WEBVTT - “I MAY GET DEPORTED” 0:00:02.200 --> 0:00:09.320 Hello, Hello, Hey, what's your name, Doug? I'm Joey, Joey Joey. 0:00:09.760 --> 0:00:10.479 What's going on? 0:00:10.520 --> 0:00:10.639 Man? 0:00:10.640 --> 0:00:12.400 What'd you want to talk about today? Man? 0:00:12.560 --> 0:00:13.640 What isn't going on? 0:00:17.079 --> 0:00:17.159 So? 0:00:17.760 --> 0:00:24.239 I have a pretty serious issue. So about two weeks ago, 0:00:24.320 --> 0:00:28.400 I was going to UH vacation right to Portland. 0:00:29.600 --> 0:00:30.240 And UH. 0:00:30.280 --> 0:00:32.440 On the way up to Portland from the Bay Area 0:00:32.479 --> 0:00:39.080 of California, I got pulled over. We're going eighty on 0:00:39.240 --> 0:00:46.280 seventy and cop pulled me over. He said, uh, I 0:00:46.320 --> 0:00:49.720 look nervous. He wanted to search my car and didn't 0:00:49.760 --> 0:00:54.920 let him search my car, and she brought a canine unit. 0:00:55.160 --> 0:00:59.560 So they searched my car anyways, and they found a 0:00:59.600 --> 0:01:02.280 little bit of cocaine on me. Actually, it's not what 0:01:02.320 --> 0:01:06.880 they all they found. I had. I had mushrooms, I 0:01:06.920 --> 0:01:11.000 had MDMA, I had LSD, I had e kedemene, and 0:01:11.160 --> 0:01:16.400 I had some cocaine. And I thought I was going 0:01:16.440 --> 0:01:18.760 to go to jail, but they actually let me go. 0:01:24.400 --> 0:01:25.319 So what's the problem. 0:01:27.720 --> 0:01:30.440 Well, so the problem is now I have to go 0:01:30.520 --> 0:01:34.640 to court. I have to go to court, and I 0:01:34.840 --> 0:01:39.560 have to figure out how I'm gonna tell my parents 0:01:40.200 --> 0:01:46.280 that I got a possession of cocaine charge on my record. 0:01:48.000 --> 0:01:49.760 Okay, let's say when you said, when you said they 0:01:49.800 --> 0:01:52.080 didn't take it to jail, I thought, I'm fucking sorry, 0:01:52.120 --> 0:01:54.160 I'm stupid. I thought they meant I thought you meant 0:01:54.200 --> 0:01:57.080 they were just like, oh yeah, no worries. Oh they 0:01:57.160 --> 0:01:57.640 like laughed. 0:01:59.040 --> 0:02:01.000 Yeah, they didn't take me to jail in that moment. 0:02:01.200 --> 0:02:06.920 But going to jail is still definitely a possibility. But 0:02:06.960 --> 0:02:12.440 that's not even That's only half the problem. So I 0:02:12.480 --> 0:02:19.120 am an undocumented immigrant from Mexico. So now I'm worried 0:02:19.160 --> 0:02:22.799 that I could be deported. And I don't know shit 0:02:22.919 --> 0:02:25.680 about Mexico. I've been here my entire life. I came 0:02:25.800 --> 0:02:27.240 to the US when I was one year old. 0:02:29.200 --> 0:02:31.320 Oh really, Okay, so you weren't born here, but you 0:02:31.360 --> 0:02:34.280 came here as a little baby. 0:02:34.600 --> 0:02:35.359 Yeah that's right. 0:02:36.680 --> 0:02:39.320 Wow, And really, and even after being here for twenty 0:02:39.320 --> 0:02:40.840 four years, they can still deport you. 0:02:43.720 --> 0:02:44.919 I yeah, I guess. So. 0:02:47.000 --> 0:02:49.880 Well, all right, listen, here's the thing. And I'm just 0:02:49.919 --> 0:02:54.920 gonna before we evolve any further into this conversation, which 0:02:55.120 --> 0:02:58.360 is a conversation I'm happy to have with you, I 0:02:58.400 --> 0:03:02.919 want you to know that I am not a lawyer. 