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Speaker 1: Hey you guys, it's Caroline Hobby. Thank you for checking

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Speaker 1: out the Bobby Bones Show podcast. I wanted to share

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Speaker 1: an episode of my podcast, Get Real with Caroline Hobby.

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Speaker 1: This episode is Amber Smith. She's the wife of Granger Smith,

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Speaker 1: and she is sharing her love story with how she

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Speaker 1: met Granger at a music video shoot, their family, and

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Speaker 1: how she coped and is coping with the loss of

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Speaker 1: their young son River. It's such an intense episode, it's inspiring.

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Speaker 1: The love that Amber shares, the heart that she shares,

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Speaker 1: is just so moving. So I know you will be

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Speaker 1: so inspired and moved by this episode and subscribe on iHeartRadio,

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Speaker 1: Apple Podcast or wherever you get your podcast. Just search

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Speaker 1: Get Real with Caroline Hobby and here is the episode

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Speaker 1: now with Amber. She's a queen. She's getting so just

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Speaker 1: let the flow. No one can do with quiet cal

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Speaker 1: It's sound Carol. So, after many technical difficulties, I have

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Speaker 1: figured out how to turn the volume on my computer.

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Speaker 1: I am so happy to have you here, Amber Smith.

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Speaker 1: Thank you Stunny. This is like our first time to

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Speaker 1: actually meet. It is we were just saying we feel

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Speaker 1: like we know each other. It's crazy how that happens

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Speaker 1: through socials. But you feel like you've met somebody many

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Speaker 1: many times and we've never actually officially met. So and

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Speaker 1: y'all are in Texas, right, we are? We're in Georgetown. Okay,

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Speaker 1: I'm from Waco, Texas. So isn't that Georgetown is like

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Speaker 1: right by Austin, right, Yes, it's about twenty minutes twenty minutes,

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Speaker 1: twenty five minutes or so. Okay, I Austin's my favorite

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Speaker 1: city in Texas Handstown. I've never really spent much time

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Speaker 1: in Georgetown, but we all always drive through it because

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Speaker 1: my sister and brother in law live in Austin. Do

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Speaker 1: you love living Texas or were you and grander are

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Speaker 1: both from there? We are? We are both originally I've

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Speaker 1: grown up in Texas my whole life. He's from Dallas.

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Speaker 1: I'm from Fort Worth. And then we kind of just

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Speaker 1: picked a central spot. We thought Austin would be like

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Speaker 1: we just moved a little bit out. We lived in

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Speaker 1: almost going on six six years here. Nice. So I

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Speaker 1: was asking, I was like, you and Grander have been

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Speaker 1: together for a long time, like and you said ten

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Speaker 1: years and y'all met on the set of his music video,

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Speaker 1: So talk to me about how y'all met and how

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Speaker 1: old were you. Y'all must have been like baby, yeah,

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Speaker 1: I was twenty seven I think when we met, and

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Speaker 1: he actually messaged me through Facebook. They were looking for

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Speaker 1: actresses for his first music video and they did. They

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Speaker 1: then whenever Granger went home, he was like, huh, just

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Speaker 1: doesn't feel right. So he found me on Facebook through

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Speaker 1: the people you may know, like my picture popped up

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Speaker 1: and he just randomly messaged me and said, Hey, I'm

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Speaker 1: I'm a country music artist. Would you would you like

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Speaker 1: I was doing acting like small things, commercials and things

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Speaker 1: like that, so I was like, okay, yeah, we all

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Speaker 1: go meet some random guy like not safe, but I

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Speaker 1: took took my girlfriend. We met in Colleen. We shot

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Speaker 1: the video on Colleen and I just knew that I

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Speaker 1: felt something that day. You know, we we worked together

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Speaker 1: all day. We had our first kiss that day. Kiss

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Speaker 1: was on set. Yes, so our very first day of

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Speaker 1: meeting was all filmed. Oh my gosh, was that first

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Speaker 1: kiss natural? Was it awkward? Like? Howd it go? It

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Speaker 1: wasn't It wasn't awkward, he said. The first We did

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Speaker 1: it four times, he said. The first two times I

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Speaker 1: It wasn't just a peck like y'all had to get down. No,

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Speaker 1: it's just no. It wasn't any French kissing. It was

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Speaker 1: mainly pecks. Mainly pecks, but sensual pecks, so they got

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Speaker 1: more sensual as the time went on. I guess that's

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Speaker 1: one good way to break the eyes. Like you've already kissed,

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Speaker 1: You've already kind of crossed that line. You already had

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Speaker 1: Did when we left that? I'm sorry? Did y'all start

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Speaker 1: else for like three three four weeks before, and he said,

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Speaker 1: a month after I stopped stopped dating, and then he

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Speaker 1: asked me out for coffee. So we're together. How respectful

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Speaker 1: is that? Not even drinks coffee? Right? Coffee? We close

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Speaker 1: there like midnight. Dang, yeah, so it's good. Did you

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Speaker 1: And then like Earl Dibbeles Junior, I, like Binge watched

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Speaker 1: videos last night that Earl dibbels Junior, I can see

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Speaker 1: why people are obsessed. It is a it's a real

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Speaker 1: huge person character like Granger really has an alter ego.

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Speaker 1: He has many, many, many alter egos. Earl is the

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Speaker 1: one that kind of took off and it's it's been

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Speaker 1: such a creative release for him because Earl doesn't care care.

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Speaker 1: Earl says what he wants, he sings what he wants,

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Speaker 1: Did he when he created these alter egos? Like, did

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Speaker 1: Because how did he he became a Texas big artist

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Speaker 1: So what about your acting career? Tell me about that, Like,

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Speaker 1: But how did you get to do only sing? Up?

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Speaker 1: guess Granger's an actor too, honestly he is. Yeah. He

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Speaker 1: I would say he's better than I am. He can

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Speaker 1: good in impersonations too. He can impersonate anybody he meets,

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Speaker 1: Like I mean, you know, it's just it's hard to

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Speaker 1: and you're doing the very best you can. And you

428
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Speaker 1: said you have to just like not blame yourself, and

429
00:22:50,480 --> 00:22:52,879
Speaker 1: I totally agree with you because it's so easy to

430
00:22:52,960 --> 00:22:55,000
Speaker 1: probably want to blame yourself. But you even said, like

431
00:22:55,560 --> 00:22:57,840
Speaker 1: what I would have given if I hadn't taken that shower.

432
00:22:58,320 --> 00:23:00,280
Speaker 1: I would love to give that shower back. But it's

433
00:23:00,320 --> 00:23:02,119
Speaker 1: like you just needed five minutes. I mean, you're with

434
00:23:02,200 --> 00:23:05,320
Speaker 1: three kids all day every day, Like you gotta find

435
00:23:05,680 --> 00:23:10,760
Speaker 1: five minutes for yourself somewhere. You know. Yeah, that's been

436
00:23:10,920 --> 00:23:13,080
Speaker 1: that's been really hard because it was one of those nights.

437
00:23:13,480 --> 00:23:15,119
Speaker 1: I put it on my Instagram. It was one of

438
00:23:15,160 --> 00:23:16,960
Speaker 1: those night you know, you know, as a mom, you're

439
00:23:17,359 --> 00:23:20,240
Speaker 1: you're exhausted if you have it's not all over you

440
00:23:20,440 --> 00:23:22,879
Speaker 1: and you're you know, you're you're you're climbing all over

441
00:23:22,920 --> 00:23:24,520
Speaker 1: you all day and you don't have two seconds to

442
00:23:24,680 --> 00:23:27,199
Speaker 1: go to the restroom or anything. Any Yeah, So that night,

443
00:23:27,880 --> 00:23:31,160
Speaker 1: that night, it was frustrated, and I just said, you know, Grangers,

444
00:23:31,359 --> 00:23:33,040
Speaker 1: they were outside and Granger said, can you take the

445
00:23:33,080 --> 00:23:35,680
Speaker 1: boys inside? And I was like, I just need five minutes.

446
00:23:35,720 --> 00:23:37,560
Speaker 1: I just need to go take a shower. And then

447
00:23:37,720 --> 00:23:40,640
Speaker 1: between the time I took the shower is when it happened.

448
00:23:40,680 --> 00:23:45,600
Speaker 1: And it's like, how can you not feel guilty about

449
00:23:45,600 --> 00:23:47,200
Speaker 1: how can you not think God, if I wouldn't have

450
00:23:47,240 --> 00:23:48,760
Speaker 1: taken that shower, if I would have just put him

451
00:23:48,760 --> 00:23:52,520
Speaker 1: to bed. But I'm trying to as a Christian, you

452
00:23:52,800 --> 00:23:56,320
Speaker 1: you believe that God knows your time, and we're trying

453
00:23:56,400 --> 00:23:59,359
Speaker 1: to trust. We don't understand, but we're trying to trust

454
00:23:59,440 --> 00:24:03,080
Speaker 1: that for some reason, this was this was Rivers time

455
00:24:03,119 --> 00:24:06,120
Speaker 1: on earth, and that was his time to go home.

456
00:24:06,440 --> 00:24:08,280
Speaker 1: And we can't beat ourselves up about it. We just

457
00:24:08,359 --> 00:24:11,560
Speaker 1: have to try to continue trusting and living for living

458
00:24:11,600 --> 00:24:14,280
Speaker 1: for River and living for the Lord, and just keeping

459
00:24:14,359 --> 00:24:19,480
Speaker 1: going until it's our time, and forgiving ourselves for something

460
00:24:19,600 --> 00:24:25,600
Speaker 1: that we don't have that much control over exactly, I mean,

461
00:24:26,240 --> 00:24:31,160
Speaker 1: forgiving yourself for honestly doing nothing wrong. Honestly. I mean,

462
00:24:31,480 --> 00:24:34,119
Speaker 1: you know, it's just it's the what if game, and

463
00:24:34,560 --> 00:24:36,920
Speaker 1: I can't even I can play the what if game

464
00:24:37,000 --> 00:24:39,159
Speaker 1: with stuff that doesn't matter all day long, and so

465
00:24:39,359 --> 00:24:43,200
Speaker 1: when you're in a real situation like this that actually

466
00:24:43,320 --> 00:24:45,639
Speaker 1: it probably gives you so much clarity about what actually

467
00:24:45,720 --> 00:24:48,640
Speaker 1: really matters in life. I bet you don't give much

468
00:24:48,640 --> 00:24:50,760
Speaker 1: of two cents about stuff that you used to at

469
00:24:50,800 --> 00:24:54,280
Speaker 1: all anymore. We waste so much time focusing on stuff

470
00:24:54,320 --> 00:24:58,439
Speaker 1: that absolutely does not matter, and then you get hit

471
00:24:58,520 --> 00:25:01,960
Speaker 1: with something like this and you're like, this, nothing matters

