1 00:00:02,040 --> 00:00:04,320 Speaker 1: What's up? It slips every time intil ye, I'm g 2 00:00:04,280 --> 00:00:08,920 Speaker 1: g McGuire, I'm glarial, i'ma you gotta guess old marks. 3 00:00:09,000 --> 00:00:13,720 Speaker 1: I read Philadelphia in the building an old head. But 4 00:00:13,880 --> 00:00:17,239 Speaker 1: everybody know you from your books already, and we have 5 00:00:17,320 --> 00:00:20,720 Speaker 1: this book. Everybody why you got a whole lot of millennials. 6 00:00:20,720 --> 00:00:24,640 Speaker 1: They don't read like that. They're like, who yeah, reality show, 7 00:00:25,360 --> 00:00:30,560 Speaker 1: it's your dancer. How they listen to audio books nowadays? 8 00:00:30,840 --> 00:00:33,080 Speaker 1: A lot of kids audio books. And I got a 9 00:00:33,120 --> 00:00:35,240 Speaker 1: great voice, but you know, like audio books, we didn't 10 00:00:35,240 --> 00:00:36,919 Speaker 1: make as much money. So it's like I was like 11 00:00:37,159 --> 00:00:38,800 Speaker 1: that audio book thing, you know what I mean. So 12 00:00:38,920 --> 00:00:41,080 Speaker 1: you know it's different, you know, But the book is 13 00:00:41,120 --> 00:00:43,080 Speaker 1: the book, you know, So the audio books, I'd rather 14 00:00:43,120 --> 00:00:45,280 Speaker 1: do movies. The book is not the book. The book 15 00:00:45,360 --> 00:00:49,960 Speaker 1: is a legendar. Flag is about to be a movie. Yeah. Yeah. 16 00:00:50,000 --> 00:00:52,880 Speaker 1: I wrote the screenplay myself. I gave lines, gave five 17 00:00:52,960 --> 00:00:55,560 Speaker 1: years and I was calling really now I'm gonna Filadelphia 18 00:00:55,680 --> 00:00:57,480 Speaker 1: so I can call with some heat. I was calling 19 00:00:57,560 --> 00:00:59,720 Speaker 1: really nicely. I put my nice voice on how you 20 00:00:59,760 --> 00:01:02,040 Speaker 1: got on the screenplayer? Can I help you out with? 21 00:01:02,600 --> 00:01:04,080 Speaker 1: Can I check it out? Kind of see what you're 22 00:01:04,120 --> 00:01:06,000 Speaker 1: doing and we're not ready yet. We're not We're not 23 00:01:06,040 --> 00:01:10,520 Speaker 1: ready yet. Five years. Yeah, they still have the right 24 00:01:10,560 --> 00:01:12,720 Speaker 1: short but right now I'm gonna go ahead and sit 25 00:01:12,760 --> 00:01:14,440 Speaker 1: down and you know, get it back because I want 26 00:01:14,480 --> 00:01:16,120 Speaker 1: to make it right now, and you know they have 27 00:01:16,280 --> 00:01:18,440 Speaker 1: five years, So I'm like, why should I believe that 28 00:01:18,480 --> 00:01:20,840 Speaker 1: you're gonna make it now? So once I wrote that 29 00:01:20,880 --> 00:01:24,000 Speaker 1: screenplayer December, I said, that's it and I sent it 30 00:01:24,040 --> 00:01:26,040 Speaker 1: to my Tess readers and they loved it. I knew 31 00:01:26,040 --> 00:01:28,360 Speaker 1: it was good already, and they're never gonna know fulling 32 00:01:28,400 --> 00:01:31,120 Speaker 1: off like I know, pulling off here to talk the language, 33 00:01:31,160 --> 00:01:32,839 Speaker 1: you know what I mean? The area and then Mount 34 00:01:32,920 --> 00:01:37,680 Speaker 1: every and German Town amount that was like the uptown areas. 35 00:01:41,880 --> 00:01:44,520 Speaker 1: That was like the whole directing thing. Can you direct 36 00:01:44,520 --> 00:01:46,640 Speaker 1: people to be filling off fiers? I'm like, dude, do 37 00:01:46,720 --> 00:01:48,960 Speaker 1: I seem like a shot dude? So people don't know me, 38 00:01:49,000 --> 00:01:50,640 Speaker 1: so it's good for me to be out there where 39 00:01:50,640 --> 00:01:52,240 Speaker 1: they can hear me. And then like, yo, he's a 40 00:01:52,320 --> 00:01:54,920 Speaker 1: rule fulling off like, so don't think that I can't 41 00:01:54,960 --> 00:01:57,200 Speaker 1: tell people how to be fulling off, you know, and 42 00:01:57,240 --> 00:01:59,440 Speaker 1: speak the language and be the cool hip people that 43 00:01:59,440 --> 00:02:02,000 Speaker 1: we were in the and that's my generation eighties and ninety. 44 00:02:03,240 --> 00:02:11,960 Speaker 1: But can't you make a cheese steak? I'm from West Philly. 45 00:02:12,120 --> 00:02:15,120 Speaker 1: My family is legendary in West Philly. My grandfather was 46 00:02:15,160 --> 00:02:17,680 Speaker 1: one of the first black millionaires in Philadelphia and he 47 00:02:17,720 --> 00:02:20,639 Speaker 1: had a cheese steak empire. His name is Fu Fu 48 00:02:20,760 --> 00:02:23,880 Speaker 1: rest in peace. But when he made the Mamajamma, so 49 00:02:23,919 --> 00:02:26,040 Speaker 1: the mama jam was famous. I can make a cheese steak. 50 00:02:26,080 --> 00:02:31,519 Speaker 1: I wish you get this podcast at my house. Yeah, yeah, yeah, 51 00:02:31,600 --> 00:02:34,560 Speaker 1: all right, So let's talk about writing because you have 52 00:02:34,600 --> 00:02:37,520 Speaker 1: a book penetration. Yes, I have a new book. This 53 00:02:37,600 --> 00:02:41,000 Speaker 1: is my fourth book. Um, I'm a nonfiction author, so 54 00:02:41,240 --> 00:02:44,240 Speaker 1: loosely this is um not loosely, this is wholeheartedly an 55 00:02:44,280 --> 00:02:47,520 Speaker 1: order biography of sorts. UM. I wanted to tell my story. 56 00:02:47,600 --> 00:02:50,600 Speaker 1: My daughter is autistic. So my first two books are 57 00:02:50,600 --> 00:02:53,200 Speaker 1: about altism and parents. And I've been writing since I 58 00:02:53,280 --> 00:02:55,680 Speaker 1: was like seven, but mostly poetry. So when my daughter 59 00:02:55,720 --> 00:02:58,359 Speaker 1: was diagnosed, I wrote my first novel Along came Altism 60 00:02:58,480 --> 00:03:00,800 Speaker 1: in real Time, to kind of give people a look 61 00:03:00,840 --> 00:03:05,239 Speaker 1: at what autism like, autism, special needs parents and look like. Um. 62 00:03:05,280 --> 00:03:07,480 Speaker 1: Those books were very successful. Me and my daughter wrote 63 00:03:07,520 --> 00:03:09,760 Speaker 1: a children's book together, and I just was like, you 64 00:03:09,800 --> 00:03:11,680 Speaker 1: know what, I want to tell the story of different women, 65 00:03:12,160 --> 00:03:14,640 Speaker 1: so why not start with me? So that that's because 66 00:03:14,680 --> 00:03:22,480 Speaker 1: you know, as a guy, I'm thinking right, okay, So 67 00:03:22,520 --> 00:03:24,520 Speaker 1: the reason I like, honestly, when I sat there and 68 00:03:24,520 --> 00:03:27,360 Speaker 1: started thinking, like I'm gonna telling my story, I'm like, 69 00:03:27,400 --> 00:03:29,720 Speaker 1: what could I call it? Penetration was the first word 70 00:03:29,720 --> 00:03:32,120 Speaker 1: that popped in my head. But if you um listen 71 00:03:32,160 --> 00:03:35,080 Speaker 1: to music, I can't think of what song it is 72 00:03:35,160 --> 00:03:37,600 Speaker 1: right now, but let it penetrate or something. And I'm like, 73 00:03:38,240 --> 00:03:40,560 Speaker 1: let me look up the definition, because of what definition 74 00:03:40,600 --> 00:03:44,400 Speaker 1: of penetration is One the sexual definition of penetration and 75 00:03:44,400 --> 00:03:47,200 Speaker 1: the second definition of penetration is when something is fully 76 00:03:47,520 --> 00:03:51,400 Speaker 1: you fully understand the complex situation. So for me, my 77 00:03:51,440 --> 00:03:54,040 Speaker 1: life is complex and I fully now at thirty six, 78 00:03:54,320 --> 00:04:00,480 Speaker 1: I get it for the penetrator. But dependet Actually, you 79 00:04:00,480 --> 00:04:02,720 Speaker 1: know how like as a woman like you start, you 80 00:04:02,760 --> 00:04:04,440 Speaker 1: sit there and try to go through your life, and 81 00:04:04,480 --> 00:04:06,120 Speaker 1: I'm like, what if I told my life through sexual 82 00:04:06,160 --> 00:04:09,680 Speaker 1: experiences because that dominated so much of my youth. So 83 00:04:09,960 --> 00:04:12,200 Speaker 1: that's where penetration came from, and that's what it is 84 00:04:12,240 --> 00:04:16,000 Speaker 1: because I read it in three hours, and with the penetration. 85 00:04:16,560 --> 00:04:18,600 Speaker 1: We're friends and we've been friends the time, so I 86 00:04:18,680 --> 00:04:23,039 Speaker 1: knew her on the personal level. I didn't people people 87 00:04:23,080 --> 00:04:26,200 Speaker 1: be calling me. I'm like, I'm not see, that's just 88 00:04:26,360 --> 00:04:28,920 Speaker 1: I would never ask. I wouldn't have asked because there's 89 00:04:28,920 --> 00:04:30,800 Speaker 1: a reason. No, because there's the reason why you chose 90 00:04:30,839 --> 00:04:32,120 Speaker 1: to do what you did. If you wanted it to 91 00:04:32,120 --> 00:04:35,040 Speaker 1: be a tell all you wanted to tell people's everything, 92 00:04:35,160 --> 00:04:37,400 Speaker 1: then you know you would have did that. That's not 93 00:04:37,440 --> 00:04:40,480 Speaker 1: your personality. Yeah, you're sparing enough to keep you guessing. 94 00:04:41,320 --> 00:04:43,719 Speaker 1: It's about you, not them, even though they are in 95 00:04:43,800 --> 00:04:45,960 Speaker 1: the story. It's your story. Because my mom read it, 96 00:04:45,960 --> 00:04:48,719 Speaker 1: and it's like, like, I don't wanted to read it, 97 00:04:49,160 --> 00:04:50,719 Speaker 1: and then she was like, I read it because my 98 00:04:50,720 --> 00:04:52,440 Speaker 1: mom is a reader. My mom is a big old 99 00:04:52,440 --> 00:04:54,320 Speaker 1: marrit heaf and she got all your books. She my 100 00:04:54,320 --> 00:04:58,560 Speaker 1: mom a reader, a writer. As having a reader like 101 00:04:58,600 --> 00:05:00,479 Speaker 1: that for a mom is intimidated. And so I'm like, 102 00:05:00,640 --> 00:05:06,120 Speaker 1: I don't read it because one is highly sexual about show. 103 00:05:07,040 --> 00:05:11,120 Speaker 1: You know that watch it but no judgment yeah, like 104 00:05:11,200 --> 00:05:12,839 Speaker 1: judgment free. And my mom was like, you know, like 105 00:05:12,880 --> 00:05:15,599 Speaker 1: I commend you for being so transparent. I mean we 106 00:05:15,920 --> 00:05:17,680 Speaker 1: as women, we go through things, and you know what, 107 00:05:17,760 --> 00:05:20,039 Speaker 1: you're very good at writing from the experience of a 108 00:05:20,080 --> 00:05:24,000 Speaker 1: woman from a man. How trying to know everything. I'm 109 00:05:24,000 --> 00:05:25,560 Speaker 1: an a student, you know what I mean. So it's 110 00:05:25,600 --> 00:05:27,320 Speaker 1: like I was one of them dudes that I don't 111 00:05:27,320 --> 00:05:29,760 Speaker 1: mind being smart, and I'll tell you like, I'm an area, 112 00:05:29,839 --> 00:05:31,840 Speaker 1: so I'm like, yo, dude, we don't like straight up. 113 00:05:32,520 --> 00:05:35,240 Speaker 1: So I'm like, na, you know, so I want to 114 00:05:35,240 --> 00:05:37,280 Speaker 1: get it right. So when I write the mail guy, 115 00:05:37,720 --> 00:05:40,400 Speaker 1: nobody pay attention. You know this guy. You know, when 116 00:05:40,400 --> 00:05:42,279 Speaker 1: I get everybody right, if I write about a Puerto 117 00:05:42,360 --> 00:05:45,200 Speaker 1: Rican I'm gonna study right now, I'm writing a Dominican story. 118 00:05:45,320 --> 00:05:47,960 Speaker 1: I'm gonna study them. So I'm not trying to be wrong. 119 00:05:47,960 --> 00:05:50,000 Speaker 1: I'm always trying to be right. And so with that, 120 00:05:50,040 --> 00:05:52,120 Speaker 1: it's like, oh, Mark, thinking knows so much. Yeah, battle me. 121 00:05:52,160 --> 00:05:53,400 Speaker 1: I'm ready to roll, you know what? Amazing, So I 122 00:05:53,520 --> 00:05:55,039 Speaker 1: want them people that's ready to battle. So when I 123 00:05:55,040 --> 00:05:57,400 Speaker 1: put a book out, I'm like, god, dare you you 124 00:05:57,480 --> 00:05:58,840 Speaker 1: know what I mean to say? Something wrong in here? 125 00:05:58,880 --> 00:06:00,640 Speaker 1: Because I researched it. I don't just make it up, 126 00:06:00,680 --> 00:06:02,400 Speaker 1: you know, like I know it if I write about 127 00:06:02,400 --> 00:06:05,000 Speaker 1: the Dominicans right now, I'm and I viewing Dominicans about 128 00:06:05,040 --> 00:06:07,480 Speaker 1: the whole culture. I'm gonna study the d R right now. 129 00:06:07,520 --> 00:06:10,559 Speaker 1: They're coming to Philadelphia and raves like they're coming straight 130 00:06:10,560 --> 00:06:12,520 Speaker 1: from the d R. Not coming to New York. They're 131 00:06:12,520 --> 00:06:16,800 Speaker 1: coming to Felic peoples is coming And I'm like, yo, 132 00:06:17,080 --> 00:06:19,120 Speaker 1: all right, that's a good deal. So I always write 133 00:06:19,160 --> 00:06:22,080 Speaker 1: stuff that you know, it's hot and popular then Dominicans, 134 00:06:22,120 --> 00:06:24,120 Speaker 1: you know, then Cardi b blowing up like that. You know, 135 00:06:24,160 --> 00:06:27,200 Speaker 1: who would think a Dominican female rapper would be like 136 00:06:27,240 --> 00:06:29,320 Speaker 1: on like the way in the world. You would think 137 00:06:29,360 --> 00:06:31,360 Speaker 1: that three years ago, but now it's like, Wow, a 138 00:06:31,480 --> 00:06:34,159 Speaker 1: Dominican female rapper. And so yeah, I try to be 139 00:06:34,279 --> 00:06:36,120 Speaker 1: right with everything I'm doing. If it's a female, I'm 140 00:06:36,120 --> 00:06:38,359 Speaker 1: gonna study the female to be right. Y'all next to 141 00:06:38,440 --> 00:06:43,040 Speaker 1: us all the time. So like, I got Mom's sisters, cousins. 142 00:06:43,080 --> 00:06:45,080 Speaker 1: Do you feel like y'all understand man enough that you 143 00:06:45,080 --> 00:06:47,000 Speaker 1: can write from a man's point of view? I do. 144 00:06:47,120 --> 00:06:52,359 Speaker 1: I think I can think, Yeah, got some friends and 145 00:06:52,680 --> 00:06:55,599 Speaker 1: Harry so many things that they have to say. Now 146 00:06:55,680 --> 00:06:57,960 Speaker 1: they'd be around guys enough. You're like okay, kind of 147 00:06:58,080 --> 00:07:01,720 Speaker 1: message your head up too, because then you start to think, like, man, 148 00:07:01,960 --> 00:07:04,039 Speaker 1: a lot of guys, Like for most of my life, 149 00:07:04,120 --> 00:07:07,000 Speaker 1: I always like, men are not ship they all cheat. 150 00:07:07,240 --> 00:07:09,600 Speaker 1: And that's because of all the guys that I was around. 