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Speaker 3: Yes, Hey, hey, hey, hey, it's topic and Bobby, you're

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Speaker 3: gonna give me dick gimma every day, small Bippy, let

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Speaker 3: everyday Nest Assault Nest, allow me till mccolle straight pissed me.

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Speaker 1: Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. It's Mila and

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Speaker 1: it's Eeriquita. Okay espanel and we have a lot of

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Speaker 1: ship to do, so we I'm actually filling Erica's eyelashes

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Speaker 1: and we're recording at the same time.

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Speaker 4: Mm hmm, literally laying on my bed with a mic.

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Speaker 4: If you saw our setup, it is so janky.

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Speaker 5: We have a Bloomingdale's box on the bed holding up

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Speaker 5: the mic and the computer, and we have a styrofoam

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Speaker 5: thing that our microphone, our new microphone came in, holding

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Speaker 5: up the phone with a dradal and a t tree

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Speaker 5: oil suppository for your vagina, holding the phone up inside

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Speaker 5: of the styrofoam case.

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Speaker 4: And then Mila's behind me.

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Speaker 1: About to fill her lashes because she's about to leave

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Speaker 1: for three weeks. I'm kind of having separation anxiety. I'm

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Speaker 1: kind of sad. I know, Wait, hell, a right, Am

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Speaker 1: I ready?

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Speaker 3: I know.

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Speaker 1: Anyway, we've been recording a lot of episodes this week

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Speaker 1: because she's going out of town, so we've been doing

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Speaker 1: like back to back, and we also had to get

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Speaker 1: her lashes filled before she left. So here we are topicless.

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Speaker 1: Haven't packed one thing.

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Speaker 4: It is What time is it?

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Speaker 2: Five?

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Speaker 1: It's five twenty eight.

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Speaker 4: It's five twenty eight.

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Speaker 5: I'm trying to go see my boo before I before

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Speaker 5: I leave tomorrow, So I got to pack in like

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Speaker 1: We're trying to go out, and then we're gonna go out.

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Speaker 4: I can't be out late.

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Speaker 1: No, I'm not going to be late either, Like.

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Speaker 5: I gotta be home by like I gotta be at

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Speaker 5: the airport at six fifteen in the morning. Why don't

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Speaker 5: you sleep at his house because I'm taking Floor and Ivy.

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Speaker 5: Oh I thought they were coming at a different time.

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Speaker 4: No, they're coming with me.

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Speaker 1: Okay, well yeah, we'll be sleeping on that plane.

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Speaker 4: I'll be passed out.

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Speaker 1: Anyways.

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Speaker 4: Anyway, what's up? What have you been up to today?

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Speaker 1: I went to the mall to fix my phone screen

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Speaker 1: because I seem to have a be cursed in phones

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Speaker 1: and it never ever, ever, ever stays uncracked. But instead

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Speaker 1: I went shopping and got in in share massage at

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Speaker 1: the mall. Is that the one?

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Speaker 4: Wait, the one that you like straddle the chair and thing?

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Speaker 1: Yeah, those are loky good though it was lokly good.

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Speaker 1: She was getting in there and I was like, pretty happy.

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Speaker 1: I feel like some small people try not to like

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Speaker 1: get my knots out, and she was getting a shit out.

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Speaker 4: Nice, What did you do?

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Speaker 5: I had to get my nails done, then I went

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Speaker 5: to get my hair being iris hair done and all that,

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Speaker 5: which was a fucking nightmare.

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Speaker 1: I need to blow draw your hair, huh.

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Speaker 5: I blow dried my hair in the morning too. I

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Speaker 5: which was nightmare five hundred thousand.

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Speaker 4: I literally I gave her candy in the bathtub because I.

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Speaker 1: Just gave up set. She was complaining, she was just crying.

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Speaker 1: She was crying, she did want to brush her hair,

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Speaker 1: blah blah blah blah blah. I was like, if you

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Speaker 1: give you candy just because So that's what I did

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Speaker 1: and got through it. But yeah, that's pretty much all

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Speaker 4: Oops.

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Speaker 5: You might hear a lot of things crickled and crackling.

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Speaker 5: We got Someone messaged us and was like, I'm listening

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Speaker 5: to haters gonna hate episode whatever, and you guys really

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Speaker 5: need to not be eating when you're podcasting.

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Speaker 1: First of all, that was when I read the first

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Speaker 1: of all you're late. Okay, we fixed it. Okay, that

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Speaker 1: was one time listen to a different episode, or go

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Speaker 4: That was when I was munching her a life away.

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Speaker 4: I know.

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Speaker 1: Somebody else was like, you really need to get a

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Speaker 1: microphone like we did. Okay, how am I gonna get

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Speaker 1: all offended, like we're not trying to do a functioning

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Speaker 1: podcast and our sound sex sometimes. Sorry, but we got

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Speaker 5: It's my computer. It's not the mics. It's it's literally,

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Speaker 5: if you want to donate to you are a computer.

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Speaker 1: Fund, go fundme. We need a new computer.

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Speaker 4: No, just cash at me, bitch a fuck.

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Speaker 1: Cos and say I'm sick. I'm sick of your shit.

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Speaker 4: Cash at me and or dosh I was.

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Speaker 5: I was so this last few weeks ago. I was

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Speaker 5: my friend Felicia or our friend Felicia. She was the

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Speaker 5: previous guest on our show. She was like posting all

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Speaker 5: this stuff about this app where it's a referral program,

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Speaker 5: like if you join, you get fifteen. If you join,

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Speaker 5: you get automatically five dollars, and then everyone else you

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Speaker 5: get to join, you get fifteen dollars for each person.

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Speaker 1: This bitch was a fuck up.

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Speaker 4: She made three thousand dollars in one day.

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Speaker 5: She has fans that love her. She has devoted fan base.

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Speaker 5: If you if any of you guys are Felicia's fans, like,

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Speaker 5: I need you to ride for us that hard, you guys, rode.

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Speaker 4: Because three that. I mean she's also pregnant, so you

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Speaker 1: You got that.

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Speaker 4: You're like, oh, she's pregnant, let me help her out

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Speaker 4: real quick. Yeah.

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Speaker 1: I think she would have done that.

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Speaker 5: I would have used that all of it like a baby,

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Speaker 5: got a baby. I got a baby, baby needs some food?

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Speaker 1: You're good to yeah, because you know what, I waited

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Speaker 1: have nearly as many friends. I waited a day to

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Speaker 1: do it. In my ass, it was it changed a

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Speaker 1: five dollars referral fee.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, it was like only for two days. It was

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Speaker 5: I've made two hundred and eighty dollars. That's a lot,

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Speaker 5: I know, but I haven't able to cash out because

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Speaker 5: the whole thing is, in order to cash out, you

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Speaker 1: Like, well, bitch, you better go to Chevron. I know,

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Speaker 5: It's actually like it's actually a cool app, Like I

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Speaker 5: I could probably use it out there Miami.

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Speaker 1: Oh yeah, because it changes according to your location. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: we just did a full commercial for Dash, bitch, somebody

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Speaker 5: People are really gonna think I was getting paid for that.

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Speaker 5: People are a messaging me like, are you getting paid?

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Speaker 4: Is this this game? I'm like, no, bitch, I'm just

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Speaker 4: trying to make some money.

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Speaker 1: No, actually I'm not getting paid. Actually I am getting paid.

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Speaker 5: I'm actually just trying to make three hundred dollars for

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Speaker 5: New Year's specifically, right, because that's much tequila.

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Speaker 1: I you consume. Yeah, three hundred dollars worth.

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Speaker 4: Seriously, I woke up on New Year's feeling were you

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Speaker 4: home over?

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Speaker 2: Yeah?

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Speaker 4: I really reeked of tequila.

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Speaker 1: And I'm sure you did because I talked to you

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Speaker 1: and I didn't remember.

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Speaker 4: Anyway.

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Speaker 5: You guys today, specifically on January sixteenth, it is what

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Speaker 5: is the National Nothing Day, National Nothing Day?

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Speaker 1: So it was perfect because we really have shit to

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Speaker 1: fucking why? So welcome to National Nothing Day, Episode forty

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Speaker 1: fucking two, three forty three, forty three, forty three. So

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Speaker 1: we're just chatting.

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Speaker 5: We're just chilling whenever Jamila does my lashes. We just

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Speaker 5: talked shit, and I mean, we talked shit on the pod, but.

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Speaker 4: We don't. I mean, I guess we just always are

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Speaker 4: talking shit.

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Speaker 1: We're just professional shit talker. It's why we started our podcas.

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Speaker 4: No.

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Speaker 1: But okay, well I'll talk about something.

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Speaker 1: Me and my girlfriend decided that we're not hanging out

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Speaker 1: at enough places where the men we want hang out

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Speaker 1: aka very Richmond. So we decided in twenty nineteen, instead

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Speaker 1: not like physically for real, no offense. I'm very greedy.

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Speaker 1: I eat a fucking lot and I can be hungry

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Speaker 1: like forty three thousand times a day. So I'm gonnaknock.

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Speaker 1: We're not gonna eat out all week, but we're gonna

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Speaker 1: eat out once a week and as a conference id I,

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Speaker 1: we're gonna go to one fancy restaurant where our husbands

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Speaker 1: tonight we're going on to eat at a like fancy place.

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Speaker 1: If you live in La, it's not that sassy.

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Speaker 5: Oh oh my god, you're gonna see Ashley there. She's

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Speaker 5: gonna be there, yeah, because she's going to a birthday

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Speaker 5: party tonight there. Oh okay, so yeah it's roe Zho

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Speaker 5: you know Reo right? Oh yeah, sexy model.

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Speaker 1: Sexy model, yes, hey Rio, Hey Ashley see the night bitches.

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Speaker 1: But that's our thing. So I mean, it's not really

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Speaker 1: all about the husband meeting. It's about networking too, and

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Speaker 1: about you know, just like okay. So also, Jim Carrey,

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Speaker 1: says like you can you can't have a steak appetite

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Speaker 1: and eat Hamburgers every day. So it's like, you know,

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Speaker 1: part of the manifestation believing it. And I'm not suggesting

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Speaker 1: everybody spend there McDonald's money going into the steakhouse now,

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Speaker 1: but you know what I mean, you started lining yourself

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Speaker 1: for the things that you want. So that's what we're doing,

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Speaker 1: and maybe you guys can try it. To tell me

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Speaker 1: if you meet anybody, any find guys at the bar,

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Speaker 1: or you know, an investor or any of the things

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Speaker 1: like that, because I don't know about y'all, but I'm

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Speaker 1: trying to be rich, like real rich, like yacht rich,

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Speaker 1: loosen to Cardi b in a mouthee coast rich. So

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Speaker 1: I just figured those people out at cossy places, so

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Speaker 1: I might as well start now.

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Speaker 5: No, I think twenty nineteen, like we started it off,

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Speaker 5: you know, with that vision board, and you know, starting

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Speaker 5: off what our goals are and really trying to manifest

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Speaker 5: so you know you're putting it into action.

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Speaker 4: Yep, you gotta put this into action.

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Speaker 1: I'm trying to do all the things I want to do,

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Speaker 1: starting with self care, getting a mall.

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Speaker 5: Massage, getting a mall massage, drinking your protein powders, taking

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Speaker 1: Yes, not waiting on a man to do it, and

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Speaker 1: you know, just glowing up this year.

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Speaker 4: The glow up.

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Speaker 1: The glow up is super real.

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Speaker 4: It is like low key. I feel I feel like war.

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Speaker 5: Hey, somebody I had a hater, go message my happy

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Speaker 4: Yeah, that bitch Jamina.

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Speaker 5: many there's just so many trends you just can't deny it.

439
00:21:39,880 --> 00:21:43,960
Speaker 5: I get that, like you can't judge everyone off of everything,

440
00:21:44,320 --> 00:21:47,000
Speaker 5: like their sign, but there was just certain shit that

441
00:21:47,240 --> 00:21:52,080
Speaker 5: is unfucking deniable in every sign and like how it

442
00:21:52,200 --> 00:21:53,240
Speaker 5: associates to that person.

443
00:21:54,200 --> 00:21:57,240
Speaker 4: Like I just don't really get along with aquariuses.

444
00:21:57,840 --> 00:21:59,520
Speaker 1: No, that's not my favorite sign. You know.

