WEBVTT - Love's a B*tch Then You Die 0:00:02.160 --> 0:00:03.720 What's up you guys? 0:00:04.120 --> 0:00:07.400 This week we are talking about love withdrawals. 0:00:08.520 --> 0:00:11.879 Erica is traumatized by her great baby hears and contemplating 0:00:11.920 --> 0:00:15.200 if it's time to start considering freezing eggs. 0:00:15.240 --> 0:00:18.400 Do we flow too hard? And will we be alone forever? 0:00:19.360 --> 0:00:24.520 Healthy love, a whore story involving male squirts. 0:00:24.760 --> 0:00:27.280 And of course, our live show, y'all. 0:00:27.560 --> 0:00:31.120 Our live show is this Saturday. We can't wait to 0:00:31.120 --> 0:00:34.279 see you guys. If you haven't got your tickets, make 0:00:34.320 --> 0:00:38.319 sure you do. They are in the episode description. It's 0:00:38.360 --> 0:00:41.680 gonna be late, it's ladies night. Call your friends, bring 0:00:41.720 --> 0:00:42.400 them over. 0:00:42.440 --> 0:00:47.040 Get your wine, get your read and join us live performances, 0:00:47.080 --> 0:00:50.720 special guests. Yeah, it's gonna be dope and a discount 0:00:50.800 --> 0:00:51.520 for patrons. 0:00:52.159 --> 0:01:21.760 Ooh yeah, hmmm that felt good. 0:01:22.160 --> 0:01:25.319 No, Jamila is not having sex, just releasing, just. 0:01:25.720 --> 0:01:28.040 Releasing my emotions and feelings for the day. 0:01:29.920 --> 0:01:30.760 What's up, guys. 0:01:31.120 --> 0:01:35.800 This is Erica and this is Mela, and it's Wednesday. 0:01:36.200 --> 0:01:38.600 Kids are in the other room jumping on the couch. 0:01:39.280 --> 0:01:41.839 They gotta go to bed soon. So this is gonna 0:01:41.840 --> 0:01:44.080 be a short and cute episode. Okay, we're gonna keep 0:01:44.080 --> 0:01:48.440 a real, real cute, quick short I say that now, 0:01:48.440 --> 0:01:49.920 and then I start talking and I'm. 0:01:49.720 --> 0:01:54.520 Like, lah blah blah blah lah. Shall we start with 0:01:55.400 --> 0:01:56.400 our taro pol? 0:01:57.040 --> 0:01:58.240 Sure? All right here with that? 0:02:02.240 --> 0:02:05.440 Also side note, Jamila tried to shuffle these cards earlier, 0:02:05.960 --> 0:02:07.960 and I feel like I gotta do like a boom, 0:02:08.040 --> 0:02:11.079 like I got to do like a story real, just 0:02:11.120 --> 0:02:14.000 showing you guys how this bitch shuffles cards. 0:02:14.040 --> 0:02:16.000 It's fucking crazy. 0:02:16.160 --> 0:02:17.639 Well, first of all, I don't know what you're trying 0:02:17.680 --> 0:02:19.440 to blast me because you handed me the deck and 0:02:19.480 --> 0:02:20.960 said I never do it, and I said it's for 0:02:21.000 --> 0:02:23.120 a reason. I don't know how to shuffle. I'm not 0:02:23.200 --> 0:02:25.400 good at shuffling. I've never been a good shuffler. 0:02:25.440 --> 0:02:27.440 It's not my thing. I didn't know how bad it was. 0:02:27.520 --> 0:02:29.840 It was embarrassing. I was like, what the fuck are 0:02:29.880 --> 0:02:30.760 you doing over there? 0:02:31.040 --> 0:02:35.119 And you were just like and apparently you didn't listen 0:02:35.160 --> 0:02:36.079 to me because her. 0:02:38.080 --> 0:02:42.760 Shut up her trying to shove cards into places. 0:02:42.800 --> 0:02:45.359 It was weird anyway, as I was shuffling too, fell 0:02:45.400 --> 0:02:48.120 out and so you know in whichy tearo card world 0:02:48.120 --> 0:02:48.639 that means you. 0:02:48.560 --> 0:02:49.239 Got to read them. 0:02:49.480 --> 0:02:52.560 And I thought it was very interesting despite my shitty shuffling. 0:02:52.960 --> 0:02:54.200 I thought it was interesting. 