WEBVTT - Episode 191: Can y'all read though? (Feat. Omar Tyree & Sheena Edwards) 0:00:02.040 --> 0:00:04.320 What's up? It slips every time intil ye, I'm g 0:00:04.280 --> 0:00:08.920 g McGuire, I'm glarial, i'ma you gotta guess old marks. 0:00:09.000 --> 0:00:13.720 I read Philadelphia in the building an old head. But 0:00:13.880 --> 0:00:17.239 everybody know you from your books already, and we have 0:00:17.320 --> 0:00:20.720 this book. Everybody why you got a whole lot of millennials. 0:00:20.720 --> 0:00:24.640 They don't read like that. They're like, who yeah, reality show, 0:00:25.360 --> 0:00:30.560 it's your dancer. How they listen to audio books nowadays? 0:00:30.840 --> 0:00:33.080 A lot of kids audio books. And I got a 0:00:33.120 --> 0:00:35.240 great voice, but you know, like audio books, we didn't 0:00:35.240 --> 0:00:36.919 make as much money. So it's like I was like 0:00:37.159 --> 0:00:38.800 that audio book thing, you know what I mean. So 0:00:38.920 --> 0:00:41.080 you know it's different, you know, But the book is 0:00:41.120 --> 0:00:43.080 the book, you know, So the audio books, I'd rather 0:00:43.120 --> 0:00:45.280 do movies. The book is not the book. The book 0:00:45.360 --> 0:00:49.960 is a legendar. Flag is about to be a movie. Yeah. Yeah. 0:00:50.000 --> 0:00:52.880 I wrote the screenplay myself. I gave lines, gave five 0:00:52.960 --> 0:00:55.560 years and I was calling really now I'm gonna Filadelphia 0:00:55.680 --> 0:00:57.480 so I can call with some heat. I was calling 0:00:57.560 --> 0:00:59.720 really nicely. I put my nice voice on how you 0:00:59.760 --> 0:01:02.040 got on the screenplayer? Can I help you out with? 0:01:02.600 --> 0:01:04.080 Can I check it out? Kind of see what you're 0:01:04.120 --> 0:01:06.000 doing and we're not ready yet. We're not We're not 0:01:06.040 --> 0:01:10.520 ready yet. Five years. Yeah, they still have the right 0:01:10.560 --> 0:01:12.720 short but right now I'm gonna go ahead and sit 0:01:12.760 --> 0:01:14.440 down and you know, get it back because I want 0:01:14.480 --> 0:01:16.120 to make it right now, and you know they have 0:01:16.280 --> 0:01:18.440 five years, So I'm like, why should I believe that 0:01:18.480 --> 0:01:20.840 you're gonna make it now? So once I wrote that 0:01:20.880 --> 0:01:24.000 screenplayer December, I said, that's it and I sent it 0:01:24.040 --> 0:01:26.040 to my Tess readers and they loved it. I knew 0:01:26.040 --> 0:01:28.360 it was good already, and they're never gonna know fulling 0:01:28.400 --> 0:01:31.120 off like I know, pulling off here to talk the language, 0:01:31.160 --> 0:01:32.839 you know what I mean? The area and then Mount 0:01:32.920 --> 0:01:37.680 every and German Town amount that was like the uptown areas. 0:01:41.880 --> 0:01:44.520 That was like the whole directing thing. Can you direct 0:01:44.520 --> 0:01:46.640 people to be filling off fiers? I'm like, dude, do 0:01:46.720 --> 0:01:48.960 I seem like a shot dude? So people don't know me, 0:01:49.000 --> 0:01:50.640 so it's good for me to be out there where 0:01:50.640 --> 0:01:52.240 they can hear me. And then like, yo, he's a 0:01:52.320 --> 0:01:54.920 rule fulling off like, so don't think that I can't 0:01:54.960 --> 0:01:57.200 tell people how to be fulling off, you know, and 0:01:57.240 --> 0:01:59.440 speak the language and be the cool hip people that 0:01:59.440 --> 0:02:02.000 we were in the and that's my generation eighties and ninety. 0:02:03.240 --> 0:02:11.960 But can't you make a cheese steak? I'm from West Philly. 0:02:12.120 --> 0:02:15.120 My family is legendary in West Philly. My grandfather was 0:02:15.160 --> 0:02:17.680 one of the first black millionaires in Philadelphia and he 0:02:17.720 --> 0:02:20.639 had a cheese steak empire. His name is Fu Fu 0:02:20.760 --> 0:02:23.880 rest in peace. But when he made the Mamajamma, so 0:02:23.919 --> 0:02:26.040 the mama jam was famous. I can make a cheese steak. 0:02:26.080 --> 0:02:31.519 I wish you get this podcast at my house. Yeah, yeah, yeah, 0:02:31.600 --> 0:02:34.560 all right, So let's talk about writing because you have 0:02:34.600 --> 0:02:37.520 a book penetration. Yes, I have a new book. This 0:02:37.600 --> 0:02:41.000 is my fourth book. Um, I'm a nonfiction author, so 0:02:41.240 --> 0:02:44.240 loosely this is um not loosely, this is wholeheartedly an 0:02:44.280 --> 0:02:47.520 order biography of sorts. UM. I wanted to tell my story. 0:02:47.600 --> 0:02:50.600 My daughter is autistic. So my first two books are 0:02:50.600 --> 0:02:53.200 about altism and parents. And I've been writing since I 0:02:53.280 --> 0:02:55.680 was like seven, but mostly poetry. So when my daughter 0:02:55.720 --> 0:02:58.359 was diagnosed, I wrote my first novel Along came Altism 0:02:58.480 --> 0:03:00.800 in real Time, to kind of give people a look 0:03:00.840 --> 0:03:05.239 at what autism like, autism, special needs parents and look like. Um. 0:03:05.280 --> 0:03:07.480 Those books were very successful. Me and my daughter wrote 0:03:07.520 --> 0:03:09.760 a children's book together, and I just was like, you 0:03:09.800 --> 0:03:11.680 know what, I want to tell the story of different women, 0:03:12.160 --> 0:03:14.640 so why not start with me? So that that's because 0:03:14.680 --> 0:03:22.480 you know, as a guy, I'm thinking right, okay, So 0:03:22.520 --> 0:03:24.520 the reason I like, honestly, when I sat there and 0:03:24.520 --> 0:03:27.360 started thinking, like I'm gonna telling my story, I'm like, 0:03:27.400 --> 0:03:29.720 what could I call it? Penetration was the first word 0:03:29.720 --> 0:03:32.120 that popped in my head. But if you um listen 0:03:32.160 --> 0:03:35.080 to music, I can't think of what song it is 0:03:35.160 --> 0:03:37.600 right now, but let it penetrate or something. And I'm like, 0:03:38.240 --> 0:03:40.560 let me look up the definition, because of what definition 0:03:40.600 --> 0:03:44.400 of penetration is One the sexual definition of penetration and 0:03:44.400 --> 0:03:47.200 the second definition of penetration is when something is fully 0:03:47.520 --> 0:03:51.400 you fully understand the complex situation. So for me, my 0:03:51.440 --> 0:03:54.040 life is complex and I fully now at thirty six, 0:03:54.320 --> 0:04:00.480 I get it for the penetrator. But dependet Actually, you 0:04:00.480 --> 0:04:02.720 know how like as a woman like you start, you 0:04:02.760 --> 0:04:04.440 sit there and try to go through your life, and 0:04:04.480 --> 0:04:06.120 I'm like, what if I told my life through sexual 0:04:06.160 --> 0:04:09.680 experiences because that dominated so much of my youth. So 0:04:09.960 --> 0:04:12.200 that's where penetration came from, and that's what it is 0:04:12.240 --> 0:04:16.000 because I read it in three hours, and with the penetration. 0:04:16.560 --> 0:04:18.600 We're friends and we've been friends the time, so I 0:04:18.680 --> 0:04:23.039 knew her on the personal level. I didn't people people 0:04:23.080 --> 0:04:26.200 be calling me. I'm like, I'm not see, that's just 0:04:26.360 --> 0:04:28.920 I would never ask. I wouldn't have asked because there's 0:04:28.920 --> 0:04:30.800 a reason. No, because there's the reason why you chose 0:04:30.839 --> 0:04:32.120 to do what you did. If you wanted it to 0:04:32.120 --> 0:04:35.040 be a tell all you wanted to tell people's everything, 0:04:35.160 --> 0:04:37.400 then you know you would have did that. That's not 0:04:37.440 --> 0:04:40.480 your personality. Yeah, you're sparing enough to keep you guessing. 0:04:41.320 --> 0:04:43.719 It's about you, not them, even though they are in 0:04:43.800 --> 0:04:45.960 the story. It's your story. Because my mom read it, 0:04:45.960 --> 0:04:48.719 and it's like, like, I don't wanted to read it, 0:04:49.160 --> 0:04:50.719 and then she was like, I read it because my 0:04:50.720 --> 0:04:52.440 mom is a reader. My mom is a big old 0:04:52.440 --> 0:04:54.320 marrit heaf and she got all your books. She my 0:04:54.320 --> 0:04:58.560 mom a reader, a writer. As having a reader like 0:04:58.600 --> 0:05:00.479 that for a mom is intimidated. And so I'm like, 0:05:00.640 --> 0:05:06.120 I don't read it because one is highly sexual about show. 0:05:07.040 --> 0:05:11.120 You know that watch it but no judgment yeah, like 0:05:11.200 --> 0:05:12.839 judgment free. And my mom was like, you know, like 0:05:12.880 --> 0:05:15.599 I commend you for being so transparent. I mean we 0:05:15.920 --> 0:05:17.680 as women, we go through things, and you know what, 0:05:17.760 --> 0:05:20.039 you're very good at writing from the experience of a 0:05:20.080 --> 0:05:24.000 woman from a man. How trying to know everything. I'm 0:05:24.000 --> 0:05:25.560 an a student, you know what I mean. So it's 0:05:25.600 --> 0:05:27.320 like I was one of them dudes that I don't 0:05:27.320 --> 0:05:29.760 mind being smart, and I'll tell you like, I'm an area, 0:05:29.839 --> 0:05:31.840 so I'm like, yo, dude, we don't like straight up. 0:05:32.520 --> 0:05:35.240 So I'm like, na, you know, so I want to 0:05:35.240 --> 0:05:37.280 get it right. So when I write the mail guy, 0:05:37.720 --> 0:05:40.400 nobody pay attention. You know this guy. You know, when 0:05:40.400 --> 0:05:42.279 I get everybody right, if I write about a Puerto 0:05:42.360 --> 0:05:45.200 Rican I'm gonna study right now, I'm writing a Dominican story. 0:05:45.320 --> 0:05:47.960 I'm gonna study them. So I'm not trying to be wrong. 0:05:47.960 --> 0:05:50.000 I'm always trying to be right. And so with that, 0:05:50.040 --> 0:05:52.120 it's like, oh, Mark, thinking knows so much. Yeah, battle me. 0:05:52.160 --> 0:05:53.400 I'm ready to roll, you know what? Amazing, So I 0:05:53.520 --> 0:05:55.039 want them people that's ready to battle. So when I 0:05:55.040 --> 0:05:57.400 put a book out, I'm like, god, dare you you 0:05:57.480 --> 0:05:58.840 know what I mean to say? Something wrong in here? 0:05:58.880 --> 0:06:00.640 Because I researched it. I don't just make it up, 0:06:00.680 --> 0:06:02.400 you know, like I know it if I write about 0:06:02.400 --> 0:06:05.000 the Dominicans right now, I'm and I viewing Dominicans about 0:06:05.040 --> 0:06:07.480 the whole culture. I'm gonna study the d R right now. 0:06:07.520 --> 0:06:10.559 They're coming to Philadelphia and raves like they're coming straight 0:06:10.560 --> 0:06:12.520 from the d R. Not coming to New York. They're 0:06:12.520 --> 0:06:16.800 coming to Felic peoples is coming And I'm like, yo, 0:06:17.080 --> 0:06:19.120 all right, that's a good deal. So I always write 0:06:19.160 --> 0:06:22.080 stuff that you know, it's hot and popular then Dominicans, 0:06:22.120 --> 0:06:24.120 you know, then Cardi b blowing up like that. You know, 0:06:24.160 --> 0:06:27.200 who would think a Dominican female rapper would be like 0:06:27.240 --> 0:06:29.320 on like the way in the world. You would think 0:06:29.360 --> 0:06:31.360 that three years ago, but now it's like, Wow, a 0:06:31.480 --> 0:06:34.159 Dominican female rapper. And so yeah, I try to be 0:06:34.279 --> 0:06:36.120 right with everything I'm doing. If it's a female, I'm 0:06:36.120 --> 0:06:38.359 gonna study the female to be right. Y'all next to 0:06:38.440 --> 0:06:43.040 us all the time. So like, I got Mom's sisters, cousins. 0:06:43.080 --> 0:06:45.080 Do you feel like y'all understand man enough that you 0:06:45.080 --> 0:06:47.000 can write from a man's point of view? I do. 0:06:47.120 --> 0:06:52.359 I think I can think, Yeah, got some friends and 0:06:52.680 --> 0:06:55.599 Harry so many things that they have to say. Now 0:06:55.680 --> 0:06:57.960 they'd be around guys enough. You're like okay, kind of 0:06:58.080 --> 0:07:01.720 message your head up too, because then you start to think, like, man, 0:07:01.960 --> 0:07:04.039 a lot of guys, Like for most of my life, 0:07:04.120 --> 0:07:07.000 I always like, men are not ship they all cheat. 0:07:07.240 --> 0:07:09.600 And that's because of all the guys that I was around. 