WEBVTT - “I HELP PEOPLE DIE” 0:00:02.600 --> 0:00:05.720 Hello, Hello, what are you doing? 0:00:06.559 --> 0:00:07.760 I'm doing good. What's your name? 0:00:09.480 --> 0:00:13.560 My name is the Manny's name is Many. Yeah, I 0:00:13.680 --> 0:00:17.480 have a storia. I wasn't prepared for that. I'm French 0:00:17.560 --> 0:00:22.400 for my my English maybe not maybe not be the best. 0:00:22.480 --> 0:00:24.759 But yeah, man, how are you doing? Man? 0:00:25.160 --> 0:00:26.840 Yeah, you're you're French Canadian? 0:00:27.880 --> 0:00:29.840 Yes, exactly, Yeah, I'm French Canadian. 0:00:30.360 --> 0:00:30.840 How did that? 0:00:31.200 --> 0:00:31.840 How does that work? 0:00:31.880 --> 0:00:31.960 So? 0:00:32.040 --> 0:00:35.080 Like was Canada? Well, I'm not really I don't know 0:00:35.120 --> 0:00:38.960 what I'm doing by saying that. Okay, so Canada started 0:00:39.000 --> 0:00:41.360 out as like French people and then the English came 0:00:41.400 --> 0:00:43.000 and fucked them up? Or did it start out as 0:00:43.000 --> 0:00:44.960 English people and then the French came and sucked them up? 0:00:45.640 --> 0:00:46.280 Who's there first? 0:00:47.400 --> 0:00:51.000 Yeah? We started as the French people came here and 0:00:51.040 --> 0:00:56.960 then uh we went like from from Quebec to like Louisiana, 0:00:57.760 --> 0:01:00.720 and then the English people came in and you know, 0:01:01.600 --> 0:01:05.680 war and uh I guess, I guess war and they 0:01:05.760 --> 0:01:09.600 wanted to have like resources and stuff in there. Yeah, man, 0:01:09.640 --> 0:01:13.119 we got fucked. We loved the war. 0:01:13.840 --> 0:01:17.480 Yeah, okay, you texted me something. I thought it was 0:01:17.600 --> 0:01:19.360 very interesting. I wanted to talk to you about it. 0:01:20.400 --> 0:01:28.200 Yeah. Sure, So yeah, I'm a nurse, and yeah, you. 0:01:26.840 --> 0:01:30.240 You texted me. You texted me and you said, I 0:01:30.360 --> 0:01:38.319 help people kill themselves via medical aid in dying. So 0:01:38.400 --> 0:01:43.120 you you help people with euthanasia and you said, quote, 0:01:43.640 --> 0:01:48.400 it's the most beautiful thing you can experience. Tell me 0:01:48.480 --> 0:01:50.520 more about this. I was fascinated by that. 0:01:51.720 --> 0:01:51.960 Yeah. 0:01:52.080 --> 0:01:58.400 So we've got here in Canada and Quebec, we we 0:01:58.480 --> 0:02:04.880 have the thing called the Medical Aid in Dying. So 0:02:04.880 --> 0:02:09.640 so basically you have to have a diagnosis of like 0:02:10.000 --> 0:02:15.920 maybe having like cancer or like you know, things like that. 0:02:16.160 --> 0:02:19.800 And when you're like you have three months left to live, 0:02:20.200 --> 0:02:22.400 like you have to know that you're going to die 0:02:22.440 --> 0:02:25.919 in like three to six months. The doctors come in 0:02:25.960 --> 0:02:28.080 and they're like, oh, yeah, do you want to have 0:02:28.280 --> 0:02:34.120 like like your tunisia like thing? You know. So so 0:02:34.400 --> 0:02:36.520 we go there. I go there, I talk with the 0:02:36.560 --> 0:02:40.320 family and the person and we signed paper. We get 0:02:40.360 --> 0:02:44.120 a date and and then yeah, man, you you choose 0:02:44.120 --> 0:02:48.320 the date. And it's it's different from like a palliative 0:02:48.360 --> 0:02:52.200 care because when you have palliative care is like you're 0:02:52.280 --> 0:02:55.640 on morphine, so you just get dazed out and you 0:02:55.760 --> 0:03:00.519 die like slowly. But when you have like the maid things. 