151 00:07:10,480 --> 00:07:18,680 Speaker 1: Like everybody the last say, yeah, yeah, that was all 152 00:07:18,720 --> 00:07:21,320 Speaker 1: the guys I was around. They were like cheaters and 153 00:07:21,400 --> 00:07:23,880 Speaker 1: whatever the case. But then I'm at other guys, you 154 00:07:23,920 --> 00:07:25,840 Speaker 1: know what I mean, And I've seen something that were 155 00:07:25,880 --> 00:07:29,440 Speaker 1: faithful and I were married and do right. Men that 156 00:07:29,520 --> 00:07:32,720 Speaker 1: you don't like, they get shipped on. Yeah, the whole 157 00:07:32,720 --> 00:07:34,160 Speaker 1: tour for that, you know. I used to tell people 158 00:07:34,200 --> 00:07:36,000 Speaker 1: all the time, I've got two things for friends. You know, 159 00:07:36,040 --> 00:07:38,960 Speaker 1: the good guys. He's so nice, but he's not my 160 00:07:39,080 --> 00:07:41,840 Speaker 1: tight you know what I mean. Like everybody said, that's okay. 161 00:07:41,880 --> 00:07:44,120 Speaker 1: So you got good dudes that you know, but you 162 00:07:44,160 --> 00:07:45,960 Speaker 1: put him in the friend zone. You go to church 163 00:07:45,960 --> 00:07:48,000 Speaker 1: with him, you talk about him with your problems, but 164 00:07:48,080 --> 00:07:50,280 Speaker 1: you never look at him romantically, you know. So I 165 00:07:50,320 --> 00:07:55,400 Speaker 1: had the whole book on that. I understand girls like 166 00:07:55,560 --> 00:07:59,240 Speaker 1: the challenge something that the guys that I'm not attracted 167 00:07:59,240 --> 00:08:02,320 Speaker 1: to and the friends like that's how but you're not 168 00:08:02,400 --> 00:08:06,160 Speaker 1: really attracted two good nice guys. I mean I'm looks wise. 169 00:08:06,400 --> 00:08:10,680 Speaker 1: I'm just talking about personality. I mean, personality is one thing, 170 00:08:10,720 --> 00:08:12,679 Speaker 1: but I feel like the looks is would draw me first. 171 00:08:12,720 --> 00:08:16,640 Speaker 1: So it's like if I cannot, it's just like just 172 00:08:16,720 --> 00:08:19,440 Speaker 1: has to be sexy to me, attractive to me, you 173 00:08:19,480 --> 00:08:20,960 Speaker 1: know what I mean. It doesn't even have to be 174 00:08:21,000 --> 00:08:23,240 Speaker 1: like I don't know, maybe the way he dresses, maybe 175 00:08:23,240 --> 00:08:26,000 Speaker 1: the way where he carries himself might be sexy to me. 176 00:08:26,080 --> 00:08:29,160 Speaker 1: But like, if I don't find you attractive, then you're 177 00:08:29,200 --> 00:08:31,000 Speaker 1: always going to be in the friend zone. I don't 178 00:08:31,000 --> 00:08:33,520 Speaker 1: care how good of a man you mean that you 179 00:08:33,559 --> 00:08:35,800 Speaker 1: could have finally do attractive in two seconds that you 180 00:08:35,840 --> 00:08:38,600 Speaker 1: already know, Like if he ain't attractive, it ain't he nothing, 181 00:08:38,600 --> 00:08:43,880 Speaker 1: he can do, nothing he can do first um, and 182 00:08:43,920 --> 00:08:46,200 Speaker 1: then they kind of grew in. I mean, like I've 183 00:08:46,920 --> 00:08:49,439 Speaker 1: not that I wasn't attracted. I might have been attracted 184 00:08:49,520 --> 00:08:51,160 Speaker 1: to them, but just didn't like them in that kind 185 00:08:51,200 --> 00:08:53,400 Speaker 1: of way, And then they grew on me, you know 186 00:08:53,400 --> 00:08:55,040 Speaker 1: what I mean. But I might have always thought they 187 00:08:55,040 --> 00:08:57,080 Speaker 1: were attractive in some kind of way. But if I 188 00:08:57,120 --> 00:08:58,920 Speaker 1: didn't think you were attractive in no kind of way, 189 00:08:59,000 --> 00:09:01,680 Speaker 1: there's no way. No, you're a friend, I said, let's 190 00:09:01,679 --> 00:09:04,680 Speaker 1: go to eat, let's go hang out. Cool, but don't 191 00:09:04,720 --> 00:09:09,360 Speaker 1: touch my city put my hand. I won't even give 192 00:09:09,360 --> 00:09:11,480 Speaker 1: you a hug. I don't even like the hug thing 193 00:09:11,520 --> 00:09:14,160 Speaker 1: when you see each other. That's even awkward. You can't 194 00:09:14,200 --> 00:09:19,640 Speaker 1: hug someone. I mean when yeah, and it's a guy, 195 00:09:19,960 --> 00:09:22,080 Speaker 1: but if he likes if I know he likes me, 196 00:09:22,440 --> 00:09:24,200 Speaker 1: it's just weird for me to go and and give 197 00:09:24,280 --> 00:09:28,560 Speaker 1: him blood out. Pat you on the back of cousin. Now, 198 00:09:28,679 --> 00:09:30,839 Speaker 1: I need anyone like this. I'm like, what's good? HOI 199 00:09:31,040 --> 00:09:33,600 Speaker 1: like girl? They were like, I feel we were on 200 00:09:33,679 --> 00:09:37,960 Speaker 1: a date. No, no, I mean I could favor my 201 00:09:38,000 --> 00:09:40,240 Speaker 1: food too. But you can pay everyone. All right. Now, 202 00:09:40,280 --> 00:09:42,920 Speaker 1: let's talk about this part of the book, penetration. Yes, 203 00:09:45,040 --> 00:09:47,360 Speaker 1: as I was pulling my little denim Daisy Dukes off, 204 00:09:47,360 --> 00:09:49,280 Speaker 1: he started kissing me on the neck. His mouth felt 205 00:09:49,280 --> 00:09:52,120 Speaker 1: so cold and wet, brushed up against my nervous flesh. 206 00:09:52,160 --> 00:09:54,319 Speaker 1: I got the strange feeling in the bottom of my stomach. 207 00:09:54,720 --> 00:09:56,920 Speaker 1: He kept kissing me. As my shirts hit the bathroom floor. 208 00:09:57,000 --> 00:09:59,559 Speaker 1: I felt his hands sizing me through my panties and 209 00:09:59,720 --> 00:10:01,480 Speaker 1: went to his knees and pulled my panties down with 210 00:10:01,520 --> 00:10:08,040 Speaker 1: his teeth. Then he started to kiss my box. His 211 00:10:08,120 --> 00:10:10,439 Speaker 1: lips felt moist as he started moving his head faster 212 00:10:10,480 --> 00:10:13,840 Speaker 1: and faster. I began to scream. He stopped, look medentitiized 213 00:10:13,840 --> 00:10:17,280 Speaker 1: and told me to shut up. But this goes on 214 00:10:17,320 --> 00:10:20,080 Speaker 1: to say that night it was four hundred fifty dollars. 215 00:10:20,320 --> 00:10:22,640 Speaker 1: He gave us some money increased each time we saw 216 00:10:22,679 --> 00:10:25,000 Speaker 1: each other. He was my first trick, and you were 217 00:10:25,040 --> 00:10:27,760 Speaker 1: only thirteen years old. He was also her first sexual experience. 218 00:10:28,360 --> 00:10:31,920 Speaker 1: He wasn't my first sexual experience. Um, he was my 219 00:10:32,040 --> 00:10:37,400 Speaker 1: first sexual experience with a guy. I'll say. So, that's 220 00:10:37,440 --> 00:10:40,200 Speaker 1: another thing we have in common. She lost her virginity 221 00:10:40,240 --> 00:10:43,679 Speaker 1: to a woman too. Yeah, I don't know if it 222 00:10:43,720 --> 00:10:50,040 Speaker 1: was no, it wasn't he. I think I was always 223 00:10:50,080 --> 00:10:52,920 Speaker 1: like thirteen or fourteen when I met when that's how 224 00:10:52,960 --> 00:10:55,199 Speaker 1: she was happy. You protected the name because she was 225 00:10:58,280 --> 00:11:00,199 Speaker 1: yet like I would get into that and then in 226 00:11:00,320 --> 00:11:03,520 Speaker 1: volume two because it gets a little deeper. But he 227 00:11:03,640 --> 00:11:08,240 Speaker 1: was like this older guy. Um, because he was thirteen, 228 00:11:08,559 --> 00:11:14,959 Speaker 1: how old is he? He maybe was like nineteen or twenty. 229 00:11:16,000 --> 00:11:21,600 Speaker 1: I don't remember it hurt you. I don't remember it hurt, 230 00:11:21,600 --> 00:11:24,680 Speaker 1: and I just remember being like in like your fic state, 231 00:11:24,800 --> 00:11:27,840 Speaker 1: Like I remember like not really understanding what was going on, 232 00:11:27,920 --> 00:11:34,560 Speaker 1: but understanding what was But he was older, so he 233 00:11:34,679 --> 00:11:37,000 Speaker 1: was like popular in our neighborhood. So it was just 234 00:11:37,040 --> 00:11:39,400 Speaker 1: like at that age, I wasn't thinking like did I 235 00:11:39,440 --> 00:11:41,160 Speaker 1: do something wrong? I was thinking like, yes, I got this, 236 00:11:42,679 --> 00:11:44,360 Speaker 1: yeah you know what I mean. Like I wasn't thinking 237 00:11:44,400 --> 00:11:46,280 Speaker 1: about it like that. And then he was like giving 238 00:11:46,360 --> 00:11:47,920 Speaker 1: us money, like I would take my money and give 239 00:11:47,960 --> 00:11:51,240 Speaker 1: me my sister tropical me and cure and all this stuff. Yeah, 240 00:11:51,280 --> 00:11:53,680 Speaker 1: like I wasn't thinking about that. But it kind of 241 00:11:53,720 --> 00:11:56,040 Speaker 1: like it kind of like gave me a real message 242 00:11:56,080 --> 00:11:59,480 Speaker 1: of section of you know, like even at thirty six, 243 00:11:59,520 --> 00:12:03,080 Speaker 1: it gives me a real jaded perception of what and 244 00:12:03,080 --> 00:12:05,520 Speaker 1: a female relationship is. Like I had this conversation with 245 00:12:05,559 --> 00:12:07,720 Speaker 1: my friends all the time like I'm super single, Like 246 00:12:07,840 --> 00:12:09,719 Speaker 1: I'm not. I never lived with a man. I've never 247 00:12:09,800 --> 00:12:13,520 Speaker 1: been in a serious, like super committed relationships. But because 248 00:12:13,559 --> 00:12:15,240 Speaker 1: I look like one, I think all men want to 249 00:12:15,240 --> 00:12:19,720 Speaker 1: have sex with me period, like and and that's true. 250 00:12:19,880 --> 00:12:23,320 Speaker 1: I can't get that when a guy first initially creates 251 00:12:23,360 --> 00:12:26,600 Speaker 1: a type of communication with because you right, it's because 252 00:12:26,600 --> 00:12:29,360 Speaker 1: he want to. That's what I think as a man 253 00:12:29,400 --> 00:12:31,319 Speaker 1: in here. What do you think about that statement? When 254 00:12:31,360 --> 00:12:33,960 Speaker 1: you try to talk to a girl, that's because I 255 00:12:34,000 --> 00:12:37,040 Speaker 1: want to her. Yeah, like when you first initially, I mean, 256 00:12:37,120 --> 00:12:41,160 Speaker 1: that's all the way sex. I don't you want to 257 00:12:41,160 --> 00:12:43,319 Speaker 1: have sex with me, So I'm gonna make you do 258 00:12:43,760 --> 00:12:46,920 Speaker 1: all of this ship before you're there, before you get it, 259 00:12:46,960 --> 00:12:50,920 Speaker 1: like and I didn't know, Like it's that that's only 260 00:12:50,920 --> 00:12:52,760 Speaker 1: gonna work for a guy that is willing to do that, 261 00:12:52,920 --> 00:12:54,840 Speaker 1: you know, because I gotta do. In this book, Victor, 262 00:12:55,120 --> 00:12:57,560 Speaker 1: when when I cast this dude, I mean, he's gonna 263 00:12:57,559 --> 00:13:00,280 Speaker 1: be the sexiest dude, but he's not doing that. He's like, dude, 264 00:13:00,320 --> 00:13:05,920 Speaker 1: I got five girls you like, I know guys and 265 00:13:05,920 --> 00:13:08,480 Speaker 1: I had in the book she like you ain't but 266 00:13:08,520 --> 00:13:11,480 Speaker 1: your panties say that because me and Victor would be 267 00:13:11,520 --> 00:13:15,800 Speaker 1: button his He like, I'm the guys, the guys that 268 00:13:15,920 --> 00:13:17,480 Speaker 1: do the most of me never has sex with me, 269 00:13:18,360 --> 00:13:20,560 Speaker 1: and I feel like so powerful, and it's it's like 270 00:13:20,600 --> 00:13:23,120 Speaker 1: the guys that never ever got it like they do 271 00:13:23,200 --> 00:13:26,600 Speaker 1: the most, like right now today, like can you my 272 00:13:26,640 --> 00:13:29,560 Speaker 1: son tuitioning a whole lot of money, but they don't 273 00:13:29,559 --> 00:13:35,760 Speaker 1: like you from Philadelphia. Yeah, so you had West philand 274 00:13:35,800 --> 00:13:38,560 Speaker 1: off that was doing that. He was from WESTVILLI yeah, 275 00:13:39,080 --> 00:13:41,640 Speaker 1: but he just different cities. I was in d C. 276 00:13:42,280 --> 00:13:44,440 Speaker 1: They was treating that women like. I was like, what 277 00:13:44,520 --> 00:13:46,880 Speaker 1: y'all paying? What y'all doing what? But this was like 278 00:13:46,920 --> 00:13:49,960 Speaker 1: in the eighties when that whole rateful and that's my 279 00:13:49,960 --> 00:13:53,480 Speaker 1: mom because they wasn't like I don't know, it's different 280 00:13:53,520 --> 00:13:55,840 Speaker 1: different places. Like like one time I prayed the guy 281 00:13:55,920 --> 00:13:57,640 Speaker 1: for it. I was like, God, I just don't want 282 00:13:57,640 --> 00:13:59,240 Speaker 1: to pay my bills. Just to me the southern guy 283 00:13:59,280 --> 00:14:04,679 Speaker 1: that they beautiful to pay on my bills. And he did. Yeah, 284 00:14:06,360 --> 00:14:09,600 Speaker 1: but you gotta be you gotta pray for that. He 285 00:14:09,679 --> 00:14:13,640 Speaker 1: was he was older than you. That was so pretty 286 00:14:13,679 --> 00:14:15,640 Speaker 1: rare bone Yeah, can you please play this car? But 287 00:14:15,720 --> 00:14:18,040 Speaker 1: that was older. He was much He was much older 288 00:14:18,040 --> 00:14:20,840 Speaker 1: than you, not that much. That was Sierra's prayer to 289 00:14:21,400 --> 00:14:29,000 Speaker 1: pri was like God, yea like this crazy person. Do 290 00:14:29,120 --> 00:14:31,480 Speaker 1: guys pray for the right women? Like you see how women? 291 00:14:31,680 --> 00:14:33,640 Speaker 1: They're like, what's the prayer? He send me a d 292 00:14:34,360 --> 00:14:41,920 Speaker 1: that likes men? Do that? Do you like that? God? 293 00:14:42,080 --> 00:14:44,520 Speaker 1: Me send me a woman who will and what would 294 00:14:44,520 --> 00:14:49,600 Speaker 1: your prayer be, Like that's your Yeah, that's like we 295 00:14:49,640 --> 00:14:53,800 Speaker 1: have answer. Can you please just say everything about me. 296 00:14:53,840 --> 00:14:55,400 Speaker 1: That's not gonna cheat on me, that's not gonna trying 297 00:14:55,400 --> 00:14:58,240 Speaker 1: to suck my sister, my best friend. You gotta have 298 00:14:58,320 --> 00:15:00,720 Speaker 1: a few more dudes. I wasn't because too many girls, 299 00:15:00,720 --> 00:15:04,680 Speaker 1: you know what I mean. But I'm not praying for im. 300 00:15:04,880 --> 00:15:09,600 Speaker 1: I'm not doing that. I have a girl. You're going 301 00:15:09,640 --> 00:15:12,440 Speaker 1: to the next one now, stopping that, dude, pray for 302 00:15:12,480 --> 00:15:15,720 Speaker 1: a certain kind of woman woman like it's just like this, 303 00:15:15,960 --> 00:15:18,440 Speaker 1: it's a different kind of man. Like somebody. Some men 304 00:15:18,480 --> 00:15:21,520 Speaker 1: are just really that spiritual that they're like, you know, 305 00:15:21,600 --> 00:15:27,920 Speaker 1: they talk to God. Yeah, I mean not not even 306 00:15:27,960 --> 00:15:31,040 Speaker 1: just I want to say church dudes, I would say spiritual. 307 00:15:31,520 --> 00:15:35,960 Speaker 1: I like to say spiritual because just because they're to me, 308 00:15:36,000 --> 00:15:39,000 Speaker 1: a woman for me like that, I don't like a 309 00:15:39,120 --> 00:15:41,560 Speaker 1: good woman. A woman's gonna pour into me like a 310 00:15:41,640 --> 00:15:45,920 Speaker 1: woman that's gonna give me advice and be my second 311 00:15:44,560 --> 00:15:52,200 Speaker 1: I'm your Yeah. Well, I mean, you gotta what kind 312 00:15:52,240 --> 00:15:54,440 Speaker 1: of dude he is? What kind of girls I'm around? 