've been knowing it, but I never really acted

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Speaker 4: on it. Like I shouldn't focus on nothing but music

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Speaker 4: shouldn't really give a fuck about how somebody else eat

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Speaker 4: that for years. Like let's be closing that chapter, Like

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Speaker 4: I'm gonna tap into this, tell my story and just

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Speaker 4: let go for let go and let God for real

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Speaker 4: for and that go for everything and everybody. And it's

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Speaker 4: a whole other chapter opening for me because everything that

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Speaker 4: got me here, I don't I don't even really have.

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Speaker 3: It no more, for real real, like all my friends dead.

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Speaker 4: I'm finna be a real, one hundred percent independent artist,

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Speaker 4: Like I don't got no label, no production company. I'm

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Speaker 4: one hundred percent a real new person and a new artist.

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Speaker 4: So it's like I just want to just tap into

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Speaker 4: this shit, do what I need to do, and I'm

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Speaker 4: already doing it for real. But just like letting go

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Speaker 4: for real, like I don't. I don't want to have

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Speaker 4: no attachments other than family, No bullshit.

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Speaker 5: How did you balance revisiting like those old traumas with

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Speaker 5: the grown man you are now like you're thirty, so

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Speaker 5: you your a whole new level of life. You don't

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Speaker 5: shift to the face shot that kid, nineteen year old kid?

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Speaker 4: No more? Yeah, no, for sure.

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Speaker 3: My homie, my one of my best friends.

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Speaker 4: He used to say this shit like he only probably

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Speaker 4: like eight months older than me. He like, bro, once

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Speaker 4: you touched thirty, you just gonna start, I think, he said.

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Speaker 4: He used to tell me, I can't wait you turn

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Speaker 4: thirty like he turned thirty. He like, I can't wait

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Speaker 4: till you turn thirty because it's just like it's like

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Speaker 4: a light switch.

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Speaker 3: Like shit, just you know what I'm saying, just tap in.

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Speaker 4: For you and it's for me for real, Like I promise, I'm.

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Speaker 3: Like, I don't.

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Speaker 4: I don't be wanting to sound like cliche or corny

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Speaker 4: and none of this type of shit. But like my

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Speaker 4: girl is like my toughest critic, Like she's one of

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Speaker 4: the people who really just like stay on me, like

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Speaker 4: she tell me a lot of shit that I know

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Speaker 4: and I don't act on you know what I'm saying,

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Speaker 4: which is coming to like my business, niggas around me.

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Speaker 4: You feel what I'm saying, like all of that you

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Speaker 2: Now you talk about Meek Mill changing your life, right, Yeah,

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Speaker 4: Bro. Literally, I've just got done listening to We're Gonna

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Speaker 4: I was just with Meek last night. We just did

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Speaker 4: It's like all right, But that like it's different from

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Speaker 4: Just like thinking about that type of shit. You fee

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Speaker 4: Since I'm taking care of her, my aunties, my whole

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Speaker 1: I hell, love of pressure, a lot of pressure.

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Speaker 2: But how do you I was one question I was

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Speaker 2: gonna say, So, now you're the meat meal for a

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Speaker 2: lot of these younger artists, So what do you show

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Speaker 4: Like for me, it's I just try to like what's

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Speaker 3: Show fel tangible.

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Speaker 4: You just gotta showing Like Like the thing with me

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Speaker 4: Like I just had to have a manpower, like I

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Speaker 3: I'm gonna do it. You fel what I'm saying. And

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Speaker 4: And when I got a certain age like nineteen twenty eight,

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Speaker 4: and you know what I'm saying, tell them that they

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Speaker 4: like but like and I ain't gonna say it's nothing

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Speaker 3: For sure, it's hard, but it's easy at the same time.

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Speaker 4: All you gotta do is wake up and strive to

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Speaker 4: You fee what I'm saying. And when I go look

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Speaker 4: Like they really got something in them. They just don't

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Speaker 4: but it's like it's so much outside of that. All

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Speaker 4: you feel what I'm saying, like, that's that's the thing

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Speaker 4: I let him touch me. I let him, you know.

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Speaker 4: Paul's like, you know what I'm saying. I go see

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Speaker 5: I'm thinking about something now, and you made me think

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Speaker 5: about it when you said you've been rapping since she

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Speaker 5: was nineteen, because I can remember like your first friend,

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Speaker 5: I can remember your first early breakfast club interviews.

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Speaker 4: Right.

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Speaker 5: But then it started getting me thinking about all of

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Speaker 5: these artists we've seen from Chicago that have come through

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Speaker 3: You talk about what's possible.

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Speaker 5: Man, you are proof that's surviving as possible, and Chief

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Speaker 5: Keiths proof that's surviving.

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Speaker 3: Is sure, so so definitely know what I mean.

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Speaker 5: People like Dirk that's locked up, people like Bond that's

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Speaker 3: How does that feel? It feel great?

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Speaker 5: Man?

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Speaker 4: You know, And I'm gonna say this again. I'm gonna

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Speaker 4: but him telling me the other.

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Speaker 4: If a difference, a different feeling to him saying. It's

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Speaker 4: like he's like, man, want you to chosen one. It's

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Speaker 4: God just punish you differently because you can't get away

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Speaker 4: a different path for you. And like surviving in Chicago,

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Speaker 4: Like it's literally like I'd be seeing some of my

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Speaker 4: people where you just like you just like wash your

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Speaker 4: a lot of people never experience life to that capacity

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Speaker 4: you knowe what I'm saying. And it's a lot of

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Speaker 3: It's a difference, like when you survive and you just

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Speaker 4: Like I'm trying to explain that with Like, it's certain

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Speaker 3: Instinct, you will do anything. You will kill your closest friend,

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Speaker 4: Your grandma, and and you gotta understand this, like it's

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Speaker 4: They was raised off of survival. They mother and father

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Speaker 4: Like I try to, like I try to think about

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Speaker 4: especially in life and coming from Chicago, you gotta think

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Speaker 4: a blessing to be for sure, for sure because I've

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Speaker 3: I experienced a lot. I've seen a lot of death, and.

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Speaker 4: I just come from one of the toughest neighborhoods in Chicago,

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Speaker 3: I'm like what. She's like, you got some c?

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00:19:31,040 --> 00:19:35,880
Speaker 4: She asks for crack. I'm like nine years old. I'm

441
00:19:35,880 --> 00:19:37,840
Speaker 4: like nineteen, wait on my mama to come in the house,

442
00:19:37,960 --> 00:19:40,199
Speaker 4: like you got some sea. I'm like what, Yeah, she

443
00:19:40,280 --> 00:19:43,240
Speaker 4: asked me if I had cracked, literally a kid three

444
00:19:43,359 --> 00:19:47,000
Speaker 4: in the morning, I'm outside because that's now you're selling.

445
00:19:46,800 --> 00:19:49,240
Speaker 3: Crack for real, for real, So when did you get some?

446
00:19:54,720 --> 00:19:57,240
Speaker 4: That's the statute of limitations with this ship for real

447
00:20:00,200 --> 00:20:04,800
Speaker 4: crack a statute of limitations for sure. But I always

448
00:20:04,800 --> 00:20:08,160
Speaker 4: been one of them kids. It's like I just wanted

449
00:20:08,160 --> 00:20:10,160
Speaker 4: to get money. I knew how to get money early on,

450
00:20:10,320 --> 00:20:13,040
Speaker 4: you know what I'm saying. And I used to do

451
00:20:13,040 --> 00:20:15,240
Speaker 4: shit to just get fly, like get fresh and shit.

452
00:20:15,320 --> 00:20:19,159
Speaker 4: You know what I'm saying. And I'm blessed that I

453
00:20:19,200 --> 00:20:21,320
Speaker 4: didn't have to do it for long. You feel me

454
00:20:21,359 --> 00:20:23,640
Speaker 4: like I ain't got like I started really making money

455
00:20:23,680 --> 00:20:26,840
Speaker 4: off music at sixteen years old, but I was outside

456
00:20:27,520 --> 00:20:28,359
Speaker 4: two for sure.

457
00:20:28,560 --> 00:20:29,920
Speaker 5: What the first record you made money off?

458
00:20:31,480 --> 00:20:32,359
Speaker 4: What did the Nicky record?

459
00:20:32,400 --> 00:20:32,480
Speaker 1: Right?

460
00:20:32,520 --> 00:20:32,560
Speaker 5: What?

461
00:20:32,680 --> 00:20:33,840
Speaker 4: Chicago? Oh?

462
00:20:34,440 --> 00:20:35,479
Speaker 3: The first record?

463
00:20:35,520 --> 00:20:37,680
Speaker 4: I actually like when we started making money, like after

464
00:20:37,760 --> 00:20:39,560
Speaker 4: Kills Shit came out? Yeah, killed Shit.

465
00:20:40,000 --> 00:20:41,320
Speaker 3: Yeah.

466
00:20:41,720 --> 00:20:44,280
Speaker 2: I was gonna ask what you know? He mentioned Sosa,

467
00:20:44,320 --> 00:20:46,480
Speaker 2: He mentioned Vaughan, mentioned Dirt.

468
00:20:46,480 --> 00:20:47,200
Speaker 1: Have you spoke to dirt.

469
00:20:47,240 --> 00:20:50,320
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, I supposed to. I supposed to Smirk saw

470
00:20:50,359 --> 00:20:53,200
Speaker 4: the dirt probably like a month, month or two ago.

471
00:20:53,320 --> 00:20:53,800
Speaker 1: How is he doing?

472
00:20:53,880 --> 00:20:56,760
Speaker 4: Yeah, he doing good for sure, like mentally, And that's

473
00:20:56,760 --> 00:21:01,520
Speaker 4: the thing about Smirk. If you know him, you know

474
00:21:01,560 --> 00:21:07,240
Speaker 4: he good like that. Nigga's really a real discipline mentally

475
00:21:07,320 --> 00:21:10,560
Speaker 4: strong nigga for real, for real, like this shit just

476
00:21:10,600 --> 00:21:12,679
Speaker 4: like he just like this is just a part of

477
00:21:12,680 --> 00:21:15,360
Speaker 4: his journey. Like he know he coming from under this shit.

478
00:21:15,480 --> 00:21:16,960
Speaker 4: We all know he coming from under this the shit,

479
00:21:16,960 --> 00:21:19,439
Speaker 4: you know what I'm saying. But like he's he he

480
00:21:19,520 --> 00:21:21,840
Speaker 4: won them type of niggas, like he never gonna lose hisself.

481
00:21:21,960 --> 00:21:25,359
Speaker 4: All he doing is praying, talking to his family, like

482
00:21:26,160 --> 00:21:28,680
Speaker 4: connecting with God. You know what I'm saying, Like shit

483
00:21:28,840 --> 00:21:32,200
Speaker 4: like that, And yeah, Smirk definitely good. I spoke to him.

484
00:21:32,280 --> 00:21:34,520
Speaker 4: I sent them like a little snippet of music that

485
00:21:34,560 --> 00:21:37,080
Speaker 4: I'm putting out and the music that I like was

486
00:21:37,119 --> 00:21:39,080
Speaker 4: saying his name and shit like that. You feel what

487
00:21:39,080 --> 00:21:41,040
Speaker 4: I'm saying, Like smart brother, Yeah.

488
00:21:41,280 --> 00:21:42,240
Speaker 3: We smirked.

489
00:21:43,359 --> 00:21:47,040
Speaker 6: So for little Herd. Right, do you are you getting personal?

490
00:21:47,160 --> 00:21:49,199
Speaker 6: Like are we hearing the pain? Because you have been

491
00:21:49,240 --> 00:21:51,240
Speaker 6: through a lot since you lost your friends and then

492
00:21:51,440 --> 00:21:52,800
Speaker 6: go the rest of your dad. So you know what

493
00:21:52,840 --> 00:21:55,120
Speaker 6: I'm saying, You've been through a lot of shit. Yeah,

494
00:21:55,160 --> 00:21:57,080
Speaker 6: So are we getting the personal getting the pain?

495
00:21:57,800 --> 00:22:00,800
Speaker 3: Definitely? I'm speaking about like everything.

496
00:22:00,359 --> 00:22:04,080
Speaker 4: I feel like I've I covered a lot in this album.

497
00:22:04,560 --> 00:22:07,160
Speaker 4: I'm really talking about a lot, a lot, A lot,

498
00:22:07,200 --> 00:22:10,600
Speaker 4: a lot, and it makes me feel good though, you

499
00:22:10,680 --> 00:22:13,040
Speaker 4: know what I'm saying. Like it's like rap always been

500
00:22:13,080 --> 00:22:15,040
Speaker 4: a form of like therapy for me, you know what

501
00:22:15,080 --> 00:22:15,480
Speaker 4: I'm saying.

