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Speaker 1: Welcome. You are now listening to the Professional Professional. Hey guys,

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Speaker 1: welcome to this week's episode the p s G Podcast

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Speaker 1: is gl eban A and I'm super excited about this

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Speaker 1: week's episode. Before it begins, please make sure to follow

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Speaker 1: me on Instagram at the Professional home Girl, at the

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Speaker 1: p G podcast, and last and not least, at a Beauty.

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Speaker 1: Please keep in mind that all of my guests are anonymous,

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Speaker 1: so let's begains this week's episode. Oh, I'm super excited

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Speaker 1: about this week's episode because I am spending with my

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Speaker 1: childhood friends of twenty years. How y'all feeling good? Amazing? Great?

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Speaker 1: So I think it's important to have conversations like this

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Speaker 1: because I feel like as you get older, you kind

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Speaker 1: of lose touch with a lot of people that you

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Speaker 1: grow up with and sometimes you never, like pretty much

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Speaker 1: get back in contact with those people. So let's start

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Speaker 1: off this conversation. Um, did you all think that we

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Speaker 1: will all be friends twenty years later? I? Did? You did? Why?

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Speaker 1: Because I just feel like we've been around, we came

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Speaker 1: at a place where we really became who we are

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Speaker 1: personality wise, and we all have seeing some things and

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Speaker 1: just this don't explainable like, girl, I can't live with

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Speaker 1: at you, you know, no matter what time it gets

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Speaker 1: in between, it's like you take that lucky never move

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Speaker 1: about you. Oh wow, yeah, I think so you're gonna

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Speaker 1: be honest. No, no, I'm thinking that because that's a

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Speaker 1: like a tough question. But oh it's gonna be honest. No, no, no,

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Speaker 1: it's a so question, like wow, there's like a lot

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Speaker 1: to like to think of you out. But we're you know,

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Speaker 1: we're close. So I'm just saying, like, um, I think

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Speaker 1: that we've just known each other for so long, so

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Speaker 1: you know, I didn't. I don't know what I'm saying

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Speaker 1: right now. I mean lots of words because I was

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Speaker 1: actually getting cant of emotion when she's talking. For you,

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Speaker 1: you start now. And these are the people that I

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Speaker 1: shouted out. I don't know if y'all listened to it,

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Speaker 1: but I shot you all out. I know you listened

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Speaker 1: to it because you told me, Oh my um it

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Speaker 1: was an episode. I shared my story and my upbringing.

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Speaker 1: Most of the guests that are hearing me today, I

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Speaker 1: actually lived with them because I was going through so

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Speaker 1: much for my situation at how on my parents. So

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Speaker 1: this is like a very sentiment only episode. I don't

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Speaker 1: think I ever crown. I don't think I'm a croud

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Speaker 1: of this episode because I never don't. Yeah, I don't

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Speaker 1: think I'm can't have many signs same you cry. Yeah, definitely,

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Speaker 1: I'm a very strong person. But get to the question.

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Speaker 1: I never looked these funds so like, like I never

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Speaker 1: thought about twenty years a man, I think we would be.

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Speaker 1: I was just leaving in a moment like these my grood.

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Speaker 1: You know, we friends like slash family being around you

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Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. I feel like we'll always kind

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Speaker 1: of be around each other, little keeping twitch. It's some

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Speaker 1: type of way I don't know, right, Like we don't

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Speaker 1: talk a lot, you know. I was on side talk

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Speaker 1: to her, Well, y'all all talk to each other market,

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Speaker 1: y'all live in because we see each other. Yeah, but

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Speaker 1: I never looked as far as I never thought what

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Speaker 1: about you, I don't need des when I really thought,

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Speaker 1: I would like be a life friend and to be honest,

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Speaker 1: anything would be lifelong friends. No really, because we I

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Speaker 1: mean I think well, I started to like, like she said,

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Speaker 1: is everybody else's kind? It was mommy's word. The nick

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Speaker 1: The thing is you don't never feel this come like

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Speaker 1: what about you? No, I definitely didn't think that I

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Speaker 1: and I know it's only like really from here. M Yeah,

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Speaker 1: I'm not where I supposed to be back. We're supposed

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Speaker 1: but I thought it would be there sooner than I

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Speaker 1: am now. It's a slow process, but it'll be worth

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Speaker 1: at a different timing for different Um, I don't think

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Speaker 1: satisfied with my success and like I'm always thinking about

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Speaker 1: right now, I'm still like what's nicks? Nick Nicks? Like

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Speaker 1: wasn't the career that I regionally chose, but like you said,

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Speaker 1: it was for a reason, like and I've impacted like

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Speaker 1: Um that I am like satisfied. I didn't think though

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Speaker 1: she was so first I ever started too what he facio?

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Speaker 1: Just like you if your mold are you always been mother?

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Speaker 1: You know? I think that I think that everything that

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Speaker 1: I think that the way how I got to where

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Speaker 1: was like a roller coaster ride. Yeah, but I feel

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Speaker 1: I'm happy where I met though. Um, is there anything

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Speaker 1: Like what? You don't have enough time about all the things.

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Speaker 1: But what's the first thing to come to your mind?

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Speaker 1: This simple was Hell's right after graduation. I would have

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Speaker 1: I would have A girl would have been retired about it.

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Speaker 1: You're real. Yeah, I just this one thing I read someone.

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Speaker 1: They would have changed everything in my life. A whole

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Speaker 1: I would have. Definitely. I was on the same path

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Speaker 1: I impact them be rid that stuff. What I'm doing differently,

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Speaker 1: it's two different It's two different things that I would

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Speaker 1: it's like, if you want something more than what you've

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Speaker 1: as you're like, you don't this, I don't know, you

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Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. Would feel fegre on stepping out

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Speaker 1: be but I probably would have done differently. I would say,

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Speaker 1: I'm just thinking man like student novels, Like I had

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Speaker 1: didn't take those. I think I would have educated myself

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Speaker 1: by like money and finding too long. But literacy, Yeah,

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Speaker 1: my parents didn't teach us that. They didn't. They didn't.

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Speaker 1: I thought, like the univeracy now are starting to know,

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Speaker 1: like my parents, we just kind of go back with that.

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Speaker 1: So if you had a parent who was good with money.

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Speaker 1: I feel like this one we are we shouldn't all

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Speaker 1: taking there. It was like a whole little me and

426
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Speaker 1: I remember with you. Your mom used to always take

427
00:27:51,880 --> 00:27:53,560
Speaker 1: us to school and stuff, and we would be in

428
00:27:53,600 --> 00:27:57,320
Speaker 1: the car just talking and stuff or she and stuff.

