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Speaker 1: mental health in the black community. It's a lot of

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Speaker 1: say that to no other man. So I'm going by

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00:23:23,880 --> 00:23:27,520
Speaker 1: what he's trying to instill in me. I ain't getting that.

423
00:23:29,560 --> 00:23:32,919
Speaker 1: He mob. You shouldn't hear my uncle choking me telling

424
00:23:32,920 --> 00:23:35,720
Speaker 1: me to say this ship. I'm looking at this dude,

425
00:23:35,720 --> 00:23:41,159
Speaker 1: why do you snatch his hand off me? So it

426
00:23:41,320 --> 00:23:45,679
Speaker 1: wasn't nothing he can say right there, his ship was

427
00:23:45,720 --> 00:23:49,639
Speaker 1: shot with me. And you know what, you know this

428
00:23:50,000 --> 00:23:53,199
Speaker 1: one thing I noticed man in our community, it's a

429
00:23:53,200 --> 00:23:54,879
Speaker 1: lot of secrets, man, Like I'm gonna tell you on

430
00:23:54,920 --> 00:23:58,200
Speaker 1: the women's side, it's a lot of young girls to

431
00:23:58,280 --> 00:24:02,440
Speaker 1: get raped at home, get sexually abused and never say

432
00:24:02,560 --> 00:24:05,159
Speaker 1: nothing and just hold all that in. Man, it's a

433
00:24:05,160 --> 00:24:08,840
Speaker 1: lot of pain in our community. But products of the environment. Man,

434
00:24:09,160 --> 00:24:12,879
Speaker 1: it's what happens in a lot of situations. Family members

435
00:24:13,000 --> 00:24:16,760
Speaker 1: or motherfucker's close to home, motherfucker's where you know, you know,

436
00:24:16,840 --> 00:24:19,760
Speaker 1: you gotta be supported by you know, and and and

437
00:24:19,800 --> 00:24:22,639
Speaker 1: then like in in James situation, like he said, with

438
00:24:22,840 --> 00:24:28,879
Speaker 1: Momsy's sometimes you know, women feel like, you know, being

439
00:24:29,000 --> 00:24:32,040
Speaker 1: quiet and going along with the program and ship saves

440
00:24:32,080 --> 00:24:34,439
Speaker 1: them in a sense. So you know, you never know

441
00:24:34,480 --> 00:24:37,600
Speaker 1: about what kids have to go through in the situation.

442
00:24:38,080 --> 00:24:43,359
Speaker 1: So it's a lot of hidden secrets well being a

443
00:24:43,440 --> 00:24:48,800
Speaker 1: kid and being touched by the uncle, mama, boyfriend, et cetera.

444
00:24:49,480 --> 00:24:51,720
Speaker 1: They're scared to talk, they're scared to say something. And

445
00:24:51,760 --> 00:24:54,560
Speaker 1: the ones that do what happens, Oh, he ain't tried

446
00:24:54,640 --> 00:24:57,080
Speaker 1: to touch you. Mama takes the side of the man,

447
00:24:58,920 --> 00:25:02,639
Speaker 1: because that's that's support the structure. It's fucked up, but

448
00:25:03,119 --> 00:25:06,359
Speaker 1: you know, and and women bring all different kinds of

449
00:25:06,359 --> 00:25:09,120
Speaker 1: men in front of their kids. They shouldn't do that, Yeah,

450
00:25:09,160 --> 00:25:11,480
Speaker 1: which I never understood. I know some women today that

451
00:25:11,560 --> 00:25:14,400
Speaker 1: won't bringing nick in front of their children. Amen for them,

452
00:25:14,600 --> 00:25:16,920
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. But you got women that

453
00:25:17,480 --> 00:25:19,720
Speaker 1: won't you to meet their kids. Come on, man, you

454
00:25:19,760 --> 00:25:22,280
Speaker 1: don't know what typing to guy I am. You don't

455
00:25:22,280 --> 00:25:25,120
Speaker 1: know if I like boys or girls? Are both? Yeah,

456
00:25:25,320 --> 00:25:27,240
Speaker 1: and that happens a lot to you know what. The boys?

457
00:25:27,240 --> 00:25:29,719
Speaker 1: You got little boys that don't been And then we

458
00:25:29,800 --> 00:25:31,840
Speaker 1: wandered around and it's like I was telling somebody the

459
00:25:31,880 --> 00:25:35,359
Speaker 1: other day. I tried my best. Man, I ain't perfect,

460
00:25:35,400 --> 00:25:37,399
Speaker 1: but I tried my best not to pass judgment on

461
00:25:37,440 --> 00:25:40,280
Speaker 1: people because I don't know what they've been through. You

462
00:25:40,320 --> 00:25:42,160
Speaker 1: know a lot of people that a lot of women

463
00:25:42,200 --> 00:25:45,119
Speaker 1: you see walking the street now doing different stuff, and

464
00:25:45,160 --> 00:25:47,160
Speaker 1: you just, you know, we quick to call them holes

465
00:25:47,200 --> 00:25:49,479
Speaker 1: and bigs or whatever like that, but they haven't been

466
00:25:49,480 --> 00:25:51,520
Speaker 1: in some pretty traumatic ship. I had a home girl

467
00:25:51,520 --> 00:25:53,800
Speaker 1: to stay next door to me. It was four girls,

468
00:25:54,960 --> 00:25:57,359
Speaker 1: and I learned later on because the four girls was

469
00:25:57,400 --> 00:26:00,359
Speaker 1: all real promiscuous, right. They was known wh there's the

470
00:26:00,359 --> 00:26:02,880
Speaker 1: girl's neighborhood if you want to go. They was everybody's

471
00:26:02,920 --> 00:26:06,080
Speaker 1: first piece of a you know, but you find out

472
00:26:06,119 --> 00:26:08,720
Speaker 1: later on, years later that their dad was real strict,

473
00:26:08,760 --> 00:26:11,880
Speaker 1: that strict motherfucker. He was in there touching on all

474
00:26:11,880 --> 00:26:15,560
Speaker 1: the little girls. Man. You know, he eventually he something

475
00:26:15,600 --> 00:26:17,399
Speaker 1: eventually happened to him, and I don't know if he

476
00:26:17,440 --> 00:26:19,719
Speaker 1: got locked up at what, but he eventually got, you know,

477
00:26:20,280 --> 00:26:22,240
Speaker 1: caught up with that ship I heard. But he was

478
00:26:22,280 --> 00:26:24,960
Speaker 1: doing this for years. Man. And all of those girls,

479
00:26:25,320 --> 00:26:27,320
Speaker 1: I think, out all four of them, maybe one of

480
00:26:27,320 --> 00:26:30,520
Speaker 1: them turned out all right, but the mother three girls

481
00:26:30,600 --> 00:26:33,239
Speaker 1: is lost because they had secrets that they couldn't tell. You. Now,

482
00:26:33,320 --> 00:26:36,640
Speaker 1: just imagine you gotta motherfucker. You're a little girl, you're

483
00:26:36,640 --> 00:26:38,639
Speaker 1: a little boy in some cases, and you got a

484
00:26:38,720 --> 00:26:40,879
Speaker 1: motherfucker to come to your room every night and have

485
00:26:41,040 --> 00:26:43,720
Speaker 1: his way with you, and you can't say nothing. You

486
00:26:43,720 --> 00:26:46,040
Speaker 1: go to your your mama or somebody you think will

487
00:26:46,080 --> 00:26:50,040
Speaker 1: help you. Boys. Stop lying. You're lying, girl, you're lying.

488
00:26:50,080 --> 00:26:52,520
Speaker 1: You didn't do that, or it's your fault that you

489
00:26:52,600 --> 00:26:55,520
Speaker 1: did that. And besides that, you got the motherfucker that's

490
00:26:55,520 --> 00:26:57,080
Speaker 1: doing it to him. Tell me if you say something anything,

491
00:26:57,080 --> 00:27:02,120
Speaker 1: I'm gonna kill him. And that that that you know, uh,

492
00:27:02,320 --> 00:27:05,320
Speaker 1: female is calling that type of situation. You know what

493
00:27:05,359 --> 00:27:09,320
Speaker 1: I'm saying because like I said, we uh men, sometimes

494
00:27:09,400 --> 00:27:12,879
Speaker 1: we get caught in the fun up worlds of control

495
00:27:13,000 --> 00:27:16,159
Speaker 1: and abuse and all that ship to do motherfucker's and

496
00:27:16,160 --> 00:27:19,080
Speaker 1: then women be feeling like maybe you know, because they

497
00:27:19,080 --> 00:27:22,040
Speaker 1: support system, or they came from a broken home or whatever,

498
00:27:22,119 --> 00:27:24,520
Speaker 1: So they got to turn the other cheek, because then

499
00:27:24,560 --> 00:27:27,439
Speaker 1: what's gonna happen to me if I if I speak

500
00:27:27,520 --> 00:27:30,520
Speaker 1: up or if I do the protection, then what happens

501
00:27:30,560 --> 00:27:32,919
Speaker 1: to me? You get me, you know, especially if they

502
00:27:33,040 --> 00:27:36,199
Speaker 1: that type, if they're not strong or independent or you know,

503
00:27:36,320 --> 00:27:38,400
Speaker 1: like funk that you know, I get my own money.