313 00:15:54,440 --> 00:15:56,080 Speaker 1: All kind of women, you know what I mean? So 314 00:15:56,160 --> 00:15:57,920 Speaker 1: with dudes, I'm like how did you get around them? 315 00:15:57,960 --> 00:16:00,040 Speaker 1: If he's a drug dealer and he's only around some 316 00:16:00,160 --> 00:16:03,720 Speaker 1: kind of women, I'm around all kind of women. So 317 00:16:03,760 --> 00:16:05,800 Speaker 1: I'm like I just was telling somebody that the other day, 318 00:16:05,840 --> 00:16:07,760 Speaker 1: like a young girl, like, first of all, if you 319 00:16:07,800 --> 00:16:09,320 Speaker 1: want this type of guy, you gotta be in that 320 00:16:09,360 --> 00:16:12,240 Speaker 1: type of arena in the hood, thinking you're gonna get 321 00:16:12,800 --> 00:16:15,880 Speaker 1: that he ain't there, you know, like an with hood girls, 322 00:16:15,920 --> 00:16:18,600 Speaker 1: ghetto girls. They never felt comfortable with me because the 323 00:16:18,640 --> 00:16:21,240 Speaker 1: mentality was like he's going somewhere, he kids. I always 324 00:16:21,280 --> 00:16:22,880 Speaker 1: spoke that way, I want to do this and when that, 325 00:16:23,080 --> 00:16:27,000 Speaker 1: and it was like they always backed away from me, 326 00:16:27,080 --> 00:16:29,400 Speaker 1: like I can't handle that dude. And I always spoke 327 00:16:29,440 --> 00:16:32,160 Speaker 1: with power, like I never spoke with this whole and 328 00:16:32,320 --> 00:16:34,480 Speaker 1: feminine and when they do, no, I was always gonna 329 00:16:34,480 --> 00:16:36,440 Speaker 1: do this and do that. They was like, yo, this 330 00:16:36,480 --> 00:16:38,640 Speaker 1: family is like I can't handle that. So they will 331 00:16:38,680 --> 00:16:40,800 Speaker 1: always back away even if I like the ghetto girl 332 00:16:40,880 --> 00:16:42,360 Speaker 1: up and like I can't handle that dude he wants 333 00:16:42,440 --> 00:16:45,800 Speaker 1: you know, he got too much confidence, like the kind 334 00:16:45,800 --> 00:16:48,120 Speaker 1: of women that are attracted to you, so you don't 335 00:16:48,160 --> 00:16:50,320 Speaker 1: feel like it's the hood when they're always confident, you 336 00:16:50,400 --> 00:16:53,000 Speaker 1: gotta because I'm coming with so much confident. If you 337 00:16:53,000 --> 00:16:55,080 Speaker 1: don't have that, you're gonna feel like I can't deal 338 00:16:55,080 --> 00:16:57,760 Speaker 1: with him. That's like us like women, and you know, 339 00:16:57,840 --> 00:17:00,880 Speaker 1: like when you were certain type of successful and it's 340 00:17:00,920 --> 00:17:03,520 Speaker 1: not even just monetary, just like you carry yourself, you 341 00:17:03,560 --> 00:17:07,400 Speaker 1: know what you wanting. Certain men just be like yeah, 342 00:17:08,280 --> 00:17:10,399 Speaker 1: get with them, and they try to diminish everything you 343 00:17:10,480 --> 00:17:14,119 Speaker 1: work or you or they just won't come over because 344 00:17:14,160 --> 00:17:17,439 Speaker 1: I think people always think I got like with me 345 00:17:17,440 --> 00:17:20,400 Speaker 1: me being a bookwriter. I was going on tour and 346 00:17:20,440 --> 00:17:22,480 Speaker 1: you had women like, oh my god, I would love 347 00:17:22,520 --> 00:17:24,040 Speaker 1: because you you know what I man, I'm like you, 348 00:17:25,880 --> 00:17:33,160 Speaker 1: I like, my god, man, it's like all the time, 349 00:17:33,240 --> 00:17:34,960 Speaker 1: you got women that got there on cars and then 350 00:17:35,040 --> 00:17:36,840 Speaker 1: on houses, and I'm not afraid of none of them. 351 00:17:36,840 --> 00:17:38,720 Speaker 1: I'm like, yeah, let's bring the noise. So now I'm like, 352 00:17:38,720 --> 00:17:40,560 Speaker 1: I'm about to get in trouble with all the Wethers 353 00:17:40,560 --> 00:17:43,000 Speaker 1: out here that's looking for dudes. But I'm like you, 354 00:17:43,080 --> 00:17:45,160 Speaker 1: in America, you're supposed to have want. So I was like, yo, 355 00:17:45,240 --> 00:17:47,639 Speaker 1: this is torture, you know. So you're going towards like 356 00:17:47,680 --> 00:17:50,640 Speaker 1: that as an intellectual if you got intellectual women. I'm like, yo, 357 00:17:50,720 --> 00:17:53,720 Speaker 1: this I'm about to get in trouble. You said, it's 358 00:17:53,840 --> 00:17:55,800 Speaker 1: because in America you can only have one way. That's 359 00:17:55,840 --> 00:17:57,520 Speaker 1: what I just cut it out to him, saying it 360 00:17:57,600 --> 00:18:01,320 Speaker 1: was torture, torture that you ain't to have all the women, 361 00:18:01,359 --> 00:18:03,640 Speaker 1: all the wive not not every woman, but I mean 362 00:18:03,680 --> 00:18:05,480 Speaker 1: when they they're kicking it, you like and they look 363 00:18:05,520 --> 00:18:07,119 Speaker 1: good and you're like, you know, I wish I had 364 00:18:07,160 --> 00:18:09,720 Speaker 1: a guy like you, and you're like, oh my god, 365 00:18:11,119 --> 00:18:13,560 Speaker 1: and you got a hotel and you got limos and 366 00:18:13,560 --> 00:18:15,320 Speaker 1: you know, I mean they babe putting the money out 367 00:18:15,320 --> 00:18:18,800 Speaker 1: there so they already know, like you know, I'm in fancy. Like, yo, dude, 368 00:18:18,840 --> 00:18:21,320 Speaker 1: this is torture. Do you think you can handle being 369 00:18:21,359 --> 00:18:24,720 Speaker 1: married to more than one woman at a time? How 370 00:18:24,760 --> 00:18:30,840 Speaker 1: many women do you think? About five? You gotta have 371 00:18:30,920 --> 00:18:34,560 Speaker 1: the fighting that, you gotta have a fighting to do that. 372 00:18:34,640 --> 00:18:37,359 Speaker 1: Until when you have the multiple marriages, they have fighting 373 00:18:37,760 --> 00:18:39,720 Speaker 1: like they poor, they gotta have the money to do that. 374 00:18:39,760 --> 00:18:42,520 Speaker 1: You about attention. It's not just about money, because then 375 00:18:42,520 --> 00:18:45,399 Speaker 1: it's like you got to but you're not gonna be. 376 00:18:45,440 --> 00:18:48,000 Speaker 1: You gotta nderstand when you're in that situation, the family 377 00:18:48,040 --> 00:18:50,440 Speaker 1: has to agree to it. If you ain't got no money, 378 00:18:50,480 --> 00:18:52,359 Speaker 1: it's like, why am I giving my doors to are 379 00:18:52,440 --> 00:18:54,680 Speaker 1: broke through? That ain't happening. So you've got to stand 380 00:18:54,720 --> 00:18:57,000 Speaker 1: that they always have money. So how do you feel 381 00:18:57,040 --> 00:18:59,520 Speaker 1: like if you okay, you're in a relationship with five 382 00:18:59,560 --> 00:19:03,000 Speaker 1: women married, you have a daughter, what do you want 383 00:19:03,000 --> 00:19:05,359 Speaker 1: your daughter? The thing, well, she can be the first 384 00:19:05,400 --> 00:19:07,280 Speaker 1: or second or third, and she can see. You have 385 00:19:07,359 --> 00:19:10,600 Speaker 1: to choose. So it's not like I'm forcing these women no, 386 00:19:10,720 --> 00:19:12,720 Speaker 1: no no no. But your daughter, because now you're zing, 387 00:19:13,200 --> 00:19:15,399 Speaker 1: don't have to choose. Like what you would say, she 388 00:19:15,600 --> 00:19:21,240 Speaker 1: would you be comfortable, And that's part of the culture 389 00:19:21,280 --> 00:19:23,720 Speaker 1: you gotta do. Is she gonna be one of two? Three? 390 00:19:23,920 --> 00:19:26,240 Speaker 1: Depends on her personality. Man, if you got a daughter 391 00:19:26,240 --> 00:19:29,200 Speaker 1: that you know it's not a type a woman, you're like, yo, 392 00:19:29,280 --> 00:19:31,479 Speaker 1: you can't handle that. You gotta know your daughter. You 393 00:19:31,520 --> 00:19:34,000 Speaker 1: can't put your daughter situation she can't have. What about 394 00:19:34,000 --> 00:19:36,320 Speaker 1: an open relationship be could you be in a relationship 395 00:19:36,359 --> 00:19:38,920 Speaker 1: where she can see other people and so can you. Well, 396 00:19:38,960 --> 00:19:41,240 Speaker 1: it's gonna happen where it's like, Okay, this is her 397 00:19:41,320 --> 00:19:43,280 Speaker 1: life and so you can try to be dad and 398 00:19:43,359 --> 00:19:46,000 Speaker 1: all you want, but just her life. So she's like, Okay, 399 00:19:46,040 --> 00:19:48,600 Speaker 1: are you comfortable with this about you? Like as a 400 00:19:48,640 --> 00:19:51,800 Speaker 1: man could a man? I'm an older dude now, so 401 00:19:51,800 --> 00:19:53,760 Speaker 1: it's like you can't control people's lives, you know what 402 00:19:53,760 --> 00:19:55,600 Speaker 1: I mean. I'm about to turn five. Oh, It's like, 403 00:19:55,600 --> 00:19:58,480 Speaker 1: I understand you're gonna live your life. I can be that. 404 00:19:59,280 --> 00:20:02,200 Speaker 1: I'm not about to about your hand. I'm not gonna 405 00:20:02,680 --> 00:20:05,360 Speaker 1: live your life, but to be okay, like leg I'm 406 00:20:05,359 --> 00:20:07,520 Speaker 1: gonna do me, you do your thing. We could be together, 407 00:20:07,720 --> 00:20:12,120 Speaker 1: but at the end of the day, are you cool 408 00:20:12,160 --> 00:20:14,600 Speaker 1: with that? Dude? You're cool with your lifestyle. I'm so 409 00:20:14,800 --> 00:20:19,280 Speaker 1: damn ship. Huh. You don't have no feelings of like 410 00:20:19,400 --> 00:20:21,639 Speaker 1: you don't want that person because what if they end 411 00:20:21,720 --> 00:20:23,760 Speaker 1: up having a baby together or something. You're okay with that. 412 00:20:23,880 --> 00:20:26,399 Speaker 1: I don't want no more kids, so you are like 413 00:20:26,520 --> 00:20:28,480 Speaker 1: I was saying somebody recently and I was like, you 414 00:20:28,560 --> 00:20:30,600 Speaker 1: better you go get you a young girl, because hey, 415 00:20:30,720 --> 00:20:33,400 Speaker 1: this oven is closed. And I feel like Wendy Williams 416 00:20:33,480 --> 00:20:35,879 Speaker 1: might have thought that to me. I feel like she 417 00:20:35,960 --> 00:20:38,680 Speaker 1: might have thought that's a reality sunken and the baby came. 418 00:20:39,000 --> 00:20:42,440 Speaker 1: But always she always said that I guess I don't 419 00:20:42,440 --> 00:20:44,720 Speaker 1: know if this is out there, but that she's okay 420 00:20:44,760 --> 00:20:46,359 Speaker 1: with him doing other things as long as he didn't 421 00:20:46,400 --> 00:20:49,960 Speaker 1: have a baby and cancer Like me and cancer women, 422 00:20:50,119 --> 00:20:53,640 Speaker 1: I'm I'm more um. I have been able to tap 423 00:20:53,680 --> 00:20:56,280 Speaker 1: into my male ways more than my female ways, just 424 00:20:56,320 --> 00:20:58,160 Speaker 1: the way my life and set up. But a lot 425 00:20:58,160 --> 00:21:00,800 Speaker 1: of my close friends are cancers. Cancer women love really really, 426 00:21:00,800 --> 00:21:03,879 Speaker 1: really really hard, and cancer women want to be nurturers 427 00:21:03,920 --> 00:21:05,960 Speaker 1: and they will take a lot of ship. Like a 428 00:21:06,000 --> 00:21:07,960 Speaker 1: cancer woman is the type of woman that will that 429 00:21:08,040 --> 00:21:10,879 Speaker 1: her husband has six kids over here outside the marriage, 430 00:21:10,880 --> 00:21:13,159 Speaker 1: just so she could still say she married, you know 431 00:21:13,200 --> 00:21:15,000 Speaker 1: what I mean. And I'm not her, Like, I'm not 432 00:21:15,040 --> 00:21:17,439 Speaker 1: that girl, but I am like I could see myself 433 00:21:17,480 --> 00:21:20,400 Speaker 1: in an open relationship to the point where like I'm 434 00:21:20,400 --> 00:21:22,200 Speaker 1: so used to being single and having my own space, 435 00:21:22,240 --> 00:21:24,280 Speaker 1: Like I wouldn't be opposed to my husband living here 436 00:21:24,280 --> 00:21:27,120 Speaker 1: and I live here because you've never lived in their 437 00:21:27,119 --> 00:21:30,320 Speaker 1: open relationship. For two and a half years, it was 438 00:21:30,400 --> 00:21:36,240 Speaker 1: fine until he got another woman pregnant. That he got 439 00:21:36,240 --> 00:21:38,520 Speaker 1: her pregnant. I cared that he lied about it because 440 00:21:38,520 --> 00:21:40,280 Speaker 1: I was having a baby for him. But you get 441 00:21:40,359 --> 00:21:43,680 Speaker 1: somebody an inch, I felt like that now you laying 442 00:21:43,760 --> 00:21:45,320 Speaker 1: cheat and do what he wants. Now this nig is 443 00:21:45,359 --> 00:21:47,760 Speaker 1: gonna come with a baby like you was already able 444 00:21:47,800 --> 00:21:50,520 Speaker 1: to do whatever I was, but I was going me too, 445 00:21:50,560 --> 00:21:52,320 Speaker 1: and if I don't want a baby and I'm not 446 00:21:52,359 --> 00:21:53,840 Speaker 1: having a baby, and at the time I definitely wasn't 447 00:21:53,840 --> 00:21:55,960 Speaker 1: having a baby. But if I would have wanted to 448 00:21:55,960 --> 00:21:57,720 Speaker 1: have a baby or been pregnant by somebody else, that's 449 00:21:57,760 --> 00:21:59,080 Speaker 1: something he would have had to deal with. I had 450 00:21:59,080 --> 00:22:01,320 Speaker 1: to deal with it about your not to only because 451 00:22:01,320 --> 00:22:03,760 Speaker 1: he lied. Had he not lied to me and told me, listen, 452 00:22:03,920 --> 00:22:07,720 Speaker 1: Rebecca is pregnant exactly all right, we have it. I 453 00:22:07,720 --> 00:22:14,800 Speaker 1: think I think why he lied? No, they're not going 454 00:22:14,400 --> 00:22:16,320 Speaker 1: over why And that's why I was over And it 455 00:22:16,400 --> 00:22:20,120 Speaker 1: was like that's like that throw like like that handle 456 00:22:22,440 --> 00:22:24,760 Speaker 1: this whole lion thing, like we don't want to lose 457 00:22:24,800 --> 00:22:27,600 Speaker 1: a woman. That's that's always. I was the most honest student, 458 00:22:28,000 --> 00:22:30,640 Speaker 1: but I was brutal. Women like, you know, let's come 459 00:22:30,640 --> 00:22:32,639 Speaker 1: on my house after school, and it was like what 460 00:22:32,720 --> 00:22:35,560 Speaker 1: we're gonna do. I got some kindoms were like no, 461 00:22:35,960 --> 00:22:38,080 Speaker 1: I'm not coming in, and my friends and like what 462 00:22:38,119 --> 00:22:40,560 Speaker 1: the hell is wrong with you? Went the telling we're 463 00:22:40,560 --> 00:22:42,960 Speaker 1: gonna watch TV and you make a move, so god 464 00:22:43,359 --> 00:22:50,640 Speaker 1: you they don't want to, but I have two kindoms 465 00:22:50,680 --> 00:22:55,119 Speaker 1: left you. It was like, and you learned because I 466 00:22:55,240 --> 00:22:57,600 Speaker 1: lost out on a lot of girls for honesty, you know, 467 00:22:58,400 --> 00:23:01,960 Speaker 1: learned how to lie. You get trained, like you can't 468 00:23:01,960 --> 00:23:04,240 Speaker 1: say I think that's not fair because now you're choosing 469 00:23:04,320 --> 00:23:06,879 Speaker 1: for somebody. You know what I'm saying that I understand 470 00:23:07,240 --> 00:23:09,439 Speaker 1: it's not gonna funk with you because that's not what 471 00:23:09,560 --> 00:23:12,360 Speaker 1: they're fucking with. So now it's like you're forcing somebody 472 00:23:12,400 --> 00:23:15,240 Speaker 1: into something and that I can't respect. But as far 473 00:23:15,280 --> 00:23:18,040 Speaker 1: as with an open relationship, I feel like, like you said, 474 00:23:18,119 --> 00:23:21,040 Speaker 1: she told him no babies, that y'all laid down the law. 475 00:23:21,320 --> 00:23:24,399 Speaker 1: But to me, open relationship, I got a relationship with 476 00:23:24,480 --> 00:23:26,200 Speaker 1: other people is none of your business if I'm having 477 00:23:26,200 --> 00:23:27,920 Speaker 1: a baby with somebody else. So you feel like I 478 00:23:27,960 --> 00:23:29,879 Speaker 1: don't even have to tell you. I mean it's open 479 00:23:30,160 --> 00:23:32,600 Speaker 1: because like what I got over here with dumb in school. See. 480 00:23:32,640 --> 00:23:35,080 Speaker 1: And then I feel like because even its celebrities and 481 00:23:35,119 --> 00:23:36,600 Speaker 1: you know, just two different people that say they are 482 00:23:36,600 --> 00:23:39,200 Speaker 1: in open relationship. But I think the rules apply because 483 00:23:39,240 --> 00:23:41,840 Speaker 1: even on like Housewives of Atlanta. I think the girl 484 00:23:41,920 --> 00:23:44,159 Speaker 1: was saying that her and the one that's married to 485 00:23:44,200 --> 00:23:47,160 Speaker 1: the bill Bibs of God, we're saying that they sort 486 00:23:47,160 --> 00:23:49,800 Speaker 1: of like an open relationship. But it's a double standard. 