502
00:22:15,520 --> 00:22:16,040
Speaker 1: So it's like.

503
00:22:17,040 --> 00:22:19,640
Speaker 4: Certain I don't really like when I'm in the studio,

504
00:22:19,960 --> 00:22:23,000
Speaker 4: I just rap, and just like I got to a

505
00:22:23,040 --> 00:22:25,400
Speaker 4: point in my life in my career where I don't

506
00:22:25,400 --> 00:22:29,680
Speaker 4: think about like how people gonn receive it, like how

507
00:22:29,720 --> 00:22:33,240
Speaker 4: the world gonna receive it, have my family gonna receive

508
00:22:33,280 --> 00:22:33,840
Speaker 4: it or whatever.

509
00:22:33,960 --> 00:22:37,000
Speaker 3: I just speak about whatever is on my mind and

510
00:22:37,200 --> 00:22:37,800
Speaker 3: go from there.

511
00:22:37,960 --> 00:22:39,400
Speaker 4: You knowee what I'm saying. And that's how I picked

512
00:22:39,440 --> 00:22:42,320
Speaker 4: the records. You feel what I'm saying and I don't.

513
00:22:42,520 --> 00:22:45,480
Speaker 4: I'm saying that to say like I don't really realize

514
00:22:46,240 --> 00:22:48,200
Speaker 4: all the shit I'm talking about and what I cover

515
00:22:48,400 --> 00:22:50,760
Speaker 4: until I'm hearing it. Like I'm a speaker, you know,

516
00:22:50,800 --> 00:22:52,960
Speaker 4: what I'm saying. I just go in the studio and

517
00:22:53,040 --> 00:22:56,240
Speaker 4: rap and like here a week later, two weeks later,

518
00:22:56,320 --> 00:22:59,200
Speaker 4: like damn, I just said some shit like like yeah,

519
00:22:59,320 --> 00:23:03,919
Speaker 4: now for sure that this album is And you know

520
00:23:03,920 --> 00:23:05,520
Speaker 4: I altaists say this all the time. I feel like

521
00:23:05,560 --> 00:23:09,639
Speaker 4: I always feel like this, but like you would say, like, oh,

522
00:23:09,680 --> 00:23:12,160
Speaker 4: you're this is one of my best projects, Like I don't.

523
00:23:12,240 --> 00:23:14,080
Speaker 4: I'm not even gonna say this is my best project

524
00:23:14,160 --> 00:23:15,960
Speaker 4: or my best body of work. I really don't feel

525
00:23:16,000 --> 00:23:17,600
Speaker 4: like it's my best body of work, but I just

526
00:23:17,600 --> 00:23:20,200
Speaker 4: feel like it's my best era of rap. I feel

527
00:23:20,200 --> 00:23:23,800
Speaker 4: like I'm rapping better than I ever rapped before. Like

528
00:23:23,960 --> 00:23:26,920
Speaker 4: however they receive it or whoever feel like this project

529
00:23:26,960 --> 00:23:29,119
Speaker 4: better than this one or not, Like I just know

530
00:23:29,240 --> 00:23:31,840
Speaker 4: for a fact I'm rapping so good and I gave

531
00:23:31,880 --> 00:23:33,160
Speaker 4: it my all for sure.

532
00:23:33,760 --> 00:23:36,199
Speaker 5: That Therapeutic was this album. Though, in regard to your

533
00:23:36,240 --> 00:23:38,520
Speaker 5: grieving process, because I hear you mention your brother a lot,

534
00:23:38,800 --> 00:23:41,200
Speaker 5: especially on Give It All, How did that help?

535
00:23:43,880 --> 00:23:46,600
Speaker 4: I ain't gonna lie that I've been dealing with del

536
00:23:46,680 --> 00:23:49,919
Speaker 4: since I was a kid. Bro Like I lost I

537
00:23:49,920 --> 00:23:53,040
Speaker 4: started losing friends when I was like fourteen years old.

538
00:23:53,160 --> 00:23:55,919
Speaker 4: You know, like, and I'm talking about that, I'm touching

539
00:23:55,960 --> 00:23:59,040
Speaker 4: on that my and my album, my project. But you

540
00:23:59,160 --> 00:24:02,080
Speaker 4: gotta really like realize I'm thirty years old. I've been

541
00:24:02,200 --> 00:24:07,520
Speaker 4: losing people I love for fifteen years and still managing

542
00:24:07,560 --> 00:24:11,280
Speaker 4: to wake up and make it happen and beg herbo

543
00:24:11,400 --> 00:24:13,959
Speaker 4: and take pictures and smile for the fans, Like I

544
00:24:14,000 --> 00:24:17,120
Speaker 4: really didn't lost some of my best friends and had

545
00:24:17,160 --> 00:24:19,399
Speaker 4: to go do a show that same day, you know

546
00:24:19,440 --> 00:24:22,040
Speaker 4: what I'm saying, Like my homie Cap died twenty fifteen,

547
00:24:22,080 --> 00:24:24,200
Speaker 4: I had to perform in front of ten thousand people.

548
00:24:24,359 --> 00:24:26,320
Speaker 4: I just had to find an emmy. A lot of

549
00:24:26,320 --> 00:24:27,879
Speaker 4: people can't do that. A lot of people like non,

550
00:24:27,920 --> 00:24:29,560
Speaker 4: I just lost my homie. Fuck this shit, I'm gonna

551
00:24:29,600 --> 00:24:30,720
Speaker 4: go spind like.

552
00:24:31,680 --> 00:24:32,840
Speaker 3: I want to go do the show.

553
00:24:33,440 --> 00:24:36,080
Speaker 4: Like so it's like, I feel like I'm really destined

554
00:24:36,080 --> 00:24:38,560
Speaker 4: for this shit. I chose my own destiny, I chose

555
00:24:38,600 --> 00:24:41,840
Speaker 4: my own path. And I'm saying that, like for me,

556
00:24:41,920 --> 00:24:45,719
Speaker 4: they experience all of that death and feel like I

557
00:24:45,760 --> 00:24:47,639
Speaker 4: was numb to it. When my little brother died, it

558
00:24:47,800 --> 00:24:49,960
Speaker 4: changed my life. That was some of the worst pain

559
00:24:50,000 --> 00:24:54,440
Speaker 4: that I ever felt in my life. Ever, I could

560
00:24:54,520 --> 00:24:58,920
Speaker 4: never I never could fathom, like, and I'm a street nigga,

561
00:24:59,000 --> 00:25:01,240
Speaker 4: Like when I wake up, when I walk out the house,

562
00:25:01,320 --> 00:25:04,000
Speaker 4: I feel like I'm gonna die, like you know, like

563
00:25:04,080 --> 00:25:06,359
Speaker 4: I really feel like that, and that's what get me home.

564
00:25:06,640 --> 00:25:08,640
Speaker 4: You feel what I'm saying, Like every step, every move

565
00:25:08,680 --> 00:25:12,040
Speaker 4: that I take is calculated. And I never felt like

566
00:25:12,080 --> 00:25:13,880
Speaker 4: he was gonna die, you know what I'm saying, Like,

567
00:25:14,320 --> 00:25:17,639
Speaker 4: no bullshit, I never ever think like him. Hell no,

568
00:25:18,080 --> 00:25:20,520
Speaker 4: I just I never thought he was going to die.

569
00:25:20,800 --> 00:25:22,840
Speaker 4: Every day I wake up, wake up, I really feel

570
00:25:22,880 --> 00:25:24,480
Speaker 4: like I'm gonna die. I feel like somebody would do

571
00:25:24,600 --> 00:25:27,000
Speaker 4: something to me. And that's just the life I live.

572
00:25:27,040 --> 00:25:28,760
Speaker 2: And that's just you still feel like that because I

573
00:25:28,800 --> 00:25:30,240
Speaker 2: remember the last day you said you feel like that.

574
00:25:30,320 --> 00:25:33,000
Speaker 2: You said you were going to therapy to help you, and.

575
00:25:33,160 --> 00:25:35,480
Speaker 3: It helped me with it helped me with it.

576
00:25:35,520 --> 00:25:38,720
Speaker 4: But like, nah, hell no, And I'm glad that even

577
00:25:38,760 --> 00:25:44,199
Speaker 4: going through therapy and and like growing and healing the

578
00:25:44,240 --> 00:25:47,600
Speaker 4: way that I've healed in my life, I'm kind of

579
00:25:47,640 --> 00:25:51,160
Speaker 4: glad that I never lost that edge for real, because

580
00:25:51,160 --> 00:25:53,600
Speaker 4: that's how I protect myself, That's how I protect my children,

581
00:25:53,960 --> 00:25:55,600
Speaker 4: that's how I make sure I get back home, you

582
00:25:55,640 --> 00:25:59,320
Speaker 4: feel I'm saying, like, and I'm not out here thuging.

583
00:25:59,359 --> 00:26:01,040
Speaker 4: I ain't wild and I ain't doing no crazy shit.

584
00:26:01,119 --> 00:26:02,800
Speaker 4: Some days I leave the house and it just be

585
00:26:03,000 --> 00:26:05,560
Speaker 4: just me by myself, no security, nothing.

586
00:26:05,840 --> 00:26:07,280
Speaker 3: But I'm still on point.

587
00:26:07,320 --> 00:26:10,120
Speaker 4: I'm still watching my back, I'm still aware of my surroundings,

588
00:26:10,119 --> 00:26:12,240
Speaker 4: you feel I'm saying. So it's like I'm glad that

589
00:26:12,840 --> 00:26:15,399
Speaker 4: I never lost that edge real real and when like

590
00:26:15,560 --> 00:26:16,920
Speaker 4: going back to what you know what I'm saying.

591
00:26:16,920 --> 00:26:18,000
Speaker 3: What you said, Charla.

592
00:26:17,840 --> 00:26:21,200
Speaker 4: Magne, Like when I when my little brother died, I

593
00:26:21,240 --> 00:26:26,040
Speaker 4: lost myself, Like I became an alcoholic, like a badass alcoholic.

594
00:26:26,119 --> 00:26:27,680
Speaker 4: I never used to drink bro I used to drink

595
00:26:27,760 --> 00:26:31,320
Speaker 4: a fifth of liquor every single day, like every day

596
00:26:31,440 --> 00:26:32,120
Speaker 4: by myself.

597
00:26:32,200 --> 00:26:32,920
Speaker 1: Like, and.

598
00:26:34,880 --> 00:26:38,000
Speaker 4: My girl was pregnant when he died. You feel me, Like,

599
00:26:39,080 --> 00:26:42,000
Speaker 4: and I was like I was trying to like.

600
00:26:43,480 --> 00:26:45,199
Speaker 3: Not be that weak around her.

601
00:26:45,400 --> 00:26:47,480
Speaker 4: You feel me because she she know I didn't been

602
00:26:47,520 --> 00:26:49,159
Speaker 4: through shit, like she didn't been around me, and I

603
00:26:49,160 --> 00:26:49,959
Speaker 4: didn't lost homies.

604
00:26:50,000 --> 00:26:51,480
Speaker 3: You feel what I'm saying, Like, and.

605
00:26:53,160 --> 00:26:56,239
Speaker 4: She used to like say shit like snap out of it,

606
00:26:56,320 --> 00:26:58,639
Speaker 4: like you feel me like she used to like say it,

607
00:26:58,680 --> 00:26:59,680
Speaker 4: but it's like I can't.

608
00:26:59,720 --> 00:27:01,159
Speaker 3: It was just so hard for me.

609
00:27:01,240 --> 00:27:02,879
Speaker 4: I really couldn't for real, Like I used to have

610
00:27:02,920 --> 00:27:04,800
Speaker 4: to leave the house just to go cry, like swear

611
00:27:04,840 --> 00:27:06,760
Speaker 4: to God, like just go get in the con just

612
00:27:07,240 --> 00:27:09,600
Speaker 4: cry for hour straight because I ain't want to do

613
00:27:09,640 --> 00:27:10,320
Speaker 4: that in front of her.

614
00:27:10,720 --> 00:27:13,440
Speaker 3: And I felt like I should have. I should have,

615
00:27:13,640 --> 00:27:16,520
Speaker 3: I should have, but I was like I don't know.

616
00:27:16,640 --> 00:27:18,439
Speaker 7: I just And when she said snap out of it,

617
00:27:18,480 --> 00:27:19,760
Speaker 7: what does she mean, like.