472
00:25:02,080 --> 00:25:06,679
Speaker 1: really except for family and God and trying. I mean,

473
00:25:06,880 --> 00:25:09,600
Speaker 1: what has that brought to your awareness about what matters

474
00:25:09,640 --> 00:25:14,520
Speaker 1: to you? I mean, you said it exactly. It. I

475
00:25:14,720 --> 00:25:18,399
Speaker 1: hate that it took losing my son to open my

476
00:25:18,520 --> 00:25:22,159
Speaker 1: eyes to the world into what is important. And you know,

477
00:25:22,640 --> 00:25:26,119
Speaker 1: little dumb, trivial things that that you're right, they just

478
00:25:26,359 --> 00:25:29,040
Speaker 1: don't matter. The only thing that matters in life is

479
00:25:29,080 --> 00:25:33,000
Speaker 1: your family and God and helping people and loving people

480
00:25:33,160 --> 00:25:37,200
Speaker 1: and trying to bring people to the Kingdom of Heaven

481
00:25:37,240 --> 00:25:39,520
Speaker 1: like that, seriously, the only thing that matters. And people

482
00:25:39,600 --> 00:25:42,560
Speaker 1: get still worked up over little tiny things and and

483
00:25:42,760 --> 00:25:45,440
Speaker 1: it's not their fault, it's just until something hits you

484
00:25:45,600 --> 00:25:48,240
Speaker 1: like this, you don't know. You don't know, you don't

485
00:25:48,320 --> 00:25:52,720
Speaker 1: realize the bigger things in life and the most important

486
00:25:52,720 --> 00:25:54,080
Speaker 1: things in your life are right in front of you,

487
00:25:55,320 --> 00:25:58,040
Speaker 1: and people get so upset about well, people will get

488
00:25:58,040 --> 00:26:02,199
Speaker 1: so upset with their families with other people over stupid

489
00:26:02,280 --> 00:26:04,960
Speaker 1: stuff that like draws rifts and their families, or draws

490
00:26:05,119 --> 00:26:09,080
Speaker 1: rifts and friendships, or people take stuff so personal that

491
00:26:09,320 --> 00:26:13,399
Speaker 1: was just like misinterpreted, and it's like, let's just cut

492
00:26:13,560 --> 00:26:16,840
Speaker 1: all that out and just see through the lens of love,

493
00:26:17,520 --> 00:26:22,960
Speaker 1: because life is short, and it's real short. And like

494
00:26:23,080 --> 00:26:26,159
Speaker 1: you said, sometimes you look back on these pictures and

495
00:26:26,200 --> 00:26:29,040
Speaker 1: you're like, you don't even know that you're taking these

496
00:26:29,119 --> 00:26:31,479
Speaker 1: pictures and that you'll look back and be so thankful

497
00:26:31,520 --> 00:26:33,120
Speaker 1: you have them. I don't know exactly what you said,

498
00:26:33,119 --> 00:26:34,879
Speaker 1: because you don't know that they're your last. You never

499
00:26:35,000 --> 00:26:38,800
Speaker 1: know when it's your last moment with something, with someone,

500
00:26:39,320 --> 00:26:41,520
Speaker 1: or when an error is over, not even just like

501
00:26:41,800 --> 00:26:43,680
Speaker 1: a death, but like when a season is over, even

502
00:26:43,760 --> 00:26:45,760
Speaker 1: like talking about the Van Dais and like with Granger

503
00:26:45,840 --> 00:26:47,480
Speaker 1: on the road, Like I was thinking about that with

504
00:26:47,600 --> 00:26:50,119
Speaker 1: Michael the other day, Like I remember, like on the

505
00:26:50,240 --> 00:26:52,440
Speaker 1: road with him, I was like, gosh, I just like

506
00:26:52,520 --> 00:26:54,159
Speaker 1: I'm so ready for us to be able to be

507
00:26:54,200 --> 00:26:56,320
Speaker 1: in a bust and like, you know, it'd be so

508
00:26:56,480 --> 00:26:58,879
Speaker 1: great if people actually came with the show and like

509
00:26:59,480 --> 00:27:02,280
Speaker 1: also stuff. But then you look back and you're like, wow,

510
00:27:02,520 --> 00:27:06,320
Speaker 1: like those are moments that we're fun, Like we were

511
00:27:06,440 --> 00:27:08,760
Speaker 1: young with no cares, and you did that on your

512
00:27:08,800 --> 00:27:13,240
Speaker 1: ten year challenge, like no cares at all. Like the

513
00:27:13,320 --> 00:27:15,280
Speaker 1: biggest care I had was like where am I gonna

514
00:27:15,280 --> 00:27:16,520
Speaker 1: get my drink? Or am I gonna be able to

515
00:27:16,760 --> 00:27:19,280
Speaker 1: hang out and party all night have fun? And I'm

516
00:27:19,320 --> 00:27:22,920
Speaker 1: so glad I had that youth in that innocence and

517
00:27:23,080 --> 00:27:26,879
Speaker 1: that that just like no no real responsibility, Like I

518
00:27:26,920 --> 00:27:28,880
Speaker 1: feel grateful to have had a season in my life

519
00:27:28,960 --> 00:27:31,800
Speaker 1: like that. And then it's over and it's over one

520
00:27:31,880 --> 00:27:34,560
Speaker 1: day and it will never ever be back again. And

521
00:27:34,680 --> 00:27:37,679
Speaker 1: so it's like you have to enjoy these moments because

522
00:27:38,280 --> 00:27:41,000
Speaker 1: they're sometimes there's just a big end to things and

523
00:27:41,119 --> 00:27:44,840
Speaker 1: you never see it coming. No, it's like Granger said,

524
00:27:44,840 --> 00:27:46,560
Speaker 1: you know, he said the other day, there's there'll be

525
00:27:46,640 --> 00:27:48,879
Speaker 1: a time when you'll run outside and play with your

526
00:27:48,920 --> 00:27:51,960
Speaker 1: friend for the last time, or you'll lay your baby

527
00:27:52,000 --> 00:27:53,760
Speaker 1: down in their crib for their last time, or you'll

528
00:27:53,800 --> 00:27:55,639
Speaker 1: give them that one more kiss. It'll be the last time.

529
00:27:55,720 --> 00:27:57,359
Speaker 1: You just don't know when that last time is going

530
00:27:57,440 --> 00:28:01,920
Speaker 1: to be. And that's why, especially now, we're just you know,

531
00:28:02,040 --> 00:28:04,119
Speaker 1: he always says it on his podcast, we're planning for

532
00:28:04,200 --> 00:28:07,040
Speaker 1: the future, but we're living for today. That's all we have.

533
00:28:08,000 --> 00:28:10,560
Speaker 1: And and like I said, it's it's hard in motherhood

534
00:28:10,560 --> 00:28:12,560
Speaker 1: when you're tired and you're exhausted, and you know you

535
00:28:12,680 --> 00:28:14,440
Speaker 1: just want a little bit of a break, but just

536
00:28:14,600 --> 00:28:17,879
Speaker 1: trying to live for today, for the next breath, for

537
00:28:17,960 --> 00:28:19,840
Speaker 1: the next step, and just be in the moment as

538
00:28:19,960 --> 00:28:21,600
Speaker 1: much as you can, because you just don't know when

539
00:28:22,520 --> 00:28:26,080
Speaker 1: your last moment's going to be. Was it hard for

540
00:28:26,240 --> 00:28:29,000
Speaker 1: you to get back out into public and to get

541
00:28:29,040 --> 00:28:33,000
Speaker 1: back into your life. Has that been a transition? Um?

542
00:28:33,480 --> 00:28:36,040
Speaker 1: We did. We we kind of shied away from because

543
00:28:36,040 --> 00:28:39,280
Speaker 1: we had just started The Smiths two months before our

544
00:28:39,960 --> 00:28:44,040
Speaker 1: our YouTube channel, and we we spent time, we stayed

545
00:28:44,040 --> 00:28:45,600
Speaker 1: with our family for about two weeks. We kind of

546
00:28:45,600 --> 00:28:48,160
Speaker 1: went dark, and then we decided that's when we made

547
00:28:48,200 --> 00:28:51,920
Speaker 1: the choice, like let's let's open up, let's be vulnerable,

548
00:28:51,960 --> 00:28:54,040
Speaker 1: let's talk to people about our story, about what happened,

549
00:28:54,080 --> 00:28:58,680
Speaker 1: about our faith, about God's grace, and so it obviously,

550
00:28:58,760 --> 00:29:00,560
Speaker 1: you know with social media, they're there's a ton of

551
00:29:00,600 --> 00:29:02,760
Speaker 1: negative stuff that comes with that. So I think the

552
00:29:02,840 --> 00:29:06,240
Speaker 1: hardest part stepping back out is just the negative, the

553
00:29:06,360 --> 00:29:09,080
Speaker 1: negative comments, the negative backlash. But just got to focus

554
00:29:09,160 --> 00:29:10,800
Speaker 1: on all the good because ninety eight percent of it

555
00:29:10,960 --> 00:29:14,720
Speaker 1: is wonderful and great, but that two percent, you know,

556
00:29:14,920 --> 00:29:18,160
Speaker 1: sometimes it's hard, especially when you're going through a really traumatic,

557
00:29:18,760 --> 00:29:20,960
Speaker 1: traumatic thing and you're trying to be vulnerable and share

558
00:29:20,960 --> 00:29:25,280
Speaker 1: your story, to not focus on the negative, the negative

559
00:29:25,560 --> 00:29:30,560
Speaker 1: comments and that thing, right, negative comments, Oh my gosh,

560
00:29:31,480 --> 00:29:38,560
Speaker 1: we got it was horrible, you know, basically saying you

561
00:29:38,600 --> 00:29:40,680
Speaker 1: should just watched your kid, or you know, you've you

562
00:29:40,880 --> 00:29:45,400
Speaker 1: killed your child, or we should be in jail. You know,

563
00:29:45,440 --> 00:29:47,320
Speaker 1: there were lots of comments saying, you know these they're

564
00:29:47,360 --> 00:29:49,480
Speaker 1: just rich and famous and they they if it was

565
00:29:49,480 --> 00:29:51,760
Speaker 1: any normal person, they would be in jail. And I'm thinking,

566
00:29:53,240 --> 00:29:55,560
Speaker 1: you know, it's like people think we weren't investigated, like

567
00:29:55,640 --> 00:29:59,160
Speaker 1: we were a normal family. Police came, police interviewed us,

568
00:29:59,240 --> 00:30:01,800
Speaker 1: We had Child Protective Services come out and interview us

569
00:30:01,840 --> 00:30:05,600
Speaker 1: in our family multiple times. Like it's just hard when