429
00:28:00,520 --> 00:28:03,560
Speaker 1: I remember thinking I can't because I was my kid. Yeah,

430
00:28:04,520 --> 00:28:19,560
Speaker 1: whene wait we were like, wait, how did your all

431
00:28:19,680 --> 00:28:23,320
Speaker 1: that attitude? Like you had so in my creaking hand

432
00:28:23,359 --> 00:28:29,159
Speaker 1: because she didn't start your gas. She don't start like

433
00:28:29,600 --> 00:28:37,199
Speaker 1: I can't too early? Yes, so small that just walking

434
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Speaker 1: by the mass, Spicy said a little sad and heard o,

435
00:28:49,960 --> 00:28:57,440
Speaker 1: y'all's open like a big thing. Another where So when

436
00:28:57,520 --> 00:28:59,400
Speaker 1: did you think when do y'all think that we started

437
00:28:59,400 --> 00:29:02,959
Speaker 1: to grow apart in more ways? Probably because we all

438
00:29:03,040 --> 00:29:06,160
Speaker 1: went away. I mean we went to college, graduation, college

439
00:29:06,160 --> 00:29:10,000
Speaker 1: and a college and after college yell, that's pretty much

440
00:29:10,200 --> 00:29:11,920
Speaker 1: because we had spent so much time, you know, the

441
00:29:12,520 --> 00:29:14,320
Speaker 1: high fool. I mean, we all ways to be of you,

442
00:29:14,960 --> 00:29:16,800
Speaker 1: so we do each other from there and don't need

443
00:29:16,880 --> 00:29:20,880
Speaker 1: to see and see what so like after being you know,

444
00:29:21,040 --> 00:29:25,320
Speaker 1: we kind of just disperst because we always everybody forties,

445
00:29:26,400 --> 00:29:27,880
Speaker 1: So you think the us moving as the reason what

446
00:29:27,960 --> 00:29:29,880
Speaker 1: it calls us, Yeah, because then you get when you

447
00:29:29,960 --> 00:29:32,040
Speaker 1: go to college, you didn't you get other friends and

448
00:29:32,120 --> 00:29:35,600
Speaker 1: then you see every day now, so it's like you

449
00:29:35,680 --> 00:29:38,479
Speaker 1: still have your bad call friends, but you're spending more

450
00:29:38,560 --> 00:29:40,120
Speaker 1: time with other people. But do you think we could

451
00:29:40,120 --> 00:29:42,080
Speaker 1: have done a bed job on keeping why? I feel

452
00:29:42,080 --> 00:29:45,200
Speaker 1: like me, I don't know for a fact that when

453
00:29:45,240 --> 00:29:52,000
Speaker 1: I left, I left. Yeah yeah, yeah, but I feel

454
00:29:52,080 --> 00:29:53,720
Speaker 1: like with me, I could have been done better with

455
00:29:53,840 --> 00:29:56,200
Speaker 1: like keeping a contact and like because a lot has

456
00:29:56,280 --> 00:29:58,080
Speaker 1: happened over the years that I don't even know about.

457
00:29:58,760 --> 00:30:02,000
Speaker 1: I think without kind of help, it's like you might

458
00:30:02,040 --> 00:30:05,000
Speaker 1: not talk to the person. Everybody on the media, you know,

459
00:30:05,400 --> 00:30:08,080
Speaker 1: they're kind of like, you know, they're okay. You don't

460
00:30:08,080 --> 00:30:10,680
Speaker 1: even got a cop to what you see what they're

461
00:30:10,720 --> 00:30:12,840
Speaker 1: doing if you've seen them over the years. So it's

462
00:30:12,920 --> 00:30:17,480
Speaker 1: not like it just feel like, yeah, I can not

463
00:30:17,640 --> 00:30:23,880
Speaker 1: in social media do make people not reach out because

464
00:30:23,880 --> 00:30:26,440
Speaker 1: that was but that's not done though. I was taking

465
00:30:26,480 --> 00:30:28,040
Speaker 1: one of my own so she caught her and she

466
00:30:28,160 --> 00:30:29,840
Speaker 1: was like, I have not talked to you, and I

467
00:30:29,920 --> 00:30:33,280
Speaker 1: did feel so weird. She's like, but I see like

468
00:30:33,600 --> 00:30:37,720
Speaker 1: everything going and she was like, but I'm like, I'm

469
00:30:37,800 --> 00:30:42,000
Speaker 1: making it my business now to be intentional on college people, right,

470
00:30:42,080 --> 00:30:44,840
Speaker 1: I'm like, yeah, because you do get kind of she's

471
00:30:44,840 --> 00:30:51,000
Speaker 1: doing good like that. It's like ever picked the phone

472
00:30:51,120 --> 00:30:53,640
Speaker 1: look to kle you not more so. Well, that's why

473
00:30:53,680 --> 00:30:56,080
Speaker 1: I was telling her. I was telling you that. I

474
00:30:56,200 --> 00:30:57,640
Speaker 1: was like, you know, but being back home and made

475
00:30:57,640 --> 00:30:59,520
Speaker 1: me just realize a lot of things. I'm like, oh,

476
00:30:59,600 --> 00:31:01,840
Speaker 1: so much time has passed by with us. So I

477
00:31:02,000 --> 00:31:04,520
Speaker 1: was saying, how I'm gonna make the initial to like

478
00:31:04,560 --> 00:31:06,480
Speaker 1: the call more, come home more and spend time with

479
00:31:06,520 --> 00:31:09,400
Speaker 1: all my friends. And then what she said was I agree,

480
00:31:09,560 --> 00:31:11,080
Speaker 1: was like, you know, we need to do the same

481
00:31:11,160 --> 00:31:14,000
Speaker 1: with you. You need to be a two way street. Yeah,

482
00:31:16,520 --> 00:31:21,040
Speaker 1: earlier we need to um take a trip of course

483
00:31:21,160 --> 00:31:25,880
Speaker 1: after a little baby and get it to Greely's apart

484
00:31:26,120 --> 00:31:32,760
Speaker 1: from her side like this year of course, baby, I'm

485
00:31:32,760 --> 00:31:35,120
Speaker 1: gonna be worried. She really got to be any streets

486
00:31:36,680 --> 00:31:42,760
Speaker 1: or yeah that's a little time of steak ye playing

487
00:31:43,920 --> 00:31:46,120
Speaker 1: had to be a two way street, just like I

488
00:31:46,280 --> 00:31:48,720
Speaker 1: end up being here today. I got something that's ond

489
00:31:48,800 --> 00:31:50,280
Speaker 1: to came to it. I was like, you wait a minute,

490
00:31:50,840 --> 00:31:53,200
Speaker 1: I ain't saying her over teen years like how rude

491
00:31:53,280 --> 00:31:57,000
Speaker 1: it is. I wish I would like go to New

492
00:31:57,120 --> 00:31:58,680
Speaker 1: York and I don't see your like, I'm want your

493
00:31:58,720 --> 00:32:01,680
Speaker 1: whole words and stop on curvious the biggest week, but

494
00:32:01,840 --> 00:32:05,360
Speaker 1: that I was like, no, I see how later? Yeah?