0:07:10.480 --> 0:07:18.680 Like everybody the last say, yeah, yeah, that was all 0:07:18.720 --> 0:07:21.320 the guys I was around. They were like cheaters and 0:07:21.400 --> 0:07:23.880 whatever the case. But then I'm at other guys, you 0:07:23.920 --> 0:07:25.840 know what I mean, And I've seen something that were 0:07:25.880 --> 0:07:29.440 faithful and I were married and do right. Men that 0:07:29.520 --> 0:07:32.720 you don't like, they get shipped on. Yeah, the whole 0:07:32.720 --> 0:07:34.160 tour for that, you know. I used to tell people 0:07:34.200 --> 0:07:36.000 all the time, I've got two things for friends. You know, 0:07:36.040 --> 0:07:38.960 the good guys. He's so nice, but he's not my 0:07:39.080 --> 0:07:41.840 tight you know what I mean. Like everybody said, that's okay. 0:07:41.880 --> 0:07:44.120 So you got good dudes that you know, but you 0:07:44.160 --> 0:07:45.960 put him in the friend zone. You go to church 0:07:45.960 --> 0:07:48.000 with him, you talk about him with your problems, but 0:07:48.080 --> 0:07:50.280 you never look at him romantically, you know. So I 0:07:50.320 --> 0:07:55.400 had the whole book on that. I understand girls like 0:07:55.560 --> 0:07:59.240 the challenge something that the guys that I'm not attracted 0:07:59.240 --> 0:08:02.320 to and the friends like that's how but you're not 0:08:02.400 --> 0:08:06.160 really attracted two good nice guys. I mean I'm looks wise. 0:08:06.400 --> 0:08:10.680 I'm just talking about personality. I mean, personality is one thing, 0:08:10.720 --> 0:08:12.679 but I feel like the looks is would draw me first. 0:08:12.720 --> 0:08:16.640 So it's like if I cannot, it's just like just 0:08:16.720 --> 0:08:19.440 has to be sexy to me, attractive to me, you 0:08:19.480 --> 0:08:20.960 know what I mean. It doesn't even have to be 0:08:21.000 --> 0:08:23.240 like I don't know, maybe the way he dresses, maybe 0:08:23.240 --> 0:08:26.000 the way where he carries himself might be sexy to me. 0:08:26.080 --> 0:08:29.160 But like, if I don't find you attractive, then you're 0:08:29.200 --> 0:08:31.000 always going to be in the friend zone. I don't 0:08:31.000 --> 0:08:33.520 care how good of a man you mean that you 0:08:33.559 --> 0:08:35.800 could have finally do attractive in two seconds that you 0:08:35.840 --> 0:08:38.600 already know, Like if he ain't attractive, it ain't he nothing, 0:08:38.600 --> 0:08:43.880 he can do, nothing he can do first um, and 0:08:43.920 --> 0:08:46.200 then they kind of grew in. I mean, like I've 0:08:46.920 --> 0:08:49.439 not that I wasn't attracted. I might have been attracted 0:08:49.520 --> 0:08:51.160 to them, but just didn't like them in that kind 0:08:51.200 --> 0:08:53.400 of way, And then they grew on me, you know 0:08:53.400 --> 0:08:55.040 what I mean. But I might have always thought they 0:08:55.040 --> 0:08:57.080 were attractive in some kind of way. But if I 0:08:57.120 --> 0:08:58.920 didn't think you were attractive in no kind of way, 0:08:59.000 --> 0:09:01.680 there's no way. No, you're a friend, I said, let's 0:09:01.679 --> 0:09:04.680 go to eat, let's go hang out. Cool, but don't 0:09:04.720 --> 0:09:09.360 touch my city put my hand. I won't even give 0:09:09.360 --> 0:09:11.480 you a hug. I don't even like the hug thing 0:09:11.520 --> 0:09:14.160 when you see each other. That's even awkward. You can't 0:09:14.200 --> 0:09:19.640 hug someone. I mean when yeah, and it's a guy, 0:09:19.960 --> 0:09:22.080 but if he likes if I know he likes me, 0:09:22.440 --> 0:09:24.200 it's just weird for me to go and and give 0:09:24.280 --> 0:09:28.560 him blood out. Pat you on the back of cousin. Now, 0:09:28.679 --> 0:09:30.839 I need anyone like this. I'm like, what's good? HOI 0:09:31.040 --> 0:09:33.600 like girl? They were like, I feel we were on 0:09:33.679 --> 0:09:37.960 a date. No, no, I mean I could favor my 0:09:38.000 --> 0:09:40.240 food too. But you can pay everyone. All right. Now, 0:09:40.280 --> 0:09:42.920 let's talk about this part of the book, penetration. Yes, 0:09:45.040 --> 0:09:47.360 as I was pulling my little denim Daisy Dukes off, 0:09:47.360 --> 0:09:49.280 he started kissing me on the neck. His mouth felt 0:09:49.280 --> 0:09:52.120 so cold and wet, brushed up against my nervous flesh. 0:09:52.160 --> 0:09:54.319 I got the strange feeling in the bottom of my stomach. 0:09:54.720 --> 0:09:56.920 He kept kissing me. As my shirts hit the bathroom floor. 0:09:57.000 --> 0:09:59.559 I felt his hands sizing me through my panties and 0:09:59.720 --> 0:10:01.480 went to his knees and pulled my panties down with 0:10:01.520 --> 0:10:08.040 his teeth. Then he started to kiss my box. His 0:10:08.120 --> 0:10:10.439 lips felt moist as he started moving his head faster 0:10:10.480 --> 0:10:13.840 and faster. I began to scream. He stopped, look medentitiized 0:10:13.840 --> 0:10:17.280 and told me to shut up. But this goes on 0:10:17.320 --> 0:10:20.080 to say that night it was four hundred fifty dollars. 0:10:20.320 --> 0:10:22.640 He gave us some money increased each time we saw 0:10:22.679 --> 0:10:25.000 each other. He was my first trick, and you were 0:10:25.040 --> 0:10:27.760 only thirteen years old. He was also her first sexual experience. 0:10:28.360 --> 0:10:31.920 He wasn't my first sexual experience. Um, he was my 0:10:32.040 --> 0:10:37.400 first sexual experience with a guy. I'll say. So, that's 0:10:37.440 --> 0:10:40.200 another thing we have in common. She lost her virginity 0:10:40.240 --> 0:10:43.679 to a woman too. Yeah, I don't know if it 0:10:43.720 --> 0:10:50.040 was no, it wasn't he. I think I was always 0:10:50.080 --> 0:10:52.920 like thirteen or fourteen when I met when that's how 0:10:52.960 --> 0:10:55.199 she was happy. You protected the name because she was 0:10:58.280 --> 0:11:00.199 yet like I would get into that and then in 0:11:00.320 --> 0:11:03.520 volume two because it gets a little deeper. But he 0:11:03.640 --> 0:11:08.240 was like this older guy. Um, because he was thirteen, 0:11:08.559 --> 0:11:14.959 how old is he? He maybe was like nineteen or twenty. 0:11:16.000 --> 0:11:21.600 I don't remember it hurt you. I don't remember it hurt, 0:11:21.600 --> 0:11:24.680 and I just remember being like in like your fic state, 0:11:24.800 --> 0:11:27.840 Like I remember like not really understanding what was going on, 0:11:27.920 --> 0:11:34.560 but understanding what was But he was older, so he 0:11:34.679 --> 0:11:37.000 was like popular in our neighborhood. So it was just 0:11:37.040 --> 0:11:39.400 like at that age, I wasn't thinking like did I 0:11:39.440 --> 0:11:41.160 do something wrong? I was thinking like, yes, I got this, 0:11:42.679 --> 0:11:44.360 yeah you know what I mean. Like I wasn't thinking 0:11:44.400 --> 0:11:46.280 about it like that. And then he was like giving 0:11:46.360 --> 0:11:47.920 us money, like I would take my money and give 0:11:47.960 --> 0:11:51.240 me my sister tropical me and cure and all this stuff. Yeah, 0:11:51.280 --> 0:11:53.680 like I wasn't thinking about that. But it kind of 0:11:53.720 --> 0:11:56.040 like it kind of like gave me a real message 0:11:56.080 --> 0:11:59.480 of section of you know, like even at thirty six, 0:11:59.520 --> 0:12:03.080 it gives me a real jaded perception of what and 0:12:03.080 --> 0:12:05.520 a female relationship is. Like I had this conversation with 0:12:05.559 --> 0:12:07.720 my friends all the time like I'm super single, Like 0:12:07.840 --> 0:12:09.719 I'm not. I never lived with a man. I've never 0:12:09.800 --> 0:12:13.520 been in a serious, like super committed relationships. But because 0:12:13.559 --> 0:12:15.240 I look like one, I think all men want to 0:12:15.240 --> 0:12:19.720 have sex with me period, like and and that's true. 0:12:19.880 --> 0:12:23.320 I can't get that when a guy first initially creates 0:12:23.360 --> 0:12:26.600 a type of communication with because you right, it's because 0:12:26.600 --> 0:12:29.360 he want to. That's what I think as a man 0:12:29.400 --> 0:12:31.319 in here. What do you think about that statement? When 0:12:31.360 --> 0:12:33.960 you try to talk to a girl, that's because I 0:12:34.000 --> 0:12:37.040 want to her. Yeah, like when you first initially, I mean, 0:12:37.120 --> 0:12:41.160 that's all the way sex. I don't you want to 0:12:41.160 --> 0:12:43.319 have sex with me, So I'm gonna make you do 0:12:43.760 --> 0:12:46.920 all of this ship before you're there, before you get it, 0:12:46.960 --> 0:12:50.920 like and I didn't know, Like it's that that's only 0:12:50.920 --> 0:12:52.760 gonna work for a guy that is willing to do that, 0:12:52.920 --> 0:12:54.840 you know, because I gotta do. In this book, Victor, 0:12:55.120 --> 0:12:57.560 when when I cast this dude, I mean, he's gonna 0:12:57.559 --> 0:13:00.280 be the sexiest dude, but he's not doing that. He's like, dude, 0:13:00.320 --> 0:13:05.920 I got five girls you like, I know guys and 0:13:05.920 --> 0:13:08.480 I had in the book she like you ain't but 0:13:08.520 --> 0:13:11.480 your panties say that because me and Victor would be 0:13:11.520 --> 0:13:15.800 button his He like, I'm the guys, the guys that 0:13:15.920 --> 0:13:17.480 do the most of me never has sex with me, 0:13:18.360 --> 0:13:20.560 and I feel like so powerful, and it's it's like 0:13:20.600 --> 0:13:23.120 the guys that never ever got it like they do 0:13:23.200 --> 0:13:26.600 the most, like right now today, like can you my 0:13:26.640 --> 0:13:29.560 son tuitioning a whole lot of money, but they don't 0:13:29.559 --> 0:13:35.760 like you from Philadelphia. Yeah, so you had West philand 0:13:35.800 --> 0:13:38.560 off that was doing that. He was from WESTVILLI yeah, 0:13:39.080 --> 0:13:41.640 but he just different cities. I was in d C. 0:13:42.280 --> 0:13:44.440 They was treating that women like. I was like, what 0:13:44.520 --> 0:13:46.880 y'all paying? What y'all doing what? But this was like 0:13:46.920 --> 0:13:49.960 in the eighties when that whole rateful and that's my 0:13:49.960 --> 0:13:53.480 mom because they wasn't like I don't know, it's different 0:13:53.520 --> 0:13:55.840 different places. Like like one time I prayed the guy 0:13:55.920 --> 0:13:57.640 for it. I was like, God, I just don't want 0:13:57.640 --> 0:13:59.240 to pay my bills. Just to me the southern guy 0:13:59.280 --> 0:14:04.679 that they beautiful to pay on my bills. And he did. Yeah, 0:14:06.360 --> 0:14:09.600 but you gotta be you gotta pray for that. He 0:14:09.679 --> 0:14:13.640 was he was older than you. That was so pretty 0:14:13.679 --> 0:14:15.640 rare bone Yeah, can you please play this car? But 0:14:15.720 --> 0:14:18.040 that was older. He was much He was much older 0:14:18.040 --> 0:14:20.840 than you, not that much. That was Sierra's prayer to 0:14:21.400 --> 0:14:29.000 pri was like God, yea like this crazy person. Do 0:14:29.120 --> 0:14:31.480 guys pray for the right women? Like you see how women? 0:14:31.680 --> 0:14:33.640 They're like, what's the prayer? He send me a d 0:14:34.360 --> 0:14:41.920 that likes men? Do that? Do you like that? God? 0:14:42.080 --> 0:14:44.520 Me send me a woman who will and what would 0:14:44.520 --> 0:14:49.600 your prayer be, Like that's your Yeah, that's like we 0:14:49.640 --> 0:14:53.800 have answer. Can you please just say everything about me. 0:14:53.840 --> 0:14:55.400 That's not gonna cheat on me, that's not gonna trying 0:14:55.400 --> 0:14:58.240 to suck my sister, my best friend. You gotta have 0:14:58.320 --> 0:15:00.720 a few more dudes. I wasn't because too many girls, 0:15:00.720 --> 0:15:04.680 you know what I mean. But I'm not praying for im. 0:15:04.880 --> 0:15:09.600 I'm not doing that. I have a girl. You're going 0:15:09.640 --> 0:15:12.440 to the next one now, stopping that, dude, pray for 0:15:12.480 --> 0:15:15.720 a certain kind of woman woman like it's just like this, 0:15:15.960 --> 0:15:18.440 it's a different kind of man. Like somebody. Some men 0:15:18.480 --> 0:15:21.520 are just really that spiritual that they're like, you know, 0:15:21.600 --> 0:15:27.920 they talk to God. Yeah, I mean not not even 0:15:27.960 --> 0:15:31.040 just I want to say church dudes, I would say spiritual. 0:15:31.520 --> 0:15:35.960 I like to say spiritual because just because they're to me, 0:15:36.000 --> 0:15:39.000 a woman for me like that, I don't like a 0:15:39.120 --> 0:15:41.560 good woman. A woman's gonna pour into me like a 0:15:41.640 --> 0:15:45.920 woman that's gonna give me advice and be my second 0:15:44.560 --> 0:15:52.200 I'm your Yeah. Well, I mean, you gotta what kind 0:15:52.240 --> 0:15:54.440 of dude he is? What kind of girls I'm around? 