WEBVTT - The One About Housewives & Holy Work 0:00:06.040 --> 0:00:10.320 Hello everybody, and welcome back to give them all up podcast. 0:00:10.520 --> 0:00:14.600 I've missed you, guys, I've missed everyone. 0:00:15.520 --> 0:00:21.680 What a crazy year already, What a crazy twenty twenty three, 0:00:22.079 --> 0:00:25.000 and it's only like not that far in, what a. 0:00:24.960 --> 0:00:25.520 Couple of weeks. 0:00:25.560 --> 0:00:27.200 We're just a few days in. But I think it 0:00:27.240 --> 0:00:28.840 goes to show this it's going to be a big year. 0:00:29.120 --> 0:00:31.800 It's going to be a big year, a good year, 0:00:31.920 --> 0:00:34.519 a great year. I hope that you all had the 0:00:34.560 --> 0:00:39.320 most fantastic holiday that was just full of love and 0:00:39.520 --> 0:00:43.000 hanging out and just doing nothing. I hope you were 0:00:43.040 --> 0:00:45.560 like bears that were like time to hibernate for a minute, 0:00:45.640 --> 0:00:47.200 let's recharge. 0:00:46.880 --> 0:00:48.360 You know. Yeah, where Yale. 0:00:49.880 --> 0:00:53.040 I was the most I'm the type of person where 0:00:53.080 --> 0:00:56.960 I am a homebody. You know this, Jess, I will 0:00:57.000 --> 0:01:00.560 always choose to stay in, and we were like on 0:01:00.600 --> 0:01:04.600 the move the entire holiday. I've never been to more 0:01:04.640 --> 0:01:06.600 sports games in my life except for when I was 0:01:06.600 --> 0:01:09.240 like only banging athletes, which I'm not doing now. So 0:01:09.280 --> 0:01:12.000 I'm going to sports games without banging someone on the team, 0:01:12.040 --> 0:01:12.960 which is awesome. 0:01:13.520 --> 0:01:16.880 Yes, which is amazing, so much less stress. 0:01:17.560 --> 0:01:20.400 Way less stressful, especially if you're kind of hooking up 0:01:20.400 --> 0:01:22.839 with two people on the team, and it's like Booth, 0:01:22.840 --> 0:01:29.680 they're families. No, you know, it's just much easier when 0:01:29.840 --> 0:01:31.959 you know you keep the cookie out of everyone's face, 0:01:32.040 --> 0:01:36.119 yes or not? That's also fun, you do you, Booth. 0:01:36.720 --> 0:01:41.160 I hope everyone was safe and healthy and happy, but 0:01:41.200 --> 0:01:45.039 a lot happened. Lisa Rinna is not going to be 0:01:45.080 --> 0:01:46.039 on Housewives anymore. 0:01:46.200 --> 0:01:47.120 I know I had. 0:01:47.200 --> 0:01:49.560 I was dying to ask you how you felt about this, 0:01:49.640 --> 0:01:51.600 but I said, I'm gonna wait for the podcast, so 0:01:52.400 --> 0:01:52.880 let loose. 0:01:52.920 --> 0:01:54.080 How do you feel sad? 0:01:54.760 --> 0:01:55.280 Yeah? 0:01:55.320 --> 0:01:57.520 And I say this all the time that I watch 0:01:57.600 --> 0:02:04.080 reality TV from an enner atainment standpoint, and also I 0:02:04.120 --> 0:02:08.680 know the drill, and I just she poured her heart 0:02:08.680 --> 0:02:10.840 and soul and you may not have liked her, but 0:02:12.000 --> 0:02:16.480 she was what everyone was talking about, and she was 0:02:16.560 --> 0:02:20.200 just open and always honest, and that's what we want. 0:02:20.280 --> 0:02:22.560 And I think all of these people who are like, Yay, 0:02:22.840 --> 0:02:27.000 she's gone, well, you better hope that someone they're big 0:02:27.040 --> 0:02:30.960 shoes to. Phil. You may have not liked her, but 0:02:31.000 --> 0:02:32.840 you were tuning in to see the drama. All right. 0:02:32.880 --> 0:02:35.520 You guys can't sit here and talk about, oh we 0:02:35.720 --> 0:02:39.560 like this cast. A bull ring. All I see are Z's. 0:02:39.960 --> 0:02:43.320 I'm trying to watch the inside of my eyelids instead 0:02:43.360 --> 0:02:45.760 of that cast as some of y'all have put together. 