618
00:27:20,760 --> 00:27:23,040
Speaker 4: Not snap out of the grief, snap out of the healing,

619
00:27:23,119 --> 00:27:26,320
Speaker 4: snap out of the crashing out like drinking and drinking

620
00:27:26,359 --> 00:27:29,080
Speaker 4: every day and wanting to go to the club and

621
00:27:29,240 --> 00:27:31,840
Speaker 4: just feel something because I really can't feel nothing, you

622
00:27:31,840 --> 00:27:34,000
Speaker 4: know what I'm saying. Like that was like that's what

623
00:27:34,000 --> 00:27:35,480
Speaker 4: she used to tell me to snap out of and

624
00:27:35,520 --> 00:27:38,760
Speaker 4: it was like it was hard, man, I ain't gonna lie.

625
00:27:39,720 --> 00:27:42,920
Speaker 5: Did people in your family try to like blame you

626
00:27:43,000 --> 00:27:45,240
Speaker 5: because you know, for whatever reason, when you the person

627
00:27:45,280 --> 00:27:48,160
Speaker 5: that made it when something bad go happen, they feel

628
00:27:48,160 --> 00:27:50,119
Speaker 5: like your success and your money could have kept that

629
00:27:50,119 --> 00:27:51,639
Speaker 5: person from being in that situation.

630
00:27:52,600 --> 00:27:56,720
Speaker 4: Nah, not really for real, for real, Like honestly they didn't.

631
00:27:56,840 --> 00:28:00,600
Speaker 4: And that was like the the biggest blessing. Nobody ever

632
00:28:00,760 --> 00:28:03,240
Speaker 4: blamed me for real, real like. And I had a

633
00:28:03,280 --> 00:28:05,600
Speaker 4: conversation with my grandma and I said this when I

634
00:28:05,640 --> 00:28:11,320
Speaker 4: did the This Ship with Shannon Sharp, I just did

635
00:28:11,560 --> 00:28:15,439
Speaker 4: an interview with him. And I had a conversation with

636
00:28:15,480 --> 00:28:19,679
Speaker 4: my grandma and she made me like she It was

637
00:28:19,680 --> 00:28:21,960
Speaker 4: one of the conversations that made me snap out of

638
00:28:22,640 --> 00:28:26,360
Speaker 4: drinking and crashing out because she like, man, I already

639
00:28:26,480 --> 00:28:29,359
Speaker 4: lost him. I'm not finna lose you to this shit.

640
00:28:30,760 --> 00:28:34,040
Speaker 4: You feel what I'm saying. And she didn't blame me,

641
00:28:34,240 --> 00:28:38,080
Speaker 4: but like it was like my little brother was real,

642
00:28:38,520 --> 00:28:41,640
Speaker 4: like good nigga, a solid nigga. And I know for

643
00:28:41,720 --> 00:28:44,360
Speaker 4: a fact he got killed because somebody wanted to hurt me.

644
00:28:44,960 --> 00:28:49,520
Speaker 4: For sure, it wasn't my fault. But she like, you

645
00:28:50,400 --> 00:28:52,800
Speaker 4: gotta do it the right way, like if you finish,

646
00:28:52,920 --> 00:28:56,200
Speaker 4: like no, everybody we grieve and we all going through

647
00:28:56,200 --> 00:28:58,520
Speaker 4: the same shit, but you can't grieve like that, like

648
00:28:58,600 --> 00:29:01,479
Speaker 4: you gotta go make it like you gotta make this

649
00:29:01,520 --> 00:29:04,640
Speaker 4: shit happen for him, because it's like he not finna

650
00:29:04,680 --> 00:29:07,520
Speaker 4: die vain. You feel me like that was the conversation

651
00:29:07,600 --> 00:29:09,480
Speaker 4: that she held me, and that shit just turned me up.

652
00:29:09,880 --> 00:29:12,600
Speaker 4: And one of the last conversations I sort of got

653
00:29:12,960 --> 00:29:16,960
Speaker 4: my brother died at eleven am or some shit. We

654
00:29:17,000 --> 00:29:19,520
Speaker 4: was texting at four or five in the morning. My

655
00:29:19,640 --> 00:29:22,120
Speaker 4: last conversation with him was just like, Bro, I don't

656
00:29:22,120 --> 00:29:23,640
Speaker 4: want to do nothing to see you win, like I

657
00:29:23,680 --> 00:29:26,640
Speaker 4: ain't never ask you for nothing, like he never really

658
00:29:26,680 --> 00:29:29,080
Speaker 4: asked me for no money. Everything I ever gave him,

659
00:29:29,120 --> 00:29:31,840
Speaker 4: everything we ever did was just like a bonus like that.

660
00:29:31,920 --> 00:29:34,920
Speaker 4: Nigga never asked me for no money ever. He never

661
00:29:35,040 --> 00:29:37,520
Speaker 4: asked me like give me this, buy me this, put

662
00:29:37,560 --> 00:29:39,280
Speaker 4: me on, do this, do that, And he been with

663
00:29:39,400 --> 00:29:41,000
Speaker 4: me every step of the way. You feel me, he

664
00:29:41,160 --> 00:29:43,880
Speaker 4: just enjoyed the fruit of my label. That Nigga literally

665
00:29:43,960 --> 00:29:47,120
Speaker 4: never asked me for no money ever in life. And

666
00:29:47,280 --> 00:29:49,960
Speaker 4: our last conversation was, Bro, I just want to see

667
00:29:50,000 --> 00:29:52,040
Speaker 4: you win, like I just want you to do this shit.

668
00:29:52,120 --> 00:29:53,920
Speaker 4: And we was talking back and forth, and I saw

669
00:29:53,960 --> 00:29:55,680
Speaker 4: to God the next morning that Nigga died.

670
00:29:56,120 --> 00:29:58,440
Speaker 5: So so were you blaming yourself That's why you was

671
00:29:58,960 --> 00:29:59,719
Speaker 5: trying to escape?

672
00:30:00,120 --> 00:30:05,080
Speaker 4: Yeah, for sure, I was definitely blaming myself because I

673
00:30:05,200 --> 00:30:07,120
Speaker 4: just felt like and I used to have these conversations

674
00:30:07,120 --> 00:30:08,959
Speaker 4: with him, like I used to really tell him. And

675
00:30:08,960 --> 00:30:11,240
Speaker 4: that's the reason why I had to go back and

676
00:30:11,280 --> 00:30:13,480
Speaker 4: think and reflect because I used to tell that nigga, like, bro,

677
00:30:13,640 --> 00:30:16,080
Speaker 4: move to LA, like he got kids, just like I

678
00:30:16,120 --> 00:30:18,200
Speaker 4: got kids. I used to really tell that nigga, like, man,

679
00:30:19,000 --> 00:30:21,440
Speaker 4: go back and take care of them every now and then,

680
00:30:21,560 --> 00:30:23,320
Speaker 4: or do whatever you need to do. Send that shit,

681
00:30:23,440 --> 00:30:26,240
Speaker 4: like Bro, just come with me, please, Like I used

682
00:30:26,240 --> 00:30:28,040
Speaker 4: to have that conversation with him, like Bro, just come

683
00:30:28,080 --> 00:30:30,720
Speaker 4: to La, move to La, like please just come out here.

684
00:30:30,760 --> 00:30:33,920
Speaker 4: You feel what I'm saying because I know what that

685
00:30:34,000 --> 00:30:35,800
Speaker 4: shit like, Bro, Like you feel what I'm saying Like

686
00:30:35,840 --> 00:30:37,960
Speaker 4: I used to. I used to talk to that nigga

687
00:30:37,960 --> 00:30:40,840
Speaker 4: and be like, Bro, just stop going back for real,

688
00:30:40,920 --> 00:30:44,040
Speaker 4: for real, because I'm thinking about that shit like he

689
00:30:44,040 --> 00:30:46,000
Speaker 4: he my brother was in the streets, but I feel

690
00:30:46,040 --> 00:30:47,920
Speaker 4: like he was just naive to the fact, like he

691
00:30:48,040 --> 00:30:49,920
Speaker 4: really like like I said, like I used to leave

692
00:30:49,960 --> 00:30:51,680
Speaker 4: out the house and feel like I'm gonna die every day.

693
00:30:52,000 --> 00:30:54,920
Speaker 3: He didn't have that man set. He didn't think like that.

694
00:30:55,080 --> 00:30:57,240
Speaker 4: If you feel me, and I used to think like that,

695
00:30:57,280 --> 00:30:59,360
Speaker 4: and it's scammy, Like I hate to see somebody I

696
00:30:59,360 --> 00:31:01,520
Speaker 4: love walking like man, this nigga could die.

697
00:31:02,080 --> 00:31:03,000
Speaker 3: Like you feel what I'm saying.

698
00:31:03,360 --> 00:31:06,840
Speaker 4: And I was blaming myself in a way because I

699
00:31:06,880 --> 00:31:09,560
Speaker 4: just felt like I should have, well I could have.

700
00:31:09,600 --> 00:31:11,120
Speaker 4: I ain't gonna say I should have, Like I felt

701
00:31:11,120 --> 00:31:14,480
Speaker 4: like I could have just like changed everybody in life

702
00:31:14,520 --> 00:31:17,000
Speaker 4: by force. And you can't do that. You can't feel

703
00:31:17,040 --> 00:31:19,200
Speaker 4: like you could save everybody, you know what I'm saying.

704
00:31:19,320 --> 00:31:24,560
Speaker 4: And I stopped blaming myself when I just realized that,

705
00:31:24,600 --> 00:31:27,000
Speaker 4: like I realized, like you, like it was nothing I

706
00:31:27,000 --> 00:31:29,080
Speaker 4: could do for real, like I used to really I

707
00:31:29,160 --> 00:31:31,120
Speaker 4: used to think like that's why I was so fucked

708
00:31:31,200 --> 00:31:33,400
Speaker 4: up because I felt like even me being g Herbo,

709
00:31:33,520 --> 00:31:36,000
Speaker 4: being an artist, being a star, I wish I was

710
00:31:36,040 --> 00:31:38,560
Speaker 4: really with him when that shit happened, because it wouldn't

711
00:31:38,560 --> 00:31:40,520
Speaker 4: have happened like that, Like I would have put my

712
00:31:40,600 --> 00:31:42,640
Speaker 4: life on the line. I would have put everything on

713
00:31:42,680 --> 00:31:46,160
Speaker 4: the line one thousand percent, like the scenario on how

714
00:31:46,200 --> 00:31:49,480
Speaker 4: he died. I feel like if I was you can't

715
00:31:49,480 --> 00:31:51,320
Speaker 4: feel like that, like cause you know you're thinking about

716
00:31:51,320 --> 00:31:53,320
Speaker 4: every scenario like I'm thinking, like if it was me

717
00:31:53,520 --> 00:31:55,640
Speaker 4: in there, like it probably wouldn't have happened like that.

718
00:31:55,960 --> 00:31:57,959
Speaker 4: I would have did this this way, but you don't know,

719
00:31:58,040 --> 00:31:59,800
Speaker 4: like you know what I'm saying God is that like

720
00:32:00,120 --> 00:32:03,960
Speaker 4: he's he is the person who control your destiny and say,

721
00:32:04,000 --> 00:32:06,640
Speaker 4: how like shit happened? But I'm thinking about that, and

722
00:32:06,640 --> 00:32:09,400
Speaker 4: it's like I really used to like really wish I

723
00:32:09,480 --> 00:32:11,360
Speaker 4: was with him, Like I just really felt like I

724
00:32:11,880 --> 00:32:14,040
Speaker 4: wish like still to this day, I really wish I

725
00:32:14,120 --> 00:32:16,520
Speaker 4: just would have been there, like because I feel like

726
00:32:16,560 --> 00:32:17,560
Speaker 4: it wouldn't have happened that way.

727
00:32:17,600 --> 00:32:19,560
Speaker 2: But how do you stop yourself haashing out right? Like

728
00:32:19,560 --> 00:32:22,600
Speaker 2: we've seen it with Gilly and the bad One of

729
00:32:22,600 --> 00:32:24,280
Speaker 2: the worst things about the Internet is the internet to

730
00:32:24,320 --> 00:32:26,640
Speaker 2: make you you you lose yourself, right, They'll trick you

731
00:32:26,680 --> 00:32:28,600
Speaker 2: into taking you off the street. How did you say,

732
00:32:28,640 --> 00:32:31,320
Speaker 2: you know what, I'm just gonna stay focused and gave

733
00:32:31,400 --> 00:32:33,600
Speaker 2: my brother, but still focus on my family.

734
00:32:33,680 --> 00:32:34,280
Speaker 1: Yeah, because a lot.