0:15:54.440 --> 0:15:56.080 All kind of women, you know what I mean? So 0:15:56.160 --> 0:15:57.920 with dudes, I'm like how did you get around them? 0:15:57.960 --> 0:16:00.040 If he's a drug dealer and he's only around some 0:16:00.160 --> 0:16:03.720 kind of women, I'm around all kind of women. So 0:16:03.760 --> 0:16:05.800 I'm like I just was telling somebody that the other day, 0:16:05.840 --> 0:16:07.760 like a young girl, like, first of all, if you 0:16:07.800 --> 0:16:09.320 want this type of guy, you gotta be in that 0:16:09.360 --> 0:16:12.240 type of arena in the hood, thinking you're gonna get 0:16:12.800 --> 0:16:15.880 that he ain't there, you know, like an with hood girls, 0:16:15.920 --> 0:16:18.600 ghetto girls. They never felt comfortable with me because the 0:16:18.640 --> 0:16:21.240 mentality was like he's going somewhere, he kids. I always 0:16:21.280 --> 0:16:22.880 spoke that way, I want to do this and when that, 0:16:23.080 --> 0:16:27.000 and it was like they always backed away from me, 0:16:27.080 --> 0:16:29.400 like I can't handle that dude. And I always spoke 0:16:29.440 --> 0:16:32.160 with power, like I never spoke with this whole and 0:16:32.320 --> 0:16:34.480 feminine and when they do, no, I was always gonna 0:16:34.480 --> 0:16:36.440 do this and do that. They was like, yo, this 0:16:36.480 --> 0:16:38.640 family is like I can't handle that. So they will 0:16:38.680 --> 0:16:40.800 always back away even if I like the ghetto girl 0:16:40.880 --> 0:16:42.360 up and like I can't handle that dude he wants 0:16:42.440 --> 0:16:45.800 you know, he got too much confidence, like the kind 0:16:45.800 --> 0:16:48.120 of women that are attracted to you, so you don't 0:16:48.160 --> 0:16:50.320 feel like it's the hood when they're always confident, you 0:16:50.400 --> 0:16:53.000 gotta because I'm coming with so much confident. If you 0:16:53.000 --> 0:16:55.080 don't have that, you're gonna feel like I can't deal 0:16:55.080 --> 0:16:57.760 with him. That's like us like women, and you know, 0:16:57.840 --> 0:17:00.880 like when you were certain type of successful and it's 0:17:00.920 --> 0:17:03.520 not even just monetary, just like you carry yourself, you 0:17:03.560 --> 0:17:07.400 know what you wanting. Certain men just be like yeah, 0:17:08.280 --> 0:17:10.399 get with them, and they try to diminish everything you 0:17:10.480 --> 0:17:14.119 work or you or they just won't come over because 0:17:14.160 --> 0:17:17.439 I think people always think I got like with me 0:17:17.440 --> 0:17:20.400 me being a bookwriter. I was going on tour and 0:17:20.440 --> 0:17:22.480 you had women like, oh my god, I would love 0:17:22.520 --> 0:17:24.040 because you you know what I man, I'm like you, 0:17:25.880 --> 0:17:33.160 I like, my god, man, it's like all the time, 0:17:33.240 --> 0:17:34.960 you got women that got there on cars and then 0:17:35.040 --> 0:17:36.840 on houses, and I'm not afraid of none of them. 0:17:36.840 --> 0:17:38.720 I'm like, yeah, let's bring the noise. So now I'm like, 0:17:38.720 --> 0:17:40.560 I'm about to get in trouble with all the Wethers 0:17:40.560 --> 0:17:43.000 out here that's looking for dudes. But I'm like you, 0:17:43.080 --> 0:17:45.160 in America, you're supposed to have want. So I was like, yo, 0:17:45.240 --> 0:17:47.639 this is torture, you know. So you're going towards like 0:17:47.680 --> 0:17:50.640 that as an intellectual if you got intellectual women. I'm like, yo, 0:17:50.720 --> 0:17:53.720 this I'm about to get in trouble. You said, it's 0:17:53.840 --> 0:17:55.800 because in America you can only have one way. That's 0:17:55.840 --> 0:17:57.520 what I just cut it out to him, saying it 0:17:57.600 --> 0:18:01.320 was torture, torture that you ain't to have all the women, 0:18:01.359 --> 0:18:03.640 all the wive not not every woman, but I mean 0:18:03.680 --> 0:18:05.480 when they they're kicking it, you like and they look 0:18:05.520 --> 0:18:07.119 good and you're like, you know, I wish I had 0:18:07.160 --> 0:18:09.720 a guy like you, and you're like, oh my god, 0:18:11.119 --> 0:18:13.560 and you got a hotel and you got limos and 0:18:13.560 --> 0:18:15.320 you know, I mean they babe putting the money out 0:18:15.320 --> 0:18:18.800 there so they already know, like you know, I'm in fancy. Like, yo, dude, 0:18:18.840 --> 0:18:21.320 this is torture. Do you think you can handle being 0:18:21.359 --> 0:18:24.720 married to more than one woman at a time? How 0:18:24.760 --> 0:18:30.840 many women do you think? About five? You gotta have 0:18:30.920 --> 0:18:34.560 the fighting that, you gotta have a fighting to do that. 0:18:34.640 --> 0:18:37.359 Until when you have the multiple marriages, they have fighting 0:18:37.760 --> 0:18:39.720 like they poor, they gotta have the money to do that. 0:18:39.760 --> 0:18:42.520 You about attention. It's not just about money, because then 0:18:42.520 --> 0:18:45.399 it's like you got to but you're not gonna be. 0:18:45.440 --> 0:18:48.000 You gotta nderstand when you're in that situation, the family 0:18:48.040 --> 0:18:50.440 has to agree to it. If you ain't got no money, 0:18:50.480 --> 0:18:52.359 it's like, why am I giving my doors to are 0:18:52.440 --> 0:18:54.680 broke through? That ain't happening. So you've got to stand 0:18:54.720 --> 0:18:57.000 that they always have money. So how do you feel 0:18:57.040 --> 0:18:59.520 like if you okay, you're in a relationship with five 0:18:59.560 --> 0:19:03.000 women married, you have a daughter, what do you want 0:19:03.000 --> 0:19:05.359 your daughter? The thing, well, she can be the first 0:19:05.400 --> 0:19:07.280 or second or third, and she can see. You have 0:19:07.359 --> 0:19:10.600 to choose. So it's not like I'm forcing these women no, 0:19:10.720 --> 0:19:12.720 no no no. But your daughter, because now you're zing, 0:19:13.200 --> 0:19:15.399 don't have to choose. Like what you would say, she 0:19:15.600 --> 0:19:21.240 would you be comfortable, And that's part of the culture 0:19:21.280 --> 0:19:23.720 you gotta do. Is she gonna be one of two? Three? 0:19:23.920 --> 0:19:26.240 Depends on her personality. Man, if you got a daughter 0:19:26.240 --> 0:19:29.200 that you know it's not a type a woman, you're like, yo, 0:19:29.280 --> 0:19:31.479 you can't handle that. You gotta know your daughter. You 0:19:31.520 --> 0:19:34.000 can't put your daughter situation she can't have. What about 0:19:34.000 --> 0:19:36.320 an open relationship be could you be in a relationship 0:19:36.359 --> 0:19:38.920 where she can see other people and so can you. Well, 0:19:38.960 --> 0:19:41.240 it's gonna happen where it's like, Okay, this is her 0:19:41.320 --> 0:19:43.280 life and so you can try to be dad and 0:19:43.359 --> 0:19:46.000 all you want, but just her life. So she's like, Okay, 0:19:46.040 --> 0:19:48.600 are you comfortable with this about you? Like as a 0:19:48.640 --> 0:19:51.800 man could a man? I'm an older dude now, so 0:19:51.800 --> 0:19:53.760 it's like you can't control people's lives, you know what 0:19:53.760 --> 0:19:55.600 I mean. I'm about to turn five. Oh, It's like, 0:19:55.600 --> 0:19:58.480 I understand you're gonna live your life. I can be that. 0:19:59.280 --> 0:20:02.200 I'm not about to about your hand. I'm not gonna 0:20:02.680 --> 0:20:05.360 live your life, but to be okay, like leg I'm 0:20:05.359 --> 0:20:07.520 gonna do me, you do your thing. We could be together, 0:20:07.720 --> 0:20:12.120 but at the end of the day, are you cool 0:20:12.160 --> 0:20:14.600 with that? Dude? You're cool with your lifestyle. I'm so 0:20:14.800 --> 0:20:19.280 damn ship. Huh. You don't have no feelings of like 0:20:19.400 --> 0:20:21.639 you don't want that person because what if they end 0:20:21.720 --> 0:20:23.760 up having a baby together or something. You're okay with that. 0:20:23.880 --> 0:20:26.399 I don't want no more kids, so you are like 0:20:26.520 --> 0:20:28.480 I was saying somebody recently and I was like, you 0:20:28.560 --> 0:20:30.600 better you go get you a young girl, because hey, 0:20:30.720 --> 0:20:33.400 this oven is closed. And I feel like Wendy Williams 0:20:33.480 --> 0:20:35.879 might have thought that to me. I feel like she 0:20:35.960 --> 0:20:38.680 might have thought that's a reality sunken and the baby came. 0:20:39.000 --> 0:20:42.440 But always she always said that I guess I don't 0:20:42.440 --> 0:20:44.720 know if this is out there, but that she's okay 0:20:44.760 --> 0:20:46.359 with him doing other things as long as he didn't 0:20:46.400 --> 0:20:49.960 have a baby and cancer Like me and cancer women, 0:20:50.119 --> 0:20:53.640 I'm I'm more um. I have been able to tap 0:20:53.680 --> 0:20:56.280 into my male ways more than my female ways, just 0:20:56.320 --> 0:20:58.160 the way my life and set up. But a lot 0:20:58.160 --> 0:21:00.800 of my close friends are cancers. Cancer women love really really, 0:21:00.800 --> 0:21:03.879 really really hard, and cancer women want to be nurturers 0:21:03.920 --> 0:21:05.960 and they will take a lot of ship. Like a 0:21:06.000 --> 0:21:07.960 cancer woman is the type of woman that will that 0:21:08.040 --> 0:21:10.879 her husband has six kids over here outside the marriage, 0:21:10.880 --> 0:21:13.159 just so she could still say she married, you know 0:21:13.200 --> 0:21:15.000 what I mean. And I'm not her, Like, I'm not 0:21:15.040 --> 0:21:17.439 that girl, but I am like I could see myself 0:21:17.480 --> 0:21:20.400 in an open relationship to the point where like I'm 0:21:20.400 --> 0:21:22.200 so used to being single and having my own space, 0:21:22.240 --> 0:21:24.280 Like I wouldn't be opposed to my husband living here 0:21:24.280 --> 0:21:27.120 and I live here because you've never lived in their 0:21:27.119 --> 0:21:30.320 open relationship. For two and a half years, it was 0:21:30.400 --> 0:21:36.240 fine until he got another woman pregnant. That he got 0:21:36.240 --> 0:21:38.520 her pregnant. I cared that he lied about it because 0:21:38.520 --> 0:21:40.280 I was having a baby for him. But you get 0:21:40.359 --> 0:21:43.680 somebody an inch, I felt like that now you laying 0:21:43.760 --> 0:21:45.320 cheat and do what he wants. Now this nig is 0:21:45.359 --> 0:21:47.760 gonna come with a baby like you was already able 0:21:47.800 --> 0:21:50.520 to do whatever I was, but I was going me too, 0:21:50.560 --> 0:21:52.320 and if I don't want a baby and I'm not 0:21:52.359 --> 0:21:53.840 having a baby, and at the time I definitely wasn't 0:21:53.840 --> 0:21:55.960 having a baby. But if I would have wanted to 0:21:55.960 --> 0:21:57.720 have a baby or been pregnant by somebody else, that's 0:21:57.760 --> 0:21:59.080 something he would have had to deal with. I had 0:21:59.080 --> 0:22:01.320 to deal with it about your not to only because 0:22:01.320 --> 0:22:03.760 he lied. Had he not lied to me and told me, listen, 0:22:03.920 --> 0:22:07.720 Rebecca is pregnant exactly all right, we have it. I 0:22:07.720 --> 0:22:14.800 think I think why he lied? No, they're not going 0:22:14.400 --> 0:22:16.320 over why And that's why I was over And it 0:22:16.400 --> 0:22:20.120 was like that's like that throw like like that handle 0:22:22.440 --> 0:22:24.760 this whole lion thing, like we don't want to lose 0:22:24.800 --> 0:22:27.600 a woman. That's that's always. I was the most honest student, 0:22:28.000 --> 0:22:30.640 but I was brutal. Women like, you know, let's come 0:22:30.640 --> 0:22:32.639 on my house after school, and it was like what 0:22:32.720 --> 0:22:35.560 we're gonna do. I got some kindoms were like no, 0:22:35.960 --> 0:22:38.080 I'm not coming in, and my friends and like what 0:22:38.119 --> 0:22:40.560 the hell is wrong with you? Went the telling we're 0:22:40.560 --> 0:22:42.960 gonna watch TV and you make a move, so god 0:22:43.359 --> 0:22:50.640 you they don't want to, but I have two kindoms 0:22:50.680 --> 0:22:55.119 left you. It was like, and you learned because I 0:22:55.240 --> 0:22:57.600 lost out on a lot of girls for honesty, you know, 0:22:58.400 --> 0:23:01.960 learned how to lie. You get trained, like you can't 0:23:01.960 --> 0:23:04.240 say I think that's not fair because now you're choosing 0:23:04.320 --> 0:23:06.879 for somebody. You know what I'm saying that I understand 0:23:07.240 --> 0:23:09.439 it's not gonna funk with you because that's not what 0:23:09.560 --> 0:23:12.360 they're fucking with. So now it's like you're forcing somebody 0:23:12.400 --> 0:23:15.240 into something and that I can't respect. But as far 0:23:15.280 --> 0:23:18.040 as with an open relationship, I feel like, like you said, 0:23:18.119 --> 0:23:21.040 she told him no babies, that y'all laid down the law. 0:23:21.320 --> 0:23:24.399 But to me, open relationship, I got a relationship with 0:23:24.480 --> 0:23:26.200 other people is none of your business if I'm having 0:23:26.200 --> 0:23:27.920 a baby with somebody else. So you feel like I 0:23:27.960 --> 0:23:29.879 don't even have to tell you. I mean it's open 0:23:30.160 --> 0:23:32.600 because like what I got over here with dumb in school. See. 0:23:32.640 --> 0:23:35.080 And then I feel like because even its celebrities and 0:23:35.119 --> 0:23:36.600 you know, just two different people that say they are 0:23:36.600 --> 0:23:39.200 in open relationship. But I think the rules apply because 0:23:39.240 --> 0:23:41.840 even on like Housewives of Atlanta. I think the girl 0:23:41.920 --> 0:23:44.159 was saying that her and the one that's married to 0:23:44.200 --> 0:23:47.160 the bill Bibs of God, we're saying that they sort 0:23:47.160 --> 0:23:49.800 of like an open relationship. But it's a double standard. 