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Speaker 1: the episode. Hello, Hello, Hey, how are you.

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Speaker 2: I'm doing okay, I'm getting ready to go out right now.

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Speaker 2: I'm doing my makeup, which is very exciting. I can

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Speaker 2: just get into it. I guess I'm going to a

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Speaker 2: b d s M kink party tonight. It's anime semes

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Speaker 2: and I am going to get walked around on a

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Speaker 2: leach on.

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Speaker 1: It's a Sunday night. So don't you just do you

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Speaker 1: guys not have work tomorrow or you I do?

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Speaker 2: I work at six in the morning tomorrow, and I

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Speaker 2: worked this morning. I worked at Yeah, I work somewhere

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Speaker 2: that I probably shouldn't be going to a BDSM kink club.

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Speaker 2: So can I.

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Speaker 1: It's okay if you want to keep it under wraps,

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Speaker 1: But where is it you work where you add that

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Speaker 1: you probably shouldn't be going to a b DSM kink club.

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Speaker 2: I work at a place of worship. I work, Yes,

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Speaker 2: I do interesting now.

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Speaker 1: Look, I am of the opinion that you can have

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Speaker 1: both a relationship with God and enjoy kinky BDSM sex.

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Speaker 1: I don't think those two things are mutually exclusive.

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Speaker 2: See, and that's my thoughts exactly. But I just think

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Speaker 2: it's a little funny to be at church this morning.

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Speaker 2: I was like, I am, and then I'm getting ready,

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Speaker 2: like right now, I'm wearing like a latex in her

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Speaker 2: shelfheit and it's just like funny to go for my

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Speaker 1: To that, you know, now, is this something that you

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Speaker 1: have always been been interested in?

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Speaker 2: No? So kind of. Actually it's complicated because I was

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Speaker 2: in a relationship for a really long time, so I

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Speaker 2: broke up with him, I was like, fuck it, I'm

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Speaker 2: we dialed it back in and now we're going to

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Speaker 2: like safe events and safe things, and we're doing that

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Speaker 2: to just like explore. So I have not done this before,

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Speaker 2: leased not to this capacity, and it is new for me.

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Speaker 1: Now when you say when you say you the way

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Speaker 1: you said safe things, like were you going to stuff

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Speaker 1: that was unsafe? And if so, what made it unsafe? Oh?

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Speaker 2: Okay, So like last summer, I decided because we broke

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Speaker 2: Actually like, it's complicated about that because I didn't wind

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Speaker 2: on staff chat like a week later. I was like,

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Speaker 1: Watch there there goes. Yeah, once again to the rescue.

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Speaker 2: Honestly, yeah, it saved my life a few times.

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Speaker 1: But okay, so you uh so, I guess so you

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Speaker 1: and that was your version of a of an unsafe environment.

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Speaker 2: And I did. Sorry, I actually I did wind up

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Speaker 1: Well, well, I mean was it's uh I mean when

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Speaker 2: Yeah. Yeah, yeah, it was really cool. But I did

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Speaker 1: So now, how did you start getting into these uh,

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Speaker 2: So I have a friend who was working as a

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Speaker 2: And and I guess when he was a striper, he

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Speaker 1: And how many how many of these events have you

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Speaker 2: Oh god, I've been to so many. I've been to

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Speaker 2: then I've been to two or three like kinky clubs,

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Speaker 2: and they're all like different pop ups, so those are

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Speaker 2: pretty cool. But this is the first time I've run

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Speaker 1: And is this Are these events adding joy and value

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Speaker 2: I think that adding human experience, Like it sounds so crazy,

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Speaker 2: but I really love trying new things and going out

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Speaker 2: I would say yes, but also not.

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Speaker 1: Directly, you know, it is interesting, so like fundamental to

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Speaker 2: Exactly. And I think about that probably a lot more

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Speaker 2: like different perspectives, I was so scared to like I

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Speaker 1: You know, what did you learn from talking to your friends?

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Speaker 2: Oh? I think the biggest thing is that like everyone

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Speaker 2: And he was like, Yeah, sex is just the thing

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Speaker 3: Yeah, dude, you know, I I've been seeing a lot

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Speaker 3: of this these like TikTok videos of of like people

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Speaker 1: I don't feel like they're with all this stuff. I

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Speaker 1: And so for some people they're like, you know, I've

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Speaker 2: One hundred and like, I think it's really exciting to

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Speaker 2: I don't think I could see myself like having three

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Speaker 1: What's the what's the Christian deal? Are you Christian?

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Speaker 2: Oh? So I was raised Christian and then I did

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Speaker 2: sinning is now, I'm definitely agnostic, but I've been working

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Speaker 2: decide to be Christian with this job. So no, I'm

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Speaker 1: What do you exactly do for them?

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Speaker 2: I do a lot of things for them. I really

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Speaker 2: don't want to dox myself right now, but I do

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Speaker 2: a lot of their creative stuff.

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Speaker 1: I should I could say what kind of creative stuff,

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Speaker 2: Any creative management.

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Speaker 1: I do that, Okay, I like, do you like run

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Speaker 1: their Instagram or something? What would I mean? You don't

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Speaker 2: All sorts of things. I help with, presentations, I help

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Speaker 2: with I do help with social media. That's most of

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Speaker 2: what I do. I do a lot of like graphic

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Speaker 2: design for them, and I really like doing that. Like,

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Speaker 2: I am so grateful to have this job because I

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Speaker 2: work two jobs. I go to school full time, and

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Speaker 2: I like, I like this job a lot.

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Speaker 2: You know it's probably not, But where I would hide

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Speaker 1: That's not a good idea, I mean it is fun though.

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Speaker 2: Well, I actually did something similar to my old food

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Speaker 1: Have you ever seen this thing of how somebody hid

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Speaker 1: Now, what's your ultimate goal? What do you want to

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Speaker 4: Oh my gosh, do you.

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Speaker 1: Meet Is there a strong community aspect to this sex

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Speaker 2: So I'm going with my friend who is no longer

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Speaker 1: Well how much how much it cost to get in?

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Speaker 2: Well, my ticket was a little over one hundred dollars

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Speaker 2: and my outfit was about Yeah, my outfit was probably

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Speaker 2: about oh god, the two fifty and and then you

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Speaker 1: That is a that's an expensive sex dungeon. Geez? What

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Speaker 2: Oh god, I wish no, It's it's just a club

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Speaker 2: I followed them on Instagram. They're super cool. They've gotten

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Speaker 2: I did see some guy. I don't want to yuck

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Speaker 1: I went to, Oh, I I want you to I

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Speaker 1: You saying you don't yuck. This guy's young. You you preferencing,

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Speaker 2: How does he figure this out? That's what I want

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Speaker 2: and I was like, Hey, I went to this kinky

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Speaker 1: You know, I always it's five to talk to people

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Speaker 2: I feel like I kind of agree, and I think

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Speaker 2: I'm telling you that I'm going to this DS and

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Speaker 2: I've never my ex dexys this for like, god, almost

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Speaker 1: So before we go, what's the like, what is there?

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Speaker 1: I mean, you don't have to get as specific or

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Speaker 2: That is absolutely what I'm the most excited about, because

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Speaker 2: I've wanted to try that type of thing before, and

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Speaker 2: like the humiliation stuff, I think it is really really

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Speaker 2: I've always been kind of into it and so I'm

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Speaker 1: Oh my god, I want to know. I want to know.

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Speaker 1: I want to go ahead, Fisher, you're gonna.

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Speaker 2: Say, Oh, I'm gonna say, I'm still only looking to

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Speaker 2: I'm just excited to have fun with the friends.

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Speaker 1: So you know, what do you want to know if

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Speaker 1: I love getting walked on in this sex dungeon. I

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Speaker 1: What do you think he would say? I'm just knowing

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Speaker 2: They're pretty accepting it is this point, and I think them.

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Speaker 2: have a problem with it. I really don't. I do

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Speaker 1: You know.

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Speaker 2: I'm not posting nude photos of myself online.

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Speaker 1: So all right, Well, I'm definitely going to go to

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Speaker 1: sounds very interesting. What did you did you read any

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Speaker 2: No? I just took a picture of it. This was

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Speaker 1: Yes, sounds like you have a very very busy schedule.

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Speaker 2: Absolutely, I am going to see you in La.

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Speaker 1: Oh you're coming to see me in La.

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Speaker 2: I'm coming to see you in La. I'm so excited

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Speaker 2: about it. I'm leaving class early to come to see you.

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Speaker 2: It's not your fault. I just wanted to I would

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Speaker 1: Beautiful. Well, thank thank you, Matt. Well are you were

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Speaker 1: I'm trying to think. I feel like we've I feel

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Speaker 1: They came on siring all this like spiky gear and stuff.

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Speaker 1: I was afraid that they were going to poke my

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Speaker 1: back a little bit. But uh, aman, there's anything else

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Speaker 2: Stred Love not hate, and uh do what's best for you.

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Speaker 2: So thank you. Have a good night, guys.

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Speaker 1: Thanks Amanda, have a good one. Yeah. I should have

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Speaker 1: Actually I was in. I was in uh Poor. I

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Speaker 1: It was san Fran. Yeah, I was. I was just

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Speaker 4: All right, next call Hardy howdy?

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Speaker 1: He's going, Yes, sir, is this Uh pork? That's a

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Speaker 1: great fake name. I love that pork. What's going on?

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Speaker 4: You know, just living the dreams? Sometimes it's someone else's dream,

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Speaker 4: but we're out here living. But yeah, but how are you?

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Speaker 4: It's so nice to hear your lovely voice.

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Speaker 1: Uh, it's good to hear yours too, Man, what does

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Speaker 4: So my entire life have been called pork chop by

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Speaker 4: it's just pork chops. So there's not really an origin

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Speaker 1: Well, pork. It says here that you called in because

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Speaker 4: I mean yeah. You know, I don't really talk to

437
00:23:06,240 --> 00:23:09,040
Speaker 4: many people about it because it's kind of obviously on

438
00:23:09,080 --> 00:23:12,840
Speaker 4: the more embarrassing side. But I guess, I guess you

439
00:23:12,840 --> 00:23:14,520
Speaker 4: could say my whole life, I've had a bit of

440
00:23:14,520 --> 00:23:19,720
Speaker 4: an issue with impulse control, whether that be like spending

441
00:23:19,760 --> 00:23:23,360
Speaker 4: money like an ass, just wanting to get things done

442
00:23:23,440 --> 00:23:27,760
Speaker 4: as soon as possible, getting as high as I can

443
00:23:27,960 --> 00:23:32,399
Speaker 4: as quick as I can with no issues. For a

444
00:23:32,440 --> 00:23:37,320
Speaker 4: while there, I was using pharmaceuticals like a lot of

445
00:23:37,359 --> 00:23:40,880
Speaker 4: people our age tend to do, and I had an

446
00:23:40,920 --> 00:23:46,240
Speaker 4: amazing girlfriend who gave me everything I wanted. It was

447
00:23:46,320 --> 00:23:50,000
Speaker 4: never hard on me about doing drugs, and I think

448
00:23:50,080 --> 00:23:53,000
Speaker 4: it got to the point to where I let, I

449
00:23:53,000 --> 00:23:56,119
Speaker 4: guess you could say, sexual urges get the best of me,

450
00:23:56,960 --> 00:24:00,760
Speaker 4: and like I was saying, with the impulse control. Around

451
00:24:00,840 --> 00:24:03,840
Speaker 4: last year, around Christmas time, when I got my Christmas

452
00:24:03,840 --> 00:24:08,639
Speaker 4: bonus from work, I did a little bit of a quick,

453
00:24:08,800 --> 00:24:15,320
Speaker 4: provocative wrong thinking and I slept with a lady of

454
00:24:15,359 --> 00:24:20,440
Speaker 4: the evening, and to make it worse as the time

455
00:24:20,480 --> 00:24:24,960
Speaker 4: went on. Within the coming months afterwards, I did it again.