0:03:01.880 --> 0:03:04.880 You're fully aware of what's going on. So like you 0:03:04.919 --> 0:03:09.040 have your date and your family member's friends and usually 0:03:09.040 --> 0:03:12.239 people do like a little party and you know, at 0:03:12.560 --> 0:03:15.799 two o'clock, we come in, we talk with you, we 0:03:15.919 --> 0:03:17.520 give you the injection, and that's it. Man. 0:03:18.840 --> 0:03:21.320 I have so many questions, but first I want to 0:03:21.320 --> 0:03:23.680 know what these parties are like. Are is there music? 0:03:23.800 --> 0:03:24.360 Is there food? 0:03:25.560 --> 0:03:30.440 Yeah? Usually people like to do like music and like 0:03:31.080 --> 0:03:34.560 artist that they like, put it on TV. And they 0:03:34.560 --> 0:03:37.880 have like a big buffet, you know, like like the 0:03:37.920 --> 0:03:41.760 food that they like. And usually it's like I have 0:03:41.920 --> 0:03:44.920 like fifteen twenty people. That's the good people. But not 0:03:44.960 --> 0:03:48.000 the good people, but I mean the the people that 0:03:48.160 --> 0:03:52.280 as like a big families. That's what it looks like. 0:03:52.440 --> 0:03:55.360 It's a party. It's what you can think of I 0:03:55.400 --> 0:03:58.400 don't know, like Thanksgiving or something like that. 0:03:59.120 --> 0:04:01.800 And I got the vibe at these parties. Are people 0:04:01.960 --> 0:04:05.160 like dancing and they're happy or are they kind of like, oh, 0:04:05.200 --> 0:04:07.600 our friend is gonna die. 0:04:08.200 --> 0:04:12.520 No, it's more like it's mixed because like people like 0:04:13.200 --> 0:04:17.080 Reminiscent a lot of like stories and you know, talk 0:04:17.160 --> 0:04:22.440 a lot about their their past. And one family, like 0:04:22.560 --> 0:04:25.960 I knew they were there like from six in the morning, 0:04:26.040 --> 0:04:28.640 and they all like went into the room of the 0:04:28.720 --> 0:04:34.240 guy and they all like confessed everything to their father. 0:04:34.440 --> 0:04:38.320 And you know, like when I said confessed, it mostly 0:04:38.440 --> 0:04:42.400 like I'm sorry about what I did, blah blah blah. 0:04:42.520 --> 0:04:46.000 Help you see you liked what I in my life? 0:04:46.160 --> 0:04:50.760 And yeah, yeah, that that one was a good one. Yeah. 0:04:50.800 --> 0:04:54.760 Do you remember any particular confessions that people made on 0:04:54.800 --> 0:04:57.359 their deathbed that stuck out to you? 0:04:59.560 --> 0:05:03.600 Not because I'm not there the all time. I'm mostly 0:05:03.640 --> 0:05:08.800 there like thirty minutes before we give the injection, but 0:05:09.000 --> 0:05:15.280 I remembered not confession. But you know, sometimes like there's 0:05:15.360 --> 0:05:19.960 a there's probably madic because sometimes the people the guy 0:05:20.680 --> 0:05:23.359 like the person wants to die, but some of the 0:05:23.400 --> 0:05:26.360 family members don't want it to like they see it's 0:05:26.400 --> 0:05:30.400 mostly in their religious people, like some of them, they 0:05:30.480 --> 0:05:34.400 don't always accept the decision because some people see it 0:05:34.480 --> 0:05:38.440 like as a suicide kind of like but you know, 0:05:38.520 --> 0:05:44.600 it's it's more like of a value a value confrontation. 0:05:44.960 --> 0:05:48.720 You know, like it's hard sometimes for people to accept it. 0:05:48.760 --> 0:05:53.599 So I'd say the biggest confession I heard about was 0:05:53.720 --> 0:05:58.160 like spinning money, was stealing money, wasn't big of a thing. 0:05:58.200 --> 0:06:01.799 But I can imagine that sometimes people tell other things 0:06:01.800 --> 0:06:04.320 that they want don't want me or the doctor to know. 0:06:05.440 --> 0:06:08.560 Yeah, how old are these people? Typically? Are these elderly people? 0:06:08.680 --> 0:06:11.000 Or do you have any anyone come in there? Young? 