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Speaker 1: What's up? What's up this lip service? I'm Angela ye,

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Speaker 1: I'm g g McGuire, I'm Stephanie Santiago, I'm Luria Yea.

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Speaker 1: Thanks for having me again, first of all ge Her,

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Speaker 1: but we just want to thank you again for doing

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Speaker 1: our live show in Chicago the best. How many times

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Speaker 1: that I say that on the show, like three fours

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Speaker 1: are like the Detroit was good, Atlanta was still, but Chicago,

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Speaker 1: Chicago was the Definitely, It's a lot of crowd participation. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: they asked, well, yeah, everyone wasn't good. Come in, come in.

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Speaker 1: She made me nervous on the step. We were like

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Speaker 1: she was like she got up, like what what do

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Speaker 1: you say? There's some girl trying to argue with you

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Speaker 1: out in the audience about what she came from rov

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Speaker 1: when she came from the back, like she just came

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Speaker 1: to me like wait, she was like, but the way

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Speaker 1: up this was like listen, I don't know what I'm

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Speaker 1: not representing. It was a good time. It was a

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Speaker 1: good one. So we do appreciate you. I do want

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Speaker 1: to say thank you for us for that. And then

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Speaker 1: you have the new album PTSD, and it's interesting because

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Speaker 1: you really are opening up about things that most people

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Speaker 1: might not want to talk about, just everything that you've

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Speaker 1: been through and realizing that you even have PTSD. Yeah, yeah, um.

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Speaker 1: I think it was important for me to do that because,

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Speaker 1: like you said, a lot of people who are similar,

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Speaker 1: like going through the same stuff that I'm going through,

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Speaker 1: kind of afraid to embrace their vulnerability, you know, but

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Speaker 1: we all human. So I feel like that's what just

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Speaker 1: makes me stronger. Like if I hadn't been through all

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Speaker 1: the stuff that I've been through, I wouldn't be the

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Speaker 1: man I am today. So we all my scars proudly man.

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Speaker 1: So it was important for me to embrace that therapy

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Speaker 1: and everything. Clinically was diagnosed with post man stress disorder. Wow.

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Speaker 1: So when did you start realizing, like, damn, there's some

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Speaker 1: truth to this because at first, like a resistant Yeah,

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Speaker 1: because we norm lies like so much of the stuff

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Speaker 1: the day to day, and we don't look at it

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Speaker 1: like a sickness. You know. I was in a room

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Speaker 1: one time when somebody acts like it was probably I

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Speaker 1: went to a juvenile facility. Somebody acts probably like me

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Speaker 1: and fifty other young, young, young young guys like myself.

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Speaker 1: He's like, raise your hand if you feel like you're

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Speaker 1: a victim, or you ever been victim as or something

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Speaker 1: like that, And nobody raised their hand. And then uh,

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Speaker 1: she's like, raise your hand if you ever experienced police brutality,

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Speaker 1: you haven't been shot, you ever seen somebody get murdered?

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Speaker 1: And everybody raised their hand in the room. I raised

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Speaker 1: my hand, you know what I'm saying, So we normalize,

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Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, this mental illness in such

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Speaker 1: a way. I've seen my first murder and I was

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Speaker 1: nine years old. I got shot when I was sixteen

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Speaker 1: years old, you know what I'm saying. So and not

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Speaker 1: even that, they don't even have to do with valance.

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Speaker 1: People experienced their own level of trauma in so many ways,

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Speaker 1: like women experienced trauma, you know what I'm saying, in

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Speaker 1: certain ways. They don't have nothing to do with valence

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Speaker 1: and me and just you know, when when life get

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Speaker 1: the best of you, you you know, that's a form of trauma,

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Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. But I experienced that on

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Speaker 1: so many different levels and it never broke me. I've

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Speaker 1: talk about it. And even in a relationship, right, we

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Speaker 1: have to think that for men being in relationships, the

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Speaker 1: kind of issues that they bring, as far as what

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Speaker 1: they've seeing, how you deal with women, and even trusting

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Speaker 1: I'm sure y'all and herd. Men say that they may

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Speaker 1: this way because I've been saying that's a former traumpa's

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Speaker 1: carrying baggage. Yeah. So, and I embraced you know, stuff

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Speaker 1: I'm I ain't really a shame or shot to talk

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Speaker 1: what I'm saying. Well, Talan is here today, hey girl,

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Speaker 1: and people look at you. You guys are the cutest couple.

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Speaker 1: Thank you, thank you. You know so, And that was

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Speaker 1: so like things are going well and y'all have overcome

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Speaker 1: I think it's important to just you know, I always

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Speaker 1: I think I just try to like do right by

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Speaker 1: like as soon as we got into any type of situation,

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Speaker 1: So I handle her a certain way, you know, I

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Speaker 1: and not how I felt about you know what everybody

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Speaker 1: else thought. I really want to ask us what it

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Speaker 1: we don't. I don't really, I don't have that like

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Speaker 1: I wouldn't I wouldn't say insecurity, but I'm confident in

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Speaker 1: If somebody say, oh, you a whole, you're gonna you

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Speaker 1: that wasn't true, That wasn't true, And definitely that was

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Speaker 1: just something that would be completely honest. I've been around

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Speaker 1: Tina like multiple times before I ever said a word

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Speaker 1: And even with my situation early on with you know

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Speaker 1: there's a lot of ships coming to professional said in

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Speaker 1: the past, I'm wondering how it goes now, Like are

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Speaker 1: you okay with sleeping naked? Now? And yeah, you know

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Speaker 1: Every time I look over there, I just see something

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Speaker 1: the news, and you weigh in on it. So two sex,

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Speaker 1: and this story was on men's health, and they're talking

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Speaker 1: So according to this person, yeah, like a mint, peppermin

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Speaker 1: Like having a peppermint and then having oral sex with

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Speaker 1: Stephanie has said she has a trick that she does.

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Speaker 1: I have a strange addiction to brushing my teeth. I

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Speaker 1: A man can't do that for a woman. Get my hand,

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Speaker 1: if i'd be nice and tingly still like no, no, no,

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Speaker 1: and yes it's tingly. You want get infection? No, you

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Speaker 1: and then it's like your mouth is just infect you. God, No,

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Speaker 1: I mean I've tried it. I've had a guy eat

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Speaker 1: Now I would have meant because I think there's sugar

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Speaker 1: I know that. But she had that part stop bitching

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Speaker 1: that you have. Have you ever food or anything? No,

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Speaker 1: I just give I just experiment with myself. I don't

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Speaker 1: really be having props or nothing like that, trying trash

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Speaker 1: out the gift that God used. All the gifts God

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Speaker 1: get props. Did you have a learning stuff from porn?

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Speaker 1: Like did you ever watch a point and be like

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Speaker 1: let me learn? No? No, I used to watch polhen

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Speaker 1: I was a kid. Though I ain't gonna lie watch

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Speaker 1: So you don't watch porn anymore? Oh no, I don't.

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Speaker 1: To be honest, I don't be having enough time to

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Speaker 1: do ship like that. Watch no porn. I don't already

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Speaker 1: there's like little things. It got to be like playful.

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Speaker 1: you better than me? Never? I've never seen a better trouble?

423
00:24:48,119 --> 00:24:50,320
Speaker 1: What about? What about if this dick is not big,

424
00:24:50,359 --> 00:24:53,320
Speaker 1: but he says, is this the biggest dick you've ever had?

425
00:24:54,400 --> 00:24:59,240
Speaker 1: If he has a small I don't know, he's not.

426
00:24:59,400 --> 00:25:01,640
Speaker 1: He's got just they think he's not gonna just be like,

427
00:25:01,720 --> 00:25:05,280
Speaker 1: oh no, but niggers be having extra medium dicks and

428
00:25:05,320 --> 00:25:09,600
Speaker 1: confused them as being big and then so bad. But

429
00:25:09,640 --> 00:25:16,320
Speaker 1: I don't know, just taking his definitely something about checking

430
00:25:16,480 --> 00:25:24,720
Speaker 1: checking lip service every week, not me talking running my

431
00:25:24,760 --> 00:25:30,199
Speaker 1: mouth on heah, And I just felt like to be

432
00:25:30,280 --> 00:25:32,679
Speaker 1: listening on the loud. Yeah, you know what's I be

433
00:25:32,760 --> 00:25:36,240
Speaker 1: thinking that they don't be listening. Now. You know what's

434
00:25:36,240 --> 00:25:38,800
Speaker 1: crazy is when when you say something I know this happened,

435
00:25:39,000 --> 00:25:40,520
Speaker 1: This had to happen to you and you. It probably

436
00:25:40,560 --> 00:25:43,840
Speaker 1: happened you because you are who you are. But listen,

437
00:25:43,960 --> 00:25:45,760
Speaker 1: I've had a guy hitting like, yeah, I heard you

438
00:25:45,840 --> 00:25:48,359
Speaker 1: talking about me on lip service. It's cool though, And

439
00:25:48,600 --> 00:25:54,000
Speaker 1: I wasn't even talking about you another Gonta hype. I

440
00:25:54,000 --> 00:26:00,240
Speaker 1: can't believe you even thought I would be shot talking

441
00:26:00,280 --> 00:26:14,040
Speaker 1: about vain exactly like bring it up now. But I

442
00:26:14,080 --> 00:26:16,200
Speaker 1: definitely had a guy pressed me and about how his

443
00:26:16,280 --> 00:26:19,600
Speaker 1: sex game was, and like I purposely wouldn't tell him