445
00:21:59,560 --> 00:21:59,960
Speaker 4: I'm sorry.

446
00:22:00,000 --> 00:22:03,280
Speaker 5: If you're an Aquarius, maybe we will rarely. I just

447
00:22:03,359 --> 00:22:07,800
Speaker 5: don't connect well we are. Our communication is fucking different way.

448
00:22:07,960 --> 00:22:11,840
Speaker 5: Different aquariuses are kind of weird. But Carlton is half Aquarius.

449
00:22:13,640 --> 00:22:16,280
Speaker 4: Yeah, but he's a Pisces. Yeah, he's so sweet.

450
00:22:16,520 --> 00:22:17,160
Speaker 1: He is sweet.

451
00:22:19,640 --> 00:22:22,320
Speaker 5: Aquarius is and even Sagittarius as I'm weary of. And

452
00:22:22,400 --> 00:22:24,840
Speaker 5: then I found out my moon is as Sagittarius, and.

453
00:22:24,840 --> 00:22:27,440
Speaker 4: I was like, WHOA, that's interesting, what does that mean?

454
00:22:28,400 --> 00:22:30,560
Speaker 4: And apparently your moon whatever your moon sign is.

455
00:22:30,600 --> 00:22:32,159
Speaker 5: So guys, if you don't know what your natal chart is,

456
00:22:32,640 --> 00:22:35,320
Speaker 5: go to I think it was a cafe astrology dot

457
00:22:35,359 --> 00:22:38,560
Speaker 5: com and all you have to do is put your

458
00:22:38,640 --> 00:22:42,400
Speaker 5: name in. You know your time of birth and where

459
00:22:42,480 --> 00:22:45,879
Speaker 5: you were born and your birth date obviously, and you

460
00:22:46,000 --> 00:22:48,320
Speaker 5: just press enter and then it'll break it all down

461
00:22:48,400 --> 00:22:48,560
Speaker 5: for you.

462
00:22:48,680 --> 00:22:49,920
Speaker 1: It'll tell you your moon.

463
00:22:49,840 --> 00:22:52,720
Speaker 5: Sign, which is it's like your sun sign, which is

464
00:22:52,800 --> 00:22:55,080
Speaker 5: your your regular horoscope sign, so if you're a Scorpio,

465
00:22:55,160 --> 00:22:57,760
Speaker 5: that's your sun sign. And then it'll tell your moon sign,

466
00:22:58,359 --> 00:23:01,119
Speaker 5: which basically is who you are when you're alone. And

467
00:23:01,160 --> 00:23:03,840
Speaker 5: then it'll tell you your mercury sign, which is your

468
00:23:03,920 --> 00:23:08,359
Speaker 5: rising sign, and that kind of also it tells you

469
00:23:09,119 --> 00:23:11,679
Speaker 5: how you communicate with people, because mercury and.

470
00:23:11,760 --> 00:23:14,880
Speaker 1: How what you're out, like what you put out?

471
00:23:15,000 --> 00:23:20,320
Speaker 5: Yeah, Mercury is like the planet of communication. So I'm

472
00:23:20,359 --> 00:23:23,520
Speaker 5: a double Scorpio. So you know, my son signs Scorpio.

473
00:23:23,800 --> 00:23:27,760
Speaker 5: My uh, Mercury signs of Scorpio. So people always think

474
00:23:27,760 --> 00:23:31,320
Speaker 5: I'm intense, and I don't really think I'm that intense.

475
00:23:31,520 --> 00:23:35,240
Speaker 5: I just I don't know what my definition of intense,

476
00:23:35,240 --> 00:23:38,320
Speaker 5: I guess is different than other people, right, because even

477
00:23:38,359 --> 00:23:41,200
Speaker 5: the other day Happy Bay was like, your you're extreme,

478
00:23:41,840 --> 00:23:42,040
Speaker 5: and I.

479
00:23:42,080 --> 00:23:45,040
Speaker 1: Was like, I am. I don't know, and what what

480
00:23:46,240 --> 00:23:47,000
Speaker 1: like black or white?

481
00:23:48,119 --> 00:23:48,480
Speaker 4: I guess.

482
00:23:49,320 --> 00:23:51,280
Speaker 5: I was like, I don't know how what that means.

483
00:23:52,680 --> 00:23:54,240
Speaker 5: I was like, I just know what I want and

484
00:23:54,640 --> 00:23:57,399
Speaker 5: to vocalize it. Yeah, which is good, right, Like, I

485
00:23:57,440 --> 00:23:58,440
Speaker 5: don't think that's extreme.

486
00:23:58,960 --> 00:24:00,600
Speaker 4: I don't beat around the book, right.

487
00:24:00,600 --> 00:24:01,960
Speaker 1: This is what the fuck I want. You don't have

488
00:24:02,040 --> 00:24:02,360
Speaker 1: the guess.

489
00:24:02,760 --> 00:24:06,159
Speaker 4: I prefer that I don't when people keep me guessing,

490
00:24:06,320 --> 00:24:07,560
Speaker 4: like cancers.

491
00:24:07,560 --> 00:24:13,320
Speaker 1: Me no, or I'm like, bitch money to give it

492
00:24:13,400 --> 00:24:13,720
Speaker 1: the guess.

493
00:24:15,200 --> 00:24:16,160
Speaker 4: He doesn't keep me guessing.

494
00:24:16,320 --> 00:24:19,520
Speaker 5: Actually, he's pretty I think cancer he's Actually he's actually

495
00:24:19,520 --> 00:24:20,160
Speaker 5: pretty straightforward.

496
00:24:20,160 --> 00:24:21,600
Speaker 4: I can just ask him and he'll just tell me,

497
00:24:21,760 --> 00:24:24,520
Speaker 4: you know. But it's like getting to the question.

498
00:24:24,880 --> 00:24:29,560
Speaker 5: There's a lot of like conversation to the answer, a

499
00:24:29,640 --> 00:24:33,600
Speaker 5: lot of like searching through until we land.

500
00:24:33,359 --> 00:24:34,320
Speaker 4: On the answer.

501
00:24:34,640 --> 00:24:36,920
Speaker 1: Yeah, he's like working out in his mind out loud,

502
00:24:37,560 --> 00:24:38,879
Speaker 1: like when he thinks, like when.

503
00:24:38,760 --> 00:24:41,520
Speaker 4: You were talking, he takes lots of pauses.

504
00:24:42,600 --> 00:24:43,040
Speaker 1: That's good.

505
00:24:43,400 --> 00:24:48,440
Speaker 4: Yeah, he's being thoughtful. But anyway, Yeah, I think astrology

506
00:24:48,520 --> 00:24:49,480
Speaker 4: is just really cool.

507
00:24:49,640 --> 00:24:54,040
Speaker 5: I really really want to have an astrologer on or

508
00:24:54,320 --> 00:24:57,080
Speaker 5: like someone who does is into, you know, just.

509
00:24:58,640 --> 00:25:01,919
Speaker 1: All that shit, a specialist, not like our fake ghetto

510
00:25:02,000 --> 00:25:04,359
Speaker 1: asses who we think we like we know some stuff,

511
00:25:04,880 --> 00:25:07,840
Speaker 1: you know. I always wondered like this is but like

512
00:25:07,880 --> 00:25:10,080
Speaker 1: why why are Christians we don't have a topic? Why

513
00:25:11,359 --> 00:25:14,480
Speaker 1: are like Christians and religious people so anti astrology?

514
00:25:14,560 --> 00:25:18,840
Speaker 4: If like God made the planets? Yeah, I don't know.

515
00:25:19,600 --> 00:25:24,560
Speaker 4: They don't believe in anything guiding your soul and your fate.

516
00:25:24,440 --> 00:25:26,520
Speaker 1: And who you are, well guess not even it doesn't

517
00:25:26,520 --> 00:25:28,080
Speaker 1: even have to do with fate really, but I get it.

518
00:25:28,160 --> 00:25:30,879
Speaker 5: I think it's more so like guiding your your soul

519
00:25:31,359 --> 00:25:36,120
Speaker 5: and who you are, And like I'm not sure, isn't

520
00:25:36,160 --> 00:25:38,000
Speaker 5: there something is there something in the Bible about it?

521
00:25:38,160 --> 00:25:40,320
Speaker 1: I mean, they'd be saying that, but who knows. I

522
00:25:40,440 --> 00:25:41,920
Speaker 1: thought I read it, I don't remember that.

523
00:25:43,160 --> 00:25:45,639
Speaker 4: It's so interesting when people like get angry, like I

524
00:25:45,720 --> 00:25:46,520
Speaker 4: get upset.

525
00:25:46,320 --> 00:25:51,399
Speaker 1: By it's like it's fucking stars, dude, calm down, just

526
00:25:51,480 --> 00:25:53,160
Speaker 1: look at this, and I just feel like it's fun

527
00:25:53,200 --> 00:25:55,200
Speaker 1: and it's intriguing and a lot of times I should

528
00:25:55,200 --> 00:25:57,800
Speaker 1: just be so fucking on point. That natal chart is

529
00:25:58,200 --> 00:25:59,520
Speaker 1: very almost scary.

530
00:26:00,240 --> 00:26:04,160
Speaker 5: It is, especially when you start digging into like the differences,

531
00:26:04,359 --> 00:26:06,560
Speaker 5: like the different signs that you are, because you're not

532
00:26:06,840 --> 00:26:10,240
Speaker 5: just one unless you're like a triple whatever, triple scorpio

533
00:26:10,880 --> 00:26:11,399
Speaker 5: even that's.

534
00:26:12,280 --> 00:26:14,359
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's it's crazy.

535
00:26:15,440 --> 00:26:18,880
Speaker 5: I mean, my daughter, she is Iri is a Taurus,

536
00:26:19,960 --> 00:26:23,760
Speaker 5: and then her rising is Leo, and then her moon

537
00:26:24,040 --> 00:26:30,480
Speaker 5: is a Virgo, all very intense signs, all very like stubborn,

538
00:26:31,720 --> 00:26:36,399
Speaker 5: which explains so much in this terrible three face. She

539
00:26:36,640 --> 00:26:42,760
Speaker 5: like stinks her way, does she And it's like there's

540
00:26:42,800 --> 00:26:45,520
Speaker 5: no talking to her about reasoning with her, which I'm

541
00:26:45,520 --> 00:26:48,760
Speaker 5: gonna have to break. Like that's gonna because it's gonna

542
00:26:48,760 --> 00:26:51,760
Speaker 5: be harder for her when she's older, Like I want

543
00:26:51,800 --> 00:26:56,240
Speaker 5: her to like have strong opinions, but I also want

544
00:26:56,320 --> 00:27:02,720
Speaker 5: her to, you know, be like you know, like water. Yeah,

545
00:27:03,160 --> 00:27:06,040
Speaker 5: like pliable, a little bit, ventable, a little bit to

546
00:27:06,160 --> 00:27:09,160
Speaker 5: like see other people's sides and understand why we can't

547
00:27:09,200 --> 00:27:12,720
Speaker 5: do this right now, why this we can just not

548
00:27:12,960 --> 00:27:14,720
Speaker 5: right at this moment, you know.

549
00:27:15,520 --> 00:27:18,639
Speaker 1: But also she's three and just none of that's translating

550
00:27:18,680 --> 00:27:24,480
Speaker 1: right now. Yeah, being a mom is hard. Thinking about

551
00:27:24,480 --> 00:27:28,840
Speaker 1: having to prepared people for adulthood is totally do when

552
00:27:28,880 --> 00:27:29,959
Speaker 1: you're not even that prepared.

553
00:27:31,080 --> 00:27:34,920
Speaker 4: I feel like I'm just getting adulthood. I'm thirty one.

554
00:27:35,480 --> 00:27:37,800
Speaker 1: Yeah, and there will still be times like what the fuck?

555
00:27:39,720 --> 00:27:44,360
Speaker 5: Like I'm thirty one and I still be like, mom, oh,

556
00:27:44,920 --> 00:27:48,240
Speaker 5: what should I do? I'm like stupid shit that I

557
00:27:48,240 --> 00:27:48,920
Speaker 5: should already know.

558
00:27:50,160 --> 00:27:51,840
Speaker 4: I know, I'm like, what should I do?