0:02:53.840 --> 0:02:56.800 That what fell out was two queen cards, as two 0:02:56.880 --> 0:02:57.839 queens are sitting here. 0:02:58.000 --> 0:02:59.640 Okay, preach, bitch, preach. 0:03:00.720 --> 0:03:03.000 So today we're going to read both cards, because that's 0:03:03.000 --> 0:03:05.359 how the world of magic works. If something jumps out 0:03:05.400 --> 0:03:07.000 at you, you take it as a sign. 0:03:07.280 --> 0:03:08.240 Boom. 0:03:08.360 --> 0:03:10.079 Okay. So the Queen of Swords. 0:03:11.200 --> 0:03:15.320 The Queen of Swords combines the mental clarity and intellectual 0:03:15.360 --> 0:03:18.200 power of the suit of Swords with the maturity and 0:03:18.320 --> 0:03:19.959 receptiveness of the Queen. 0:03:20.720 --> 0:03:22.120 You hear that you have to be a receptive if 0:03:22.120 --> 0:03:22.680 you're a queen. 0:03:22.800 --> 0:03:23.640 Okay, okay. 0:03:25.040 --> 0:03:27.360 This Queen of Swords notes that you are a truth seeker. 0:03:27.480 --> 0:03:30.400 You're open to hearing the thoughts and opinions of others, 0:03:30.680 --> 0:03:34.560 but ultimately you filter that information to decipher. 0:03:34.160 --> 0:03:35.600 What is true and what is not. 0:03:36.000 --> 0:03:37.120 Are you a liah I'm not. 0:03:37.920 --> 0:03:40.800 When interacting with others, you will not tolerate mistrust or 0:03:40.840 --> 0:03:43.080 excessive fluff. You prefer to get to the part of 0:03:43.120 --> 0:03:45.320 the matter without engaging in too much chit chat or gossip. 0:03:45.480 --> 0:03:46.440 It literally sounds like me. 0:03:46.880 --> 0:03:51.160 It also kind of reminded me of like the conversation 0:03:51.280 --> 0:03:55.400 we had this morning in our meeting and what we 0:03:55.480 --> 0:03:56.600 want to listen to or not. 0:03:57.120 --> 0:03:59.640 Right, Yeah, we heard you, but nope. 0:03:59.680 --> 0:04:02.360 Never Really, The Queen of Swords suggests that you have 0:04:02.360 --> 0:04:04.440 an innate ability to tell it like it is. You're 0:04:04.480 --> 0:04:07.240 a quick thinker and highly perceptive, piercing through the noise 0:04:07.280 --> 0:04:09.400 and confusion to get straight to the point. There is 0:04:09.520 --> 0:04:12.320 no beating about the bush. You're softening of your comments, opinions, 0:04:12.360 --> 0:04:14.280 and thoughts. You are upfront and honest in your views, 0:04:14.400 --> 0:04:16.480 and you expect the sign from others. For this reason, 0:04:16.520 --> 0:04:19.359 many people respect your opinion and come to you for 0:04:19.440 --> 0:04:20.880 advice when they need clarity. 0:04:22.279 --> 0:04:25.440 Okay, okay, Queen of Swords, Okay. 0:04:25.480 --> 0:04:28.080 People do not mess with you, not because you threaten 0:04:28.120 --> 0:04:30.720 them or inflict violence, but because you set expectations up 0:04:30.760 --> 0:04:34.160 from the front. From expectations upfront about how you want 0:04:34.200 --> 0:04:36.520 to be treated. Some people might be intimidated by you, 0:04:36.560 --> 0:04:38.919 but once they get past your tough exterior and develop 0:04:38.960 --> 0:04:41.800 a sense of trust and respect, they see your softer side. 0:04:41.920 --> 0:04:43.760 Am I the Queen of Swords? I feel like I 0:04:43.800 --> 0:04:44.920 am her? She is me. 0:04:45.680 --> 0:04:47.880 Okay I read the other one, babe, I pulled it 0:04:47.960 --> 0:04:48.560 up on your song. 0:04:48.760 --> 0:04:52.400 Okay, So the second card that fell out of Jamila's 0:04:52.440 --> 0:04:53.200 trash deck. 0:04:54.720 --> 0:04:57.080 Watch how you talk to me, bitch, Watch how you 0:04:57.120 --> 0:04:59.800 talk to me. You haven't gotten in a public fight yet. 0:05:00.120 --> 0:05:01.680 There's the first time for everything. 