735
00:32:34,240 --> 00:32:35,480
Speaker 2: Of times people are like, now, I gotta get my

736
00:32:35,520 --> 00:32:37,000
Speaker 2: I gotta get my get back, I gotta do this,

737
00:32:37,040 --> 00:32:38,680
Speaker 2: I gotta do that, And it put you in so.

738
00:32:38,640 --> 00:32:41,160
Speaker 4: You're talking about like what I what I said on

739
00:32:41,240 --> 00:32:48,280
Speaker 4: the interview I just did with Gilly. It's like naturally,

740
00:32:48,720 --> 00:32:51,680
Speaker 4: it's like every action deserves a reaction, and I come

741
00:32:51,720 --> 00:32:54,360
Speaker 4: from a place where it's like you gotta react like

742
00:32:54,640 --> 00:32:57,240
Speaker 4: certain shit you do, like even if you like.

743
00:32:58,960 --> 00:33:01,080
Speaker 3: Some shit might happen to you today and you make

744
00:33:01,160 --> 00:33:01,520
Speaker 3: it home.

745
00:33:02,720 --> 00:33:05,440
Speaker 4: When you get in the house, you're thinking about what

746
00:33:05,680 --> 00:33:07,200
Speaker 4: the people gonna say, Like what the.

747
00:33:07,080 --> 00:33:09,520
Speaker 3: Hood gonna say when I come back, I gotta do something.

748
00:33:09,560 --> 00:33:11,280
Speaker 4: You feel what I'm saying, and I want them niggas

749
00:33:11,320 --> 00:33:14,560
Speaker 4: like me personally, if I go to sleep, like with

750
00:33:14,680 --> 00:33:17,600
Speaker 4: it on my mind, like if I'm thinking about it

751
00:33:17,640 --> 00:33:20,360
Speaker 4: all day, I'm gonna have to do something like for real,

752
00:33:20,400 --> 00:33:22,000
Speaker 4: for real, Like if that shits stay on my brain

753
00:33:22,040 --> 00:33:25,000
Speaker 4: and I think about it three times, full times, five times.

754
00:33:24,960 --> 00:33:25,840
Speaker 3: That's what I feel like.

755
00:33:25,920 --> 00:33:29,840
Speaker 4: It is eligible for me to not crash out but

756
00:33:29,920 --> 00:33:32,240
Speaker 4: react because I'm never gonna crash out because if I was,

757
00:33:32,720 --> 00:33:35,640
Speaker 4: I feel like the definition of when people say like

758
00:33:35,720 --> 00:33:38,280
Speaker 4: crash out is when you react right then off emotion.

759
00:33:38,600 --> 00:33:40,520
Speaker 4: That's a crash out. You feel what I'm saying, Like,

760
00:33:40,800 --> 00:33:43,160
Speaker 4: whatever I do to you, If I didn't thought about

761
00:33:43,160 --> 00:33:46,400
Speaker 4: this shit and calculating my steps and whatever consequences happened

762
00:33:46,480 --> 00:33:48,920
Speaker 4: behind that, that's not a crash out Because.

763
00:33:48,720 --> 00:33:51,280
Speaker 3: I'm a choice. I'm okay with what happens.

764
00:33:51,280 --> 00:33:54,239
Speaker 4: You fee what I'm saying, like and for me, like

765
00:33:54,280 --> 00:33:57,080
Speaker 4: how I stop myself from doing that? Is like certain

766
00:33:57,120 --> 00:34:00,400
Speaker 4: shit is not worth it, Like I know for I

767
00:34:00,440 --> 00:34:02,080
Speaker 4: know my power, I know what I could do.

768
00:34:02,200 --> 00:34:02,760
Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying.

769
00:34:02,800 --> 00:34:05,720
Speaker 4: It's like certain shit is just like I'm automatically like

770
00:34:06,320 --> 00:34:10,160
Speaker 4: not a person that like confrontation. I hate confrontation because

771
00:34:10,200 --> 00:34:11,560
Speaker 4: I only know how to deal with it one of

772
00:34:11,640 --> 00:34:15,200
Speaker 4: two ways. Somebody gotta fight or die or something, you

773
00:34:15,200 --> 00:34:17,040
Speaker 4: know what I'm saying, Like, I only know how to

774
00:34:17,080 --> 00:34:19,040
Speaker 4: approach it that way. Like I'm not a person that

775
00:34:19,080 --> 00:34:22,000
Speaker 4: could have a two hour long conversation about something and

776
00:34:22,400 --> 00:34:23,440
Speaker 4: get to the bottom of it.

777
00:34:23,560 --> 00:34:24,279
Speaker 1: That's just not me.

778
00:34:24,719 --> 00:34:27,279
Speaker 4: So I avoid it every chance I could get, you

779
00:34:27,320 --> 00:34:29,800
Speaker 4: feel I'm saying. So it's like just you gotta know yourself.

780
00:34:30,080 --> 00:34:34,360
Speaker 4: You gotta know like you you gotta know when people

781
00:34:34,440 --> 00:34:36,680
Speaker 4: say things or try to push your buttons and just.

782
00:34:36,680 --> 00:34:37,279
Speaker 3: Let them have it.

783
00:34:37,320 --> 00:34:39,240
Speaker 4: Like I don't care about nobody saying I'm a pump

784
00:34:39,360 --> 00:34:41,000
Speaker 4: or nobody saying I'm a bitch or.

785
00:34:41,120 --> 00:34:42,080
Speaker 3: None of that type of shit.

786
00:34:42,120 --> 00:34:44,239
Speaker 4: And I used to for sure you feel what I'm saying,

787
00:34:44,280 --> 00:34:46,640
Speaker 4: But it's like at this point, I just think about

788
00:34:46,640 --> 00:34:49,520
Speaker 4: my kids. Like literally, that's the main reason why I

789
00:34:49,640 --> 00:34:52,200
Speaker 4: don't do crazy shit because I think about my kids.

790
00:34:52,280 --> 00:34:53,520
Speaker 1: It's like, my kids.

791
00:34:53,360 --> 00:34:56,160
Speaker 4: Don't understand what I got going on. You know, I'm saying,

792
00:34:56,160 --> 00:34:58,080
Speaker 4: my kids don't understand. If I end up in jailing,

793
00:34:58,120 --> 00:34:59,960
Speaker 4: I'm be like, what the fuck how my daddy go?

794
00:35:00,800 --> 00:35:02,920
Speaker 4: And I know what put me in jail, you know

795
00:35:02,960 --> 00:35:04,640
Speaker 4: what I'm saying, Like, I know what got me there,

796
00:35:04,680 --> 00:35:06,800
Speaker 4: I know what I did, But a lot of times

797
00:35:06,800 --> 00:35:08,840
Speaker 4: people don't explain that to their kids. You feel what

798
00:35:08,840 --> 00:35:11,440
Speaker 4: I'm saying, And being a father, like you gotta be

799
00:35:11,640 --> 00:35:14,640
Speaker 4: transparent as with your kids, like with like that, Like

800
00:35:14,840 --> 00:35:17,320
Speaker 4: if you make a crazy decision or life changing decision,

801
00:35:17,560 --> 00:35:20,319
Speaker 4: you got to explain that to your kids for real,

802
00:35:20,400 --> 00:35:22,399
Speaker 4: for real, so they don't make the decision, so they

803
00:35:22,480 --> 00:35:24,960
Speaker 4: understand why my dad and not coming home all.

804
00:35:24,800 --> 00:35:25,439
Speaker 3: That type of shit.

805
00:35:25,920 --> 00:35:29,440
Speaker 4: So I just that's the type of confrontation that I

806
00:35:29,680 --> 00:35:32,120
Speaker 4: avoid as well. Like I just think about my children,

807
00:35:32,200 --> 00:35:34,680
Speaker 4: bro like a lot of shit like when you had kids,

808
00:35:34,719 --> 00:35:37,359
Speaker 4: Like it's a lot of shit that you would do

809
00:35:37,920 --> 00:35:40,239
Speaker 4: that when you had kids, Like, hell no, I ain't

810
00:35:40,239 --> 00:35:42,359
Speaker 4: even think about doing that for sure.

811
00:35:42,880 --> 00:35:44,440
Speaker 5: I want to go back to one thing you said

812
00:35:44,640 --> 00:35:47,399
Speaker 5: in regard to how you react to death, because you know,

813
00:35:47,719 --> 00:35:51,000
Speaker 5: staying busy as a response to trauma, right, and we

814
00:35:51,080 --> 00:35:53,120
Speaker 5: saw that in real time, if you don't mind me

815
00:35:53,160 --> 00:35:57,280
Speaker 5: bringing up like people don't know today your father passed.

816
00:35:57,320 --> 00:35:59,520
Speaker 5: God blessed it. I came here, you was scheduled to

817
00:35:59,600 --> 00:36:02,799
Speaker 5: do at this club interview. You came in the studio and.

818
00:36:02,760 --> 00:36:06,040
Speaker 1: Still wanted to do it, like bro go home, like what.

819
00:36:06,080 --> 00:36:09,200
Speaker 4: Some of it? And I love you forever for that

820
00:36:09,280 --> 00:36:11,080
Speaker 4: because I really was here to do this. And it's

821
00:36:11,120 --> 00:36:16,439
Speaker 4: like that's the thing, Like I'm so used to deaf

822
00:36:16,480 --> 00:36:18,640
Speaker 4: and used to ship. It's like I didn't even process

823
00:36:18,680 --> 00:36:20,440
Speaker 4: it for real, like I came here because it's like

824
00:36:20,480 --> 00:36:22,480
Speaker 4: I really was in my head trying to forget that

825
00:36:22,560 --> 00:36:26,600
Speaker 4: my dad is dead. But I gotta like understand it.

826
00:36:26,640 --> 00:36:29,120
Speaker 4: I gotta know, like, yeah, my pop was just that today.

827
00:36:29,200 --> 00:36:31,759
Speaker 4: I need to process that, like and you.

828
00:36:31,760 --> 00:36:33,560
Speaker 5: Had just got the news while you was in the.

829
00:36:33,440 --> 00:36:37,120
Speaker 4: Car on the way. Yeah, my dad was in the hospital.

830
00:36:37,160 --> 00:36:39,319
Speaker 4: I knew he was sick and I found out he died,

831
00:36:39,360 --> 00:36:41,520
Speaker 4: and I just came here. I don't know.

832
00:36:41,640 --> 00:36:45,320
Speaker 3: I just like I don't even like you know what

833
00:36:47,640 --> 00:36:48,359
Speaker 3: what are you doing?

834
00:36:48,719 --> 00:36:51,000
Speaker 4: Like we're not doing Yeah, now you told me, like bro,

835
00:36:51,160 --> 00:36:53,759
Speaker 4: just go home, like just leave bro for real.

836
00:36:53,840 --> 00:36:55,719
Speaker 7: For the rest of that day, like what did you do?

837
00:36:55,800 --> 00:36:58,200
Speaker 7: Did you reflect on it? Were you afraid to even?

838
00:36:58,400 --> 00:36:59,080
Speaker 1: I was afraid.

839
00:36:59,320 --> 00:37:01,959
Speaker 4: I was afraid because like when you lose a parent,

840
00:37:02,040 --> 00:37:05,239
Speaker 4: that's shit different real real and my dad like I didn't.

841
00:37:05,280 --> 00:37:07,759
Speaker 4: I didn't have an absent father, like my father been

842
00:37:07,920 --> 00:37:10,160
Speaker 4: living with me my entire life, like my mother and

843
00:37:10,200 --> 00:37:13,960
Speaker 4: my dad been together forty years for real, real like,

844
00:37:14,680 --> 00:37:18,359
Speaker 4: and I think I was just trying to like not

845
00:37:18,480 --> 00:37:20,239
Speaker 4: feel it, like not processing, like you.

846
00:37:20,239 --> 00:37:20,680
Speaker 3: Know what I'm saying.

847
00:37:20,680 --> 00:37:22,319
Speaker 4: I was just like, all right, man, let me just

848
00:37:22,400 --> 00:37:24,920
Speaker 4: do it, and like that's the that's the problem, Like

849
00:37:24,960 --> 00:37:26,560
Speaker 4: that's the thing. Like you feel like, all right, let

850
00:37:26,560 --> 00:37:27,920
Speaker 4: me just do it and push through this and this

851
00:37:27,960 --> 00:37:29,759
Speaker 4: is my job, this is my life, Like you got

852
00:37:29,760 --> 00:37:31,960
Speaker 4: to put that shit to the side. Sometimes when you're

853
00:37:32,000 --> 00:37:34,520
Speaker 4: going through things like that, you feel what I'm saying.