559
00:27:52,080 --> 00:27:52,720
Speaker 1: How do I do this?

560
00:27:53,760 --> 00:27:53,960
Speaker 4: I know?

561
00:27:54,640 --> 00:27:56,600
Speaker 5: But you know, I'm lucky that I even have that.

562
00:27:56,720 --> 00:28:00,280
Speaker 5: Some people don't even have anyone to ask. Yeah, it's true, you.

563
00:28:00,320 --> 00:28:03,040
Speaker 4: Know, I won't take it for granted. They said, try

564
00:28:03,119 --> 00:28:03,280
Speaker 4: not to.

565
00:28:06,600 --> 00:28:09,159
Speaker 1: And then also I try to, like because I like

566
00:28:09,240 --> 00:28:12,440
Speaker 1: to ask opinions of people. But then like I've found

567
00:28:12,520 --> 00:28:14,919
Speaker 1: that you can ask opinion if it's all things too,

568
00:28:15,000 --> 00:28:17,040
Speaker 1: like different things you can ask a lot of people

569
00:28:17,080 --> 00:28:19,120
Speaker 1: have opinions about what you should do, what you think,

570
00:28:19,440 --> 00:28:21,600
Speaker 1: but at the end of the day, you already know

571
00:28:21,680 --> 00:28:23,520
Speaker 1: what you want to do, and nine times out of

572
00:28:23,560 --> 00:28:25,440
Speaker 1: ten you're gonna end up doing that. You just want

573
00:28:25,520 --> 00:28:28,960
Speaker 1: someone to validate how you already feel. Yeah, exactly, And

574
00:28:29,320 --> 00:28:33,160
Speaker 1: that's not necessary and you should be able to trust

575
00:28:33,200 --> 00:28:35,280
Speaker 1: your instinct and no, you know what I mean. Obviously

576
00:28:35,359 --> 00:28:38,040
Speaker 1: there's we're kids, No we're not kids, but you know,

577
00:28:38,240 --> 00:28:41,520
Speaker 1: it's human natured to ask your parents for help or

578
00:28:41,640 --> 00:28:43,520
Speaker 1: advice and you trust there because they have your best

579
00:28:43,520 --> 00:28:45,840
Speaker 1: interests in mind. But in general, I just find like

580
00:28:45,920 --> 00:28:49,200
Speaker 1: it's good to find peace with how you feel and

581
00:28:49,280 --> 00:28:50,479
Speaker 1: trust that instinct too.

582
00:28:51,200 --> 00:28:52,360
Speaker 4: Yeah, that's true.

583
00:28:53,560 --> 00:28:55,920
Speaker 5: Although, like I will say, like sometimes when I do

584
00:28:56,080 --> 00:29:00,000
Speaker 5: ask my mom for advice, she has a different perspective

585
00:29:00,320 --> 00:29:02,520
Speaker 5: that I'm like, Oh, I didn't think about it that way,

586
00:29:03,120 --> 00:29:06,360
Speaker 5: you know. So sometimes it's not always about validation.

587
00:29:06,360 --> 00:29:07,640
Speaker 1: But about perspective.

588
00:29:07,760 --> 00:29:08,000
Speaker 4: True.

589
00:29:08,880 --> 00:29:11,880
Speaker 5: I think it's not about validation when I literally don't

590
00:29:11,920 --> 00:29:14,000
Speaker 5: know what to do because I have nothing that I'm

591
00:29:14,040 --> 00:29:16,360
Speaker 5: married to, you know, there's nothing that I'm like, I

592
00:29:16,440 --> 00:29:19,720
Speaker 5: hope she says this right, right, But.

593
00:29:21,920 --> 00:29:23,880
Speaker 4: I don't know. I think about like.

594
00:29:25,760 --> 00:29:27,920
Speaker 5: All the things that she told me when I was younger,

595
00:29:28,000 --> 00:29:30,160
Speaker 5: don't do this, don't do that, and like I never

596
00:29:30,280 --> 00:29:34,960
Speaker 5: listened because I was so rebellious. You know when I

597
00:29:35,080 --> 00:29:37,600
Speaker 5: got when I turned like thirteen, it was just over.

598
00:29:38,000 --> 00:29:39,520
Speaker 5: Oh my god, me thirteen was the age.

599
00:29:39,640 --> 00:29:41,800
Speaker 4: It was so bad. What happened to me?

600
00:29:42,240 --> 00:29:45,480
Speaker 1: I think happens to us four months just like a

601
00:29:45,720 --> 00:29:48,360
Speaker 1: little bitch. Yeah, you just like you hate everyone. You're

602
00:29:48,360 --> 00:29:48,640
Speaker 1: a bitch.

603
00:29:48,760 --> 00:29:50,000
Speaker 4: You don't want to go. You don't want to hang

604
00:29:50,000 --> 00:29:51,200
Speaker 4: out with your parents at all.

605
00:29:51,280 --> 00:29:53,200
Speaker 5: You don't want to do anything they Anything that they

606
00:29:53,280 --> 00:29:56,040
Speaker 5: do or say is so fucking annoying, and everything is.

607
00:29:56,120 --> 00:29:58,160
Speaker 1: Sensitive, like you hate them, like they don't care about

608
00:29:58,160 --> 00:30:00,320
Speaker 1: your feelings. They don't understand how you fee little.

609
00:30:00,920 --> 00:30:01,640
Speaker 4: That was the biggest one.

610
00:30:01,680 --> 00:30:05,640
Speaker 1: You don't understand. I have to go to CityWalk tonight.

611
00:30:06,000 --> 00:30:10,320
Speaker 1: It's her twelfth birthday party. I have to see him.

612
00:30:10,360 --> 00:30:13,280
Speaker 1: I must speak to him about our issues. This is

613
00:30:13,360 --> 00:30:16,720
Speaker 1: the love of my life. I heard you. What do

614
00:30:16,720 --> 00:30:19,560
Speaker 1: you mean I cannot go? Oh my god, I just

615
00:30:19,640 --> 00:30:21,400
Speaker 1: got like teenage inks all over again. At home.

616
00:30:21,880 --> 00:30:26,680
Speaker 4: I'll never forget time. One time my mom us have

617
00:30:26,800 --> 00:30:27,400
Speaker 4: been a few times.

618
00:30:27,400 --> 00:30:28,760
Speaker 5: One time my mom slapped the shit out of me

619
00:30:28,840 --> 00:30:31,320
Speaker 5: on New Year's Eve because I didn't want to go

620
00:30:31,480 --> 00:30:33,320
Speaker 5: to a New Year's Eve party. I was like, I know,

621
00:30:33,440 --> 00:30:35,800
Speaker 5: I don't want to go, and you know, at that point,

622
00:30:35,840 --> 00:30:38,240
Speaker 5: I think I was like twelve thirteen, and you know,

623
00:30:38,440 --> 00:30:41,000
Speaker 5: she's like, you're coming, and I'm like, no, I don't

624
00:30:41,040 --> 00:30:43,600
Speaker 5: want to. And it was like give back and forth,

625
00:30:43,720 --> 00:30:45,400
Speaker 5: back and forth, and I was like I'm not going,

626
00:30:45,640 --> 00:30:47,640
Speaker 5: and then she just slapped the fuck out of me,

627
00:30:48,400 --> 00:30:50,959
Speaker 5: and I couldn't believe it, and I like lunged at

628
00:30:51,000 --> 00:30:53,000
Speaker 5: her out of just like pure reaction, and I was like,

629
00:30:53,040 --> 00:30:55,240
Speaker 5: oh shit, I guess I gotta go.

630
00:30:55,520 --> 00:30:57,600
Speaker 4: And then another time, did you go? Yeah?

631
00:30:57,680 --> 00:30:59,320
Speaker 5: I went, and I just sat like a little bitch.

632
00:30:59,360 --> 00:31:01,120
Speaker 5: I'm on the couch whole time, didn't talk to anyone,

633
00:31:01,400 --> 00:31:06,600
Speaker 5: used the bitch. And then I remember someone tee beat

634
00:31:06,680 --> 00:31:08,160
Speaker 5: my mom's t beat our house.

635
00:31:08,240 --> 00:31:08,880
Speaker 4: In high school.

636
00:31:09,840 --> 00:31:11,480
Speaker 5: That was like a thing for a while, like kids

637
00:31:11,560 --> 00:31:14,840
Speaker 5: going around and teeping different kids house because I don't

638
00:31:14,840 --> 00:31:16,400
Speaker 5: know about your high school, but like there was a

639
00:31:16,440 --> 00:31:19,320
Speaker 5: book with everyone's addresses and phone numbers in it that

640
00:31:19,680 --> 00:31:20,920
Speaker 5: was distributed to everyone and.

641
00:31:20,960 --> 00:31:25,040
Speaker 1: Then one person had a car, so someone tee beat.

642
00:31:24,880 --> 00:31:29,680
Speaker 4: My mom's car, and she got mad at me, like

643
00:31:29,720 --> 00:31:32,080
Speaker 4: it was my fault, and so she was like, you

644
00:31:32,240 --> 00:31:33,960
Speaker 4: need to go outside and clean my car.

645
00:31:34,480 --> 00:31:36,560
Speaker 5: So I'm cleaning her car and She's just yelling at

646
00:31:36,640 --> 00:31:38,560
Speaker 5: me the whole time, and I'm just getting more and

647
00:31:38,720 --> 00:31:41,320
Speaker 5: more and more mad until I get to the point

648
00:31:41,320 --> 00:31:43,360
Speaker 5: where I just sprayed the fuck out of her with

649
00:31:43,440 --> 00:31:46,120
Speaker 5: the host. No, you did know you did it?

650
00:31:47,080 --> 00:31:49,840
Speaker 1: Now that I would have beat your fucking ass. You

651
00:31:49,880 --> 00:31:53,400
Speaker 1: would have fucking sprayed me, bitch, And Lona ever thinks

652
00:31:53,440 --> 00:31:57,440
Speaker 1: she should spray me. Can you imagine she was chasing

653
00:31:57,520 --> 00:31:58,200
Speaker 1: me around the car.

654
00:31:58,400 --> 00:32:01,600
Speaker 4: Oh my god, it's so ridiculous.

655
00:32:01,720 --> 00:32:01,880
Speaker 5: I know.

656
00:32:01,960 --> 00:32:03,960
Speaker 1: She probably called a friend after that. She called my dad.

657
00:32:04,480 --> 00:32:05,120
Speaker 1: She called me dad.

658
00:32:05,120 --> 00:32:07,080
Speaker 5: Whenever I got bad, she called my dad because she

659
00:32:07,480 --> 00:32:09,280
Speaker 5: knew I was scared of him. You were, Oh, yeah,

660
00:32:09,280 --> 00:32:10,600
Speaker 5: I was totally scared of my dad because he was

661
00:32:10,720 --> 00:32:13,000
Speaker 5: never around. He was just like this big black guy

662
00:32:13,120 --> 00:32:15,320
Speaker 5: that like would come in and be like, don't do that,

663
00:32:15,640 --> 00:32:18,000
Speaker 5: and I'd be like, oh fuck, And he ever spank you?

664
00:32:18,240 --> 00:32:20,600
Speaker 5: He did like one time and scared the shit out

665
00:32:20,640 --> 00:32:22,480
Speaker 5: of me when I was a kid, because you know,

666
00:32:22,640 --> 00:32:24,080
Speaker 5: he believe comes from that era was.

667
00:32:24,200 --> 00:32:27,440
Speaker 4: South go get the switch. Go get the switch, go

668
00:32:27,560 --> 00:32:31,520
Speaker 4: get anything, Go get the bell. You think I got

669
00:32:31,680 --> 00:32:36,720
Speaker 4: m Maybe Carrie the first one.

670
00:32:36,920 --> 00:32:38,680
Speaker 1: I say, maybe the little boy because he's wild.

671
00:32:38,840 --> 00:32:41,400
Speaker 5: I would know Carrie because that was really his first

672
00:32:41,520 --> 00:32:44,120
Speaker 5: child that he ever actually raised, so he had no

673
00:32:44,280 --> 00:32:47,920
Speaker 5: point of reference. He's probably just resorting back to his childhood.

