WEBVTT - Ep109: Have Your Kink and Eat It Too 0:00:02.840 --> 0:00:07.000 Hey guys, welcome, welcome back. You got just me a 0:00:07.040 --> 0:00:10.400 weezy today, but welcome to a motherfucking episode of Whole Decisions. 0:00:10.440 --> 0:00:13.560 This your girl, Mandy and I'm weazy high End and 0:00:14.160 --> 0:00:19.599 we are here. UM's dirty, Like it's got to be 0:00:19.880 --> 0:00:25.280 super dirty. So so I actually wanted to talk about um, 0:00:25.480 --> 0:00:29.840 something that happened on my trip to London, UM, and 0:00:29.880 --> 0:00:32.880 it made me realize why I go after the guys 0:00:32.920 --> 0:00:34.600 I go after, So I wanted to kind of talk 0:00:34.600 --> 0:00:36.839 about that. So it's not really a nasty catch up. 0:00:36.920 --> 0:00:38.920 I really haven't been having much sex because I still 0:00:39.040 --> 0:00:42.680 don't know what I've been I've been wanting to start 0:00:42.720 --> 0:00:44.800 the shows with like like Andrew, like when the last 0:00:44.800 --> 0:00:46.800 time everybody have sex? But then I realized, like, maybe 0:00:46.840 --> 0:00:49.240 we're not getting fun. I'm not really getting funk like that. Also, 0:00:49.320 --> 0:00:51.000 I do have sex since we recorded with Andrew, but 0:00:51.159 --> 0:00:54.520 we're we're recording right now, and it's March, whenever this 0:00:54.560 --> 0:00:58.320 episode drops whatever, but it's um, it's March, and I 0:00:58.480 --> 0:01:03.280 literally don't have a free week I haven't had a 0:01:03.360 --> 0:01:07.000 free weekend since February and that literally goes all the 0:01:07.040 --> 0:01:10.240 way to June. So with me, Yeah, clearly. Yeah, so 0:01:10.319 --> 0:01:13.160 with me trying to make plans with people, which we 0:01:13.240 --> 0:01:16.120 still have our fucking jobs because the ship bringing in 0:01:16.200 --> 0:01:17.880 money but not enough to quit. Manny, I'm not even 0:01:17.880 --> 0:01:20.640 allowed to you. I've already planned how to propose to 0:01:20.640 --> 0:01:24.520 you that we need to quit. Wait what so I'm 0:01:24.560 --> 0:01:26.959 getting to the point very close where I'm about to 0:01:27.000 --> 0:01:30.320 quit May one. I told them July for us sabbatical. 0:01:30.600 --> 0:01:34.360 I like that word. It feels very white and right. Um, 0:01:34.400 --> 0:01:35.880 I just need to spend more talking in my family. 0:01:35.920 --> 0:01:39.640 They're just really old. I've saved enough money. I'm gonna 0:01:40.040 --> 0:01:44.440 here's what I've come up with. My therapist kind of 0:01:44.440 --> 0:01:45.800 help me come up with this though, because he's just 0:01:45.880 --> 0:01:51.000 like so basically, he said to me, you're depressed and stressed, 0:01:51.520 --> 0:01:53.680 and I can't give you a pill like I did 0:01:53.720 --> 0:01:56.840 before because that was an irrational depression. You felt like 0:01:56.880 --> 0:01:59.280 you would never meet someone, you felt like you could, 0:01:59.280 --> 0:02:02.000 you were helpless. He's like, right now, you're just stressed 0:02:02.000 --> 0:02:04.120 from all the ships you're doing. You got to eliminate 0:02:04.160 --> 0:02:05.760 one of them, and it sounds like the one that 0:02:05.800 --> 0:02:09.320 doesn't isn't progressing as much is your day job. He's like, 0:02:09.360 --> 0:02:12.240 you've saved enough. I've been investing a lot, I've made 0:02:12.240 --> 0:02:15.080 some money, flip some ship. He's like, why don't you 0:02:15.760 --> 0:02:20.760 take four to six months to relax, enjoy your family, 0:02:20.880 --> 0:02:23.359 your life, and if you don't make as much money 0:02:23.400 --> 0:02:25.600 from gigs as you would have made in four months 0:02:25.600 --> 0:02:29.239 at work, then go back. So my job does have 0:02:29.320 --> 0:02:35.600 that offer. I'm not sure at my UM like no. So, 0:02:35.600 --> 0:02:38.440 so one of the partners that I know UM shout 0:02:38.440 --> 0:02:39.960 out to you because I know you listened to the show. 