456
00:24:26,080 --> 00:24:29,120
Speaker 4: And you know, I love my girl. I know how

457
00:24:29,119 --> 00:24:31,960
Speaker 4: you feel about people going through each other's phones. I've

458
00:24:32,000 --> 00:24:34,879
Speaker 4: never been one to hide things, so I never really cared,

459
00:24:35,920 --> 00:24:40,640
Speaker 4: but I never deleted any any proof of what I did.

460
00:24:40,800 --> 00:24:45,440
Speaker 4: And she found out, and you know, I broke her

461
00:24:45,520 --> 00:24:49,520
Speaker 4: trust and whatnot. But she stuck around for a little bit,

462
00:24:49,840 --> 00:24:54,159
Speaker 4: and now it's to the point to where she's in

463
00:24:54,240 --> 00:24:57,240
Speaker 4: my life bare minimum, I guess more or less because

464
00:24:57,280 --> 00:25:00,359
Speaker 4: she gets worried about me. But I think I'm just

465
00:25:00,440 --> 00:25:03,840
Speaker 4: having a lot of troubles with dealing with being by

466
00:25:03,960 --> 00:25:07,920
Speaker 4: myself again, like more than normal. And I can't care

467
00:25:08,000 --> 00:25:11,359
Speaker 4: to put my finger on it, like how to feel,

468
00:25:11,400 --> 00:25:14,080
Speaker 4: because there's a whole lot of guilt. There's a lot

469
00:25:14,080 --> 00:25:17,719
Speaker 4: of like obviously sad because we're not together, but I

470
00:25:17,760 --> 00:25:22,280
Speaker 4: think I'm angry at myself and obviously you can only

471
00:25:22,320 --> 00:25:26,200
Speaker 4: go up if you're so down low. But you get

472
00:25:26,240 --> 00:25:27,480
Speaker 4: what I mean, I hope for.

473
00:25:29,400 --> 00:25:31,280
Speaker 1: Now. Okay, So you didn't tell her you were going

474
00:25:31,320 --> 00:25:34,600
Speaker 1: to see the prostitutes. It was a sneaky visit.

475
00:25:36,080 --> 00:25:38,679
Speaker 4: Of course. It was like, oh, I have the money,

476
00:25:38,760 --> 00:25:40,960
Speaker 4: I'm on the internet. I used to work at a

477
00:25:40,960 --> 00:25:44,520
Speaker 4: gas station out by the airport in Saint Louis, and

478
00:25:44,600 --> 00:25:47,520
Speaker 4: there's a lot of ladies of the evening that would

479
00:25:47,520 --> 00:25:51,520
Speaker 4: be frequent there. So I've never in my life ever

480
00:25:51,640 --> 00:25:54,919
Speaker 4: known where you go to look for that kind of

481
00:25:55,040 --> 00:25:57,720
Speaker 4: thing other than just someone asking you on the street

482
00:25:57,720 --> 00:26:00,520
Speaker 4: corner like in the movies. But I learned learned about

483
00:26:00,560 --> 00:26:05,359
Speaker 4: this magical website where there it was a Schmortas board

484
00:26:05,520 --> 00:26:12,400
Speaker 4: of very less than i'd call beautiful women offering themselves up.

485
00:26:13,240 --> 00:26:15,040
Speaker 4: And it's always kind of been in the back of

486
00:26:15,080 --> 00:26:17,960
Speaker 4: my head. I'm a lonely man, you know, it's very

487
00:26:18,040 --> 00:26:20,199
Speaker 4: rare that a woman comes around in my life that

488
00:26:20,320 --> 00:26:24,600
Speaker 4: I really feel like is either worth the time or

489
00:26:24,680 --> 00:26:28,600
Speaker 4: there really about me. So, you know, I never really

490
00:26:28,640 --> 00:26:32,240
Speaker 4: thought about it. But then I guess I almost want

491
00:26:32,240 --> 00:26:34,760
Speaker 4: to say it was cockiness, like I have everything I

492
00:26:34,760 --> 00:26:37,120
Speaker 4: want right now. I got money, I got my own place,

493
00:26:37,840 --> 00:26:41,800
Speaker 4: I got a beautiful girl, Like what else would someone

494
00:26:41,920 --> 00:26:44,760
Speaker 4: with not I'm not trying to say I'm made of money,

495
00:26:44,800 --> 00:26:47,560
Speaker 4: but what else do I do with this extra money?

496
00:26:47,760 --> 00:26:51,880
Speaker 4: You know what I mean? And I let my second

497
00:26:52,119 --> 00:26:53,960
Speaker 4: head do the thinking, you know what I mean?

498
00:26:55,520 --> 00:27:00,879
Speaker 1: So how long ago was it that you your girlfriend

499
00:27:00,960 --> 00:27:03,640
Speaker 1: found out about this?

500
00:27:03,640 --> 00:27:05,639
Speaker 4: This was like and this is going to make me

501
00:27:05,720 --> 00:27:09,040
Speaker 4: sound horrible, I'm just saying it. Throwing it out there.

502
00:27:09,160 --> 00:27:13,800
Speaker 4: It was like directly after Christmas, like right before Christmas,

503
00:27:14,240 --> 00:27:18,960
Speaker 4: so like Christmas we didn't go to yeah, twenty twenty two.

504
00:27:19,600 --> 00:27:23,919
Speaker 1: Yeah, And when she found out when you now the

505
00:27:23,920 --> 00:27:25,840
Speaker 1: way you phrased it, where you were like, she's still

506
00:27:25,880 --> 00:27:28,720
Speaker 1: around because she cares about you. Does that you guys

507
00:27:28,760 --> 00:27:33,280
Speaker 1: are not still too dating, are you? But you are

508
00:27:33,320 --> 00:27:33,880
Speaker 1: in each other?

509
00:27:34,240 --> 00:27:38,840
Speaker 4: We we were for a while there and you know,

510
00:27:39,200 --> 00:27:41,920
Speaker 4: uh there she told me when we kind of got

511
00:27:41,960 --> 00:27:44,800
Speaker 4: back together that it's going to be hard for her.

512
00:27:45,359 --> 00:27:47,240
Speaker 4: She's gonna have nights where it's going to be something

513
00:27:47,280 --> 00:27:49,439
Speaker 4: all she can think about. It's going to be nights

514
00:27:49,480 --> 00:27:52,200
Speaker 4: where she's going to be able to brush it off.

515
00:27:52,440 --> 00:27:55,760
Speaker 4: But it just kept feeling like, and this isn't something

516
00:27:55,800 --> 00:27:57,720
Speaker 4: I guess you could say maybe part of me would

517
00:27:57,720 --> 00:27:59,959
Speaker 4: get annoyed with it, but not annoyed, but just like

518
00:28:00,000 --> 00:28:02,440
Speaker 4: I wish you would just stop. But there are the

519
00:28:02,600 --> 00:28:05,359
Speaker 4: nights where she would be really thinking about it just

520
00:28:05,440 --> 00:28:09,320
Speaker 4: kept going and it did never stop. And it kind

521
00:28:09,320 --> 00:28:12,560
Speaker 4: of got to the point to where she just, you know,

522
00:28:12,640 --> 00:28:14,760
Speaker 4: even though everything was kind of going good for the

523
00:28:14,840 --> 00:28:18,240
Speaker 4: last few weeks, she just kind of was like, I can't,

524
00:28:18,359 --> 00:28:19,840
Speaker 4: like I can't get it out of my head. I

525
00:28:19,880 --> 00:28:24,679
Speaker 4: don't I can't not like think about it now. The

526
00:28:24,760 --> 00:28:27,239
Speaker 4: thing is, even though she'll tell me that and she

527
00:28:27,240 --> 00:28:30,239
Speaker 4: doesn't want nothing to do with me, we still have

528
00:28:30,359 --> 00:28:34,000
Speaker 4: those moments where she's like, I miss you. I can't

529
00:28:34,040 --> 00:28:36,760
Speaker 4: not be around you. So like we'll spend the night together.

530
00:28:36,920 --> 00:28:40,800
Speaker 4: And it's not purely like sexual based or anything. It's

531
00:28:40,920 --> 00:28:44,520
Speaker 4: just we do have love for each other in our

532
00:28:44,560 --> 00:28:48,240
Speaker 4: heart and it's like we still enjoy the comfort.

533
00:28:49,600 --> 00:28:50,680
Speaker 1: How long were you guys together?

534
00:28:50,720 --> 00:28:56,360
Speaker 4: For less than a year? So that's something that I

535
00:28:56,400 --> 00:29:00,280
Speaker 4: try to remind myself. I guess whenever I get down

536
00:29:00,320 --> 00:29:02,200
Speaker 4: about it. But it was definitely less than a year,

537
00:29:03,280 --> 00:29:06,840
Speaker 4: like months, not like even close to a year. It's

538
00:29:06,880 --> 00:29:09,520
Speaker 4: coming up on a year if we were still together.

539
00:29:10,920 --> 00:29:14,480
Speaker 1: So are you? Are you still going out? And how

540
00:29:14,520 --> 00:29:17,440
Speaker 1: are you now with the drugs and the prostitutes as

541
00:29:17,480 --> 00:29:18,000
Speaker 1: of today?

542
00:29:20,920 --> 00:29:24,480
Speaker 4: I'm not gonna lie. When I get into bad headspaces,

543
00:29:24,560 --> 00:29:27,920
Speaker 4: I do kind of self indulge. I definitely like there

544
00:29:27,960 --> 00:29:30,160
Speaker 4: was a point in my life where I would go

545
00:29:30,320 --> 00:29:34,080
Speaker 4: out of my way to eat like fake xanax, you

546
00:29:34,120 --> 00:29:37,920
Speaker 4: know what I mean? Nowadays, I know why I probably

547
00:29:38,000 --> 00:29:40,000
Speaker 4: drink a little bit more than I ever have never

548
00:29:40,080 --> 00:29:43,280
Speaker 4: been a drinker. I don't really I'm not the kind

549
00:29:43,320 --> 00:29:45,680
Speaker 4: of person to go looking for drugs because you can't

550
00:29:45,720 --> 00:29:50,200
Speaker 4: trust drugs nowadays. But like, I don't know, I don't

551
00:29:50,240 --> 00:29:52,840
Speaker 4: really like I wouldn't say I'm actively looking for drugs

552
00:29:52,880 --> 00:29:55,640
Speaker 4: to try to soothe this, because it's not I know,

553
00:29:55,720 --> 00:29:58,760
Speaker 4: it's not going to get me anywhere further. I just

554
00:29:58,920 --> 00:30:01,200
Speaker 4: like I I've been one of those things where like

555
00:30:01,240 --> 00:30:03,080
Speaker 4: I kind of look back and looked at everything that

556
00:30:03,160 --> 00:30:05,040
Speaker 4: I just did, and I've just been kind of grossed

557
00:30:05,080 --> 00:30:08,600
Speaker 4: out by it, if that makes sense. Like I don't

558
00:30:08,720 --> 00:30:10,720
Speaker 4: like who I am. I don't like when I became.

