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Speaker 1: The Nicky Glazer Podcast. Here's hello here I am, It's

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Speaker 1: a Nickulaser podcast. Welcome to the show. It's Wednesday. Happy

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Speaker 1: to be here. I'm in Los Angeles, California, on the

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Speaker 1: west side near the Ocean. I haven't seen it yet,

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Speaker 1: don't plan on seeing it. Um walked by a Plate

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Speaker 1: studio today, thought about going in and like setting up

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Speaker 1: some sessions. That's as close as I'm going to get.

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Speaker 1: I think to that, just the idea, Like I I

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Speaker 1: googled it, I like looked up the site and was like, oh,

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Speaker 1: it's around the corner for me. I could go there,

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Speaker 1: and um, I might do that, but I don't know,

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Speaker 1: like a window shopper and I saw here Andrews in St. Louis. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: exactly for things that I should activities and solutions for

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Speaker 1: my skin and um well being the old I'm I'm

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Speaker 1: on the strip where I walk a mile down to

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Speaker 1: get Starbucks, and I swear to God, it's Juice bar

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Speaker 1: Pilates Studio, CBD Infusions, Juice bar Uh, facialist, nail salon,

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Speaker 1: Juice bar Uh Pilate Studio. It is. That's all there

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Speaker 1: is on this It's crazy. It's just who who needs

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Speaker 1: this much stuff. It's just I felt bad about myself

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Speaker 1: the entire time. There was a place to get ketamine infusions,

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Speaker 1: which is something that people have in l I do

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Speaker 1: for depression, which I was kind of interested in um

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Speaker 1: or like you know, ivy stuff. But it's just this

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Speaker 1: is a very UM's stay walking around in muted tones

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Speaker 1: with like just very flowy clothing, either very tight clothing

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Speaker 1: like Lulu like tight you know, yoga pants, or like

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Speaker 1: very flowy. But everything is like Beij's and you know Brown's,

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Speaker 1: Like everything's muted. Everyone seems peaceful and serene. Everyone has

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Speaker 1: a dog that's like behaving itself. Everyone's dog is like

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Speaker 1: on ketamine too. It's crazy. Um oh, Andrew just disappeared.

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Speaker 1: Well we'll wait for him to come back and I'll

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Speaker 1: just talk until he appears again. He literally like just

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Speaker 1: dropped off like there was I feel like there was

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Speaker 1: doing a Yeah, it really did feel like that. Um so, yeah,

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Speaker 1: I might try pilates or whatever. I am. Oh, he's

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Speaker 1: coming back. He's magically appearing again. Here comes David Copperfield.

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Speaker 1: Did you hit something with your foot or something? What's

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Speaker 1: going on you guys? I'm getting a flower delivery. Hold

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Speaker 1: on one second. Oh, wait a second, there's a man

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Speaker 1: with flowers that just walked by and he's kind of

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Speaker 1: looking at my door. Let me just take a peek,

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Speaker 1: and that's how they get me. Well, hell, oh, it's

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Speaker 1: for me. One second? Hello? Hi? Is that for me?

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Speaker 1: For NICKI? Yeah, that's me, thank you. Hold on, let

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Speaker 1: me um, let me get you a little tipola. You

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Speaker 1: just moved there yesterday. Someone found me andrew someone found me.

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Speaker 1: I'm guessing the only person who has my address is

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Speaker 1: the one who sent something. What do you tip of

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Speaker 1: flower guy? Ten bucks? That's probably seems good a guy. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: that's nice. He's taking a picture of it to confirm

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Speaker 1: that it's there. Do you want me in it to go? Yeah?

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Speaker 1: She's producing the picture right now. Hit the lighting rate?

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Speaker 1: Got it? Thank you because I'm I'm doing a podcast

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Speaker 1: right now. All right, Thank you so much. Have a

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Speaker 1: good one. All right. It is kind of insane looking.

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Speaker 1: It's very beautiful. It's got a lot going on. It

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Speaker 1: looks like a um butterfly shape almost. It's got My

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Speaker 1: mom would think this is hideous. I'll say that whenever

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Speaker 1: I get flowers. My mom is just like I wouldn't

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Speaker 1: have done that. I'm like, well, okay, well it's not

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Speaker 1: for you. Oh my god, it's actually so beautiful. Oh

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Speaker 1: this is definitely from Chris. Oh my god, it's so pretty.

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Speaker 1: It's really well done. Why did he send me this?

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Speaker 1: What did I do? I know what I didn't do

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Speaker 1: last night? Mission uncompleted. Um, oh my god, it's so pretty.

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Speaker 1: This place he always gets it's from seed floral fitting. Um.

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Speaker 1: He always gets some from here, and they're the most

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Speaker 1: beautiful arrangements. I was just gonna buy flowers today because

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Speaker 1: I was like, this place needs a little spice up. Okay,

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Speaker 1: it's for um. He sent it to my UM. I

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Speaker 1: wish I could tell you what name he sent it to,

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Speaker 1: because it's my fake name that I check into places

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Speaker 1: under so that stalkers can't kill me. Yeah, my real name,

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Speaker 1: um it said. Um oh, that's funny. I love that

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Speaker 1: we're doing this, so excited to be here with the

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Speaker 1: gal respectfully. And then he wrote a person's name that's

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Speaker 1: inside joke between us. That's so nice he has been.

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Speaker 1: He left me a card yesterday when he was going

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Speaker 1: and which he shared feelings. It was so nice. He

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Speaker 1: And I was like, please do that more, Please say

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Speaker 1: It just was so it's cute when boys get vulnerable

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Speaker 1: and like start stretching their wings in this way. It's

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Speaker 1: very nice that this flower arrangement costs so much freaking money.

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Speaker 1: What a nice guy. Um that was. So that's it's

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Speaker 1: so nice to get flowers, especially when you see a

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Speaker 1: flower man coming and you go, I hope those are

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Speaker 1: from me, but you can't say it out loud, and

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Speaker 1: then they are for you. It feels great. It's better

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Speaker 1: than when you just get there and there's flowers waiting.

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Speaker 1: It's better when you see the guy and you go,

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Speaker 1: no way are they from me? There never from me,

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Speaker 1: and you feel like a girl in an office who

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Speaker 1: never gets flowers, like a Drew Barrymore in a in

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Speaker 1: a movie that I don't know the example a beauty pageant.

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Speaker 1: They're so pretty. Oh my god, I love them. Um yeah,

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Speaker 1: so I feel special today, do you know, Jessica, Oh yeah,

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Speaker 1: I'm looking for he say, oh, I recognized you from

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Speaker 1: the road, but I'm looking for a different Girlie did

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Speaker 1: get recognized last night? I was like we were walking

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Speaker 1: down people seem to know who I was. When they

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Speaker 1: sent my name and all of my credits and I

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Speaker 1: walked on stage, people were like, oh my god, that's

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Speaker 1: Nicky Glazier. It was crazy. Um, even at the ending.

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Speaker 1: Chris and I went for a walk after dinner and

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Speaker 1: I was crying because my jeans were so tight that

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Speaker 1: And then all of a sudden, this girl, I was like,

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Speaker 1: and she was so sweet, and UM said she's a

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Speaker 1: and then we were walking further and he was like,

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Speaker 1: I just got recognized. I'm good in this neighborhood. Until

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Speaker 1: I'm a okay, No, it was very nice, and we

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Speaker 1: some sets. I like live in that l a life again.

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Speaker 1: Took an uber to the sets. You know, when you

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Speaker 1: take an uber to a comedy club, they always go, oh,

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Speaker 1: I'm actually performing and they go, oh my god, is

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Speaker 1: it your first time? Have you done this before? Just

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Speaker 1: like yeah, I mean And then but the girl, I

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Speaker 1: But at the same time, I don't owe anyone a conversation, right,

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Speaker 1: even if it's uber. Black people are you an actress?

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Speaker 1: Are you a TikToker? Oh? You actually just do this

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Speaker 1: for how long? Twenty years? It has been twenty years.

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Speaker 1: I just want to say someone found the Chapelle show ticket,

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Speaker 1: like someone found I guess on Pinterest or something. Someone

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Speaker 1: And one of our best he's found the actual ticket

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Speaker 1: from March five. I believe it was two thousand three. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: two thousand three, two three, and um, that makes total

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Speaker 1: sense because I went to go see his show because

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Speaker 1: oh here it is March second, Sunday, March second, two

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Speaker 1: Marched like twelve. It was like a week and a

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Speaker 1: out what stand up comedy is. So I was like,

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Speaker 1: so it all times. Thankfully, you know, the way I

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Speaker 1: there's some evidence of this. Otherwise nothing. It's so crazy

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Speaker 1: UM Mysterious Man Walking Aslando is the moment they started

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Speaker 1: keeping records. Just well, I feel like a documented day.

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Speaker 1: And then you you have you have a huge venue

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Speaker 1: there's no record of it online. That's one of the

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Speaker 1: most obnoxious things about UM. Like searching there's a couple

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Speaker 1: of things on the Internet where I go, how have

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Speaker 1: we not remedied? This one is searching lyrics. It's still

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Speaker 1: like you're searching porn, like pop ups come up. There's

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Speaker 1: miss lyrics, Like there's no like one IMDb for lyrics

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Speaker 1: that is like fact checked. And then there's also UM

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Speaker 1: concerts from the past. There's there should be records archives

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Speaker 1: of every big major venue and every artist that was there.

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Speaker 1: Like I keep trying to look for John Mayer when

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Speaker 1: he was at the at some when I saw him

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Speaker 1: in two thousand, Open for Guster. There's no evidence, there's

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Speaker 1: no record of it. I can't find it anywhere. How

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Speaker 1: is no one writing about that, or how did no one?

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Speaker 1: How is this not like the data collect there's like,

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Speaker 1: you know, we know, like the pioneers, how many people

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Speaker 1: like went to you know, town hall meetings back then.

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Speaker 1: But this was a thing where thousands of people collected

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Speaker 1: together and there's no record of it in the two thousands.

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Speaker 1: That seems weird to me. No, okay, let's put it

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Speaker 1: out there. Let's put it out Where was the concert? Okay?

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Speaker 1: I really like this. The pageant and it was John Mayor.

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Speaker 1: And I know you'll find a lot of Guster opening

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Speaker 1: for John Mayer, but no, this is John Mayer opening

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Speaker 1: for Guster either your Fall Spring of two thousand, Fall

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Speaker 1: of two thousand or Spring of two thousand one the

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Speaker 1: Pageant Theater in St. Louis Macary. And if you can

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Speaker 1: find that, thank you very much. Yeah. I mean, like,

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Speaker 1: I love our little internet sluice. It's been it's been

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Speaker 1: very helpful. But I just well, it's like you know,

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Speaker 1: grateful Dead back in the day, or like this tape

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Speaker 1: was eighty four or nineteen seventy three live from you know,

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Speaker 1: freaking uh someplace in Pennsylvania. You know, that's how people

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Speaker 1: then eventually I guess they would record the tapes. But

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Speaker 1: John Mayer and Guster, I don't think anyone like that show.

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Speaker 1: I don't think anyone like was like, I gotta remember that,

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Speaker 1: you're flowing, you're thinking of funny to go from that too? Okay,

424
00:23:07,200 --> 00:23:09,920
Speaker 1: are you guys read it's it's it's I remember the

425
00:23:09,960 --> 00:23:13,160
Speaker 1: first time I introduced you. Do you remember what I said? Yeah?

426
00:23:13,200 --> 00:23:19,399
Speaker 1: It was really bad, freak. It was like my big,

427
00:23:19,760 --> 00:23:23,720
Speaker 1: my big moment. Nikki gave me the opportunity to host

428
00:23:23,400 --> 00:23:28,000
Speaker 1: the first time. Yeah, I had a great set, did

429
00:23:28,160 --> 00:23:30,199
Speaker 1: very well. You didn't really hear it because you're in

430
00:23:30,200 --> 00:23:33,520
Speaker 1: the back. Uh you know, Yeah, I don't. I don't.

431
00:23:33,680 --> 00:23:37,160
Speaker 1: But it's not because of you. No, no, no, no,

432
00:23:37,200 --> 00:23:38,919
Speaker 1: I know. I'm just waking aout. So then when you

433
00:23:38,960 --> 00:23:41,879
Speaker 1: came up, I go, I was so nervous and it

434
00:23:42,000 --> 00:23:43,639
Speaker 1: was and I should have worked on this. I should

435
00:23:43,640 --> 00:23:45,720
Speaker 1: at least wrote it down. And then I go, you

436
00:23:46,640 --> 00:23:50,320
Speaker 1: you saw her on Howard Stern, you heard her on Conan,

437
00:23:50,920 --> 00:23:53,760
Speaker 1: and now she's here tonight, something like that, something like

438
00:23:53,960 --> 00:23:56,720
Speaker 1: you see her on you up the Serious x M,

439
00:23:57,520 --> 00:24:01,800
Speaker 1: and you on Howard's Stern, you smelled her on con

440
00:24:02,359 --> 00:24:04,240
Speaker 1: You're like going through the five sets is like you

441
00:24:04,320 --> 00:24:07,520
Speaker 1: got them all wrong and so funny. Yeah. And so

442
00:24:07,600 --> 00:24:10,000
Speaker 1: then I get off and I'm I feel exactly how

443
00:24:10,000 --> 00:24:13,320
Speaker 1: you're feeling now. And I was like really funked up

444
00:24:13,359 --> 00:24:15,280
Speaker 1: over it. And then I go, all right, next show,

445
00:24:15,320 --> 00:24:19,880
Speaker 1: I do the yeah, and you look at me, you go,

446
00:24:20,200 --> 00:24:27,760
Speaker 1: I know it's funny, but like work on it. That

447
00:24:27,920 --> 00:24:32,159
Speaker 1: is annoying. And like you say, so like when Benedict

448
00:24:32,200 --> 00:24:35,080
Speaker 1: Polizi opened for me. He was from f Boy Island.

449
00:24:35,080 --> 00:24:36,639
Speaker 1: When he opened for me in Vegas, he had like

450
00:24:36,680 --> 00:24:39,879
Speaker 1: his manager with him and he Benedict is on stage

451
00:24:39,880 --> 00:24:43,040
Speaker 1: and I'm about to go, you know, on to stage,

452
00:24:43,080 --> 00:24:45,080
Speaker 1: and I just want to give everyone who has performed

453
00:24:45,119 --> 00:24:46,680
Speaker 1: a shout out him, like give it up for Anya

454
00:24:46,720 --> 00:24:48,320
Speaker 1: and Benedict, but I want to say his name again,

455
00:24:48,400 --> 00:24:50,840
Speaker 1: so people follow him and everything, and I go to

456
00:24:50,920 --> 00:24:52,760
Speaker 1: his manager real quick. I was like, it's Polize, right,

457
00:24:52,760 --> 00:24:55,960
Speaker 1: and he goes, yes, Polizy, it's not POLITZI, it's Polize

458
00:24:55,960 --> 00:24:58,480
Speaker 1: And I go, why would you give me that? So

459
00:24:58,640 --> 00:25:00,959
Speaker 1: of course I go out and I go, did it's Lizzy?