854
00:37:34,520 --> 00:37:36,600
Speaker 4: And the rest of that day for me was really

855
00:37:36,719 --> 00:37:39,279
Speaker 4: just like I was scared, Like I ain't want to

856
00:37:39,320 --> 00:37:41,319
Speaker 4: call my mama, I didn't want to talk to my sister.

857
00:37:41,360 --> 00:37:43,720
Speaker 4: It took me so long and just asked my sister,

858
00:37:43,800 --> 00:37:44,360
Speaker 4: are you okay?

859
00:37:44,480 --> 00:37:45,160
Speaker 3: How you doing?

860
00:37:45,480 --> 00:37:45,560
Speaker 1: That?

861
00:37:45,600 --> 00:37:49,799
Speaker 4: Shit was hard for real, real, like it was super hard. Okay, Yeah,

862
00:37:50,040 --> 00:37:52,960
Speaker 4: Like I was scared to like had them conversations with her,

863
00:37:53,000 --> 00:37:54,840
Speaker 4: like how you feeling? You know what I'm saying that

864
00:37:54,880 --> 00:37:57,080
Speaker 4: even my mom, Like I keep my mom close to me,

865
00:37:57,080 --> 00:37:59,440
Speaker 4: and my mom like this you feel me and.

866
00:38:01,000 --> 00:38:03,160
Speaker 3: I know it, like I could see it.

867
00:38:03,239 --> 00:38:05,960
Speaker 4: I know she was not okay, And I used to

868
00:38:06,080 --> 00:38:08,759
Speaker 4: avoid them conversations, you know what I'm saying, Like she

869
00:38:08,880 --> 00:38:11,920
Speaker 4: would bring stuff up and like send me pictures and

870
00:38:11,960 --> 00:38:15,080
Speaker 4: all that shit. Like it was it was like I

871
00:38:15,960 --> 00:38:17,799
Speaker 4: didn't want to look at pictures of my dad for

872
00:38:17,840 --> 00:38:21,239
Speaker 4: a long time because it made me cry. Like I

873
00:38:21,239 --> 00:38:25,160
Speaker 4: ain't like and I'm not I'm like I didn't been

874
00:38:25,160 --> 00:38:27,640
Speaker 4: in therapy. I'm a person that's not like shy from

875
00:38:27,640 --> 00:38:30,359
Speaker 4: my emotions, like I'm intune my emotions all of that.

876
00:38:30,400 --> 00:38:33,919
Speaker 3: But just like it was hard because like.

877
00:38:34,200 --> 00:38:36,839
Speaker 4: For me, just I just thought he had more time,

878
00:38:36,960 --> 00:38:38,920
Speaker 4: Like I just wanted him to be here. So I

879
00:38:38,960 --> 00:38:42,040
Speaker 4: wasn't trying to like live in reality because I'm still

880
00:38:42,080 --> 00:38:44,399
Speaker 4: I was still grieving my little brother. Yeah you feel

881
00:38:44,400 --> 00:38:44,880
Speaker 4: what I'm saying.

882
00:38:45,400 --> 00:38:46,320
Speaker 3: So when that happened.

883
00:38:46,880 --> 00:38:48,880
Speaker 4: It was just like I didn't want to believe that

884
00:38:49,000 --> 00:38:51,160
Speaker 4: my dad was dead because I be on the road.

885
00:38:51,239 --> 00:38:53,960
Speaker 4: Sometimes I go eight months without seeing my pops. So

886
00:38:54,000 --> 00:38:56,960
Speaker 4: it's like you feel me, like eight nine months without

887
00:38:56,960 --> 00:38:59,560
Speaker 4: seeing them at all. Sometimes I go months without talking

888
00:38:59,600 --> 00:38:59,879
Speaker 4: to him.

889
00:39:00,080 --> 00:39:00,920
Speaker 3: I was trying to like.

890
00:39:01,400 --> 00:39:04,160
Speaker 4: Tap into that, like you feel me, like, let me

891
00:39:04,239 --> 00:39:07,440
Speaker 4: just getting that mentality like he like he here, but

892
00:39:07,560 --> 00:39:09,840
Speaker 4: you know what I'm saying, but he my my pops

893
00:39:09,880 --> 00:39:12,040
Speaker 4: really like that shit crazy. I think about that shit

894
00:39:12,120 --> 00:39:14,120
Speaker 4: every day, like, man, they really died on me, and

895
00:39:14,160 --> 00:39:18,560
Speaker 4: it's crazy. Like that's why I like I pray every day,

896
00:39:18,680 --> 00:39:22,080
Speaker 4: like I pray so much because my pops.

897
00:39:22,239 --> 00:39:23,600
Speaker 3: My last conversation with him.

898
00:39:23,640 --> 00:39:25,960
Speaker 4: My dad died the day after his birthday, like my

899
00:39:26,000 --> 00:39:29,080
Speaker 4: birthday October eighth, my dad birthday October sixteenth. He died

900
00:39:29,080 --> 00:39:32,920
Speaker 4: on seventeenth. And my last conversation with him, while I

901
00:39:33,000 --> 00:39:34,600
Speaker 4: called him, I said every birthday, I said, man, you're

902
00:39:34,600 --> 00:39:37,520
Speaker 4: on your way, boy, you're getting old, Like you're getting old? What?

903
00:39:38,200 --> 00:39:41,520
Speaker 4: And he died Like that was the last thing I

904
00:39:41,560 --> 00:39:43,520
Speaker 4: said to my pops, like boy, on your way, boy,

905
00:39:43,520 --> 00:39:45,319
Speaker 4: you about to be seting me, you know what? I'm saying,

906
00:39:45,320 --> 00:39:50,840
Speaker 4: like you getting old, that nigga, stop getting old a dream.

907
00:39:50,640 --> 00:39:53,120
Speaker 7: Like nigga, you said that I was on my way.

908
00:39:53,239 --> 00:39:55,680
Speaker 3: Yeah, I hope So I want him to.

909
00:39:55,840 --> 00:39:57,319
Speaker 4: Now he haven't chat, I want him to.

910
00:39:57,440 --> 00:39:57,800
Speaker 3: I hope he.

911
00:39:57,960 --> 00:39:59,400
Speaker 4: I hope he's telling me that the night like that

912
00:39:59,440 --> 00:40:01,160
Speaker 4: should have gave me a lot of comfort for real,

913
00:40:01,239 --> 00:40:01,720
Speaker 4: for real.

914
00:40:01,600 --> 00:40:03,440
Speaker 5: Like is it hard to write about I mean, like

915
00:40:03,440 --> 00:40:05,800
Speaker 5: I said, you write about your brother now, yeah, but

916
00:40:06,120 --> 00:40:07,439
Speaker 5: think brother would past three years ago?

917
00:40:08,239 --> 00:40:08,919
Speaker 4: Five?

918
00:40:09,000 --> 00:40:10,600
Speaker 1: Okay, So is it hard?

919
00:40:10,760 --> 00:40:12,520
Speaker 4: It's hard to put that on paper right now in

920
00:40:12,920 --> 00:40:16,600
Speaker 4: a way like only like I'll just like for sure,

921
00:40:16,760 --> 00:40:19,080
Speaker 4: like in a way I just rap about like my

922
00:40:19,200 --> 00:40:22,719
Speaker 4: pop's passing. I never like I didn't got all the way,

923
00:40:22,800 --> 00:40:25,839
Speaker 4: like I didn't made songs like paying homage to my brother,

924
00:40:25,920 --> 00:40:29,080
Speaker 4: like give it all that songs about my brother and

925
00:40:29,200 --> 00:40:32,759
Speaker 4: made songs just talking about how I felt that day,

926
00:40:32,800 --> 00:40:35,200
Speaker 4: Like I didn't made multiple songs about my brother died,

927
00:40:35,280 --> 00:40:37,080
Speaker 4: like I ain't did that for my pop. Shit all

928
00:40:37,120 --> 00:40:39,000
Speaker 4: I said on Wax for real is just like my

929
00:40:39,080 --> 00:40:42,279
Speaker 4: dad did. Like I never spoke about the emotions how

930
00:40:42,320 --> 00:40:45,200
Speaker 4: I felt, none of that. So yeah, it is definitely

931
00:40:45,239 --> 00:40:49,640
Speaker 4: tough because I don't know. I feel like mentally or

932
00:40:49,800 --> 00:40:51,759
Speaker 4: just where I'm at in life, like I ain't been

933
00:40:51,800 --> 00:40:53,040
Speaker 4: able to tap into that pain.

934
00:40:54,640 --> 00:40:57,799
Speaker 2: Do you do you make it a conscious effort not

935
00:40:57,840 --> 00:40:59,759
Speaker 2: to take it out on your girl?

936
00:40:59,840 --> 00:41:00,000
Speaker 1: Right?

937
00:41:00,000 --> 00:41:02,040
Speaker 2: And the reason I say that is a lot of

938
00:41:02,080 --> 00:41:04,520
Speaker 2: times when we deal with things, the only person we

939
00:41:04,600 --> 00:41:06,279
Speaker 2: do really get a chance to talk to it is

940
00:41:06,320 --> 00:41:08,880
Speaker 2: your girl. Absolutely, if honest to your wife, do you

941
00:41:08,920 --> 00:41:10,600
Speaker 2: make it a contra effort when you talk about the

942
00:41:10,640 --> 00:41:13,120
Speaker 2: death your brother, everything that's going on in the streets,

943
00:41:13,120 --> 00:41:13,520
Speaker 2: your father?

944
00:41:13,640 --> 00:41:15,319
Speaker 1: Do you make it that effort not to do it?

945
00:41:15,840 --> 00:41:16,240
Speaker 3: No?

946
00:41:16,239 --> 00:41:20,200
Speaker 4: Now I talk to her about everything, Like, whatever emotion

947
00:41:20,320 --> 00:41:23,359
Speaker 4: I'm feeling, I bring it to her in a way

948
00:41:23,360 --> 00:41:25,640
Speaker 4: where I just want her to understand it, Like I

949
00:41:25,719 --> 00:41:27,640
Speaker 4: used to bring it to her where she just felt

950
00:41:27,640 --> 00:41:30,120
Speaker 4: my pain in a fucked up way because I was

951
00:41:30,200 --> 00:41:33,440
Speaker 4: mentally just not there. I'm arguing and like I just

952
00:41:33,440 --> 00:41:36,719
Speaker 4: said earlier in the interview, like I'm not confrontational. So

953
00:41:36,840 --> 00:41:38,880
Speaker 4: every day I'm trying to find it in me to

954
00:41:39,000 --> 00:41:41,400
Speaker 4: not crash out on somebody. So she might say the

955
00:41:41,480 --> 00:41:44,320
Speaker 4: smallest thing and it triggered me and we started arguing

956
00:41:44,360 --> 00:41:47,680
Speaker 4: and doing goofy shit like it was silly, like I

957
00:41:47,719 --> 00:41:50,480
Speaker 4: really should just tell her, like I should tell her

958
00:41:50,560 --> 00:41:52,600
Speaker 4: what I'm feeling and what I'm going through. And I

959
00:41:52,600 --> 00:41:57,239
Speaker 4: feel like she gave me grace because when my little

960
00:41:57,239 --> 00:42:00,279
Speaker 4: brother died, she knew that shit tore me apart art,

961
00:42:00,400 --> 00:42:02,759
Speaker 4: like she understood it. So it's like she's just like,

962
00:42:03,680 --> 00:42:05,680
Speaker 4: just let me get away with murder for real. Like

963
00:42:05,719 --> 00:42:08,680
Speaker 4: I used to come home and argue and not come

964
00:42:08,719 --> 00:42:11,480
Speaker 4: home sometimes, Like I really used to purposely not come

965
00:42:11,480 --> 00:42:13,319
Speaker 4: home because I'm just fucked up in the head, Like

966
00:42:13,400 --> 00:42:15,439
Speaker 4: I just slept in my car in the garage, all

967
00:42:15,480 --> 00:42:17,360
Speaker 4: type of shit, just because I just didn't want to

968
00:42:17,360 --> 00:42:19,760
Speaker 4: go up there and feel that shit. Because like I said,

969
00:42:19,840 --> 00:42:22,759
Speaker 4: when when my brother died, she was pregnant, so she

970
00:42:23,000 --> 00:42:25,799
Speaker 4: fully emotionus to me, yea, she got feel like.

971
00:42:27,239 --> 00:42:27,399
Speaker 1: Yeah.

972
00:42:27,520 --> 00:42:31,799
Speaker 4: So it's like like like like now I definitely make

973
00:42:31,880 --> 00:42:35,719
Speaker 4: it like like a thing, like making my business to

974
00:42:35,840 --> 00:42:38,640
Speaker 4: not put that on her and to communicate with her,

975
00:42:38,680 --> 00:42:43,880
Speaker 4: like communication is key, and she is a communicator, like

976
00:42:44,800 --> 00:42:47,600
Speaker 4: she's gonna say what you feel, she gonna say what

977
00:42:47,760 --> 00:42:50,919
Speaker 4: she feel how she feel, like she not holding nothing back.