504
00:27:38,440 --> 00:27:40,040
Speaker 1: You know, you've got a lot of females like that

505
00:27:40,080 --> 00:27:43,359
Speaker 1: today who are very independent and who won't stand for

506
00:27:43,440 --> 00:27:47,280
Speaker 1: certain ship. But you know, back in the days of

507
00:27:47,359 --> 00:27:51,640
Speaker 1: old or whatever, or so certain situations where you know,

508
00:27:51,960 --> 00:27:54,639
Speaker 1: where mama is depending on the man bringing home the

509
00:27:54,720 --> 00:27:57,560
Speaker 1: bread or it's that structure or whatever, so they'd be

510
00:27:57,560 --> 00:27:59,600
Speaker 1: feeling like, well, what the fund is gonna happen to me?

511
00:27:59,720 --> 00:28:02,080
Speaker 1: So they kind of turn the other cheek and answer

512
00:28:02,080 --> 00:28:04,040
Speaker 1: where you come with the men, that's where you come

513
00:28:04,040 --> 00:28:07,080
Speaker 1: with the rebellion from the kids at young ages or whatever.

514
00:28:07,800 --> 00:28:10,159
Speaker 1: Well that's why That's why they got to understand. And

515
00:28:10,200 --> 00:28:13,560
Speaker 1: it goes back to what I was saying earlier, excuses

516
00:28:14,920 --> 00:28:18,160
Speaker 1: we being a stripper. I got a reason why I'm

517
00:28:18,200 --> 00:28:22,040
Speaker 1: a stripper. We got excuses. We need to get rid

518
00:28:22,080 --> 00:28:24,960
Speaker 1: of the excuses because I don't have them an excuse

519
00:28:25,320 --> 00:28:28,080
Speaker 1: for the ship that I've done in my life. You

520
00:28:28,119 --> 00:28:30,639
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. But I chose to use and

521
00:28:30,760 --> 00:28:33,720
Speaker 1: say it was because of my daddy. You know what

522
00:28:33,760 --> 00:28:37,600
Speaker 1: I'm saying. Funk all of that. When you eighteen seventeen sixteen,

523
00:28:37,960 --> 00:28:41,560
Speaker 1: you know better, your mind is growing, You understand, you

524
00:28:41,640 --> 00:28:44,280
Speaker 1: know right from wrong. You know what I'm saying. When

525
00:28:44,360 --> 00:28:48,120
Speaker 1: you see motherfucker's out there shaking the ass and and

526
00:28:48,120 --> 00:28:51,959
Speaker 1: and and tworking and ship, you know better. You know

527
00:28:52,080 --> 00:28:54,400
Speaker 1: better what type of woman you want to be? What

528
00:28:54,480 --> 00:28:57,360
Speaker 1: type of woman? What type of man do you want?

529
00:28:58,280 --> 00:29:00,280
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. If you if you working

530
00:29:00,280 --> 00:29:02,280
Speaker 1: in the strip club and you get a nigger in

531
00:29:02,360 --> 00:29:05,320
Speaker 1: the strip club that's watching you dance, and then he

532
00:29:05,440 --> 00:29:07,880
Speaker 1: wants you to quit. I know y'all heard this so

533
00:29:07,920 --> 00:29:12,000
Speaker 1: many times. You met me in the strip club, So

534
00:29:12,000 --> 00:29:15,719
Speaker 1: why should I quit? Admitted the situation and change, ain't it?

535
00:29:16,840 --> 00:29:18,560
Speaker 1: You got a good man, Now, I got you. You

536
00:29:18,560 --> 00:29:22,960
Speaker 1: ain't gotta do that. No, it's already here, it's all.

537
00:29:23,080 --> 00:29:26,080
Speaker 1: She already conditioned and and and she's gonna stay in

538
00:29:26,120 --> 00:29:28,520
Speaker 1: the motherfucking strip club. Nig I don't know if you're

539
00:29:28,520 --> 00:29:31,360
Speaker 1: gonna leave in a week, why should I quit? You

540
00:29:31,400 --> 00:29:33,320
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. I'm telling you, man, it's just

541
00:29:33,360 --> 00:29:37,960
Speaker 1: so fucked up, and it all boils down to fuck excuses.

542
00:29:38,120 --> 00:29:40,960
Speaker 1: We just don't have no respect for each other, ourselves,

543
00:29:41,840 --> 00:29:44,560
Speaker 1: real ship. Hey, let's pay some bills real quick and

544
00:29:44,600 --> 00:29:51,240
Speaker 1: we get right back to y'all still James eight, y'all

545
00:29:51,320 --> 00:29:53,360
Speaker 1: niggas better give me my fire, Donard. I put that

546
00:29:53,440 --> 00:29:56,640
Speaker 1: on the set. I need to go get me some wannamera.

547
00:29:57,120 --> 00:30:00,760
Speaker 1: My motherfucking feet fucking with me, Ga, the chronicles of

548
00:30:00,880 --> 00:30:05,360
Speaker 1: my assay Granny, her money's gangster granny. Y'all know me?

549
00:30:05,840 --> 00:30:10,360
Speaker 1: When you know what the deals in our community, we

550
00:30:10,520 --> 00:30:13,160
Speaker 1: do like to play the blame game a whole lot.

551
00:30:13,760 --> 00:30:16,719
Speaker 1: We pointed everybody, We pointed at the police officers. Uh,

552
00:30:17,920 --> 00:30:21,000
Speaker 1: we pointed everybody else, right, But we don't respect one another.

553
00:30:21,920 --> 00:30:24,480
Speaker 1: We don't. We don't respect one another. Um. I was

554
00:30:24,520 --> 00:30:27,000
Speaker 1: talking to Bobcat, you know DJ Bobcat the other day

555
00:30:27,000 --> 00:30:29,480
Speaker 1: and he said that, man, he said, you know what, still,

556
00:30:30,280 --> 00:30:32,960
Speaker 1: I really want to change this narrative because he said,

557
00:30:33,080 --> 00:30:35,760
Speaker 1: you know, the worst thing I ever did in my life,

558
00:30:35,760 --> 00:30:37,680
Speaker 1: because you know, Bobcat was one of the found the

559
00:30:37,720 --> 00:30:41,120
Speaker 1: members of Rolling forty cripp And he said, he goes

560
00:30:41,160 --> 00:30:42,920
Speaker 1: back and he listened to these young cats start when

561
00:30:42,920 --> 00:30:45,360
Speaker 1: he said, that's not something I'm proud of because it

562
00:30:45,440 --> 00:30:47,400
Speaker 1: don't been. I can't think of not one good thing

563
00:30:47,480 --> 00:30:50,560
Speaker 1: that our hood is done besides a bunch of motherfucker's

564
00:30:50,600 --> 00:30:53,360
Speaker 1: leaving the planet way too early, a bunch of destruction,

565
00:30:53,560 --> 00:30:55,360
Speaker 1: and a bunch of mama's crying. He said he went

566
00:30:55,400 --> 00:31:00,160
Speaker 1: to his homeboys funeral when he was younger, seventeen eighteen something.

567
00:31:00,160 --> 00:31:02,440
Speaker 1: He said, that's when he realized, he said, man, this

568
00:31:02,600 --> 00:31:05,840
Speaker 1: is some fun ship we created. It is you know,

569
00:31:06,040 --> 00:31:08,840
Speaker 1: it's a it's a poisonous cycle. So I think we

570
00:31:08,960 --> 00:31:11,240
Speaker 1: all have a lot of problems in the black community.

571
00:31:11,400 --> 00:31:15,720
Speaker 1: Not just did we create the gang mentality or did

572
00:31:15,760 --> 00:31:19,080
Speaker 1: we or did we adopt that from all the ship

573
00:31:19,240 --> 00:31:23,280
Speaker 1: that we were have we're seeing before us, we adopted

574
00:31:23,960 --> 00:31:27,520
Speaker 1: what we saw exactly. Nothing was created we had that.

575
00:31:27,720 --> 00:31:30,680
Speaker 1: We hate when people say that we created the gang

576
00:31:30,760 --> 00:31:33,920
Speaker 1: ship and we started gang banging all that because it

577
00:31:34,080 --> 00:31:36,600
Speaker 1: was the imagery of being the tough guy and the

578
00:31:36,680 --> 00:31:39,840
Speaker 1: men with the pistols and running the neighborhood that came

579
00:31:39,880 --> 00:31:43,120
Speaker 1: back from long before was doing that way before us.

580
00:31:43,400 --> 00:31:47,960
Speaker 1: So we adopted that mentality and that lifestyle because it

581
00:31:48,040 --> 00:31:53,680
Speaker 1: was a way that we saw too to to to

582
00:31:53,680 --> 00:31:56,320
Speaker 1: to you know, extend the pot or the piole or

583
00:31:56,320 --> 00:31:59,600
Speaker 1: the money or the recognition or the ownership or be

584
00:31:59,720 --> 00:32:02,480
Speaker 1: long men or whatever it is. But this is our neighborhood.

585
00:32:02,520 --> 00:32:05,240
Speaker 1: We're gonna protect it. So we we are this. But

586
00:32:05,680 --> 00:32:08,800
Speaker 1: we didn't form ship. We didn't start like whatever. We

587
00:32:08,880 --> 00:32:11,200
Speaker 1: got that idea from other ship that was created. I

588
00:32:11,320 --> 00:32:13,200
Speaker 1: think it was fond from all the ship that was

589
00:32:13,280 --> 00:32:16,520
Speaker 1: just going on. Gat war ain't war is nothing but

590
00:32:17,720 --> 00:32:20,480
Speaker 1: female lived over here fucking with a nick over here,

591
00:32:20,760 --> 00:32:23,280
Speaker 1: and that nick over here that was just bitch nigga

592
00:32:23,320 --> 00:32:25,480
Speaker 1: you over there sucking her and he goes over there.