0:06:12.839 --> 0:06:17.560 The young Goods that I had was fifty two. Yeah, yeah, 0:06:17.720 --> 0:06:19.760 kind of kind of young. Yeah, how do people? 0:06:19.760 --> 0:06:22.200 How do people? How do people feel when they're dying? 0:06:24.600 --> 0:06:29.040 Then they're usually when I was there, they're not scared 0:06:29.800 --> 0:06:33.520 until we came in with the injection, you know, like 0:06:33.880 --> 0:06:37.640 they're they're mostly they're not anxious. Their decision is made. 0:06:37.880 --> 0:06:43.039 I guess I personally don't know anybody who killed themselves, 0:06:43.040 --> 0:06:45.720 but I feel maybe that's what it's like at the end, 0:06:45.839 --> 0:06:48.599 like your your decision is made, you know what you 0:06:48.640 --> 0:06:52.120 want to do, and like you're doing it. So so 0:06:52.360 --> 0:06:55.360 they're kind of calm through throughout the day and everything. 0:06:55.360 --> 0:06:58.039 But when we came in with the injection, that's when 0:06:58.080 --> 0:07:01.400 you know, you can they're a little bit stressed and 0:07:01.400 --> 0:07:04.960 with the doctor and I'm the one that gives the 0:07:05.000 --> 0:07:08.200 doctor the syringe. We have to do it fast because 0:07:08.200 --> 0:07:11.040 you know, when you started, there's no turning back, you know, 0:07:11.560 --> 0:07:14.880 so so you don't want a guy to to like 0:07:15.120 --> 0:07:18.080 mid mid syringe say oh stuff, I don't want to 0:07:18.080 --> 0:07:19.600 do I don't want to do it. You know, they're 0:07:19.640 --> 0:07:23.320 they're aware of it. When we started, it's like we 0:07:23.600 --> 0:07:24.440 finished the session. 0:07:26.480 --> 0:07:28.160 Yeah that's fucking terrifying. 0:07:29.280 --> 0:07:34.120 Yeah. Yeah, but you know, the thing is the thing 0:07:34.120 --> 0:07:37.440 that is beautiful I feel is you know, Telliative Care. 0:07:37.720 --> 0:07:40.040 Do you know anybody who like telliactive care. 0:07:41.600 --> 0:07:43.800 That's the version where you just kind of like die 0:07:43.880 --> 0:07:45.440 slowly in hospice. 0:07:45.040 --> 0:07:50.000 Right yeah, yeah, exactly, No no, because that that thing 0:07:50.080 --> 0:07:53.160 and is hard. You know, I'm doing it at home 0:07:53.320 --> 0:07:57.800 and man, it's a it's an hard toll on the family, 0:07:58.120 --> 0:08:01.080 Like they have to give them the and you know, 0:08:01.120 --> 0:08:04.760 the people can be the person can be like like 0:08:04.880 --> 0:08:08.080 three to four days unresponsive, but they're still breathing, and 0:08:08.160 --> 0:08:12.440 the breeding is like more like it's like they're they're 0:08:12.760 --> 0:08:16.800 drowning in their own you know, water inside their their lungs. 0:08:17.120 --> 0:08:19.600 So it's not a beautiful experience from what I see 0:08:20.000 --> 0:08:23.120 with the Maiden that it's more of like a celebration 0:08:23.240 --> 0:08:25.800 of life, you know, like they can talk to the 0:08:25.840 --> 0:08:31.320 people still, and yeah, it's it's a beautiful experience. I 0:08:31.360 --> 0:08:34.960 wasn't when I was set sick before when I started 0:08:35.800 --> 0:08:40.880 doing the missile care. But and the first time it 0:08:40.920 --> 0:08:41.679 was really weird. 0:08:41.720 --> 0:08:41.880 Man. 0:08:41.960 --> 0:08:45.600 I was there. The guy was around eighty eighty years 0:08:45.600 --> 0:08:50.640 old and they didn't have grandchildren. And I go over 0:08:50.679 --> 0:08:55.000 there and yeah, like a mementose and a lot of 0:08:55.720 --> 0:08:58.600 narrotse thing and it was my first time and I 0:08:58.679 --> 0:09:02.800 was just starting tool and I was like, what the funck? 0:09:02.840 --> 0:09:03.000 Man? 0:09:03.000 --> 0:09:05.480 What am I doing here? Was weird? Yeah, M. 0:09:07.640 --> 0:09:10.960 Is this a This sounds very Canadian. I don't think 0:09:10.960 --> 0:09:14.040 this is something that is this not available in America? 