495
00:32:06,880 --> 00:32:08,960
Speaker 1: Uh do y'all wish the things were still the same

496
00:32:09,000 --> 00:32:11,360
Speaker 1: between all of us, the same as the one what

497
00:32:11,560 --> 00:32:17,400
Speaker 1: it used to be. I have a relationship. I mean

498
00:32:17,440 --> 00:32:19,160
Speaker 1: we all have a relationships, but y'all aren't still like

499
00:32:19,520 --> 00:32:23,160
Speaker 1: very very close, right, And I feel like y'all are too, yeah,

500
00:32:23,480 --> 00:32:28,680
Speaker 1: and I don't. Yeah. So it's like, I like where

501
00:32:28,680 --> 00:32:30,840
Speaker 1: we are. I think we could strengthen it. If we

502
00:32:30,920 --> 00:32:33,520
Speaker 1: are there's something we don't want to do. We don't, yeah,

503
00:32:34,120 --> 00:32:39,520
Speaker 1: but I think we're cool and little for that to happen. Yeah,

504
00:32:39,720 --> 00:32:42,600
Speaker 1: you know, I mean nothing like that. We all gets

505
00:32:42,680 --> 00:32:45,880
Speaker 1: well to be treating there. It's cool. And I think

506
00:32:46,000 --> 00:32:48,600
Speaker 1: once you get older, like once she's become a dude,

507
00:32:48,680 --> 00:32:52,840
Speaker 1: like responsibility shields. So like when we were younger, you

508
00:32:52,960 --> 00:32:56,200
Speaker 1: weren't responsible for a thing you got you could be

509
00:32:56,360 --> 00:32:59,320
Speaker 1: doing it, like y'all worries were this, but now it

510
00:32:59,400 --> 00:33:01,960
Speaker 1: is in adult like you have so many things to

511
00:33:02,080 --> 00:33:04,640
Speaker 1: take care of a little bit. It's just like it

512
00:33:05,040 --> 00:33:09,120
Speaker 1: is difficult to like, yeah, you be together. They keep

513
00:33:09,200 --> 00:33:12,600
Speaker 1: friendships at the top of mine when y'all dated that

514
00:33:12,720 --> 00:33:14,320
Speaker 1: even like me, like I gotta go to the girls,

515
00:33:14,520 --> 00:33:18,600
Speaker 1: like I have a routine, man, like you eat stuff

516
00:33:18,640 --> 00:33:22,480
Speaker 1: I gotta do. I had work and I have job,

517
00:33:22,640 --> 00:33:26,840
Speaker 1: I got a house. All like it's it's like, well,

518
00:33:26,840 --> 00:33:29,880
Speaker 1: I feel like that too, because even in New York,

519
00:33:29,960 --> 00:33:33,240
Speaker 1: New York, it's like yeah, even like this morning or

520
00:33:33,280 --> 00:33:34,720
Speaker 1: yesterday morn, I woke up and I was like, damn,

521
00:33:34,760 --> 00:33:37,080
Speaker 1: it's still like early like morning song because it was

522
00:33:37,120 --> 00:33:38,840
Speaker 1: like five o'clock in the morning. I'm like, I'm so

523
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Speaker 1: week's episode. Um, So I was gonna ask this questions

536
00:34:21,680 --> 00:34:23,279
Speaker 1: because there was two other people that are supposed to

537
00:34:23,320 --> 00:34:25,400
Speaker 1: be here, and those two people have kids, and I

538
00:34:25,480 --> 00:34:26,880
Speaker 1: know you're about to be a mom to be. Do

539
00:34:27,000 --> 00:34:30,080
Speaker 1: you think that when people have kids it's also effective

540
00:34:30,120 --> 00:34:35,080
Speaker 1: dynamic of our friendship? Yes, because it's the rate when

541
00:34:35,120 --> 00:34:39,719
Speaker 1: you have friends they don't have kids. Like, there's gonna

542
00:34:39,760 --> 00:34:43,960
Speaker 1: be some type of these things. Um, if the relationship

543
00:34:44,040 --> 00:34:45,600
Speaker 1: is gonna try and you don't think it's not like

544
00:34:45,680 --> 00:34:47,800
Speaker 1: he's gonna stop being friends little because they easy, But

545
00:34:47,920 --> 00:34:51,560
Speaker 1: it's just like if there's gonna be there that you

546
00:34:51,880 --> 00:34:57,120
Speaker 1: not gonna be able to do, it's gonna automatically sweet

547
00:34:57,160 --> 00:35:00,200
Speaker 1: shots a little nick because you know they got will

548
00:35:00,280 --> 00:35:03,200
Speaker 1: responsibility all things and teams who we didn't get all

549
00:35:03,239 --> 00:35:08,080
Speaker 1: of it. You know. Yeah, things you definitely impacts friend shoots,

550
00:35:08,160 --> 00:35:10,040
Speaker 1: but I don't feel like it impacts in a bad way.

551
00:35:10,040 --> 00:35:11,880
Speaker 1: It's just upon a life like you ada have to

552
00:35:12,000 --> 00:35:15,280
Speaker 1: change as you get older. You know, it's a shift.

553
00:35:15,800 --> 00:35:17,959
Speaker 1: But it's one thing I like about social media because

554
00:35:18,000 --> 00:35:20,920
Speaker 1: it's like we have a low hate relationship. We but

555
00:35:21,560 --> 00:35:23,640
Speaker 1: the faith they Okay, well, how any but I can

556
00:35:23,680 --> 00:35:26,160
Speaker 1: talk to her here. I can see what open on

557
00:35:26,239 --> 00:35:28,680
Speaker 1: her life, on her I can see her kids. I

558
00:35:28,760 --> 00:35:30,800
Speaker 1: can see this, you know, even though I ain't gething

559
00:35:30,800 --> 00:35:33,239
Speaker 1: have to do these so they so I like social

560
00:35:33,280 --> 00:35:36,120
Speaker 1: media for every reason to see I'm against it. I

561
00:35:36,200 --> 00:35:40,400
Speaker 1: feel like I agree with no because I agree with

562
00:35:40,520 --> 00:35:42,560
Speaker 1: the whole. Like you know, it's kind of hard because

563
00:35:42,600 --> 00:35:44,200
Speaker 1: we do have our routines. We do. Like I'm in

564
00:35:44,239 --> 00:35:46,160
Speaker 1: New York, all in Memphis, so it's it's not gonna

565
00:35:46,200 --> 00:35:48,080
Speaker 1: be on coming to Memphis. I'm coming to York because

566
00:35:48,080 --> 00:35:50,840
Speaker 1: it's just impossible because we all have our individual lives.