0:05:01.720 --> 0:05:05.119 Oh shit, damn, Okay, you're right, but I'm not. I'm ready. 0:05:05.360 --> 0:05:06.320 You ready? You know what? 0:05:06.560 --> 0:05:07.360 You know? 0:05:07.400 --> 0:05:10.279 I will feature I will fuck you up, honestly. Actually, 0:05:10.320 --> 0:05:12.400 today I realized how much this week. I realized how 0:05:12.440 --> 0:05:14.040 much taller than me than you were. When we took 0:05:14.040 --> 0:05:16.000 those pictures and it was by your nipple. I was like, 0:05:16.040 --> 0:05:19.320 what the fuck is this? Am I this tiny of 0:05:19.360 --> 0:05:21.799 a human being? I didn't realize you that smalling? 0:05:21.880 --> 0:05:22.919 That tell you those pictures? 0:05:23.000 --> 0:05:23.240 Right? 0:05:23.560 --> 0:05:25.559 Yeah, everybody, I am very sure. 0:05:25.640 --> 0:05:27.880 I know these pictures are very deceiving because I have 0:05:27.920 --> 0:05:31.080 a long neck and it's true, and I have long legs. 0:05:31.080 --> 0:05:33.560 I've appear taller than I am in real live I'm 0:05:33.600 --> 0:05:34.360 only five to one? 0:05:34.800 --> 0:05:35.800 Are you only five to one? 0:05:36.279 --> 0:05:36.520 Wow? 0:05:36.560 --> 0:05:37.159 You are small? 0:05:38.480 --> 0:05:41.039 I'm six two guys right, you just said they're like, 0:05:41.200 --> 0:05:42.320 oh my god. 0:05:42.160 --> 0:05:45.040 I'm not like five seven five six. 0:05:46.160 --> 0:05:47.560 But I was gonna really fuck everyone happened and then 0:05:47.680 --> 0:05:49.000 be like, damn, this picture is tall. 0:05:50.440 --> 0:05:51.719 You're a apart. 0:05:53.080 --> 0:05:58.080 Okay, Queen of Panicles, upright, nurturing, practical, providing, financially, a 0:05:58.120 --> 0:05:59.000 working parent. 0:06:00.080 --> 0:06:02.599 The fuck wow, I told you it was interesting that 0:06:02.640 --> 0:06:03.920 these two came out of the deck. 0:06:04.440 --> 0:06:04.800 Okay. 0:06:04.839 --> 0:06:06.599 In the Queen of Pentacles, a woman sits on a 0:06:06.600 --> 0:06:12.080 stone throne decorated with car decorated with carving of fruit, trees, goats, angels, 0:06:12.080 --> 0:06:15.640 and other symbols of material success and sensual pleasures. She 0:06:15.720 --> 0:06:18.239 cradles a gold coin with both hands and looks down 0:06:18.320 --> 0:06:21.440 on it with loving care, as if to nurture the 0:06:21.480 --> 0:06:25.719 symbol of wealth and material success. Okay, So the Queen 0:06:25.720 --> 0:06:28.520 of Pentacles is the nurturing mother of the material world. 0:06:28.600 --> 0:06:30.760 At home, she knows her love for others by cooking. 0:06:30.880 --> 0:06:34.520 She shows her love for others by cooking nutritious meals, 0:06:34.560 --> 0:06:37.760 maintaining a clean and inviting home, and giving warm cuddles 0:06:37.800 --> 0:06:39.760 to those who need it most. She is also able 0:06:39.760 --> 0:06:41.960 to work a full time job and make a financial 0:06:41.960 --> 0:06:46.320 contribution to the household. Okay, bitch, often as the primary breadwinner. 0:06:46.440 --> 0:06:47.520 Okay, she is. 0:06:47.520 --> 0:06:51.599 Masterful at taking care of the practical needs of work 0:06:51.760 --> 0:06:54.880 home family, while also giving her love and support to 0:06:54.920 --> 0:06:55.600 those she cares. 0:06:55.720 --> 0:06:58.520 If this is not the cancer and scorpio the fucking 0:06:58.520 --> 0:06:59.080 tarot parts. 