0:23:49.840 --> 0:23:52.520 It's like a nigga want you to bring a girl in, 0:23:52.600 --> 0:23:55.359 so y'all could do y'all thing, but God forbid she 0:23:55.440 --> 0:23:57.959 want to go do her thing. Rather's with a man 0:23:58.119 --> 0:24:00.040 or a woman like that. Guy can't never say I 0:24:00.080 --> 0:24:01.760 can't get the safety of it, you know what I mean. 0:24:01.800 --> 0:24:03.800 I was at Howard University and I had a girl 0:24:03.880 --> 0:24:05.920 and said, you know, you can do them as long 0:24:05.960 --> 0:24:09.480 as you use a condom with them' see come on, 0:24:09.640 --> 0:24:13.240 but you say, okay, and that condoms that everybody. Be honest, 0:24:13.280 --> 0:24:15.640 you didn't use a condom with everybody. She said that. 0:24:15.680 --> 0:24:17.240 I was like, you know what I mean, Like, whoa, 0:24:17.359 --> 0:24:19.200 you know what I mean? So you still have a 0:24:19.240 --> 0:24:21.240 give and take with that, because now if you're doing 0:24:21.280 --> 0:24:23.960 everybody wrong, yeah, that's you got it right. That's just 0:24:24.040 --> 0:24:26.200 it still always gonna be a double standard. Like men, 0:24:26.720 --> 0:24:29.240 even if open relationship on the table, we all know 0:24:29.320 --> 0:24:32.280 what we're gonna do. The woman is always is always 0:24:32.280 --> 0:24:34.800 going to be different for the woman. Well, let's talk 0:24:34.800 --> 0:24:37.000 about double standards for a second. Right, let's talk about 0:24:37.040 --> 0:24:42.640 men taking care of women and women being into materialistic things. Girl. Yes, 0:24:44.400 --> 0:24:46.879 so ladies, and I want to hear this has ever 0:24:46.920 --> 0:24:49.280 happened for you on Mark? Would you be okay with 0:24:49.280 --> 0:24:52.800 taking care of a man financially? Absolutely not. I feel 0:24:52.880 --> 0:24:56.480 like at this age, at thirty something, I can't date 0:24:56.480 --> 0:24:58.760 a man that's almost about to become whoever he is, 0:24:59.000 --> 0:25:00.879 like he definitely has some already know he want when 0:25:00.920 --> 0:25:02.720 he want to be when he grow up and be real, 0:25:02.800 --> 0:25:05.240 stern and already on that path. Let's be clear. We 0:25:05.320 --> 0:25:07.920 lived together, and we together and I'm rolling and I'm 0:25:07.920 --> 0:25:09.600 doing my thing, and you don't pour it into me, 0:25:09.680 --> 0:25:12.440 and everything is gravy and God forbid something happening. Whatever 0:25:12.480 --> 0:25:14.800 you do it, don't do normal. That's what I'm saying. 0:25:15.640 --> 0:25:17.760 I would pay the bill because I'm not gonna be homeless. 0:25:18.040 --> 0:25:20.240 But you can't go as a woman. You can't go 0:25:20.280 --> 0:25:23.480 into a situation with a god like I'm rich. Baby, 0:25:23.520 --> 0:25:25.400 I'm gonna be your sugar mama, because what you're thinking, 0:25:25.480 --> 0:25:27.680 I wouldn't say that, but I'm just saying, if you 0:25:27.720 --> 0:25:29.200 would you be with a guy who had less than you, 0:25:29.280 --> 0:25:31.000 that you had to hold a lot more down. No, 0:25:31.080 --> 0:25:35.359 he would still have to be the person. I know 0:25:35.440 --> 0:25:37.639 it may be, but I feel like a man that 0:25:37.680 --> 0:25:39.440 is supposed to be a protector and the provider. Because 0:25:39.480 --> 0:25:40.800 if that's the case, like I live in a big 0:25:40.800 --> 0:25:42.600 house with my family and my kids, I can say 0:25:42.720 --> 0:25:44.840 right there, So have you ever had a woman take 0:25:44.840 --> 0:25:51.440 care of you? I'm a hustler, I'm a I'm a hustler. Whatever. 0:25:51.480 --> 0:25:53.800 The women that have more than you, yeah, I always had, 0:25:53.800 --> 0:25:55.919 she could have more money than me. But that doesn't 0:25:55.960 --> 0:25:58.520 work because then she starts looking at you that way. Yeah, 0:25:58.640 --> 0:26:01.760 Like it's just don't work. It's like ego, she gotta 0:26:01.800 --> 0:26:04.000 go with a duty, got more so I backed down, like, yeah, 0:26:04.040 --> 0:26:05.919 you need more money, you know what I mean. It's 0:26:05.960 --> 0:26:09.040 just awkward, I think for a managing ego. Because I 0:26:09.080 --> 0:26:11.919 always say that because if you notice, even like if 0:26:11.960 --> 0:26:15.520 we didn't talk about the Windy William situation, obviously she's 0:26:15.560 --> 0:26:18.040 the bread winner and so he's dogg and dog and 0:26:18.119 --> 0:26:20.600 dog and dogging because his ego has already been bruised 0:26:20.600 --> 0:26:24.960 from day one. You think that's why, I mean, because 0:26:25.000 --> 0:26:28.000 you think he just wanted to cheap, because all men 0:26:28.040 --> 0:26:30.960 cheap period. I feel like that there's some compassion that 0:26:31.320 --> 0:26:34.280 is emotional or how do you find it's not it's 0:26:34.320 --> 0:26:37.280 not hard to understand. It's like I haven't had her. 0:26:38.800 --> 0:26:43.760 Try her. Yeah, y'all make it all complicated. It's like 0:26:44.240 --> 0:26:47.399 I haven't had her. I wondered if she feels different 0:26:47.480 --> 0:26:56.400 she sounds You would say, all men cheat and some capacity, 0:26:56.960 --> 0:26:59.160 and you still have to have that, you know one 0:26:59.320 --> 0:27:03.719 you know what I mean. You know what I mean, 0:27:04.000 --> 0:27:05.800 Like angels, do you think cheating? It's like if your 0:27:05.800 --> 0:27:07.919 sons is out, if the guy is out on vacation 0:27:07.960 --> 0:27:09.840 with his like, okay, say you want a committed relationship, 0:27:09.920 --> 0:27:11.920 you guy he out he in Vegas with his friends. 0:27:11.920 --> 0:27:14.280 They turn it up and like it's cheating, like him 0:27:14.600 --> 0:27:19.040 being the one that paid the girl. Now that's not 0:27:20.600 --> 0:27:22.959 that's not cheating. But you know some girls think that 0:27:22.960 --> 0:27:25.160 that's No, I don't look at that as cheating. Okay, 0:27:25.200 --> 0:27:30.280 if he got it like that, but others are you saying, 0:27:30.320 --> 0:27:32.280 the dude go out on a vacation and something like that, 0:27:32.320 --> 0:27:35.399 ain't cheating if he like and because you know, some 0:27:35.440 --> 0:27:38.960 people got real very strict rules for like my man 0:27:39.119 --> 0:27:41.240 can't pay the tab. My son is sixteen, and I 0:27:41.320 --> 0:27:43.359 teach my son, if you meet a young lady and 0:27:43.359 --> 0:27:45.280 she all with her girlfriends and you come to the venue, 0:27:45.520 --> 0:27:47.880 you have to pay for their ship, right, like saying 0:27:47.880 --> 0:27:49.800 that if my man was on vacation and base with 0:27:49.840 --> 0:27:51.640 his boys and then there was a group of girls 0:27:51.640 --> 0:27:54.840 at the table and he paid their tab, is that cheating? No, 0:27:55.119 --> 0:27:57.800 that's not that's I don't think that as a hustle, 0:27:57.960 --> 0:28:00.439 Like what the hell are you going to? You know, 0:28:00.520 --> 0:28:02.680 but that's not cheat But some girls, like I talked 0:28:02.680 --> 0:28:04.720 to females that feel like, like like I know women, but 0:28:04.760 --> 0:28:06.560 I always be telling them, that's why you cheat on 0:28:06.560 --> 0:28:08.760 you because you two extras. Now, I feel like that's 0:28:08.800 --> 0:28:13.919 a gateway drug to cheating because then he got money 0:28:14.000 --> 0:28:20.760 and pay for that's another way tonight. That's not using 0:28:20.840 --> 0:28:24.520 that's what you have that kind of GUSTA teach my 0:28:24.560 --> 0:28:28.440 son thinking, my boyfriend would never do that if y'all 0:28:28.440 --> 0:28:32.560 all out and like friends come, wouldn't you. Like I 0:28:32.640 --> 0:28:34.440 tell my son that he's sixteen, and I'm like, if 0:28:34.520 --> 0:28:36.960 you meet a girl somewhere, like what your son say 0:28:36.960 --> 0:28:39.280 to that he just taking it all in. He's sixteen, 0:28:39.360 --> 0:28:41.640 but he's not like my son is like a nerd 0:28:41.760 --> 0:28:44.960 give money like you know, she got to because well 0:28:45.000 --> 0:28:49.240 else he getting him to pay for just I'm just 0:28:49.240 --> 0:28:54.000 teaching him. He's girl y' y'are ordering like three he 0:28:54.760 --> 0:29:01.080 likes doing if you're not out with your little best friend, 0:29:01.200 --> 0:29:06.960 his little best girlfriend. If you are, I mean, but 0:29:07.000 --> 0:29:08.760 even if you're like dating a girl like I feel 0:29:08.800 --> 0:29:12.640 because I'm used to guys doing that, you never fill 0:29:12.680 --> 0:29:16.200 it off and we say no humps. Remember that for 0:29:16.280 --> 0:29:18.120 all those people don't know. I mean, my grub is 0:29:18.160 --> 0:29:21.440 my grub. I'm not sharing with nobody, so you don't 0:29:21.440 --> 0:29:25.600 remember that my store like no humps. I'm not giving 0:29:25.680 --> 0:29:28.680 up nothing. So you're showing your son go ahead for ever. 0:29:29.400 --> 0:29:32.280 You know what I'm saying, Like if you man, if 0:29:32.320 --> 0:29:34.560 there's women at the table, I feel like because there's 0:29:34.640 --> 0:29:36.880 nothing better than when you like I with your girlfriend 0:29:37.200 --> 0:29:40.040 and they pay the bill. Yeah said, you never gonna 0:29:40.040 --> 0:29:45.440 paid the bill for a table of girls. So I'm 0:29:45.480 --> 0:29:48.720 gonna give you a scenario. I'm I'm pushing away, so 0:29:48.840 --> 0:29:51.040 we're just gonna give you a hungry So we all 0:29:51.080 --> 0:29:53.480 hanging out at t J Fridays TJ I Friday's the 0:29:53.480 --> 0:29:56.600 country're having some drinks and you and Selim come through 0:29:56.640 --> 0:29:58.240 on your way to the parking garage, and y'all see 0:29:58.280 --> 0:29:59.680 us at the board having drinks and come to side 0:29:59.760 --> 0:30:01.400 to a drink with us. Y'all not gonna pick up 0:30:01.440 --> 0:30:06.800 the pad. Selene can pick up. I'm not Selene, you're 0:30:06.840 --> 0:30:10.480 picking up cool and you're all going one way. Omar sheet, 0:30:10.480 --> 0:30:12.120 I'm gonna say, Omar, I never said he was gonna 0:30:12.240 --> 0:30:18.520 he is at airy. Did y'all hear that? Yeah, I'm 0:30:19.440 --> 0:30:21.800 not doing that because if I didn't come to the party, 0:30:21.800 --> 0:30:23.200 I don't even know you. I'm not I don't even 0:30:23.240 --> 0:30:28.520 know you ain't doing that. You got the wrong dude. 0:30:29.800 --> 0:30:31.440 And so that's why a lot of girls that try 0:30:31.480 --> 0:30:35.400 to check, they don't do that. You bronna take care 0:30:35.440 --> 0:30:41.040 of you because it is a week when you like, 0:30:41.920 --> 0:30:44.480 I'm not getting old mar so you already know. So 0:30:44.600 --> 0:30:46.280 I never could get with him. That's why I wrote 0:30:46.280 --> 0:30:48.360 the book Fly. I couldn't get with them kind of girls. 