674
00:32:50,040 --> 00:32:52,520
Speaker 5: But yeah, she called my dad, and I remember my

675
00:32:52,640 --> 00:32:56,000
Speaker 5: dad talking to me and him. He was trying to

676
00:32:56,160 --> 00:32:59,000
Speaker 5: be serious, and then he just started laughing on the phone.

677
00:32:59,360 --> 00:32:59,680
Speaker 1: He said you.

678
00:33:00,600 --> 00:33:04,640
Speaker 4: She was like, so you, Erica, you can't be spraying.

679
00:33:06,080 --> 00:33:12,880
Speaker 1: House. And I was like, I know, Dad, but she

680
00:33:13,040 --> 00:33:15,320
Speaker 1: was talking. She was yelling at me.

681
00:33:15,600 --> 00:33:18,120
Speaker 5: I didn't have anything to do with this tea being shape.

682
00:33:18,200 --> 00:33:20,200
Speaker 5: Oh my god, Like, I don't understand why I'm in

683
00:33:20,280 --> 00:33:21,640
Speaker 5: trouble for what someone else did.

684
00:33:24,480 --> 00:33:26,960
Speaker 4: But yeah, I think about those teenagers with our kids, like,

685
00:33:27,120 --> 00:33:27,480
Speaker 4: oh my.

686
00:33:27,560 --> 00:33:32,320
Speaker 1: God, Yeah, I'm mortified of teenage years. It's actually my

687
00:33:32,360 --> 00:33:36,520
Speaker 1: biggest fear, mostly because as a child, as a teenager,

688
00:33:36,640 --> 00:33:39,520
Speaker 1: I specifically remember my dad looking at me and saying, oh,

689
00:33:39,920 --> 00:33:43,000
Speaker 1: I can't wait till you have a baby and you

690
00:33:43,160 --> 00:33:45,800
Speaker 1: get this shit back. And I was like, I will

691
00:33:45,880 --> 00:33:49,479
Speaker 1: never be a horrible parent. Like you too. And now

692
00:33:49,480 --> 00:33:54,240
Speaker 1: I'm like, oh no, I don't know shit, I know so,

693
00:33:55,520 --> 00:33:58,680
Speaker 1: oh my god. I was like, we'll be podcasting in

694
00:33:58,760 --> 00:34:01,560
Speaker 1: ten years old. I don't hop Oh god, can you

695
00:34:01,600 --> 00:34:07,520
Speaker 1: imagine this bitch going back and looking at the stories. Yeah,

696
00:34:09,239 --> 00:34:11,919
Speaker 1: I was bad as fuck. I snack boys into my room.

697
00:34:12,400 --> 00:34:14,920
Speaker 5: I had bold I spok boys in my room when

698
00:34:14,960 --> 00:34:17,919
Speaker 5: my parents were home. Me too, But my granted taking mine.

699
00:34:18,000 --> 00:34:19,719
Speaker 5: My mom's room was where Irey's room was.

700
00:34:19,840 --> 00:34:22,800
Speaker 1: They didn't weren't far No my room, Okay, my parents

701
00:34:22,840 --> 00:34:24,840
Speaker 1: are retarded, and they literally gave me the room that

702
00:34:24,920 --> 00:34:26,640
Speaker 1: had a door to the house and also a door

703
00:34:26,800 --> 00:34:29,000
Speaker 1: to the front. But there was two entryways my room

704
00:34:29,400 --> 00:34:33,799
Speaker 1: and the front door. And they weren't like your own apartment. Yeah,

705
00:34:34,440 --> 00:34:36,319
Speaker 1: and like they weren't close to my room. I mean

706
00:34:36,320 --> 00:34:38,640
Speaker 1: I got caught twice and I was on my fucking assy.

707
00:34:39,320 --> 00:34:41,040
Speaker 1: I was a Christian. What did I tell you guys

708
00:34:41,040 --> 00:34:42,240
Speaker 1: the story about when I was a Christian?

709
00:34:43,239 --> 00:34:44,600
Speaker 4: No? Did I've heard that one.

710
00:34:46,160 --> 00:34:49,320
Speaker 1: When I was thirteen, we got really into church, and

711
00:34:49,400 --> 00:34:51,959
Speaker 1: we got really into the youth group at the junior

712
00:34:52,040 --> 00:34:53,640
Speaker 1: high were going to We started going to church keeping

713
00:34:53,640 --> 00:34:56,760
Speaker 1: my Junail's dad is full blown jew and it was forbidden.

714
00:34:58,080 --> 00:35:02,359
Speaker 1: But we found God, we found you, and we were

715
00:35:02,360 --> 00:35:04,560
Speaker 1: going to youth group, like every Wednesday we went to

716
00:35:04,760 --> 00:35:06,320
Speaker 1: I told you the story. I remember we went to

717
00:35:06,520 --> 00:35:08,320
Speaker 1: church camp and they started speaking in tongues and we

718
00:35:08,360 --> 00:35:11,200
Speaker 1: started freaking out. Oh yeah, But at that time, that

719
00:35:11,320 --> 00:35:13,399
Speaker 1: second time I snucked that boy in, I got caught,

720
00:35:13,480 --> 00:35:14,959
Speaker 1: and I just knew it was because I had turned

721
00:35:15,000 --> 00:35:17,080
Speaker 1: myself over to God and he wasn't having it, and

722
00:35:17,160 --> 00:35:19,799
Speaker 1: that's why I got caught. And I remember my dad

723
00:35:20,120 --> 00:35:21,880
Speaker 1: was like, trum gonna beat me, and I was like

724
00:35:21,960 --> 00:35:26,920
Speaker 1: on my knees, fright, Oh my god, I'm so sorry, God,

725
00:35:26,920 --> 00:35:30,279
Speaker 1: I'm so sorry. That was a bad idea. I think

726
00:35:30,280 --> 00:35:31,480
Speaker 1: he like beat me with the bell. And I was

727
00:35:31,520 --> 00:35:34,600
Speaker 1: also praying simultaneously at the same time, like I'm sorry.

728
00:35:35,680 --> 00:35:38,360
Speaker 1: That's the last time I got on my knees and prayed.

729
00:35:38,440 --> 00:35:40,640
Speaker 5: I think you got on your nees many other times

730
00:35:40,680 --> 00:35:46,879
Speaker 5: after that, not for that, not for Jeese Jesus, maybe

731
00:35:46,960 --> 00:35:49,360
Speaker 5: Hayes No, no, I yeah, like.

732
00:35:49,480 --> 00:35:53,319
Speaker 4: I would sneak boys through my front so I lost

733
00:35:53,360 --> 00:35:54,000
Speaker 4: my virginity.

734
00:35:54,120 --> 00:35:57,400
Speaker 5: To my mom's house. Growing up, where I grew up

735
00:35:57,880 --> 00:36:00,600
Speaker 5: was connected to an all boys high school. Literally, my

736
00:36:00,760 --> 00:36:05,359
Speaker 5: backyard is their parking lot is right, their parking lot

737
00:36:05,440 --> 00:36:07,960
Speaker 5: is my back is connected to my backyard. So I

738
00:36:08,000 --> 00:36:10,080
Speaker 5: would like, you know, walk around the neighborhood. I'd see

739
00:36:10,080 --> 00:36:12,520
Speaker 5: all these boys and stuff. One day I was walking

740
00:36:12,560 --> 00:36:14,480
Speaker 5: into the Ralphs around the corner I was walking back.

741
00:36:14,520 --> 00:36:17,280
Speaker 5: I saw this fine ass boy with corn rows sitting

742
00:36:17,320 --> 00:36:20,600
Speaker 5: on like sitting out front, like taking mind. Like we said,

743
00:36:20,680 --> 00:36:22,399
Speaker 5: we grew up in the valley. You don't really see

744
00:36:22,400 --> 00:36:24,680
Speaker 5: a lot of like fine dudes with corn rows.

745
00:36:24,680 --> 00:36:26,279
Speaker 1: I'm like, who is this man? You don't look like

746
00:36:26,320 --> 00:36:28,800
Speaker 1: you're from here? He was He lived in North rich.

747
00:36:30,400 --> 00:36:35,800
Speaker 5: What up, Kyle, he's now born again, Christian Kile. Yes, my, my,

748
00:36:36,040 --> 00:36:39,760
Speaker 5: the guy took my virginity and we get light eyes.

749
00:36:40,840 --> 00:36:42,279
Speaker 4: Kind of did you know him?

750
00:36:42,320 --> 00:36:43,880
Speaker 1: I don't know, maybe different.

751
00:36:44,040 --> 00:36:45,960
Speaker 4: He was light skinned. He was older though, he was

752
00:36:46,000 --> 00:36:48,239
Speaker 4: probably like three years older than you because he was

753
00:36:48,320 --> 00:36:48,680
Speaker 4: a year.

754
00:36:48,600 --> 00:36:51,759
Speaker 1: Older than me. Okay, and so what year did you

755
00:36:51,800 --> 00:37:01,520
Speaker 1: graduate high school? Okay? I don't know why I knew

756
00:37:01,520 --> 00:37:03,280
Speaker 1: you were older than me, but I thought were graduate

757
00:37:03,320 --> 00:37:03,719
Speaker 1: the same year.

758
00:37:03,760 --> 00:37:03,960
Speaker 4: Okay?

759
00:37:04,000 --> 00:37:04,680
Speaker 1: Whatever can you grasu?

760
00:37:04,920 --> 00:37:05,080
Speaker 4: Six?

761
00:37:05,160 --> 00:37:05,919
Speaker 1: Right? Yeah? Six?

762
00:37:07,600 --> 00:37:11,320
Speaker 5: So yeah, like I would sneak him at so like

763
00:37:11,520 --> 00:37:13,560
Speaker 5: it would be like around one am, he'd get a

764
00:37:13,640 --> 00:37:16,520
Speaker 5: taxi to my house. Oh god, and then I would

765
00:37:16,520 --> 00:37:18,400
Speaker 5: sneak him through my front window take him on. I

766
00:37:18,440 --> 00:37:20,080
Speaker 5: had an alarm, but during the day.

767
00:37:19,960 --> 00:37:22,680
Speaker 1: Like I always forgot to set. It would disarm so right.

768
00:37:22,680 --> 00:37:24,359
Speaker 5: I would disarm it right before we went to bed,

769
00:37:25,280 --> 00:37:27,560
Speaker 5: and then I'd sneak him through the front window.

770
00:37:27,840 --> 00:37:28,760
Speaker 4: I cracked my window.

771
00:37:28,960 --> 00:37:29,680
Speaker 1: Now you know what I would do.

772
00:37:29,920 --> 00:37:32,280
Speaker 4: I would crack my window just above the censor.

773
00:37:32,640 --> 00:37:34,960
Speaker 5: Oh, so then it wouldn't be when I pulled it

774
00:37:35,120 --> 00:37:37,799
Speaker 5: up and I'd sneak him in. We'd watch we'd watch

775
00:37:37,880 --> 00:37:42,600
Speaker 5: midnight love and like music videos after dark on bet yes.

776
00:37:42,480 --> 00:37:44,880
Speaker 4: I still love it, and we'd have so much sex.

777
00:37:45,280 --> 00:37:47,839
Speaker 5: And your mom never caught He never caught me ever.

778
00:37:48,080 --> 00:37:51,000
Speaker 5: Oh my god, you're he does twenty thirty times?

779
00:37:51,360 --> 00:37:51,600
Speaker 1: Really?

780
00:37:51,840 --> 00:37:53,920
Speaker 4: Yeah. Then and then I got really bold and.

781
00:37:53,960 --> 00:37:55,839
Speaker 5: I would have like boys sneak over and jumped over

782
00:37:55,880 --> 00:37:57,680
Speaker 5: and jump over the fence during the day. One day,

783
00:37:58,040 --> 00:38:00,120
Speaker 5: the neighbors next door was an old lady and she

784
00:38:00,239 --> 00:38:00,960
Speaker 5: told my mom.

785
00:38:00,880 --> 00:38:03,719
Speaker 1: She's like, you know, there was a really nice young man.

786
00:38:03,880 --> 00:38:06,960
Speaker 5: I saw him jumping over the fence I'm not sure

787
00:38:07,000 --> 00:38:10,240
Speaker 5: if there was something wrong or he was looking for something.

788
00:38:10,920 --> 00:38:13,520
Speaker 5: Oh my God, of course denied it, like you don't

789
00:38:13,560 --> 00:38:16,760
Speaker 5: trust me, old lady can't see ship.

