1 00:00:00,120 --> 00:00:02,440 Speaker 1: And times where I go through challenges, I go back 2 00:00:02,480 --> 00:00:05,000 Speaker 1: to that moment and I say, you've made it through that, 3 00:00:05,480 --> 00:00:07,680 Speaker 1: and you you came out on the other side with 4 00:00:07,720 --> 00:00:09,840 Speaker 1: some of the most incredible blessings that you are so 5 00:00:09,920 --> 00:00:10,520 Speaker 1: grateful for. 6 00:00:11,160 --> 00:00:12,960 Speaker 2: So this is a piece of cake. You know you 7 00:00:13,039 --> 00:00:13,399 Speaker 2: got this. 8 00:00:28,280 --> 00:00:31,280 Speaker 3: Hey everyone, Emily A body here coming to you from 9 00:00:31,320 --> 00:00:35,000 Speaker 3: the AG studio. You are listening to episode one eighty 10 00:00:35,120 --> 00:00:38,519 Speaker 3: nine of Hurdle, a wellness focus podcast where I connect 11 00:00:38,600 --> 00:00:41,479 Speaker 3: with everyone from your favorite athletes to top experts and 12 00:00:41,560 --> 00:00:46,040 Speaker 3: industry CEOs about their highest ties, toughest moments, and everything 13 00:00:46,040 --> 00:00:49,199 Speaker 3: in between. We all go through hurdles in life, and 14 00:00:49,320 --> 00:00:52,400 Speaker 3: my goal through these discussions is to empower you to 15 00:00:52,479 --> 00:00:55,960 Speaker 3: better navigate yours and move with intention so that you 16 00:00:56,040 --> 00:00:59,320 Speaker 3: can stride towards your own big potential and have some 17 00:00:59,520 --> 00:01:04,360 Speaker 3: fun along the way. I hope everybody had a great holiday, 18 00:01:04,520 --> 00:01:07,000 Speaker 3: and for those of you that are online. 19 00:01:06,640 --> 00:01:11,080 Speaker 4: This week, I am too. You are not alone. 20 00:01:11,120 --> 00:01:14,240 Speaker 3: We can do hard things and that's why I am 21 00:01:14,240 --> 00:01:17,600 Speaker 3: bringing you this episode specifically to remind you that episode 22 00:01:17,640 --> 00:01:22,720 Speaker 3: one eight nine I am chatting with Peloton instructor Kirston Ferguson. 23 00:01:23,200 --> 00:01:26,560 Speaker 3: You know that the fitness circle in New York is 24 00:01:26,680 --> 00:01:29,360 Speaker 3: quite small, so a lot of the Peloton instructors that 25 00:01:29,400 --> 00:01:32,120 Speaker 3: I've had on the show, I have met them before, 26 00:01:32,120 --> 00:01:35,520 Speaker 3: we've hung out before, but Kirsten is new to the 27 00:01:35,600 --> 00:01:38,840 Speaker 3: squad and we hadn't spoken before, and so this was 28 00:01:38,880 --> 00:01:42,560 Speaker 3: a really exciting opportunity to get to know her better. 29 00:01:42,840 --> 00:01:46,280 Speaker 3: In today's episode, we talk mostly about the hardships that 30 00:01:46,319 --> 00:01:49,520 Speaker 3: she's faced over the last decade, from struggling to have 31 00:01:49,600 --> 00:01:55,240 Speaker 3: children and navigating multiple miscarriages to navigating divorce. Kirsten talks 32 00:01:55,240 --> 00:01:58,000 Speaker 3: to me about how she got into fitness, eventually. 33 00:01:57,520 --> 00:02:02,560 Speaker 5: Teaching spin at home during the panic, and that the beautiful, 34 00:02:02,960 --> 00:02:07,720 Speaker 5: literally like serendipitous way that Peloton came to her in 35 00:02:07,760 --> 00:02:11,320 Speaker 5: her life, perhaps when she really needed it most. 36 00:02:11,880 --> 00:02:14,639 Speaker 3: I cannot say thank you to Kirsten enough. I really 37 00:02:14,680 --> 00:02:18,520 Speaker 3: appreciate her vulnerability, her openness, especially when it comes to 38 00:02:19,120 --> 00:02:23,200 Speaker 3: such hard, hard moments. She says it in Jay's episode, 39 00:02:23,200 --> 00:02:25,960 Speaker 3: and I can really really identify with this that she 40 00:02:26,160 --> 00:02:29,720 Speaker 3: is open about the struggles that she faced with miscarriage 41 00:02:29,760 --> 00:02:35,480 Speaker 3: because she knows that being vocal will help and empower 42 00:02:35,680 --> 00:02:38,600 Speaker 3: women to feel less alone on their journey. And that 43 00:02:38,760 --> 00:02:41,040 Speaker 3: is why I'm open and honest about the things that 44 00:02:41,080 --> 00:02:43,880 Speaker 3: I have been through. I know how important it is 45 00:02:44,040 --> 00:02:45,760 Speaker 3: for us to find that connection. 46 00:02:46,040 --> 00:02:47,120 Speaker 4: Life's hard enough as it is. 47 00:02:47,200 --> 00:02:47,359 Speaker 2: Right. 48 00:02:47,600 --> 00:02:50,280 Speaker 3: Thank you Kirsten again, I really appreciate it, and I'm 49 00:02:50,320 --> 00:02:52,919 Speaker 3: super excited to bring this episode to the feed. 50 00:02:53,360 --> 00:02:55,800 Speaker 4: Make sure you're following along with Hurdle over on social media. 51 00:02:55,840 --> 00:02:56,919 Speaker 4: It's at Hurdle Podcast. 52 00:02:56,919 --> 00:02:59,240 Speaker 3: I'm over at Emily a Body and I had a 53 00:02:59,240 --> 00:03:01,680 Speaker 3: lot of reach out last week from individuals who wanted 54 00:03:01,720 --> 00:03:04,440 Speaker 3: to go to the goal Setting Workshop but could not 55 00:03:04,760 --> 00:03:07,000 Speaker 3: make it live. Well, the good news is that I 56 00:03:07,040 --> 00:03:09,840 Speaker 3: have an on demand workshop that you can take to 57 00:03:09,919 --> 00:03:13,520 Speaker 3: gear yourself up for twenty twenty two and beyond. I 58 00:03:13,560 --> 00:03:16,360 Speaker 3: will link the on demand a goal Setting Workshop in 59 00:03:16,400 --> 00:03:18,200 Speaker 3: the show notes and I hope. 60 00:03:17,919 --> 00:03:20,600 Speaker 4: That it can help you on your journey. That's it 61 00:03:20,639 --> 00:03:30,480 Speaker 4: for now. With that, let's get to Hurtling today. 62 00:03:30,680 --> 00:03:33,960 Speaker 3: I am sitting down with Kirsten Ferguson. She is a 63 00:03:34,000 --> 00:03:36,960 Speaker 3: Peloton instructor. How you doing today, Kirsten? 64 00:03:37,440 --> 00:03:41,080 Speaker 2: I am good? I am good. It is what day 65 00:03:41,160 --> 00:03:42,360 Speaker 2: is it? I don't even know what day? It is? 66 00:03:42,520 --> 00:03:46,840 Speaker 1: Monday morning, It's Christmas time. My toddlers are off school, 67 00:03:46,880 --> 00:03:50,200 Speaker 1: for two weeks. It is crazy town in the Ferguson household. 68 00:03:50,240 --> 00:03:51,320 Speaker 2: But all is well. 69 00:03:52,320 --> 00:03:53,360 Speaker 4: How is that for you? 70 00:03:53,440 --> 00:03:56,040 Speaker 3: What does the momming and the work combo look like 71 00:03:56,080 --> 00:03:57,200 Speaker 3: for you these days? 72 00:03:57,720 --> 00:03:58,840 Speaker 2: You know, every day is different. 73 00:03:58,960 --> 00:04:01,400 Speaker 1: Every day is a journey, like to say, figuring it 74 00:04:01,400 --> 00:04:05,160 Speaker 1: out as I go, balancing it all. Every day is 75 00:04:05,160 --> 00:04:07,400 Speaker 1: a new challenge, a new day. But it's been going 76 00:04:07,400 --> 00:04:09,840 Speaker 1: good so far. Four months in and it's been good. 77 00:04:10,680 --> 00:04:13,880 Speaker 3: We won't like jump ahead too fast, too soon. But 78 00:04:14,080 --> 00:04:17,719 Speaker 3: you've only been teaching at Peloton for a short while now. 79 00:04:17,839 --> 00:04:21,880 Speaker 1: Yes, it's been almost four months, so still fresh, still new, 80 00:04:22,360 --> 00:04:26,360 Speaker 1: even though I feel like I've been here forever. Just 81 00:04:26,400 --> 00:04:28,599 Speaker 1: get started and then it's just like you're on the 82 00:04:28,680 --> 00:04:30,680 Speaker 1: journey and you're like off to the races. 83 00:04:30,760 --> 00:04:32,320 Speaker 4: But it's been great. Off to the races. 84 00:04:32,320 --> 00:04:36,640 Speaker 3: Well, you're no stranger to inspiring people via fitness. Have 85 00:04:36,720 --> 00:04:39,560 Speaker 3: you always been a super active person? 86 00:04:39,920 --> 00:04:41,039 Speaker 2: So in high. 87 00:04:40,880 --> 00:04:44,960 Speaker 1: School, I played basketball, but I didn't really fall in 88 00:04:45,000 --> 00:04:48,800 Speaker 1: love with fitness until I started my journey towards motherhood. 89 00:04:49,360 --> 00:04:52,120 Speaker 2: So I mean, I played basketball and did the things. 90 00:04:52,160 --> 00:04:53,880 Speaker 1: But when I moved to New York City to go 91 00:04:53,920 --> 00:04:57,279 Speaker 1: to fashion school, I kind of hung up my Nikes 92 00:04:57,279 --> 00:05:00,520 Speaker 1: for stilettos and did the whole New York City fashion 93 00:05:00,920 --> 00:05:03,080 Speaker 1: route for a little bit until I found that, you 94 00:05:03,080 --> 00:05:05,920 Speaker 1: know what, this isn't really for me, and I actually 95 00:05:05,920 --> 00:05:08,120 Speaker 1: started working for the NFL in marketing. 96 00:05:08,320 --> 00:05:08,599 Speaker 2: Wow. 97 00:05:08,800 --> 00:05:11,920 Speaker 1: Hard pivot for you, hard pivot. I feel like I'm 98 00:05:11,920 --> 00:05:13,680 Speaker 1: a cat. I've lived like nine lives. 99 00:05:14,880 --> 00:05:18,320 Speaker 4: What interested you in getting involved in marketing? 100 00:05:18,320 --> 00:05:21,040 Speaker 3: Because again, such like a big detour from where you 101 00:05:21,040 --> 00:05:21,839 Speaker 3: had been originally. 102 00:05:22,120 --> 00:05:24,640 Speaker 1: Yeah, So I was studying fashion merchandising. I thought it 103 00:05:24,680 --> 00:05:27,000 Speaker 1: was what I wanted to do. I thought shopping for 104 00:05:27,040 --> 00:05:31,559 Speaker 1: a living, how fabulous. And it wasn't that. It wasn't 105 00:05:31,560 --> 00:05:32,320 Speaker 1: what I thought. 106 00:05:32,400 --> 00:05:34,480 Speaker 2: And I had a friend that worked at the NFL, 107 00:05:34,760 --> 00:05:37,440 Speaker 2: and I just went in for an interview to be 108 00:05:37,480 --> 00:05:40,800 Speaker 2: an assistant in the sponsorship, which I had no idea 109 00:05:40,880 --> 00:05:42,080 Speaker 2: what that was at the time. 110 00:05:42,440 --> 00:05:45,960 Speaker 1: I'm in the interview googling what is sponsorship? And I 111 00:05:46,000 --> 00:05:48,719 Speaker 1: got the job and I figured it out. Seven years later, 112 00:05:48,920 --> 00:05:50,600 Speaker 1: I was still there, loving what I did. 113 00:05:50,839 --> 00:05:53,279 Speaker 2: And I have been. 114 00:05:53,200 --> 00:05:56,000 Speaker 1: One that just trusts the process, trusts the journey and 115 00:05:56,040 --> 00:05:59,240 Speaker 1: see where it takes you. And that's where it kind 116 00:05:59,279 --> 00:06:01,320 Speaker 1: of ended me up for seven years and then I 117 00:06:01,320 --> 00:06:03,479 Speaker 1: did the Beyonce Super Bowl halftime show and it was like, 118 00:06:03,520 --> 00:06:04,719 Speaker 1: Mike Drop, what do you do after that? 119 00:06:07,000 --> 00:06:08,919 Speaker 3: You know that's so interesting, right, because I think a 120 00:06:08,920 --> 00:06:12,800 Speaker 3: lot of people often hesitate to go for opportunities like 121 00:06:12,839 --> 00:06:15,800 Speaker 3: the one you just mentioned in the NFL and sponsorships 122 00:06:15,839 --> 00:06:19,279 Speaker 3: because either like a little imposter syndrome gets in the way, 123 00:06:19,440 --> 00:06:22,520 Speaker 3: or they're like, well, I can't be good as good 124 00:06:22,560 --> 00:06:24,800 Speaker 3: as whoever else like could be up for this. So 125 00:06:25,160 --> 00:06:27,640 Speaker 3: do you think that you always had that sense of 126 00:06:27,760 --> 00:06:30,080 Speaker 3: boldness or was this kind of a skill that you 127 00:06:30,160 --> 00:06:31,360 Speaker 3: acquired over time. 128 00:06:31,560 --> 00:06:34,039 Speaker 1: Gosh, No, it is something I acquired over time, and 129 00:06:34,080 --> 00:06:37,200 Speaker 1: it's something I'm still fighting to this day. You know, 130 00:06:37,279 --> 00:06:39,240 Speaker 1: even when I was in that interview, I was having 131 00:06:39,279 --> 00:06:43,160 Speaker 1: those conversations with myself, like girl, you know you are 132 00:06:43,200 --> 00:06:45,640 Speaker 1: not qualified for this job. What are you doing here? 133 00:06:45,920 --> 00:06:48,480 Speaker 1: But I just did it. And I've learned to just 134 00:06:48,600 --> 00:06:51,920 Speaker 1: try something and see what happens. And that has been 135 00:06:51,960 --> 00:06:55,280 Speaker 1: my journey. Even up to my Peloton auditions. I couldn't 136 00:06:55,360 --> 00:06:58,279 Speaker 1: believe that it was happening for me. In my head, 137 00:06:58,320 --> 00:07:00,880 Speaker 1: I was going through all the reasons I was not 138 00:07:01,279 --> 00:07:05,839 Speaker 1: qualified to do this role at all, but I said, 139 00:07:05,880 --> 00:07:09,080 Speaker 1: you know what, Kirsten, just go through the process. You know, 140 00:07:09,400 --> 00:07:11,120 Speaker 1: what's the worst that can happen. They don't choose you. 141 00:07:11,160 --> 00:07:13,040 Speaker 2: But look at all the lessons you could learn through 142 00:07:13,040 --> 00:07:13,960 Speaker 2: the process. 