1 00:00:01,840 --> 00:00:04,840 Speaker 1: Hey guys, Welcome to this weekson episode the PSC Podcast 2 00:00:05,320 --> 00:00:07,960 Speaker 1: is sugarl eban A and I have yet another exciting 3 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:11,080 Speaker 1: episode for you guys. Before we begin, let's do a 4 00:00:11,080 --> 00:00:13,680 Speaker 1: lot of housekeeping. First, make sure you follow me on 5 00:00:13,720 --> 00:00:17,239 Speaker 1: all social media platforms at the Professional home Girl, at 6 00:00:17,239 --> 00:00:20,680 Speaker 1: the PSC podcast, and a ebanday Beauty. UM. Please make 7 00:00:20,720 --> 00:00:23,239 Speaker 1: sure to visit my websites at the Professional home Girl 8 00:00:23,320 --> 00:00:26,920 Speaker 1: dot com and at ebandae Beauty dot com. For those 9 00:00:26,960 --> 00:00:28,520 Speaker 1: of you that don't know how to start, my name 10 00:00:28,880 --> 00:00:32,720 Speaker 1: is E D O N E. 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Well? 21 00:01:16,319 --> 00:01:20,440 Speaker 1: To to begin, I was my aunt told me I 22 00:01:20,520 --> 00:01:23,880 Speaker 1: do everything, So why not try to get in a magazine? 23 00:01:24,640 --> 00:01:27,320 Speaker 1: But what do you mean by everything? Like I do 24 00:01:27,400 --> 00:01:30,000 Speaker 1: photo shoots, you know what I'm saying. I mean like 25 00:01:30,080 --> 00:01:33,200 Speaker 1: I'm not ashamed. I'm not you know, if I'm gonna do, 26 00:01:33,280 --> 00:01:36,160 Speaker 1: I do photo shoots. I had a stripper come to 27 00:01:36,280 --> 00:01:38,839 Speaker 1: my city and it was quite a few of them, 28 00:01:38,880 --> 00:01:41,120 Speaker 1: and I met him. We talked for a while. He 29 00:01:41,240 --> 00:01:44,640 Speaker 1: told me about camming and everything else. So I was like, 30 00:01:44,720 --> 00:01:46,399 Speaker 1: you know, I wasn't really ready for I didn't know 31 00:01:46,480 --> 00:01:48,760 Speaker 1: much about how you do camming or anything like that 32 00:01:48,800 --> 00:01:51,000 Speaker 1: at the time. So then he said, well, why don't 33 00:01:51,000 --> 00:01:52,880 Speaker 1: we do a photo shoot? So I did the photo shoot. 34 00:01:52,880 --> 00:01:56,120 Speaker 1: He gave me the photos back. It took like two 35 00:01:56,160 --> 00:01:58,480 Speaker 1: weeks or something. I forgot all about the photos. You know. 36 00:01:58,480 --> 00:02:00,720 Speaker 1: I was like, Okay, he just donet took the photos 37 00:02:00,720 --> 00:02:02,240 Speaker 1: and doing whatever he want to do with him, you 38 00:02:02,280 --> 00:02:04,600 Speaker 1: know what I mean. So finally, I guess because he 39 00:02:04,680 --> 00:02:06,840 Speaker 1: was in college also, but he was a male stripper, 40 00:02:07,320 --> 00:02:11,040 Speaker 1: and um, we did the photo shoot. I also in 41 00:02:11,040 --> 00:02:13,360 Speaker 1: the process of waiting for him to give me the 42 00:02:13,440 --> 00:02:19,359 Speaker 1: photos the photos back, I have begun a relationship with 43 00:02:19,440 --> 00:02:26,760 Speaker 1: one of my children's football coaches and he started talking 44 00:02:26,760 --> 00:02:31,680 Speaker 1: to me about the cammy thing. Wait, it is it's 45 00:02:31,720 --> 00:02:35,480 Speaker 1: like cam like you cam you talked to fans people 46 00:02:35,840 --> 00:02:39,919 Speaker 1: they like my free cam Streammates is different ones. It's 47 00:02:39,960 --> 00:02:43,880 Speaker 1: like it's a thousands upon thousands of cammy sites. So 48 00:02:44,120 --> 00:02:46,519 Speaker 1: there's there's things like cam models. That's what it's called 49 00:02:46,560 --> 00:02:49,720 Speaker 1: being a cam model. And there are male and female 50 00:02:49,760 --> 00:02:52,680 Speaker 1: cam models. You know what I'm saying. It's not just 51 00:02:52,760 --> 00:02:56,000 Speaker 1: for women. Some sites only cater to women. But then 52 00:02:56,040 --> 00:02:58,200 Speaker 1: you have a lot that you know, cater to both. 53 00:02:58,480 --> 00:03:01,040 Speaker 1: And you know, so you know, you can do it 54 00:03:01,120 --> 00:03:04,799 Speaker 1: with alone or with someone else, you know, but they 55 00:03:04,840 --> 00:03:07,960 Speaker 1: have to be a member. You know, I'm a member 56 00:03:07,960 --> 00:03:10,760 Speaker 1: of the site. You know, someone who's working for the site. 57 00:03:10,800 --> 00:03:13,400 Speaker 1: Like they have to have their W two's, and like 58 00:03:13,600 --> 00:03:17,000 Speaker 1: you pay taxes on all of this nothing yeah, everything, 59 00:03:17,080 --> 00:03:22,119 Speaker 1: we pay taxes on, you know. So but anyways, she, um, well, 60 00:03:22,360 --> 00:03:26,640 Speaker 1: you know, excuse me, the football coach. The he was 61 00:03:26,800 --> 00:03:30,000 Speaker 1: the assistant, let me get it straight, assistant football coach 62 00:03:30,400 --> 00:03:33,000 Speaker 1: of my daughter. Because my daughter was the first female 63 00:03:33,040 --> 00:03:36,600 Speaker 1: football player you know that's been here in my city. 64 00:03:36,720 --> 00:03:39,200 Speaker 1: So and she was you know for the kids leagues 65 00:03:39,240 --> 00:03:43,800 Speaker 1: and stuff. So um, me and him talked and he 66 00:03:43,880 --> 00:03:46,280 Speaker 1: was talking to me about you know, all of it 67 00:03:46,400 --> 00:03:49,640 Speaker 1: everything also, but the like I said, the stripper knew 68 00:03:49,680 --> 00:03:53,200 Speaker 1: had a little more deep detail. He knew more about it, 69 00:03:53,280 --> 00:03:56,160 Speaker 1: I guess because he had been involved in it. And 70 00:03:56,280 --> 00:04:01,040 Speaker 1: so at that point the football coach star it trying 71 00:04:01,080 --> 00:04:04,680 Speaker 1: to take pictures of me also, you know, he took 72 00:04:04,680 --> 00:04:07,840 Speaker 1: a couple, but his photography wasn't on point, not like 73 00:04:07,920 --> 00:04:14,600 Speaker 1: the definitely was it. Then he called it up doing 74 00:04:14,720 --> 00:04:17,960 Speaker 1: some little photos of me giving him head. You know, 75 00:04:18,120 --> 00:04:21,880 Speaker 1: I actually seen those photos and they are horrendous, you 76 00:04:21,880 --> 00:04:24,839 Speaker 1: know what I mean. They're horrendous. I actually have them 77 00:04:24,839 --> 00:04:27,640 Speaker 1: on my laptop and I never showed them to nobody 78 00:04:27,680 --> 00:04:30,520 Speaker 1: because they're gross. They just don't look right. I didn't 79 00:04:30,520 --> 00:04:34,640 Speaker 1: look right. My parents wasn't right. And it was in 80 00:04:34,720 --> 00:04:38,000 Speaker 1: between the me testing the waters on the type of 81 00:04:38,040 --> 00:04:42,600 Speaker 1: hairstyles and what was attractive to the audience, you know, 82 00:04:42,720 --> 00:04:45,800 Speaker 1: and when I compared it, like it's times where I've 83 00:04:45,800 --> 00:04:49,400 Speaker 1: put on a black wig and people were like, uh m, 84 00:04:51,120 --> 00:04:53,159 Speaker 1: pretty much. Yeah, I was doing all of that. So 85 00:04:53,440 --> 00:04:56,120 Speaker 1: with me doing all of that and my aunts saying, well, 86 00:04:56,120 --> 00:04:58,000 Speaker 1: you're doing all this, you're doing all of this. You 87 00:04:58,080 --> 00:05:00,120 Speaker 1: might as well try to get into a magazine, but 88 00:05:00,279 --> 00:05:03,359 Speaker 1: she never thought I'd take it as far as I have. 89 00:05:04,080 --> 00:05:06,640 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, Because I did try to 90 00:05:06,680 --> 00:05:09,880 Speaker 1: get into magazine, but I wasn't. I'm like, I'm not 91 00:05:09,920 --> 00:05:12,120 Speaker 1: about to go out here buying magazines, you know what 92 00:05:12,160 --> 00:05:14,120 Speaker 1: I'm saying. So I have an uncle who lives across 93 00:05:14,120 --> 00:05:15,720 Speaker 1: the street from me, and I know he's some type 94 00:05:15,720 --> 00:05:18,000 Speaker 1: of a freak. You know. I see all the different 95 00:05:18,000 --> 00:05:19,640 Speaker 1: type of women he'd be taking in and out the 96 00:05:19,640 --> 00:05:23,000 Speaker 1: house and stuff, you know. So I know one day 97 00:05:23,000 --> 00:05:26,040 Speaker 1: he had particularly asked me, did I have any magazines 98 00:05:26,120 --> 00:05:29,560 Speaker 1: over here? I know, goddamn pornographic magazines. You know. At 99 00:05:29,600 --> 00:05:33,040 Speaker 1: the time that he was asking me, I had another job, 100 00:05:33,200 --> 00:05:37,400 Speaker 1: like I said, I you know, my daughter was doing 101 00:05:37,400 --> 00:05:39,560 Speaker 1: the football. You know what I'm saying. I'm a mother, 102 00:05:39,680 --> 00:05:41,440 Speaker 1: so you know what I mean. I was wrapped up 103 00:05:41,480 --> 00:05:44,080 Speaker 1: in so many other things, but also had another job 104 00:05:44,080 --> 00:05:46,800 Speaker 1: when I was self employed, you know what I'm saying. 105 00:05:47,320 --> 00:05:50,280 Speaker 1: And I was a childcare provider at the time. So 106 00:05:50,400 --> 00:05:54,440 Speaker 1: what the hell would I be doing with sex magazines 107 00:05:55,600 --> 00:05:58,080 Speaker 1: laying around my house? You know what I'm saying. And 108 00:05:58,279 --> 00:05:59,839 Speaker 1: what I'm gonna be doing with him anyway. You know, 109 00:05:59,839 --> 00:06:02,080 Speaker 1: I'm my mind like I don't. I've never been one 110 00:06:02,200 --> 00:06:05,600 Speaker 1: to watch porn I or look at magazines. I've been 111 00:06:05,600 --> 00:06:07,960 Speaker 1: in adult toy stores and all of that, but not 112 00:06:08,040 --> 00:06:10,520 Speaker 1: to bring I bring toys home. You know, you ever 113 00:06:10,640 --> 00:06:12,680 Speaker 1: thought that you would be doing what you're doing. No, 114 00:06:12,800 --> 00:06:15,400 Speaker 1: not in no way, shape or form. But when he 115 00:06:15,560 --> 00:06:18,560 Speaker 1: asked me, it dawned. You know, I had remembered that 116 00:06:18,600 --> 00:06:21,000 Speaker 1: in the back of my head. So when my I 117 00:06:21,080 --> 00:06:22,800 Speaker 1: was saying, get into you know, you need to try 118 00:06:22,839 --> 00:06:25,520 Speaker 1: to get into a magazine. Well, of course I went 119 00:06:25,560 --> 00:06:27,480 Speaker 1: over and knocked on his door and asked him did 120 00:06:27,480 --> 00:06:29,680 Speaker 1: he have him? After he asked me, now remind you, 121 00:06:29,720 --> 00:06:32,320 Speaker 1: I'm asking him, let me see what you got. He 122 00:06:32,440 --> 00:06:34,479 Speaker 1: was like, well, I don't use all mine me not 123 00:06:34,600 --> 00:06:37,839 Speaker 1: thinking you know what could be all over the magazine. 124 00:06:38,839 --> 00:06:41,240 Speaker 1: So he was like, let me dig some out and 125 00:06:41,240 --> 00:06:43,480 Speaker 1: I'll bring him across the streets. So he brought the 126 00:06:43,520 --> 00:06:47,360 Speaker 1: magazines to me. When I tell you, these magazines was ancient. 127 00:06:47,880 --> 00:06:51,159 Speaker 1: It was the black and white ones, like literally the 128 00:06:51,160 --> 00:06:55,440 Speaker 1: pages was like like warped. And who knows why they 129 00:06:55,480 --> 00:06:57,360 Speaker 1: sold world. It could be worked because of age or 130 00:06:57,400 --> 00:06:59,000 Speaker 1: because if something else was on it, you know what 131 00:06:59,040 --> 00:07:02,280 Speaker 1: I'm saying. But I'm still not I'm still looking and 132 00:07:02,279 --> 00:07:04,400 Speaker 1: that's like, you know, you go back to your childhood 133 00:07:04,680 --> 00:07:08,520 Speaker 1: table of contents. So I'm looking at the magazine is 134 00:07:08,560 --> 00:07:11,119 Speaker 1: like this is fat white women, you know what I'm saying. 135 00:07:11,440 --> 00:07:14,400 Speaker 1: And it's just really some of the pages stuck together. 136 00:07:14,640 --> 00:07:17,080 Speaker 1: But I'm still trying to figure out there has to 137 00:07:17,200 --> 00:07:20,840 Speaker 1: be a phone number or email. God, the magazine is 138 00:07:20,920 --> 00:07:23,800 Speaker 1: like before I was born, probably, you know what I mean. 139 00:07:24,480 --> 00:07:27,480 Speaker 1: So remind you this is my step uncle. He's much 140 00:07:27,480 --> 00:07:29,840 Speaker 1: older than me, you know what I mean. So I'm 141 00:07:29,880 --> 00:07:32,480 Speaker 1: still not thinking. All I'm thinking is table of content. 142 00:07:32,560 --> 00:07:36,440 Speaker 1: So I'm looking it's emails. But you know, like I said, 143 00:07:36,480 --> 00:07:39,760 Speaker 1: the magazines was old. I did try the emails. I 144 00:07:39,800 --> 00:07:43,000 Speaker 1: did try the phone numbers. From that point on, I 145 00:07:43,080 --> 00:07:46,960 Speaker 1: finally received those photos from the stripper. He pulled up. 146 00:07:47,000 --> 00:07:48,720 Speaker 1: I was outside with all the kids, you know what 147 00:07:48,760 --> 00:07:52,680 Speaker 1: I'm saying. He had me a DVD and I came 148 00:07:52,720 --> 00:07:55,000 Speaker 1: in the house and you know, after the kids left 149 00:07:55,000 --> 00:07:56,760 Speaker 1: and everything, you know, like I said, I was doing 150 00:07:56,840 --> 00:07:59,679 Speaker 1: daycare and once I got my kids, you know, whine 151 00:07:59,720 --> 00:08:03,160 Speaker 1: down and everything. I came in and I looked at 152 00:08:03,320 --> 00:08:07,520 Speaker 1: the DVD and I was blowed away by the photos. 153 00:08:07,920 --> 00:08:10,400 Speaker 1: The bad part with the photos is I was tipsy 154 00:08:10,440 --> 00:08:12,840 Speaker 1: as hell, so some of them you could tell I 155 00:08:12,920 --> 00:08:16,480 Speaker 1: was tipsy, but my makeup was still on point, and 156 00:08:16,520 --> 00:08:20,920 Speaker 1: I wear all emotions on my face. So my emotion 157 00:08:21,120 --> 00:08:23,720 Speaker 1: was I was hot as hell because I was not tipsy, 158 00:08:23,800 --> 00:08:26,720 Speaker 1: but drawn funked up, you know what I'm saying. And 159 00:08:26,880 --> 00:08:31,520 Speaker 1: um so, but I was still impressed by the photos 160 00:08:31,520 --> 00:08:34,480 Speaker 1: compared to the other ones that the football assistant football 161 00:08:34,520 --> 00:08:37,680 Speaker 1: coach took, so I was really excited about it. So 162 00:08:38,040 --> 00:08:40,439 Speaker 1: I showed him to my end and I showed the 163 00:08:41,840 --> 00:08:45,000 Speaker 1: regular pictures, not nothing sexual because there really wasn't any 164 00:08:45,400 --> 00:08:47,960 Speaker 1: visual where you could see like open body parts, you 165 00:08:47,960 --> 00:08:50,080 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. That wasn't open or nothing. It 166 00:08:50,200 --> 00:08:52,320 Speaker 1: was a erotic you know what I mean. It was 167 00:08:52,360 --> 00:08:54,840 Speaker 1: more erotic photos, you know what I'm saying. I was 168 00:08:54,840 --> 00:08:57,800 Speaker 1: still fully clothed, you know what I mean. The most 169 00:08:57,800 --> 00:08:59,959 Speaker 1: that came out was my breast, you know what I mean. 170 00:09:00,040 --> 00:09:03,040 Speaker 1: There wasn't any like butt naked. You can see my butt, 171 00:09:03,160 --> 00:09:06,199 Speaker 1: you know, but that's it. Nothing where you know, too bad, 172 00:09:06,400 --> 00:09:08,839 Speaker 1: not nothing busting, you know. The clip out or nothing 173 00:09:08,880 --> 00:09:11,080 Speaker 1: like that. So you know, my aunt seen him and 174 00:09:11,120 --> 00:09:12,880 Speaker 1: she liked him or whatever. I showed him to a 175 00:09:12,920 --> 00:09:16,120 Speaker 1: couple of other people and then I went on I 176 00:09:16,160 --> 00:09:20,480 Speaker 1: can't even remember the BBW search something. It was a website. 