WEBVTT - OCD AND SKATEBOARDING 0:00:00.120 --> 0:00:03.520 Hello, Hello, Hi. What's your name? 0:00:04.640 --> 0:00:06.439 No fucking way, Sully. 0:00:06.760 --> 0:00:09.360 Sully, like the monster. 0:00:09.280 --> 0:00:11.959 Guy, Yeah from Monsters, Inc. 0:00:12.680 --> 0:00:15.640 What's up, Sully? How can I get you today? What's 0:00:15.680 --> 0:00:18.520 happening on the planet Earth? From your perspective? 0:00:21.360 --> 0:00:22.960 I guess what I wanted to talk to you about 0:00:23.000 --> 0:00:23.960 is numbers. 0:00:24.440 --> 0:00:26.920 Oh yeah, I have this, like I. 0:00:26.880 --> 0:00:30.200 Have this like weird thing with numbers. It might hurt 0:00:30.200 --> 0:00:34.159 your brain. Holy shit, I can't believe I'm talking to you. 0:00:34.280 --> 0:00:37.560 This ship is crazy numbers with some numbers. 0:00:38.800 --> 0:00:45.760 Any way. So it's like I'm like self city because 0:00:47.320 --> 0:00:52.720 I skateboard a lot, and I like can only try 0:00:52.880 --> 0:00:58.600 like certain stuff a certain amount of times, and like 0:00:58.600 --> 0:01:00.880 like I don't know how I'll explain it with that 0:01:01.080 --> 0:01:01.720 like being. 0:01:01.600 --> 0:01:04.400 Weird you So just just to cut I'm gonna cut 0:01:04.440 --> 0:01:06.520 you off for just a second because your your thing 0:01:06.640 --> 0:01:08.160 kind of cut out a little bit. But you said 0:01:08.200 --> 0:01:12.280 you were self diagoned, that you've self di diagnosed with OCD. 0:01:13.920 --> 0:01:20.320 Well like kind of my parents and shit have kind 0:01:20.319 --> 0:01:25.040 of told me because like I don't know. It's like, okay, 0:01:25.080 --> 0:01:29.720 if I'm skateboarding and I do it a trick and 0:01:29.760 --> 0:01:32.880 I'm like, oh shit, I'm really close. But I'm like 0:01:33.520 --> 0:01:37.280 a numb I meant like try like ten or something 0:01:37.400 --> 0:01:40.640 like that, depending on what day of the week. I 0:01:40.720 --> 0:01:45.400 won't try it the eleventh try seriously if that makes sense. 0:01:46.400 --> 0:01:53.680 Okay, so these okay, tell me more about these numbers. 0:01:54.040 --> 0:01:57.080 Does this occur in your life in any in any 0:01:57.120 --> 0:01:59.240 form other than in skateboarding? 0:02:02.160 --> 0:02:05.520 I yeah, so, like real quick backstory. How it like 0:02:05.640 --> 0:02:09.200 started was like you ever, like you're listening to music 0:02:09.360 --> 0:02:11.960 and then you like accidentally skip a song that you 0:02:12.040 --> 0:02:14.760 wanted to play, so you skip back to it. 0:02:17.320 --> 0:02:20.760 M yes, yes, yeah. 0:02:20.400 --> 0:02:22.880 So I would do that, but I would go like 0:02:23.760 --> 0:02:26.200 back and forth, back and forth, back and forth until 0:02:26.280 --> 0:02:28.600 like it felt right to listen to that song. 0:02:30.400 --> 0:02:32.080 How many times would you go back and forth? 0:02:33.200 --> 0:02:35.679 I don't know, it would just whatever felt right. 0:02:35.720 --> 0:02:38.560 I guess this does actually sound like OCD. 0:02:39.880 --> 0:02:42.800 Yeah. And then it like went into like numbers and 0:02:42.840 --> 0:02:46.959 then like like I've I've always put on like Okay, 0:02:46.960 --> 0:02:50.120 this is weird, but like a certain like swipes the 0:02:50.200 --> 0:02:54.600 deodorant or like how many like swishes I do with 0:02:54.800 --> 0:02:58.760 like brushing my teeth and shit like that, if that 0:02:58.840 --> 0:03:05.200 makes sense, And like if I'm like so, say, at work, right, 0:03:05.280 --> 0:03:08.320 I pull into the parking lot depending on what day 0:03:08.360 --> 0:03:10.880 of the week it is, I can only park in 0:03:10.919 --> 0:03:13.560 that spot a certain amount of times during the week. 0:03:15.520 --> 0:03:15.920 Hmm. 0:03:17.800 --> 0:03:19.560 Yeah, all of this hurts my brain. 