460
00:25:01,280 --> 00:25:03,040
Speaker 1: And I say the completely wrong thing, and I go,

461
00:25:03,200 --> 00:25:05,320
Speaker 1: I would have never done that had his manager not

462
00:25:05,560 --> 00:25:08,240
Speaker 1: gotten in my ear. But yeah, you just feel like

463
00:25:10,160 --> 00:25:16,040
Speaker 1: it's like, yes, it's it was, so it's it is that.

464
00:25:16,400 --> 00:25:18,320
Speaker 1: But that's what I get really nervous, is like I

465
00:25:18,440 --> 00:25:23,320
Speaker 1: feel like, you know, it's it's almost like you're a

466
00:25:23,400 --> 00:25:25,520
Speaker 1: race car driver and you're so good at what you

467
00:25:25,600 --> 00:25:28,200
Speaker 1: do and every turn is so precise, and every little

468
00:25:28,240 --> 00:25:30,040
Speaker 1: decision you make and then a bee flies in your

469
00:25:30,080 --> 00:25:33,440
Speaker 1: car and then you look unhinged and crazy like you

470
00:25:33,520 --> 00:25:37,200
Speaker 1: start going and everyone like knows you're a fool, you

471
00:25:37,280 --> 00:25:41,040
Speaker 1: know how like sometimes you know, um, when people fall,

472
00:25:41,440 --> 00:25:46,040
Speaker 1: you're just like, oh no, you're not like an Oscar

473
00:25:46,119 --> 00:25:48,920
Speaker 1: winning actor. You just felt like you just look that's

474
00:25:48,960 --> 00:25:52,200
Speaker 1: how it looks. You're human. But it almost makes you

475
00:25:52,280 --> 00:25:55,840
Speaker 1: go like, oh, no, like it takes away from the

476
00:25:55,920 --> 00:25:59,600
Speaker 1: whole thing. People don't realize like, oh, Nicky, no one

477
00:25:59,760 --> 00:26:01,440
Speaker 1: cares is it wasn't a big deal, And it was,

478
00:26:01,560 --> 00:26:03,400
Speaker 1: and it truly wasn't a big deal. It's just a set.

479
00:26:04,160 --> 00:26:08,159
Speaker 1: But like people, I bet you anything, if I hadn't

480
00:26:08,160 --> 00:26:10,800
Speaker 1: have done that, they would have had a better review

481
00:26:11,119 --> 00:26:14,199
Speaker 1: of my performance had that thing not happened at the end,

482
00:26:14,280 --> 00:26:18,440
Speaker 1: because it took something like subconsciously, it took something from

483
00:26:18,520 --> 00:26:21,960
Speaker 1: people's brains and we're like, she's kind of a dork

484
00:26:22,119 --> 00:26:24,760
Speaker 1: that doesn't know what's going on. There's something. Whether or

485
00:26:24,800 --> 00:26:27,120
Speaker 1: not they would ever admit it to themselves, I bet

486
00:26:27,240 --> 00:26:31,640
Speaker 1: science would show that they subconsciously rated me a little

487
00:26:31,680 --> 00:26:35,440
Speaker 1: bit less um professional because of it, because it was unprofessional.

488
00:26:35,480 --> 00:26:38,159
Speaker 1: I didn't know what I was saying. Um. But Owen

489
00:26:38,240 --> 00:26:39,800
Speaker 1: was so nice about He was like, I don't care.

490
00:26:39,960 --> 00:26:42,520
Speaker 1: He was like, I have the worst name for entertainment.

491
00:26:42,840 --> 00:26:46,119
Speaker 1: It is so boring. It is just there's nothing to

492
00:26:46,240 --> 00:26:48,879
Speaker 1: remember about it. It is just Owen Smith. He was like,

493
00:26:49,040 --> 00:26:50,880
Speaker 1: it happens all the time. He's like, I don't care.

494
00:26:51,280 --> 00:26:54,320
Speaker 1: So he was very nice about it. But um, And

495
00:26:54,400 --> 00:26:58,720
Speaker 1: then I went over to the laugh factory and that was, Um,

496
00:26:59,680 --> 00:27:03,600
Speaker 1: that was fun too. That was a really good time. Yeah,

497
00:27:03,680 --> 00:27:06,520
Speaker 1: it's it's nice to be working on new stuff and

498
00:27:06,600 --> 00:27:10,159
Speaker 1: getting up again and um yeah, and usually I like

499
00:27:10,440 --> 00:27:12,920
Speaker 1: walk across that. Usually I'm like staying across the street

500
00:27:12,920 --> 00:27:14,399
Speaker 1: from these places when I come to l a and

501
00:27:14,440 --> 00:27:16,960
Speaker 1: do sets. So it was it was nice to take

502
00:27:17,000 --> 00:27:18,879
Speaker 1: a drive in and kind of like think about what

503
00:27:18,960 --> 00:27:20,480
Speaker 1: I was gonna do and give it some thought because

504
00:27:20,520 --> 00:27:22,119
Speaker 1: that's pretty much the only thought that goes into it

505
00:27:22,240 --> 00:27:24,960
Speaker 1: these days. And uh, it was fun. And then you know,

506
00:27:25,040 --> 00:27:31,080
Speaker 1: I went back home and Chris obviously two minutes, but

507
00:27:31,160 --> 00:27:32,800
Speaker 1: it's you know, I'm going at nine o'clock at night.

508
00:27:33,640 --> 00:27:36,120
Speaker 1: So yeah, it wasn't bad. But I got some cars.

509
00:27:36,960 --> 00:27:41,119
Speaker 1: They're just shaky. There is a real difference between an

510
00:27:41,160 --> 00:27:43,480
Speaker 1: Uber Black and an Uber X. There are some cars

511
00:27:43,520 --> 00:27:46,119
Speaker 1: that are just like they're like the whole time, the

512
00:27:46,200 --> 00:27:50,159
Speaker 1: axles loose or something. I don't like it. Um, but

513
00:27:50,280 --> 00:27:52,760
Speaker 1: it's Uber's expensive. But I also talked to an Uber

514
00:27:52,840 --> 00:27:55,440
Speaker 1: driver the other night from l A X to our place,

515
00:27:56,359 --> 00:27:59,280
Speaker 1: and poor Uber drivers, if you take ubers, please tip

516
00:27:59,359 --> 00:28:04,159
Speaker 1: them well. Uber is fleecing these guys. They are not

517
00:28:04,280 --> 00:28:07,760
Speaker 1: making any money. It's and they can't like strike and

518
00:28:07,840 --> 00:28:10,560
Speaker 1: come together because they all work. There's no like hub

519
00:28:10,720 --> 00:28:13,399
Speaker 1: where they all go hang out and sit around the

520
00:28:13,440 --> 00:28:16,600
Speaker 1: water cooler and like talk. So there it's it's hard

521
00:28:16,640 --> 00:28:18,600
Speaker 1: for them to like get together and go like this

522
00:28:18,840 --> 00:28:22,600
Speaker 1: is not good. But they're just all barely getting by.

523
00:28:22,720 --> 00:28:27,360
Speaker 1: It's really sad, and Lifted apparently is worse. So that's

524
00:28:27,440 --> 00:28:28,840
Speaker 1: I just want to put that out there. Please tip

525
00:28:28,880 --> 00:28:31,639
Speaker 1: your Uber drivers very generously if you can afford to,

526
00:28:31,960 --> 00:28:37,080
Speaker 1: because there no because parking is such a bit. I mean,

527
00:28:37,160 --> 00:28:40,760
Speaker 1: I I do think because I was talking to Christmas

528
00:28:40,760 --> 00:28:41,960
Speaker 1: and I was like, it'd be ideal to have like

529
00:28:42,040 --> 00:28:45,880
Speaker 1: a personal dress chauffeur because Amy had that for a while.

530
00:28:46,000 --> 00:28:47,360
Speaker 1: She would just like there was always a guy that

531
00:28:47,480 --> 00:28:48,920
Speaker 1: was just waiting for her. And I go, that's what

532
00:28:49,120 --> 00:28:53,320
Speaker 1: Uber is, though, Like I'll just get that and um,

533
00:28:53,920 --> 00:28:55,840
Speaker 1: and it is nice to not have to find parking

534
00:28:55,920 --> 00:28:58,800
Speaker 1: and deal with street parking and the and and like

535
00:28:59,040 --> 00:29:02,480
Speaker 1: paying insurance and worrying about like hitting someone, and you know,

536
00:29:02,960 --> 00:29:05,120
Speaker 1: I think it's just worth it to just do just

537
00:29:05,440 --> 00:29:08,240
Speaker 1: do Uber everywhere I can. I like the idea, but

538
00:29:08,320 --> 00:29:10,560
Speaker 1: I don't like the idea that I'm supporting an industry

539
00:29:10,640 --> 00:29:13,320
Speaker 1: that sucks over their workers, though, But I don't know

540
00:29:13,400 --> 00:29:17,040
Speaker 1: what to do. What do you do? I don't know.

541
00:29:17,160 --> 00:29:21,120
Speaker 1: I mean, maybe just you find a guy. That's why

542
00:29:21,200 --> 00:29:23,720
Speaker 1: I guess the personal chauffeur is better if it's his

543
00:29:23,840 --> 00:29:26,480
Speaker 1: own company and it all goes to him. Guess that's

544
00:29:26,520 --> 00:29:28,320
Speaker 1: why that could be better. But I'll be so much

545
00:29:28,360 --> 00:29:32,640
Speaker 1: more expensive it's already, I mean, unless you get a

546
00:29:32,680 --> 00:29:37,760
Speaker 1: guy with a get a helicopter. I do. I do worry.

547
00:29:37,920 --> 00:29:39,920
Speaker 1: It's so peaceful out in Santa Monica. I thought I'd

548
00:29:39,960 --> 00:29:42,320
Speaker 1: get out here and be like worried about I'm worried

549
00:29:42,320 --> 00:29:45,120
Speaker 1: about tsunami, honestly, Like I just don't want to have

550
00:29:45,240 --> 00:29:50,040
Speaker 1: to die drowning or getting hit by garbage in water.

551
00:29:50,400 --> 00:29:53,760
Speaker 1: I'm so scared of natural weather events, and it feels

552
00:29:53,800 --> 00:29:55,880
Speaker 1: like the Midwest is the safest place to not be

553
00:29:56,040 --> 00:29:58,920
Speaker 1: around those. Also, the air out here, it feels good

554
00:29:58,920 --> 00:30:02,440
Speaker 1: out by the ocean, but it's dry. I don't know. Um,

555
00:30:02,960 --> 00:30:06,120
Speaker 1: I'm everyone. It was fun last night. I ran into

556
00:30:06,160 --> 00:30:10,000
Speaker 1: Annie Letterman and Jeremiah Watkins backstage. We took um. There

557
00:30:10,080 --> 00:30:12,200
Speaker 1: was a photographer there, and we all decided to do

558
00:30:12,920 --> 00:30:15,240
Speaker 1: to pretend we're handsome and take a photo shoot. So

559
00:30:15,360 --> 00:30:16,880
Speaker 1: that was really fun. So I look forward to that

560
00:30:17,000 --> 00:30:19,560
Speaker 1: picture coming up. I was like, can I be Taylor?

561
00:30:19,640 --> 00:30:20,920
Speaker 1: And I was like, I don't even know what that means.

562
00:30:20,960 --> 00:30:24,880
Speaker 1: I just wanted and so we uh. But it was

563
00:30:24,920 --> 00:30:26,840
Speaker 1: good because Annie was talking to me about going to

564
00:30:26,920 --> 00:30:30,480
Speaker 1: a hypnotist and she's just like so positive lately and like,

565
00:30:31,800 --> 00:30:33,280
Speaker 1: I don't know, there was just like a different vibe

566
00:30:33,280 --> 00:30:37,400
Speaker 1: about her. Annie Letterman is hilarious and very like. She

567
00:30:37,480 --> 00:30:38,720
Speaker 1: made I told her she made me laugh the other

568
00:30:38,800 --> 00:30:40,320
Speaker 1: day because I watched a clip and she was talking

569
00:30:40,320 --> 00:30:42,720
Speaker 1: about how she had a dream where she was someone

570
00:30:43,240 --> 00:30:46,560
Speaker 1: in a coffee shop witnessing her come like storming in

571
00:30:46,800 --> 00:30:50,000
Speaker 1: and being like just like being loud Annie Letterman, and

572
00:30:50,080 --> 00:30:53,320
Speaker 1: she like saw herself from a different perspective and was like, wow,

573
00:30:53,440 --> 00:30:56,040
Speaker 1: I'm a lot. And I just related to that because

574
00:30:56,120 --> 00:30:59,720
Speaker 1: I would never think about how much how loud and

575
00:31:00,720 --> 00:31:05,080
Speaker 1: you know, um like just demanding attention you are. I mean,

576
00:31:05,120 --> 00:31:07,200
Speaker 1: I she's a little bit more so than me. She

577
00:31:07,400 --> 00:31:10,200
Speaker 1: like she really is just has so much confidence, is

578
00:31:10,320 --> 00:31:14,160
Speaker 1: so like I don't know, I wish I had more

579
00:31:14,240 --> 00:31:15,560
Speaker 1: of that. And she even said it she was like,

580
00:31:15,680 --> 00:31:17,640
Speaker 1: you're richer than me. Why aren't you happier to me?

581
00:31:17,840 --> 00:31:20,120
Speaker 1: She was like, you have you should be less insecure

582
00:31:20,200 --> 00:31:23,080
Speaker 1: than I am. And I was like, I guess, but

583
00:31:23,200 --> 00:31:26,560
Speaker 1: I'm just like not. And then we're talking about UM.