0:03:04.280 --> 0:03:06.880 Okay, Yeah, I don't. 0:03:06.720 --> 0:03:11.440 Know if you caught onto that, if you were calling me, 0:03:11.480 --> 0:03:13.080 and I don't know if you were calling me in 0:03:13.240 --> 0:03:16.960 lieu of legal advice, but I just thought I would 0:03:16.960 --> 0:03:18.880 throw that out there that I'm not a lawyer. So 0:03:20.400 --> 0:03:25.480 this conversation is going to be mainly two dumbasses, Uh, 0:03:25.760 --> 0:03:32.160 you know, figuring it out right? Have you consulted with 0:03:32.200 --> 0:03:32.639 a lawyer? 0:03:34.120 --> 0:03:34.320 Oh? 0:03:34.520 --> 0:03:38.440 I've been. I've been asking around for I've sent a 0:03:38.440 --> 0:03:43.880 couple of emails. I haven't gotten any responses. I've talked 0:03:43.880 --> 0:03:47.280 to my sister about how I'm gonna tell my parents 0:03:47.280 --> 0:03:49.840 that I got, you know, pulled over and got a 0:03:49.880 --> 0:03:51.520 cocaine charge. 0:03:52.240 --> 0:03:55.720 And you when you, I mean, I assume you've like 0:03:57.360 --> 0:04:01.400 have you done? Can I get deported for drug possession? 0:04:01.760 --> 0:04:06.560 Reddit as a Google search and seeing what people either? 0:04:06.680 --> 0:04:08.240 But okay, well let's say. 0:04:08.200 --> 0:04:12.640 Yeah, Well, I guess my unique is I mean, my 0:04:12.640 --> 0:04:15.240 my case is very unique because I didn't find the ship. 0:04:18.120 --> 0:04:19.360 Why is your case unique? 0:04:21.760 --> 0:04:24.039 What might not be unique? But it's just I haven't 0:04:24.080 --> 0:04:26.040 I looked on the internet that I didn't really find 0:04:26.080 --> 0:04:29.919 anything useful. I mean, I guess the only thing that 0:04:30.000 --> 0:04:32.640 I really found was like, oh yeah, you can definitely 0:04:32.680 --> 0:04:33.279 be deported. 0:04:34.480 --> 0:04:37.839 Have you ever spoken with a immigration lawyer? Well, I'm curious, 0:04:37.960 --> 0:04:39.880 so are you're not you're not a citizen of the 0:04:39.960 --> 0:04:40.679 United States. 0:04:42.240 --> 0:04:50.479 No, I'm I'm undocumented. Actually that's being undocumented has really 0:04:50.720 --> 0:04:54.040 fucked me up a lot in life. But I'm getting by. 0:04:56.000 --> 0:04:58.240 I've I've done a lot of cool shit, like I 0:04:58.279 --> 0:05:05.760 started my own company. Yeah. Anyways, Yeah, it's it's it's 0:05:05.760 --> 0:05:07.920 real stressful, real, So. 0:05:08.080 --> 0:05:10.640 Like, what's the process, right? Because look, mammy, you've been 0:05:10.640 --> 0:05:14.599 here since you were since you were one years old. 0:05:15.000 --> 0:05:18.719 You've got the voice of a John Smith. How come 0:05:18.760 --> 0:05:23.039 you can't how come you can't uh become a fucking 0:05:23.080 --> 0:05:27.799 citizen after after twenty four years? 0:05:29.080 --> 0:05:29.440 You know what? 0:05:29.520 --> 0:05:32.279 I think it's just current politics that's you know, this 0:05:32.360 --> 0:05:38.080 whole immigration reform stuff is super great area where nothing 0:05:39.000 --> 0:05:41.520 that should move in with baby stuffs. 0:05:42.440 --> 0:05:44.520 Mmm. I mean, have you tried it? 0:05:44.640 --> 0:05:44.719 Like? 0:05:44.800 --> 0:05:46.640 Have you have you? Have you? Have you caught so 0:05:46.720 --> 0:05:49.520 okay with all this stuff before? I guess before calling me, 0:05:49.600 --> 0:05:52.760 have you called a immigration lawyer or I guess any 0:05:52.800 --> 0:05:53.520 type of lawyer? 