0:03:20.800 --> 0:03:22.080 How long have you been like this? 0:03:23.880 --> 0:03:24.280 Uh? 0:03:24.440 --> 0:03:27.079 Ever since I was probably like I think, like a 0:03:27.160 --> 0:03:30.440 junior in high school and I'm twenty now, so probably 0:03:30.440 --> 0:03:32.080 like four years. 0:03:32.600 --> 0:03:35.320 All right, what have you gone to see like a 0:03:35.360 --> 0:03:36.600 psychiatrist about this? 0:03:38.320 --> 0:03:45.400 No, which I probably should, But like sometimes it's like 0:03:45.600 --> 0:03:52.320 money and like sometimes like my parents are crazy, not 0:03:52.440 --> 0:03:54.720 my parents, more my mom. I love my mom, but 0:03:55.680 --> 0:03:59.600 she's kind of crazy sometimes and like she had a 0:03:59.600 --> 0:04:01.680 bad ex experience with shit like that when she was 0:04:01.720 --> 0:04:04.720 a kid, so she kind of is like, don't go 0:04:05.560 --> 0:04:13.960 and then like money, So I just talked to family 0:04:14.000 --> 0:04:16.080 about it, and then it kind of makes me feel better. 0:04:16.440 --> 0:04:18.440 Okay, what is what happens when you talk to your 0:04:18.440 --> 0:04:19.120 family about it? 0:04:20.560 --> 0:04:24.159 Uh? My grandpa just reassures me that, like it's just 0:04:25.000 --> 0:04:27.200 it's not like regular shit. But I might have like 0:04:28.000 --> 0:04:33.160 an OCD or something like that. And then like I 0:04:33.200 --> 0:04:36.599 don't know, definitely, the older I'm getting like kind of 0:04:36.640 --> 0:04:39.479 the better it's gotten, do you know what I mean? 0:04:40.880 --> 0:04:44.159 Like now it's not so much now it's not so 0:04:44.279 --> 0:04:48.160 much like an everyday thing. Like it's still an everyday thing, 0:04:48.720 --> 0:04:52.880 but not as much because like sometimes I'll have these 0:04:52.920 --> 0:04:59.320 like crazy fucking like not episodes, but like some days 0:04:59.360 --> 0:05:01.200 I'll just be fun and like I have to touch 0:05:01.200 --> 0:05:04.360 shit a certain amount of times and like shit like that. 0:05:04.440 --> 0:05:09.239 But like today, like I'm chilling, like I'm fine, life 0:05:09.320 --> 0:05:12.919 is great. So it's weird. 0:05:14.839 --> 0:05:23.560 H I really I oh man, well I'm conflicted exact. 0:05:23.560 --> 0:05:26.159 I mean, well, I really just think you should probably 0:05:26.200 --> 0:05:28.320 see a psychiatrist. 0:05:29.680 --> 0:05:33.839 Yeah, I need to think about that, Okay. 0:05:36.520 --> 0:05:38.400 Can I well, just can I ask you about your 0:05:38.640 --> 0:05:40.919 your life in general? Are you in school? What do 0:05:40.920 --> 0:05:41.240 you do? 0:05:42.800 --> 0:05:46.600 Uh? I work at a car autoparts store and the 0:05:46.680 --> 0:05:48.920 skate shop and I teach kids how to skate. 0:05:50.120 --> 0:05:51.520 Well that sounds really nice. 0:05:53.200 --> 0:05:54.680 Uh it's really rewarding. 0:05:55.320 --> 0:05:58.560 Yeah yeah, okay, so you got like a cool you're 0:05:58.600 --> 0:06:00.760 doing good things. 0:06:01.920 --> 0:06:06.400 I'm trying to because there's a lot of people who 0:06:07.440 --> 0:06:13.760 like hate in the skate community. But like I don't know, 0:06:13.760 --> 0:06:15.880 how could you hate on somebody who's helping. 0:06:16.800 --> 0:06:18.839 A lot of people who hate in the skate community 0:06:18.920 --> 0:06:19.719 within what sense? 