790
00:38:16,920 --> 00:38:19,799
Speaker 4: As my favorite line, you don't trust me, like bitch,

791
00:38:19,840 --> 00:38:20,480
Speaker 4: you don't deserve me.

792
00:38:21,760 --> 00:38:29,600
Speaker 1: She's been funny. Oh god, So we have a new setup.

793
00:38:30,040 --> 00:38:32,440
Speaker 4: Guys, we're no longer lashing.

794
00:38:33,400 --> 00:38:33,520
Speaker 1: Uh.

795
00:38:34,560 --> 00:38:37,080
Speaker 5: The beauty of editing podcast is that my computer died

796
00:38:37,120 --> 00:38:39,640
Speaker 5: in the middle of it, and we're trying to be

797
00:38:39,680 --> 00:38:41,040
Speaker 5: seamless here, but we're not.

798
00:38:41,200 --> 00:38:42,360
Speaker 1: But now we're no longer lashing.

799
00:38:42,400 --> 00:38:44,759
Speaker 4: We're just sitting in my bed. It's actually like kind

800
00:38:44,800 --> 00:38:45,480
Speaker 4: of like it over here.

801
00:38:45,560 --> 00:38:48,319
Speaker 1: I kind of like it too. We could do this sometimes. Yeah,

802
00:38:48,480 --> 00:38:51,120
Speaker 1: we could do her after dark editions in here. Yeah,

803
00:38:51,239 --> 00:38:58,040
Speaker 1: like last year, we should switch it up for her YouTube.

804
00:38:59,239 --> 00:39:01,200
Speaker 5: But yeah, I just thinking about all the fuck shit

805
00:39:01,280 --> 00:39:04,120
Speaker 5: I did, like having sex, like in rooms with other

806
00:39:04,200 --> 00:39:06,200
Speaker 5: people because there's you know, you're a teenager and there's

807
00:39:06,239 --> 00:39:08,520
Speaker 5: no other place to have sex, so everyone's having sex

808
00:39:08,560 --> 00:39:10,239
Speaker 5: in the same room or in closets.

809
00:39:10,360 --> 00:39:12,560
Speaker 1: I had sex in dressing rooms. I've had sex in

810
00:39:12,640 --> 00:39:14,439
Speaker 1: the movie theater. I've had sex on my front lawn,

811
00:39:15,000 --> 00:39:16,560
Speaker 1: in many a cars, in the backseat.

812
00:39:17,560 --> 00:39:20,840
Speaker 5: I've had sex in like bedrooms with multiple people, but

813
00:39:21,040 --> 00:39:23,640
Speaker 5: not like threesome style, like no in our world.

814
00:39:23,760 --> 00:39:26,359
Speaker 1: Yeah, me and Danielle. I mean, I don't know why,

815
00:39:26,360 --> 00:39:27,680
Speaker 1: don't give her a cold name. I've just been out

816
00:39:27,680 --> 00:39:30,080
Speaker 1: at hard business out there. Me and her got a

817
00:39:30,280 --> 00:39:32,879
Speaker 1: cheap ass hotel on Ventura and cold Water. It's called

818
00:39:32,920 --> 00:39:35,600
Speaker 1: like the court. I think I've just seen that because

819
00:39:35,800 --> 00:39:37,640
Speaker 1: you can get it confused the courtyard, but it's like

820
00:39:38,040 --> 00:39:40,680
Speaker 1: the yard court or something. And we've paid fifty dollars

821
00:39:40,760 --> 00:39:43,960
Speaker 1: each couple and their beds were literally facing each other

822
00:39:44,080 --> 00:39:47,560
Speaker 1: and we're fucking in the same room and it was disgusting.

823
00:39:48,920 --> 00:39:51,960
Speaker 1: Oh wait, we're still recording you guys. Can we us

824
00:39:52,000 --> 00:39:56,560
Speaker 1: can give us a couple of minutes money? Wait? Would

825
00:39:56,600 --> 00:39:58,480
Speaker 1: he go that way? Go that way to go around

826
00:39:58,520 --> 00:39:59,920
Speaker 1: the mic? Drop Jesus?

827
00:40:01,400 --> 00:40:03,200
Speaker 4: All right, Well that conversation's over.

828
00:40:05,600 --> 00:40:11,000
Speaker 5: But anyway, thinking about my little boo boo one day

829
00:40:11,760 --> 00:40:14,040
Speaker 5: being a teenager, are you going to be a good teenager?

830
00:40:14,960 --> 00:40:18,040
Speaker 1: It would be nice to mommy you are you promise?

831
00:40:18,560 --> 00:40:19,760
Speaker 1: Are you going to be a good teenager?

832
00:40:20,200 --> 00:40:20,640
Speaker 4: You promise?

833
00:40:22,239 --> 00:40:26,080
Speaker 1: You say it too, I promise, I promise, Pink you promise, pink.

834
00:40:26,600 --> 00:40:30,560
Speaker 4: Pinky, promise. Okay, this is evidence, you guys.

835
00:40:30,600 --> 00:40:33,760
Speaker 1: So when we go back and you're thirteen fourteen fifteen,

836
00:40:33,800 --> 00:40:37,160
Speaker 1: every play this episode back, Remember that you promised. Why

837
00:40:37,280 --> 00:40:42,640
Speaker 1: did you put I talked there that one that's a

838
00:40:42,719 --> 00:40:47,480
Speaker 1: dradle and there's no chokol in it. No, no, no,

839
00:40:47,640 --> 00:40:48,480
Speaker 1: don't touch anything.

840
00:40:48,840 --> 00:40:50,200
Speaker 4: That's okay.

841
00:40:50,719 --> 00:40:52,640
Speaker 1: If you guys want to stay in here, be quiet,

842
00:40:56,120 --> 00:41:00,680
Speaker 1: get out of your yeah, alright, because oh, you guys

843
00:41:00,680 --> 00:41:04,840
Speaker 1: are being bad. We're not bad. We're great, We're great. No,

844
00:41:05,120 --> 00:41:09,239
Speaker 1: you're bad. No, don't teach ire.

845
00:41:09,440 --> 00:41:10,239
Speaker 4: That sound nice?

846
00:41:11,160 --> 00:41:18,919
Speaker 1: Yeah, you know we're good. You know what's bad?

847
00:41:19,080 --> 00:41:19,760
Speaker 4: Is that makeup?

848
00:41:20,760 --> 00:41:20,920
Speaker 5: Right?

849
00:41:25,360 --> 00:41:31,800
Speaker 1: Hey, don't touch anything over there. Let's go, girl, bye,

850
00:41:33,120 --> 00:41:37,280
Speaker 1: ye close the door on your way out. All right, girlfriend,

851
00:41:37,280 --> 00:41:41,279
Speaker 1: you're ready started good girlfriend. Lena is BRILLIANTO girlfriends hear that.

852
00:41:42,560 --> 00:41:45,120
Speaker 1: She's like, okay, I'm you're my friend. Okay, Hey, come on, girlfriend,

853
00:41:45,880 --> 00:41:51,560
Speaker 1: I'm like, when have I ever said that? Everything is? Girlfriend?

854
00:41:51,600 --> 00:41:51,719
Speaker 2: Right?

855
00:41:51,719 --> 00:41:51,839
Speaker 4: Now?

856
00:41:52,440 --> 00:41:57,440
Speaker 1: Whatever? Okay, So, is there any advice you to give

857
00:41:57,440 --> 00:42:00,360
Speaker 1: your younger self? Now that you're advice, I mean, we

858
00:42:00,400 --> 00:42:03,319
Speaker 1: can do that, but also we have a question. Okay, well,

859
00:42:03,520 --> 00:42:06,239
Speaker 1: since yeah, this would be the time my phone.

860
00:42:06,280 --> 00:42:07,359
Speaker 4: Oh my god, it's gonna die.

861
00:42:07,480 --> 00:42:10,680
Speaker 1: We still have not listened to that man's twenty six

862
00:42:10,760 --> 00:42:14,480
Speaker 1: minute video. He's gonna kill us. I'm gonna listen to it.

863
00:42:16,200 --> 00:42:22,120
Speaker 1: I know, I know, I'm really gonna listen. Dude, I'm

864
00:42:22,239 --> 00:42:26,000
Speaker 1: gonna listen tonight. Advice I would give my younger self

865
00:42:26,080 --> 00:42:33,759
Speaker 1: while Erica is looking for that advice question, is uh yeah,

866
00:42:34,120 --> 00:42:38,239
Speaker 1: value my pussy. It's not for everyone, even if it

867
00:42:38,440 --> 00:42:41,839
Speaker 1: seems like it could feel good. I feel like my mom.

868
00:42:42,000 --> 00:42:43,960
Speaker 1: I didn't get talked about, Like sex was not a

869
00:42:44,040 --> 00:42:46,480
Speaker 1: common conversation in my household, and so I went in

870
00:42:46,680 --> 00:42:50,960
Speaker 1: blind and when I discovered my vagina, it was just

871
00:42:51,120 --> 00:42:53,600
Speaker 1: a rap. I just hit the floor running. Like luckily

872
00:42:53,600 --> 00:42:56,280
Speaker 1: I had a boyfriend, had two boyfriends in high school,

873
00:42:56,360 --> 00:43:02,399
Speaker 1: but like sixteen seventeen in college was just a sex blur.

874
00:43:03,320 --> 00:43:07,400
Speaker 1: I was just fucking. And I would tell myself to

875
00:43:07,560 --> 00:43:10,759
Speaker 1: refrain and not do all, not do so much, chill

876
00:43:10,800 --> 00:43:11,080
Speaker 1: out of it.

877
00:43:12,040 --> 00:43:13,080
Speaker 4: Why do you think you were doing that?

878
00:43:15,200 --> 00:43:17,399
Speaker 1: You know, still trying to figure it out.

879
00:43:17,520 --> 00:43:18,480
Speaker 4: Is it just hormonal?

880
00:43:18,520 --> 00:43:20,560
Speaker 1: I mean, I think I think it was partially hormonal.

881
00:43:21,880 --> 00:43:23,680
Speaker 1: I don't know, I don't know, like ema is an

882
00:43:23,719 --> 00:43:26,080
Speaker 1: attention that was like lack of something.

883
00:43:26,120 --> 00:43:27,640
Speaker 5: Do you think you were actually enjoying sex of that

884
00:43:27,760 --> 00:43:31,200
Speaker 5: age sometimes like how you enjoy it now.

885
00:43:31,239 --> 00:43:32,759
Speaker 1: I don't know if it's how I enjoy it now,

886
00:43:32,880 --> 00:43:36,120
Speaker 1: because obviously you're not as confident and comfortable in sex

887
00:43:36,200 --> 00:43:38,280
Speaker 1: when you're a kid, I mean, or you're a teenager.

888
00:43:38,360 --> 00:43:41,880
Speaker 1: But actually, no, I wasn't like it was.

889
00:43:41,880 --> 00:43:44,080
Speaker 4: For it was mostly for like the guy's satisfaction.

890
00:43:44,360 --> 00:43:46,759
Speaker 1: Yeah, like to like to make him like you. I

891
00:43:46,840 --> 00:43:48,800
Speaker 1: mean sometimes no, I mean in college there's times I

892
00:43:48,800 --> 00:43:50,120
Speaker 1: could give a fuck. I don't even you don't have

893
00:43:50,160 --> 00:43:52,400
Speaker 1: to call me. I don't even care. I don't know.

894
00:43:52,640 --> 00:43:54,680
Speaker 1: That's why I'm like, I want to get hypnotized and

895
00:43:54,800 --> 00:43:58,160
Speaker 1: figured out if something's wrong with me. I think advice

896
00:43:58,160 --> 00:44:01,000
Speaker 1: i'd say to my younger self, is that too? I

897
00:44:01,120 --> 00:44:01,719
Speaker 1: think I was.

898
00:44:01,760 --> 00:44:04,880
Speaker 5: Definitely I was sexually promiscuous at a very young age.

899
00:44:05,320 --> 00:44:09,479
Speaker 1: I lost my virginity really young. I just hearded.

900
00:44:10,560 --> 00:44:12,120
Speaker 4: Was I thirteen thirteen or fourteen?