177 00:09:20,520 --> 00:09:22,840 Speaker 1: So I put a couple of photos up there. I 178 00:09:22,880 --> 00:09:27,640 Speaker 1: was contacted by a black producer out of North Carolina. 179 00:09:28,640 --> 00:09:32,120 Speaker 1: When he contacted me, we spoke back and forth. Now 180 00:09:32,200 --> 00:09:36,920 Speaker 1: at this time, I was on Social services by this time, 181 00:09:37,200 --> 00:09:39,959 Speaker 1: you know, because it wasn't that many kids in daycare, 182 00:09:40,000 --> 00:09:42,240 Speaker 1: so I had no choice but to go and apply 183 00:09:42,320 --> 00:09:44,559 Speaker 1: because I'm still a mother. I still got to take 184 00:09:44,600 --> 00:09:47,600 Speaker 1: care of my kids one other and I have a 185 00:09:47,679 --> 00:09:50,040 Speaker 1: big gass house and not trying to lose my house, 186 00:09:50,280 --> 00:09:52,160 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. So I had like two 187 00:09:52,280 --> 00:09:55,960 Speaker 1: kids in daycare who parents weren't really paying, you know, 188 00:09:56,040 --> 00:09:57,560 Speaker 1: but I didn't want to leave let the kids go. 189 00:09:57,600 --> 00:10:00,280 Speaker 1: You get attached to people kids, you know what I'm saying. So, 190 00:10:00,679 --> 00:10:02,960 Speaker 1: and it was like if I didn't keep them, who would, 191 00:10:03,120 --> 00:10:07,239 Speaker 1: you know. Still struggling, but I still apply for social services. 192 00:10:07,679 --> 00:10:10,719 Speaker 1: So you know, I'm on a budget. I'm barely making it, 193 00:10:11,160 --> 00:10:16,600 Speaker 1: so I um, so what I was saying oh I um, 194 00:10:16,640 --> 00:10:19,160 Speaker 1: I went on ahead and like I said, put those 195 00:10:19,200 --> 00:10:22,800 Speaker 1: pictures on the site. The black producer contacted me. When 196 00:10:22,840 --> 00:10:27,120 Speaker 1: he contacted me, we talked for a long time, all 197 00:10:27,360 --> 00:10:29,840 Speaker 1: still talking to him. You know, he's just one person 198 00:10:29,880 --> 00:10:32,360 Speaker 1: that actually gave me the time of day. But you know, 199 00:10:32,440 --> 00:10:35,040 Speaker 1: you can't believe everything that glitter ain't go And just 200 00:10:35,080 --> 00:10:37,280 Speaker 1: because I see he got all these little DVDs and 201 00:10:37,280 --> 00:10:39,760 Speaker 1: it's that the other he's still saying he wants to 202 00:10:39,760 --> 00:10:43,000 Speaker 1: shoot me, but he has you know, this girl and 203 00:10:43,000 --> 00:10:46,040 Speaker 1: that girl he's working. It's always some type of excuse, 204 00:10:46,120 --> 00:10:49,040 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. So I started googling things, 205 00:10:49,559 --> 00:10:52,360 Speaker 1: and this is something that I had to educate myself on. 206 00:10:52,800 --> 00:10:55,600 Speaker 1: And when I tell you, day after day, night after night, 207 00:10:55,720 --> 00:10:58,600 Speaker 1: day after day, like it was to me like a job. 208 00:10:58,720 --> 00:11:00,959 Speaker 1: And then my mind, you had any kids in daycare, 209 00:11:01,000 --> 00:11:03,600 Speaker 1: so any spare time that I had, this is what 210 00:11:03,679 --> 00:11:12,880 Speaker 1: I did. It seems persist your head. Yeah, I couldn't stop, 211 00:11:13,160 --> 00:11:14,720 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. It was just like it 212 00:11:14,760 --> 00:11:17,480 Speaker 1: wouldn't leave my mind. You know, I got so many 213 00:11:17,559 --> 00:11:20,679 Speaker 1: compliments and then on on on that site, and I 214 00:11:20,840 --> 00:11:23,960 Speaker 1: remind you at this time, I didn't have Facebook. I 215 00:11:24,040 --> 00:11:26,760 Speaker 1: still had that MySpace ship and I was bored with that. 216 00:11:27,120 --> 00:11:29,400 Speaker 1: And my kids used to have Facebook, and I used 217 00:11:29,440 --> 00:11:31,320 Speaker 1: to get on them because I used to be mad. 218 00:11:31,400 --> 00:11:34,360 Speaker 1: I'm like these old asthment. So I made my kids 219 00:11:34,360 --> 00:11:37,000 Speaker 1: shut their facebooks down because they looked like older men 220 00:11:37,120 --> 00:11:39,760 Speaker 1: were Why you got all these old men on your 221 00:11:40,240 --> 00:11:43,560 Speaker 1: on your Facebook. So at this point, I now I 222 00:11:43,600 --> 00:11:46,520 Speaker 1: gotta after making them shut their Facebook down, I have 223 00:11:46,640 --> 00:11:49,160 Speaker 1: to go back to them to ask them to teach 224 00:11:49,200 --> 00:11:52,839 Speaker 1: me about Facebook. That's crazy, you know what I'm saying. 225 00:11:52,960 --> 00:11:56,400 Speaker 1: So I put some of those basic photos up or whatever. 226 00:11:56,800 --> 00:12:00,319 Speaker 1: Not a whole lot, just a few. And um, actually 227 00:12:00,559 --> 00:12:07,320 Speaker 1: I got contacted by another guy who is actually the 228 00:12:07,360 --> 00:12:09,880 Speaker 1: owner of a well was the owner of a club 229 00:12:10,040 --> 00:12:12,640 Speaker 1: in the DC area or I am still talking to 230 00:12:12,720 --> 00:12:17,240 Speaker 1: the guy from North Carolina. And um, the one from 231 00:12:17,280 --> 00:12:20,160 Speaker 1: the club. He told me that he does photos and 232 00:12:20,200 --> 00:12:21,880 Speaker 1: he owned the club and it's that any other never 233 00:12:21,920 --> 00:12:26,280 Speaker 1: telling me he had a wife, you know what I'm saying. Anyway, 234 00:12:26,920 --> 00:12:29,120 Speaker 1: me and him talked for quite some time. He ended 235 00:12:29,240 --> 00:12:31,840 Speaker 1: up coming to my city, coming to Buffalo. He ended 236 00:12:31,920 --> 00:12:34,840 Speaker 1: up coming here. When he came here, he came with 237 00:12:34,880 --> 00:12:37,760 Speaker 1: a woman and another guy. Now, I didn't have no 238 00:12:37,840 --> 00:12:40,480 Speaker 1: idea that the other guy actually lived in my city. 239 00:12:40,559 --> 00:12:42,320 Speaker 1: I never knew him, never seen him. I'm not I 240 00:12:42,360 --> 00:12:44,280 Speaker 1: wasn't the type of person like hanging in the streets 241 00:12:44,320 --> 00:12:47,679 Speaker 1: or whatever. So they picked me up, came to my home, 242 00:12:47,800 --> 00:12:49,640 Speaker 1: picked me up, took me to a hotel, did a 243 00:12:49,720 --> 00:12:52,320 Speaker 1: photo shoot. We did a you know, a really nice 244 00:12:52,320 --> 00:12:55,400 Speaker 1: photo shoot. Me being a type of person I am like. 245 00:12:55,440 --> 00:12:56,839 Speaker 1: I thought he was fine and say, hell, you know, 246 00:12:56,880 --> 00:12:58,760 Speaker 1: I'm flirting with him. I don't know this his wife 247 00:12:58,760 --> 00:13:02,000 Speaker 1: and she never let knowing that as his wife's she 248 00:13:02,160 --> 00:13:05,120 Speaker 1: never said nothing. And then eventually the other guy that 249 00:13:05,240 --> 00:13:08,760 Speaker 1: was with them, Um, he ended up making a comment. 250 00:13:09,200 --> 00:13:11,199 Speaker 1: Then then I put two and two together, you know 251 00:13:11,240 --> 00:13:13,880 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. So, and they ended up we did 252 00:13:13,960 --> 00:13:17,199 Speaker 1: finished the photo shoot out. The pictures were lovely. There's 253 00:13:17,240 --> 00:13:21,000 Speaker 1: some of the pictures that people see online now they're 254 00:13:21,000 --> 00:13:24,240 Speaker 1: still up, you know, so, UM remind them still talking 255 00:13:24,280 --> 00:13:28,040 Speaker 1: to the guy from North Carolina. Now, the one that 256 00:13:28,080 --> 00:13:29,720 Speaker 1: I did that came here and I did the photo 257 00:13:29,760 --> 00:13:32,120 Speaker 1: shoot with They gave me a paper to sign. I 258 00:13:32,200 --> 00:13:34,439 Speaker 1: ain't know none about a contract or anything, you know 259 00:13:34,480 --> 00:13:37,040 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. It was one page, but it was 260 00:13:37,120 --> 00:13:41,800 Speaker 1: pretty basic and it was more like it was what 261 00:13:41,960 --> 00:13:45,600 Speaker 1: I learned was content exchange. They could use the photos 262 00:13:45,640 --> 00:13:48,080 Speaker 1: what they wanted to to use it for, and I 263 00:13:48,120 --> 00:13:52,360 Speaker 1: could use it. You know. Nobody received any money for it, 264 00:13:52,520 --> 00:13:55,800 Speaker 1: you know, either way. But then after I signed it, 265 00:13:56,280 --> 00:13:58,520 Speaker 1: I go on the bathroom, changed my clothes, put my 266 00:13:58,600 --> 00:14:01,080 Speaker 1: you know, my regular clothes back on, and they tell 267 00:14:01,160 --> 00:14:04,160 Speaker 1: me that they've been doing photo shoots of girls from 268 00:14:04,240 --> 00:14:08,280 Speaker 1: d C all the way to Buffalo and nobody does 269 00:14:08,320 --> 00:14:11,240 Speaker 1: the camera justice, none of the big girls they've been photoing, 270 00:14:11,520 --> 00:14:14,240 Speaker 1: I mean taking photos of did the camera justice at 271 00:14:14,280 --> 00:14:16,080 Speaker 1: the time, and I was like wow, I said, well, 272 00:14:16,440 --> 00:14:18,200 Speaker 1: you know, me thinking well, you must be looking for 273 00:14:18,520 --> 00:14:20,520 Speaker 1: bum bitches or something, you know that ain't been trying 274 00:14:20,520 --> 00:14:23,840 Speaker 1: to put it theirself together or whatever. So to me, 275 00:14:24,000 --> 00:14:26,160 Speaker 1: he was like, well, they just haven't been working out. 276 00:14:26,360 --> 00:14:29,480 Speaker 1: So they told me that since they have my photos, 277 00:14:29,720 --> 00:14:32,240 Speaker 1: they're going to make me the face of their club. 278 00:14:33,280 --> 00:14:35,680 Speaker 1: And I was like, are you kidding? Now? At this point, 279 00:14:35,720 --> 00:14:38,440 Speaker 1: I'm like, that's funked up. Had they told me that 280 00:14:38,480 --> 00:14:40,200 Speaker 1: before that, I would have been on some of the 281 00:14:40,200 --> 00:14:42,800 Speaker 1: other type of ship money thing, you know what I'm saying, 282 00:14:42,840 --> 00:14:46,560 Speaker 1: But again me not knowing and no one ever teaching 283 00:14:46,600 --> 00:14:49,800 Speaker 1: me anything. What else? You know, what was I supposed 284 00:14:49,800 --> 00:14:55,280 Speaker 1: to do? So at that point, again, I'm still talking 285 00:14:55,320 --> 00:14:57,320 Speaker 1: to the North Carolina man. I'm trying to get in 286 00:14:57,360 --> 00:14:59,400 Speaker 1: the porn at this point. For them pictures, you know, 287 00:14:59,440 --> 00:15:01,960 Speaker 1: they were go just pictures and all that. But I 288 00:15:02,000 --> 00:15:04,320 Speaker 1: didn't know no better. They got over on me, I 289 00:15:04,480 --> 00:15:07,600 Speaker 1: thought at the time. You know, now to this day, 290 00:15:07,680 --> 00:15:11,120 Speaker 1: I only been in that club one time, you know 291 00:15:11,160 --> 00:15:13,680 Speaker 1: what I'm saying, one time ever, But I was the 292 00:15:13,680 --> 00:15:15,880 Speaker 1: face of their you know that's kind of sucked up. 293 00:15:15,880 --> 00:15:17,880 Speaker 1: But I was the face of their club. Photos of 294 00:15:17,920 --> 00:15:20,520 Speaker 1: me all over the club. And what kind of club 295 00:15:20,640 --> 00:15:24,120 Speaker 1: was it? It was a bar up the bar club, 296 00:15:24,360 --> 00:15:28,640 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. So so who who wasn't 297 00:15:28,640 --> 00:15:31,640 Speaker 1: it introduce you into pouring as far as you ready 298 00:15:31,680 --> 00:15:36,440 Speaker 1: to go to. I ended up, um, finally being contacted 299 00:15:36,600 --> 00:15:38,520 Speaker 1: by Like I said, I had my photos on that 300 00:15:38,600 --> 00:15:40,880 Speaker 1: one site and I was still talking to that North 301 00:15:40,880 --> 00:15:44,200 Speaker 1: Carolina man with all the promises he gonna he's gonna, 302 00:15:44,440 --> 00:15:46,720 Speaker 1: We're gonna shoot me. You know, he's gonna send for 303 00:15:46,800 --> 00:15:49,040 Speaker 1: me this that you know this, And when I tell 304 00:15:49,080 --> 00:15:52,800 Speaker 1: you this one on about ten months and I just 305 00:15:52,840 --> 00:15:56,160 Speaker 1: started getting like fuck it, but still googling stuff because 306 00:15:56,200 --> 00:15:59,000 Speaker 1: I'm like, it's gotta be another way around, you know. 307 00:15:59,440 --> 00:16:05,280 Speaker 1: So I ended up contacting Evasive Angels a UM and 308 00:16:05,480 --> 00:16:08,280 Speaker 1: the man who owned that name was T T Boy. 309 00:16:08,520 --> 00:16:13,560 Speaker 1: I had seen little stuff online about him, you know 310 00:16:13,560 --> 00:16:15,200 Speaker 1: what I'm saying, when I could, because you know, I 311 00:16:15,200 --> 00:16:18,520 Speaker 1: always had kids around, so when I could, excuse me, 312 00:16:18,600 --> 00:16:21,440 Speaker 1: I had seen, um, you know, little stuff, so I've 313 00:16:21,440 --> 00:16:23,760 Speaker 1: seen it. I knew he had a raspy voice, like 314 00:16:23,840 --> 00:16:28,680 Speaker 1: it sounded like it was ashy like. So after IW 315 00:16:28,800 --> 00:16:32,880 Speaker 1: calling his phone, leaving messages with the secretary, emailing him, 316 00:16:32,920 --> 00:16:36,560 Speaker 1: sitting him, hella pictures, dude, mind driving got sets of 317 00:16:36,600 --> 00:16:40,520 Speaker 1: pictures now, like I got like over six D pictures. 318 00:16:40,840 --> 00:16:43,440 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying between two different people. So 319 00:16:44,160 --> 00:16:47,000 Speaker 1: I'm like, okay, fine, ain't nothing gonna happen. I had 320 00:16:47,120 --> 00:16:48,880 Speaker 1: it was the beginning of the month. I had paid 321 00:16:48,920 --> 00:16:52,960 Speaker 1: all my bills. I um getting ready to go to 322 00:16:53,000 --> 00:16:57,680 Speaker 1: the grocery store. I'm in a cab, a taxi. I'm 323 00:16:57,680 --> 00:16:59,880 Speaker 1: getting ready getting a taxi. Before I get a taxi, 324 00:16:59,920 --> 00:17:05,320 Speaker 1: my phone rings. It's a man talking about Hi, This 325 00:17:05,400 --> 00:17:12,640 Speaker 1: d T boy who said, listen, you know, excuse my lange. Well, listen, 326 00:17:12,680 --> 00:17:17,400 Speaker 1: motherfucker's I cuts like a seller. Okay, yeah, listen to motherfucker. 327 00:17:17,800 --> 00:17:21,240 Speaker 1: Stop playing on my goddamn phone. This d T boy. 328 00:17:23,440 --> 00:17:26,520 Speaker 1: I'm like who, And I'm not thinking, because remind you, 329 00:17:26,560 --> 00:17:28,360 Speaker 1: I just sent the man a message. I don't think, 330 00:17:28,920 --> 00:17:30,720 Speaker 1: and how was I supposed to remember his name was 331 00:17:30,760 --> 00:17:33,640 Speaker 1: even d T boy? You know what I'm so he 332 00:17:33,720 --> 00:17:36,719 Speaker 1: kept I kept hanging up on him, and he kept calling. 333 00:17:37,440 --> 00:17:40,440 Speaker 1: So once I get in the cab and I'm right 334 00:17:40,760 --> 00:17:43,640 Speaker 1: at the door of the grocery store, he calls back, 335 00:17:43,720 --> 00:17:46,240 Speaker 1: now fucking liveing because I see the number. Now I'm 336 00:17:46,240 --> 00:17:48,840 Speaker 1: starting to remember the number, Like this, motherfucker, don't stop 337 00:17:48,840 --> 00:17:51,399 Speaker 1: playing on my goddamn phone. Not only money I have 338 00:17:51,640 --> 00:17:54,200 Speaker 1: is the money, you know, like my food stamps at 339 00:17:54,200 --> 00:17:58,240 Speaker 1: the time, and the money to get you know, household things. 