0:30:48.400 --> 0:30:49.960 And they already knew, like, you want to pay for 0:30:50.120 --> 0:30:53.880 his stuff? You want to do area I got there 0:30:53.920 --> 0:30:55.920 that you know, he's like, look dude, and the screenplayer, 0:30:55.920 --> 0:30:57.840 I pushed it even more, like, yo, you want me 0:30:57.880 --> 0:30:59.680 to buy this. You already know what time it is 0:30:59.760 --> 0:31:02.320 with me. Let's just say that you were out with 0:31:02.400 --> 0:31:05.800 a young lady. But y'all like friends, not even dating 0:31:05.920 --> 0:31:08.320 or nothing like that. You would pay for her to eat, right, Yeah, 0:31:08.360 --> 0:31:12.320 we're friends just like okay, but I'm a whole table 0:31:12.400 --> 0:31:15.360 for the girls. I don't know, man, unless just if 0:31:15.400 --> 0:31:24.480 you know, I'm a spurge Fridays, just four people at Fridays. 0:31:24.640 --> 0:31:29.600 You think like, yeah, he said, unless I hit the lottery, 0:31:29.680 --> 0:31:32.680 that a hunted dollars. You don't need to hit the lottery. 0:31:34.040 --> 0:31:35.800 But that's a reas though I got two boy cousins. 0:31:35.880 --> 0:31:37.560 That's a reason. They just like that. Now let's talk 0:31:37.560 --> 0:31:40.400 about this. You know, there was something about watching him 0:31:40.440 --> 0:31:43.200 pound on another bitch, bending her over and gliding his 0:31:43.240 --> 0:31:45.360 penis inside her. Watching him in action became one of 0:31:45.440 --> 0:31:47.680 my favorite things to do. Last night was no different, 0:31:47.800 --> 0:31:50.200 well maybe a little different. And then you talk about 0:31:50.600 --> 0:31:53.680 your best friend. So wait, let me say something. Before 0:31:53.720 --> 0:31:57.080 you I was reading this like, wait a minute, this 0:31:57.520 --> 0:32:02.200 be girl on. I had to be I've had to 0:32:02.240 --> 0:32:05.480 be m now. It didn't get to where it went 0:32:05.600 --> 0:32:07.840 when you guys, but we all had well we all don't. 0:32:07.840 --> 0:32:09.640 I don't know about everybody, but I've had a guy 0:32:09.720 --> 0:32:11.840 who I was just friends with that we had casual 0:32:11.920 --> 0:32:15.040 sex and I knew about. We talked about everything that 0:32:15.120 --> 0:32:17.800 he had going on in his sexual life with his 0:32:17.920 --> 0:32:20.520 big mama and other girls and blah blah blah, and 0:32:20.560 --> 0:32:24.280 it never bothered me. So there's a part in after 0:32:24.360 --> 0:32:27.680 this where it's so basically he was Yeah, he was 0:32:27.800 --> 0:32:31.160 with like basically like one of my closest girl friends 0:32:31.240 --> 0:32:32.960 or whatever. I think we started off as just like 0:32:33.240 --> 0:32:36.240 regular friends, like people, and you know how Philly talk, 0:32:36.440 --> 0:32:38.360 so I will always catch the case like I know you, 0:32:39.040 --> 0:32:40.960 I know you. I'm like, no, I'm not. So just 0:32:41.040 --> 0:32:43.800 like one day we was like and it just was 0:32:43.960 --> 0:32:46.120 we both the same sign, so it just was magical, 0:32:46.320 --> 0:32:49.760 like goddamn, like some real bomb no strings that had sex. 0:32:50.040 --> 0:32:53.400 So basically like it went from that to him like 0:32:53.520 --> 0:32:55.680 calling me like, oh, I'm with such a starchly she 0:32:55.880 --> 0:32:59.080 was like, Tina is so fucking sexy, like I wonder, 0:32:59.400 --> 0:33:01.360 And then we were have little three somethings, like random 0:33:01.360 --> 0:33:03.480 little threesomes with his random little chicks, and it didn't 0:33:03.480 --> 0:33:06.600 bother me. Because like in in a sense sexually, I'm 0:33:06.640 --> 0:33:08.800 like always I like to be in control, so I 0:33:08.880 --> 0:33:12.040 was able to control the situation. But that particular time 0:33:12.480 --> 0:33:15.760 that I talked about in penetration, it was his baby mom, 0:33:16.880 --> 0:33:20.000 and I think, like even now to this day, like 0:33:20.080 --> 0:33:22.640 I'm very I hate that I let our relationship get 0:33:22.680 --> 0:33:26.000 to that point because when it comes to her, it's 0:33:26.000 --> 0:33:28.360 not that I don't like I'm not. It's not a jealousy. 0:33:28.840 --> 0:33:30.720 It's just like Nigga, like how you had these kids 0:33:30.800 --> 0:33:35.520 with her and not with me. Feeling That's that's the thing. 0:33:35.560 --> 0:33:38.000 It's sex with When I read that part of the book, 0:33:38.000 --> 0:33:39.800 it's like you didn't know you had feelers until that 0:33:40.320 --> 0:33:42.560 that moment. I feel like when I had that three 0:33:42.640 --> 0:33:46.440 something with him and his baby mom, that's when I 0:33:46.480 --> 0:33:48.040 knew I loved him and that I let the ship 0:33:48.120 --> 0:33:51.000 go too far because I heard about all his stories 0:33:51.480 --> 0:33:57.360 to her and now you love making sacks because everybody 0:33:57.480 --> 0:34:00.240 was to me, we were still engaged. She was sir, 0:34:01.440 --> 0:34:03.480 So you didn't at touch him at all, like I 0:34:03.640 --> 0:34:05.480 kind of like made it gave him head a little bit, 0:34:05.560 --> 0:34:10.360 but it wasn't he did not he showed basically it 0:34:10.480 --> 0:34:13.560 wasn't I think that because like we had had we 0:34:13.680 --> 0:34:15.600 have had to talk talks about it because the bitch 0:34:15.760 --> 0:34:17.600 was requested to have three more than that, and I 0:34:17.680 --> 0:34:19.560 was just like, I'm not doing it because what I'm 0:34:19.600 --> 0:34:22.359 not gonna do is I'm not gonna be sitting there 0:34:22.440 --> 0:34:24.360 acting like because you like in that situation, like I 0:34:24.440 --> 0:34:26.359 had to kind of act like we never did it before. 0:34:26.400 --> 0:34:28.160 So if he fucked you, would you have been I 0:34:28.440 --> 0:34:30.919 would have felt better. So what are you gonna say, Alma? 0:34:31.440 --> 0:34:33.320 I was going to ask you was a woman like 0:34:33.480 --> 0:34:37.440 you less attractive or I never thought I'm not sexually 0:34:37.480 --> 0:34:40.080 attracted to her. But I think it was my relationship 0:34:40.160 --> 0:34:42.920 with him that made me even do it, because I 0:34:43.120 --> 0:34:45.160 really remember being in a parking lot like, bitch, you 0:34:45.200 --> 0:34:47.680 should just leave, but I was like I don't wanna, like, 0:34:47.880 --> 0:34:50.120 let me just go see what's gonna happen, because I 0:34:50.160 --> 0:34:52.160 didn't know how he was gonna And in my mind, 0:34:52.239 --> 0:34:54.799 I'm like, we always had three somethings like and they 0:34:54.920 --> 0:34:57.040 always mad popping, like I didn't think it was gonna 0:34:57.080 --> 0:34:59.239 be like any different from another, no different, but with 0:34:59.440 --> 0:35:01.600 her it was. And then what it did was it 0:35:01.680 --> 0:35:03.520 made like so much like, I don't have sex with 0:35:03.640 --> 0:35:06.360 him in her apartment, in her fucking bed. So I'm like, 0:35:06.840 --> 0:35:11.319 I ain't gonna get here, and you're gonna realized I'm 0:35:11.360 --> 0:35:12.800 not gonna say here. We didn't gonna sit here and 0:35:12.800 --> 0:35:15.440 act like did y'all ever have a three seven him? 0:35:15.520 --> 0:35:17.719 Not fuck the girl that you hadn't say someone? So 0:35:17.920 --> 0:35:21.040 that's what it was now. She was a reverse like 0:35:21.160 --> 0:35:25.120 he was trying to like save her feeling, right, because 0:35:25.200 --> 0:35:27.520 not for nothing when we do have sex, it's like 0:35:27.719 --> 0:35:30.440 intensely because she didn't know that y'all were already having 0:35:32.239 --> 0:35:36.239 the first off everybody, right, she was like they was wrong. 0:35:36.400 --> 0:35:39.040 They was all they was doing anything and then supposed 0:35:39.080 --> 0:35:45.319 it was. It was so not know what that y'all 0:35:45.320 --> 0:35:47.839 already had and I mean we we was already having 0:35:47.920 --> 0:35:51.799 sex for years before this happened. It's just such this thing. 0:35:51.840 --> 0:35:54.000 It's sex with no strings attached because people always say 0:35:54.040 --> 0:35:56.720 that we had sex for years with no strings attached, 0:35:56.760 --> 0:35:58.800 but clearly that that was a string. I think the 0:35:58.880 --> 0:36:01.320 string got attached that night, right like, but it was 0:36:01.360 --> 0:36:05.520 a task before that. It was because I talk about 0:36:06.040 --> 0:36:09.319 string was attached. It was the first time I would 0:36:09.400 --> 0:36:11.880 have to you know it because really, whenever you have 0:36:12.000 --> 0:36:13.920 sex with it, you've been into that place. What it 0:36:14.080 --> 0:36:15.640 is you know? You can't you know, I've been in 0:36:15.680 --> 0:36:18.359 that girl fifty times. You can't say that I've been 0:36:18.640 --> 0:36:22.200 you've been inside her. That's it's not a strange. That 0:36:22.440 --> 0:36:24.880 is an attachment. That's what playboys do, you know what 0:36:24.960 --> 0:36:27.000 I mean? Like they forget your name, but they know 0:36:27.120 --> 0:36:29.120 I had her. That's in you. That ain't know a 0:36:29.200 --> 0:36:34.919 strange attached. That is an attachment, penetration, that's realtration. In fact, 0:36:34.920 --> 0:36:38.160 I like that because I'm a penetrator to mentally, I'm penetrated. 0:36:38.200 --> 0:36:40.439 I'm a avery, So I'm trying to penetrate your mind. 0:36:43.440 --> 0:36:46.000 So it's like the reason why I right, I want 0:36:46.040 --> 0:36:49.040 to penetrate your mind, So I use the same words 0:36:50.280 --> 0:36:53.160 your that to be there. It ain't no you know, 0:36:53.280 --> 0:36:55.440 no stranger attached. Did you like my book? Did you 0:36:55.520 --> 0:37:00.880 read my book? Did you read your mind? And but 0:37:01.000 --> 0:37:04.200 in your generation, like when this out, that's what y'all 0:37:04.280 --> 0:37:06.279 was able to do, like even on it, like on 0:37:06.400 --> 0:37:08.480 the writing, like business side, like as a woman, like 0:37:08.600 --> 0:37:11.799 now I'm trying to get into like in my mind, 0:37:11.880 --> 0:37:13.880 like I feel like I want to be legendary, like 0:37:13.920 --> 0:37:16.319 I want people to say these books change my life. 0:37:16.320 --> 0:37:20.080 Where there is this how y'all was, But it's harder now. 0:37:20.560 --> 0:37:27.000 It's harder than definitely people not reading put it down 0:37:27.080 --> 0:37:29.160 at the time I opened it. I'm straight cocky with 0:37:29.320 --> 0:37:31.759 social media, like y'all could be on social media or 0:37:31.800 --> 0:37:34.080 you want, but you want to like when people be 0:37:34.120 --> 0:37:35.440 acting like they don't want to read, I'm like, read 0:37:35.440 --> 0:37:37.200 the first page. You know what I'm gonna tell you. 0:37:37.239 --> 0:37:39.279 So I'm gonna tell you something. Books are the most 0:37:39.400 --> 0:37:41.680 intimate art form. I'm gonna tell you what. When you 0:37:41.760 --> 0:37:44.040 go to the movies, you're talking trash to the movie. 0:37:44.080 --> 0:37:45.920 I would do this, and I would do that. When 0:37:45.960 --> 0:37:49.400 you listen to music, you're vibing when you become engaging 0:37:49.480 --> 0:37:51.440 your mind. Brothers don't read when you read it, but 0:37:51.520 --> 0:37:55.399 it's no lying you're reading it like damn, because there's 0:37:55.400 --> 0:38:02.080 no it's bad. But that's what I don't like. That's 0:38:02.120 --> 0:38:03.880 where I was with Penetration, Like I'm gonna be so 0:38:04.080 --> 0:38:06.879 transparent because every female to read this book to feel 0:38:06.880 --> 0:38:09.439 like damn, I did that should have been here before. 0:38:11.800 --> 0:38:14.839 It may not tell you reading that book that oh 0:38:14.920 --> 0:38:20.880 my gosh, you know me, oh my god and everything. 0:38:21.239 --> 0:38:24.719 I like reading books really, and I said, you know, 0:38:24.760 --> 0:38:27.600 I still read all the time, so at the book club. Yeah, 0:38:28.600 --> 0:38:31.719 and the book club. And I'm not a master for 0:38:31.760 --> 0:38:34.440 the New York Public Library. I loved that though, because 0:38:34.520 --> 0:38:37.200 if we don't read, how you gonna know? Like the 0:38:37.239 --> 0:38:42.080 audio is cool, it's crazy. Need to hold it in 0:38:42.160 --> 0:38:45.560 my hand. I got my put out the screenplay for Floger. 