901
00:44:12,480 --> 00:44:14,240
Speaker 1: Thirteen thirteen?

902
00:44:14,320 --> 00:44:14,520
Speaker 4: Yeah?

903
00:44:14,760 --> 00:44:18,280
Speaker 1: Oh god, yeah, Valentine's Day thirteen? How do you remember?

904
00:44:19,160 --> 00:44:25,360
Speaker 5: Because I'm crazy because it was Valentine's Day and he

905
00:44:25,440 --> 00:44:28,440
Speaker 5: gave me purple starburst in an envelope and you gave

906
00:44:28,520 --> 00:44:29,080
Speaker 5: him some pussy.

907
00:44:30,200 --> 00:44:31,320
Speaker 4: Yeah, even exchange.

908
00:44:33,280 --> 00:44:35,280
Speaker 1: I think the purple one is limited.

909
00:44:35,640 --> 00:44:35,800
Speaker 5: It was.

910
00:44:35,840 --> 00:44:38,480
Speaker 4: I don't even think it's around. Bomb was so it

911
00:44:38,520 --> 00:44:40,200
Speaker 4: was so good, so good. I still look for it

912
00:44:40,520 --> 00:44:42,400
Speaker 4: to this day. I don't see it often.

913
00:44:43,480 --> 00:44:44,360
Speaker 1: I think I would say that.

914
00:44:44,600 --> 00:44:48,520
Speaker 5: I think I would say, also, try to like, I

915
00:44:48,640 --> 00:44:52,080
Speaker 5: know it's impossible, but if I could, I would say,

916
00:44:52,520 --> 00:44:53,960
Speaker 5: try to listen to your mom more.

917
00:44:54,560 --> 00:44:58,560
Speaker 4: Because although my mom her delivery I think wasn't the.

918
00:44:58,600 --> 00:45:02,000
Speaker 5: Best, she was right about a lot of things, and

919
00:45:02,080 --> 00:45:05,160
Speaker 5: I could have prevented a lot of hurt, heartache and

920
00:45:05,320 --> 00:45:07,200
Speaker 5: heartache even in adulthood.

921
00:45:07,200 --> 00:45:09,680
Speaker 1: I'm still learning that. I think I'm more conscious of

922
00:45:09,760 --> 00:45:10,040
Speaker 1: it now.

923
00:45:11,000 --> 00:45:11,440
Speaker 4: But like what.

924
00:45:12,320 --> 00:45:17,520
Speaker 1: Specifically for certain friends she was weary of and she

925
00:45:17,680 --> 00:45:20,440
Speaker 1: was right, She was right men. She was weary of.

926
00:45:22,239 --> 00:45:24,239
Speaker 5: Just decisions that I made in my life, you know,

927
00:45:24,440 --> 00:45:27,520
Speaker 5: leaving school. I mean, everything happens for time. I wouldn't

928
00:45:27,520 --> 00:45:29,759
Speaker 5: be here at this moment had I not done so

929
00:45:29,920 --> 00:45:31,920
Speaker 5: rebellious and done the things I wanted to do. But

930
00:45:32,000 --> 00:45:34,120
Speaker 5: there's definitely some things I could have done without right,

931
00:45:34,360 --> 00:45:44,279
Speaker 5: you know, I think also not, Oh my god, there's

932
00:45:44,320 --> 00:45:48,880
Speaker 5: so loud. I think also, like I think, growing up

933
00:45:49,840 --> 00:45:52,600
Speaker 5: in a mostly white place and with mostly white kids,

934
00:45:53,600 --> 00:45:59,560
Speaker 5: always constantly feeling like insecure about like my looks and

935
00:45:59,680 --> 00:46:02,520
Speaker 5: feeling like I was as pretty as the next girl.

936
00:46:02,880 --> 00:46:04,560
Speaker 5: I wish I could go back to myself, to my

937
00:46:04,640 --> 00:46:05,360
Speaker 5: younger self.

938
00:46:05,200 --> 00:46:07,440
Speaker 1: And be like, you're you're the shit, yeah, and just

939
00:46:07,520 --> 00:46:10,000
Speaker 1: wait until you're thirty one, bitch. Everybody's gonna want to

940
00:46:10,040 --> 00:46:10,719
Speaker 1: look just like you.

941
00:46:11,360 --> 00:46:14,239
Speaker 5: Fucking wait, and you'in't even gonna wait till thirty one, bitch,

942
00:46:14,239 --> 00:46:15,880
Speaker 5: because you were that bitch at twenty five and twenty one,

943
00:46:15,920 --> 00:46:18,719
Speaker 5: and you're that pitch now right. Everybody wants your hair.

944
00:46:18,840 --> 00:46:20,880
Speaker 5: You see that booty you have at age twelve, Yeah.

945
00:46:21,200 --> 00:46:23,759
Speaker 1: Pay for that later, right, literally, Like I didn't like

946
00:46:23,880 --> 00:46:26,160
Speaker 1: want this. Madonna is going to be paying for that

947
00:46:26,320 --> 00:46:31,000
Speaker 1: ass right, Like I didn't want that booty. I just

948
00:46:31,239 --> 00:46:32,239
Speaker 1: my legs were too thick.

949
00:46:32,280 --> 00:46:34,440
Speaker 5: All the things that are popular now I was so

950
00:46:34,600 --> 00:46:37,759
Speaker 5: insecure about, And I wish I could just like hold

951
00:46:37,880 --> 00:46:40,439
Speaker 5: hug my younger self and be like, you're beautiful. Stop

952
00:46:40,520 --> 00:46:45,120
Speaker 5: comparing yourself to all these like underdeveloped, skinny.

953
00:46:46,000 --> 00:46:48,919
Speaker 1: Girls that they're not You're not and you're not them.

954
00:46:49,080 --> 00:46:49,279
Speaker 2: You know.

955
00:46:51,600 --> 00:46:53,000
Speaker 4: Anyway, that's what I would say.

956
00:46:53,200 --> 00:46:56,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, I think I think that's true. I think growing

957
00:46:56,640 --> 00:46:59,319
Speaker 1: up in schools and in an area that you don't

958
00:46:59,400 --> 00:47:01,920
Speaker 1: see a lot of people look like you, and in

959
00:47:02,000 --> 00:47:04,000
Speaker 1: addition to not seeing people look like you in the

960
00:47:04,080 --> 00:47:07,840
Speaker 1: media and on magazines, it's it does. It does in

961
00:47:08,000 --> 00:47:11,560
Speaker 1: some way shape form or fashion, like hinder your self confidence.

962
00:47:11,960 --> 00:47:15,520
Speaker 1: Even now as an adult, I find myself like certain

963
00:47:15,560 --> 00:47:17,439
Speaker 1: things and I'm like, oh my god, am I still

964
00:47:17,480 --> 00:47:20,440
Speaker 1: a kid? Am I still that person that like that

965
00:47:20,600 --> 00:47:23,560
Speaker 1: is that insecurity? Like do I still have this thing?

966
00:47:23,840 --> 00:47:24,040
Speaker 5: You know?

967
00:47:24,440 --> 00:47:28,560
Speaker 1: Like I don't know, LA is a funny place, and

968
00:47:28,680 --> 00:47:30,600
Speaker 1: so I'm just like, oh, maybe it's not into black girls.

969
00:47:30,680 --> 00:47:33,960
Speaker 1: Maybe it's not their thing, you know, but I definitely

970
00:47:33,960 --> 00:47:37,719
Speaker 1: would like the pride in my body and like, just

971
00:47:38,600 --> 00:47:42,440
Speaker 1: it's so much unnecessary, fucking Jesus Christ. I could have

972
00:47:42,560 --> 00:47:47,360
Speaker 1: literally done without, like ninety percent of it, just not

973
00:47:47,520 --> 00:47:54,359
Speaker 1: equating physical interactions with my worth, with love with fun

974
00:47:55,040 --> 00:47:56,440
Speaker 1: because a lot of times You're right, I wasn't even

975
00:47:56,440 --> 00:48:03,920
Speaker 1: really satisfied. So I don't know, recognizing like the relationship

976
00:48:04,000 --> 00:48:06,160
Speaker 1: I saw my parents, and I mean I knew then

977
00:48:06,239 --> 00:48:10,520
Speaker 1: it wasn't normal, and it wasn't healthy, but like really,

978
00:48:11,160 --> 00:48:15,440
Speaker 1: maybe seeing more examples of like healthy marriages may have

979
00:48:15,560 --> 00:48:19,160
Speaker 1: been beneficial. Not that you can help who you go home.

980
00:48:19,239 --> 00:48:24,439
Speaker 1: You can't help that. Yeah, confidence telling theas to shut

981
00:48:24,440 --> 00:48:26,400
Speaker 1: the fuck up, who the fuck are you talking to?

982
00:48:28,400 --> 00:48:30,000
Speaker 1: You know, just like that confidence you get when you

983
00:48:30,040 --> 00:48:31,920
Speaker 1: turn thirty when like no one can really tell you shit,

984
00:48:35,080 --> 00:48:38,279
Speaker 1: right is it's a whole it's on a whole different level.

985
00:48:38,320 --> 00:48:40,080
Speaker 1: But like I just saw my friend, my friend mirror

986
00:48:40,120 --> 00:48:42,120
Speaker 1: this other day and she's we're talking about college and

987
00:48:42,200 --> 00:48:43,719
Speaker 1: like how fucking fun it was. And I was like,

988
00:48:43,800 --> 00:48:45,279
Speaker 1: I wish we could go back and do it, but

989
00:48:45,360 --> 00:48:47,480
Speaker 1: with the knowledge we have now, right because the boy

990
00:48:47,600 --> 00:48:48,759
Speaker 1: was I dumb? And then I was like, well, maybe

991
00:48:48,800 --> 00:48:50,480
Speaker 1: if we were that, like if we were if I

992
00:48:50,560 --> 00:48:52,239
Speaker 1: was a person I am now, I probably wouldn't have

993
00:48:52,239 --> 00:48:53,640
Speaker 1: done half the shit, but I probably wouldn't have had

994
00:48:53,680 --> 00:48:54,560
Speaker 1: as much fun either.

995
00:48:54,560 --> 00:48:55,719
Speaker 4: Right, No, that's true.

996
00:48:56,560 --> 00:48:58,440
Speaker 1: Everything happens how it's supposed to happen.

997
00:48:58,600 --> 00:49:00,680
Speaker 4: You know, I wouldn't. I don't know if I would.

998
00:49:02,040 --> 00:49:04,400
Speaker 5: I think you kind of have to go dark in

999
00:49:04,560 --> 00:49:08,440
Speaker 5: order to see the light sometimes, So all that fucking

1000
00:49:08,480 --> 00:49:08,920
Speaker 5: you did.

1001
00:49:08,840 --> 00:49:10,160
Speaker 4: Now you're like, you know, I had to do that

1002
00:49:10,280 --> 00:49:11,640
Speaker 4: to know that maybe I shouldn't be doing that.

1003
00:49:13,040 --> 00:49:17,040
Speaker 1: Yeah, so here's our question. Oh you found it, hurry

1004
00:49:17,080 --> 00:49:18,279
Speaker 1: up because made to pluck my phone back in.

1005
00:49:18,400 --> 00:49:21,640
Speaker 5: Okay, So this is anonymous. So I broke up with

1006
00:49:21,760 --> 00:49:23,480
Speaker 5: my baby daddy about a year and a half ago.

1007
00:49:23,520 --> 00:49:25,920
Speaker 5: We've been together for eleven years, and honestly, I thought

1008
00:49:26,000 --> 00:49:27,400
Speaker 5: this was the man I was going to spend the

1009
00:49:27,440 --> 00:49:28,200
Speaker 5: rest of my life with.

1010
00:49:28,360 --> 00:49:29,920
Speaker 4: But I just don't feel supported at all.

1011
00:49:30,360 --> 00:49:32,160
Speaker 5: And I also feel like I take care of every

1012
00:49:32,200 --> 00:49:34,560
Speaker 5: freaking thing in the home or anything concerning our seven

1013
00:49:34,640 --> 00:49:35,160
Speaker 5: year old son.

1014
00:49:36,360 --> 00:49:36,800
Speaker 1: I feel you.