143 00:07:14,400 --> 00:07:18,320 Speaker 1: And you know, I stuck with that every single interview, 144 00:07:18,400 --> 00:07:21,800 Speaker 1: every single audition, and look where it's gotten me. So 145 00:07:22,280 --> 00:07:24,600 Speaker 1: I've really learned to trust that. But in the past, 146 00:07:24,720 --> 00:07:28,840 Speaker 1: absolutely not, absolutely not. Fear had stopped me so many 147 00:07:28,880 --> 00:07:31,200 Speaker 1: times in my life from taking things or doing things, 148 00:07:31,320 --> 00:07:34,000 Speaker 1: or believing that I could do things. But I think 149 00:07:34,000 --> 00:07:35,960 Speaker 1: it wasn't until like the last four years where I 150 00:07:36,040 --> 00:07:39,520 Speaker 1: really started to just embrace fear. If you don't have 151 00:07:39,600 --> 00:07:43,080 Speaker 1: those butterflies in your stomach, you don't have that, is 152 00:07:43,480 --> 00:07:45,760 Speaker 1: it really where you're supposed to be. You know, I've 153 00:07:45,800 --> 00:07:49,880 Speaker 1: started to realize that and it's really worked in my favor. 154 00:07:50,240 --> 00:07:53,680 Speaker 3: Then you mentioned not really getting heavily into fitness until 155 00:07:53,840 --> 00:07:56,960 Speaker 3: your journey to motherhood began. Tell us a little bit 156 00:07:57,040 --> 00:08:00,000 Speaker 3: about perhaps the catalyst for that with you. 157 00:08:00,120 --> 00:08:01,480 Speaker 2: Yeah. Absolutely, So. 158 00:08:01,560 --> 00:08:03,920 Speaker 1: I had worked at the NFL for seven years and 159 00:08:04,040 --> 00:08:05,800 Speaker 1: at the time my husband at the time, and I 160 00:08:06,040 --> 00:08:08,240 Speaker 1: was like, maybe it's time to have some kids. He 161 00:08:08,320 --> 00:08:10,600 Speaker 1: was working at the NFL at the time or working 162 00:08:10,600 --> 00:08:12,480 Speaker 1: for the NFL. He played for the Jets for ten 163 00:08:12,560 --> 00:08:15,240 Speaker 1: years and I was working for the NFL, and we 164 00:08:15,240 --> 00:08:17,640 Speaker 1: were just so crazy, and I was like, you know what, 165 00:08:17,720 --> 00:08:21,080 Speaker 1: maybe we step away. I'll step away and you really 166 00:08:21,080 --> 00:08:25,920 Speaker 1: try this mom life out, and you know, just thinking 167 00:08:25,960 --> 00:08:29,720 Speaker 1: that that was just the next step in life, right, 168 00:08:30,200 --> 00:08:32,160 Speaker 1: and you know, so many of my friends were having 169 00:08:32,280 --> 00:08:34,319 Speaker 1: children and I was like, this is this is it, 170 00:08:34,360 --> 00:08:37,640 Speaker 1: this is the time. And it didn't happen like that 171 00:08:37,760 --> 00:08:41,640 Speaker 1: for me. I struggled to get pregnant for a while. 172 00:08:42,520 --> 00:08:47,240 Speaker 1: We tried for a little over a year, and then 173 00:08:47,880 --> 00:08:50,080 Speaker 1: I did get pregnant and we were so excited. It 174 00:08:50,160 --> 00:08:52,880 Speaker 1: was around Mother's Day and we couldn't wait to tell 175 00:08:52,920 --> 00:08:53,520 Speaker 1: our family. 176 00:08:54,400 --> 00:08:58,319 Speaker 2: And then I miscarried. And then I had a really 177 00:08:58,559 --> 00:09:02,560 Speaker 2: difficult miscarriage that forced me to have some procedures done, 178 00:09:04,160 --> 00:09:06,840 Speaker 2: and then we had to wait another six seven months 179 00:09:06,840 --> 00:09:08,880 Speaker 2: before we could try again. So there was a. 180 00:09:08,840 --> 00:09:11,199 Speaker 1: Lot of It was a dark time, a dark place 181 00:09:11,240 --> 00:09:14,040 Speaker 1: for me, and that's where I really started to fall 182 00:09:14,040 --> 00:09:17,720 Speaker 1: in love with fitness. That's where I could find peace 183 00:09:19,200 --> 00:09:21,840 Speaker 1: for me was just going into a dark room and 184 00:09:21,880 --> 00:09:24,400 Speaker 1: working out and focusing on the things that I could 185 00:09:24,400 --> 00:09:28,680 Speaker 1: control because I couldn't control this. I wanted so much 186 00:09:28,720 --> 00:09:31,160 Speaker 1: to be a mother, but it was not happening for 187 00:09:31,240 --> 00:09:34,800 Speaker 1: me and the way that I wanted it to. 188 00:09:33,960 --> 00:09:39,720 Speaker 2: Have control issues at times, and so that's really where 189 00:09:39,720 --> 00:09:42,920 Speaker 2: I fell in love with fitness. But then after that, 190 00:09:43,520 --> 00:09:45,840 Speaker 2: we tried again. We got pregnant. 191 00:09:46,280 --> 00:09:48,240 Speaker 1: We heard a heartbeat, which was one of the most 192 00:09:48,240 --> 00:09:50,240 Speaker 1: beautiful sounds I've ever heard in my life. 193 00:09:50,840 --> 00:09:53,800 Speaker 2: Everything was going great, the checkups were going great. 194 00:09:54,679 --> 00:09:56,559 Speaker 1: We were about to travel, so I went for another 195 00:09:56,679 --> 00:10:02,360 Speaker 1: ultrasound and the baby had no heartbeat. And I feel 196 00:10:02,400 --> 00:10:06,280 Speaker 1: like that was probably the darkest point of my life 197 00:10:07,040 --> 00:10:10,120 Speaker 1: because I felt like I was finally on the other side, 198 00:10:10,440 --> 00:10:14,439 Speaker 1: you know, got through that and we heard the heartbeat 199 00:10:14,720 --> 00:10:18,880 Speaker 1: and there was life there and then there wasn't. And 200 00:10:19,679 --> 00:10:22,960 Speaker 1: so it was through that that I again. I Just 201 00:10:24,440 --> 00:10:27,480 Speaker 1: that day that I found out that I was miscarrying, 202 00:10:27,800 --> 00:10:31,800 Speaker 1: I went right to the gym and I just found. 203 00:10:31,600 --> 00:10:37,080 Speaker 2: Peace in it. But then there is a happy ending 204 00:10:37,080 --> 00:10:37,920 Speaker 2: to the story. 205 00:10:37,960 --> 00:10:42,280 Speaker 1: Five months later I got pregnant again with my daughter, 206 00:10:42,720 --> 00:10:47,839 Speaker 1: Eden Grace Ferguson, who is now six, and then six 207 00:10:47,880 --> 00:10:51,599 Speaker 1: months after she was born in came Emory Faith Ferguson. 208 00:10:53,320 --> 00:10:56,920 Speaker 2: So, and they are the loves of my life and 209 00:10:57,000 --> 00:11:00,120 Speaker 2: my why and all the things that I do today. 210 00:11:00,600 --> 00:11:03,640 Speaker 3: Wow, well, thank you so much for sharing that with us. 211 00:11:03,760 --> 00:11:05,640 Speaker 3: God was like, I know, I really throw you for 212 00:11:05,679 --> 00:11:07,920 Speaker 3: a loop there for a while. But six months after 213 00:11:07,960 --> 00:11:09,800 Speaker 3: your first one, I'm back with the vengeance. 214 00:11:10,440 --> 00:11:12,160 Speaker 1: I had a lot of things to learn, you know, 215 00:11:12,280 --> 00:11:14,560 Speaker 1: I think there's a lot of things to learn in 216 00:11:14,600 --> 00:11:16,080 Speaker 1: the dark time and the quiet time. 217 00:11:16,200 --> 00:11:17,439 Speaker 2: I say this all the time. 218 00:11:17,600 --> 00:11:20,880 Speaker 1: You know, through the dark comes light, And that has been, 219 00:11:21,760 --> 00:11:24,600 Speaker 1: you know, something I've carried with me and you know, 220 00:11:25,000 --> 00:11:27,360 Speaker 1: and times where I go through challenges, I go back 221 00:11:27,360 --> 00:11:29,920 Speaker 1: to that moment and I say, you've made it through that, 222 00:11:30,400 --> 00:11:32,560 Speaker 1: and you you came out on the other side with 223 00:11:32,600 --> 00:11:35,040 Speaker 1: some of the most incredible blessings that you should be 224 00:11:35,080 --> 00:11:37,840 Speaker 1: so grateful for or you are so grateful for. 225 00:11:38,480 --> 00:11:40,320 Speaker 2: So this is a piece of cake. You know, you 226 00:11:40,400 --> 00:11:40,760 Speaker 2: got this. 227 00:11:41,240 --> 00:11:45,439 Speaker 3: It's an acquired skill or perhaps a personality trait to 228 00:11:45,640 --> 00:11:50,040 Speaker 3: lean into something positive for yourself like health and wellness 229 00:11:50,040 --> 00:11:54,800 Speaker 3: and fitness versus obviously so many other opportunities or things 230 00:11:54,800 --> 00:11:57,880 Speaker 3: that could be available to you, perhaps other you know, 231 00:11:58,240 --> 00:12:02,280 Speaker 3: potentially addictive things. So for you and leaning in to 232 00:12:02,400 --> 00:12:05,559 Speaker 3: health and fitness. Was it bigger than just the act 233 00:12:05,640 --> 00:12:07,280 Speaker 3: of health and fitness? What did you have a big 234 00:12:07,280 --> 00:12:09,679 Speaker 3: community behind you? Talk to me about what that had 235 00:12:09,720 --> 00:12:11,280 Speaker 3: looked like for you at that time. 236 00:12:11,640 --> 00:12:14,400 Speaker 1: Yeah, at that time, I mean I had a lot 237 00:12:14,440 --> 00:12:18,480 Speaker 1: of friends that loved me, but they were all having children, 238 00:12:18,800 --> 00:12:20,839 Speaker 1: and for me, at that time, it was. 239 00:12:20,800 --> 00:12:22,439 Speaker 2: Hard to be around those friends. 