487 00:23:49,840 --> 00:23:52,520 Speaker 1: It's like a nigga want you to bring a girl in, 488 00:23:52,600 --> 00:23:55,359 Speaker 1: so y'all could do y'all thing, but God forbid she 489 00:23:55,440 --> 00:23:57,959 Speaker 1: want to go do her thing. Rather's with a man 490 00:23:58,119 --> 00:24:00,040 Speaker 1: or a woman like that. Guy can't never say I 491 00:24:00,080 --> 00:24:01,760 Speaker 1: can't get the safety of it, you know what I mean. 492 00:24:01,800 --> 00:24:03,800 Speaker 1: I was at Howard University and I had a girl 493 00:24:03,880 --> 00:24:05,920 Speaker 1: and said, you know, you can do them as long 494 00:24:05,960 --> 00:24:09,480 Speaker 1: as you use a condom with them' see come on, 495 00:24:09,640 --> 00:24:13,240 Speaker 1: but you say, okay, and that condoms that everybody. Be honest, 496 00:24:13,280 --> 00:24:15,640 Speaker 1: you didn't use a condom with everybody. She said that. 497 00:24:15,680 --> 00:24:17,240 Speaker 1: I was like, you know what I mean, Like, whoa, 498 00:24:17,359 --> 00:24:19,200 Speaker 1: you know what I mean? So you still have a 499 00:24:19,240 --> 00:24:21,240 Speaker 1: give and take with that, because now if you're doing 500 00:24:21,280 --> 00:24:23,960 Speaker 1: everybody wrong, yeah, that's you got it right. That's just 501 00:24:24,040 --> 00:24:26,200 Speaker 1: it still always gonna be a double standard. Like men, 502 00:24:26,720 --> 00:24:29,240 Speaker 1: even if open relationship on the table, we all know 503 00:24:29,320 --> 00:24:32,280 Speaker 1: what we're gonna do. The woman is always is always 504 00:24:32,280 --> 00:24:34,800 Speaker 1: going to be different for the woman. Well, let's talk 505 00:24:34,800 --> 00:24:37,000 Speaker 1: about double standards for a second. Right, let's talk about 506 00:24:37,040 --> 00:24:42,640 Speaker 1: men taking care of women and women being into materialistic things. Girl. Yes, 507 00:24:44,400 --> 00:24:46,879 Speaker 1: so ladies, and I want to hear this has ever 508 00:24:46,920 --> 00:24:49,280 Speaker 1: happened for you on Mark? Would you be okay with 509 00:24:49,280 --> 00:24:52,800 Speaker 1: taking care of a man financially? Absolutely not. I feel 510 00:24:52,880 --> 00:24:56,480 Speaker 1: like at this age, at thirty something, I can't date 511 00:24:56,480 --> 00:24:58,760 Speaker 1: a man that's almost about to become whoever he is, 512 00:24:59,000 --> 00:25:00,879 Speaker 1: like he definitely has some already know he want when 513 00:25:00,920 --> 00:25:02,720 Speaker 1: he want to be when he grow up and be real, 514 00:25:02,800 --> 00:25:05,240 Speaker 1: stern and already on that path. Let's be clear. We 515 00:25:05,320 --> 00:25:07,920 Speaker 1: lived together, and we together and I'm rolling and I'm 516 00:25:07,920 --> 00:25:09,600 Speaker 1: doing my thing, and you don't pour it into me, 517 00:25:09,680 --> 00:25:12,440 Speaker 1: and everything is gravy and God forbid something happening. Whatever 518 00:25:12,480 --> 00:25:14,800 Speaker 1: you do it, don't do normal. That's what I'm saying. 519 00:25:15,640 --> 00:25:17,760 Speaker 1: I would pay the bill because I'm not gonna be homeless. 520 00:25:18,040 --> 00:25:20,240 Speaker 1: But you can't go as a woman. You can't go 521 00:25:20,280 --> 00:25:23,480 Speaker 1: into a situation with a god like I'm rich. Baby, 522 00:25:23,520 --> 00:25:25,400 Speaker 1: I'm gonna be your sugar mama, because what you're thinking, 523 00:25:25,480 --> 00:25:27,680 Speaker 1: I wouldn't say that, but I'm just saying, if you 524 00:25:27,720 --> 00:25:29,200 Speaker 1: would you be with a guy who had less than you, 525 00:25:29,280 --> 00:25:31,000 Speaker 1: that you had to hold a lot more down. No, 526 00:25:31,080 --> 00:25:35,359 Speaker 1: he would still have to be the person. I know 527 00:25:35,440 --> 00:25:37,639 Speaker 1: it may be, but I feel like a man that 528 00:25:37,680 --> 00:25:39,440 Speaker 1: is supposed to be a protector and the provider. Because 529 00:25:39,480 --> 00:25:40,800 Speaker 1: if that's the case, like I live in a big 530 00:25:40,800 --> 00:25:42,600 Speaker 1: house with my family and my kids, I can say 531 00:25:42,720 --> 00:25:44,840 Speaker 1: right there, So have you ever had a woman take 532 00:25:44,840 --> 00:25:51,440 Speaker 1: care of you? I'm a hustler, I'm a I'm a hustler. Whatever. 533 00:25:51,480 --> 00:25:53,800 Speaker 1: The women that have more than you, yeah, I always had, 534 00:25:53,800 --> 00:25:55,919 Speaker 1: she could have more money than me. But that doesn't 535 00:25:55,960 --> 00:25:58,520 Speaker 1: work because then she starts looking at you that way. Yeah, 536 00:25:58,640 --> 00:26:01,760 Speaker 1: Like it's just don't work. It's like ego, she gotta 537 00:26:01,800 --> 00:26:04,000 Speaker 1: go with a duty, got more so I backed down, like, yeah, 538 00:26:04,040 --> 00:26:05,919 Speaker 1: you need more money, you know what I mean. It's 539 00:26:05,960 --> 00:26:09,040 Speaker 1: just awkward, I think for a managing ego. Because I 540 00:26:09,080 --> 00:26:11,919 Speaker 1: always say that because if you notice, even like if 541 00:26:11,960 --> 00:26:15,520 Speaker 1: we didn't talk about the Windy William situation, obviously she's 542 00:26:15,560 --> 00:26:18,040 Speaker 1: the bread winner and so he's dogg and dog and 543 00:26:18,119 --> 00:26:20,600 Speaker 1: dog and dogging because his ego has already been bruised 544 00:26:20,600 --> 00:26:24,960 Speaker 1: from day one. You think that's why, I mean, because 545 00:26:25,000 --> 00:26:28,000 Speaker 1: you think he just wanted to cheap, because all men 546 00:26:28,040 --> 00:26:30,960 Speaker 1: cheap period. I feel like that there's some compassion that 547 00:26:31,320 --> 00:26:34,280 Speaker 1: is emotional or how do you find it's not it's 548 00:26:34,320 --> 00:26:37,280 Speaker 1: not hard to understand. It's like I haven't had her. 549 00:26:38,800 --> 00:26:43,760 Speaker 1: Try her. Yeah, y'all make it all complicated. It's like 550 00:26:44,240 --> 00:26:47,399 Speaker 1: I haven't had her. I wondered if she feels different 551 00:26:47,480 --> 00:26:56,400 Speaker 1: she sounds You would say, all men cheat and some capacity, 552 00:26:56,960 --> 00:26:59,160 Speaker 1: and you still have to have that, you know one 553 00:26:59,320 --> 00:27:03,719 Speaker 1: you know what I mean. You know what I mean, 554 00:27:04,000 --> 00:27:05,800 Speaker 1: Like angels, do you think cheating? It's like if your 555 00:27:05,800 --> 00:27:07,919 Speaker 1: sons is out, if the guy is out on vacation 556 00:27:07,960 --> 00:27:09,840 Speaker 1: with his like, okay, say you want a committed relationship, 557 00:27:09,920 --> 00:27:11,920 Speaker 1: you guy he out he in Vegas with his friends. 558 00:27:11,920 --> 00:27:14,280 Speaker 1: They turn it up and like it's cheating, like him 559 00:27:14,600 --> 00:27:19,040 Speaker 1: being the one that paid the girl. Now that's not 560 00:27:20,600 --> 00:27:22,959 Speaker 1: that's not cheating. But you know some girls think that 561 00:27:22,960 --> 00:27:25,160 Speaker 1: that's No, I don't look at that as cheating. Okay, 562 00:27:25,200 --> 00:27:30,280 Speaker 1: if he got it like that, but others are you saying, 563 00:27:30,320 --> 00:27:32,280 Speaker 1: the dude go out on a vacation and something like that, 564 00:27:32,320 --> 00:27:35,399 Speaker 1: ain't cheating if he like and because you know, some 565 00:27:35,440 --> 00:27:38,960 Speaker 1: people got real very strict rules for like my man 566 00:27:39,119 --> 00:27:41,240 Speaker 1: can't pay the tab. My son is sixteen, and I 567 00:27:41,320 --> 00:27:43,359 Speaker 1: teach my son, if you meet a young lady and 568 00:27:43,359 --> 00:27:45,280 Speaker 1: she all with her girlfriends and you come to the venue, 569 00:27:45,520 --> 00:27:47,880 Speaker 1: you have to pay for their ship, right, like saying 570 00:27:47,880 --> 00:27:49,800 Speaker 1: that if my man was on vacation and base with 571 00:27:49,840 --> 00:27:51,640 Speaker 1: his boys and then there was a group of girls 572 00:27:51,640 --> 00:27:54,840 Speaker 1: at the table and he paid their tab, is that cheating? No, 573 00:27:55,119 --> 00:27:57,800 Speaker 1: that's not that's I don't think that as a hustle, 574 00:27:57,960 --> 00:28:00,439 Speaker 1: Like what the hell are you going to? You know, 575 00:28:00,520 --> 00:28:02,680 Speaker 1: but that's not cheat But some girls, like I talked 576 00:28:02,680 --> 00:28:04,720 Speaker 1: to females that feel like, like like I know women, but 577 00:28:04,760 --> 00:28:06,560 Speaker 1: I always be telling them, that's why you cheat on 578 00:28:06,560 --> 00:28:08,760 Speaker 1: you because you two extras. Now, I feel like that's 579 00:28:08,800 --> 00:28:13,919 Speaker 1: a gateway drug to cheating because then he got money 580 00:28:14,000 --> 00:28:20,760 Speaker 1: and pay for that's another way tonight. That's not using 581 00:28:20,840 --> 00:28:24,520 Speaker 1: that's what you have that kind of GUSTA teach my 582 00:28:24,560 --> 00:28:28,440 Speaker 1: son thinking, my boyfriend would never do that if y'all 583 00:28:28,440 --> 00:28:32,560 Speaker 1: all out and like friends come, wouldn't you. Like I 584 00:28:32,640 --> 00:28:34,440 Speaker 1: tell my son that he's sixteen, and I'm like, if 585 00:28:34,520 --> 00:28:36,960 Speaker 1: you meet a girl somewhere, like what your son say 586 00:28:36,960 --> 00:28:39,280 Speaker 1: to that he just taking it all in. He's sixteen, 587 00:28:39,360 --> 00:28:41,640 Speaker 1: but he's not like my son is like a nerd 588 00:28:41,760 --> 00:28:44,960 Speaker 1: give money like you know, she got to because well 589 00:28:45,000 --> 00:28:49,240 Speaker 1: else he getting him to pay for just I'm just 590 00:28:49,240 --> 00:28:54,000 Speaker 1: teaching him. He's girl y' y'are ordering like three he 591 00:28:54,760 --> 00:29:01,080 Speaker 1: likes doing if you're not out with your little best friend, 592 00:29:01,200 --> 00:29:06,960 Speaker 1: his little best girlfriend. If you are, I mean, but 593 00:29:07,000 --> 00:29:08,760 Speaker 1: even if you're like dating a girl like I feel 594 00:29:08,800 --> 00:29:12,640 Speaker 1: because I'm used to guys doing that, you never fill 595 00:29:12,680 --> 00:29:16,200 Speaker 1: it off and we say no humps. Remember that for 596 00:29:16,280 --> 00:29:18,120 Speaker 1: all those people don't know. I mean, my grub is 597 00:29:18,160 --> 00:29:21,440 Speaker 1: my grub. I'm not sharing with nobody, so you don't 598 00:29:21,440 --> 00:29:25,600 Speaker 1: remember that my store like no humps. I'm not giving 599 00:29:25,680 --> 00:29:28,680 Speaker 1: up nothing. So you're showing your son go ahead for ever. 600 00:29:29,400 --> 00:29:32,280 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, Like if you man, if 601 00:29:32,320 --> 00:29:34,560 Speaker 1: there's women at the table, I feel like because there's 602 00:29:34,640 --> 00:29:36,880 Speaker 1: nothing better than when you like I with your girlfriend 603 00:29:37,200 --> 00:29:40,040 Speaker 1: and they pay the bill. Yeah said, you never gonna 604 00:29:40,040 --> 00:29:45,440 Speaker 1: paid the bill for a table of girls. So I'm 605 00:29:45,480 --> 00:29:48,720 Speaker 1: gonna give you a scenario. I'm I'm pushing away, so 606 00:29:48,840 --> 00:29:51,040 Speaker 1: we're just gonna give you a hungry So we all 607 00:29:51,080 --> 00:29:53,480 Speaker 1: hanging out at t J Fridays TJ I Friday's the 608 00:29:53,480 --> 00:29:56,600 Speaker 1: country're having some drinks and you and Selim come through 609 00:29:56,640 --> 00:29:58,240 Speaker 1: on your way to the parking garage, and y'all see 610 00:29:58,280 --> 00:29:59,680 Speaker 1: us at the board having drinks and come to side 611 00:29:59,760 --> 00:30:01,400 Speaker 1: to a drink with us. Y'all not gonna pick up 612 00:30:01,440 --> 00:30:06,800 Speaker 1: the pad. Selene can pick up. I'm not Selene, you're 613 00:30:06,840 --> 00:30:10,480 Speaker 1: picking up cool and you're all going one way. Omar sheet, 614 00:30:10,480 --> 00:30:12,120 Speaker 1: I'm gonna say, Omar, I never said he was gonna 615 00:30:12,240 --> 00:30:18,520 Speaker 1: he is at airy. Did y'all hear that? Yeah, I'm 616 00:30:19,440 --> 00:30:21,800 Speaker 1: not doing that because if I didn't come to the party, 617 00:30:21,800 --> 00:30:23,200 Speaker 1: I don't even know you. I'm not I don't even 618 00:30:23,240 --> 00:30:28,520 Speaker 1: know you ain't doing that. You got the wrong dude. 619 00:30:29,800 --> 00:30:31,440 Speaker 1: And so that's why a lot of girls that try 620 00:30:31,480 --> 00:30:35,400 Speaker 1: to check, they don't do that. You bronna take care 621 00:30:35,440 --> 00:30:41,040 Speaker 1: of you because it is a week when you like, 622 00:30:41,920 --> 00:30:44,480 Speaker 1: I'm not getting old mar so you already know. So 623 00:30:44,600 --> 00:30:46,280 Speaker 1: I never could get with him. That's why I wrote 624 00:30:46,280 --> 00:30:48,360 Speaker 1: the book Fly. I couldn't get with them kind of girls. 625 00:30:48,400 --> 00:30:49,960 Speaker 1: And they already knew, like, you want to pay for 626 00:30:50,120 --> 00:30:53,880 Speaker 1: his stuff? You want to do area I got there 627 00:30:53,920 --> 00:30:55,920 Speaker 1: that you know, he's like, look dude, and the screenplayer, 628 00:30:55,920 --> 00:30:57,840 Speaker 1: I pushed it even more, like, yo, you want me 629 00:30:57,880 --> 00:30:59,680 Speaker 1: to buy this. You already know what time it is 630 00:30:59,760 --> 00:31:02,320 Speaker 1: with me. Let's just say that you were out with 631 00:31:02,400 --> 00:31:05,800 Speaker 1: a young lady. But y'all like friends, not even dating 632 00:31:05,920 --> 00:31:08,320 Speaker 1: or nothing like that. You would pay for her to eat, right, Yeah, 633 00:31:08,360 --> 00:31:12,320 Speaker 1: we're friends just like okay, but I'm a whole table 634 00:31:12,400 --> 00:31:15,360 Speaker 1: for the girls. I don't know, man, unless just if 635 00:31:15,400 --> 00:31:24,480 Speaker 1: you know, I'm a spurge Fridays, just four people at Fridays. 636 00:31:24,640 --> 00:31:29,600 Speaker 1: You think like, yeah, he said, unless I hit the lottery, 637 00:31:29,680 --> 00:31:32,680 Speaker 1: that a hunted dollars. You don't need to hit the lottery. 