Speaker 1: Hello, Hello, Hi. What's your name?
Speaker 2: No fucking way, Sully.
Speaker 1: Sully, like the monster.
Speaker 2: Guy, Yeah from Monsters, Inc.
Speaker 1: What's up, Sully? How can I get you today? What's
Speaker 1: happening on the planet Earth? From your perspective?
Speaker 2: I guess what I wanted to talk to you about
Speaker 2: is numbers.
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, I have this, like I.
Speaker 2: Have this like weird thing with numbers. It might hurt
Speaker 2: your brain. Holy shit, I can't believe I'm talking to you.
Speaker 1: This ship is crazy numbers with some numbers.
Speaker 2: Any way. So it's like I'm like self city because
Speaker 2: I skateboard a lot, and I like can only try
Speaker 2: like certain stuff a certain amount of times, and like
Speaker 2: like I don't know how I'll explain it with that
Speaker 2: like being.
Speaker 1: Weird you So just just to cut I'm gonna cut
Speaker 1: you off for just a second because your your thing
Speaker 1: kind of cut out a little bit. But you said
Speaker 1: you were self diagoned, that you've self di diagnosed with OCD.
Speaker 2: Well like kind of my parents and shit have kind
Speaker 2: of told me because like I don't know. It's like, okay,
Speaker 2: if I'm skateboarding and I do it a trick and
Speaker 2: I'm like, oh shit, I'm really close. But I'm like
Speaker 2: a numb I meant like try like ten or something
Speaker 2: like that, depending on what day of the week. I
Speaker 2: won't try it the eleventh try seriously if that makes sense.
Speaker 1: Okay, so these okay, tell me more about these numbers.
Speaker 1: Does this occur in your life in any in any
Speaker 1: form other than in skateboarding?
Speaker 2: I yeah, so, like real quick backstory. How it like
Speaker 2: started was like you ever, like you're listening to music
Speaker 2: and then you like accidentally skip a song that you
Speaker 2: wanted to play, so you skip back to it.
Speaker 1: M yes, yes, yeah.
Speaker 2: So I would do that, but I would go like
Speaker 2: back and forth, back and forth, back and forth until
Speaker 2: like it felt right to listen to that song.
Speaker 1: How many times would you go back and forth?
Speaker 2: I don't know, it would just whatever felt right.
Speaker 1: I guess this does actually sound like OCD.
Speaker 2: Yeah. And then it like went into like numbers and
Speaker 2: then like like I've I've always put on like Okay,
Speaker 2: this is weird, but like a certain like swipes the
Speaker 2: deodorant or like how many like swishes I do with
Speaker 2: like brushing my teeth and shit like that, if that
Speaker 2: makes sense, And like if I'm like so, say, at work, right,
Speaker 2: I pull into the parking lot depending on what day
Speaker 2: of the week it is, I can only park in
Speaker 2: that spot a certain amount of times during the week.
Speaker 1: Hmm.
Speaker 2: Yeah, all of this hurts my brain.
Speaker 1: How long have you been like this?
Speaker 3: Uh?
Speaker 2: Ever since I was probably like I think, like a
Speaker 2: junior in high school and I'm twenty now, so probably
Speaker 2: like four years.
Speaker 1: All right, what have you gone to see like a
Speaker 1: psychiatrist about this?
Speaker 2: No, which I probably should, But like sometimes it's like
Speaker 2: money and like sometimes like my parents are crazy, not
Speaker 2: my parents, more my mom. I love my mom, but
Speaker 2: she's kind of crazy sometimes and like she had a
Speaker 2: bad ex experience with shit like that when she was
Speaker 2: a kid, so she kind of is like, don't go
Speaker 2: and then like money, So I just talked to family
Speaker 2: about it, and then it kind of makes me feel better.
Speaker 1: Okay, what is what happens when you talk to your
Speaker 1: family about it?
Speaker 2: Uh? My grandpa just reassures me that, like it's just
Speaker 2: it's not like regular shit. But I might have like
Speaker 2: an OCD or something like that. And then like I
Speaker 2: don't know, definitely, the older I'm getting like kind of
Speaker 2: the better it's gotten, do you know what I mean?
Speaker 2: Like now it's not so much now it's not so
Speaker 2: much like an everyday thing. Like it's still an everyday thing,
Speaker 2: but not as much because like sometimes I'll have these
Speaker 2: like crazy fucking like not episodes, but like some days
Speaker 2: I'll just be fun and like I have to touch
Speaker 2: shit a certain amount of times and like shit like that.
Speaker 2: But like today, like I'm chilling, like I'm fine, life
Speaker 2: is great. So it's weird.
Speaker 1: H I really I oh man, well I'm conflicted exact.
Speaker 1: I mean, well, I really just think you should probably
Speaker 1: see a psychiatrist.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I need to think about that, Okay.
Speaker 1: Can I well, just can I ask you about your
Speaker 1: your life in general? Are you in school? What do
Speaker 1: you do?
Speaker 2: Uh? I work at a car autoparts store and the
Speaker 2: skate shop and I teach kids how to skate.
Speaker 1: Well that sounds really nice.
Speaker 2: Uh it's really rewarding.
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, okay, so you got like a cool you're
Speaker 1: doing good things.
Speaker 2: I'm trying to because there's a lot of people who
Speaker 2: like hate in the skate community. But like I don't know,
Speaker 2: how could you hate on somebody who's helping.
Speaker 1: A lot of people who hate in the skate community
Speaker 1: within what sense?
Speaker 2: Like, like say you do like a certain trick or something,
Speaker 2: oh that was whack as fuck, and then like I
Speaker 2: don't know, they just like someone always has something hateful
Speaker 2: to say.
Speaker 1: Like you'll do certain tricks and people will say that
Speaker 1: your tricks are whack as fuck.
Speaker 2: Okay, So like quick explanations. So like I skate curbs,
Speaker 2: so like a curb that you would see like on
Speaker 2: the side of the road, you know, but like in
Speaker 2: the skate community that's like deemed like something for like
Speaker 2: old people. Why because like okay, you know what an
Speaker 2: olie is, like how you like get the board. Yeah. So,
Speaker 2: like I had surgery on my ankle like a year ago,
Speaker 2: and it kind of like sorry, I'm sot of breath.
Speaker 2: It made me like not be able to allie as
Speaker 2: well anymore. And like I kind of hated skateboarding because
Speaker 2: I was like, oh, like it kind of ruined my
Speaker 2: life for a little bit. And then like I started
Speaker 2: like skating curves as like Okay, I don't have to
Speaker 2: work as hard, not necessarily, because like once you get
Speaker 2: into it, you're like, oh shit, like this shit is hard,
Speaker 2: But like you don't have to like necessarily like Alie
Speaker 2: into shit because it's called like a slappy, like you
Speaker 2: slap your board into it and like it's just like
Speaker 2: old people, so like old fat guys who like I
Speaker 2: can't alie anymore.