240 00:12:22,600 --> 00:12:24,959 Speaker 1: It was hard to sit at dinner with those friends 241 00:12:25,040 --> 00:12:27,400 Speaker 1: where they all think they talk about as their kids, 242 00:12:27,520 --> 00:12:30,600 Speaker 1: or they would complain about things and I'd be like, gosh, 243 00:12:30,600 --> 00:12:33,720 Speaker 1: I would do anything for that, you know. So it 244 00:12:33,840 --> 00:12:36,559 Speaker 1: became difficult to even be around people that I loved 245 00:12:36,720 --> 00:12:41,800 Speaker 1: and I knew that loved me. And so getting into fitness, 246 00:12:41,880 --> 00:12:45,120 Speaker 1: I was able to just find peace and solace in there, 247 00:12:45,679 --> 00:12:49,080 Speaker 1: and I built a community of friends there that were 248 00:12:49,120 --> 00:12:52,120 Speaker 1: just focused on that, just that, you know, working out, 249 00:12:52,320 --> 00:12:55,200 Speaker 1: having a good time while we did listen to amazing music, 250 00:12:55,520 --> 00:13:00,720 Speaker 1: getting inspired by instructors. You know, sometimes instructor say just 251 00:13:00,760 --> 00:13:02,880 Speaker 1: the right thing at just the right moment when you 252 00:13:02,960 --> 00:13:05,840 Speaker 1: need it the most. So it became a place of 253 00:13:05,880 --> 00:13:09,120 Speaker 1: peace for me. And then even after I became a mother, 254 00:13:09,679 --> 00:13:12,520 Speaker 1: it became it is still a place of solace. I 255 00:13:12,600 --> 00:13:15,160 Speaker 1: call it my mommy, my mommy off time, you know, 256 00:13:15,360 --> 00:13:16,720 Speaker 1: because I'm able to take. 257 00:13:16,720 --> 00:13:19,000 Speaker 2: One hour a day where i can focus on me 258 00:13:19,679 --> 00:13:22,559 Speaker 2: and not worry about all the laundry lists of things 259 00:13:22,640 --> 00:13:25,960 Speaker 2: I have to get through through the day. So it 260 00:13:26,000 --> 00:13:28,400 Speaker 2: is it is just so much more than the workout 261 00:13:28,400 --> 00:13:28,640 Speaker 2: for me. 262 00:13:28,760 --> 00:13:33,720 Speaker 1: The workouts is and is the place for me, and 263 00:13:34,040 --> 00:13:36,800 Speaker 1: you know, the health benefits and all the things are 264 00:13:36,880 --> 00:13:39,640 Speaker 1: great that come along with it, but it's also more 265 00:13:39,720 --> 00:13:43,480 Speaker 1: about just the space for peace for me and solace 266 00:13:43,520 --> 00:13:45,319 Speaker 1: that I find in it to be. 267 00:13:45,480 --> 00:13:50,800 Speaker 3: The friend that maybe you didn't really feel comfortable being 268 00:13:50,840 --> 00:13:53,240 Speaker 3: around at that point, and whether this is because maybe 269 00:13:53,360 --> 00:13:55,320 Speaker 3: your friends, as you said, some of them had kids, 270 00:13:55,360 --> 00:13:57,600 Speaker 3: they were talking about having kids, or like just like 271 00:13:57,679 --> 00:14:00,720 Speaker 3: you needing your own space, Like what advice do you 272 00:14:00,880 --> 00:14:05,040 Speaker 3: have to the people that like want to support someone 273 00:14:05,120 --> 00:14:08,600 Speaker 3: who is going through a difficult time, like you want 274 00:14:08,679 --> 00:14:11,600 Speaker 3: to hold space for them, but might not know how 275 00:14:11,640 --> 00:14:15,439 Speaker 3: to show up. Having experienced situations like that myself, unfortunately, 276 00:14:15,440 --> 00:14:17,600 Speaker 3: when friends who have also lost wanting to know, like 277 00:14:17,679 --> 00:14:20,040 Speaker 3: what your perspective would be on how to show up. 278 00:14:20,480 --> 00:14:23,000 Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean that's a very interesting question. I think 279 00:14:23,240 --> 00:14:25,480 Speaker 1: being who they are and not treating you any different. 280 00:14:25,920 --> 00:14:29,120 Speaker 2: But you know, maybe it's not the lunch. 281 00:14:29,160 --> 00:14:31,680 Speaker 1: Maybe it is going finding out what I am loving 282 00:14:31,680 --> 00:14:34,040 Speaker 1: to do and going with me, you know, going with 283 00:14:34,080 --> 00:14:37,320 Speaker 1: me to the gym, or you know, trying a different 284 00:14:37,360 --> 00:14:40,920 Speaker 1: workout with me where it's not you know, let's sit 285 00:14:40,920 --> 00:14:44,240 Speaker 1: around the table and show the pictures and just knowing 286 00:14:44,480 --> 00:14:46,480 Speaker 1: and having a sensitivity around it. 287 00:14:46,600 --> 00:14:49,720 Speaker 2: You know, I think that's important. 288 00:14:50,240 --> 00:14:53,560 Speaker 1: And you know, talking about it, understanding where how you're 289 00:14:53,600 --> 00:14:57,880 Speaker 1: feeling and asking how they can support you. I think 290 00:14:57,920 --> 00:15:03,640 Speaker 1: that is helpful when someone's grieving and hurting in that space. 291 00:15:03,680 --> 00:15:06,320 Speaker 1: But you know, one of the things I realized is, 292 00:15:06,600 --> 00:15:08,800 Speaker 1: and that's why I'm so vocal about what I went through, 293 00:15:08,920 --> 00:15:11,960 Speaker 1: is not everybody it is vocal about it. 294 00:15:12,000 --> 00:15:13,720 Speaker 2: So at the time I felt very alone. 295 00:15:14,040 --> 00:15:16,600 Speaker 1: And so once I started speaking about it more and 296 00:15:16,600 --> 00:15:19,000 Speaker 1: finding that there were other women that have gone through this, 297 00:15:19,600 --> 00:15:21,720 Speaker 1: I found hope in that. I found peace in that. 298 00:15:21,920 --> 00:15:25,840 Speaker 1: And that is why I'm so vocal about sharing my story, 299 00:15:25,960 --> 00:15:28,120 Speaker 1: is that you know, if somebody else is going through that, 300 00:15:28,240 --> 00:15:29,280 Speaker 1: knowing that they're not alone. 301 00:15:29,480 --> 00:15:33,760 Speaker 3: Did you going through this time after the second miscarriage? 302 00:15:33,800 --> 00:15:37,240 Speaker 3: I would imagine maybe there was even a certain level 303 00:15:37,480 --> 00:15:41,000 Speaker 3: of fear about getting pregnant again, even though it was 304 00:15:41,040 --> 00:15:42,600 Speaker 3: something that you so desperately wanted. 305 00:15:42,760 --> 00:15:44,520 Speaker 2: I was terrified. I was terrified. 306 00:15:44,600 --> 00:15:48,000 Speaker 1: I was absolutely terrified the moment I found out I 307 00:15:48,080 --> 00:15:53,120 Speaker 1: was pregnant. Every step of the way, I didn't believe 308 00:15:53,120 --> 00:15:55,960 Speaker 1: it was going to happen. I didn't tell a lot 309 00:15:55,960 --> 00:15:59,080 Speaker 1: of people, you know, in the beginning, I did, But 310 00:15:59,760 --> 00:16:01,480 Speaker 1: when I got pregnant the third time, I didn't tell 311 00:16:01,520 --> 00:16:03,960 Speaker 1: a lot of people because I didn't want to have 312 00:16:04,080 --> 00:16:06,720 Speaker 1: to go through the text chain of all the people 313 00:16:06,720 --> 00:16:09,120 Speaker 1: that I told and just copy and paste, you know, 314 00:16:09,280 --> 00:16:12,560 Speaker 1: and then have to deal with all of that over 315 00:16:12,640 --> 00:16:14,680 Speaker 1: and over again. So I didn't tell a lot of people. 316 00:16:14,720 --> 00:16:18,600 Speaker 1: I was terrified. I'm still terrified to this day, you know, 317 00:16:19,040 --> 00:16:22,200 Speaker 1: just holding on praying that I don't love them. I 318 00:16:22,200 --> 00:16:24,160 Speaker 1: don't think that fear ever goes away. I think that's 319 00:16:24,160 --> 00:16:26,360 Speaker 1: just motherhood. That's just something that just comes with the 320 00:16:26,440 --> 00:16:29,440 Speaker 1: territory now. But every step of the way I was 321 00:16:30,120 --> 00:16:33,960 Speaker 1: was terrified. And you know, again, working out was a 322 00:16:34,000 --> 00:16:36,360 Speaker 1: place that helped me deal with that. You know, once 323 00:16:36,400 --> 00:16:38,040 Speaker 1: I was cleared to work out, I had to take 324 00:16:38,080 --> 00:16:40,240 Speaker 1: the first trimester off because I was kind of considered 325 00:16:40,320 --> 00:16:43,680 Speaker 1: high risk after my first two miscarriages, so I took 326 00:16:43,720 --> 00:16:46,800 Speaker 1: the first trimester off, but then once I was able 327 00:16:46,840 --> 00:16:49,800 Speaker 1: to get back into working out, it was again a 328 00:16:49,880 --> 00:16:54,040 Speaker 1: place of peace and solace for me. And I really 329 00:16:54,080 --> 00:16:59,920 Speaker 1: had to battle my control issues because mother like childbirth, 330 00:17:00,160 --> 00:17:04,040 Speaker 1: and you can't control it. There's so many little things 331 00:17:04,080 --> 00:17:06,680 Speaker 1: that have to happen for this miracle to come into 332 00:17:06,720 --> 00:17:10,200 Speaker 1: the world, and you have absolutely no control over it. 333 00:17:10,280 --> 00:17:13,520 Speaker 1: As much as you think you do, you don't, And 334 00:17:13,560 --> 00:17:18,600 Speaker 1: so really finding peace in that was a constant battle 335 00:17:18,640 --> 00:17:18,879 Speaker 1: for me. 336 00:17:19,680 --> 00:17:23,640 Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean letting go forget like justin like in motherhood, 337 00:17:23,720 --> 00:17:26,919 Speaker 3: like in general, is such a difficult thing for so 338 00:17:27,000 --> 00:17:29,360 Speaker 3: many and something that so many of us have had 339 00:17:29,400 --> 00:17:32,360 Speaker 3: to learn how to do a little bit better over 340 00:17:32,440 --> 00:17:34,000 Speaker 3: the couple of years. 341 00:17:34,160 --> 00:17:37,480 Speaker 1: And every single one of my classes, I make you 342 00:17:37,520 --> 00:17:40,640 Speaker 1: take three big inhales before we get into the actual workout, 343 00:17:40,920 --> 00:17:42,480 Speaker 1: and the last in hell, I said, let it go 344 00:17:42,600 --> 00:17:46,679 Speaker 1: like elsa baby, because so and it could be anything, 345 00:17:46,680 --> 00:17:49,840 Speaker 1: but we are carrying so much and we can't control everything, 346 00:17:50,040 --> 00:17:52,200 Speaker 1: you know, and there's just moments where you just got 347 00:17:52,240 --> 00:17:53,040 Speaker 1: to let it go. 348 00:17:53,240 --> 00:17:53,919 Speaker 4: Gotta let it go. 349 00:17:54,200 --> 00:17:58,320 Speaker 3: When do you transition from someone that seeks out fitness 350 00:17:58,400 --> 00:18:01,840 Speaker 3: as a tool to to cope, to feel good, to 351 00:18:01,920 --> 00:18:05,560 Speaker 3: find that solace, to being a person who wants to 352 00:18:05,600 --> 00:18:08,639 Speaker 3: be at the forefront of helping other people find that 353 00:18:08,680 --> 00:18:09,280 Speaker 3: same feeling. 354 00:18:09,440 --> 00:18:11,440 Speaker 1: I had no idea I wanted to do it until 355 00:18:11,480 --> 00:18:13,080 Speaker 1: I actually stepped out and did it. 356 00:18:13,359 --> 00:18:14,200 Speaker 2: Oh. I love that. 357 00:18:14,480 --> 00:18:20,520 Speaker 1: I was riding at a studio and someone said to me, 358 00:18:21,359 --> 00:18:23,760 Speaker 1: who ever thought about being an instructor? He was like, 359 00:18:23,920 --> 00:18:28,040 Speaker 1: absolutely not like I. When I tell you, I was 360 00:18:28,160 --> 00:18:31,840 Speaker 1: terrified of speaking in front of people. I was always 361 00:18:31,840 --> 00:18:33,880 Speaker 1: the girl that would never raise her hand in class. 362 00:18:33,920 --> 00:18:37,360 Speaker 1: I never wanted to present at work. I was terrified 363 00:18:37,400 --> 00:18:42,159 Speaker 1: of doing work presentations in front of people. Terrified. I 364 00:18:42,200 --> 00:18:45,200 Speaker 1: was like, absolutely not. But something inside of me said, 365 00:18:45,240 --> 00:18:47,040 Speaker 1: you know what, look and I looked up and that 366 00:18:47,080 --> 00:18:50,080 Speaker 1: company had auditions, and so I said, okay, you know what, 367 00:18:50,119 --> 00:18:50,800 Speaker 1: I'm going to go out there. 368 00:18:50,800 --> 00:18:52,200 Speaker 2: I'm going to try it. See what happens. It could 369 00:18:52,280 --> 00:18:52,680 Speaker 2: just be fun. 370 00:18:52,680 --> 00:18:55,880 Speaker 1: It could just be a fun experience to just take 371 00:18:55,960 --> 00:18:59,959 Speaker 1: myself into something super uncomfortable and just try it. 372 00:19:00,600 --> 00:19:04,320 Speaker 2: So I did it, and I remember the moment. 373 00:19:04,080 --> 00:19:05,840 Speaker 1: Where I put the mic on my face and I 374 00:19:05,840 --> 00:19:08,480 Speaker 1: looked at myself in the mirror and I said, Wow, 375 00:19:08,520 --> 00:19:10,760 Speaker 1: this is what you're supposed to do. And it was 376 00:19:10,800 --> 00:19:14,240 Speaker 1: a moment where I was kind of in shock because 377 00:19:14,280 --> 00:19:17,040 Speaker 1: I never in a millionaires thought that this was something. 