0:06:21.040 --> 0:06:25.159 Like, like say you do like a certain trick or something, 0:06:26.120 --> 0:06:30.720 oh that was whack as fuck, and then like I 0:06:30.760 --> 0:06:33.279 don't know, they just like someone always has something hateful 0:06:33.279 --> 0:06:37.159 to say. 0:06:35.279 --> 0:06:38.400 Like you'll do certain tricks and people will say that 0:06:38.440 --> 0:06:39.800 your tricks are whack as fuck. 0:06:42.160 --> 0:06:47.839 Okay, So like quick explanations. So like I skate curbs, 0:06:49.279 --> 0:06:52.159 so like a curb that you would see like on 0:06:52.240 --> 0:06:56.640 the side of the road, you know, but like in 0:06:56.760 --> 0:07:01.120 the skate community that's like deemed like something for like 0:07:01.200 --> 0:07:08.039 old people. Why because like okay, you know what an 0:07:08.080 --> 0:07:11.560 olie is, like how you like get the board. Yeah. So, 0:07:11.680 --> 0:07:15.640 like I had surgery on my ankle like a year ago, 0:07:16.240 --> 0:07:18.880 and it kind of like sorry, I'm sot of breath. 0:07:21.280 --> 0:07:24.800 It made me like not be able to allie as 0:07:24.840 --> 0:07:28.600 well anymore. And like I kind of hated skateboarding because 0:07:28.640 --> 0:07:31.360 I was like, oh, like it kind of ruined my 0:07:31.400 --> 0:07:35.320 life for a little bit. And then like I started 0:07:35.360 --> 0:07:38.480 like skating curves as like Okay, I don't have to 0:07:38.520 --> 0:07:42.160 work as hard, not necessarily, because like once you get 0:07:42.200 --> 0:07:45.040 into it, you're like, oh shit, like this shit is hard, 0:07:45.480 --> 0:07:50.280 But like you don't have to like necessarily like Alie 0:07:50.280 --> 0:07:53.720 into shit because it's called like a slappy, like you 0:07:54.160 --> 0:07:58.440 slap your board into it and like it's just like 0:07:58.720 --> 0:08:03.760 old people, so like old fat guys who like I 0:08:03.920 --> 0:08:05.000 can't alie anymore. 0:08:08.440 --> 0:08:14.160 Okay, I have a lot of thoughts about your haters, man, 0:08:15.400 --> 0:08:18.119 why don't you? I mean, well, first, first of all, 0:08:18.600 --> 0:08:20.000 you said, what's your name again? 0:08:21.720 --> 0:08:22.800 Sully? 0:08:22.920 --> 0:08:25.880 You Sally? You sound like a good guy. You have 0:08:25.920 --> 0:08:32.200 a you have respectable you have two respectable jobs, you 0:08:32.280 --> 0:08:36.320 have a hobby that you like, you have family that 0:08:36.400 --> 0:08:40.240 you care about. I mean, who the fuck that's it. 0:08:41.200 --> 0:08:42.040 There's nothing else. 0:08:43.800 --> 0:08:46.200 A lot of it is, like I think a lot 0:08:46.200 --> 0:08:51.000 of it is like like other people like looking in 0:08:51.040 --> 0:08:54.040 the mirror because like I've been like traveling and stuff 0:08:54.120 --> 0:08:58.800 for skating, uh huh, like not necessarily like for like 0:08:58.840 --> 0:09:01.520 skate competicians and shit, but just like I want to 0:09:01.559 --> 0:09:03.920 work in the industry, Like that's what I want to do. 0:09:05.000 --> 0:09:08.920 And skateboarding is like really like die hard. Like if 0:09:08.960 --> 0:09:12.640 you are like in the industry, you're like you're in there, 0:09:12.760 --> 0:09:16.160 if that makes sense. So it's like really hard to 0:09:16.320 --> 0:09:20.760 like get in anyway. Uh, That's what I'm trying to do. 0:09:21.280 --> 0:09:24.760 And I think a lot of people because I live 0:09:24.800 --> 0:09:29.280 in Iowa, I don't know if anyone I will listen 0:09:29.280 --> 0:09:34.040 to this, but fuck it. But like, I live in 0:09:34.120 --> 0:09:37.080 Iowa and we have the biggest skate park in the US. 0:09:37.360 --> 0:09:41.080 But like I feel like a lot of people, like 0:09:41.720 --> 0:09:43.840 I've noticed in general, like a lot of people like 0:09:43.880 --> 0:09:46.600 don't make it out of Iowa, if that makes sense. 