0:09:15.640 --> 0:09:19.720 I'm not sure. I know in someplace in Europe, like 0:09:20.320 --> 0:09:27.040 and Switzerland. I think they're doing doing it in Switzerland, 0:09:27.120 --> 0:09:30.480 but other than that, I don't. I don't know, man, 0:09:31.320 --> 0:09:33.760 that I know that we just did the first time 0:09:33.800 --> 0:09:38.440 with the COVID this week, first time, not my not 0:09:38.640 --> 0:09:41.760 here at my where I work, but in Canada we 0:09:41.800 --> 0:09:45.600 did the first person who had a long COVID received 0:09:45.640 --> 0:09:49.400 the medical aid in death first time. So so you 0:09:49.480 --> 0:09:54.520 have to have some criteria, but we're like, we have 0:09:54.640 --> 0:10:00.120 some We have a democratic problem which people are an 0:10:00.360 --> 0:10:02.800 older and they don't die. So I feel like the 0:10:02.800 --> 0:10:06.920 government or like enlarging it to be like accessible for 0:10:07.480 --> 0:10:09.960 more people right now? 0:10:10.320 --> 0:10:17.720 Yeah, hmm yeah. Now if you were diagnosed with cancer, 0:10:17.720 --> 0:10:19.720 would you want to go out like that? Or would 0:10:19.760 --> 0:10:22.360 you want to ride it out in the hospice? 0:10:23.600 --> 0:10:26.199 You know, I would do it like that. Yeah, I 0:10:26.200 --> 0:10:29.480 would do it like that. I would do it. I 0:10:29.480 --> 0:10:33.040 would do it like on a boat or something. Yeah, 0:10:33.280 --> 0:10:37.640 I would. Because tell yetive care is a is a bummer. 0:10:37.679 --> 0:10:37.839 Man. 0:10:39.120 --> 0:10:40.880 Do you think there's a lot of pain and everything? 0:10:41.320 --> 0:10:42.920 Where do you think we go after we die? Do 0:10:42.920 --> 0:10:44.880 you believe in some form of afterlife? 0:10:48.520 --> 0:10:53.560 I don't know, man, I would like to, but I'm 0:10:53.920 --> 0:11:01.719 I'm not convinced. Like there's a thing like, uh, when 0:11:01.760 --> 0:11:05.080 you don't believe in God. I know, I don't know 0:11:05.120 --> 0:11:07.560 the expression, but it's like when you're on a plane, 0:11:08.400 --> 0:11:10.680 if you don't believe in God, well you're gonna believe 0:11:11.320 --> 0:11:13.960 on God when the plane is going to crash, Like 0:11:15.000 --> 0:11:19.320 you're trying to find to think that there is very 0:11:19.760 --> 0:11:23.400 there is somebody that can save you. So I don't know, man, 0:11:23.920 --> 0:11:29.240 I would really like to, but in the end, it's 0:11:29.280 --> 0:11:32.360 it's only like a d M T thing that I'm 0:11:32.400 --> 0:11:35.160 buzzing find my own mind and I live for like 0:11:35.240 --> 0:11:39.760 five years and and you know if that's I don't know, man, 0:11:40.480 --> 0:11:43.120 I don't know if there's something. I hope, I really do, 0:11:43.360 --> 0:11:45.160 I really do, do you. 0:11:49.880 --> 0:11:53.160 Well? We have data, sorry, we have we kind of know. 0:11:53.920 --> 0:11:58.839 We have experience not existing. For most of the time 0:11:58.880 --> 0:12:03.400 we've ever not been. For most of all the time 0:12:03.440 --> 0:12:07.160 that anything has ever been, we have not been. And 0:12:07.200 --> 0:12:09.400 for most of the time that anything ever will be, 0:12:09.600 --> 0:12:14.240 we will not be. So I assume that the most 0:12:14.280 --> 0:12:18.840 of the time that will forever be where we will 0:12:18.880 --> 0:12:23.360 not be is exactly the same as all of the 0:12:23.400 --> 0:12:30.480 time that ever was when we were not right. 0:12:31.480 --> 0:12:33.400 Yeah, right, makes sense, makes sense. 