559
00:30:11,320 --> 00:30:16,840
Speaker 1: Yeah, like the the impulsiveness.

560
00:30:16,000 --> 00:30:20,440
Speaker 4: Like so old you are, Yeah, I'm twenty six, just

561
00:30:20,480 --> 00:30:21,640
Speaker 4: turn twenty six.

562
00:30:21,720 --> 00:30:26,000
Speaker 1: Okay, we're around the same age. Has the impulsiveness been

563
00:30:26,200 --> 00:30:29,480
Speaker 1: a thing in your life for a while?

564
00:30:30,080 --> 00:30:33,440
Speaker 4: My whole life, my whole life, and even to like

565
00:30:33,480 --> 00:30:35,160
Speaker 4: when I say like my whole life, I mean like

566
00:30:35,320 --> 00:30:39,440
Speaker 4: small things like this is going to sound spoiled, rotten,

567
00:30:39,480 --> 00:30:42,400
Speaker 4: little shit of me, but like my I was an

568
00:30:42,440 --> 00:30:45,000
Speaker 4: only child growing up, so like, you know, if I

569
00:30:45,120 --> 00:30:48,320
Speaker 4: wanted this, I wanted that I would throw a temper

570
00:30:48,400 --> 00:30:50,680
Speaker 4: tantrum to my mom gave me a list of chores

571
00:30:50,720 --> 00:30:54,160
Speaker 4: so I can get what I wanted. If like, I'm

572
00:30:54,240 --> 00:30:57,880
Speaker 4: driving the car somewhere to get somewhere. It's not that

573
00:30:57,920 --> 00:31:00,000
Speaker 4: I have road rage, but like, don't get me wrong,

574
00:31:00,160 --> 00:31:02,600
Speaker 4: I need to get the hell around this car to

575
00:31:02,600 --> 00:31:07,440
Speaker 4: get where I'm going. When I only have like two

576
00:31:07,480 --> 00:31:09,720
Speaker 4: hundred bucks left in my account. As long as my

577
00:31:09,760 --> 00:31:11,680
Speaker 4: bills are paid and Mike, screw it, I'm going to

578
00:31:11,720 --> 00:31:13,960
Speaker 4: go buy the biggest bag of weed and then, like

579
00:31:14,600 --> 00:31:16,760
Speaker 4: you know, and this is funny because I've heard about

580
00:31:16,760 --> 00:31:19,680
Speaker 4: this on another stream, I'll go do the whole door

581
00:31:19,760 --> 00:31:24,880
Speaker 4: dash instacart, you know, snagging some food low key for free,

582
00:31:25,080 --> 00:31:28,320
Speaker 4: doing that whole scam from time to time. And that's

583
00:31:28,360 --> 00:31:30,520
Speaker 4: like how I eat, you know what I mean. Like

584
00:31:30,560 --> 00:31:33,440
Speaker 4: I've kind of a dirt bag whenever you think of it,

585
00:31:33,560 --> 00:31:37,000
Speaker 4: in a lot of aspects. I haven't really done as

586
00:31:37,040 --> 00:31:39,120
Speaker 4: much growing up as I felt like I need to.

587
00:31:39,800 --> 00:31:41,400
Speaker 4: And now I'm at a point to where I feel

588
00:31:41,400 --> 00:31:44,280
Speaker 4: like I need to start growing up being a grown man.

589
00:31:44,680 --> 00:31:47,120
Speaker 4: But I don't really like I have a good job.

590
00:31:47,200 --> 00:31:48,920
Speaker 4: I don't know where to go from here, you know,

591
00:31:48,960 --> 00:31:50,840
Speaker 4: what I mean, I'm kind of feel like I'm at

592
00:31:51,000 --> 00:31:51,840
Speaker 4: a stuck pace.

593
00:31:52,640 --> 00:31:59,760
Speaker 1: Let's talk real quick. So this whole thing happening with

594
00:31:59,880 --> 00:32:05,040
Speaker 1: your girlfriends and it's it's okay if if not, like,

595
00:32:05,760 --> 00:32:13,520
Speaker 1: did did it catalyze any desire or like actions towards

596
00:32:13,560 --> 00:32:17,040
Speaker 1: any change for you?

597
00:32:17,080 --> 00:32:17,760
Speaker 4: Any change?

598
00:32:17,800 --> 00:32:23,160
Speaker 1: What like? Did it did it catalyze a stronger desire

599
00:32:23,200 --> 00:32:27,600
Speaker 1: for you to like change your behavior work on your impulsiveness?

600
00:32:30,120 --> 00:32:33,160
Speaker 4: Yes. At first, when she called me the first time

601
00:32:33,720 --> 00:32:36,040
Speaker 4: she found out. The first time, I definitely was feeling

602
00:32:36,080 --> 00:32:37,880
Speaker 4: bad about it. I'm like, oh, I need to stop

603
00:32:37,960 --> 00:32:41,920
Speaker 4: being like this. But after the second time, there was

604
00:32:42,320 --> 00:32:45,880
Speaker 4: an large amount of guilt that I felt. Even after

605
00:32:45,960 --> 00:32:50,120
Speaker 4: I'm leaving the place that had happened, I'm like thinking

606
00:32:50,160 --> 00:32:52,600
Speaker 4: to myself, like, this is bad, this is gross. That

607
00:32:52,680 --> 00:32:55,240
Speaker 4: wasn't worth the money I just spent on it. The

608
00:32:55,280 --> 00:32:58,880
Speaker 4: woman wasn't even attractive. And then I sit back and

609
00:32:58,920 --> 00:33:02,120
Speaker 4: I look at it and it's just a whole Yes,

610
00:33:02,400 --> 00:33:04,600
Speaker 4: the answer is yes to your question, but it came

611
00:33:04,760 --> 00:33:08,440
Speaker 4: after the fact, and it's like I'm looking around at

612
00:33:08,440 --> 00:33:10,760
Speaker 4: all the little things about my life that I am

613
00:33:10,800 --> 00:33:13,400
Speaker 4: doing wrong, and it's just kind of piling up now,

614
00:33:14,120 --> 00:33:18,320
Speaker 4: so yes, it definitely had a hard negative effect on

615
00:33:18,400 --> 00:33:21,000
Speaker 4: the way I think about my impulsiveness.

616
00:33:21,560 --> 00:33:25,000
Speaker 1: Okay, so today, let me let me ask you this

617
00:33:27,360 --> 00:33:31,600
Speaker 1: the road ahead for you? Like, what do you what

618
00:33:31,640 --> 00:33:37,000
Speaker 1: do you desire? Like you're unhappy with who you are

619
00:33:37,160 --> 00:33:41,480
Speaker 1: right now? What would a better version of you look

620
00:33:41,640 --> 00:33:42,040
Speaker 1: like for you?

621
00:33:45,280 --> 00:33:48,560
Speaker 4: I think? And this sounds and I hate saying that

622
00:33:48,680 --> 00:33:53,400
Speaker 4: money is a make or break whether or not I'm happy,

623
00:33:53,680 --> 00:33:56,640
Speaker 4: But like the way I spend money in my impulsiveness

624
00:33:57,040 --> 00:34:01,360
Speaker 4: doesn't ever feel right in the moment. I love smoking

625
00:34:01,440 --> 00:34:04,160
Speaker 4: lead and smoking weeds since I was too young to

626
00:34:04,160 --> 00:34:07,080
Speaker 4: be smoking weed, and I'm at the point to where

627
00:34:07,120 --> 00:34:09,080
Speaker 4: I'm like, oh, I don't have weeds, and I'm not

628
00:34:09,120 --> 00:34:13,400
Speaker 4: going to be feeling good. I want myself to be

629
00:34:13,440 --> 00:34:17,279
Speaker 4: in a place where it's not that I necessarily, you know,

630
00:34:17,520 --> 00:34:20,319
Speaker 4: am I co completely? I'm sober, and you know, I'm

631
00:34:20,440 --> 00:34:22,960
Speaker 4: you know, reading the Bible every day to get myself

632
00:34:22,960 --> 00:34:26,880
Speaker 4: on track. But I just want to kind of appreciate

633
00:34:27,200 --> 00:34:30,759
Speaker 4: myself more because when I get like this and I

634
00:34:30,800 --> 00:34:33,920
Speaker 4: do things that are my own fault, it's like a

635
00:34:33,960 --> 00:34:36,359
Speaker 4: whole lot of hate and on myself. And I can

636
00:34:36,400 --> 00:34:38,520
Speaker 4: sit here all day long and tell you what it

637
00:34:38,600 --> 00:34:40,920
Speaker 4: is that I'm hating about myself. But when it boils

638
00:34:40,960 --> 00:34:43,239
Speaker 4: down to it, what am I going to do to

639
00:34:43,320 --> 00:34:47,040
Speaker 4: change it? You know? Wow, I can't give you gone?

640
00:34:47,600 --> 00:34:47,960
Speaker 1: Have you?

641
00:34:48,080 --> 00:34:48,359
Speaker 2: Have you?

642
00:34:49,880 --> 00:34:51,600
Speaker 1: I'm down to talk to you more about this. But

643
00:34:51,920 --> 00:34:53,600
Speaker 1: is this something you've talked to about a real Uh?

644
00:34:54,080 --> 00:34:56,080
Speaker 1: Is this something you've talked to a real therapist about?

645
00:34:57,320 --> 00:34:59,399
Speaker 4: Yes? Yes, I'm getting into it.

646
00:34:59,640 --> 00:35:01,600
Speaker 1: I what did they tell you?

647
00:35:01,800 --> 00:35:02,040
Speaker 2: Go on?

648
00:35:03,719 --> 00:35:07,359
Speaker 4: They're the The gentleman I'm speaking with is very old

649
00:35:07,360 --> 00:35:09,360
Speaker 4: school to the book, and he's just like, oh, you

650
00:35:09,640 --> 00:35:13,160
Speaker 4: alienate yourself from your girlfriend and leave leave that beat,

651
00:35:13,440 --> 00:35:15,520
Speaker 4: because that's the past. You can't go past from that.

652
00:35:16,080 --> 00:35:18,719
Speaker 4: But he's also very like, oh, you need to go

653
00:35:18,760 --> 00:35:21,240
Speaker 4: to bed on time. You need to try to set

654
00:35:22,080 --> 00:35:26,080
Speaker 4: more healthier schedules and routines for yourself, and you know,

655
00:35:26,280 --> 00:35:28,879
Speaker 4: like the most cliche things you could hear. And it's

656
00:35:28,920 --> 00:35:33,040
Speaker 4: not that I'm not saying that with unreceptiveness, because like

657
00:35:33,719 --> 00:35:36,879
Speaker 4: getting up in the morning, making sure my laundry is done,

658
00:35:37,400 --> 00:35:39,839
Speaker 4: going to work on time every day has literally been

659
00:35:39,840 --> 00:35:42,719
Speaker 4: the only thing keeping me going. So like, yes, I

660
00:35:42,760 --> 00:35:44,799
Speaker 4: can agree to it to an extent, but when it

661
00:35:44,840 --> 00:35:48,520
Speaker 4: boils down to it. It's like, I don't really I

662
00:35:48,600 --> 00:35:51,360
Speaker 4: just feel like I'm kind of like everyone else and

663
00:35:51,400 --> 00:35:54,400
Speaker 4: I'm kind of just like stuck in this this this

664
00:35:54,400 --> 00:35:56,640
Speaker 4: this midway of my life, and I don't know my

665
00:35:56,680 --> 00:35:58,960
Speaker 4: next step. I don't feel that I have much talent,

666
00:35:59,480 --> 00:36:01,359
Speaker 4: and I feel like the few things that they get

667
00:36:01,400 --> 00:36:04,000
Speaker 4: going for me that are good, or the one thing

668
00:36:04,040 --> 00:36:06,520
Speaker 4: that I had going for me was this amazing girl

669
00:36:06,640 --> 00:36:08,640
Speaker 4: that I could have gone the rest of my life with.