570
00:30:05,640 --> 00:30:09,280
Speaker 1: you're going through something that terrible to have to hear

571
00:30:09,360 --> 00:30:11,040
Speaker 1: those things about you and your family when you know

572
00:30:11,120 --> 00:30:13,000
Speaker 1: in your heart like you try your best to be

573
00:30:13,080 --> 00:30:16,600
Speaker 1: a good parent, and just tragic accidents happen. So that

574
00:30:16,760 --> 00:30:19,200
Speaker 1: was hard, But we're coming out of that. We're coming

575
00:30:19,240 --> 00:30:24,440
Speaker 1: into hopefulness and gratitude and kindness. Like there's so many

576
00:30:24,520 --> 00:30:27,480
Speaker 1: kind people and our natural community has rallied around us,

577
00:30:27,520 --> 00:30:30,600
Speaker 1: the music community, our friends, and our family, and that's

578
00:30:30,640 --> 00:30:32,840
Speaker 1: what we have to focus on. It's like Burnee Brown says,

579
00:30:32,880 --> 00:30:35,280
Speaker 1: if you're not in the arena with me, you don't

580
00:30:35,320 --> 00:30:37,280
Speaker 1: have the you don't get the right to comment and

581
00:30:37,400 --> 00:30:40,280
Speaker 1: hurt my heart. So keep your little group together and

582
00:30:40,640 --> 00:30:43,920
Speaker 1: trust your family, trust your friends, and listen to those

583
00:30:44,000 --> 00:30:47,000
Speaker 1: people who truly love you and truly matter, and don't

584
00:30:47,040 --> 00:30:53,160
Speaker 1: focus on negative energy in your life. So you said

585
00:30:53,240 --> 00:30:55,080
Speaker 1: one time you were praying and you actually heard an

586
00:30:55,120 --> 00:30:57,760
Speaker 1: audible voice from God and it said something like I've

587
00:30:57,800 --> 00:31:00,840
Speaker 1: got rid. I don't know exactly what you said, I've

588
00:31:00,840 --> 00:31:03,520
Speaker 1: got riff and everyone is grieving something and it was

589
00:31:03,560 --> 00:31:06,800
Speaker 1: like a big moment for you, a big, a eye

590
00:31:06,840 --> 00:31:09,920
Speaker 1: opening moment for you. Yeah, I've really been trying to

591
00:31:09,960 --> 00:31:12,160
Speaker 1: cultivate a relationship with God, and I feel like I

592
00:31:12,400 --> 00:31:14,200
Speaker 1: hear him speak to me occasionally. I know that might

593
00:31:14,240 --> 00:31:18,600
Speaker 1: sound crazy people, but I had Yeah, I had been

594
00:31:19,280 --> 00:31:22,920
Speaker 1: having a really rough rough time, and I had been

595
00:31:22,920 --> 00:31:25,800
Speaker 1: allowing myself to grieve. But normally it's for a short

596
00:31:25,840 --> 00:31:27,680
Speaker 1: amount of time. I'll grieve for an hour or something.

597
00:31:28,040 --> 00:31:30,360
Speaker 1: This was days. Like I was just wallowing. I was

598
00:31:30,440 --> 00:31:33,720
Speaker 1: feeling self pity and guilt and anger and sadness. And

599
00:31:35,160 --> 00:31:39,400
Speaker 1: I finally just heard like, enough, stop it. Like you're

600
00:31:39,480 --> 00:31:41,840
Speaker 1: not the only one hurting. Everybody is hurting in this world.

601
00:31:41,920 --> 00:31:44,760
Speaker 1: You're not any more special than anybody else. Pick yourself up.

602
00:31:45,040 --> 00:31:48,320
Speaker 1: I've got riff, I've got you, and you can do this.

603
00:31:49,040 --> 00:31:51,000
Speaker 1: And I immediately just like wiped my eyes and I

604
00:31:51,080 --> 00:31:54,240
Speaker 1: was like, okay, let's go, you know. And not to

605
00:31:54,280 --> 00:31:57,160
Speaker 1: say you can't grieve and you can't mourn, because you

606
00:31:57,200 --> 00:31:59,840
Speaker 1: should and that's healthy, but don't allow yourself to be stuck.

607
00:32:00,760 --> 00:32:03,680
Speaker 1: Don't allow yourself to never get out of bed. Like

608
00:32:03,800 --> 00:32:05,280
Speaker 1: you've got to get up. You got to keep fighting.

609
00:32:05,360 --> 00:32:08,760
Speaker 1: Everybody in this world is hurting, whether they're grieving a

610
00:32:08,920 --> 00:32:11,360
Speaker 1: death or the loss of a job or all this

611
00:32:11,440 --> 00:32:14,600
Speaker 1: stuff going on right now with with with COVID. You know,

612
00:32:14,720 --> 00:32:17,760
Speaker 1: everybody is hurting, and we have to just try to

613
00:32:17,840 --> 00:32:23,720
Speaker 1: live our life compassionately and hopefully and just take the

614
00:32:23,800 --> 00:32:29,560
Speaker 1: next step. Has it been hard at times to stay

615
00:32:30,360 --> 00:32:33,880
Speaker 1: u in gratitude with God or to stay has it?

616
00:32:34,280 --> 00:32:36,360
Speaker 1: Has it been hard not to be super angry at

617
00:32:36,440 --> 00:32:42,000
Speaker 1: God at times? Um, That's one thing I don't I

618
00:32:42,080 --> 00:32:45,400
Speaker 1: don't feel like I've ever been angry at God. I've

619
00:32:45,440 --> 00:32:48,080
Speaker 1: been angry, I've been mad, you know, like this is

620
00:32:48,120 --> 00:32:50,080
Speaker 1: not fair, I don't want this, But I've never been

621
00:32:51,400 --> 00:32:54,560
Speaker 1: angry at Him and I've I don't know, that's hard

622
00:32:54,560 --> 00:32:58,920
Speaker 1: to explain. Um, I've just never been angry at God.

623
00:32:59,000 --> 00:33:02,960
Speaker 1: It's like I've always just trusted. Um. I don't understand it,

624
00:33:03,240 --> 00:33:05,240
Speaker 1: and I am and I am angry at times, but

625
00:33:05,360 --> 00:33:08,200
Speaker 1: I'm trying to not, like I said, not let myself

626
00:33:08,200 --> 00:33:11,560
Speaker 1: stay in that anger. And I think I think part

627
00:33:11,600 --> 00:33:13,560
Speaker 1: of that that's helped me as I have felt so

628
00:33:13,720 --> 00:33:17,440
Speaker 1: comforted by God since the very first night that that

629
00:33:17,560 --> 00:33:19,960
Speaker 1: had happened. I just felt Him with me the whole

630
00:33:20,360 --> 00:33:22,120
Speaker 1: the whole time in the hospital and the whole time

631
00:33:22,200 --> 00:33:26,440
Speaker 1: after that, and anytime I'm really grieving or very much

632
00:33:26,600 --> 00:33:29,160
Speaker 1: desperate calling out to Him, he has just shown up.

633
00:33:29,200 --> 00:33:31,719
Speaker 1: For me, And so it's really hard to be mad

634
00:33:31,720 --> 00:33:33,480
Speaker 1: at God who shows up for you when you need him.

635
00:33:33,520 --> 00:33:36,320
Speaker 1: You know, it could be mad at things that you're

636
00:33:36,520 --> 00:33:39,040
Speaker 1: in your life, but so does he show up for

637
00:33:39,080 --> 00:33:41,480
Speaker 1: you in all different ways, like a feeling audible. You

638
00:33:41,600 --> 00:33:43,960
Speaker 1: get signs like how does how has he shown up

639
00:33:44,000 --> 00:33:49,080
Speaker 1: for you? Yeah? I think I think starting within the hospital,

640
00:33:49,160 --> 00:33:52,040
Speaker 1: it was a it was a strange feeling of you know,

641
00:33:52,080 --> 00:33:53,640
Speaker 1: you're going through one of the worst things you could

642
00:33:53,640 --> 00:33:55,440
Speaker 1: ever go through, but it was this feeling of peace,

643
00:33:56,200 --> 00:33:59,200
Speaker 1: like he was helping guide my decisions because I wasn't

644
00:33:59,240 --> 00:34:01,080
Speaker 1: in my right mind. I was in shock, and he

645
00:34:01,200 --> 00:34:03,360
Speaker 1: was helping us guide our decisions as to what we

646
00:34:03,440 --> 00:34:05,200
Speaker 1: were going to do next. You know, we made the

647
00:34:05,280 --> 00:34:08,600
Speaker 1: decision to donate rivers organs. I could have never thought

648
00:34:08,640 --> 00:34:11,560
Speaker 1: of that in my right you know, around my right mind.

649
00:34:11,600 --> 00:34:13,600
Speaker 1: But I felt him with me, and I felt I

650
00:34:13,760 --> 00:34:16,000
Speaker 1: felt like River was home and he was guiding us.

651
00:34:16,080 --> 00:34:18,839
Speaker 1: And since then, you know, there was a river, a river,

652
00:34:19,400 --> 00:34:24,600
Speaker 1: a rainbow at River service. I asked for I asked

653
00:34:24,640 --> 00:34:27,319
Speaker 1: for like a physical sign of a blue butterfly one night,

654
00:34:27,440 --> 00:34:30,960
Speaker 1: and I got that the next day, and I was

655
00:34:31,080 --> 00:34:33,080
Speaker 1: crying out the other day and immediately looked up and

656
00:34:33,080 --> 00:34:35,040
Speaker 1: there was a cardinal on the fence. And I'm just

657
00:34:35,120 --> 00:34:37,040
Speaker 1: a firm believer in little signs like that. And I

658
00:34:37,120 --> 00:34:40,040
Speaker 1: know some people think those are coincidences, but I just

659
00:34:40,200 --> 00:34:42,480
Speaker 1: as a Christian, you don't, you don't believe in coincidences.