0:05:54.680 --> 0:05:57.400 Uh So, So my parents were handling all of that. 0:05:57.560 --> 0:06:01.760 So years back, my dad assaulted by a crackhead, and 0:06:01.839 --> 0:06:05.160 so he qualifies for you visa and he can sponsor 0:06:05.360 --> 0:06:08.839 his whole family for U visa. So I've been in 0:06:09.000 --> 0:06:13.000 that process for years now. I don't know what the 0:06:13.160 --> 0:06:14.080 status of that is. 0:06:14.120 --> 0:06:18.960 But I'm confused. How is your dad getting assaulted? So 0:06:19.000 --> 0:06:21.040 if you're assaulted by a crackhead, you can just get 0:06:21.080 --> 0:06:23.200 a visa? 0:06:23.279 --> 0:06:25.080 Apparently, Yeah, it's called the U visa. 0:06:26.000 --> 0:06:26.839 What's how's that work? 0:06:29.440 --> 0:06:32.880 I have no idea. My parents are the ones handling 0:06:33.200 --> 0:06:36.760 all of that, and unfortunately I never bothered to ask. 0:06:37.800 --> 0:06:42.520 Just two non lawyer dumbasses figuring it out, and that's 0:06:42.520 --> 0:06:45.960 what it is. Well well, I mean all right, man, 0:06:46.000 --> 0:06:52.400 I mean like, uh, okay, so you've how can all right? 0:06:53.240 --> 0:06:56.080 So listen, it sounds to me like your parents have 0:06:56.200 --> 0:07:00.520 been the ones figuring all this shit out and talking 0:07:00.560 --> 0:07:03.800 to lawyers and doing the paperwork and this and that 0:07:03.920 --> 0:07:07.560 and the other thing. Which but but but look, but listen, man, 0:07:07.560 --> 0:07:10.960 you're twenty five years old. I mean, you know you can't. 0:07:11.880 --> 0:07:13.280 You can't call up a lawyer. 0:07:17.040 --> 0:07:25.560 I could, but I haven't because I guess I'm just irresponsible. 0:07:31.640 --> 0:07:35.240 Yeah, dude, what what I mean? Call it? Call a lawyer, 0:07:35.600 --> 0:07:37.480 Call a lawyer. I almost don't want to keep it. 0:07:37.920 --> 0:07:39.600 I'm happy to keep talking to you because he seemed 0:07:39.640 --> 0:07:41.160 like a cool guy, but I almost don't want to 0:07:41.240 --> 0:07:46.080 keep we've we've That's that's my If you wanted stone 0:07:46.120 --> 0:07:48.600 cold advice, that's my stone cold advice is to call 0:07:48.640 --> 0:07:51.120 it a lawyer. Yeah, call a lawyer. 0:07:54.520 --> 0:08:01.320 Well, yeah, that's probably what I should do. 0:08:01.120 --> 0:08:04.200 I have no idea why you haven't yet. 0:08:05.920 --> 0:08:09.720 I mean, I I emailed the lawyer. You know, I 0:08:09.840 --> 0:08:12.920 just I just I just I've just been I've just 0:08:12.960 --> 0:08:13.480 been busy. 0:08:13.800 --> 0:08:16.240 You know, you busy doing what? How is this? 0:08:16.400 --> 0:08:16.480 Not? 0:08:16.720 --> 0:08:19.040 How is what? Okay? Tell me the things, tell me, 0:08:19.160 --> 0:08:21.880 tell me everything that's on the higher that's that's higher 0:08:21.880 --> 0:08:24.440 on your priority, less than than not getting deported. 0:08:25.840 --> 0:08:29.080 Okay, Well I mean nothing, but I know you talk 0:08:29.120 --> 0:08:33.080 about how you know your your bar for crazy lives 0:08:33.160 --> 0:08:35.880 is pretty high. But I do think I live a 0:08:35.960 --> 0:08:38.600 pretty crazy life. 0:08:40.360 --> 0:08:45.040 Ud lawyer. Go ahead, Sorry, go ahead, I will. 0:08:45.679 --> 0:08:47.880 I'm just I'm just busy. So so I am. I'm 0:08:47.920 --> 0:08:49.320 a DJ producer, and. 0:08:49.240 --> 0:08:55.360 I okay, I'm sorry. I don't want to keep interrupting. 