444
00:26:19,920 --> 00:26:22,960
Speaker 1: because he was so thirsty to know. He wanted to

445
00:26:23,040 --> 00:26:25,199
Speaker 1: know me, like just from me, like you know, what

446
00:26:25,240 --> 00:26:26,719
Speaker 1: did you think? What did you think? And I'm like,

447
00:26:27,000 --> 00:26:29,280
Speaker 1: why are you to me? That's crazy? If you ask

448
00:26:29,359 --> 00:26:32,479
Speaker 1: it sufficient, if you keep asking to me now, you're

449
00:26:32,480 --> 00:26:34,320
Speaker 1: gonna make me think like maybe the ship was whack

450
00:26:34,359 --> 00:26:35,840
Speaker 1: because now he's you know what I'm saying, why are

451
00:26:35,840 --> 00:26:38,400
Speaker 1: you so um? What's the word I'm looking for? I'm

452
00:26:38,440 --> 00:26:43,080
Speaker 1: sure of yourself right to me, I don't know. That's well,

453
00:26:43,280 --> 00:26:46,480
Speaker 1: that's weird right now. I want to ask everybody in

454
00:26:46,480 --> 00:26:48,439
Speaker 1: the room this, Have you ever dated somebody that doesn't

455
00:26:48,440 --> 00:26:52,120
Speaker 1: have friends, like you're the only person that they ever

456
00:26:52,280 --> 00:26:56,000
Speaker 1: hang out with. And it gets to be like a lot. Well,

457
00:26:56,040 --> 00:26:59,840
Speaker 1: I've dated somebody that had friends, but after they got

458
00:27:00,119 --> 00:27:02,920
Speaker 1: me they had no friends. Yes, well that happened, that's

459
00:27:03,080 --> 00:27:06,320
Speaker 1: that's what. Then everybody hates you and that because I

460
00:27:06,359 --> 00:27:09,720
Speaker 1: don't like their friends, so they gotta go. But no,

461
00:27:09,800 --> 00:27:12,359
Speaker 1: first he had friends. I don't know. I did this

462
00:27:12,359 --> 00:27:16,080
Speaker 1: guy that had no friends, and it was just hard.

463
00:27:17,200 --> 00:27:19,359
Speaker 1: I didn't feel sorry for him because it's like he

464
00:27:19,440 --> 00:27:21,440
Speaker 1: was around people, but he didn't really have like friends

465
00:27:21,920 --> 00:27:26,160
Speaker 1: all right now, now that I know who you're talking about,

466
00:27:26,640 --> 00:27:29,280
Speaker 1: Like this is different though, but it is hard to

467
00:27:29,359 --> 00:27:32,760
Speaker 1: date somebody that like doesn't have anybody like you can't

468
00:27:32,760 --> 00:27:34,760
Speaker 1: be like, alright, I'm gonna bring my girls, you bring

469
00:27:34,760 --> 00:27:36,879
Speaker 1: your boys, were all gonna hang out. It's really like

470
00:27:37,000 --> 00:27:39,600
Speaker 1: if wenning out, if he has a life, Yeah, he

471
00:27:39,600 --> 00:27:41,000
Speaker 1: has a life. He just didn't have you get what

472
00:27:41,040 --> 00:27:50,199
Speaker 1: I'm saying. He had me, him and his mom and stuff.

473
00:27:50,400 --> 00:27:54,639
Speaker 1: We had a grand old time the club. I hope

474
00:27:54,640 --> 00:27:59,240
Speaker 1: his mom and his only best friends. He's a pathetic

475
00:27:59,240 --> 00:28:01,960
Speaker 1: guys nik out like we're talking about right now, you know,

476
00:28:02,440 --> 00:28:04,520
Speaker 1: but he wasn't. He just wasn't like you know how

477
00:28:04,560 --> 00:28:07,040
Speaker 1: guys will be trusting people. I know, I know I

478
00:28:07,080 --> 00:28:08,880
Speaker 1: got a couple of homies who like that, like real

479
00:28:08,960 --> 00:28:13,040
Speaker 1: introverse that just stay today's selfie films right, Like they don't.

480
00:28:13,119 --> 00:28:15,720
Speaker 1: They ain't never been on vacation. Only time you catch

481
00:28:15,760 --> 00:28:17,600
Speaker 1: them around like a bunch of people was like a

482
00:28:17,640 --> 00:28:20,359
Speaker 1: real occasion days maybe and they just ended up in

483
00:28:20,400 --> 00:28:22,840
Speaker 1: the room. But that's my favorite. I can't stand when

484
00:28:22,880 --> 00:28:26,240
Speaker 1: I'm dating a guy and he always got dudes around him.

485
00:28:26,520 --> 00:28:29,199
Speaker 1: It's like a million of all right, this is a

486
00:28:29,200 --> 00:28:35,720
Speaker 1: big another house to go to, my friends around it. Yeah,

487
00:28:35,119 --> 00:28:37,640
Speaker 1: she said, I hated a guy before that. I used

488
00:28:37,640 --> 00:28:39,080
Speaker 1: to have to tell him, like leave your friend's home.

489
00:28:40,000 --> 00:28:42,800
Speaker 1: I don't do a great job with balancing. Don't don't

490
00:28:42,800 --> 00:28:45,160
Speaker 1: bring your friends. You can't just always be out with you.

491
00:28:45,240 --> 00:28:48,640
Speaker 1: Look at my man comes to my house because because

492
00:28:48,680 --> 00:28:50,360
Speaker 1: sometimes you want alone time and it's like we go

493
00:28:50,400 --> 00:28:53,880
Speaker 1: to you all got to take into account. It was

494
00:28:53,920 --> 00:28:55,760
Speaker 1: a real I spent more than half of my life

495
00:28:55,800 --> 00:28:57,760
Speaker 1: well I never had a girlfriend, I never had a

496
00:28:57,800 --> 00:28:59,800
Speaker 1: significant of all my here was my friends. I spent

497
00:29:00,520 --> 00:29:03,000
Speaker 1: outside on the block, Thanksgiving outside on the block, my

498
00:29:03,080 --> 00:29:05,440
Speaker 1: birthdays outside with my friends. And then became my brother.

499
00:29:05,560 --> 00:29:09,760
Speaker 1: So it's like we we kind of that's one what

500
00:29:09,800 --> 00:29:13,320
Speaker 1: I'm saying. So it's like, that's that's that, that's my

501
00:29:13,600 --> 00:29:17,000
Speaker 1: excuse for what I gotta break up. Yeah, you gotta

502
00:29:17,040 --> 00:29:19,960
Speaker 1: break upart never really hit no no girl. My my son.

503
00:29:20,040 --> 00:29:21,800
Speaker 1: Mom was the first girl I've ever been with, and

504
00:29:21,840 --> 00:29:23,720
Speaker 1: now this is my second relationship. You know what I'm saying,

505
00:29:23,720 --> 00:29:26,080
Speaker 1: and I'm playing on this being my very last relationship.

506
00:29:26,080 --> 00:29:28,719
Speaker 1: I want to be with her forever, so you know,

507
00:29:29,920 --> 00:29:31,520
Speaker 1: I know what I'll be doing. I know what I want,

508
00:29:31,560 --> 00:29:33,400
Speaker 1: is what I'm saying. So I don't meet new friends.

509
00:29:33,440 --> 00:29:35,600
Speaker 1: All my friends that be around really been my friends

510
00:29:35,640 --> 00:29:38,239
Speaker 1: since I was eight nine years old, so they here

511
00:29:38,320 --> 00:29:40,160
Speaker 1: to stay so ill even when I do kick him

512
00:29:40,200 --> 00:29:41,640
Speaker 1: to the curb, I know they here to stay. So

513
00:29:42,200 --> 00:29:45,320
Speaker 1: but you know understand, like he's got a girl, so

514
00:29:45,400 --> 00:29:47,800
Speaker 1: we also want to make you know what To be honest,

515
00:29:49,000 --> 00:29:50,680
Speaker 1: I made a lot of my friends go out and

516
00:29:50,680 --> 00:29:59,560
Speaker 1: get girlfriends though, just because they see how the ho

517
00:30:00,080 --> 00:30:02,000
Speaker 1: is moving, like they knew I never moved that way.

518
00:30:02,000 --> 00:30:03,240
Speaker 1: So it's like, all right, if he could do it,

519
00:30:03,280 --> 00:30:10,680
Speaker 1: I could do it too. And then but then how

520
00:30:10,800 --> 00:30:12,800
Speaker 1: is it for you when you turn around and you

521
00:30:12,880 --> 00:30:14,959
Speaker 1: have to be with not have to but you got

522
00:30:15,040 --> 00:30:17,360
Speaker 1: to be with her friends and their boyfriends. Like I

523
00:30:17,400 --> 00:30:20,520
Speaker 1: see y'all went on vacation with future. It was cool. Yeah,

524
00:30:20,560 --> 00:30:24,040
Speaker 1: it was cool. Um, you know, I'm I'm I'm always

525
00:30:24,600 --> 00:30:27,200
Speaker 1: be myself, So it's like I don't really force relationships

526
00:30:27,200 --> 00:30:28,840
Speaker 1: and nothing like that, you know what I'm saying. I would,

527
00:30:29,120 --> 00:30:32,040
Speaker 1: of course, I'm all. I'm able to like interact with people,

528
00:30:32,040 --> 00:30:34,520
Speaker 1: but I always just do my own thing and everything

529
00:30:34,600 --> 00:30:36,160
Speaker 1: else just you know what I'm saying, build from there.