567
00:35:51,920 --> 00:35:54,000
Speaker 1: I mean it's not impossible, but just at the moment

568
00:35:54,040 --> 00:35:56,560
Speaker 1: because we're all trying to like grind and like trying

569
00:35:56,600 --> 00:35:59,479
Speaker 1: to you know, make things happen within our own individual goals.

570
00:36:00,040 --> 00:36:01,680
Speaker 1: But I feel like the fact that we have to

571
00:36:02,000 --> 00:36:04,320
Speaker 1: check in on somebody dude through Instagram, it's just like,

572
00:36:05,040 --> 00:36:09,799
Speaker 1: like I say, have to. It's just like it's ill. Yeah,

573
00:36:12,080 --> 00:36:13,920
Speaker 1: Like I love to be face to face, but it's

574
00:36:14,080 --> 00:36:16,160
Speaker 1: hard to feel up the phones. I mean, yeah, but

575
00:36:16,239 --> 00:36:18,239
Speaker 1: I'm not a talk on the phone personal list and

576
00:36:18,320 --> 00:36:22,920
Speaker 1: some tea. I'm trying to be on this tea or

577
00:36:23,000 --> 00:36:25,719
Speaker 1: trying to figure something out. Always on business, I'm on

578
00:36:25,800 --> 00:36:27,920
Speaker 1: the phone, but I don't. I mean, I feel like

579
00:36:27,920 --> 00:36:29,640
Speaker 1: it feel like I have to pick up the phone.

580
00:36:29,920 --> 00:36:32,760
Speaker 1: Me and her, we rarely talk. We may face time randomly,

581
00:36:33,120 --> 00:36:36,040
Speaker 1: but we talk more messages like voice messages or takes

582
00:36:36,160 --> 00:36:39,840
Speaker 1: me or through Instagram. We community her like that, and

583
00:36:39,920 --> 00:36:42,600
Speaker 1: it's like fall out because we always kind of talking

584
00:36:42,640 --> 00:36:44,920
Speaker 1: to each other. We don't have to see up on

585
00:36:45,040 --> 00:36:48,360
Speaker 1: the phone and talk like I rarely talk on the phone,

586
00:36:48,440 --> 00:36:50,840
Speaker 1: but I do like to be face to face because

587
00:36:50,840 --> 00:36:54,680
Speaker 1: you have it's just different, the different coins face to face.

588
00:36:54,800 --> 00:36:56,800
Speaker 1: But it's good to have the option because things that

589
00:36:56,920 --> 00:36:59,480
Speaker 1: you didn't have the option of social media, and back

590
00:36:59,480 --> 00:37:01,120
Speaker 1: in the day, you don't know what's going on something

591
00:37:01,239 --> 00:37:03,400
Speaker 1: that life. Yeah you know what I'm saying, and you

592
00:37:03,560 --> 00:37:05,759
Speaker 1: might see the mouth one word you might not. And

593
00:37:05,800 --> 00:37:07,680
Speaker 1: if you're all leaving the same city like I leave

594
00:37:07,719 --> 00:37:11,279
Speaker 1: in the Sviel. So it's just like social media is

595
00:37:11,320 --> 00:37:13,399
Speaker 1: a good option for me because I get to see

596
00:37:14,200 --> 00:37:17,719
Speaker 1: family on there when I can't always see I don't

597
00:37:17,719 --> 00:37:19,960
Speaker 1: get to see everybody every time I come home, Like

598
00:37:20,239 --> 00:37:23,239
Speaker 1: this is impossible because from tacking ship. Yeah, it's impossible

599
00:37:23,239 --> 00:37:25,839
Speaker 1: because I haven't still seen that want to see. Yeah,

600
00:37:26,000 --> 00:37:29,880
Speaker 1: so that's impossible, and then that can also be a

601
00:37:29,920 --> 00:37:34,040
Speaker 1: burden sometimes, but it's just impossible to do. So social

602
00:37:34,120 --> 00:37:37,440
Speaker 1: media it definitely helps. Or just if you want to

603
00:37:37,719 --> 00:37:42,480
Speaker 1: fast time for sure. Yeah, well I like it because shoot,

604
00:37:43,160 --> 00:37:46,200
Speaker 1: can't have it halftime, you might not see me, and

605
00:37:46,320 --> 00:37:49,120
Speaker 1: I just like and I like it being to myself.

606
00:37:49,280 --> 00:37:51,360
Speaker 1: So I feel like if I go on my social

607
00:37:51,440 --> 00:37:55,440
Speaker 1: media and I see like good, we've connected, and I

608
00:37:55,480 --> 00:37:59,680
Speaker 1: don't want to talking from our text maybe I look

609
00:37:59,719 --> 00:38:03,960
Speaker 1: at your things because I definitely at church this morning.

610
00:38:04,360 --> 00:38:06,600
Speaker 1: But people that I reached out on social media and

611
00:38:06,719 --> 00:38:12,160
Speaker 1: we only have each other phone, but just see something

612
00:38:12,280 --> 00:38:14,239
Speaker 1: they're going through something I reached out to them through

613
00:38:14,280 --> 00:38:16,719
Speaker 1: the like their heads. I don't even knew that you

614
00:38:16,760 --> 00:38:18,840
Speaker 1: were going through it. Yeah, and we still to this

615
00:38:19,000 --> 00:38:21,440
Speaker 1: day and we had each other phone on, but we

616
00:38:21,600 --> 00:38:24,040
Speaker 1: kind of top with it, you know, and it is

617
00:38:24,160 --> 00:38:29,880
Speaker 1: what it is. Yeah. I think um, even like you said,

618
00:38:31,360 --> 00:38:35,080
Speaker 1: with communication, like you just change in the ways and

619
00:38:35,200 --> 00:38:38,640
Speaker 1: reach you like I won't to like communicate with people

620
00:38:38,640 --> 00:38:40,800
Speaker 1: because even when we live agather, you know, I have

621
00:38:40,880 --> 00:38:44,719
Speaker 1: told come out from working and I say nothing the

622
00:38:44,880 --> 00:38:48,200
Speaker 1: rest of the night, like I ain't about I ain't

623
00:38:48,280 --> 00:38:51,799
Speaker 1: talking to who I'm in the whole rest of the night,

624
00:38:51,920 --> 00:38:55,160
Speaker 1: I can like not say nothing, like just decompress from