340 00:17:58,359 --> 00:18:00,280 Speaker 1: Me and my me and my two youngest are in 341 00:18:00,320 --> 00:18:02,679 Speaker 1: the cab. We're getting out. I'm trying to pay the 342 00:18:02,680 --> 00:18:07,080 Speaker 1: cab driver. This motherfucker won't stop calling me, so eventually 343 00:18:08,440 --> 00:18:11,080 Speaker 1: I let him go ahead and talk, and he started 344 00:18:11,119 --> 00:18:14,119 Speaker 1: telling me he wanted me in Miami on a certain 345 00:18:14,200 --> 00:18:17,440 Speaker 1: day he gave me the day, you know, he was like, UM, 346 00:18:18,040 --> 00:18:22,480 Speaker 1: will pay you pay for your travel? And again I 347 00:18:22,480 --> 00:18:24,760 Speaker 1: didn't know nothing about nothing. You pay for you? You 348 00:18:24,840 --> 00:18:28,360 Speaker 1: want me to pay for my motherfucking travel and my hotel. 349 00:18:28,680 --> 00:18:31,200 Speaker 1: But he's telling me he's gonna give me half on 350 00:18:31,359 --> 00:18:34,520 Speaker 1: the hotel when I get there and half on the 351 00:18:34,600 --> 00:18:38,639 Speaker 1: travel and pay me to shoot. I'm thinking to myself, 352 00:18:38,640 --> 00:18:42,480 Speaker 1: this don't make no kind of goddamn sense, because it 353 00:18:42,520 --> 00:18:45,119 Speaker 1: all do you know what I found out? By the 354 00:18:45,160 --> 00:18:47,359 Speaker 1: time I came into the business, all those type of 355 00:18:47,400 --> 00:18:52,040 Speaker 1: things changed because especially for the big girls, the big 356 00:18:52,080 --> 00:18:54,439 Speaker 1: you know, the black DW and this you know, I 357 00:18:54,440 --> 00:18:58,360 Speaker 1: mean being a BBW, you know, porn star, they've made 358 00:18:58,359 --> 00:19:00,840 Speaker 1: it so hard for us, you know, the girls before me, 359 00:19:00,880 --> 00:19:02,720 Speaker 1: a lot of them before me, not all but a line. 360 00:19:03,040 --> 00:19:05,639 Speaker 1: But anyway, So once I go grocery shop, and I'm 361 00:19:05,640 --> 00:19:07,400 Speaker 1: at the grocery store and I'm stressed the funk out 362 00:19:07,400 --> 00:19:09,640 Speaker 1: because I don't know who this is. So I give 363 00:19:09,680 --> 00:19:13,800 Speaker 1: that home. I contact the man from North Carolina. Little 364 00:19:13,840 --> 00:19:18,040 Speaker 1: do I know he had been shooting girls in North 365 00:19:18,040 --> 00:19:21,600 Speaker 1: Carolina and selling the content to T T Boy, so 366 00:19:21,680 --> 00:19:24,919 Speaker 1: he was familiar with him. So after I X, I 367 00:19:25,040 --> 00:19:28,119 Speaker 1: told him who he was, and he was kept asking 368 00:19:28,119 --> 00:19:30,320 Speaker 1: me what the number was, you know, And I'm like, ship, 369 00:19:30,359 --> 00:19:32,000 Speaker 1: you could be telling me any of your motherfucker' thing. 370 00:19:32,040 --> 00:19:35,359 Speaker 1: You seem like everybody giving me the run rob, So 371 00:19:36,240 --> 00:19:38,080 Speaker 1: I ended up. He asked me, what's the phone num. 372 00:19:38,080 --> 00:19:39,600 Speaker 1: I don't want to give him the whole number because 373 00:19:39,600 --> 00:19:41,159 Speaker 1: if it was him, you know what I'm saying, that 374 00:19:41,160 --> 00:19:43,159 Speaker 1: ain't right to me to do nothing like that. So 375 00:19:43,240 --> 00:19:45,119 Speaker 1: I gave him the last couple of digits and he 376 00:19:45,200 --> 00:19:46,919 Speaker 1: was like, that is t T Boy, And I'm like, 377 00:19:47,000 --> 00:19:50,120 Speaker 1: the funk are you kidding me? But I'm still scared, 378 00:19:50,920 --> 00:19:52,680 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. So I called him back 379 00:19:53,080 --> 00:19:55,320 Speaker 1: after I go online. Now at this point, out I 380 00:19:55,400 --> 00:19:56,960 Speaker 1: know it's really him. I'm like, Okay, this is my 381 00:19:57,040 --> 00:19:59,600 Speaker 1: chance to get in, but I really don't have no 382 00:19:59,720 --> 00:20:01,879 Speaker 1: money because I didn't paid all my bills, you know 383 00:20:01,880 --> 00:20:04,280 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. I'm on a limited in cup. I 384 00:20:04,560 --> 00:20:07,119 Speaker 1: pay all my bills. I did all of that, the 385 00:20:07,160 --> 00:20:12,000 Speaker 1: wind grocery shopping. I look up flights from him telling 386 00:20:12,040 --> 00:20:13,639 Speaker 1: me where he needed me to be at this that 387 00:20:13,840 --> 00:20:15,680 Speaker 1: end that I looked up flights, I looked up hotels 388 00:20:16,040 --> 00:20:20,640 Speaker 1: that ship. The flight alone was a hundred dollars and 389 00:20:21,000 --> 00:20:23,400 Speaker 1: I gotta pay it up front, and you're gonna give 390 00:20:23,440 --> 00:20:26,600 Speaker 1: me half of it back. You know what I'm saying. 391 00:20:26,920 --> 00:20:29,560 Speaker 1: I know you. You say you're real, and he's saying 392 00:20:29,600 --> 00:20:31,680 Speaker 1: that it's really you. But I don't know. They could 393 00:20:31,680 --> 00:20:34,760 Speaker 1: be on some kidnap a bit ship him. You know 394 00:20:34,760 --> 00:20:38,239 Speaker 1: what I'm saying, I'm stressed out. Like he remind you, 395 00:20:38,359 --> 00:20:42,040 Speaker 1: it is six o'clock in the evening. He told me 396 00:20:42,240 --> 00:20:48,520 Speaker 1: he needed an answer from me by midnight. I'm saying, 397 00:20:48,720 --> 00:20:52,199 Speaker 1: I'm by myself. I don't know nobody. Yeah, granted, my 398 00:20:52,240 --> 00:20:54,560 Speaker 1: eunt telling me, go do this, go do that, Go 399 00:20:54,720 --> 00:20:56,600 Speaker 1: get in the magazine. But I'm trying to take it 400 00:20:56,640 --> 00:20:59,040 Speaker 1: a step further, you know what I'm saying, Because it 401 00:20:59,040 --> 00:21:00,879 Speaker 1: really wasn't too much to it was too hard to 402 00:21:00,880 --> 00:21:03,520 Speaker 1: figure out the magazine situation. It seemed to be a 403 00:21:03,560 --> 00:21:06,560 Speaker 1: little I got more information about movies, but couldn't get 404 00:21:06,680 --> 00:21:11,280 Speaker 1: the right get to the right people, you know, um 405 00:21:11,320 --> 00:21:17,880 Speaker 1: so so hot. I didn't go. I called him and 406 00:21:17,920 --> 00:21:21,040 Speaker 1: I told him like this my situation, like I didn't 407 00:21:21,080 --> 00:21:24,400 Speaker 1: have any money to be paying up front or anything 408 00:21:24,440 --> 00:21:27,320 Speaker 1: like that. I really didn't. I just paid my bills 409 00:21:27,400 --> 00:21:29,439 Speaker 1: and I had, you know, went to the store. You know, 410 00:21:29,480 --> 00:21:31,760 Speaker 1: I gotta buy tissue, and you know, you gotta budget 411 00:21:31,760 --> 00:21:35,080 Speaker 1: your ship out. I'm a mother before I'm anything. You 412 00:21:35,119 --> 00:21:40,639 Speaker 1: understand what I'm saying. I mean, my kids come first always. Yeah, 413 00:21:40,760 --> 00:21:43,200 Speaker 1: so my home and my kids Without either one of these, 414 00:21:43,200 --> 00:21:47,680 Speaker 1: I'm gonna be fucked up, you know. So, um, I 415 00:21:47,760 --> 00:21:50,320 Speaker 1: ended up not going, ended up passing it on and 416 00:21:50,400 --> 00:21:53,040 Speaker 1: he told me, then, well, then maybe next time we 417 00:21:53,040 --> 00:21:56,440 Speaker 1: can do some business. I'm gonna keep your information and 418 00:21:56,600 --> 00:21:59,600 Speaker 1: you know, we could do something again or whatever. So 419 00:21:59,640 --> 00:22:02,800 Speaker 1: I'm like, okay. So after that, a few days later, 420 00:22:02,920 --> 00:22:05,360 Speaker 1: ended up talking to the North Carolina guy and he 421 00:22:05,480 --> 00:22:08,600 Speaker 1: was like, why didn't you go? That was the best opportunity, 422 00:22:09,040 --> 00:22:10,639 Speaker 1: you know, And I'm telling him, I don't know if 423 00:22:10,640 --> 00:22:13,000 Speaker 1: any of your motherfucker's is really real, you know what 424 00:22:13,080 --> 00:22:16,320 Speaker 1: I'm saying, because you ain't sent for me yet. So finally, 425 00:22:16,800 --> 00:22:20,760 Speaker 1: finally the North Carolina guy ended up sending for me. 426 00:22:21,240 --> 00:22:24,920 Speaker 1: It was during some type of rain storm or something 427 00:22:24,920 --> 00:22:26,600 Speaker 1: they had going on in North Carolina. So I was 428 00:22:26,600 --> 00:22:28,919 Speaker 1: still shook because now I'm still going off with the 429 00:22:28,960 --> 00:22:32,280 Speaker 1: motherfucker I don't know. You know what I'm saying. He 430 00:22:32,400 --> 00:22:34,840 Speaker 1: ended up paying for my travel, pay for the room, 431 00:22:35,040 --> 00:22:37,399 Speaker 1: you know, a little closing play room or whatever. The 432 00:22:37,480 --> 00:22:40,840 Speaker 1: mail talent didn't show up the first day, so he 433 00:22:40,960 --> 00:22:44,440 Speaker 1: ended up keeping me another day. Now remind you this 434 00:22:44,600 --> 00:22:48,360 Speaker 1: was all on the contituencies of what they called content exchange. 435 00:22:48,400 --> 00:22:51,480 Speaker 1: After he explained everything to me, I started learning more 436 00:22:52,160 --> 00:22:54,640 Speaker 1: and by the time he has sent for me, has 437 00:22:54,720 --> 00:22:57,960 Speaker 1: started having conversations with other producers and they were all 438 00:22:58,080 --> 00:23:01,600 Speaker 1: saying the same thing. At this time. Beat At that time, 439 00:23:01,600 --> 00:23:04,680 Speaker 1: bb WS weren't making a lot of money. Why do 440 00:23:04,720 --> 00:23:06,960 Speaker 1: you think they's making a lot of money? Because the 441 00:23:07,000 --> 00:23:10,919 Speaker 1: BBWs beforehand fucked the game up. They would get the 442 00:23:11,000 --> 00:23:15,879 Speaker 1: money in advance runoff, don't don't they'll get the money. 443 00:23:16,240 --> 00:23:19,679 Speaker 1: The producers or the companies would send them the money 444 00:23:19,720 --> 00:23:23,800 Speaker 1: to book the ticket. They wouldn't show up. It was 445 00:23:23,960 --> 00:23:28,080 Speaker 1: just before I came into the business, Like I just 446 00:23:28,160 --> 00:23:32,200 Speaker 1: came in everything. Everything was funked up by the time 447 00:23:32,240 --> 00:23:38,840 Speaker 1: I got involved. I've been in seven years. OK. Yeah, 448 00:23:38,880 --> 00:23:41,800 Speaker 1: so I would say eight nine years ago was when 449 00:23:41,880 --> 00:23:43,640 Speaker 1: things eight and a half years ago, Well, I guess 450 00:23:43,640 --> 00:23:46,240 Speaker 1: when things started going bad. You know, what I mean. 451 00:23:46,520 --> 00:23:50,000 Speaker 1: And there was like Blacktail Magazine and like the main 452 00:23:50,320 --> 00:23:55,520 Speaker 1: people who actually went out the way and who promoted 453 00:23:55,680 --> 00:24:00,320 Speaker 1: and hired the black big girls. They like you know, 454 00:24:00,440 --> 00:24:03,520 Speaker 1: Internet came. You had the man from Blacktail magazine. He 455 00:24:03,600 --> 00:24:05,600 Speaker 1: died from what I understand, I never got a chance 456 00:24:05,600 --> 00:24:08,680 Speaker 1: to meet him, the original Blacktail magazine. He died just 457 00:24:08,800 --> 00:24:12,160 Speaker 1: before I came into building. He hired all the new girls, 458 00:24:12,280 --> 00:24:15,360 Speaker 1: make sure they stayed paid, make sure they had good gigs. 459 00:24:15,720 --> 00:24:18,320 Speaker 1: You know. Um, like I said, t T Boy, he 460 00:24:18,440 --> 00:24:21,359 Speaker 1: was the only one him and um there was another one. 461 00:24:21,400 --> 00:24:24,160 Speaker 1: I can't think of his name right now, but um 462 00:24:24,200 --> 00:24:27,400 Speaker 1: there was another magazine, I mean, another company that was 463 00:24:27,800 --> 00:24:30,880 Speaker 1: shooting the big girls too. But then they all started 464 00:24:30,920 --> 00:24:34,480 Speaker 1: coming down because of Internet on the prices like when 465 00:24:34,520 --> 00:24:38,760 Speaker 1: I tell you offering five hundred ship like that. So 466 00:24:38,960 --> 00:24:42,800 Speaker 1: my best, my best deal at that time was what 467 00:24:42,920 --> 00:24:46,600 Speaker 1: Evasive Angels was trying to give me. And I was 468 00:24:46,640 --> 00:24:49,080 Speaker 1: scared to go, you know what I'm saying. So, like 469 00:24:49,119 --> 00:24:52,240 Speaker 1: I said, I went. I shot with the um the 470 00:24:52,400 --> 00:24:56,120 Speaker 1: company from North Carolina. Everything was fine. The second day 471 00:24:56,160 --> 00:24:59,399 Speaker 1: the Maltwnley came. I did the scene. I had a 472 00:24:59,440 --> 00:25:02,320 Speaker 1: few little is I did the scene totally sober. That 473 00:25:02,520 --> 00:25:04,840 Speaker 1: was one issue because I'm my nerves was a wreck 474 00:25:05,200 --> 00:25:06,919 Speaker 1: to be So this was the first time that you 475 00:25:07,040 --> 00:25:11,159 Speaker 1: had sex with the middle talent, and you did a 476 00:25:11,240 --> 00:25:14,560 Speaker 1: sober yep, but you wanted to see how I was 477 00:25:14,600 --> 00:25:17,320 Speaker 1: gonna be O. I didn't. First of all, the man 478 00:25:17,400 --> 00:25:19,000 Speaker 1: like he paid for the room. I went down there 479 00:25:19,080 --> 00:25:21,240 Speaker 1: still on very little money, just a little money just 480 00:25:21,520 --> 00:25:25,080 Speaker 1: for emergencies. So you know, if anything happened, like I said, 481 00:25:25,119 --> 00:25:27,920 Speaker 1: the company, the man, the producer, he paid for my travel. 482 00:25:28,320 --> 00:25:32,719 Speaker 1: You know, well, excuse me, megabus m hm, you know 483 00:25:33,040 --> 00:25:35,240 Speaker 1: that long ass ride. He paid for all of that. 484 00:25:35,359 --> 00:25:36,879 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, paid for the hotel. You 485 00:25:36,920 --> 00:25:40,359 Speaker 1: pay for my food and stuff. But he doesn't drink 486 00:25:40,480 --> 00:25:42,639 Speaker 1: or smoke or you know, I don't smoke nothing, you 487 00:25:42,680 --> 00:25:44,840 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. But he don't drink or whatever. 488 00:25:45,160 --> 00:25:47,600 Speaker 1: He don't do nothing. So you know, he wasn't buying 489 00:25:47,600 --> 00:25:49,960 Speaker 1: no damn liquor, you know what I mean. He made 490 00:25:50,040 --> 00:25:54,359 Speaker 1: that real clear, you know, But then says I was. 491 00:25:54,600 --> 00:25:58,240 Speaker 1: I didn't had no damn liquor, you know what I mean. 492 00:25:58,480 --> 00:26:00,399 Speaker 1: I ended up going to the store or and I 493 00:26:00,440 --> 00:26:02,720 Speaker 1: did buy a beer, but by the time the male 494 00:26:02,760 --> 00:26:05,800 Speaker 1: talent got off in his regular job, because most people 495 00:26:05,840 --> 00:26:07,960 Speaker 1: have a regular job in his industry. By the time 496 00:26:08,000 --> 00:26:10,480 Speaker 1: he got his regular job and got there and they 497 00:26:10,520 --> 00:26:12,800 Speaker 1: came like in the last minute, they called me, the 498 00:26:13,240 --> 00:26:15,160 Speaker 1: producer called him. It's like, okay, we're on our way. 499 00:26:15,359 --> 00:26:18,199 Speaker 1: I had the run rushed kit dressed. I come out 500 00:26:18,240 --> 00:26:20,080 Speaker 1: the bathroom like they got the keys to getting the 501 00:26:20,160 --> 00:26:23,000 Speaker 1: room reminders in their name. So when I come out 502 00:26:23,000 --> 00:26:25,399 Speaker 1: the bathroom there there, you know what I'm saying, the 503 00:26:25,440 --> 00:26:28,800 Speaker 1: male talent comes in, he uses the bathroom, we start shooting. 504 00:26:30,119 --> 00:26:35,919 Speaker 1: It was okay. I felt like I still have a 505 00:26:35,960 --> 00:26:38,280 Speaker 1: relationship with the male talent. You know what I'm saying. 