0:12:34.040 --> 0:12:36.600 Tell me more. What's the most beautiful thing that you 0:12:36.640 --> 0:12:43.880 have seen in uh? In helping people with this? Uh? 0:12:45.480 --> 0:12:49.240 The beautiful the most beautiful scene I'd say that I had. 0:12:49.240 --> 0:12:52.600 It was like the guy was from Europe and then 0:12:54.320 --> 0:12:56.360 he was in his house, but it was like a 0:12:56.440 --> 0:13:01.440 big house and with a big in a big room, 0:13:01.640 --> 0:13:06.000 and he was like downstairs, but he was looking upstairs 0:13:06.280 --> 0:13:09.600 and it was like, I don't know, there was stairs 0:13:09.600 --> 0:13:12.480 over there, and there were like twenty people at the 0:13:12.480 --> 0:13:15.720 top of the stairs and he was down downstairs with 0:13:15.800 --> 0:13:19.280 the doctor and when we started to give the injection, 0:13:19.400 --> 0:13:23.120 it was like, I feel like, I mean, what a 0:13:23.160 --> 0:13:28.360 beautiful painting? He said, yeah, what a beautiful painting. Yeah, 0:13:28.840 --> 0:13:32.480 he felt like and you know, it was like Europeans. 0:13:32.559 --> 0:13:35.640 So I don't know, like the the way he was 0:13:35.720 --> 0:13:40.240 talking was like very philosophical, but I don't know, like 0:13:40.360 --> 0:13:42.960 the maybe it was the accent. I don't know, man, 0:13:42.960 --> 0:13:46.040 it wasn't. It wasn't like my my weird accent. 0:13:46.840 --> 0:13:49.959 Wait wait you did you didn't like his accent? 0:13:50.600 --> 0:13:53.000 No, no, no, it was a beautiful accent, like he was 0:13:53.040 --> 0:13:56.760 talking in trench. But it was I think it was 0:13:56.880 --> 0:14:00.960 tweeded or something. So it was like, I don't know. 0:14:01.000 --> 0:14:04.920 It was like I don't know, like fine wine, you 0:14:04.960 --> 0:14:07.240 know that there was something in his accent. So it 0:14:07.360 --> 0:14:10.520 was beautiful when he said it. Yeah, and I try 0:14:10.600 --> 0:14:14.120 most of the time because it's there's a lot of 0:14:14.160 --> 0:14:17.000 emotion when you you're giving it. We and the doctor too, 0:14:17.080 --> 0:14:20.760 sometimes we have like a little watery eyes because it's 0:14:21.120 --> 0:14:24.800 it's a it's a it's a good it's a special 0:14:24.920 --> 0:14:28.800 jest or you know, it's a something. And they turned 0:14:28.840 --> 0:14:33.000 gray fast, you know, like in they turned gray fast 0:14:33.040 --> 0:14:35.240 to that. That's one of the things that the family 0:14:36.040 --> 0:14:39.960 tells us every time is they they are not prepared 0:14:40.600 --> 0:14:43.240 that in like two minutes they turned gray and you 0:14:43.280 --> 0:14:46.640 know they're they're dead. That's it. It was talking like 0:14:47.040 --> 0:14:48.120 five minutes ago. 0:14:48.600 --> 0:14:50.560 Their bodies turned gray. 0:14:51.480 --> 0:14:53.880 Yeah, their bodies. Yeah, their bodies. Yeah. 0:14:54.600 --> 0:14:58.760 Oh wow yeah yeah really how how how long have 0:14:58.800 --> 0:15:00.240 you been How long have you been doing this for. 0:15:02.040 --> 0:15:05.160 I've been doing it for a year now. Yeah. Before 0:15:05.200 --> 0:15:08.840 I was in a I did seven years in rehab 0:15:10.360 --> 0:15:13.240 and now I changed and I started doing this. 0:15:14.160 --> 0:15:18.000 Now. You say you cry after every time, do you think, yeah, 0:15:18.040 --> 0:15:20.760 there will come a time if you continue to do 0:15:20.840 --> 0:15:24.960 this where you will become desensitized to death and you'll 0:15:24.960 --> 0:15:28.360 be putting a guy down thinking about what you're going 0:15:28.440 --> 0:15:30.000 to have for dinner afterwards. 