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Speaker 2: He was shaken and he couldn't like teach and I

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Speaker 3: Welcome back to forgive me for I have followed. This

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Speaker 3: is part two of our conversation with Kevin Concrete Davis,

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Speaker 3: former Shaquaina member and dancer with Seven M Films. In

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Speaker 3: our last episode, we talked about Kevin's roots in the

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Speaker 3: Crump community and how he first got connected with the

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Speaker 3: church through his fellow dancers. He shared how he was

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Speaker 3: looking to grow closer to God and saw an opportunity

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Speaker 3: to not only strengthen his faith, but also boost his

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Speaker 3: career as a dancer and influencer. However, he'd noticed things

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Speaker 3: that rubbed him the wrong way and thus planted the

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Speaker 3: seeds for wanting to leave Shicaina and Seven M Films.

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Speaker 4: On this episode, we dive deeper into Kevin's challenges with

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Speaker 4: Shakaina and seven M Films, the key moments and conversations

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Speaker 4: he had that illuminated what needed to be done in

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Speaker 4: the fallout from our decision to leave, forge our own

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Speaker 4: path forward and now here's part two of our conversation

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Speaker 4: with my husband Kevin.

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Speaker 2: You know, I'm really protective of my wife, so I'm location.

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Speaker 2: I'm like, man, you know, if something happened, I am jetting.

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Speaker 4: You know.

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Speaker 2: Even there's times where I'll go to this little coffee

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Speaker 2: shop and because she would work at the house by herself,

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Speaker 2: but I'll be lurking like I had to, especially at

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Speaker 2: that time where the allegations was coming out, and I

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Speaker 2: was like, Okay, you know, if she going to that house,

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Speaker 3: So you were seeing these allegations coming out on social media,

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Speaker 3: the pulpit call out already happened. So your blood's already boiling.

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Speaker 3: You're already on alert at this point. What was that

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Speaker 3: moment for you that was done? Ooh, I'm out of here.

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Speaker 2: There was many moments I just didn't know when to

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Speaker 2: say anything because I knew how vibrant relationships were with

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Speaker 2: the pastor so some people that I was even closer to,

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Speaker 2: I couldn't say anything yet. But there's one specific time

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Speaker 2: where a couple of us I'm gonna just say me

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Speaker 2: and we were heading to a music video and we were.

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Speaker 1: Like, yeah, this is a cult.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, which leads me to the moment. I'm the one

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Speaker 2: that brought it up. I said, Hey, wasn't the pastor

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Speaker 2: like tripping the other day? He couldn't talk, he was

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Speaker 2: this man's done. I've never seen a man crumble like that.

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Speaker 2: And it was that was from Crystal Ball. She was

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Speaker 2: He couldn't even teach the sermon. He couldn't do nothing.

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Speaker 2: And this by this time, Daniel was gone and.

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Speaker 4: He had just left.

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Speaker 1: He had just left.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, so he had Crystal Ball and Daniel even he

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Speaker 2: didn't even have to like disrespect anybody for me to know,

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Speaker 2: oh that he's off, Which lead me to another part.

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Speaker 2: He talks about the allegations and he says, is some

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Speaker 2: of it true? Yes, and it's some of it not true?

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Speaker 1: Like I'm like, bro, what do you mean some of

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Speaker 2: Bro? These are not allegations where you just cruise by.

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Speaker 2: I was like, oh, this is not even the way

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Speaker 4: And on top of all the things that he was

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Speaker 2: Yeah, that that right there. I said, okay, and then

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Speaker 2: you know the NDA and service. I said, now come on, now,

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Speaker 2: now you're just taking advantage, Like, bro, this does not

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Speaker 2: even like an NDA in church, what are you talking about?

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Speaker 2: So I'm thinking we're all going to leave, But I

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Speaker 2: It just sucks seeing the faces on some of the

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Speaker 1: I can leave, but my homies are here.

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Speaker 2: And if beat Ash is cool, if he not budgeting,

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Speaker 3: Did you try to have a conversation with him?

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Speaker 2: Beat Ash wasn't the guy to talk to about that,

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Speaker 3: So just to lead all these questions, but.

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Speaker 1: You can ask me no.

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Speaker 3: After the doc came out, there was people that had responded.

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Speaker 3: We knew that we know, Miranda did a public video.

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Speaker 3: the documentary, including yourselves. So outside of leaving, was there

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Speaker 3: And then post documentary?

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Speaker 2: We left supposedly on good terms because the last people

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Speaker 2: because this is a little past our jurisdiction. I'm talking

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Speaker 1: But all the guy dancers.

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Speaker 2: At this time, I said, if people decide to stay,

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Speaker 2: but we don't got to be here.

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Speaker 1: They could wake up and we can be.

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Speaker 2: Gone, and then, you know, Eyes and beat Ash tried

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Speaker 2: to get me to stay, but I don't want to

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Speaker 2: but for me, I'm just like, I just don't want

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Speaker 2: is all of our work. We're the ones sweating. All

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Speaker 2: we gotta do is wake up, do this without them

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Speaker 2: you know what I mean. And I gave him a hug.

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Speaker 2: I was like, my phone is still open, bro, let's

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Speaker 2: still hang out or whatever. So I'm thinking everything is cool,

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Speaker 2: and then I'm blocked by tight eyes and I'm like, what, Bro,

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Speaker 2: I'm were we just had a great conversation, and.

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Speaker 1: I was like, I know what that is.

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Speaker 2: But they're just going to have to find out in

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Speaker 2: the way they need to find out what's really going on.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, which is hard because you guys both understand that

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Speaker 3: they are just doing what they think they're supposed to

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Speaker 1: It's heart.