378 00:19:16,800 --> 00:19:17,239 Speaker 2: I could do. 379 00:19:17,960 --> 00:19:22,120 Speaker 1: And even while I was training, I doubted myself imposter 380 00:19:22,240 --> 00:19:26,400 Speaker 1: syndrome constantly because I'd never done it before. But once 381 00:19:26,440 --> 00:19:31,359 Speaker 1: I started to just be authentically me and share my heart, 382 00:19:32,119 --> 00:19:33,800 Speaker 1: it everything changed for me. 383 00:19:34,880 --> 00:19:35,119 Speaker 2: You know. 384 00:19:35,240 --> 00:19:39,280 Speaker 1: I thought, you know, after going through what I went 385 00:19:39,280 --> 00:19:41,760 Speaker 1: through and having my children, I thought that being a 386 00:19:41,800 --> 00:19:44,520 Speaker 1: mother was going to be it for me and that 387 00:19:44,240 --> 00:19:46,360 Speaker 1: was that was what I was meant to be on 388 00:19:46,400 --> 00:19:49,439 Speaker 1: this earth. But then I was a longing as something 389 00:19:49,520 --> 00:19:52,600 Speaker 1: still inside me, like you have more to give besides this, 390 00:19:53,240 --> 00:19:55,320 Speaker 1: and I struggled with trying to figure that out. And 391 00:19:55,400 --> 00:19:57,080 Speaker 1: it wasn't until I looked at myself in the mirror 392 00:19:57,160 --> 00:19:58,760 Speaker 1: with that mic on my face that was like, this 393 00:19:58,920 --> 00:19:59,119 Speaker 1: is it. 394 00:20:00,200 --> 00:20:01,560 Speaker 2: And it wasn't easy. 395 00:20:02,240 --> 00:20:05,399 Speaker 1: It was not easy, but I knew in that moment 396 00:20:05,440 --> 00:20:06,840 Speaker 1: that this is what I was meant to do. 397 00:20:08,160 --> 00:20:12,240 Speaker 3: Two logistical questions, the first question being how long did 398 00:20:12,240 --> 00:20:14,080 Speaker 3: that training period take for you? 399 00:20:15,040 --> 00:20:19,639 Speaker 1: So I was in training for three months, but then 400 00:20:21,480 --> 00:20:24,119 Speaker 1: my daughter had a medical issue. She had ended up 401 00:20:24,119 --> 00:20:27,280 Speaker 1: having a seizure out of nowhere, and so my world 402 00:20:27,359 --> 00:20:29,520 Speaker 1: was rocked. My world was rocked, and like I said, 403 00:20:29,560 --> 00:20:32,760 Speaker 1: I was holding onto my babies with deer life. So 404 00:20:32,800 --> 00:20:36,399 Speaker 1: I walked away actually from that particular company, and I 405 00:20:36,480 --> 00:20:38,760 Speaker 1: focused on my daughter. There was tons of doctor's appointments, 406 00:20:38,840 --> 00:20:41,840 Speaker 1: tons of follow ups, and it was almost heartbreaking because 407 00:20:41,840 --> 00:20:43,960 Speaker 1: it was like, man, I feel like I found what 408 00:20:44,080 --> 00:20:46,520 Speaker 1: I want to do, but in this moment, I need 409 00:20:46,520 --> 00:20:51,000 Speaker 1: to be the mom. And so I did that, and 410 00:20:51,040 --> 00:20:54,159 Speaker 1: then another opportunity came up and I started teaching at 411 00:20:54,160 --> 00:20:59,000 Speaker 1: a smaller gym out here in New Jersey, and that's 412 00:20:59,040 --> 00:21:02,679 Speaker 1: where everything changed for me. That's where it just clicked. 413 00:21:02,720 --> 00:21:04,719 Speaker 1: There was no more imposter syndrome. It was like, I'm 414 00:21:04,760 --> 00:21:06,119 Speaker 1: going to get after it. I'm going to do this. 415 00:21:06,160 --> 00:21:08,800 Speaker 1: I'm going to inspire the people in this town and 416 00:21:08,840 --> 00:21:10,880 Speaker 1: this community. And it blew up from there and then 417 00:21:10,920 --> 00:21:11,600 Speaker 1: COVID hit. 418 00:21:12,560 --> 00:21:16,879 Speaker 2: And I was like, man, I'm just getting like it 419 00:21:16,960 --> 00:21:18,080 Speaker 2: was about to take off. 420 00:21:18,560 --> 00:21:21,640 Speaker 1: And then COVID hit and I had COVID like right 421 00:21:21,640 --> 00:21:23,880 Speaker 1: as soon as our gym shut down, and I said, 422 00:21:23,960 --> 00:21:26,680 Speaker 1: I remember being at home with COVID for three weeks. 423 00:21:26,720 --> 00:21:29,359 Speaker 1: I had to send my babies away. And it was 424 00:21:29,400 --> 00:21:31,240 Speaker 1: in that moment where it was like, what are you 425 00:21:31,280 --> 00:21:33,120 Speaker 1: going to do? Everybody's trying to figure it out. 426 00:21:33,160 --> 00:21:35,320 Speaker 2: What are you going to do? And I knew how 427 00:21:35,400 --> 00:21:36,720 Speaker 2: I was feeling in that moment. 428 00:21:36,800 --> 00:21:39,760 Speaker 1: I was feeling scared, I was feeling lonely, I was 429 00:21:39,800 --> 00:21:44,119 Speaker 1: feeling depressed. I was feeling so many emotions that I 430 00:21:44,119 --> 00:21:45,879 Speaker 1: think a lot of people were feeling. And I was like, 431 00:21:45,960 --> 00:21:49,600 Speaker 1: how can I be a light for people in this time? 432 00:21:50,480 --> 00:21:52,440 Speaker 1: So girl, I took out my phone. I never did 433 00:21:52,440 --> 00:21:55,040 Speaker 1: an Instagram live a day in my life. I was like, 434 00:21:55,119 --> 00:21:57,760 Speaker 1: here we go, put on the light, pulled out my 435 00:21:58,200 --> 00:22:02,560 Speaker 1: Peloton bike that I had twenty fifteen, and I started 436 00:22:02,560 --> 00:22:05,080 Speaker 1: teaching on a thing and it blew. 437 00:22:04,880 --> 00:22:05,480 Speaker 2: Up from there. 438 00:22:06,000 --> 00:22:09,560 Speaker 1: It blew up from there, and then six months later 439 00:22:10,040 --> 00:22:11,040 Speaker 1: I heard from Peloton. 440 00:22:12,960 --> 00:22:15,399 Speaker 3: The beautiful thing about writing a Peloton stuck inside your 441 00:22:15,400 --> 00:22:16,240 Speaker 3: own home, isn't it? 442 00:22:18,520 --> 00:22:20,920 Speaker 2: You never know what can happen for you. 443 00:22:20,920 --> 00:22:23,600 Speaker 4: You never know what could happen for you. 444 00:22:23,600 --> 00:22:28,040 Speaker 3: You know it's I commend you because so many of 445 00:22:28,080 --> 00:22:31,360 Speaker 3: the stories that you've shared so far, the circumstance, whether 446 00:22:31,400 --> 00:22:34,840 Speaker 3: it be between the losses that you experienced within your 447 00:22:34,880 --> 00:22:37,199 Speaker 3: family or you know, the scary moment that happened with 448 00:22:37,240 --> 00:22:37,720 Speaker 3: your daughter. 449 00:22:38,040 --> 00:22:40,040 Speaker 4: So many instances where you could have. 450 00:22:40,160 --> 00:22:46,959 Speaker 3: Just let the fear win right, And it's beautiful to 451 00:22:47,000 --> 00:22:51,600 Speaker 3: see the acknowledgment that you have over that inner voice 452 00:22:51,600 --> 00:22:54,399 Speaker 3: that says, but there's more for you. A lot of 453 00:22:54,520 --> 00:23:01,120 Speaker 3: people struggle to let that inner voice like true guide 454 00:23:01,320 --> 00:23:05,280 Speaker 3: their way, especially you know, with the like magnitude of 455 00:23:05,280 --> 00:23:07,520 Speaker 3: the situations that you experienced. 456 00:23:07,520 --> 00:23:09,600 Speaker 4: So I totally commend you on that. 457 00:23:10,720 --> 00:23:12,480 Speaker 3: Do you remember, I mean, I'm sure you do, but 458 00:23:12,520 --> 00:23:14,480 Speaker 3: do you remember where you were when you got the 459 00:23:14,520 --> 00:23:16,840 Speaker 3: call or were you with her when your daughter experienced 460 00:23:16,840 --> 00:23:17,360 Speaker 3: at seizure. 461 00:23:18,040 --> 00:23:21,040 Speaker 2: So this is the crazy thing. And I don't know 462 00:23:21,080 --> 00:23:21,920 Speaker 2: what everybody believed. 463 00:23:21,920 --> 00:23:24,560 Speaker 1: I believe in God, and it was it was something 464 00:23:24,640 --> 00:23:27,360 Speaker 1: that you know, I saw something on on my cameras 465 00:23:27,400 --> 00:23:29,200 Speaker 1: on my phone, and usually if she gets up, I 466 00:23:29,560 --> 00:23:32,960 Speaker 1: let her just go back to sleep. But something told 467 00:23:32,960 --> 00:23:35,800 Speaker 1: me to go upstairs. So I went upstairs and she 468 00:23:35,960 --> 00:23:38,399 Speaker 1: was sitting up in the bed in a blank stare. 469 00:23:39,040 --> 00:23:41,479 Speaker 1: I was like, yeah, you are right, and then I 470 00:23:41,560 --> 00:23:43,600 Speaker 1: went over to her and then she just started seizing 471 00:23:43,640 --> 00:23:48,000 Speaker 1: in my arms. And I it was thank god my 472 00:23:48,080 --> 00:23:50,639 Speaker 1: mother was here. My mom's a nurse, thank god she 473 00:23:50,720 --> 00:23:55,399 Speaker 1: was in town. She ran upstairs, and you know, it 474 00:23:55,520 --> 00:23:58,120 Speaker 1: was terrifying. You know, we called the ambulance and rushed 475 00:23:58,119 --> 00:24:00,359 Speaker 1: her to the hospital. But it was just one of 476 00:24:00,400 --> 00:24:02,080 Speaker 1: those moments. I was in the right place at the 477 00:24:02,119 --> 00:24:04,840 Speaker 1: right time. I had the cameras, so I had everything 478 00:24:04,880 --> 00:24:06,719 Speaker 1: on camera, so I was able to show the doctors 479 00:24:06,760 --> 00:24:11,840 Speaker 1: what happened, you know. So that's it was really like 480 00:24:12,880 --> 00:24:15,680 Speaker 1: God telling me to go upstairs to your child right now. 481 00:24:15,720 --> 00:24:16,960 Speaker 2: And it was after a long day. 482 00:24:17,000 --> 00:24:20,040 Speaker 1: I was at training all day and I could have 483 00:24:20,080 --> 00:24:21,200 Speaker 1: just looked at the phone and be like, oh, so'll 484 00:24:21,240 --> 00:24:24,560 Speaker 1: go back to bed, but something told me to go upstairs. 485 00:24:25,160 --> 00:24:25,640 Speaker 2: Wow. 486 00:24:25,840 --> 00:24:28,280 Speaker 4: Wow, I have like goosebumps all over my entire. 487 00:24:28,080 --> 00:24:31,560 Speaker 2: Body right now. Yeah, I do too. Actually, I always 488 00:24:31,560 --> 00:24:34,280 Speaker 2: brought back to that moment. It's terrified. It was terrifying. 489 00:24:34,520 --> 00:24:37,760 Speaker 3: Yeah, of course. And I if I was you, I mean, 490 00:24:37,920 --> 00:24:40,400 Speaker 3: let's talk about control. Like I can't even tell you, 491 00:24:40,440 --> 00:24:42,800 Speaker 3: like how I would not live with like my phone 492 00:24:42,840 --> 00:24:45,320 Speaker 3: and that camera plastered in my hand for the rest 493 00:24:45,359 --> 00:24:47,320 Speaker 3: of my Oh my gosh. 494 00:24:47,080 --> 00:24:49,159 Speaker 2: Tell me about it. I'm always going and checking on 495 00:24:49,240 --> 00:24:50,240 Speaker 2: them all the time. 496 00:24:50,840 --> 00:24:53,920 Speaker 3: I remember some of my friends when they became first 497 00:24:53,960 --> 00:24:56,280 Speaker 3: time mothers as like most first time mothers to like 498 00:24:56,359 --> 00:24:59,720 Speaker 3: you go through that first phase where like you literally 499 00:24:59,720 --> 00:25:01,680 Speaker 3: going to their room and just check that they're breathing, 500 00:25:01,760 --> 00:25:03,120 Speaker 3: like at least twelve times in the night. 501 00:25:03,240 --> 00:25:05,560 Speaker 1: All the time, all the time. I like, if they 502 00:25:05,560 --> 00:25:09,720 Speaker 1: have they're like sleeping on you. Like I it's you 503 00:25:09,800 --> 00:25:12,560 Speaker 1: never stop. Like when I tell you never stop worrying, 504 00:25:12,640 --> 00:25:13,399 Speaker 1: you can never stop. 505 00:25:13,640 --> 00:25:14,359 Speaker 4: You never stop. 506 00:25:14,440 --> 00:25:17,200 Speaker 3: And the other thing to touch on here, I love 507 00:25:17,400 --> 00:25:20,720 Speaker 3: what you said about uh starting to teach from home 508 00:25:20,800 --> 00:25:24,080 Speaker 3: and pulling out this like twenty fifteen Peloton bike again 509 00:25:24,280 --> 00:25:26,760 Speaker 3: another example of like why you're such an interesting and 510 00:25:26,800 --> 00:25:29,720 Speaker 3: special person because so many people, I think struggle with 511 00:25:29,800 --> 00:25:32,280 Speaker 3: the idea of things need to be a certain way 512 00:25:32,600 --> 00:25:35,000 Speaker 3: or things need to be perfect, and for you to 513 00:25:35,040 --> 00:25:36,400 Speaker 3: have absolutely no. 514 00:25:36,400 --> 00:25:39,000 Speaker 4: Experience trying to do something like this with the Instagram. 