0:09:46.800 --> 0:09:49.280 Okay, So stop, I'm gonna stop you right there. You 0:09:49.320 --> 0:09:51.320 say you want to be in the industry. What do 0:09:51.320 --> 0:09:52.280 you want to do, is that you want to be 0:09:52.280 --> 0:09:53.720 a professional skater. 0:09:54.920 --> 0:09:59.600 Not necessarily just doing something that like like whether that's 0:09:59.679 --> 0:10:05.240 like film or like like press boards or like you know, 0:10:05.800 --> 0:10:09.520 draw graphics for board. You know, something like that gets 0:10:09.559 --> 0:10:11.400 me in the industry. And I guess that's what I'm doing. 0:10:12.240 --> 0:10:13.400 Yeah, I was gonna say, I was gonna I was 0:10:13.440 --> 0:10:18.040 gonna say, first of all, you already are in the industry. 0:10:17.800 --> 0:10:22.000 You make money. You make money, okay, but you make 0:10:22.120 --> 0:10:27.440 you make money teaching kids how to skate, yes, And 0:10:27.480 --> 0:10:28.959 you work at a skate shop. 0:10:30.200 --> 0:10:30.440 Yes. 0:10:30.920 --> 0:10:32.680 And these things pay you money. 0:10:34.400 --> 0:10:35.800 Uh yeah, they. 0:10:35.679 --> 0:10:38.120 Don't pay you. It sounds like it sounds like they 0:10:38.120 --> 0:10:40.320 don't pay you as much money as you'd like them 0:10:40.360 --> 0:10:45.640 to pay you right now, Like, but when when when 0:10:45.840 --> 0:10:48.400 but just just when we say, I just want to 0:10:48.440 --> 0:10:52.199 like define this because I really like fucking mean that. 0:10:52.400 --> 0:10:58.000 Like sometimes these things get to vague and that's annoying 0:10:58.080 --> 0:11:00.440 to me. So if we were to define f this, 0:11:01.720 --> 0:11:03.800 like if we were like the industry, if we were 0:11:03.840 --> 0:11:08.959 to define the industry, can you hear me? Please tell 0:11:08.960 --> 0:11:10.960 me you can hear me in this? You can hear me? 0:11:11.880 --> 0:11:12.360 Yeah? 0:11:12.480 --> 0:11:16.480 Okay. If we were to define the industry as like 0:11:19.559 --> 0:11:24.760 you making money, making enough money to like pay your 0:11:24.800 --> 0:11:32.440 bills by in the in the realm of skateboarding, then 0:11:32.600 --> 0:11:36.120 the industry is not this closed off thing that is 0:11:38.520 --> 0:11:42.160 determined by a select group of people who are cooler 0:11:42.200 --> 0:11:45.440 and smarter than you. But it's it's a it's like 0:11:45.480 --> 0:11:52.920 a wide open field of opportunity. I think. So, I mean, 0:11:52.960 --> 0:11:54.360 tell me, do you what do you want to do 0:11:54.400 --> 0:11:56.840 in skate You just said I want to design things. 0:11:56.920 --> 0:11:58.120 I want to tell me more, like, what do you 0:11:58.160 --> 0:11:59.400 want to what do you want to do? 0:12:02.880 --> 0:12:05.080 I don't know. I guess like I've kind of thought 0:12:05.080 --> 0:12:09.079 about that, but like not to that extent. I guess 0:12:09.080 --> 0:12:13.560 like kind of like my foot in is teaching kids, 0:12:13.920 --> 0:12:18.200 and like I honestly, if I could get paid the 0:12:18.240 --> 0:12:22.079 rest of my life to like do that like enough 0:12:22.200 --> 0:12:26.640 where I'd be like financially well, I would totally do that. 0:12:27.920 --> 0:12:30.880 Why don't see why that? Well, hold on, why is that? 0:12:30.960 --> 0:12:34.200 Why is that a such a far off goal to you? 0:12:36.320 --> 0:12:39.240 Because of right now, like especially in skating, it's like 0:12:39.400 --> 0:12:42.640 in a downfall, and like a lot of companies are 0:12:42.679 --> 0:12:45.079 like shutting down, and like not as many kids are 0:12:45.080 --> 0:12:50.400 