506 00:26:38,560 --> 00:26:41,399 Speaker 1: He comes to my city because he drives truck or 507 00:26:41,400 --> 00:26:44,000 Speaker 1: whatever too, so when he comes up here, you know, 508 00:26:44,400 --> 00:26:47,439 Speaker 1: we go see him and you know we're talking, you know, 509 00:26:47,560 --> 00:26:50,880 Speaker 1: to spend time talking and stuff or whatever. You know. Um, 510 00:26:50,920 --> 00:26:56,400 Speaker 1: it was I felt kind of it felt strange. And 511 00:26:56,600 --> 00:26:59,639 Speaker 1: don't get it twisted. I've slept with Mothercker's. I ain't 512 00:26:59,640 --> 00:27:02,240 Speaker 1: no be four, you know what I'm saying. But it 513 00:27:02,320 --> 00:27:05,879 Speaker 1: was different for the camera and everything. I actually have 514 00:27:05,920 --> 00:27:09,560 Speaker 1: an audience. Yeah, I knew how to I know how 515 00:27:09,600 --> 00:27:12,159 Speaker 1: to be seductive, you know what I mean. I know 516 00:27:12,359 --> 00:27:15,679 Speaker 1: that I have the eyes you know when I'm looking, 517 00:27:15,760 --> 00:27:17,959 Speaker 1: I know, you know, it's just you just can't stare 518 00:27:18,040 --> 00:27:20,040 Speaker 1: into the camera, you know what I mean. You gotta 519 00:27:20,040 --> 00:27:22,200 Speaker 1: act like you don't know what's going on. But then 520 00:27:22,240 --> 00:27:26,960 Speaker 1: there was little incidents where the male talent, but he 521 00:27:27,040 --> 00:27:31,920 Speaker 1: had like bleeding like it was little ship that I 522 00:27:31,960 --> 00:27:35,960 Speaker 1: was like, okay, this is something wrong. He had shaved 523 00:27:37,600 --> 00:27:41,240 Speaker 1: cut like on his butt, so there was like a 524 00:27:41,280 --> 00:27:43,919 Speaker 1: little bit of drop like not drop, a little like 525 00:27:43,960 --> 00:27:49,440 Speaker 1: a little line of blood or whatever on it did 526 00:27:49,560 --> 00:27:52,760 Speaker 1: Because automatically I'm like, okay, is this mother fucking gay? Which, 527 00:27:52,760 --> 00:27:54,800 Speaker 1: don't get it sucked up. There's you know, I have 528 00:27:54,840 --> 00:27:56,760 Speaker 1: a lot of gay friends, you know what I'm saying. 529 00:27:57,000 --> 00:27:59,320 Speaker 1: So it's not that's not the that's not the situation. 530 00:27:59,359 --> 00:28:04,560 Speaker 1: The situation is you're fucking need yeah, and you bleeding 531 00:28:04,600 --> 00:28:07,160 Speaker 1: like you belied it from your asshole. What's he going on? 532 00:28:07,680 --> 00:28:10,600 Speaker 1: You know what I mean? So I'm paranoid like a motherfucker. 533 00:28:10,680 --> 00:28:13,960 Speaker 1: But he was really cute, he was really nice. He 534 00:28:14,119 --> 00:28:16,439 Speaker 1: was you know what I'm saying. He was he was 535 00:28:16,480 --> 00:28:18,920 Speaker 1: all right, he was all right. You know what I mean, 536 00:28:19,200 --> 00:28:21,520 Speaker 1: dick bigg as hell, you know what I mean. But 537 00:28:21,640 --> 00:28:23,719 Speaker 1: I mean, it ain't even about the dick being real 538 00:28:23,800 --> 00:28:25,920 Speaker 1: big is how you use it. You know. I did 539 00:28:26,080 --> 00:28:29,960 Speaker 1: run into some issues with my leg, like I that's 540 00:28:30,200 --> 00:28:32,160 Speaker 1: what I just went through now. But I just ran 541 00:28:32,240 --> 00:28:34,480 Speaker 1: in through some issues with one of my legs where 542 00:28:34,720 --> 00:28:36,880 Speaker 1: I realized that I have a problem, like with a nerve, 543 00:28:37,040 --> 00:28:39,200 Speaker 1: so a certain way that he would hit me, you 544 00:28:39,200 --> 00:28:42,200 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, when he's sucking me that my 545 00:28:42,280 --> 00:28:44,160 Speaker 1: leg felt like it was given out. It was like 546 00:28:44,200 --> 00:28:47,840 Speaker 1: an aching, but it felt like it was like every 547 00:28:47,880 --> 00:28:50,360 Speaker 1: time he pumped, he hit a nerve from the back 548 00:28:50,720 --> 00:28:53,720 Speaker 1: and hurt so bad. You know what I'm saying. It 549 00:28:53,840 --> 00:28:56,920 Speaker 1: hurt is so fucking bad. Then when we did it, 550 00:28:56,960 --> 00:28:59,880 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, you know, just regular missionary style. 551 00:29:00,960 --> 00:29:04,120 Speaker 1: I had to kick him off of me because he 552 00:29:04,160 --> 00:29:06,560 Speaker 1: was hurting me, you know what I mean. And but 553 00:29:06,640 --> 00:29:09,000 Speaker 1: I can't let the camera know. I just literally just 554 00:29:09,200 --> 00:29:11,880 Speaker 1: you know, you threw my my legs back, pushed them 555 00:29:11,920 --> 00:29:13,880 Speaker 1: off of him, I mean off of me, pushed him 556 00:29:13,920 --> 00:29:16,680 Speaker 1: off of me. So you know, from that point on, 557 00:29:17,320 --> 00:29:20,200 Speaker 1: after doing that scene, before I even left there, I 558 00:29:20,240 --> 00:29:24,000 Speaker 1: had been um speaking to a trene here in my 559 00:29:24,080 --> 00:29:26,800 Speaker 1: city that was friends with my sister, went to school 560 00:29:26,840 --> 00:29:30,240 Speaker 1: with my little sister, and he had a website or she. However, 561 00:29:30,320 --> 00:29:32,479 Speaker 1: I don't want to do the pronouns wrong. You know. 562 00:29:32,640 --> 00:29:36,440 Speaker 1: She say she had a website, you know, so I 563 00:29:36,640 --> 00:29:39,320 Speaker 1: ended up asking her even before I left my city. 564 00:29:39,360 --> 00:29:43,160 Speaker 1: I asked her, could you contact your website people and 565 00:29:43,200 --> 00:29:44,880 Speaker 1: ask them if they could, you know, give me a 566 00:29:44,880 --> 00:29:47,080 Speaker 1: call or whatever. So they never called me on my 567 00:29:47,120 --> 00:29:48,680 Speaker 1: way down or now. All I was gonna be able 568 00:29:48,680 --> 00:29:50,360 Speaker 1: to put on it at that time. Remind you before 569 00:29:50,360 --> 00:29:56,200 Speaker 1: going to North Carolina was the pictures. I have no idea. 570 00:29:56,480 --> 00:29:59,080 Speaker 1: I'm still trying to do things on my own. I'm 571 00:29:59,120 --> 00:30:02,160 Speaker 1: knowing I need to have somewhere to just put everything 572 00:30:02,200 --> 00:30:04,040 Speaker 1: at because I know I can't put all of this 573 00:30:04,160 --> 00:30:07,440 Speaker 1: on Facebook. You know what I'm saying. I need motherfucker's 574 00:30:07,520 --> 00:30:09,400 Speaker 1: keep asking me for more and more pictures. I don't 575 00:30:09,400 --> 00:30:12,080 Speaker 1: want to be sending motherfucker's pictures in the inbox. I 576 00:30:12,160 --> 00:30:14,719 Speaker 1: know that you're supposed to get paid for it. Ask 577 00:30:14,760 --> 00:30:18,480 Speaker 1: you where you getting paid to pictures? No, that's why 578 00:30:18,480 --> 00:30:20,840 Speaker 1: I wasn't sending him. That's why I wanted a website. 579 00:30:22,040 --> 00:30:24,040 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. That's why I wanted a website, 580 00:30:24,160 --> 00:30:26,560 Speaker 1: so that you have to pay like any other website. 581 00:30:26,560 --> 00:30:28,400 Speaker 1: You gotta pay the joint, you know what I mean, 582 00:30:28,440 --> 00:30:33,080 Speaker 1: you gotta pay the seat. So um he ended like 583 00:30:33,120 --> 00:30:35,400 Speaker 1: I said, I didn't get no call from the web 584 00:30:35,480 --> 00:30:39,360 Speaker 1: master on the way there. I got the call just 585 00:30:39,680 --> 00:30:43,280 Speaker 1: before I started shooting, while everyone was in the room. 586 00:30:43,320 --> 00:30:45,520 Speaker 1: And it's remind you that this the hotel room. We're 587 00:30:45,560 --> 00:30:47,800 Speaker 1: all in the room. And I told the man I'll 588 00:30:47,840 --> 00:30:50,960 Speaker 1: call him back. I'm doing my first scene. So I 589 00:30:51,040 --> 00:30:53,960 Speaker 1: ended up calling him back. You know, we talked. He 590 00:30:54,080 --> 00:30:56,960 Speaker 1: told me, once I get everything, you know, send him 591 00:30:57,000 --> 00:31:00,400 Speaker 1: one fifty. And you know, he said, he'll start the 592 00:31:00,440 --> 00:31:03,160 Speaker 1: splash page right now. Just send him a couple of pictures. 593 00:31:03,440 --> 00:31:06,040 Speaker 1: So after the scene was over, I sent him a 594 00:31:06,040 --> 00:31:08,480 Speaker 1: couple of pictures so he could do the splash page 595 00:31:08,520 --> 00:31:11,880 Speaker 1: at very first page, and um, I picked. He sent 596 00:31:11,960 --> 00:31:14,840 Speaker 1: me three different ones I picked, and I ended up 597 00:31:14,880 --> 00:31:17,440 Speaker 1: sending him all the photos. He put all the photos on, 598 00:31:17,520 --> 00:31:21,040 Speaker 1: so I got a uh, but I don't got my 599 00:31:21,280 --> 00:31:24,600 Speaker 1: I didn't finish the scene. Now, this is what I'm 600 00:31:24,640 --> 00:31:27,120 Speaker 1: talking about about. I don't know. Motherfucker's I don't know 601 00:31:27,160 --> 00:31:29,320 Speaker 1: the game. Here I go again, So now I get 602 00:31:29,320 --> 00:31:32,000 Speaker 1: I come all the way. I stayed in North Carolina 603 00:31:32,360 --> 00:31:35,040 Speaker 1: for like five days. Remind you, I finished the scene 604 00:31:35,040 --> 00:31:37,120 Speaker 1: on the second day, so I ended up staying there 605 00:31:37,120 --> 00:31:39,680 Speaker 1: a couple of days more. You know, I end up 606 00:31:39,720 --> 00:31:46,400 Speaker 1: coming home. No, it was content exchange. It was a 607 00:31:46,400 --> 00:31:48,680 Speaker 1: content exchange where he could put it on his stuff 608 00:31:49,040 --> 00:31:51,400 Speaker 1: and I could use to remind you, I need the scene. 609 00:31:51,400 --> 00:31:54,520 Speaker 1: I got a sight, you know what I mean. I 610 00:31:54,560 --> 00:31:57,960 Speaker 1: went down there knowing I need something to prove that 611 00:31:58,120 --> 00:32:01,480 Speaker 1: I can do porn. See, if everyone could do it, 612 00:32:01,600 --> 00:32:05,880 Speaker 1: everyone would be a real porn star and not a 613 00:32:06,120 --> 00:32:08,400 Speaker 1: in your bedroom with the camera with you and your 614 00:32:08,400 --> 00:32:11,960 Speaker 1: man with your cell phone. You know what I'm saying. 615 00:32:12,520 --> 00:32:17,360 Speaker 1: If everyone could do it, everyone would be nominees, a warders, 616 00:32:17,640 --> 00:32:21,080 Speaker 1: would attend these shows, would be invited to do things, 617 00:32:21,080 --> 00:32:23,040 Speaker 1: would be on some of the products, and some of 618 00:32:23,080 --> 00:32:25,560 Speaker 1: the things. You know what I'm saying, would get endorsements. 619 00:32:25,680 --> 00:32:30,760 Speaker 1: Is everyone could do it. There's a big difference from 620 00:32:30,800 --> 00:32:33,200 Speaker 1: doing in your bedroom by yourself and who gives a 621 00:32:33,280 --> 00:32:37,680 Speaker 1: fuck you? You know whoever? You know, I know they 622 00:32:37,680 --> 00:32:40,280 Speaker 1: have all the other the free sites where people are 623 00:32:40,320 --> 00:32:42,680 Speaker 1: putting all those up. And I'm not taking nothing from 624 00:32:43,000 --> 00:32:45,600 Speaker 1: porn hub or anything else, because hell, I got some 625 00:32:45,760 --> 00:32:48,120 Speaker 1: half a minute ship up a porn hub too, you 626 00:32:48,160 --> 00:32:49,760 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. But I don't keep I don't 627 00:32:49,800 --> 00:32:53,160 Speaker 1: indulge in constantly putting stuff up there because I prefer 628 00:32:53,280 --> 00:32:56,520 Speaker 1: I want to be paid correctly, not not a half 629 00:32:56,560 --> 00:33:01,560 Speaker 1: a penny or a penny for a movie. Do you 630 00:33:01,600 --> 00:33:05,120 Speaker 1: be paying more for certain things? You get paid more 631 00:33:05,240 --> 00:33:08,720 Speaker 1: for DP, which I don't do double penetration. I don't 632 00:33:08,720 --> 00:33:10,440 Speaker 1: feel like my ship is big enough for all that. 633 00:33:10,720 --> 00:33:13,920 Speaker 1: I feel like it's gonna bust through. You cannot put 634 00:33:14,000 --> 00:33:15,840 Speaker 1: a dick in my ass and in my couch. You 635 00:33:15,880 --> 00:33:20,360 Speaker 1: have to say too much. I'm not real big there, 636 00:33:20,480 --> 00:33:27,720 Speaker 1: so I just feel like it's gonna bust open. You know, 637 00:33:28,360 --> 00:33:32,280 Speaker 1: those and A know are the biggest for you know, 638 00:33:32,360 --> 00:33:35,640 Speaker 1: a female ain't no and um double penetration. So I 639 00:33:35,680 --> 00:33:37,800 Speaker 1: guess I ain't gonna never get no double penetration money 640 00:33:37,800 --> 00:33:40,080 Speaker 1: because I'm just not doing it. How much you pay 641 00:33:40,160 --> 00:33:43,160 Speaker 1: for double penetration, I don't know, but I know it's 642 00:33:43,160 --> 00:33:45,200 Speaker 1: the largest amount. I don't I don't need to know. 643 00:33:45,240 --> 00:33:49,480 Speaker 1: Because I'm not doing it right, I'm not doing it 644 00:33:49,480 --> 00:33:52,360 Speaker 1: not it's not for me. Ain't no, it's hard enough, 645 00:33:52,960 --> 00:33:56,120 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. So that's not I'm not 646 00:33:56,120 --> 00:33:58,120 Speaker 1: gonna get it from me. Yeah, when I was watching 647 00:33:58,120 --> 00:34:03,480 Speaker 1: the documentary and how like they try to stay away 648 00:34:03,520 --> 00:34:05,320 Speaker 1: from any like they wait until they got a couple 649 00:34:05,360 --> 00:34:08,200 Speaker 1: of years, and then when they do do it, it's 650 00:34:08,280 --> 00:34:12,560 Speaker 1: like they asked me out literally, Yeah, you're not going 651 00:34:12,640 --> 00:34:14,839 Speaker 1: to by the time you do it. That's why I 652 00:34:14,960 --> 00:34:16,960 Speaker 1: don't do it. Girls that do it and they have 653 00:34:17,040 --> 00:34:19,759 Speaker 1: their sights and stuff like that, I just choose not 654 00:34:19,880 --> 00:34:23,080 Speaker 1: to do it. I've done um ain't know, you know. 655 00:34:23,200 --> 00:34:25,120 Speaker 1: I mean I've done you know, my private life of course, 656 00:34:26,120 --> 00:34:28,279 Speaker 1: but that's been like when my baby daddies or something 657 00:34:28,320 --> 00:34:32,840 Speaker 1: like that. But um, as far as in the industry, 658 00:34:32,920 --> 00:34:36,880 Speaker 1: I've only done too antal scenes. Is there anything you 659 00:34:36,920 --> 00:34:40,920 Speaker 1: wouldn't do besides those two? I don't do dps. I 660 00:34:41,000 --> 00:34:45,319 Speaker 1: don't do cream pies, which is girl, I said, that's 661 00:34:45,360 --> 00:34:49,719 Speaker 1: the sling for the Caucasian people cream pies. Uh, girl, 662 00:34:49,840 --> 00:34:53,040 Speaker 1: that's come in you. I don't do that. First of all, 663 00:34:53,120 --> 00:34:56,239 Speaker 1: I have an issue with anything dripping out of me 664 00:34:56,360 --> 00:34:58,759 Speaker 1: like that for seventies. You know what I'm saying, Only 665 00:34:58,800 --> 00:35:01,040 Speaker 1: things should come out of a woman. It's her own body. 666 00:35:01,640 --> 00:35:04,439 Speaker 1: I feel. That's just how I feel on her own. 667 00:35:04,560 --> 00:35:09,239 Speaker 1: You know, your own juices and um, your period, right. 