0:02:46.200 --> 0:02:50.440 My god, you know, like you're talking to people who 0:02:50.520 --> 0:02:51.720 go on socials and you're like. 0:02:51.760 --> 0:02:55.320 Dream Dream, dream cast. You're right, it is dream I'll 0:02:55.360 --> 0:03:00.200 be snoozing. I'll be snoozing if that's the cast. My god. Now, 0:03:03.200 --> 0:03:08.080 so you're right, it is the dreamcast. We're here falling asleep. 0:03:09.440 --> 0:03:11.280 Another Housewives news. 0:03:12.360 --> 0:03:17.880 Jen fucking shot no oh man? Yeah, what do you 0:03:17.919 --> 0:03:19.240 think a lot of. 0:03:19.160 --> 0:03:21.720 People were saying that she should have gotten more time? 0:03:22.680 --> 0:03:24.640 Who am I to be the judge of that six 0:03:24.639 --> 0:03:28.160 and a half years? Seems like a wolf. I wouldn't 0:03:28.200 --> 0:03:30.960 want that much time. Yeah. My whole thing was that 0:03:31.000 --> 0:03:33.959 they like commiscated a bunch of counterfeit designer shit from 0:03:33.960 --> 0:03:34.440 her house. 0:03:35.880 --> 0:03:39.360 Wait I didn't. Oh I did read this, yes, not 0:03:39.640 --> 0:03:40.800 knowing it was fake. 0:03:41.000 --> 0:03:46.880 Yes. So there is this person who calls me and 0:03:46.960 --> 0:03:50.400 is like, hey, there's this woman who lives near me 0:03:51.200 --> 0:03:57.760 and she sells like fake designer stuff. Now I don't 0:03:57.880 --> 0:04:00.240 like that. Okay, if I'm going to spend them money 0:04:00.280 --> 0:04:03.880 on something designer, then I'm just gonna like save my 0:04:04.000 --> 0:04:07.440 pennies and go buy the real thing, right, because I 0:04:08.040 --> 0:04:10.080 just wanted to see the goods, just wanted to see 0:04:10.800 --> 0:04:15.800 there was this amazing Gucci jacket. Fake And you can 0:04:15.840 --> 0:04:19.720 tell that it's fake because where the stitching is they 0:04:19.800 --> 0:04:22.479 put it like it'll be off. Like let's just say 0:04:22.480 --> 0:04:26.000 you have Louis Vuitton, and if the corners don't match, 0:04:26.240 --> 0:04:29.200 it's usually a fake. Like it's pretty seamless, the way 0:04:29.240 --> 0:04:32.560 they do their stitching and how they match up the 0:04:32.720 --> 0:04:35.800 lv's and all of that shit. Right, I know this. 0:04:35.960 --> 0:04:39.960 Obviously My grandmama was bougie. We're not bougie, but like 0:04:40.000 --> 0:04:42.360 she was totally bougie. And I asked the price because 0:04:42.360 --> 0:04:45.200 I'm curious. Eight hundred dollars. 0:04:45.160 --> 0:04:49.080 For a fake for a fake, well then why not 0:04:49.279 --> 0:04:51.320 just I mean, granted, I get it. This is gonna 0:04:51.320 --> 0:04:53.440 sound like privilege and whatever, like why not just buy 0:04:53.480 --> 0:04:56.960 the real thing? But from someone who whose only designer 0:04:57.000 --> 0:04:59.560 bags are the ones that were gifted to me from 0:04:59.600 --> 0:05:03.320 my boss Sala Kent. I'm not spending eight hundred dollars 0:05:03.600 --> 0:05:06.039 on anything that's fake. If I'm to spend eight hundred dollars, 0:05:06.080 --> 0:05:07.520 I'll save up another eight hundred. 0:05:07.680 --> 0:05:09.560 I have a hard time spending eight hundred dollars on 0:05:09.600 --> 0:05:12.280 something that's real. It's gonna say, like, I don't need 0:05:12.320 --> 0:05:13.000 it that bad. 0:05:13.360 --> 0:05:16.240 Yeah, like eighty dollars on a good quality person. I'm like, 0:05:16.279 --> 0:05:17.040 I'm investing. 0:05:17.120 --> 0:05:19.960 But here I go, I don't need I'm not that desperate. 0:05:20.040 --> 0:05:21.880 I don't need you to think I'm bougie by wearing 0:05:22.040 --> 0:05:24.760 Gucci Like I I'll just wear a normal jacket from 0:05:24.880 --> 0:05:28.560 Zara and tell you it's real Zara, authentic Zara on 0:05:28.600 --> 0:05:29.440 my body right now. 0:05:29.920 --> 0:05:31.840 Do you think a lot of people do this? 0:05:32.160 --> 0:05:34.960 Yes? Really a ton of people. Yes? 0:05:35.520 --> 0:05:38.080 Was this person who is selling them? I don't want 0:05:38.080 --> 0:05:40.720 to blow up anyone spot, but making them themselves? 