625
00:38:55,200 --> 00:38:59,040
Speaker 1: the day, I think, because it's so much we're working

626
00:38:59,320 --> 00:39:02,719
Speaker 1: and like the other day, like shoe after days so

627
00:39:03,000 --> 00:39:08,600
Speaker 1: much I want to all day like you know how

628
00:39:08,719 --> 00:39:12,040
Speaker 1: we have all day talking. I don't want to talk

629
00:39:12,080 --> 00:39:20,320
Speaker 1: about nothing. I want to problem they see you in

630
00:39:20,400 --> 00:39:25,080
Speaker 1: the morning. Maybe so this would make it hard for

631
00:39:25,200 --> 00:39:27,759
Speaker 1: me to sit on come like sometimes my mama caught me,

632
00:39:28,520 --> 00:39:31,560
Speaker 1: all right, and here's something like talk to your mom

633
00:39:31,640 --> 00:39:34,279
Speaker 1: and I'll just be like anything that I don't want

634
00:39:34,320 --> 00:39:38,839
Speaker 1: to talk to my mama, just the thought of having

635
00:39:38,920 --> 00:39:47,239
Speaker 1: a conversation right now, he's like he's training on that. Um.

636
00:39:47,360 --> 00:39:49,880
Speaker 1: Is there anything that each of you would have told

637
00:39:50,040 --> 00:39:54,200
Speaker 1: us that you didn't tell us? Somebody asked the question,

638
00:39:55,840 --> 00:39:57,359
Speaker 1: anything you can think of that you would have told

639
00:39:57,440 --> 00:39:59,400
Speaker 1: us that you was to what met you would directly?

640
00:39:59,440 --> 00:40:03,239
Speaker 1: I'm just say you think now it's not saying that

641
00:40:03,520 --> 00:40:06,040
Speaker 1: like sh I'm a book you except for you a

642
00:40:06,160 --> 00:40:09,840
Speaker 1: little disconnected, right, you can pick that good, But it

643
00:40:09,960 --> 00:40:12,799
Speaker 1: ain't nothing that I ain't been comfortable with the first

644
00:40:12,800 --> 00:40:16,759
Speaker 1: thing that comes with it's somebody else here, I probably would, yeah,

645
00:40:17,080 --> 00:40:21,560
Speaker 1: but like I think it will be no problem on

646
00:40:21,640 --> 00:40:27,600
Speaker 1: my girl. You see that nobody got to think the

647
00:40:27,640 --> 00:40:41,520
Speaker 1: same else here. Okay, yeah, I cannot wait to start

648
00:40:43,719 --> 00:40:55,920
Speaker 1: so bad don't work right right? So what do y'all

649
00:40:55,960 --> 00:41:00,320
Speaker 1: think we can all do to maintain our bond? You

650
00:41:00,400 --> 00:41:04,160
Speaker 1: could go on keeping you keep, you said, what mean

651
00:41:04,239 --> 00:41:08,840
Speaker 1: they came more with the chicken and talking. Yeah, I

652
00:41:08,880 --> 00:41:11,080
Speaker 1: don't take more intention at a time of like seeing

653
00:41:11,160 --> 00:41:14,239
Speaker 1: each other like yeah, even with the destence of ever back.

654
00:41:15,360 --> 00:41:17,520
Speaker 1: I'm just trying to be like do we do once

655
00:41:17,600 --> 00:41:22,440
Speaker 1: a year? Like how do we keep? If you're going right?

656
00:41:22,800 --> 00:41:27,000
Speaker 1: Him like a dino like something put you away? So

657
00:41:27,239 --> 00:41:30,880
Speaker 1: it's like me, I think that would mean just a

658
00:41:30,920 --> 00:41:33,879
Speaker 1: battle of like giving me a hand up or hands

659
00:41:33,880 --> 00:41:37,439
Speaker 1: times like a plan. Yeah. And then also like you said,

660
00:41:37,480 --> 00:41:39,640
Speaker 1: like you gotta be two ways, so like, well, I

661
00:41:39,719 --> 00:41:42,239
Speaker 1: think you know what one that one time we sit

662
00:41:42,320 --> 00:41:46,240
Speaker 1: onf you come here and the times those different places

663
00:41:46,239 --> 00:42:00,360
Speaker 1: because like gonna kid, even like a vape case, I

664
00:42:00,400 --> 00:42:05,960
Speaker 1: think it's like nowhere else like yeah, something like a

665
00:42:06,200 --> 00:42:12,520
Speaker 1: once a year old ba like trips for sure. A

666
00:42:12,719 --> 00:42:16,080
Speaker 1: year's came, should the other and then the other time between.

667
00:42:16,320 --> 00:42:19,680
Speaker 1: You might just calling me if it's one weekend, where

668
00:42:19,719 --> 00:42:24,040
Speaker 1: can be a holiday? Yeah, but this one I think

669
00:42:24,040 --> 00:42:27,239
Speaker 1: I'm gonna come back down for the holiday, especially it's

670
00:42:27,280 --> 00:42:28,880
Speaker 1: hot down her because it ain't gonna be hot New

671
00:42:29,440 --> 00:42:40,160
Speaker 1: be bad, gonna be lean your ugs there back in

672
00:42:40,239 --> 00:42:43,040
Speaker 1: the morning, but back, No, it's gonna be so happy.

673
00:42:43,120 --> 00:42:46,719
Speaker 1: Wa up to one. That's crazy. It be snow where

674
00:42:46,800 --> 00:42:50,080
Speaker 1: in New York? Like it's not her he should say

675
00:42:50,719 --> 00:42:55,600
Speaker 1: you back your day back before we should nearly snow.

676
00:42:55,840 --> 00:43:00,320
Speaker 1: We think snow these year. That's go crazy. Look you

677
00:43:00,400 --> 00:43:07,440
Speaker 1: have no snow days really no, no, no no, we

678
00:43:07,640 --> 00:43:10,680
Speaker 1: don't even have way hold on the city shut down.

679
00:43:12,040 --> 00:43:14,560
Speaker 1: But if you comb it's like would be being up

680
00:43:14,600 --> 00:43:19,600
Speaker 1: for flow. I don't want to drift like snow that yeah,

681
00:43:24,600 --> 00:43:29,480
Speaker 1: that's yeah, ben't go back for the last question is

682
00:43:29,800 --> 00:43:33,680
Speaker 1: what does our friendship mean to you? Oh? It's so sweet?

683
00:43:36,200 --> 00:43:40,520
Speaker 1: Whoever going first? And go first? I don't find I

684
00:43:40,680 --> 00:43:44,120
Speaker 1: had said right, I value all I value our friendsure,

685
00:43:44,120 --> 00:43:49,480
Speaker 1: because a whole and it's secret you know, entities whatever.