0:08:54.920 --> 0:08:57.920 You, but no, no, it's okay, Okay, go. 0:08:57.920 --> 0:08:59.080 Ahead, finish finished. 0:08:59.200 --> 0:09:06.920 You finish, You've I promote. I promote a lot of 0:09:06.960 --> 0:09:12.280 the raves that happen in the Bay Area, some of 0:09:12.320 --> 0:09:15.080 the venues if you know, if you're from the Bay 0:09:15.120 --> 0:09:18.920 Area and uh, you know the rave venues for like 0:09:19.000 --> 0:09:24.400 bass music, up step or whatever. I either throw them 0:09:24.640 --> 0:09:28.760 or know the people that throw them and promote them. 0:09:29.120 --> 0:09:34.400 And yeah, that's a lot for me to do. And 0:09:34.400 --> 0:09:36.280 then on top of that, going to work. 0:09:39.920 --> 0:09:44.680 Take a little break from mixing and call a fucking lawyer. 0:09:48.160 --> 0:09:49.079 I should call it oil. 0:09:49.200 --> 0:09:50.840 You should call a lawyer. Dude, what are you doing? 0:09:52.480 --> 0:09:58.160 I I I I Am going to lunch or what's 0:09:58.200 --> 0:09:58.839 going to lunch? 0:10:00.360 --> 0:10:00.680 Joey? 0:10:00.760 --> 0:10:02.440 I want to I mean, I say, I want to 0:10:02.440 --> 0:10:05.319 help you, but I literally cannot. I have no skills 0:10:05.679 --> 0:10:06.240 to do stuff. 0:10:06.280 --> 0:10:09.199 But okay, how about this sounds this sounds like okay, 0:10:09.240 --> 0:10:11.720 this sounds like a higher look all the rave stuff, 0:10:11.720 --> 0:10:12.400 it sounds cool. 0:10:12.400 --> 0:10:15.840 But this sounds like a significantly higher priority than your raves. 0:10:17.360 --> 0:10:21.800 Yeah, yeah, how about this? How do you think I 0:10:21.800 --> 0:10:25.480 should uh? How do you think I should tell my 0:10:25.480 --> 0:10:31.360 my diehard Catholic parents that I am getting this cocaine? 0:10:34.120 --> 0:10:36.600 Uh? Make it a hidden message in one of your 0:10:36.640 --> 0:10:44.199 songs and play it for them. Oh, man, I invite them, 0:10:44.320 --> 0:10:46.920 invite them to invite them to one of your raves 0:10:47.000 --> 0:10:50.160 and then as part of like on the projector you 0:10:50.160 --> 0:10:51.600 can put your subpoena on there. 0:10:56.000 --> 0:10:58.120 Oh that that sounds horrible. 0:11:01.080 --> 0:11:06.480 Also, yeah, by the way, here's my friend. Look, you're 0:11:06.720 --> 0:11:11.040 here twenty five years old. I mean you can your 0:11:11.080 --> 0:11:12.720 parents don't have to be a part of this if 0:11:12.720 --> 0:11:15.360 you don't even want them to, well I will. 0:11:17.200 --> 0:11:20.480 I live with them and they don't charge me for rent. 0:11:24.120 --> 0:11:28.199 How do you afford all this cocaine? 0:11:30.040 --> 0:11:33.440 I have a pretty pretty good job. I fix cars 0:11:33.840 --> 0:11:38.280 like an autobody technician, and they don't pay me enough, 0:11:38.320 --> 0:11:40.880 but I do make a decent amount. 0:11:44.040 --> 0:11:44.280 Hmm. 0:11:46.280 --> 0:11:50.319 Yeah, you know I only started I only started doing 0:11:50.800 --> 0:11:54.079 you know, I only started doing drugs this past year. 0:11:55.440 --> 0:11:57.160 Well, so if you get to ported to Mexico, what 0:11:57.200 --> 0:12:01.920 are you going to do? Well? 0:12:02.000 --> 0:12:04.040 You know, I try to be uh, I try to 0:12:04.040 --> 0:12:08.800 be stoic about it. Yeah, but but it's a it's 0:12:08.800 --> 0:12:12.520 a lot to uh. You know, I've built my entire 0:12:12.559 --> 0:12:15.040 life here and I have, you know, things going on here, 0:12:15.160 --> 0:12:19.880 So it's like get deported then I don't I don't 0:12:19.920 --> 0:12:25.200 know yeah, I really don't know, but but I I have. 0:12:26.840 --> 0:12:28.520 It does sound like I should call lawyer. 