530
00:30:36,200 --> 00:30:37,920
Speaker 1: So it's easy for me to connect with like her

531
00:30:37,960 --> 00:30:41,080
Speaker 1: friends and their boyfriends because ultimately I'm here with you.

532
00:30:41,120 --> 00:30:43,200
Speaker 1: I'm not over something my boundaries. I ain't gonna say

533
00:30:43,240 --> 00:30:45,040
Speaker 1: too much everything like that, you know what I'm saying,

534
00:30:45,080 --> 00:30:47,840
Speaker 1: because this is your this is your occasion. You know

535
00:30:47,840 --> 00:30:49,720
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. So I think it'd be cool. I

536
00:30:49,720 --> 00:30:51,520
Speaker 1: don't feel like out of place and nothing like that

537
00:30:51,560 --> 00:30:54,080
Speaker 1: when I do it. What she does she have like

538
00:30:54,160 --> 00:30:56,840
Speaker 1: any of your friends phone numbers in case something happen,

539
00:30:56,920 --> 00:31:02,800
Speaker 1: everybody phone she got. She got all my friends phone Like,

540
00:31:03,080 --> 00:31:07,560
Speaker 1: he's not answering to see what she don't do that.

541
00:31:07,760 --> 00:31:13,360
Speaker 1: But because some people are funny about that, you know,

542
00:31:13,480 --> 00:31:15,240
Speaker 1: some people are like I don't want you to have,

543
00:31:15,800 --> 00:31:17,520
Speaker 1: you know, my boys phone. I don't want none of

544
00:31:17,560 --> 00:31:21,240
Speaker 1: my boys. They it's like they embrace us, so I

545
00:31:21,280 --> 00:31:23,360
Speaker 1: can't even do nothing. They're calling us to us on

546
00:31:23,400 --> 00:31:26,760
Speaker 1: their own. They d M and when she replosed stuff

547
00:31:26,880 --> 00:31:29,080
Speaker 1: laughing and she's like, so she built her own relationships

548
00:31:29,120 --> 00:31:33,120
Speaker 1: with my homies. J what if one of your boys

549
00:31:33,280 --> 00:31:35,280
Speaker 1: that you knew wasn't ship wanted to hook up at

550
00:31:35,280 --> 00:31:39,880
Speaker 1: one of her friends and is a good girl like you,

551
00:31:41,640 --> 00:31:44,280
Speaker 1: I'll see my face. Man, I'm vouched for my nigger. Man,

552
00:31:47,200 --> 00:31:51,240
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorrow sor and at least

553
00:31:51,320 --> 00:31:53,600
Speaker 1: let him know, like dog, don't do her? Yeah, yeah, yeah,

554
00:31:53,640 --> 00:31:58,680
Speaker 1: don't make me look bad at least at least because

555
00:31:58,720 --> 00:32:01,920
Speaker 1: I'm gonna give you an opportunity. Don't because this made

556
00:32:01,920 --> 00:32:04,680
Speaker 1: me the girl that change, you know, don't. Yeah, you

557
00:32:04,720 --> 00:32:06,640
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. I don't want to be the

558
00:32:06,640 --> 00:32:08,440
Speaker 1: one because I gotta be around. And I'm like, no,

559
00:32:08,640 --> 00:32:12,480
Speaker 1: sus he was a good name. Do tell them. Don't

560
00:32:12,480 --> 00:32:16,720
Speaker 1: embarrass man for sure? Now do you send flowers and

561
00:32:16,720 --> 00:32:19,479
Speaker 1: do all of that cute stuff? Still, I try as

562
00:32:19,560 --> 00:32:22,360
Speaker 1: much as I can. Yeah, I always like she like flowers,

563
00:32:22,360 --> 00:32:24,360
Speaker 1: so I'll be just you know, we get leave out

564
00:32:24,400 --> 00:32:27,840
Speaker 1: the restaurant. I got a flowers off the man that's

565
00:32:27,840 --> 00:32:30,800
Speaker 1: in front of the restaurant. Stuff. We lead a club.

566
00:32:30,840 --> 00:32:36,200
Speaker 1: I gotta bat all of his flowers. Like what y'all

567
00:32:36,200 --> 00:32:40,560
Speaker 1: think about that? Like guys buying you flowers? Is that important? Um?

568
00:32:40,600 --> 00:32:43,400
Speaker 1: I used to really love getting flowers, but now I'm allergic.

569
00:32:43,520 --> 00:32:46,200
Speaker 1: So no, why did you become allergic to flower? I

570
00:32:46,240 --> 00:32:49,720
Speaker 1: became like four years ago. I became allergic. If you

571
00:32:49,720 --> 00:32:51,000
Speaker 1: want to try to kill you, he should send you

572
00:32:51,000 --> 00:32:54,200
Speaker 1: something exactly you want me to die me some flowers.

573
00:32:54,560 --> 00:32:57,480
Speaker 1: I like flowers. I got some nice flowers. Sometimes they

574
00:32:57,480 --> 00:33:01,200
Speaker 1: make me itchy, kind of learned, like a small something

575
00:33:01,320 --> 00:33:13,320
Speaker 1: like that small just when flowers the boys I hate

576
00:33:13,360 --> 00:33:17,719
Speaker 1: edible arrangements. I love them. They have pineapples fresh and

577
00:33:17,760 --> 00:33:19,520
Speaker 1: it's not that freshing to be too much because like

578
00:33:19,600 --> 00:33:24,880
Speaker 1: all you gotta but people will send it to your

579
00:33:24,880 --> 00:33:31,040
Speaker 1: house and you're like, no, I do think. When I

580
00:33:31,080 --> 00:33:34,080
Speaker 1: was younger, I didn't like flowers because it reminded me

581
00:33:34,120 --> 00:33:37,080
Speaker 1: of death because I had so many funerals and stuff

582
00:33:37,080 --> 00:33:39,479
Speaker 1: when I was growing up younger, death in my family

583
00:33:39,480 --> 00:33:42,960
Speaker 1: and stuff. And then, um, I think out of nowhere.

584
00:33:43,040 --> 00:33:44,720
Speaker 1: One day, I was like, I think I'm supposed to

585
00:33:44,760 --> 00:33:48,840
Speaker 1: like flowers, and I got mad because, um, my boyfriend

586
00:33:49,000 --> 00:33:51,720
Speaker 1: at the time he always bought me nice things, but

587
00:33:51,800 --> 00:33:54,280
Speaker 1: he never bought me flowers, and I knew like he

588
00:33:54,320 --> 00:33:58,240
Speaker 1: would buy like in his older relationships. He would get

589
00:33:58,400 --> 00:34:00,480
Speaker 1: like he used to get flowers for the bitches and

590
00:34:00,520 --> 00:34:02,600
Speaker 1: ship like that. And like when I said something to

591
00:34:02,680 --> 00:34:03,880
Speaker 1: him about it, he was like, I thought you didn't

592
00:34:03,920 --> 00:34:05,680
Speaker 1: like flowers. I thought you just like I got you

593
00:34:05,720 --> 00:34:07,440
Speaker 1: a bag and this and that. But I do think

594
00:34:07,440 --> 00:34:10,879
Speaker 1: like you said this small jest. I didn't know that either, though.

595
00:34:10,920 --> 00:34:13,880
Speaker 1: She really taught me that, yeah, like you love back.

596
00:34:15,239 --> 00:34:17,160
Speaker 1: I'm thinking I'm doing something because I didn't ran the

597
00:34:17,400 --> 00:34:23,359
Speaker 1: fast stores. And one day and then when I would

598
00:34:23,400 --> 00:34:25,040
Speaker 1: be there, and there was time that I didn't like

599
00:34:25,080 --> 00:34:27,640
Speaker 1: flowers because I felt like flowers died. Why are you

600
00:34:27,680 --> 00:34:29,680
Speaker 1: buying me flowers? But I would I like to keep

601
00:34:29,680 --> 00:34:31,960
Speaker 1: fresh flowers in my house, so I would buy myself flowers.

602
00:34:32,000 --> 00:34:33,799
Speaker 1: And I'm like, you, ye bitch, why don't want him

603
00:34:33,800 --> 00:34:39,480
Speaker 1: to buy you flowers? But you're spending fifty just now? Yeah,

604
00:34:39,600 --> 00:34:42,920
Speaker 1: like arrangements like little flower arrangements, but I can't have angela.

605
00:34:43,000 --> 00:34:49,600
Speaker 1: What do you think about flowers? Uh, it depends sometimes

606
00:34:49,600 --> 00:34:59,880
Speaker 1: I like them waiting to see what I'm wanted me.

607
00:35:00,760 --> 00:35:06,040
Speaker 1: I don't hate. I like my flowers are different flowers again. Yeah,

608
00:35:06,200 --> 00:35:08,479
Speaker 1: all the women in my life didn't like my mom.

609
00:35:08,600 --> 00:35:10,880
Speaker 1: I think when I was growing up, I'll bring her

610
00:35:10,920 --> 00:35:13,080
Speaker 1: flowers home. She like, don't bring me on flowers on

611
00:35:13,480 --> 00:35:18,360
Speaker 1: this ship. Let them back. So I don't know about flowers.