0:15:31.760 --> 0:15:41.000 Uh yeah, yeah sure, yeah. Yeah. It's like like you 0:15:41.120 --> 0:15:44.200 gets It's like you know when you start and you're 0:15:44.240 --> 0:15:47.640 in poop, like the first time you're cleaning somebody and 0:15:47.680 --> 0:15:51.560 you're like, oh man, I'm cleaning poop. That's that's crazy, 0:15:51.920 --> 0:15:54.320 that's crazy. I don't like it putting my hands in poop. 0:15:55.760 --> 0:15:57.400 Yeah good, Sorry. 0:15:58.040 --> 0:16:00.400 Oh no, sorry I was making fun of Uh. 0:16:02.600 --> 0:16:05.200 No, no, sorry, no, go for it and I don't mind. 0:16:05.840 --> 0:16:10.160 So yeah, so I was liking ship. You know, the 0:16:10.200 --> 0:16:12.480 first time you're like gagging and everything, and at the 0:16:12.600 --> 0:16:16.000 end you're like, man, it's only poop. I don't give 0:16:16.000 --> 0:16:19.400 a ship about the ship. So I think I would 0:16:19.400 --> 0:16:23.400 be like, like you said, I don't know what to 0:16:23.400 --> 0:16:26.960 say it in English, but I won't be as much 0:16:27.000 --> 0:16:31.880 as sensitive. But in the end, you know, sometimes you 0:16:31.960 --> 0:16:37.160 get more attached of some people and the other you're like, 0:16:37.360 --> 0:16:40.720 it's only you're you're just giving them what they want, 0:16:40.800 --> 0:16:42.480 and you know it's part of the job. So yeah, 0:16:42.520 --> 0:16:45.680 I'm pretty sure I think I will. But in the end, 0:16:45.760 --> 0:16:50.040 it's you're you're not doing this everye like every day, 0:16:50.320 --> 0:16:53.040 like maybe once every year, two or three weeks. So 0:16:53.080 --> 0:16:56.760 it's not you're left, Oh you're. 0:16:56.840 --> 0:16:59.480 So you're you're doing this once every two or three weeks. 0:16:59.760 --> 0:17:00.560 Yeah, yep. 0:17:00.760 --> 0:17:02.600 And what do you do? What are you doing at 0:17:02.680 --> 0:17:04.960 work when you're not doing this. 0:17:06.720 --> 0:17:11.480 I'm treating wounds. I'm treating like I'm giving them like 0:17:11.600 --> 0:17:17.240 injection medication. Yeah, that's that's like maybe the one third 0:17:17.280 --> 0:17:20.359 of my job. The other two third is I'm taking 0:17:20.400 --> 0:17:25.840 care of people, you know. Yeah, so so mostly because 0:17:25.880 --> 0:17:30.400 then here in Quebec, Canada. We have free health care, 0:17:31.320 --> 0:17:35.680 but free health care also means the government pays for everything. 0:17:36.280 --> 0:17:39.919 And when somebody is in the hospital, it costs a 0:17:39.920 --> 0:17:42.960 lot of money, so they prefer for them to stay 0:17:43.359 --> 0:17:47.679 at home. So that's when we get into picture, and 0:17:49.119 --> 0:17:52.000 it costs less money for the government for us to 0:17:52.040 --> 0:17:56.359 go to their place instead of them staying in the 0:17:56.359 --> 0:17:57.760 the the hospital. 0:17:58.240 --> 0:18:01.080 Yeah, what was it like working in the rehab for 0:18:01.119 --> 0:18:03.520 seven years? Was that more or less intense? 0:18:06.240 --> 0:18:08.359 Different? Man, because you have to do a lot of 0:18:10.920 --> 0:18:13.760 you know, you're one day I was doing rehab, but 0:18:13.840 --> 0:18:18.840 it was mostly people who had strokes and you know, 0:18:18.920 --> 0:18:24.400 so like physical rehab, so people have to you know, 0:18:24.600 --> 0:18:29.520 to go from being like a perfectly healthy person to 0:18:31.160 --> 0:18:34.320 to somebody who can't control half of his body and 0:18:34.400 --> 0:18:37.760 can't eat or can't speak or you know, they lose 0:18:37.800 --> 0:18:42.560 a lot of autonomy. So it was different. It was 0:18:42.600 --> 0:18:47.560 different because because half of the people, like they can't 0:18:47.800 --> 0:18:50.800 go back home even when they're young, like fifties, that 0:18:51.000 --> 0:18:54.399 those were the hard one, like in their forties or 0:18:54.520 --> 0:18:59.400 