660
00:34:43,000 --> 00:34:45,520
Speaker 1: And I just feel I just feel Him with me

661
00:34:46,280 --> 00:34:50,759
Speaker 1: all the time, and I'm I'm just grateful for that. Yeah,

662
00:34:51,600 --> 00:34:56,239
Speaker 1: oh man, Yamber. Yeah, So what does life look like

663
00:34:56,360 --> 00:35:03,160
Speaker 1: for you today to day? Currently, we are moving out

664
00:35:03,200 --> 00:35:06,719
Speaker 1: of this house. We knew. We moved from the house

665
00:35:06,760 --> 00:35:09,440
Speaker 1: where the accident happened. A month later we just couldn't

666
00:35:09,480 --> 00:35:11,560
Speaker 1: be there. Moved into my brother in law's house that

667
00:35:11,640 --> 00:35:13,239
Speaker 1: he was selling, so we knew this was kind of

668
00:35:13,280 --> 00:35:15,879
Speaker 1: a safe spot for us to regroup and think about

669
00:35:15,920 --> 00:35:18,080
Speaker 1: what we wanted to do next. So we're gonna be

670
00:35:18,120 --> 00:35:20,640
Speaker 1: out of this house in ten days. We found a

671
00:35:20,680 --> 00:35:23,040
Speaker 1: little a little piece of land and we're gonna hopefully

672
00:35:23,520 --> 00:35:25,120
Speaker 1: going to live an RV for a little bit and

673
00:35:25,200 --> 00:35:31,160
Speaker 1: we're gonna hopefully build a small farmhouse and just try

674
00:35:31,200 --> 00:35:34,719
Speaker 1: to continue our mission in saving trying to prevent this

675
00:35:34,920 --> 00:35:38,640
Speaker 1: from happening to other people talk about water safety and

676
00:35:39,160 --> 00:35:41,680
Speaker 1: we created the River Kelly Fund to help give to

677
00:35:41,800 --> 00:35:46,760
Speaker 1: other people just trying to speak out and joined forces

678
00:35:46,800 --> 00:35:49,200
Speaker 1: with other moms who have lost a child to drowning,

679
00:35:49,280 --> 00:35:53,040
Speaker 1: and just all of us coming together can hopefully save

680
00:35:53,120 --> 00:35:56,319
Speaker 1: other lives. So Granger should hopefully get back to touring

681
00:35:56,360 --> 00:35:58,200
Speaker 1: and the next couple of months when Matt ever opens

682
00:35:58,280 --> 00:36:04,600
Speaker 1: up again, and just trying to move forward, carrying carrying

683
00:36:04,880 --> 00:36:08,919
Speaker 1: this loss with us and living for Riff and living

684
00:36:09,000 --> 00:36:11,719
Speaker 1: for our kids and living for our family. So what

685
00:36:11,840 --> 00:36:14,920
Speaker 1: would you say the mission is that you're trying to

686
00:36:14,960 --> 00:36:17,160
Speaker 1: speak up about and like, how are you what are

687
00:36:17,200 --> 00:36:22,000
Speaker 1: you wanting people to know about water safety? I just

688
00:36:22,280 --> 00:36:25,520
Speaker 1: want parents and caregivers and babysitters to know that this

689
00:36:25,680 --> 00:36:28,319
Speaker 1: can happen to anybody. You can think that you're taking

690
00:36:28,360 --> 00:36:30,920
Speaker 1: all the precautions, but it's not one thing that's going

691
00:36:30,960 --> 00:36:33,080
Speaker 1: to prevent it. It's not just supervision, it's not just

692
00:36:33,200 --> 00:36:37,760
Speaker 1: a gait, it's not just swim lessons. You need multiple

693
00:36:37,840 --> 00:36:39,880
Speaker 1: layers of protection. And that's what we've been talking about.

694
00:36:40,440 --> 00:36:42,680
Speaker 1: One thing I didn't know, like when I always went

695
00:36:42,719 --> 00:36:45,080
Speaker 1: to the pediatrician. You know, your pediatrician asks you, how's

696
00:36:45,080 --> 00:36:47,040
Speaker 1: your baby eating? How are they pooping? How is this?

697
00:36:47,560 --> 00:36:49,880
Speaker 1: No one ever said, do you have a pool? Do

698
00:36:50,000 --> 00:36:52,520
Speaker 1: you know it's the number one killer of children one

699
00:36:52,600 --> 00:36:55,360
Speaker 1: to four? Like, I never knew that. Do you know

700
00:36:55,480 --> 00:36:58,360
Speaker 1: it takes less than thirty seconds? Do you know that

701
00:36:58,440 --> 00:37:01,600
Speaker 1: they can have brain damage after before four minutes? I

702
00:37:01,760 --> 00:37:04,719
Speaker 1: just I'm trying to educate people about that because you

703
00:37:04,800 --> 00:37:07,239
Speaker 1: don't know. You see it in movies and it's like, oh,

704
00:37:07,280 --> 00:37:09,160
Speaker 1: you scoop them up and you give them CPR and

705
00:37:09,200 --> 00:37:12,719
Speaker 1: everything's fine. That's just not the case. It takes you

706
00:37:12,880 --> 00:37:15,120
Speaker 1: go into the restroom and your child to wander off

707
00:37:15,160 --> 00:37:18,000
Speaker 1: in fifteen seconds, twenty seconds, And that's how fast your

708
00:37:18,040 --> 00:37:20,400
Speaker 1: life can get turned upside down. So I think just

709
00:37:20,440 --> 00:37:24,640
Speaker 1: speaking out about that and telling people about Swim Survival,

710
00:37:25,120 --> 00:37:27,040
Speaker 1: you know, we don't I only ever knew if swim lessons.

711
00:37:27,120 --> 00:37:29,120
Speaker 1: But now they have a new thing called Swim Survival

712
00:37:29,200 --> 00:37:32,479
Speaker 1: where it teaches babies to float, so you can start

713
00:37:32,520 --> 00:37:35,000
Speaker 1: that as early as eight months where if your baby

714
00:37:35,040 --> 00:37:39,480
Speaker 1: falls in, they can learn to roll over and float. Yeah,

715
00:37:39,600 --> 00:37:42,120
Speaker 1: just trying to educate people about all of the steps

716
00:37:42,200 --> 00:37:45,080
Speaker 1: needed and all of the multiple layers of protection that

717
00:37:45,120 --> 00:37:50,760
Speaker 1: you can have to protect your babies. So your heart

718
00:37:50,880 --> 00:37:54,600
Speaker 1: will never be the same. Said, you may never know

719
00:37:54,760 --> 00:37:58,000
Speaker 1: if you can be truly happy again. So what what

720
00:37:58,160 --> 00:38:03,200
Speaker 1: does happiness look like for you now? UM? Find just

721
00:38:03,320 --> 00:38:07,239
Speaker 1: finding joy throughout the day. I think being grateful, having

722
00:38:07,320 --> 00:38:10,360
Speaker 1: gratitude helps me to be It's hard to be angry,

723
00:38:10,400 --> 00:38:12,600
Speaker 1: it's hard to be bitter when you're grateful. So I

724
00:38:12,640 --> 00:38:15,160
Speaker 1: think just looking around you and still being grateful for

725
00:38:15,239 --> 00:38:17,520
Speaker 1: things that we do have in our life, I think

726
00:38:17,600 --> 00:38:21,839
Speaker 1: that that brings happiness. Seeing my kids happy, seeing Grange

727
00:38:21,840 --> 00:38:24,279
Speaker 1: you're working on a song's he's creative again, which that's

728
00:38:24,320 --> 00:38:26,120
Speaker 1: taken him a little while to get there. That makes

729
00:38:26,160 --> 00:38:31,400
Speaker 1: me happy seeing him happy again. Hearing other stories of

730
00:38:31,520 --> 00:38:34,239
Speaker 1: people sharing their stories saying we put our baby and

731
00:38:34,280 --> 00:38:36,800
Speaker 1: swim lessons, or we installed a gait because of you,

732
00:38:37,920 --> 00:38:40,200
Speaker 1: We opened up our Bible again because of your son.

733
00:38:40,560 --> 00:38:43,920
Speaker 1: You know, that brings me happiness, that his life has

734
00:38:44,040 --> 00:38:48,120
Speaker 1: meaning and we're bringing people to heaven. You know, Um,

735
00:38:48,360 --> 00:38:56,600
Speaker 1: that makes me happy? Yeah, yeah, yeah, A. Or you

736
00:38:59,400 --> 00:39:01,920
Speaker 1: you are so strong, Like I literally look at your

737
00:39:01,960 --> 00:39:04,839
Speaker 1: Instagram all the time and I'm just like you are

738
00:39:05,120 --> 00:39:08,840
Speaker 1: such if we're talking about how life is just a

739
00:39:08,920 --> 00:39:11,160
Speaker 1: blink and the ultimate goal is to get to heaven,

740
00:39:11,280 --> 00:39:15,160
Speaker 1: because we're all on our way to heaven on this earth.

741
00:39:15,760 --> 00:39:18,960
Speaker 1: None of us are getting out of here alive, and

742
00:39:19,160 --> 00:39:23,040
Speaker 1: some are taken way too soon, and some of us

743
00:39:23,120 --> 00:39:25,279
Speaker 1: live a long life, and you never know when our

744
00:39:25,360 --> 00:39:29,160
Speaker 1: time to go is going to happen. But when something

745
00:39:29,239 --> 00:39:32,920
Speaker 1: does happen, that's out of what we think is we're

746
00:39:33,120 --> 00:39:36,960
Speaker 1: prepared for, or it's tragic. I just the way you

747
00:39:37,400 --> 00:39:41,000
Speaker 1: are handling it and the way you are stepping up

748
00:39:41,160 --> 00:39:44,840
Speaker 1: and like bringing God into all of your posts and

749
00:39:44,920 --> 00:39:48,279
Speaker 1: like talking about your honest feelings and being vulnerable. The

750
00:39:48,400 --> 00:39:50,440
Speaker 1: fact that you are willing to share like you do,

751
00:39:51,360 --> 00:39:53,239
Speaker 1: you are so inspiring. And I know that's not what

752
00:39:53,360 --> 00:39:55,800
Speaker 1: you want to be because I know more than anything

753
00:39:55,840 --> 00:39:57,880
Speaker 1: you want to have river back. But the fact that

754
00:39:58,000 --> 00:40:02,360
Speaker 1: you are using your situation that you've been dealt in

755
00:40:02,440 --> 00:40:07,359
Speaker 1: the way that you are, I just you are using

756
00:40:07,440 --> 00:40:09,640
Speaker 1: your life for God in such a huge way, and

757
00:40:09,800 --> 00:40:13,560
Speaker 1: that is so incredible of you to do that, because

758
00:40:13,600 --> 00:40:17,240
Speaker 1: you are and you are absolutely changing other people's lives

759
00:40:18,000 --> 00:40:21,279
Speaker 1: by the way you're showing up in your life. And

760
00:40:21,719 --> 00:40:24,440
Speaker 1: I know that's so hard, and I just wanted to

761
00:40:24,520 --> 00:40:28,440
Speaker 1: tell you everybody who knows you and sees you, and

762
00:40:28,600 --> 00:40:32,600
Speaker 1: Granger and your family sees that about you. Guys, what

763
00:40:32,760 --> 00:40:34,640
Speaker 1: a light you are and how you are using the

764
00:40:34,760 --> 00:40:39,640
Speaker 1: situation to still find light. And that's almost near impossible,

765
00:40:39,719 --> 00:40:44,600
Speaker 1: but y'all are doing it. It's been hard. People people

766
00:40:44,640 --> 00:40:47,200
Speaker 1: say you're so strong, and all I can say is

767
00:40:47,280 --> 00:40:49,759
Speaker 1: that I'm not. I'm weak. You know I'm weak, but

768
00:40:49,800 --> 00:40:52,279
Speaker 1: I got a strong God. So that's what I'm holding

769
00:40:52,320 --> 00:40:55,560
Speaker 1: on to. And I thank you for saying that this

770
00:40:55,800 --> 00:40:57,840
Speaker 1: river was such a light in our lives, and I

771
00:40:57,880 --> 00:41:00,320
Speaker 1: can only hope to still continue to shine that and

772
00:41:00,480 --> 00:41:04,279
Speaker 1: just let people know that you can do hard things.