0:05:40.839 --> 0:05:42.240 Or you think they were just getting them. 0:05:42.120 --> 0:05:44.839 From I think they get them from something, Okay, but 0:05:45.520 --> 0:05:48.440 I just can't get down with that. But Jenshaw was 0:05:48.440 --> 0:05:51.520 clearly getting down with this and that and just doing 0:05:51.520 --> 0:05:55.840 all the fraudulent shit. Ever. Yeah, but it just is 0:05:56.000 --> 0:05:58.960 so horrifying. And someone else I know did something similar 0:05:59.000 --> 0:06:01.560 where like they go on and profess innocence and it's 0:06:01.760 --> 0:06:04.279 just like if there's just the tiniest chance that you 0:06:04.320 --> 0:06:08.880 could get caught, like just don't, yeah, profess your innocence 0:06:08.920 --> 0:06:11.360 because it just looks really bad. 0:06:11.640 --> 0:06:13.680 And then when you're proven guilty, it's like, well, all 0:06:13.760 --> 0:06:16.160 credibility for this person is out the window. 0:06:16.400 --> 0:06:19.919 Just like be quiet. Yeah, like hide, go into hiding. 0:06:19.960 --> 0:06:23.400 That's what I would do, wouldn't you? Yes, Oh yeah, 0:06:23.480 --> 0:06:27.039 I'm digging the deepest, deepest hole and tunnel and no 0:06:27.040 --> 0:06:30.160 one's ever seeing my face again, no. 0:06:29.360 --> 0:06:32.320 No question I saw. I didn't read the whole thing. 0:06:32.360 --> 0:06:34.240 But did she come out with an apology? 0:06:34.360 --> 0:06:36.960 And yes, okay, a statement. I'm not saying this. 0:06:37.200 --> 0:06:38.680 I don't know if it was a statement. I just 0:06:38.760 --> 0:06:42.240 looked up. There was someone who was live tweeting what 0:06:42.320 --> 0:06:44.680 she was saying to the judge got it, and she 0:06:44.880 --> 0:06:49.080 was acknowledging the harm that she caused. Okay, so you know, 0:06:49.160 --> 0:06:51.240 six and a half years, that's a lot. And then 0:06:51.279 --> 0:06:54.120 I think she'll also be on probation when she gets out, 0:06:54.160 --> 0:06:58.000 so she will obviously no longer be on housewives. Yeah. 0:06:58.480 --> 0:07:02.720 And then in one of the tweets, again, do not 0:07:02.839 --> 0:07:06.120 quote me, this is just what I saw, she said 0:07:06.160 --> 0:07:09.920 she was going to work hard to pay restitution, and 0:07:09.960 --> 0:07:12.120 the judge said, how are you going to pay back? 0:07:12.600 --> 0:07:15.320 X amount of millions? Are you still on the cast? 0:07:15.360 --> 0:07:18.360 And she said yes, So I don't know. 0:07:18.960 --> 0:07:20.520 Interesting, is that a deal breaker? 0:07:20.600 --> 0:07:23.120 If do you know as a Bravo insider, is that 0:07:23.160 --> 0:07:25.480 a deal breaker? Because like this is a genuine question 0:07:25.680 --> 0:07:26.800 if you go to jail. 0:07:27.000 --> 0:07:31.360 This has never happened before where someone you know, Teresa Judice. 0:07:31.760 --> 0:07:35.040 Hers was different though hers had to do with I 0:07:35.200 --> 0:07:39.400 believe taxes or something, and she was she was kind 0:07:39.400 --> 0:07:44.120 of collateral damage for her ex husband's doing. Right. Okay, 0:07:45.160 --> 0:07:48.000 but this is this is like you knowingly like stole 0:07:48.080 --> 0:07:52.200 from the elderly. You know, it's like a character flaw, right, 0:07:52.640 --> 0:07:54.360 But I don't. 0:07:54.200 --> 0:07:57.360 Know that because yeah, yeah, okay, all I. 0:07:57.320 --> 0:08:00.360 Know is she was not welcome at Bravo con. Yeah 0:08:01.000 --> 0:08:06.040 at all. Yeah, so there's that. Let's talk about your holiday. 