0:06:59.279 --> 0:07:02.640 Literally, yeah, would you like to eat baby? 0:07:03.080 --> 0:07:05.520 I will cuddle you mean mole. 0:07:05.279 --> 0:07:07.400 You're like, are you talking? Are you telling the truth? 0:07:09.000 --> 0:07:09.960 Are you lying to me? 0:07:12.240 --> 0:07:12.560 Okay? 0:07:13.320 --> 0:07:15.240 When the Queen of Pentacles appears in the tarot reading, 0:07:15.240 --> 0:07:18.200 you are embodying the ultimate working parent archetype. You care 0:07:18.240 --> 0:07:20.840 for your family and domestic responsibilities while also making a 0:07:20.880 --> 0:07:24.080 living for yourself and creating financial abundance. You can maintain 0:07:24.120 --> 0:07:26.640 a healthy balance between home and work by integrating the 0:07:26.680 --> 0:07:29.400 two and finding your new place of flow and alignment. 0:07:29.720 --> 0:07:32.440 You strive to create a warm and secure environment for 0:07:32.520 --> 0:07:35.000 your family and loved ones while giving your giving your 0:07:35.040 --> 0:07:36.960 love and support freely. 0:07:38.080 --> 0:07:38.240 Oh. 0:07:38.240 --> 0:07:40.680 It's also important for you to live independently with a 0:07:40.720 --> 0:07:41.640 stable income. 0:07:44.840 --> 0:07:47.320 You Oh, you basically this at. 0:07:47.160 --> 0:07:50.160 The same time, you find time for yourself and prioritize 0:07:50.160 --> 0:07:52.720 me time in between all of your other commitments. 0:07:53.000 --> 0:07:54.240 Shout out to self care. 0:07:55.240 --> 0:07:59.680 And actually in tarot life world, as cards come up, 0:07:59.680 --> 0:08:02.880 I know you usually pick one. You're supposed to read 0:08:02.960 --> 0:08:05.360 them in relation to one another, So if like one 0:08:05.400 --> 0:08:08.120 comes before one like, that will change the interpretation of 0:08:08.120 --> 0:08:10.240 whatever the message may or may not be. So I'm 0:08:10.280 --> 0:08:12.480 just going to go right into my intuitive nature right now. 0:08:12.600 --> 0:08:13.200 Oh, go for it. 0:08:13.600 --> 0:08:18.840 I'm gonna say that these mean that even though we 0:08:19.080 --> 0:08:21.360 got news that we didn't really want to hear. 0:08:21.280 --> 0:08:23.120 Today, it's fine. 0:08:23.440 --> 0:08:27.000 Okay, stay clear, be clear of the plan, hear other 0:08:27.040 --> 0:08:31.600 people's straightforward opinions, but also know that the finances and 0:08:31.640 --> 0:08:34.640 the financial stability are coming, and the freedom to be 0:08:34.920 --> 0:08:37.920 more nurturing and maternal to our kids and have more 0:08:37.920 --> 0:08:41.240 free time with the abundance is also on its way. 0:08:41.440 --> 0:08:45.560 So who cares about that meeting we had earlier today? Okay, okay, yeah, 0:08:45.880 --> 0:08:49.080 because we're very clear about the messages that we're getting 0:08:49.120 --> 0:08:53.920 and we're also maternal, awesome and financially abundant, abundant. 0:08:54.000 --> 0:08:54.440 Okay. 0:08:54.920 --> 0:08:57.959 Well, on that note, I would like to lead us 0:08:58.000 --> 0:09:01.160 into the affirmation of the week, which I think goes 0:09:01.200 --> 0:09:02.240 beautifully with. 0:09:02.080 --> 0:09:03.679 That reading and our feelings. 0:09:04.520 --> 0:09:07.120 So the affirmation of the week is any door that 0:09:07.160 --> 0:09:11.120 closes leads me to bigger and better opportunities, period. 0:09:11.880 --> 0:09:17.120 Any door that closes leads me to bigger and better opportunities, period. 