skateboarding because like COVID hit and like everybody was like 0:12:50.480 --> 0:12:54.360 looking for something to do, yeah, and then and then 0:12:54.400 --> 0:12:58.560 they found skateboarding and they're like, holy shit, like this 0:12:58.720 --> 0:13:04.240 fucking skateboarding thing. And then uh and then you know 0:13:04.480 --> 0:13:08.520 everyone everything's kind of like open now, and then it's like, oh, 0:13:08.720 --> 0:13:11.600 like we don't need that. So like all these companies 0:13:11.679 --> 0:13:16.760 like overordered shit and like little shit like that, and 0:13:16.920 --> 0:13:22.320 like the skateboarding economy is kind of like crashing as 0:13:22.360 --> 0:13:22.920 of right now. 0:13:24.200 --> 0:13:28.240 What how often are you teaching kids the skateboarding. 0:13:29.520 --> 0:13:33.120 I do an after school thing with kids every like 0:13:33.240 --> 0:13:36.600 once every week, and then like as of right now, 0:13:36.720 --> 0:13:39.959 just because it's like starting to get cold, I do 0:13:40.640 --> 0:13:45.640 like one on one lessons and like I do that 0:13:45.800 --> 0:13:49.440 like maybe once or twice a week, but usually like 0:13:49.480 --> 0:13:53.160 in the summer. It's crazy we have like so like 0:13:53.240 --> 0:13:54.960 I guess during the summer because like we have like 0:13:56.040 --> 0:13:57.600 winters here. I don't know if you've ever been to 0:13:57.600 --> 0:14:02.320 Iowa or not, yeah, but Iowa. Yeah, and there's not 0:14:02.360 --> 0:14:07.280 a lot to do. But it's sick definitely during the summer, 0:14:07.800 --> 0:14:11.320 like all these parents are like getting their kids to 0:14:11.400 --> 0:14:14.920 skate and my shit like that. And so during the summer, 0:14:14.960 --> 0:14:19.240 like I'm like booked all the time because all these 0:14:19.240 --> 0:14:21.680 parents are like finding stuff for their kids to do. 0:14:22.560 --> 0:14:26.240 But like now that kids are back in school, it's 0:14:26.280 --> 0:14:28.800 like slowly going down. 0:14:35.920 --> 0:14:40.440 Man, you said you were twenty Yeah, oh holy shit. 0:14:42.160 --> 0:14:46.200 Yeah, I know. I'm pretty like I'm a baby. I 0:14:46.200 --> 0:14:48.920 feel like sometimes uh. 0:14:48.520 --> 0:14:51.960 Well, I mean, shit, man, you I think you've got 0:14:52.000 --> 0:14:55.760 a lot of uh I don't know that. I feel 0:14:55.760 --> 0:14:59.080 like there's so much opportunity for you. So like do 0:14:59.080 --> 0:15:01.240 you make videos? Do you like market yourself? 0:15:03.360 --> 0:15:08.840 Not necessarily with the what's it called? So I'm leaving 0:15:08.840 --> 0:15:17.760 my house, I don't necessarily like as much, but like regularly. 0:15:18.040 --> 0:15:21.040 Necessarily what you don't you don't necessarily what as much? 0:15:22.160 --> 0:15:26.680 Oh like film like me like doing like skate lessons, 0:15:26.720 --> 0:15:30.400 but like it's out there that I do skate lessons, 0:15:30.880 --> 0:15:35.560 so like people now that I do skate lessons, and 0:15:35.600 --> 0:15:41.960 then like like I do like post skateboarding, and I've 0:15:42.000 --> 0:15:44.840 picked up a couple of sponsors from that and ship 0:15:44.960 --> 0:15:46.360 like that, which is really cool. 0:15:48.080 --> 0:15:51.920 I just don't think that you're uh, I don't think 0:15:51.920 --> 0:15:55.000 this is out of the realm of possibility for you 0:15:55.240 --> 0:15:58.000 to continue to do skateboarding stuff. 0:16:02.400 --> 0:16:05.320 Yeah, I don't. I guess, like I don't even know 0:16:05.400 --> 0:16:08.640 like why I'm like thinking so hard about the skate 0:16:08.720 --> 0:16:11.600 stuff because like I know, I'll be fine and I'll 0:16:11.600 --> 0:16:14.880 always have skating, So I don't. It's just like a thought. 