584
00:31:27,360 --> 00:31:31,880
Speaker 1: She's talking about all like the um you know, psychedelic

585
00:31:32,000 --> 00:31:33,800
Speaker 1: she's done that have made her like. She was like,

586
00:31:33,840 --> 00:31:35,880
Speaker 1: I'm coming off a skank Fest weekend, which is this

587
00:31:36,040 --> 00:31:39,240
Speaker 1: big comedy festival that they did in um Las Vegas

588
00:31:39,320 --> 00:31:41,479
Speaker 1: with like tons like you know, so many of our

589
00:31:41,520 --> 00:31:44,480
Speaker 1: comedian friends, Andrew and I his friends UM were there

590
00:31:44,920 --> 00:31:48,360
Speaker 1: and she was like I said something like negative and

591
00:31:48,440 --> 00:31:50,920
Speaker 1: she was like, oh, I said, I was talking about,

592
00:31:51,000 --> 00:31:53,160
Speaker 1: you know, bringing people up on stage or and I

593
00:31:53,280 --> 00:31:55,239
Speaker 1: was like, I hate it because either the persons had

594
00:31:55,360 --> 00:31:56,760
Speaker 1: just to bring me up and I know they don't

595
00:31:56,800 --> 00:31:58,320
Speaker 1: even like me and they have to be like this

596
00:31:58,480 --> 00:32:00,720
Speaker 1: next comedian she's so funny, and I'm like, oh my god,

597
00:32:01,680 --> 00:32:03,560
Speaker 1: it's not like Bill Bird doesn't know who I am.

598
00:32:03,600 --> 00:32:05,520
Speaker 1: I don't want to him to waste his breath on

599
00:32:05,680 --> 00:32:07,840
Speaker 1: like coming up with my credits that he doesn't even know.

600
00:32:08,080 --> 00:32:10,600
Speaker 1: Like I just get embarrassed by it. And she was like,

601
00:32:11,120 --> 00:32:13,760
Speaker 1: we have to get every comedian loves each other now, like,

602
00:32:13,960 --> 00:32:15,640
Speaker 1: what do you even She was like, Oh, I forgot,

603
00:32:15,680 --> 00:32:17,800
Speaker 1: I'm coming off of a lot of psychedelics off this weekend.

604
00:32:17,920 --> 00:32:20,440
Speaker 1: You're right, we probably don't like each other. But she

605
00:32:20,600 --> 00:32:23,160
Speaker 1: was like don't. She goes, that's not a thing. Everyone

606
00:32:23,280 --> 00:32:25,400
Speaker 1: likes each other, and she goes, oh wait, I'm just on.

607
00:32:25,600 --> 00:32:29,160
Speaker 1: I'm still like tripping um. But she was super positive

608
00:32:29,240 --> 00:32:30,840
Speaker 1: that I liked her vibe. I was. She was like,

609
00:32:31,440 --> 00:32:33,720
Speaker 1: let it go because I was talking about how nervous

610
00:32:33,760 --> 00:32:36,560
Speaker 1: I am to promote shows and make videos of like

611
00:32:36,840 --> 00:32:40,760
Speaker 1: Hey Memphis, I'm coming to town. Hey Thousand Oaks, California,

612
00:32:41,160 --> 00:32:45,160
Speaker 1: catch me this November. Like I'm just so humiliated by

613
00:32:45,240 --> 00:32:47,800
Speaker 1: it and I can't do it. And Jeremiah and her

614
00:32:47,880 --> 00:32:51,000
Speaker 1: really talk to me about how I need to remember

615
00:32:51,320 --> 00:32:54,560
Speaker 1: that people actually want content from me, Like when they

616
00:32:54,640 --> 00:32:57,080
Speaker 1: see a video come up there, like they want to

617
00:32:57,120 --> 00:33:01,120
Speaker 1: watch it. Whereas I just have one female comic who

618
00:33:01,200 --> 00:33:03,080
Speaker 1: is kind of a bully from two thousand thirteen in

619
00:33:03,160 --> 00:33:05,120
Speaker 1: my head. She is always the person that stopps me

620
00:33:05,240 --> 00:33:08,360
Speaker 1: from posting everything. She doesn't even exist anymore. She's older

621
00:33:08,480 --> 00:33:11,120
Speaker 1: now and doesn't do that like I don't even think

622
00:33:11,160 --> 00:33:13,800
Speaker 1: about the versions of her now, but the version she

623
00:33:13,920 --> 00:33:17,920
Speaker 1: was in I think about that girl seeing me and

624
00:33:18,120 --> 00:33:20,760
Speaker 1: going like you and I just can't get it out

625
00:33:20,800 --> 00:33:22,480
Speaker 1: of my head. And they were like, you need to

626
00:33:22,520 --> 00:33:25,000
Speaker 1: remember your fans actually want things from you, and that

627
00:33:25,440 --> 00:33:27,440
Speaker 1: if you don't tell them where you're gonna be, they

628
00:33:27,480 --> 00:33:30,680
Speaker 1: don't have a chance to see you. And really, what

629
00:33:30,880 --> 00:33:33,520
Speaker 1: we do is like bring joy to people's lives and

630
00:33:33,560 --> 00:33:36,040
Speaker 1: we get them out of their heads for a hour

631
00:33:36,280 --> 00:33:39,920
Speaker 1: of their day. We give them relief in the form of,

632
00:33:40,280 --> 00:33:42,960
Speaker 1: you know, laughing, and we also let them see the

633
00:33:43,000 --> 00:33:45,320
Speaker 1: world differently. We make them feel less alone, like they

634
00:33:45,680 --> 00:33:47,520
Speaker 1: were doing a service. So if you think about like

635
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Speaker 1: you're denying someone the chance to see you by not

636
00:33:50,360 --> 00:33:53,160
Speaker 1: promoting it, then you can maybe get yourself to promote

637
00:33:53,200 --> 00:33:56,960
Speaker 1: more things. Because I think I just forget sometimes that

638
00:33:57,400 --> 00:33:59,760
Speaker 1: anyone would want want anything from me because I have

639
00:34:00,320 --> 00:34:02,520
Speaker 1: low self esteem. And I know I probably shouldn't say

640
00:34:02,520 --> 00:34:04,840
Speaker 1: that on this podcast where people listen to me every day,

641
00:34:04,960 --> 00:34:09,800
Speaker 1: but I just I forget that. It's so weird to

642
00:34:09,840 --> 00:34:12,520
Speaker 1: forget that I have a product, even though that's my

643
00:34:12,760 --> 00:34:16,640
Speaker 1: entire life. Is like the thing that I have made

644
00:34:16,680 --> 00:34:19,080
Speaker 1: my career off of I forget people even want it,

645
00:34:19,200 --> 00:34:21,160
Speaker 1: and I think that people actually don't want it and

646
00:34:21,160 --> 00:34:22,799
Speaker 1: they're gonna make fun of it, and that they're gonna

647
00:34:22,800 --> 00:34:24,960
Speaker 1: go They're gonna stop following me if I post too

648
00:34:25,080 --> 00:34:27,280
Speaker 1: much like I'm gonna they're just gonna go, oh god

649
00:34:27,400 --> 00:34:29,560
Speaker 1: and mute me. Like But the thing is, I never

650
00:34:29,760 --> 00:34:33,440
Speaker 1: ever see someone promote their shows and go ever. I

651
00:34:33,480 --> 00:34:35,960
Speaker 1: mean today I did because I go so much production

652
00:34:36,040 --> 00:34:38,640
Speaker 1: value went into this. It's not even funny. Just make

653
00:34:38,680 --> 00:34:42,359
Speaker 1: a video in your apartment talking selfie style, like why

654
00:34:42,440 --> 00:34:44,640
Speaker 1: did you spend all this money on this video that

655
00:34:44,840 --> 00:34:48,160
Speaker 1: literally lead to nothing? That's where I judge people. But

656
00:34:48,360 --> 00:34:51,520
Speaker 1: I don't think me making a video like come see

657
00:34:51,600 --> 00:34:56,040
Speaker 1: me in Davenport, Iowa gonna make people mad at me.

658
00:34:56,280 --> 00:34:59,360
Speaker 1: Why do I have that in my head? I have

659
00:34:59,480 --> 00:35:03,120
Speaker 1: the exact saying. I literally right before this podcast started,

660
00:35:03,200 --> 00:35:05,759
Speaker 1: twenty minutes before, I made a selfie saying come see

661
00:35:05,800 --> 00:35:08,440
Speaker 1: me in Austin, Texas. I'll be a cap city. And

662
00:35:08,560 --> 00:35:11,480
Speaker 1: then I couldn't just say it sincerely, so I added

663
00:35:11,560 --> 00:35:14,600
Speaker 1: like a little like stupid little joke like I'll be

664
00:35:14,760 --> 00:35:17,040
Speaker 1: going down the Lazy River on the rope swing and

665
00:35:17,120 --> 00:35:21,279
Speaker 1: get a cool taco with an authentic beer. Thanks, And

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00:35:21,400 --> 00:35:24,239
Speaker 1: that's a joke. That actually is a joke, Like that's

667
00:35:24,760 --> 00:35:30,200
Speaker 1: I want it? Okay? Well, all I know is like

668
00:35:30,480 --> 00:35:33,080
Speaker 1: it wasn't being viewed that much and not being liked,

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Speaker 1: and I just took it down. I was like, I'll

670
00:35:34,440 --> 00:35:36,239
Speaker 1: just put in my story. Did you wait for it?

671
00:35:36,719 --> 00:35:41,239
Speaker 1: Did you? Did you monitor it for like minutes? I

672
00:35:41,280 --> 00:35:45,319
Speaker 1: gave it minutes. We also know I'm crazy. I will

673
00:35:45,400 --> 00:35:47,200
Speaker 1: if I post something. That's the thing. I don't care

674
00:35:47,239 --> 00:35:49,480
Speaker 1: about the likes. Once I posted, it doesn't matter to me,

675
00:35:49,600 --> 00:35:51,239
Speaker 1: and I won't check it. So I don't know why

676
00:35:51,320 --> 00:35:54,000
Speaker 1: I even care. I've never once gone back on something

677
00:35:54,040 --> 00:35:56,600
Speaker 1: and looked at the likes or the views. I've never

678
00:35:56,680 --> 00:35:59,799
Speaker 1: done that, So why am I? Even if it did well,

679
00:35:59,840 --> 00:36:02,080
Speaker 1: I wouldn't know if it did poorly didn't, I wouldn't

680
00:36:02,120 --> 00:36:04,319
Speaker 1: know what am I worried about. I'm worried that I'm

681
00:36:04,360 --> 00:36:06,680
Speaker 1: worried about that one girl making fun of me and

682
00:36:06,800 --> 00:36:08,960
Speaker 1: thinking that I'm a loser, or someone being like, oh,

683
00:36:09,080 --> 00:36:11,480
Speaker 1: her face is kind of getting old. Oh she just

684
00:36:11,560 --> 00:36:13,440
Speaker 1: did her lips. She shouldn't have done that. Sending it

685
00:36:13,520 --> 00:36:16,040
Speaker 1: to people and the truth is I think that way

686
00:36:16,120 --> 00:36:20,040
Speaker 1: because that's what I do I and I won't stop

687
00:36:20,800 --> 00:36:22,440
Speaker 1: and and even said last night she was like, you're

688
00:36:22,440 --> 00:36:26,480
Speaker 1: not going to stop being that awful about other people

689
00:36:26,960 --> 00:36:29,080
Speaker 1: and judging them until you stop doing it to yourself.

690
00:36:29,719 --> 00:36:31,960
Speaker 1: So it was kind of an epiphany that and crying

691
00:36:32,000 --> 00:36:33,879
Speaker 1: as I walked down the street because my jeans didn't fit,

692
00:36:34,000 --> 00:36:37,080
Speaker 1: and having my boyfriend be like, I've never think You've

693
00:36:37,160 --> 00:36:40,280
Speaker 1: never looked better to me, and I'm like, I can't

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00:36:40,719 --> 00:36:43,759
Speaker 1: like breathe, Like I think I look good too, but

695
00:36:43,960 --> 00:36:46,920
Speaker 1: I can't breathe, and I need to get new pants.

696
00:36:47,800 --> 00:36:50,439
Speaker 1: And I was just like, I think where my brain

697
00:36:50,560 --> 00:36:52,960
Speaker 1: goes as I go, it only got this amount of likes,

698
00:36:53,000 --> 00:36:54,960
Speaker 1: which I don't really. It just makes me think, if

699
00:36:55,000 --> 00:36:57,160
Speaker 1: it's this an amount of likes, then no one's going

700
00:36:57,200 --> 00:36:59,000
Speaker 1: to come to this show, and no one likes me,

701
00:36:59,520 --> 00:37:03,560
Speaker 1: no one think some funny Do you think that people

702
00:37:03,640 --> 00:37:06,919
Speaker 1: will go to the show less if they see they'll

703
00:37:06,920 --> 00:37:09,040
Speaker 1: actively not go to the show, whereas if they never

704
00:37:09,160 --> 00:37:11,560
Speaker 1: saw that, they might go to the show, which doesn't

705
00:37:11,600 --> 00:37:13,960
Speaker 1: make any sense because if they don't see that, they

706
00:37:14,000 --> 00:37:17,160
Speaker 1: don't know about the show. Yeah, last night I made

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00:37:17,200 --> 00:37:19,640
Speaker 1: a poster. I can put pictures up all day long.

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00:37:19,880 --> 00:37:25,719
Speaker 1: Pictures posters, no problem. Video for me is excruciating. Yet

709
00:37:25,800 --> 00:37:28,759
Speaker 1: I watch people all the time post stuff that is

710
00:37:28,920 --> 00:37:31,799
Speaker 1: so and it wastes my time. I watch these people

711
00:37:31,840 --> 00:37:34,799
Speaker 1: posting things, and I'm like, I watched this, I don't.

712
00:37:35,160 --> 00:37:37,839
Speaker 1: It's not always that I scrutinize and judge. It's it's

713
00:37:37,960 --> 00:37:39,759
Speaker 1: quite often that I go, man, I wish I could

714
00:37:39,800 --> 00:37:41,799
Speaker 1: do that, and I just don't know what they'll hold

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00:37:41,880 --> 00:37:43,640
Speaker 1: up is. And so many besties have written me and

716
00:37:44,120 --> 00:37:47,160
Speaker 1: said really nice things about when I kind of talk

717
00:37:47,200 --> 00:37:50,839
Speaker 1: about these fears I have and and put my minded ease.

718
00:37:50,880 --> 00:37:53,480
Speaker 1: But I think we just need to remember, like our

719
00:37:53,640 --> 00:37:57,160
Speaker 1: job is to put out stuff, and if you know,

720
00:37:57,400 --> 00:37:59,280
Speaker 1: if we don't do it, it's as if we're showing

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00:37:59,320 --> 00:38:01,400
Speaker 1: up to work and not doing data entry. We're just

722
00:38:01,440 --> 00:38:03,120
Speaker 1: sitting there and staring at a blank screen, like we

723
00:38:03,200 --> 00:38:05,480
Speaker 1: work in North Korea on a computer or whatever they do.