0:09:17.440 --> 0:09:20.840 Yes, yes, and I agree, m hm hm. 0:09:22.920 --> 0:09:26.920 So anyway, Hello, Hi day, Happy hump day baby, how 0:09:26.920 --> 0:09:33.280 are you doing I'm doing good. I woke up. First 0:09:33.280 --> 0:09:35.040 of all, I stayed up way too late one day 0:09:35.040 --> 0:09:36.720 this weekend. I don't know if it was Friday or Saturday, 0:09:36.760 --> 0:09:40.040 but apparently I can't do that anymore. Okay, I'm getting 0:09:40.080 --> 0:09:42.640 residual fuck ups. On Monday, I was supposed to do 0:09:42.679 --> 0:09:45.600 something this morning. I literally went back to sleep because 0:09:45.679 --> 0:09:48.839 we like we had a call. It wasn't that thrilled 0:09:48.840 --> 0:09:52.280 about the call, but I felt my body immediately be 0:09:52.400 --> 0:09:59.000 like fuck this day o'clock, like my baby Daddy didn't 0:09:59.040 --> 0:10:00.960 take Lood, we didn't bring her back. 0:10:01.000 --> 0:10:02.520 So I was just like, I can't get out of bed. 0:10:02.559 --> 0:10:05.320 I'm not going to force it, go back to sleep. 0:10:05.760 --> 0:10:07.520 And then I was just like I had to give 0:10:07.559 --> 0:10:09.520 myself a pep talk because A had to get out 0:10:09.559 --> 0:10:11.480 the fucking bed and do stuff. And then b I 0:10:11.520 --> 0:10:16.760 was just like it was very interesting to watch the 0:10:16.920 --> 0:10:20.520 energy kind of drop, and I was just like, well, 0:10:20.520 --> 0:10:22.960 this is this doesn't matter. I mean, you know, at 0:10:22.960 --> 0:10:25.120 the end of the day, we're still so very clear 0:10:25.160 --> 0:10:29.600 about where we're headed that like our affirmation said, it's 0:10:29.720 --> 0:10:31.880 one door closes, it's because it's supposed to. 0:10:32.920 --> 0:10:38.160 And so I'm just you know, trying to stay up. 0:10:39.240 --> 0:10:40.319 How was your day? 0:10:42.160 --> 0:10:46.720 My days started off great. I spent the weekend with 0:10:47.760 --> 0:10:53.079 a LoVa, and yeah, I was like I had like 0:10:53.160 --> 0:10:57.160 a pretty long parent baby free weekend or week weekend 0:10:57.520 --> 0:11:00.199 from the I don't know, from the Thursday till Monday, 0:11:01.240 --> 0:11:06.240 which literally never happens ever, and so it's like I 0:11:06.240 --> 0:11:08.200 got into this weird zone. Like to me, it always 0:11:08.240 --> 0:11:09.640 takes like about a day and a half to like 0:11:09.720 --> 0:11:13.360 decompress from motherhood and you're like, Okay, I don't have 0:11:13.400 --> 0:11:14.800 a kid, and you're like, oh shit, I don't and 0:11:14.800 --> 0:11:16.440 then you're like, wet, go do something. Let's go do 0:11:16.480 --> 0:11:18.040 some shit, and then like you do the ship and 0:11:18.040 --> 0:11:20.120 then you're like, oh wow, I have another day to 0:11:20.240 --> 0:11:21.480 like decompress again. 0:11:22.640 --> 0:11:28.120 So yeah, my this weekend, I went, excuse me, God, 0:11:28.160 --> 0:11:28.600 I keep. 0:11:30.080 --> 0:11:34.760 Sweet Jesus this. 0:11:34.679 --> 0:11:35.640 Week good thing. 0:11:35.679 --> 0:11:37.600 This is a four twenty friendly autie. 0:11:37.760 --> 0:11:38.880 I know. I'm sorry. 0:11:38.920 --> 0:11:41.040 I'm gonna get We're gonna get bad reviews again about 0:11:41.040 --> 0:11:44.360 our eating on eating while we're podcasting. We don't really 0:11:44.400 --> 0:11:46.000 eat what we podcast. I don't know what the fuck 0:11:46.000 --> 0:11:47.760 they're talking about. Was it that time that I was 0:11:47.840 --> 0:11:52.760 chewing with the chips that was like two years ago. 0:11:52.840 --> 0:11:55.960 I was the one time they're talking specifically about us 0:11:56.000 --> 0:12:00.600 we hate uh oh yeah. 0:12:00.640 --> 0:12:03.720 So I woke up and I just I felt great. 