0:08:06.240 --> 0:08:08.160 I had to get the Bravo news out. I'm sorry, 0:08:08.280 --> 0:08:09.400 it was so good. 0:08:09.960 --> 0:08:11.640 While we're talking about Bravo, you don't want it? Do 0:08:11.640 --> 0:08:13.840 you want to touch on oh my gosh, this trailer? 0:08:15.120 --> 0:08:17.440 When did she get up like on pins and needles. 0:08:17.520 --> 0:08:19.520 I was just so excited to talk about like all 0:08:19.560 --> 0:08:22.800 of these things that happened, yeah with Bravo that like 0:08:23.320 --> 0:08:26.520 I forgot about vander Pump Rules. 0:08:26.800 --> 0:08:30.920 Vander Pump Rules season ten trailer dropped today, which is Monday, 0:08:30.960 --> 0:08:32.480 so it means dropped two days ago. 0:08:33.400 --> 0:08:36.960 Season ten. The trailer was fantastic. I thought it was amazing. 0:08:37.080 --> 0:08:41.840 I feel like season ten, Season ten really saved my 0:08:41.960 --> 0:08:46.720 soul because I was just coming out of my relationship 0:08:47.000 --> 0:08:52.200 and vander Pump Rules got me out of the house 0:08:52.280 --> 0:08:55.839 and somewhere to be and to focus on my friendships 0:08:56.000 --> 0:08:57.960 and hear what they've been going through, and it just 0:08:58.000 --> 0:08:59.719 took me out of the shit. And I talked to 0:08:59.760 --> 0:09:03.560 one of my producers the other day and because I 0:09:03.600 --> 0:09:06.320 cry all the time, like, I started crying to him 0:09:06.360 --> 0:09:09.880 and I just let him know that this season, no 0:09:09.960 --> 0:09:13.080 matter how it turns out, for me, Like just filming 0:09:13.120 --> 0:09:16.920 season ten saved me as a person. I felt like 0:09:16.960 --> 0:09:19.920 it was the first time that I didn't have to 0:09:19.920 --> 0:09:22.600 be afraid to talk about things that I've so desperately 0:09:22.640 --> 0:09:25.440 wanted to talk about for a long time. And just 0:09:26.640 --> 0:09:32.680 how tired and exhausted and terrified I was in my 0:09:32.840 --> 0:09:38.880 old life. I just didn't want to deal. And even 0:09:38.920 --> 0:09:42.600 though it was an intense season on many levels for everybody, 0:09:42.840 --> 0:09:45.240 you know, the toms trying to get their bar open, 0:09:45.720 --> 0:09:51.080 Katie navigating a divorce, and everyone just had something that 0:09:51.120 --> 0:09:55.720 they were dealing with. And even though for me my 0:09:55.840 --> 0:09:59.640 life was heavy, vander Pump Rules brought me some light 0:10:00.120 --> 0:10:02.880 not and I don't want that to be misconstrued saying 0:10:02.920 --> 0:10:07.160 that everyone's everyone else's pain and struggles made me feel happy, 0:10:07.200 --> 0:10:11.760 because that's not what I mean. It just it made 0:10:11.840 --> 0:10:14.439 me lose myself. Yeah, for a moment. 0:10:14.360 --> 0:10:17.960 That didn't sound I mean, I don't me. I didn't think. 0:10:18.040 --> 0:10:21.240 I didn't take that any other way than like what 0:10:21.320 --> 0:10:22.760 you said. It saved you. 0:10:23.160 --> 0:10:25.920 I could tell just by being around you, like for 0:10:26.080 --> 0:10:28.400 a moment, and no matter what you were going through 0:10:28.760 --> 0:10:31.920 through that, for that moment when you would go hang 0:10:31.920 --> 0:10:35.040 out with your friends or do whatever, you could focus 0:10:35.080 --> 0:10:37.640 on that, even if when you came back and the 0:10:37.679 --> 0:10:39.880 cameras were down you started getting in your head again 0:10:39.960 --> 0:10:44.679 or overthinking or just thinking about certain things happening. I 0:10:44.720 --> 0:10:48.040 loved when you started when cameras picked back up and 0:10:48.080 --> 0:10:50.440 you guys were back, because I was like, yes, yeah, 0:10:50.440 --> 0:10:53.800 this is it. Do you think it accurately accurately? Do 0:10:53.840 --> 0:10:59.160 you think the trailer accurately reflected or reflects the season 0:10:59.320 --> 0:11:00.280 we're about to see. 0:11:00.600 --> 0:11:02.839 I think it would make you excited to watch. I mean, 0:11:02.960 --> 0:11:06.959 nothing could like prepare you for what the season holds. 