1015
00:49:37,360 --> 00:49:39,520
Speaker 5: The last few years, it just felt like I had

1016
00:49:39,560 --> 00:49:42,560
Speaker 5: two kids, and plus he wouldn't have sex with me anymore,

1017
00:49:42,600 --> 00:49:45,840
Speaker 5: and communication was horrible, and also he cheated on me

1018
00:49:45,960 --> 00:49:47,840
Speaker 5: and I haven't been able to get over it. The

1019
00:49:47,960 --> 00:49:50,680
Speaker 5: thing is, we still live together for financial reasons, but

1020
00:49:50,760 --> 00:49:53,719
Speaker 5: we occasionally have sex. Since we broke up, I've hooked

1021
00:49:53,800 --> 00:49:55,920
Speaker 5: up with two other people, nothing serious at all, and

1022
00:49:56,160 --> 00:49:59,440
Speaker 5: I mean he's in the house, so it's convenient. Thing is, today,

1023
00:49:59,480 --> 00:50:02,480
Speaker 5: while using his iPad, I found out he's taking he's

1024
00:50:02,560 --> 00:50:04,960
Speaker 5: talking to someone and actually admitted to her that he

1025
00:50:05,080 --> 00:50:07,520
Speaker 5: was feeling her and all of a sudden, I'm feeling

1026
00:50:07,520 --> 00:50:10,360
Speaker 5: away about it. Is it normal that I'm second guessing myself.

1027
00:50:10,480 --> 00:50:12,440
Speaker 5: I find myself wanting to be nicer to him, but

1028
00:50:12,480 --> 00:50:14,520
Speaker 5: I don't want to get back together. But I guess

1029
00:50:14,560 --> 00:50:16,200
Speaker 5: I'm just having a hard time with dealing with the

1030
00:50:16,239 --> 00:50:18,680
Speaker 5: fact that eleven years of my life is just done,

1031
00:50:18,840 --> 00:50:20,920
Speaker 5: Like officially, how do I get past it?

1032
00:50:21,040 --> 00:50:22,799
Speaker 4: Thanks for reading, and I absolutely love you.

1033
00:50:23,160 --> 00:50:25,839
Speaker 1: Love love love you, ladies, Thank you, thank you, love

1034
00:50:25,880 --> 00:50:30,400
Speaker 1: you too. Girl. Have I been there? But fuck oooh.

1035
00:50:30,280 --> 00:50:34,279
Speaker 4: Girl, I'm there kind of right not now, but like.

1036
00:50:36,800 --> 00:50:37,520
Speaker 1: I've definitely been there.

1037
00:50:37,560 --> 00:50:39,399
Speaker 5: I feel like I'm just coming out of that phase where,

1038
00:50:39,520 --> 00:50:43,279
Speaker 5: like my jealousy, even though I don't want to be

1039
00:50:43,440 --> 00:50:46,160
Speaker 5: with that person, that makes me want to be nice

1040
00:50:46,160 --> 00:50:47,280
Speaker 5: to him, to keep him close.

1041
00:50:47,840 --> 00:50:49,919
Speaker 1: It's ego, because I don't want you to move on, girl,

1042
00:50:50,120 --> 00:50:52,399
Speaker 1: That is all ego. You know you don't want that man,

1043
00:50:52,520 --> 00:50:54,719
Speaker 1: you know he doesn't do what you need and want

1044
00:50:54,800 --> 00:50:57,400
Speaker 1: him to do. In her partner. You've made that decision

1045
00:50:57,480 --> 00:51:00,120
Speaker 1: and that's why you have been on dates. And the

1046
00:51:00,280 --> 00:51:03,520
Speaker 1: fact that he's seeing someone else and you're aware of

1047
00:51:03,600 --> 00:51:06,520
Speaker 1: it is just eating away at your ego and you're

1048
00:51:06,640 --> 00:51:11,239
Speaker 1: resenting him because you've spent so much. But in fact,

1049
00:51:11,320 --> 00:51:12,719
Speaker 1: you know what I've learned, because I've spent a lot

1050
00:51:12,719 --> 00:51:16,719
Speaker 1: of years wasting with the fuck boy myself, and you're

1051
00:51:16,719 --> 00:51:20,279
Speaker 1: resenting yourself. You're not resenting him, that ego and all

1052
00:51:20,360 --> 00:51:23,839
Speaker 1: that that's your Those are residual feelings, how you feel

1053
00:51:23,840 --> 00:51:27,160
Speaker 1: about yourself because you're mad that you chose to do

1054
00:51:27,280 --> 00:51:30,120
Speaker 1: shit like that. Even I'm just learning that right now

1055
00:51:30,239 --> 00:51:32,520
Speaker 1: in my thirty years, is that sometimes I'd be like, oh,

1056
00:51:32,640 --> 00:51:34,120
Speaker 1: I shouldn't have done this, I shouldn't have done that.

1057
00:51:34,560 --> 00:51:36,480
Speaker 1: But you know what, I known this, You wanted to

1058
00:51:36,560 --> 00:51:40,239
Speaker 1: do that. That's why you chose to do it. Everything

1059
00:51:40,360 --> 00:51:43,440
Speaker 1: up till now that's happened. I've chosen to do it,

1060
00:51:43,560 --> 00:51:46,640
Speaker 1: So I need to take responsibility for it, because at

1061
00:51:46,640 --> 00:51:49,360
Speaker 1: any point, baby or no baby, you could have been like,

1062
00:51:49,600 --> 00:51:51,800
Speaker 1: I deserve better. But the problem is is that we

1063
00:51:51,840 --> 00:51:54,200
Speaker 1: don't know we deserve better, and we don't recognize it,

1064
00:51:54,280 --> 00:51:57,640
Speaker 1: and we're attached to comfort more than we are what

1065
00:51:57,760 --> 00:51:58,280
Speaker 1: we deserve.

1066
00:51:58,520 --> 00:52:01,000
Speaker 5: And I think also it's hard when you're living with

1067
00:52:01,120 --> 00:52:02,960
Speaker 5: the person you know. I know you said you guys

1068
00:52:03,000 --> 00:52:07,600
Speaker 5: are living together for financial reasons. The moment you can

1069
00:52:07,719 --> 00:52:11,000
Speaker 5: move you have to, because it's really hard.

1070
00:52:11,040 --> 00:52:11,319
Speaker 1: I don't.

1071
00:52:11,400 --> 00:52:13,960
Speaker 5: I don't know if I could coexist with my partner

1072
00:52:14,000 --> 00:52:17,960
Speaker 5: of eleven years. We share a sun and try to

1073
00:52:18,160 --> 00:52:19,600
Speaker 5: like efficiently move on.

1074
00:52:20,400 --> 00:52:22,560
Speaker 1: You can't because he's in your face that you wake up,

1075
00:52:22,640 --> 00:52:25,280
Speaker 1: he's there and I don't know, I don't. You needn't

1076
00:52:25,280 --> 00:52:27,839
Speaker 1: include this in there. You don't only have privacy. She said,

1077
00:52:27,880 --> 00:52:28,640
Speaker 1: they're not having sex.

1078
00:52:28,920 --> 00:52:30,880
Speaker 5: She said they've had sex a few times because it's

1079
00:52:30,960 --> 00:52:33,440
Speaker 5: convenient and they're there, and.

1080
00:52:33,480 --> 00:52:35,560
Speaker 1: Then that there and then that cloud. Shit. Yeah, and

1081
00:52:36,400 --> 00:52:39,279
Speaker 1: I'm not judging enough done it because you're right there.

1082
00:52:39,920 --> 00:52:40,440
Speaker 1: It's living.

1083
00:52:40,560 --> 00:52:42,120
Speaker 5: I think if you have to, if you have to

1084
00:52:42,239 --> 00:52:44,360
Speaker 5: live with each other, then you need to have strict

1085
00:52:44,880 --> 00:52:49,640
Speaker 5: boundaries and maybe just don't even try to start dating

1086
00:52:49,680 --> 00:52:52,120
Speaker 5: anyone until you guys are not living together, because it's.

1087
00:52:52,040 --> 00:52:54,000
Speaker 1: Just like, well, that's not really fair because he's not

1088
00:52:54,080 --> 00:52:54,759
Speaker 1: going to not do that.

1089
00:52:54,960 --> 00:52:57,200
Speaker 4: But why but why I mean not, but he doesn't.

1090
00:52:57,239 --> 00:52:58,160
Speaker 4: She doesn't have to do what he does.

1091
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Speaker 1: No, but I mean, if somebody comes up, don't be like,

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00:53:03,239 --> 00:53:04,000
Speaker 1: oh I can't right now.

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00:53:05,200 --> 00:53:06,520
Speaker 4: I mean, I don't know.

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00:53:06,680 --> 00:53:07,359
Speaker 1: I mean it's hard.

1095
00:53:07,440 --> 00:53:09,280
Speaker 4: I feel like I don't really know how to answer

1096
00:53:09,320 --> 00:53:10,239
Speaker 4: this question in the right.

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Speaker 1: Way, because she it's hard. I don't even know if

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00:53:14,120 --> 00:53:16,120
Speaker 1: we've conquered that, And I don't know if there's any

1099
00:53:16,200 --> 00:53:19,759
Speaker 1: rule book that can really say at any point, whether

1100
00:53:19,760 --> 00:53:22,080
Speaker 1: you live together or not, that you won't feel jealousy,

1101
00:53:22,440 --> 00:53:26,200
Speaker 1: you won't feel like damn, that's mine. That's human fucking nature.

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00:53:26,280 --> 00:53:29,520
Speaker 1: That's first baby mama nature. Right. I mean, like me

1103
00:53:29,640 --> 00:53:31,960
Speaker 1: and my baby daddy haven't been living together for over.

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Speaker 5: A year and a half, you know, a year, and

1105
00:53:34,400 --> 00:53:36,600
Speaker 5: maybe you're a little almost a year and a half.

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00:53:37,320 --> 00:53:41,480
Speaker 5: And I'm still unraveling myself from that. You know, I'm

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00:53:41,520 --> 00:53:43,880
Speaker 5: still trying to unravel my ego.

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00:53:44,080 --> 00:53:46,920
Speaker 4: I have no desire to be with him. But the

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00:53:47,000 --> 00:53:49,680
Speaker 4: moment I ever hear like, oh I saw blah blah blah,

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00:53:49,680 --> 00:53:51,040
Speaker 4: oh withah blah blah, I'm like what who what?

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00:53:51,280 --> 00:53:53,120
Speaker 1: Uh uh? No? What she looks like, you know what

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00:53:53,200 --> 00:53:53,440
Speaker 1: I mean?

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00:53:53,640 --> 00:53:57,400
Speaker 5: And I have to like, I have to keep like

1114
00:53:57,560 --> 00:53:59,799
Speaker 5: going back to myself and be like, no, you don't

1115
00:53:59,800 --> 00:54:02,239
Speaker 5: eat even want that, why are you doing that?

1116
00:54:02,719 --> 00:54:06,120
Speaker 1: And the fucking part is listen to us because I've

1117
00:54:06,239 --> 00:54:08,920
Speaker 1: been I've told myself that, and then I get in

1118
00:54:09,000 --> 00:54:11,200
Speaker 1: the position where I'm laid up with the naggat, and

1119
00:54:11,960 --> 00:54:16,600
Speaker 1: upon entering, I'm like, uh, what the fuck am I doing?

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00:54:16,880 --> 00:54:19,080
Speaker 1: This is? You know what? That's the thing with age too,

1121
00:54:19,440 --> 00:54:21,640
Speaker 1: there's just a time like when you're younger years, you

1122
00:54:21,719 --> 00:54:25,200
Speaker 1: get this fuck and brush you under the carpet. You're

1123
00:54:25,239 --> 00:54:27,080
Speaker 1: not as in tune with your body and your once,

1124
00:54:27,600 --> 00:54:29,720
Speaker 1: but when you become when you start hitting certain ages

1125
00:54:29,800 --> 00:54:32,640
Speaker 1: and you can't fuck for the fuck of it as

1126
00:54:32,719 --> 00:54:35,360
Speaker 1: much anymore because your body, like your vagina's talking to

1127
00:54:35,480 --> 00:54:38,239
Speaker 1: your brain like, bitch, what are you doing right? So

1128
00:54:38,440 --> 00:54:40,759
Speaker 1: even if you think you want him right now, just

1129
00:54:41,000 --> 00:54:44,279
Speaker 1: know that like who he is isn't going to turn

1130
00:54:44,320 --> 00:54:45,640
Speaker 1: you on when it gets down to it. You can

1131
00:54:45,719 --> 00:54:47,520
Speaker 1: win him back. You could be nice to him extra

1132
00:54:47,600 --> 00:54:50,640
Speaker 1: because your ego is telling you to be better than this,

1133
00:54:51,480 --> 00:54:54,480
Speaker 1: this mystery bitch. But the matter of the fact is

1134
00:54:54,760 --> 00:54:57,080
Speaker 1: you don't want him, and you have to constantly remind

1135
00:54:57,120 --> 00:54:58,920
Speaker 1: yourself that he's not the person I want to be with.