0:12:28.800 --> 0:12:33.760 Do you speak Spanish? Do you I assume you speak Spanish. 0:12:32.200 --> 0:12:33.439 A little bit. It's broken. 0:12:34.600 --> 0:12:38.679 I do speak it, Okay, I you could have Listen, 0:12:38.720 --> 0:12:39.280 here's the thing. 0:12:39.320 --> 0:12:41.240 I don't think you're gonna I want to. I want 0:12:41.280 --> 0:12:43.160 to reassure you and say I don't think you're gonna 0:12:43.160 --> 0:12:44.480 get deported. But I don't want to lie to you 0:12:44.520 --> 0:12:47.440 have no idea. That's why I should call lawyer. Yeah, 0:12:48.400 --> 0:12:50.600 but you know, but here's what I do. I'm not 0:12:50.600 --> 0:12:52.480 gonna say you're not gonna get deported. But here's what 0:12:52.559 --> 0:12:57.640 I do think Joey is and I I liked. I 0:12:58.240 --> 0:13:02.240 think part of stoicism is is rolling with whatever the 0:13:02.280 --> 0:13:06.280 fuck happens, because you know, life is crazy and sometimes 0:13:07.320 --> 0:13:10.160 things don't always go your way. Uh So, look, if 0:13:10.160 --> 0:13:13.320 you do get deported to Mexico, why don't you just 0:13:13.360 --> 0:13:16.679 become the big Why don't you just become a famous 0:13:16.720 --> 0:13:20.160 Mexican DJ. Why don't you do underground Mexican raves? That 0:13:20.160 --> 0:13:23.280 sounds cool, sounds fun. That's not the worst thing that 0:13:23.320 --> 0:13:24.400 could ever happen to anyone. 0:13:25.800 --> 0:13:32.760 Oh man, I don't know. I mean, does the Mexico 0:13:32.920 --> 0:13:36.200 have a good you know, bass music scene. 0:13:37.520 --> 0:13:40.120 Well you should call lawyers that you never have to 0:13:40.120 --> 0:13:41.559 figure out the answer to that question. 0:13:43.480 --> 0:13:47.000 Yeah, yeah, I should call. 0:13:47.480 --> 0:13:49.320 I think you'll be fine whatever happens to you. You 0:13:49.360 --> 0:13:54.360 seem like a nice guy. 0:13:54.520 --> 0:13:59.800 I try to be. I'm not that whole Joey. 0:13:59.840 --> 0:14:02.199 I well, okay, before I let you go, is there 0:14:02.200 --> 0:14:04.439 any I mean, I feel like the answer is no, 0:14:04.520 --> 0:14:06.120 But is there any other thing the way that I 0:14:06.120 --> 0:14:06.960 could help you with this? 0:14:13.280 --> 0:14:18.680 I'm thinking about it, you know, not really I think 0:14:18.720 --> 0:14:20.480 I I think I I think I got to call 0:14:20.520 --> 0:14:20.960 a lawyer. 0:14:25.360 --> 0:14:26.200 Yeah, I think so too. 0:14:29.440 --> 0:14:33.880 Oh man, Well, this is uh, this is gonna be 0:14:34.760 --> 0:14:40.600 the fucking It's gonna be a fucking issue. But I'll 0:14:40.600 --> 0:14:41.160 get through it. 0:14:41.480 --> 0:14:43.640 You'll get through it. You'll get through it. I think 0:14:43.680 --> 0:14:45.720 you'll get through it. You think you'll get through it. 0:14:45.760 --> 0:14:47.840 Although it would be it would be sick to like 0:14:49.680 --> 0:14:51.400 it would be sick to like be at a like 0:14:51.480 --> 0:14:53.120 a Mexican I was at a I was at a 0:14:53.160 --> 0:14:56.160 Mexican uh pizza place the