593
00:32:25,600 --> 00:32:27,840
Speaker 1: But the homies don't know why this nigger gotta beef,

594
00:32:28,840 --> 00:32:31,240
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. And you got I mean,

595
00:32:31,720 --> 00:32:35,480
Speaker 1: this ship has been way before our time. You know

596
00:32:35,560 --> 00:32:37,560
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. So here you got a big gas

597
00:32:37,760 --> 00:32:40,960
Speaker 1: game ward and it's it just got out of hand. Now,

598
00:32:41,040 --> 00:32:43,880
Speaker 1: motherfucker's just pretty much beefing over the same old bullshit.

599
00:32:44,800 --> 00:32:47,440
Speaker 1: But they're just more personal with it now than back

600
00:32:47,480 --> 00:32:50,480
Speaker 1: then in the days. You know what I'm saying. Back

601
00:32:50,480 --> 00:32:52,400
Speaker 1: in the days, you can see the homies and hang

602
00:32:52,440 --> 00:32:56,560
Speaker 1: out and really didn't have to worry about these niggers

603
00:32:56,600 --> 00:32:59,760
Speaker 1: coming to do a drive by. Now hit him eighty

604
00:32:59,800 --> 00:33:03,560
Speaker 1: one eighty two. Niggas ain't got thirty eighth, No more

605
00:33:03,800 --> 00:33:11,400
Speaker 1: niggas using oozys and big So it's totally different. But

606
00:33:11,440 --> 00:33:14,520
Speaker 1: it's just game banging has the same concept that it

607
00:33:14,600 --> 00:33:18,520
Speaker 1: did when it first came to the hood. Nigga's protecting

608
00:33:18,920 --> 00:33:21,680
Speaker 1: the neighborhood. So we think that that's what it is.

609
00:33:21,760 --> 00:33:24,360
Speaker 1: We thought that's what it is, but then it went

610
00:33:24,440 --> 00:33:30,280
Speaker 1: more personal because the leaders didn't like that motherfucker or

611
00:33:30,400 --> 00:33:35,200
Speaker 1: this dude didn't like that motherfucker's so exactly, So it

612
00:33:35,320 --> 00:33:37,880
Speaker 1: just broke down to a lot of different ships and

613
00:33:37,880 --> 00:33:41,280
Speaker 1: and and everything had a reason for it. This is why,

614
00:33:41,400 --> 00:33:44,600
Speaker 1: this is, this is how whole boy got killed. This

615
00:33:44,640 --> 00:33:50,080
Speaker 1: is why everybody has an excuse for something. But now

616
00:33:50,120 --> 00:33:54,000
Speaker 1: it's just so fucking it's so it's fucked up now,

617
00:33:54,680 --> 00:33:57,200
Speaker 1: you know, even with the way the world is going

618
00:33:57,280 --> 00:34:01,480
Speaker 1: down and the way ship is changing. You know, these

619
00:34:01,560 --> 00:34:05,480
Speaker 1: nineteen twenty year old cats that that have my development

620
00:34:05,560 --> 00:34:11,400
Speaker 1: ain't paying attention that man at any time, Uh, we

621
00:34:11,440 --> 00:34:15,640
Speaker 1: could be attacked by whoo whoo whoo, the the uh

622
00:34:16,400 --> 00:34:19,600
Speaker 1: white supremacists out there like on one hundred and wants

623
00:34:19,600 --> 00:34:22,520
Speaker 1: you to see them. You know what I'm saying, niggas

624
00:34:22,560 --> 00:34:26,040
Speaker 1: is getting hung and we're overlooking it, you know what

625
00:34:26,040 --> 00:34:29,239
Speaker 1: I'm saying. And you're looking at all of these motherfucker's

626
00:34:29,280 --> 00:34:31,879
Speaker 1: that's going to jail to day at the Capitol that

627
00:34:32,000 --> 00:34:36,120
Speaker 1: was in law enforcement. I'm talking about top ranked motherfucker's

628
00:34:36,760 --> 00:34:41,080
Speaker 1: and we're doing and but think these motherfucker's that's killing

629
00:34:41,200 --> 00:34:44,279
Speaker 1: us in these police cars. What you think these motherfucker's

630
00:34:44,440 --> 00:34:48,680
Speaker 1: is they're only showing us they out here. Now, Yeah,

631
00:34:49,040 --> 00:34:52,200
Speaker 1: y'all didn't hire some racist motherfucker's. And they're coming from

632
00:34:52,239 --> 00:34:58,000
Speaker 1: the military's all ranks regardless. Here they are and they're

633
00:34:58,000 --> 00:35:00,319
Speaker 1: taking us out and we ain't even paying attention. But

634
00:35:00,400 --> 00:35:03,480
Speaker 1: we're killing each other. You know what I'm saying, because

635
00:35:03,520 --> 00:35:05,799
Speaker 1: we're naive and we don't give a funk and we

636
00:35:05,840 --> 00:35:08,799
Speaker 1: don't listen, we don't use this. And every time I

637
00:35:08,840 --> 00:35:11,160
Speaker 1: say this ship, I ain't talking about them, I'm talking

638
00:35:11,160 --> 00:35:15,040
Speaker 1: about we. We because I'm a very big part of

639
00:35:16,320 --> 00:35:20,160
Speaker 1: our situation today. You know what I'm saying. It's catching

640
00:35:20,200 --> 00:35:24,359
Speaker 1: my neighborhood today want to be like that dude, or

641
00:35:24,440 --> 00:35:26,880
Speaker 1: in every hood somebody want to be like that dude.

642
00:35:27,160 --> 00:35:29,080
Speaker 1: Every hood somebody want to be like m c A.

643
00:35:29,800 --> 00:35:33,560
Speaker 1: You feel me if it's if it's rapping, but man,

644
00:35:33,560 --> 00:35:35,239
Speaker 1: I'm in the hood. I gotta get my grind on.

645
00:35:35,320 --> 00:35:38,239
Speaker 1: It ain't coming to way it's coming. But they want

646
00:35:38,239 --> 00:35:42,360
Speaker 1: to be like him. You know what I'm saying. Everybody

647
00:35:42,640 --> 00:35:45,040
Speaker 1: is portrayed. I don't give a funk if your own

648
00:35:45,120 --> 00:35:48,520
Speaker 1: or off camera, somebody is portraying you. You know what

649
00:35:48,600 --> 00:35:53,040
Speaker 1: I'm saying. So we are we we we are the

650
00:35:53,080 --> 00:35:58,680
Speaker 1: fucking gatekeepers of our own motherfucking self. We just gotta

651
00:35:58,719 --> 00:36:01,760
Speaker 1: figure out, like when the US be saying with the killing,

652
00:36:01,800 --> 00:36:04,279
Speaker 1: we're killing each other and we're not noticing that it's

653
00:36:04,360 --> 00:36:08,080
Speaker 1: outside motherfucking forces that are creeping who've been killing us

654
00:36:08,120 --> 00:36:10,239
Speaker 1: for years. But we learned how to hate each other

655
00:36:10,320 --> 00:36:12,759
Speaker 1: so much. We gotta figure that fucking ship out. Well,

656
00:36:12,760 --> 00:36:15,160
Speaker 1: get your get your head out of the dirt and

657
00:36:15,160 --> 00:36:19,040
Speaker 1: and and start paying attention to life. Uh, stop being

658
00:36:19,080 --> 00:36:22,560
Speaker 1: so goddamn proud of nothing. Because if you don't want

659
00:36:22,560 --> 00:36:25,160
Speaker 1: to get a goddamn job and work at McDonald's, and

660
00:36:25,200 --> 00:36:27,160
Speaker 1: then you met at the Mexican as you met at

661
00:36:27,160 --> 00:36:30,799
Speaker 1: the White kids, that's working at McDonald's taco bells and

662
00:36:30,800 --> 00:36:33,920
Speaker 1: all that other ship, that's your goddamn fault. If you

663
00:36:34,000 --> 00:36:37,279
Speaker 1: kick alluminum can, pick that motherfuck up, you just kick

664
00:36:37,360 --> 00:36:42,960
Speaker 1: five set, motherfucker. And Yeah, and when you see people

665
00:36:43,239 --> 00:36:47,560
Speaker 1: collecting them cans and are selling ice creaming ship, here

666
00:36:47,600 --> 00:36:51,560
Speaker 1: we go on the easy come up and we want

667
00:36:51,560 --> 00:36:55,080
Speaker 1: to take that ship. These motherfucker's just trying to work

668
00:36:55,080 --> 00:36:58,960
Speaker 1: for this ship with no excuses. You don't have an excuse.