686
00:43:49,640 --> 00:43:51,600
Speaker 1: But it's like I feel like we all have my

687
00:43:51,680 --> 00:43:57,120
Speaker 1: own individual relationship with each other by wondering, Oh wow,

688
00:43:57,560 --> 00:44:02,759
Speaker 1: you're breaking it down really live, But I don't know

689
00:44:02,840 --> 00:44:04,600
Speaker 1: how to really go in. I feel like me you

690
00:44:04,760 --> 00:44:07,200
Speaker 1: we don't even see each other mot toalthy much. But

691
00:44:07,280 --> 00:44:09,640
Speaker 1: like I said, we're back together. It's like it's never

692
00:44:09,760 --> 00:44:12,279
Speaker 1: it's never change us to sign all sheet. I feel

693
00:44:12,320 --> 00:44:15,120
Speaker 1: like you know me will enough to know the core

694
00:44:15,320 --> 00:44:19,520
Speaker 1: black who I really am saying? I don't know. I

695
00:44:19,600 --> 00:44:22,160
Speaker 1: feel like we if we work more, we could get

696
00:44:22,239 --> 00:44:29,200
Speaker 1: that close like we used to be. Right. She just

697
00:44:29,239 --> 00:44:34,759
Speaker 1: said her name y'all that part out her high. Yeah,

698
00:44:36,200 --> 00:44:38,560
Speaker 1: we have a we have a really close friendship week

699
00:44:39,320 --> 00:44:43,560
Speaker 1: UM don't recently having been hanging like that. But no

700
00:44:43,719 --> 00:44:46,160
Speaker 1: matter what, we're gonna keep into. It's some type of way.

701
00:44:46,520 --> 00:44:48,759
Speaker 1: We have our ways or times when we hang into

702
00:44:49,160 --> 00:44:53,560
Speaker 1: seeing each other. But nothing changes. It's never different. It's

703
00:44:53,600 --> 00:44:55,600
Speaker 1: always the sign it's and it's strict. It's like a

704
00:44:55,760 --> 00:45:00,600
Speaker 1: friend little sister, like it's my little sister. I don't play,

705
00:45:01,560 --> 00:45:04,239
Speaker 1: I wrote to her, she wrote for me, but we

706
00:45:04,400 --> 00:45:06,839
Speaker 1: keep going nothing me on her it's my school fool.

707
00:45:08,360 --> 00:45:10,680
Speaker 1: We've been with me and her like the only ones

708
00:45:10,719 --> 00:45:14,680
Speaker 1: who are still had constant contact like even though in

709
00:45:14,800 --> 00:45:18,279
Speaker 1: college it was a little slightly decent because we were

710
00:45:18,360 --> 00:45:23,279
Speaker 1: different schools, but it was still a constant contact. Like yeah,

711
00:45:24,160 --> 00:45:26,200
Speaker 1: and we went to d t S to the c

712
00:45:26,360 --> 00:45:34,719
Speaker 1: State University. Yeah right now, baby, Yes, my life for

713
00:45:34,840 --> 00:45:38,680
Speaker 1: the worst bloods blue. But I really wish I could

714
00:45:38,680 --> 00:45:45,000
Speaker 1: go beg an experience being in the HBC media. I'm

715
00:45:45,000 --> 00:45:56,000
Speaker 1: gonna edit that part out, ye right now, child. They

716
00:45:56,120 --> 00:45:59,400
Speaker 1: want to make this so hard for me to addit, y'all. No,

717
00:45:59,680 --> 00:46:03,000
Speaker 1: people's fast at this. We hurt me and hurt her

718
00:46:03,040 --> 00:46:07,160
Speaker 1: and eye it's but we're cool. Um. We have our times,

719
00:46:07,160 --> 00:46:09,320
Speaker 1: like it was gonna time. Who's gonna go into business together?

720
00:46:09,640 --> 00:46:11,920
Speaker 1: Like yeah, because we are. It's like we're gonna get

721
00:46:11,960 --> 00:46:14,160
Speaker 1: their dragged, you know what I'm saying. We're trying to

722
00:46:14,239 --> 00:46:16,759
Speaker 1: make some head and all. It never fully went through.

723
00:46:16,800 --> 00:46:19,120
Speaker 1: But everything happens for a reason, you know what I'm saying.

724
00:46:19,280 --> 00:46:22,560
Speaker 1: But we're good. We don't talk them much likely, like

725
00:46:22,840 --> 00:46:24,920
Speaker 1: we don't talk a lot, but when we do we

726
00:46:25,080 --> 00:46:28,120
Speaker 1: still the same, Like we can talk about our personal

727
00:46:28,239 --> 00:46:31,120
Speaker 1: life for everything. He's no Jewish men, you know, don't

728
00:46:31,120 --> 00:46:34,600
Speaker 1: saying anything lay and it'll be a drawing on tea.

729
00:46:35,040 --> 00:46:37,759
Speaker 1: But I feel like I feel like you, I'm not

730
00:46:37,760 --> 00:46:43,600
Speaker 1: gonna get deep, always in deep because the universe a

731
00:46:43,640 --> 00:46:46,919
Speaker 1: lot of she changed and shifting with the new moon

732
00:46:47,080 --> 00:46:49,320
Speaker 1: phases and she going on, and I feel like this

733
00:46:49,480 --> 00:46:53,839
Speaker 1: is a part of it life there's coming. Who would

734
00:46:53,880 --> 00:46:57,280
Speaker 1: thought would I would make to gild a light talking

735
00:46:57,400 --> 00:46:59,800
Speaker 1: to each other at our friendship and trying to strengthen

736
00:46:59,840 --> 00:47:05,640
Speaker 1: that friendship. This really took the stopbox. No, it's good.

737
00:47:07,200 --> 00:47:12,040
Speaker 1: I'm gonna do a group like doing I'm gonna do

738
00:47:12,080 --> 00:47:15,000
Speaker 1: a group trying to take a third. Yeah. So I'm

739
00:47:15,200 --> 00:47:19,520
Speaker 1: like at this point, like we're all family, like we've

740
00:47:19,560 --> 00:47:25,400
Speaker 1: known each other so long and just it's like this

741
00:47:25,600 --> 00:47:27,960
Speaker 1: is my family because of the time we spend we're

742
00:47:28,040 --> 00:47:31,880
Speaker 1: younger and just the time we're spending there like reconnecting.

743
00:47:32,040 --> 00:47:34,120
Speaker 1: Then it's so good. Like we don't always I don't

744
00:47:34,160 --> 00:47:37,759
Speaker 1: get to see these two or three. I'm like all

745
00:47:37,840 --> 00:47:44,160
Speaker 1: the time. Yeah, it's always all live, like every time

746
00:47:44,400 --> 00:47:47,640
Speaker 1: like live things different and you just feel so good.