638 00:31:34,040 --> 00:31:35,800 Speaker 1: But that's a reas though I got two boy cousins. 639 00:31:35,880 --> 00:31:37,560 Speaker 1: That's a reason. They just like that. Now let's talk 640 00:31:37,560 --> 00:31:40,400 Speaker 1: about this. You know, there was something about watching him 641 00:31:40,440 --> 00:31:43,200 Speaker 1: pound on another bitch, bending her over and gliding his 642 00:31:43,240 --> 00:31:45,360 Speaker 1: penis inside her. Watching him in action became one of 643 00:31:45,440 --> 00:31:47,680 Speaker 1: my favorite things to do. Last night was no different, 644 00:31:47,800 --> 00:31:50,200 Speaker 1: well maybe a little different. And then you talk about 645 00:31:50,600 --> 00:31:53,680 Speaker 1: your best friend. So wait, let me say something. Before 646 00:31:53,720 --> 00:31:57,080 Speaker 1: you I was reading this like, wait a minute, this 647 00:31:57,520 --> 00:32:02,200 Speaker 1: be girl on. I had to be I've had to 648 00:32:02,240 --> 00:32:05,480 Speaker 1: be m now. It didn't get to where it went 649 00:32:05,600 --> 00:32:07,840 Speaker 1: when you guys, but we all had well we all don't. 650 00:32:07,840 --> 00:32:09,640 Speaker 1: I don't know about everybody, but I've had a guy 651 00:32:09,720 --> 00:32:11,840 Speaker 1: who I was just friends with that we had casual 652 00:32:11,920 --> 00:32:15,040 Speaker 1: sex and I knew about. We talked about everything that 653 00:32:15,120 --> 00:32:17,800 Speaker 1: he had going on in his sexual life with his 654 00:32:17,920 --> 00:32:20,520 Speaker 1: big mama and other girls and blah blah blah, and 655 00:32:20,560 --> 00:32:24,280 Speaker 1: it never bothered me. So there's a part in after 656 00:32:24,360 --> 00:32:27,680 Speaker 1: this where it's so basically he was Yeah, he was 657 00:32:27,800 --> 00:32:31,160 Speaker 1: with like basically like one of my closest girl friends 658 00:32:31,240 --> 00:32:32,960 Speaker 1: or whatever. I think we started off as just like 659 00:32:33,240 --> 00:32:36,240 Speaker 1: regular friends, like people, and you know how Philly talk, 660 00:32:36,440 --> 00:32:38,360 Speaker 1: so I will always catch the case like I know you, 661 00:32:39,040 --> 00:32:40,960 Speaker 1: I know you. I'm like, no, I'm not. So just 662 00:32:41,040 --> 00:32:43,800 Speaker 1: like one day we was like and it just was 663 00:32:43,960 --> 00:32:46,120 Speaker 1: we both the same sign, so it just was magical, 664 00:32:46,320 --> 00:32:49,760 Speaker 1: like goddamn, like some real bomb no strings that had sex. 665 00:32:50,040 --> 00:32:53,400 Speaker 1: So basically like it went from that to him like 666 00:32:53,520 --> 00:32:55,680 Speaker 1: calling me like, oh, I'm with such a starchly she 667 00:32:55,880 --> 00:32:59,080 Speaker 1: was like, Tina is so fucking sexy, like I wonder, 668 00:32:59,400 --> 00:33:01,360 Speaker 1: And then we were have little three somethings, like random 669 00:33:01,360 --> 00:33:03,480 Speaker 1: little threesomes with his random little chicks, and it didn't 670 00:33:03,480 --> 00:33:06,600 Speaker 1: bother me. Because like in in a sense sexually, I'm 671 00:33:06,640 --> 00:33:08,800 Speaker 1: like always I like to be in control, so I 672 00:33:08,880 --> 00:33:12,040 Speaker 1: was able to control the situation. But that particular time 673 00:33:12,480 --> 00:33:15,760 Speaker 1: that I talked about in penetration, it was his baby mom, 674 00:33:16,880 --> 00:33:20,000 Speaker 1: and I think, like even now to this day, like 675 00:33:20,080 --> 00:33:22,640 Speaker 1: I'm very I hate that I let our relationship get 676 00:33:22,680 --> 00:33:26,000 Speaker 1: to that point because when it comes to her, it's 677 00:33:26,000 --> 00:33:28,360 Speaker 1: not that I don't like I'm not. It's not a jealousy. 678 00:33:28,840 --> 00:33:30,720 Speaker 1: It's just like Nigga, like how you had these kids 679 00:33:30,800 --> 00:33:35,520 Speaker 1: with her and not with me. Feeling That's that's the thing. 680 00:33:35,560 --> 00:33:38,000 Speaker 1: It's sex with When I read that part of the book, 681 00:33:38,000 --> 00:33:39,800 Speaker 1: it's like you didn't know you had feelers until that 682 00:33:40,320 --> 00:33:42,560 Speaker 1: that moment. I feel like when I had that three 683 00:33:42,640 --> 00:33:46,440 Speaker 1: something with him and his baby mom, that's when I 684 00:33:46,480 --> 00:33:48,040 Speaker 1: knew I loved him and that I let the ship 685 00:33:48,120 --> 00:33:51,000 Speaker 1: go too far because I heard about all his stories 686 00:33:51,480 --> 00:33:57,360 Speaker 1: to her and now you love making sacks because everybody 687 00:33:57,480 --> 00:34:00,240 Speaker 1: was to me, we were still engaged. She was sir, 688 00:34:01,440 --> 00:34:03,480 Speaker 1: So you didn't at touch him at all, like I 689 00:34:03,640 --> 00:34:05,480 Speaker 1: kind of like made it gave him head a little bit, 690 00:34:05,560 --> 00:34:10,360 Speaker 1: but it wasn't he did not he showed basically it 691 00:34:10,480 --> 00:34:13,560 Speaker 1: wasn't I think that because like we had had we 692 00:34:13,680 --> 00:34:15,600 Speaker 1: have had to talk talks about it because the bitch 693 00:34:15,760 --> 00:34:17,600 Speaker 1: was requested to have three more than that, and I 694 00:34:17,680 --> 00:34:19,560 Speaker 1: was just like, I'm not doing it because what I'm 695 00:34:19,600 --> 00:34:22,359 Speaker 1: not gonna do is I'm not gonna be sitting there 696 00:34:22,440 --> 00:34:24,360 Speaker 1: acting like because you like in that situation, like I 697 00:34:24,440 --> 00:34:26,359 Speaker 1: had to kind of act like we never did it before. 698 00:34:26,400 --> 00:34:28,160 Speaker 1: So if he fucked you, would you have been I 699 00:34:28,440 --> 00:34:30,919 Speaker 1: would have felt better. So what are you gonna say, Alma? 700 00:34:31,440 --> 00:34:33,320 Speaker 1: I was going to ask you was a woman like 701 00:34:33,480 --> 00:34:37,440 Speaker 1: you less attractive or I never thought I'm not sexually 702 00:34:37,480 --> 00:34:40,080 Speaker 1: attracted to her. But I think it was my relationship 703 00:34:40,160 --> 00:34:42,920 Speaker 1: with him that made me even do it, because I 704 00:34:43,120 --> 00:34:45,160 Speaker 1: really remember being in a parking lot like, bitch, you 705 00:34:45,200 --> 00:34:47,680 Speaker 1: should just leave, but I was like I don't wanna, like, 706 00:34:47,880 --> 00:34:50,120 Speaker 1: let me just go see what's gonna happen, because I 707 00:34:50,160 --> 00:34:52,160 Speaker 1: didn't know how he was gonna And in my mind, 708 00:34:52,239 --> 00:34:54,799 Speaker 1: I'm like, we always had three somethings like and they 709 00:34:54,920 --> 00:34:57,040 Speaker 1: always mad popping, like I didn't think it was gonna 710 00:34:57,080 --> 00:34:59,239 Speaker 1: be like any different from another, no different, but with 711 00:34:59,440 --> 00:35:01,600 Speaker 1: her it was. And then what it did was it 712 00:35:01,680 --> 00:35:03,520 Speaker 1: made like so much like, I don't have sex with 713 00:35:03,640 --> 00:35:06,360 Speaker 1: him in her apartment, in her fucking bed. So I'm like, 714 00:35:06,840 --> 00:35:11,319 Speaker 1: I ain't gonna get here, and you're gonna realized I'm 715 00:35:11,360 --> 00:35:12,800 Speaker 1: not gonna say here. We didn't gonna sit here and 716 00:35:12,800 --> 00:35:15,440 Speaker 1: act like did y'all ever have a three seven him? 717 00:35:15,520 --> 00:35:17,719 Speaker 1: Not fuck the girl that you hadn't say someone? So 718 00:35:17,920 --> 00:35:21,040 Speaker 1: that's what it was now. She was a reverse like 719 00:35:21,160 --> 00:35:25,120 Speaker 1: he was trying to like save her feeling, right, because 720 00:35:25,200 --> 00:35:27,520 Speaker 1: not for nothing when we do have sex, it's like 721 00:35:27,719 --> 00:35:30,440 Speaker 1: intensely because she didn't know that y'all were already having 722 00:35:32,239 --> 00:35:36,239 Speaker 1: the first off everybody, right, she was like they was wrong. 723 00:35:36,400 --> 00:35:39,040 Speaker 1: They was all they was doing anything and then supposed 724 00:35:39,080 --> 00:35:45,319 Speaker 1: it was. It was so not know what that y'all 725 00:35:45,320 --> 00:35:47,839 Speaker 1: already had and I mean we we was already having 726 00:35:47,920 --> 00:35:51,799 Speaker 1: sex for years before this happened. It's just such this thing. 727 00:35:51,840 --> 00:35:54,000 Speaker 1: It's sex with no strings attached because people always say 728 00:35:54,040 --> 00:35:56,720 Speaker 1: that we had sex for years with no strings attached, 729 00:35:56,760 --> 00:35:58,800 Speaker 1: but clearly that that was a string. I think the 730 00:35:58,880 --> 00:36:01,320 Speaker 1: string got attached that night, right like, but it was 731 00:36:01,360 --> 00:36:05,520 Speaker 1: a task before that. It was because I talk about 732 00:36:06,040 --> 00:36:09,319 Speaker 1: string was attached. It was the first time I would 733 00:36:09,400 --> 00:36:11,880 Speaker 1: have to you know it because really, whenever you have 734 00:36:12,000 --> 00:36:13,920 Speaker 1: sex with it, you've been into that place. What it 735 00:36:14,080 --> 00:36:15,640 Speaker 1: is you know? You can't you know, I've been in 736 00:36:15,680 --> 00:36:18,359 Speaker 1: that girl fifty times. You can't say that I've been 737 00:36:18,640 --> 00:36:22,200 Speaker 1: you've been inside her. That's it's not a strange. That 738 00:36:22,440 --> 00:36:24,880 Speaker 1: is an attachment. That's what playboys do, you know what 739 00:36:24,960 --> 00:36:27,000 Speaker 1: I mean? Like they forget your name, but they know 740 00:36:27,120 --> 00:36:29,120 Speaker 1: I had her. That's in you. That ain't know a 741 00:36:29,200 --> 00:36:34,919 Speaker 1: strange attached. That is an attachment, penetration, that's realtration. In fact, 742 00:36:34,920 --> 00:36:38,160 Speaker 1: I like that because I'm a penetrator to mentally, I'm penetrated. 743 00:36:38,200 --> 00:36:40,439 Speaker 1: I'm a avery, So I'm trying to penetrate your mind. 744 00:36:43,440 --> 00:36:46,000 Speaker 1: So it's like the reason why I right, I want 745 00:36:46,040 --> 00:36:49,040 Speaker 1: to penetrate your mind, So I use the same words 746 00:36:50,280 --> 00:36:53,160 Speaker 1: your that to be there. It ain't no you know, 747 00:36:53,280 --> 00:36:55,440 Speaker 1: no stranger attached. Did you like my book? Did you 748 00:36:55,520 --> 00:37:00,880 Speaker 1: read my book? Did you read your mind? And but 749 00:37:01,000 --> 00:37:04,200 Speaker 1: in your generation, like when this out, that's what y'all 750 00:37:04,280 --> 00:37:06,279 Speaker 1: was able to do, like even on it, like on 751 00:37:06,400 --> 00:37:08,480 Speaker 1: the writing, like business side, like as a woman, like 752 00:37:08,600 --> 00:37:11,799 Speaker 1: now I'm trying to get into like in my mind, 753 00:37:11,880 --> 00:37:13,880 Speaker 1: like I feel like I want to be legendary, like 754 00:37:13,920 --> 00:37:16,319 Speaker 1: I want people to say these books change my life. 755 00:37:16,320 --> 00:37:20,080 Speaker 1: Where there is this how y'all was, But it's harder now. 756 00:37:20,560 --> 00:37:27,000 Speaker 1: It's harder than definitely people not reading put it down 757 00:37:27,080 --> 00:37:29,160 Speaker 1: at the time I opened it. I'm straight cocky with 758 00:37:29,320 --> 00:37:31,759 Speaker 1: social media, like y'all could be on social media or 759 00:37:31,800 --> 00:37:34,080 Speaker 1: you want, but you want to like when people be 760 00:37:34,120 --> 00:37:35,440 Speaker 1: acting like they don't want to read, I'm like, read 761 00:37:35,440 --> 00:37:37,200 Speaker 1: the first page. You know what I'm gonna tell you. 762 00:37:37,239 --> 00:37:39,279 Speaker 1: So I'm gonna tell you something. Books are the most 763 00:37:39,400 --> 00:37:41,680 Speaker 1: intimate art form. I'm gonna tell you what. When you 764 00:37:41,760 --> 00:37:44,040 Speaker 1: go to the movies, you're talking trash to the movie. 765 00:37:44,080 --> 00:37:45,920 Speaker 1: I would do this, and I would do that. When 766 00:37:45,960 --> 00:37:49,400 Speaker 1: you listen to music, you're vibing when you become engaging 767 00:37:49,480 --> 00:37:51,440 Speaker 1: your mind. Brothers don't read when you read it, but 768 00:37:51,520 --> 00:37:55,399 Speaker 1: it's no lying you're reading it like damn, because there's 769 00:37:55,400 --> 00:38:02,080 Speaker 1: no it's bad. But that's what I don't like. That's 770 00:38:02,120 --> 00:38:03,880 Speaker 1: where I was with Penetration, Like I'm gonna be so 771 00:38:04,080 --> 00:38:06,879 Speaker 1: transparent because every female to read this book to feel 772 00:38:06,880 --> 00:38:09,439 Speaker 1: like damn, I did that should have been here before. 773 00:38:11,800 --> 00:38:14,839 Speaker 1: It may not tell you reading that book that oh 774 00:38:14,920 --> 00:38:20,880 Speaker 1: my gosh, you know me, oh my god and everything. 775 00:38:21,239 --> 00:38:24,719 Speaker 1: I like reading books really, and I said, you know, 776 00:38:24,760 --> 00:38:27,600 Speaker 1: I still read all the time, so at the book club. Yeah, 777 00:38:28,600 --> 00:38:31,719 Speaker 1: and the book club. And I'm not a master for 778 00:38:31,760 --> 00:38:34,440 Speaker 1: the New York Public Library. I loved that though, because 779 00:38:34,520 --> 00:38:37,200 Speaker 1: if we don't read, how you gonna know? Like the 780 00:38:37,239 --> 00:38:42,080 Speaker 1: audio is cool, it's crazy. Need to hold it in 781 00:38:42,160 --> 00:38:45,560 Speaker 1: my hand. I got my put out the screenplay for Floger. 782 00:38:45,600 --> 00:38:48,000 Speaker 1: It's excellent. You get in Amazon, you get it Barns 783 00:38:48,000 --> 00:38:50,279 Speaker 1: and Nobles. I book right now. I had twenty one 784 00:38:50,360 --> 00:38:53,920 Speaker 1: girls auditioned for Succines. One dude, and I know it's 785 00:38:53,920 --> 00:39:00,600 Speaker 1: they don't read. Yeah, no, corny dude. We're talking feeling right. 786 00:39:01,080 --> 00:39:03,799 Speaker 1: The dudes as cool as ever. Dudes won't read nothing 787 00:39:04,360 --> 00:39:07,279 Speaker 1: I got to read. So now I'm thinking, how can 788 00:39:07,360 --> 00:39:09,799 Speaker 1: I cast the dude who won't screening. I'm not gonna 789 00:39:09,960 --> 00:39:13,200 Speaker 1: spoon feeds you that. You gotta know you gotta be 790 00:39:13,480 --> 00:39:16,960 Speaker 1: locking yourself out of the job because you I'm not. 791 00:39:17,560 --> 00:39:19,520 Speaker 1: You won't be showing up trying to read the script. 792 00:39:19,640 --> 00:39:23,280 Speaker 1: You hopefully read the script to you and read my script. 