668 00:35:09,880 --> 00:35:12,239 Speaker 1: I just don't like all the drainage, you know what 669 00:35:12,280 --> 00:35:14,839 Speaker 1: I mean. I don't know because I'm single now. I 670 00:35:14,920 --> 00:35:19,200 Speaker 1: don't like the smell afterwards. I'm I mean each of them, 671 00:35:19,239 --> 00:35:22,279 Speaker 1: but I feel like, come make your pussy stay. Yeah, 672 00:35:22,600 --> 00:35:24,600 Speaker 1: but I did. When I was with my research, I 673 00:35:24,680 --> 00:35:26,880 Speaker 1: noticed that a lot of I guess in the industry, 674 00:35:26,920 --> 00:35:31,160 Speaker 1: they they don't condone condoms. They don't condone them. No, 675 00:35:31,760 --> 00:35:36,480 Speaker 1: because we're we're tested, like depending on who you're working with. 676 00:35:36,560 --> 00:35:41,520 Speaker 1: Me myself, I use talent testing services and I won't 677 00:35:41,600 --> 00:35:44,560 Speaker 1: watch that. I won't work with you. If you don't 678 00:35:44,680 --> 00:35:47,880 Speaker 1: use talent testing services, and I won't work with you. 679 00:35:47,920 --> 00:35:50,279 Speaker 1: Of your test is two weeks and all that, oh, 680 00:35:50,360 --> 00:35:53,040 Speaker 1: I mean each his own you know, I mean, you're 681 00:35:53,560 --> 00:35:56,719 Speaker 1: when you go through talent testing services, they have it 682 00:35:57,160 --> 00:36:00,040 Speaker 1: set up where two weeks and let you know, and 683 00:36:00,120 --> 00:36:03,240 Speaker 1: your two week mark comes, your three week mark comes, 684 00:36:03,280 --> 00:36:05,080 Speaker 1: your four week market and they say you need to 685 00:36:05,080 --> 00:36:11,560 Speaker 1: be tested again, because yeah, yeah, I'm real, I'm broadcast 686 00:36:11,600 --> 00:36:15,600 Speaker 1: mine m I put it out there, and it's not 687 00:36:15,680 --> 00:36:17,960 Speaker 1: even just for me to put it out there, because 688 00:36:18,040 --> 00:36:20,560 Speaker 1: the world will know if you went to these sites 689 00:36:21,000 --> 00:36:23,359 Speaker 1: and you know what I'm saying, and you typed in 690 00:36:23,480 --> 00:36:26,520 Speaker 1: my name and you know my information or whatever, I 691 00:36:26,600 --> 00:36:30,480 Speaker 1: broadcast myself right there. I don't I'm not ashamed, you 692 00:36:30,520 --> 00:36:33,280 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. I don't give a fuck. I 693 00:36:33,360 --> 00:36:36,840 Speaker 1: raised my kids and never was a secret from my family, 694 00:36:36,960 --> 00:36:39,200 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. I got like one or 695 00:36:39,200 --> 00:36:41,680 Speaker 1: two people my family who would be telling me, oh, 696 00:36:41,800 --> 00:36:43,719 Speaker 1: you you don't gotta do this, and you don't gotta 697 00:36:43,760 --> 00:36:46,520 Speaker 1: do that. I ain't nobody making me do it. You know. 698 00:36:46,560 --> 00:36:48,279 Speaker 1: I do it because I want to do it, and 699 00:36:48,320 --> 00:36:50,279 Speaker 1: I do it because I'm good at it, and I 700 00:36:50,480 --> 00:36:53,000 Speaker 1: do it because I've built this brand, you know what 701 00:36:53,040 --> 00:36:55,960 Speaker 1: I'm saying, And it is. It's not an everlasting thing 702 00:36:56,000 --> 00:36:59,440 Speaker 1: that I'm gonna do till I know, but I started it. 703 00:36:59,840 --> 00:37:02,319 Speaker 1: I feel like I conquered it. I came in and 704 00:37:02,360 --> 00:37:05,080 Speaker 1: I blew through it. I got some of those paid 705 00:37:05,120 --> 00:37:07,440 Speaker 1: scenes when nobody else was getting them at a certain 706 00:37:07,560 --> 00:37:11,239 Speaker 1: at a certain point, I own my own own a 707 00:37:11,239 --> 00:37:13,760 Speaker 1: lot of my rights to you know what I'm saying. 708 00:37:14,239 --> 00:37:16,920 Speaker 1: I shot with some people that a lot of people 709 00:37:17,440 --> 00:37:21,080 Speaker 1: that when B b W said they were never when 710 00:37:21,080 --> 00:37:24,719 Speaker 1: they said that they weren't male talent. Okay, For one, 711 00:37:24,920 --> 00:37:28,239 Speaker 1: Wesley Pipes, I worked with him. He wasn't working with 712 00:37:28,320 --> 00:37:32,359 Speaker 1: big girls anymore at the point that I worked with him. 713 00:37:32,440 --> 00:37:36,520 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. I got hired by a 714 00:37:36,640 --> 00:37:42,319 Speaker 1: company from Cali Um. I told a friend of mine, 715 00:37:42,320 --> 00:37:44,560 Speaker 1: which is another male talent, that I did my very 716 00:37:44,640 --> 00:37:52,160 Speaker 1: first anal scene with me and him were like like, huh, girl, 717 00:37:54,840 --> 00:37:57,320 Speaker 1: but it like this. He's good at what he does, 718 00:37:58,000 --> 00:38:04,319 Speaker 1: but it's the camera mm hm. He's basic, Like you 719 00:38:04,360 --> 00:38:08,160 Speaker 1: know what I mean. But he's great. He's a great 720 00:38:09,120 --> 00:38:12,040 Speaker 1: porn star, a great talent, and I mean that. I 721 00:38:12,080 --> 00:38:14,960 Speaker 1: know people call him the ship talker you always got. 722 00:38:14,960 --> 00:38:17,239 Speaker 1: I got guys who be like, yeah, he talked too much, 723 00:38:17,440 --> 00:38:19,920 Speaker 1: but you'll asked to sit there and listen and laugh along. 724 00:38:20,239 --> 00:38:23,560 Speaker 1: He has humor and what he does. But he's very, 725 00:38:23,800 --> 00:38:26,840 Speaker 1: very good. He's very he will teach you what you 726 00:38:27,000 --> 00:38:30,840 Speaker 1: don't know. You know what I'm saying, I'm learned a 727 00:38:30,840 --> 00:38:34,960 Speaker 1: lot about yourself. Yeah, I learned a lot. Actually, the 728 00:38:35,000 --> 00:38:39,080 Speaker 1: first time I squirted was with him. I didn't know 729 00:38:39,280 --> 00:38:42,239 Speaker 1: I've had an excel Useter didn't never tell me that, 730 00:38:42,280 --> 00:38:44,200 Speaker 1: like when I'm riding his face or something, that I'd 731 00:38:44,200 --> 00:38:47,080 Speaker 1: be squirting. I didn't know. Hell he'd be busy cleaning 732 00:38:47,080 --> 00:38:51,799 Speaker 1: it all up. So I had idea. I didn't know 733 00:38:52,000 --> 00:38:55,960 Speaker 1: ship you know what I'm saying. And I was because 734 00:38:56,000 --> 00:38:58,480 Speaker 1: that was my people, you know what I'm saying. So 735 00:38:59,000 --> 00:39:02,960 Speaker 1: when I was asked to do these things with Wesley, 736 00:39:03,200 --> 00:39:06,200 Speaker 1: you know, I guess they took it to him and 737 00:39:06,360 --> 00:39:09,200 Speaker 1: wanted to make sure that I was what he wanted 738 00:39:09,239 --> 00:39:12,319 Speaker 1: to work with. And I was a fresh face, you 739 00:39:12,360 --> 00:39:13,960 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. I was even though I had 740 00:39:13,960 --> 00:39:16,000 Speaker 1: been in the industry for like two years, I was 741 00:39:16,000 --> 00:39:20,440 Speaker 1: still considered a fresh face. I didn't. I still limit 742 00:39:20,520 --> 00:39:22,520 Speaker 1: who I work with, Like a lot of the girls 743 00:39:22,600 --> 00:39:24,520 Speaker 1: is just going and working with Tom Dick and Harry. 744 00:39:24,880 --> 00:39:28,680 Speaker 1: I'm very choosing and there's been a lot of people 745 00:39:28,680 --> 00:39:30,560 Speaker 1: who have asked me to work with them, and I 746 00:39:30,680 --> 00:39:33,920 Speaker 1: told him no, you know what I'm saying, I just 747 00:39:33,960 --> 00:39:36,040 Speaker 1: have issues with a lot of because it has to 748 00:39:36,080 --> 00:39:39,640 Speaker 1: be beneficial for me, just because you work with Jane 749 00:39:39,640 --> 00:39:42,480 Speaker 1: and Lisa and Kelly. Don't mean that that's what I 750 00:39:42,600 --> 00:39:45,600 Speaker 1: want on my ship. Don't mean that, you know what 751 00:39:45,680 --> 00:39:49,640 Speaker 1: I mean. You might look good on camera with gunshot 752 00:39:49,640 --> 00:39:54,880 Speaker 1: wounds and and stab marks on on Lord's sight, but 753 00:39:54,960 --> 00:39:57,560 Speaker 1: I don't won't know stabbed up motherfucker on my site. 754 00:39:58,160 --> 00:39:59,920 Speaker 1: I feel like I do enough for that with the 755 00:40:00,000 --> 00:40:03,040 Speaker 1: track marks and all that. Yeah, when I was on 756 00:40:03,120 --> 00:40:05,200 Speaker 1: your page, I felt like, well I was on your 757 00:40:05,200 --> 00:40:07,560 Speaker 1: site because life into my research. I feel like most 758 00:40:07,600 --> 00:40:09,480 Speaker 1: of the men kind of like you got like they 759 00:40:09,640 --> 00:40:11,440 Speaker 1: kind of they don't look alike, but they kind of 760 00:40:11,440 --> 00:40:15,919 Speaker 1: like they don't look crazy. Yeah, I'm real picky. I'm 761 00:40:16,160 --> 00:40:19,480 Speaker 1: very very picky on who I deal with and and 762 00:40:19,520 --> 00:40:22,160 Speaker 1: I know a lot of people, like you know, there's 763 00:40:22,160 --> 00:40:24,640 Speaker 1: a particular company and I love him. His name is 764 00:40:24,760 --> 00:40:27,960 Speaker 1: Ki from BBW. Hydhway shouts out to him. You know 765 00:40:28,000 --> 00:40:32,200 Speaker 1: what I'm saying, Um Ken Run's quite like about two 766 00:40:32,280 --> 00:40:34,880 Speaker 1: or three different companies. He's you know, he still shoots 767 00:40:34,880 --> 00:40:37,600 Speaker 1: the big girls. Then now he's into just the girls 768 00:40:37,600 --> 00:40:39,760 Speaker 1: with the big booties, you know, different type of stuff, 769 00:40:40,000 --> 00:40:45,080 Speaker 1: you know, and with him he is he shot some 770 00:40:45,120 --> 00:40:48,640 Speaker 1: stuff for me, but he's like as far as companies 771 00:40:48,719 --> 00:40:52,279 Speaker 1: like he started telling people. This is recently is when 772 00:40:52,320 --> 00:40:54,319 Speaker 1: I really realized that he knew that I took what 773 00:40:54,400 --> 00:40:57,920 Speaker 1: I do seriously. And we were in Vegas and someone 774 00:40:58,080 --> 00:41:01,040 Speaker 1: came in and they were doing like a weekend a 775 00:41:01,160 --> 00:41:05,120 Speaker 1: marathon shoot during a d in wartime, and I was 776 00:41:05,160 --> 00:41:07,239 Speaker 1: staying at the house like he've been rented like a 777 00:41:07,280 --> 00:41:09,640 Speaker 1: mansion or whatever. So that first night that I was there, 778 00:41:09,680 --> 00:41:11,520 Speaker 1: since I came in so late, he picked me up 779 00:41:11,560 --> 00:41:13,040 Speaker 1: an airport and I stayed at the house. So that 780 00:41:13,120 --> 00:41:15,120 Speaker 1: following morning, I'm getting dressed so I can go through 781 00:41:15,160 --> 00:41:18,040 Speaker 1: my testing while I'm out, and they is and someone 782 00:41:18,160 --> 00:41:20,440 Speaker 1: comes in and the guy sees me and he's like, 783 00:41:20,440 --> 00:41:23,240 Speaker 1: oh my god, is that her? Wait a minute, wait 784 00:41:23,280 --> 00:41:25,680 Speaker 1: wait what's her name? And he told her mind or whatever, 785 00:41:26,200 --> 00:41:29,000 Speaker 1: and then the guy was like, well, if she shooting. 786 00:41:29,000 --> 00:41:30,560 Speaker 1: By this time, I'm walking in the room, but I 787 00:41:30,600 --> 00:41:33,520 Speaker 1: hear everything. He was like, Yo, you know, she really 788 00:41:33,560 --> 00:41:36,759 Speaker 1: ain't ain't shooting, but I'm sure she will shoot. But 789 00:41:36,840 --> 00:41:40,239 Speaker 1: you know you gotta pay her right because do you 790 00:41:40,320 --> 00:41:43,919 Speaker 1: have do you have the prices for things? Depending on 791 00:41:44,040 --> 00:41:48,359 Speaker 1: if I for certain companies like now, the manager that 792 00:41:48,400 --> 00:41:51,440 Speaker 1: I have now because remind you that, um, the people 793 00:41:51,480 --> 00:41:54,200 Speaker 1: who did come to Buffalo with the wife and everything, 794 00:41:54,480 --> 00:41:58,120 Speaker 1: they ended up being my managers. They ended up I 795 00:41:58,239 --> 00:42:02,480 Speaker 1: ended up. But he didn't know anybody. He don't know anybody. 796 00:42:02,760 --> 00:42:05,319 Speaker 1: Me and him ended up in a relationship, and the 797 00:42:05,360 --> 00:42:09,760 Speaker 1: whole fucking nine it went, you know, it went totally 798 00:42:09,760 --> 00:42:12,279 Speaker 1: to the left, It went where shouldn't have went, you 799 00:42:12,320 --> 00:42:14,840 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. And now my manager who I have, 800 00:42:15,080 --> 00:42:17,840 Speaker 1: now we were friends for a long time, and I 801 00:42:17,920 --> 00:42:21,640 Speaker 1: ended up telling him, like you know, he was handling 802 00:42:21,719 --> 00:42:26,520 Speaker 1: certain things. Because men in this industry are vultures. They 803 00:42:26,560 --> 00:42:30,839 Speaker 1: take advantage of the girls. And and it's the black men. 804 00:42:32,400 --> 00:42:35,840 Speaker 1: I love my brothers, but a lot of the producers 805 00:42:35,880 --> 00:42:41,319 Speaker 1: in this industry, especially the East Coast producers take advantage 806 00:42:41,400 --> 00:42:44,200 Speaker 1: of the girls. You know what I'm saying. They really 807 00:42:44,239 --> 00:42:46,960 Speaker 1: really do a lot of them. You know, they're they're 808 00:42:47,000 --> 00:42:49,200 Speaker 1: just not into helping the girls with anything. Like I 809 00:42:49,239 --> 00:42:51,759 Speaker 1: just don't think it makes any sense for you to 810 00:42:52,000 --> 00:42:55,080 Speaker 1: sit tell a girl to come to your city or 811 00:42:55,120 --> 00:42:57,600 Speaker 1: whatever to shoot you not paying her. It's gonna be 812 00:42:57,640 --> 00:43:02,960 Speaker 1: content exchange, you know. But see, some of these girls 813 00:43:03,080 --> 00:43:06,280 Speaker 1: don't even have websites. Don't know how to set up clips. 814 00:43:06,320 --> 00:43:09,880 Speaker 1: Stores don't have you know, don't have any weird to 815 00:43:10,040 --> 00:43:13,359 Speaker 1: post their stuff at. And the thing these days is 816 00:43:13,400 --> 00:43:16,439 Speaker 1: because of the way the Internet has tooken over so much. 817 00:43:16,840 --> 00:43:19,319 Speaker 1: Either you're gonna get paid by your company, or you're 818 00:43:19,360 --> 00:43:24,960 Speaker 1: gonna decide to do your own website and own your material. 819 00:43:26,080 --> 00:43:28,719 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. If you own your material, 820 00:43:28,840 --> 00:43:30,759 Speaker 1: I mean there's good and there's bad. You can get 821 00:43:30,800 --> 00:43:33,440 Speaker 1: paid by this company. You only get paid one time. 822 00:43:33,520 --> 00:43:37,560 Speaker 1: You gotta remember that that's it. This is not a 823 00:43:38,280 --> 00:43:40,719 Speaker 1: you get paid back to back. You know you're gonna 824 00:43:40,800 --> 00:43:43,680 Speaker 1: keep getting a check, and that's not how it works. 825 00:43:43,480 --> 00:43:46,120 Speaker 1: It has that has ever been a scene where you 826 00:43:46,160 --> 00:43:48,120 Speaker 1: didn't feel comfortable doing and you're just like, now, I'm 827 00:43:48,160 --> 00:43:54,720 Speaker 1: not doing it. I had a scene She's a sweet lady. 828 00:43:55,239 --> 00:43:57,360 Speaker 1: I think it was the worst, one of my worst scenes. 829 00:43:58,840 --> 00:44:04,839 Speaker 1: I've had three scenes that I feel I shouldn't ever did, 830 00:44:06,920 --> 00:44:10,759 Speaker 1: and one was I loved the lady. Once again, it 831 00:44:10,840 --> 00:44:13,080 Speaker 1: wasn't her, it was her male talent. And I don't 832 00:44:13,120 --> 00:44:15,000 Speaker 1: give people no I don't care. I do name drop 833 00:44:15,480 --> 00:44:17,399 Speaker 1: um when it comes to this kind of stuff, because 834 00:44:17,400 --> 00:44:20,200 Speaker 1: they know how I feel. I worked for Busty Baby Downs. 835 00:44:20,320 --> 00:44:26,440 Speaker 1: Everybody loves the scene. I hate the scene. I hate 836 00:44:26,440 --> 00:44:29,919 Speaker 1: the scene, and I think because before you get ready, 837 00:44:30,000 --> 00:44:32,319 Speaker 1: even though you don't have time to get to know 838 00:44:32,440 --> 00:44:36,000 Speaker 1: a person. This particular man that I worked with for her, 839 00:44:36,560 --> 00:44:39,320 Speaker 1: I had time to get to know him for maybe 840 00:44:39,520 --> 00:44:42,360 Speaker 1: a year before she ended up, you know what I'm saying, 841 00:44:42,440 --> 00:44:45,879 Speaker 1: contacting me and asking me to shoot with her. I 842 00:44:45,920 --> 00:44:48,440 Speaker 1: tried to get on her site for years, and she 843 00:44:48,520 --> 00:44:51,160 Speaker 1: kept denying me. She said I didn't have enough attributes. 