0:11:07.040 --> 0:11:10.160 And I'm well aware just because I filmed it for 0:11:10.200 --> 0:11:13.720 however many months, that I'm going to have moments of 0:11:14.880 --> 0:11:21.040 being a hypocrite, moments of being lost, moments of projection. 0:11:21.400 --> 0:11:24.720 I project left and right onto people like wanting to 0:11:25.120 --> 0:11:28.360 like save let me save you, Let me project my 0:11:28.360 --> 0:11:30.680 shit onto you so that I can help you not 0:11:31.040 --> 0:11:33.680 end up like me. So I don't know how it's 0:11:33.760 --> 0:11:36.200 going to come across because I haven't seen the final 0:11:36.600 --> 0:11:39.880 edited season. I don't even think they're finished editing yet obviously, 0:11:40.200 --> 0:11:42.400 but I'm excited. 0:11:42.960 --> 0:11:45.800 I saw it and I was like, yes, they're back. 0:11:46.120 --> 0:11:48.240 I'm very excited. I can't wait to watch. 0:11:48.280 --> 0:11:51.040 There were just like glimpses because you guys know, I've 0:11:51.200 --> 0:11:54.520 heard about most of this, but I haven't seen most 0:11:54.559 --> 0:11:57.560 of it. So there were glimpses that I've heard about 0:11:57.679 --> 0:11:59.200 that I was like, oh my god, this is even 0:11:59.240 --> 0:12:00.880 better than I expected. 0:12:00.920 --> 0:12:01.720 I'm so excited. 0:12:01.840 --> 0:12:06.679 I'm so right too. February eighth, I can't put it right. 0:12:08.280 --> 0:12:11.480 I'm just like ready because even though you film it, 0:12:11.480 --> 0:12:13.560 you never know what's going to be like on the 0:12:13.559 --> 0:12:15.920 cutting room floor, you know where they're like, this may 0:12:15.920 --> 0:12:17.960 be interesting to you, but to no one else. 0:12:18.200 --> 0:12:19.960 Right, you know it's gone. 0:12:20.040 --> 0:12:22.760 And because I'm me, I'm like, but everything I do 0:12:22.840 --> 0:12:28.079 is interesting and we should all feel that way. Yes, 0:12:28.120 --> 0:12:30.800 everything that I do in life, all of us should 0:12:30.800 --> 0:12:33.640 say this should never end up on the cutting room floor, 0:12:34.640 --> 0:12:36.400 because we're all just that fucking interesting. 0:12:36.440 --> 0:12:38.320 Twenty twenty three, Mantra. 0:12:42.880 --> 0:12:44.920 This holiday was so spectacular. 0:12:45.040 --> 0:12:46.240 Tell me about your holiday. 0:12:46.360 --> 0:12:49.360 I didn't even know, Like, I posted some things on 0:12:49.400 --> 0:12:54.600 social media, but I wasn't looking through DMS, which, by 0:12:54.600 --> 0:12:56.520 the way, I turned off my DMS. I can't. I'm 0:12:56.520 --> 0:12:57.800 not accepting DMS anymore. 0:12:57.960 --> 0:13:00.440 Really, you also changed name. 0:13:01.280 --> 0:13:04.440 That was not intentional. Oh they wanted. They kept asking 0:13:04.440 --> 0:13:07.320 me to link it to my Facebook. When I say they, 0:13:07.360 --> 0:13:10.319 I mean the robot ignore. I kept pressing, ignoring, and 0:13:10.320 --> 0:13:12.880 then they kept asking. I was like, fine, fuck link, 0:13:13.040 --> 0:13:16.720 So now my my name is on there, okay, but 0:13:16.800 --> 0:13:18.760 I didn't change it. I'm trying to get it off. 0:13:19.520 --> 0:13:21.200 That's so funny because I could get it off. But 0:13:21.240 --> 0:13:23.360 I saw it and I was like, power move. 0:13:23.480 --> 0:13:26.880 She's She's like, Lauren, this year. Yes, bitch, I had 0:13:26.880 --> 0:13:27.360 no idea. 0:13:27.440 --> 0:13:29.240 If people could say my name correctly, I would have 0:13:29.240 --> 0:13:30.200 no problem being Lauren. 