Speaker 1: Okay, I have a lot of thoughts about your haters, man,
Speaker 1: why don't you? I mean, well, first, first of all,
Speaker 1: you said, what's your name again?
Speaker 2: Sully?
Speaker 1: You Sally? You sound like a good guy. You have
Speaker 1: a you have respectable you have two respectable jobs, you
Speaker 1: have a hobby that you like, you have family that
Speaker 1: you care about. I mean, who the fuck that's it.
Speaker 1: There's nothing else.
Speaker 2: A lot of it is, like I think a lot
Speaker 2: of it is like like other people like looking in
Speaker 2: the mirror because like I've been like traveling and stuff
Speaker 2: for skating, uh huh, like not necessarily like for like
Speaker 2: skate competicians and shit, but just like I want to
Speaker 2: work in the industry, Like that's what I want to do.
Speaker 2: And skateboarding is like really like die hard. Like if
Speaker 2: you are like in the industry, you're like you're in there,
Speaker 2: if that makes sense. So it's like really hard to
Speaker 2: like get in anyway. Uh, That's what I'm trying to do.
Speaker 2: And I think a lot of people because I live
Speaker 2: in Iowa, I don't know if anyone I will listen
Speaker 2: to this, but fuck it. But like, I live in
Speaker 2: Iowa and we have the biggest skate park in the US.
Speaker 2: But like I feel like a lot of people, like
Speaker 2: I've noticed in general, like a lot of people like
Speaker 2: don't make it out of Iowa, if that makes sense.
Speaker 1: Okay, So stop, I'm gonna stop you right there. You
Speaker 1: say you want to be in the industry. What do
Speaker 1: you want to do, is that you want to be
Speaker 1: a professional skater.
Speaker 2: Not necessarily just doing something that like like whether that's
Speaker 2: like film or like like press boards or like you know,
Speaker 2: draw graphics for board. You know, something like that gets
Speaker 2: me in the industry. And I guess that's what I'm doing.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I was gonna say, I was gonna I was
Speaker 1: gonna say, first of all, you already are in the industry.
Speaker 1: You make money. You make money, okay, but you make
Speaker 1: you make money teaching kids how to skate, yes, And
Speaker 1: you work at a skate shop.
Speaker 4: Yes.
Speaker 1: And these things pay you money.
Speaker 2: Uh yeah, they.
Speaker 1: Don't pay you. It sounds like it sounds like they
Speaker 1: don't pay you as much money as you'd like them
Speaker 1: to pay you right now, Like, but when when when
Speaker 1: but just just when we say, I just want to
Speaker 1: like define this because I really like fucking mean that.
Speaker 1: Like sometimes these things get to vague and that's annoying
Speaker 1: to me. So if we were to define f this,
Speaker 1: like if we were like the industry, if we were
Speaker 1: to define the industry, can you hear me? Please tell
Speaker 1: me you can hear me in this? You can hear me?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 1: Okay. If we were to define the industry as like
Speaker 1: you making money, making enough money to like pay your
Speaker 1: bills by in the in the realm of skateboarding, then
Speaker 1: the industry is not this closed off thing that is
Speaker 1: determined by a select group of people who are cooler
Speaker 1: and smarter than you. But it's it's a it's like
Speaker 1: a wide open field of opportunity. I think. So, I mean,
Speaker 1: tell me, do you what do you want to do
Speaker 1: in skate You just said I want to design things.
Speaker 1: I want to tell me more, like, what do you
Speaker 1: want to what do you want to do?
Speaker 2: I don't know. I guess like I've kind of thought
Speaker 2: about that, but like not to that extent. I guess
Speaker 2: like kind of like my foot in is teaching kids,
Speaker 2: and like I honestly, if I could get paid the
Speaker 2: rest of my life to like do that like enough
Speaker 2: where I'd be like financially well, I would totally do that.
Speaker 1: Why don't see why that? Well, hold on, why is that?
Speaker 1: Why is that a such a far off goal to you?
Speaker 2: Because of right now, like especially in skating, it's like
Speaker 2: in a downfall, and like a lot of companies are
Speaker 2: like shutting down, and like not as many kids are
Speaker 2: skateboarding because like COVID hit and like everybody was like
Speaker 2: looking for something to do, yeah, and then and then
Speaker 2: they found skateboarding and they're like, holy shit, like this
Speaker 2: fucking skateboarding thing. And then uh and then you know
Speaker 2: everyone everything's kind of like open now, and then it's like, oh,
Speaker 2: like we don't need that. So like all these companies
Speaker 2: like overordered shit and like little shit like that, and
Speaker 2: like the skateboarding economy is kind of like crashing as
Speaker 2: of right now.
Speaker 1: What how often are you teaching kids the skateboarding.
Speaker 2: I do an after school thing with kids every like
Speaker 2: once every week, and then like as of right now,
Speaker 2: just because it's like starting to get cold, I do
Speaker 2: like one on one lessons and like I do that
Speaker 2: like maybe once or twice a week, but usually like
Speaker 2: in the summer. It's crazy we have like so like
Speaker 2: I guess during the summer because like we have like
Speaker 2: winters here. I don't know if you've ever been to
Speaker 2: Iowa or not, yeah, but Iowa. Yeah, and there's not
Speaker 2: a lot to do. But it's sick definitely during the summer,
Speaker 2: like all these parents are like getting their kids to
Speaker 2: skate and my shit like that. And so during the summer,
Speaker 2: like I'm like booked all the time because all these
Speaker 2: parents are like finding stuff for their kids to do.
Speaker 2: But like now that kids are back in school, it's
Speaker 2: like slowly going down.
Speaker 1: Man, you said you were twenty Yeah, oh holy shit.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I know. I'm pretty like I'm a baby. I
Speaker 2: feel like sometimes uh.
Speaker 1: Well, I mean, shit, man, you I think you've got
Speaker 1: a lot of uh I don't know that. I feel
Speaker 1: like there's so much opportunity for you. So like do
Speaker 1: you make videos? Do you like market yourself?
Speaker 2: Not necessarily with the what's it called? So I'm leaving
Speaker 2: my house, I don't necessarily like as much, but like regularly.
Speaker 1: Necessarily what you don't you don't necessarily what as much?
Speaker 2: Oh like film like me like doing like skate lessons,
Speaker 2: but like it's out there that I do skate lessons,
Speaker 2: so like people now that I do skate lessons, and
Speaker 2: then like like I do like post skateboarding, and I've
Speaker 2: picked up a couple of sponsors from that and ship
Speaker 2: like that, which is really cool.