669
00:36:59,040 --> 00:37:02,600
Speaker 1: You got You got these Muskan ladies out there at

670
00:37:02,719 --> 00:37:07,399
Speaker 1: least fifty in their sixties doing aluminum plastic the whole

671
00:37:07,480 --> 00:37:11,879
Speaker 1: nine time. We got too much motherfucking pride to pick

672
00:37:11,960 --> 00:37:15,200
Speaker 1: up a can. We got too much pride to work

673
00:37:15,239 --> 00:37:20,520
Speaker 1: at McDonald's. I worked for that eleven bucks man. That

674
00:37:20,600 --> 00:37:23,600
Speaker 1: ship helps. Yeah, you know the weirdest thing I see, man,

675
00:37:23,719 --> 00:37:26,160
Speaker 1: and it was real crazy to me. Man, you will

676
00:37:26,200 --> 00:37:29,239
Speaker 1: see a kid, some young people hanging out. You know,

677
00:37:29,239 --> 00:37:32,799
Speaker 1: they're smoking the weed, just doing whatever, right, and you

678
00:37:32,880 --> 00:37:35,359
Speaker 1: tell the motherfuck hey, you know they hang over here

679
00:37:35,400 --> 00:37:37,800
Speaker 1: around the corner everything. Man, they only paying ten dollars.

680
00:37:37,800 --> 00:37:41,759
Speaker 1: And now through that mentality and nigger can feel like

681
00:37:41,800 --> 00:37:44,680
Speaker 1: I can sell me some ya or I can sell

682
00:37:44,800 --> 00:37:47,560
Speaker 1: me some ship, and I can make two three hundred

683
00:37:47,640 --> 00:37:52,480
Speaker 1: dollars a day compared to working at McDonald's getting the check.

684
00:37:53,000 --> 00:37:57,000
Speaker 1: You get me to the young mind, Um, you have

685
00:37:57,080 --> 00:38:01,439
Speaker 1: to understand the mentality. They gotta understand. My I got

686
00:38:01,440 --> 00:38:06,080
Speaker 1: a sixteen year old son, so his mentality everything is,

687
00:38:06,360 --> 00:38:08,920
Speaker 1: you know, I want the freshest ship, I want the

688
00:38:09,000 --> 00:38:13,839
Speaker 1: latest gear, the nicest phones. That's where I want this

689
00:38:13,920 --> 00:38:17,760
Speaker 1: and that. Then when he's listening to his favorite rapper quote,

690
00:38:18,080 --> 00:38:22,440
Speaker 1: you know a nigga fucker, bitch, fucker bitch, you know

691
00:38:22,680 --> 00:38:27,080
Speaker 1: pop that Draco money, money money. You know, look at

692
00:38:27,120 --> 00:38:32,160
Speaker 1: my Balenciaga, this my shoes, this my dad. That influences

693
00:38:32,200 --> 00:38:36,000
Speaker 1: a motherfucker to go working at No motherfucking McDonald's ain't

694
00:38:36,000 --> 00:38:38,640
Speaker 1: gonna get me. No, Balenciaga. But I'm gonna tell you

695
00:38:39,040 --> 00:38:41,160
Speaker 1: when you was doing, when you was going on tour

696
00:38:41,200 --> 00:38:44,640
Speaker 1: and all that ship and doing videos halving the jury

697
00:38:44,640 --> 00:38:46,480
Speaker 1: that was coming and half of the cards that was

698
00:38:46,560 --> 00:38:51,319
Speaker 1: coming to the set of that video shoot, went right

699
00:38:51,360 --> 00:38:56,440
Speaker 1: back to where it came from. Or didn't have my book.

700
00:38:56,520 --> 00:39:00,439
Speaker 1: My thing was as a rapper coming up, I never

701
00:39:00,800 --> 00:39:03,680
Speaker 1: wanted to exploit that side of ship. If it was

702
00:39:03,719 --> 00:39:07,120
Speaker 1: in mind, I don't want it. That's what I tried

703
00:39:07,160 --> 00:39:10,959
Speaker 1: to stick to as an MC coming up. I never

704
00:39:11,120 --> 00:39:15,440
Speaker 1: wanted to go outside of my boundaries to make motherfucker's

705
00:39:15,480 --> 00:39:19,680
Speaker 1: think that it was something it wasn't. If you don't

706
00:39:19,680 --> 00:39:22,200
Speaker 1: see the motherfucking Rose Royce in the video, that's because

707
00:39:22,200 --> 00:39:24,200
Speaker 1: I don't got one. Well A, you gotta look at

708
00:39:24,200 --> 00:39:26,000
Speaker 1: it to not to cut you off, bro, but you

709
00:39:26,040 --> 00:39:28,040
Speaker 1: have to look at it. That's why you respected from

710
00:39:28,040 --> 00:39:32,239
Speaker 1: east to west because you always portrayed the realness of

711
00:39:32,280 --> 00:39:37,279
Speaker 1: the neighborhood. There wasn't never no phony or nor to

712
00:39:37,360 --> 00:39:41,399
Speaker 1: the youth, but to some youth like to me growing up,

713
00:39:41,719 --> 00:39:44,080
Speaker 1: when I saw the nigger on the block with the

714
00:39:44,160 --> 00:39:47,040
Speaker 1: el Co with the plush and the brand new Dayton's

715
00:39:47,360 --> 00:39:50,840
Speaker 1: and the motherfucker. I thought, or ship going to McDonald's

716
00:39:50,840 --> 00:39:53,200
Speaker 1: ain't gonna get that. So what did I do? I

717
00:39:53,280 --> 00:39:57,600
Speaker 1: started selling crack because that's what's going That was, that was,

718
00:39:58,040 --> 00:40:00,120
Speaker 1: it was already talked to me. I didn't have the

719
00:40:00,239 --> 00:40:03,600
Speaker 1: father at home going you work hard, you go to work,

720
00:40:03,840 --> 00:40:06,600
Speaker 1: you bring the money home, you saved. I didn't get

721
00:40:06,640 --> 00:40:09,360
Speaker 1: taught that. And then as a youth being able to

722
00:40:09,440 --> 00:40:14,880
Speaker 1: hit the block, young, I was taught to serve and

723
00:40:14,880 --> 00:40:18,600
Speaker 1: and and and get money. Now that that's what my

724
00:40:18,960 --> 00:40:23,319
Speaker 1: mentality was. Not until I got older, I knew all

725
00:40:23,440 --> 00:40:26,719
Speaker 1: this ship ain't for me, but everything that you didn't have,

726
00:40:27,200 --> 00:40:31,719
Speaker 1: you try to get to your son, right exactly, my

727
00:40:31,840 --> 00:40:35,160
Speaker 1: four year old grandson. We're in the Stoke. We're in

728
00:40:35,200 --> 00:40:38,680
Speaker 1: Walmart and he said, I said, you want this? I

729
00:40:38,719 --> 00:40:42,200
Speaker 1: think the chore was like or something. He said, no,

730
00:40:42,239 --> 00:40:44,920
Speaker 1: I want that. I said, that comes too much money. No,

731
00:40:45,000 --> 00:40:48,879
Speaker 1: I'm not feel about that. No, I want that. He's

732
00:40:48,960 --> 00:40:52,719
Speaker 1: learning two. You know what the fun you want? You

733
00:40:52,760 --> 00:40:56,960
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, the value, But I don't want

734
00:40:56,960 --> 00:41:00,360
Speaker 1: to teach him that. You know what I'm saying, that's

735
00:41:00,360 --> 00:41:02,759
Speaker 1: ship quick and swear the gout on my MoMA. Me

736
00:41:02,840 --> 00:41:04,839
Speaker 1: and we got a big gass avocado tree in our

737
00:41:04,880 --> 00:41:08,240
Speaker 1: front yard in Compton, and we had one in the backyard.

738
00:41:08,600 --> 00:41:12,239
Speaker 1: Me and my two brothers picked avocados. Took him back

739
00:41:12,320 --> 00:41:15,279
Speaker 1: then and was market basket and took him in front

740
00:41:15,320 --> 00:41:17,560
Speaker 1: of the store. We went and got a basket and

741
00:41:17,680 --> 00:41:21,080
Speaker 1: loaded that basket up. And back then they had crocus sacks.

742
00:41:21,400 --> 00:41:24,680
Speaker 1: Remember that. We used to one of the pair of

743
00:41:24,760 --> 00:41:27,960
Speaker 1: crocus sacks back the motherfucker and it was J. J. Newberry's.

744
00:41:28,000 --> 00:41:30,120
Speaker 1: They love to see us coming. We learned how to

745
00:41:30,160 --> 00:41:33,000
Speaker 1: buy our own ship because our dad he wasn't giving

746
00:41:33,080 --> 00:41:36,520
Speaker 1: us no fair of shoes from from alchin Fee was

747
00:41:36,560 --> 00:41:39,320
Speaker 1: bigger than mine. His shoes that he was wearing. I

748
00:41:39,480 --> 00:41:42,520
Speaker 1: went to me and the motherfucker's when I couldn't fit them.

749
00:41:42,520 --> 00:41:44,520
Speaker 1: The more they said in the goddamn closets, ain't no

750
00:41:44,600 --> 00:41:48,120
Speaker 1: throwing shit away. Now that I'm teaching and my kids

751
00:41:48,200 --> 00:41:50,960
Speaker 1: see different ship, they don't have to want for nothing.

752
00:41:51,840 --> 00:41:53,879
Speaker 1: And that's why they when they get grown, they think

753
00:41:54,160 --> 00:41:57,080
Speaker 1: Daddy's supposed to still be there. No, you're a grown motherfucker.