other day and I was 0:14:56.200 --> 0:14:58.680 just what there was like a TV on and it 0:14:58.760 --> 0:15:02.680 was like the news Mexico and I was just I don't, 0:15:02.680 --> 0:15:05.000 I don't, I don't, I know like two words of Spanish, 0:15:05.080 --> 0:15:06.680 and so I didn't know what was going on, and 0:15:06.720 --> 0:15:08.600 it would it would be cool to one day go 0:15:08.680 --> 0:15:10.640 back to that pizza place and I just see you 0:15:11.400 --> 0:15:16.280 on the news, you know, jamming out. 0:15:17.400 --> 0:15:22.600 What that means? Yeah, I mean, isn't a never. 0:15:22.560 --> 0:15:27.640 Mind, Joe? Is there anything else gonna say the people 0:15:27.640 --> 0:15:28.880 in the computer before we go. 0:15:31.760 --> 0:15:38.280 People the computer? Uh, well, it's gonna be okay. And 0:15:38.360 --> 0:15:41.040 uh And if you're in the Bay Area, go to 0:15:41.120 --> 0:15:41.960 Base Raves. 0:15:42.840 --> 0:15:45.280 And if you're in the I'm gonna I'm gonna, I'm gonna, 0:15:45.320 --> 0:15:47.120 I'm gonna stomp over you. And I'm gonna say, if 0:15:47.160 --> 0:15:49.600 you're in the Bay Area and you're an immigration or 0:15:49.640 --> 0:15:53.680 criminal lawyer, give this man a call. Oh yes, please, 0:15:56.000 --> 0:15:57.320 thank you for calling. Joe. I have it going. 0:15:57.400 --> 0:16:02.800 Good luck you too. 0:16:00.080 --> 0:16:07.000 With Hey, folks, it's Lyle. 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Geck Bluss Hello, Hi, 0:17:21.200 --> 0:17:21.679 who is this? 0:17:23.440 --> 0:17:25.200 I'm Sarah? 0:17:25.480 --> 0:17:27.600 Hey Sarah, Hi Sarah. What's up? 0:17:29.200 --> 0:17:32.280 I was just gaming and then you started streaming, So 0:17:32.359 --> 0:17:38.600 I'm just pausing my game, shaking it being called by you. 0:17:38.720 --> 0:17:42.600 I don't know, Sarah, what's going on? How's how's life? 0:17:42.600 --> 0:17:45.200 How can I get you today? I see that you 0:17:45.200 --> 0:17:46.560 you are calling from Germany. 0:17:47.600 --> 0:17:52.120 I am, Yes, life is kind of crazy right now. 0:17:52.240 --> 0:17:52.639 I don't know. 0:17:53.640 --> 0:17:55.959 It depends on what you're interested in. 0:17:56.000 --> 0:18:00.600 I guess well, I I will let you have the floor. 0:18:02.520 --> 0:18:05.520 While as to explaining why life is crazy. 0:18:05.520 --> 0:18:10.000 Well, okay, so just for the viewers, I'm twenty four. 0:18:11.920 --> 0:18:15.960 Just as context, I guess my fifty year old moment 0:18:16.040 --> 0:18:20.040 is cancer. So that's going on in my life currently. 0:18:21.320 --> 0:18:28.720 Besides that, I'm writing my bad shows theses and struggling 0:18:28.760 --> 0:18:31.000 in life like everyone. I guess. 0:18:31.440 --> 0:18:34.600 Now. You mentioned in your text that the thing one 0:18:34.600 --> 0:18:36.400 of the things you wanted to talk about is that 0:18:37.800 --> 0:18:39.800 you you have a beard. 0:18:42.400 --> 0:18:47.600 I grow more facial hair than normal, this woman does. 0:18:47.720 --> 0:18:49.560 I guess yes, m hm. 0:18:51.720 --> 0:18:54.040 Was there any like thing in particular about that that 0:18:54.080 --> 0:18:55.040 you wanted to talk about? 0:18:57.240 --> 0:19:02.119 I did want to talk about that, yes, because it 0:19:02.240 --> 0:19:06.560 is treated by a chronic illness that makes me very 0:19:07.000 --> 0:19:10.320 sad on like a daily basis. 