Speaker 1: I just don't think that you're uh, I don't think
Speaker 1: this is out of the realm of possibility for you
Speaker 1: to continue to do skateboarding stuff.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't. I guess, like I don't even know
Speaker 2: like why I'm like thinking so hard about the skate
Speaker 2: stuff because like I know, I'll be fine and I'll
Speaker 2: always have skating, So I don't. It's just like a thought.
Speaker 2: I have a lot.
Speaker 1: I I used to I used to love skateboarding. I
Speaker 1: still do love skateboarding, just as like I love I've
Speaker 1: always loved watching it, uh since I was a kid.
Speaker 1: I used to be obsessed with skate three and I
Speaker 1: liked watching a lot of those like skate videos. I
Speaker 1: still uh like watching it. It's scary. I used to.
Speaker 1: I used to live in Venice and I would go
Speaker 1: to Venice Beach and I would watch the skateboarders and
Speaker 1: there were all these like like twelve year olds who
Speaker 1: like were on their fucking like scooters and they were
Speaker 1: jumping off like you they were doing shit that Like
Speaker 1: you know, I'm double these more than double these kids age,
Speaker 1: and I'd be fucking terrified, but they're like with no fear.
Speaker 1: It's fine. I'm not I'm going off the rails here,
Speaker 1: no pun intended. But I thought, I'm watching these kids
Speaker 1: and I'm thinking, I'm like, if I was like this
Speaker 1: kid's father, I would be like, you're never skateboarding ever,
Speaker 1: I would forbid. I would be like, I think I'd
Speaker 1: be pretty good at, like, you know, encouraging my kids
Speaker 1: to like be whoever they want to be or do
Speaker 1: whatever they want to do. But skateboarding, I'm like, oh,
Speaker 1: that's so, it's just so I actually I really like it.
Speaker 1: I like watching it and I appreciate it, but it's
Speaker 1: just so easy to get fucked up, you know.
Speaker 2: Yeah, Like that's how I had surgery. And like I
Speaker 2: think I'm just kind of like scared sometimes because I've
Speaker 2: given so much of my life and like shit into skating,
Speaker 2: like it's my whole like personality kind of, so it's
Speaker 2: like I just want it to work out, but like
Speaker 2: I don't even know like why I'm worrying because like
Speaker 2: wherever I put my energy, that's where you're supposed to go.
Speaker 1: Listen. I don't think. I don't think. I think you
Speaker 1: said it just now nicely. I think I don't think
Speaker 1: you should lament all the time you spend skateboarding. I
Speaker 1: think that uh you you'll have you have so much
Speaker 1: uh uh time to develop yourself however you want to,
Speaker 1: you know.
Speaker 2: I think another thing is like maybe because it's getting cold,
Speaker 2: but like I get kind of bored of skating, Like
Speaker 2: not in a sense where I'm like I'm never gonna
Speaker 2: skate again. Like sometimes like you get stuck, Like you
Speaker 2: get periods where you get stuck because you don't know
Speaker 2: what to do or like learn or something like that,
Speaker 2: and so like you just start getting bored. So I've
Speaker 2: been like doing other stuff and then I'll take a
Speaker 2: couple of day break and then come back and feel
Speaker 2: like a lot better.
Speaker 1: Did What did you say?
Speaker 3: Your name was? Jo?
Speaker 1: Fuck Ship? I'm sorry I don't remember anyone, I Sully?
Speaker 1: Mmmm mm hmmm, Sally is is uh is there anything
Speaker 1: else that you want to say to the people of
Speaker 1: the computer before we go?
Speaker 2: Yes, I do. I'm pulling it up.
Speaker 1: Oh, you wrote something, Yeah, go ahead.
Speaker 2: Not not wrote something, but like I'm really into like
Speaker 2: trying to be happy and find purpose. Uh, I don't know.
Speaker 2: Let's just go with life is best lived in the
Speaker 2: present moment. If not, who fuck? I forgot it?
Speaker 3: Oh?
Speaker 2: Here we go? Sorry? Wait no, oh I'm fucking this up.
Speaker 2: I'm sorry, Lyle.
Speaker 1: It's okay, man, Sorry you.
Speaker 2: Fuck. I just love yourself and like, if people are hating,
Speaker 2: like you're doing something right.
Speaker 1: No, not always, not always, not always at all, not always,
Speaker 1: not always, not always. But I think if if people
Speaker 1: are if people are hating on you because you're skateboarding
Speaker 1: in a weird way, I think those people are are idiots.
Speaker 2: I guess just be the energy you want. It would tract.
Speaker 3: I like that.
Speaker 1: Uh, well, take care, Sally. I hope to see you
Speaker 1: Trey flipping uh all over all over the Tri County
Speaker 1: area one day.
Speaker 2: Thank you. I love you. Can I Sally can? I?
Speaker 1: There we go? He's Sully and I look like Mike Wazowski. Hi.
Speaker 1: Who is this?
Speaker 3: This is John? John?
Speaker 1: What's up? John?
Speaker 3: What's up? Man? I was just calling first. I want
Speaker 3: to say I love your show, bro. You thank you
Speaker 3: doing great things. I appreciate you your show and everything. Sorry,
Speaker 3: I'm a little nervous right now.
Speaker 1: No, it's okay, Thank you very much, John. I appreciate that.
Speaker 1: I appreciate that. What do you do? What are you
Speaker 1: doing right now?
Speaker 3: Where are you right now? I'm at I'm at my house,
Speaker 3: just finished eating some water Burger, some uh cool number eleven.
Speaker 3: Now now I'm chilling in my room next to my cat.
Speaker 1: What's a number eleven at Waterburger?
Speaker 3: That's a grilled chicken sandwich right there?
Speaker 1: Oh shit? What is uh? I didn't know they have
Speaker 1: grilled chicken at Waterburger.
Speaker 3: Yeah, man, they got uh got grilled chicken, they got
Speaker 3: uh fried chicken, they got all kinds of stuff. Used
Speaker 3: to work there as I had.
Speaker 1: Whatater Burger eleven days ago? And uh, against my better judgment,
Speaker 1: I got a Doctor Pepper milkshake. Did you get that?
Speaker 5: Fuck?
Speaker 6: No?
Speaker 1: Because normally here's the thing. Like a Doctor Pepper slurpy
Speaker 1: is something I'm familiar with, but a milkshake is not
Speaker 1: like a I've never heard in my life of like
Speaker 1: a soda milk or even like a Doctor Pepper float.
Speaker 1: But to combine the soda and the ice cream into
Speaker 1: a milkshake is unheard of.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I was, uh, yeah, I don't know about that,
Speaker 3: doctor pepper milkshake. I feel like you'll give.
Speaker 1: Me the ships, you know, yeah, it would, it would. So, John,
Speaker 1: what's up? Was there a reason you called today?
Speaker 2: Yeah?