844 00:44:52,120 --> 00:44:57,960 Speaker 1: Whatever the funk that is? Yeah, Like, what what's she means? 845 00:44:58,239 --> 00:45:01,000 Speaker 1: I guess my ass wasn't big enough. My titties ain't 846 00:45:01,040 --> 00:45:04,200 Speaker 1: on the floor, you know what I'm saying. Like, you know, 847 00:45:04,239 --> 00:45:07,799 Speaker 1: but I have a different look like a lot of 848 00:45:07,800 --> 00:45:09,719 Speaker 1: the girls in the industry look alike, you know what 849 00:45:09,760 --> 00:45:12,120 Speaker 1: I'm saying. And I don't feel like I look like 850 00:45:12,160 --> 00:45:15,719 Speaker 1: any of them. What I'm saying, even like we all 851 00:45:15,760 --> 00:45:17,880 Speaker 1: got a little pouches or whatever. You know, Well I 852 00:45:17,920 --> 00:45:21,200 Speaker 1: got a big pouch, but whatever, I'm a big girl. 853 00:45:23,040 --> 00:45:25,680 Speaker 1: But at that time, I was shooting back to back 854 00:45:25,719 --> 00:45:28,360 Speaker 1: to back to back for a company called p y 855 00:45:28,520 --> 00:45:31,440 Speaker 1: T out of New York and UM his name is 856 00:45:31,480 --> 00:45:35,200 Speaker 1: pretty So I was shooting for him NonStop, back to 857 00:45:35,280 --> 00:45:38,320 Speaker 1: back to back to back, you know. And I think 858 00:45:38,880 --> 00:45:41,560 Speaker 1: because they had a big b b W party going 859 00:45:41,600 --> 00:45:46,759 Speaker 1: on out there, um for pipes, I went and it's 860 00:45:46,800 --> 00:45:48,759 Speaker 1: like at that point when I was going out there, 861 00:45:48,800 --> 00:45:53,520 Speaker 1: I had like six people different companies that wanted to 862 00:45:53,560 --> 00:45:56,319 Speaker 1: shoot with me, all at the same time. And that's 863 00:45:56,360 --> 00:45:59,160 Speaker 1: when she jumped on the bandwagon and was like, I'm like, oh, 864 00:45:59,280 --> 00:46:01,200 Speaker 1: now you want work with the bitch that don't have 865 00:46:01,360 --> 00:46:08,560 Speaker 1: enough attributes. So at that my price played in my benefit, 866 00:46:09,360 --> 00:46:12,279 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. But then I also had 867 00:46:12,320 --> 00:46:16,080 Speaker 1: knew that the BBWs sucked the game up they did, 868 00:46:16,600 --> 00:46:20,080 Speaker 1: you know, versus it before it got so bad where 869 00:46:20,120 --> 00:46:22,759 Speaker 1: everything needs to be content exchange or whatever. But she 870 00:46:22,920 --> 00:46:24,920 Speaker 1: was pretty good. She paid me. She kept trying to 871 00:46:24,960 --> 00:46:27,160 Speaker 1: get me to do a no, and I would have 872 00:46:27,320 --> 00:46:30,440 Speaker 1: done ain't no, but the male talent rubbed me wrong. 873 00:46:30,520 --> 00:46:32,799 Speaker 1: Remind you, I have been talking to this man for 874 00:46:32,880 --> 00:46:36,839 Speaker 1: a year before that, and I didn't want to go 875 00:46:36,920 --> 00:46:38,880 Speaker 1: to the location that she wanted me to come to. 876 00:46:39,200 --> 00:46:41,560 Speaker 1: So I said, the only reason, the only way that 877 00:46:41,600 --> 00:46:43,239 Speaker 1: we would do the shooting, she had to come to 878 00:46:43,280 --> 00:46:45,040 Speaker 1: me because I ain't too keen about getting on the 879 00:46:45,040 --> 00:46:47,120 Speaker 1: trains in New York City by myself, you know what 880 00:46:47,160 --> 00:46:49,320 Speaker 1: I'm saying. At that point, I was like, shoot, I 881 00:46:49,320 --> 00:46:51,319 Speaker 1: ain't trying to get robbed. I ain't trying to you know, 882 00:46:51,360 --> 00:46:53,879 Speaker 1: I was going through it. So she ended up coming 883 00:46:53,880 --> 00:46:56,040 Speaker 1: to my room or whatever. She had him come to 884 00:46:56,040 --> 00:46:57,719 Speaker 1: the room. Do you know this motherfucker came in my 885 00:46:57,880 --> 00:47:01,279 Speaker 1: room and didn't even speak to me. And maybe I'm 886 00:47:01,320 --> 00:47:03,080 Speaker 1: old fashioned or something, but when he came and I 887 00:47:03,080 --> 00:47:06,920 Speaker 1: was like, hey, he didn't even speak to me. He 888 00:47:06,960 --> 00:47:09,120 Speaker 1: wouldn't be you know, he talked to her, not literally, 889 00:47:09,160 --> 00:47:11,600 Speaker 1: it's just me, him and her in the room. He 890 00:47:11,640 --> 00:47:14,240 Speaker 1: would not speak to me in no way, shape or form. 891 00:47:14,360 --> 00:47:17,200 Speaker 1: What kind of fucking bullish it is? This? I felt 892 00:47:17,239 --> 00:47:21,000 Speaker 1: totally disrespected, you know what I'm saying. He didn't say, 893 00:47:21,160 --> 00:47:23,479 Speaker 1: I said, what kind of bullshit? Is all right? Because 894 00:47:24,480 --> 00:47:29,480 Speaker 1: I thought that was real rude. But I'm trying, right, 895 00:47:29,960 --> 00:47:34,440 Speaker 1: m I was trying to be professional about it, you know, 896 00:47:34,520 --> 00:47:36,719 Speaker 1: and not go off because normally I'll cut you the 897 00:47:36,800 --> 00:47:39,600 Speaker 1: funk out. You know what I'm saying, This is my 898 00:47:39,680 --> 00:47:42,719 Speaker 1: motherfucker room. She ain't paid for this room. Yet she's 899 00:47:42,719 --> 00:47:45,320 Speaker 1: paying me. You know what I'm saying. She's a wonderful 900 00:47:45,400 --> 00:47:49,280 Speaker 1: you know, wonderful young lady, beautiful woman, beautiful, pretty, a sale, 901 00:47:49,680 --> 00:47:52,080 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. Very easy to get along with, 902 00:47:52,239 --> 00:47:56,319 Speaker 1: easy to work with. But him, there was absolutely no 903 00:47:56,480 --> 00:47:59,960 Speaker 1: chemistry because of his attitude, so you would just turn 904 00:48:00,120 --> 00:48:02,799 Speaker 1: I was totally turned off. Then the motherfuck came out 905 00:48:02,840 --> 00:48:06,239 Speaker 1: the bathroom. I didn't know what the funk he had on. 906 00:48:06,960 --> 00:48:10,080 Speaker 1: I didn't understand it. He was not a track at 907 00:48:10,120 --> 00:48:14,160 Speaker 1: this point. Not only is you ugly inside, to me, 908 00:48:14,440 --> 00:48:17,040 Speaker 1: you look like a fucking idiot on the outside walking 909 00:48:17,040 --> 00:48:20,040 Speaker 1: out here with all these goddamn stripes and colors and 910 00:48:20,200 --> 00:48:22,600 Speaker 1: stripes going this way, colors going that way. What is 911 00:48:22,640 --> 00:48:25,279 Speaker 1: going on? And I'm like, what do you got on? 912 00:48:25,400 --> 00:48:28,360 Speaker 1: He said, all the girls like it? I said, on what? Not? 913 00:48:28,480 --> 00:48:34,880 Speaker 1: On earth? So anyways, we end up doing the shoot. 914 00:48:36,200 --> 00:48:41,120 Speaker 1: That is when I really really came to my mind, 915 00:48:41,160 --> 00:48:43,200 Speaker 1: like I didn't have never have any problems. You know, 916 00:48:43,360 --> 00:48:46,080 Speaker 1: I tested through telling, testing all the time. But that's 917 00:48:46,080 --> 00:48:49,520 Speaker 1: when I started finding out that girls in the industry 918 00:48:49,560 --> 00:48:53,160 Speaker 1: truly was sucking dicks. Some of them, not gonna say 919 00:48:53,160 --> 00:48:56,359 Speaker 1: all of them, Some of them would be okay with 920 00:48:56,640 --> 00:48:59,840 Speaker 1: giving head without a condom, but fucking with the condom 921 00:49:00,000 --> 00:49:03,399 Speaker 1: one to me, it makes no sense. Yeah, the same 922 00:49:03,440 --> 00:49:06,560 Speaker 1: thing you get the mouth you give you. You know 923 00:49:06,560 --> 00:49:09,640 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. And I don't want nothing either place. Well, 924 00:49:09,680 --> 00:49:11,920 Speaker 1: I know that you said that you got you get tested, 925 00:49:12,080 --> 00:49:14,560 Speaker 1: um tested offense. Has there ever been a ton that 926 00:49:14,640 --> 00:49:19,399 Speaker 1: you've been afraid of getting any stvs? There was a guy. 927 00:49:19,600 --> 00:49:22,600 Speaker 1: Actually that's not that same weekend it was all wasn't 928 00:49:22,640 --> 00:49:26,480 Speaker 1: that was it? No, it wasn't that same weekend when 929 00:49:26,480 --> 00:49:28,560 Speaker 1: I was. There was another weekend when in New York 930 00:49:28,800 --> 00:49:32,760 Speaker 1: and there was a fairly new talent that my people 931 00:49:33,000 --> 00:49:35,560 Speaker 1: used before. He was the only one out of the 932 00:49:35,560 --> 00:49:37,719 Speaker 1: whole group that I made use a condom because his 933 00:49:37,840 --> 00:49:41,480 Speaker 1: test was late. And I'm not with it if I 934 00:49:41,520 --> 00:49:43,600 Speaker 1: feel any type of way and I can't find a 935 00:49:43,640 --> 00:49:46,279 Speaker 1: pattern of testing, you know what I'm saying. You're gonna 936 00:49:46,280 --> 00:49:49,440 Speaker 1: do talent tested services. Your stuff stays on record, you 937 00:49:49,480 --> 00:49:53,080 Speaker 1: know what I mean. I just don't. I don't take chances. 938 00:49:53,160 --> 00:49:55,719 Speaker 1: I'm not into you know. Mother's like, well okay, now 939 00:49:55,719 --> 00:49:58,960 Speaker 1: I just go to my doctor. Hell no, yeah, you 940 00:49:59,040 --> 00:50:01,759 Speaker 1: can do that. And I'm gonna look at it, but 941 00:50:01,840 --> 00:50:05,919 Speaker 1: I need you to go today. I needed to be 942 00:50:06,239 --> 00:50:08,720 Speaker 1: if you got tested and we know a month before 943 00:50:09,040 --> 00:50:10,840 Speaker 1: I'm gonna need you to you go to your doctor 944 00:50:10,880 --> 00:50:14,360 Speaker 1: for that month before, you know, while we prepare ourselves 945 00:50:14,440 --> 00:50:16,319 Speaker 1: and you know, before we come up to that date 946 00:50:16,360 --> 00:50:18,960 Speaker 1: of the time of shooting. You know, you can have 947 00:50:19,000 --> 00:50:20,960 Speaker 1: a pattern of you know, I need I would like 948 00:50:21,000 --> 00:50:23,880 Speaker 1: to see a pattern of cleanliness, you know what I'm saying. 949 00:50:24,280 --> 00:50:27,279 Speaker 1: But when it comes time to do this shoot, you 950 00:50:27,360 --> 00:50:29,680 Speaker 1: need to be going at least those three days before 951 00:50:30,239 --> 00:50:32,600 Speaker 1: this time for us to do that shoot. I'm really 952 00:50:32,640 --> 00:50:37,000 Speaker 1: not big on a person who've been tested thirty days ago. Um. 953 00:50:37,040 --> 00:50:39,439 Speaker 1: I feel that that's a problem, and I don't feel 954 00:50:39,480 --> 00:50:44,600 Speaker 1: that you're serious about your craft. Yeah, because it's bad 955 00:50:44,719 --> 00:50:47,719 Speaker 1: enough within three days. A mother can can funt the 956 00:50:47,760 --> 00:50:53,279 Speaker 1: world in three days, let alone. And that's why when 957 00:50:53,280 --> 00:50:57,120 Speaker 1: it's something from my website, I watch you. I watch 958 00:50:57,160 --> 00:50:59,920 Speaker 1: your social media. You know what I'm saying. I want 959 00:51:00,000 --> 00:51:02,600 Speaker 1: watch the different ship, the comments that go up, the 960 00:51:02,640 --> 00:51:05,719 Speaker 1: comments that the stats you put up. I watched because 961 00:51:05,760 --> 00:51:09,439 Speaker 1: I need to see. I need to see what type 962 00:51:09,480 --> 00:51:13,040 Speaker 1: of lifestyle you're actually living. I watch your lives I 963 00:51:13,120 --> 00:51:15,120 Speaker 1: do all of that, you know what I mean? Because 964 00:51:15,160 --> 00:51:19,040 Speaker 1: I want to see if you're promiscuous, it sex even 965 00:51:19,040 --> 00:51:22,080 Speaker 1: pleasurable for you anymore? Though? Yes it is when I'm 966 00:51:22,080 --> 00:51:24,960 Speaker 1: with somebody, I want to be with m But is 967 00:51:25,000 --> 00:51:27,040 Speaker 1: it hard for you to open up to somebody, let 968 00:51:27,080 --> 00:51:29,880 Speaker 1: them know exactly what you like? There's another profession that 969 00:51:30,000 --> 00:51:36,319 Speaker 1: you're in. No, because most people already know. Most already know, 970 00:51:37,000 --> 00:51:42,040 Speaker 1: Like in my city, they're watching my movies, they already 971 00:51:42,080 --> 00:51:44,680 Speaker 1: know who I am. I got a large fan I 972 00:51:44,719 --> 00:51:48,600 Speaker 1: got fans here. I don't feel like my city supports 973 00:51:48,680 --> 00:51:51,120 Speaker 1: like they should. I don't feel But soon does a 974 00:51:51,160 --> 00:51:53,480 Speaker 1: new movie come and I put it out that there's 975 00:51:53,480 --> 00:51:56,319 Speaker 1: a new movie. You know what I'm saying. They're constantly well, 976 00:51:56,400 --> 00:51:57,799 Speaker 1: let me get it, let me get it, you know 977 00:51:57,840 --> 00:51:59,799 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. I know for a fact that there's 978 00:51:59,840 --> 00:52:02,600 Speaker 1: a out of my movies that are being bootlegged in 979 00:52:02,680 --> 00:52:07,080 Speaker 1: my city. Because if it's not authentic and it didn't 980 00:52:07,120 --> 00:52:09,520 Speaker 1: come from some of the places here that is actually 981 00:52:09,520 --> 00:52:12,239 Speaker 1: selling it, that I would, you know, you know, do 982 00:52:12,360 --> 00:52:15,799 Speaker 1: business with in my city. Anything that comes from me, 983 00:52:16,560 --> 00:52:21,400 Speaker 1: I am burnt onto the CD. Wow, that's why not 984 00:52:21,560 --> 00:52:24,120 Speaker 1: the sticky tape ship that they put on, you know, 985 00:52:24,200 --> 00:52:26,680 Speaker 1: the front of the seat. No burnt on. I pay 986 00:52:26,800 --> 00:52:29,520 Speaker 1: the money for me to be burnt on because I 987 00:52:29,560 --> 00:52:32,400 Speaker 1: feel that it's a keepsake. You know what I'm saying. 988 00:52:32,680 --> 00:52:35,439 Speaker 1: This has come. It's authentic, and it's not just like 989 00:52:35,480 --> 00:52:39,000 Speaker 1: my face. No, there's a body purpose a titty, titty 990 00:52:39,040 --> 00:52:42,239 Speaker 1: in my mouth, my pussy, hands in my pussy. You know, 991 00:52:42,719 --> 00:52:44,319 Speaker 1: I was on your website. I was like, oh, she 992 00:52:44,440 --> 00:52:51,560 Speaker 1: she's busting it open open, like I said, Okay, So 993 00:52:51,640 --> 00:52:53,960 Speaker 1: I'm pretty sure that many times that you've been on 994 00:52:53,960 --> 00:52:55,840 Speaker 1: in the street and people can't come up to you 995 00:52:55,880 --> 00:52:59,040 Speaker 1: and be like, hey, that's going so well in my 996 00:52:59,120 --> 00:53:02,160 Speaker 1: regular everyday life is as funny as you're saying it is. 997 00:53:02,200 --> 00:53:05,839 Speaker 1: Because my graphics artists always complains about it. I am 998 00:53:05,920 --> 00:53:09,680 Speaker 1: the most dressed down person when I tell you, I 999 00:53:09,840 --> 00:53:13,160 Speaker 1: walked two blocks to the Family Dollar. You know what 1000 00:53:13,160 --> 00:53:16,280 Speaker 1: I'm saying. Everybody on my street knows about the industry, 1001 00:53:16,320 --> 00:53:18,759 Speaker 1: except for the new family that moved over here. But 1002 00:53:19,600 --> 00:53:21,759 Speaker 1: I walked to Family Dollar. I put a scarf for 1003 00:53:21,840 --> 00:53:24,920 Speaker 1: in my head and I always look, you know, my 1004 00:53:25,160 --> 00:53:28,360 Speaker 1: piercing in my eyebrow. I put the scarf on where 1005 00:53:28,719 --> 00:53:31,040 Speaker 1: I would constantly be pulling it over it because I 1006 00:53:31,040 --> 00:53:33,600 Speaker 1: don't want everybody to know, you know, what I'm doing. 