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00:38:05,640 --> 00:38:07,600
Speaker 1: If you've ever seen those videos where people are like,

725
00:38:08,120 --> 00:38:12,560
Speaker 1: here's here's an active bunch of young North Koreans working

726
00:38:12,600 --> 00:38:14,520
Speaker 1: on computers, and they're all just like they don't even

727
00:38:14,560 --> 00:38:16,160
Speaker 1: know how to work a mouse, and it's just that

728
00:38:16,360 --> 00:38:19,520
Speaker 1: that's that's what it would be like we we have

729
00:38:19,719 --> 00:38:22,120
Speaker 1: to The work we we have to put in is

730
00:38:22,200 --> 00:38:25,759
Speaker 1: putting out content and it's um like Jeremiah was saying,

731
00:38:25,840 --> 00:38:29,279
Speaker 1: Jeremiah Watchings who does hilarious stuff, was like, sometimes I

732
00:38:29,320 --> 00:38:31,480
Speaker 1: put out a video and I'm just like, no one

733
00:38:31,600 --> 00:38:33,480
Speaker 1: wants this. I put out too much stuff, But like

734
00:38:33,920 --> 00:38:37,200
Speaker 1: I have to remember this is my job and I

735
00:38:37,320 --> 00:38:40,000
Speaker 1: have to. This is what people want. People do want this,

736
00:38:40,120 --> 00:38:42,480
Speaker 1: People want to see your face people I don't. I

737
00:38:42,560 --> 00:38:45,080
Speaker 1: don't know why it's so hard, And I guess it's

738
00:38:45,120 --> 00:38:47,000
Speaker 1: not so hard for me to perform live because it's

739
00:38:47,040 --> 00:38:49,080
Speaker 1: like once one thing and people can't go back and

740
00:38:49,200 --> 00:38:51,040
Speaker 1: send it to their friends and make fun of it.

741
00:38:51,560 --> 00:38:56,840
Speaker 1: It's that like lasting nature of a post that really

742
00:38:56,920 --> 00:39:01,680
Speaker 1: gets me more so than video feels personal, Like even

743
00:39:01,719 --> 00:39:03,640
Speaker 1: if it's a video, it feels more personal than like

744
00:39:03,719 --> 00:39:06,000
Speaker 1: a poster. Like I don't know, I get hurt more,

745
00:39:06,080 --> 00:39:08,759
Speaker 1: I get more emotional about it, and it's like I

746
00:39:08,840 --> 00:39:10,800
Speaker 1: probably should talk to a shrink about it, to be honest,

747
00:39:10,880 --> 00:39:13,360
Speaker 1: because I don't know why I value it so or

748
00:39:13,480 --> 00:39:15,680
Speaker 1: like why it makes me think of my value more

749
00:39:15,760 --> 00:39:19,160
Speaker 1: or less, Because I would say stop looking at the likes,

750
00:39:19,520 --> 00:39:22,400
Speaker 1: like if you took that out of it, it might help,

751
00:39:22,920 --> 00:39:25,000
Speaker 1: like because which I do. I just like, because you

752
00:39:25,120 --> 00:39:27,640
Speaker 1: are putting a value, well, you're putting a value on it.

753
00:39:27,760 --> 00:39:29,880
Speaker 1: If you look at the like you you are putting

754
00:39:29,880 --> 00:39:31,719
Speaker 1: a value on it, like this is very successful or

755
00:39:31,760 --> 00:39:33,319
Speaker 1: it's not, And then what does that mean? But if

756
00:39:33,360 --> 00:39:36,560
Speaker 1: you just put it out there and because your fear

757
00:39:36,640 --> 00:39:39,480
Speaker 1: is that someone's going to see it and say that's

758
00:39:39,560 --> 00:39:41,200
Speaker 1: and make fun of it? Are that you are? You

759
00:39:41,280 --> 00:39:46,640
Speaker 1: scare people make fun of you? I just think it's more. Yeah,

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00:39:46,680 --> 00:39:49,960
Speaker 1: I think people will. First of all, I know promotional

761
00:39:50,160 --> 00:39:53,360
Speaker 1: things get less likes, just like across the board, So

762
00:39:53,520 --> 00:39:56,400
Speaker 1: I I understand why it doesn't do as well. And

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00:39:56,440 --> 00:39:59,839
Speaker 1: I think what it is is I get, uh, someone

764
00:40:00,040 --> 00:40:02,400
Speaker 1: another comedian will come across and be like, forty eight

765
00:40:02,520 --> 00:40:07,200
Speaker 1: likes on a show promoting this show. Other comedians like,

766
00:40:07,480 --> 00:40:10,560
Speaker 1: so exactly what I said. So it's about other comedians

767
00:40:10,640 --> 00:40:15,600
Speaker 1: judging you, not really like actual audience members, no actual

768
00:40:15,719 --> 00:40:18,640
Speaker 1: people too, but yeah, there's no one really in particular.

769
00:40:18,760 --> 00:40:20,680
Speaker 1: Can you hide the likes? I think there's a way

770
00:40:20,680 --> 00:40:23,239
Speaker 1: to hide the likes you can, So let's just do that,

771
00:40:23,880 --> 00:40:26,160
Speaker 1: which I do Okay, why didn't you do it on

772
00:40:26,239 --> 00:40:29,759
Speaker 1: this last one? I don't know. I was just like,

773
00:40:30,440 --> 00:40:32,680
Speaker 1: the other thing is the views. It was only two

774
00:40:33,600 --> 00:40:36,600
Speaker 1: views in like twenty minutes, where usually I get like hundred.

775
00:40:36,680 --> 00:40:40,760
Speaker 1: So I'm like, okay that quickly. So I was just like, alright,

776
00:40:40,800 --> 00:40:43,400
Speaker 1: no one's seen as anyone going to see my stories anyway.

777
00:40:43,800 --> 00:40:48,319
Speaker 1: If you're looking down so sad, sorry in the top

778
00:40:48,360 --> 00:40:51,000
Speaker 1: of your keep that chin up. Andrew, I was counting

779
00:40:51,080 --> 00:40:56,400
Speaker 1: each person I like. Anyways, go to Andrew Colin Comedy

780
00:40:56,480 --> 00:40:59,120
Speaker 1: dot com and get tickets too much. Yeah, go to

781
00:40:59,200 --> 00:41:02,759
Speaker 1: our shows. Um, I have a tour that is going

782
00:41:03,040 --> 00:41:11,279
Speaker 1: so many places. I am all over the place Vermont, California, Iowa, Reno, Memphis, um,

783
00:41:11,520 --> 00:41:13,319
Speaker 1: on and on and on and then New Year's even

784
00:41:13,360 --> 00:41:15,520
Speaker 1: in St. Louis. Please come out to that show. It's

785
00:41:15,560 --> 00:41:18,600
Speaker 1: going to be spectacular and so so special to ring

786
00:41:18,680 --> 00:41:22,440
Speaker 1: in the New year together. Um. And we will be

787
00:41:22,520 --> 00:41:24,120
Speaker 1: back with Let's do a little bit news when we

788
00:41:24,120 --> 00:41:27,840
Speaker 1: get back from this. Can we go to break No? Yeah, alright,

789
00:41:27,960 --> 00:41:35,200
Speaker 1: let's do it. All right, we're back. Let's get to

790
00:41:35,239 --> 00:41:44,120
Speaker 1: the news. Oh it's Wednesday, folks, you know what that means.

791
00:41:44,160 --> 00:41:47,680
Speaker 1: It is Wednesday. Apparently we're having all the swells. Uh

792
00:41:49,040 --> 00:41:54,040
Speaker 1: back to you in the booth there no okay? Well um.

793
00:41:55,760 --> 00:42:00,680
Speaker 1: In sad news, Georgia college student died in only when

794
00:42:00,719 --> 00:42:03,719
Speaker 1: he walked into the still spinning propeller of an airplane

795
00:42:03,760 --> 00:42:07,120
Speaker 1: he had rented for a dinner date. This is awful.

796
00:42:07,840 --> 00:42:10,000
Speaker 1: This kid wanted to be like he was on The Bachelor.

797
00:42:10,080 --> 00:42:12,280
Speaker 1: He probably saved up his money to give this girl

798
00:42:12,440 --> 00:42:14,920
Speaker 1: of his, of her of his dreams, like the best

799
00:42:15,040 --> 00:42:17,560
Speaker 1: date of her life. They flied back after having the

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00:42:17,640 --> 00:42:21,840
Speaker 1: dinner date. They're getting out of the plane when he

801
00:42:22,120 --> 00:42:24,799
Speaker 1: is just feeling confident about to get his maybe first

802
00:42:24,920 --> 00:42:28,320
Speaker 1: kiss with her and walks right into the propeller and

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00:42:29,200 --> 00:42:36,000
Speaker 1: she and you know that everyone else yea, and use

804
00:42:36,080 --> 00:42:38,440
Speaker 1: his The man's blood is lube. Yeah. I mean this

805
00:42:38,640 --> 00:42:42,560
Speaker 1: is I regret saying that Andrew brought me there. I

806
00:42:42,920 --> 00:42:46,880
Speaker 1: had to finish it. I am so disturbed by this

807
00:42:46,960 --> 00:42:49,200
Speaker 1: story and I'm so so sad about it. Like I

808
00:42:50,239 --> 00:42:52,759
Speaker 1: there was a girl. There was a woman. I think

809
00:42:52,840 --> 00:42:56,720
Speaker 1: she survived. She walked into a propeller. These stories always

810
00:42:57,040 --> 00:42:59,120
Speaker 1: I go deep. I go deep diving on these stories

811
00:42:59,120 --> 00:43:00,640
Speaker 1: and trying to figure out every because it's just so

812
00:43:00,760 --> 00:43:03,719
Speaker 1: disturbing to me. I am always so scared whatever I

813
00:43:03,800 --> 00:43:07,680
Speaker 1: go on a tarmac to board a little plane or

814
00:43:07,719 --> 00:43:10,160
Speaker 1: a helicopter or an I feel like I sound like

815
00:43:10,280 --> 00:43:12,880
Speaker 1: I'm living quite a jet setting life. I've been. I've been.

816
00:43:12,920 --> 00:43:16,600
Speaker 1: I've flown on some pgs before, but I have. I mean,

817
00:43:16,760 --> 00:43:20,000
Speaker 1: this is something that commonly happens. People need to be

818
00:43:20,239 --> 00:43:22,480
Speaker 1: very careful out there. If you ever board a plane,

819
00:43:23,000 --> 00:43:26,239
Speaker 1: don't think that you're smarter than this guy. Like this

820
00:43:26,360 --> 00:43:28,600
Speaker 1: could happen to anyone. It's like a low propeller and

821
00:43:28,600 --> 00:43:31,560
Speaker 1: the propeller is going so fast you don't see it. Well,

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00:43:31,640 --> 00:43:35,520
Speaker 1: the opinion, it's so so sad. The date got out

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00:43:35,600 --> 00:43:39,640
Speaker 1: of the plane and then he comes out and walks

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00:43:39,680 --> 00:43:42,840
Speaker 1: towards the front of the plane. So he had walked

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00:43:42,920 --> 00:43:46,160
Speaker 1: into it. Yes, that's what happens. They walk into they

826
00:43:46,200 --> 00:43:48,400
Speaker 1: don't see it because it's worrying so fast. You know,

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00:43:48,640 --> 00:43:51,640
Speaker 1: it's you don't see it. It looks like nothing. Or

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00:43:51,719 --> 00:43:53,320
Speaker 1: he could have been like talking to her and a

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00:43:53,360 --> 00:43:56,279
Speaker 1: little distracted and it was in his peripheral vision and

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00:43:56,360 --> 00:44:00,839
Speaker 1: so it wasn't I mean, but what those people propellers

831
00:44:00,880 --> 00:44:03,839
Speaker 1: on the wings you know, like I always I don't

832
00:44:03,840 --> 00:44:08,640
Speaker 1: think of it on the center most planes. Yeah, you

833
00:44:08,680 --> 00:44:10,040
Speaker 1: know what I mean, I just want to think of

834
00:44:10,120 --> 00:44:12,360
Speaker 1: it being there. I think it was two of his

835
00:44:12,520 --> 00:44:15,080
Speaker 1: friends were flying, two of his friends were to pilots.

836
00:44:15,120 --> 00:44:17,279
Speaker 1: Maybe he went to go say so something. I mean, yeah,

837
00:44:17,280 --> 00:44:20,839
Speaker 1: imagine seeing that. I mean, that's the problem. Like first

838
00:44:20,880 --> 00:44:24,080
Speaker 1: of all, having I don't even want to think about

839
00:44:24,080 --> 00:44:26,160
Speaker 1: the injuries he sustained to kill him, like it must

840
00:44:26,160 --> 00:44:29,520
Speaker 1: have been so awful. But witnessing that those people are

841
00:44:29,560 --> 00:44:32,040
Speaker 1: going to have so much trauma, it's so awful. Please

842
00:44:32,080 --> 00:44:34,960
Speaker 1: be careful out there. I have another called kind of thing, like,

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00:44:35,160 --> 00:44:38,640
Speaker 1: first of all, you know, I did the seatbelt ran yesterday.

844
00:44:40,480 --> 00:44:44,319
Speaker 1: I did a seatbelt right yesterday. And um, the other night,

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Speaker 1: I woke up Chris in the middle of the night.

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Speaker 1: Did I tell this one about drowning? Don't ever try

847
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Speaker 1: to save a drowning person jumping in Yes, what do

848
00:44:51,840 --> 00:44:54,920
Speaker 1: you mean? I think this weekend? But I woke up

849
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Speaker 1: Chris in the middle of the night, like well, I

850
00:44:56,560 --> 00:44:59,040
Speaker 1: thought he was still awake, but we were like kind

851
00:44:59,040 --> 00:45:00,960
Speaker 1: of drifting off to sleep. Both on Reddit that's what

852
00:45:01,040 --> 00:45:03,359
Speaker 1: we do, and then we share each other like share. Well,

853
00:45:03,400 --> 00:45:05,200
Speaker 1: sometimes we'll share the same thing at the same time

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00:45:05,360 --> 00:45:07,240
Speaker 1: with each other because we're like we're both on Reddit.