Speaker 3: Dude, So I wanted to talk like about So I
Speaker 3: haven't talked to anybody about this yet, but just graduate,
Speaker 3: graduated nursing school and stuff like that. Because past my
Speaker 3: my inflex, thank you bro, just past my inclex my
Speaker 3: state exam. I'm a licensed nurse now. But I thought,
Speaker 3: like I thought once I became like a nurse and
Speaker 3: graduated nursing school, like you know, shit would get better, right,
Speaker 3: But it turns out like sh it just got worse,
Speaker 3: Like I think, uh after that, Like after I graduated
Speaker 3: nursing school, i passed my exam, I was like, I
Speaker 3: was the depressed I've ever the most depressed I've ever
Speaker 3: been in my life. And I was like confused because
Speaker 3: I was like, oh, this is a goal I've been
Speaker 3: working towards since I was like in high school, you know.
Speaker 3: So I was I've been contemplating on im like is
Speaker 3: there I wanted to ask you, like what what what
Speaker 3: kind of makes you makes you happy.
Speaker 1: It's interesting you say that. I the other day, like
Speaker 1: two or three days, two days ago, I was in
Speaker 1: my notes app and I was writing down everything that
Speaker 1: had been making me happy lately at least, and I
Speaker 1: could talk about that. But I guess, so for you,
Speaker 1: why did why do you think you felt so depressed
Speaker 1: after graduating?
Speaker 3: So I was, uh, so, I also, I've been trying
Speaker 3: to I was listening to your and I heard that
Speaker 3: you journal and stuff, and I was like, oh, that's
Speaker 3: a good idea. Let me trust journal. So yeah, I
Speaker 3: tried journaling and I was just like kind of typing
Speaker 3: it out, could I do and all that? And I
Speaker 3: realized it was because like nursing school did it did
Speaker 3: it doesn't give you break to like to think other
Speaker 3: than what you have to do, what your schedule's like
Speaker 3: and and all that. And my girlfriend she also moved
Speaker 3: to what she didn't She joined the army and she's
Speaker 3: in career right now, and she was like my main
Speaker 3: like person to talk to you, m so she so
Speaker 3: she left right before I graduated, and then I graduated,
Speaker 3: and then I guess, like all my like emotions kind
Speaker 3: of hit me at once, like everything that was kind
Speaker 3: of being suppressed from like me kind of like grinding
Speaker 3: to graduate and do all this crap.
Speaker 2: I was.
Speaker 3: I think it all hit me at once.
Speaker 1: Yeah, that makes a lot of sense. That actually makes
Speaker 1: like a ton of sense that because there's a there's
Speaker 1: thinking about ship and doing shit, and uh, there's kind
Speaker 1: of I think there's an optimal balance in life between
Speaker 1: thinking about ship and doing shit, like you should like,
Speaker 1: if you're constantly thinking about shit all the time, uh,
Speaker 1: you're gonna be anxious and you're not gonna actually do anything.
Speaker 1: But if you're constantly doing shit all the time, or
Speaker 1: you're not even thinking about why you're doing it or
Speaker 1: like examining your life in any way, shape or form,
Speaker 1: then uh yeah, everything just gets kind of like bottled
Speaker 1: up and comes out at once, or like you know,
Speaker 1: you spend seven years doing some bullshit and then afterwards
Speaker 1: you're like, wait, why did they even do any of that?
Speaker 1: You know, this is optimal, there's like an optimal balance
Speaker 1: of actually living your life versus thinking about it. Are
Speaker 1: you you do you feel like you spent too much
Speaker 1: time doing and not enough time examining why you were
Speaker 1: doing what you were doing or what was kind of
Speaker 1: even going on in your life of a time.
Speaker 3: So I kind of figured out, like, all right, I
Speaker 3: want to be in like I want to because I
Speaker 3: enjoy helping people stuff like that. But even fuck, dude,
Speaker 3: don't I don't. Sorry, sorry dudles, your question again. I
Speaker 3: kind of blank out how bad my question was.
Speaker 1: If you feel like you've been spending too much time
Speaker 1: doing shit that you haven't spent enough time thinking about
Speaker 1: your life?
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, I think I've been yeah, yeah, definitely,
Speaker 3: I've been uh shit, well single. I think I don't
Speaker 3: remember the last time I was, uh say, I think
Speaker 3: maybe four years ago I was single. I didn't have
Speaker 3: a girlfriend, so I was no, it's probably like five
Speaker 3: So I think I've constantly had like someone there to
Speaker 3: like distract me and kind of keep my mind from
Speaker 3: from all like a bunch of crap, you know. Yeah,
Speaker 3: and with the school I've been in school for since
Speaker 3: I since like twenty eighteen. I just kind of went
Speaker 3: all over the place with school and then landing here.
Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah, so uh is your so are you single
Speaker 1: now or your girlfriend? Is she she's away right where
Speaker 1: she's in Korea?
Speaker 3: Yeah, she's in Korea, and the army.
Speaker 1: Yeah, how like is she gonna be there? How long
Speaker 1: are you guys gonna be separated? For you?
Speaker 2: Oh, like a year?
Speaker 1: Uh huh? What you What have you been doing since
Speaker 1: you've graduated?
Speaker 3: So since since I graduated, I was studying for the
Speaker 3: state exam, so I was keeping busy with that. And
Speaker 3: I I took my state exam. When was it last week? Monday?
Speaker 3: So since then, dude, I've just been like going to
Speaker 3: the gym, should just whatever. I kind of kind of
Speaker 3: feel like I like making food. I've just been like
Speaker 3: doing ship to kind of keep me busy. Mm hmm,
Speaker 3: yeah I haven't. I haven't just been chilling now.
Speaker 1: Why so, why do you think you're so depressed? Then?
Speaker 3: So? Oh dude, so I was. I was, Uh, I
Speaker 3: don't know, that was the thing. I don't know where
Speaker 3: the fuck I was. I was so depressed. I was
Speaker 3: trying to think of like, uh, I was, I was
Speaker 3: gonna go to therapy too, but those fuckers aren't calling
Speaker 3: me back. I was thinking maybe, like I was, I
Speaker 3: was trying to think, maybe it is like it or
Speaker 3: hereditary because my mom she's on uh SSR, I is
Speaker 3: or like and and I had depressed into or whatever,
Speaker 3: and uh, she's on them, and then my grandma's pretty crazy,
Speaker 3: and then my mom's brother is pretty crazy. So it's like, oh, fuck,
Speaker 3: is it like hereditary to have like a chemical imbalance?
Speaker 3: Do I need to be I'm like antidepressants or what.
Speaker 3: So I was trying to go to a therapist or
Speaker 3: is that or is that a psychiatrist?
Speaker 1: Uh, the psychiatrist is the one that does meds and
Speaker 1: the therapist is the one that stares at you and
Speaker 1: goes yes, uh huh yeah.
Speaker 3: Uh huh yeah. Uh. I don't really know, dude, I've
Speaker 3: been I'm trying to trying to figure that out. I
Speaker 3: was I was on YouTube before you went on stream.