612
00:35:18,760 --> 00:35:21,000
Speaker 1: You know, my mom ain't like flowers. My grandma ain't

613
00:35:21,040 --> 00:35:26,319
Speaker 1: like flowers. It's just because yeah, yeah, you ain't wont

614
00:35:26,320 --> 00:35:28,600
Speaker 1: know flowers. So I'm like, girls don't like flowers. I

615
00:35:28,640 --> 00:35:31,000
Speaker 1: used to say that smelled like death, Like that's what

616
00:35:31,040 --> 00:35:34,040
Speaker 1: I thought, because that would remind me. That's what they

617
00:35:34,080 --> 00:35:39,479
Speaker 1: reminded me of my flowers. That flowers with death. Yeah, yeah,

618
00:35:39,560 --> 00:35:41,720
Speaker 1: I didn't think about. Talking to you makes me realize

619
00:35:41,760 --> 00:35:44,560
Speaker 1: that I have post traumatic stress disorder from all of

620
00:35:44,560 --> 00:35:47,719
Speaker 1: my friends going to jail and dying. Growing up in

621
00:35:47,760 --> 00:35:50,279
Speaker 1: the streets of New York. You behave a certain way

622
00:35:50,320 --> 00:35:53,320
Speaker 1: you like even when you like, uh, somebody invite you

623
00:35:53,360 --> 00:35:58,799
Speaker 1: so well, I'm not going right there because shot shot

624
00:35:58,880 --> 00:36:04,600
Speaker 1: right there. Yeacause y'all be wiling right that you won't

625
00:36:04,600 --> 00:36:09,120
Speaker 1: have a gun. Yes, that's that's well. Since we were

626
00:36:09,120 --> 00:36:11,400
Speaker 1: talking about gifts, you got a nice gift. Yeah, and

627
00:36:11,560 --> 00:36:13,200
Speaker 1: she gave me the best gifts. I ain't gonna lie.

628
00:36:15,080 --> 00:36:17,080
Speaker 1: What's the first gift that tell you ever gave you?

629
00:36:18,320 --> 00:36:20,759
Speaker 1: The first gift she ever get? What was that Christmas?

630
00:36:20,960 --> 00:36:23,760
Speaker 1: The first gifts? Like, yeah, she gave me all types

631
00:36:23,800 --> 00:36:26,359
Speaker 1: of show. I'm like no, I'm like, I didn't expect it.

632
00:36:26,360 --> 00:36:29,400
Speaker 1: You know, she got me all like findy jackets, bags

633
00:36:29,440 --> 00:36:31,719
Speaker 1: like crazy sho. I'm like, I don't expect because I don't.

634
00:36:32,040 --> 00:36:35,040
Speaker 1: I'm not used to getting gifts birthday gives, Christmas gifts.

635
00:36:35,040 --> 00:36:36,600
Speaker 1: I was in the streets for the better half of

636
00:36:36,640 --> 00:36:38,279
Speaker 1: my life, so I'm not really used to that kind

637
00:36:38,280 --> 00:36:43,040
Speaker 1: of affection. And I think she uh like open, Yeah,

638
00:36:43,040 --> 00:36:45,880
Speaker 1: I definitely feel good, Like I'll be looking for enjoying

639
00:36:45,920 --> 00:36:48,880
Speaker 1: my birthdays, Nash like that holidays. You're feeling me? So

640
00:36:49,160 --> 00:36:51,800
Speaker 1: she she actually really good with gifts. She actually she

641
00:36:51,920 --> 00:36:54,759
Speaker 1: weighed better than me for real, Like I'll be going

642
00:36:54,800 --> 00:36:56,880
Speaker 1: to get it and I'll be failing. To be honest, Now,

643
00:36:57,000 --> 00:37:02,279
Speaker 1: you don't as long as it's thoughtful. Though I don't

644
00:37:02,320 --> 00:37:05,160
Speaker 1: really go out my way. I never went out my

645
00:37:05,200 --> 00:37:07,919
Speaker 1: way for pretty much anybody in life. So even when

646
00:37:07,920 --> 00:37:11,400
Speaker 1: I do do something and it's material or not flowers

647
00:37:11,440 --> 00:37:13,480
Speaker 1: or something like that, it's the same. I'm not taking

648
00:37:13,480 --> 00:37:15,200
Speaker 1: a shortcut back going to spend money, you know what

649
00:37:15,200 --> 00:37:18,640
Speaker 1: I'm saying, Like, I'm really doing this for no And

650
00:37:18,719 --> 00:37:21,120
Speaker 1: isn't it great to learn from someone that you're with

651
00:37:21,680 --> 00:37:25,640
Speaker 1: It's best? Definitely, definitely because she you know, she she's festive.

652
00:37:25,920 --> 00:37:29,239
Speaker 1: You know she's able to like give to like even

653
00:37:29,239 --> 00:37:31,280
Speaker 1: with her friends. She get her friends the best gifts.

654
00:37:31,280 --> 00:37:33,680
Speaker 1: That's just her. That's the most important thing for me

655
00:37:33,719 --> 00:37:36,399
Speaker 1: in a relationship is that I'm able to learn from

656
00:37:36,440 --> 00:37:38,600
Speaker 1: the person that i'm with. You. If you can't teach

657
00:37:38,640 --> 00:37:42,120
Speaker 1: me nothing, it's like, what's the point. I ain't swallowed

658
00:37:42,160 --> 00:37:44,040
Speaker 1: my pride for all the time. Like even when I'm mad,

659
00:37:44,440 --> 00:37:46,799
Speaker 1: I'll be saying ship and I catch myself like I'll

660
00:37:46,800 --> 00:37:49,000
Speaker 1: be feeling like lesser man sometimes because I know I'm man,

661
00:37:49,160 --> 00:37:51,640
Speaker 1: I still calm down and say, all right, this, this, this, this,

662
00:37:52,000 --> 00:37:57,799
Speaker 1: that's actually my man being a man and not being

663
00:37:57,800 --> 00:38:00,600
Speaker 1: a man. That's when you like really feeling a certain

664
00:38:00,600 --> 00:38:02,160
Speaker 1: way and you want to say this, but you don't

665
00:38:02,160 --> 00:38:05,440
Speaker 1: really like that. Like being a man also takes a

666
00:38:05,440 --> 00:38:09,080
Speaker 1: lot of restraints when you know that somebody is right, yeah,

667
00:38:09,200 --> 00:38:11,239
Speaker 1: in a position where you care about them a lot,

668
00:38:11,320 --> 00:38:12,759
Speaker 1: you know they're good for you, they're good in your life,

669
00:38:12,800 --> 00:38:15,600
Speaker 1: and you have to think, yeah, yeah, I'm just I'm

670
00:38:15,640 --> 00:38:18,360
Speaker 1: just tough. I grew up tough. So it's like sometimes

671
00:38:18,360 --> 00:38:21,040
Speaker 1: even like with the people that I love the most though,

672
00:38:21,120 --> 00:38:23,239
Speaker 1: you know, because I don't know, I just believe in

673
00:38:23,280 --> 00:38:25,759
Speaker 1: that discipline and making sacrifices for the people you love.

674
00:38:25,840 --> 00:38:28,560
Speaker 1: So I'm tough about the way I carry myself and

675
00:38:28,560 --> 00:38:30,680
Speaker 1: do stuff. So I'll be having to like break out

676
00:38:30,719 --> 00:38:32,799
Speaker 1: of that. Like all right now, let me just tell

677
00:38:32,880 --> 00:38:35,920
Speaker 1: our meant it this way. I'm saying. Have y'all ever

678
00:38:36,160 --> 00:38:38,360
Speaker 1: gotten into it to the point where you had to

679
00:38:38,360 --> 00:38:41,080
Speaker 1: be like, I'm gonna call you had to call her

680
00:38:41,120 --> 00:38:43,319
Speaker 1: mom and feel like you'll help me out a little

681
00:38:43,320 --> 00:38:46,759
Speaker 1: bit because yeah, I ain't gonna lie. Yeah we didn't

682
00:38:46,960 --> 00:38:49,560
Speaker 1: not even like it wasn't bad arguments. I probably just

683
00:38:49,640 --> 00:38:54,000
Speaker 1: like a look for not even Guden's just something that well,

684
00:38:54,120 --> 00:38:57,879
Speaker 1: I know, like saving I'm gonna give you example, Um,

685
00:38:58,360 --> 00:39:00,839
Speaker 1: mom got a great relationship, so that to talk like,

686
00:39:00,920 --> 00:39:03,840
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying about stuff, uh, something that

687
00:39:03,920 --> 00:39:08,759
Speaker 1: she probably wouldn't be able to understand because she probably motional. Yeah,

688
00:39:10,360 --> 00:39:12,640
Speaker 1: and then her mom will be able to relate. Yeah,

689
00:39:14,239 --> 00:39:17,640
Speaker 1: that's a wonderful relationship. Ever tell you listen, you're wrong?

690
00:39:17,880 --> 00:39:25,080
Speaker 1: And um, no, she never told me I was wrong. No,

691
00:39:25,400 --> 00:39:27,799
Speaker 1: but you know, even when I am wrong, I didn't

692
00:39:27,800 --> 00:39:29,799
Speaker 1: tell her like I didn't tell her I was wrong.