0:02:39.960 --> 0:02:41.360 One of the partners that I know from the San 0:02:41.400 --> 0:02:46.320 Francisco office was in UM in New York, and that's 0:02:46.320 --> 0:02:48.359 what she did. She actually took a year off because 0:02:48.400 --> 0:02:51.280 it was a mental and a lot of big companies 0:02:51.600 --> 0:02:54.040 are here for mental health and making sure that their 0:02:54.080 --> 0:02:57.480 employees are happy and in a good mental state. So 0:02:57.720 --> 0:02:59.280 my therapist was telling me that, He's like, I mean 0:02:59.360 --> 0:03:03.919 a lot of complight. You just take an unpaid leave 0:03:04.000 --> 0:03:05.760 or say that you need it for mental reasons, and 0:03:05.800 --> 0:03:09.919 a lot of UM companies do offer that. So I'm 0:03:09.960 --> 0:03:12.440 still I told my company if I if I have 0:03:12.520 --> 0:03:14.560 not quit by July, it's because I sucked up somehow. 0:03:15.320 --> 0:03:17.959 I've literally been taking I don't see me July and 0:03:18.000 --> 0:03:20.120 if I'm still here, just know whatever I thought I 0:03:20.160 --> 0:03:21.840 was gonna be doing some sh it ain't fall through. 0:03:21.919 --> 0:03:24.640 I've been thinking, like, like even I was telling my therapist, 0:03:24.600 --> 0:03:26.000 He's like, are you what are you scared about? What 0:03:26.200 --> 0:03:28.959 scares you so much? Why are you scared? You told 0:03:28.960 --> 0:03:31.200 me you're gonna go to You're gonna gonna go ontour 0:03:31.240 --> 0:03:33.919 and fall. He's like, why what are you freaking out? 0:03:33.919 --> 0:03:36.960 And I was like, you know, I'm used to the routine. 0:03:37.000 --> 0:03:39.600 I'm used to the consistency. And I'm also used to insurance. 0:03:39.640 --> 0:03:41.640 And he was like, why wouldn't you and Mandy then 0:03:41.640 --> 0:03:44.240 take insurance out on your business account? That makes sense? 0:03:44.240 --> 0:03:46.920 And I was like, I know, but you know what 0:03:46.960 --> 0:03:51.120 I mean, Like, I'm just not used to that. But honestly, bro, 0:03:51.360 --> 0:03:53.480 like the things that I've turned down because I had 0:03:53.520 --> 0:03:56.720 to work that wasn't horrible. Decisions related might be small, 0:03:56.760 --> 0:03:58.520 but they could have grown into bigger things. And I 0:03:58.560 --> 0:04:00.560 hate it. I hate that I had to do that, 0:04:00.600 --> 0:04:02.880 you know. I hate that when I go see my 0:04:02.960 --> 0:04:06.240 family it's for fucking hours, you know what I'm saying? Like, literally, 0:04:06.320 --> 0:04:08.960 we're going to the Miami Show that Sunday, my grandma 0:04:08.960 --> 0:04:10.320 made it very clear I need to be at the 0:04:10.360 --> 0:04:13.200 nursing home to see her motherfucking birthday party. She was like, 0:04:13.200 --> 0:04:16.360 you're funna be that. So I'm gonna go fly from 0:04:16.360 --> 0:04:18.600 Miami to Orlando for five hours and then fly back 0:04:18.600 --> 0:04:20.240 because I gotta go to work. That's insane. Yeah, no, 0:04:20.320 --> 0:04:24.520 it is. I was talking to Joe yesterday actually and 0:04:24.720 --> 0:04:26.640 was telling him everything that we have going on with 0:04:26.680 --> 0:04:30.080 the podcast. And then after I let him know and 0:04:30.160 --> 0:04:32.400 you know, shout out again to everyone at the Joe 0:04:32.400 --> 0:04:34.560 Button podcast. They all supported us at our New York 0:04:34.600 --> 0:04:37.280 Live show. I told him, Yeah, so we're doing all 0:04:37.320 --> 0:04:39.919 this and then yeah, I'm an accountant and she's in 0:04:39.960 --> 0:04:43.040 tech sales and we both work over forty hour weeks 0:04:43.120 --> 0:04:45.200 on top of everything we do with the podcast. And 0:04:45.240 --> 0:04:47.760 he was like, y'all do what I said. Yes. So, 0:04:47.839 --> 0:04:50.440 there are a lot of interviews that we haven't gotten 0:04:50.440 --> 0:04:53.760 to take and a lot of just different things that 0:04:53.839 --> 0:04:56.039 we weren't able to be Like, listen, y'all gotta see 0:04:56.120 --> 0:04:58.720 us after six pm. Other than that Monday through Friday, 0:04:58.760 --> 0:05:01.320 we can't see you during the day. And I think 0:05:01.320 --> 0:05:02.800 that that's limited us with a lot of things and 0:05:02.800 --> 0:05:05.039 it's crazy because there's a lot of podcasts that I 0:05:05.080 --> 0:05:08.719 know are inspired by us and are like seeing our growth. 