fifties that have a big stroke and you know, can't 0:18:59.440 --> 0:19:03.600 wipe their themselves anymore, you know, things like that. But 0:19:04.040 --> 0:19:08.040 the other for like people who who have like good 0:19:08.080 --> 0:19:12.359 rehab and go back home and just like try to 0:19:12.400 --> 0:19:16.080 start to be eating yelt again or you know, change 0:19:16.119 --> 0:19:20.920 a little bit of things. But yeah, that's it. It's different. Man. 0:19:20.920 --> 0:19:22.760 I was just I was doing I was there for 0:19:22.760 --> 0:19:26.280 seven years, and Indiana I needed to try something else. 0:19:26.320 --> 0:19:28.960 So I was like, I can be in Mark Carr 0:19:29.000 --> 0:19:34.080 and listen to a gecko going to some place to 0:19:34.119 --> 0:19:36.680 see a patience. So I can do that. I would 0:19:36.720 --> 0:19:36.879 like that. 0:19:38.800 --> 0:19:41.240 What's what's next for you on your journey? Do you 0:19:41.240 --> 0:19:44.280 think you're going to stay in uh in in made 0:19:44.480 --> 0:19:47.880 for for for for a long time. 0:19:51.000 --> 0:19:55.760 I think I can do another seven years. I think 0:19:55.960 --> 0:19:59.720 I'm gonna be I'm thirty one, so I started at 0:20:00.480 --> 0:20:06.440 twenty yeah, twenty four, so yeah, twenty two, twenty four, Yeah, 0:20:06.760 --> 0:20:09.600 so I can. I think I'm been doing another seven 0:20:09.680 --> 0:20:13.639 years and maybe I don't know, go work here with 0:20:14.240 --> 0:20:17.320 another doctor of some play else. I don't know what. 0:20:18.000 --> 0:20:20.520 Why did you why seven years? Specifically? Is that like 0:20:20.560 --> 0:20:21.960 the amount of time you're allowed. 0:20:21.720 --> 0:20:24.600 To do it or no? No, I don't know. It's 0:20:24.640 --> 0:20:28.440 just it's like the time I give myself to try 0:20:28.440 --> 0:20:31.080 something to see if I don't know. 0:20:32.000 --> 0:20:33.720 I'm gonna say, that's a lot of time to give 0:20:33.720 --> 0:20:34.879 yourself to try something. 0:20:34.960 --> 0:20:39.920 Seven years. Yeah, no, yeah, sure, sure, I don't know. 0:20:40.000 --> 0:20:43.920 Seven is a is a great number. Seven. I'm giving 0:20:43.960 --> 0:20:45.280 myself another seven years. 0:20:45.560 --> 0:20:51.080 And Elsie, well, actually, I'm gonna do this real quick. 0:20:51.119 --> 0:20:51.879 What's your name again? 0:20:53.119 --> 0:20:53.600 Uh? 0:20:53.760 --> 0:20:58.879 Manny, Manny, I'm Manny. I'm gonna ask the the twitch 0:20:59.000 --> 0:21:02.120 chat that we are current least streaming on if they 0:21:02.160 --> 0:21:04.600 have any questions for you. 0:21:04.920 --> 0:21:05.160 Yeah. 0:21:05.200 --> 0:21:07.760 Sure, right now, let's see if the twitch chat has 0:21:07.800 --> 0:21:13.840 any questions. Okay, we got a question. Anthony seventy nine 0:21:14.640 --> 0:21:18.600 in the chat asks if the hospital provides you therapy. 0:21:20.600 --> 0:21:27.520 Yes, yes, we usually like do a little caucus caucus 0:21:27.560 --> 0:21:31.320 at the end of the when we give one, so 0:21:31.760 --> 0:21:34.760 we're like all the people that work with him, and 0:21:34.800 --> 0:21:37.560 we talk with each other for maybe like a couple 0:21:37.600 --> 0:21:40.320 of thirty minutes or an hour, depends on how the 0:21:41.200 --> 0:21:48.920 procedure went. But also yes, it's we have paid the 0:21:48.960 --> 0:21:51.040 psychological help if we want to. 0:21:51.240 --> 0:21:55.280 Yeah, a lot of people want to know if anyone 0:21:55.480 --> 0:21:58.320 ever backs out and changes their minds. 