515 00:25:39,119 --> 00:25:41,840 Speaker 3: Nevertheless, to do something like this with this bike that 516 00:25:41,920 --> 00:25:43,639 Speaker 3: like seems to have been collecting a little bit of 517 00:25:43,680 --> 00:25:45,840 Speaker 3: dust at home, What a cool thing for you to do. 518 00:25:46,200 --> 00:25:46,520 Speaker 2: It was. 519 00:25:46,880 --> 00:25:51,840 Speaker 1: It was awesome and you know, just stepping into doing 520 00:25:51,880 --> 00:25:54,919 Speaker 1: something different, and you know, I feel like everything in 521 00:25:54,920 --> 00:25:57,280 Speaker 1: life happens for a reason. I had never talked to 522 00:25:57,359 --> 00:26:00,320 Speaker 1: the camera before, and I've never talked to a room 523 00:26:00,440 --> 00:26:04,080 Speaker 1: with nobody in it, with no energy, and I didn't 524 00:26:04,119 --> 00:26:07,639 Speaker 1: know in that moment it was preparing me for what 525 00:26:07,880 --> 00:26:12,600 Speaker 1: I do now, teaching, you know, on the tread to 526 00:26:12,720 --> 00:26:13,240 Speaker 1: a camera. 527 00:26:13,560 --> 00:26:15,600 Speaker 2: Nobody else is in the room but me. You know, 528 00:26:15,640 --> 00:26:17,200 Speaker 2: it was preparing me for this moment. 529 00:26:17,480 --> 00:26:19,880 Speaker 1: You know, when you look back on things, you're like, man, 530 00:26:20,000 --> 00:26:22,320 Speaker 1: I had no idea what I was doing then, but 531 00:26:23,240 --> 00:26:24,160 Speaker 1: it prepared me for. 532 00:26:24,080 --> 00:26:25,400 Speaker 2: What I'm doing now. 533 00:26:25,760 --> 00:26:28,600 Speaker 3: Yeah, So what was going on in your life? I mean, 534 00:26:28,720 --> 00:26:32,080 Speaker 3: COVID gestures loosely, but what was going on in your 535 00:26:32,119 --> 00:26:35,280 Speaker 3: life when you finally heard from Peloton. 536 00:26:35,920 --> 00:26:40,480 Speaker 1: So I was teaching at home, I was homeschooling my kids. 537 00:26:41,080 --> 00:26:45,000 Speaker 1: All hell was breaking loose, you know, I was separating 538 00:26:45,040 --> 00:26:47,280 Speaker 1: from my partner at the time. 539 00:26:47,640 --> 00:26:52,199 Speaker 2: It was literally like all hell was going on in 540 00:26:52,240 --> 00:26:55,760 Speaker 2: this house. And then to get that message, it was 541 00:26:56,080 --> 00:26:56,720 Speaker 2: I was in awe. 542 00:26:56,800 --> 00:26:59,840 Speaker 1: I believe in the power of manifestation, and in the 543 00:27:00,040 --> 00:27:03,400 Speaker 1: beginning of COVID, I really sat down to figure out, Okay, 544 00:27:03,800 --> 00:27:05,960 Speaker 1: what do I want for my life? And I have 545 00:27:06,000 --> 00:27:07,880 Speaker 1: a bunch of post it notes in my manifestation wall 546 00:27:07,920 --> 00:27:09,199 Speaker 1: and I have one that said I want to. 547 00:27:09,160 --> 00:27:11,439 Speaker 2: Be a Polticone instructor and. 548 00:27:13,040 --> 00:27:16,760 Speaker 1: So to get that message, they slid in the DM's girl. 549 00:27:16,800 --> 00:27:18,600 Speaker 1: They slid in the DMS and I was like, Man, 550 00:27:18,720 --> 00:27:20,760 Speaker 1: is this real? If this person asked for my Social 551 00:27:20,760 --> 00:27:24,159 Speaker 1: Security number? I know this is not real, but it 552 00:27:24,240 --> 00:27:24,680 Speaker 1: was real. 553 00:27:24,960 --> 00:27:29,080 Speaker 2: And I've been in all of this whole process ever since. 554 00:27:31,119 --> 00:27:31,359 Speaker 2: You know. 555 00:27:31,520 --> 00:27:34,840 Speaker 1: They they reached out and I went for my first 556 00:27:34,840 --> 00:27:40,000 Speaker 1: interview and it's been absolutely incredible ever since. I feel 557 00:27:40,040 --> 00:27:43,880 Speaker 1: like I've had permanent dimple smiles since that day. 558 00:27:45,320 --> 00:27:48,080 Speaker 3: Well, the interesting thing here is that you have been 559 00:27:48,119 --> 00:27:50,320 Speaker 3: teaching spin and now you're teaching tread. 560 00:27:50,400 --> 00:27:52,399 Speaker 4: Talk to us about that and how that kind of 561 00:27:52,400 --> 00:27:52,800 Speaker 4: panned out. 562 00:27:53,200 --> 00:27:55,959 Speaker 1: Absolutely, So, you know, they reached out. I'm so excited. 563 00:27:55,960 --> 00:27:58,840 Speaker 1: I was like, oh my gosh, I manifested this. Ah, 564 00:27:58,920 --> 00:28:03,280 Speaker 1: this is incredible. And you know, the first interview was amazing. 565 00:28:03,520 --> 00:28:05,520 Speaker 1: And then they reached out again and they were like, so, 566 00:28:05,560 --> 00:28:07,800 Speaker 1: we don't have much room on the bike. We're pretty 567 00:28:07,840 --> 00:28:11,960 Speaker 1: at capacity there. What are your thoughts about auditioning for 568 00:28:12,520 --> 00:28:13,040 Speaker 1: the tread? 569 00:28:13,280 --> 00:28:14,520 Speaker 2: And I and I have one. 570 00:28:14,600 --> 00:28:16,879 Speaker 1: I was like, well, I have one I love just 571 00:28:17,200 --> 00:28:18,520 Speaker 1: sims and those boot camps. 572 00:28:18,520 --> 00:28:20,840 Speaker 2: Baby, I'm here for it, but I've never taught it. 573 00:28:20,960 --> 00:28:22,280 Speaker 4: Me too, lady, me too. 574 00:28:22,400 --> 00:28:26,560 Speaker 2: It's girl. But I'm like, what okay like? And I 575 00:28:26,640 --> 00:28:28,119 Speaker 2: had to go back to that space. 576 00:28:28,160 --> 00:28:30,919 Speaker 1: You've done this before, You've walked into rooms that you 577 00:28:30,920 --> 00:28:33,600 Speaker 1: didn't know what you were doing, and you've done it. 578 00:28:34,400 --> 00:28:37,640 Speaker 1: Go back to that person, and I said, you know what, 579 00:28:38,080 --> 00:28:39,160 Speaker 1: I'm going to audition. 580 00:28:39,240 --> 00:28:40,040 Speaker 2: I'm going to be me. 581 00:28:40,360 --> 00:28:43,200 Speaker 1: I'm going to study my butt off, I'm going to 582 00:28:43,560 --> 00:28:47,040 Speaker 1: be totally confident in what I'm doing. 583 00:28:47,200 --> 00:28:49,440 Speaker 2: I'm going to get all the credentials that I need 584 00:28:51,400 --> 00:28:52,400 Speaker 2: to be certified to. 585 00:28:52,360 --> 00:28:54,920 Speaker 1: Be able to do this, and let's go and I'm 586 00:28:54,960 --> 00:28:56,800 Speaker 1: going to learn from the best in the industry. 587 00:28:57,160 --> 00:28:57,400 Speaker 2: You know. 588 00:28:57,640 --> 00:28:59,840 Speaker 1: Yet, were there times where I was like, girl, you 589 00:28:59,840 --> 00:29:02,840 Speaker 1: are not vexed. You are not Matt Wilfer's day run marathons. 590 00:29:03,120 --> 00:29:05,560 Speaker 1: You've never done that before. I don't even know if 591 00:29:05,600 --> 00:29:07,600 Speaker 1: you want to do that. Are you sure you can 592 00:29:07,680 --> 00:29:07,920 Speaker 1: do this? 593 00:29:09,200 --> 00:29:12,000 Speaker 2: I was absolutely having those moments. But then there was 594 00:29:12,360 --> 00:29:15,160 Speaker 2: another time where it was like, here's staying. You are 595 00:29:15,240 --> 00:29:15,880 Speaker 2: meant for this. 596 00:29:16,400 --> 00:29:19,800 Speaker 1: You your desire to do this is to change lives. 597 00:29:19,880 --> 00:29:21,600 Speaker 1: And if it's to do it on a tread, a 598 00:29:21,720 --> 00:29:25,120 Speaker 1: bike with some weights, whatever it is, go do that. 599 00:29:25,520 --> 00:29:27,960 Speaker 3: Hey, I'm not foreshadowing anything, but you know that that 600 00:29:28,920 --> 00:29:31,360 Speaker 3: you know that Jess started doing exactly what you're doing 601 00:29:31,400 --> 00:29:32,720 Speaker 3: and then all of a sudden, one day she was 602 00:29:32,760 --> 00:29:33,160 Speaker 3: on the bike. 603 00:29:33,240 --> 00:29:35,000 Speaker 1: So maybe there's a future now, you know, you know 604 00:29:35,240 --> 00:29:36,680 Speaker 1: there's power and manifestation. 605 00:29:36,800 --> 00:29:37,440 Speaker 2: I'll tell you that. 606 00:29:43,200 --> 00:29:45,440 Speaker 3: Taking a break from today's episode to talk to you 607 00:29:45,600 --> 00:29:48,920 Speaker 3: about my sponsor given some love today to my friends 608 00:29:48,960 --> 00:29:49,520 Speaker 3: at Beam. 609 00:29:49,600 --> 00:29:52,000 Speaker 4: Now, specifically today, I want to talk to you about 610 00:29:52,000 --> 00:29:52,840 Speaker 4: Beam Dream. 611 00:29:53,200 --> 00:29:54,800 Speaker 3: You may have heard me talking about it on the 612 00:29:54,800 --> 00:29:58,080 Speaker 3: show before, and that is because I am head over 613 00:29:58,160 --> 00:30:02,160 Speaker 3: yels for this stuff. 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For you, 644 00:31:59,000 --> 00:32:02,760 Speaker 3: what would you say was the most difficult part of 645 00:32:02,800 --> 00:32:04,040 Speaker 3: that for you and your family. 646 00:32:05,400 --> 00:32:08,080 Speaker 2: For me and my family, it was my girls. It 647 00:32:08,200 --> 00:32:14,160 Speaker 2: was making sure they were okay. Luckily, we co parent beautifully. 648 00:32:14,640 --> 00:32:15,680 Speaker 2: He's a great human being. 649 00:32:15,680 --> 00:32:18,240 Speaker 1: But we just came to the realization that this wasn't 650 00:32:18,320 --> 00:32:22,200 Speaker 1: it anymore and we wanted to choose happiness. And when 651 00:32:22,200 --> 00:32:24,520 Speaker 1: we both were in alignment on that, it was good. 652 00:32:25,080 --> 00:32:28,680 Speaker 1: Were there hard days as a single mom? One hundred 653 00:32:28,840 --> 00:32:32,600 Speaker 1: and ten thousand percent. Was it worth it? 654 00:32:32,720 --> 00:32:37,720 Speaker 2: Yes? Yes, more doors opened for me that I didn't 655 00:32:37,760 --> 00:32:41,640 Speaker 2: even know was possible by allowing that one to close. 656 00:32:42,480 --> 00:32:47,560 Speaker 1: You know, I made myself small in that relationship. I 657 00:32:47,600 --> 00:32:49,959 Speaker 1: would never have believed in myself to be able to 658 00:32:49,960 --> 00:32:53,560 Speaker 1: do this, and so it was a necessary step. And 659 00:32:54,240 --> 00:32:56,600 Speaker 1: now I am able to really walk and be who 660 00:32:56,640 --> 00:33:00,440 Speaker 1: I am, and my daughters are able to see me happy, 661 00:33:01,000 --> 00:33:04,920 Speaker 1: They're able to watch me chase after my dreams. They 662 00:33:04,920 --> 00:33:08,440 Speaker 1: think I'm Beyonce by the way, as they should. 663 00:33:10,400 --> 00:33:12,000 Speaker 2: So, Man, what a great thing? 664 00:33:12,080 --> 00:33:14,280 Speaker 4: Do you just have two little mini me's looking up 665 00:33:14,280 --> 00:33:15,640 Speaker 4: to you all of the time. 666 00:33:16,600 --> 00:33:19,800 Speaker 1: And I watched my mother do it for me. She 667 00:33:20,000 --> 00:33:23,600 Speaker 1: was a single mom and kill the male dominated field. 668 00:33:23,640 --> 00:33:26,040 Speaker 1: I remember her watching her walking to work in a 669 00:33:26,160 --> 00:33:29,160 Speaker 1: power red suit. Like all of these memories I still 670 00:33:29,200 --> 00:33:31,040 Speaker 1: have with me and carry with me, and I want 671 00:33:31,080 --> 00:33:33,640 Speaker 1: my girls to see that in me and know that 672 00:33:34,480 --> 00:33:37,360 Speaker 1: they don't need to stay in a relationship that on 673 00:33:37,520 --> 00:33:38,840 Speaker 1: paper looks perfect. 674 00:33:39,240 --> 00:33:42,360 Speaker 2: If you're unhappy, you know, life is way too short, 675 00:33:43,320 --> 00:33:47,320 Speaker 2: and during COVID, I think we all started to realize that, 676 00:33:47,760 --> 00:33:51,600 Speaker 2: and so that would just be my my only one 677 00:33:51,640 --> 00:33:53,440 Speaker 2: thing I would want to share is just you know, 678 00:33:53,800 --> 00:33:56,760 Speaker 2: life is too short, you know, and if if you 679 00:33:56,880 --> 00:33:59,360 Speaker 2: are in agreement and the alignment, that that is what 680 00:33:59,400 --> 00:34:01,840 Speaker 2: you need to do, you know, step out on faith. 