Speaker 3: I saw a clip from Kai Sinnat with John Cena
Speaker 3: and then he was uh, he was spit in some
Speaker 3: some some truth. He was saying like he he thought
Speaker 3: his purpose on the world was to like be a
Speaker 3: wrestler and then he became an actor and he was like,
Speaker 3: oh so I'm like, ah, like, uh, I forgot what
Speaker 3: he said, like an entertainer or some ship. But then
Speaker 3: he said he realized like that those things weren't making
Speaker 3: him like half, those weren't his main source of happiness,
Speaker 3: like external forces this this it's not like directly quoted,
Speaker 3: but it's kind of like what he was saying, Like
Speaker 3: these things weren't his uh source of happiness or his
Speaker 3: his uh his purpose, but he he said he was
Speaker 3: grateful for like waking up in the morning and like
Speaker 3: being so fortunate to be where he's at. So I
Speaker 3: was I was trying to think, like what the what
Speaker 3: the fuck? Like I thought being a nurse would like
Speaker 3: make me like, uh have like some sort of purpose,
Speaker 3: you know, like or happiness.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 3: So yeah, because like this goal I was I was
Speaker 3: going for since I was like in high school. I
Speaker 3: finally got and I thought it would have been like this,
Speaker 3: you fork, euphoric feeling of like oh shit, dude, finally
Speaker 3: did it. Yeah. I was like, oh, like I was
Speaker 3: expecting that. But when I was when I graduated, I
Speaker 3: was walking with my friends, and my friends were like like.
Speaker 2: Oh, hyped up.
Speaker 3: They're like, oh shit, we did it, blah blah blah,
Speaker 3: and I was just like like like expressionless, Like I
Speaker 3: was just like I wanted to be happy. I just couldn't,
Speaker 3: Like I couldn't do it. I don't know. It was weird.
Speaker 1: So all right, I mean, I have, I have some
Speaker 1: thoughts and these are just I'm just going off of
Speaker 1: like my own lived experience, Okay, and everyone's brains are
Speaker 1: differently and uh, you know, brain chemistry and shit is
Speaker 1: a thing. So you know, aside from just me and
Speaker 1: Kai Sinnat, you should definitely still try to find a
Speaker 1: real therapist or psychiatrist to talk through these things with.
Speaker 1: But while you're waiting for them to call you back,
Speaker 1: and it is just me and Kai Sinnat, I'll say
Speaker 1: from my own lived experience that I but that what
Speaker 1: makes Because you asked me earlier, you were like, what
Speaker 1: makes me happy? And I wrote down a list, and
Speaker 1: lately the things that are making me really happy, especially
Speaker 1: as I get older and as I get kind of
Speaker 1: further along in my what I'm doing, they become strongly
Speaker 1: less and less about accomplishments and far more about general
Speaker 1: peace of mind. Like again, I can only speak from
Speaker 1: my lived experience. I've accomplished what I like is a lot,
Speaker 1: and I feel grateful to have accomplished and experienced and
Speaker 1: everything that I've accomplished and experienced in my life. But
Speaker 1: you know, I was pretty and I've you know, there's
Speaker 1: there's been a lot of misery among those accomplishments. And
Speaker 1: as far as just like my general state of being,
Speaker 1: it comes less from anything I've accomplished and more from like,
Speaker 1: how do I achieve just like a like peace? And
Speaker 1: I don't think that peace is necessarily achieved by achieving
Speaker 1: a lot of stuff. I'm no expert and how peace
Speaker 1: is achieved, because if I were, I would be more peaceful.
Speaker 1: But just in my own life, I think peace is
Speaker 1: something you kind of arrived to. The acceptance and the
Speaker 1: you know you talked about like how you haven't even
Speaker 1: sorted through the thoughts like you have you've had You've
Speaker 1: been distracted. That's kind of was some of the things
Speaker 1: you've been talked about. You said you felt distracted by
Speaker 1: like your girlfriend and by your work and whatnot. And
Speaker 1: I think taking some time away from those distractions to
Speaker 1: like work out why your brain is rattled or what
Speaker 1: the fuck is bothering you is helpful. I have, personally,
Speaker 1: I have struggled with the the opposite where I think
Speaker 1: there's wait, I talked about this again, there's the if
Speaker 1: you if every single day you're thinking so much about
Speaker 1: yourself and your life and analyzing everything you do, you'll
Speaker 1: you get, you get. It makes you kind of anxious,
Speaker 1: but there needs to be an appropriate amount of like, Okay,
Speaker 1: let me examine why I feel the way I feel,
Speaker 1: and maybe I can achieve a little bit of peace
Speaker 1: through that. But like you know, at a certain point,
Speaker 1: put the fucking pen down and uh go, you know,
Speaker 1: play call of duty, do whatever you gotta do to
Speaker 1: turn your brain off. Yeah, I'm trying to think with
Speaker 1: your specific situation. Hm hmmm, I mean, do you like nursing?
Speaker 1: Do you like the process of That's the other thing
Speaker 1: with the achievements is that they're not particularly process focused, right,
Speaker 1: m So do you like nursing? Do you do you
Speaker 1: like schooling? Are you excited to literally do the functions
Speaker 1: of your job?
Speaker 3: I'm I'm pretty excited to do my job. I'm it
Speaker 3: was weird, man, because when I when I first when
Speaker 3: I first started like nursing, I was uh more compassionate.
Speaker 3: I was more compassionate than I am now because I
Speaker 3: work in the hospitals as a tech. Yeah, and you
Speaker 3: you see like a lot of uh I mean yeah,
Speaker 3: you see people dying. You see like death and ship
Speaker 3: So fuck man, I don't know. I felt more compassionate
Speaker 3: when I first started. But I do enjoy I really do, like,
Speaker 3: uh like doing like the ICU kind of thing when
Speaker 3: I did my clinicals. I mean, people are dying there more,
Speaker 3: but I enjoy like the I enjoy that. But I
Speaker 3: was trying to think, yeah, there's not really like a
Speaker 3: process of of of doing that. But even then in
Speaker 3: the ICU, I can't even like look forward. I mean
Speaker 3: I can, but I can't like look forward to that
Speaker 3: either because it's like, well, ship, like I can't base
Speaker 3: my happiness anymore on that, like anymore getting to a place.
Speaker 1: Wow, what do you mean? What do you mean.
Speaker 3: Like I can't base my happiness or I can't depend
Speaker 3: on on getting to a certain like destination two make
Speaker 3: me happy anymore?
Speaker 6: Because sure I did that with uh, with like graduating
Speaker 6: and ship, and it fucking it's like, uh like I
Speaker 6: just like.
Speaker 3: Kind of blew my fucking world apart, you.