978
00:42:51,160 --> 00:42:54,440
Speaker 4: And as a man, I ain't never really experienced that

979
00:42:54,480 --> 00:42:56,600
Speaker 4: for real, to be honest, like I ain't never had

980
00:42:56,640 --> 00:42:59,440
Speaker 4: to really like just sit down and talk. You feel me, Like,

981
00:42:59,480 --> 00:43:01,799
Speaker 4: she really make me sit down and talk about this shit.

982
00:43:02,200 --> 00:43:05,000
Speaker 4: And I appreciate that though from her and her pops

983
00:43:05,040 --> 00:43:07,000
Speaker 4: told me some real shit. I ain't gonna wow dad

984
00:43:07,320 --> 00:43:11,960
Speaker 4: like me and her pops like this. And sometimes she

985
00:43:12,000 --> 00:43:14,440
Speaker 4: don't even like it because her dad gonna tell me

986
00:43:15,200 --> 00:43:20,080
Speaker 4: shit that's like beneficial to me and might not be

987
00:43:20,080 --> 00:43:24,040
Speaker 4: beneficial to her, you know what I'm saying, Like yeah, yeah,

988
00:43:24,080 --> 00:43:27,360
Speaker 4: So like he told me some real shit that nigga

989
00:43:27,400 --> 00:43:29,319
Speaker 4: told me one day, he said, Bro, whatever the fuck

990
00:43:29,360 --> 00:43:32,240
Speaker 4: you got going on, lead that shit at the doormat

991
00:43:32,360 --> 00:43:33,600
Speaker 4: before you walk in the house.

992
00:43:33,640 --> 00:43:36,160
Speaker 3: Bro, walk in the house with peace.

993
00:43:36,239 --> 00:43:37,680
Speaker 4: Walk in the house like you want to go in

994
00:43:37,680 --> 00:43:39,600
Speaker 4: the house and see your girl and talk to your

995
00:43:39,600 --> 00:43:40,719
Speaker 4: girl and be with your kids.

996
00:43:40,760 --> 00:43:41,480
Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying.

997
00:43:41,920 --> 00:43:43,920
Speaker 4: And that shit helped me, I swear to God, like

998
00:43:44,000 --> 00:43:46,680
Speaker 4: I literally some days I just go and walk in

999
00:43:46,680 --> 00:43:48,720
Speaker 4: the house and I'll look at the doormat like literally,

1000
00:43:48,800 --> 00:43:52,120
Speaker 4: like boy, going this motherfucker and be happiness right no

1001
00:43:52,120 --> 00:43:54,200
Speaker 4: matter what's going on, because you gotta be grateful to

1002
00:43:54,280 --> 00:43:56,839
Speaker 4: make it in the house. That nigga told me that shit.

1003
00:43:56,880 --> 00:43:59,080
Speaker 4: I swear to God, that changed my whole perspective. Like,

1004
00:43:59,120 --> 00:44:02,160
Speaker 4: whatever you got going on, however, your day went lead

1005
00:44:02,280 --> 00:44:05,479
Speaker 4: that ship at the concrete before you walk in the house,

1006
00:44:05,960 --> 00:44:06,840
Speaker 4: and that ship helped me.

1007
00:44:07,040 --> 00:44:10,800
Speaker 6: I know you was happy when Ari and Tina got cool.

1008
00:44:11,160 --> 00:44:13,560
Speaker 6: I know because the long back and forth and the

1009
00:44:13,600 --> 00:44:14,320
Speaker 6: beef and stuff.

1010
00:44:14,520 --> 00:44:16,080
Speaker 7: How did that make you feel? To see that?

1011
00:44:16,920 --> 00:44:19,440
Speaker 3: It made me feel great, like amazing.

1012
00:44:19,520 --> 00:44:21,600
Speaker 4: For really had nothing to do with that, Nah.

1013
00:44:21,520 --> 00:44:22,799
Speaker 3: Nothing, nothing at all.

1014
00:44:23,080 --> 00:44:27,520
Speaker 4: And the reason why it happened is because you don't like,

1015
00:44:27,880 --> 00:44:29,880
Speaker 4: you don't really play the middle. You just play right

1016
00:44:29,880 --> 00:44:31,600
Speaker 4: and wrong. You know what I'm saying, Like, you don't

1017
00:44:31,600 --> 00:44:33,799
Speaker 4: play the middle. You know what I'm saying like, I'm

1018
00:44:33,840 --> 00:44:38,160
Speaker 4: not going like shy away from my love for my woman.

1019
00:44:38,239 --> 00:44:40,279
Speaker 4: I'm not going to shy away from my love for

1020
00:44:40,360 --> 00:44:40,719
Speaker 4: my son.

1021
00:44:40,840 --> 00:44:42,080
Speaker 3: Mom. You feel me like.

1022
00:44:42,680 --> 00:44:46,040
Speaker 4: Just like I just want everybody to be a family.

1023
00:44:46,239 --> 00:44:49,000
Speaker 6: And you said, we're not a blended family. With a family,

1024
00:44:49,560 --> 00:44:50,600
Speaker 6: everybody can call each other.

1025
00:44:50,600 --> 00:44:53,440
Speaker 4: And yeah, ive seen people say like, oh I love

1026
00:44:53,440 --> 00:44:56,560
Speaker 4: a blended family. It's like it's just a family. Like

1027
00:44:56,680 --> 00:44:57,640
Speaker 4: fuck the blended ship.

1028
00:44:57,920 --> 00:44:58,360
Speaker 7: I love that.

1029
00:44:58,400 --> 00:44:59,680
Speaker 5: Your money bag to this song.

1030
00:45:00,120 --> 00:45:03,879
Speaker 7: Yeah, yeah, yeah that too. How did that come about?

1031
00:45:04,120 --> 00:45:06,720
Speaker 3: We was like, uh, in Atlanta.

1032
00:45:06,800 --> 00:45:10,520
Speaker 4: I was in Atlanta for my son game, and I

1033
00:45:10,600 --> 00:45:14,160
Speaker 4: was talking about my show, like the Swerve and Friendship.

1034
00:45:14,239 --> 00:45:17,080
Speaker 3: I was talking about it, and I was on the

1035
00:45:17,160 --> 00:45:18,600
Speaker 3: phone with Bag at the time.

1036
00:45:18,880 --> 00:45:22,080
Speaker 4: I'm like, man, let me holler at him mellow like

1037
00:45:22,719 --> 00:45:25,319
Speaker 4: if I was talking to him like man, I'm trying

1038
00:45:25,320 --> 00:45:26,920
Speaker 4: to bring you out for this ship, you feel me?

1039
00:45:27,320 --> 00:45:29,400
Speaker 1: And he like, all right, bet, we need to do

1040
00:45:29,520 --> 00:45:30,359
Speaker 1: some shit real quick.

1041
00:45:31,080 --> 00:45:33,759
Speaker 4: I'm gonna send you something, send it back, gonna drop

1042
00:45:33,840 --> 00:45:35,759
Speaker 4: this ship before the show. It was like we had

1043
00:45:35,800 --> 00:45:37,800
Speaker 4: like a two week deadline or some shit like we

1044
00:45:37,880 --> 00:45:41,440
Speaker 4: did that shit quick. We sent the song no matter

1045
00:45:41,480 --> 00:45:43,799
Speaker 4: of fact, I don't even think he sent the song,

1046
00:45:43,960 --> 00:45:45,960
Speaker 4: tripping like we need to do some shit.

1047
00:45:46,000 --> 00:45:47,480
Speaker 3: We was in LA I pulled up on him.

1048
00:45:47,520 --> 00:45:50,000
Speaker 4: We did a song together, and then he like structured it,

1049
00:45:50,080 --> 00:45:52,760
Speaker 4: put the song together, then sent it and I finished

1050
00:45:52,800 --> 00:45:54,880
Speaker 4: the song. He's like, all right, bet we're finna shoot

1051
00:45:54,880 --> 00:45:57,080
Speaker 4: this ship on I think my show was on the

1052
00:45:57,200 --> 00:45:59,719
Speaker 4: twenty six or some shit like that. We shot the

1053
00:45:59,800 --> 00:46:02,279
Speaker 4: video on the twentieth, put that ship right out, and

1054
00:46:02,560 --> 00:46:04,919
Speaker 4: I brought him out to the song. So it's like, yeah,

1055
00:46:04,960 --> 00:46:06,560
Speaker 4: he put that play together. That was hard.

1056
00:46:07,840 --> 00:46:09,719
Speaker 7: It's about you said, y'all rushed and did it.

1057
00:46:09,880 --> 00:46:13,320
Speaker 3: Yeah, that ship, we definitely rushed and did it like

1058
00:46:13,480 --> 00:46:15,040
Speaker 3: all that ship was strategic for sure.

1059
00:46:15,200 --> 00:46:18,040
Speaker 7: Did y'all have any conversations you know about the relationship.

1060
00:46:18,120 --> 00:46:19,000
Speaker 7: Y'all never even had to know.

1061
00:46:19,320 --> 00:46:20,640
Speaker 3: Hell, we don't even got to do that.

1062
00:46:20,719 --> 00:46:22,719
Speaker 4: Bro like me and him ain't never had no like

1063
00:46:23,239 --> 00:46:25,800
Speaker 4: differist like it was never no confusion and none of

1064
00:46:25,840 --> 00:46:28,279
Speaker 4: that type of ship like at all. We ain't got

1065
00:46:28,400 --> 00:46:30,560
Speaker 4: to talk about that because it's just it just is

1066
00:46:30,640 --> 00:46:31,000
Speaker 4: what it is.

1067
00:46:31,960 --> 00:46:33,440
Speaker 5: I want to ask one more question about just the

1068
00:46:33,480 --> 00:46:35,279
Speaker 5: grieving process, and I put a button on it. How

1069
00:46:35,320 --> 00:46:38,799
Speaker 5: have you helped Funny Marco through his grieving process? Because

1070
00:46:39,000 --> 00:46:41,600
Speaker 5: you killed him on the show. It's still impacted him.

1071
00:46:44,719 --> 00:46:46,839
Speaker 1: Just here he was just talking about him.

1072
00:46:46,960 --> 00:46:49,279
Speaker 3: He was literally just here that when was that last week?

1073
00:46:49,400 --> 00:46:50,399
Speaker 4: Can you tell me what he said?

1074
00:46:50,440 --> 00:46:51,359
Speaker 3: What the fuck did he say?

1075
00:46:51,440 --> 00:46:53,960
Speaker 5: He just it hurt him and he's learning from it

1076
00:46:54,040 --> 00:46:55,839
Speaker 5: and he grew from it and he had to learn

1077
00:46:55,880 --> 00:46:58,279
Speaker 5: to have you know, thicker skin because of it. Like

1078
00:46:58,680 --> 00:47:00,880
Speaker 5: you ever think about how you affected one Marco negatively?

1079
00:47:01,880 --> 00:47:03,640
Speaker 1: Like, yeah, I did.

1080
00:47:03,719 --> 00:47:04,759
Speaker 3: I'm not gonna lie I did.

1081
00:47:05,400 --> 00:47:07,880
Speaker 4: But at the same time I didn't because and I

1082
00:47:08,120 --> 00:47:10,520
Speaker 4: and marcael my mans like me and him still talk.

1083
00:47:11,040 --> 00:47:13,960
Speaker 4: I didn't apologize to him about this ship. And it's like,

1084
00:47:15,520 --> 00:47:18,520
Speaker 4: it's like what I said, what happened in the watch

1085
00:47:18,600 --> 00:47:21,920
Speaker 4: come out in the rints like Marco's a troll. He

1086
00:47:22,080 --> 00:47:25,640
Speaker 4: hurt people feelings every single day, and they called me

1087
00:47:25,800 --> 00:47:28,120
Speaker 4: there to hurt his feelings. I swear to god, they

1088
00:47:28,200 --> 00:47:30,360
Speaker 4: literally called me there like me and south Side. We

1089
00:47:30,520 --> 00:47:32,800
Speaker 4: was drunk and all that shit for sure, like we

1090
00:47:33,239 --> 00:47:35,799
Speaker 4: I think the way we did it just came off

1091
00:47:35,840 --> 00:47:38,120
Speaker 4: a little aggressive because how we are as nature like

1092
00:47:38,160 --> 00:47:39,960
Speaker 4: we street niggas, you know what I'm saying, Like, I

1093
00:47:40,040 --> 00:47:42,920
Speaker 4: feel like he was a little intimidated when we did,

1094
00:47:44,160 --> 00:47:46,080
Speaker 4: but we wasn't going to do nothing to We weren't

1095
00:47:46,080 --> 00:47:48,920
Speaker 4: trying to scam. They literally called us there and said,

1096
00:47:49,719 --> 00:47:53,640
Speaker 4: do whatever, troll him, hurt them, disrespect them, talk like

1097
00:47:53,719 --> 00:47:55,759
Speaker 4: not disrespect them. I'm sorry, I'm not gonna say dispect them,

1098
00:47:56,160 --> 00:47:59,920
Speaker 4: talk about him, do whatever you Yeah, they told us

1099
00:48:00,080 --> 00:48:01,759
Speaker 4: to flip the script, but he didn't know that. I

1100
00:48:01,800 --> 00:48:07,640
Speaker 4: don't think he told us to do that what.