1007 00:53:33,719 --> 00:53:35,480 Speaker 1: Like I want to be able to walk to the 1008 00:53:35,480 --> 00:53:37,960 Speaker 1: store and be dressed down. But the one thing I 1009 00:53:38,040 --> 00:53:40,080 Speaker 1: don't want them to do is see me off guard 1010 00:53:40,200 --> 00:53:42,759 Speaker 1: and realize who I am and start taking pictures you 1011 00:53:42,760 --> 00:53:44,839 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying and putting it on social media 1012 00:53:44,840 --> 00:53:48,920 Speaker 1: because I'm looking busted. Yeah, I ain't got all that 1013 00:53:49,000 --> 00:53:51,160 Speaker 1: makeup on. And that's the one thing that people seem 1014 00:53:51,200 --> 00:53:53,960 Speaker 1: to think is that we wake up like that. You know. 1015 00:53:54,040 --> 00:53:56,480 Speaker 1: It's so funny because when I'm out, like the most part, 1016 00:53:56,520 --> 00:53:59,440 Speaker 1: I'm always on. But when i'm off, like I have 1017 00:53:59,520 --> 00:54:01,319 Speaker 1: to put on shades and stuf because I do not 1018 00:54:01,400 --> 00:54:03,279 Speaker 1: want people seeing me like they're like, sometimes you just 1019 00:54:03,280 --> 00:54:06,000 Speaker 1: want me to yourself. Yeah, And the moment you say 1020 00:54:06,080 --> 00:54:07,799 Speaker 1: no to a picture like you would say no, it's 1021 00:54:07,840 --> 00:54:09,640 Speaker 1: not feeling like you're not feeling well. I feeling up 1022 00:54:09,640 --> 00:54:14,960 Speaker 1: to speak to somebody that people say, yes they do. 1023 00:54:16,480 --> 00:54:20,360 Speaker 1: I'm just tired. I mean, I got on dragon pants, 1024 00:54:20,880 --> 00:54:24,080 Speaker 1: T shirt. Look at funk up us. Push your bra 1025 00:54:24,239 --> 00:54:27,440 Speaker 1: because these mothers, these puppies ain't sitting up saying hello, Now, 1026 00:54:28,000 --> 00:54:34,160 Speaker 1: push up, bra. You know, so I wear sports brad 1027 00:54:34,320 --> 00:54:36,400 Speaker 1: at work. You know what I'm saying, I'm kind of 1028 00:54:36,480 --> 00:54:38,759 Speaker 1: hold these motherfucker's down. Say don't get in a way, 1029 00:54:39,040 --> 00:54:41,680 Speaker 1: you know, and I did. It was crazy because there 1030 00:54:41,800 --> 00:54:46,520 Speaker 1: was a deaf guy that actually knew who I was. Child. 1031 00:54:47,560 --> 00:54:50,359 Speaker 1: They started discussing it, and I had a guy at 1032 00:54:50,360 --> 00:54:52,239 Speaker 1: my job that I was I was. I ain't gonna 1033 00:54:52,320 --> 00:54:55,120 Speaker 1: I'm very attracted to him, very attracted to him, you 1034 00:54:55,160 --> 00:54:57,680 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. Every time he touches me and 1035 00:54:57,800 --> 00:54:59,800 Speaker 1: just like, oh, I get that, you know that little 1036 00:55:00,000 --> 00:55:03,279 Speaker 1: a little Yeah. So when he like one day him 1037 00:55:03,280 --> 00:55:06,520 Speaker 1: grabbing my arm or some ship and trying to talk 1038 00:55:06,520 --> 00:55:08,279 Speaker 1: to me, and I was like oh, and like I'll 1039 00:55:08,360 --> 00:55:10,279 Speaker 1: say little things and I'm like, oh, I need to 1040 00:55:10,320 --> 00:55:13,040 Speaker 1: fucking massage my back hurt and so bad. He like, 1041 00:55:13,440 --> 00:55:15,840 Speaker 1: I can besside you. Didn't he make a little you know, stop, 1042 00:55:15,880 --> 00:55:17,800 Speaker 1: don't play with me, boy, because I'll suck around and 1043 00:55:18,160 --> 00:55:22,640 Speaker 1: take it. Okay, Now he knows to date the the 1044 00:55:22,800 --> 00:55:25,799 Speaker 1: deaf boy did a little sign language one day and 1045 00:55:25,840 --> 00:55:32,839 Speaker 1: I noticed, Yo, the black dude he knew about who 1046 00:55:32,840 --> 00:55:35,800 Speaker 1: I was. Awesome. Me and him had disgusted it. He knew, 1047 00:55:36,080 --> 00:55:38,320 Speaker 1: you know, but I know he never he hadn't told anyone. 1048 00:55:38,440 --> 00:55:41,719 Speaker 1: The deaf boy says something to him about it, and 1049 00:55:41,760 --> 00:55:44,600 Speaker 1: the black dude head just turned. He was like, and 1050 00:55:44,640 --> 00:55:46,560 Speaker 1: I'm like, talk about what? And he said, he knows 1051 00:55:46,600 --> 00:55:49,120 Speaker 1: who you are. And I'm like, oh the funk, here 1052 00:55:49,160 --> 00:55:51,920 Speaker 1: we go. So here I go. I'm coming. You know 1053 00:55:51,920 --> 00:55:54,520 Speaker 1: what I'm saying, Um down the hall, and I just 1054 00:55:54,560 --> 00:55:56,719 Speaker 1: wouldn't reached out and shook his hand. Yes it's me. 1055 00:55:57,160 --> 00:55:59,799 Speaker 1: I just nodded up and down y'all and shook his head. 1056 00:56:00,239 --> 00:56:02,439 Speaker 1: And then he put his hands up, asked to say zip. 1057 00:56:02,520 --> 00:56:05,920 Speaker 1: His mouth is closed. He'll never say nothing about him child. 1058 00:56:06,719 --> 00:56:11,680 Speaker 1: Wait see do your kids yeah yeah, oh m hmm. 1059 00:56:12,520 --> 00:56:16,439 Speaker 1: Not kids support. I've took in my youngest with me 1060 00:56:17,040 --> 00:56:21,759 Speaker 1: to a convention a couple of years ago. Um, she's 1061 00:56:21,840 --> 00:56:23,880 Speaker 1: eight team when she was eighteen, I took her to 1062 00:56:23,920 --> 00:56:26,640 Speaker 1: a convention because she does here and does make up. 1063 00:56:27,120 --> 00:56:31,319 Speaker 1: And it's easier when I got someone with me, because 1064 00:56:31,320 --> 00:56:34,080 Speaker 1: I do so much. I have really came to a 1065 00:56:34,120 --> 00:56:37,640 Speaker 1: realization like I need an intern. You know what I'm saying. 1066 00:56:37,760 --> 00:56:42,920 Speaker 1: I need help. It's hard when you got shoots I 1067 00:56:42,960 --> 00:56:47,200 Speaker 1: got appearances, and then I gotta be at the convention 1068 00:56:47,200 --> 00:56:50,520 Speaker 1: and appear there too in these hills. Then I gotta 1069 00:56:50,600 --> 00:56:55,840 Speaker 1: rush back to the room, change clothes, take a shower, 1070 00:56:56,440 --> 00:56:58,680 Speaker 1: trying to look through my suitcase for figure out what 1071 00:56:59,000 --> 00:57:01,879 Speaker 1: outfit I want to win Here, I got fifteen. When 1072 00:57:01,880 --> 00:57:04,799 Speaker 1: I say, I take everything, including the kitchen, sink, in 1073 00:57:04,840 --> 00:57:07,960 Speaker 1: the tub, and in the shower head too. I have 1074 00:57:08,120 --> 00:57:12,160 Speaker 1: one suitcase all the time with nothing but shoes. You 1075 00:57:12,200 --> 00:57:14,879 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, Because that's the difference from me 1076 00:57:14,960 --> 00:57:18,360 Speaker 1: and a lot of the other girls. I like the 1077 00:57:18,720 --> 00:57:22,360 Speaker 1: My my wardrobe is so very important. My shoe game 1078 00:57:22,680 --> 00:57:26,400 Speaker 1: is on fucking point. I like shoes and things that 1079 00:57:26,440 --> 00:57:28,960 Speaker 1: nobody else is wearing. Most of these girls, most of 1080 00:57:28,960 --> 00:57:32,600 Speaker 1: the girls were the same thing. You know, the stretchy 1081 00:57:32,640 --> 00:57:35,280 Speaker 1: outfit that you get for twelve or fifteen dollars out 1082 00:57:35,320 --> 00:57:39,000 Speaker 1: there here store, you know, with the with the holes 1083 00:57:39,080 --> 00:57:41,440 Speaker 1: and the fishing holes or whatever. You know what I mean. 1084 00:57:41,520 --> 00:57:44,880 Speaker 1: I like things that stand out that's gonna make you 1085 00:57:44,920 --> 00:57:47,040 Speaker 1: look double take. You know what I'm saying. I like 1086 00:57:47,120 --> 00:57:50,120 Speaker 1: to look different. You know, So my shoe game and 1087 00:57:50,160 --> 00:57:53,240 Speaker 1: my my outfit is very important. You know, you're like 1088 00:57:53,280 --> 00:57:55,960 Speaker 1: I said, everyone looks alike, and I don't want to 1089 00:57:56,000 --> 00:57:58,800 Speaker 1: be looking nor act just like anyone else. I and 1090 00:57:58,960 --> 00:58:02,640 Speaker 1: me and I'm different. You know, some people could say, 1091 00:58:03,160 --> 00:58:04,920 Speaker 1: you know, like the shoes, they'd be like, how are 1092 00:58:04,960 --> 00:58:07,720 Speaker 1: you walking in those? One ft in front of the other? Bit? 1093 00:58:08,880 --> 00:58:11,040 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. You know, I get a 1094 00:58:11,080 --> 00:58:13,800 Speaker 1: lot of moments on the clothing and the shoes and 1095 00:58:13,880 --> 00:58:16,080 Speaker 1: different stuff like that. You know, a lot of big 1096 00:58:16,120 --> 00:58:19,040 Speaker 1: girls can't stand and know what I call whole heels. 1097 00:58:19,840 --> 00:58:22,000 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. They are wearing the fat heels, 1098 00:58:22,000 --> 00:58:24,240 Speaker 1: which ain't nothing wrong with the fat heels. But what 1099 00:58:24,440 --> 00:58:28,800 Speaker 1: works for my body is what I wear and I 1100 00:58:28,800 --> 00:58:33,400 Speaker 1: don't feel. Yeah, That's how I've made my image, you know, 1101 00:58:33,760 --> 00:58:36,440 Speaker 1: talking about my clothing and stuff. I went to Texas 1102 00:58:36,800 --> 00:58:39,280 Speaker 1: and a radio show wanted me to come in and 1103 00:58:39,360 --> 00:58:42,040 Speaker 1: before I didn't even know they what what. They asked 1104 00:58:42,080 --> 00:58:45,400 Speaker 1: me for interview. When I got to Texas, to come 1105 00:58:45,440 --> 00:58:47,960 Speaker 1: into the studio and they will do the interview. But 1106 00:58:48,280 --> 00:58:51,280 Speaker 1: the day before I left, they called me talking about 1107 00:58:51,320 --> 00:58:53,600 Speaker 1: they wanted they all want to know what I'm wearing, 1108 00:58:53,880 --> 00:58:56,280 Speaker 1: what I'm gonna be bringing, what type of shoes that's 1109 00:58:56,320 --> 00:58:59,000 Speaker 1: what brought me to like that? These people really like 1110 00:58:59,280 --> 00:59:02,960 Speaker 1: my style, you know what I mean. So I'm just different. 1111 00:59:04,080 --> 00:59:09,240 Speaker 1: Defer what's next after form? Well for you, I am 1112 00:59:09,280 --> 00:59:12,720 Speaker 1: in the process of getting ready to start trying to 1113 00:59:12,720 --> 00:59:15,880 Speaker 1: write a book. I've spoke to, you know, a few people, 1114 00:59:16,280 --> 00:59:21,600 Speaker 1: and one person the price. He told me because my life. 1115 00:59:21,840 --> 00:59:24,440 Speaker 1: I mean, I'm not no eighteen year old. Seventeen year old, 1116 00:59:24,480 --> 00:59:26,480 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. So I've had so much 1117 00:59:26,560 --> 00:59:28,840 Speaker 1: happen to me in my life. When I say a lot, 1118 00:59:28,880 --> 00:59:33,480 Speaker 1: a lot, from being molested to being raped, abuse, you 1119 00:59:33,480 --> 00:59:35,800 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, by the kids, fathers. You know 1120 00:59:35,840 --> 00:59:39,720 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. Um, you know, drugs, I've done it. 1121 00:59:39,960 --> 00:59:42,160 Speaker 1: I've been through it, I did stay time. I mean, 1122 00:59:42,200 --> 00:59:45,840 Speaker 1: I've had so much. So it's like I'm writing it down. 1123 00:59:46,760 --> 00:59:48,800 Speaker 1: I'll go crazy trying to do this. So what someone 1124 00:59:48,880 --> 00:59:51,160 Speaker 1: told me to do after speaking to this um this 1125 00:59:51,280 --> 00:59:54,840 Speaker 1: company about me writing the book and stuff, they told 1126 00:59:54,840 --> 00:59:58,880 Speaker 1: me to just verbally recorded, right, you know what I'm saying, 1127 00:59:58,960 --> 01:00:02,080 Speaker 1: Just record and then they'll go through and listen to 1128 01:00:02,120 --> 01:00:10,200 Speaker 1: the tapes. That's a lot of damn tapes. Then I 1129 01:00:10,240 --> 01:00:14,320 Speaker 1: could never do that, so that end I'm also getting 1130 01:00:14,320 --> 01:00:19,960 Speaker 1: ready to um release. I have the the the promos 1131 01:00:20,000 --> 01:00:23,080 Speaker 1: from my eyelashes and stuff. So I got that. I've got, 1132 01:00:23,120 --> 01:00:25,720 Speaker 1: I've chosen the boxes that I want to use. I'm 1133 01:00:25,720 --> 01:00:30,720 Speaker 1: saying because I've already been branded. You know, I'm already 1134 01:00:30,800 --> 01:00:34,560 Speaker 1: on Rated X energy drink. I am a face of 1135 01:00:34,600 --> 01:00:36,960 Speaker 1: an energy drink. I my whole body is on an 1136 01:00:37,000 --> 01:00:41,120 Speaker 1: energy drink can nice. You know that's the You will 1137 01:00:41,160 --> 01:00:44,040 Speaker 1: see that on the website too, you know what i mean. 1138 01:00:44,120 --> 01:00:46,320 Speaker 1: The picture that's actually you know what I mean, the 1139 01:00:46,320 --> 01:00:48,160 Speaker 1: the logo and all that Rated X that's on the 1140 01:00:48,200 --> 01:00:52,680 Speaker 1: website because yeah, because I am on their can, like 1141 01:00:52,800 --> 01:00:55,600 Speaker 1: literally on there, you know. So, And it's crazy that 1142 01:00:55,640 --> 01:00:58,760 Speaker 1: I'm be talking about that because the same person who 1143 01:00:58,800 --> 01:01:02,880 Speaker 1: owns that can in that company is actually running for 1144 01:01:02,960 --> 01:01:09,680 Speaker 1: an office in New York City. Wow, Like everyone had 1145 01:01:09,680 --> 01:01:12,360 Speaker 1: a past, and you know what I'm saying, But you 1146 01:01:12,440 --> 01:01:15,080 Speaker 1: can't let your future define what you're you know what 1147 01:01:15,080 --> 01:01:18,560 Speaker 1: I'm saying. Whatever you did in your past, you know, 1148 01:01:18,720 --> 01:01:21,320 Speaker 1: do you think that the things that happened to you 1149 01:01:21,480 --> 01:01:24,440 Speaker 1: as well, I don't know the age, but being molested 1150 01:01:24,480 --> 01:01:26,960 Speaker 1: and raping, you think that had a lot to do 1151 01:01:26,960 --> 01:01:30,640 Speaker 1: with you be in the point star. I think with 1152 01:01:30,760 --> 01:01:34,920 Speaker 1: me knowing how to do certain things, it's because you 1153 01:01:34,960 --> 01:01:39,680 Speaker 1: had to be taught, right mm hmm, you know. And 1154 01:01:40,200 --> 01:01:45,720 Speaker 1: the I see the person regular who molested me, really 1155 01:01:46,240 --> 01:01:48,280 Speaker 1: it's my and I'm really not like I told you 1156 01:01:48,360 --> 01:01:52,280 Speaker 1: when before we decided to do this, when you contacted me, like, 1157 01:01:52,320 --> 01:01:54,640 Speaker 1: there is no shame in my game. And I don't 1158 01:01:54,680 --> 01:01:56,480 Speaker 1: know how I'm gonna go about it, but that will 1159 01:01:56,560 --> 01:01:59,280 Speaker 1: be part of some chapter of my book. My door, 1160 01:01:59,360 --> 01:02:03,600 Speaker 1: my sister's father what I'm saying, and and you know, 1161 01:02:03,720 --> 01:02:06,600 Speaker 1: I love my mother, you know what I'm saying. And 1162 01:02:06,640 --> 01:02:08,960 Speaker 1: I was raised by you know, between my mother and 1163 01:02:08,960 --> 01:02:12,000 Speaker 1: my grandmother. But at the end of the day, I 1164 01:02:12,000 --> 01:02:14,800 Speaker 1: feel like my mother knew. M M. How is your 1165 01:02:14,840 --> 01:02:19,240 Speaker 1: relationship with her now? It's not good at all. Like 1166 01:02:19,400 --> 01:02:21,960 Speaker 1: she sends my mother lives in Virginia, and she sends me, 1167 01:02:22,520 --> 01:02:24,960 Speaker 1: you know, cards, sends my kids cards. You know what 1168 01:02:25,040 --> 01:02:27,800 Speaker 1: I'm saying. She talked to the kids whenever she wants whatever, 1169 01:02:27,880 --> 01:02:30,800 Speaker 1: you know, But as far as me and her, I can't. 1170 01:02:31,560 --> 01:02:35,640 Speaker 1: I just can't. You know, when you tell your child 1171 01:02:35,680 --> 01:02:39,920 Speaker 1: things like you're just trying to take my man and 1172 01:02:39,920 --> 01:02:45,160 Speaker 1: you and I'm eleven, twelve years old, and I've told 1173 01:02:45,240 --> 01:02:48,800 Speaker 1: you what was going on, you know what I'm saying, 1174 01:02:49,080 --> 01:02:51,040 Speaker 1: And you know I didn't. I was the first one 1175 01:02:51,080 --> 01:02:55,240 Speaker 1: to tell her. My my sister's godmother told her, you know, 1176 01:02:55,480 --> 01:02:58,840 Speaker 1: and I ran away, ended up getting picked up and 1177 01:02:59,120 --> 01:03:02,000 Speaker 1: was you know, play send a facility, and my mother 1178 01:03:02,080 --> 01:03:03,960 Speaker 1: came to see me, and I refused to leave with 1179 01:03:04,040 --> 01:03:05,880 Speaker 1: them because I knew what I was going back to, 1180 01:03:07,280 --> 01:03:09,480 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. I refused to leave. She 1181 01:03:09,600 --> 01:03:11,800 Speaker 1: comes in with the very motherfucker that's doing this to me, 1182 01:03:12,040 --> 01:03:14,560 Speaker 1: and I tell her about it, and she's in the 1183 01:03:14,600 --> 01:03:17,200 Speaker 1: facility telling me that I'm just trying to break them up, 1184 01:03:17,320 --> 01:03:19,160 Speaker 1: and I'm trying to take her man, and I'm telling 1185 01:03:19,160 --> 01:03:22,000 Speaker 1: you that, you know, I'm twelve years old, and they 1186 01:03:22,080 --> 01:03:25,800 Speaker 1: definitely part because if you're telling somebody something's going on 1187 01:03:25,880 --> 01:03:28,920 Speaker 1: with you, that's being done by being done by somebody 1188 01:03:28,960 --> 01:03:33,880 Speaker 1: that she has a relationship with, like and old send 1189 01:03:33,920 --> 01:03:37,640 Speaker 1: you that relationship literally, you know how like when you're 1190 01:03:37,720 --> 01:03:40,040 Speaker 1: if you have a closet in your room, you know, 1191 01:03:40,600 --> 01:03:44,480 Speaker 1: that's how close our bedrooms was me and my mother. 