0:16:14.960 --> 0:16:15.840 I have a lot. 0:16:16.840 --> 0:16:18.920 I I used to I used to love skateboarding. I 0:16:18.920 --> 0:16:21.760 still do love skateboarding, just as like I love I've 0:16:21.760 --> 0:16:26.040 always loved watching it, uh since I was a kid. 0:16:26.080 --> 0:16:28.360 I used to be obsessed with skate three and I 0:16:28.440 --> 0:16:31.840 liked watching a lot of those like skate videos. I 0:16:31.880 --> 0:16:34.720 still uh like watching it. It's scary. I used to. 0:16:34.800 --> 0:16:37.040 I used to live in Venice and I would go 0:16:37.080 --> 0:16:40.600 to Venice Beach and I would watch the skateboarders and 0:16:40.640 --> 0:16:44.160 there were all these like like twelve year olds who 0:16:44.400 --> 0:16:47.000 like were on their fucking like scooters and they were 0:16:47.080 --> 0:16:50.040 jumping off like you they were doing shit that Like 0:16:50.160 --> 0:16:53.560 you know, I'm double these more than double these kids age, 0:16:53.840 --> 0:16:58.240 and I'd be fucking terrified, but they're like with no fear. 0:16:58.400 --> 0:17:00.760 It's fine. I'm not I'm going off the rails here, 0:17:01.400 --> 0:17:05.800 no pun intended. But I thought, I'm watching these kids 0:17:05.840 --> 0:17:07.439 and I'm thinking, I'm like, if I was like this 0:17:07.520 --> 0:17:11.760 kid's father, I would be like, you're never skateboarding ever, 0:17:11.800 --> 0:17:14.040 I would forbid. I would be like, I think I'd 0:17:14.080 --> 0:17:16.960 be pretty good at, like, you know, encouraging my kids 0:17:16.960 --> 0:17:18.320 to like be whoever they want to be or do 0:17:18.359 --> 0:17:21.720 whatever they want to do. But skateboarding, I'm like, oh, 0:17:21.760 --> 0:17:25.919 that's so, it's just so I actually I really like it. 0:17:25.920 --> 0:17:27.880 I like watching it and I appreciate it, but it's 0:17:27.920 --> 0:17:30.760 just so easy to get fucked up, you know. 0:17:31.560 --> 0:17:34.960 Yeah, Like that's how I had surgery. And like I 0:17:35.000 --> 0:17:37.880 think I'm just kind of like scared sometimes because I've 0:17:37.920 --> 0:17:41.960 given so much of my life and like shit into skating, 0:17:42.160 --> 0:17:45.000 like it's my whole like personality kind of, so it's 0:17:45.119 --> 0:17:47.679 like I just want it to work out, but like 0:17:48.280 --> 0:17:50.239 I don't even know like why I'm worrying because like 0:17:50.440 --> 0:17:53.760 wherever I put my energy, that's where you're supposed to go. 0:17:54.359 --> 0:17:56.760 Listen. I don't think. I don't think. I think you 0:17:56.800 --> 0:18:01.560 said it just now nicely. I think I don't think 0:18:01.560 --> 0:18:03.879 you should lament all the time you spend skateboarding. I 0:18:03.880 --> 0:18:08.880 think that uh you you'll have you have so much 0:18:09.320 --> 0:18:14.439 uh uh time to develop yourself however you want to, 0:18:15.359 --> 0:18:15.720 you know. 0:18:15.920 --> 0:18:19.439 I think another thing is like maybe because it's getting cold, 0:18:19.480 --> 0:18:23.439 but like I get kind of bored of skating, Like 0:18:23.480 --> 0:18:25.760 not in a sense where I'm like I'm never gonna 0:18:25.760 --> 0:18:29.479 skate again. Like sometimes like you get stuck, Like you 0:18:29.480 --> 0:18:32.359 get periods where you get stuck because you don't know 0:18:32.359 --> 0:18:34.600 what to do or like learn or something like that, 0:18:35.320 --> 0:18:38.000 and so like you just start getting bored. So I've 0:18:38.040 --> 0:18:41.159 been like doing other stuff and then I'll take a 0:18:41.240 --> 0:18:43.520 couple of day break and then come back and feel 0:18:43.560 --> 0:18:44.520 like a lot better. 