0:38:45.600 --> 0:38:48.000 It's excellent. You get in Amazon, you get it Barns 0:38:48.000 --> 0:38:50.279 and Nobles. I book right now. I had twenty one 0:38:50.360 --> 0:38:53.920 girls auditioned for Succines. One dude, and I know it's 0:38:53.920 --> 0:39:00.600 they don't read. Yeah, no, corny dude. We're talking feeling right. 0:39:01.080 --> 0:39:03.799 The dudes as cool as ever. Dudes won't read nothing 0:39:04.360 --> 0:39:07.279 I got to read. So now I'm thinking, how can 0:39:07.360 --> 0:39:09.799 I cast the dude who won't screening. I'm not gonna 0:39:09.960 --> 0:39:13.200 spoon feeds you that. You gotta know you gotta be 0:39:13.480 --> 0:39:16.960 locking yourself out of the job because you I'm not. 0:39:17.560 --> 0:39:19.520 You won't be showing up trying to read the script. 0:39:19.640 --> 0:39:23.280 You hopefully read the script to you and read my script. 0:39:23.520 --> 0:39:27.359 That's crazy, like thirty years or like that's sick man, 0:39:27.480 --> 0:39:29.920 like your brothers pissed me off with that, and again 0:39:29.960 --> 0:39:32.480 I'm a Philadelphia so I get in your face, like, yo, dude, 0:39:32.480 --> 0:39:34.239 you don't read, and you're gonna try to act like 0:39:34.320 --> 0:39:37.120 it's cool. Like they apologize all the time. I ain't 0:39:37.160 --> 0:39:40.279 read it, but something every time they meet me, I 0:39:40.400 --> 0:39:42.759 want apologize. I don't read much. I'm like cool man, 0:39:42.880 --> 0:39:49.359 just it's you even say that I think it's very 0:39:49.760 --> 0:39:53.719 not think it's very sexy, you know, and something like yo, 0:39:53.960 --> 0:39:56.080 I don't write girls stuff. You just need to read more. 0:39:56.200 --> 0:39:58.560 I actually wrote more masculine books, but of course they 0:39:58.640 --> 0:40:01.520 sell less. I'm know a lot of guys every books 0:40:01.560 --> 0:40:09.640 with Darren Jail Jail I can't read when you're free, yeah, 0:40:10.280 --> 0:40:16.800 because then they get out there. I was shocked, like guys, 0:40:16.880 --> 0:40:18.840 like a lot of guys like I was getting like 0:40:19.000 --> 0:40:21.000 my uncle. My uncle was like close to my age, 0:40:21.280 --> 0:40:23.239 my great uncle, but he was like where the book 0:40:23.400 --> 0:40:25.200 because my homes was like this the book. You gotta 0:40:25.239 --> 0:40:31.399 keeping your car first. When I first opened the book, 0:40:31.440 --> 0:40:33.359 from the first encounter you had with the first guy, 0:40:33.400 --> 0:40:37.279 think you called them checks? Yeah, girl, it was a 0:40:37.360 --> 0:40:41.480 double edged dial though involved in this first story. So 0:40:41.640 --> 0:40:43.920 from that point on, I was like, yes, I got 0:40:44.000 --> 0:40:48.000 to keep reading because that's coming first. I mean, next girl, 0:40:48.280 --> 0:40:52.160 But it is crazy exactly. My point, life is crazy. 0:40:52.760 --> 0:40:55.040 What if it wasn't sexual when you kept reading it. 0:40:55.440 --> 0:40:57.200 I mean, Flagger wasn't sexually and I read it the 0:40:57.239 --> 0:40:59.239 same way from the beginning and the beginning she was 0:40:59.280 --> 0:41:04.640 at her birthday party, right, that's that's so cerebral, grow 0:41:04.719 --> 0:41:09.839 being come on, but she was a little girl. Yeah, yeah, 0:41:10.120 --> 0:41:12.560 a little girl, and we wanted it just crazy grow 0:41:12.680 --> 0:41:14.920 up and becoming your mar started reading a book. It 0:41:15.080 --> 0:41:17.040 is so important what you put in those first few pages. 0:41:17.080 --> 0:41:18.800 That's gonna make you say I want this book or 0:41:19.040 --> 0:41:21.279 I'm not interested. Because our attention spans I felt like 0:41:21.640 --> 0:41:24.040 especially name like now like I wish like I wish 0:41:24.080 --> 0:41:27.279 I couldna put all volumes in one, But now it's 0:41:27.320 --> 0:41:29.800 two thousand nineteen, my little young my readers don't have 0:41:30.560 --> 0:41:33.319 that time. So I'm like, all right, I gotta spread 0:41:33.360 --> 0:41:35.480 it out because literally, like it's just not the same 0:41:35.600 --> 0:41:38.160 because I've read it in a few hours and I'm 0:41:38.200 --> 0:41:41.759 waiting for more. Yeah, but can I get to express it. 0:41:43.000 --> 0:41:48.719 I'm I mean, we're talking about, you know, just really 0:41:48.920 --> 0:41:50.759 not even have sex with those things attached. Have you 0:41:50.840 --> 0:41:53.080 ever thought you would be with a woman you didn't 0:41:53.280 --> 0:41:55.680 really want to be with her like that, but then 0:41:55.760 --> 0:41:57.840 you ended up falling for her just kind of like 0:41:58.600 --> 0:42:02.360 Senda did. Are No. I mean, I'm gonna know, like 0:42:02.480 --> 0:42:03.920 you know what I mean, if you already got a 0:42:04.000 --> 0:42:06.320 mental capacity and physical and then I'm just like I 0:42:06.400 --> 0:42:08.759 may think of other girls, but you're already there. But 0:42:08.920 --> 0:42:12.120 if I'm like this girl's never gonna get there with me. No, 0:42:12.280 --> 0:42:14.719 I'm just like a girl like no, man, because I can't. 0:42:14.719 --> 0:42:16.359 I'm not a liar. So at the end of the day, 0:42:16.440 --> 0:42:17.960 like you don't like me, I've been giving it to you. 0:42:18.040 --> 0:42:19.920 I've been doing this and I'm like, yo, man, I 0:42:20.000 --> 0:42:22.080 told you from day one like to be there and 0:42:22.160 --> 0:42:24.600 we're not moving there. But why waste your time sleeping 0:42:24.640 --> 0:42:27.240 with somebody that you wouldn't even be interested in? Pussy? 0:42:28.000 --> 0:42:31.600 He said, Yeah, seing with somebody you'll never be interested 0:42:31.640 --> 0:42:36.839 in like that sexuality. Man, story, I'm a full of story. 0:42:37.000 --> 0:42:39.200 I had a dude we went to in Central High 0:42:39.200 --> 0:42:41.200 School and Philly. We went on a skin trip and 0:42:41.280 --> 0:42:43.440 this dude was a good dude, football team dude, and 0:42:43.520 --> 0:42:46.160 he was sorry about dating good girls, and he had 0:42:46.239 --> 0:42:48.200 friends that was dating girls and just giving it up 0:42:48.520 --> 0:42:50.040 and he was. It was the funniest fact was he 0:42:50.120 --> 0:42:52.160 was like, yeah, man, I'm dating these girls I really 0:42:52.200 --> 0:42:54.320 like and they're like, yo, I'm about this girl. But 0:42:54.520 --> 0:42:56.600 so were both learning like you at the end of 0:42:56.640 --> 0:42:58.920 the day, you gotta practice. What you gotta do is 0:42:58.960 --> 0:43:00.960 a male So as you like, yo, man, I can't 0:43:01.000 --> 0:43:04.120 get nothing from the church lover, but I'm nineteen now, 0:43:04.160 --> 0:43:06.359 I gotta get something. Man, I gotta So you start like, yo, 0:43:06.400 --> 0:43:11.480 I gotta get this girl. You still date her right practice, 0:43:11.960 --> 0:43:14.440 So you learned that, man, like, I gotta otherwise I 0:43:14.600 --> 0:43:17.279 wanna be a virgin. And then the same grow up 0:43:17.280 --> 0:43:19.719 and spend all that time and girls are funny you've 0:43:19.760 --> 0:43:22.120 been with all the time, and she break up with 0:43:22.239 --> 0:43:24.080 you and and not still get it in two weeks, 0:43:24.360 --> 0:43:29.800 and you know, spend all that time because she's already 0:43:31.480 --> 0:43:33.960 talking about ego being hurt, you know. So no, a 0:43:34.040 --> 0:43:37.560 lot of guys learned, I gotta practice my body, and 0:43:37.640 --> 0:43:40.600 so girls become practice. That's what it is that happens. 0:43:40.840 --> 0:43:44.520 You start practicing too much and call you're calling the 0:43:44.600 --> 0:43:57.400 f buddy. That's what it called that. Yeah, yeah. Episode. 0:43:57.440 --> 0:43:58.759 You know, we always play this game where you have 0:43:58.840 --> 0:44:00.560 to guess who said it? Right, out of the three 0:44:00.600 --> 0:44:01.920 of us, you have to guess which one of us 0:44:01.960 --> 0:44:04.680 had this story. And the story was she was cheating 0:44:04.719 --> 0:44:06.520 on her boyfriend, so she had to pretend that she 0:44:06.719 --> 0:44:08.960 was going out because there was a guy at her house, 0:44:09.400 --> 0:44:11.600 and she got dressed, drove around the black to pretend 0:44:11.600 --> 0:44:13.120 she was going somewhere to make the guy leaves so 0:44:13.160 --> 0:44:15.160 that her boyfriend could come over. Which one of us 0:44:15.200 --> 0:44:17.680 you think did that? If you had to guess, gut 0:44:17.719 --> 0:44:21.799 of the three of us, I got for you. Okay, shea, 0:44:21.880 --> 0:44:24.160 you guessed me? Who do you think it was? I 0:44:24.200 --> 0:44:27.520 will to the story. I'm going to instincts and you 0:44:27.719 --> 0:44:33.040 did that. Yeah it happened. Yeah, I thought you wasn't gonna. 0:44:36.000 --> 0:44:39.200 But because everybody, we do this every week and usually 0:44:39.200 --> 0:44:41.880 people guess wrong. It's the first that note got me. 0:44:41.960 --> 0:44:45.960 I think I tell the story to just look at 0:44:45.960 --> 0:44:50.360 your eyes. And then she put on a like innocent 0:44:50.440 --> 0:44:54.040 but you got bright orange, no's girl. But listen, you 0:44:54.880 --> 0:44:56.360 get somebody out of the house when you want them 0:44:56.400 --> 0:45:00.440 to leave, and they won't you about yeah anything or 0:45:00.719 --> 0:45:03.760 or you know that's my girlfriends like girling like seven seconds, 0:45:03.800 --> 0:45:05.799 keep blowing my phone up. Yeah, I'd be like, oh 0:45:05.920 --> 0:45:09.160 my god, just like my sisters getting on my nerves. 0:45:10.800 --> 0:45:12.160 You know, some guys to be like, well I wait 0:45:12.200 --> 0:45:13.680 here till you get back, so you won't get out. 0:45:14.719 --> 0:45:20.479 I don't say that. That's my daughter. I mean, guys, 0:45:20.560 --> 0:45:22.160 y'all have on this show, like when y'all do y'all 0:45:22.520 --> 0:45:25.720 a lot of guys do y'all have some book questions 0:45:25.760 --> 0:45:28.919 that they read like, well, it depends on so y'all 0:45:28.960 --> 0:45:32.920 never have book guys, and they don't. You know what 0:45:33.520 --> 0:45:36.320 crazier it is y'all can't invite a book. Was actually 0:45:37.320 --> 0:45:42.960 with Fatally falls. That's crazy. Second Frank, Third, right, Frank. 0:45:43.280 --> 0:45:45.200 He was a guy. I'm gonna tell yourself. I wasn't 0:45:45.280 --> 0:45:47.279 oapen one something. You know. I was out there and 0:45:47.360 --> 0:45:50.000 the black Mail dron as he was interviewing me, and 0:45:50.080 --> 0:45:53.160 we're having a drink afterwards, and he's like, oh pain, yeah, 0:45:53.440 --> 0:46:00.800 black dude. But here's the point. The point he started 0:46:00.840 --> 0:46:03.080 talking about us being writers, and he was like, how 0:46:03.120 --> 0:46:05.120 did your friends feel about? Like, come on, man, my 0:46:05.200 --> 0:46:07.520 friends don't even He was like, yeah, we're like Martians. 