670
00:36:09,280 --> 00:36:09,759
Speaker 4: You know what I mean?

671
00:36:09,840 --> 00:36:11,560
Speaker 1: Let me let me let me a few things.

672
00:36:11,680 --> 00:36:11,839
Speaker 4: One.

673
00:36:11,880 --> 00:36:16,359
Speaker 1: I laughed when you said that your therapist was by

674
00:36:16,360 --> 00:36:19,120
Speaker 1: the books and was telling you to uh go to

675
00:36:19,200 --> 00:36:21,640
Speaker 1: sleep on time and do your laundry and stuff. I

676
00:36:21,719 --> 00:36:26,080
Speaker 1: laughed because, uh, dude, I went to see a therapist,

677
00:36:26,440 --> 00:36:28,640
Speaker 1: talked to him about a whole bunch of stuff, and

678
00:36:28,680 --> 00:36:32,680
Speaker 1: he fucking told me the exact same stuff. He was like,

679
00:36:32,840 --> 00:36:34,560
Speaker 1: I swear to God, the same thing happened to me. Dude.

680
00:36:34,560 --> 00:36:37,359
Speaker 1: He was like, he was like, you gotta go to sleep.

681
00:36:37,480 --> 00:36:38,880
Speaker 1: He was like, he was like, are you eating healthy?

682
00:36:38,880 --> 00:36:40,520
Speaker 1: I was like not at all. He's like, are you exciting?

683
00:36:40,520 --> 00:36:41,920
Speaker 1: I was like not all. He's like, are you sleeping?

684
00:36:41,960 --> 00:36:43,680
Speaker 1: I was like not at all. And he's like, well,

685
00:36:43,719 --> 00:36:45,520
Speaker 1: you got to do these things, and and I kind

686
00:36:45,560 --> 00:36:47,719
Speaker 1: of was like I was I was a little bit

687
00:36:48,920 --> 00:36:50,400
Speaker 1: back and forth on it because I was like, do

688
00:36:50,400 --> 00:36:53,400
Speaker 1: you not have anything else more esoteric to tell me?

689
00:36:53,480 --> 00:36:59,759
Speaker 1: But also but but also, well, fucking shit, maybe maybe

690
00:37:00,040 --> 00:37:02,359
Speaker 1: maybe doing all those things would solve a lot of

691
00:37:02,360 --> 00:37:04,440
Speaker 1: my problems. And to tell you, by the way, to

692
00:37:04,440 --> 00:37:06,240
Speaker 1: tell you, I've done none of those things. I'm still

693
00:37:06,280 --> 00:37:09,440
Speaker 1: I'm still very unhealthy, and I have more things I

694
00:37:09,440 --> 00:37:11,920
Speaker 1: want to say about your situation, But first, do you

695
00:37:11,960 --> 00:37:14,520
Speaker 1: did you do those things that he told you to do?

696
00:37:17,239 --> 00:37:20,520
Speaker 4: As much as I can. I've been doing my laundry.

697
00:37:20,600 --> 00:37:23,160
Speaker 4: My room has probably been the cleanest beIN it's been

698
00:37:23,360 --> 00:37:27,560
Speaker 4: since I was a child. I go to work every day.

699
00:37:27,560 --> 00:37:30,080
Speaker 4: I don't be calling off anymore. I don't go to

700
00:37:30,120 --> 00:37:33,720
Speaker 4: work every morning with uh all this is gonna fucking suck.

701
00:37:33,840 --> 00:37:36,319
Speaker 4: I go to work with at least you're getting your

702
00:37:36,400 --> 00:37:41,040
Speaker 4: job done. I The sleep thing has actually been kind

703
00:37:41,120 --> 00:37:44,520
Speaker 4: of bad. I've been having a little bit of trouble

704
00:37:44,640 --> 00:37:49,239
Speaker 4: sleeping and keep having that nightmares. But like I keep

705
00:37:49,280 --> 00:37:52,239
Speaker 4: having dreams that like I can't help or save my

706
00:37:52,400 --> 00:37:56,880
Speaker 4: ex or that like, I'm in a really uncomfortable situation

707
00:37:57,040 --> 00:37:58,600
Speaker 4: that has nothing to do with my life.

708
00:37:58,719 --> 00:37:59,960
Speaker 1: I want to say. I want to say a few

709
00:38:00,160 --> 00:38:03,439
Speaker 1: a few more things too. First of all, I think,

710
00:38:04,200 --> 00:38:06,080
Speaker 1: and I'm a hypocrite for telling you to do this

711
00:38:06,160 --> 00:38:08,919
Speaker 1: because I you haven't done it, but you should listen

712
00:38:08,960 --> 00:38:12,160
Speaker 1: to your therapist, and like, don't I wouldn't rebuff. Don't

713
00:38:12,160 --> 00:38:15,680
Speaker 1: rebuff what he's telling you. I'm speaking to myself. Don't

714
00:38:15,719 --> 00:38:18,759
Speaker 1: rebuff what he's telling you until you've actually done it,

715
00:38:19,120 --> 00:38:22,960
Speaker 1: because chances are it will make you feel a lot better.

716
00:38:23,320 --> 00:38:25,520
Speaker 1: And then second thing is like the way that you

717
00:38:25,920 --> 00:38:28,480
Speaker 1: just just the way that you told me I don't

718
00:38:28,480 --> 00:38:32,400
Speaker 1: have anything going for me except for for my girlfriend.

719
00:38:32,840 --> 00:38:35,360
Speaker 1: Is like, and I've said this a bunch of times

720
00:38:35,360 --> 00:38:38,319
Speaker 1: and I've thought really hard about it, is like if

721
00:38:38,360 --> 00:38:42,040
Speaker 1: the only thing keeping you in business upstairs in your

722
00:38:42,080 --> 00:38:50,319
Speaker 1: brain is like a relationship, you know, you're you're fucking yourself, man. Like,

723
00:38:50,360 --> 00:38:52,240
Speaker 1: you got to have things in your in your life

724
00:38:52,280 --> 00:38:55,319
Speaker 1: that you that are just with that are within you,

725
00:38:56,000 --> 00:38:58,680
Speaker 1: that are making you feel confident and happy. And I

726
00:38:58,680 --> 00:39:00,440
Speaker 1: know that you're just beating the ship out of yourself

727
00:39:00,480 --> 00:39:04,279
Speaker 1: because you feel guilty about the way that you've been

728
00:39:04,440 --> 00:39:08,279
Speaker 1: in the past, and you but you're bro like we're

729
00:39:08,880 --> 00:39:10,480
Speaker 1: young guys.

730
00:39:10,480 --> 00:39:10,719
Speaker 4: Man.

731
00:39:10,960 --> 00:39:16,520
Speaker 1: You you you don't. You have several more decades of

732
00:39:16,560 --> 00:39:19,040
Speaker 1: life ahead of you, and I hope you realize that.

733
00:39:19,080 --> 00:39:21,080
Speaker 1: I hope you think about it every day. You have

734
00:39:21,160 --> 00:39:23,680
Speaker 1: several more decades of life ahead of you in which

735
00:39:24,080 --> 00:39:26,560
Speaker 1: to work on being the kind of person you want

736
00:39:26,560 --> 00:39:28,360
Speaker 1: to be. And even though it feels good to just

737
00:39:28,400 --> 00:39:31,040
Speaker 1: beat the ship out of yourself, you're not gonna get

738
00:39:31,080 --> 00:39:34,960
Speaker 1: there if you keep doing that. So I I understand

739
00:39:34,960 --> 00:39:37,279
Speaker 1: the natural impulse of beating the ship at yourself, like

740
00:39:37,600 --> 00:39:41,319
Speaker 1: I do it too, But I just hope you understand

741
00:39:42,239 --> 00:39:46,960
Speaker 1: that you're not gonna that's a it's a it's a

742
00:39:47,000 --> 00:39:49,879
Speaker 1: bottomless hole. It's a bottomless, unproductive hole to just keep

743
00:39:49,920 --> 00:39:52,480
Speaker 1: beating the ship. I think there's a lot to be

744
00:39:52,600 --> 00:39:59,279
Speaker 1: said in thinking deeply about what you've done and and

745
00:39:59,480 --> 00:40:03,000
Speaker 1: and the than you've been in the past and analyzing

746
00:40:03,040 --> 00:40:05,279
Speaker 1: those things in a productive way to make sure that

747
00:40:05,320 --> 00:40:08,279
Speaker 1: you don't do them in the future. But like it,

748
00:40:08,440 --> 00:40:11,880
Speaker 1: do it productively, you know, I acknowledge the things that

749
00:40:11,920 --> 00:40:13,719
Speaker 1: you did wrong, and acknowledge the things about yourself that

750
00:40:13,760 --> 00:40:17,680
Speaker 1: you don't like. And then instead of just gathering it

751
00:40:17,680 --> 00:40:20,600
Speaker 1: as information to build a case against yourself of how

752
00:40:20,640 --> 00:40:23,200
Speaker 1: much of a piece of shit you are, gather it

753
00:40:23,320 --> 00:40:28,560
Speaker 1: as as information to help you move forward. Because you're

754
00:40:28,600 --> 00:40:32,040
Speaker 1: only You're a young guy. You shouldn't just throw yourself

755
00:40:32,480 --> 00:40:35,600
Speaker 1: away like that, and your therapist telling you to alienate

756
00:40:35,640 --> 00:40:38,279
Speaker 1: yourself from the girl. I don't know. I don't want

757
00:40:38,320 --> 00:40:41,879
Speaker 1: to tell you what to do or what not to do,

758
00:40:42,000 --> 00:40:45,040
Speaker 1: but it does kind of sound like for both of

759
00:40:45,080 --> 00:40:51,360
Speaker 1: your guys' sake, that's not the worst idea. Probably bad, yeah,

760
00:40:51,400 --> 00:40:54,000
Speaker 1: but don't look like But dude, don't look at it like, oh,

761
00:40:54,040 --> 00:40:55,719
Speaker 1: I've lost the only thing in my life that will

762
00:40:55,719 --> 00:40:58,160
Speaker 1: ever matter to me ever, because I'm such a piece

763
00:40:58,160 --> 00:41:01,319
Speaker 1: of shit. You you can do somebody things, You can

764
00:41:01,360 --> 00:41:03,480
Speaker 1: do so many things. What what is your what's your job?

765
00:41:03,560 --> 00:41:04,879
Speaker 1: Right now? You said you have a high paying job.

766
00:41:04,920 --> 00:41:05,439
Speaker 1: What's your job?

767
00:41:07,320 --> 00:41:10,200
Speaker 4: You literally talked to somebody who does this before, and

768
00:41:10,239 --> 00:41:12,640
Speaker 4: you hated the phone call. It's I killed bugs for

769
00:41:12,719 --> 00:41:14,680
Speaker 4: a living, but I promised I don't care about the

770
00:41:14,760 --> 00:41:16,040
Speaker 4: environment as hard as he does.