1101
00:48:07,760 --> 00:48:09,520
Speaker 3: We did and he needed to be more prepared.

1102
00:48:09,560 --> 00:48:11,319
Speaker 4: What did he say, I forgot the other day when

1103
00:48:11,360 --> 00:48:11,719
Speaker 4: he was here.

1104
00:48:12,280 --> 00:48:13,640
Speaker 1: Now he said he should have trolled back.

1105
00:48:14,080 --> 00:48:21,000
Speaker 4: Ye don't know whether he posted to troll back and

1106
00:48:21,239 --> 00:48:24,520
Speaker 4: just it would have been a totally different experience. They

1107
00:48:24,600 --> 00:48:26,520
Speaker 4: think we came on there and shipped on him, and

1108
00:48:26,640 --> 00:48:28,520
Speaker 4: we wasn't doing that. We was really having fun. We

1109
00:48:28,640 --> 00:48:33,040
Speaker 4: fucked with broke, but he wasn't like ready for a

1110
00:48:33,160 --> 00:48:35,200
Speaker 4: nigga to come and do that to him, like and

1111
00:48:35,280 --> 00:48:37,600
Speaker 4: when we left, his team was like, oh, we love it.

1112
00:48:37,640 --> 00:48:40,160
Speaker 4: It's gonna be so great. They called and asked me

1113
00:48:40,280 --> 00:48:42,960
Speaker 4: in Southside, do we want our own show? I swear

1114
00:48:43,000 --> 00:48:45,759
Speaker 4: to god, Wow, y'all want your own show? Like, man,

1115
00:48:45,800 --> 00:48:47,879
Speaker 4: he don't know do that we'll give a funk about

1116
00:48:47,880 --> 00:48:50,279
Speaker 4: having their own show. We just did. Like they literally

1117
00:48:50,400 --> 00:48:52,160
Speaker 4: called us and asked us, did we want to show

1118
00:48:52,280 --> 00:48:53,800
Speaker 4: that we want all this ship like you feel me

1119
00:48:53,840 --> 00:48:56,640
Speaker 4: in Like no, but we really had fun at night.

1120
00:48:56,680 --> 00:48:57,560
Speaker 3: I ain't gonna lie right.

1121
00:48:58,760 --> 00:49:02,719
Speaker 4: We didn't think that it was going like how that

1122
00:49:02,840 --> 00:49:04,920
Speaker 4: effect on the world and on him too, So like

1123
00:49:05,040 --> 00:49:07,040
Speaker 4: shout funny, Margot, man, I fuck with you like and

1124
00:49:07,120 --> 00:49:10,080
Speaker 4: I told him this though, Like I was like, bro, man, nigga,

1125
00:49:10,120 --> 00:49:11,319
Speaker 4: you know, we fuck with you for real.

1126
00:49:11,400 --> 00:49:13,680
Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying. But like we definitely violated.

1127
00:49:13,719 --> 00:49:14,360
Speaker 3: I ain't gonna.

1128
00:49:16,160 --> 00:49:17,480
Speaker 4: He said he used to just one person.

1129
00:49:17,520 --> 00:49:18,719
Speaker 3: He said, it was two of y'all.

1130
00:49:21,120 --> 00:49:24,360
Speaker 5: We valolated. Man, I apologize again. Man, you got the

1131
00:49:24,480 --> 00:49:27,360
Speaker 5: song thank me. How important is to thank yourself?

1132
00:49:27,440 --> 00:49:27,600
Speaker 1: Man?

1133
00:49:29,440 --> 00:49:30,680
Speaker 3: Very very important man.

1134
00:49:30,800 --> 00:49:33,759
Speaker 4: And I feel like I ain't really realize that until

1135
00:49:33,760 --> 00:49:36,400
Speaker 4: I did that record, Like you gotta think yourself and

1136
00:49:36,480 --> 00:49:39,040
Speaker 4: congratulate yourself. You feel I'm saying because I'm one of

1137
00:49:39,120 --> 00:49:41,520
Speaker 4: them type of people that I'll really soon as I

1138
00:49:41,640 --> 00:49:44,200
Speaker 4: drop a project, soon as I do anything, I be

1139
00:49:44,360 --> 00:49:46,799
Speaker 4: on to the next ship. Like I don't even listen

1140
00:49:46,880 --> 00:49:49,160
Speaker 4: to like if I used to be that artist, Like

1141
00:49:49,280 --> 00:49:52,359
Speaker 4: soon as my album drop on Friday Saturday, I'm playing

1142
00:49:52,440 --> 00:49:55,160
Speaker 4: unreleased music that I just worked on. And you gotta

1143
00:49:55,200 --> 00:49:57,719
Speaker 4: live in like you gotta grasp ontil, you gotta live in.

1144
00:49:57,880 --> 00:50:00,560
Speaker 4: And went legit helped me do that, Like me having

1145
00:50:00,600 --> 00:50:04,160
Speaker 4: that type of big record and everybody just like congratulating

1146
00:50:04,200 --> 00:50:07,160
Speaker 4: me and just like telling me this record is this

1147
00:50:07,360 --> 00:50:08,880
Speaker 4: and you know what I'm saying, this is crazy and

1148
00:50:08,960 --> 00:50:11,640
Speaker 4: you got this moment and you the hottest right now,

1149
00:50:11,760 --> 00:50:13,399
Speaker 4: Like you feel what I'm saying. I never in my career,

1150
00:50:13,520 --> 00:50:15,160
Speaker 4: nobody never walked up on me, but like you the

1151
00:50:15,280 --> 00:50:16,920
Speaker 4: hottest out of everybody.

1152
00:50:17,040 --> 00:50:17,400
Speaker 3: You feel me.

1153
00:50:17,480 --> 00:50:19,520
Speaker 4: Niggas told me I'm the favorite rapper, Like yeah, you,

1154
00:50:20,120 --> 00:50:22,520
Speaker 4: but niggas walk up to me now and be like

1155
00:50:23,640 --> 00:50:25,879
Speaker 4: you the one, You the top dog, And I ain't

1156
00:50:25,920 --> 00:50:27,680
Speaker 4: never felt that before, you know what I'm saying. So

1157
00:50:27,760 --> 00:50:31,799
Speaker 4: it's like you gotta like thank yourself and you gotta like.

1158
00:50:33,600 --> 00:50:36,040
Speaker 3: Like live in in it.

1159
00:50:36,239 --> 00:50:38,879
Speaker 4: You feel me like a lot of times, and I said,

1160
00:50:38,920 --> 00:50:42,520
Speaker 4: is already a lot of rooms. I didn't used to

1161
00:50:42,640 --> 00:50:45,759
Speaker 4: be in them, bitches. For real, mentally I was really

1162
00:50:45,880 --> 00:50:49,759
Speaker 4: somewhere else, Like I really forgot a lot of my

1163
00:50:49,920 --> 00:50:51,759
Speaker 4: life and a lot of my career and a lot

1164
00:50:51,800 --> 00:50:53,839
Speaker 4: of relationships and a lot of people that I met.

1165
00:50:53,920 --> 00:50:56,560
Speaker 4: That was important because mentally, I'm just thinking about some

1166
00:50:56,640 --> 00:50:59,279
Speaker 4: whole water shit. So it's like you gotta grasp into

1167
00:50:59,360 --> 00:51:01,799
Speaker 4: it and be great for what you have. So that's

1168
00:51:01,880 --> 00:51:03,839
Speaker 4: like thank me that record, Like I had to deep,

1169
00:51:04,040 --> 00:51:08,080
Speaker 4: like dig deep into just like being grateful for what

1170
00:51:08,239 --> 00:51:10,879
Speaker 4: I got and thinking myself and just that I got

1171
00:51:10,960 --> 00:51:15,080
Speaker 4: this far, like I was able to change my circumstances,

1172
00:51:15,120 --> 00:51:20,279
Speaker 4: my family circumstances creative family have kids like and all

1173
00:51:20,360 --> 00:51:22,440
Speaker 4: this shit was kind of strategic, like I was. I

1174
00:51:22,600 --> 00:51:25,120
Speaker 4: was one of the niggas, Like I wasn't having no

1175
00:51:25,440 --> 00:51:28,360
Speaker 4: children until I got some money and got out the streets.

1176
00:51:29,000 --> 00:51:31,080
Speaker 4: I just couldn't do it, like for real, for real,

1177
00:51:31,160 --> 00:51:33,400
Speaker 4: Like I could have probably had ten kids already, you

1178
00:51:33,480 --> 00:51:35,520
Speaker 4: know what I'm saying. But I was just the type

1179
00:51:35,560 --> 00:51:39,719
Speaker 4: of nigga that I'm not doing that shit until I'm

1180
00:51:39,840 --> 00:51:42,840
Speaker 4: able to really like raise my kids and focus on

1181
00:51:42,920 --> 00:51:45,040
Speaker 4: my kids or find a woman that I cared about

1182
00:51:45,160 --> 00:51:47,239
Speaker 4: enough to create a family with them, you know what

1183
00:51:47,280 --> 00:51:50,600
Speaker 4: I'm saying. And when I think about that type of shit,

1184
00:51:50,800 --> 00:51:53,200
Speaker 4: just being grateful that I was able to like create

1185
00:51:53,320 --> 00:51:55,359
Speaker 4: life for real, for real, like you know what I'm saying.

1186
00:51:55,440 --> 00:51:58,320
Speaker 4: So it's very important to thank yourself. And that's a

1187
00:51:58,480 --> 00:51:59,759
Speaker 4: real important record for shure.

1188
00:52:00,520 --> 00:52:02,799
Speaker 5: Are you still struggling with a nightmare because on one

1189
00:52:02,920 --> 00:52:06,040
Speaker 5: chance you say you're dealing with sleep paralysis, you.

1190
00:52:06,080 --> 00:52:08,440
Speaker 3: Know you be having nightmaenes? You still that's ship bad, bro?

1191
00:52:08,560 --> 00:52:10,920
Speaker 3: Ain't we say that's the hag riding you?

1192
00:52:11,880 --> 00:52:14,919
Speaker 5: When you have to sleep paralys when you can't your eyes,

1193
00:52:15,120 --> 00:52:17,640
Speaker 5: your eyes are open, you feel like what you mean,

1194
00:52:17,719 --> 00:52:25,480
Speaker 5: Like hag is a spiritual creature, maybe evil depending on

1195
00:52:25,560 --> 00:52:28,360
Speaker 5: who you ask, but it haunts you.

1196
00:52:28,560 --> 00:52:29,920
Speaker 3: I definitely, And.

1197
00:52:30,160 --> 00:52:34,719
Speaker 4: I'm very spiritual for sure. Like, and I struggle with

1198
00:52:34,840 --> 00:52:37,880
Speaker 4: sleep a lot, like sleep paradises I have. Sleep paralysis

1199
00:52:37,960 --> 00:52:40,879
Speaker 4: is a lot, nightmare is a lot. Like sometimes my girl,

1200
00:52:41,120 --> 00:52:43,719
Speaker 4: just wake me up, and like you feel me, like

1201
00:52:43,840 --> 00:52:46,120
Speaker 4: I sweat in my sleep, Like I ain't gonna lie.

1202
00:52:46,320 --> 00:52:49,120
Speaker 4: I still got a lot of healing to do, Like

1203
00:52:49,560 --> 00:52:51,759
Speaker 4: it's a point where I say this to my girl

1204
00:52:51,760 --> 00:52:52,160
Speaker 4: all the time.

1205
00:52:52,239 --> 00:52:55,400
Speaker 3: You think I'd be joking, Like, and that's why you

1206
00:52:55,560 --> 00:52:57,080
Speaker 3: do this ship, Like that's why you.