0:12:03.840 --> 0:12:07.240 I had that call which wasn't great, but it wasn't bad. 0:12:08.320 --> 0:12:10.319 And then I went back to my love and then 0:12:10.360 --> 0:12:11.480 I was like, oh my god. 0:12:11.320 --> 0:12:11.840 I'm in love. 0:12:12.080 --> 0:12:16.560 And then he left and then then I was like, 0:12:16.559 --> 0:12:18.960 oh shit, it's Monday. I have like to get my 0:12:19.000 --> 0:12:22.360 shit together, and so I've just been doing that all day. 0:12:22.400 --> 0:12:24.960 But I don't know, I've been like feeling weird. 0:12:25.000 --> 0:12:26.719 I was telling Jamila, I was like, I think I'm 0:12:26.760 --> 0:12:32.120 having like like a love withdrawal, Like like I'm having 0:12:32.160 --> 0:12:35.760 love withdrawal, Like I got like so much love and 0:12:35.840 --> 0:12:38.800 affection all weekend from someone that I care about, and 0:12:38.880 --> 0:12:41.839 like then it was gone, and then I was And 0:12:41.880 --> 0:12:44.160 then I got that we had that conversation earlier that 0:12:44.200 --> 0:12:47.600 didn't go like how I'd hoped, and I was just like, 0:12:48.559 --> 0:12:49.120 I'm sad. 0:12:49.480 --> 0:12:50.439 Everything was sad. 0:12:50.760 --> 0:12:51.000 I was. 0:12:51.160 --> 0:12:52.600 And then I was like, we have so much work 0:12:52.600 --> 0:12:55.160 to do this week. I'm like, this make's gonna be horrible, 0:12:55.880 --> 0:12:59.160 Like this make's gonna be hard. I'm like bitch relaxed. Literally, 0:12:59.200 --> 0:13:00.720 I was like, bitch, is only Monday morning. 0:13:00.720 --> 0:13:01.240 You've got it. 0:13:01.520 --> 0:13:05.080 You've got to try harder talking all the self care shit, 0:13:05.120 --> 0:13:06.280 I'm just melting. 0:13:06.000 --> 0:13:10.079 Like no, it's well, we're setting ourselves up for failure. 0:13:11.160 --> 0:13:14.320 And honestly, I'm we we have okay, So we have 0:13:14.360 --> 0:13:16.520 a Our show is coming up. Our show is on Saturday, 0:13:16.559 --> 0:13:18.600 which I am really excited about. I think it's gonna 0:13:18.600 --> 0:13:20.240 be dope. It's just like whenever we get ready for 0:13:20.280 --> 0:13:23.600 a show, there's like just a lot of anxiety. Like 0:13:23.760 --> 0:13:26.559 at least now we kind of have like somewhat of 0:13:26.600 --> 0:13:29.280 a team that can kind of help us, but even then, 0:13:29.320 --> 0:13:34.920 it just never feels like enough. And the Internet doesn't 0:13:35.000 --> 0:13:38.240 like me like technology, so I get nervous about that 0:13:38.720 --> 0:13:42.920 about like, you know, sending technology to technological gonna go wrong. 0:13:43.720 --> 0:13:45.000 Mercury is a metro great. 0:13:45.120 --> 0:13:47.200 Yeah, So I've just been like thinking about all those things. 0:13:47.200 --> 0:13:48.040 But it's gonna be great. 0:13:48.080 --> 0:13:49.120 Everything is gonna be great. 0:13:49.160 --> 0:13:50.599 Well, the one good thing about what we do is 0:13:50.640 --> 0:13:52.840 we like hyperventilate and then it is always great. 0:13:52.920 --> 0:13:56.079 It is, It's always always fucking great. So I don't 0:13:56.120 --> 0:13:58.360 know why I'm gonna stop today, I'm stopping. I'm stopping 0:13:58.360 --> 0:13:58.679 I didn't. 0:13:58.720 --> 0:13:59.640 It's my anxiety. 0:14:00.160 --> 0:14:01.720 Denouncing my anxiety. Fuck that. 0:14:02.040 --> 0:14:04.520 You should denounce your anxiety if you're driving right now 0:14:04.600 --> 0:14:07.080 or your kid is being fucking annoying in the backseat. 