Speaker 5: Know, yeah, because I was like, oh, I thought this
Speaker 5: should have been it, you know, like I'm starting like
Speaker 5: I'm not going to be broken more.
Speaker 1: I mean I guess every day I had a fuck
Speaker 1: man ah fuck uh, I guess every day you try
Speaker 1: to take pride in your own competence. I mean, you're
Speaker 1: a you're a nurse, you help people, you're you seem
Speaker 1: to be competent at your job, and like that's kind
Speaker 1: of everything. That's the only thing. I've been coming to
Speaker 1: a lot of epiphanies lately, and that's one of them,
Speaker 1: is that the only things that matter are like, you know,
Speaker 1: the people you're around, and then like what you're actually
Speaker 1: fucking doing. You know, So you could have all the
Speaker 1: accolades or whatever in the world, but it all, it
Speaker 1: all really comes down to what the fuck are you
Speaker 1: actually doing. And what the fuck you're actually doing is
Speaker 1: you're being competent and you're helping people who are dying.
Speaker 1: So you got that on a pretty solid lock, I
Speaker 1: would say, mm hmm.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 3: It's it's how how often do you feel like if
Speaker 3: it's not too personal of a question, how like like depressed,
Speaker 3: like you.
Speaker 1: I feel I feel I feel the pressed. I feel
Speaker 1: the pressed pretty often. Man, Yeah, I feel depressed pretty often.
Speaker 1: I'm working really hard and I think achieving actually some results,
Speaker 1: like I've I've Yeah, I mean I feel depressed pretty often,
Speaker 1: And lately I've been kind of saying to myself, I
Speaker 1: need to make a concentrated effort to prioritize not feeling
Speaker 1: depressed as much. Like that's my new goal. That's kind
Speaker 1: of my end. I've been having a lot of epiphanies lately,
Speaker 1: and one of them is, you know, my new goal
Speaker 1: is just I can not be depressed because you can
Speaker 1: have as many you know, as we're kind of on
Speaker 1: theme of what I think we're talking about, is you
Speaker 1: can have as many get to as many places as
Speaker 1: you want to get to as possible. But if you're
Speaker 1: fucking miserable the whole time, then I don't think it
Speaker 1: was worth it. You know, you have to kind of
Speaker 1: it's a lot of work to not be miserable if
Speaker 1: that's your default state of being. Some people get lucky
Speaker 1: and they they're not that's not really their default state
Speaker 1: of being, or they don't have to deal with that,
Speaker 1: and that's great. But if you're one of the people who, uh,
Speaker 1: that is a fairly common state of being, it's a
Speaker 1: lot of PHASI fucking concentrated effort to not be that,
Speaker 1: you know. So that's I guess what I'm working on.
Speaker 3: Yeah, you know who David Goggins is.
Speaker 1: My friend, my friend, one of my friends just went
Speaker 1: through a breakup and we talked on the phone and
Speaker 1: a few days afterwards, and he was like, I'm in
Speaker 1: my David Goggins phase of the breakup where he's he's
Speaker 1: all on that like run wake up at four am
Speaker 1: and run ten miles a day. Ship.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I was. I was. I used to I used
Speaker 3: to be my fucking idol. And I was like, I mean,
Speaker 3: he seems pretty chill with a misery. So I was like, oh,
Speaker 3: maybe maybe David Goggins is the way.
Speaker 1: Maybe he's he seems pretty chill with misery. What do
Speaker 1: you mean by that?
Speaker 3: Like he seems pretty uh. He he always says like comfortable,
Speaker 3: like comfortable with being uh like there's a not fucking miserable,
Speaker 3: like comfortable with with uh being like uncomfortable with with
Speaker 3: like pain like mental mental pain, and like, oh sure pain.
Speaker 1: Well, well, because well he well that's different.
Speaker 3: That's me.
Speaker 1: That's he's like, I want to wake up, I wake
Speaker 1: up at four o'clock in the morning. And I like,
Speaker 1: that's a whole different fucking thing, I think. But I
Speaker 1: think that's a little different than like the whole like
Speaker 1: woo woo self acceptance vibe.
Speaker 3: You know, Yeah, I guess I kind of watched his
Speaker 3: videos sometimes and I'm and I'm like, oh, maybe I'm
Speaker 3: just a bitch man. Maybe I need to, like, you know,
Speaker 3: like shut the fuck up and a little bit.
Speaker 1: I really, I really, I really I swear. And this
Speaker 1: is I'm an I'm gonna say. I'm gonna say this
Speaker 1: because I think it's kind. I think I do find
Speaker 1: it important. I really do believe, and I've thought I
Speaker 1: swear my life. I think about this stuff so much.
Speaker 1: I think about the David Goggins universe, and I think
Speaker 1: about the WU will self, the self acceptance universe a
Speaker 1: bunch and I and I like, like, how much of
Speaker 1: I really do believe? The answer is somewhere? Truly, honestly,
Speaker 1: I really believe the answer is somewhere in between. Like
Speaker 1: it's not one or the other, it's somewhere in between.
Speaker 1: The universe of like, you gotta love yourself and accept life,
Speaker 1: accept yourself as who you are, and accept life for
Speaker 1: what it is, and accept your improfessions, accept your imperfections
Speaker 1: and accept the world and accept yourself and believe that
Speaker 1: you're enough. But also quit being a little bitch and
Speaker 1: fucking go exercise and quit complaining about fucking everything, and like,
Speaker 1: do some fucking work and stop. You know, it's somewhere
Speaker 1: in between those two things. I think, I think, I
Speaker 1: think you could. I really, I believe you could hold
Speaker 1: space for both ideas.
Speaker 3: You should get David Goggins on your on your podcast.
Speaker 1: That would be extremely funny. Anyway, man, is there is
Speaker 1: there anything else you want to say to the people
Speaker 1: of the computer before we go?
Speaker 3: Uh? Shit? Fuck, I didn't think. I didn't think what
Speaker 3: to say. Uh have a oh ship name alert? I mean,
Speaker 3: have a good day, keep watching the geck.
Speaker 1: Well, what what's the amber alert? Should we say? I
Speaker 1: guess I guess that what's the Amber alert? They'll probably
Speaker 1: be gone by the.
Speaker 3: Time Mitsubishi Outlander missing children are assume that ship. I
Speaker 3: can't say their name ten year old suspect because Cheryl's
Speaker 3: Manchado Hernandez Jesus.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I kind of wish I didn't ask you to.
Speaker 1: I mean, well, I don't think we're gonna find them
Speaker 1: from the from this episode, but maybe we do. I
Speaker 1: don't know. Anyway, Yeah, I have those turned off on
Speaker 1: my phone. Is that bad? Does that make me a
Speaker 1: bad person?