1207
00:52:59,000 --> 00:53:01,840
Speaker 4: Get money and you do the shit you're doing so

1208
00:53:01,960 --> 00:53:04,040
Speaker 4: you could chill, Like I really want to be able

1209
00:53:04,040 --> 00:53:07,479
Speaker 4: to chill and just sleep and relax and heal and heal,

1210
00:53:07,640 --> 00:53:09,320
Speaker 4: Like it's a point of my life. I want to

1211
00:53:09,440 --> 00:53:12,200
Speaker 4: enjoy my life. I ain't like I'm trying to get

1212
00:53:12,320 --> 00:53:15,400
Speaker 4: enough money to quit for real. Real, Like when artists

1213
00:53:15,440 --> 00:53:17,319
Speaker 4: were like Nigga be like, oh yeah, you fell off,

1214
00:53:17,360 --> 00:53:19,279
Speaker 4: They gonna say that shit to death when it comes

1215
00:53:19,360 --> 00:53:21,359
Speaker 4: in because I'm stopping this shit.

1216
00:53:21,440 --> 00:53:22,760
Speaker 3: I'm gonna enjoy my family.

1217
00:53:22,760 --> 00:53:25,360
Speaker 4: I'm enjoying my kids because I really can't sleep some

1218
00:53:25,560 --> 00:53:28,719
Speaker 4: nice like for real. Three four days ago, I woke

1219
00:53:28,840 --> 00:53:31,399
Speaker 4: up every single hour. I told my girl she was sleep,

1220
00:53:31,480 --> 00:53:32,480
Speaker 4: she's sleeping like a baby.

1221
00:53:33,120 --> 00:53:33,799
Speaker 3: I woke up.

1222
00:53:33,800 --> 00:53:37,520
Speaker 4: Every hour because I heard five six nightmentes. I can't sleep.

1223
00:53:37,800 --> 00:53:39,880
Speaker 4: This shit is fucked up for me, you feel me?

1224
00:53:39,960 --> 00:53:41,919
Speaker 4: And I still wake up and do the breakfast club.

1225
00:53:41,960 --> 00:53:44,480
Speaker 4: I still go do my shows. I still go to

1226
00:53:44,560 --> 00:53:46,600
Speaker 4: the studio like if what I'm saying, I still try

1227
00:53:46,680 --> 00:53:48,920
Speaker 4: to show up. So it's gonna be a point of

1228
00:53:48,960 --> 00:53:51,480
Speaker 4: my life and my career. Well, I'm quitting this shit.

1229
00:53:52,160 --> 00:53:53,840
Speaker 5: I need to be able to take care of everybody

1230
00:53:54,000 --> 00:53:57,440
Speaker 5: and go to sleep, just chill and just go vacation.

1231
00:53:57,200 --> 00:54:00,680
Speaker 4: And be with my family. Like I'm g I've only

1232
00:54:00,760 --> 00:54:03,879
Speaker 4: been to three four countries. I have not seen the world.

1233
00:54:04,360 --> 00:54:05,399
Speaker 4: I want to see this ship.

1234
00:54:05,480 --> 00:54:06,800
Speaker 1: They're gonna start seeing it now because.

1235
00:54:09,520 --> 00:54:10,080
Speaker 4: I just want to say.

1236
00:54:10,120 --> 00:54:12,960
Speaker 5: The hag feeds off the energy of the sleeping victims,

1237
00:54:13,680 --> 00:54:15,640
Speaker 5: so it steals their breath and where their skin is

1238
00:54:15,640 --> 00:54:16,160
Speaker 5: a disguise.

1239
00:54:16,760 --> 00:54:19,440
Speaker 4: So but I've seen a lot of death, bro, you know,

1240
00:54:19,480 --> 00:54:22,680
Speaker 4: I mean dead bodies. I've seen a lot, seeing my

1241
00:54:22,880 --> 00:54:28,439
Speaker 4: friends die a lot. Everything about getting saved, not really,

1242
00:54:29,280 --> 00:54:31,600
Speaker 4: to be honest, not really, I haven't.

1243
00:54:31,680 --> 00:54:33,840
Speaker 5: I've been thinking about it. I'm not, but I've been

1244
00:54:33,880 --> 00:54:36,080
Speaker 5: thinking about it for sure, Like why are you looking

1245
00:54:36,120 --> 00:54:36,480
Speaker 5: at me like.

1246
00:54:36,480 --> 00:54:38,480
Speaker 7: That because you've been thinking about getting saved with you not?

1247
00:54:40,280 --> 00:54:42,960
Speaker 4: No, I mean I'm not saved, but I know you're

1248
00:54:43,040 --> 00:54:44,800
Speaker 4: not saying. He doesn't say he's not doing it.

1249
00:54:46,160 --> 00:54:48,440
Speaker 3: I've been thinking about it. I just wanted to.

1250
00:54:49,280 --> 00:54:51,520
Speaker 4: I don't know. I'm just always looking for different ways

1251
00:54:51,600 --> 00:54:55,320
Speaker 4: to find in peace for sure, definitely I need it

1252
00:54:55,560 --> 00:54:58,480
Speaker 4: and my like my biggest thing, like what bring me

1253
00:54:58,560 --> 00:55:00,520
Speaker 4: peace for real is just being around my kids. I

1254
00:55:00,600 --> 00:55:03,879
Speaker 4: swear to guys when I be home, like my girls

1255
00:55:03,920 --> 00:55:07,520
Speaker 4: say that, and I like seeing little memes and ship

1256
00:55:07,680 --> 00:55:10,680
Speaker 4: like when you comfortable and you at comfort, that's when

1257
00:55:10,719 --> 00:55:13,239
Speaker 4: you really sleep. I like I just said, I got

1258
00:55:13,400 --> 00:55:16,480
Speaker 4: sleep proudly don't sleep, but sometimes like I could come home,

1259
00:55:16,600 --> 00:55:18,879
Speaker 4: like when I'm on the road, it just that one

1260
00:55:19,040 --> 00:55:22,839
Speaker 4: night of sleep everything for me, like for real, for real,

1261
00:55:22,920 --> 00:55:24,520
Speaker 4: Like I get home and be with my girl on

1262
00:55:24,600 --> 00:55:27,120
Speaker 4: the couch and be with my kids and I just

1263
00:55:27,280 --> 00:55:27,880
Speaker 4: fall asleep.

1264
00:55:27,960 --> 00:55:30,879
Speaker 3: Bro, that ship just bring me so much comfort and peace.

1265
00:55:31,520 --> 00:55:32,680
Speaker 4: That's your sign.

1266
00:55:32,760 --> 00:55:35,520
Speaker 3: Be like you always sleeping, all you do is sleep.

1267
00:55:35,560 --> 00:55:37,920
Speaker 2: I can't you do sleep, But that's the best. That's

1268
00:55:37,920 --> 00:55:40,120
Speaker 2: the best time you feel comfortable at home. We want

1269
00:55:40,160 --> 00:55:41,920
Speaker 2: to get into something that what you want to hear

1270
00:55:42,080 --> 00:55:42,600
Speaker 2: down man.

1271
00:55:42,960 --> 00:55:43,839
Speaker 3: Let's play give it out.

1272
00:55:43,880 --> 00:55:45,000
Speaker 4: That's one of my favorite songs.

1273
00:55:45,000 --> 00:55:47,480
Speaker 1: And we appreciate you for joining us. Brother.

1274
00:55:48,760 --> 00:55:50,759
Speaker 3: I do have one last question before you.

1275
00:55:50,760 --> 00:55:52,600
Speaker 1: Do that chat. Yeah, we all lives. If you've got questions,

1276
00:55:52,719 --> 00:55:56,080
Speaker 1: you heard, but let us know now because let's get

1277
00:55:56,160 --> 00:55:56,480
Speaker 1: a chat.

1278
00:55:56,600 --> 00:55:59,239
Speaker 3: But I wanted to ask you about Chicago, right.

1279
00:56:00,200 --> 00:56:03,439
Speaker 4: It built you, but it also caused you so much pain.

1280
00:56:04,200 --> 00:56:08,760
Speaker 4: What's your relationship with the city now? It's like it's crazy.

1281
00:56:08,880 --> 00:56:11,080
Speaker 4: I love Chicago so much and I just had this

1282
00:56:11,200 --> 00:56:14,200
Speaker 4: conversation with me yesterday. He like, Bro, we about to

1283
00:56:14,280 --> 00:56:16,680
Speaker 4: neglect that bitch, like we not even going there on

1284
00:56:16,800 --> 00:56:19,279
Speaker 4: tour or nothing, like they gotta really miss you for

1285
00:56:19,400 --> 00:56:21,800
Speaker 4: real real because I go there so much and and

1286
00:56:22,080 --> 00:56:27,640
Speaker 4: I be feeling comfortable because it just it's home for me,

1287
00:56:27,760 --> 00:56:30,520
Speaker 4: you know what I'm saying. And I still, of course,

1288
00:56:30,640 --> 00:56:32,960
Speaker 4: like I already you know I'm gonna be on my

1289
00:56:33,080 --> 00:56:35,440
Speaker 4: on my head on swivel, regardless, you know what I'm saying,

1290
00:56:35,480 --> 00:56:37,160
Speaker 4: I always take precaution and do all of that.

1291
00:56:37,600 --> 00:56:39,080
Speaker 3: My relationship with Chicago is.

1292
00:56:39,520 --> 00:56:41,800
Speaker 4: My mother won't leave, you know what I'm saying, Like

1293
00:56:42,440 --> 00:56:44,839
Speaker 4: she won't leave, so it's like my heart is still

1294
00:56:44,880 --> 00:56:47,279
Speaker 4: there something like not even some days a lot of that.

1295
00:56:47,360 --> 00:56:49,359
Speaker 4: I go to Chicago and I don't see my mom

1296
00:56:49,400 --> 00:56:51,320
Speaker 4: because she hang with me in LA like she'd be

1297
00:56:51,400 --> 00:56:53,759
Speaker 4: with me out of that. But my heart is still

1298
00:56:53,760 --> 00:56:56,839
Speaker 4: in Chicago. My mom, now, my auntie's there, my grandmother there,

1299
00:56:57,000 --> 00:56:59,239
Speaker 4: like my friends there. So I go there and I

1300
00:56:59,400 --> 00:57:01,759
Speaker 4: enjoy myself. If I go to restaurants, I do this

1301
00:57:01,920 --> 00:57:06,800
Speaker 4: and like I really moved in Chicago, like probably nobody

1302
00:57:06,880 --> 00:57:09,520
Speaker 4: else for real, for real, it's not many artists in Chicago,

1303
00:57:09,719 --> 00:57:12,320
Speaker 4: especially as big as I am at my level, that

1304
00:57:12,640 --> 00:57:14,960
Speaker 4: go outside and do the ship that I do in Chicago.

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Speaker 4: I go to clubs every time I'm there. I go

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Speaker 4: to restaurants, like I don't sit in my hotel. I

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Speaker 4: go outside in Chicago. And I just did that big

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Speaker 4: ass concert and hit all them artists there, and I

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Speaker 4: went to three spots after that, like they.

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Speaker 3: Didn't like my team didn't want me to go outside.

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Speaker 5: Saying this in the check Now you'd be everywhere you

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Speaker 5: there love top five Chicago in Chicago, love her whole

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Speaker 5: like we.

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Speaker 4: Went to we did the show, and I went to

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Speaker 4: three places. I went to a bowling alley, a club,

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Speaker 4: and another club. And it was peaceful, like it was

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Speaker 4: no nothing like I hear everybody. I had Polo there,

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Speaker 4: Bag came outside. I already came outside, Doug came outside,

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Speaker 4: twenty one came outside. Every everybody came outside. And it's

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Speaker 4: like that ship really like it's smooth. It's dangerous, but

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Speaker 4: Chicago is a great place for sure.

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Speaker 1: Chad, say that Chicago love you like they love d rolls.

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Speaker 5: When they getting when you get when you get another

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Speaker 5: when we're doing another four minutes, the hell when they

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Speaker 5: getting anotherour.

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Speaker 3: I'm gonna definitely do it. I ain't gonna lie.

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Speaker 4: I be saying I'm done, but I definitely like that's

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Speaker 4: that's something that I just gotta do, like you know

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Speaker 4: how like like like like t Grizzly do the robberies,

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Speaker 4: I gotta keep doing four minutes A hell's for sure.

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Speaker 1: All right, Well, we appreciate you for joining.

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Speaker 2: Man, make sure you pick up her abo album this

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Speaker 2: week Her and It's the Breakfast Club, Good Morning, every

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Speaker 2: day a week.

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Speaker 1: Click up The Breakfast Club you don't finish for y'all done,