793 00:39:23,520 --> 00:39:27,359 Speaker 1: That's crazy, like thirty years or like that's sick man, 794 00:39:27,480 --> 00:39:29,920 Speaker 1: like your brothers pissed me off with that, and again 795 00:39:29,960 --> 00:39:32,480 Speaker 1: I'm a Philadelphia so I get in your face, like, yo, dude, 796 00:39:32,480 --> 00:39:34,239 Speaker 1: you don't read, and you're gonna try to act like 797 00:39:34,320 --> 00:39:37,120 Speaker 1: it's cool. Like they apologize all the time. I ain't 798 00:39:37,160 --> 00:39:40,279 Speaker 1: read it, but something every time they meet me, I 799 00:39:40,400 --> 00:39:42,759 Speaker 1: want apologize. I don't read much. I'm like cool man, 800 00:39:42,880 --> 00:39:49,359 Speaker 1: just it's you even say that I think it's very 801 00:39:49,760 --> 00:39:53,719 Speaker 1: not think it's very sexy, you know, and something like yo, 802 00:39:53,960 --> 00:39:56,080 Speaker 1: I don't write girls stuff. You just need to read more. 803 00:39:56,200 --> 00:39:58,560 Speaker 1: I actually wrote more masculine books, but of course they 804 00:39:58,640 --> 00:40:01,520 Speaker 1: sell less. I'm know a lot of guys every books 805 00:40:01,560 --> 00:40:09,640 Speaker 1: with Darren Jail Jail I can't read when you're free, yeah, 806 00:40:10,280 --> 00:40:16,800 Speaker 1: because then they get out there. I was shocked, like guys, 807 00:40:16,880 --> 00:40:18,840 Speaker 1: like a lot of guys like I was getting like 808 00:40:19,000 --> 00:40:21,000 Speaker 1: my uncle. My uncle was like close to my age, 809 00:40:21,280 --> 00:40:23,239 Speaker 1: my great uncle, but he was like where the book 810 00:40:23,400 --> 00:40:25,200 Speaker 1: because my homes was like this the book. You gotta 811 00:40:25,239 --> 00:40:31,399 Speaker 1: keeping your car first. When I first opened the book, 812 00:40:31,440 --> 00:40:33,359 Speaker 1: from the first encounter you had with the first guy, 813 00:40:33,400 --> 00:40:37,279 Speaker 1: think you called them checks? Yeah, girl, it was a 814 00:40:37,360 --> 00:40:41,480 Speaker 1: double edged dial though involved in this first story. So 815 00:40:41,640 --> 00:40:43,920 Speaker 1: from that point on, I was like, yes, I got 816 00:40:44,000 --> 00:40:48,000 Speaker 1: to keep reading because that's coming first. I mean, next girl, 817 00:40:48,280 --> 00:40:52,160 Speaker 1: But it is crazy exactly. My point, life is crazy. 818 00:40:52,760 --> 00:40:55,040 Speaker 1: What if it wasn't sexual when you kept reading it. 819 00:40:55,440 --> 00:40:57,200 Speaker 1: I mean, Flagger wasn't sexually and I read it the 820 00:40:57,239 --> 00:40:59,239 Speaker 1: same way from the beginning and the beginning she was 821 00:40:59,280 --> 00:41:04,640 Speaker 1: at her birthday party, right, that's that's so cerebral, grow 822 00:41:04,719 --> 00:41:09,839 Speaker 1: being come on, but she was a little girl. Yeah, yeah, 823 00:41:10,120 --> 00:41:12,560 Speaker 1: a little girl, and we wanted it just crazy grow 824 00:41:12,680 --> 00:41:14,920 Speaker 1: up and becoming your mar started reading a book. It 825 00:41:15,080 --> 00:41:17,040 Speaker 1: is so important what you put in those first few pages. 826 00:41:17,080 --> 00:41:18,800 Speaker 1: That's gonna make you say I want this book or 827 00:41:19,040 --> 00:41:21,279 Speaker 1: I'm not interested. Because our attention spans I felt like 828 00:41:21,640 --> 00:41:24,040 Speaker 1: especially name like now like I wish like I wish 829 00:41:24,080 --> 00:41:27,279 Speaker 1: I couldna put all volumes in one, But now it's 830 00:41:27,320 --> 00:41:29,800 Speaker 1: two thousand nineteen, my little young my readers don't have 831 00:41:30,560 --> 00:41:33,319 Speaker 1: that time. So I'm like, all right, I gotta spread 832 00:41:33,360 --> 00:41:35,480 Speaker 1: it out because literally, like it's just not the same 833 00:41:35,600 --> 00:41:38,160 Speaker 1: because I've read it in a few hours and I'm 834 00:41:38,200 --> 00:41:41,759 Speaker 1: waiting for more. Yeah, but can I get to express it. 835 00:41:43,000 --> 00:41:48,719 Speaker 1: I'm I mean, we're talking about, you know, just really 836 00:41:48,920 --> 00:41:50,759 Speaker 1: not even have sex with those things attached. Have you 837 00:41:50,840 --> 00:41:53,080 Speaker 1: ever thought you would be with a woman you didn't 838 00:41:53,280 --> 00:41:55,680 Speaker 1: really want to be with her like that, but then 839 00:41:55,760 --> 00:41:57,840 Speaker 1: you ended up falling for her just kind of like 840 00:41:58,600 --> 00:42:02,360 Speaker 1: Senda did. Are No. I mean, I'm gonna know, like 841 00:42:02,480 --> 00:42:03,920 Speaker 1: you know what I mean, if you already got a 842 00:42:04,000 --> 00:42:06,320 Speaker 1: mental capacity and physical and then I'm just like I 843 00:42:06,400 --> 00:42:08,759 Speaker 1: may think of other girls, but you're already there. But 844 00:42:08,920 --> 00:42:12,120 Speaker 1: if I'm like this girl's never gonna get there with me. No, 845 00:42:12,280 --> 00:42:14,719 Speaker 1: I'm just like a girl like no, man, because I can't. 846 00:42:14,719 --> 00:42:16,359 Speaker 1: I'm not a liar. So at the end of the day, 847 00:42:16,440 --> 00:42:17,960 Speaker 1: like you don't like me, I've been giving it to you. 848 00:42:18,040 --> 00:42:19,920 Speaker 1: I've been doing this and I'm like, yo, man, I 849 00:42:20,000 --> 00:42:22,080 Speaker 1: told you from day one like to be there and 850 00:42:22,160 --> 00:42:24,600 Speaker 1: we're not moving there. But why waste your time sleeping 851 00:42:24,640 --> 00:42:27,240 Speaker 1: with somebody that you wouldn't even be interested in? Pussy? 852 00:42:28,000 --> 00:42:31,600 Speaker 1: He said, Yeah, seing with somebody you'll never be interested 853 00:42:31,640 --> 00:42:36,839 Speaker 1: in like that sexuality. Man, story, I'm a full of story. 854 00:42:37,000 --> 00:42:39,200 Speaker 1: I had a dude we went to in Central High 855 00:42:39,200 --> 00:42:41,200 Speaker 1: School and Philly. We went on a skin trip and 856 00:42:41,280 --> 00:42:43,440 Speaker 1: this dude was a good dude, football team dude, and 857 00:42:43,520 --> 00:42:46,160 Speaker 1: he was sorry about dating good girls, and he had 858 00:42:46,239 --> 00:42:48,200 Speaker 1: friends that was dating girls and just giving it up 859 00:42:48,520 --> 00:42:50,040 Speaker 1: and he was. It was the funniest fact was he 860 00:42:50,120 --> 00:42:52,160 Speaker 1: was like, yeah, man, I'm dating these girls I really 861 00:42:52,200 --> 00:42:54,320 Speaker 1: like and they're like, yo, I'm about this girl. But 862 00:42:54,520 --> 00:42:56,600 Speaker 1: so were both learning like you at the end of 863 00:42:56,640 --> 00:42:58,920 Speaker 1: the day, you gotta practice. What you gotta do is 864 00:42:58,960 --> 00:43:00,960 Speaker 1: a male So as you like, yo, man, I can't 865 00:43:01,000 --> 00:43:04,120 Speaker 1: get nothing from the church lover, but I'm nineteen now, 866 00:43:04,160 --> 00:43:06,359 Speaker 1: I gotta get something. Man, I gotta So you start like, yo, 867 00:43:06,400 --> 00:43:11,480 Speaker 1: I gotta get this girl. You still date her right practice, 868 00:43:11,960 --> 00:43:14,440 Speaker 1: So you learned that, man, like, I gotta otherwise I 869 00:43:14,600 --> 00:43:17,279 Speaker 1: wanna be a virgin. And then the same grow up 870 00:43:17,280 --> 00:43:19,719 Speaker 1: and spend all that time and girls are funny you've 871 00:43:19,760 --> 00:43:22,120 Speaker 1: been with all the time, and she break up with 872 00:43:22,239 --> 00:43:24,080 Speaker 1: you and and not still get it in two weeks, 873 00:43:24,360 --> 00:43:29,800 Speaker 1: and you know, spend all that time because she's already 874 00:43:31,480 --> 00:43:33,960 Speaker 1: talking about ego being hurt, you know. So no, a 875 00:43:34,040 --> 00:43:37,560 Speaker 1: lot of guys learned, I gotta practice my body, and 876 00:43:37,640 --> 00:43:40,600 Speaker 1: so girls become practice. That's what it is that happens. 877 00:43:40,840 --> 00:43:44,520 Speaker 1: You start practicing too much and call you're calling the 878 00:43:44,600 --> 00:43:57,400 Speaker 1: f buddy. That's what it called that. Yeah, yeah. Episode. 879 00:43:57,440 --> 00:43:58,759 Speaker 1: You know, we always play this game where you have 880 00:43:58,840 --> 00:44:00,560 Speaker 1: to guess who said it? Right, out of the three 881 00:44:00,600 --> 00:44:01,920 Speaker 1: of us, you have to guess which one of us 882 00:44:01,960 --> 00:44:04,680 Speaker 1: had this story. And the story was she was cheating 883 00:44:04,719 --> 00:44:06,520 Speaker 1: on her boyfriend, so she had to pretend that she 884 00:44:06,719 --> 00:44:08,960 Speaker 1: was going out because there was a guy at her house, 885 00:44:09,400 --> 00:44:11,600 Speaker 1: and she got dressed, drove around the black to pretend 886 00:44:11,600 --> 00:44:13,120 Speaker 1: she was going somewhere to make the guy leaves so 887 00:44:13,160 --> 00:44:15,160 Speaker 1: that her boyfriend could come over. Which one of us 888 00:44:15,200 --> 00:44:17,680 Speaker 1: you think did that? If you had to guess, gut 889 00:44:17,719 --> 00:44:21,799 Speaker 1: of the three of us, I got for you. Okay, shea, 890 00:44:21,880 --> 00:44:24,160 Speaker 1: you guessed me? Who do you think it was? I 891 00:44:24,200 --> 00:44:27,520 Speaker 1: will to the story. I'm going to instincts and you 892 00:44:27,719 --> 00:44:33,040 Speaker 1: did that. Yeah it happened. Yeah, I thought you wasn't gonna. 893 00:44:36,000 --> 00:44:39,200 Speaker 1: But because everybody, we do this every week and usually 894 00:44:39,200 --> 00:44:41,880 Speaker 1: people guess wrong. It's the first that note got me. 895 00:44:41,960 --> 00:44:45,960 Speaker 1: I think I tell the story to just look at 896 00:44:45,960 --> 00:44:50,360 Speaker 1: your eyes. And then she put on a like innocent 897 00:44:50,440 --> 00:44:54,040 Speaker 1: but you got bright orange, no's girl. But listen, you 898 00:44:54,880 --> 00:44:56,360 Speaker 1: get somebody out of the house when you want them 899 00:44:56,400 --> 00:45:00,440 Speaker 1: to leave, and they won't you about yeah anything or 900 00:45:00,719 --> 00:45:03,760 Speaker 1: or you know that's my girlfriends like girling like seven seconds, 901 00:45:03,800 --> 00:45:05,799 Speaker 1: keep blowing my phone up. Yeah, I'd be like, oh 902 00:45:05,920 --> 00:45:09,160 Speaker 1: my god, just like my sisters getting on my nerves. 903 00:45:10,800 --> 00:45:12,160 Speaker 1: You know, some guys to be like, well I wait 904 00:45:12,200 --> 00:45:13,680 Speaker 1: here till you get back, so you won't get out. 905 00:45:14,719 --> 00:45:20,479 Speaker 1: I don't say that. That's my daughter. I mean, guys, 906 00:45:20,560 --> 00:45:22,160 Speaker 1: y'all have on this show, like when y'all do y'all 907 00:45:22,520 --> 00:45:25,720 Speaker 1: a lot of guys do y'all have some book questions 908 00:45:25,760 --> 00:45:28,919 Speaker 1: that they read like, well, it depends on so y'all 909 00:45:28,960 --> 00:45:32,920 Speaker 1: never have book guys, and they don't. You know what 910 00:45:33,520 --> 00:45:36,320 Speaker 1: crazier it is y'all can't invite a book. Was actually 911 00:45:37,320 --> 00:45:42,960 Speaker 1: with Fatally falls. That's crazy. Second Frank, Third, right, Frank. 912 00:45:43,280 --> 00:45:45,200 Speaker 1: He was a guy. I'm gonna tell yourself. I wasn't 913 00:45:45,280 --> 00:45:47,279 Speaker 1: oapen one something. You know. I was out there and 914 00:45:47,360 --> 00:45:50,000 Speaker 1: the black Mail dron as he was interviewing me, and 915 00:45:50,080 --> 00:45:53,160 Speaker 1: we're having a drink afterwards, and he's like, oh pain, yeah, 916 00:45:53,440 --> 00:46:00,800 Speaker 1: black dude. But here's the point. The point he started 917 00:46:00,840 --> 00:46:03,080 Speaker 1: talking about us being writers, and he was like, how 918 00:46:03,120 --> 00:46:05,120 Speaker 1: did your friends feel about? Like, come on, man, my 919 00:46:05,200 --> 00:46:07,520 Speaker 1: friends don't even He was like, yeah, we're like Martians. 920 00:46:08,200 --> 00:46:11,040 Speaker 1: We are really men who? Right, black man? It's crazy 921 00:46:11,120 --> 00:46:13,759 Speaker 1: like we're in your twenty nineteen and you start talking 922 00:46:13,800 --> 00:46:16,480 Speaker 1: about writing as an intellectual and it's like you like 923 00:46:16,640 --> 00:46:19,160 Speaker 1: one of the dudes on the moon, like you really 924 00:46:19,239 --> 00:46:21,640 Speaker 1: do that. In fact, when my my wife we was 925 00:46:21,680 --> 00:46:23,680 Speaker 1: in Delaware, people are asking are you married to a 926 00:46:23,719 --> 00:46:29,719 Speaker 1: white man? Because you know, oh my god, like and 927 00:46:29,840 --> 00:46:32,160 Speaker 1: I feel like we had at theres we even had 928 00:46:33,040 --> 00:46:36,480 Speaker 1: who was the buck he had with the sun about 929 00:46:36,600 --> 00:46:38,279 Speaker 1: gay and look at that? Look at you? Look at 930 00:46:38,360 --> 00:46:42,680 Speaker 1: but I bet you million and a million a yeah, yeah, 931 00:46:43,239 --> 00:46:48,160 Speaker 1: there can't date. And the next book was going to 932 00:46:48,200 --> 00:46:50,120 Speaker 1: be something with gay. So now so now as I 933 00:46:50,239 --> 00:46:54,040 Speaker 1: head into movie writing, I already know I'm gonna blow 934 00:46:54,080 --> 00:46:56,200 Speaker 1: it out because brothers can't read like I didn't right 935 00:46:56,280 --> 00:46:58,080 Speaker 1: like that. So now I'm like all the hip hop dudes, 936 00:46:58,120 --> 00:47:00,239 Speaker 1: all the app they can't write. So I'm not yo, 937 00:47:00,400 --> 00:47:06,600 Speaker 1: I'm about to kill it. I think, yeah, I bring 938 00:47:06,680 --> 00:47:12,080 Speaker 1: your stories, sad I saw. I'm looking at that like, dude, 939 00:47:12,080 --> 00:47:13,960 Speaker 1: I'm gonna make all the money. So I'm looking at 940 00:47:14,000 --> 00:47:15,960 Speaker 1: that like I got to go on that because nobody 941 00:47:16,000 --> 00:47:18,160 Speaker 1: else can do that. Now they're doing freestyle and they 942 00:47:18,160 --> 00:47:21,160 Speaker 1: don't even write with the rap they get high, they 943 00:47:21,160 --> 00:47:23,080 Speaker 1: don't even write it down there like somebody got writ 944 00:47:23,120 --> 00:47:25,719 Speaker 1: it down, You're gonna get publishing credits. Somebody got write 945 00:47:25,719 --> 00:47:28,920 Speaker 1: it down her Storytelle, I got you, I got you, 946 00:47:29,080 --> 00:47:30,840 Speaker 1: because that's my goal. My goal was to tell the 947 00:47:30,920 --> 00:47:33,920 Speaker 1: story of different women, like like I never really was 948 00:47:34,080 --> 00:47:37,200 Speaker 1: I never really read a lot of fiction. I read 949 00:47:37,360 --> 00:47:39,640 Speaker 1: like me to people all the biographies, I'm really interesting 950 00:47:39,640 --> 00:47:42,560 Speaker 1: because I just feel like especially women, like it's women 951 00:47:42,600 --> 00:47:45,359 Speaker 1: that go through hell and hot water and turn out 952 00:47:45,360 --> 00:47:47,479 Speaker 1: on top and it's so inspiring and it just sends 953 00:47:47,600 --> 00:47:49,960 Speaker 1: chills through my body. So my goal is to tell 954 00:47:50,000 --> 00:47:52,160 Speaker 1: the story of different women, and I like like to 955 00:47:52,239 --> 00:47:53,520 Speaker 1: tell it the way I like to tell it. You 956 00:47:53,600 --> 00:47:55,279 Speaker 1: know how long we've been on this show talking about 957 00:47:55,280 --> 00:47:59,120 Speaker 1: me writing a book, Well, I'm calling you tomorrow. Yes, 958 00:47:59,520 --> 00:48:02,160 Speaker 1: I always all people like even if because obviously you 959 00:48:02,200 --> 00:48:04,080 Speaker 1: feel like you're not a writer. I'm not. But get 960 00:48:04,120 --> 00:48:08,560 Speaker 1: a drag again to and then this show for four years, yeah, yeah, 961 00:48:09,000 --> 00:48:13,920 Speaker 1: a while consistent with it. Yeah, a lot of stuff 962 00:48:13,920 --> 00:48:16,320 Speaker 1: don't last long. Now man, it's like it's yeah, you know, 963 00:48:16,440 --> 00:48:18,120 Speaker 1: I'm tired of that. I got the new thing is 964 00:48:18,200 --> 00:48:21,120 Speaker 1: everything is trending. But that's because they talk about things 965 00:48:21,200 --> 00:48:24,399 Speaker 1: that's current. They talk about things that's talk about sex 966 00:48:24,600 --> 00:48:27,279 Speaker 1: said relationship, like things that's going on right now, because 967 00:48:27,320 --> 00:48:31,320 Speaker 1: you you could get lost in the bs, but in reality, 968 00:48:31,480 --> 00:48:34,480 Speaker 1: like and that's why I'm still writing. Because everybody like, oh, 969 00:48:34,520 --> 00:48:37,840 Speaker 1: you write books, they'd be so like impressed. I'm like, hello, 970 00:48:37,960 --> 00:48:39,640 Speaker 1: I grew up reading books, so I want to be 971 00:48:39,800 --> 00:48:43,280 Speaker 1: I want to tell you stories because those stories is important. 