747
00:47:47,880 --> 00:47:51,880
Speaker 1: Like it's like when I'm at home and this is

748
00:47:51,920 --> 00:47:56,200
Speaker 1: just period, I'm just myself. Like I was looking at

749
00:47:56,239 --> 00:48:00,600
Speaker 1: I say my name, but I ain't like saw. It's

750
00:48:00,640 --> 00:48:05,239
Speaker 1: all um this yeah, and I'm really little. I could

751
00:48:05,239 --> 00:48:09,680
Speaker 1: be loud, get all whatever, just be myself and these

752
00:48:09,719 --> 00:48:12,120
Speaker 1: are the people that I do be like. I don't

753
00:48:12,160 --> 00:48:16,879
Speaker 1: gotta be faking out. So it's like it's my family. Yeah,

754
00:48:17,200 --> 00:48:20,239
Speaker 1: that's just it. Those people that I am like, I

755
00:48:20,400 --> 00:48:23,759
Speaker 1: am related to me. I don't even YEA can be

756
00:48:23,880 --> 00:48:27,239
Speaker 1: like these sensil family, you know white because even though

757
00:48:27,239 --> 00:48:30,000
Speaker 1: we don't see each ot, we still got a little

758
00:48:30,080 --> 00:48:33,400
Speaker 1: for one another. And when we see each of these listening,

759
00:48:33,680 --> 00:48:39,200
Speaker 1: you know, for me what this friendship means to me,

760
00:48:40,400 --> 00:48:44,200
Speaker 1: it's everything, like as a whole is everything. It's from

761
00:48:44,960 --> 00:48:48,919
Speaker 1: seeing being as um, seeing where I was, where I've been,

762
00:48:49,400 --> 00:48:51,960
Speaker 1: where I'm met, where I'm going. These are people I

763
00:48:52,000 --> 00:48:54,879
Speaker 1: can be just it's transparent. I don't even damn how

764
00:48:55,040 --> 00:48:57,920
Speaker 1: ugly it's up to this. I can be transparent and

765
00:48:58,600 --> 00:49:05,160
Speaker 1: you're not here as ready because it's still child and

766
00:49:05,480 --> 00:49:14,720
Speaker 1: I wanted one when if it's like tendency, but baby

767
00:49:14,760 --> 00:49:19,160
Speaker 1: girl is not here. So I feel like today um

768
00:49:19,320 --> 00:49:23,320
Speaker 1: the worst accountability and reach out a little more. So

769
00:49:23,520 --> 00:49:26,000
Speaker 1: it's like I got I don't seeing a thousand years

770
00:49:26,040 --> 00:49:29,279
Speaker 1: and realized it. It's like my girl, you know, what

771
00:49:29,360 --> 00:49:32,040
Speaker 1: I'm saying. So like even if it was a situation today,

772
00:49:32,080 --> 00:49:33,759
Speaker 1: if I want to just talk about anything, I know

773
00:49:34,239 --> 00:49:37,120
Speaker 1: I can drink your life. But I think the distance

774
00:49:37,480 --> 00:49:40,279
Speaker 1: can be used this excuse why if my word could

775
00:49:40,320 --> 00:49:47,160
Speaker 1: be guys, well, these three ladies, their families are my Like,

776
00:49:48,080 --> 00:49:50,319
Speaker 1: I learned so much from their family when it comes

777
00:49:50,360 --> 00:49:54,800
Speaker 1: to love, what family means with protection things. So we

778
00:49:54,920 --> 00:49:58,279
Speaker 1: go so leap did they? They ain't got no choice

779
00:49:58,320 --> 00:50:00,400
Speaker 1: of it to be here. You were go hell, But

780
00:50:00,719 --> 00:50:02,480
Speaker 1: you know you're on the same end with me with

781
00:50:02,719 --> 00:50:08,400
Speaker 1: how do their family means too? So it's like, especially

782
00:50:08,480 --> 00:50:11,960
Speaker 1: just some right here ship, I've sometimes I go on

783
00:50:12,040 --> 00:50:14,359
Speaker 1: to affect all that man, you put so much on her,

784
00:50:14,760 --> 00:50:18,320
Speaker 1: but she's been my strength and so many storms. Like

785
00:50:18,400 --> 00:50:20,360
Speaker 1: I was just talking to somebody out there, like my

786
00:50:20,520 --> 00:50:23,440
Speaker 1: food is got ah one and one while they's school.

787
00:50:23,680 --> 00:50:26,200
Speaker 1: Who took care of you right here? You know what

788
00:50:26,280 --> 00:50:28,840
Speaker 1: I'm saying, Like I've been like forget you're good, you

789
00:50:28,920 --> 00:50:31,719
Speaker 1: get your medicine. So it's it's been there while you

790
00:50:32,320 --> 00:50:37,359
Speaker 1: in in here with your families, when your mom was here, girl,

791
00:50:37,640 --> 00:50:40,200
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, And still to this day

792
00:50:40,280 --> 00:50:42,920
Speaker 1: your mom me and did like I probably go back. Hey,

793
00:50:43,520 --> 00:50:57,560
Speaker 1: come yere, y'all got eat right everything. It's motivation inspiration,

794
00:50:57,719 --> 00:51:01,520
Speaker 1: like to like show them like you remember that little girl?

795
00:51:02,040 --> 00:51:07,080
Speaker 1: You see her? Now what mom over here tired? She

796
00:51:07,200 --> 00:51:15,360
Speaker 1: over her yard? Like it's my cue. Um, this Freenshire

797
00:51:15,400 --> 00:51:17,440
Speaker 1: made a lot to me. It feels so good to

798
00:51:17,520 --> 00:51:19,920
Speaker 1: me to be like I didn't this been my friend

799
00:51:20,040 --> 00:51:22,680
Speaker 1: for this long and I didn't this been my friends

800
00:51:22,680 --> 00:51:26,520
Speaker 1: since I was fourteen years Like it feels great to

801
00:51:26,640 --> 00:51:29,200
Speaker 1: be like you've had a less of relationships. I think

802
00:51:29,239 --> 00:51:31,560
Speaker 1: you'd helps you see the value in yourself to be

803
00:51:31,760 --> 00:51:34,239
Speaker 1: like I can maintien you the friends shoot with these moms,

804
00:51:34,640 --> 00:51:38,240
Speaker 1: because when I look at people who like have jumped

805
00:51:38,320 --> 00:51:41,200
Speaker 1: from so many friends and don't have a friend that's

806
00:51:41,239 --> 00:51:43,600
Speaker 1: been a friend over five years, I'm like, this a

807
00:51:44,160 --> 00:51:47,560
Speaker 1: strange to me. How it makes me be like dying.