681 00:34:02,080 --> 00:34:03,840 Speaker 2: You know. Is it going to be easy? Absolutely not? 682 00:34:04,880 --> 00:34:07,760 Speaker 2: Is it worth it? At least it was for me. 683 00:34:08,320 --> 00:34:10,760 Speaker 3: That sentence, like if you are in agreement in alignment, 684 00:34:10,840 --> 00:34:12,799 Speaker 3: like it's great that the two of you were, but 685 00:34:12,880 --> 00:34:15,560 Speaker 3: sometimes you need to like be very honest with you 686 00:34:15,840 --> 00:34:18,080 Speaker 3: about you know, what it is that you need. And 687 00:34:18,560 --> 00:34:22,600 Speaker 3: it can be frightening, as you said, absolutely frightening, but 688 00:34:23,000 --> 00:34:26,000 Speaker 3: something that your girl says, I uh, I want it 689 00:34:26,000 --> 00:34:26,799 Speaker 3: more than I fear it. 690 00:34:26,920 --> 00:34:30,280 Speaker 4: Right, So what is it that you're going after. 691 00:34:30,480 --> 00:34:32,840 Speaker 3: What is it that like burns that fire inside of 692 00:34:32,880 --> 00:34:34,880 Speaker 3: you so that you can go to your next level 693 00:34:35,160 --> 00:34:35,920 Speaker 3: of potential. 694 00:34:36,080 --> 00:34:36,480 Speaker 2: Yeah. 695 00:34:36,480 --> 00:34:41,319 Speaker 3: Absolutely, And it's interesting as well because I hear what 696 00:34:41,400 --> 00:34:44,200 Speaker 3: you're saying, like, I shrunk myself so much in that, 697 00:34:44,480 --> 00:34:47,000 Speaker 3: and I think that sometimes when you're in the middle 698 00:34:47,000 --> 00:34:48,440 Speaker 3: of it, when you're in the thick of it, like 699 00:34:48,680 --> 00:34:51,640 Speaker 3: you kind of know that, but you also don't realize 700 00:34:51,680 --> 00:34:55,280 Speaker 3: like how much of yourself you're sacrificing in these difficult moments. 701 00:34:55,760 --> 00:35:00,680 Speaker 3: And that, truly it's something that you almost have to 702 00:35:00,719 --> 00:35:04,000 Speaker 3: go through a difficult time like that, whether it's because 703 00:35:04,040 --> 00:35:06,840 Speaker 3: of a relationship or so many other of the hurdles 704 00:35:06,840 --> 00:35:09,080 Speaker 3: that we go through in our lives. But it's almost 705 00:35:09,120 --> 00:35:12,759 Speaker 3: like by going through these hurdle moments, you learn the 706 00:35:12,800 --> 00:35:15,359 Speaker 3: best way to proceed and how maybe not to make 707 00:35:15,440 --> 00:35:18,520 Speaker 3: some of those same not the best for you decisions 708 00:35:18,640 --> 00:35:20,640 Speaker 3: in the next phase and in the next phase and 709 00:35:20,680 --> 00:35:21,520 Speaker 3: in the next chapter. 710 00:35:21,840 --> 00:35:22,120 Speaker 2: Right. 711 00:35:22,160 --> 00:35:24,880 Speaker 1: Absolutely, I truly believe there's no such thing as failure 712 00:35:24,920 --> 00:35:28,040 Speaker 1: in life. It's a lesson and you take that with 713 00:35:28,200 --> 00:35:32,040 Speaker 1: you through every challenge that you go through. And you know, 714 00:35:32,160 --> 00:35:36,879 Speaker 1: for me, it was really being okay with it and 715 00:35:36,920 --> 00:35:39,839 Speaker 1: then being open to what happens next. I still don't know, 716 00:35:40,080 --> 00:35:43,359 Speaker 1: you know, I'm still you know, definitely walking through it all. 717 00:35:44,080 --> 00:35:45,880 Speaker 1: But I would not be able to be the person 718 00:35:45,880 --> 00:35:49,960 Speaker 1: I am today if I if I stay stuck, you know, 719 00:35:50,160 --> 00:35:53,319 Speaker 1: and I would look at myself in the mirror and 720 00:35:53,400 --> 00:35:57,520 Speaker 1: all the things that I'm coaching and telling everybody else 721 00:35:57,560 --> 00:35:59,600 Speaker 1: to do. It was like I had a moment in 722 00:35:59,640 --> 00:36:03,120 Speaker 1: the mirror, Karsten, you need to walk the walk too, 723 00:36:03,640 --> 00:36:05,719 Speaker 1: you know, and be brave enough to do that. 724 00:36:06,040 --> 00:36:08,600 Speaker 4: And it's hard, it's hard to like take your own advice. 725 00:36:09,080 --> 00:36:11,879 Speaker 3: Was not a marriage, but I remember, like I've been 726 00:36:11,920 --> 00:36:12,719 Speaker 3: in you know. 727 00:36:13,000 --> 00:36:14,640 Speaker 4: Situations or relationships. 728 00:36:14,800 --> 00:36:17,719 Speaker 3: I was in this one particular relationship that was definitely 729 00:36:18,000 --> 00:36:21,200 Speaker 3: emotionally abusive, and one day I looked in the mirror 730 00:36:21,239 --> 00:36:26,480 Speaker 3: after probably not sleeping for a month really to any 731 00:36:26,520 --> 00:36:29,080 Speaker 3: solid amount, and I just looked at myself and I 732 00:36:29,080 --> 00:36:29,680 Speaker 3: asked myself. 733 00:36:29,680 --> 00:36:31,160 Speaker 4: I was like, are you happy? 734 00:36:31,880 --> 00:36:32,000 Speaker 2: Like? 735 00:36:32,480 --> 00:36:36,880 Speaker 3: And you need like that moment of just like brutal honesty. 736 00:36:37,000 --> 00:36:39,839 Speaker 3: And it's hard as hell, but man, is it like 737 00:36:39,960 --> 00:36:41,319 Speaker 3: a game changer. 738 00:36:41,080 --> 00:36:44,080 Speaker 2: Game changer, game changer, game changer. 739 00:36:44,400 --> 00:36:46,719 Speaker 1: And you know, it makes you stronger throughout it all 740 00:36:46,760 --> 00:36:48,239 Speaker 1: so that when you do go through the next thing, 741 00:36:48,239 --> 00:36:50,239 Speaker 1: because you are going to go through the next thing, you. 742 00:36:50,200 --> 00:36:52,920 Speaker 2: Are prepared for what you will and will not accept. 743 00:36:54,120 --> 00:36:57,120 Speaker 1: And I'm so proud of the woman that I see 744 00:36:57,160 --> 00:36:59,279 Speaker 1: today because she was not the same woman that she 745 00:36:59,560 --> 00:37:00,439 Speaker 1: was five years ago. 746 00:37:00,680 --> 00:37:04,160 Speaker 3: Yeah, And I mean also, of course, here COVID playing 747 00:37:04,400 --> 00:37:07,520 Speaker 3: such a big role in us doing a lot of 748 00:37:07,560 --> 00:37:11,200 Speaker 3: that like inner personal work. So not only like this 749 00:37:11,360 --> 00:37:16,440 Speaker 3: crazy global pandemic going on, but you also changing careers, 750 00:37:16,840 --> 00:37:20,560 Speaker 3: coming into your own as like this beautiful mother taking 751 00:37:20,800 --> 00:37:24,960 Speaker 3: care of two little girls. Did you develop any rituals 752 00:37:25,080 --> 00:37:27,640 Speaker 3: or things in your own household that helped you get 753 00:37:27,680 --> 00:37:30,280 Speaker 3: through some of these like really difficult moments? 754 00:37:31,040 --> 00:37:34,400 Speaker 1: You know, I felt like it was a moment for 755 00:37:34,480 --> 00:37:37,279 Speaker 1: us all to be still and really be focused on 756 00:37:37,360 --> 00:37:42,120 Speaker 1: what is really important in life. And I know at 757 00:37:42,120 --> 00:37:45,640 Speaker 1: that time, I was so focused on my career and 758 00:37:45,719 --> 00:37:49,040 Speaker 1: finding out what I wanted to do that you know, 759 00:37:49,120 --> 00:37:51,880 Speaker 1: it's always a balancing act, right, But you know, my 760 00:37:52,040 --> 00:37:54,520 Speaker 1: time with my children was kind of like this, and 761 00:37:54,600 --> 00:37:59,840 Speaker 1: so when COVID hit, you're kind of forced to spend time, 762 00:38:00,160 --> 00:38:04,160 Speaker 1: real time with your family. And I started to really 763 00:38:04,200 --> 00:38:08,960 Speaker 1: embrace that and focus on that. And you know, we 764 00:38:08,960 --> 00:38:11,640 Speaker 1: were going through a difficult time as a family, and 765 00:38:11,880 --> 00:38:15,399 Speaker 1: I was grateful for the opportunity to really be there 766 00:38:15,440 --> 00:38:18,160 Speaker 1: to love on my kids and know that even though 767 00:38:18,160 --> 00:38:19,879 Speaker 1: me and their father are no longer together, there are 768 00:38:19,880 --> 00:38:24,439 Speaker 1: still loved and just spend real, meaningful time with them. 769 00:38:24,680 --> 00:38:26,640 Speaker 2: I think that was one of the biggest things. 770 00:38:26,640 --> 00:38:28,520 Speaker 1: It's not really a ritual, but it was something I 771 00:38:28,560 --> 00:38:31,799 Speaker 1: was able to do, really spend intentional time with them. 772 00:38:32,320 --> 00:38:35,080 Speaker 1: And now that you know, we're starting to get out 773 00:38:35,120 --> 00:38:38,560 Speaker 1: of it, still going back to that time, right and 774 00:38:38,640 --> 00:38:40,520 Speaker 1: still being intentional with that. 775 00:38:40,520 --> 00:38:42,840 Speaker 2: That was something I needed to learn. You know. 776 00:38:43,080 --> 00:38:45,080 Speaker 1: I say everything does not need to be on the 777 00:38:45,120 --> 00:38:48,319 Speaker 1: priority list, you know, but they are up there, you know, 778 00:38:48,560 --> 00:38:51,439 Speaker 1: right there with it. And sometimes you have to say 779 00:38:51,480 --> 00:38:55,480 Speaker 1: no to other things to make that time special and important. 780 00:38:55,600 --> 00:38:56,920 Speaker 2: So that's one thing I do hold on to. 781 00:38:57,040 --> 00:38:59,759 Speaker 3: The priorities are such an interesting thing, right, because it's 782 00:38:59,800 --> 00:39:05,040 Speaker 3: so easy to feel shame from others when you choose 783 00:39:05,080 --> 00:39:07,319 Speaker 3: and designate, like what yours are? 784 00:39:07,800 --> 00:39:08,080 Speaker 2: Right? 785 00:39:09,680 --> 00:39:10,960 Speaker 4: How do you not have. 786 00:39:11,000 --> 00:39:13,879 Speaker 3: Guilt or shame about what your priorities are. 787 00:39:14,360 --> 00:39:16,680 Speaker 1: It's the power of no girl. I've had to learn 788 00:39:16,680 --> 00:39:19,120 Speaker 1: it I had to learn it, the power of no. 789 00:39:19,280 --> 00:39:21,879 Speaker 1: You can't do everything in fomo. Yeah you'll have it, 790 00:39:22,320 --> 00:39:25,160 Speaker 1: but guess what, the next day, there'll be another opportunity 791 00:39:25,200 --> 00:39:28,400 Speaker 1: for you to do it, you know, just for a 792 00:39:28,480 --> 00:39:31,200 Speaker 1: peace of mind. At this point, you know you can't 793 00:39:31,239 --> 00:39:33,600 Speaker 1: do it all. You know, sometimes you got. 794 00:39:33,400 --> 00:39:33,719 Speaker 2: To say no. 795 00:39:34,320 --> 00:39:36,640 Speaker 1: You have to say no. I just have to say 796 00:39:36,680 --> 00:39:39,879 Speaker 1: no and speak up for yourself and you know, say 797 00:39:39,960 --> 00:39:41,520 Speaker 1: this is not going to work for me right now, 798 00:39:41,760 --> 00:39:45,120 Speaker 1: maybe sometime down the road, and it's okay, it's okay. 799 00:39:45,239 --> 00:39:47,319 Speaker 1: It's I've learned to be okay with that. I don't 800 00:39:47,360 --> 00:39:52,040 Speaker 1: need to be at every event, every dinner, every everything. 801 00:39:52,040 --> 00:39:54,920 Speaker 2: I don't need to be there. You know. 802 00:39:54,960 --> 00:39:57,440 Speaker 1: There's my I have kids. A lot of my friends, 803 00:39:57,480 --> 00:39:59,520 Speaker 1: some of the instructors they don't. They all don't have kids, 804 00:39:59,560 --> 00:40:02,560 Speaker 1: so they're all, let's go out. I'm like, y'all, I 805 00:40:02,560 --> 00:40:05,400 Speaker 1: would love to, but I have to class plan. I 806 00:40:05,440 --> 00:40:06,560 Speaker 1: got two kids. 807 00:40:06,320 --> 00:40:08,680 Speaker 2: That are going to be in my face at six am. 808 00:40:09,160 --> 00:40:09,920 Speaker 2: You know, so there's. 809 00:40:09,960 --> 00:40:12,400 Speaker 1: Times like you want to go, you want to like 810 00:40:12,640 --> 00:40:16,520 Speaker 1: spend time with them, but like not tonight, maybe when 811 00:40:16,520 --> 00:40:19,000 Speaker 1: they were a good day with their daddy. 