771
00:41:16,440 --> 00:41:18,080
Speaker 1: I don't. I don't. I didn't hate him because he

772
00:41:18,120 --> 00:41:19,919
Speaker 1: cared about the environment. I hated him, I think because

773
00:41:19,920 --> 00:41:20,560
Speaker 1: I was trying.

774
00:41:20,320 --> 00:41:21,239
Speaker 4: To you know what I mean?

775
00:41:21,280 --> 00:41:26,000
Speaker 1: He was, Okay, do you what do you outside? What

776
00:41:26,040 --> 00:41:27,560
Speaker 1: do you want to do with your life?

777
00:41:27,640 --> 00:41:27,839
Speaker 4: Man?

778
00:41:28,040 --> 00:41:29,440
Speaker 1: Like? What? What?

779
00:41:29,440 --> 00:41:30,200
Speaker 2: What?

780
00:41:30,239 --> 00:41:30,680
Speaker 1: Excitement?

781
00:41:31,280 --> 00:41:35,640
Speaker 4: Fly that? When I when I was younger, I wanted

782
00:41:35,800 --> 00:41:40,680
Speaker 4: to and it sounds so, you know, postmillennial of me,

783
00:41:40,719 --> 00:41:42,560
Speaker 4: but I wanted to make a clothing rand when I

784
00:41:42,600 --> 00:41:45,240
Speaker 4: was younger. I also when I was in high school,

785
00:41:45,239 --> 00:41:47,919
Speaker 4: I wanted to do computers. But right out of high

786
00:41:48,040 --> 00:41:49,959
Speaker 4: that was like I decided I was like the main

787
00:41:50,040 --> 00:41:51,719
Speaker 4: thing I wanted to do, and right out of high

788
00:41:51,719 --> 00:41:54,960
Speaker 4: school I got all these certifications, but then I fucked

789
00:41:55,000 --> 00:41:57,279
Speaker 4: off for three years. And then as soon as I

790
00:41:57,320 --> 00:41:59,920
Speaker 4: went back to try to get back into computers, things

791
00:42:00,160 --> 00:42:03,719
Speaker 4: change so rapidly that it's like, wow, I have to

792
00:42:03,840 --> 00:42:06,360
Speaker 4: kind of start from the drawing board. And then on

793
00:42:06,440 --> 00:42:09,440
Speaker 4: top of that, I've worked in office jobs before right

794
00:42:09,480 --> 00:42:14,000
Speaker 4: out of high school, and it's miserable and like I

795
00:42:14,280 --> 00:42:17,000
Speaker 4: sounds like everyone else our age, but like I don't

796
00:42:17,000 --> 00:42:20,160
Speaker 4: know what to do. I collect Pokemon cards like a

797
00:42:20,200 --> 00:42:23,280
Speaker 4: fucking child, and I have the coolest collection Pokemon cards.

798
00:42:23,280 --> 00:42:24,800
Speaker 4: That's a great hobby.

799
00:42:25,120 --> 00:42:25,680
Speaker 1: I bet you do.

800
00:42:26,440 --> 00:42:30,600
Speaker 4: But but I can't sit here and like do anything

801
00:42:30,680 --> 00:42:33,440
Speaker 4: with that. I don't know like what I really want.

802
00:42:33,640 --> 00:42:37,000
Speaker 4: And I think that's hard all on its own. And

803
00:42:37,120 --> 00:42:39,799
Speaker 4: I promise you bringing up on this call, it's not

804
00:42:39,960 --> 00:42:42,799
Speaker 4: something that I kill myself over in my head every day.

805
00:42:43,280 --> 00:42:47,760
Speaker 4: But I definitely like, I feel like I am not lost,

806
00:42:47,760 --> 00:42:49,760
Speaker 4: but you know what I mean, just kind of confused.

807
00:42:49,840 --> 00:42:52,200
Speaker 1: Yeah, what's your name again?

808
00:42:52,239 --> 00:42:52,440
Speaker 3: Hold on?

809
00:42:52,480 --> 00:42:59,200
Speaker 1: It says it right here? Actually pork Okay, pork, pork, pork.

810
00:43:00,480 --> 00:43:04,200
Speaker 4: Mm hmm. I know I'm a I'm a hard one.

811
00:43:04,600 --> 00:43:07,440
Speaker 1: No no, no, no, no, no no, no, no no. I'm happy

812
00:43:07,440 --> 00:43:10,719
Speaker 1: to be talking about this this right now.

813
00:43:13,360 --> 00:43:13,759
Speaker 4: Mm hmm.

814
00:43:15,480 --> 00:43:19,200
Speaker 1: I would first of all, keep seeing the real therapist.

815
00:43:24,280 --> 00:43:28,880
Speaker 1: Don't if it's okay, it's good to analyze the past

816
00:43:28,960 --> 00:43:33,280
Speaker 1: and learn from it, but don't throw it in, don't

817
00:43:33,520 --> 00:43:37,440
Speaker 1: weaponize it against yourself on a daily basis.

818
00:43:38,080 --> 00:43:42,399
Speaker 4: And I think that that that's important. I think out

819
00:43:42,400 --> 00:43:44,680
Speaker 4: of And I know you're probably about to say something else,

820
00:43:44,719 --> 00:43:48,720
Speaker 4: but like I hear that obviously from a lot of people,

821
00:43:49,400 --> 00:43:51,799
Speaker 4: and I know it sounds very sand Boy of me,

822
00:43:52,040 --> 00:43:54,200
Speaker 4: but Lyle I listen to every day at work while

823
00:43:54,239 --> 00:43:57,279
Speaker 4: I kill bugs, and it means a lot to hear

824
00:43:57,360 --> 00:43:58,239
Speaker 4: that from you.

825
00:43:59,120 --> 00:44:01,560
Speaker 1: Thank you. I just you should know that I feel

826
00:44:01,560 --> 00:44:05,040
Speaker 1: it's like I'm right there killing the bugs with you,

827
00:44:05,120 --> 00:44:09,560
Speaker 1: and that makes me feel good. I had a ton

828
00:44:09,600 --> 00:44:12,960
Speaker 1: of ants infest my car recently. I deserved that.

829
00:44:13,040 --> 00:44:18,040
Speaker 4: I left. Leave a plate of borax, sugar and water

830
00:44:18,200 --> 00:44:20,040
Speaker 4: on the floor of your cars.

831
00:44:20,360 --> 00:44:21,640
Speaker 1: Leave it there over the place.

832
00:44:23,719 --> 00:44:25,360
Speaker 4: I know it sounds like the bug to get there

833
00:44:25,360 --> 00:44:29,040
Speaker 4: at the place with yeah pork.

834
00:44:31,160 --> 00:44:32,600
Speaker 1: You know, here's the thing I'm I don't I don't

835
00:44:32,600 --> 00:44:36,040
Speaker 1: think in the next two minutes, I'm going to uh

836
00:44:36,040 --> 00:44:40,280
Speaker 1: completely rewire your brain to be more optimistic about your life.

837
00:44:40,400 --> 00:44:41,719
Speaker 1: But that's what I hope for you.

838
00:44:42,680 --> 00:44:45,800
Speaker 4: Okay, So I'm gonna I'm gonna go into the next

839
00:44:45,840 --> 00:44:48,799
Speaker 4: week just with a smile on my face, and I'm

840
00:44:48,800 --> 00:44:50,880
Speaker 4: going to try my hardest not to beat on myself

841
00:44:51,120 --> 00:44:52,520
Speaker 4: because of this conversation.

842
00:44:53,080 --> 00:44:56,880
Speaker 1: Okay, okay, good trying not to be again, trying it

843
00:44:56,920 --> 00:44:59,440
Speaker 1: to beat it on yourself. Try to think about h

844
00:45:00,840 --> 00:45:03,160
Speaker 1: you know, I don't know. You said you want to

845
00:45:03,160 --> 00:45:05,279
Speaker 1: start a clothing company. You can do somebody this is

846
00:45:05,440 --> 00:45:06,880
Speaker 1: We're gonna go in circles here. But I just want

847
00:45:06,920 --> 00:45:09,400
Speaker 1: to know you could do so many things. Try to

848
00:45:09,440 --> 00:45:11,920
Speaker 1: do some ship that's not you know, get into another

849
00:45:12,360 --> 00:45:16,560
Speaker 1: relationship that that is beneficial of course to you, and

850
00:45:16,640 --> 00:45:20,959
Speaker 1: try not to, you know, throw yourself out when you're

851
00:45:21,280 --> 00:45:25,120
Speaker 1: still in in in what I believe to be your infancy.

852
00:45:25,440 --> 00:45:30,880
Speaker 4: Okay, I got you. I appreciate you, Lyle.

853
00:45:31,320 --> 00:45:38,960
Speaker 1: All right. Also, are you you're wearing a condom when

854
00:45:39,000 --> 00:45:40,280
Speaker 1: you're having sex with these prostitutes?

855
00:45:40,360 --> 00:45:47,799
Speaker 4: Right? Yes? Whatever said one hundred? In fact, when I did,

856
00:45:47,920 --> 00:45:50,360
Speaker 4: and I would buy a box and I would always

857
00:45:50,480 --> 00:45:52,839
Speaker 4: leave it there for whoever else came, because I don't

858
00:45:52,840 --> 00:45:54,560
Speaker 4: want no one to have no CDs.

859
00:45:55,280 --> 00:46:00,200
Speaker 1: Very gracious of you, the yes, all right, poor see

860
00:46:00,200 --> 00:46:01,440
Speaker 1: other people of the computer before we go.

861
00:46:03,120 --> 00:46:05,400
Speaker 4: I just want to tell the people of the computer

862
00:46:05,680 --> 00:46:08,960
Speaker 4: to buy your merch and don't take for granted what

863
00:46:09,120 --> 00:46:14,279
Speaker 4: you have. And you know, just I haven't read the

864
00:46:14,400 --> 00:46:16,320
Speaker 4: chat once since we've been on the phone. But please

865
00:46:16,360 --> 00:46:19,600
Speaker 4: don't be too mean to eat other people on the phone.

866
00:46:20,760 --> 00:46:24,520
Speaker 1: Uh you know what, pork Uh save save the money

867
00:46:24,520 --> 00:46:27,000
Speaker 1: you would spend on a T shirt and continue to

868
00:46:27,080 --> 00:46:28,440
Speaker 1: go see your real therapist.

869
00:46:31,040 --> 00:46:32,839
Speaker 4: I got your back. While you have a good night,

870
00:46:33,080 --> 00:46:33,640
Speaker 4: all right, man.

871
00:46:33,560 --> 00:46:36,799
Speaker 1: You too, take care you know, I'm trying to think

872
00:46:36,800 --> 00:46:42,759
Speaker 1: about what I think about that whole thing. I don't know.

873
00:46:42,880 --> 00:46:47,439
Speaker 1: I'm always I'm trying to be fucking optimistic the whole

874
00:46:47,560 --> 00:46:49,920
Speaker 1: here's the thing for that, for that girl's sake, the

875
00:46:50,000 --> 00:46:54,160
Speaker 1: girl that he was seeing. And I belive and I

876
00:46:54,440 --> 00:46:56,000
Speaker 1: by the way, I believe him when he said that

877
00:46:56,160 --> 00:47:01,920
Speaker 1: that girl still has feelings for him, because relationships are

878
00:47:02,080 --> 00:47:06,160
Speaker 1: they're fucking complicated like that. But it does seem as though,

879
00:47:07,360 --> 00:47:10,680
Speaker 1: and again I don't I'm not trying to tell other

880
00:47:10,719 --> 00:47:12,120
Speaker 1: people what to do, but it kind of seems as

881
00:47:12,160 --> 00:47:15,520
Speaker 1: though them spending time away from each other would be

882
00:47:16,360 --> 00:47:22,680
Speaker 1: best for all parties involved. And uh, I don't know.