0:05:08.960 --> 0:05:11.359 So just know, if you stay consistent, if you guys 0:05:11.360 --> 0:05:14.680 continue with with building your brand strong. Like I didn't 0:05:14.680 --> 0:05:16.719 think we could be sitting here saying we've about a quitter. 0:05:17.600 --> 0:05:19.520 I mean, two years is a long time, but it's 0:05:19.600 --> 0:05:23.680 not you know, and honestly, you know my therapist and 0:05:23.839 --> 0:05:27.719 his name is one. He's like, yo, he's like four months, right, 0:05:27.880 --> 0:05:29.279 He's like, and you need to be honest with yourself. 0:05:29.360 --> 0:05:31.479 Let's use a small amount of money, a thousand. Let's 0:05:31.480 --> 0:05:33.320 say you don't make six thousand dollars. Used to say 0:05:33.320 --> 0:05:35.200 you make a thousand a month. If you don't make 0:05:35.240 --> 0:05:37.680 six thousand dollars in those six months, go back. He's like, 0:05:37.720 --> 0:05:41.000 but you need to realize you may make five thousand 0:05:41.040 --> 0:05:43.240 one month and zero dollar is the next. He's like, 0:05:43.360 --> 0:05:47.440 that's that and that's my concern. So I've bartended. I've 0:05:47.480 --> 0:05:50.160 I've been in the creative space with my blog. I've 0:05:50.200 --> 0:05:53.800 seen times where I made a whole lot of money 0:05:53.839 --> 0:05:56.039 because I had a really good story drop and my 0:05:56.120 --> 0:05:59.400 analytics shut up, and then the next month maybe nothing 0:05:59.440 --> 0:06:02.240 to where I was getting my Google assents. So that 0:06:02.320 --> 0:06:04.680 was always my concern with being a creative is that 0:06:05.120 --> 0:06:08.240 even with our checks, they're not consistent. Like, bitch, we 0:06:08.360 --> 0:06:10.839 literally not to get too much into our dollars. But 0:06:10.880 --> 0:06:13.680 we just got paid for an ad we did in November. 0:06:14.760 --> 0:06:17.400 We just got that motherfucking checked last week. I forgot 0:06:17.440 --> 0:06:20.120 about that. Yeah, so it's like it's not consistent. So 0:06:20.160 --> 0:06:25.280 it's hard to manage with paying bills, saving doing all 0:06:25.279 --> 0:06:33.800 the things that Charlotte. We come in Dallas, we value 0:06:33.839 --> 0:06:37.680 lying to these people, but were definitely doing Charlotte. No 0:06:37.720 --> 0:06:41.599 for the bay Area bit the baby we need to do. 0:06:42.080 --> 0:06:45.440 We need to be smart about how we move. You 0:06:45.480 --> 0:06:49.440 know what I'm saying. We're gonna do Texas like Dallas, Houston, Austin, 0:06:49.680 --> 0:06:52.120 get out. We're gonna do the Bay Area, then we 0:06:52.240 --> 0:06:54.200 go on to l A get out. You know what 0:06:54.200 --> 0:06:56.320 I'm saying, take them flights and are really easy to 0:06:56.400 --> 0:06:58.480 do that. Yeah, but when we don't have a job, bro, 0:06:58.720 --> 0:07:01.320 But that's what I'm trying. We literally like that event 0:07:01.360 --> 0:07:05.640 bite can pay out. I sold my job, like yeah, 0:07:05.760 --> 0:07:08.680 so let me know what y'all have need me to 0:07:08.680 --> 0:07:10.120 do tomorrow because I have to leave early because I 0:07:10.160 --> 0:07:11.760 have a flight to Chicago because I have two shows 0:07:11.760 --> 0:07:14.120 this weekend. Like so my job knows on Friday's like, bitch, 0:07:14.120 --> 0:07:15.600 I'm going to the airport and I'm coming into the 0:07:15.640 --> 0:07:21.120 office that Monday. That's right. Um, So I wanted to, 0:07:21.200 --> 0:07:24.120 I guess share a story because this opened up um 0:07:24.320 --> 0:07:26.760 something