0:18:48.600 --> 0:18:49.240 Did What did you say? 0:18:49.280 --> 0:18:50.159 Your name was? Jo? 0:18:50.480 --> 0:18:55.119 Fuck Ship? I'm sorry I don't remember anyone, I Sully? 0:18:57.560 --> 0:19:01.199 Mmmm mm hmmm, Sally is is uh is there anything 0:19:01.200 --> 0:19:02.480 else that you want to say to the people of 0:19:02.520 --> 0:19:03.560 the computer before we go? 0:19:05.040 --> 0:19:08.440 Yes, I do. I'm pulling it up. 0:19:08.800 --> 0:19:11.360 Oh, you wrote something, Yeah, go ahead. 0:19:11.520 --> 0:19:15.240 Not not wrote something, but like I'm really into like 0:19:15.760 --> 0:19:22.199 trying to be happy and find purpose. Uh, I don't know. 0:19:22.280 --> 0:19:26.320 Let's just go with life is best lived in the 0:19:26.359 --> 0:19:32.399 present moment. If not, who fuck? I forgot it? 0:19:33.040 --> 0:19:33.240 Oh? 0:19:33.280 --> 0:19:38.400 Here we go? Sorry? Wait no, oh I'm fucking this up. 0:19:38.400 --> 0:19:39.200 I'm sorry, Lyle. 0:19:39.680 --> 0:19:43.919 It's okay, man, Sorry you. 0:19:48.320 --> 0:19:57.040 Fuck. I just love yourself and like, if people are hating, 0:19:57.160 --> 0:19:59.080 like you're doing something right. 0:19:59.840 --> 0:20:04.200 No, not always, not always, not always at all, not always, 0:20:04.880 --> 0:20:08.000 not always, not always. But I think if if people 0:20:08.040 --> 0:20:11.040 are if people are hating on you because you're skateboarding 0:20:11.080 --> 0:20:14.400 in a weird way, I think those people are are idiots. 0:20:15.920 --> 0:20:18.320 I guess just be the energy you want. It would tract. 0:20:19.520 --> 0:20:20.000 I like that. 0:20:21.040 --> 0:20:23.359 Uh, well, take care, Sally. I hope to see you 0:20:23.480 --> 0:20:28.399 Trey flipping uh all over all over the Tri County 0:20:28.440 --> 0:20:29.160 area one day. 0:20:30.560 --> 0:20:34.600 Thank you. I love you. Can I Sally can? I? 0:20:36.040 --> 0:20:40.040 There we go? He's Sully and I look like Mike Wazowski. Hi. 0:20:40.119 --> 0:20:41.240 Who is this? 0:20:41.240 --> 0:20:42.800 This is John? John? 0:20:43.400 --> 0:20:44.160 What's up? John? 0:20:45.640 --> 0:20:49.840 What's up? Man? I was just calling first. I want 0:20:49.840 --> 0:20:52.320 to say I love your show, bro. You thank you 0:20:52.400 --> 0:20:55.840 doing great things. I appreciate you your show and everything. Sorry, 0:20:55.840 --> 0:20:57.000 I'm a little nervous right now. 0:20:57.119 --> 0:20:59.399 No, it's okay, Thank you very much, John. I appreciate that. 0:21:00.080 --> 0:21:01.679 I appreciate that. What do you do? What are you 0:21:01.720 --> 0:21:02.320 doing right now? 0:21:02.320 --> 0:21:06.200 Where are you right now? I'm at I'm at my house, 0:21:06.720 --> 0:21:10.439 just finished eating some water Burger, some uh cool number eleven. 0:21:10.440 --> 0:21:12.440 Now now I'm chilling in my room next to my cat. 0:21:12.600 --> 0:21:14.560 What's a number eleven at Waterburger? 0:21:15.920 --> 0:21:17.960 That's a grilled chicken sandwich right there? 0:21:18.680 --> 0:21:20.919 Oh shit? What is uh? I didn't know they have 0:21:21.000 --> 0:21:22.120 grilled chicken at Waterburger. 0:21:23.520 --> 0:21:26.680 Yeah, man, they got uh got grilled chicken, they got 0:21:26.960 --> 0:21:29.240 uh fried chicken, they got all kinds of stuff. Used 0:21:29.240 --> 0:21:31.480 to work there as I had. 0:21:31.359 --> 0:21:35.600 Whatater Burger eleven days ago? And uh, against my better judgment, 0:21:35.640 --> 0:21:38.080 I got a Doctor Pepper milkshake. Did you get that? 0:21:39.520 --> 0:21:39.800 Fuck? 0:21:39.960 --> 0:21:40.000 No? 0:21:42.280 --> 0:21:45.440 Because normally here's the thing. Like a Doctor Pepper slurpy 0:21:45.600 --> 0:21:49.840 is something I'm familiar with, but a milkshake is not 0:21:50.080 --> 0:21:52.560 like a I've never heard in my life of like 0:21:52.600 --> 0:21:55.760 a soda milk or even like a Doctor Pepper float. 