0:13:31.240 --> 0:13:33.319 Oh my god, that's funny. Okay, So you. 0:13:33.760 --> 0:13:35.679 I didn't look at social media. I was just like 0:13:35.760 --> 0:13:39.600 in the clouds. I was just enjoying my moment of 0:13:39.760 --> 0:13:43.320 just being with these people that I love and my 0:13:43.480 --> 0:13:49.320 friendship with Brock and Sheena has gotten like unbelievably close. 0:13:49.720 --> 0:13:50.280 I love that. 0:13:51.000 --> 0:13:56.040 So they had us in Palm Springs and just like 0:13:56.160 --> 0:14:02.360 watching Ocean run, Like she's just so freak magical. Yeah, 0:14:02.480 --> 0:14:09.840 everything about her, like I don't. 0:14:08.880 --> 0:14:09.480 Like who. 0:14:09.600 --> 0:14:11.000 I look at her and I'm like, who are you? 0:14:11.040 --> 0:14:14.400 Where did you come from? You're like pure joy in 0:14:14.480 --> 0:14:15.040 this world. 0:14:16.040 --> 0:14:18.600 Miracle baby, she really is. 0:14:18.600 --> 0:14:22.720 She's just like a treasure and anyone who doesn't get 0:14:22.760 --> 0:14:26.320 to meet her, I'm like, you're missing out. Yeah. Yeah. 0:14:26.360 --> 0:14:28.280 So to watch her play with Summer Moon and it 0:14:28.440 --> 0:14:33.200 just for the first time in years, it felt like 0:14:34.000 --> 0:14:37.760 it was the holidays, you know, surrounded by people who 0:14:37.840 --> 0:14:42.240 are just like it was just love and food and 0:14:43.000 --> 0:14:48.680 like laughing and just forgetting anything and everything that we've 0:14:48.720 --> 0:14:51.680 been through and struggles that we may have or like 0:14:51.800 --> 0:14:54.720 we'll pick them up when we go into next year, 0:14:55.240 --> 0:14:58.680 Let's just take this moment and live. And that's what 0:14:58.760 --> 0:15:00.440 I hope everyone's holiday was like. 0:15:00.600 --> 0:15:01.480 Well, that's beautiful. 0:15:01.480 --> 0:15:03.360 I'm so glad you got to experience it, because just 0:15:03.400 --> 0:15:06.640 seeing what you posted on Instagram first and foremost, I 0:15:06.680 --> 0:15:08.480 knew you were going to Palm Springs and I was like. 0:15:09.080 --> 0:15:11.160 Dying watching ocean and rock. 0:15:11.280 --> 0:15:14.240 There's something so just special about I think her having 0:15:14.360 --> 0:15:17.520 Easton and Brock and all these like wonderful strong men 0:15:17.560 --> 0:15:22.040 in her life, and but you were active beyond just 0:15:22.120 --> 0:15:25.160 Palm Springs. I was like, they are out and about 0:15:25.240 --> 0:15:27.160 and just like living their best lives. 0:15:27.160 --> 0:15:28.000 And it made me really well. 0:15:28.040 --> 0:15:29.640 Sheenah told me. She was like, I want you to 0:15:29.680 --> 0:15:31.880 start like doing things like I want you to start 0:15:31.920 --> 0:15:36.000 living your life. So I've started saying yes rather than no. 0:15:36.880 --> 0:15:39.920 And I don't know if it's the timing with Sena 0:15:40.000 --> 0:15:43.600 and I. I don't know what happened, if we have 0:15:43.840 --> 0:15:48.120 grown up, whatever it is, I'm just relishing in it 0:15:48.240 --> 0:15:52.920 because I like the person I am when I'm around her, 0:15:52.960 --> 0:15:55.440 and I don't know if it's motherhood with both of us. 0:15:55.840 --> 0:15:58.160 There was something after Will and Elaine's party where I 0:15:58.200 --> 0:16:00.680 just felt like we were constantly doing things like going 0:16:00.680 --> 0:16:05.720 back down to Newport to see the boat light show. Yeah, 0:16:06.200 --> 0:16:07.400 you know, and then it was like, do you want 0:16:07.400 --> 0:16:09.280 to come to a football game? Do you want to 0:16:09.600 --> 0:16:12.120 come do this and that? And it was it's just 0:16:12.440 --> 0:16:15.040 fun and it's fun to watch summer and ocean together. 