773
00:41:04,400 --> 00:41:07,840
Speaker 1: You can get through hard things, you know, but not alone.

774
00:41:09,840 --> 00:41:11,680
Speaker 1: I love all the videos you posted of him. I

775
00:41:11,760 --> 00:41:15,120
Speaker 1: love the one where he was like eating it's like

776
00:41:15,200 --> 00:41:19,560
Speaker 1: some sort of candy lollipop or something, and Lincoln and

777
00:41:20,239 --> 00:41:22,960
Speaker 1: London were asking him if they could have them, and

778
00:41:23,040 --> 00:41:29,719
Speaker 1: he was like, of course, but he's so sweet, the sweetest. Yeah,

779
00:41:29,920 --> 00:41:32,400
Speaker 1: he's the sweetest. And then when he came up to

780
00:41:32,480 --> 00:41:34,480
Speaker 1: you and y'all were laying on the bed, I mean,

781
00:41:34,520 --> 00:41:36,359
Speaker 1: I just like, I stare at your videos all the time,

782
00:41:36,400 --> 00:41:39,719
Speaker 1: and he like whispered in your ear. Wow, I gotta

783
00:41:39,760 --> 00:41:43,240
Speaker 1: tell you a secret. You're gonna have a cookie. God,

784
00:41:43,680 --> 00:41:48,960
Speaker 1: he's the brightest light. It's such a little bitty age was.

785
00:41:49,040 --> 00:41:53,400
Speaker 1: He always bringing humor all the time, always laughing, always dancing,

786
00:41:53,440 --> 00:41:56,680
Speaker 1: and always felt like he People always said when they

787
00:41:56,680 --> 00:41:58,880
Speaker 1: looked into his eyes, it was you could just he

788
00:41:58,920 --> 00:42:01,120
Speaker 1: could like see inside yoursel soul. He just had this

789
00:42:01,400 --> 00:42:03,440
Speaker 1: this light about him and all of you know, all

790
00:42:03,480 --> 00:42:06,680
Speaker 1: of our children do, but there was just something. So

791
00:42:06,800 --> 00:42:08,800
Speaker 1: it's like it's like he knew something that we didn't

792
00:42:09,080 --> 00:42:11,960
Speaker 1: or I don't know, he just he knew Jesus at

793
00:42:12,080 --> 00:42:14,719
Speaker 1: age two, Like he said Jesus was his friend. I

794
00:42:14,800 --> 00:42:17,839
Speaker 1: never told him that, you know, yes, I never told

795
00:42:17,920 --> 00:42:19,719
Speaker 1: him that. We talked about heaven and we talked about

796
00:42:19,719 --> 00:42:21,799
Speaker 1: good but I never told him that Jesus was his friend.

797
00:42:21,880 --> 00:42:25,040
Speaker 1: And he just I don't know. It was like he

798
00:42:25,080 --> 00:42:27,520
Speaker 1: always wanted to go fast. Nothing was ever fast enough.

799
00:42:27,560 --> 00:42:29,040
Speaker 1: I feel like he was trying to get in all

800
00:42:29,120 --> 00:42:31,399
Speaker 1: he could in those three years. It's like he knew,

801
00:42:31,800 --> 00:42:33,720
Speaker 1: you know, he knew he didn't have much time or something.

802
00:42:34,160 --> 00:42:36,640
Speaker 1: He was just a special, special boy. So he was

803
00:42:36,680 --> 00:42:40,520
Speaker 1: an adventure lover. Oh my gosh, every I mean there's

804
00:42:40,520 --> 00:42:42,239
Speaker 1: so many videos I'm like, you're gonna I'm gonna end

805
00:42:42,280 --> 00:42:43,640
Speaker 1: up in the er with you. You're gonna keep me

806
00:42:43,680 --> 00:42:46,840
Speaker 1: on my toes, and so many times he could have

807
00:42:46,920 --> 00:42:49,840
Speaker 1: really been hurt, but he was spared. And it's like,

808
00:42:50,239 --> 00:42:52,560
Speaker 1: I don't know. We always had this sense that something

809
00:42:52,719 --> 00:42:55,319
Speaker 1: was going to happen in a weird, in a strange way.

810
00:42:55,360 --> 00:42:56,840
Speaker 1: And there's a lot of months that I've talked to

811
00:42:56,920 --> 00:42:59,439
Speaker 1: about that that have lost a child that they said

812
00:42:59,560 --> 00:43:03,479
Speaker 1: that was the one that they felt something may happen

813
00:43:03,520 --> 00:43:06,799
Speaker 1: to their child. And that's strange to say that. I'm

814
00:43:06,920 --> 00:43:10,480
Speaker 1: not scared of danger at all. No, no, nearly. He

815
00:43:10,520 --> 00:43:12,680
Speaker 1: would always tell me like if he was going faster,

816
00:43:12,800 --> 00:43:14,840
Speaker 1: if he was climbing on something, I would always, you know,

817
00:43:14,960 --> 00:43:16,279
Speaker 1: try to get him down, and he would go, sh

818
00:43:16,760 --> 00:43:20,880
Speaker 1: it's okay, it's okay, mama, it's okay, telling me not

819
00:43:21,000 --> 00:43:24,279
Speaker 1: to worry. But yeah, he was an adventure. He loved it.

820
00:43:25,160 --> 00:43:30,200
Speaker 1: And um, I a video I watched honestly this morning,

821
00:43:30,280 --> 00:43:33,239
Speaker 1: like probably seven times when you were fake crying and

822
00:43:33,360 --> 00:43:37,319
Speaker 1: get him up and help your faces do and said,

823
00:43:37,400 --> 00:43:41,239
Speaker 1: don't cry, mama, don't cry. That's what I hold on

824
00:43:41,360 --> 00:43:44,000
Speaker 1: to hearing that little voice. And I actually heard that.

825
00:43:44,680 --> 00:43:47,720
Speaker 1: I was crying one day at at his angel spot,

826
00:43:48,280 --> 00:43:51,360
Speaker 1: tears on my desk. Um, I was crying at his

827
00:43:51,360 --> 00:43:54,040
Speaker 1: angel spot, and I heard that little voice say to me,

828
00:43:54,760 --> 00:43:58,120
Speaker 1: don't cry, mama. You know, like I'm not here, don't

829
00:43:58,160 --> 00:44:01,640
Speaker 1: don't cry, meaning he's not in his earthly body, He's

830
00:44:01,840 --> 00:44:04,239
Speaker 1: in heaven. His spirit is there, you know. And and

831
00:44:05,480 --> 00:44:08,759
Speaker 1: it's such a beautiful, but sad, sad thought. But yeah,

832
00:44:08,760 --> 00:44:10,680
Speaker 1: I hold on to that little voice like telling you

833
00:44:10,760 --> 00:44:17,120
Speaker 1: don't cry, don't cry. I'm okay, yeah you. Um, you

834
00:44:17,280 --> 00:44:20,880
Speaker 1: have h something in motherhood that a lot of us

835
00:44:21,040 --> 00:44:23,080
Speaker 1: don't have yet, which is dealing with the loss of

836
00:44:23,120 --> 00:44:25,719
Speaker 1: a child. But what has motherhood shown you, like all

837
00:44:25,760 --> 00:44:29,520
Speaker 1: the layers of motherhood, the good and the bad, Like,

838
00:44:29,640 --> 00:44:34,520
Speaker 1: what have you what his motherhood taught you? That it's

839
00:44:35,640 --> 00:44:40,719
Speaker 1: the most amazing, best thing ever, but that it's also

840
00:44:40,840 --> 00:44:45,160
Speaker 1: one of the hardest. It's unpredictable. Um, it can break

841
00:44:45,200 --> 00:44:48,160
Speaker 1: your heart but still leave you with joy in a

842
00:44:48,360 --> 00:44:54,640
Speaker 1: strange way. Um, that's a hard question to answer. I

843
00:44:54,760 --> 00:44:57,160
Speaker 1: just I've always wanted to be a mom, That's all

844
00:44:57,160 --> 00:45:01,800
Speaker 1: I've ever wanted to be. And m just to trust

845
00:45:01,840 --> 00:45:04,960
Speaker 1: the process, trust God, and love your kids. Love your

846
00:45:05,040 --> 00:45:09,440
Speaker 1: kids today, be with them, forgive yourself, give yourself grace,

847
00:45:10,120 --> 00:45:12,120
Speaker 1: Like we're all just trying to do the best that

848
00:45:12,200 --> 00:45:14,959
Speaker 1: we can. And you're a good mom, you know, don't

849
00:45:14,960 --> 00:45:17,360
Speaker 1: ever be hard on yourselves. Your kids just want you

850
00:45:17,520 --> 00:45:21,040
Speaker 1: and love you, and yeah, I just love them as

851
00:45:21,120 --> 00:45:24,479
Speaker 1: much as you can today. What have you learned about

852
00:45:24,560 --> 00:45:31,680
Speaker 1: marriage in these ten years you've been married? Um, that

853
00:45:31,840 --> 00:45:34,960
Speaker 1: you can you you can go through some of the

854
00:45:35,040 --> 00:45:37,080
Speaker 1: hardest things in your lives, but it can it can

855
00:45:38,040 --> 00:45:40,399
Speaker 1: make you grow stronger together, make you grow in your

856
00:45:40,400 --> 00:45:45,359
Speaker 1: face together. And I've just learned so much about my husband, um,

857
00:45:45,520 --> 00:45:49,400
Speaker 1: and about our relationship and how no matter what you

858
00:45:49,480 --> 00:45:51,640
Speaker 1: go through, you can make it if you try and

859
00:45:51,719 --> 00:45:53,800
Speaker 1: you trust the Lord, and you you join together and

860
00:45:53,920 --> 00:45:58,480
Speaker 1: you stand together, and that we're different and you're gonna

861
00:45:58,560 --> 00:46:01,160
Speaker 1: you're gonna handle things differently, and just to respect each

862
00:46:01,200 --> 00:46:03,880
Speaker 1: other and communicate with each other and let each other

863
00:46:04,000 --> 00:46:09,399
Speaker 1: know what you need, um, and you can make it. Yeah. Yeah.