0:14:07.559 --> 0:14:11.599 Fuck it, denounced that ship, denounce that. Yeah, not today. 0:14:12.240 --> 0:14:13.400 I ain't got time this. 0:14:13.280 --> 0:14:13.840 Week, anxcitty. 0:14:13.840 --> 0:14:15.840 I got too much ship to do. I'm getting it 0:14:15.840 --> 0:14:16.240 all done. 0:14:16.280 --> 0:14:22.040 I'm reclaiming my time. No. Yeah, being a human is like, 0:14:22.880 --> 0:14:27.440 can you hold on you guys? It's her dad? Okay, 0:14:27.440 --> 0:14:27.800 hold on? 0:14:46.840 --> 0:14:48.680 Why did my baby daddy look kind of fine right now? 0:14:49.120 --> 0:14:54.600 What the fun was that up in my mouth? I 0:14:54.680 --> 0:14:55.880 need I'm here on the wrong show. 0:14:58.360 --> 0:14:59.600 Go back in there and come back. 0:14:59.720 --> 0:15:00.240 You're help. 0:15:00.280 --> 0:15:01.720 I don't know who, Get the funk out of here. 0:15:02.000 --> 0:15:03.360 Who the fuck are you? 0:15:04.160 --> 0:15:08.920 What are you get the. 0:15:10.400 --> 0:15:10.680 Guys? 0:15:10.880 --> 0:15:12.920 Everyone, Let this be a testimony. 0:15:13.720 --> 0:15:16.360 Let this right here be a goddamn testimony that if 0:15:16.360 --> 0:15:18.040 you're having love with draws. 0:15:17.920 --> 0:15:21.280 You need to stay away from everybody ship. It will 0:15:21.360 --> 0:15:23.480 fuck up your your perception quickly. 0:15:23.640 --> 0:15:26.400 Can you see good? No? I don't know. That was 0:15:26.440 --> 0:15:29.200 I got flustered. It was weird. Yeah, I don't know. 0:15:31.080 --> 0:15:35.560 Get this bitch some love. You need a It's okay, 0:15:36.600 --> 0:15:42.600 I love you. You trip it? Oh my god? What's it's? 0:15:42.640 --> 0:15:52.680 Your love? It's a love, Your love is love? Oh 0:15:52.760 --> 0:15:57.240 my god, who guys tell me this has happened to you? Helps? 0:15:57.280 --> 0:16:00.680 And help? Don't you hate when that happens? Now? Was weird? 0:16:00.720 --> 0:16:03.960 I was confusing. I was so confusing. 0:16:04.080 --> 0:16:05.520 I mean, I get it though a lot of times. 0:16:05.520 --> 0:16:07.479 I've seen that every daddy and I think he's attractive, 0:16:07.520 --> 0:16:09.560 and then I have to remind myself. 0:16:09.360 --> 0:16:12.240 He's a mean person. Oh yeah, you know what. 0:16:12.360 --> 0:16:16.880 Also, I realized also i've been money. 0:16:16.920 --> 0:16:17.080 Okay. 0:16:17.160 --> 0:16:20.160 I did an epiphany this week. I was driving and 0:16:20.840 --> 0:16:22.520 Nigga must have drove by. 0:16:23.120 --> 0:16:25.640 Don't couldn't see this Nigga's face just all black man, 0:16:26.120 --> 0:16:28.520 And the way I looked over to the side to 0:16:28.600 --> 0:16:32.320 look in the other car made me check myself. 0:16:32.440 --> 0:16:35.000 I was like, bitch, what is wrong with you? 0:16:35.680 --> 0:16:37.880 But you were just like I was to see him. 0:16:37.880 --> 0:16:40.280 I was going to break my neck to see in 0:16:40.320 --> 0:16:44.040 that motherfucking car. I don't remember, because bitch, no one 0:16:44.040 --> 0:16:45.680 could see that far that quickly. 0:16:45.880 --> 0:16:48.400 And you know what it made me. I was so. 0:16:50.080 --> 0:16:53.200 Disappointed in myself that I said, oh no, this is 0:16:53.240 --> 0:16:53.960 not your fault. 0:16:55.120 --> 0:16:56.040 It's your hormones. 0:16:56.800 --> 0:16:57.840 It's your body, you know. 0:16:58.080 --> 0:17:00.400 It's not even being logical. I have a theory. 