855
00:45:07,360 --> 00:45:10,759
Speaker 1: But um, I saw this thing that was like, you know,

856
00:45:10,920 --> 00:45:13,200
Speaker 1: a life pro tip, and it was like, don't ever

857
00:45:13,320 --> 00:45:16,399
Speaker 1: try to save a drowning person by jumping into the water,

858
00:45:16,920 --> 00:45:18,880
Speaker 1: because no matter how good of a swimmer you are,

859
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Speaker 1: a drowning person is frantic, is flopping around, doesn't know

860
00:45:23,080 --> 00:45:25,279
Speaker 1: what they're doing, and they you will drown too. They'll

861
00:45:25,320 --> 00:45:27,640
Speaker 1: they'll drown you and so and even me, I'm like,

862
00:45:27,719 --> 00:45:30,040
Speaker 1: a really pretty I think that's one of the things

863
00:45:30,120 --> 00:45:33,080
Speaker 1: I'm best at in the world, is swimming and staying afloat.

864
00:45:33,280 --> 00:45:36,880
Speaker 1: And even I was like, oh, I think I'd be okay.

865
00:45:37,040 --> 00:45:39,640
Speaker 1: And I read further and it was like, you know,

866
00:45:39,760 --> 00:45:41,120
Speaker 1: my friend, this happened to my friend. He was an

867
00:45:41,160 --> 00:45:44,439
Speaker 1: accomplished swimming swimmer. He died from someone pulling them under.

868
00:45:44,640 --> 00:45:46,680
Speaker 1: So what you do is you, you know, you throw

869
00:45:46,800 --> 00:45:49,440
Speaker 1: something out to them. You'll both die. Like if it's

870
00:45:49,480 --> 00:45:50,600
Speaker 1: let's say you stay on the boat and you're like

871
00:45:50,600 --> 00:45:52,520
Speaker 1: I'm just gonna watch someone die, well either that or

872
00:45:52,600 --> 00:45:56,040
Speaker 1: you both die. So you know, hand them a broomstick,

873
00:45:56,320 --> 00:45:58,400
Speaker 1: throw them a rope do something like that, but just

874
00:45:59,280 --> 00:46:02,200
Speaker 1: or honestly it said wait till they're unconscious and then

875
00:46:02,280 --> 00:46:05,880
Speaker 1: go in, wait till they stop flopping around, because they

876
00:46:06,000 --> 00:46:08,239
Speaker 1: will pull you down. So that's just a good thing

877
00:46:08,280 --> 00:46:10,760
Speaker 1: to know if you are ever in that situation, because

878
00:46:10,840 --> 00:46:13,160
Speaker 1: I think my first reaction would be jump in and

879
00:46:13,239 --> 00:46:14,719
Speaker 1: save them, and I would have died had I not

880
00:46:14,840 --> 00:46:17,320
Speaker 1: read that a week ago or whatever it is I

881
00:46:17,400 --> 00:46:19,920
Speaker 1: think of Phil Phil Collins song was about that, but

882
00:46:22,120 --> 00:46:25,279
Speaker 1: that was what I think, Like, that's so funny to

883
00:46:25,320 --> 00:46:30,080
Speaker 1: wait till they drown until you saved. You're just likescious

884
00:46:30,680 --> 00:46:32,799
Speaker 1: when you when you start to see the light. That's

885
00:46:32,840 --> 00:46:35,799
Speaker 1: what I'm going to make the plunge in and go. Yeah,

886
00:46:35,800 --> 00:46:37,359
Speaker 1: there's like a little why I feel like I've heard.

887
00:46:37,400 --> 00:46:40,239
Speaker 1: It's the same thing about quick saying remember quick saying

888
00:46:40,280 --> 00:46:42,560
Speaker 1: I remember someone go don't ever don't fight in to

889
00:46:42,680 --> 00:46:45,320
Speaker 1: get them. And also rip tides. If you don't know

890
00:46:45,320 --> 00:46:49,880
Speaker 1: about rip tides always spin parallel because they go perpendicular

891
00:46:49,960 --> 00:46:51,560
Speaker 1: to the water. And if you don't know what those

892
00:46:51,560 --> 00:46:54,400
Speaker 1: words are, go back to school. So a riptide is

893
00:46:54,440 --> 00:46:56,719
Speaker 1: going to be a thin stretch of water that's being

894
00:46:57,080 --> 00:46:58,640
Speaker 1: going to pull you out, and if you fight it

895
00:46:58,680 --> 00:47:01,560
Speaker 1: by trying to swim back to the shore towards the shore,

896
00:47:01,960 --> 00:47:03,320
Speaker 1: you're going to tire her out because you were just

897
00:47:03,440 --> 00:47:05,560
Speaker 1: in this flume. It's like a little river that is

898
00:47:05,600 --> 00:47:07,480
Speaker 1: pulling you out and you're going it's going to tire

899
00:47:07,520 --> 00:47:09,440
Speaker 1: you out and you'll drown. But if you just swim

900
00:47:09,520 --> 00:47:11,920
Speaker 1: to the side, you'll get out of it faster. So

901
00:47:12,040 --> 00:47:14,160
Speaker 1: these are just little things. If you have any water

902
00:47:14,280 --> 00:47:16,480
Speaker 1: tips to share with us on the show, just you know,

903
00:47:16,600 --> 00:47:19,040
Speaker 1: leave us a message. The link is in our bio.

904
00:47:19,880 --> 00:47:23,560
Speaker 1: Uh noah, what's the next story? Next story is Drew

905
00:47:23,680 --> 00:47:26,640
Speaker 1: Barrymore has said that she has no interest in altering

906
00:47:26,719 --> 00:47:30,440
Speaker 1: the aging process with cosmetic surgery and has vowed to

907
00:47:30,560 --> 00:47:34,239
Speaker 1: live life naturally despite pressures due to working in Hollywood.

908
00:47:35,480 --> 00:47:39,840
Speaker 1: So she says, now wait till it gets worse. Not

909
00:47:40,040 --> 00:47:44,680
Speaker 1: that Actually she looks amazing. I'm I'm captivated by Drew Barrymore.

910
00:47:44,719 --> 00:47:46,480
Speaker 1: She shows up on my Instagram and I just think

911
00:47:46,520 --> 00:47:49,040
Speaker 1: she is so beautiful. I love her hair, I love

912
00:47:49,080 --> 00:47:51,600
Speaker 1: her look, I love who styles whoever styles her and

913
00:47:51,640 --> 00:47:54,239
Speaker 1: does everything for her show like she is just one

914
00:47:54,239 --> 00:47:58,040
Speaker 1: of the most watchable faces ever and and it doesn't

915
00:47:58,080 --> 00:48:00,319
Speaker 1: look like she has had work done, and she looks

916
00:48:00,440 --> 00:48:04,520
Speaker 1: fucking good. But it's hard to say you won't someday.

917
00:48:04,560 --> 00:48:08,719
Speaker 1: I know, I don't know. I respect that. Um, that

918
00:48:08,920 --> 00:48:10,920
Speaker 1: is not who I am. I'm planning a facelift around

919
00:48:11,000 --> 00:48:15,839
Speaker 1: fit forty forty two. Um, maybe smaller ones before then.

920
00:48:16,080 --> 00:48:18,520
Speaker 1: And I know that's like makes people sad, But I

921
00:48:19,520 --> 00:48:22,000
Speaker 1: feel the same way about Like if you know my

922
00:48:22,680 --> 00:48:25,560
Speaker 1: knees gave out, I would get like a knee replacement,

923
00:48:25,680 --> 00:48:30,320
Speaker 1: Like I just two feel good. I need to not

924
00:48:31,280 --> 00:48:33,200
Speaker 1: and I sleep on my face so hard. It's just

925
00:48:33,400 --> 00:48:36,400
Speaker 1: like aging sucks. But I do respect that. Andrew, what

926
00:48:36,440 --> 00:48:39,840
Speaker 1: do you think about it? Well, I feel like I

927
00:48:39,920 --> 00:48:43,000
Speaker 1: think people get upset if remember when Alicia Keys was like,

928
00:48:43,040 --> 00:48:45,000
Speaker 1: I don't wear makeup. I'm going to no makeup. But

929
00:48:45,040 --> 00:48:47,719
Speaker 1: she has a gorgeous face. She doesn't never naturally she

930
00:48:47,760 --> 00:48:49,839
Speaker 1: doesn't need makeup. So people are like, well, it's easy

931
00:48:49,960 --> 00:48:52,359
Speaker 1: for you, because, like Drew Barrymore, I feel like it's

932
00:48:52,360 --> 00:48:54,760
Speaker 1: almost in the same vein of like you are aging

933
00:48:55,000 --> 00:48:58,239
Speaker 1: incredibly well, maybe you're lucky enough where you haven't had

934
00:48:58,320 --> 00:49:02,839
Speaker 1: the she she could get done. I'm not being rude

935
00:49:02,840 --> 00:49:05,560
Speaker 1: about that. She could get things done very easily, like

936
00:49:05,960 --> 00:49:09,840
Speaker 1: she she's a woman that most people at her age

937
00:49:09,960 --> 00:49:13,440
Speaker 1: in Hollywood would do something, would would have already done stuff,

938
00:49:13,480 --> 00:49:17,280
Speaker 1: and she is proof that, Like you can look fucking

939
00:49:17,360 --> 00:49:20,360
Speaker 1: sexy and beautiful without having that stuff done. But you

940
00:49:20,800 --> 00:49:23,640
Speaker 1: that's the problem is you go, what am I leaving

941
00:49:24,000 --> 00:49:26,600
Speaker 1: on the table? Hopefully a lot of skin when they

942
00:49:26,640 --> 00:49:29,320
Speaker 1: remove it? But what am I? What if I don't

943
00:49:29,440 --> 00:49:34,280
Speaker 1: do something? What what could it be if I actually

944
00:49:34,440 --> 00:49:36,880
Speaker 1: did something? Like how good could I look? And what

945
00:49:37,000 --> 00:49:40,040
Speaker 1: would that mean? Like I even last night when I

946
00:49:40,080 --> 00:49:41,879
Speaker 1: was crying about my jeans, Chris is like, I think

947
00:49:41,920 --> 00:49:43,200
Speaker 1: you look amazing, and I was like, it is not

948
00:49:43,320 --> 00:49:45,120
Speaker 1: about how I look. I think I look great too.

949
00:49:45,320 --> 00:49:48,000
Speaker 1: It's just I want to not buy I just don't

950
00:49:48,040 --> 00:49:50,239
Speaker 1: want to buy any I like my clothes and I

951
00:49:50,320 --> 00:49:53,040
Speaker 1: want to feel like I'm not suffocating in them, and

952
00:49:53,080 --> 00:49:54,680
Speaker 1: I don't want to take off my pants and have

953
00:49:54,880 --> 00:49:58,080
Speaker 1: an imprint like my body is made of plato. You

954
00:49:58,160 --> 00:50:01,000
Speaker 1: know that doesn't go away and hill the next morning

955
00:50:01,200 --> 00:50:03,880
Speaker 1: from my jeans cutting off my circulation. It's like I

956
00:50:04,000 --> 00:50:07,320
Speaker 1: just feel deeply uncomfortable in such tight clothes. But it

957
00:50:07,520 --> 00:50:09,399
Speaker 1: is I feel like you made up a word there,

958
00:50:09,600 --> 00:50:11,840
Speaker 1: by the way, which is incredible. What did I make up?

959
00:50:11,840 --> 00:50:14,360
Speaker 1: I think you said stuff a stuff acating, which is

960
00:50:15,160 --> 00:50:17,680
Speaker 1: makes it. It's a perfect word for what your legs

961
00:50:17,719 --> 00:50:19,920
Speaker 1: are doing in the pain. And if I did say that,

962
00:50:20,040 --> 00:50:22,680
Speaker 1: it didn't mean to, but that does. Yeah, I'm stuffocated.

963
00:50:23,480 --> 00:50:27,960
Speaker 1: Um go back in the year what I said to um,

964
00:50:28,600 --> 00:50:31,359
Speaker 1: it's a great word, though it's exactly what that word

965
00:50:31,440 --> 00:50:38,200
Speaker 1: should be. It's just so uncomfortable and I just and

966
00:50:38,680 --> 00:50:41,960
Speaker 1: on my Instagram knows what I'm into. Man. All they

967
00:50:42,040 --> 00:50:46,719
Speaker 1: show me is liposuction, face lifts, nos jobs before and

968
00:50:46,920 --> 00:50:50,880
Speaker 1: afters M, sculpting people just like you feel like when

969
00:50:50,920 --> 00:50:52,719
Speaker 1: you go to when you touch down in l A,

970
00:50:53,080 --> 00:50:55,839
Speaker 1: you start thinking about these things more because obviously it's more.

971
00:50:56,400 --> 00:51:00,560
Speaker 1: It's done more there. Even though because the Graham is

972
00:51:00,719 --> 00:51:03,320
Speaker 1: l a baby. Like everything I see on Instagram, I

973
00:51:03,360 --> 00:51:05,400
Speaker 1: don't really leave the house in St. Louis and and

974
00:51:05,480 --> 00:51:09,279
Speaker 1: people in Sat. Louis are beautiful, Um somewhere I haven't

975
00:51:09,480 --> 00:51:11,840
Speaker 1: been to that place, but I have a feeling somewhere

976
00:51:11,920 --> 00:51:15,560
Speaker 1: they're looking good. But no, people say Louis are stunning.