883
00:47:22,760 --> 00:47:29,120
Speaker 1: I hope he I hope that Pork finds something to

884
00:47:29,320 --> 00:47:33,320
Speaker 1: do that fulfills him. That's why I don't know.

885
00:47:33,400 --> 00:47:33,600
Speaker 6: I don't.

886
00:47:33,920 --> 00:47:35,600
Speaker 1: I don't have answers for a lot of these things,

887
00:47:35,680 --> 00:47:39,880
Speaker 1: right because you're born, and then you can there's colors

888
00:47:39,960 --> 00:47:44,440
Speaker 1: and sounds, and then you die, and your gift as

889
00:47:44,480 --> 00:47:47,920
Speaker 1: a human being is that well, some of some of

890
00:47:48,040 --> 00:47:50,239
Speaker 1: us are lucky enough to have the agency in life

891
00:47:50,320 --> 00:47:53,160
Speaker 1: to decide what we're going to do, and that can

892
00:47:53,239 --> 00:47:56,560
Speaker 1: be a tough decision to navigate. I don't have the

893
00:47:56,600 --> 00:48:01,200
Speaker 1: answers for it, but you know Pokemon cards isn't a

894
00:48:01,239 --> 00:48:01,600
Speaker 1: bad one.

895
00:48:02,440 --> 00:48:02,680
Speaker 5: Hello.

896
00:48:05,080 --> 00:48:10,759
Speaker 1: Hello, Oh you're doing a bit? No, yeah you are.

897
00:48:12,840 --> 00:48:14,080
Speaker 2: I'm not doing a bit, sir.

898
00:48:14,239 --> 00:48:16,080
Speaker 4: I just want to talk to you about my business.

899
00:48:16,120 --> 00:48:17,640
Speaker 4: I want to see if you think it's a good idea.

900
00:48:17,680 --> 00:48:22,239
Speaker 4: All right, here's a business has told me that she

901
00:48:22,600 --> 00:48:24,560
Speaker 4: and human should be able to be able to be

902
00:48:24,640 --> 00:48:25,200
Speaker 4: brand together.

903
00:48:25,520 --> 00:48:27,120
Speaker 2: I want to have a human and sheep.

904
00:48:29,480 --> 00:48:31,719
Speaker 1: All right, So right now he's talking to himself. I

905
00:48:31,800 --> 00:48:35,319
Speaker 1: put him back in the queue. Let's see if he's still.

906
00:48:35,400 --> 00:48:41,759
Speaker 1: Let's see if hit the talk button again. Hello, brother,

907
00:48:41,920 --> 00:48:42,640
Speaker 1: I haven't left.

908
00:48:42,719 --> 00:48:45,600
Speaker 2: I need to talk about this business with you, all right, human.

909
00:48:45,520 --> 00:48:48,880
Speaker 1: And you're going to do shut up for two seconds?

910
00:48:48,880 --> 00:48:50,800
Speaker 1: Shut up for two seconds? Can I talk to you?

911
00:48:51,080 --> 00:48:51,520
Speaker 1: Let me talk?

912
00:48:53,920 --> 00:48:55,279
Speaker 4: I'm waiting, brother, all right.

913
00:48:56,040 --> 00:48:58,640
Speaker 1: You literally you have two options, because you're doing a

914
00:48:58,719 --> 00:49:04,000
Speaker 1: thing and we could talk. Your options that we could

915
00:49:04,040 --> 00:49:05,680
Speaker 1: talk with you not doing a bit, or we just

916
00:49:05,760 --> 00:49:08,040
Speaker 1: won't talk. Which would you rather do?

917
00:49:10,440 --> 00:49:14,960
Speaker 2: I would rather talk to you about my business of

918
00:49:15,120 --> 00:49:16,080
Speaker 2: having human.

919
00:49:15,920 --> 00:49:19,760
Speaker 4: And cheap hybrids. All right, now, Elon Musk.

920
00:49:19,680 --> 00:49:20,840
Speaker 2: Is investing in this business.

921
00:49:22,080 --> 00:49:23,879
Speaker 4: Yes, Elon musk.

922
00:49:24,040 --> 00:49:26,000
Speaker 2: We will invest in this business.

923
00:49:26,040 --> 00:49:28,799
Speaker 4: Brother, I'm telling you right now, all right now. We've

924
00:49:28,840 --> 00:49:32,480
Speaker 4: got women, we've got men, we've got transgender, We've.

925
00:49:32,360 --> 00:49:34,239
Speaker 2: Got everything up and down the board. But what we

926
00:49:34,360 --> 00:49:38,759
Speaker 2: don't have yet is an animal and human hybrids. Now,

927
00:49:38,880 --> 00:49:41,200
Speaker 2: think about how much we would save on food if

928
00:49:41,280 --> 00:49:44,120
Speaker 2: we have people just eating.

929
00:49:44,440 --> 00:49:45,880
Speaker 5: Weat and hay and b.

930
00:49:46,640 --> 00:49:52,560
Speaker 1: I don't care about this anymore. Let's move on. That

931
00:49:52,680 --> 00:49:55,560
Speaker 1: was a good voice. He could use that voice for

932
00:49:55,680 --> 00:49:59,560
Speaker 1: something better than that. Hello, folks, it is Lyle. I

933
00:50:00,000 --> 00:50:03,800
Speaker 1: just returned back from going all over Europe to do

934
00:50:03,960 --> 00:50:08,320
Speaker 1: live shows. And while I was there, I recorded several

935
00:50:08,520 --> 00:50:13,239
Speaker 1: interviews all around every bunch of different countries on the

936
00:50:13,360 --> 00:50:17,240
Speaker 1: street with people and I said words to those people

937
00:50:17,320 --> 00:50:21,520
Speaker 1: and it was cool, and I hate doing these intros. Basically,

938
00:50:22,760 --> 00:50:27,440
Speaker 1: this next section is a conversation that I had at

939
00:50:27,480 --> 00:50:33,080
Speaker 1: a park in Lisbon, Portugal with two young skater guys

940
00:50:33,760 --> 00:50:37,000
Speaker 1: and it was a really cool conversation and I learned

941
00:50:37,000 --> 00:50:40,160
Speaker 1: a little bit about Portugal and how they feel about

942
00:50:40,239 --> 00:50:43,520
Speaker 1: the US and how they feel about life. And it's

943
00:50:43,560 --> 00:50:46,600
Speaker 1: a nice conversation to round out all the phone calls

944
00:50:46,680 --> 00:50:50,719
Speaker 1: with some real life chit chats. So I hope that

945
00:50:50,800 --> 00:50:52,759
Speaker 1: you guys enjoy it, and if you do, you can

946
00:50:52,800 --> 00:50:55,840
Speaker 1: go to my YouTube channel YouTube dot com slash Lyle

947
00:50:55,960 --> 00:50:59,880
Speaker 1: forever and type in being a gecko in Lisbon, Portugal

948
00:51:00,360 --> 00:51:04,560
Speaker 1: to watch the whole thing. Okay, let's get let's transport

949
00:51:05,160 --> 00:51:09,320
Speaker 1: ourselves right now to the magical land of a park

950
00:51:10,000 --> 00:51:16,080
Speaker 1: in Portugal talking to some guys. Have a seat, sit

951
00:51:16,200 --> 00:51:20,920
Speaker 1: down here. We are here, we are We're here in Lisbon.

952
00:51:21,200 --> 00:51:21,359
Speaker 2: Yeah.

953
00:51:21,480 --> 00:51:22,080
Speaker 1: What's your name?

954
00:51:22,360 --> 00:51:23,360
Speaker 6: Spike? Spike?

955
00:51:24,080 --> 00:51:25,920
Speaker 1: Nice to meet you. Are you a skateboarder? You look

956
00:51:25,920 --> 00:51:26,680
Speaker 1: like a skateboarder.

957
00:51:27,080 --> 00:51:27,600
Speaker 6: Yeah, I am.

958
00:51:27,880 --> 00:51:30,800
Speaker 1: Okay, did you tell what can you do? Can you

959
00:51:30,880 --> 00:51:31,960
Speaker 1: do a tray flip?

960
00:51:33,040 --> 00:51:33,080
Speaker 6: No?

961
00:51:33,440 --> 00:51:34,360
Speaker 1: Can you do a kickflip?

962
00:51:34,600 --> 00:51:36,120
Speaker 6: I kind of suck, to be honest.

963
00:51:35,880 --> 00:51:37,640
Speaker 1: You kind of suck. Yeah, okay. How long you've been

964
00:51:37,640 --> 00:51:38,040
Speaker 1: skating for?

965
00:51:40,719 --> 00:51:43,440
Speaker 6: Like seriously for like three years?

966
00:51:43,680 --> 00:51:44,120
Speaker 1: Three years?

967
00:51:44,280 --> 00:51:44,480
Speaker 3: Yeah?

968
00:51:44,760 --> 00:51:48,920
Speaker 1: Okay? Nice? What is your dream in life to be

969
00:51:49,000 --> 00:51:50,640
Speaker 1: a professional skateboard person?

970
00:51:50,800 --> 00:51:54,120
Speaker 6: No, I'd like to be like a tattoo artist, a

971
00:51:54,200 --> 00:51:54,879
Speaker 6: tattoo artist.

972
00:51:55,000 --> 00:51:57,920
Speaker 1: Yeah, okay, what inspires your tattoo tattooery?

973
00:52:00,120 --> 00:52:02,520
Speaker 6: I don't know if you know like this artist. I

974
00:52:02,600 --> 00:52:10,719
Speaker 6: think she's from Denmark or Germany. She's called what's her name? Damn?

975
00:52:11,600 --> 00:52:13,240
Speaker 6: She has like some really cool drawings.

976
00:52:13,520 --> 00:52:14,960
Speaker 1: Your friend looks so high right now?

977
00:52:15,480 --> 00:52:16,319
Speaker 6: He is kind of high.

978
00:52:17,160 --> 00:52:22,600
Speaker 1: He was very high, okay, cool? Well like Portugal, Yeah yeah,

979
00:52:22,680 --> 00:52:24,920
Speaker 1: but I mean look this is we're here in California

980
00:52:24,960 --> 00:52:26,279
Speaker 1: where it's legal, so that's all good.

981
00:52:26,400 --> 00:52:27,719
Speaker 6: Oh yeah, California.

982
00:52:28,480 --> 00:52:31,600
Speaker 1: All right? So, uh what what kinds of stuff have

983
00:52:31,680 --> 00:52:33,920
Speaker 1: you been? Wait? What's the name of the artists?

984
00:52:34,880 --> 00:52:37,759
Speaker 6: Bowser? Yes, I remember, Okay, I know.

985
00:52:37,840 --> 00:52:40,160
Speaker 1: Bowser, but I know a different kind of Bowser from you.

986
00:52:40,320 --> 00:52:42,239
Speaker 1: Probably I'm talking about the turtle guy.

987
00:52:42,880 --> 00:52:46,120
Speaker 6: Uh not not him, the turtle, but he's also pretty cool.

988
00:52:46,960 --> 00:52:47,080
Speaker 1: Is he?

989
00:52:47,160 --> 00:52:47,560
Speaker 6: Your cousin?