Speaker 3: I wish, I wish I knew how to do that
Speaker 3: because one happened at like four in the fucking morning,
Speaker 3: and I had to get up at five, and I
Speaker 3: was pretty pissed off. I mean, it sucks someone's uh,
Speaker 3: you know, child got abducted. Yeah, but uh, I was like.
Speaker 1: Yeah, you're gonna sleep, you're probably having a kick ast.
Speaker 3: Yeah, Like what can what could I do? You know? Right?
Speaker 1: All right? Well, what's your name again?
Speaker 3: John?
Speaker 1: John? Have a good night, John? Good luck?
Speaker 3: You do, man, you do?
Speaker 1: I really do. I really think the answer is somewhere
Speaker 1: in between those two spaces, because I'm there, Yeah, because
Speaker 1: there's a push and a pull. I think I'm only
Speaker 1: speaking out of my own fucking lived experience. I don't
Speaker 1: know the answers to any of the fucking questions that
Speaker 1: of any of the things that people talk about on
Speaker 1: this thing. But there's a push and a pull between,
Speaker 1: Like you want more out of your life. In order
Speaker 1: to get more out of your life, you do have
Speaker 1: to like quit being a little bitch and like go
Speaker 1: fucking exercise and like you know, uh, work hard and
Speaker 1: do things that to get you have to exert force
Speaker 1: and will yourself forward to make more out of your life.
Speaker 1: That is true. But if you're gonna fucking if the
Speaker 1: whole way there is filled with you fucking being hating
Speaker 1: yourself and being miserable and thinking that you're the fucking
Speaker 1: that you suck, it's not, it's not. I just don't
Speaker 1: think it's a proper equation. I think it's probably room
Speaker 1: to for both to get there. It's like, I believe
Speaker 1: that you can get you can get more out of
Speaker 1: your life without having to be miserable and hate yourself
Speaker 1: to get there. I don't know if that's true. But
Speaker 1: that's my that's I'm EXPERI I'm doing that experiment in
Speaker 1: my own life recently. That's my that's my recent epiphany.
Speaker 1: That's my new experiment for myself. Can I move my
Speaker 1: life forward from a but do it from a place
Speaker 1: where I'm not hating myself into submission? I don't know.
Speaker 1: I'll report back to you guys in ten years if
Speaker 1: it all went well.
Speaker 2: All from dragone?
Speaker 1: Hello, Hello, Hi? What is your name? Uh?
Speaker 4: Dragone?
Speaker 1: Oh, it's like the let's say they like the Pokemon
Speaker 1: mm hmm.
Speaker 4: My boyfriend and I are coloring some Pokemon right now, so.
Speaker 1: It sounds that sounds really fucking nice. You guys are
Speaker 1: coloring together, dude, it really is.
Speaker 4: And I feel like the last time we tried to
Speaker 4: color together we couldn't get into it this much. But
Speaker 4: now we're just coloring doodle and it's really nice.
Speaker 1: That's fucking awesome. I gotta you know, what I gotta
Speaker 1: write that down is an idea of something to do,
Speaker 1: just like sit down and color. I can't. I don't
Speaker 1: know when the last time I did that was.
Speaker 4: You should do it, definitely, it.
Speaker 1: Sounds really nice. Well, dragon Night, I mean, we can
Speaker 1: just you know, fuck around, But do you have something
Speaker 1: particular you want to talk about.
Speaker 4: Well, I've been watching you for probably about a month now,
Speaker 4: and I have this thing with podcasts where I start
Speaker 4: from the very beginning, like your first video, have and
Speaker 4: been watching it. But I guess kind of just been
Speaker 4: struggling with like figuring out what I want to do
Speaker 4: as a jult, which I feel like is common. But
Speaker 4: I think I really like what you do, and I
Speaker 4: really like talking to people and getting to know people
Speaker 4: and like how they grew up to be the way
Speaker 4: they are. I just I don't know what career I
Speaker 4: can make out of that.
Speaker 1: Are you in college right now or what's up.
Speaker 4: No, I graduated high school a year ago and not
Speaker 4: in college. I'm just working, just working and working.
Speaker 1: Mhm. And so you want to do some kind of
Speaker 1: job where you can like talk to people.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I just I really like learning about how people
Speaker 4: have grown up and how they become who they are
Speaker 4: and why they act like that. I just like, I've
Speaker 4: been thinking about a therapist, but I don't I don't know.
Speaker 4: I feel like I would take their emotions to heart
Speaker 4: and it would like hurt me in some way.
Speaker 3: I guess you.
Speaker 1: Feel like you would take their emotions to heart and
Speaker 1: it would hurt you in some way. I guess, well,
Speaker 1: I guess well, I guess if you I mean, I
Speaker 1: could talk about my own life. Yeah, I mean I
Speaker 1: I have no interest, ever, no interest ever in becoming
Speaker 1: like an actual therapist, like having this kind of I mean,
Speaker 1: that's kind of feels that's like a lot of responsibility.
Speaker 1: I think, yeah, that's kind of and it's a lot
Speaker 1: of work, and it's a lot of school, and it's
Speaker 1: a lot of like I mean, I I'm nothing close
Speaker 1: to a real therapist. I just fuck around on a
Speaker 1: podcast and chat with people. But you know, I think
Speaker 1: there's a lot of nobility in becoming a real therapist
Speaker 1: if you're you're you really really want to help people.
Speaker 1: But yeah, I mean I like learning about other people's
Speaker 1: learned experiences, and I like getting to chat with a
Speaker 1: lot of people, and so I just do it fucking
Speaker 1: around on the internet. I do it in the phone
Speaker 1: call stuff. I do it in the live shows, I
Speaker 1: do it in the street, And there's nothing. If that's
Speaker 1: what you want to do, you want to just make
Speaker 1: you want to just go out into the fucking world
Speaker 1: with a pencil and interview people. I mean you can
Speaker 1: do that today. You know, you're right If we're talking
Speaker 1: about like what do you want to do to make
Speaker 1: money so that you can live in a place and eat,
Speaker 1: it doesn't necessarily have to be the same thing that
Speaker 1: you do to you know, to to gain enrichment from life.
Speaker 3: HM.
Speaker 1: Well go ahead, No, go ahead.
Speaker 4: I would just like, well, for a question for you,
Speaker 4: is like what made you want to talk to people
Speaker 4: like this over the phone?
Speaker 1: I this had this my this happened on accident. It
Speaker 1: was yeah, this happened on accident. This was there was
Speaker 1: never this was not there was this? What I my
Speaker 1: life and what I do is not the result of
Speaker 1: me going, uh oh, I really want to talk to people,
Speaker 1: and uh maybe I could, maybe I could do this
Speaker 1: therapy gecko thing that could be a thing. I just
Speaker 1: was scoring around on the internet and people started calling
Speaker 1: in and then as a result of fucking around, uh,
Speaker 1: I kind of fell into doing this and it worked.