754
00:41:57,360 --> 00:42:00,359
Speaker 1: You do what you want. I ain't got that noticed

755
00:42:00,440 --> 00:42:02,719
Speaker 1: what the young kids either, they don't value stuff like

756
00:42:02,800 --> 00:42:05,839
Speaker 1: they should, because the thing is, and I think y'all

757
00:42:05,920 --> 00:42:08,359
Speaker 1: might have had the same way if I did get

758
00:42:08,440 --> 00:42:11,560
Speaker 1: that nice pair of tennis shoes, then motherfucker's came off

759
00:42:11,600 --> 00:42:16,040
Speaker 1: when I came home, right, you know, school close. Yeah,

760
00:42:16,120 --> 00:42:18,920
Speaker 1: you don't wear your your decent clothes or your school clothes.

761
00:42:19,000 --> 00:42:22,000
Speaker 1: And when you come home, you take that ship off.

762
00:42:22,080 --> 00:42:24,560
Speaker 1: You put on them old shoes, that old short set,

763
00:42:24,680 --> 00:42:28,480
Speaker 1: or that old T shirt. Because our parents back then

764
00:42:29,040 --> 00:42:31,840
Speaker 1: knew the struggle and knew what it was, you know

765
00:42:31,880 --> 00:42:37,520
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. So the value the kids nowadays, they

766
00:42:37,680 --> 00:42:42,000
Speaker 1: don't know really the value of the dollar. They don't

767
00:42:42,760 --> 00:42:46,120
Speaker 1: have to. Like to my son, my son every day

768
00:42:46,239 --> 00:42:49,239
Speaker 1: he wants to run the fucking uh the in and

769
00:42:49,360 --> 00:42:52,080
Speaker 1: outer canes every day. I want this. I want that

770
00:42:52,520 --> 00:42:55,000
Speaker 1: you try. And then they don't value the dollar you

771
00:42:55,120 --> 00:42:58,040
Speaker 1: get me because it's every day. It's like And then

772
00:42:58,080 --> 00:42:59,840
Speaker 1: I had to tell another thing, Niula, do you know

773
00:42:59,920 --> 00:43:04,080
Speaker 1: I give you about dollars a day a day, not

774
00:43:04,280 --> 00:43:08,120
Speaker 1: a week. For a fifteen year old kid, I give

775
00:43:08,200 --> 00:43:13,960
Speaker 1: you thirty bucks a day, and I'll be like, and

776
00:43:14,040 --> 00:43:17,360
Speaker 1: then I never saw that. And in my wildest dreams,

777
00:43:17,560 --> 00:43:25,839
Speaker 1: my mom's are pops handing me thirty bucks and then

778
00:43:25,960 --> 00:43:28,080
Speaker 1: just like the other day, just bought him a brand

779
00:43:28,120 --> 00:43:31,680
Speaker 1: new helmet last season, brand new four hundred dollar right

780
00:43:31,719 --> 00:43:35,959
Speaker 1: there on helmet. You think I need me a brand

781
00:43:36,000 --> 00:43:38,200
Speaker 1: new helmet this year, I need me that so and

782
00:43:38,320 --> 00:43:42,760
Speaker 1: so so and so. I'm like, dude, are you kidding?

783
00:43:42,920 --> 00:43:46,759
Speaker 1: So they don't understand the value of a dollar nowadays,

784
00:43:46,880 --> 00:43:50,360
Speaker 1: because all lacy is rich, rich, rich, money, money money.

785
00:43:50,840 --> 00:43:54,560
Speaker 1: And then a lot of our kids in this generation,

786
00:43:54,920 --> 00:43:58,879
Speaker 1: if you don't take ahold of them and show them

787
00:43:59,320 --> 00:44:01,960
Speaker 1: the hard work of Because you got some kids out

788
00:44:02,040 --> 00:44:04,920
Speaker 1: there and go to school, they get them after school,

789
00:44:05,080 --> 00:44:07,960
Speaker 1: job whatever, whatever. But a lot of the kids, you know,

790
00:44:08,280 --> 00:44:12,120
Speaker 1: like myself, grew up looking at the fantasy life of

791
00:44:12,239 --> 00:44:14,960
Speaker 1: what it was to be the rapper or beat or whatever.

792
00:44:15,360 --> 00:44:18,239
Speaker 1: So they haven't taught or hard They haven't taught hard

793
00:44:18,320 --> 00:44:23,160
Speaker 1: work or growing up hard, so they misguided in some way.

794
00:44:23,280 --> 00:44:25,920
Speaker 1: Like you said, James, little little nephew walked in the

795
00:44:26,000 --> 00:44:32,640
Speaker 1: stow like twenty bucks. But she's got to give a

796
00:44:32,760 --> 00:44:36,279
Speaker 1: kid a dollar to day. Look at you like what

797
00:44:36,440 --> 00:44:40,279
Speaker 1: you can do. This is a true story. Last year,

798
00:44:41,400 --> 00:44:51,840
Speaker 1: my youngest son, two good kids. I bought him un uht.

799
00:44:53,320 --> 00:44:58,440
Speaker 1: He had it for like maybe two weeks. Mother called me,

800
00:44:59,320 --> 00:45:02,840
Speaker 1: come get in, which you mean, come get it. The

801
00:45:02,920 --> 00:45:06,759
Speaker 1: battery dead? Charge the battery. Why is the battery dead?

802
00:45:06,800 --> 00:45:09,160
Speaker 1: Because when he picked it up, you never drove the car.

803
00:45:10,400 --> 00:45:12,880
Speaker 1: He wanted me to pay for the insurance. To motherfucker.

804
00:45:12,920 --> 00:45:16,560
Speaker 1: I just bought you a car. If my mama would

805
00:45:16,560 --> 00:45:18,840
Speaker 1: have bought me one card had been cool, if my

806
00:45:19,000 --> 00:45:20,799
Speaker 1: daddy would have bought me a card had been cool,

807
00:45:21,560 --> 00:45:26,440
Speaker 1: I just bought you a motherfucker, and you say, come

808
00:45:26,480 --> 00:45:28,759
Speaker 1: get it. It was a nice car too, I told

809
00:45:28,800 --> 00:45:31,600
Speaker 1: his wife. I said, come on, let's go. I went

810
00:45:31,680 --> 00:45:34,600
Speaker 1: to motherfucking him it. I picked that motherfucker up and

811
00:45:34,680 --> 00:45:40,040
Speaker 1: drove it home. I said, okay, I say thou dollars,

812
00:45:40,640 --> 00:45:44,000
Speaker 1: I might as well keep this motherfucker. Then I said,

813
00:45:44,040 --> 00:45:46,879
Speaker 1: fuck it. My uncle hit me up. Oh I heard

814
00:45:46,960 --> 00:45:52,520
Speaker 1: you got the car, come get it. My uncle bought it.

815
00:45:53,000 --> 00:45:56,839
Speaker 1: But you ain't never had a car dare in your

816
00:45:56,880 --> 00:45:59,640
Speaker 1: motherfucking life. And this is what I say, I'm not

817
00:45:59,719 --> 00:46:03,920
Speaker 1: passing us to find my children. Exactly. You ain't never

818
00:46:04,000 --> 00:46:07,040
Speaker 1: had a car down Once I came and got that one,

819
00:46:07,040 --> 00:46:10,799
Speaker 1: and you know it's done. You what you calling me phone,

820
00:46:12,080 --> 00:46:16,680
Speaker 1: I need a car. Before I before I bought that

821
00:46:16,800 --> 00:46:20,640
Speaker 1: car for him, I gave me my truck, my suburban.

822
00:46:21,040 --> 00:46:25,160
Speaker 1: You had that motherfucker for a year, came back, cans, bottles,

823
00:46:25,160 --> 00:46:27,479
Speaker 1: all kinds of ship in the motherfucker right, my god,

824
00:46:27,600 --> 00:46:33,520
Speaker 1: damn nig returned ship that don't had it for a

825
00:46:33,600 --> 00:46:37,400
Speaker 1: whole year. Right after that, he gets the car. Right

826
00:46:37,440 --> 00:46:40,640
Speaker 1: after that, I go get the car and bam, now

827
00:46:40,920 --> 00:46:42,520
Speaker 1: you're calling me and telling me you want a car.

828
00:46:42,600 --> 00:46:45,080
Speaker 1: What you want me to do about that? Imbody? You

829
00:46:45,120 --> 00:46:51,320
Speaker 1: know motherfucking car? Well, you gotta who woo uh? You

830
00:46:51,440 --> 00:46:54,440
Speaker 1: ain't me and you ain't playing for the motherfucker. You

831
00:46:54,520 --> 00:46:58,719
Speaker 1: know it's sad to say. You know, my my daughter

832
00:46:58,840 --> 00:47:01,279
Speaker 1: is in jail. You know what I'm saying. She don't

833
00:47:01,320 --> 00:47:03,120
Speaker 1: want to listen. She want to do her own thing.

834
00:47:04,040 --> 00:47:06,080
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. All the time and money

835
00:47:06,360 --> 00:47:08,959
Speaker 1: that I spent trying to help her, she still wanted

836
00:47:09,000 --> 00:47:12,200
Speaker 1: to do her regardless of what I say. Babe, you

837
00:47:12,320 --> 00:47:16,000
Speaker 1: need to you need to get out of Compton. Let's

838
00:47:16,040 --> 00:47:18,520
Speaker 1: get out of Compton. Let's find an apartment or something.