990
00:52:47,920 --> 00:52:50,000
Speaker 1: Is Bowser my cousin? That's a going because we both

991
00:52:50,040 --> 00:52:52,800
Speaker 1: look like both green curtles both like. I wish Bowser

992
00:52:52,840 --> 00:52:54,360
Speaker 1: as my cousin. Man, he could get me a he

993
00:52:54,400 --> 00:52:56,680
Speaker 1: could get me in for free to his the Super

994
00:52:56,719 --> 00:52:59,920
Speaker 1: Mario World and Nintendo, but instead I got a you know,

995
00:53:00,560 --> 00:53:04,319
Speaker 1: talk to people. I gotta talk to people Lisbon at

996
00:53:04,360 --> 00:53:06,200
Speaker 1: all times. I wish I was at the Super Mario

997
00:53:06,320 --> 00:53:10,200
Speaker 1: World Universal but instead of in stupid Lisbon talking to

998
00:53:10,239 --> 00:53:16,040
Speaker 1: people about life. That's a good photo. What do you

999
00:53:16,080 --> 00:53:17,440
Speaker 1: think about all day. What are you what are your

1000
00:53:17,680 --> 00:53:19,680
Speaker 1: primary thoughts in life?

1001
00:53:20,880 --> 00:53:24,880
Speaker 6: Well, it depends on the day, but I think usually

1002
00:53:26,120 --> 00:53:27,720
Speaker 6: just getting home and smoking.

1003
00:53:27,760 --> 00:53:30,160
Speaker 1: You think about just getting home and smoking. Okay.

1004
00:53:30,400 --> 00:53:32,000
Speaker 6: Life in Portugal is pretty tiring.

1005
00:53:33,719 --> 00:53:34,400
Speaker 1: Hello, what's up?

1006
00:53:35,200 --> 00:53:36,040
Speaker 6: Yo? What's up?

1007
00:53:37,719 --> 00:53:38,160
Speaker 1: What's up?

1008
00:53:38,800 --> 00:53:38,960
Speaker 3: Yo?

1009
00:53:39,719 --> 00:53:43,920
Speaker 1: How you doing? I'm going, I'm gonna. What's your name? Yo?

1010
00:53:44,120 --> 00:53:44,960
Speaker 6: My name is Soda.

1011
00:53:45,600 --> 00:53:48,520
Speaker 1: What do you do? You live here in Portugal? Yes? Oh? Ship?

1012
00:53:48,600 --> 00:53:50,480
Speaker 1: What what are you doing here? Music?

1013
00:53:50,680 --> 00:53:50,839
Speaker 7: Man?

1014
00:53:51,080 --> 00:53:56,040
Speaker 1: While I'm trying nice, I'm talking to people about their

1015
00:53:56,200 --> 00:53:57,040
Speaker 1: hopes and dreams.

1016
00:54:00,800 --> 00:54:03,240
Speaker 6: Yeah, oh you guys know, Yeah, she's my classmate.

1017
00:54:03,440 --> 00:54:09,680
Speaker 1: Oh cool? Yeah, oh okay, cool. We're here. We're here

1018
00:54:09,960 --> 00:54:14,520
Speaker 1: talking to people in the streets about life. It is

1019
00:54:14,600 --> 00:54:17,760
Speaker 1: pretty sick. It is kind of Spike was saying about

1020
00:54:17,760 --> 00:54:19,800
Speaker 1: what they What do you talk about? What do you

1021
00:54:20,000 --> 00:54:23,360
Speaker 1: think about all day? Getting home, getting home and smoking?

1022
00:54:23,680 --> 00:54:25,840
Speaker 1: Do you have any aspirations outside of that though? Do

1023
00:54:25,920 --> 00:54:27,800
Speaker 1: you have like stuff you like? Well, you want to

1024
00:54:27,800 --> 00:54:29,719
Speaker 1: be a tattoo artist, you said, I like to write?

1025
00:54:29,800 --> 00:54:32,040
Speaker 1: And what do you what are you right about? What

1026
00:54:32,080 --> 00:54:34,399
Speaker 1: do you usually.

1027
00:54:36,040 --> 00:54:38,000
Speaker 6: Melancholic sad boy stuff?

1028
00:54:38,040 --> 00:54:40,200
Speaker 1: Melancholic sad boy stuff. What's making you sad?

1029
00:54:40,280 --> 00:54:40,440
Speaker 2: Though?

1030
00:54:44,680 --> 00:54:46,000
Speaker 1: I don't know. You don't have to talk about if

1031
00:54:46,000 --> 00:54:48,560
Speaker 1: you don't want to, But I don't know. It seems

1032
00:54:48,640 --> 00:54:50,839
Speaker 1: I mean, you have you have all these friends you got,

1033
00:54:52,719 --> 00:54:54,920
Speaker 1: you know, you you know how to do a kick flip.

1034
00:54:55,000 --> 00:54:59,279
Speaker 1: That's pretty great you have. I mean, like, I don't

1035
00:54:59,320 --> 00:55:01,600
Speaker 1: know you that, I don't you at all, But just

1036
00:55:01,640 --> 00:55:03,239
Speaker 1: from like the two seconds I've been talking to your

1037
00:55:03,239 --> 00:55:05,399
Speaker 1: life seems like I mean just I know, obviously things

1038
00:55:05,440 --> 00:55:08,360
Speaker 1: are different from how they appear, but you seem like

1039
00:55:08,440 --> 00:55:09,520
Speaker 1: you're you're living well.

1040
00:55:10,840 --> 00:55:14,120
Speaker 6: Sometimes depends on the day, honestly, how do you know this?

1041
00:55:14,480 --> 00:55:19,239
Speaker 1: Do you want to talk? Okay? Say Hi, what's up?

1042
00:55:22,440 --> 00:55:27,600
Speaker 1: What's what's what's here? I have a kneel down. I've

1043
00:55:27,600 --> 00:55:29,600
Speaker 1: been talked about to you guys. This is cool friendship.

1044
00:55:30,000 --> 00:55:31,520
Speaker 1: What what's what's your name?

1045
00:55:31,840 --> 00:55:32,319
Speaker 5: I'm said?

1046
00:55:32,360 --> 00:55:33,840
Speaker 1: You said, you said you.

1047
00:55:36,120 --> 00:55:37,239
Speaker 5: Almost there? Almost there?

1048
00:55:37,600 --> 00:55:40,920
Speaker 1: Yeah, okay cool? What's what should I know about Portugal

1049
00:55:41,080 --> 00:55:41,480
Speaker 1: being here?

1050
00:55:42,000 --> 00:55:42,120
Speaker 2: Uh?

1051
00:55:43,800 --> 00:55:46,919
Speaker 5: I don't know. Portugal is not a country for Portuguese people.

1052
00:55:47,480 --> 00:55:50,400
Speaker 7: There is a lot of stranger people and it's difficult

1053
00:55:50,440 --> 00:55:53,719
Speaker 7: to us to find Portuguese people.

1054
00:55:53,960 --> 00:55:55,680
Speaker 1: Yeah, I've been none of the people I've talked to

1055
00:55:55,680 --> 00:55:59,080
Speaker 1: you so far have been. I've been Portuguese, have all been?

1056
00:55:59,239 --> 00:56:01,959
Speaker 1: Uh uh from all over the place?

1057
00:56:02,280 --> 00:56:02,480
Speaker 3: Yeah?

1058
00:56:02,560 --> 00:56:03,000
Speaker 6: Yeah, yeah.

1059
00:56:03,520 --> 00:56:04,879
Speaker 1: What's what's your dream in life?

1060
00:56:05,560 --> 00:56:06,360
Speaker 5: Being an artist?

1061
00:56:06,680 --> 00:56:13,440
Speaker 1: Music artist, being an anarchist? Music music anarchist, because I

1062
00:56:13,480 --> 00:56:16,560
Speaker 1: talked to everybody here wants to be an anarchist. Let's

1063
00:56:16,600 --> 00:56:19,000
Speaker 1: say music? What kind of music?

1064
00:56:20,280 --> 00:56:23,240
Speaker 5: I sing? And I produce and play a bit guitar?

1065
00:56:23,360 --> 00:56:24,960
Speaker 1: Do you wrap it all? Hm?

1066
00:56:25,360 --> 00:56:26,080
Speaker 4: Do you do you rap?

1067
00:56:26,600 --> 00:56:30,520
Speaker 5: It's like irm b I I changed myself before and

1068
00:56:30,719 --> 00:56:31,520
Speaker 5: rapping and singing.

1069
00:56:31,640 --> 00:56:34,960
Speaker 1: Okay, what do you do? You want to spit anything

1070
00:56:35,040 --> 00:56:36,719
Speaker 1: for us? Do you want to sing anything for us?

1071
00:56:36,840 --> 00:56:37,160
Speaker 1: Right now?

1072
00:56:37,520 --> 00:56:40,840
Speaker 7: I have a song of mine, but I don't spike.

1073
00:56:41,320 --> 00:56:46,520
Speaker 7: I can show you after the the interview because I

1074
00:56:46,600 --> 00:56:48,560
Speaker 7: have it. I'm playing a video clip panting like that.

1075
00:56:48,719 --> 00:56:50,560
Speaker 1: Okay, cool. What's your what's you?

1076
00:56:50,680 --> 00:56:50,880
Speaker 2: What do you?

1077
00:56:51,040 --> 00:56:52,319
Speaker 1: What do you think about all day?

1078
00:56:53,440 --> 00:56:53,600
Speaker 4: Uh?

1079
00:56:54,080 --> 00:56:55,359
Speaker 5: What I think about all day?

1080
00:56:55,520 --> 00:56:56,600
Speaker 1: What do you think about all day?

1081
00:56:57,200 --> 00:57:01,800
Speaker 7: I think a bit of everything, but always about music

1082
00:57:01,920 --> 00:57:05,640
Speaker 7: and producing and playing guitar and writing.

1083
00:57:05,840 --> 00:57:07,160
Speaker 1: What inspires your music?

1084
00:57:08,840 --> 00:57:14,239
Speaker 7: My lifestyle inspribes me a lot because we are in

1085
00:57:14,400 --> 00:57:19,120
Speaker 7: a music course and producing a music course in school

1086
00:57:19,160 --> 00:57:23,720
Speaker 7: right here in Epy and a lot of already seen

1087
00:57:23,800 --> 00:57:27,840
Speaker 7: people and my family are always connected with music. And

1088
00:57:28,920 --> 00:57:32,240
Speaker 7: one day when I was said, I listened to music

1089
00:57:32,520 --> 00:57:36,760
Speaker 7: of a rapper here in Portugal and his name is Halloween, Alan,

1090
00:57:36,840 --> 00:57:41,040
Speaker 7: Halloween you have for me is the greatest of all

1091
00:57:41,160 --> 00:57:45,440
Speaker 7: time of your Portugal. But everyone have their opinion. But

1092
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Speaker 7: I started crying a lot with the music, with the feeling,

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00:57:50,120 --> 00:57:54,040
Speaker 7: and then I thinking to myself, I want to be

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Speaker 7: a music artist.

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Speaker 1: Oh so you want so so this Halloween guy, he

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00:57:59,320 --> 00:58:02,240
Speaker 1: inspired you, he made you cry, he made you feel emotional,

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00:58:02,800 --> 00:58:04,880
Speaker 1: and you you liked the way that his music made

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00:58:04,920 --> 00:58:06,080
Speaker 1: you feel, and you're like, I want to do that

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00:58:06,200 --> 00:58:10,160
Speaker 1: for other people. I want music that makes people cry. Okay,

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Speaker 1: I gotta check what do you have a SoundCloud or something.