977
00:51:15,719 --> 00:51:19,120
Speaker 1: It's everywhere now like everyone can look this good. But

978
00:51:19,320 --> 00:51:23,440
Speaker 1: it's mainly on Instagram and online where I see the

979
00:51:23,520 --> 00:51:26,480
Speaker 1: stuff that I you know, l A follows me everywhere

980
00:51:26,520 --> 00:51:29,840
Speaker 1: on there, and it's hard and body positivity accounts like

981
00:51:30,000 --> 00:51:32,600
Speaker 1: they're always girls who are crying and being like, yesterday

982
00:51:32,719 --> 00:51:37,920
Speaker 1: was hard. I cried fourteen hours because I hate my body,

983
00:51:38,560 --> 00:51:40,960
Speaker 1: But today I realized that God gave me that. I'm like,

984
00:51:41,080 --> 00:51:43,239
Speaker 1: so yesterday you were sobbing, and today you have it

985
00:51:43,320 --> 00:51:45,839
Speaker 1: all figured out and everything's fine. Now. I just don't

986
00:51:45,960 --> 00:51:48,759
Speaker 1: buy this, like the whole thing about girls. And then

987
00:51:48,800 --> 00:51:50,680
Speaker 1: there's this other account I follow, and I want to

988
00:51:50,760 --> 00:51:54,160
Speaker 1: fucking kill this woman. She is sticks in and she

989
00:51:54,239 --> 00:51:56,239
Speaker 1: always writes, makes these take talks of like you know

990
00:51:56,320 --> 00:51:58,560
Speaker 1: when they like point at different places and little facts

991
00:51:58,600 --> 00:52:01,960
Speaker 1: pop up and she's like, remember when we used to

992
00:52:02,040 --> 00:52:05,360
Speaker 1: starve ourselves, Remember calorie counting no more? And it's like,

993
00:52:05,680 --> 00:52:09,640
Speaker 1: but you are literally your a little twig. You are

994
00:52:09,760 --> 00:52:11,840
Speaker 1: this that I don't even understand what you could have

995
00:52:11,960 --> 00:52:13,920
Speaker 1: wanted your body to be before. Don't talk to me

996
00:52:13,960 --> 00:52:17,279
Speaker 1: about body acceptance. You look amazing and like it's not

997
00:52:17,320 --> 00:52:20,480
Speaker 1: about diet culture. It's just I'm sure she is beyond

998
00:52:20,560 --> 00:52:24,279
Speaker 1: all that. But I kind of call bullshit, and I

999
00:52:24,360 --> 00:52:26,160
Speaker 1: call bullshit on it pretty much all of it. I

1000
00:52:26,200 --> 00:52:28,160
Speaker 1: don't I don't know if you could send me anybody,

1001
00:52:28,320 --> 00:52:31,320
Speaker 1: if people out there nobody positive accounts that you actually believe,

1002
00:52:31,719 --> 00:52:33,920
Speaker 1: and don't send me Lizzo because I have a hard

1003
00:52:33,960 --> 00:52:36,360
Speaker 1: time believing that as well. Um, I would love to

1004
00:52:36,440 --> 00:52:39,680
Speaker 1: see it. But look, I'm sure there's a pair of

1005
00:52:39,800 --> 00:52:42,400
Speaker 1: triple zero pants that she can't fit into right now,

1006
00:52:42,600 --> 00:52:47,560
Speaker 1: and she's freaking out. She's part of these girls making

1007
00:52:47,640 --> 00:52:50,120
Speaker 1: green tea watch of drinks and talking to me about

1008
00:52:50,200 --> 00:52:54,520
Speaker 1: like balance and their body and loving them. Don't they

1009
00:52:54,640 --> 00:53:01,000
Speaker 1: just pop up? It's like I want videos and you're

1010
00:53:01,000 --> 00:53:04,840
Speaker 1: showing me it's it really is, and then then you

1011
00:53:04,920 --> 00:53:06,680
Speaker 1: get sucked into it and then it just feels like

1012
00:53:06,719 --> 00:53:08,799
Speaker 1: cutting because you just want to want more. You want

1013
00:53:08,840 --> 00:53:10,560
Speaker 1: to see more of why this woman's life is so

1014
00:53:10,680 --> 00:53:12,920
Speaker 1: much better than yours. And even the women who are

1015
00:53:13,200 --> 00:53:15,160
Speaker 1: I mean, I'm not talking about like just glorifying all

1016
00:53:15,200 --> 00:53:17,640
Speaker 1: thin people. There are women that are, like, you know,

1017
00:53:17,760 --> 00:53:20,760
Speaker 1: bigger than me, whose lives like completely I am jealous

1018
00:53:20,800 --> 00:53:22,560
Speaker 1: of because they seem to just be so happy and

1019
00:53:22,680 --> 00:53:25,480
Speaker 1: love themselves and not and look good in their clothes

1020
00:53:25,520 --> 00:53:27,600
Speaker 1: and I'm like, why can't I do that? It's just

1021
00:53:27,800 --> 00:53:30,520
Speaker 1: it's it's frustrating, but I'm gonna work on it. And

1022
00:53:30,680 --> 00:53:32,120
Speaker 1: by working on it, I do not mean I'm going

1023
00:53:32,160 --> 00:53:35,160
Speaker 1: to diet or exercise. I'm working on It's all about

1024
00:53:35,239 --> 00:53:38,239
Speaker 1: like other stuff. Because even last night, when I was

1025
00:53:38,239 --> 00:53:40,000
Speaker 1: crying to Chris about my tight pants, he was like,

1026
00:53:40,120 --> 00:53:43,160
Speaker 1: so what are you gonna do? Like, what's what's the

1027
00:53:43,239 --> 00:53:45,920
Speaker 1: solution here? Or at least I said something like I

1028
00:53:46,040 --> 00:53:48,440
Speaker 1: just need to work harder, and I could tell he

1029
00:53:48,640 --> 00:53:50,840
Speaker 1: was like, what does that mean? I'm like, and it

1030
00:53:50,920 --> 00:53:54,760
Speaker 1: doesn't mean dieting, it doesn't mean going to a workout class.

1031
00:53:54,840 --> 00:53:56,839
Speaker 1: It means what is the best thing a guy can

1032
00:53:56,920 --> 00:53:59,880
Speaker 1: say to a woman that's like, I feel fat today,

1033
00:54:00,000 --> 00:54:03,120
Speaker 1: I feel different. I look different today than she did yesterday,

1034
00:54:03,280 --> 00:54:08,160
Speaker 1: which you know is irrational. I wouldn't notice it in

1035
00:54:08,239 --> 00:54:10,799
Speaker 1: a million years. Like I think you've never looked better,

1036
00:54:10,960 --> 00:54:13,040
Speaker 1: and that makes me feel good. And even last night

1037
00:54:13,080 --> 00:54:15,240
Speaker 1: I was like, that matters to me, Like you thinking

1038
00:54:15,280 --> 00:54:17,120
Speaker 1: that I look better at this size than the size

1039
00:54:17,200 --> 00:54:19,520
Speaker 1: I prefer to be. That matters to me, Like I

1040
00:54:19,640 --> 00:54:22,239
Speaker 1: want to look good to you, like I would prefer

1041
00:54:22,320 --> 00:54:24,120
Speaker 1: to look good to you. That good to me, So

1042
00:54:24,280 --> 00:54:26,640
Speaker 1: just like saying I don't know what you're talking about,

1043
00:54:26,680 --> 00:54:29,080
Speaker 1: Like I don't see it, but I'm sorry you feel

1044
00:54:29,160 --> 00:54:32,080
Speaker 1: that way. But the truth is it's don't and don't

1045
00:54:32,160 --> 00:54:34,160
Speaker 1: ever say anything about like, well we can go to

1046
00:54:34,239 --> 00:54:37,000
Speaker 1: the gym together, maybe we can start eating healthier meals.

1047
00:54:37,160 --> 00:54:39,000
Speaker 1: Don't do that, ship because that is not what a

1048
00:54:39,040 --> 00:54:43,360
Speaker 1: girl wants to here. Noah, do you agree? Yeah? Agree,

1049
00:54:43,920 --> 00:54:47,640
Speaker 1: don't don't say like, hey, well we can start going

1050
00:54:47,680 --> 00:54:50,399
Speaker 1: to more classes. Why don't we start doing this more?

1051
00:54:50,480 --> 00:54:54,440
Speaker 1: Like girls, just when we're feeling quote unquote fat or

1052
00:54:54,840 --> 00:54:57,880
Speaker 1: disgusting or whatever the thing is, we just want to

1053
00:54:57,920 --> 00:55:00,640
Speaker 1: feel loved. We're feeling completely unloved bole and we just

1054
00:55:00,719 --> 00:55:05,279
Speaker 1: want like to feel loved and like spiritually and that's

1055
00:55:05,320 --> 00:55:07,360
Speaker 1: the work that needs to be done, is like you

1056
00:55:07,480 --> 00:55:10,480
Speaker 1: need to work on your insides. And I it took

1057
00:55:10,560 --> 00:55:15,200
Speaker 1: me fucking twentysomething years to figure that out. That the solution.

1058
00:55:15,360 --> 00:55:17,359
Speaker 1: When I'm feeling this way and I'm allowed to feel

1059
00:55:17,400 --> 00:55:19,000
Speaker 1: this way. Sometimes people write to me and they're like,

1060
00:55:19,280 --> 00:55:22,279
Speaker 1: you seriously still have body issues. You talk about wanting

1061
00:55:22,280 --> 00:55:23,880
Speaker 1: to be thin all the time. It's like, yeah, no,

1062
00:55:24,120 --> 00:55:26,920
Speaker 1: fucking ship. It's coming at me from all angles. But

1063
00:55:27,000 --> 00:55:28,920
Speaker 1: the thing I don't do any more starve myself. The

1064
00:55:28,920 --> 00:55:30,759
Speaker 1: thing I don't do any more exercise and burn a

1065
00:55:30,840 --> 00:55:32,800
Speaker 1: thousand calories at a time, thinking that's gonna give me

1066
00:55:32,840 --> 00:55:35,560
Speaker 1: anything except ravenous hunger. That's gonna make me eat more

1067
00:55:35,640 --> 00:55:39,080
Speaker 1: than I should. And but I'm allowed to complain. I'm

1068
00:55:39,080 --> 00:55:41,279
Speaker 1: allowed to feel uneasy in my body. I'm allowed to

1069
00:55:41,360 --> 00:55:43,400
Speaker 1: say that I don't feel I don't feel good. And

1070
00:55:43,480 --> 00:55:46,319
Speaker 1: that doesn't mean that I think that you listener would

1071
00:55:46,400 --> 00:55:49,400
Speaker 1: not like I think some people go, well, if you

1072
00:55:49,480 --> 00:55:52,279
Speaker 1: think you look bad, that you would be disgusted by me,

1073
00:55:52,400 --> 00:55:57,280
Speaker 1: That's not it. My my self esteem comes from inside.

1074
00:55:57,360 --> 00:56:00,120
Speaker 1: I have a spiritual problem of like having feeling like

1075
00:56:00,239 --> 00:56:02,440
Speaker 1: I'm not enough, I'm not good enough. And it's has

1076
00:56:02,520 --> 00:56:04,360
Speaker 1: nothing to do with my outer appearance. Because I have

1077
00:56:04,480 --> 00:56:07,880
Speaker 1: been the size and my face has looked the way

1078
00:56:07,920 --> 00:56:10,479
Speaker 1: I wanted it to look before, my body has looked

1079
00:56:10,560 --> 00:56:12,520
Speaker 1: exactly the way that I would want my body to

1080
00:56:12,560 --> 00:56:15,200
Speaker 1: look before, and I still wasn't happy. So I I

1081
00:56:15,320 --> 00:56:16,640
Speaker 1: know that for a fact. I go back and look

1082
00:56:16,680 --> 00:56:19,000
Speaker 1: at pictures and I go, God, look at your body.

1083
00:56:19,080 --> 00:56:22,080
Speaker 1: Then it was like you would that was everything like that,

1084
00:56:22,719 --> 00:56:25,000
Speaker 1: that you looked like a supermodel, like you had a

1085
00:56:25,040 --> 00:56:28,800
Speaker 1: supermodel figure, and I wasn't happy. And I remember the

1086
00:56:28,880 --> 00:56:30,759
Speaker 1: day those pictures were taken. So I just know that's

1087
00:56:30,800 --> 00:56:33,320
Speaker 1: not the solution. But the solution is definitely not for

1088
00:56:33,360 --> 00:56:37,680
Speaker 1: a boyfriend to recommend dieting or exercising with you. Um,

1089
00:56:37,800 --> 00:56:40,040
Speaker 1: let's go to final thought and um have a little

1090
00:56:40,080 --> 00:56:47,320
Speaker 1: bit of Andrew's Short sir Stories Circle segment special Andrew's

1091
00:56:47,480 --> 00:56:50,960
Speaker 1: Short Story Circles Segment. All right, Andrew, what do you

1092
00:56:51,040 --> 00:56:55,640
Speaker 1: got for us today? Um? I hinted at it a

1093
00:56:55,840 --> 00:56:57,800
Speaker 1: few months or like a month ago, but when I

1094
00:56:57,880 --> 00:57:02,360
Speaker 1: went to so my brother was nice enough to my

1095
00:57:02,440 --> 00:57:05,759
Speaker 1: older brother, who's successful in alpha male kind of alphash,

1096
00:57:06,000 --> 00:57:11,000
Speaker 1: I guess he just gets it done. He always my

1097
00:57:11,040 --> 00:57:15,160
Speaker 1: whole life. He's an Alfalfa Mayle. He was nice enough

1098
00:57:15,239 --> 00:57:18,080
Speaker 1: to offer a trip with me and Brenna to go

1099
00:57:18,240 --> 00:57:23,840
Speaker 1: to Jackson Hole, Wyoming. They sent us a uh itinerary.

1100
00:57:24,160 --> 00:57:26,080
Speaker 1: That's a big thing that they do is like you know,

1101
00:57:26,200 --> 00:57:28,920
Speaker 1: from nine to ten will be you know, looking at

1102
00:57:29,000 --> 00:57:35,040
Speaker 1: rob very regimented schedule. It's almost as if that makes

1103
00:57:35,080 --> 00:57:37,320
Speaker 1: people successful. It's almost like that's the key to it.

1104
00:57:37,480 --> 00:57:41,280
Speaker 1: But let's make fun of it instead. Yeah yeah, yeah,

1105
00:57:41,440 --> 00:57:46,760
Speaker 1: what losers? What losers? Successful people? Yeah, I mean he's

1106
00:57:46,800 --> 00:57:50,440
Speaker 1: gotten better. And his wife is similar, Like she's very organized.

1107
00:57:50,480 --> 00:57:54,439
Speaker 1: They're both professionals, like professionals, like do very well. She's

1108
00:57:54,480 --> 00:57:58,200
Speaker 1: a doctor, he's a runs a hedge fund. Like everything

1109
00:57:58,360 --> 00:58:01,560
Speaker 1: is organized and whatever. And then, um, you know, I

1110
00:58:01,640 --> 00:58:03,640
Speaker 1: could have gone to Jackson Hole and stayed in the

1111
00:58:03,720 --> 00:58:06,360
Speaker 1: bed and maybe seeing like one boulder and been like

1112
00:58:06,440 --> 00:58:09,680
Speaker 1: holy shit, you know, like nothing. I never have organized

1113
00:58:09,720 --> 00:58:14,720
Speaker 1: my whole life. So they send us this uh website

1114
00:58:14,800 --> 00:58:18,440
Speaker 1: of an activity we can do, which is essentially hiking.