808
00:51:47,680 --> 00:51:50,360
Speaker 1: It may not really chose a great group of friends

809
00:51:50,480 --> 00:51:54,920
Speaker 1: because we can maintaining something for twenty years and um,

810
00:51:56,360 --> 00:51:58,480
Speaker 1: and so this is so great And I love to

811
00:51:58,760 --> 00:52:10,880
Speaker 1: like brag about this and say that, yeah, I feel

812
00:52:11,000 --> 00:52:14,279
Speaker 1: great to have people in your life and me make

813
00:52:14,360 --> 00:52:17,720
Speaker 1: you be like dying, like see yourself as a good person.

814
00:52:17,800 --> 00:52:20,040
Speaker 1: Because you like, if I wasn't a good person, I

815
00:52:20,160 --> 00:52:25,680
Speaker 1: couldn't have mind tying keeping people around me. That's all

816
00:52:25,719 --> 00:52:28,919
Speaker 1: a part of the time think about people will feel

817
00:52:28,920 --> 00:52:46,200
Speaker 1: off for reasons. Yeah, I'm gonna start saying the podcast

818
00:52:46,320 --> 00:52:48,000
Speaker 1: like as quiet has colt me, I know where I

819
00:52:48,040 --> 00:52:52,759
Speaker 1: got it from. I think for me, with this group

820
00:52:52,800 --> 00:52:54,840
Speaker 1: of friends of me, I think that y'all to definitely

821
00:52:54,880 --> 00:52:59,360
Speaker 1: play a very important part in my upbringing. Um, Like

822
00:52:59,440 --> 00:53:00,880
Speaker 1: I said, I don't don't think that I would be

823
00:53:00,960 --> 00:53:04,520
Speaker 1: who I am today if it wasn't for you guys, families.

824
00:53:04,600 --> 00:53:06,080
Speaker 1: I feel like I'm about to get a motion up.

825
00:53:06,680 --> 00:53:12,200
Speaker 1: Yeah I'm not gonna cry. It's when you get older

826
00:53:12,239 --> 00:53:13,840
Speaker 1: and like you think about a lot of things that

827
00:53:13,920 --> 00:53:16,160
Speaker 1: you've been through and it's like you really wouldn't have

828
00:53:16,280 --> 00:53:17,640
Speaker 1: to be who you are if it wasn't for the

829
00:53:17,680 --> 00:53:19,960
Speaker 1: people that was with you. And I feel like it's

830
00:53:20,000 --> 00:53:22,360
Speaker 1: like older, you know, I tried to have like I mean,

831
00:53:22,400 --> 00:53:24,360
Speaker 1: I always had so many friends, but I think that

832
00:53:24,400 --> 00:53:26,279
Speaker 1: a lot of times, a lot of friendships don't work out.

833
00:53:26,320 --> 00:53:28,680
Speaker 1: It's because we try to feel that boord at what

834
00:53:28,760 --> 00:53:30,800
Speaker 1: we used to have. And I think that when I

835
00:53:30,960 --> 00:53:32,920
Speaker 1: used to have with y'all. I never had it with

836
00:53:33,000 --> 00:53:35,640
Speaker 1: anybody else because we had it in such a young age.

837
00:53:35,760 --> 00:53:38,680
Speaker 1: So I think I can't believe I never cry on

838
00:53:38,719 --> 00:53:45,480
Speaker 1: the podcast, but I can't say that I'm very appreciative.

839
00:53:45,600 --> 00:53:48,120
Speaker 1: I feel like I'm calling y'all for anything. I like

840
00:53:48,239 --> 00:53:50,560
Speaker 1: I could not have asked for a better set of friends,

841
00:53:50,600 --> 00:53:53,120
Speaker 1: and I feel like we all just been through so much,

842
00:53:53,239 --> 00:53:56,680
Speaker 1: Like everybody, Mom played a major part in my upbringing.

843
00:53:56,760 --> 00:54:00,239
Speaker 1: Song Girl, I am so appreciative all of y'all. I

844
00:54:00,320 --> 00:54:03,000
Speaker 1: am so thankful for all y'all. And once I make

845
00:54:03,080 --> 00:54:11,440
Speaker 1: it girl, Not because I think it's important to get

846
00:54:11,480 --> 00:54:13,680
Speaker 1: people their flowers, because you know, life is very hard

847
00:54:13,800 --> 00:54:16,080
Speaker 1: and we all been through so much. Ship. You know,

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Speaker 1: everybody's having children and everybody have lives. So I think

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Speaker 1: for me, you know, so, I just think that what

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Speaker 1: this means to me is for us to just continue

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Speaker 1: to grow our friendship and to continue to just be

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Speaker 1: what we're asking each other, because life is short and

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Speaker 1: I don't ever want to have to go a day

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Speaker 1: with thinking, damn, what if I would have made that

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Speaker 1: phone call, or what if I would have linked up

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Speaker 1: with song and so or this and that. So I

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Speaker 1: hope that this episode encourage everyone that's listening to reach

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Speaker 1: out to those who really matter to them because life's

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Speaker 1: really short and you just never know what people are

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Speaker 1: going through and can change. Yeah, just be wrong and

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Speaker 1: feel unfeeltering. Well, just listen to your podcasts and different

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Speaker 1: things that tastes like girls was like they don't even

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Speaker 1: realize just the answering on the phone call here and number,

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Speaker 1: or just anything of positively can change. Word the dark

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Speaker 1: spot that was more prettier than the light that I

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Speaker 1: can walk to and then's deepest. That's why I pride

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Speaker 1: myself and my friends. I've been friend my friends this

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Speaker 1: third time. When I see people, I'm like, damn, you

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Speaker 1: were just hanging with some songst of the pay six

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Speaker 1: months now it's like you flip flopping. It's like I

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Speaker 1: feel like and I think like, I don't. I feel

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Speaker 1: like we got a good platform for us. For your

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Speaker 1: friendship is they may not say it, but people look

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Speaker 1: at their like those are friends. That's what a friendship

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Speaker 1: is about, being very solid versus just the wouldn't look

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Speaker 1: good like right. Well, I'm super excited about this episode.

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Speaker 1: I think we were thirty six episodes in This is

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Speaker 1: the first time I cried, so but anything. If you

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Speaker 1: have any questions, concerns, or comments or anything, please email

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Speaker 1: me at hello at the Professional Homeguard dot com. Email

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Speaker 1: me your friendship story so we can share, and until

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Speaker 1: next time, guys later. Oh wait, I want to do

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