0:46:08.200 --> 0:46:11.040 We are really men who? Right, black man? It's crazy 0:46:11.120 --> 0:46:13.759 like we're in your twenty nineteen and you start talking 0:46:13.800 --> 0:46:16.480 about writing as an intellectual and it's like you like 0:46:16.640 --> 0:46:19.160 one of the dudes on the moon, like you really 0:46:19.239 --> 0:46:21.640 do that. In fact, when my my wife we was 0:46:21.680 --> 0:46:23.680 in Delaware, people are asking are you married to a 0:46:23.719 --> 0:46:29.719 white man? Because you know, oh my god, like and 0:46:29.840 --> 0:46:32.160 I feel like we had at theres we even had 0:46:33.040 --> 0:46:36.480 who was the buck he had with the sun about 0:46:36.600 --> 0:46:38.279 gay and look at that? Look at you? Look at 0:46:38.360 --> 0:46:42.680 but I bet you million and a million a yeah, yeah, 0:46:43.239 --> 0:46:48.160 there can't date. And the next book was going to 0:46:48.200 --> 0:46:50.120 be something with gay. So now so now as I 0:46:50.239 --> 0:46:54.040 head into movie writing, I already know I'm gonna blow 0:46:54.080 --> 0:46:56.200 it out because brothers can't read like I didn't right 0:46:56.280 --> 0:46:58.080 like that. So now I'm like all the hip hop dudes, 0:46:58.120 --> 0:47:00.239 all the app they can't write. So I'm not yo, 0:47:00.400 --> 0:47:06.600 I'm about to kill it. I think, yeah, I bring 0:47:06.680 --> 0:47:12.080 your stories, sad I saw. I'm looking at that like, dude, 0:47:12.080 --> 0:47:13.960 I'm gonna make all the money. So I'm looking at 0:47:14.000 --> 0:47:15.960 that like I got to go on that because nobody 0:47:16.000 --> 0:47:18.160 else can do that. Now they're doing freestyle and they 0:47:18.160 --> 0:47:21.160 don't even write with the rap they get high, they 0:47:21.160 --> 0:47:23.080 don't even write it down there like somebody got writ 0:47:23.120 --> 0:47:25.719 it down, You're gonna get publishing credits. Somebody got write 0:47:25.719 --> 0:47:28.920 it down her Storytelle, I got you, I got you, 0:47:29.080 --> 0:47:30.840 because that's my goal. My goal was to tell the 0:47:30.920 --> 0:47:33.920 story of different women, like like I never really was 0:47:34.080 --> 0:47:37.200 I never really read a lot of fiction. I read 0:47:37.360 --> 0:47:39.640 like me to people all the biographies, I'm really interesting 0:47:39.640 --> 0:47:42.560 because I just feel like especially women, like it's women 0:47:42.600 --> 0:47:45.359 that go through hell and hot water and turn out 0:47:45.360 --> 0:47:47.479 on top and it's so inspiring and it just sends 0:47:47.600 --> 0:47:49.960 chills through my body. So my goal is to tell 0:47:50.000 --> 0:47:52.160 the story of different women, and I like like to 0:47:52.239 --> 0:47:53.520 tell it the way I like to tell it. You 0:47:53.600 --> 0:47:55.279 know how long we've been on this show talking about 0:47:55.280 --> 0:47:59.120 me writing a book, Well, I'm calling you tomorrow. Yes, 0:47:59.520 --> 0:48:02.160 I always all people like even if because obviously you 0:48:02.200 --> 0:48:04.080 feel like you're not a writer. I'm not. But get 0:48:04.120 --> 0:48:08.560 a drag again to and then this show for four years, yeah, yeah, 0:48:09.000 --> 0:48:13.920 a while consistent with it. Yeah, a lot of stuff 0:48:13.920 --> 0:48:16.320 don't last long. Now man, it's like it's yeah, you know, 0:48:16.440 --> 0:48:18.120 I'm tired of that. I got the new thing is 0:48:18.200 --> 0:48:21.120 everything is trending. But that's because they talk about things 0:48:21.200 --> 0:48:24.399 that's current. They talk about things that's talk about sex 0:48:24.600 --> 0:48:27.279 said relationship, like things that's going on right now, because 0:48:27.320 --> 0:48:31.320 you you could get lost in the bs, but in reality, 0:48:31.480 --> 0:48:34.480 like and that's why I'm still writing. Because everybody like, oh, 0:48:34.520 --> 0:48:37.840 you write books, they'd be so like impressed. I'm like, hello, 0:48:37.960 --> 0:48:39.640 I grew up reading books, so I want to be 0:48:39.800 --> 0:48:43.280 I want to tell you stories because those stories is important. 0:48:43.320 --> 0:48:45.480 Those stories like people when I was growing up shout 0:48:45.560 --> 0:48:47.839 off the Sterry Woods two who's from Philly Gods used 0:48:47.840 --> 0:48:49.160 to be like you just like the girl in the book, 0:48:49.200 --> 0:48:50.480 and I'm like, what book? I don't even know what 0:48:50.560 --> 0:48:52.279 they were talking about. Made me go get the book. 0:48:53.120 --> 0:48:55.200 I like her, Yeah, but I got called us you 0:48:55.239 --> 0:48:56.759 know what I mean, the writer. I was being this 0:48:56.880 --> 0:48:59.480 person I was doing all this. So it's just like 0:48:59.600 --> 0:49:02.359 we need to read. We need to because reading its 0:49:02.400 --> 0:49:05.839 fundamental is educational and everybody has a story, and your 0:49:05.880 --> 0:49:07.640 story is valid. I tell people that all the time, 0:49:07.719 --> 0:49:10.319 like you don't know what's going to be. I'm sitting 0:49:10.360 --> 0:49:12.279 there now that my confidence had to be because my 0:49:12.400 --> 0:49:14.720 boys from I played football, I fought. I'm a regular 0:49:14.760 --> 0:49:17.280 Philadelphia and said, man, you write you ain't no Stephen 0:49:17.400 --> 0:49:24.080 King was join but I had that cost because and 0:49:24.120 --> 0:49:26.200 then then check this out. We was on South Street 0:49:26.239 --> 0:49:28.680 and Philadelphia and my friend like, Yo, you're blowing up. Man, 0:49:28.760 --> 0:49:31.120 you're blowing up, and like I'm still cool, Like no, 0:49:31.239 --> 0:49:34.680 I'm cool. That's oh my sad, Like, oh my god, 0:49:35.000 --> 0:49:37.320 you're telling you And they still didn't read my books. 0:49:37.360 --> 0:49:42.560 They just do exactly. Argument with one of my male friends, 0:49:42.600 --> 0:49:44.040 like how do you be acting like you support me 0:49:44.080 --> 0:49:46.160 and then you don't even read my book? Do you 0:49:46.200 --> 0:49:48.400 think that Hollywood wants to do these movies now because 0:49:48.400 --> 0:49:51.880 you do have these screenplays and they see that they 0:49:51.960 --> 0:49:54.799 all money. Dude, they don't care about nothing. It's sad, 0:49:54.960 --> 0:49:56.640 you know what I mean. So we gotta fight tooth 0:49:56.719 --> 0:49:58.960 and that right now with FLYG, I wrote the screenplay, 0:49:59.320 --> 0:50:01.359 but I got how all would people want to write 0:50:01.400 --> 0:50:03.080 their own because they don't want to pay me. They 0:50:03.120 --> 0:50:08.799 want to write the I didn't wrote an excellent screenplay, 0:50:08.880 --> 0:50:10.279 but they trying to figure out how to give that 0:50:10.360 --> 0:50:12.960 people money and I'm supposed to disagree with that. So now, like, 0:50:16.040 --> 0:50:17.600 how are you gonna tell me and my daughter story 0:50:17.640 --> 0:50:25.799 more than better. Right, It's like, right now I'm looking 0:50:25.840 --> 0:50:28.520 at Jordan Peo telling his horror stories. I look at 0:50:28.560 --> 0:50:30.920 Tyler Perry. He's wanted to look at you know, the 0:50:31.000 --> 0:50:33.920 people that can control that. And it's not an eagle thing. 0:50:34.280 --> 0:50:37.239 It's getting it done thing, man. Five years and it 0:50:37.239 --> 0:50:39.480 ain't got done. So now I jumped in front of you, 0:50:39.560 --> 0:50:42.560 trying to push me out the way. Again focus went 0:50:42.600 --> 0:50:47.719 to ever whatever happened to them? Yeah, listen, I have 0:50:47.800 --> 0:50:52.000 a question for you, Amar. This screenplay for f excellent. 0:50:52.280 --> 0:50:55.880 If you could choose you're Tracy, who would it be? Oh? 0:50:55.960 --> 0:51:00.040 Y'are Shahiti already? So I love this is what you 0:51:00.120 --> 0:51:02.040 on something. When she was first on TV, I'll never 0:51:02.080 --> 0:51:04.960 tell you a lot of black girls ain't on TV, man, 0:51:05.480 --> 0:51:07.360 We ain't on TV. So when I saw her on 0:51:07.440 --> 0:51:10.000 Black ISSU and two dollar fourteen, I said, Yo, she 0:51:10.080 --> 0:51:12.160 could be Tracy. She had the look, she had the 0:51:12.200 --> 0:51:14.719 sassy little attitude. I said she could be Tracy and 0:51:14.800 --> 0:51:16.680 I stuck with it from the I don't know she 0:51:16.760 --> 0:51:20.120 was gonna blow up like now. I sold her from 0:51:20.239 --> 0:51:22.680 day one. But we don't get that many opportunities on 0:51:23.080 --> 0:51:25.640 white girls all all the TV. We don't have on 0:51:25.719 --> 0:51:29.040 my opportunities. Hispanic girls ain't on TV like that, So 0:51:29.160 --> 0:51:30.920 I picked her like she had the look, she had 0:51:30.960 --> 0:51:34.400 the sass, she's on TV boom, but the tracy things 0:51:34.480 --> 0:51:37.040 like she she got that extra phully thing because you 0:51:39.320 --> 0:51:52.320 Williams shirt down down. Yea, we do have enough the character. 0:51:53.040 --> 0:51:55.000 They even have u MC TV, which is all telling 0:51:55.040 --> 0:51:58.720 black stories and it's you know, but see that I'm 0:51:58.719 --> 0:52:01.000 telling if you are a Shahiti, did this flag girl is? 0:52:01.320 --> 0:52:02.840 It's I kind of you know what I mean. But 0:52:02.920 --> 0:52:05.000 some people like that's a little too They would do 0:52:05.120 --> 0:52:07.600 standing ovation. But I already know you know, but what 0:52:07.719 --> 0:52:11.040 about staying with stuff like Netflix and stuff like that 0:52:11.160 --> 0:52:14.440 out You can't just put your own together. I want 0:52:14.520 --> 0:52:21.680 the big screen like some that were bigger screen. Yeah, 0:52:22.080 --> 0:52:23.919 I'm not saying that it's not, But what I'm saying 0:52:24.000 --> 0:52:27.399 is there was huge, mongous successful Netflix thing like what's 0:52:27.440 --> 0:52:30.120 the Blind? What was the thing where everybody the bird um? 0:52:30.680 --> 0:52:33.120 That was big? You know what I mean? That was 0:52:33.200 --> 0:52:36.120 like broke records. So that's all I'm saying. There's other outlets. 0:52:36.440 --> 0:52:39.200 If you gotta wait five years for something to come out, 0:52:39.560 --> 0:52:42.440 wouldn't you rather just give up? No? You don't give 0:52:42.520 --> 0:52:45.880 up another fly Girls big. It was the one that 0:52:45.960 --> 0:52:52.040 started everything. It needs to be big. And you guys 0:52:52.200 --> 0:52:55.279 understand that I'm known in Canada, the Caribbean, the UK. 0:52:55.880 --> 0:52:59.080 You know, I'm not like someone you've ever seen. They 0:52:59.160 --> 0:53:03.760 don't know. I think people you do a whole international 0:53:03.880 --> 0:53:07.200 tour with fly Girl, they man, So I'm waiting for that. 0:53:07.320 --> 0:53:09.759 I'm not one to do because you don't meet people. 0:53:09.840 --> 0:53:12.520 The same with the books, right dors Is physical were 0:53:12.520 --> 0:53:15.759 signing books. We're going to it's physical book. That's how 0:53:16.160 --> 0:53:18.120 when I go to actual events and people, I feel 0:53:18.120 --> 0:53:19.880 like we're wearing my story and hear me talk. I 0:53:19.960 --> 0:53:21.560 sell a lot of every book on the tape. But 0:53:21.680 --> 0:53:24.799 it's harder to like, I mean, it's so hard. It's 0:53:24.920 --> 0:53:27.560 like social media all that stuff. Like I primarily was 0:53:27.640 --> 0:53:30.040 using social media to tell my daughter story to inspire people. 0:53:30.080 --> 0:53:32.239 Like it wasn't about me. It never was about me, 0:53:32.520 --> 0:53:33.959 but now it was like now I had to shoot 0:53:34.000 --> 0:53:35.640 the trailer. I had to do this, I had to 0:53:35.719 --> 0:53:37.320 do that. Like I got the opportunity to do this, 0:53:37.400 --> 0:53:39.520 which I'm so thankful for. But it's like I don't 0:53:39.560 --> 0:53:41.880 talk about it. You don't know about it. Let's talk 0:53:41.920 --> 0:53:44.759 about something else though in real life and relate some 0:53:44.840 --> 0:53:47.479 things to real life. Let's take about changing your phone number, 0:53:47.800 --> 0:53:49.640 because you could fall in love with somebody so much 0:53:49.680 --> 0:53:51.959 that you've got to change everything, change your phone number. 0:53:53.280 --> 0:53:56.759 Have y'all done that? I had this. I have the 0:53:56.800 --> 0:53:58.799 same phone number for like sixteen years. Y'all know how 0:53:58.880 --> 0:54:03.320 much I changed my damn you did that number? I 0:54:03.440 --> 0:54:06.320 did it one time for one one man. It was 0:54:06.440 --> 0:54:09.120 just like, um, I had started doing reality TV and 0:54:09.160 --> 0:54:11.520 it was like all these old guys is popping back 0:54:11.640 --> 0:54:15.520 up and all, oh, it was always a different argument. 0:54:15.640 --> 0:54:17.879 So I finally just like, forget it, I'm gonna change 0:54:17.920 --> 0:54:20.760 my number. These half of them wasn't calling me before 0:54:20.840 --> 0:54:23.359 they see me on TV, so I really didn't care, 0:54:23.400 --> 0:54:25.880 and I was like really in love. So I changed 0:54:25.960 --> 0:54:28.800 my number. But after like a year, I was like, 0:54:28.840 --> 0:54:33.880 why the fund did that? There was like there was 0:54:33.960 --> 0:54:35.600 a couple of people that I was like, I lost 0:54:35.680 --> 0:54:37.960 touch you because I didn't save nobody number and nothing. 