to me. So while while I was in London, 0:07:27.040 --> 0:07:29.040 I did London and Paris in a weekend because I'm 0:07:29.040 --> 0:07:31.880 looking crazy. I was drunk the whole time. But first off, 0:07:31.920 --> 0:07:33.480 I felt how rich I was too, because bitch, we 0:07:33.520 --> 0:07:36.880 spent probably fours in food just on the Friday, between 0:07:36.920 --> 0:07:39.000 food and drinks, and I don't even eat a lot. 0:07:39.040 --> 0:07:41.880 That was sucking crumpets and fucking dump dumplings and dim 0:07:41.960 --> 0:07:45.520 sum and ship. Yeah, we went to the Shard. It's 0:07:45.000 --> 0:07:47.920 a restaurant called Hu Tongue. On the top of the Shard. 0:07:48.480 --> 0:07:51.720 Beautiful was drinking porn Star Martinez the whole time. I 0:07:51.800 --> 0:07:55.080 love porn so fucking good. Then I love just drinking 0:07:55.080 --> 0:07:57.080 my ship and so good that I don't know what 0:07:57.120 --> 0:07:58.480 the porn start is. By the way, it's so good, 0:07:58.560 --> 0:08:00.720 it's so I don't know why. It's like only in Europe. 0:08:00.720 --> 0:08:03.040 I've never been offered a point start in the state here. Yeah, 0:08:03.160 --> 0:08:06.320 you can make it. I asked the ingredients. Fun, it's pomegranted, 0:08:06.440 --> 0:08:10.440 it's super sweet, not passion for sorry, passion for to 0:08:10.480 --> 0:08:12.200 sitting in there. Super juicy. And then you get a 0:08:12.240 --> 0:08:15.760 shot of champagne next to it. Is that champagne? And 0:08:15.840 --> 0:08:20.160 maybe you was that it was prosecco, my champagne. You 0:08:20.240 --> 0:08:22.400 just ain't know. You saw a little bubbly got excited, 0:08:24.440 --> 0:08:28.040 That's what that was. No, but um So, anyways, we 0:08:28.040 --> 0:08:30.600 we went to sketch and then we had dinner reservations 0:08:30.600 --> 0:08:33.040 at Novikov and my homegirl Adriana shot out at her 0:08:33.120 --> 0:08:36.280 she had um us on the guest list because she 0:08:36.480 --> 0:08:38.079 was like, she didn't really want to be around Nick. 0:08:38.120 --> 0:08:40.280 She wanted to meet new niggas. So she was like, 0:08:40.679 --> 0:08:42.800 I got us on the guest list. Hillsted us at 0:08:42.800 --> 0:08:44.400 the table and I'm like, bitch, I don't do promoter 0:08:44.480 --> 0:08:46.839 tables even in the States, but okay, I'm in another country. 0:08:46.880 --> 0:08:49.800 I'll do it. So instead of catching an uber to 0:08:49.840 --> 0:08:52.079 the club, one of the dudes that really like her 0:08:52.160 --> 0:08:55.160 right now was like, yo, I'll pick y'all up and 0:08:55.240 --> 0:08:57.280 drop y'all off at the club and in her eyes, 0:08:57.320 --> 0:08:58.800 she's like, well, now, bitch, we ain't gotta pay for 0:08:58.800 --> 0:09:02.800 an uber seeing real innocent, right wrong, He picks us 0:09:02.880 --> 0:09:07.600 up from the fucking dinner. We go like, I guess 0:09:07.600 --> 0:09:09.960 I'll share the whole story because but I'll make it short. 0:09:10.120 --> 0:09:12.720 We drove about fifteen minutes away and we noticed we're 0:09:12.720 --> 0:09:15.079 still in the car. The club is only about five 0:09:15.080 --> 0:09:18.800 minutes around the corner type ship, so we're like, what 0:09:18.880 --> 0:09:21.800 direction are we going in? Because my friend is not 0:09:21.840 --> 0:09:26.440 recognizing the direction we're going in. This nigga is like, nah, 0:09:26.480 --> 0:09:30.360 I gotta go pick something up. No, my nigga. I 0:09:30.480 --> 0:09:32.880 hopped out of the car so quick. I said, ma'am, 0:09:33.040 --> 0:09:35.000 we're calling an uber because what you're not gonna do 0:09:35.240 --> 0:09:37.600 is pick anything up while I'm in the car with you. 0:09:38.040 --> 0:09:40.960 And there was Nigeria's no shade. But you either a 0:09:40.960 --> 0:09:44.280 businessman or you're a scama or a straight nigga. Whatever 0:09:44.320 --> 0:09:45.760 you are, you're going to pick something up. You ain't 0:09:45.760 --> 0:09:47.600 