0:17:00.440 --> 0:17:02.400 It just came to me when I was acting crazy. 0:17:03.560 --> 0:17:07.000 When you're a woman of a certain age, your hormones 0:17:07.000 --> 0:17:08.840 are going crazy because it thinks you're in the period 0:17:08.840 --> 0:17:12.720 of making babies. So it's almost like primal. You're like, 0:17:13.440 --> 0:17:16.199 you know, you're just like your body is responding to 0:17:16.240 --> 0:17:17.760 the fact that you're supposed to be mating. 0:17:18.280 --> 0:17:19.320 Well, that makes perfect time. 0:17:20.080 --> 0:17:22.080 Actually, I said some crazy shit last night and didn't 0:17:22.119 --> 0:17:22.920 need to be set all out. 0:17:23.000 --> 0:17:24.960 I'm telling you, you gotta be careful of this body. 0:17:25.000 --> 0:17:25.280 Bitch. 0:17:25.720 --> 0:17:30.760 She she should be tripping, honestly, you know, you gotta 0:17:30.760 --> 0:17:32.639 be careful with the hormones, the primal, you know, the 0:17:32.680 --> 0:17:33.600 animalistic side. 0:17:33.800 --> 0:17:36.440 Sometimes I'm locking myself up for the next seven days. 0:17:36.640 --> 0:17:37.639 I'm going quarantine. 0:17:38.080 --> 0:17:42.679 I'm quarantining myself from all dick and all male interaction. 0:17:43.080 --> 0:17:45.440 Yeah, maybe even female Okay, that's it. 0:17:45.520 --> 0:17:47.199 And it may even correlate. I don't even know. 0:17:47.200 --> 0:17:48.760 I don't know if it's age or maybe it really 0:17:48.800 --> 0:17:50.320 correlates with our cycles. 0:17:50.760 --> 0:17:53.439 I'm sure there's some sight like that your hormones are 0:17:53.480 --> 0:17:54.440 shifting a certain way. 0:17:54.359 --> 0:17:57.160 Because I think I am ovulating because certain times, because 0:17:57.160 --> 0:17:59.880 certain times I'll be cool off dick, and then other 0:18:00.119 --> 0:18:03.200 times I'll be like a fucking hyena. 0:18:03.680 --> 0:18:06.040 So it's not me, it's my hormones. 0:18:06.080 --> 0:18:07.440 And I start ovulating tomorrow. 0:18:08.160 --> 0:18:10.439 Who knows, you know, it doesn't. We need more research. 0:18:10.520 --> 0:18:13.680 But the point is just be careful out here. Your 0:18:13.680 --> 0:18:14.800 body will play tricks on you. 0:18:14.840 --> 0:18:15.119 It's you. 0:18:15.160 --> 0:18:17.480 Gotta use your logic. They're two different people. You gotta 0:18:17.600 --> 0:18:20.720 gotta integrate them. Yeah. 0:18:20.960 --> 0:18:27.240 Yeah, So, because I'm a doctor, apparently everything you said, 0:18:27.359 --> 0:18:32.320 I'm like, she's right, Yes, hormones check woman of a 0:18:32.359 --> 0:18:33.679 certain age, check. 0:18:33.800 --> 0:18:39.640 Doctor Mila math. We here to talk about female reproduction hormones. Okay, 0:18:40.160 --> 0:18:42.080 I approved this message. 0:18:43.000 --> 0:18:45.359 Oh my god. 0:18:45.760 --> 0:18:48.840 Well I also because I was so I was on, wait, 0:18:48.880 --> 0:18:52.359 what is oh my god? Okay, yeah, because I literally 0:18:52.400 --> 0:18:53.800 was in the kitchen I was telling to Mela. I 0:18:53.840 --> 0:18:56.359 was like, I think I'm having love withdrawals, and she 0:18:56.400 --> 0:18:58.439 looked at me like, what the fuck are you talking about. 0:18:58.840 --> 0:19:02.160 I was like, I don't know, Like I just I've 0:19:02.200 --> 0:19:05.000 been in such a great space and like something just 0:19:05.080 --> 0:19:08.040 totally shifted. I don't know, like not totally, not totally 0:19:08.080 --> 0:19:10.639 shift that's very dramatic, but like something just felt different 0:19:10.680 --> 0:19:12.480