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Speaker 2: Hi, I mean it's snowing today.

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Speaker 1: Okay, he's corrumpting today. I mean, this is the this

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Speaker 1: is the wild part of the year for Nashville, I feel,

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Speaker 1: like it's so up and down. When it's gorgeous, it's

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Speaker 1: Or when like this week last week we had about

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Speaker 2: Be a little chilly at night too, like not like

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean I felt like I was in California,

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Speaker 1: so all of us have these terrible headaches all day.

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Speaker 1: My allergies have been going crazy for a week. It's

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Speaker 1: just like, no wonder we can't get shit done sometimes, you.

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Speaker 2: wonder if like this freeze will kill it.

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Speaker 1: Hopefully not, because it's only a couple of days and

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Speaker 1: So just brace yourself for impact of this wild ride

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Speaker 1: don't know, but there's craziness everywhere. So this is just

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Speaker 2: We didn't have a big tornado last night, even though

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Speaker 1: I was grateful. I was very grateful for that. So

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Speaker 1: on Wednesday I was just telling Chip about where we

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Speaker 1: I'm like, you don't have to do that right now.

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Speaker 1: The world is not going to fall apart. The world

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Speaker 2: and it's like we're trained to think that that's selfish,

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Speaker 1: Anyway. We're gonna go get rid of these headaches we

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Speaker 1: I know.

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Speaker 2: Arometric pressure, baby, is.

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Speaker 1: A real thing. It's a real thing. Good thing. You're

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Speaker 1: going to be on vacation tomorrow, I know. Enjoy that.

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Speaker 1: And if you guys have any thoughts for us, you

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Speaker 1: You can hit me up on Instagram. I'm at Velvet's

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Speaker 1: Edge Chip I'm at Chip Doors.

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Speaker 2: It's h I P D O R S C H.

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Speaker 1: Also, our podcast Instagram is at Velvet's Edge Podcast, so

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Speaker 1: go follow along there. There are more prompts and videos

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Speaker 1: and things of that nature. So as you guys go

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Speaker 1: into the weekend and you're living on the edge, I

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Speaker 1: hope you aluys remember.

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Speaker 2: Too a to catchule.

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Speaker 1: Bye