having it in a car with me because I know 0:09:47.640 --> 0:09:49.880 what it is. Yeah, out of goddamn weed, and you 0:09:49.880 --> 0:09:51.360 need to go pick it up. But it's now now 0:09:51.480 --> 0:09:54.000 to me, that's a run. I'm not coming with you 0:09:54.080 --> 0:09:57.040 on your runs. So I hop out the car and 0:09:57.080 --> 0:09:59.760 he's like, nah, baby, girl, wouldn't do that. You do man? 0:09:59.800 --> 0:10:03.240 Give okay, I'll take you out to the club. We 0:10:03.400 --> 0:10:11.800 get around the corner from the club, that's the sound 0:10:11.800 --> 0:10:15.320 of the police. We get pulled over, but it's a van. 0:10:17.000 --> 0:10:22.360 Five police jump out of the fucking vans literally knock 0:10:22.440 --> 0:10:26.720 on the window, ask him to pull it down. He 0:10:26.760 --> 0:10:30.280 pulled it down. He's being very like, respectable high officer, 0:10:30.480 --> 0:10:33.760 was the problem because we did we did absolutely nothing wrong. 0:10:34.480 --> 0:10:37.040 So he rolls it down and he's like, where y'all 0:10:37.080 --> 0:10:40.320 going tonight? D Can I ask all of you guys 0:10:40.320 --> 0:10:44.400 to step out of the car. Police we're literally on 0:10:44.640 --> 0:10:47.520 literally and I'm just I'm looking at my homegirl like, bitch, 0:10:47.559 --> 0:10:49.920 I told you to get you see if you would 0:10:49.920 --> 0:10:51.280 have listened to me, bitch, And I'm looking at my 0:10:51.320 --> 0:10:54.880 homegirl like, bitch, what the funk is going on? Next thing, 0:10:54.880 --> 0:10:59.600 I know she's a German citizen. I'm a US citizen. 0:10:59.720 --> 0:11:02.000 They take both of our my passport, her I D 0:11:02.120 --> 0:11:06.000 Card and I'm like, what you need? Like here it is, 0:11:06.040 --> 0:11:07.600 I can give you my information. What do you need 0:11:07.679 --> 0:11:10.280 my card for? She takes it. She's like, oh, as 0:11:10.280 --> 0:11:13.000 long as we don't find anything in the vehicle, will 0:11:13.040 --> 0:11:18.760 give it back. They have two police officers, all doors open, 0:11:19.120 --> 0:11:24.839 trunk open, flashlight looking under everything, and I'm just looking 0:11:24.840 --> 0:11:29.440 at her and I'm she told me that that's what 0:11:29.600 --> 0:11:32.160 I said. That tag is marked and whether it's for 0:11:32.240 --> 0:11:35.480 drugs or whatever, they're looking to get that Mercedes nice heart. 0:11:35.559 --> 0:11:37.880 He's telling it's because I'm black. His windows tenda ain't 0:11:37.880 --> 0:11:41.320 see you was black from behind it. So I'm literally 0:11:41.320 --> 0:11:43.360 looking at Adriana and I said, I don't think you 0:11:43.440 --> 0:11:45.440 understand money. My friend is much younger than me. This 0:11:45.480 --> 0:11:48.800 is her first time experiences too, that's what's happened to 0:11:48.840 --> 0:11:52.079 me before. So I'm looking at her and I'm just like, 0:11:52.160 --> 0:11:55.800 you don't understand, Adriana. If they find as little as 0:11:55.840 --> 0:11:58.960 a blunt in that car, we are all going to jail. 0:11:59.120 --> 0:12:01.160 So I'm sitting here to come to the other officer 0:12:01.720 --> 0:12:05.280 and um and I'm just like, listen, I don't even 0:12:05.280 --> 0:12:07.600 know these motherfucker's I just landed today. You could look 0:12:07.600 --> 0:12:11.200 at the passports kind of I was, I don't know 0:12:11.280 --> 0:12:13.920 these people like she just made him a month ago. 0:12:14.320 --> 0:12:16.560 And it's because he drove by a light there, like, bro, 0:12:16.679 --> 0:12:18.640 we all know these niggers like that, and I'm literally 0:12:18.679 --> 0:12:21.360 like trying to say I don't they. Then I was 0:12:21.400 --> 0:12:24.840 like they technically she's just in a call with somebody, 0:12:24.840 --> 0:12:27.120 you know. Now that's pretty much bitch. And I was like, 0:12:27.160 --> 0:12:29.520 they technically are Uber drivers. Then I almost got away. 0:12:29.520 --> 0:12:32.400 He was like, oh, is this an Uber driver? I said, technically, 0:12:32.480 --> 0:12:35.160 but we didn't call it on the Uber AUP, so 0:12:35.280 --> 0:12:37.720 they wasn't trying to buy that. So they're still looking. 