0:19:11.480 --> 0:19:13.600 M hm hm. 0:19:14.119 --> 0:19:15.679 I don't know why, but I feel like everyone in 0:19:15.720 --> 0:19:17.480 Germany's has got to be miserable. 0:19:19.720 --> 0:19:22.320 Why would you say that Germany? 0:19:22.480 --> 0:19:25.480 Like last year, I was, yeah, I was, well, I mean, 0:19:25.520 --> 0:19:31.320 you guys tried really hard to, you know, kill everyone, 0:19:31.359 --> 0:19:33.520 and you fails. And you got to you gotta live 0:19:33.560 --> 0:19:36.240 with that l and by the and you know what's crazy, 0:19:36.320 --> 0:19:39.399 that wasn't even a hundred years ago. There's still people 0:19:39.440 --> 0:19:41.040 alive from when you guys did that. 0:19:41.960 --> 0:19:45.719 And the worst, yes, the worst thing about that is 0:19:45.760 --> 0:19:50.719 that I guess people like that with that mindset are 0:19:50.760 --> 0:19:53.600 returning and it's not good. But I will not get 0:19:53.600 --> 0:19:55.440 political like that right now. 0:19:57.200 --> 0:20:00.200 Oh there's other are there Nazis in Germany still? 0:20:01.240 --> 0:20:05.760 Oh? Yes, And not to alarm anyone out there in 0:20:05.800 --> 0:20:09.320 the world, but like the right wing party we have 0:20:09.560 --> 0:20:12.560 is gaining a lot, a lot of a lot of 0:20:12.640 --> 0:20:17.000 water right now and it's very scary interesting. 0:20:17.760 --> 0:20:20.520 Well, I guess it's never I guess. I guess you 0:20:20.600 --> 0:20:25.560 can feel confident in the fact that it's peaked. 0:20:27.960 --> 0:20:30.880 I hope that's the truth. I really do hope that's 0:20:30.880 --> 0:20:31.440 the truth. 0:20:32.119 --> 0:20:34.800 It seems it seems like it's peaked. I don't, I don't, 0:20:35.600 --> 0:20:37.960 I don't, I don't know, I don't know if. I 0:20:37.960 --> 0:20:39.480 don't know, if you guys, I don't know if you 0:20:39.480 --> 0:20:41.240 guys are gonna be able to do all that stuff again. 0:20:41.680 --> 0:20:46.080 I think that that I think you guys Germany peaked. 0:20:46.920 --> 0:20:51.080 It's all Germany peaked. Unfortunately. That's the thing is everyone's well, 0:20:51.119 --> 0:20:53.120 that's why everyone's sad. There is because there's a bunch 0:20:53.160 --> 0:20:56.600 of people walking around who peaked. It's like people who 0:20:56.800 --> 0:20:59.800 like were popular in high school and now are just losers. 0:21:01.119 --> 0:21:06.520 Well, I'll have to ask everyone in my life now 0:21:06.560 --> 0:21:08.400 if they think Germany has peaked. 0:21:09.440 --> 0:21:16.920 Mm hmmm, well what else? Uh? Oh, you guys got 0:21:16.960 --> 0:21:18.400 Curry Worst. That's awesome. 0:21:19.480 --> 0:21:22.440 Oh did you have someone? You were in Berlin year? 0:21:22.520 --> 0:21:24.840 I was. I was like when I had it, I 0:21:24.920 --> 0:21:27.159 was like, this is so good. I almost wish that 0:21:27.240 --> 0:21:30.359 Germany won World War Two so that they sold it everywhere. 0:21:31.680 --> 0:21:36.040 That would I would be happy for the rest of 0:21:36.080 --> 0:21:40.359 the world if they also had Colly West as we 0:21:40.640 --> 0:21:42.840 call it without an accent. 