693
00:39:29,880 --> 00:39:31,360
Speaker 1: I didn't mean that. You know what I'm saying that

694
00:39:32,160 --> 00:39:34,399
Speaker 1: they'd be hard to do. I ain't gonna like wrong,

695
00:39:34,880 --> 00:39:38,040
Speaker 1: but I'll do it. Listen, my boyfriend wuld tell you,

696
00:39:38,120 --> 00:39:42,600
Speaker 1: like whatever happens you write like that on the couch

697
00:39:48,239 --> 00:39:55,440
Speaker 1: invest because I really like taking real big totally different

698
00:39:55,480 --> 00:39:58,120
Speaker 1: from our very first inter I remember having that conversation

699
00:39:58,200 --> 00:40:00,000
Speaker 1: where I was like, if you're arguing all the time,

700
00:40:00,000 --> 00:40:02,400
Speaker 1: and that's not a good thing, right where things might

701
00:40:02,400 --> 00:40:05,239
Speaker 1: even get physical, Like you never know what that could

702
00:40:05,320 --> 00:40:10,480
Speaker 1: possibly turn in with that Yeah, like the more like

703
00:40:10,600 --> 00:40:13,000
Speaker 1: she don't hold back what she what she feels. And

704
00:40:13,040 --> 00:40:15,320
Speaker 1: I think that's good too, because learning each other, you

705
00:40:15,320 --> 00:40:16,920
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, we're able to learn each other.

706
00:40:16,960 --> 00:40:19,400
Speaker 1: Even when we disagree with how each other feeling. We

707
00:40:19,520 --> 00:40:22,560
Speaker 1: might it might be like a disagreement, we clashing, but

708
00:40:22,600 --> 00:40:24,239
Speaker 1: at the end of the day, we are literally before

709
00:40:24,280 --> 00:40:26,120
Speaker 1: the end of the day, we would talk about whatever

710
00:40:26,120 --> 00:40:30,640
Speaker 1: it is. It's okay to disagree, even when like people

711
00:40:30,840 --> 00:40:33,080
Speaker 1: look at a disagreement as an argument, but it's not.

712
00:40:33,160 --> 00:40:35,359
Speaker 1: I don't run from those because because I'll be telling her,

713
00:40:35,440 --> 00:40:37,239
Speaker 1: like we could have these I don't want to have

714
00:40:37,280 --> 00:40:40,040
Speaker 1: to keep going through the same thing twice, or we

715
00:40:40,200 --> 00:40:42,200
Speaker 1: don't make the same mistake twice, or we're not gonna

716
00:40:42,239 --> 00:40:44,640
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, had the same argument twice,

717
00:40:44,920 --> 00:40:46,960
Speaker 1: And when you talk about it and you you get

718
00:40:46,960 --> 00:40:49,040
Speaker 1: everything out and you express yourself and she express herseth

719
00:40:49,120 --> 00:40:50,719
Speaker 1: and then you understand each other and each other that

720
00:40:50,800 --> 00:40:54,560
Speaker 1: comes from then yeah, exactly, like I understand what she like.

721
00:40:54,600 --> 00:40:57,200
Speaker 1: She always got the best intentions, even if she communicated

722
00:40:57,200 --> 00:40:58,920
Speaker 1: a certain ways. So she had said some ship and

723
00:40:58,960 --> 00:41:01,480
Speaker 1: it might not translate with me the right way has

724
00:41:01,560 --> 00:41:03,319
Speaker 1: she wanted to, But I would just let her have it.

725
00:41:03,360 --> 00:41:05,960
Speaker 1: Sometimes I wouldn't even say nothing because there's no point

726
00:41:06,080 --> 00:41:07,279
Speaker 1: even you know what I'm saying, I know what she

727
00:41:07,360 --> 00:41:13,000
Speaker 1: meant back, what happened? What happens when things like I

728
00:41:13,040 --> 00:41:15,200
Speaker 1: remember on social media there was like this thing where

729
00:41:15,200 --> 00:41:17,000
Speaker 1: they tried to tell you were cheating and they had

730
00:41:17,120 --> 00:41:19,640
Speaker 1: d M. How do you guys handle stuff like that?

731
00:41:19,760 --> 00:41:21,719
Speaker 1: Like was thatt a phone call? Wh she was like, Okay,

732
00:41:21,719 --> 00:41:24,000
Speaker 1: what the is going on? Just of course she always

733
00:41:24,040 --> 00:41:25,640
Speaker 1: gonna want to get to the bottom or something like that.

734
00:41:25,680 --> 00:41:27,360
Speaker 1: But I'm a man, I'm gonna stand in front of

735
00:41:27,400 --> 00:41:30,080
Speaker 1: anything that you know what I'm saying. So yeah, she

736
00:41:30,360 --> 00:41:32,080
Speaker 1: like she trust me, you know what I'm saying. We're

737
00:41:32,120 --> 00:41:34,280
Speaker 1: able to talk about all the stuff I tell about

738
00:41:34,360 --> 00:41:37,200
Speaker 1: my past, the ship, everything, you know what I'm saying.

739
00:41:37,200 --> 00:41:39,520
Speaker 1: So she understand me through and through. So I got

740
00:41:39,560 --> 00:41:41,600
Speaker 1: you gotta do that. Though, you gotta do that, you

741
00:41:41,600 --> 00:41:44,000
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. They'd be hard, But yeah, what

742
00:41:44,040 --> 00:41:46,279
Speaker 1: about guys trying to holler at her? Right? Has there

743
00:41:46,480 --> 00:41:47,920
Speaker 1: been times when people been at her d MS and

744
00:41:48,000 --> 00:41:49,480
Speaker 1: she had to tell you, oh, you hanging out with

745
00:41:49,560 --> 00:41:53,279
Speaker 1: him but you ain't know? Yeah, she did that a

746
00:41:53,280 --> 00:41:55,279
Speaker 1: couple of times. But it's like, you know what I say,

747
00:41:55,600 --> 00:41:57,560
Speaker 1: What else he's supposed to do? Whatever? What is he

748
00:41:57,600 --> 00:41:59,719
Speaker 1: gonna do? Look at you. You you're a girl that

749
00:42:00,040 --> 00:42:01,839
Speaker 1: nigga is gonna try to pursue. But as long as

750
00:42:01,880 --> 00:42:04,160
Speaker 1: you behave yourself in a way where you know what

751
00:42:04,160 --> 00:42:06,160
Speaker 1: I'm saying, you ain't welcome in that energy, and then

752
00:42:06,640 --> 00:42:08,440
Speaker 1: Nick's gonna do that. I was one of them niggas,

753
00:42:08,440 --> 00:42:12,200
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, Like I'm I'm like, oh,

754
00:42:12,239 --> 00:42:15,239
Speaker 1: this is her friend, right, she didn't do that because

755
00:42:15,239 --> 00:42:21,160
Speaker 1: she hadn't seen me hanging with a nigga or behave

756
00:42:21,600 --> 00:42:23,640
Speaker 1: like a certain way. I'm not gonna care. I won't

757
00:42:23,640 --> 00:42:25,760
Speaker 1: even ask a guy. You know. It's because I'm secure.

758
00:42:27,280 --> 00:42:29,160
Speaker 1: Guys grind me. You're hanging with somebody and they're trying

759
00:42:29,160 --> 00:42:31,319
Speaker 1: to how light your girl A lot of times. A

760
00:42:31,360 --> 00:42:33,759
Speaker 1: lot of times would be before we kind of like,

761
00:42:35,800 --> 00:42:38,200
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, like, yeah, I think I didn't.

762
00:42:38,200 --> 00:42:40,200
Speaker 1: Actually she didn't even see that, Like you know, you

763
00:42:40,320 --> 00:42:42,360
Speaker 1: really like a lot of these dudes respect you. They

764
00:42:42,400 --> 00:42:45,160
Speaker 1: don't even try to talk to me no more. That's

765
00:42:45,360 --> 00:42:48,560
Speaker 1: that's good. Um. So, okay, you had a situation where

766
00:42:48,680 --> 00:42:53,719
Speaker 1: or as far as Instagram tell me that, uh, with

767
00:42:53,880 --> 00:42:58,239
Speaker 1: your son not being able to be around while you know,

768
00:42:58,360 --> 00:43:01,239
Speaker 1: I guess early on and it looks like y'all have

769
00:43:01,320 --> 00:43:04,719
Speaker 1: gotten past that point. How because I've been even in

770
00:43:04,760 --> 00:43:07,239
Speaker 1: that situation where you know, it was a child's mom

771
00:43:07,520 --> 00:43:10,080
Speaker 1: that was like, no, I don't want her around my son,

772
00:43:10,160 --> 00:43:12,440
Speaker 1: and not because obviously I didn't do anything to him,

773
00:43:12,480 --> 00:43:15,600
Speaker 1: just her being feeling in her ways, right, So how

774
00:43:15,600 --> 00:43:17,360
Speaker 1: do you get past? How would you like, what advice

775
00:43:17,360 --> 00:43:19,520
Speaker 1: could you give to somebody to get past the situation?