0:12:38.200 --> 0:12:41.679 So this is where a few things happened to me, 0:12:41.720 --> 0:12:43.480 and this is what I wanted to share with with 0:12:43.520 --> 0:12:47.560 the listeners. So he starts getting the other money. There's 0:12:47.559 --> 0:12:49.920 two niggas one in the van. I'll know. This was 0:12:49.960 --> 0:12:52.679 another reason why I got scared. As we're all pulled out, 0:12:53.040 --> 0:12:56.800 the drivers already handcuffed, and I'm just looking like bitch White. 0:12:57.000 --> 0:13:00.720 He didn't handcuffs, so as yea, as he is in handcuffs, 0:13:00.720 --> 0:13:03.000 they're questioning us. He's trying to say sorry to her, 0:13:03.240 --> 0:13:05.080 but now he's starting to get slick with the cops. 0:13:05.360 --> 0:13:07.880 And this is where I realized, and I didn't realize 0:13:07.880 --> 0:13:11.120 how much I had been affected that I have PTSD 0:13:11.200 --> 0:13:14.120 from what's going on here in the States. And as 0:13:14.160 --> 0:13:17.160 he's starting to get snappy with the officer, I'm yelling 0:13:17.200 --> 0:13:20.439 at him at this point, like do exactly what he says, 0:13:20.600 --> 0:13:23.559 Stop with the smart mouth, stop getting slick, give him 0:13:23.559 --> 0:13:26.000 whatever he wants. Let's wait till the cars searched. Stop 0:13:26.040 --> 0:13:29.120 talking to him like that, Like I'm literally telling yeah, 0:13:29.160 --> 0:13:31.560 so I'm by the way, I only mentioned that because 0:13:31.640 --> 0:13:34.320 like in France and went to France, they were big 0:13:34.440 --> 0:13:37.600 rifles to not in France, yellow jackets is a big 0:13:37.640 --> 0:13:40.800 protesting thing going on, but they shoot out these metal 0:13:40.880 --> 0:13:43.080 kind of balls. They're not they can't kill you, but 0:13:43.120 --> 0:13:45.719 they'll like maybe knock off something. But in London they 0:13:45.760 --> 0:13:49.600 do have guns. So so he's I mean, I was. 0:13:49.679 --> 0:13:53.400 I was just glad. I was thinking, well at this point, 0:13:53.720 --> 0:13:55.880 I was already coming up with how I was going 0:13:55.920 --> 0:13:58.680 to have my locked up a broad episode. I was 0:13:58.720 --> 0:14:02.839 already thinking, like conte it, I was already us do 0:14:02.920 --> 0:14:04.600 you know that's what the fun My friend said as 0:14:04.600 --> 0:14:06.719 soon as I fucking told her in the car, mona, 0:14:07.240 --> 0:14:08.720 let me get back to the story so I can 0:14:08.760 --> 0:14:10.200 tell you how I was crying like a pussy hole. 0:14:10.679 --> 0:14:14.400 So Finally they find nothing in the car. We get 0:14:14.400 --> 0:14:16.959 our I d s back, I said, Adriana, we walk 0:14:17.000 --> 0:14:19.360 into the club, ho I said, oh, British, I have 0:14:19.400 --> 0:14:21.920 no gun, no guns, So I'm sorry. I apologize. That 0:14:21.960 --> 0:14:25.120 means that's why he was talking. Maybe that's why he 0:14:25.120 --> 0:14:27.240 was talking. I thought that. I thought that the UK 0:14:27.480 --> 0:14:32.800 was one of the own. They're tight on gun having guns. Okay, okay, 0:14:32.840 --> 0:14:35.440 that's why they're always like six people taking someone out. Sorry, 0:14:35.720 --> 0:14:37.840 there was six cops well in this car at once, 0:14:37.840 --> 0:14:40.080 so we're all getting there's two check in the car, 0:14:40.320 --> 0:14:43.680 there's two questioning. So that other guy he's talking slick 0:14:43.720 --> 0:14:45.520 to the one officer and the other officers with us. 0:14:45.680 --> 0:14:48.480 So finally they come back and they're like, okay, nothing's 0:14:48.480 --> 0:14:50.760 been found in the car. They give us our passport 0:14:50.800 --> 0:14:54.600 and I d back and we start walking away. I'm like, Adriana, 0:14:54.640 --> 0:14:56.720 