Speaker 1: Then it was kind of this whole thing. But none
Speaker 1: of this was not I like fell into a weird thing.
Speaker 1: I always knew I wanted to do something that was
Speaker 1: my own thing. I was always wanted to be like
Speaker 1: an entrepreneur of some kind or do something that was
Speaker 1: like weird or fun or interesting. But being a therapy
Speaker 1: gecko was a complete accident. Hmm.
Speaker 4: I don't know. I feel like a lot of things
Speaker 4: happened just by chance. Two So.
Speaker 1: They do, they do, they do, but but they they Okay,
Speaker 1: they do, all right, let me add a let me
Speaker 1: add something to this so therapy gin this thing that
Speaker 1: I'm doing happened as a complete accident. But the accident
Speaker 1: happened as a result of a certain way that I
Speaker 1: do think I is being intentional about my life, Like
Speaker 1: I intentionally screwed around, you know, I was exerting intentional
Speaker 1: effort into making stuff and doing stuff and trying new things,
Speaker 1: and that created an accident. Does that make sense? So
Speaker 1: you have a desire that do you want to talk
Speaker 1: to people? Right? You like, so, why don't you just
Speaker 1: write down like five fucking ways that you could do
Speaker 1: that and then just go do them. Just start doing stuff, okay,
Speaker 1: and then and then maybe you'll run into a nice accident.
Speaker 1: I was. I did like a So I went to
Speaker 1: college at at Temple University in Philly, and I went
Speaker 1: back there like a month ago to uh like talk
Speaker 1: to students there and shit, and somebody asked me. They
Speaker 1: were like, how do you figure out what you want
Speaker 1: to do? And I didn't. I first split second, I
Speaker 1: was like, I don't know. I'm currently trying to figure
Speaker 1: out what I want to do, you know, with my life,
Speaker 1: even though I already do this, I still I'm trying
Speaker 1: to figure out, like, well, what do I really want
Speaker 1: to do? And then the answer kind of came to me.
Speaker 1: I was like, uh, it's you have it flipped. He
Speaker 1: I told me that it flipped somebody. I by the way,
Speaker 1: I'm a hundred percent by the way, I don't want
Speaker 1: to I'm like, ut my own ass right now. I
Speaker 1: almost certainly got this from somebody else just to be
Speaker 1: I probably got this from like a YouTube comment or
Speaker 1: some shit. But I think it's the other way around.
Speaker 1: I think you're supposed to just do stuff and then
Speaker 1: figure out what you want to do, because you sit
Speaker 1: there trying to figure out what you want to do,
Speaker 1: and then you don't figure out what you want to
Speaker 1: do and then do it. You do things and then
Speaker 1: and then figure out if you actually like the thing
Speaker 1: you're doing.
Speaker 4: Okay, yeah, just do more social things things then maybe
Speaker 4: just meet more people just like Yeah, I think I
Speaker 4: think you called it an omnivert or something someone that's
Speaker 4: like extroverted and introverted.
Speaker 1: Oh I ambivert ambivert.
Speaker 4: Yeah, and I've been like I'm extroverted, but I've also
Speaker 4: been really introverted lady lately, and I want to make friends,
Speaker 4: but I don't feel like coffee and it's just it's
Speaker 4: not a fun cycle.
Speaker 1: Well you're like nineteen, yeah, Well and you're a are
Speaker 1: you in like a big.
Speaker 4: City kind of next to a big city.
Speaker 1: Okay, okay, and you don't go to school, yeah, because
Speaker 1: I guess normally I guess, like, yeah, when I was nineteen.
Speaker 1: I went to in college, and it's easy. It's it
Speaker 1: does make it easier to be like because you're in
Speaker 1: a big, walkable community with a bunch of fucking clubs
Speaker 1: and shit going on. But right, I don't know, try
Speaker 1: to leave your house as much as you can.
Speaker 4: Okay, I'll start doing that because I've been trying to
Speaker 4: look for a second job because the job I do,
Speaker 4: I just sit on the computer all ding, don't get
Speaker 4: too much human interaction, yes, and sucks. Yeah, So I've
Speaker 4: been trying to look for a second job, something that
Speaker 4: has more socializing, I guess. So I'll just keep trying
Speaker 4: to look for things to do outside.
Speaker 1: What's your name again, dragon knighte? Dragon KNIGHTE. Uh, Well,
Speaker 1: coloring is a good idea, Like I'm gonna ta I'm
Speaker 1: gonna take a you've given me. I feel like you've
Speaker 1: given me more advice on this than I have because
Speaker 1: I'm gonna take the I'm gonna take your coloring thing.
Speaker 1: I'm gonna do that.
Speaker 4: Uh, definitely do it.
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the
Speaker 1: people of the computer before we go.
Speaker 4: I don't think so. I just I really am inspired
Speaker 4: by what you do. I think it's really click.
Speaker 3: Thank you.
Speaker 1: I'm trying my best keep it up.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 4: I like learning more about you, so you.
Speaker 1: Know, I'm trying to talk more about myself. It feels good.
Speaker 1: I get why people want to hop on here and
Speaker 1: talk about themselves. It feels it's fun to talk about
Speaker 1: yourself on a podcast.
Speaker 4: Mm hmm yeah. So yeah, I appreciate you talking to me.
Speaker 4: It's been fun.
Speaker 1: God bless you Dragon.
Speaker 4: I take care you too, Bye bye.
Speaker 1: Oh man. I wish I was funnier. Sometimes I'll like,
Speaker 1: like when I can't like when I find myself being
Speaker 1: too sincere or like just talking very sincerely for a
Speaker 1: long time. Here's this happens to me all the time.
Speaker 1: I'll be talking too sincerely for a while, and I'm like,
Speaker 1: I need to say something stupid or try to be
Speaker 1: funny to break up this long streak of me talking
Speaker 1: sincerely and being up my own ass. And so I
Speaker 1: try to say something funny and then it's just not funny.
Speaker 1: And then I'm like, well, now I've just ruined this sincerity,
Speaker 1: and so I get so I just don't say anything,
Speaker 1: but I wish. I often wish I had something funnier
Speaker 1: to say when I'm saying something sincere. But what That's fine.
Speaker 1: I accept myself for who I am in this very moment.
Speaker 1: That's okay. Whatever, whatever, let's fuck this, Let's play an ad.
Speaker 1: Fuck this, let's play an ad. We do we even
Speaker 1: add after this? I don't know if I'm gonna put
Speaker 1: this call. I don't know if I'm gonna put an
Speaker 1: AD after this, or if it's going to be the
Speaker 1: end of the podcast. But whatever, I don't ask, but whatever,
Speaker 1: I don't know, I don't know. Sorry, I'm sorry. Goes
Speaker 1: on the line every night.
Speaker 6: Everythink goes towards Eye, who is teaching you how to
Speaker 6: your life, but he's not really an expert.