776
00:43:19,800 --> 00:43:22,200
Speaker 1: Just work towards it, lean towards it a little bit,

777
00:43:22,239 --> 00:43:23,680
Speaker 1: a little you know what I'm saying. I just think

778
00:43:23,680 --> 00:43:26,680
Speaker 1: as adults, the stuff that you really can't control, you

779
00:43:26,680 --> 00:43:28,600
Speaker 1: shouldn't try to you know what I'm saying, You shouldn't

780
00:43:28,600 --> 00:43:30,239
Speaker 1: try to dictate. You just try to make the best

781
00:43:30,280 --> 00:43:32,440
Speaker 1: of it. If anything, if you're put in that position,

782
00:43:32,719 --> 00:43:35,680
Speaker 1: you should try to make sure that your child safety

783
00:43:35,760 --> 00:43:39,319
Speaker 1: And you know what I'm saying, Yeah, well being is

784
00:43:39,360 --> 00:43:43,080
Speaker 1: always first priority. And I was. I was always like

785
00:43:43,840 --> 00:43:46,600
Speaker 1: passionate about that anyway, because you know, this is my girl,

786
00:43:46,719 --> 00:43:48,560
Speaker 1: this is who I'm gonna be with, and I'm I'm

787
00:43:48,600 --> 00:43:51,000
Speaker 1: a hands on father, so it's like it gotta work

788
00:43:51,040 --> 00:43:53,879
Speaker 1: regardless of the fact. And then if the tables ever

789
00:43:53,920 --> 00:43:55,440
Speaker 1: do turn, I can't be the one that you know

790
00:43:55,440 --> 00:43:57,600
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, can't this shout what I take. So

791
00:43:57,640 --> 00:44:00,439
Speaker 1: but I would take that initiative if it ever came

792
00:44:00,480 --> 00:44:02,440
Speaker 1: to a point to say I'm cool with that, I

793
00:44:02,440 --> 00:44:04,279
Speaker 1: ain't cool with this, or whatever the case. Maybe you

794
00:44:04,320 --> 00:44:06,600
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. So um, I think when you

795
00:44:06,800 --> 00:44:08,800
Speaker 1: put into that position, you just leaned towards it. You

796
00:44:08,840 --> 00:44:10,160
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, You work a little bout a

797
00:44:10,160 --> 00:44:13,319
Speaker 1: little towards it and you try to Like man, I

798
00:44:13,360 --> 00:44:16,920
Speaker 1: think God just knew that I really liked it was

799
00:44:16,920 --> 00:44:19,160
Speaker 1: so was so serious about, you know, having that type

800
00:44:19,200 --> 00:44:21,560
Speaker 1: relationship with co parent because you know what I'm saying,

801
00:44:21,760 --> 00:44:23,839
Speaker 1: I gotta make sure I'm on a straight level with

802
00:44:23,880 --> 00:44:25,600
Speaker 1: my son. Mom. I don't never want to be at

803
00:44:25,600 --> 00:44:28,080
Speaker 1: Oswa or ever let my son see me at Oswa

804
00:44:28,520 --> 00:44:31,400
Speaker 1: and still be able to, you know, balance my relationship

805
00:44:31,520 --> 00:44:33,879
Speaker 1: be a father and I swear they met on their own.

806
00:44:34,000 --> 00:44:35,960
Speaker 1: I didn't have nothing. It's good that you say that

807
00:44:35,960 --> 00:44:39,520
Speaker 1: that with your son, because what people don't realize when

808
00:44:39,520 --> 00:44:42,560
Speaker 1: they put their children and those type of predicaments is

809
00:44:42,600 --> 00:44:43,960
Speaker 1: at the end of the day, it hurts the child.

810
00:44:44,520 --> 00:44:46,120
Speaker 1: Like when you try to keep the child from the

811
00:44:46,160 --> 00:44:48,520
Speaker 1: father because you and your personal reasons or whatever. My

812
00:44:48,600 --> 00:44:50,680
Speaker 1: child's father passed away when she was two years old,

813
00:44:50,840 --> 00:44:52,799
Speaker 1: so my daughter never had her father in her life

814
00:44:52,800 --> 00:44:55,279
Speaker 1: as far as she remembers. If he wasn't her life

815
00:44:55,280 --> 00:44:57,200
Speaker 1: and he pissed me off for whatever reason, I would

816
00:44:57,239 --> 00:44:59,920
Speaker 1: never have taken her away from him purposely because you

817
00:45:00,040 --> 00:45:02,600
Speaker 1: never know what happened when he's taken me from what

818
00:45:02,640 --> 00:45:04,360
Speaker 1: I'm saying, so that only hurts the child, and I

819
00:45:04,400 --> 00:45:07,000
Speaker 1: wish more people understood that and they can use their

820
00:45:07,080 --> 00:45:09,360
Speaker 1: children as pawns the way that they do. It's so

821
00:45:09,440 --> 00:45:12,040
Speaker 1: sad they wouldn't do that, but guess what, because they're

822
00:45:12,080 --> 00:45:13,920
Speaker 1: thinking about themselves and not about their child. But then

823
00:45:13,920 --> 00:45:16,040
Speaker 1: you also do respect, like if the mother's like, look,

824
00:45:16,200 --> 00:45:19,080
Speaker 1: unless I know this is for real serious, I don't

825
00:45:19,360 --> 00:45:23,040
Speaker 1: respect that. Yeah, you have to respect you know what

826
00:45:23,080 --> 00:45:26,480
Speaker 1: I'm saying. But it was always approached the situation where

827
00:45:26,520 --> 00:45:28,759
Speaker 1: I wanted everybody to be on the same page, you

828
00:45:28,760 --> 00:45:30,319
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, Like, I never was trying to

829
00:45:30,360 --> 00:45:36,960
Speaker 1: be like about nothing. Yeah, yeah, So I was always

830
00:45:37,040 --> 00:45:40,600
Speaker 1: just trying to have a straight, narrow lane because regardless

831
00:45:40,600 --> 00:45:42,319
Speaker 1: of the fact I want to be a father. That's

832
00:45:42,360 --> 00:45:43,960
Speaker 1: all I want to do is be a father. And

833
00:45:44,360 --> 00:45:47,720
Speaker 1: it happened again, Yeah happen. So how so what happened?

834
00:45:47,719 --> 00:45:49,319
Speaker 1: And did you get that call? Like guess who? I

835
00:45:49,360 --> 00:45:51,759
Speaker 1: just got the call exactly like that guess who I

836
00:45:51,800 --> 00:45:55,279
Speaker 1: just met? Was an exact words, and you know that

837
00:45:55,400 --> 00:45:57,320
Speaker 1: was that was probably like a real That was a

838
00:45:57,360 --> 00:45:59,200
Speaker 1: highlight for me, you know what I'm saying. It made

839
00:45:59,239 --> 00:46:02,560
Speaker 1: me smile. I was so happy just because I know

840
00:46:02,640 --> 00:46:04,520
Speaker 1: how important that is. You know what I'm saying that

841
00:46:04,600 --> 00:46:06,719
Speaker 1: I know at the end of the day when everybody

842
00:46:06,719 --> 00:46:08,560
Speaker 1: like on the outside looking in, and you might think

843
00:46:08,640 --> 00:46:10,640
Speaker 1: y'all have those differences, but at the end of the day,

844
00:46:10,719 --> 00:46:13,000
Speaker 1: y'all know a lot of y'all women relate. So it's like,

845
00:46:13,640 --> 00:46:16,279
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, where they meet, oh l

846
00:46:16,360 --> 00:46:22,560
Speaker 1: a and various pizza. Do you feel like it was

847
00:46:22,600 --> 00:46:25,760
Speaker 1: the whole social media thing that got in between you

848
00:46:25,880 --> 00:46:29,400
Speaker 1: all that kind of force. That's kind of scary to

849
00:46:29,440 --> 00:46:31,560
Speaker 1: me because the fact that you know what was going on.

850
00:46:31,640 --> 00:46:33,360
Speaker 1: Y'all all knew what was going on, but then you

851
00:46:33,400 --> 00:46:37,960
Speaker 1: have outside people that you don't even know. Likeship absolutely.

852
00:46:38,000 --> 00:46:40,239
Speaker 1: But I think my job as a man because I'm

853
00:46:40,280 --> 00:46:42,319
Speaker 1: the man in the situation. I gotta just stand in

854
00:46:42,320 --> 00:46:46,000
Speaker 1: front of and even say I understand. Even if I

855
00:46:46,000 --> 00:46:48,279
Speaker 1: felt like you was wrong to my my son, Mom,

856
00:46:48,600 --> 00:46:51,360
Speaker 1: I understand where you're coming from. You emotional. You're a woman.

857
00:46:51,440 --> 00:46:53,120
Speaker 1: You just hear a baby, you know what I'm saying.

858
00:46:53,239 --> 00:46:55,560
Speaker 1: So it's like you deal with stuff a certain ways.

859
00:46:55,560 --> 00:46:57,880
Speaker 1: So even when I felt like, even when I was

860
00:46:57,920 --> 00:47:00,440
Speaker 1: acting off emotional was wrong, I was later able to

861
00:47:00,560 --> 00:47:02,720
Speaker 1: correct my wrongs, you know what I'm saying, and able

862
00:47:02,760 --> 00:47:04,360
Speaker 1: to you know, stand in front of it so she

863
00:47:04,400 --> 00:47:06,360
Speaker 1: could say, let me get him a chance, let me

864
00:47:06,400 --> 00:47:07,879
Speaker 1: do this, you know what I'm saying. So I felt

865
00:47:07,880 --> 00:47:09,799
Speaker 1: like if I didn't at least give her that, I

866
00:47:09,800 --> 00:47:11,719
Speaker 1: still wouldn't be in a position to, you know, co

867
00:47:11,920 --> 00:47:14,960
Speaker 1: parent the right way. Now, what did you guys? What

868
00:47:15,000 --> 00:47:17,120
Speaker 1: did she say to you about your album? Because obviously

869
00:47:17,400 --> 00:47:19,759
Speaker 1: you're opening up a lot about PTSD things that people

870
00:47:19,760 --> 00:47:23,120
Speaker 1: didn't know about you. So what were those conversations like

871
00:47:23,200 --> 00:47:26,480
Speaker 1: when you're like, Okay, here's what I'm doing yea with