1115
00:58:18,760 --> 00:58:20,280
Speaker 1: I thought it was hiking. I didn't want to look

1116
00:58:20,320 --> 00:58:23,280
Speaker 1: into it because it looked very scary and it was

1117
00:58:23,400 --> 00:58:25,920
Speaker 1: like jagged rock and it was something I didn't want

1118
00:58:25,920 --> 00:58:29,240
Speaker 1: to do. I don't like heights, and because of that,

1119
00:58:29,360 --> 00:58:31,600
Speaker 1: I didn't look into it because I was so afraid.

1120
00:58:32,400 --> 00:58:35,240
Speaker 1: And then I get there, We fly in and it's

1121
00:58:36,880 --> 00:58:38,360
Speaker 1: are you one of those guys? It's like I got

1122
00:58:38,440 --> 00:58:41,800
Speaker 1: the itinerary, babe, you just all handle things? Or did

1123
00:58:41,880 --> 00:58:44,600
Speaker 1: you share it with her? I'm not. I'm not that

1124
00:58:44,720 --> 00:58:47,440
Speaker 1: guy at all. But she's a ledge head so she

1125
00:58:47,840 --> 00:58:49,520
Speaker 1: she looked at it and she's like, oh, I hope

1126
00:58:49,560 --> 00:58:52,560
Speaker 1: we did the hardest one. And I was like, I

1127
00:58:52,680 --> 00:58:54,440
Speaker 1: think you might have to. So I'm thinking she might

1128
00:58:54,480 --> 00:58:56,400
Speaker 1: have to go without me this whole time. I'm just like,

1129
00:58:56,520 --> 00:58:59,160
Speaker 1: you go without me, I'll stay behind. I'll cook for

1130
00:58:59,240 --> 00:59:02,480
Speaker 1: the kids, I'll take care of the or whatever. I

1131
00:59:05,880 --> 00:59:12,800
Speaker 1: can make a scrambled eat. So I can't image making

1132
00:59:12,920 --> 00:59:16,240
Speaker 1: enough food for two people. Okay, go on, Yeah, I

1133
00:59:16,240 --> 00:59:17,880
Speaker 1: would eat it before I'd be like, all right for

1134
00:59:18,120 --> 00:59:21,080
Speaker 1: for me, one for you, said, okay, stop looking at me,

1135
00:59:21,160 --> 00:59:24,560
Speaker 1: bitch talking to the three year old. Um. So we

1136
00:59:24,720 --> 00:59:26,480
Speaker 1: get there and it's time and we go and we

1137
00:59:26,560 --> 00:59:29,840
Speaker 1: take the gondola up like eight thousand feet, so you're

1138
00:59:29,880 --> 00:59:32,720
Speaker 1: not only climbing from like the bottom, you're climbing you're

1139
00:59:32,760 --> 00:59:39,640
Speaker 1: starting starting at the top. Yeah, I started from the

1140
00:59:39,680 --> 00:59:43,880
Speaker 1: top and we're more top. So I'm I'm losing my

1141
00:59:44,000 --> 00:59:46,440
Speaker 1: mind and like I want to be tough in a

1142
00:59:46,560 --> 00:59:49,320
Speaker 1: way in front of you know, my girlfriend. Everyone else

1143
00:59:49,440 --> 00:59:52,600
Speaker 1: is doing it, and my brother and his wife and

1144
00:59:53,240 --> 00:59:55,160
Speaker 1: and they're like, you can do it. And I hate

1145
00:59:55,200 --> 00:59:57,720
Speaker 1: when my brother gives me that voice, even though it

1146
00:59:57,880 --> 01:00:00,760
Speaker 1: means well, he's proud of me. He's like, you got this,

1147
01:00:01,280 --> 01:00:03,040
Speaker 1: and I'm like, I know, I got it, motherfucker. I

1148
01:00:03,120 --> 01:00:04,840
Speaker 1: can do this. You're doing it. I could do it.

1149
01:00:05,160 --> 01:00:08,480
Speaker 1: Like I get defensive, you know. And uh So we

1150
01:00:08,880 --> 01:00:10,920
Speaker 1: start climbing, and literally the first thing you climb when

1151
01:00:10,960 --> 01:00:13,480
Speaker 1: you put on like full on gear, like helmet, like

1152
01:00:14,040 --> 01:00:19,840
Speaker 1: like repelling. Take No, I have no idea what this hike.

1153
01:00:20,000 --> 01:00:23,400
Speaker 1: I would need to know how long is this going

1154
01:00:23,480 --> 01:00:26,200
Speaker 1: to take? Exactly? Tell me exactly, what's gonnappen? When are

1155
01:00:26,240 --> 01:00:28,640
Speaker 1: we gonna eat lunch, winter snacks? When s nap time?

1156
01:00:29,680 --> 01:00:31,640
Speaker 1: What do we do if we see a goat? Like

1157
01:00:31,760 --> 01:00:34,680
Speaker 1: I would want to know everything. So you're not knowing

1158
01:00:36,560 --> 01:00:39,440
Speaker 1: what's gonna happen, all have fear. I just I want

1159
01:00:39,480 --> 01:00:43,080
Speaker 1: to know less and then I just do Um. So

1160
01:00:43,240 --> 01:00:45,760
Speaker 1: we get to the top and like literally the first

1161
01:00:45,800 --> 01:00:49,160
Speaker 1: thing is you climb like and it's vertical. It's just vertical,

1162
01:00:49,480 --> 01:00:52,000
Speaker 1: and there's like bars, there's metal bars into the rock.

1163
01:00:52,120 --> 01:00:55,280
Speaker 1: But you're climbing a mountain like you're starting and you're

1164
01:00:55,320 --> 01:00:58,040
Speaker 1: starting from eight thousand feet So I'm eight thousand ft

1165
01:00:58,120 --> 01:01:00,640
Speaker 1: up so I'm already looking down and I'm like, what

1166
01:01:00,840 --> 01:01:03,840
Speaker 1: the funk am I getting myself into But I gotta

1167
01:01:03,920 --> 01:01:06,560
Speaker 1: be tough, I gotta be strong. I gotta do this

1168
01:01:06,720 --> 01:01:10,240
Speaker 1: for some reason. And we get to this point where

1169
01:01:10,280 --> 01:01:12,720
Speaker 1: you have to then just hike a little bit up

1170
01:01:13,120 --> 01:01:16,520
Speaker 1: like the smallest little walkway, and you just fall down

1171
01:01:16,600 --> 01:01:21,360
Speaker 1: the jagged rock like thousands of feet into anything. At

1172
01:01:21,400 --> 01:01:23,560
Speaker 1: this point, you're not strapped in because we're walking into

1173
01:01:23,600 --> 01:01:25,919
Speaker 1: place where you have to strap into it. And I'm

1174
01:01:26,400 --> 01:01:29,840
Speaker 1: I'm frozen. I freeze, I literally freeze, and I have

1175
01:01:29,920 --> 01:01:32,600
Speaker 1: Brenna going just holding my hand, just hold, and I'm like,

1176
01:01:32,640 --> 01:01:34,760
Speaker 1: I don't like part of me is like wanting to

1177
01:01:34,840 --> 01:01:37,520
Speaker 1: be if I've slipped, you're going down with me? Then

1178
01:01:39,480 --> 01:01:46,840
Speaker 1: wait till I fall, Wait till then. So she's like,

1179
01:01:46,920 --> 01:01:48,960
Speaker 1: you got it. And the more I hear that voice,

1180
01:01:49,040 --> 01:01:51,200
Speaker 1: I don't know what it is. That's being pitied, it's

1181
01:01:51,200 --> 01:01:53,960
Speaker 1: being babied. You you are want to be a strong man,

1182
01:01:54,040 --> 01:01:55,720
Speaker 1: and you have your girlfriend talking to you like you're

1183
01:01:55,720 --> 01:01:58,760
Speaker 1: a baby. So yeah, men are not gonna respond to

1184
01:01:58,840 --> 01:02:02,520
Speaker 1: that voice well, and the instructors going, you got it,

1185
01:02:02,640 --> 01:02:04,800
Speaker 1: And then I hate that boy so much too. I

1186
01:02:04,880 --> 01:02:06,760
Speaker 1: hate it when people are just like everyone has to

1187
01:02:06,840 --> 01:02:09,880
Speaker 1: like lower they're like they have to. And then and

1188
01:02:09,960 --> 01:02:12,680
Speaker 1: then when you finally do it, they're like yay, and

1189
01:02:12,760 --> 01:02:16,360
Speaker 1: you're like shut so easily and you didn't congratulate yourselves.

1190
01:02:16,400 --> 01:02:18,920
Speaker 1: And now I'm like this, like like I just climbed

1191
01:02:18,960 --> 01:02:22,880
Speaker 1: Everest because I crossed a little bridge. It's so embarrassing.

1192
01:02:22,920 --> 01:02:26,000
Speaker 1: It's so patronizing. I hate it. My brother would do

1193
01:02:26,040 --> 01:02:28,960
Speaker 1: it when we visit off with you, because if I

1194
01:02:29,000 --> 01:02:32,240
Speaker 1: do something a little bit good, it's like, wow, Nikki,

1195
01:02:32,280 --> 01:02:34,520
Speaker 1: I'm just like, you wouldn't give a funk about this

1196
01:02:34,640 --> 01:02:36,920
Speaker 1: if you did it. Don't act like this is impressive.

1197
01:02:37,640 --> 01:02:39,320
Speaker 1: But people are just trying to be nice. I mean,

1198
01:02:39,400 --> 01:02:42,080
Speaker 1: Brenna was doing exactly what she should have done, which

1199
01:02:42,080 --> 01:02:46,560
Speaker 1: is ever. Yeah, but you know, it goes back to

1200
01:02:46,720 --> 01:02:48,400
Speaker 1: we visit my grandma, and my brother would be like,

1201
01:02:48,480 --> 01:02:51,000
Speaker 1: you did such a you know, I'm so proud of

1202
01:02:51,040 --> 01:02:53,120
Speaker 1: you boys for visiting. I'm like, you're two years older

1203
01:02:53,160 --> 01:02:56,040
Speaker 1: than me. I was going to visit grandma anyways. Okay,

1204
01:02:56,480 --> 01:02:59,560
Speaker 1: so anyway, so no, of course not. He drove and

1205
01:02:59,600 --> 01:03:02,440
Speaker 1: paid for to you over black and so then we

1206
01:03:02,720 --> 01:03:05,160
Speaker 1: start climbing the mountain again and I'm going last I

1207
01:03:05,600 --> 01:03:07,480
Speaker 1: thought maybe that'd be good but then my brother and

1208
01:03:07,520 --> 01:03:11,280
Speaker 1: Brenna decided to climb it without using the ladder the metal,

1209
01:03:11,520 --> 01:03:13,800
Speaker 1: So I'm in the back, so no one's pushing me

1210
01:03:13,880 --> 01:03:15,800
Speaker 1: to go forward, and I have to wait for them

1211
01:03:15,920 --> 01:03:18,440
Speaker 1: to go slow. So I'm having a full on panic

1212
01:03:18,480 --> 01:03:21,400
Speaker 1: attack on the mountain and I can't climb back down

1213
01:03:21,440 --> 01:03:25,280
Speaker 1: because climbing back down then I get start. It's like

1214
01:03:25,400 --> 01:03:29,040
Speaker 1: the way I feel a gonna get a helicopter. So

1215
01:03:31,040 --> 01:03:37,440
Speaker 1: we're climbing and finally I get in front and I realized, like, okay,

1216
01:03:37,520 --> 01:03:40,880
Speaker 1: I'm going on my own pace, and but I'm having

1217
01:03:40,920 --> 01:03:44,320
Speaker 1: a full on panic attack. Wow, having to do like

1218
01:03:44,400 --> 01:03:46,680
Speaker 1: usually you have a panic attack, you could lay down,

1219
01:03:46,800 --> 01:03:50,200
Speaker 1: you could stop. And then I don't know, like ten

1220
01:03:50,280 --> 01:03:52,560
Speaker 1: minutes and I started to get really present. I didn't

1221
01:03:52,640 --> 01:03:55,120
Speaker 1: focus on being nine thousand feet in the air. I

1222
01:03:55,280 --> 01:03:57,080
Speaker 1: just literally looked at the rock in front of me.

1223
01:03:57,440 --> 01:03:59,800
Speaker 1: And it sounds cheesy, but it's like it made me

1224
01:04:00,520 --> 01:04:05,560
Speaker 1: so fucking present and so like in the moment where

1225
01:04:05,680 --> 01:04:08,520
Speaker 1: nothing else mattered, ALIS on my phone like that ship,

1226
01:04:08,680 --> 01:04:10,840
Speaker 1: like you don't you All you can think about is

1227
01:04:11,680 --> 01:04:14,200
Speaker 1: the foot, you know, what's the next step and surviving?

1228
01:04:15,040 --> 01:04:17,680
Speaker 1: And I get to a point where I go, Okay,

1229
01:04:17,720 --> 01:04:19,720
Speaker 1: are we almost there? He's like, actually, we're only halfway.

1230
01:04:19,800 --> 01:04:23,080
Speaker 1: So I was still like kind of freaking out. But

1231
01:04:23,160 --> 01:04:24,800
Speaker 1: then I got to a point where I just started

1232
01:04:24,880 --> 01:04:28,240
Speaker 1: sucking climbing and I all my fears went away and

1233
01:04:28,480 --> 01:04:31,280
Speaker 1: all the focus I mean, and then that made me realize, oh,

1234
01:04:31,320 --> 01:04:34,080
Speaker 1: this is why these fucking people do this is because

1235
01:04:34,560 --> 01:04:37,360
Speaker 1: of how president it can make you. And then you

1236
01:04:37,480 --> 01:04:39,280
Speaker 1: go through that whatever. I got to the top and

1237
01:04:39,400 --> 01:04:44,320
Speaker 1: just fast forward. I I do bring that day to

1238
01:04:44,560 --> 01:04:47,600
Speaker 1: me in other things where when I can be present

1239
01:04:47,720 --> 01:04:49,680
Speaker 1: and lock in and be like, Okay, I made it

1240
01:04:49,760 --> 01:04:52,120
Speaker 1: through this, and it made I don't know, it made

1241
01:04:52,160 --> 01:04:54,280
Speaker 1: all the sense in the world why people do ship

1242
01:04:54,440 --> 01:04:56,240
Speaker 1: like that and why we always asked why are you

1243
01:04:56,240 --> 01:04:59,120
Speaker 1: climbing mountain? Why then do you I've never been more

1244
01:04:59,200 --> 01:05:02,600
Speaker 1: president in my life, other than maybe stand up at times.