839
00:47:19,160 --> 00:47:22,520
Speaker 1: I ain't even comfort now what you want me to do?

840
00:47:23,760 --> 00:47:25,719
Speaker 1: Now I get a phone call. She didn't stand out

841
00:47:25,760 --> 00:47:29,840
Speaker 1: with the police. I couldn't say ship, but she got

842
00:47:29,920 --> 00:47:34,399
Speaker 1: her daddy, her mom, and you know what I got,

843
00:47:34,640 --> 00:47:38,320
Speaker 1: I got her son. So don't thank you for the

844
00:47:38,400 --> 00:47:40,600
Speaker 1: call me and have me sending your packages and ship.

845
00:47:43,120 --> 00:47:46,080
Speaker 1: I ain't looking with you. But when you come home,

846
00:47:46,200 --> 00:47:49,040
Speaker 1: I got you, because this a whole new start. I

847
00:47:49,160 --> 00:47:51,800
Speaker 1: got you. You're gonna have that support system when you

848
00:47:51,920 --> 00:47:56,080
Speaker 1: come home. But I'm not finished spend semi five dollars

849
00:47:56,160 --> 00:47:58,160
Speaker 1: just to hold a conversation with you over the phone.

850
00:47:59,160 --> 00:48:02,040
Speaker 1: You know the phone. It changed. You gotta get a

851
00:48:02,160 --> 00:48:04,239
Speaker 1: card and all that. I'm not They're not going to

852
00:48:04,320 --> 00:48:06,480
Speaker 1: get rich off me. I'm not gonna do that. So

853
00:48:07,120 --> 00:48:10,160
Speaker 1: you'll be talking to somebody else. So and this is

854
00:48:10,200 --> 00:48:12,399
Speaker 1: how this is how funked up it is. If if

855
00:48:12,800 --> 00:48:16,040
Speaker 1: you want to write, you got to address, write a letter,

856
00:48:16,840 --> 00:48:19,960
Speaker 1: write me a letter. I write you back, stamp and ship,

857
00:48:20,080 --> 00:48:22,200
Speaker 1: I write you back. I love you to death. But

858
00:48:22,320 --> 00:48:25,759
Speaker 1: I'm just saying, you know, if we pacify our kids, man,

859
00:48:25,800 --> 00:48:28,120
Speaker 1: and keep giving them what they want and keep belting

860
00:48:28,160 --> 00:48:32,800
Speaker 1: them out and all that other ship man, we were favorite,

861
00:48:32,840 --> 00:48:35,959
Speaker 1: We're nothing my favorite lacause they've never learned. I wanted

862
00:48:35,960 --> 00:48:38,040
Speaker 1: to ask you, James, you know, because this all times

863
00:48:38,080 --> 00:48:40,920
Speaker 1: get what we're talking about, man, And this is a

864
00:48:41,040 --> 00:48:43,960
Speaker 1: question for you to eight. How many people in the

865
00:48:44,040 --> 00:48:47,000
Speaker 1: neighborhood do you think suffer from post traumatic stress? This

866
00:48:47,200 --> 00:48:49,480
Speaker 1: order threw all that just threw all the ship that

867
00:48:49,520 --> 00:48:54,279
Speaker 1: everybody don't have been through she pretty much everybody from

868
00:48:54,320 --> 00:48:57,880
Speaker 1: being shell shocked, well, from being shot at and running

869
00:48:57,960 --> 00:49:02,719
Speaker 1: in and from being in your ask what by the police? Uh?

870
00:49:03,600 --> 00:49:07,000
Speaker 1: Getting your asked what by the homies? Uh? Oh kind

871
00:49:07,040 --> 00:49:09,800
Speaker 1: of ship? You know what I'm saying. I mean what

872
00:49:10,600 --> 00:49:13,640
Speaker 1: I mean to what degree though? Some other fucker's just

873
00:49:13,719 --> 00:49:16,680
Speaker 1: what that type of ship? Some other funer's just truly

874
00:49:16,760 --> 00:49:19,440
Speaker 1: accept getting the asked what by the police? Now, this

875
00:49:19,640 --> 00:49:24,040
Speaker 1: is the definition of PTSD SYS. For every one people

876
00:49:24,080 --> 00:49:26,560
Speaker 1: who experienced a traumatic event, up to eight of them

877
00:49:26,600 --> 00:49:30,400
Speaker 1: will go on to develop PTSD, a serious and severe

878
00:49:30,520 --> 00:49:34,000
Speaker 1: form of panic disorder. The suffering when trific when triggered,

879
00:49:34,040 --> 00:49:37,799
Speaker 1: will experience PTSD symptoms, including a rap of irrational all

880
00:49:37,960 --> 00:49:41,839
Speaker 1: encompassing flight or flight response to the stimula. Stimula could

881
00:49:41,880 --> 00:49:44,279
Speaker 1: be a place, male, sound, or person that reminds them

882
00:49:44,320 --> 00:49:48,360
Speaker 1: of the traumatic event, everybody walk into planet, would you

883
00:49:48,480 --> 00:49:52,160
Speaker 1: just drive pretty much everybody that's been involved, that are

884
00:49:52,280 --> 00:49:58,120
Speaker 1: lived in the neighborhood, Are that that that experience get

885
00:49:58,280 --> 00:50:02,200
Speaker 1: the gang life cold? Just should? I say? Everybody that's

886
00:50:02,440 --> 00:50:06,400
Speaker 1: that's pretty much out there. Everybody done. Everybody got a story.

887
00:50:07,480 --> 00:50:12,000
Speaker 1: Everybody got a story. Uh. But the only difference is

888
00:50:13,000 --> 00:50:16,680
Speaker 1: your story not like mine. You know, our stories are

889
00:50:16,760 --> 00:50:19,879
Speaker 1: like fingerprints. Everybody got their own unique story. And there's

890
00:50:19,880 --> 00:50:22,919
Speaker 1: a lot of people out there that that been through

891
00:50:22,960 --> 00:50:27,120
Speaker 1: it and still don't understand, still don't understand. You got

892
00:50:27,239 --> 00:50:31,240
Speaker 1: some cats out there in the sixties still don't understand

893
00:50:31,280 --> 00:50:34,320
Speaker 1: and still don't know how to get away from what

894
00:50:34,480 --> 00:50:37,279
Speaker 1: they experienced all their life because that's all the funk

895
00:50:37,360 --> 00:50:41,560
Speaker 1: we know. Don't have a way out. So what you

896
00:50:41,719 --> 00:50:45,080
Speaker 1: just described there is pretty much every everybody in this

897
00:50:45,239 --> 00:50:50,600
Speaker 1: room then went through it and whatever somebody could say,

898
00:50:50,640 --> 00:50:53,960
Speaker 1: some foul that triggers us to go there. Well, you

899
00:50:54,040 --> 00:50:55,960
Speaker 1: know the thing he was like, I talked to some

900
00:50:56,120 --> 00:50:58,799
Speaker 1: people like I was talking to my kids one day, right,

901
00:50:59,480 --> 00:51:01,160
Speaker 1: and it kind of tripping me out, and I forget

902
00:51:01,280 --> 00:51:04,520
Speaker 1: sometimes that they was raised in the environment totally different

903
00:51:04,560 --> 00:51:07,800
Speaker 1: than I was. Right, we was watching the Boys in

904
00:51:07,840 --> 00:51:09,920
Speaker 1: the Hood movie, you know, to them, that's all new stuff.

905
00:51:09,920 --> 00:51:11,759
Speaker 1: So we're watching Boys in the Hood at home, right,

906
00:51:12,719 --> 00:51:14,239
Speaker 1: and it comes to the part where the kid walk

907
00:51:14,320 --> 00:51:15,800
Speaker 1: up on the dead bite said, here, y'all want to

908
00:51:15,800 --> 00:51:17,200
Speaker 1: see a dead body, you know when they go over

909
00:51:17,200 --> 00:51:20,520
Speaker 1: there and see it, right, and my son's and I'm

910
00:51:20,560 --> 00:51:23,000
Speaker 1: looking like, damn, you know, motherfucker's laid out like a dog,

911
00:51:23,080 --> 00:51:25,000
Speaker 1: I said, man snatchural, I said, east side of Cleveland,

912
00:51:25,000 --> 00:51:27,360
Speaker 1: you will be walking to school and see a motherfuckering

913
00:51:27,440 --> 00:51:30,040
Speaker 1: inside of the road and the ditch. You know what

914
00:51:30,080 --> 00:51:32,200
Speaker 1: I'm saying, holding his head, holding his face. You know

915
00:51:32,200 --> 00:51:34,080
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. I saw motherfucker one time, look like

916
00:51:34,160 --> 00:51:37,680
Speaker 1: his whole face was gone. And after a while, you

917
00:51:37,840 --> 00:51:40,200
Speaker 1: become kind of desensitized to that ship. And that's the

918
00:51:40,239 --> 00:51:42,280
Speaker 1: crazy part about it. You think that would be shocking

919
00:51:42,320 --> 00:51:44,520
Speaker 1: to most people, but you could become desensitized to it.

920
00:51:46,800 --> 00:51:48,799
Speaker 1: So it's it's definitely a whole bunch, And I think

921
00:51:48,880 --> 00:51:50,520
Speaker 1: that man. I think what you went through was a

922
00:51:50,600 --> 00:51:54,799
Speaker 1: funked up experience and it gave you probably a bad

923
00:51:54,920 --> 00:51:57,960
Speaker 1: view of therapy, But therapy, I think some people need it. Man.