we've been a motherfucking walks to the club. So we 0:14:56.800 --> 0:14:59.920 walked back. They let him go as well. They uncuff him. 0:15:00.160 --> 0:15:02.800 He comes running to us at the end of the sidewalk, 0:15:03.080 --> 0:15:07.080 trying to apologize, saying he's sorry, and all I do 0:15:07.320 --> 0:15:10.360 is burst into tears and I say back home. They 0:15:10.440 --> 0:15:13.120 kill y'all. And that's all I kept saying because he 0:15:13.280 --> 0:15:17.040 was so like getting so snappy with him, and I 0:15:17.080 --> 0:15:18.200 just did not want to be a part of Like 0:15:18.240 --> 0:15:20.520 I'm about to cry now. They were like, you're so pussy, 0:15:20.640 --> 0:15:23.320 But I literally was like, I didn't realize how much 0:15:23.360 --> 0:15:26.560 seeing all these black men die from the police affected 0:15:26.600 --> 0:15:29.160 me because I don't put myself in those situations, and 0:15:29.240 --> 0:15:33.080 to be in that situation, like I'm literally like I 0:15:33.200 --> 0:15:35.000 literally had to tell my mom. I said, I think 0:15:35.040 --> 0:15:38.240 I need therapy now, Like I didn't realize that me 0:15:38.440 --> 0:15:42.680 seeing the videos on Instagram, me reading the news articles 0:15:44.000 --> 0:15:46.360 and seeing how many of our black men die, being 0:15:46.360 --> 0:15:48.840 in that situation right there, I was just like I 0:15:48.920 --> 0:15:50.600 was scared for him. I was scared for me because 0:15:50.640 --> 0:15:52.600 I know they looked at were black women, so I 0:15:52.600 --> 0:15:55.800 know they wanted all of us gone, and I didn't 0:15:55.800 --> 0:15:59.440 realize how it affected me. So before I go to cry, 0:15:59.600 --> 0:16:02.280 I go to say, this is why I realized when 0:16:02.280 --> 0:16:06.160 we talk about dealing with hood niggas, street niggas, scammers, 0:16:06.200 --> 0:16:08.800 this is why I know I don't put myself in 0:16:08.840 --> 0:16:11.080 those positions because truth is many. The sad thing about 0:16:11.120 --> 0:16:13.880 it is it ain't gonna take a hood. No, no, 0:16:13.920 --> 0:16:16.440 it's not gonna take ni gonna die. However, my friend 0:16:16.520 --> 0:16:18.880 just got a new job, I said, just because we 0:16:18.880 --> 0:16:20.920 were in the car with them, this would have affected 0:16:20.920 --> 0:16:23.680 your new job. I said, do you think if I 0:16:23.720 --> 0:16:26.400 would have just called my my my job and said, oh, 0:16:26.400 --> 0:16:29.800 by the way, I'm in jail right now for drugs 0:16:29.840 --> 0:16:32.040 because that's what they have me in here under wait 0:16:32.160 --> 0:16:34.240 till I get out. No, I would have lost my job. 0:16:34.480 --> 0:16:36.480 And so even it's something that and this is a 0:16:36.520 --> 0:16:40.000 tip to you ladies who if you're into men who 0:16:40.080 --> 0:16:43.600 may sell narcotics or carry around large loads of narcotics 0:16:43.680 --> 0:16:46.200 or anything that could cause him to go to jail, 0:16:46.920 --> 0:16:51.120 don't get in the car because even if you don't 0:16:51.160 --> 0:16:54.200 know that it is there, if you get pulled over 0:16:54.360 --> 0:16:58.240 and that is found, you're both. So there's a documentary 0:16:58.760 --> 0:17:01.800 caught Up HBO. I can't think of the name of it, 0:17:01.840 --> 0:17:03.480 but there it's it's about a woman who goes to 0:17:03.560 --> 0:17:07.919 jail by association. She was with a dude who had 0:17:07.960 --> 0:17:10.040 a bunch of cocaine or drugs or something. I watched 0:17:10.040 --> 0:17:16.560 this month ago. He dies, she gets married. Years later, 0:17:17.000 --> 0:17:19.200 they pinned on her. She goes to jail. She's still 0:17:19.240 --> 0:17:21.920 in there. She got three kids. Seeing the fucking camera 0:17:21.960 --> 0:17:24.199 crew is like showing the husband with the kids. They 0:17:24.240 --> 0:17:26.720 say that it was her, Like, bro, it's insane. It's 0:17:26.760 --> 0:17:29.720 so sad and just getting