1245
01:05:02,960 --> 01:05:06,080
Speaker 1: You have to be that locked in well. But but

1246
01:05:06,320 --> 01:05:08,160
Speaker 1: like I was able to bring that moment because you

1247
01:05:08,200 --> 01:05:10,840
Speaker 1: didn't have a choice, you would know there's no fleeing

1248
01:05:10,960 --> 01:05:12,880
Speaker 1: that moment, there was no fight or flight. You had

1249
01:05:12,960 --> 01:05:15,520
Speaker 1: to just fight. I feel that way. I feel that

1250
01:05:15,680 --> 01:05:18,760
Speaker 1: kind of presence when I have pain, when I have

1251
01:05:18,800 --> 01:05:22,680
Speaker 1: a migraine or cramps. You can't be distracted by anything,

1252
01:05:22,960 --> 01:05:24,800
Speaker 1: like you can't watch a TV show, you can't read

1253
01:05:24,880 --> 01:05:27,440
Speaker 1: like there, or or mental anguish if you're going through

1254
01:05:27,440 --> 01:05:29,439
Speaker 1: a break up. Like those moments I feel are also

1255
01:05:29,560 --> 01:05:32,960
Speaker 1: like extremely meditative in the sense that you can only

1256
01:05:33,040 --> 01:05:35,440
Speaker 1: focus on one thing, like you know, in meditation, you

1257
01:05:35,440 --> 01:05:37,440
Speaker 1: supposed to just focus on your breath, and you constantly

1258
01:05:37,480 --> 01:05:40,280
Speaker 1: wander away because your breath isn't that interesting and isn't

1259
01:05:40,320 --> 01:05:42,959
Speaker 1: that like demanding of your attention. But I think pain

1260
01:05:43,080 --> 01:05:45,440
Speaker 1: and also yeah, that fear of like I just gotta

1261
01:05:45,600 --> 01:05:49,240
Speaker 1: do this. I think that, um, yeah, that's actually that's

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Speaker 1: cool that you've been able to like pull from it

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Speaker 1: again and like remember that. But I also think that

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Speaker 1: people who are ledgeheads and like constantly go out and

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Speaker 1: do climbing stuff. Like I read this thing on Reddit

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Speaker 1: where was like there was a woman climber who was

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Speaker 1: like never data climber, never dat a guy who's into climbing.

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Speaker 1: These people who are constantly seeking out these like death

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Speaker 1: defying uh stunts, are these like you know, high adrenaline

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Speaker 1: situations because they can't ever love you because they're running

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01:06:15,640 --> 01:06:18,160
Speaker 1: from pain in their life that they never emotional pain

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Speaker 1: that they don't want to address, and that what better

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01:06:21,400 --> 01:06:23,720
Speaker 1: way to not think about anything else in your life,

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01:06:24,080 --> 01:06:27,240
Speaker 1: your fear of commitment, your fear of abandonment. If you're

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Speaker 1: constantly climbing a wall where if you make one mistake

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01:06:31,160 --> 01:06:33,000
Speaker 1: you fall to your death, you don't have time to

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Speaker 1: worry about anything emotional. And so it makes sense that

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Speaker 1: people choose extreme sports to like hide from things, and

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01:06:39,480 --> 01:06:42,080
Speaker 1: that they really don't make the best partners. And this

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Speaker 1: woman had this great thing about it, and I thought

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Speaker 1: everyone was going to trash her because she was kind

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01:06:45,600 --> 01:06:47,720
Speaker 1: of annoying about it. She was like, don't date climbers,

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01:06:47,760 --> 01:06:50,080
Speaker 1: they're all the same. But everyone underneath was like, this

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01:06:50,240 --> 01:06:52,320
Speaker 1: checks out. My boyfriend was a climber. This checks that,

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01:06:52,440 --> 01:06:55,160
Speaker 1: Like they're they just aren't. They're never gonna be there

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01:06:55,200 --> 01:06:58,120
Speaker 1: emotionally because they're they're climbing away from their issues. So

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Speaker 1: it is interesting. It is a definitely a um meditative steak.

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Speaker 1: The guy that the instructor said that the people that die,

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01:07:07,600 --> 01:07:09,840
Speaker 1: obviously they're doing harder things, but it's the people that

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01:07:10,040 --> 01:07:12,640
Speaker 1: forget how dangerous it is, and those are the people

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01:07:12,840 --> 01:07:17,320
Speaker 1: walk into the propeller who aren't on alert, like thankfully,

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Speaker 1: I'm an extremely anxious, totally paranoid person. But the second

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01:07:21,440 --> 01:07:24,000
Speaker 1: that I get a little bit too like everything's fine,

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01:07:24,120 --> 01:07:26,600
Speaker 1: that's when I the car kind of goes off the road.

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01:07:26,680 --> 01:07:29,680
Speaker 1: That's when you know I fall or something like when

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01:07:29,720 --> 01:07:32,680
Speaker 1: I start to get cocky about stuff. My dad always

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01:07:32,680 --> 01:07:35,360
Speaker 1: says that the one time this guy that was like um,

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Speaker 1: part of the traveling will lend does. He was a

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01:07:37,360 --> 01:07:40,320
Speaker 1: tight rope walker. There's a story of he was like

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01:07:40,400 --> 01:07:42,520
Speaker 1: the father of I probably told this before because my

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01:07:42,600 --> 01:07:47,600
Speaker 1: dad tells it a billion It's probably has something to

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01:07:47,640 --> 01:07:50,800
Speaker 1: do with Cincinnati. But they were walkers and he was

1303
01:07:50,880 --> 01:07:55,400
Speaker 1: like the patriarch of the family and Um. His wife

1304
01:07:56,040 --> 01:07:59,440
Speaker 1: said that the only time she ever heard him doubt

1305
01:07:59,560 --> 01:08:04,560
Speaker 1: himself about a walk was the morning of the walk

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01:08:04,640 --> 01:08:06,640
Speaker 1: he died on. So it proves it like when you

1307
01:08:06,760 --> 01:08:08,480
Speaker 1: start to let that kind of doubt in of like

1308
01:08:08,600 --> 01:08:11,040
Speaker 1: what could go wrong and you aren't like focused. I mean,

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01:08:11,120 --> 01:08:12,640
Speaker 1: I don't know if it really pertains to this, but

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01:08:12,680 --> 01:08:15,120
Speaker 1: I always think about that, Like when you consider what

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01:08:15,280 --> 01:08:17,880
Speaker 1: can go wrong, it almost kind of manifests that and

1312
01:08:17,960 --> 01:08:21,280
Speaker 1: puts that out into the world. But I think about

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01:08:21,320 --> 01:08:23,120
Speaker 1: what could go wrong all the time. It's just it's

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01:08:23,160 --> 01:08:26,160
Speaker 1: hard not to. I feel like sometimes when I think

1315
01:08:26,200 --> 01:08:28,400
Speaker 1: about what will go wrong, it pushes me to make

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01:08:28,479 --> 01:08:31,080
Speaker 1: it right, so it actually makes me work harder, and

1317
01:08:31,200 --> 01:08:34,720
Speaker 1: I could use that energy for a positive But I

1318
01:08:34,800 --> 01:08:37,479
Speaker 1: also think about there's like the secret of manifestation. So

1319
01:08:37,560 --> 01:08:40,599
Speaker 1: what's the difference between worrying about something that might happen

1320
01:08:40,640 --> 01:08:42,519
Speaker 1: in the future that you don't want to happen. How

1321
01:08:42,680 --> 01:08:45,400
Speaker 1: is that different than when you try to visualize something

1322
01:08:45,439 --> 01:08:47,280
Speaker 1: you do want to happen. And people always say, I

1323
01:08:47,439 --> 01:08:50,160
Speaker 1: visualize making a million dollars. I visualize having a family

1324
01:08:50,200 --> 01:08:52,080
Speaker 1: I wanted. I visualized the job that I wanted and

1325
01:08:52,200 --> 01:08:55,320
Speaker 1: I got it. So what sometimes when I'm visualizing the

1326
01:08:55,360 --> 01:08:58,479
Speaker 1: worst case scenariom, like, am I going to confuse the

1327
01:08:58,640 --> 01:09:01,439
Speaker 1: universe and make them think that I'm manifesting this because

1328
01:09:01,439 --> 01:09:03,880
Speaker 1: I'm imagining it so much and that it might happen?

1329
01:09:04,000 --> 01:09:06,680
Speaker 1: So I don't know. I guess we need to uh

1330
01:09:07,720 --> 01:09:10,120
Speaker 1: ask our listeners how many of you have visualized being

1331
01:09:10,160 --> 01:09:12,320
Speaker 1: a millionaire and how many you have a million dollars?

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Speaker 1: I mean, I think that's like I think sometimes we

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01:09:15,920 --> 01:09:17,760
Speaker 1: hear I know, I know, I do too. I really

1334
01:09:17,800 --> 01:09:20,479
Speaker 1: do too, But I just think, like you hear from that,

1335
01:09:21,240 --> 01:09:24,479
Speaker 1: An was just saying she watched The Kardashian Show on

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01:09:24,640 --> 01:09:27,519
Speaker 1: Hulu and that Kim Kardashian was like, I knew I

1337
01:09:27,600 --> 01:09:30,080
Speaker 1: was going to be famous. I was like, I wanted

1338
01:09:30,160 --> 01:09:33,839
Speaker 1: it so badly. I mean, granted, her dad was OJ's

1339
01:09:33,840 --> 01:09:36,760
Speaker 1: attorney and her family was already and you know, her

1340
01:09:36,800 --> 01:09:41,240
Speaker 1: mom was married to Bruce Jenner, so I was like, okay, um,

1341
01:09:41,479 --> 01:09:44,000
Speaker 1: But I do think that there is something to that.

1342
01:09:44,200 --> 01:09:47,600
Speaker 1: Like I I think that some of my success was

1343
01:09:47,720 --> 01:09:50,640
Speaker 1: because I was so I just knew that it was

1344
01:09:50,680 --> 01:09:52,720
Speaker 1: going to work out. I just knew it. There was

1345
01:09:52,800 --> 01:09:54,719
Speaker 1: no doubt in my mind. I have so many doubts

1346
01:09:54,760 --> 01:09:57,360
Speaker 1: about other things, but like comedy, working out was there

1347
01:09:57,439 --> 01:10:01,320
Speaker 1: was never even the slightest that there was one time

1348
01:10:01,560 --> 01:10:03,439
Speaker 1: where I go, what if it doesn't work out? And

1349
01:10:03,520 --> 01:10:06,600
Speaker 1: I remember it was one day in a thought, and

1350
01:10:06,680 --> 01:10:08,719
Speaker 1: it just it was almost like you on that mountain.

1351
01:10:09,000 --> 01:10:12,360
Speaker 1: I can't turn back now, there's no there's no doing

1352
01:10:12,439 --> 01:10:15,280
Speaker 1: anything else. I have to only believe that I'm going

1353
01:10:15,320 --> 01:10:17,160
Speaker 1: to make it up this mountain. I can't let them.

1354
01:10:17,160 --> 01:10:20,439
Speaker 1: There's no point in entertaining going back down because you

1355
01:10:20,640 --> 01:10:23,160
Speaker 1: realized in that moment, I can't go back down. There's

1356
01:10:23,200 --> 01:10:24,760
Speaker 1: no point in it, so you let it go. And

1357
01:10:24,880 --> 01:10:26,800
Speaker 1: I think that there's one time I let it in.

1358
01:10:26,920 --> 01:10:28,960
Speaker 1: I was like what what I do because so many

1359
01:10:29,000 --> 01:10:31,400
Speaker 1: people were like at the time when I was struggling

1360
01:10:32,080 --> 01:10:34,000
Speaker 1: and I had no money and was like, you know,

1361
01:10:34,080 --> 01:10:36,000
Speaker 1: well into doing comedy and it wasn't. I had done

1362
01:10:36,040 --> 01:10:38,080
Speaker 1: the Tonight Show and last time I standing, but like

1363
01:10:38,240 --> 01:10:40,360
Speaker 1: nothing else was happening and I was still needing to

1364
01:10:40,400 --> 01:10:41,880
Speaker 1: borrow money, and it was just like, what if this

1365
01:10:42,000 --> 01:10:43,880
Speaker 1: doesn't work out? Like what if that's the what if

1366
01:10:43,920 --> 01:10:45,680
Speaker 1: that's working out? Is doing this to Night Show and

1367
01:10:45,720 --> 01:10:49,280
Speaker 1: then nothing after that and um, and there was a

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01:10:49,320 --> 01:10:51,000
Speaker 1: lot of like doubt in my parents of like what

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01:10:51,080 --> 01:10:53,240
Speaker 1: are you gonna do? Neck like if this isn't and

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01:10:53,320 --> 01:10:56,000
Speaker 1: I just I just was like kind of laughed it off,

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01:10:56,120 --> 01:10:58,560
Speaker 1: like that's so funny that you think it won't. But

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01:10:58,640 --> 01:11:00,920
Speaker 1: I don't know where that came from. It wasn't something

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01:11:00,960 --> 01:11:02,280
Speaker 1: I tried to do. I wish I could make I

1374
01:11:02,400 --> 01:11:04,080
Speaker 1: wish I could do that for other things in my life.

1375
01:11:04,120 --> 01:11:06,760
Speaker 1: I've never been so sure about something else, And now

1376
01:11:06,920 --> 01:11:08,599
Speaker 1: it's kind of happened and I wish I could kind

1377
01:11:08,600 --> 01:11:12,760
Speaker 1: of do that for I don't know, just my personal life.

1378
01:11:12,880 --> 01:11:16,840
Speaker 1: My Yeah, it's interesting where but there's definitely ways to

1379
01:11:17,000 --> 01:11:18,800
Speaker 1: to learn how to do that stuff. And that guy

1380
01:11:18,920 --> 01:11:20,519
Speaker 1: Joe to spends I wrote a book about it, but

1381
01:11:20,600 --> 01:11:23,479
Speaker 1: I cannot stand his meditations in his voice, so I'm

1382
01:11:23,520 --> 01:11:26,080
Speaker 1: giving up on my dreams. Thank you guys so much

1383
01:11:26,120 --> 01:11:28,439
Speaker 1: for listening. Um, we will be back tomorrow with one

1384
01:11:28,479 --> 01:11:31,240
Speaker 1: more show for this week. And uh, I hope you're

1385
01:11:31,280 --> 01:11:34,920
Speaker 1: not cool out there, and don't be Yeah, don't be cool.

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01:11:35,040 --> 01:11:35,879
Speaker 1: And Jack