0:16:15.120 --> 0:16:18.840 And Brock is such an incredible dad. And there's so 0:16:18.840 --> 0:16:22.000 many people that were like, have you apologized profusely? 0:16:22.800 --> 0:16:27.760 I'm like, yes, first off, you did podcast. 0:16:27.920 --> 0:16:30.440 Every time I see them, I say, fuck you, here's 0:16:30.480 --> 0:16:35.160 my kid, fuck you put my kid on your shoulders, Like, yeah, 0:16:35.320 --> 0:16:39.760 the past two years have been humbling, eye opening all 0:16:39.800 --> 0:16:42.280 of the things, and the fact that like Brock and 0:16:42.360 --> 0:16:46.320 Sheena could find it in their hearts to forgive me 0:16:47.440 --> 0:16:52.360 that my presentation was not great. It just I think 0:16:52.360 --> 0:16:55.480 that it speaks volumes of the people that they are. 0:16:56.640 --> 0:16:59.280 And my mom and Erica are like the cutest little friends, 0:16:59.440 --> 0:17:03.400 which is she mom that I just really am enjoying 0:17:03.920 --> 0:17:07.760 the hell out of this time in my life, as. 0:17:07.600 --> 0:17:10.760 You should, like relish in the moments where you're sitting 0:17:10.840 --> 0:17:13.240 there and you're looking around and you're surrounded, like you 0:17:13.240 --> 0:17:16.800 were saying about Christmas or the holiday, surrounded by people 0:17:16.840 --> 0:17:19.840 you love, everyone's laughing, there's food, and for a moment, 0:17:19.840 --> 0:17:22.320 it's just like, this is like happiness. 0:17:22.400 --> 0:17:24.359 This is fucking pure joy. It's pure joy. 0:17:24.520 --> 0:17:27.320 Yeah. And going into twenty twenty three, I felt different. 0:17:28.000 --> 0:17:30.280 I was like, I will no longer live in a fog. 0:17:30.880 --> 0:17:35.040 You know that's not your nobody. If you're not adding 0:17:35.080 --> 0:17:39.480 to my world, if you don't come correct before twenty 0:17:39.520 --> 0:17:43.600 twenty three happens, you're being left in twenty twenty two. Bye, 0:17:44.119 --> 0:17:46.480 I'm not dealing. I got a lot going on. You 0:17:46.560 --> 0:17:48.600 got a lot going on, and if we can't manage 0:17:48.600 --> 0:17:50.439 to make it work, like that's what it is. 0:17:50.760 --> 0:17:53.440 Yeah. No, I'm so excited for this year and I'm 0:17:53.480 --> 0:17:55.680 so excited for your energy going into this year. 0:17:57.359 --> 0:18:00.880 I mean already, like I said, we're nine or were 0:18:00.960 --> 0:18:03.439 nine days in and I'm like, your schedule's filling up. 0:18:03.480 --> 0:18:05.280 I'm like, yes, this is great. 0:18:05.280 --> 0:18:08.360 Keep filling it up. Yes, we got money to make, 0:18:08.440 --> 0:18:12.520 we got money to recruit that. You know. I look 0:18:12.600 --> 0:18:17.200 at the past year and some change and I'm like, wow, 0:18:18.080 --> 0:18:25.119 how am I surviving? It's so weird. I'm telling you 0:18:25.119 --> 0:18:28.240 what that's believing in the universe. I've started doing holy 0:18:28.280 --> 0:18:31.320 work this is what I wanted to tell you guys about. 0:18:31.800 --> 0:18:36.119 So before the New year, before the holiday, I called 0:18:36.119 --> 0:18:39.399 a friend of mine who has been sober for eighteen years. 0:18:40.200 --> 0:18:43.360 I absolutely adore the person she is, but the way 0:18:43.400 --> 0:18:47.440 she practices her program because there's no I always say, 0:18:47.440 --> 0:18:51.760 this AA is not one size fits all. Everyone practices 0:18:51.760 --> 0:18:56.199 their program differently. And they always say, you know, surround 0:18:56.240 --> 0:18:58.439 yourself with people who have what you want, and that 0:18:58.520 --> 0:19:00.920 means just in life, but they say that in the 0:19:01.560 --> 0:19:05.040 program because you want to be around people who practice 0:19:05.040 --> 0:19:07.919 the program, and you go, I want what you have. 0:19:08.160 --> 0:19:12.280 So my friend I want what she has. And so 0:19:12.400 --> 0:19:17.000 we go to dinner before a meeting and I just 0:19:17.040 --> 0:19:19.240 like I lost it and I told her where my 0:19:19.320 --> 0:19:21.040 head was, where my heart was. Because we get on 0:19:21.080 --> 0:19:24.400 the podcast. Do you guys see me on social media? 