872
00:47:26,640 --> 00:47:31,800
Speaker 1: my girl, Um, I think she I'll tell her this already,

873
00:47:31,840 --> 00:47:33,200
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, Like I'll be telling her

874
00:47:33,239 --> 00:47:35,360
Speaker 1: like a lot of my life and you know, we

875
00:47:35,520 --> 00:47:37,920
Speaker 1: from two totally different worlds, so a lot of stuff

876
00:47:37,960 --> 00:47:40,239
Speaker 1: I'll be telling us. She don't even like, there's no

877
00:47:40,320 --> 00:47:42,920
Speaker 1: way he was like that because how I talk, how

878
00:47:42,960 --> 00:47:45,799
Speaker 1: to carry her, you wouldn't know that I was really

879
00:47:45,840 --> 00:47:48,040
Speaker 1: like going through a lot of stuff that I was

880
00:47:48,080 --> 00:47:49,600
Speaker 1: going through because I don't wear it, you know what

881
00:47:49,600 --> 00:47:52,120
Speaker 1: I'm saying, even when I'm going like she knows we've

882
00:47:52,120 --> 00:47:55,239
Speaker 1: been together. Uh, we've been together just about two years now,

883
00:47:55,680 --> 00:47:59,160
Speaker 1: and like the past six eighteen months in my life

884
00:47:59,160 --> 00:48:02,000
Speaker 1: being crazy, like hard, dealing with trying to co parent,

885
00:48:02,360 --> 00:48:05,359
Speaker 1: fighting cases, legal stuff, all that, and just still trying

886
00:48:05,400 --> 00:48:07,200
Speaker 1: to you know what I'm saying, balance out being a

887
00:48:07,239 --> 00:48:09,640
Speaker 1: business and an artist, a brand, all of that. I

888
00:48:09,680 --> 00:48:13,640
Speaker 1: think with me trying to do all that and hus

889
00:48:13,680 --> 00:48:15,520
Speaker 1: seeing on the inside, you know what I'm saying to me,

890
00:48:15,560 --> 00:48:18,640
Speaker 1: embracing it like I embrace my problems for real. Like

891
00:48:18,640 --> 00:48:20,239
Speaker 1: when I'm going through shot, I can't figure it out.

892
00:48:20,440 --> 00:48:22,440
Speaker 1: I'm up every day in the morning trying to figure out.

893
00:48:22,440 --> 00:48:24,279
Speaker 1: I'm not giving up. I'm not, you know what I'm saying.

894
00:48:24,320 --> 00:48:26,759
Speaker 1: So it's like with her seeing that, I think she

895
00:48:26,880 --> 00:48:30,160
Speaker 1: just supported and then I'll be trying to like. Of course,

896
00:48:30,200 --> 00:48:32,759
Speaker 1: like I said, we from two totally different worlds, so

897
00:48:32,880 --> 00:48:35,839
Speaker 1: I gotta understand. She don't always understand why I met

898
00:48:35,880 --> 00:48:38,520
Speaker 1: mentally and why I behaved myself a certain way. So

899
00:48:38,600 --> 00:48:40,480
Speaker 1: I do got to explain this stuff to her. I

900
00:48:40,480 --> 00:48:43,120
Speaker 1: do got to explain to her like I can't do this,

901
00:48:43,280 --> 00:48:45,719
Speaker 1: I can't do that, or even if I do, I can't.

902
00:48:45,760 --> 00:48:48,279
Speaker 1: I'm it's gonna take time for me to work. And

903
00:48:48,440 --> 00:48:49,879
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, I gotta figure it out.

904
00:48:50,239 --> 00:48:53,200
Speaker 1: And that's important because I feel like if you if

905
00:48:53,239 --> 00:48:55,200
Speaker 1: you just block that out and don't share that with

906
00:48:55,239 --> 00:48:57,359
Speaker 1: your girl, she feel neglected. She had feel like she's

907
00:48:57,400 --> 00:48:59,160
Speaker 1: not important. She feel like, you know what I'm saying that,

908
00:48:59,239 --> 00:49:01,759
Speaker 1: then she gonna we're only human. We all got our

909
00:49:01,800 --> 00:49:05,120
Speaker 1: own like definitely a fulfillment in life regardless, she gonna

910
00:49:05,120 --> 00:49:06,839
Speaker 1: go out and make herself happy. You know what I'm saying.

911
00:49:06,840 --> 00:49:08,960
Speaker 1: If I can't make her happy, you know, so that's

912
00:49:08,960 --> 00:49:10,719
Speaker 1: important for me to do that. And she know that's

913
00:49:10,760 --> 00:49:13,359
Speaker 1: my life, Like it's not just me doing music, that's

914
00:49:13,400 --> 00:49:15,479
Speaker 1: my lifestyle, and it's important for me to really help

915
00:49:15,560 --> 00:49:18,040
Speaker 1: other people because there's so many people like me. That's

916
00:49:18,040 --> 00:49:19,719
Speaker 1: going through what I'm going through. It don't know how

917
00:49:19,719 --> 00:49:22,399
Speaker 1: to express theirselfs or don't know how to use their

918
00:49:22,440 --> 00:49:24,560
Speaker 1: brain and had a will in the draft that I

919
00:49:24,600 --> 00:49:27,320
Speaker 1: did to get to where you're going, you know what

920
00:49:27,360 --> 00:49:30,160
Speaker 1: I'm saying in these endeavors. So I think I did

921
00:49:30,160 --> 00:49:32,120
Speaker 1: a good job talking to her, and she's still she

922
00:49:32,280 --> 00:49:33,879
Speaker 1: just be She ran it out with me even when

923
00:49:33,920 --> 00:49:38,440
Speaker 1: she don't understand. She just doesn't make you overprotective too

924
00:49:38,520 --> 00:49:42,080
Speaker 1: as a boy. Yeah, I'm super overprotective when they come

925
00:49:42,120 --> 00:49:44,399
Speaker 1: to her, um, but I still like, because you feel

926
00:49:44,440 --> 00:49:46,080
Speaker 1: like you need to protect her, like, yeah, I want

927
00:49:46,080 --> 00:49:49,160
Speaker 1: you to go there. I don't know if I don't

928
00:49:49,160 --> 00:49:51,400
Speaker 1: need to get out to I don't need your security.

929
00:49:51,440 --> 00:49:54,520
Speaker 1: But it's like you automatically mean now when people see you,

930
00:49:54,560 --> 00:49:56,319
Speaker 1: they don't see me even if I'm not there. So

931
00:49:56,360 --> 00:49:58,400
Speaker 1: you gotta understand that, you know. And I'm moving like

932
00:49:58,440 --> 00:50:01,320
Speaker 1: that anyway, even though like I don't bring in that energy.

933
00:50:01,360 --> 00:50:05,480
Speaker 1: But I'm always prepared and I'm always like, yeah, preparing

934
00:50:05,560 --> 00:50:07,799
Speaker 1: for the very worst situation, and I know how to

935
00:50:07,960 --> 00:50:10,359
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, react when those situations come.

936
00:50:10,440 --> 00:50:12,319
Speaker 1: So and that comes from again y'all being from two

937
00:50:12,320 --> 00:50:15,239
Speaker 1: different worlds. Yeah, and I bring that balance like she know,

938
00:50:15,440 --> 00:50:19,000
Speaker 1: like even her mom fab you know what I'm saying,

939
00:50:19,000 --> 00:50:22,480
Speaker 1: her biological father, like they trust her with me. We

940
00:50:22,520 --> 00:50:24,680
Speaker 1: could go wherever. They know she good with me. They

941
00:50:24,719 --> 00:50:26,759
Speaker 1: only got a thing twice. Where's the first place you

942
00:50:26,800 --> 00:50:33,280
Speaker 1: ever went on vacation? Um? Ever ever? Um? My first

943
00:50:33,280 --> 00:50:36,080
Speaker 1: place I went on the Jamaica first place. That was

944
00:50:36,120 --> 00:50:38,720
Speaker 1: my first place I ever been, but I had different

945
00:50:42,680 --> 00:50:45,680
Speaker 1: was the first time here, my second time been in Jamaica.

946
00:50:45,920 --> 00:50:50,239
Speaker 1: I've been only been in Jamaica, London, Canada and something.

947
00:50:50,239 --> 00:50:55,840
Speaker 1: If they blocked right on a plane, Yeah, is that

948
00:50:55,920 --> 00:50:58,120
Speaker 1: on your bucket list though? To travel one? Yeah, definitely.

949
00:50:58,120 --> 00:51:01,280
Speaker 1: I gotta getting off to Are we going to vacation?

950
00:51:01,960 --> 00:51:03,480
Speaker 1: Is amazing? Yeahs soon as I get out to it,

951
00:51:03,560 --> 00:51:05,440
Speaker 1: we're going to go on vacation. And that's all her.

952
00:51:05,600 --> 00:51:08,839
Speaker 1: So she's been like she don't even like I don't know.

953
00:51:08,880 --> 00:51:10,479
Speaker 1: It's nothing for you to just get on the plane

954
00:51:10,520 --> 00:51:12,800
Speaker 1: and go to Mexico for three days, you know what

955
00:51:12,840 --> 00:51:16,200
Speaker 1: I'm saying. Vacation, you know. And we're spontaneous like that.

956
00:51:16,320 --> 00:51:18,120
Speaker 1: So I think we're gonna be a lot of traveling.

957
00:51:18,600 --> 00:51:20,839
Speaker 1: I'm so sick of traveling. I just want to be home.