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Speaker 3: It's hard to just have like a very direct answer

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Speaker 3: And Khalia spoke publicly about it. When after the documentary

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Speaker 3: some shit about him, and I really appreciated that you came. Yeah,

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Speaker 3: you both were like, hang on, it's not him, He's

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Speaker 3: not the problem. Like this is a trickle down. There

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Speaker 3: which I know is hard because it's you're also talking

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Speaker 2: That was a hard thing to do. It was just

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Speaker 2: These are people I grew with me and be Dash

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Speaker 2: got a whole brand, bro and that brand was swept

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Speaker 2: something that you know, I still believe could do something

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Speaker 2: I think that's just unwise. Yeah, you know, but I

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Speaker 2: learned to move on and you know, just to continue

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Speaker 2: doing what I'm doing with the people that I love.

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Speaker 3: We'll be back with part two of our conversation with Kevin.

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Speaker 3: This is forgive me for I have followed.

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Speaker 4: Welcome back to forgive me for I have followed. Now

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Speaker 4: back to part two of our conversation with Kevin. So,

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Speaker 4: I know we were talking about like pivotal moments where

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Speaker 4: we realized that things were off in Chicaina. And I

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Speaker 4: with how we were being treated, the things we were noticing,

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Speaker 4: recognizing some of the lies, and then the allegations had

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Speaker 4: started to come out. I know you spoke with Young

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Speaker 4: one of those days. Can you tell us about that conversation?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, that was a movie, bro, Just how that started.

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Speaker 2: I don't want people to feel like that was just

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Speaker 1: Yeah.

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Speaker 2: Me and Young developed a relationship just through working out

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Speaker 2: trying to lose some weight, bron. I see working out. Bro,

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Speaker 2: we should just go to some and just work out.

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Speaker 2: I'm like, for sure, let's do it. I don't got

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Speaker 2: I never remembered the workout. It was always the conversation,

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Speaker 2: you know what I mean. And we kept talking and

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Speaker 2: we kept working out, and so all this bull crap

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Speaker 2: is super hot outside.

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Speaker 1: I see his truck drive up. He pulls up.

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Speaker 2: And he says, hey, you know Kevi, Man, I talk

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Speaker 2: to you. I said yeah, And I was like, oh,

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Speaker 2: what's going on? Bro? And he was just like, man,

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Speaker 2: do you know what's going on? And I was like, no, man, Like,

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Speaker 2: nobody's answering nothing. So I'm out of here.

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Speaker 1: Bro.

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Speaker 2: Like it's is childish and I'm getting skeptical. Of course,

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Speaker 2: we've talked a little bit, which is kind of blur,

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Speaker 2: but the only thing that stood out that was clear

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Speaker 2: as day. He said, all right, I need you to

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Speaker 2: take this information.

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Speaker 1: You do whatever with it. If you're going to stay

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Speaker 1: here or continue to be here, protect your woman and

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Speaker 1: protect your heart.

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Speaker 2: I said, got you man, I went straight to Kalia,

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Speaker 2: we're getting apartment, we're leaving. That was it for me.

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Speaker 2: You know, Young didn't have to say that. That's the

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Speaker 2: type of people I'm used to being around, the type

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Speaker 2: of people I grew up with in Sacramento.

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Speaker 1: You know what I mean.

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Speaker 2: Hey, Bro, I'm gonna tell you the real bro. Don't

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Speaker 2: mess with that girl. Bro like just information like that

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Speaker 2: or bro to ado. Don't play for that basketball team,

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Speaker 2: you know what I mean, Just to be one hundred.

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Speaker 2: And when I get to just to be one hundred moment,

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Speaker 2: I'm solid and Young gave me that moment. And I

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Speaker 3: This is forgive me for I have followed.

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Speaker 3: I appreciate the vulnerability and you openly talking about your

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Speaker 2: And I called Daniel and I was like, man, I'm

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Speaker 1: We was going to get some food.

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Speaker 2: I do take spirituality serious, especially if it's stuff like that.

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Speaker 4: And it's crazy because I remember right before all of

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Speaker 2: Sure, it's an important time for me to let a

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Speaker 1: That's why I like talking about it.

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Speaker 2: You know, it helps me And if it does help

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Speaker 4: So is there anything that you would want to say

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Speaker 2: If they don't give you a choice, it's a manipulation,

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Speaker 1: Okay, what's the plan? What's the game plan? You know

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Speaker 1: what I mean? Who are you?

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Speaker 2: Why you want to do what you do? I don't

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Speaker 2: no disrespect. I hope your journey and healing with however

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Speaker 3: Kevin, thank you again so much for doing this. Thank

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Speaker 1: And we're in it.

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Speaker 3: We're all in it together. We're family now, So being

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Speaker 1: Oh my god, fail you.

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Speaker 3: Thank you so much for listening to part two of

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Speaker 3: So love peace and chicken grease Yeah.

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Speaker 4: Forgive Me For I Have Followed is a production from

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Speaker 4: wv Sound, Dirty Robert and iHeartMedia's Michael Tore podcast Network,

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Speaker 4: hosted by me Khalia.

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Speaker 3: Gray and me Jess Coosovetto.

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Speaker 4: Forgive Me For I Have Followed is produced by Aaron

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Speaker 4: Burlson and Sophie Spencer Zabos.

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Speaker 3: Our executive producers are Khalia Gray, myself, Wilmar Balderama, Leo

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Speaker 3: Klam and Aaron Burlison at wv Sound.

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Speaker 4: This episode was edited by Sean Tracy and features original

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Speaker 4: music by Madison Davenport and Halo Boy. For more podcasts

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Speaker 3: See you next week, See you next week,