0:22:00.200 --> 0:22:08.640 Uh, you, it happened one time. But let's say if 0:22:08.680 --> 0:22:11.359 your date is like I don't know, the first of January, 0:22:11.960 --> 0:22:15.760 and you have three other times that you can like 0:22:15.880 --> 0:22:19.360 postpone it. So if you're like going up on the 0:22:19.400 --> 0:22:22.280 first of January and you're like, oh, I feel well, 0:22:22.640 --> 0:22:25.760 I'm going to try another three months, so you can't 0:22:25.760 --> 0:22:31.080 do that. But usually when you're the when you can 0:22:31.320 --> 0:22:34.360 have the maid, usually you're not going to go over 0:22:34.400 --> 0:22:36.639 a year. So that's why I say, like, you can 0:22:36.680 --> 0:22:38.199 do it three times, but in the end you're going 0:22:38.280 --> 0:22:43.960 to die anyway, so there's no there's no miracle happening. 0:22:44.720 --> 0:22:47.359 When when you're yeah, there's no miracle, people are going 0:22:47.440 --> 0:22:47.720 to die. 0:22:47.840 --> 0:22:50.159 I think I think people are wondering, like like like 0:22:50.600 --> 0:22:52.560 as anyone ever like had the party and then the 0:22:52.560 --> 0:22:54.639 guy comes in with the syringe and then the person 0:22:54.760 --> 0:22:56.040 is like, wait, actually don't want to do this. 0:22:57.000 --> 0:23:00.399 Oh yeah, no, nope, never never never never no. 0:23:00.560 --> 0:23:03.560 Okay, good because that's that's well you kind of you 0:23:03.640 --> 0:23:07.399 kind of alluded to that happened and that was terrible. 0:23:07.480 --> 0:23:10.800 No, no, no, no, it it happened. Uh no. I 0:23:10.880 --> 0:23:13.320 had a case in particular. But the guy was like, 0:23:13.480 --> 0:23:16.199 we were gonna come like in the afternoon, and he 0:23:16.240 --> 0:23:19.280 called us and said you wanted it to be postponed, 0:23:19.560 --> 0:23:24.040 but in the same week you we came back because 0:23:24.200 --> 0:23:26.720 he wasn't well enough. And that's the other thing. If 0:23:26.720 --> 0:23:30.520 you want the maid, you have to be eligible. You 0:23:30.560 --> 0:23:36.159 have to be You cannot have Alzheimer or something or 0:23:36.200 --> 0:23:40.840 something like. You have to be aware or I don't 0:23:40.880 --> 0:23:47.080 know in English. Fuck, you have to be like oriented. 0:23:47.200 --> 0:23:51.560 You cannot be. It's not somebody else that can take 0:23:51.600 --> 0:23:55.080 the decision for you, Like, if you have Alzheimer, you 0:23:55.119 --> 0:23:57.400 cannot sign the paper, right, you have to. 0:23:57.359 --> 0:24:00.480 Be I guess you would. I guess mentally competent would 0:24:00.520 --> 0:24:00.960 be the word. 0:24:01.440 --> 0:24:04.359 Yeah, yeah, yeah, exactly. Yeah. 0:24:04.440 --> 0:24:08.080 Somebody said, uh, what's the worst part of the. 0:24:08.080 --> 0:24:15.360 Job, Uh paperwork? Wow? 0:24:15.480 --> 0:24:17.639 If this man has a job where he kills people 0:24:17.680 --> 0:24:19.240 and the worst part is paperwork? 0:24:20.320 --> 0:24:23.240 Yeah, paperwork, man, Yeah. 0:24:22.520 --> 0:24:24.119 I bet you do need to fill a lot of 0:24:24.119 --> 0:24:25.440 paperwork to kill people. 0:24:25.600 --> 0:24:29.280 Yeah, yeah, yeah, exactly yeah. Oh yeah, man. You have 0:24:29.359 --> 0:24:30.720 to protect yourself love. 0:24:30.800 --> 0:24:36.640 Yeah, okay. Final question. Do you enjoy maple syrup? 0:24:38.240 --> 0:24:42.080 Oh? Yeah, I do. Every day in my coffee, I 0:24:42.200 --> 0:24:44.960 put like one third of maple syrup. I'm gonna be 0:24:45.040 --> 0:24:46.560 diabetic pretty. 0:24:46.280 --> 0:24:48.520 Sure because that try are you are you? Are you 0:24:48.560 --> 0:24:50.040 being facetious or do you really do that? 0:24:50.880 --> 0:24:54.000 No, for real, Yeah, every day. 0:24:53.800 --> 0:24:57.720 Every day you put I think whoever in the chat 0:24:57.800 --> 0:25:02.200 was just whoever asked that in the chat was just okay. 0:25:02.240 --> 0:25:05.520