924
00:51:58,360 --> 00:52:02,120
Speaker 1: If I wouldn't mob, James, I wouldn't be here today exactly.

925
00:52:03,280 --> 00:52:07,040
Speaker 1: Look at something and then the I think Black people,

926
00:52:07,719 --> 00:52:09,640
Speaker 1: us as a whole, we deal with that type of

927
00:52:09,680 --> 00:52:13,920
Speaker 1: ship situation differently than other people. You know, see a

928
00:52:13,960 --> 00:52:17,960
Speaker 1: lot of kids who commit suicide or do kind of ship.

929
00:52:18,160 --> 00:52:20,880
Speaker 1: But I think as a people, we deal with certain

930
00:52:20,960 --> 00:52:25,360
Speaker 1: situations differently than other other races or other creeds or whatever.

931
00:52:25,840 --> 00:52:28,440
Speaker 1: It's just who we are. We can you know, we've

932
00:52:28,480 --> 00:52:30,880
Speaker 1: been through a lot of traumatic ship. We seem to

933
00:52:30,960 --> 00:52:33,680
Speaker 1: be able to handle traumatic ship better than a lot

934
00:52:33,719 --> 00:52:36,680
Speaker 1: of people. That's because we're lucky. We're lucky we got

935
00:52:36,719 --> 00:52:39,680
Speaker 1: out of it. We're lucky we survived the ship. And

936
00:52:39,760 --> 00:52:42,040
Speaker 1: there's a whole lot of cats out there like you

937
00:52:42,160 --> 00:52:45,160
Speaker 1: and I that are lucky and able to sit here

938
00:52:45,200 --> 00:52:50,080
Speaker 1: at fifty say thank you. You know what I'm saying.

939
00:52:50,280 --> 00:52:53,919
Speaker 1: It's a lot of brothers, bloods and cuyps turned into god.

940
00:52:54,800 --> 00:52:58,120
Speaker 1: They preachers, you know what I'm saying. They don't care

941
00:52:58,160 --> 00:53:01,759
Speaker 1: about man. Brother, I gotta word for you, stopping you

942
00:53:01,840 --> 00:53:04,640
Speaker 1: in the street. You know what I'm saying. Gang banking

943
00:53:04,680 --> 00:53:07,880
Speaker 1: has has went so far to the left. You know,

944
00:53:08,239 --> 00:53:10,640
Speaker 1: you pick up this goddamn phone and go on Facebook.

945
00:53:10,960 --> 00:53:15,840
Speaker 1: You got gang members having sex with gang members. You

946
00:53:15,920 --> 00:53:23,160
Speaker 1: feel me, it's just so not it. It's crazy as

947
00:53:23,239 --> 00:53:28,759
Speaker 1: crazy as and and you know, I'm like this. When

948
00:53:28,800 --> 00:53:31,000
Speaker 1: I was in prison, I've seen a lot of motherfucker's

949
00:53:31,600 --> 00:53:35,440
Speaker 1: fucking and getting fucked by other men. And I've seen

950
00:53:35,480 --> 00:53:38,880
Speaker 1: a lot of motherfucker's come home to the streets with

951
00:53:39,040 --> 00:53:41,799
Speaker 1: their chests out their pants, still saving and doing them

952
00:53:42,880 --> 00:53:45,160
Speaker 1: because what I did independitentially, they haven't got nothing to

953
00:53:45,239 --> 00:53:49,040
Speaker 1: do with my my gangster bulls shit. It does everything

954
00:53:49,120 --> 00:53:52,960
Speaker 1: that we do, it reflects on us as a man,

955
00:53:53,239 --> 00:53:56,719
Speaker 1: just just me being me. Everything I do reflects on me,

956
00:53:58,160 --> 00:54:00,560
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. And and and cats don't

957
00:54:00,560 --> 00:54:03,080
Speaker 1: get it. You know you got that ship they called

958
00:54:03,120 --> 00:54:06,120
Speaker 1: what a d L or some ship niggers on the download.

959
00:54:06,320 --> 00:54:08,200
Speaker 1: You got a lot of that bullshit. Yeah, you know

960
00:54:08,320 --> 00:54:10,160
Speaker 1: what the thing that pissed me off about that because

961
00:54:10,280 --> 00:54:12,360
Speaker 1: let me tell the people out there for y'all get started.

962
00:54:13,320 --> 00:54:16,560
Speaker 1: We don't care about what somebody's lifestyle, but we your truth,

963
00:54:17,239 --> 00:54:20,320
Speaker 1: live your truth. Don't do this on the downlow and

964
00:54:20,400 --> 00:54:22,399
Speaker 1: go back and put other people at risk because that's

965
00:54:22,400 --> 00:54:24,120
Speaker 1: what you're doing. Well, that ain't what what I was

966
00:54:24,200 --> 00:54:27,960
Speaker 1: saying was U was that the ship is so watered

967
00:54:28,080 --> 00:54:31,480
Speaker 1: down down today. And you know, you got a lot

968
00:54:31,560 --> 00:54:35,160
Speaker 1: of us getting killed over still this color of the

969
00:54:35,320 --> 00:54:38,520
Speaker 1: rag or and half of the ship is homies killing homies.

970
00:54:38,960 --> 00:54:42,440
Speaker 1: It ain't what what game banging started out to be

971
00:54:43,080 --> 00:54:47,919
Speaker 1: or where where when game banging went from bloods being

972
00:54:47,960 --> 00:54:50,160
Speaker 1: bloods and crips being crips, nick and let's get at

973
00:54:50,200 --> 00:54:52,760
Speaker 1: each other. You know what I'm saying. Now his homies,

974
00:54:53,000 --> 00:54:55,200
Speaker 1: well it's been like that from the beginning of time.

975
00:54:55,560 --> 00:54:58,239
Speaker 1: But now his homies just out front, just you know,

976
00:54:58,360 --> 00:55:00,719
Speaker 1: shooting the nig in his back for for a little money,

977
00:55:01,360 --> 00:55:04,040
Speaker 1: setting up the homie because he funk with his bitch.

978
00:55:04,560 --> 00:55:06,640
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. There's so much pussy on

979
00:55:06,800 --> 00:55:12,200
Speaker 1: this planet. You ain't gotta fight for one. But but

980
00:55:12,640 --> 00:55:15,759
Speaker 1: but niggas just doing over this thing called love, you

981
00:55:15,840 --> 00:55:17,880
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. So all of this ship is

982
00:55:17,920 --> 00:55:21,160
Speaker 1: so fucking watered down. You got gangsters, You got niggas

983
00:55:21,200 --> 00:55:24,520
Speaker 1: with khaki suits on getting fun, pulling his pants down

984
00:55:24,800 --> 00:55:27,600
Speaker 1: and bending over. Come on, man, that ain't what this

985
00:55:27,680 --> 00:55:32,600
Speaker 1: ship was designed to be. This and and everybody ain't

986
00:55:32,640 --> 00:55:37,399
Speaker 1: gangsters everybody and gangsters and can't be gangsters gangster by nature,

987
00:55:37,480 --> 00:55:40,840
Speaker 1: not by choice. You can't be no self made as gangster.

988
00:55:41,440 --> 00:55:44,000
Speaker 1: You can't be a gainster because that nigga said you're

989
00:55:44,000 --> 00:55:47,440
Speaker 1: with the business. You ain't no gainster because you put

990
00:55:47,560 --> 00:55:50,719
Speaker 1: up a pistol and shot a motherfucker. You feel me,

991
00:55:50,840 --> 00:55:53,200
Speaker 1: You ain't no gangster because you're doing all this dumb shit.

992
00:55:53,760 --> 00:55:56,320
Speaker 1: And and I was never that because everything I just

993
00:55:56,440 --> 00:55:59,800
Speaker 1: described I was doing. That didn't make me no motherfucking gangster.

994
00:56:00,719 --> 00:56:03,960
Speaker 1: That made me made me. I was just statistic. I

995
00:56:04,200 --> 00:56:07,759
Speaker 1: did what I thought was right and and and and

996
00:56:08,239 --> 00:56:11,239
Speaker 1: that's how I wanted to live. Yeah, this ship ship

997
00:56:11,360 --> 00:56:14,239
Speaker 1: is crazy, and nas need to get their motherfucking get

998
00:56:14,280 --> 00:56:17,600
Speaker 1: their motherfucking mind right. Whatever you did in the penetctrial,

999
00:56:17,760 --> 00:56:19,880
Speaker 1: touch much some motherfucker's the nickel told me in the

1000
00:56:19,920 --> 00:56:22,800
Speaker 1: penetuctual they had life. I never see no money, I

1001
00:56:22,960 --> 00:56:26,440
Speaker 1: never touched another female. I never get no pussy. So

1002
00:56:26,600 --> 00:56:30,719
Speaker 1: the closest thing to fucking is going to somebody's ass. O. Man,

1003
00:56:31,040 --> 00:56:35,360
Speaker 1: on that note, On that note, right there, man, You

1004
00:56:35,480 --> 00:56:40,600
Speaker 1: know everybody's situation is different. Research and get you some help.