1192 01:03:44,920 --> 01:03:48,120 Speaker 1: You can't tell me on a daily basis that you 1193 01:03:48,240 --> 01:03:53,000 Speaker 1: didn't know, and I'm being threatened with, you know, like 1194 01:03:53,040 --> 01:03:55,840 Speaker 1: if I'm if I'm sneaking out the house my mother 1195 01:03:55,880 --> 01:03:57,600 Speaker 1: at work and I'm going to see your little boy 1196 01:03:57,680 --> 01:04:01,600 Speaker 1: or whatever, and he's coming by the house when she's gone, 1197 01:04:02,080 --> 01:04:04,720 Speaker 1: and him telling me, well, I'm gonna if you don't 1198 01:04:04,760 --> 01:04:06,560 Speaker 1: do this, I'm gonna tell that you did this. You 1199 01:04:06,640 --> 01:04:08,400 Speaker 1: was going to see that boy and you was going 1200 01:04:08,440 --> 01:04:11,960 Speaker 1: to you know whatever, whatever, And you're twelve years old, 1201 01:04:12,080 --> 01:04:16,240 Speaker 1: You're scared. Yeah, so I'm going along with it, right, 1202 01:04:17,040 --> 01:04:20,280 Speaker 1: you know, but me not me knowing it's wrong, but 1203 01:04:20,400 --> 01:04:23,760 Speaker 1: nobody listening to me. But this is my only way, 1204 01:04:24,360 --> 01:04:26,640 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, because like my mother, you know, 1205 01:04:26,640 --> 01:04:28,080 Speaker 1: I don't want to be put out on the street 1206 01:04:29,240 --> 01:04:31,480 Speaker 1: at twelve years old, Like what am I supposed to do? 1207 01:04:32,120 --> 01:04:34,080 Speaker 1: And so when I ran away, like the last time, 1208 01:04:34,120 --> 01:04:37,440 Speaker 1: I was like it, it was like it, I just 1209 01:04:37,520 --> 01:04:40,000 Speaker 1: refused to come home. So I've been raising myself literally, 1210 01:04:40,320 --> 01:04:42,760 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. To be honest, I've been 1211 01:04:42,800 --> 01:04:44,800 Speaker 1: raised myself. Even though I lived in a house with 1212 01:04:44,840 --> 01:04:48,120 Speaker 1: my mother or whatever, but pretty much ten years old, 1213 01:04:48,320 --> 01:04:50,120 Speaker 1: I've been pretty much on my own. So I was 1214 01:04:50,120 --> 01:04:53,600 Speaker 1: ten years old. I've been taking care of somebody's kids, 1215 01:04:53,920 --> 01:04:56,840 Speaker 1: my sisters, all my brothers, you know, my father's kids, 1216 01:04:56,880 --> 01:05:00,120 Speaker 1: all of that since I was ten years old, you 1217 01:05:00,160 --> 01:05:02,880 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. So you know, when you're thinking 1218 01:05:02,880 --> 01:05:05,040 Speaker 1: you're gonna be put outside and ship, you ain't got 1219 01:05:05,080 --> 01:05:06,480 Speaker 1: no choice, you know what I mean. You want to 1220 01:05:06,520 --> 01:05:08,800 Speaker 1: do what you have to do, you know, And I 1221 01:05:08,880 --> 01:05:12,720 Speaker 1: was at twelve, and you know, it's just I feel 1222 01:05:12,760 --> 01:05:18,600 Speaker 1: like I perfected the craft because I was taught it. Wow, 1223 01:05:19,360 --> 01:05:21,880 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. And you know I was. 1224 01:05:22,840 --> 01:05:25,280 Speaker 1: You do you ever think about if things wouldn't happen 1225 01:05:25,320 --> 01:05:27,040 Speaker 1: to you, that you probably would went down different paths? 1226 01:05:27,880 --> 01:05:34,680 Speaker 1: You know what I do? Like I started picking older men. Yeah. 1227 01:05:35,000 --> 01:05:37,440 Speaker 1: My oldest daughter's father seven and a half years older me, 1228 01:05:37,480 --> 01:05:39,880 Speaker 1: and I feel to this day he's a fucking pedophile. 1229 01:05:40,160 --> 01:05:42,560 Speaker 1: I feel like he is too, because he was seven 1230 01:05:42,600 --> 01:05:45,280 Speaker 1: and a half years older than me. He was holding 1231 01:05:45,320 --> 01:05:47,240 Speaker 1: my hand at seven years old. I was put in 1232 01:05:47,320 --> 01:05:51,120 Speaker 1: positions I feel that a child should never have been 1233 01:05:51,160 --> 01:05:54,680 Speaker 1: put in. I kill a rock. I was very protective 1234 01:05:54,720 --> 01:05:57,200 Speaker 1: of my girls, you know what I'm saying, especially my 1235 01:05:57,280 --> 01:06:00,120 Speaker 1: youngest to my oldest is you know much older, you 1236 01:06:00,120 --> 01:06:03,480 Speaker 1: know what I mean. But my youngest too, very I 1237 01:06:03,520 --> 01:06:08,800 Speaker 1: didn't have boyfriends, you know what I'm saying, Like years old, 1238 01:06:08,800 --> 01:06:11,080 Speaker 1: I adn't have niggers up in my motherfucking house. Listen, 1239 01:06:11,120 --> 01:06:14,880 Speaker 1: I didn't even when my brothers would be here along 1240 01:06:14,960 --> 01:06:16,760 Speaker 1: with my kids, would be on here by my other 1241 01:06:16,800 --> 01:06:20,920 Speaker 1: houses along with my kids. I questioned it because I 1242 01:06:21,000 --> 01:06:25,120 Speaker 1: was molested by the very person that I loved to death, 1243 01:06:25,360 --> 01:06:28,520 Speaker 1: the very person who defended me when my mother was 1244 01:06:28,560 --> 01:06:30,640 Speaker 1: getting ready to what me or you know what I'm saying, 1245 01:06:31,000 --> 01:06:36,600 Speaker 1: the very person that I trusted more than anybody, you 1246 01:06:36,600 --> 01:06:39,520 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, And the very person who sucked 1247 01:06:39,520 --> 01:06:43,040 Speaker 1: the ship out of a little girl. Yeah, you know. 1248 01:06:43,320 --> 01:06:47,400 Speaker 1: So you know, I do believe that when I finally 1249 01:06:47,480 --> 01:06:51,160 Speaker 1: left home, you know, with my oldest daughter's father. I 1250 01:06:51,240 --> 01:06:54,680 Speaker 1: do believe that had I not been chasing behind some 1251 01:06:55,120 --> 01:06:56,960 Speaker 1: to me, it was looking for love and all the 1252 01:06:56,960 --> 01:07:00,920 Speaker 1: wrong places. Had I not been chasing behind him, I 1253 01:07:01,040 --> 01:07:05,040 Speaker 1: would of stayed in school and did what I needed 1254 01:07:05,080 --> 01:07:07,720 Speaker 1: to do. I was an honor roll, you know what 1255 01:07:07,760 --> 01:07:10,320 Speaker 1: I'm saying. I was doing great. I had a few 1256 01:07:10,400 --> 01:07:13,800 Speaker 1: funk ups, like taking cans of beer to school and 1257 01:07:13,880 --> 01:07:19,520 Speaker 1: drinking it in the lunch room. Doing stupid ship gets 1258 01:07:19,560 --> 01:07:26,400 Speaker 1: suspending for dumb ship. I don't even ask what made 1259 01:07:26,400 --> 01:07:29,320 Speaker 1: my head stupid. But when I sit back and think 1260 01:07:29,320 --> 01:07:31,320 Speaker 1: of some of the ship I did, I still think 1261 01:07:31,400 --> 01:07:37,880 Speaker 1: it was reaching out. I needed help, you know, articulated 1262 01:07:37,960 --> 01:07:40,080 Speaker 1: the best way you knew how. Yeah, I needed help, 1263 01:07:40,280 --> 01:07:42,800 Speaker 1: you know? And and and I didn't have nobody to 1264 01:07:42,960 --> 01:07:45,840 Speaker 1: help me or to tell me. Nothing like literally a 1265 01:07:46,080 --> 01:07:50,680 Speaker 1: kid raising herself. You know what, do you have any regrets? 1266 01:07:52,560 --> 01:07:57,120 Speaker 1: You know what? I love all my kids, but wish 1267 01:07:57,160 --> 01:08:00,960 Speaker 1: kids I could never do it again. Um. You know, 1268 01:08:01,280 --> 01:08:05,320 Speaker 1: my oldest daughter's father, I truly regret regret him because 1269 01:08:05,320 --> 01:08:07,320 Speaker 1: I feel like had I not been looking for love 1270 01:08:07,360 --> 01:08:09,200 Speaker 1: and all the row places, But who's to say if 1271 01:08:09,200 --> 01:08:11,240 Speaker 1: it wasn't him, it wasn't someone gonna be someone else. 1272 01:08:11,520 --> 01:08:14,840 Speaker 1: But I do think that he took a lot of 1273 01:08:14,880 --> 01:08:19,880 Speaker 1: self esteem from me. I feel like when he manipulated me, 1274 01:08:20,120 --> 01:08:22,559 Speaker 1: I was still a kid. You know what I'm saying. 1275 01:08:22,960 --> 01:08:25,439 Speaker 1: I felt like he was taking care of me. But 1276 01:08:25,520 --> 01:08:29,559 Speaker 1: then abuse, You know what I'm saying. I did what 1277 01:08:29,640 --> 01:08:32,040 Speaker 1: I learned, what I was taught, like the abuse and 1278 01:08:32,080 --> 01:08:36,559 Speaker 1: abuse and being abused, and like this motherfucker really did 1279 01:08:36,640 --> 01:08:40,080 Speaker 1: things to me that you know, nobody should ever held. 1280 01:08:40,080 --> 01:08:43,519 Speaker 1: The first Cara ever bought was for him. You know 1281 01:08:43,520 --> 01:08:46,559 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. It was because I thought this motherfucker 1282 01:08:46,640 --> 01:08:50,240 Speaker 1: loved me. I thought when a motherfucker beat your ass, 1283 01:08:50,800 --> 01:08:53,000 Speaker 1: that that was what you're supposed to you know what 1284 01:08:53,080 --> 01:08:55,559 Speaker 1: I mean, You're supposed to stay because my mother did 1285 01:08:55,560 --> 01:08:59,559 Speaker 1: it right. You know, I feel like I broke the 1286 01:08:59,640 --> 01:09:02,880 Speaker 1: site go because out of every woman on my mother's 1287 01:09:02,880 --> 01:09:06,200 Speaker 1: side of family, they stayed down to my grandmother, they 1288 01:09:06,360 --> 01:09:10,439 Speaker 1: stayed because that's all I knew was to kid, get 1289 01:09:10,479 --> 01:09:13,360 Speaker 1: your ass beat. You know what I'm saying. I'm getting 1290 01:09:13,400 --> 01:09:16,400 Speaker 1: beat down at home. I'm getting beat down, you know 1291 01:09:16,400 --> 01:09:18,719 Speaker 1: what I'm saying by the man that I think I love. 1292 01:09:19,240 --> 01:09:21,240 Speaker 1: You know what I mean all of that. You're granted 1293 01:09:21,320 --> 01:09:23,360 Speaker 1: he took me in, but hell, I wouldn't have got 1294 01:09:23,400 --> 01:09:26,080 Speaker 1: put out if I wasn't creeping off with him, right, 1295 01:09:26,680 --> 01:09:28,880 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. So it was just like 1296 01:09:29,000 --> 01:09:35,040 Speaker 1: it's a it's a psycho saying it's a psycho. And 1297 01:09:35,160 --> 01:09:39,360 Speaker 1: this is why I've really I as far as you know, um, 1298 01:09:39,400 --> 01:09:42,760 Speaker 1: as far as my kids, I didn't really have men 1299 01:09:42,840 --> 01:09:45,840 Speaker 1: living in my household, you know, as my When my 1300 01:09:45,880 --> 01:09:48,599 Speaker 1: oldest daughter left home and she was out the house, 1301 01:09:49,000 --> 01:09:52,280 Speaker 1: I finally started dating again, and I was so scared. 1302 01:09:52,600 --> 01:09:55,120 Speaker 1: You know, I was terrified because I still had to work. 1303 01:09:55,560 --> 01:09:58,400 Speaker 1: I had money put up, but I still kept on working. 1304 01:09:59,040 --> 01:10:02,320 Speaker 1: But I was still scared leave my kids with that motherfucker. Right. 1305 01:10:02,760 --> 01:10:05,679 Speaker 1: So it was a constant, every day, constant asking questions. 1306 01:10:06,200 --> 01:10:08,719 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, did he touch you? Did anybody? 1307 01:10:08,720 --> 01:10:10,680 Speaker 1: You know? I would do things to my kids like 1308 01:10:11,040 --> 01:10:13,120 Speaker 1: you know, And it's also one of those things that 1309 01:10:13,200 --> 01:10:16,960 Speaker 1: you was asking because you wanted somebody to ask you that. Yeah, 1310 01:10:17,160 --> 01:10:20,280 Speaker 1: nobody reached out. It wasn't really. I just was protective 1311 01:10:20,479 --> 01:10:22,040 Speaker 1: and I had to make choices like damn, can I 1312 01:10:22,080 --> 01:10:24,880 Speaker 1: go to work or do I? Oh, I don't not 1313 01:10:24,920 --> 01:10:29,160 Speaker 1: to blame him for what was done to me, you 1314 01:10:29,160 --> 01:10:31,080 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. But I don't trust nobody. But 1315 01:10:31,320 --> 01:10:37,600 Speaker 1: no kids like this. In church, everyone is not holy, yeah, 1316 01:10:37,800 --> 01:10:40,320 Speaker 1: you know, everyone is not the you know, it's not 1317 01:10:40,439 --> 01:10:43,040 Speaker 1: safe to leave your kids around. But it was like, Okay, 1318 01:10:43,080 --> 01:10:45,000 Speaker 1: he's living in my house. I take care of his 1319 01:10:45,200 --> 01:10:48,080 Speaker 1: daughter and my own kids, but I gotta go to work. 1320 01:10:50,040 --> 01:10:52,160 Speaker 1: It's choices you have to make. And I you know, 1321 01:10:52,200 --> 01:10:55,240 Speaker 1: and I was grateful. I'm grateful that God blessed my 1322 01:10:55,360 --> 01:10:58,800 Speaker 1: kids enough to know to you know, because to be able. 1323 01:10:58,880 --> 01:11:00,800 Speaker 1: They can come to mom and hell, mommy, don't be 1324 01:11:00,840 --> 01:11:02,920 Speaker 1: I used to always tell them, you know, you don't 1325 01:11:02,920 --> 01:11:04,479 Speaker 1: never got to be scared. Mother on to that they're 1326 01:11:04,479 --> 01:11:06,439 Speaker 1: gonna kill me. Ship. I got a double bear sawed 1327 01:11:06,479 --> 01:11:11,000 Speaker 1: off for each and everyone Upenny bullets to this double 1328 01:11:11,000 --> 01:11:12,800 Speaker 1: bear sawed off. You know what I'm saying. It's in 1329 01:11:12,960 --> 01:11:18,000 Speaker 1: my house with me. Now. That's my name. And on 1330 01:11:18,160 --> 01:11:26,880 Speaker 1: that note, and y'all have any questions, any concerns, any calmness, 1331 01:11:27,479 --> 01:11:30,040 Speaker 1: you want to get to know my guests more has 1332 01:11:30,120 --> 01:11:34,400 Speaker 1: been really literally one of my favorite episodes. Please email 1333 01:11:34,479 --> 01:11:38,519 Speaker 1: me at hello at the Professional Homegirl dot com And 1334 01:11:38,720 --> 01:11:41,000 Speaker 1: until next time, guys. Later