812 00:40:21,040 --> 00:40:23,279 Speaker 3: You know, you mentioned studying your butt off. I know 813 00:40:23,360 --> 00:40:26,440 Speaker 3: you're an r RCAT certified run coach. You worked your 814 00:40:26,440 --> 00:40:28,840 Speaker 3: butt off to get to a place where you felt 815 00:40:28,840 --> 00:40:32,759 Speaker 3: comfortable executing on the tread. What were those first few months? 816 00:40:32,800 --> 00:40:34,319 Speaker 3: I know we're four in here, but what were those 817 00:40:34,320 --> 00:40:35,600 Speaker 3: first couple of months really. 818 00:40:35,480 --> 00:40:36,440 Speaker 2: Like for you? Well? 819 00:40:36,480 --> 00:40:39,880 Speaker 1: I was in training for a while and I learned 820 00:40:40,000 --> 00:40:44,680 Speaker 1: under Extentry, who is my mentor. She's so smart, and 821 00:40:44,760 --> 00:40:47,040 Speaker 1: I would study her, and I would study Matt Whooper's 822 00:40:47,080 --> 00:40:50,120 Speaker 1: and I would take Justin's classes and really trying to 823 00:40:50,160 --> 00:40:54,440 Speaker 1: figure out how can I bring me to the tread 824 00:40:54,960 --> 00:41:00,720 Speaker 1: and not be like anybody else, but really learn this craft. 825 00:41:01,040 --> 00:41:03,160 Speaker 1: And it took a lot. It took a lot of 826 00:41:03,200 --> 00:41:05,759 Speaker 1: time that we do reviews, and I would be very 827 00:41:05,800 --> 00:41:08,440 Speaker 1: critical on myself. I would listen to all the feedback 828 00:41:09,120 --> 00:41:11,000 Speaker 1: and then come back two days later and do it. 829 00:41:11,640 --> 00:41:13,839 Speaker 2: And so I was studying a lot. I was. 830 00:41:14,040 --> 00:41:16,640 Speaker 1: I would be on my Peloton app on my phone, 831 00:41:17,040 --> 00:41:21,840 Speaker 1: watching classes, listening to ques, listening to how certain instructors 832 00:41:21,840 --> 00:41:25,520 Speaker 1: were different. So I would study a whole like of 833 00:41:25,560 --> 00:41:29,279 Speaker 1: a lot. I would take a lot of classes and 834 00:41:29,280 --> 00:41:32,040 Speaker 1: then I would study myself. So every time I teach, 835 00:41:32,120 --> 00:41:35,160 Speaker 1: even now I'll go back and watch the classes that 836 00:41:35,200 --> 00:41:37,279 Speaker 1: I taught and say, ooh, I wouldn't have said that, 837 00:41:37,480 --> 00:41:40,479 Speaker 1: or girl, if you say, let's go team one more time. 838 00:41:40,560 --> 00:41:43,080 Speaker 1: You know, so there's so many little things that you're 839 00:41:43,120 --> 00:41:45,799 Speaker 1: so critical of, but I'll go back and rewatch it. 840 00:41:46,160 --> 00:41:49,120 Speaker 1: So I'd still work in progress, and I still go 841 00:41:49,160 --> 00:41:51,239 Speaker 1: and watch a lot of my well, I'm doing this 842 00:41:51,280 --> 00:41:54,040 Speaker 1: three for thirty one now where I'm running and taking 843 00:41:54,040 --> 00:41:57,200 Speaker 1: a bunch of my teammates classes, and so it's been good. 844 00:41:57,640 --> 00:41:59,680 Speaker 2: It's a constant, constantly learning. 845 00:41:59,760 --> 00:42:02,480 Speaker 3: It's important to do that, right, especially if you ever 846 00:42:02,520 --> 00:42:04,520 Speaker 3: want to continue to excel at the thing that like 847 00:42:04,640 --> 00:42:06,760 Speaker 3: lights you on fire and that makes you really excited, 848 00:42:07,200 --> 00:42:10,279 Speaker 3: then the best way to do that is to, you know, 849 00:42:10,760 --> 00:42:14,040 Speaker 3: go back, review, learn from the things that you've done 850 00:42:14,040 --> 00:42:16,520 Speaker 3: so that you can then be better in the future. 851 00:42:16,560 --> 00:42:19,600 Speaker 3: It's like that's why professional athletes, and you know, I 852 00:42:19,600 --> 00:42:21,719 Speaker 3: would argue and say that you are one as well, 853 00:42:21,840 --> 00:42:25,040 Speaker 3: Like people that are pros, they go back and they 854 00:42:25,120 --> 00:42:27,600 Speaker 3: watch the game footage and it's because hey, if by 855 00:42:28,280 --> 00:42:31,360 Speaker 3: doing this we can take a learning so that we 856 00:42:31,400 --> 00:42:34,480 Speaker 3: can just do it a little bit differently going forward. 857 00:42:34,719 --> 00:42:35,680 Speaker 4: Please, I've spent. 858 00:42:36,239 --> 00:42:38,880 Speaker 3: God, I can't even articulate how many hours editing this 859 00:42:38,920 --> 00:42:41,400 Speaker 3: show at this point. But I would like to think 860 00:42:41,440 --> 00:42:45,600 Speaker 3: that the way that I speak now is very much 861 00:42:45,680 --> 00:42:49,799 Speaker 3: different and it was when I started, And now I'm 862 00:42:49,840 --> 00:42:54,080 Speaker 3: so cognizant of the ums and the likes and the pauses. 863 00:42:53,640 --> 00:42:56,040 Speaker 4: And oh my goodness, thank God for editing. 864 00:42:56,080 --> 00:42:57,719 Speaker 2: Man, Yeah, I hear you. 865 00:42:57,800 --> 00:43:00,759 Speaker 1: I'll even text yes, or I'll text and they like, hey, 866 00:43:01,440 --> 00:43:02,440 Speaker 1: I don't know about that class. 867 00:43:02,440 --> 00:43:04,600 Speaker 2: Can you mind taking it and giving feedback? You know, 868 00:43:04,680 --> 00:43:06,160 Speaker 2: I love feedback. You know. 869 00:43:06,200 --> 00:43:09,400 Speaker 1: I think we're constantly growing and learning, and you know, 870 00:43:09,440 --> 00:43:11,399 Speaker 1: I want to keep getting better and better at this 871 00:43:11,600 --> 00:43:14,040 Speaker 1: and I really look up to them, and so I 872 00:43:14,160 --> 00:43:16,040 Speaker 1: lean on my teammates a lot too. 873 00:43:16,400 --> 00:43:20,400 Speaker 3: How do you navigate unsolicited feedback? 874 00:43:21,480 --> 00:43:24,120 Speaker 1: You know, I take it all, you know, I listen 875 00:43:24,200 --> 00:43:27,080 Speaker 1: to it and I digest it. I try not to 876 00:43:27,120 --> 00:43:30,520 Speaker 1: take it personally. It's very easy to be like, oh, 877 00:43:30,800 --> 00:43:31,960 Speaker 1: can you believe. 878 00:43:31,600 --> 00:43:32,560 Speaker 2: She said this something? 879 00:43:32,920 --> 00:43:35,319 Speaker 1: But you know, I really try to not take it 880 00:43:35,360 --> 00:43:39,600 Speaker 1: personal and know that they're probably just trying to make 881 00:43:39,600 --> 00:43:42,720 Speaker 1: me better or giving me advice. And if I feel 882 00:43:42,719 --> 00:43:45,480 Speaker 1: like I'm in agreement with that, then I'll take it 883 00:43:45,520 --> 00:43:50,040 Speaker 1: to consideration. It depends on who's giving it also, so 884 00:43:50,120 --> 00:43:51,120 Speaker 1: being mindful of that. 885 00:43:51,360 --> 00:43:53,600 Speaker 2: You know, everybody loves to have an. 886 00:43:53,440 --> 00:43:57,879 Speaker 1: Opinion, so, you know, just making sure you don't take 887 00:43:57,880 --> 00:44:01,000 Speaker 1: it personal because very easy to do that. 888 00:44:01,160 --> 00:44:02,960 Speaker 2: You think it's like directed right at you. 889 00:44:04,760 --> 00:44:08,160 Speaker 1: But you know, I think throughout this whole process, it's 890 00:44:08,239 --> 00:44:12,759 Speaker 1: when I first started. So I told myself, embrace all 891 00:44:12,760 --> 00:44:14,640 Speaker 1: the feedback that you're going to get. This is a 892 00:44:14,920 --> 00:44:18,840 Speaker 1: learning opportunity for you. You've never done this before, be 893 00:44:19,000 --> 00:44:22,360 Speaker 1: open to it. And I'm still open to it today, 894 00:44:22,680 --> 00:44:26,200 Speaker 1: you know, really am I seek it out more than 895 00:44:26,239 --> 00:44:27,200 Speaker 1: I actually get it? 896 00:44:27,520 --> 00:44:27,840 Speaker 4: Well? 897 00:44:27,920 --> 00:44:30,640 Speaker 3: I think that's probably a highlight, especially, you know, the 898 00:44:30,680 --> 00:44:35,319 Speaker 3: peloton effect coming into this space and having an onslought 899 00:44:35,360 --> 00:44:38,359 Speaker 3: of new people that are watching so many of the 900 00:44:38,400 --> 00:44:41,080 Speaker 3: things that you weren't doing before. With all of these 901 00:44:41,120 --> 00:44:44,440 Speaker 3: people watching, how has that transition been like for you? 902 00:44:46,239 --> 00:44:50,399 Speaker 1: It's been interesting, you know, but honestly, it has been 903 00:44:50,560 --> 00:44:53,560 Speaker 1: so positive. And that's one of the most beautiful things 904 00:44:53,560 --> 00:44:56,680 Speaker 1: about this community is they are so supportive, They are 905 00:44:56,719 --> 00:45:00,600 Speaker 1: so loving. They like the messages that I get after class, 906 00:45:00,800 --> 00:45:02,799 Speaker 1: they have me in tears and then just. 907 00:45:03,160 --> 00:45:04,680 Speaker 2: Then be like, oh my gosh, you read it, Oh 908 00:45:04,680 --> 00:45:07,520 Speaker 2: my gosh, you responded. I'm like, yeah, this is amazing, 909 00:45:07,600 --> 00:45:10,520 Speaker 2: Like you just made my day. And so it goes 910 00:45:10,600 --> 00:45:12,719 Speaker 2: back and forth. You know, I feed off of their 911 00:45:12,840 --> 00:45:15,759 Speaker 2: energy and you know their love and support for me. 912 00:45:16,040 --> 00:45:19,560 Speaker 1: So it's been incredible. Is it a lot sometimes to 913 00:45:19,640 --> 00:45:26,480 Speaker 1: take in? Absolutely? But it's been really heartwarming and overwhelming 914 00:45:26,520 --> 00:45:29,360 Speaker 1: at times because you're like, man, they really like me. 915 00:45:30,040 --> 00:45:32,280 Speaker 4: But it's been good overwhelming at times. 916 00:45:32,360 --> 00:45:34,719 Speaker 3: Speaking of that, and I'm sure over the last four 917 00:45:34,719 --> 00:45:37,200 Speaker 3: months there have certainly been challenges that come. 918 00:45:37,040 --> 00:45:38,879 Speaker 4: Hand in hand with your new job. 919 00:45:38,920 --> 00:45:42,040 Speaker 3: But what would you say, perhaps a high has been 920 00:45:42,320 --> 00:45:44,399 Speaker 3: and then in turn a low. 921 00:45:45,760 --> 00:45:50,520 Speaker 1: Ooh the high for me, you know, I am a 922 00:45:50,960 --> 00:45:53,440 Speaker 1: big Beyonce fan, so when they asked me to teach 923 00:45:53,480 --> 00:45:57,439 Speaker 1: the Beyonce tread class, it was literally a dream come true. 924 00:45:57,760 --> 00:45:59,680 Speaker 2: So that was probably one of my highs. 925 00:46:00,040 --> 00:46:01,600 Speaker 4: Girls were probably like, mom. 926 00:46:01,560 --> 00:46:05,120 Speaker 2: They watched it, they had it on the TV. They 927 00:46:05,160 --> 00:46:10,200 Speaker 2: were so excited. They're like, she's really Beyonce. So that 928 00:46:10,320 --> 00:46:11,880 Speaker 2: was probably one of my highs. 