972 00:48:43,320 --> 00:48:45,480 Speaker 1: Those stories like people when I was growing up shout 973 00:48:45,560 --> 00:48:47,839 Speaker 1: off the Sterry Woods two who's from Philly Gods used 974 00:48:47,840 --> 00:48:49,160 Speaker 1: to be like you just like the girl in the book, 975 00:48:49,200 --> 00:48:50,480 Speaker 1: and I'm like, what book? I don't even know what 976 00:48:50,560 --> 00:48:52,279 Speaker 1: they were talking about. Made me go get the book. 977 00:48:53,120 --> 00:48:55,200 Speaker 1: I like her, Yeah, but I got called us you 978 00:48:55,239 --> 00:48:56,759 Speaker 1: know what I mean, the writer. I was being this 979 00:48:56,880 --> 00:48:59,480 Speaker 1: person I was doing all this. So it's just like 980 00:48:59,600 --> 00:49:02,359 Speaker 1: we need to read. We need to because reading its 981 00:49:02,400 --> 00:49:05,839 Speaker 1: fundamental is educational and everybody has a story, and your 982 00:49:05,880 --> 00:49:07,640 Speaker 1: story is valid. I tell people that all the time, 983 00:49:07,719 --> 00:49:10,319 Speaker 1: like you don't know what's going to be. I'm sitting 984 00:49:10,360 --> 00:49:12,279 Speaker 1: there now that my confidence had to be because my 985 00:49:12,400 --> 00:49:14,720 Speaker 1: boys from I played football, I fought. I'm a regular 986 00:49:14,760 --> 00:49:17,280 Speaker 1: Philadelphia and said, man, you write you ain't no Stephen 987 00:49:17,400 --> 00:49:24,080 Speaker 1: King was join but I had that cost because and 988 00:49:24,120 --> 00:49:26,200 Speaker 1: then then check this out. We was on South Street 989 00:49:26,239 --> 00:49:28,680 Speaker 1: and Philadelphia and my friend like, Yo, you're blowing up. Man, 990 00:49:28,760 --> 00:49:31,120 Speaker 1: you're blowing up, and like I'm still cool, Like no, 991 00:49:31,239 --> 00:49:34,680 Speaker 1: I'm cool. That's oh my sad, Like, oh my god, 992 00:49:35,000 --> 00:49:37,320 Speaker 1: you're telling you And they still didn't read my books. 993 00:49:37,360 --> 00:49:42,560 Speaker 1: They just do exactly. Argument with one of my male friends, 994 00:49:42,600 --> 00:49:44,040 Speaker 1: like how do you be acting like you support me 995 00:49:44,080 --> 00:49:46,160 Speaker 1: and then you don't even read my book? Do you 996 00:49:46,200 --> 00:49:48,400 Speaker 1: think that Hollywood wants to do these movies now because 997 00:49:48,400 --> 00:49:51,880 Speaker 1: you do have these screenplays and they see that they 998 00:49:51,960 --> 00:49:54,799 Speaker 1: all money. Dude, they don't care about nothing. It's sad, 999 00:49:54,960 --> 00:49:56,640 Speaker 1: you know what I mean. So we gotta fight tooth 1000 00:49:56,719 --> 00:49:58,960 Speaker 1: and that right now with FLYG, I wrote the screenplay, 1001 00:49:59,320 --> 00:50:01,359 Speaker 1: but I got how all would people want to write 1002 00:50:01,400 --> 00:50:03,080 Speaker 1: their own because they don't want to pay me. They 1003 00:50:03,120 --> 00:50:08,799 Speaker 1: want to write the I didn't wrote an excellent screenplay, 1004 00:50:08,880 --> 00:50:10,279 Speaker 1: but they trying to figure out how to give that 1005 00:50:10,360 --> 00:50:12,960 Speaker 1: people money and I'm supposed to disagree with that. So now, like, 1006 00:50:16,040 --> 00:50:17,600 Speaker 1: how are you gonna tell me and my daughter story 1007 00:50:17,640 --> 00:50:25,799 Speaker 1: more than better. Right, It's like, right now I'm looking 1008 00:50:25,840 --> 00:50:28,520 Speaker 1: at Jordan Peo telling his horror stories. I look at 1009 00:50:28,560 --> 00:50:30,920 Speaker 1: Tyler Perry. He's wanted to look at you know, the 1010 00:50:31,000 --> 00:50:33,920 Speaker 1: people that can control that. And it's not an eagle thing. 1011 00:50:34,280 --> 00:50:37,239 Speaker 1: It's getting it done thing, man. Five years and it 1012 00:50:37,239 --> 00:50:39,480 Speaker 1: ain't got done. So now I jumped in front of you, 1013 00:50:39,560 --> 00:50:42,560 Speaker 1: trying to push me out the way. Again focus went 1014 00:50:42,600 --> 00:50:47,719 Speaker 1: to ever whatever happened to them? Yeah, listen, I have 1015 00:50:47,800 --> 00:50:52,000 Speaker 1: a question for you, Amar. This screenplay for f excellent. 1016 00:50:52,280 --> 00:50:55,880 Speaker 1: If you could choose you're Tracy, who would it be? Oh? 1017 00:50:55,960 --> 00:51:00,040 Speaker 1: Y'are Shahiti already? So I love this is what you 1018 00:51:00,120 --> 00:51:02,040 Speaker 1: on something. When she was first on TV, I'll never 1019 00:51:02,080 --> 00:51:04,960 Speaker 1: tell you a lot of black girls ain't on TV, man, 1020 00:51:05,480 --> 00:51:07,360 Speaker 1: We ain't on TV. So when I saw her on 1021 00:51:07,440 --> 00:51:10,000 Speaker 1: Black ISSU and two dollar fourteen, I said, Yo, she 1022 00:51:10,080 --> 00:51:12,160 Speaker 1: could be Tracy. She had the look, she had the 1023 00:51:12,200 --> 00:51:14,719 Speaker 1: sassy little attitude. I said she could be Tracy and 1024 00:51:14,800 --> 00:51:16,680 Speaker 1: I stuck with it from the I don't know she 1025 00:51:16,760 --> 00:51:20,120 Speaker 1: was gonna blow up like now. I sold her from 1026 00:51:20,239 --> 00:51:22,680 Speaker 1: day one. But we don't get that many opportunities on 1027 00:51:23,080 --> 00:51:25,640 Speaker 1: white girls all all the TV. We don't have on 1028 00:51:25,719 --> 00:51:29,040 Speaker 1: my opportunities. Hispanic girls ain't on TV like that, So 1029 00:51:29,160 --> 00:51:30,920 Speaker 1: I picked her like she had the look, she had 1030 00:51:30,960 --> 00:51:34,400 Speaker 1: the sass, she's on TV boom, but the tracy things 1031 00:51:34,480 --> 00:51:37,040 Speaker 1: like she she got that extra phully thing because you 1032 00:51:39,320 --> 00:51:52,320 Speaker 1: Williams shirt down down. Yea, we do have enough the character. 1033 00:51:53,040 --> 00:51:55,000 Speaker 1: They even have u MC TV, which is all telling 1034 00:51:55,040 --> 00:51:58,720 Speaker 1: black stories and it's you know, but see that I'm 1035 00:51:58,719 --> 00:52:01,000 Speaker 1: telling if you are a Shahiti, did this flag girl is? 1036 00:52:01,320 --> 00:52:02,840 Speaker 1: It's I kind of you know what I mean. But 1037 00:52:02,920 --> 00:52:05,000 Speaker 1: some people like that's a little too They would do 1038 00:52:05,120 --> 00:52:07,600 Speaker 1: standing ovation. But I already know you know, but what 1039 00:52:07,719 --> 00:52:11,040 Speaker 1: about staying with stuff like Netflix and stuff like that 1040 00:52:11,160 --> 00:52:14,440 Speaker 1: out You can't just put your own together. I want 1041 00:52:14,520 --> 00:52:21,680 Speaker 1: the big screen like some that were bigger screen. Yeah, 1042 00:52:22,080 --> 00:52:23,919 Speaker 1: I'm not saying that it's not, But what I'm saying 1043 00:52:24,000 --> 00:52:27,399 Speaker 1: is there was huge, mongous successful Netflix thing like what's 1044 00:52:27,440 --> 00:52:30,120 Speaker 1: the Blind? What was the thing where everybody the bird um? 1045 00:52:30,680 --> 00:52:33,120 Speaker 1: That was big? You know what I mean? That was 1046 00:52:33,200 --> 00:52:36,120 Speaker 1: like broke records. So that's all I'm saying. There's other outlets. 1047 00:52:36,440 --> 00:52:39,200 Speaker 1: If you gotta wait five years for something to come out, 1048 00:52:39,560 --> 00:52:42,440 Speaker 1: wouldn't you rather just give up? No? You don't give 1049 00:52:42,520 --> 00:52:45,880 Speaker 1: up another fly Girls big. It was the one that 1050 00:52:45,960 --> 00:52:52,040 Speaker 1: started everything. It needs to be big. And you guys 1051 00:52:52,200 --> 00:52:55,279 Speaker 1: understand that I'm known in Canada, the Caribbean, the UK. 1052 00:52:55,880 --> 00:52:59,080 Speaker 1: You know, I'm not like someone you've ever seen. They 1053 00:52:59,160 --> 00:53:03,760 Speaker 1: don't know. I think people you do a whole international 1054 00:53:03,880 --> 00:53:07,200 Speaker 1: tour with fly Girl, they man, So I'm waiting for that. 1055 00:53:07,320 --> 00:53:09,759 Speaker 1: I'm not one to do because you don't meet people. 1056 00:53:09,840 --> 00:53:12,520 Speaker 1: The same with the books, right dors Is physical were 1057 00:53:12,520 --> 00:53:15,759 Speaker 1: signing books. We're going to it's physical book. That's how 1058 00:53:16,160 --> 00:53:18,120 Speaker 1: when I go to actual events and people, I feel 1059 00:53:18,120 --> 00:53:19,880 Speaker 1: like we're wearing my story and hear me talk. I 1060 00:53:19,960 --> 00:53:21,560 Speaker 1: sell a lot of every book on the tape. But 1061 00:53:21,680 --> 00:53:24,799 Speaker 1: it's harder to like, I mean, it's so hard. It's 1062 00:53:24,920 --> 00:53:27,560 Speaker 1: like social media all that stuff. Like I primarily was 1063 00:53:27,640 --> 00:53:30,040 Speaker 1: using social media to tell my daughter story to inspire people. 1064 00:53:30,080 --> 00:53:32,239 Speaker 1: Like it wasn't about me. It never was about me, 1065 00:53:32,520 --> 00:53:33,959 Speaker 1: but now it was like now I had to shoot 1066 00:53:34,000 --> 00:53:35,640 Speaker 1: the trailer. I had to do this, I had to 1067 00:53:35,719 --> 00:53:37,320 Speaker 1: do that. Like I got the opportunity to do this, 1068 00:53:37,400 --> 00:53:39,520 Speaker 1: which I'm so thankful for. But it's like I don't 1069 00:53:39,560 --> 00:53:41,880 Speaker 1: talk about it. You don't know about it. Let's talk 1070 00:53:41,920 --> 00:53:44,759 Speaker 1: about something else though in real life and relate some 1071 00:53:44,840 --> 00:53:47,479 Speaker 1: things to real life. Let's take about changing your phone number, 1072 00:53:47,800 --> 00:53:49,640 Speaker 1: because you could fall in love with somebody so much 1073 00:53:49,680 --> 00:53:51,959 Speaker 1: that you've got to change everything, change your phone number. 1074 00:53:53,280 --> 00:53:56,759 Speaker 1: Have y'all done that? I had this. I have the 1075 00:53:56,800 --> 00:53:58,799 Speaker 1: same phone number for like sixteen years. Y'all know how 1076 00:53:58,880 --> 00:54:03,320 Speaker 1: much I changed my damn you did that number? I 1077 00:54:03,440 --> 00:54:06,320 Speaker 1: did it one time for one one man. It was 1078 00:54:06,440 --> 00:54:09,120 Speaker 1: just like, um, I had started doing reality TV and 1079 00:54:09,160 --> 00:54:11,520 Speaker 1: it was like all these old guys is popping back 1080 00:54:11,640 --> 00:54:15,520 Speaker 1: up and all, oh, it was always a different argument. 1081 00:54:15,640 --> 00:54:17,879 Speaker 1: So I finally just like, forget it, I'm gonna change 1082 00:54:17,920 --> 00:54:20,760 Speaker 1: my number. These half of them wasn't calling me before 1083 00:54:20,840 --> 00:54:23,359 Speaker 1: they see me on TV, so I really didn't care, 1084 00:54:23,400 --> 00:54:25,880 Speaker 1: and I was like really in love. So I changed 1085 00:54:25,960 --> 00:54:28,800 Speaker 1: my number. But after like a year, I was like, 1086 00:54:28,840 --> 00:54:33,880 Speaker 1: why the fund did that? There was like there was 1087 00:54:33,960 --> 00:54:35,600 Speaker 1: a couple of people that I was like, I lost 1088 00:54:35,680 --> 00:54:37,960 Speaker 1: touch you because I didn't save nobody number and nothing. 1089 00:54:38,080 --> 00:54:41,120 Speaker 1: I debt in my phone, changed my number. Everything like 1090 00:54:41,400 --> 00:54:46,120 Speaker 1: fun everybody in the phone and then easy to find. 1091 00:54:46,920 --> 00:54:51,320 Speaker 1: But this was like, but you did change your number. 1092 00:54:51,600 --> 00:54:54,480 Speaker 1: At a point where I changed my number to be 1093 00:54:54,600 --> 00:55:00,040 Speaker 1: like submissive not never again. Yeah, well, most recently I 1094 00:55:00,200 --> 00:55:03,360 Speaker 1: changed my number. He want my boyfriend wanted me to 1095 00:55:03,480 --> 00:55:05,000 Speaker 1: change my number because we were fresh off from a 1096 00:55:05,000 --> 00:55:06,960 Speaker 1: break up and back together. And I didn't do it 1097 00:55:07,040 --> 00:55:08,560 Speaker 1: because he wanted me to do it. I did it 1098 00:55:08,680 --> 00:55:12,320 Speaker 1: because I started getting prank phone calls from random weirdos. 