958
00:51:21,400 --> 00:51:23,600
Speaker 1: Oh my god, I love I think I work, so

959
00:51:23,760 --> 00:51:26,160
Speaker 1: I want to but you want to cha, you need

960
00:51:26,480 --> 00:51:28,400
Speaker 1: to travel and get a piece of mind and just

961
00:51:28,400 --> 00:51:33,960
Speaker 1: a lot. It's different from work. Work travels and vacation.

962
00:51:39,000 --> 00:51:46,439
Speaker 1: Work need feel so good. We charge. I just came

963
00:51:46,480 --> 00:51:48,359
Speaker 1: from Puerto Rico, and the whole time I was thinking

964
00:51:48,360 --> 00:51:51,799
Speaker 1: about my bad man. You swear to God, I know

965
00:51:51,840 --> 00:51:57,200
Speaker 1: I'd like to get on vacation. I was like, okay,

966
00:51:58,719 --> 00:52:04,239
Speaker 1: I wait, need to beach. Actually I wanted to do

967
00:52:04,320 --> 00:52:06,680
Speaker 1: was go somewhere and in Vaca, Like I just wanted

968
00:52:06,680 --> 00:52:10,600
Speaker 1: to go, Like I could stand even if I'm traveling,

969
00:52:10,640 --> 00:52:12,359
Speaker 1: I could just stay in the house and enjoy it

970
00:52:12,400 --> 00:52:14,279
Speaker 1: that way, you know what I'm saying. So me too

971
00:52:14,320 --> 00:52:16,120
Speaker 1: that that's my favorite thing to do. But like I

972
00:52:16,160 --> 00:52:19,759
Speaker 1: like to go on an excursion and um, what is

973
00:52:19,800 --> 00:52:22,640
Speaker 1: it on? Snorkeling and all of that crap. I like

974
00:52:22,719 --> 00:52:24,880
Speaker 1: to do that. But if it was up to me,

975
00:52:25,080 --> 00:52:27,840
Speaker 1: like my favorite thing would be to just be in

976
00:52:27,960 --> 00:52:31,560
Speaker 1: the like where the old tellers, where the resort is

977
00:52:32,040 --> 00:52:35,120
Speaker 1: just maybe go to the pool, chilling side to joint,

978
00:52:35,440 --> 00:52:37,719
Speaker 1: Like I don't want to do much like people want

979
00:52:37,719 --> 00:52:43,480
Speaker 1: to climb mountain, go to rainforest and ship like, nah, listen,

980
00:52:43,520 --> 00:52:51,799
Speaker 1: I'd be para silin all of that TVs. Because I

981
00:52:51,840 --> 00:52:55,080
Speaker 1: was so mad. Deodlining is fun, I said, close to

982
00:52:55,200 --> 00:53:01,560
Speaker 1: Rio over the brainforest, I've done it. Snowboarding really, because yeah, snowboarding,

983
00:53:01,560 --> 00:53:03,680
Speaker 1: I think is a little like cooler, give me a

984
00:53:03,800 --> 00:53:10,000
Speaker 1: drink and some sun. No snow a little dangerous. So

985
00:53:10,080 --> 00:53:12,719
Speaker 1: with snowboarding, I skied for man years. I used to

986
00:53:12,719 --> 00:53:17,879
Speaker 1: take ski I lived in a pokonotse for a little bit. Oh,

987
00:53:17,880 --> 00:53:20,760
Speaker 1: I learned how to ski. And then my last song skiing,

988
00:53:20,880 --> 00:53:30,239
Speaker 1: I hurt myself really bad. I'm never skuted. Don't discourage him, right.

989
00:53:32,200 --> 00:53:33,600
Speaker 1: One of the thing is that you fall a lot

990
00:53:33,640 --> 00:53:35,120
Speaker 1: and then you gotta put yourself up. So it's like

991
00:53:35,200 --> 00:53:37,840
Speaker 1: muscles you never use. And like even you stay on

992
00:53:37,880 --> 00:53:40,719
Speaker 1: the bunny slope, don't listen to hug, just go like this,

993
00:53:41,400 --> 00:53:48,319
Speaker 1: like don't I was nervous. You have no video. I

994
00:53:48,440 --> 00:53:54,520
Speaker 1: was a kid. I knew how to jump everything. I

995
00:53:54,560 --> 00:53:57,800
Speaker 1: took lessons before a year so you would go skiing.

996
00:53:57,840 --> 00:54:00,840
Speaker 1: And so one time I jumped, said you'll go skiing,

997
00:54:00,320 --> 00:54:09,600
Speaker 1: and yeah, not one of those. And the thing is

998
00:54:09,640 --> 00:54:12,240
Speaker 1: with the skis like it'll unhook certain kind of ways.

999
00:54:12,480 --> 00:54:14,719
Speaker 1: And when I jumped, one of my skis fell off.

1000
00:54:14,840 --> 00:54:18,000
Speaker 1: But when I landed it was really bad like that,

1001
00:54:18,120 --> 00:54:20,319
Speaker 1: you know how the little mon come to get Yeah,

1002
00:54:20,360 --> 00:54:28,160
Speaker 1: I was like, she has a fake leg. Then let

1003
00:54:28,200 --> 00:54:30,040
Speaker 1: me ask you this. Do you rub feet and all

1004
00:54:30,040 --> 00:54:33,480
Speaker 1: of that All the time, he said toes, I got

1005
00:54:33,480 --> 00:54:38,120
Speaker 1: me rubbing feet, I'll be playing I'm goofy something like that.

1006
00:54:38,600 --> 00:54:43,920
Speaker 1: Actually she would be like you nasty? Are you a

1007
00:54:43,920 --> 00:54:47,759
Speaker 1: big kisser? Also, yeah, I kiss, but she'd be mad

1008
00:54:47,800 --> 00:54:49,800
Speaker 1: at me. Sometimes she said I kiss or too slow?

1009
00:54:49,920 --> 00:55:01,759
Speaker 1: I mean too fast? Fat You know, I told her

1010
00:55:01,800 --> 00:55:12,239
Speaker 1: kiss to my peck. She said, be too fast, big red. Yeah,

1011
00:55:12,280 --> 00:55:16,880
Speaker 1: she got the big as lift. That's alright. Well, we

1012
00:55:17,000 --> 00:55:19,759
Speaker 1: do appreciate you for coming through. This is like time up, man,

1013
00:55:20,000 --> 00:55:23,200
Speaker 1: I'm looking forward to the eleventh. Yeah, we try to

1014
00:55:23,200 --> 00:55:25,120
Speaker 1: get you and to do it together. But they were like,

1015
00:55:25,200 --> 00:55:27,160
Speaker 1: we all think I let her come in and feel

1016
00:55:27,160 --> 00:55:29,160
Speaker 1: the energy now, so the next one I'm gonna bring

1017
00:55:30,080 --> 00:55:32,200
Speaker 1: right next. She's like, I have to count on the

1018
00:55:32,320 --> 00:55:34,759
Speaker 1: next time. She's gonna be right now. But congratulations on

1019
00:55:34,800 --> 00:55:36,960
Speaker 1: the album, and I do appreciate you just they just

1020
00:55:36,960 --> 00:55:38,480
Speaker 1: sent me the link so I could hear some of

1021
00:55:38,520 --> 00:55:40,839
Speaker 1: that ahead of time. Let me know what you think

1022
00:55:40,880 --> 00:55:44,880
Speaker 1: when I see you tomorrow. Yeah, I can't. It's like

1023
00:55:46,040 --> 00:55:50,840
Speaker 1: I can't have full access to it. In three days.

1024
00:55:51,200 --> 00:55:54,640
Speaker 1: You had juice on the PTSD song. Was that a

1025
00:55:54,719 --> 00:55:57,319
Speaker 1: hook that he had? Well, clearly we are. We we

1026
00:55:57,400 --> 00:55:59,360
Speaker 1: already hit the record, you know what I'm saying. I

1027
00:55:59,480 --> 00:56:01,959
Speaker 1: was actually gonna make that my single before he passed away,

1028
00:56:02,040 --> 00:56:05,120
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. So that's my little brother

1029
00:56:05,120 --> 00:56:08,319
Speaker 1: of course. So that was natur It's definitely gonna happen

1030
00:56:08,320 --> 00:56:10,880
Speaker 1: to the most important song on the album that hasn't

1031
00:56:10,880 --> 00:56:15,080
Speaker 1: mean a lot to you. Yeah, definitely, definitely, It's definitely one.

1032
00:56:15,160 --> 00:56:16,960
Speaker 1: It's gonna it's gonna stay in the test of time

1033
00:56:17,040 --> 00:56:19,880
Speaker 1: for sure. All Right, Well, we appreciate it. We love

1034
00:56:19,880 --> 00:56:22,320
Speaker 1: to see the growth in every single way with the music,

1035
00:56:22,600 --> 00:56:32,800
Speaker 1: with the personal life and the relationships. Yeah you didn't

1036
00:56:32,840 --> 00:56:35,760
Speaker 1: walk around the house, Yeah, because we love the growth.

1037
00:56:35,920 --> 00:56:39,799
Speaker 1: Yeah man, thank you man. And the presence that you've

1038
00:56:39,840 --> 00:56:44,160
Speaker 1: been buying everything don't get better. Man, you come you're

1039
00:56:44,160 --> 00:56:57,760
Speaker 1: gonna be married trying, Yeah, hopefully hopefully, man, You never know. Alright,

1040
00:56:57,800 --> 00:56:58,439
Speaker 1: it's let's serve