864
00:46:09,840 --> 00:46:14,280
Speaker 1: How how has music been a part of Granger's recovery?

865
00:46:17,440 --> 00:46:20,120
Speaker 1: For a while there he wasn't wasn't feeling very creative.

866
00:46:20,320 --> 00:46:21,840
Speaker 1: You know, as you can imagine and then about a

867
00:46:21,920 --> 00:46:25,840
Speaker 1: month ago he hit he hit a really creative he

868
00:46:25,920 --> 00:46:27,680
Speaker 1: just hit the ground running and he's been non stofp

869
00:46:27,719 --> 00:46:29,880
Speaker 1: ever since and he's it's been really helping him to

870
00:46:29,960 --> 00:46:33,120
Speaker 1: write and create again and and be in the studio again.

871
00:46:33,360 --> 00:46:35,920
Speaker 1: So that's brought I know, that's brought some joy. Um,

872
00:46:36,280 --> 00:46:40,080
Speaker 1: the guys have been recording some some shows and um

873
00:46:40,200 --> 00:46:42,239
Speaker 1: they're wanting to do some live shows on Facebook, and

874
00:46:42,280 --> 00:46:44,160
Speaker 1: I think that'll be helpful for them to get back

875
00:46:44,160 --> 00:46:47,960
Speaker 1: together and play and just have that camaraderie again together.

876
00:46:48,520 --> 00:46:52,040
Speaker 1: So yeah, how has quarantine life been for you guys?

877
00:46:53,719 --> 00:46:56,319
Speaker 1: It's been Texas has been a lot different obviously than

878
00:46:56,840 --> 00:46:59,120
Speaker 1: than other places in the world. Like we were we

879
00:46:59,239 --> 00:47:02,359
Speaker 1: were quarantine officially, like stay at home for at least

880
00:47:02,440 --> 00:47:04,400
Speaker 1: two weeks or three weeks whatever they told us. And

881
00:47:04,480 --> 00:47:06,400
Speaker 1: then we started being able to go out with masks

882
00:47:06,440 --> 00:47:09,600
Speaker 1: and the kids miss their friends. They're like dying for

883
00:47:09,680 --> 00:47:14,239
Speaker 1: play dates. And school was a little tricky teaching at home.

884
00:47:15,719 --> 00:47:17,320
Speaker 1: There was a lot of fighting in a lot of years,

885
00:47:18,800 --> 00:47:21,200
Speaker 1: but we did it. Their last day it was yesterday,

886
00:47:21,200 --> 00:47:23,720
Speaker 1: and so we have now we had a third grader

887
00:47:23,800 --> 00:47:26,320
Speaker 1: in a first grader now, so we did. It was

888
00:47:27,080 --> 00:47:32,040
Speaker 1: to be a teacher getting What I learned was that

889
00:47:32,160 --> 00:47:35,480
Speaker 1: my children, your children obviously learn and act differently with

890
00:47:35,600 --> 00:47:37,759
Speaker 1: you than they do their teachers. So they didn't want

891
00:47:37,760 --> 00:47:39,640
Speaker 1: to do work with me. They're like, there's like, no,

892
00:47:39,719 --> 00:47:41,440
Speaker 1: I'm just gonna go watch YouTube, Like, no, you have

893
00:47:41,520 --> 00:47:44,200
Speaker 1: to sit down and do your work. Lincoln would want

894
00:47:44,200 --> 00:47:46,920
Speaker 1: to do London's work. They would want to fight over computers.

895
00:47:47,000 --> 00:47:49,520
Speaker 1: And it was just every person I talked to you

896
00:47:49,560 --> 00:47:52,759
Speaker 1: said it was just so stressful, but it was. It

897
00:47:52,880 --> 00:47:54,360
Speaker 1: was nice for me to be able to see what

898
00:47:54,480 --> 00:47:58,320
Speaker 1: teachers have to go through, you know, how they have

899
00:47:58,440 --> 00:48:01,120
Speaker 1: to handle different how different child and learn and and

900
00:48:01,239 --> 00:48:03,640
Speaker 1: I just I've always respected teachers. I've always loved teachers.

901
00:48:03,719 --> 00:48:05,800
Speaker 1: But I'm sure it's given a lot of parents a

902
00:48:05,960 --> 00:48:10,880
Speaker 1: new respect for their teachers. Man, all of the videos

903
00:48:10,960 --> 00:48:14,880
Speaker 1: going around like Instagram and TikTok and Facebook of like

904
00:48:15,320 --> 00:48:18,320
Speaker 1: parents teaching their kids, and like the parents were like

905
00:48:19,200 --> 00:48:22,920
Speaker 1: strung out and like it's in a holding to Martini

906
00:48:23,040 --> 00:48:27,200
Speaker 1: and they're like, teachers, you gotta come back, you gotta teach.

907
00:48:28,080 --> 00:48:30,200
Speaker 1: I'm like, I can't even imagine. I was so bad

908
00:48:30,200 --> 00:48:32,759
Speaker 1: at school myself when I was in school. I mean

909
00:48:33,120 --> 00:48:35,640
Speaker 1: I like kind of I hate to say that, sort

910
00:48:35,680 --> 00:48:37,839
Speaker 1: of like just skated my way through. I didn't really

911
00:48:37,920 --> 00:48:40,480
Speaker 1: ever learn much in school. I just try to like

912
00:48:40,760 --> 00:48:43,560
Speaker 1: get through it. I know how to teach. I wouldn't

913
00:48:43,560 --> 00:48:46,040
Speaker 1: have no idea how to teach kid my kid how

914
00:48:46,080 --> 00:48:50,520
Speaker 1: to learn anything, especially like math, oh my gosh, or science. Yes,

915
00:48:51,160 --> 00:48:52,520
Speaker 1: that was one thing I was grateful for is that

916
00:48:52,640 --> 00:48:54,600
Speaker 1: my kidos are still a little younger, whereas some of

917
00:48:54,640 --> 00:48:58,040
Speaker 1: my friends were teaching older like algebra. I would be like, no,

918
00:48:59,120 --> 00:49:02,040
Speaker 1: just google, Like, Luckily we're just doing like short edition

919
00:49:02,080 --> 00:49:04,080
Speaker 1: and subtractions, so I can handle that. But yeah, I

920
00:49:04,120 --> 00:49:07,440
Speaker 1: can't imagine teaching like fifth grade geometry or something. I

921
00:49:07,520 --> 00:49:09,800
Speaker 1: don't know what. I haven't done that in years. I know.

922
00:49:09,880 --> 00:49:11,279
Speaker 1: It's like why do we even learn that because none

923
00:49:11,280 --> 00:49:14,600
Speaker 1: of us know how to do it right. You need

924
00:49:14,640 --> 00:49:17,839
Speaker 1: to be how to write checks and clean the house

925
00:49:17,920 --> 00:49:22,000
Speaker 1: and like actual stuff that we're gonna use, like life scale. Okay,

926
00:49:22,120 --> 00:49:26,120
Speaker 1: here's how you balance money, here's bank accounts, here's how

927
00:49:26,200 --> 00:49:29,560
Speaker 1: you have some savings, like learn about how set yourself

928
00:49:29,640 --> 00:49:31,120
Speaker 1: up for your future. You don't really need to know

929
00:49:31,160 --> 00:49:34,480
Speaker 1: calculus unless you're going to be some sort of math wizard.

930
00:49:34,880 --> 00:49:37,520
Speaker 1: I know I got that same way. But also I

931
00:49:37,560 --> 00:49:40,360
Speaker 1: think that it's taught me is how much can be

932
00:49:40,440 --> 00:49:43,239
Speaker 1: done online, Like I never knew, Like I never even

933
00:49:43,320 --> 00:49:45,560
Speaker 1: knew I could do interviews like this online until I

934
00:49:45,560 --> 00:49:47,320
Speaker 1: always thought I how to do everything in person. And

935
00:49:47,400 --> 00:49:50,320
Speaker 1: I think what we're realizing is that the whole culture

936
00:49:50,440 --> 00:49:52,280
Speaker 1: is like, we can do a lot of stuff online,

937
00:49:52,320 --> 00:49:57,359
Speaker 1: and it's made us get creative with that. Absolutely. I've

938
00:49:57,360 --> 00:49:59,560
Speaker 1: also noticed I feel like it's made people care more

939
00:50:00,120 --> 00:50:03,520
Speaker 1: about people's birthdays or anything. And there's been so many

940
00:50:03,600 --> 00:50:06,759
Speaker 1: parades and drive by things and like zoom Girls nights,

941
00:50:06,840 --> 00:50:08,920
Speaker 1: and you know, it just made I think it's actually

942
00:50:08,960 --> 00:50:11,719
Speaker 1: made people come closer together in a strange way, even

943
00:50:11,800 --> 00:50:14,880
Speaker 1: though we're supposed to be separated or apart. It's just

944
00:50:14,960 --> 00:50:18,520
Speaker 1: made people crave that feeling of being close to somebody

945
00:50:18,840 --> 00:50:21,120
Speaker 1: or taking care of somebody or doing a birthday party

946
00:50:21,280 --> 00:50:23,319
Speaker 1: or anything. I feel like it's brought us brought us

947
00:50:23,320 --> 00:50:26,439
Speaker 1: closer together in that way. And also on the church

948
00:50:26,719 --> 00:50:29,719
Speaker 1: and you know, worship services and stuff, I feel like

949
00:50:29,719 --> 00:50:32,319
Speaker 1: so many more people are now joining the online service

950
00:50:32,360 --> 00:50:34,040
Speaker 1: if they didn't want to ever walk into a church,

951
00:50:34,120 --> 00:50:36,800
Speaker 1: so I think that's been a plus as well. And

952
00:50:37,080 --> 00:50:40,280
Speaker 1: I'm so glad, like you said, virtual girls Knights, because

953
00:50:40,960 --> 00:50:42,480
Speaker 1: I have so many friends that I want to keep

954
00:50:42,560 --> 00:50:46,120
Speaker 1: up with. But like, honestly, and when you are running

955
00:50:46,120 --> 00:50:48,000
Speaker 1: your household, you got your kids running around, it's like

956
00:50:48,040 --> 00:50:50,640
Speaker 1: you don't it's hard to get out and like leave

957
00:50:50,680 --> 00:50:52,560
Speaker 1: the house and go do stuff, But you want to

958
00:50:53,080 --> 00:50:54,719
Speaker 1: have a wine night with your girl friends. Like now

959
00:50:54,760 --> 00:50:56,719
Speaker 1: I've realized, why don't we just talk on zoom have

960
00:50:56,840 --> 00:50:59,120
Speaker 1: an hour and a half. Yeah, talk and then everyone

961
00:50:59,160 --> 00:51:00,799
Speaker 1: just stays that over as it goes right to bed.