0:21:56.680 --> 0:21:59.240 But to combine the soda and the ice cream into 0:21:59.240 --> 0:22:00.639 a milkshake is unheard of. 0:22:02.840 --> 0:22:06.520 Yeah, I was, uh, yeah, I don't know about that, 0:22:06.600 --> 0:22:08.359 doctor pepper milkshake. I feel like you'll give. 0:22:08.280 --> 0:22:14.639 Me the ships, you know, yeah, it would, it would. So, John, 0:22:15.240 --> 0:22:16.960 what's up? Was there a reason you called today? 0:22:18.359 --> 0:22:18.560 Yeah? 0:22:18.640 --> 0:22:22.320 Dude, So I wanted to talk like about So I 0:22:22.359 --> 0:22:25.359 haven't talked to anybody about this yet, but just graduate, 0:22:25.480 --> 0:22:28.760 graduated nursing school and stuff like that. Because past my 0:22:28.760 --> 0:22:31.919 my inflex, thank you bro, just past my inclex my 0:22:32.800 --> 0:22:36.679 state exam. I'm a licensed nurse now. But I thought, 0:22:36.680 --> 0:22:41.560 like I thought once I became like a nurse and 0:22:41.720 --> 0:22:44.919 graduated nursing school, like you know, shit would get better, right, 0:22:46.720 --> 0:22:48.480 But it turns out like sh it just got worse, 0:22:48.960 --> 0:22:53.560 Like I think, uh after that, Like after I graduated 0:22:53.640 --> 0:22:58.760 nursing school, i passed my exam, I was like, I 0:22:58.880 --> 0:23:01.880 was the depressed I've ever the most depressed I've ever 0:23:01.920 --> 0:23:05.440 been in my life. And I was like confused because 0:23:05.480 --> 0:23:06.959 I was like, oh, this is a goal I've been 0:23:06.960 --> 0:23:09.760 working towards since I was like in high school, you know. 0:23:11.840 --> 0:23:17.919 So I was I've been contemplating on im like is 0:23:17.960 --> 0:23:23.440 there I wanted to ask you, like what what what 0:23:23.520 --> 0:23:25.879 kind of makes you makes you happy. 0:23:28.359 --> 0:23:31.159 It's interesting you say that. I the other day, like 0:23:31.520 --> 0:23:34.560 two or three days, two days ago, I was in 0:23:34.640 --> 0:23:38.200 my notes app and I was writing down everything that 0:23:38.560 --> 0:23:42.359 had been making me happy lately at least, and I 0:23:42.359 --> 0:23:46.040 could talk about that. But I guess, so for you, 0:23:46.640 --> 0:23:51.080 why did why do you think you felt so depressed 0:23:51.320 --> 0:23:52.200 after graduating? 0:23:53.720 --> 0:23:57.960 So I was, uh, so, I also, I've been trying 0:23:57.960 --> 0:24:01.560 to I was listening to your and I heard that 0:24:01.600 --> 0:24:03.040 you journal and stuff, and I was like, oh, that's 0:24:03.040 --> 0:24:06.560 a good idea. Let me trust journal. So yeah, I 0:24:06.600 --> 0:24:09.639 tried journaling and I was just like kind of typing 0:24:09.680 --> 0:24:11.560 it out, could I do and all that? And I 0:24:11.600 --> 0:24:16.240 realized it was because like nursing school did it did 0:24:16.359 --> 0:24:19.639 it doesn't give you break to like to think other 0:24:19.720 --> 0:24:22.600 than what you have to do, what your schedule's like 0:24:22.720 --> 0:24:27.960 and and all that. And my girlfriend she also moved 0:24:27.960 --> 0:24:31.480 to what she didn't She joined the army and she's 0:24:31.520 --> 0:24:34.160 in career right now, and she was like my main 0:24:35.280 --> 0:24:40.240 like person to talk to you, m so she so 0:24:40.359 --> 0:24:43.719