1099 00:55:12,440 --> 00:55:15,080 Speaker 1: It was penis because he wanted you to change together 1100 00:55:17,280 --> 00:55:19,359 Speaker 1: your numbers. So I don't know if they were calling 1101 00:55:19,440 --> 00:55:22,359 Speaker 1: my eye cloud, but it was FaceTime calls where they 1102 00:55:22,480 --> 00:55:24,359 Speaker 1: were calling me and I would answer and it would 1103 00:55:24,360 --> 00:55:26,920 Speaker 1: be like a penis. So you needed that you had 1104 00:55:27,000 --> 00:55:29,239 Speaker 1: this show. So that's the last time I changed my 1105 00:55:29,320 --> 00:55:33,200 Speaker 1: number in the hood, like changing your number like somebody though, 1106 00:55:33,239 --> 00:55:42,680 Speaker 1: like last change your number? Four dude, Like oh my 1107 00:55:42,840 --> 00:55:46,120 Speaker 1: number and girls are sending me pictures of vaginas and 1108 00:55:46,520 --> 00:55:48,400 Speaker 1: I guts to change that enough, but like because you're 1109 00:55:48,400 --> 00:55:49,800 Speaker 1: know what a man like I still got you know 1110 00:55:49,800 --> 00:55:51,799 Speaker 1: what I mean relations Like yo, what the hell are 1111 00:55:51,840 --> 00:55:54,440 Speaker 1: you doing stuff doing? Now? I who this person was? 1112 00:55:54,520 --> 00:55:57,960 Speaker 1: They were like that a light skin deck, a dark 1113 00:55:58,000 --> 00:56:02,239 Speaker 1: skin white. He was white white. Yes you could have 1114 00:56:02,320 --> 00:56:06,640 Speaker 1: just blocked I mean I couldn't, but he was he 1115 00:56:06,800 --> 00:56:08,880 Speaker 1: was calling me on FaceTime from an email address, so 1116 00:56:08,920 --> 00:56:11,759 Speaker 1: he could have just kept calling from different Yeah, that's 1117 00:56:11,760 --> 00:56:13,560 Speaker 1: when you have a guy into him like what are 1118 00:56:13,560 --> 00:56:20,840 Speaker 1: you doing? But also in the in the in the 1119 00:56:20,920 --> 00:56:22,960 Speaker 1: spirit of keeping it all the way one hundred, because 1120 00:56:23,040 --> 00:56:25,560 Speaker 1: y'all know that's what I do. I was actually happy 1121 00:56:25,640 --> 00:56:27,840 Speaker 1: to change my number because I wanted to soothe my 1122 00:56:28,000 --> 00:56:30,640 Speaker 1: boyfriend of all of the issues that he was having 1123 00:56:30,719 --> 00:56:33,000 Speaker 1: with us have coming off of a breakup and me 1124 00:56:33,040 --> 00:56:34,920 Speaker 1: and back together. So it was like perfect time for 1125 00:56:34,960 --> 00:56:36,759 Speaker 1: me to change my number. It all worked out. Yeah, 1126 00:56:36,880 --> 00:56:38,520 Speaker 1: Like you just want to like not appease them, but 1127 00:56:38,600 --> 00:56:41,239 Speaker 1: like show him like I'm ready, I'm committed. I'm in 1128 00:56:41,400 --> 00:56:45,000 Speaker 1: a hundred. But it was because it is probably because 1129 00:56:45,000 --> 00:56:47,640 Speaker 1: of that. Man. Sorry, I noticed something that you want, 1130 00:56:47,719 --> 00:56:49,719 Speaker 1: So I'm gonna just go in. And I ever asked 1131 00:56:49,760 --> 00:56:52,840 Speaker 1: someone sorry? Have you ever asked someone to change? No, 1132 00:56:53,640 --> 00:56:55,239 Speaker 1: I'm not even that number of stuff. Man, Like you 1133 00:56:55,320 --> 00:56:58,000 Speaker 1: know the past boyfriends, all that you're done with? Dude, 1134 00:56:58,560 --> 00:57:01,120 Speaker 1: with him, stop calling you know what I mean? Like 1135 00:57:01,239 --> 00:57:03,319 Speaker 1: you need me to talk to him. I'm that dude. 1136 00:57:03,360 --> 00:57:05,799 Speaker 1: Like I talked to him, your dude, don't calling him more. Man, 1137 00:57:05,880 --> 00:57:08,239 Speaker 1: she's done with you. I'm not trying to be rock 1138 00:57:08,320 --> 00:57:10,200 Speaker 1: and nothing like that. Like, but why you're gonna keep 1139 00:57:10,239 --> 00:57:12,399 Speaker 1: calling it? I mean like you're being a lockey now, dude, 1140 00:57:12,440 --> 00:57:17,920 Speaker 1: like leave her along with new I mean, somebody follow somebody. 1141 00:57:18,000 --> 00:57:20,520 Speaker 1: But I never asked nobody to change that. I wouldn't 1142 00:57:20,520 --> 00:57:23,080 Speaker 1: do that. I'm like you, why are you step? Why 1143 00:57:23,160 --> 00:57:25,200 Speaker 1: you like I don't send like a likes like damn, 1144 00:57:25,240 --> 00:57:29,800 Speaker 1: I'm like you was on her dick? Did your wife 1145 00:57:29,840 --> 00:57:34,000 Speaker 1: expects you to be faithful? Man? Look here, you already 1146 00:57:34,080 --> 00:57:37,880 Speaker 1: know you know you're tight. You already trouble. So my 1147 00:57:38,000 --> 00:57:40,320 Speaker 1: wife talking about being a rider dome and being you 1148 00:57:40,400 --> 00:57:42,280 Speaker 1: know and so. But I'm old school, so I'm like, 1149 00:57:42,400 --> 00:57:45,000 Speaker 1: I know young girls can't take you know what I mean, 1150 00:57:45,320 --> 00:57:47,360 Speaker 1: just like you can't take it. So when you're a 1151 00:57:47,480 --> 00:57:49,480 Speaker 1: wife of a dude that's a type eight dude is 1152 00:57:49,480 --> 00:57:51,560 Speaker 1: getting money doing, you gotta be able to take it. 1153 00:57:51,800 --> 00:57:53,680 Speaker 1: So I'm like, young girl, like you can't handle I'm 1154 00:57:53,720 --> 00:57:55,360 Speaker 1: telling you right now, you can't handle it. So I'm 1155 00:57:55,360 --> 00:57:58,240 Speaker 1: gonna stay with the woman just like you know, because 1156 00:57:58,280 --> 00:57:59,600 Speaker 1: she can deal with it, you know what I mean. 1157 00:57:59,680 --> 00:58:01,400 Speaker 1: She can old the house down. So I'm not another 1158 00:58:01,480 --> 00:58:04,040 Speaker 1: leaving young girl, Like, yo, girl, I'm not leaving my wife, 1159 00:58:04,120 --> 00:58:06,240 Speaker 1: but I'm not saying that she especially to leave it. 1160 00:58:06,280 --> 00:58:07,960 Speaker 1: But does she expects you to be faithful? Or is 1161 00:58:08,040 --> 00:58:10,360 Speaker 1: she does she accept that? Like, okay, expect her and 1162 00:58:10,440 --> 00:58:14,480 Speaker 1: met you to be faithful. That was a long time ago, 1163 00:58:14,680 --> 00:58:19,080 Speaker 1: mantle time ago. Man, I'm fast that now we're like, 1164 00:58:19,200 --> 00:58:21,600 Speaker 1: we're a family and we're gonna be a family. So 1165 00:58:21,760 --> 00:58:24,080 Speaker 1: you have to go through things and then that's all 1166 00:58:24,880 --> 00:58:27,760 Speaker 1: and it's just part of being honest again, Like you 1167 00:58:27,800 --> 00:58:30,040 Speaker 1: don't have to talk about that, you know, Like I've 1168 00:58:30,080 --> 00:58:32,760 Speaker 1: been hearing this whole Will Smith and Jada pink open 1169 00:58:32,840 --> 00:58:36,040 Speaker 1: thing forever. But the reality is when you were type 1170 00:58:36,080 --> 00:58:38,800 Speaker 1: A dude, you that's what it is. Like we've set 1171 00:58:38,920 --> 00:58:41,480 Speaker 1: up where we want to do everybody, you know what 1172 00:58:41,520 --> 00:58:43,440 Speaker 1: I mean. When Drake first came out, every girl in 1173 00:58:43,480 --> 00:58:45,760 Speaker 1: the world, and I'm sitting there thinking like that, you know, 1174 00:58:46,240 --> 00:58:49,360 Speaker 1: but you know my ex boyfriend's mom telling me that 1175 00:58:49,640 --> 00:58:52,320 Speaker 1: men stop cheating when they just get older and they're 1176 00:58:52,320 --> 00:58:54,640 Speaker 1: too tired to run around. It's just not there's just 1177 00:58:54,720 --> 00:58:58,400 Speaker 1: not even yea somewhere do I seem like I'm tired 1178 00:58:58,520 --> 00:59:04,880 Speaker 1: right now? Not yet, but you still going on he 1179 00:59:05,040 --> 00:59:11,520 Speaker 1: sucking something else that. But then you start talking about 1180 00:59:11,520 --> 00:59:13,240 Speaker 1: I'm just saying, I'm gonna throw a couple of names 1181 00:59:13,240 --> 00:59:19,680 Speaker 1: that y'all you have I thought about the start talking 1182 00:59:19,720 --> 00:59:23,080 Speaker 1: about Quincy Jones, start talking about dudes that we got energy. 1183 00:59:23,160 --> 00:59:26,960 Speaker 1: It's just that's black man with money running around his 1184 00:59:27,080 --> 00:59:29,200 Speaker 1: joint right to you're them too. But we got talking 1185 00:59:29,200 --> 00:59:31,720 Speaker 1: about the black man because you may never say that 1186 00:59:31,800 --> 00:59:33,960 Speaker 1: side of your race. I've had sex with people outside 1187 00:59:33,960 --> 00:59:36,920 Speaker 1: of my race. But so in the book, let's go 1188 00:59:37,000 --> 00:59:39,240 Speaker 1: back to the book. In the books, the guy that 1189 00:59:39,320 --> 00:59:41,320 Speaker 1: you met in the casino, he was white right on 1190 00:59:41,400 --> 00:59:43,520 Speaker 1: with the city, the one with the book fetish. Yeah yeah, 1191 00:59:43,600 --> 00:59:47,680 Speaker 1: yeah yeah. But that wasn't no no, no, no, he 1192 00:59:47,800 --> 00:59:52,120 Speaker 1: must he would he would, no, no, no. Book. One 1193 00:59:52,160 --> 00:59:54,680 Speaker 1: of my guy friends was a pet. He's not a 1194 00:59:54,720 --> 00:59:57,080 Speaker 1: pimp no more. But I used to take his holes 1195 00:59:57,400 --> 01:00:00,120 Speaker 1: to the casino and watch them for him because he 1196 01:00:00,120 --> 01:00:07,320 Speaker 1: couldn't go. So that's my right. The beginning of the book, 1197 01:00:07,360 --> 01:00:09,080 Speaker 1: it opens up in Atlantic City, because I used to 1198 01:00:09,400 --> 01:00:11,280 Speaker 1: be the girl that drove like I would drive over 1199 01:00:11,320 --> 01:00:13,560 Speaker 1: Atlantic City and like make sure the wholes got back safe. 1200 01:00:14,040 --> 01:00:16,560 Speaker 1: So I was exposed to let's got to do it, 1201 01:00:16,960 --> 01:00:18,439 Speaker 1: but he couldn't do it no more because it would 1202 01:00:18,440 --> 01:00:21,520 Speaker 1: be but like it happened to one of them, what 1203 01:00:21,720 --> 01:00:23,360 Speaker 1: was you gonna have the money? He would give me 1204 01:00:23,400 --> 01:00:29,800 Speaker 1: cash to like if the guy she meant safe from 1205 01:00:29,800 --> 01:00:35,720 Speaker 1: the cop. Just you go up there and do you 1206 01:00:35,800 --> 01:00:37,640 Speaker 1: know at this time, I mean you're hearing you better. 1207 01:00:38,280 --> 01:00:39,720 Speaker 1: It was never a Thank God, it was never no 1208 01:00:39,800 --> 01:00:43,080 Speaker 1: incidence on my wife. But I don't be exposed to 1209 01:00:43,200 --> 01:00:45,320 Speaker 1: another part of you know, like as in the hood 1210 01:00:45,640 --> 01:00:47,200 Speaker 1: in Philly, you know, you get to get boys to 1211 01:00:47,200 --> 01:00:49,200 Speaker 1: give you money for hair and nell's and recreation. I 1212 01:00:49,280 --> 01:00:51,040 Speaker 1: didn't know that it was actually a way to get 1213 01:00:51,120 --> 01:00:53,960 Speaker 1: money from men for not doing anything, just talking to them. 1214 01:00:54,400 --> 01:00:55,960 Speaker 1: So like I would be around his girls and they 1215 01:00:55,960 --> 01:00:57,920 Speaker 1: would teach me like how to finesse, Like no, she, 1216 01:00:58,240 --> 01:00:59,600 Speaker 1: this is what you gotta do. This is what you 1217 01:00:59,640 --> 01:01:04,320 Speaker 1: gotta and listen. And those girls was getting mad money 1218 01:01:04,600 --> 01:01:08,280 Speaker 1: doing nothing nothing. It was doing something. They had the 1219 01:01:08,320 --> 01:01:12,920 Speaker 1: mental Yeah, but that's how I learned my girl book Mercedes, 1220 01:01:13,200 --> 01:01:17,720 Speaker 1: that's a classic role. She got that mental gal my 1221 01:01:17,760 --> 01:01:20,400 Speaker 1: friends like your mom my mom. I got that from 1222 01:01:20,440 --> 01:01:21,720 Speaker 1: my mom. I learned it from my mom. But the 1223 01:01:21,840 --> 01:01:26,040 Speaker 1: white guy um in there that I had my first 1224 01:01:26,160 --> 01:01:28,160 Speaker 1: encounter with as far as like being like, I guess 1225 01:01:28,200 --> 01:01:32,800 Speaker 1: a trick and the hole. Unfortunately, um, he just wanted 1226 01:01:32,800 --> 01:01:35,800 Speaker 1: to ejaculate on my books. So I made a lot 1227 01:01:35,840 --> 01:01:38,120 Speaker 1: of money off of him. That's easy. Was clean up 1228 01:01:38,920 --> 01:01:42,760 Speaker 1: she was. But he just gave me like he gave 1229 01:01:42,800 --> 01:01:44,600 Speaker 1: me like some like I'm like, I'm going in this 1230 01:01:44,680 --> 01:01:47,280 Speaker 1: bitch in the trench code like this mother bus on 1231 01:01:47,360 --> 01:01:49,640 Speaker 1: these cities I'm coming like and I was young, and 1232 01:01:49,680 --> 01:01:51,560 Speaker 1: it was just like oh ship, like he was giving 1233 01:01:51,600 --> 01:01:56,240 Speaker 1: me money to do. Like also, you know different, I'm 1234 01:01:56,320 --> 01:01:58,600 Speaker 1: listening to you talk right now as a Philadelphian and 1235 01:01:58,720 --> 01:02:00,800 Speaker 1: like I'm doing this cast and stuff and it's like 1236 01:02:00,960 --> 01:02:02,520 Speaker 1: they think we're so hard, but I'm just like we 1237 01:02:02,640 --> 01:02:07,160 Speaker 1: just straightforward. Man. People just shipped forward. And she from 1238 01:02:07,200 --> 01:02:14,440 Speaker 1: the hood, Like no, I'm just from just like we 1239 01:02:14,600 --> 01:02:17,120 Speaker 1: from the hood and you know we just played it's 1240 01:02:17,160 --> 01:02:21,280 Speaker 1: cousin or whatever right here. Well listen, Yeah, I want 1241 01:02:21,320 --> 01:02:24,160 Speaker 1: to thank you guys for coming so many great books 1242 01:02:24,200 --> 01:02:26,280 Speaker 1: that people need to read by you. But Flat Girl 1243 01:02:26,400 --> 01:02:27,840 Speaker 1: is the one because this is the way that said 1244 01:02:27,840 --> 01:02:29,919 Speaker 1: everything off. This is the screenplay that you have done 1245 01:02:30,520 --> 01:02:33,800 Speaker 1: trying to get back. Bonds are normal if the screenplay 1246 01:02:33,920 --> 01:02:35,720 Speaker 1: is off the chart, man, that's the best. We need 1247 01:02:35,800 --> 01:02:39,400 Speaker 1: some guys to audition. Yeah, yes, we need guys to audition. 1248 01:02:39,480 --> 01:02:43,000 Speaker 1: We need you to read. Gotta read. I'm trying to 1249 01:02:43,040 --> 01:02:45,280 Speaker 1: get guys right now. I gotta find me a young 1250 01:02:45,360 --> 01:02:47,840 Speaker 1: asap Rockey to play the main role. Asap Rocket is 1251 01:02:47,840 --> 01:02:49,960 Speaker 1: a smooth looking dude. He's I love hall of Him. 1252 01:02:50,120 --> 01:02:52,120 Speaker 1: He got that hall him swag. So now it's like, 1253 01:02:52,200 --> 01:02:54,560 Speaker 1: I gotta find a dude that could that role is 1254 01:02:54,720 --> 01:02:58,560 Speaker 1: vicious man, that victor role because it's slow, it's Philadelphia slick. 1255 01:02:58,640 --> 01:03:01,440 Speaker 1: You gotta be that role. What's gonna be job so dude, Like, 1256 01:03:01,440 --> 01:03:02,840 Speaker 1: as soon as you play this role, you're gonna be 1257 01:03:02,880 --> 01:03:11,000 Speaker 1: a sex symbol. Yeah forever. People can't read your lives. 1258 01:03:11,080 --> 01:03:13,680 Speaker 1: I'm like, dude, I can't use you, man, you can't. 1259 01:03:13,760 --> 01:03:16,720 Speaker 1: You gotta know your lines because that's a lot of lines. 1260 01:03:17,280 --> 01:03:22,680 Speaker 1: Oh my god, he got And where can people get 1261 01:03:22,720 --> 01:03:26,080 Speaker 1: penetration value one? You can get penetration Value one from 1262 01:03:26,240 --> 01:03:29,080 Speaker 1: I Am Sheena e dot com because that money comes 1263 01:03:29,080 --> 01:03:32,160 Speaker 1: straight to the house and we got kids defeat or 1264 01:03:32,320 --> 01:03:33,960 Speaker 1: you can get it on Amazon. The e book is 1265 01:03:33,960 --> 01:03:35,720 Speaker 1: available on Amazon. You can read it on the train, 1266 01:03:35,800 --> 01:03:37,160 Speaker 1: read it in your car, and get your girlfriend to 1267 01:03:37,160 --> 01:03:39,000 Speaker 1: read it to you if you can't read. 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All 1277 01:04:02,560 --> 01:04:06,040 Speaker 1: My bookship out the next day, West Philadelphia morning right 1278 01:04:09,160 --> 01:04:21,320 Speaker 1: killing out a job my neighbor. Let's service Billy Edition. 1279 01:04:21,400 --> 01:04:24,560 Speaker 1: At you come, ye, you gotta