962
00:51:01,640 --> 00:51:05,359
Speaker 1: It's you don't to drive exactly. Don't just spend money

963
00:51:06,680 --> 00:51:11,120
Speaker 1: totally unt you like when Granger, Like when the Red

964
00:51:11,160 --> 00:51:14,400
Speaker 1: Carpets are happening and there's all the award seasons and

965
00:51:14,480 --> 00:51:16,719
Speaker 1: then dressing up. Do you like all the all that,

966
00:51:16,920 --> 00:51:19,080
Speaker 1: like the glam and the Red carpets and have you

967
00:51:19,160 --> 00:51:21,560
Speaker 1: missed all that with Corona and everything being shut down?

968
00:51:22,640 --> 00:51:25,840
Speaker 1: So that's funny you say that. So before the accident,

969
00:51:26,280 --> 00:51:29,160
Speaker 1: I loved getting dressed Like you know, as a mom,

970
00:51:29,239 --> 00:51:30,880
Speaker 1: you don't ever get to get dressed up and get

971
00:51:30,880 --> 00:51:33,480
Speaker 1: your makeup and your hair done. I love that stuff Granger.

972
00:51:34,160 --> 00:51:36,280
Speaker 1: That's work for him. He has to go to interviews,

973
00:51:36,360 --> 00:51:38,560
Speaker 1: and like he doesn't care about fashion. He's just like, Oh,

974
00:51:38,600 --> 00:51:40,920
Speaker 1: I just want to go, you know, watch my my

975
00:51:41,080 --> 00:51:44,200
Speaker 1: peers sing. But I loved that. I loved the red carpet,

976
00:51:44,320 --> 00:51:46,520
Speaker 1: I loved the gowns. I love seeing it what everybody

977
00:51:46,520 --> 00:51:49,719
Speaker 1: else was wearing. And then you know, it's kind of

978
00:51:49,719 --> 00:51:51,560
Speaker 1: one of those things you said about what really matters

979
00:51:52,840 --> 00:51:57,319
Speaker 1: after the accident. Um, I just it's still such an

980
00:51:57,360 --> 00:51:59,600
Speaker 1: integral part of music, and I love I love the

981
00:51:59,640 --> 00:52:02,279
Speaker 1: award and I love people getting recognized for their hard work,

982
00:52:02,320 --> 00:52:04,920
Speaker 1: and that is so important. But I think, thinking back

983
00:52:05,000 --> 00:52:08,040
Speaker 1: to I don't know, it's like, do I really care

984
00:52:08,040 --> 00:52:11,680
Speaker 1: about getting dressed up anymore? Like that's not really important.

985
00:52:11,719 --> 00:52:14,120
Speaker 1: It's important for me to go support my husband and

986
00:52:14,160 --> 00:52:16,760
Speaker 1: our peers in music, but the whole blitz and glamor

987
00:52:16,840 --> 00:52:18,560
Speaker 1: of it doesn't really mean the same thing to me

988
00:52:18,600 --> 00:52:21,640
Speaker 1: anymore after going through something hard, if that makes sense.

989
00:52:23,640 --> 00:52:26,120
Speaker 1: It's still such an amazing award shows are so fun

990
00:52:26,160 --> 00:52:29,000
Speaker 1: and amazing to recognize people for their work. But yeah,

991
00:52:29,000 --> 00:52:30,600
Speaker 1: I just kind of changed in that way, so I

992
00:52:30,600 --> 00:52:33,719
Speaker 1: don't really miss getting dressed up anymore. Yeah, I kind

993
00:52:33,719 --> 00:52:36,399
Speaker 1: of feel the same way. I think honestly, like I've

994
00:52:36,440 --> 00:52:38,480
Speaker 1: been like Sunday's eight months old right now, and I

995
00:52:38,600 --> 00:52:43,319
Speaker 1: just feel so in the trenches with it all the time.

996
00:52:43,360 --> 00:52:45,160
Speaker 1: In a good way, like I'm so grateful for every

997
00:52:45,239 --> 00:52:46,560
Speaker 1: day I get to be with her, but it's like,

998
00:52:46,840 --> 00:52:49,440
Speaker 1: oh my God, like I'm so getting at the end

999
00:52:49,480 --> 00:52:51,360
Speaker 1: of the day, the last thing I want to do

1000
00:52:51,719 --> 00:52:54,719
Speaker 1: is a leave her and then be go get dressed up.

1001
00:52:54,760 --> 00:52:55,960
Speaker 1: So I feel the same way. I've kind of like

1002
00:52:56,160 --> 00:52:59,200
Speaker 1: enjoyed the Corona break a little bit. I hate what's

1003
00:52:59,239 --> 00:53:01,400
Speaker 1: happening in the world world, but on the flip side,

1004
00:53:01,480 --> 00:53:04,040
Speaker 1: like just being able to be home and not feel

1005
00:53:04,040 --> 00:53:05,759
Speaker 1: like you have anything that you have to do or

1006
00:53:05,840 --> 00:53:08,239
Speaker 1: the responsibilities of going anywhere, I feel like that's been

1007
00:53:09,080 --> 00:53:12,160
Speaker 1: the blessing of it in my eyes. I don't know

1008
00:53:12,160 --> 00:53:16,480
Speaker 1: if it's the longest, the longest that we've ever had

1009
00:53:16,560 --> 00:53:20,440
Speaker 1: Granger home, you know, in ten years. It's such a

1010
00:53:20,480 --> 00:53:22,719
Speaker 1: blessing for the kids to be home with him and

1011
00:53:23,000 --> 00:53:24,799
Speaker 1: them to get to spend time with him. So that's

1012
00:53:24,840 --> 00:53:27,080
Speaker 1: been I know it's hard for him because he loves

1013
00:53:27,320 --> 00:53:28,920
Speaker 1: like I'm sure like Michael, they love the road they

1014
00:53:29,000 --> 00:53:31,319
Speaker 1: love the stage. They love to perform, but it's been

1015
00:53:31,440 --> 00:53:35,040
Speaker 1: nice to slow down, spend time together and get to

1016
00:53:35,080 --> 00:53:37,760
Speaker 1: actually just be a family, you know, a normal family.

1017
00:53:38,400 --> 00:53:40,719
Speaker 1: So what is family time life for you off the house? Like?

1018
00:53:40,800 --> 00:53:43,120
Speaker 1: What are what are y'all? What is your home life

1019
00:53:43,320 --> 00:53:45,680
Speaker 1: like when now the Granger's been here? Have you had

1020
00:53:45,680 --> 00:53:47,319
Speaker 1: to create a new normal? Because like that's the thing

1021
00:53:47,360 --> 00:53:49,720
Speaker 1: with all this road wives, It's like when our husbands

1022
00:53:49,760 --> 00:53:51,560
Speaker 1: are home for a long time, part of me's like, uh,

1023
00:53:51,640 --> 00:53:54,719
Speaker 1: shouldn't even getting back on the road, like that hit

1024
00:53:54,760 --> 00:53:58,799
Speaker 1: the road. I have a routine. Yeah, I know, because

1025
00:53:58,800 --> 00:54:03,839
Speaker 1: we come. It's been good without them in it. Yeah, yeah, yeah,

1026
00:54:04,000 --> 00:54:07,280
Speaker 1: we have to. That's been a change. We do like Granger.

1027
00:54:07,360 --> 00:54:08,960
Speaker 1: We've been going to the ranch or we'll go to

1028
00:54:09,040 --> 00:54:11,600
Speaker 1: the farm and fish. They've been a Granger in that.

1029
00:54:11,760 --> 00:54:13,760
Speaker 1: Lincoln have been playing a lot of video games together.

1030
00:54:13,840 --> 00:54:18,440
Speaker 1: They play Zelda. We have movie nights just we got

1031
00:54:18,520 --> 00:54:20,000
Speaker 1: we have chickens, so it's like we spend a lot

1032
00:54:20,000 --> 00:54:21,880
Speaker 1: of time outside with the chickens, and a lot of

1033
00:54:21,920 --> 00:54:25,000
Speaker 1: it has just been filming content for the Smiths being

1034
00:54:25,040 --> 00:54:28,560
Speaker 1: together filming that because that's kind of our only source

1035
00:54:28,600 --> 00:54:32,560
Speaker 1: of income, right now because he's not touring ya doing

1036
00:54:32,640 --> 00:54:36,080
Speaker 1: that together and yeah, just just playing being together. And

1037
00:54:36,200 --> 00:54:39,080
Speaker 1: you started a Rise of the Amber, tell me what

1038
00:54:39,920 --> 00:54:41,480
Speaker 1: just what made you want to start that on your

1039
00:54:41,520 --> 00:54:44,120
Speaker 1: YouTube page or I think is amazing. So I think

1040
00:54:44,200 --> 00:54:46,440
Speaker 1: just because I guess my Instagram post and things, I

1041
00:54:46,520 --> 00:54:48,440
Speaker 1: had so many people messaging me saying you should do

1042
00:54:48,560 --> 00:54:50,400
Speaker 1: like an online Bible study or I would love to

1043
00:54:50,480 --> 00:54:52,640
Speaker 1: hear more about your faith or your testimony. And so

1044
00:54:52,719 --> 00:54:54,080
Speaker 1: I thought about it for a long time and then

1045
00:54:54,080 --> 00:54:56,759
Speaker 1: I thought I'll just try it. I mean, it's really

1046
00:54:56,840 --> 00:54:59,680
Speaker 1: intimidating to try to I'm sure, you know, to come

1047
00:54:59,760 --> 00:55:02,719
Speaker 1: up with content and put good stuff out there for people.

1048
00:55:02,760 --> 00:55:05,040
Speaker 1: So that's been a little tricky. But I just thought,

1049
00:55:05,600 --> 00:55:07,520
Speaker 1: after the accident, I'm going to say yes to whatever

1050
00:55:07,680 --> 00:55:09,160
Speaker 1: God is calling me to do. I'm going to step

1051
00:55:09,160 --> 00:55:11,920
Speaker 1: out in faith. And I just said, okay, God, use me.

1052
00:55:12,440 --> 00:55:15,560
Speaker 1: And so I just pray like we did before. Whatever

1053
00:55:15,719 --> 00:55:17,680
Speaker 1: people need to hear, please let that come through me.