caught up in that type 0:17:29.720 --> 0:17:31.280 of lifestyle. Like I get it. If you want to 0:17:31.280 --> 0:17:33.320 be a writer, die, But I will say, this is 0:17:33.359 --> 0:17:35.960 why I deal with the guys that I do deal 0:17:36.000 --> 0:17:39.040 with um and I don't have anyone in my phone 0:17:39.119 --> 0:17:42.199 right now that does involve themselves with even though I 0:17:42.240 --> 0:17:44.280 was looking for a scammer just not to deal with 0:17:44.359 --> 0:17:48.200 because I wanted some shoes like cheaper, but I don't 0:17:48.240 --> 0:17:50.120 deal with those type of guys. And this is this 0:17:50.200 --> 0:17:52.919 is why I feel like because I feel like it 0:17:52.960 --> 0:17:56.840 will affect my livelihood just being around. So what you 0:17:56.880 --> 0:17:59.520 went through. I'm sorry because I misspoke. I'm meant to 0:17:59.560 --> 0:18:02.120 say the to sit so I know that the UK, 0:18:02.600 --> 0:18:04.600 maybe I knew that they didn't have guns and I didn't. 0:18:06.240 --> 0:18:08.560 Maybe that's why he was acting like that. That's what 0:18:08.600 --> 0:18:09.960 I meant to say when we were saying he was 0:18:10.000 --> 0:18:12.840 talking about I didn't know. That's the thing that's crazy, right, 0:18:12.840 --> 0:18:15.280 It's like we watched something happen in the abuse of power. 0:18:15.320 --> 0:18:18.640 And something very interesting I learned while in Paris. Um 0:18:18.720 --> 0:18:20.960 So Scissors and I were walking. We're staying on the 0:18:21.000 --> 0:18:25.840 Chalanza Lise and we're going to get brunch on Saturday. 0:18:26.000 --> 0:18:28.960 I know about the Yellow Jackets, heard about it, did 0:18:29.000 --> 0:18:31.840 not know Saturdays for their day. Yeah, that's when I 0:18:31.920 --> 0:18:35.320 went to Paris. Was on a Saturday. I phone really quick, y'all, 0:18:35.640 --> 0:18:38.200 be like literally, So I'm walking with her. We see smoke, 0:18:38.280 --> 0:18:40.400 and I'm like, do you want to see what that is? 0:18:40.800 --> 0:18:43.679 And I'm like, just not even that was the way 0:18:43.720 --> 0:18:46.639 to me. We were walking closer shore I'm not I 0:18:46.680 --> 0:18:48.320 was walking away. I said, there's there's too many cop 0:18:48.359 --> 0:18:50.200 cars around here. Now, No, no no, no, no, we didn't 0:18:50.200 --> 0:18:52.040 see that. I didn't see that picture. This is so 0:18:52.200 --> 0:18:54.960 far away. It looked like a mistake, like like it 0:18:55.000 --> 0:18:57.440 didn't look like I didn't see them protesting yet, right, 0:18:58.040 --> 0:19:01.560 So we start walking closer, literally in front of me. 0:19:01.680 --> 0:19:07.160 You'll hear it. This is me. It's just recording. Listen 0:19:07.160 --> 0:19:16.840 to the sound that happens. They're fucking bombing the middle 0:19:16.880 --> 0:19:20.520 of the streets. So just like by the time I 0:19:20.520 --> 0:19:23.520 got out there, there was a lot of windows, like 0:19:23.600 --> 0:19:25.920 in the shop area by the little look at the 0:19:25.960 --> 0:19:29.040 blast things that burned down. So basically, the yellow Jackets 0:19:29.040 --> 0:19:31.879 are protesting because they don't like their president. Um, the 0:19:31.960 --> 0:19:33.960 left and the right are getting together. What I've heard 0:19:34.080 --> 0:19:36.480 is life, livelihood has become very expensive for the white 0:19:36.480 --> 0:19:39.920 middle class. Now there's a few things about this. I'm 0:19:39.960 --> 0:19:42.440 all about a fucking right. I believe in riots. I 0:19:42.480 --> 0:19:44.879 believe in all of that ship because I believe soldiers 0:19:44.880 --> 0:19:46.640 dian warre and that's how we get it done. Sometimes 0:19:46.680 --> 0:19:50.480 that's just the way I protest. Now, what I've learned 0:19:50.520 --> 0:19:53.639 about what they did is crazy. They are out of 0:19:53.760 --> 0:19:59.240 confucking They're ruining the stores, the glasses, the everything. Also, 0:20:00.080 --> 0:20:02.840