0:54:38.080 --> 0:54:41.120 I debt in my phone, changed my number. Everything like 0:54:41.400 --> 0:54:46.120 fun everybody in the phone and then easy to find. 0:54:46.920 --> 0:54:51.320 But this was like, but you did change your number. 0:54:51.600 --> 0:54:54.480 At a point where I changed my number to be 0:54:54.600 --> 0:55:00.040 like submissive not never again. Yeah, well, most recently I 0:55:00.200 --> 0:55:03.360 changed my number. He want my boyfriend wanted me to 0:55:03.480 --> 0:55:05.000 change my number because we were fresh off from a 0:55:05.000 --> 0:55:06.960 break up and back together. And I didn't do it 0:55:07.040 --> 0:55:08.560 because he wanted me to do it. I did it 0:55:08.680 --> 0:55:12.320 because I started getting prank phone calls from random weirdos. 0:55:12.440 --> 0:55:15.080 It was penis because he wanted you to change together 0:55:17.280 --> 0:55:19.359 your numbers. So I don't know if they were calling 0:55:19.440 --> 0:55:22.359 my eye cloud, but it was FaceTime calls where they 0:55:22.480 --> 0:55:24.359 were calling me and I would answer and it would 0:55:24.360 --> 0:55:26.920 be like a penis. So you needed that you had 0:55:27.000 --> 0:55:29.239 this show. So that's the last time I changed my 0:55:29.320 --> 0:55:33.200 number in the hood, like changing your number like somebody though, 0:55:33.239 --> 0:55:42.680 like last change your number? Four dude, Like oh my 0:55:42.840 --> 0:55:46.120 number and girls are sending me pictures of vaginas and 0:55:46.520 --> 0:55:48.400 I guts to change that enough, but like because you're 0:55:48.400 --> 0:55:49.800 know what a man like I still got you know 0:55:49.800 --> 0:55:51.799 what I mean relations Like yo, what the hell are 0:55:51.840 --> 0:55:54.440 you doing stuff doing? Now? I who this person was? 0:55:54.520 --> 0:55:57.960 They were like that a light skin deck, a dark 0:55:58.000 --> 0:56:02.239 skin white. He was white white. Yes you could have 0:56:02.320 --> 0:56:06.640 just blocked I mean I couldn't, but he was he 0:56:06.800 --> 0:56:08.880 was calling me on FaceTime from an email address, so 0:56:08.920 --> 0:56:11.759 he could have just kept calling from different Yeah, that's 0:56:11.760 --> 0:56:13.560 when you have a guy into him like what are 0:56:13.560 --> 0:56:20.840 you doing? But also in the in the in the 0:56:20.920 --> 0:56:22.960 spirit of keeping it all the way one hundred, because 0:56:23.040 --> 0:56:25.560 y'all know that's what I do. I was actually happy 0:56:25.640 --> 0:56:27.840 to change my number because I wanted to soothe my 0:56:28.000 --> 0:56:30.640 boyfriend of all of the issues that he was having 0:56:30.719 --> 0:56:33.000 with us have coming off of a breakup and me 0:56:33.040 --> 0:56:34.920 and back together. So it was like perfect time for 0:56:34.960 --> 0:56:36.759 me to change my number. It all worked out. Yeah, 0:56:36.880 --> 0:56:38.520 Like you just want to like not appease them, but 0:56:38.600 --> 0:56:41.239 like show him like I'm ready, I'm committed. I'm in 0:56:41.400 --> 0:56:45.000 a hundred. But it was because it is probably because 0:56:45.000 --> 0:56:47.640 of that. Man. Sorry, I noticed something that you want, 0:56:47.719 --> 0:56:49.719 So I'm gonna just go in. And I ever asked 0:56:49.760 --> 0:56:52.840 someone sorry? Have you ever asked someone to change? No, 0:56:53.640 --> 0:56:55.239 I'm not even that number of stuff. Man, Like you 0:56:55.320 --> 0:56:58.000 know the past boyfriends, all that you're done with? Dude, 0:56:58.560 --> 0:57:01.120 with him, stop calling you know what I mean? Like 0:57:01.239 --> 0:57:03.319 you need me to talk to him. I'm that dude. 0:57:03.360 --> 0:57:05.799 Like I talked to him, your dude, don't calling him more. Man, 0:57:05.880 --> 0:57:08.239 she's done with you. I'm not trying to be rock 0:57:08.320 --> 0:57:10.200 and nothing like that. Like, but why you're gonna keep 0:57:10.239 --> 0:57:12.399 calling it? I mean like you're being a lockey now, dude, 0:57:12.440 --> 0:57:17.920 like leave her along with new I mean, somebody follow somebody. 0:57:18.000 --> 0:57:20.520 But I never asked nobody to change that. I wouldn't 0:57:20.520 --> 0:57:23.080 do that. I'm like you, why are you step? Why 0:57:23.160 --> 0:57:25.200 you like I don't send like a likes like damn, 0:57:25.240 --> 0:57:29.800 I'm like you was on her dick? Did your wife 0:57:29.840 --> 0:57:34.000 expects you to be faithful? Man? Look here, you already 0:57:34.080 --> 0:57:37.880 know you know you're tight. You already trouble. So my 0:57:38.000 --> 0:57:40.320 wife talking about being a rider dome and being you 0:57:40.400 --> 0:57:42.280 know and so. But I'm old school, so I'm like, 0:57:42.400 --> 0:57:45.000 I know young girls can't take you know what I mean, 0:57:45.320 --> 0:57:47.360 just like you can't take it. So when you're a 0:57:47.480 --> 0:57:49.480 wife of a dude that's a type eight dude is 0:57:49.480 --> 0:57:51.560 getting money doing, you gotta be able to take it. 0:57:51.800 --> 0:57:53.680 So I'm like, young girl, like you can't handle I'm 0:57:53.720 --> 0:57:55.360 telling you right now, you can't handle it. So I'm 0:57:55.360 --> 0:57:58.240 gonna stay with the woman just like you know, because 0:57:58.280 --> 0:57:59.600 she can deal with it, you know what I mean. 0:57:59.680 --> 0:58:01.400 She can old the house down. So I'm not another 0:58:01.480 --> 0:58:04.040 leaving young girl, Like, yo, girl, I'm not leaving my wife, 0:58:04.120 --> 0:58:06.240 but I'm not saying that she especially to leave it. 0:58:06.280 --> 0:58:07.960 But does she expects you to be faithful? Or is 0:58:08.040 --> 0:58:10.360 she does she accept that? Like, okay, expect her and 0:58:10.440 --> 0:58:14.480 met you to be faithful. That was a long time ago, 0:58:14.680 --> 0:58:19.080 mantle time ago. Man, I'm fast that now we're like, 0:58:19.200 --> 0:58:21.600 we're a family and we're gonna be a family. So 0:58:21.760 --> 0:58:24.080 you have to go through things and then that's all 0:58:24.880 --> 0:58:27.760 and it's just part of being honest again, Like you 0:58:27.800 --> 0:58:30.040 don't have to talk about that, you know, Like I've 0:58:30.080 --> 0:58:32.760 been hearing this whole Will Smith and Jada pink open 0:58:32.840 --> 0:58:36.040 thing forever. But the reality is when you were type 0:58:36.080 --> 0:58:38.800 A dude, you that's what it is. Like we've set 0:58:38.920 --> 0:58:41.480 up where we want to do everybody, you know what 0:58:41.520 --> 0:58:43.440 I mean. When Drake first came out, every girl in 0:58:43.480 --> 0:58:45.760 the world, and I'm sitting there thinking like that, you know, 0:58:46.240 --> 0:58:49.360 but you know my ex boyfriend's mom telling me that 0:58:49.640 --> 0:58:52.320 men stop cheating when they just get older and they're 0:58:52.320 --> 0:58:54.640 too tired to run around. It's just not there's just 0:58:54.720 --> 0:58:58.400 not even yea somewhere do I seem like I'm tired 0:58:58.520 --> 0:59:04.880 right now? Not yet, but you still going on he 0:59:05.040 --> 0:59:11.520 sucking something else that. But then you start talking about 0:59:11.520 --> 0:59:13.240 I'm just saying, I'm gonna throw a couple of names 0:59:13.240 --> 0:59:19.680 that y'all you have I thought about the start talking 0:59:19.720 --> 0:59:23.080 about Quincy Jones, start talking about dudes that we got energy. 0:59:23.160 --> 0:59:26.960 It's just that's black man with money running around his 0:59:27.080 --> 0:59:29.200 joint right to you're them too. But we got talking 0:59:29.200 --> 0:59:31.720 about the black man because you may never say that 0:59:31.800 --> 0:59:33.960 side of your race. I've had sex with people outside 0:59:33.960 --> 0:59:36.920 of my race. But so in the book, let's go 0:59:37.000 --> 0:59:39.240 back to the book. In the books, the guy that 0:59:39.320 --> 0:59:41.320 you met in the casino, he was white right on 0:59:41.400 --> 0:59:43.520 with the city, the one with the book fetish. Yeah yeah, 0:59:43.600 --> 0:59:47.680 yeah yeah. But that wasn't no no, no, no, he 0:59:47.800 --> 0:59:52.120 must he would he would, no, no, no. Book. One 0:59:52.160 --> 0:59:54.680 of my guy friends was a pet. He's not a 0:59:54.720 --> 0:59:57.080 pimp no more. But I used to take his holes 0:59:57.400 --> 1:00:00.120 to the casino and watch them for him because he 1:00:00.120 --> 1:00:07.320 couldn't go. So that's my right. The beginning of the book, 1:00:07.360 --> 1:00:09.080 it opens up in Atlantic City, because I used to 1:00:09.400 --> 1:00:11.280 be the girl that drove like I would drive over 1:00:11.320 --> 1:00:13.560 Atlantic City and like make sure the wholes got back safe. 1:00:14.040 --> 1:00:16.560 So I was exposed to let's got to do it, 1:00:16.960 --> 1:00:18.439 but he couldn't do it no more because it would 1:00:18.440 --> 1:00:21.520 be but like it happened to one of them, what 1:00:21.720 --> 1:00:23.360 was you gonna have the money? He would give me 1:00:23.400 --> 1:00:29.800 cash to like if the guy she meant safe from 1:00:29.800 --> 1:00:35.720 the cop. Just you go up there and do you 1:00:35.800 --> 1:00:37.640 know at this time, I mean you're hearing you better. 1:00:38.280 --> 1:00:39.720 It was never a Thank God, it was never no 1:00:39.800 --> 1:00:43.080 incidence on my wife. But I don't be exposed to 1:00:43.200 --> 1:00:45.320 another part of you know, like as in the hood 1:00:45.640 --> 1:00:47.200 in Philly, you know, you get to get boys to 1:00:47.200 --> 1:00:49.200 give you money for hair and nell's and recreation. I 1:00:49.280 --> 1:00:51.040 didn't know that it was actually a way to get 1:00:51.120 --> 1:00:53.960 money from men for not doing anything, just talking to them. 1:00:54.400 --> 1:00:55.960 So like I would be around his girls and they 1:00:55.960 --> 1:00:57.920 would teach me like how to finesse, Like no, she, 1:00:58.240 --> 1:00:59.600 this is what you gotta do. This is what you 1:00:59.640 --> 1:01:04.320 gotta and listen. And those girls was getting mad money 1:01:04.600 --> 1:01:08.280 doing nothing nothing. It was doing something. They had the 1:01:08.320 --> 1:01:12.920 mental Yeah, but that's how I learned my girl book Mercedes, 1:01:13.200 --> 1:01:17.720 that's a classic role. She got that mental gal my 1:01:17.760 --> 1:01:20.400 friends like your mom my mom. I got that from 1:01:20.440 --> 1:01:21.720 my mom. I learned it from my mom. But the 1:01:21.840 --> 1:01:26.040 white guy um in there that I had my first 1:01:26.160 --> 1:01:28.160 encounter with as far as like being like, I guess 1:01:28.200 --> 1:01:32.800 a trick and the hole. Unfortunately, um, he just wanted 1:01:32.800 --> 1:01:35.800 to ejaculate on my books. So I made a lot 1:01:35.840 --> 1:01:38.120 of money off of him. That's easy. Was clean up 1:01:38.920 --> 1:01:42.760 she was. But he just gave me like he gave 1:01:42.800 --> 1:01:44.600 me like some like I'm like, I'm going in this 1:01:44.680 --> 1:01:47.280 bitch in the trench code like this mother bus on 1:01:47.360 --> 1:01:49.640 these cities I'm coming like and I was young, and 1:01:49.680 --> 1:01:51.560 it was just like oh ship, like he was giving 1:01:51.600 --> 1:01:56.240 me money to do. Like also, you know different, I'm 1:01:56.320 --> 1:01:58.600 listening to you talk right now as a Philadelphian and 1:01:58.720 --> 1:02:00.800 like I'm doing this cast and stuff and it's like 1:02:00.960 --> 1:02:02.520 they think we're so hard, but I'm just like we 1:02:02.640 --> 1:02:07.160 just straightforward. Man. People just shipped forward. And she from 1:02:07.200 --> 1:02:14.440 the hood, Like no, I'm just from just like we 1:02:14.600 --> 1:02:17.120 from the hood and you know we just played it's 1:02:17.160 --> 1:02:21.280 cousin or whatever right here. Well listen, Yeah, I want 1:02:21.320 --> 1:02:24.160 to thank you guys for coming so many great books 1:02:24.200 --> 1:02:26.280 that people need to read by you. But Flat Girl 1:02:26.400 --> 1:02:27.840 is the one because this is the way that said 1:02:27.840 --> 1:02:29.919 everything off. This is the screenplay that you have done 1:02:30.520 --> 1:02:33.800 trying to get back. 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