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Speaker 5: I didn't put my song on the roads already because

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Speaker 5: I'm doing I was playing. I'm doing a project. It's

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00:58:22,760 --> 00:58:24,280
Speaker 5: like me and my cousin we sing.

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Speaker 4: We have.

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Speaker 7: A couple of songs but we didn't release. But the

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00:58:28,880 --> 00:58:33,400
Speaker 7: people are liking, are really liking. I already posted on

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00:58:33,640 --> 00:58:37,000
Speaker 7: Instagram and preview of the song, and.

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Speaker 5: After the the interview, I can show you if you want.

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Speaker 1: Okay, well, hmm, I'm trying to think. One of the questions,

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Speaker 1: do you guys have a lot of friends here in Portugal?

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Speaker 6: I think.

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Speaker 5: It's like people here in Portugal are always bad in

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00:59:01,600 --> 00:59:02,200
Speaker 5: a bad mood.

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Speaker 1: Really, is that true?

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00:59:03,680 --> 00:59:03,880
Speaker 5: Yeah?

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00:59:04,040 --> 00:59:05,760
Speaker 1: Why why are people always in a bad mood?

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Speaker 6: We are just I think most people are overworked, at

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Speaker 6: least the Portuguese.

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00:59:11,920 --> 00:59:15,840
Speaker 1: People overworked, so we're really grumpy. And do you guys

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Speaker 1: feel overworked?

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00:59:17,480 --> 00:59:20,120
Speaker 6: Oh yeah, of course yeah. And we don't even like

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00:59:20,560 --> 00:59:22,400
Speaker 6: have a proper job yet, we just go to school.

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Speaker 1: Okay, huh what how do how do people? I guess huh, I, well,

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Speaker 1: I guess that's why everyone. The one interesting thing about

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Speaker 1: Portugal is everybody's always drinking on the streets.

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Speaker 6: Like in the US, it's legal.

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00:59:35,680 --> 00:59:38,760
Speaker 1: There's no there's people. People See that guy right there,

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00:59:38,800 --> 00:59:41,360
Speaker 1: he's drinking a beer, he's having a good time. Yeah,

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00:59:41,400 --> 00:59:44,240
Speaker 1: you can go it's a cider. No it's not, but

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00:59:45,760 --> 00:59:51,560
Speaker 1: maybe it isn't. Oh okay, okay, Well see in America,

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00:59:51,600 --> 00:59:53,600
Speaker 1: if you drink on the streets, they'll tase you. But

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00:59:53,720 --> 00:59:56,480
Speaker 1: here everyone's you know, that's not true. You guys made

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00:59:56,880 --> 00:59:58,800
Speaker 1: you guys, You guys see even the face that you

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00:59:58,880 --> 01:00:00,800
Speaker 1: guys made when I said that was like, oh, is

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01:00:00,840 --> 01:00:02,640
Speaker 1: that really a thing that happens, And no, it's not.

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01:00:02,920 --> 01:00:04,160
Speaker 1: I mean, I mean, actually maybe it is.

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Speaker 3: I don't know.

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01:00:04,800 --> 01:00:06,479
Speaker 6: It depends on the state, depends on the stage.

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01:00:06,480 --> 01:00:08,000
Speaker 1: I think that's how I think people think that in

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Speaker 1: America just everyone's if you jaywalk, you get taste to death,

1141
01:00:11,480 --> 01:00:13,360
Speaker 1: which I don't know. That probably happens in some places,

1142
01:00:13,440 --> 01:00:18,760
Speaker 1: but man, but yeah, I don't know. I guess that's why,

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01:00:19,400 --> 01:00:21,160
Speaker 1: you know, people are trying to blow off steam. They're

1144
01:00:21,240 --> 01:00:24,160
Speaker 1: they're hanging out, they're living their lives there. Yeah, that's stuff.

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Speaker 6: Also why we drink so much. We are so overworked,

1146
01:00:29,200 --> 01:00:29,720
Speaker 6: and I.

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Speaker 5: Think it's kind of part of the cuture of our culture.

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Speaker 7: Every time you can see a Portuguese old guy, old

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01:00:37,560 --> 01:00:42,760
Speaker 7: old man Portuguese like have the that mustache and always

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01:00:42,800 --> 01:00:45,040
Speaker 7: with tiberia and a cigarette or drinking coffee.

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01:00:45,360 --> 01:00:49,360
Speaker 6: Yeah, every time, it's like the I know people in

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01:00:49,440 --> 01:00:52,640
Speaker 6: the US talk about it like the European lifestyle. Yeah,

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01:00:53,000 --> 01:00:55,320
Speaker 6: it really is like cigarettes and coffee.

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Speaker 1: Have you guys been to the US.

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Speaker 6: To the US never, but I have a lot of

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Speaker 6: friends from there.

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Speaker 1: Do you what's your opinion of the US, Like do

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01:01:05,560 --> 01:01:07,720
Speaker 1: you have any like what's your perception of what it's

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Speaker 1: like over there?

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Speaker 6: Well, mind you, we are like since we are like

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Speaker 6: literally in another continent, we are very fed by the media.

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Speaker 6: So mainly, I'll be honest, the division Europe has of

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Speaker 6: the US is that you guys are very fucking dumb. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,

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Speaker 6: like with geography or like maths. You guys, You guys suck.

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01:01:39,280 --> 01:01:41,840
Speaker 1: I don't know where I can't even point my own

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01:01:42,040 --> 01:01:44,560
Speaker 1: I don't even know where California is on a map. No,

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01:01:44,680 --> 01:01:46,360
Speaker 1: that's true, and that's not true. I do, I do,

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01:01:46,760 --> 01:01:48,440
Speaker 1: but I don't know. I actually, you know what I

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01:01:48,560 --> 01:01:51,000
Speaker 1: thought the other day, I was like, if I saw

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Speaker 1: a blank and I've been to almost every state, but

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Speaker 1: if I had to draw a map of America and

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Speaker 1: with all the states and ship I couldn't do it.

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01:02:02,000 --> 01:02:03,080
Speaker 1: But could you guys do that?

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Speaker 6: I've taken like quizzes online of like getting the states right,

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Speaker 6: but it depends on the state. There's some I know

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Speaker 6: like just by looking at them, but there's others because

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01:02:12,680 --> 01:02:15,040
Speaker 6: you guys shape the fucking states so.

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Speaker 1: Weirdly, Hey, I didn't do anything right, I don't. That

1179
01:02:18,880 --> 01:02:23,560
Speaker 1: was Joe Biden made the States. But uh, okay, so

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01:02:23,760 --> 01:02:27,960
Speaker 1: that we don't know geography, yeah, and that anything else.

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01:02:28,040 --> 01:02:31,120
Speaker 6: And that your political views are also like kind of

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Speaker 6: messed up.

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Speaker 1: I mean, yeah, there's some of that for sure, but

1184
01:02:35,240 --> 01:02:37,080
Speaker 1: in there aren't In there, aren't there messed up political

1185
01:02:37,200 --> 01:02:37,840
Speaker 1: views everywhere?

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Speaker 6: Yes, but in a sense that imagine like here in

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Speaker 6: Portugal we also have like far right people just like

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Speaker 6: you do in the US. But the differences in the US,

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Speaker 6: you guys are so like the liberty rights, like you

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Speaker 6: don't don't treat on me. Yeah, exactly, this the snake.

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01:02:59,000 --> 01:03:02,200
Speaker 1: That guy's my cousin act, he's a fellow reptile.

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Speaker 6: The problem is that you're so like about your own freedom,

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01:03:08,520 --> 01:03:12,080
Speaker 6: you start stepping over other people's freedom, you know. Yeah, sure,

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01:03:12,360 --> 01:03:14,520
Speaker 6: so it gets kind of clumpy and messy.

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01:03:15,080 --> 01:03:18,760
Speaker 1: Yeah, well I noticed, I've noticed that. I think, you know,

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Speaker 1: I've been around Europe like doing these interviews and stuff,

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01:03:21,000 --> 01:03:24,480
Speaker 1: and I think, uh, we definitely need a new PR

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Speaker 1: person for the US. It's not hot for you, it's

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Speaker 1: hot for me. Oh yeah. Oh well, actually this night

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01:03:33,120 --> 01:03:35,640
Speaker 1: we got a nice little bit of shade going out here.

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01:03:35,720 --> 01:03:40,120
Speaker 1: But before that, no, I wanted to die. What are

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Speaker 1: you guys' names again, Spike, it's been nice talking to you.

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Speaker 6: Guys.

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Speaker 1: Man, I think you achieve your dreams. I hope you

1205
01:03:46,320 --> 01:03:49,280
Speaker 1: become a tattoo artist, and I hope you, uh you know,

1206
01:03:49,600 --> 01:03:54,160
Speaker 1: are able to inspire people with your your music. I'm

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Speaker 1: glad youse. Guys seem like good friends. It seems like

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01:03:56,280 --> 01:03:58,760
Speaker 1: you and I know that you're making emo sad boy music.

1209
01:03:58,800 --> 01:04:00,120
Speaker 1: And here's what I Here's what I hope for you.

1210
01:04:00,320 --> 01:04:02,120
Speaker 1: Here's what I hope for you. I hope that your

1211
01:04:02,240 --> 01:04:06,760
Speaker 1: depression continues to exist just enough for you to write

1212
01:04:06,800 --> 01:04:09,240
Speaker 1: good music, but not enough to impede your daily life,

1213
01:04:09,240 --> 01:04:10,960
Speaker 1: because it seems like you got a lot of good

1214
01:04:11,000 --> 01:04:11,640
Speaker 1: stuff going on.

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Speaker 6: That's what I think about every time I wake up.

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01:04:13,840 --> 01:04:15,120
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you guys want to say to

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01:04:15,160 --> 01:04:16,360
Speaker 1: the people of the computer before we go?

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01:04:18,960 --> 01:04:20,920
Speaker 6: I only have one question for you. Where are the

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01:04:21,040 --> 01:04:26,240
Speaker 6: other ninety nine gigs? If you can answer that, that's okay.

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Speaker 1: What if I can't.

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01:04:30,320 --> 01:04:34,000
Speaker 6: If you can, I'm interested, Yeah, I'm pretty open to it.

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Speaker 1: Where are the other nine to nine gags? Yeah? Uh

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01:04:38,000 --> 01:04:42,280
Speaker 1: in my ass? Yo. Thank you guys for talking to

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Speaker 1: a geck. God bless you see guys around the universe, crazy,

1225
01:04:48,640 --> 01:04:52,120
Speaker 1: crazy time, crazy World. Shout out, Shout out one hundred gags,

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01:04:52,600 --> 01:05:03,760
Speaker 1: Shout out Portugal, shout out the universe. Yeah, praise uh,

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01:05:04,200 --> 01:05:07,760
Speaker 1: Praise the Lord and save for Jesus Christ. I gotta

1228
01:05:07,800 --> 01:05:09,720
Speaker 1: get better with my post call thoughts because I didn't

1229
01:05:09,720 --> 01:05:12,200
Speaker 1: really have any just now. But I'll see if anyone

1230
01:05:12,240 --> 01:05:12,880
Speaker 1: else wants to talk.

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Speaker 4: Week goes on.

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01:05:14,960 --> 01:05:18,440
Speaker 6: The line taking your phone calls every night every week,

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01:05:18,600 --> 01:05:20,640
Speaker 6: and goes to his life's teaching you.

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Speaker 1: A loud every life, but he's not ready. An expert