1005
00:56:40,680 --> 00:56:43,040
Speaker 1: You can't get that shot out there. I got something

1006
00:56:43,040 --> 00:56:44,880
Speaker 1: I want to talk about. The real quickness told you

1007
00:56:44,920 --> 00:56:47,799
Speaker 1: all for this. Our hundred episode is coming up man

1008
00:56:47,920 --> 00:56:51,400
Speaker 1: next month on the mark. Which should we do for

1009
00:56:51,440 --> 00:56:53,359
Speaker 1: the people already got a couple of the long term

1010
00:56:53,480 --> 00:56:55,480
Speaker 1: fans that they go come through. You know what I'm

1011
00:56:55,520 --> 00:56:58,360
Speaker 1: saying that all through? Should we open this up? I

1012
00:56:58,480 --> 00:57:01,680
Speaker 1: know what the COVID ship going on. Everything welcome something

1013
00:57:01,719 --> 00:57:04,439
Speaker 1: special I see up here. We got all the hand

1014
00:57:04,520 --> 00:57:09,480
Speaker 1: sanitizers and masses is mandatory. We want to celebrate our

1015
00:57:09,600 --> 00:57:12,440
Speaker 1: hundred episode with with the people that help us got

1016
00:57:12,520 --> 00:57:18,000
Speaker 1: here get here and a couple of fans. Yeah yeah,

1017
00:57:18,680 --> 00:57:21,360
Speaker 1: and uh, they don't have to worry about nothing when

1018
00:57:21,360 --> 00:57:23,560
Speaker 1: they come. Just sit back and we do our show

1019
00:57:23,600 --> 00:57:26,920
Speaker 1: it or whatever, do our Hunted episode and maybe we

1020
00:57:26,960 --> 00:57:28,760
Speaker 1: can get them up here at the round table and

1021
00:57:29,280 --> 00:57:31,280
Speaker 1: and let them tell them what they love about the show.

1022
00:57:31,840 --> 00:57:34,840
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, I really believe that I

1023
00:57:34,920 --> 00:57:38,040
Speaker 1: mean giving back. Oh yeah, for sure, we gotta go

1024
00:57:38,120 --> 00:57:41,720
Speaker 1: out the bottles of champagne. Yeah, because you know, especially

1025
00:57:41,760 --> 00:57:44,600
Speaker 1: because I'm looking to you know, shout out to Eric

1026
00:57:44,680 --> 00:57:48,520
Speaker 1: Cai road to dusting um and if I miss your name,

1027
00:57:48,640 --> 00:57:51,240
Speaker 1: I'm getting no don't do that. But I see y'all,

1028
00:57:51,240 --> 00:57:53,600
Speaker 1: and I notice y'all, and I appreciate y'all because y'all

1029
00:57:53,600 --> 00:57:56,760
Speaker 1: have been at guys there from day one to the

1030
00:57:57,120 --> 00:57:59,120
Speaker 1: changes that the show went through when they've been there,

1031
00:57:59,240 --> 00:58:02,600
Speaker 1: and really pretty much because of y'all, that's why we're here,

1032
00:58:02,720 --> 00:58:05,240
Speaker 1: you know, and exactly just keep on the lookout for that.

1033
00:58:05,320 --> 00:58:09,720
Speaker 1: We're gonna be posting more information about that. And that's it. Phillis.

1034
00:58:10,000 --> 00:58:13,560
Speaker 1: I want to say one last thing, Um, we got

1035
00:58:13,600 --> 00:58:16,160
Speaker 1: a lot of kids out here still. I know you

1036
00:58:16,240 --> 00:58:18,600
Speaker 1: can reflect on this one too before we get out

1037
00:58:18,640 --> 00:58:21,920
Speaker 1: of here. With the mental health thing, with the situation

1038
00:58:22,000 --> 00:58:23,920
Speaker 1: in California and a lot of kids not being able

1039
00:58:23,920 --> 00:58:26,360
Speaker 1: to play sports right now, a lot of kids are

1040
00:58:26,400 --> 00:58:30,080
Speaker 1: depressed and uh, you know, committing suicide or just being

1041
00:58:30,440 --> 00:58:34,160
Speaker 1: way deep into depression. So just hanging there, you know,

1042
00:58:35,080 --> 00:58:39,400
Speaker 1: I'm one steal is one. We all got kids, grandkids,

1043
00:58:39,840 --> 00:58:43,960
Speaker 1: you know, uh, and it's a serious situation. So um,

1044
00:58:45,000 --> 00:58:47,640
Speaker 1: and noticing that other states are allowing their kids to

1045
00:58:47,720 --> 00:58:50,280
Speaker 1: play sports and all that, so we need to just

1046
00:58:50,400 --> 00:58:52,919
Speaker 1: get back to some kind of normalcy, you know, try

1047
00:58:52,960 --> 00:58:56,480
Speaker 1: to watch your kids out there, watch the signs of

1048
00:58:56,640 --> 00:58:58,720
Speaker 1: depression and if you can, then just try to get

1049
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Speaker 1: your kids out there to try to do some kind

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Speaker 1: of activity exactly because they got club ball now they

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Speaker 1: got all kinds of stuff. Um, And like hey said,

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Speaker 1: we're here. If y'all need somebody to talk to, you know,

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Speaker 1: hit us up, hit us up. You know that that's

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Speaker 1: what we're here for. This is not you know, we

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Speaker 1: don't do this for no type of glory. You know,

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Speaker 1: we're not chasing fame of money or not here that

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Speaker 1: we're here to help, you know. Like I said, James

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Speaker 1: talks to people, get them, you know with his knowledge,

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Speaker 1: uh steal you and myself, like I said, being involved

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Speaker 1: with kids in sports, you know, so we all have

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Speaker 1: something to lend to the to that aspect. Sorry, Yeah,

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Speaker 1: if y'all feel free, hit us up, d MS, contact

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Speaker 1: us whatever you can if you need somebody to talk

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Speaker 1: to about the situations exactly because I'm sorry James, but

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Speaker 1: the statistics to this ship man, since sports been gone,

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Speaker 1: they said, it's been an increasing team pregnancy, more kids

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Speaker 1: of killing themselves, more kids are going to jail, joining

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Speaker 1: the James and stuff. So it's like it's it's very

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Speaker 1: important that we keep these kids and important that we

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Speaker 1: find something and give them something to do. They gotta

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Speaker 1: need out, and that out is to have have some

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Speaker 1: way where they can call and talk to people like us.

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Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. I swear to God to y'all,

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Speaker 1: I am so passionate about this ship. I am so

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Speaker 1: passionate about helping cats like me. I see a whole

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Speaker 1: bunch of these little dudes walking around here, and I'm like,

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Speaker 1: if they only knew when I should have been. Man,

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Speaker 1: let me high light you something. Don't want to howl,

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Speaker 1: but let me high let you. Man. I see the

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Speaker 1: same facial expression. I had that expression when I was thirteen.

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Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. You know it? You know,

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Speaker 1: I know it's a lot of these young dudes out

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Speaker 1: here that can't be reached but want to be reached.

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Speaker 1: We just gotta just keep doing what we're doing and

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Speaker 1: and touch as many as we can, you know what

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Speaker 1: I'm saying. So one day we're gonna be in a

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Speaker 1: position to where, you know, talk is achieve. Fuck the bullshit. Uh,

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Speaker 1: you're gonna see James McDonald out there. You know what

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Speaker 1: I'm saying, would be right with your right You know,

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Speaker 1: That's what the Father and Father foundations. For Yeah, I know,

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Speaker 1: I'm just I'm just speaking because I see it every day.

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Speaker 1: I see it every day and cometing right now in

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Speaker 1: the day we got all of these these kids. They're

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Speaker 1: still killing each other over bullshit and niggas ain't got

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Speaker 1: no grapes. They just killing each other in l A.

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Speaker 1: They're just killing each other, you know what I'm saying.

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Speaker 1: And at some point they got to stop because you know,

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Speaker 1: one thing we do, we quickly kill each other, opposed

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Speaker 1: to going up to the If five motherfucking white supremacists

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Speaker 1: come down East l A And with the businesses on

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Speaker 1: some bullshit, the majority of us ain't gonna know what

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Speaker 1: the fund to do. Oh that's for real. But you

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Speaker 1: know what, you know what's funny about that, And I'm

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Speaker 1: gonna leaving on this note. I saw a guy say

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Speaker 1: something the other day. He was saying, you know it,

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Speaker 1: I killed white people, and he did on purpose. Right first,

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Speaker 1: he said, I killed niggas all day. It ain't nothing

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Speaker 1: to me. Nobody said a word. But the moment he

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Speaker 1: said I kill white people, it's like everything just went ballistic.

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Speaker 1: Just think about that a little bit, Sean. I see

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Speaker 1: it every day. Yeah, yeah, we holic y'all next week. Well,

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Speaker 1: that concludes another episode of Against the Chronicles podcast. Be

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Speaker 1: the show, leave a comment and a rating. Executive producers

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Speaker 1: for The Gangster Chronicles of Norm Steel James McDonald and

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Speaker 1: Aaron M. C taylor. Our visual media directors Brian White.

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Speaker 1: Shows audio editor is Taylor Hayes. The Gangster Chronicles. Here's

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Speaker 1: a production of The Black Effect Podcast Network and I

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Speaker 1: Heart Media. Any questions to comments hit us up The

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Speaker 1: Gangster Chronicles Podcasts at gmail dot com. Peace be safe

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