1054
00:55:17,880 --> 00:55:19,800
Speaker 1: And that's all I can hope for. And so I

1055
00:55:19,920 --> 00:55:24,799
Speaker 1: just share my faith, I answer questions, I tell stories. Yeah,

1056
00:55:24,920 --> 00:55:27,440
Speaker 1: and I just that's more more faith based than our

1057
00:55:27,480 --> 00:55:29,600
Speaker 1: YouTube stuff. So I just do that every Sunday Sunday

1058
00:55:29,640 --> 00:55:32,239
Speaker 1: morning at eight and just pray that God gives me

1059
00:55:32,520 --> 00:55:36,000
Speaker 1: stuff to talk about. I think it's amazing. And I

1060
00:55:36,080 --> 00:55:39,080
Speaker 1: just want to say, like I don't I don't know

1061
00:55:39,160 --> 00:55:41,279
Speaker 1: how to talk about this with you, like you know,

1062
00:55:41,400 --> 00:55:44,239
Speaker 1: like this it's hard for me, Like I don't want

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00:55:44,239 --> 00:55:47,080
Speaker 1: to say anything wrong, and to you and anyone listening,

1064
00:55:47,239 --> 00:55:49,279
Speaker 1: I'm sorry if I've said anything wrong, Like it's so

1065
00:55:49,440 --> 00:55:52,719
Speaker 1: hard to have these conversations because I feel you on

1066
00:55:53,480 --> 00:55:55,680
Speaker 1: the mother's level and I just want to make sure

1067
00:55:55,800 --> 00:55:58,319
Speaker 1: I've said it all right and done it all right.

1068
00:55:58,400 --> 00:56:02,240
Speaker 1: But when you're moving, when you're talking about this stuff,

1069
00:56:02,320 --> 00:56:04,360
Speaker 1: like it's hard, it's hard to talk about this, you

1070
00:56:04,480 --> 00:56:08,080
Speaker 1: just have to start talking. And it's so amazing that

1071
00:56:08,200 --> 00:56:10,600
Speaker 1: you're sharing your story and you're starting a YouTube page,

1072
00:56:10,640 --> 00:56:14,920
Speaker 1: a YouTube moment where you're just having faith because this

1073
00:56:15,120 --> 00:56:18,600
Speaker 1: is a messy conversation. It's a conversation nobody wants to have,

1074
00:56:18,800 --> 00:56:21,400
Speaker 1: and you're willing to have it and share it. And

1075
00:56:22,239 --> 00:56:24,239
Speaker 1: I think it's amazing that you're just letting God lead

1076
00:56:24,280 --> 00:56:25,920
Speaker 1: you and saying yes to that. How do you know

1077
00:56:26,400 --> 00:56:32,839
Speaker 1: when God is prompting you? I do devotionals every morning,

1078
00:56:32,880 --> 00:56:34,359
Speaker 1: So I'll wake up and I'll just be like, Okay,

1079
00:56:34,360 --> 00:56:36,759
Speaker 1: if there's something that something that I need to talk

1080
00:56:36,800 --> 00:56:38,759
Speaker 1: about this week, please show it to me. And so

1081
00:56:39,000 --> 00:56:41,160
Speaker 1: I'll feel certain things tug at me, and I'll just

1082
00:56:41,280 --> 00:56:43,200
Speaker 1: I'll write down my thoughts and my ideas, and then

1083
00:56:43,280 --> 00:56:45,799
Speaker 1: I'll plan it kind of throughout the week and then

1084
00:56:45,840 --> 00:56:49,399
Speaker 1: I just hopefully, hopefully that's where it was supposed to go. Yeah,

1085
00:56:49,440 --> 00:56:51,719
Speaker 1: So just little nudges or things that I stories I've

1086
00:56:51,800 --> 00:56:53,759
Speaker 1: heard from my friends, or things that I've seen in

1087
00:56:53,800 --> 00:56:56,360
Speaker 1: the news, or whatever's all my heart that week, I

1088
00:56:56,440 --> 00:57:00,560
Speaker 1: just take that little nudge and go forward. Yeah, what's

1089
00:57:00,600 --> 00:57:02,479
Speaker 1: been one of the biggest blessings of your YouTube page

1090
00:57:03,760 --> 00:57:08,279
Speaker 1: having all of the footage of our family And we

1091
00:57:08,360 --> 00:57:10,239
Speaker 1: could have never known that we would lose riv but

1092
00:57:10,320 --> 00:57:14,160
Speaker 1: we have so much video of him during those last

1093
00:57:14,239 --> 00:57:16,240
Speaker 1: few months, and I'm just so grateful that we had that,

1094
00:57:16,360 --> 00:57:18,320
Speaker 1: because while I'm a mom and I take photos and

1095
00:57:18,400 --> 00:57:20,560
Speaker 1: videos all the time, we wouldn't have had all of that.

1096
00:57:20,960 --> 00:57:24,440
Speaker 1: And I'm just grateful that we're documenting our lives and

1097
00:57:24,920 --> 00:57:26,600
Speaker 1: we'll be able to watch that forever and they'll be

1098
00:57:26,640 --> 00:57:29,120
Speaker 1: able to watch that forever. So I think I think

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00:57:29,240 --> 00:57:32,040
Speaker 1: having the time with the family and the footage of that,

1100
00:57:32,960 --> 00:57:36,200
Speaker 1: and just the outpouring of love from our friends and

1101
00:57:36,280 --> 00:57:38,920
Speaker 1: our fans and our family has just been the biggest blessing.

1102
00:57:40,360 --> 00:57:46,440
Speaker 1: So I'm gonna wrap up. I absolutely love and adore

1103
00:57:46,520 --> 00:57:48,800
Speaker 1: your spirit. I think you are one of the brightest

1104
00:57:48,880 --> 00:57:51,320
Speaker 1: lights on this earth. And you and Gray you are together.

1105
00:57:51,440 --> 00:57:54,680
Speaker 1: You are an incredible couple. You are a shining light

1106
00:57:54,760 --> 00:57:57,600
Speaker 1: and a guiding force of how to handle tragedy together

1107
00:57:58,280 --> 00:58:01,440
Speaker 1: and how to walk on and faith, and I think

1108
00:58:01,480 --> 00:58:03,800
Speaker 1: the world needs that more than anything. I hate that

1109
00:58:03,960 --> 00:58:06,440
Speaker 1: you are that you have to be that, but you

1110
00:58:06,720 --> 00:58:09,280
Speaker 1: are that, and you are shining such a bright light.

1111
00:58:09,480 --> 00:58:11,440
Speaker 1: And I just want you to know I love and

1112
00:58:11,560 --> 00:58:14,280
Speaker 1: respect you and look up to you and admire you

1113
00:58:14,640 --> 00:58:17,520
Speaker 1: so much, and I know everyone who follows you does

1114
00:58:17,600 --> 00:58:21,600
Speaker 1: the same. I end every interview with leave your light,

1115
00:58:23,000 --> 00:58:29,200
Speaker 1: and what do you want people to know? First off,

1116
00:58:29,240 --> 00:58:30,680
Speaker 1: I just want to say thank you for saying all

1117
00:58:30,720 --> 00:58:32,680
Speaker 1: of that. I appreciate that so much and I feel

1118
00:58:32,720 --> 00:58:37,880
Speaker 1: the same way about you. I guess the biggest thing

1119
00:58:37,920 --> 00:58:40,640
Speaker 1: I want people to know is that God loves you,

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00:58:41,360 --> 00:58:44,240
Speaker 1: and He is with you, and He is with you

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00:58:44,600 --> 00:58:48,040
Speaker 1: through everything through the joy through the pain, and you

1122
00:58:48,160 --> 00:58:52,840
Speaker 1: can do hard things and just to live like Riff,

1123
00:58:53,280 --> 00:58:56,080
Speaker 1: try to find joy and every day go out barefoot,

1124
00:58:56,200 --> 00:58:58,440
Speaker 1: run around and enjoy your family, find joy in the

1125
00:58:58,480 --> 00:59:02,640
Speaker 1: small things, and just love people around you fiercely. Today

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Speaker 1: it's cool. Thank you, and thank you so much for

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00:59:08,360 --> 00:59:12,320
Speaker 1: joining me. Thank you that was fun. Thank you you

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00:59:12,360 --> 00:59:14,320
Speaker 1: didn't you did not say anything wrong. If there's no

1129
00:59:14,680 --> 00:59:17,680
Speaker 1: right or wrong way to talk about this, and I'm

1130
00:59:17,720 --> 00:59:21,760
Speaker 1: grateful that you're allowing me to share. So thank you. Well,

1131
00:59:22,240 --> 00:59:25,360
Speaker 1: I wanted to have you on my podcast that I

1132
00:59:25,440 --> 00:59:27,000
Speaker 1: just had to know if you want to come on.

1133
00:59:27,160 --> 00:59:28,480
Speaker 1: I didn't know if you want to talk about it.

1134
00:59:28,520 --> 00:59:30,840
Speaker 1: I don't you know, like you said, everyone grieves differently.

1135
00:59:30,920 --> 00:59:32,840
Speaker 1: I don't know if like sharing your story is something

1136
00:59:32,960 --> 00:59:35,320
Speaker 1: that is a healing process for you. I figured it

1137
00:59:35,480 --> 00:59:39,000
Speaker 1: was because you're so beautiful with sharing, but it is,

1138
00:59:39,080 --> 00:59:42,280
Speaker 1: it's just like it's it's just such a it's just

1139
00:59:42,680 --> 00:59:46,200
Speaker 1: you're amazing. You're an amazing woman, And thank you for

1140
00:59:46,280 --> 00:59:49,680
Speaker 1: sharing your heart with me and my listeners and for

1141
00:59:49,880 --> 00:59:55,000
Speaker 1: keeping Ribs spirit and memory so bright and alive and

1142
00:59:55,400 --> 00:59:57,800
Speaker 1: anybody can go what's the foundation? How do you get

1143
00:59:57,840 --> 01:00:02,080
Speaker 1: to the Ribs Foundation. So it's River Kelly Fund dot org.

1144
01:00:02,600 --> 01:00:05,040
Speaker 1: And we we set it up as a fund so

1145
01:00:05,080 --> 01:00:06,920
Speaker 1: that we can help in many areas in the community.

1146
01:00:07,000 --> 01:00:08,920
Speaker 1: So we change that all the time. One time it

1147
01:00:09,000 --> 01:00:12,000
Speaker 1: could be children's hospitals, one time it could be veterans,

1148
01:00:12,080 --> 01:00:15,400
Speaker 1: one time it could be a prevention of drowning, wildlife, anything.

1149
01:00:15,560 --> 01:00:17,160
Speaker 1: So if you want to check that out, it's River

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01:00:17,240 --> 01:00:20,120
Speaker 1: Kelly Fund dot org. You're amazing, Amber, Thank you so

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01:00:20,240 --> 01:00:22,200
Speaker 1: much for jorning. I'm gonna in the recording, but don't

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01:00:22,240 --> 01:00:23,160
Speaker 1: hang up as yet. Okay,