0:19:24.480 --> 0:19:28.800 And I really try to keep it uplifting and like 0:19:29.000 --> 0:19:32.280 I'm always okay, but there have been many moments where 0:19:32.359 --> 0:19:36.399 I'm sitting here going like I'm gonna break, Like I 0:19:36.600 --> 0:19:43.040 cannot do this anymore. So I had a conversation with 0:19:43.119 --> 0:19:46.040 her and she just like made me see the light. 0:19:47.280 --> 0:19:49.880 And I know that there's a lot of people who 0:19:50.200 --> 0:19:52.399 this will resonate with where you sit down, you go, 0:19:52.560 --> 0:19:56.159 I can't live this way anymore, Like I have to change. 0:19:56.440 --> 0:19:59.919 Something's gotta give, and the only thing I have control 0:20:00.160 --> 0:20:03.040 over is my perspective and how I'm gonna handle it. 0:20:04.440 --> 0:20:08.919 So she tells me, you know, gives me words of 0:20:08.960 --> 0:20:12.320 advice and encouragement. We go to the meeting. The speaker's 0:20:12.760 --> 0:20:18.359 absolutely unbelievable. And the next morning is when I started. 0:20:18.400 --> 0:20:21.640 I call it my holy work, and I basically wake 0:20:21.720 --> 0:20:26.480 up and meditate and pray and that I look at 0:20:26.520 --> 0:20:28.560 the clock and I'm like, wow, I've literally been like 0:20:28.920 --> 0:20:34.880 begging to God for like thirty fucking minutes. So I 0:20:34.920 --> 0:20:39.160 do that whole meditation and prayer, just asking Him, whoever 0:20:39.240 --> 0:20:41.159 Him is to you. It could be a man in 0:20:41.200 --> 0:20:43.000 the sky, it could be a freaking tree. I don't 0:20:43.000 --> 0:20:44.960 give a shit. As long as you feel like it's 0:20:44.960 --> 0:20:49.080 more powerful and greater than you, like, that's all that matters. 0:20:50.119 --> 0:20:53.439 And after that, I read from the Big Book and 0:20:53.520 --> 0:20:57.840 then I journal and it's almost like a manifestation. It's 0:20:57.840 --> 0:21:02.680 not like, dear Diary, today this happened. You know. It's 0:21:02.720 --> 0:21:05.560 in the morning, and I put in there what I'm 0:21:05.640 --> 0:21:08.520 going to do and what my intentions are. And I'm 0:21:08.600 --> 0:21:11.080 feeling weak right now, but I'm not allowing this to 0:21:11.119 --> 0:21:14.520 take over. I'm laying my shortcomings in front of God 0:21:14.840 --> 0:21:19.000 to take over because I'm incapable of handling it. I 0:21:19.080 --> 0:21:23.120 need someone else or something else, and I have found 0:21:23.200 --> 0:21:25.280 that that has worked. 0:21:25.920 --> 0:21:29.000 Wonders and so you journal and you said, it just 0:21:29.560 --> 0:21:31.480 feels it doesn't feel like a purge, and. 0:21:31.560 --> 0:21:33.680 It feels like a purge, and it sets the tone 0:21:33.720 --> 0:21:36.119 for my day. And there are many times where during 0:21:36.160 --> 0:21:41.400 my prayer I am fully like sobbing uncontrollably. 0:21:41.600 --> 0:21:43.720 Do you put on music or anything? 0:21:43.880 --> 0:21:47.679 Or during the meditation I'll put on like soft, soft, 0:21:47.720 --> 0:21:50.840 like spa music. And then here's where I'm gonna share 0:21:50.880 --> 0:21:53.000 this with you guys, and you're gonna think I'm insane, 0:21:53.160 --> 0:21:58.040 but it's okay. I take my stage and Palo Santo 0:21:59.359 --> 0:22:01.600