1136
00:54:59,200 --> 00:55:01,239
Speaker 1: I have to remind my if that right now, not

1137
00:55:01,440 --> 00:55:04,440
Speaker 1: living with my baby's daddy, not being with him, for

1138
00:55:04,640 --> 00:55:07,359
Speaker 1: not looking with him for the last two years. It's

1139
00:55:07,480 --> 00:55:09,680
Speaker 1: just like human nature I was almost I almost asked you,

1140
00:55:09,760 --> 00:55:11,640
Speaker 1: why do you even look through the phone? But girl,

1141
00:55:11,680 --> 00:55:13,359
Speaker 1: if I get the phone for five minutes, I don't

1142
00:55:13,360 --> 00:55:16,080
Speaker 1: give a shit about this guy. But I'm looking just

1143
00:55:16,120 --> 00:55:18,320
Speaker 1: because I'm curious, and then I'll be like, who's this?

1144
00:55:19,160 --> 00:55:22,600
Speaker 1: I'm crazy, it's like my human nature to dig.

1145
00:55:23,600 --> 00:55:25,600
Speaker 4: You don't look through his phone anymore, especially if you

1146
00:55:25,600 --> 00:55:26,960
Speaker 4: don't want to feel triggered. I mean, I don't.

1147
00:55:27,040 --> 00:55:29,640
Speaker 5: I learned early on that I didn't like the way

1148
00:55:29,719 --> 00:55:31,640
Speaker 5: that shit made me feel, and so I never really

1149
00:55:31,680 --> 00:55:31,960
Speaker 5: did it.

1150
00:55:32,160 --> 00:55:33,200
Speaker 1: Because you wouldn't even looking.

1151
00:55:33,400 --> 00:55:35,920
Speaker 5: Fine, you absolutely will find and I always know that,

1152
00:55:36,000 --> 00:55:38,719
Speaker 5: and that already makes me mad, so I don't need

1153
00:55:38,800 --> 00:55:39,560
Speaker 5: to actually find it.

1154
00:55:39,880 --> 00:55:47,360
Speaker 1: I'm already mad, And honestly, honestly, reacting makes him feel

1155
00:55:47,520 --> 00:55:51,000
Speaker 1: validated that you still want him and there is still

1156
00:55:51,120 --> 00:55:53,440
Speaker 1: a chance and there is still hope, and if there's not,

1157
00:55:55,040 --> 00:55:56,800
Speaker 1: let it go. You just gotta let it go. And

1158
00:55:57,160 --> 00:56:00,600
Speaker 1: it really requires conversations with yourself like a, are you mad?

1159
00:56:00,920 --> 00:56:02,080
Speaker 1: Where do you care? Are you bad?

1160
00:56:02,280 --> 00:56:02,320
Speaker 2: No?

1161
00:56:02,440 --> 00:56:04,960
Speaker 1: You're not? Are you jealous? Now? What does she look like?

1162
00:56:05,000 --> 00:56:08,440
Speaker 1: Who cares? Right? None of that matters, Like you like,

1163
00:56:08,640 --> 00:56:10,480
Speaker 1: just keep in mind what you deserve and what you need,

1164
00:56:10,520 --> 00:56:12,160
Speaker 1: because that's what I keep thinking, Like, who is it

1165
00:56:12,239 --> 00:56:13,160
Speaker 1: that I really want to be with?

1166
00:56:13,560 --> 00:56:14,319
Speaker 3: Not this guy.

1167
00:56:15,000 --> 00:56:17,040
Speaker 1: You've shown me who you are, and that's not who

1168
00:56:17,320 --> 00:56:19,680
Speaker 1: I want. It isn't align with who I'm becoming. So

1169
00:56:20,040 --> 00:56:23,080
Speaker 1: kick Rocks, I think.

1170
00:56:23,120 --> 00:56:30,040
Speaker 4: That all of those things are true, but I think

1171
00:56:30,440 --> 00:56:34,200
Speaker 4: that living in the same space as someone it's I

1172
00:56:34,280 --> 00:56:37,160
Speaker 4: feel like it's fucking impossible, like to really, how do

1173
00:56:37,200 --> 00:56:38,520
Speaker 4: you like? How do you move on?

1174
00:56:39,120 --> 00:56:42,239
Speaker 5: I don't know, Like, I think your main focus right

1175
00:56:42,320 --> 00:56:45,160
Speaker 5: now should really be figuring out how the fuck you're

1176
00:56:45,200 --> 00:56:47,200
Speaker 5: gonna move out or he's gonna move out.

1177
00:56:47,160 --> 00:56:49,520
Speaker 1: Even if that means being in an uncomfortable situation for

1178
00:56:49,600 --> 00:56:53,400
Speaker 1: a second, because let me tell you, girl, until he

1179
00:56:53,520 --> 00:56:55,440
Speaker 1: moved out, and even when he moved out, I was

1180
00:56:55,480 --> 00:56:59,160
Speaker 1: still double dipping in that shit. It took a lot.

1181
00:56:59,360 --> 00:57:01,319
Speaker 1: I knew for a long time that we were over,

1182
00:57:01,560 --> 00:57:04,280
Speaker 1: and it's a long time and a lot of excuses,

1183
00:57:04,360 --> 00:57:07,960
Speaker 1: financial excuses about why he couldn't move even though in

1184
00:57:08,120 --> 00:57:10,520
Speaker 1: reality he wasn't really contributing that much. I was mostly

1185
00:57:10,560 --> 00:57:12,640
Speaker 1: doing it by myself. I was the mom of two kids.

1186
00:57:13,560 --> 00:57:15,960
Speaker 1: Maybe I would get half the rent, but like everything else,

1187
00:57:16,000 --> 00:57:19,280
Speaker 1: would fall on my lap, food utilities, blah blah blah.

1188
00:57:20,400 --> 00:57:26,720
Speaker 1: And the second that I released those financial excuses. I mean, granted,

1189
00:57:27,160 --> 00:57:29,760
Speaker 1: I had a hell of experience. I had room rates

1190
00:57:29,800 --> 00:57:33,640
Speaker 1: I didn't like. I had Airbnbs, that Pete outside in

1191
00:57:33,720 --> 00:57:36,800
Speaker 1: my house, sleepwalking, I had a lot of weird shit.

1192
00:57:37,080 --> 00:57:40,080
Speaker 1: But it gave me peace of mind that I don't

1193
00:57:40,120 --> 00:57:42,600
Speaker 1: need this. It was invaluable. It was invaluable. Like it,

1194
00:57:44,280 --> 00:57:49,000
Speaker 1: you could do bad all by yourself and God delivers.

1195
00:57:49,400 --> 00:57:51,440
Speaker 1: Peo will like if you're not if you're a swimmer,

1196
00:57:51,480 --> 00:57:54,160
Speaker 1: you're not a sinker. Shit will fall into place, even

1197
00:57:54,200 --> 00:57:56,120
Speaker 1: if it takes a couple of trial and errors. Girl,

1198
00:57:56,440 --> 00:57:58,960
Speaker 1: The truth is, shit will work itself out, even if

1199
00:57:59,000 --> 00:58:02,640
Speaker 1: you're temporarily comfortable. That's life. You're not a failure because

1200
00:58:02,640 --> 00:58:05,680
Speaker 1: of it. Your kid is fed and happy. You will

1201
00:58:05,800 --> 00:58:09,680
Speaker 1: be good. Just stop making excuses. And I mean, obviously

1202
00:58:09,800 --> 00:58:12,000
Speaker 1: plan as much as possible. But if him being there

1203
00:58:12,120 --> 00:58:14,959
Speaker 1: is making you absolutely miserable, you gotta get you gotta

1204
00:58:15,200 --> 00:58:15,440
Speaker 1: move on.

1205
00:58:15,680 --> 00:58:16,200
Speaker 4: Yeah, you have to.

1206
00:58:16,360 --> 00:58:17,520
Speaker 1: You gotta.

1207
00:58:18,680 --> 00:58:23,280
Speaker 4: Right now. So that's our advice.

1208
00:58:24,480 --> 00:58:28,800
Speaker 1: We hope it helped. Seriously, we're wrapping this up because

1209
00:58:29,040 --> 00:58:30,960
Speaker 1: I got a pack for three weeks. She's a pack

1210
00:58:31,040 --> 00:58:33,320
Speaker 1: for a three week trip. We're trying to go out tonight.

1211
00:58:33,640 --> 00:58:36,200
Speaker 4: Go to dentist to be somewhere in one hour.

1212
00:58:36,320 --> 00:58:38,920
Speaker 1: She hasn't packed the single clothing. We still need to

1213
00:58:38,960 --> 00:58:43,160
Speaker 1: smoke this blunt. I have to drop off Lorna get dressed.

1214
00:58:43,160 --> 00:58:45,280
Speaker 1: I don't even I don't know. I don't know what's

1215
00:58:45,280 --> 00:58:45,840
Speaker 1: about to happen.

1216
00:58:45,880 --> 00:58:48,160
Speaker 4: But you don't have to be there till later. I

1217
00:58:48,240 --> 00:58:49,680
Speaker 4: have him. Tried to be there early because I want

1218
00:58:49,680 --> 00:58:50,680
Speaker 4: to have dinner with him.

1219
00:58:51,440 --> 00:58:53,400
Speaker 1: I'm going to dinner too, but not at your time.

1220
00:58:53,640 --> 00:58:55,400
Speaker 4: Okay, yeah, you're going another dinner. You're going to your

1221
00:58:55,640 --> 00:58:57,680
Speaker 4: your fancy dinner.

1222
00:58:57,760 --> 00:58:58,920
Speaker 1: Yeah, fifteen minutes after you.

1223
00:58:59,080 --> 00:59:01,040
Speaker 4: Oh yeah, gotta on it. We got because you know,

1224
00:59:01,080 --> 00:59:01,800
Speaker 4: Katana don't play.

1225
00:59:02,720 --> 00:59:05,000
Speaker 1: That's true. The reservations they kick us out two weeks ago,

1226
00:59:05,040 --> 00:59:07,720
Speaker 1: I know, fuck them.

1227
00:59:07,800 --> 00:59:09,760
Speaker 4: Okay, yeah, you're going back again.

1228
00:59:11,400 --> 00:59:18,560
Speaker 1: I love the bombs crablegs. We sound super bougie. Anyway.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, can you follow me at watch Erica, but most

1250
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1251
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Speaker 1: Score Bad Choices. And we now started our finally our

1252
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Speaker 1: YouTube channel, and we'll have three videos as of today.

1253
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Speaker 5: And so these YouTube channels are lives and so literally

1254
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Speaker 5: you see from the big very beginning of us setting

1255
01:00:42,080 --> 01:00:44,920
Speaker 5: it up to ending it, and there's no time we

1256
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Speaker 5: do edit the podcast because the kids just are crazy.

1257
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Speaker 4: There's no cuts in.

1258
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Speaker 5: The in the live so you'll get all of the

1259
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Speaker 5: all the realness, all annoying shit.

1260
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Speaker 4: But anyway, have a wonderful week.

1261
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Speaker 1: We have a special guest next week for super Ball. Yeah,

1262
01:01:01,360 --> 01:01:03,080
Speaker 1: it's gonna be really good, so tune in.

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Speaker 2: Yeah bye, he said, a baby latified move A sending

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Speaker 2: my bedboy.

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Speaker 1: Woul wee Bey babies out good like sushi. As such

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Speaker 1: a beautiful.

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Speaker 2: Team, the one that count to three.

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Speaker 3: I know you kissed the

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Speaker 1: Sweetness swe