0:21:43.480 --> 0:21:50.920 Mm hmmm mm hmm. All right, so Germany, you're you're 0:21:50.960 --> 0:21:55.360 in Germany, you're a person, You're alive on Earth. What 0:21:55.359 --> 0:21:57.919 what game were you playing when I interrupted you with 0:21:57.960 --> 0:21:58.640 my phone call? 0:21:59.680 --> 0:22:01.960 I will playing life is strange too? 0:22:05.200 --> 0:22:07.080 Uh oh, okay, I've heard of that one. Is it 0:22:07.119 --> 0:22:07.959 any good? 0:22:09.280 --> 0:22:13.440 I've actually played it before. This is a replay. I'm 0:22:13.480 --> 0:22:17.040 just on the first episode, but so far I'm enjoying it. Yeah, 0:22:17.080 --> 0:22:18.199 I guess, M. 0:22:22.320 --> 0:22:24.840 Well, well, all right, I mean, I guess I'll say this, 0:22:24.960 --> 0:22:29.000 Sarah is there, Like, what would you like from this 0:22:29.080 --> 0:22:30.680 phone call? I'll ask you that question. 0:22:34.960 --> 0:22:42.800 I would like to, I don't know, put myself out 0:22:42.800 --> 0:22:48.520 there in my troubles and maybe finally feel like I 0:22:48.560 --> 0:22:52.680 can be understood, because every time I've tried, I feel 0:22:52.720 --> 0:22:58.720 like I've failed. And maybe since you have a bigger audience, 0:22:58.760 --> 0:23:01.439 there will be somebody that can understand me and my 0:23:02.200 --> 0:23:03.360 struggles a little bit. 0:23:06.040 --> 0:23:08.560 Sure, welcome, I'll let you have the floor. 0:23:09.800 --> 0:23:14.280 Okay, I guess I'll just talk about what I texted 0:23:14.320 --> 0:23:21.240 you about Lila, if that's okay, Sure, Okay, So I 0:23:21.400 --> 0:23:25.040 was well, I am a SIS woman. I do identify 0:23:25.280 --> 0:23:29.320 as a SIS woman more or less. But I have 0:23:29.400 --> 0:23:33.560 a chronic illness that messes with my hormones and that 0:23:33.640 --> 0:23:38.880 means that every morning I have too well shave off 0:23:39.000 --> 0:23:43.720 my beard and like genuinely, genuinely I have like more 0:23:43.800 --> 0:23:48.840 facial heir growth than a woman would have, and it's 0:23:49.119 --> 0:23:53.320 it's really depressing. There's no day that I don't look 0:23:53.359 --> 0:23:57.080 in the mirror where I'm like, do people notice this? 0:23:57.320 --> 0:24:02.359 And do people think less of me? Because they don't 0:24:02.880 --> 0:24:06.879 see me maybe fully as a woman, and it's just 0:24:07.400 --> 0:24:12.560 very hard to deal with this every single day. 0:24:15.840 --> 0:24:16.199 M hm. 0:24:18.080 --> 0:24:22.320 Should I just continue to be have something to say 0:24:22.520 --> 0:24:33.920 to this? Okay? So I do try to. I guess 0:24:34.440 --> 0:24:40.600 cover the shadow of this facial hair shows on my 0:24:40.720 --> 0:24:45.280 face with makeup, but I still feel like it can 0:24:46.080 --> 0:24:50.440 cover up, especially like my emotions that I have inside 0:24:50.440 --> 0:24:57.679 that I feel like maybe this chronic illness will be 0:24:57.840 --> 0:25:02.800 the cause of mean we're being fully happy, because when 0:25:02.840 --> 0:25:07.399 I think of maybe being in a relationship in my future, 0:25:07.520 --> 0:25:12.720 I'm like, you know from movies, you know this wonderful 0:25:14.040 --> 0:25:16.120 scene where you wake up in the morning and it's 0:25:16.119 --> 0:25:18.679 sunny outside and you just wake up with your partner 0:25:18.720 --> 0:25:21.400 and you're happy and everything is good. And I feel 0:25:21.440 --> 0:25:26.919 like I'll never have that because the first thing I 0:25:26.920 --> 0:25:30.359 will do in the morning when I wake up, maybe 0:25:30.400 --> 0:25:35.119 next to a future partner, we'll be worrying about what 0:25:35.240 --> 0:25:38.439