929 00:46:12,200 --> 00:46:14,880 Speaker 1: I think it's trying not to get so down on 930 00:46:14,960 --> 00:46:18,880 Speaker 1: myself when I'm trying to balance it all. It's not easy. 931 00:46:19,000 --> 00:46:21,520 Speaker 1: It's not easy being a single mom. It's not easy 932 00:46:22,239 --> 00:46:24,360 Speaker 1: having a six and a five year old right now 933 00:46:24,440 --> 00:46:26,000 Speaker 1: in a very scary time. 934 00:46:26,400 --> 00:46:30,280 Speaker 2: It's not easy to. 935 00:46:28,880 --> 00:46:32,200 Speaker 1: Step out on the tread and bring light when some 936 00:46:32,320 --> 00:46:37,000 Speaker 1: days you just don't have it, you know, and balancing 937 00:46:37,000 --> 00:46:39,839 Speaker 1: all the classes and stuff. So it's a balancing act, 938 00:46:39,920 --> 00:46:42,560 Speaker 1: you know. It's really trying to figure out the sweet spot. 939 00:46:42,600 --> 00:46:44,360 Speaker 2: I don't know if you ever do, so, it's learning 940 00:46:44,400 --> 00:46:46,320 Speaker 2: to balance it all. Everybody asked me, how do you 941 00:46:46,360 --> 00:46:47,440 Speaker 2: do it all? Like I don't. 942 00:46:47,760 --> 00:46:50,920 Speaker 1: I have a team. It takes a village. You know, 943 00:46:51,000 --> 00:46:52,279 Speaker 1: my mom's in town right now. 944 00:46:52,600 --> 00:46:55,000 Speaker 2: You know, I lean on a lot of people for help, 945 00:46:55,040 --> 00:46:58,520 Speaker 2: for guidance, for support. Just Sims has been my rock 946 00:46:58,600 --> 00:47:01,040 Speaker 2: throughout this whole thing. I lean on her all the time. 947 00:47:01,400 --> 00:47:03,400 Speaker 1: I'm like, I need five minutes to vent and then 948 00:47:03,400 --> 00:47:05,640 Speaker 1: you could tell me I'm crazy, and I'll just. 949 00:47:05,600 --> 00:47:08,959 Speaker 2: Be like and then she's like, are you done yet? 950 00:47:09,080 --> 00:47:11,200 Speaker 2: And then we'll figure it out and then move on. 951 00:47:11,640 --> 00:47:14,560 Speaker 1: So, you know, I don't do it all by myself, 952 00:47:14,680 --> 00:47:17,719 Speaker 1: and it's been great having such a supportive team. 953 00:47:18,080 --> 00:47:19,719 Speaker 2: And it takes a village at home too. 954 00:47:19,880 --> 00:47:21,120 Speaker 4: I think it's really special. 955 00:47:21,160 --> 00:47:23,840 Speaker 3: What you said about it's okay to like not pretend 956 00:47:23,880 --> 00:47:26,520 Speaker 3: everything is like all roses all the time, because I think, 957 00:47:26,640 --> 00:47:30,279 Speaker 3: especially as someone that is at the helm of a community, 958 00:47:30,600 --> 00:47:33,880 Speaker 3: it's really important to see that dose of reality. Like 959 00:47:33,960 --> 00:47:37,239 Speaker 3: it's more valuable to show up and be like, you know, 960 00:47:37,360 --> 00:47:40,000 Speaker 3: I am going through it today. And if you are too, 961 00:47:40,120 --> 00:47:42,440 Speaker 3: like this is our opportunity to do X y Z, 962 00:47:42,960 --> 00:47:46,239 Speaker 3: then be like, I am so stellar all of. 963 00:47:46,160 --> 00:47:49,359 Speaker 1: The time, absolutely mad. I call myself the hot Mess 964 00:47:49,360 --> 00:47:52,520 Speaker 1: Express on the trip, and people resonate with that. They 965 00:47:52,560 --> 00:47:56,680 Speaker 1: were like, thank you for saying that. I will never 966 00:47:56,800 --> 00:48:00,040 Speaker 1: claim to be perfect. I always say it as the perfection. 967 00:47:59,719 --> 00:48:01,719 Speaker 2: Is wearing as hell. If we were all perfect, how 968 00:48:01,760 --> 00:48:02,480 Speaker 2: born life be? 969 00:48:02,880 --> 00:48:03,800 Speaker 4: Amen? Amen? 970 00:48:03,920 --> 00:48:06,919 Speaker 3: Okay, So at this point in the conversation, I love 971 00:48:07,480 --> 00:48:10,239 Speaker 3: to reflect a little bit about what it is that 972 00:48:10,280 --> 00:48:13,160 Speaker 3: people see when they go to your Instagram right now, 973 00:48:13,360 --> 00:48:15,840 Speaker 3: some of those your Instagram page, they see a woman 974 00:48:16,160 --> 00:48:20,040 Speaker 3: with almost thirty six thousand followers. You're a one Peloton instructor, 975 00:48:20,360 --> 00:48:23,319 Speaker 3: an r a certified run coach sort of right, so 976 00:48:23,640 --> 00:48:24,680 Speaker 3: cycling coach, a mother. 977 00:48:25,080 --> 00:48:26,920 Speaker 4: When you look in the mirror, what is it that 978 00:48:27,000 --> 00:48:28,520 Speaker 4: you see looking back at you? 979 00:48:30,680 --> 00:48:39,000 Speaker 1: I see a strong, black independent woman that is unapologetically her, 980 00:48:39,440 --> 00:48:44,440 Speaker 1: that's chasing after her dreams, that is an independent mother 981 00:48:44,920 --> 00:48:45,600 Speaker 1: that is. 982 00:48:48,040 --> 00:48:51,040 Speaker 2: Proud of herself. I really am. 983 00:48:51,160 --> 00:48:55,799 Speaker 1: It's beautiful, I really am. And it's also a work 984 00:48:55,800 --> 00:48:58,360 Speaker 1: in progress at the same time. You could be a 985 00:48:58,400 --> 00:49:01,279 Speaker 1: work in progress and be exactly who you want to 986 00:49:01,320 --> 00:49:02,200 Speaker 1: be at the same time. 987 00:49:02,840 --> 00:49:06,719 Speaker 2: And that's who I see in the mirror when I 988 00:49:06,760 --> 00:49:07,200 Speaker 2: look there. 989 00:49:07,520 --> 00:49:09,799 Speaker 3: Aside from fitness, what would you say your outlets have 990 00:49:09,880 --> 00:49:12,759 Speaker 3: been over the last couple of years? 991 00:49:13,200 --> 00:49:17,839 Speaker 1: Aside from fitness, what would my outlets have been? I 992 00:49:17,960 --> 00:49:22,000 Speaker 1: love my village. I have a mom gang of women 993 00:49:22,640 --> 00:49:25,880 Speaker 1: that we have those hard belly laughs and we'll have 994 00:49:25,920 --> 00:49:27,120 Speaker 1: a bottle of wine and. 995 00:49:27,040 --> 00:49:28,080 Speaker 2: We'll just be silly. 996 00:49:28,560 --> 00:49:30,400 Speaker 1: I think it's moments like that where you could just 997 00:49:31,080 --> 00:49:33,880 Speaker 1: unwind and take off and be who you are and 998 00:49:34,600 --> 00:49:35,359 Speaker 1: know that you. 999 00:49:35,320 --> 00:49:39,080 Speaker 2: Don't have to be, you know, politically correct at this moment. 1000 00:49:39,160 --> 00:49:41,200 Speaker 2: You can just have a good time with your girls 1001 00:49:41,280 --> 00:49:43,279 Speaker 2: and just relax. 1002 00:49:44,440 --> 00:49:46,759 Speaker 1: And not move your body because now I like to sit, 1003 00:49:47,160 --> 00:49:49,080 Speaker 1: you know, when I'm not working. It's sitting is good. 1004 00:49:49,320 --> 00:49:53,480 Speaker 1: Sitting is good. So I think it's those moments. I 1005 00:49:53,520 --> 00:49:58,080 Speaker 1: think it's it's spending real time with my kids. I'm 1006 00:49:58,120 --> 00:50:01,080 Speaker 1: in awe of them every day and doing homework with them. 1007 00:50:01,360 --> 00:50:03,959 Speaker 2: You know, some people say it's stressful. I find joy 1008 00:50:04,000 --> 00:50:06,640 Speaker 2: in it. So I think it's those moments that you know, 1009 00:50:06,920 --> 00:50:07,919 Speaker 2: I cherish as well. 1010 00:50:08,040 --> 00:50:10,279 Speaker 3: What would you say the best piece of advice has 1011 00:50:10,360 --> 00:50:13,839 Speaker 3: been for you over the last couple of years, going 1012 00:50:13,840 --> 00:50:15,719 Speaker 3: through the thick of it with all of this transition 1013 00:50:15,920 --> 00:50:17,640 Speaker 3: for you and your girls and your family. 1014 00:50:18,080 --> 00:50:22,800 Speaker 1: It's being okay with fear facing fear head on, getting 1015 00:50:22,840 --> 00:50:27,520 Speaker 1: comfortable and the uncomfortable. There's a lot of uncertainty right now, 1016 00:50:28,480 --> 00:50:30,879 Speaker 1: but I really believe if you have something on your heart, 1017 00:50:30,880 --> 00:50:33,239 Speaker 1: you've been called, created and destined to go after it. 1018 00:50:33,880 --> 00:50:36,320 Speaker 2: And that has been how I've. 1019 00:50:36,239 --> 00:50:39,680 Speaker 1: Moved over the last three years, and it's it's really 1020 00:50:39,719 --> 00:50:40,680 Speaker 1: worked out in my favor. 1021 00:50:40,800 --> 00:50:43,640 Speaker 2: Is it easy? No? But has it been worth it? Absolutely? 1022 00:50:43,840 --> 00:50:45,920 Speaker 4: What excites you right now? 1023 00:50:46,480 --> 00:50:49,320 Speaker 1: I love doing what I'm doing, Like it's really like 1024 00:50:49,440 --> 00:50:51,439 Speaker 1: I'm excited to go get on the tread and run 1025 00:50:51,480 --> 00:50:54,279 Speaker 1: for thirty minutes tonight, And that was never the case. 1026 00:50:54,360 --> 00:50:57,120 Speaker 2: Let me tell you something. I used to not like 1027 00:50:57,200 --> 00:50:59,759 Speaker 2: to run at all. My girlfriends like, let's go out 1028 00:50:59,760 --> 00:51:02,640 Speaker 2: for a run today, I'm like let's not. But I 1029 00:51:02,920 --> 00:51:06,600 Speaker 2: really have begun to enjoy what I do. Like, I 1030 00:51:06,640 --> 00:51:09,120 Speaker 2: love wholeheartedly what I do. 1031 00:51:09,280 --> 00:51:14,640 Speaker 1: I love playlisting and running to music and inspiring and motivating, 1032 00:51:14,760 --> 00:51:17,120 Speaker 1: and then getting on live after and hearing all the 1033 00:51:17,120 --> 00:51:21,480 Speaker 1: feedback and chatting with the members. It just really feels 1034 00:51:21,520 --> 00:51:23,640 Speaker 1: and warms my heart. And that's how I know I'm 1035 00:51:23,680 --> 00:51:26,200 Speaker 1: walking in purpose. You know I would do it for 1036 00:51:26,800 --> 00:51:28,560 Speaker 1: Listen Peleton, I'm not gonna do it for free, but 1037 00:51:28,600 --> 00:51:28,960 Speaker 1: I would. 1038 00:51:29,160 --> 00:51:31,719 Speaker 2: I was doing it for free before. I love. I 1039 00:51:31,920 --> 00:51:34,680 Speaker 2: genuinely love what I do. I was on Instagram Live 1040 00:51:34,800 --> 00:51:37,040 Speaker 2: doing the thing for free. You know, that's when you 1041 00:51:37,080 --> 00:51:39,320 Speaker 2: know you are walking in your purpose. And I really 1042 00:51:39,520 --> 00:51:41,279 Speaker 2: truly enjoy what I do every day. 1043 00:51:41,640 --> 00:51:45,120 Speaker 4: Winding it down now, my friend, Okay, right now. 1044 00:51:45,320 --> 00:51:49,760 Speaker 3: You have an opportunity, looking back on that really hard time, 1045 00:51:50,200 --> 00:51:53,760 Speaker 3: back to back miscarriages. You have an opportunity right now 1046 00:51:53,800 --> 00:51:57,880 Speaker 3: to offer that woman a piece of advice going through 1047 00:51:58,040 --> 00:51:59,080 Speaker 3: those hurdle moments. 1048 00:51:59,320 --> 00:52:01,200 Speaker 4: What do you tell her? 1049 00:52:02,880 --> 00:52:07,200 Speaker 1: What do I tell her? I tell her to keep 1050 00:52:07,239 --> 00:52:11,040 Speaker 1: your eyes open. It may be very dark where you're at, 1051 00:52:11,120 --> 00:52:15,960 Speaker 1: but keep your eyes open, keep the faith, keep hope. 1052 00:52:16,120 --> 00:52:18,280 Speaker 2: Find something that brings you joy. 1053 00:52:18,560 --> 00:52:20,840 Speaker 1: It may be hard, it may be difficult, but find 1054 00:52:20,880 --> 00:52:23,160 Speaker 1: that one thing and hold on to it and cling 1055 00:52:23,239 --> 00:52:23,600 Speaker 1: to it. 1056 00:52:24,000 --> 00:52:26,359 Speaker 2: There's a lesson to be learned in this moment. 1057 00:52:26,400 --> 00:52:30,000 Speaker 1: So keep your eyes open and be aware of it, 1058 00:52:29,080 --> 00:52:32,120 Speaker 1: and once you find it, hold on to it. 1059 00:52:32,200 --> 00:52:35,319 Speaker 3: Beautiful Kirsten, thank you so much for hanging out with 1060 00:52:35,360 --> 00:52:35,880 Speaker 3: me today. 1061 00:52:36,040 --> 00:52:37,440 Speaker 2: Thank you for having me. 1062 00:52:37,840 --> 00:52:39,759 Speaker 4: How did the hurdlers follow along with you? How do 1063 00:52:39,800 --> 00:52:41,640 Speaker 4: they keep up with you? Give me all your infoe. 1064 00:52:41,840 --> 00:52:44,920 Speaker 1: You can follow me on Instagram and I am Kirstin 1065 00:52:45,080 --> 00:52:47,640 Speaker 1: Ferguson and find me on the trip. 1066 00:52:47,680 --> 00:52:48,280 Speaker 4: On the tread. 1067 00:52:48,320 --> 00:52:51,440 Speaker 3: I'm over at Emily Body and at Hurdle Podcast. Another 1068 00:52:51,520 --> 00:53:01,560 Speaker 3: hurdle conquered. Catch you guys next time it was never 1069 00:53:01,880 --> 00:53:03,640 Speaker 3: my ny held