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Speaker 1: For those of you can't see us, which is all

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Speaker 1: of you. Kelly has all headphones and she was taking

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Speaker 1: go he SMA background. I was taking deep breath because

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Speaker 1: this week has been um, really busy. Good. It is good.

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Speaker 1: You're right, and I have actually really been trying to

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Speaker 1: We have the A C. M. Mords this weekend, which

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Speaker 1: And I also told you that I am like so

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Speaker 1: also like ship if for anything that should um it

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Speaker 1: mean also, like that's basically what people were on stage

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00:22:48,680 --> 00:22:51,520
Speaker 1: now anyway is nothing you know, well I don't. I

428
00:22:51,520 --> 00:22:53,159
Speaker 1: don't know how it would affect her career because she

429
00:22:53,200 --> 00:22:54,920
Speaker 1: also doesn't seem to want to have one, Like it

430
00:22:54,960 --> 00:22:57,919
Speaker 1: sound like she's chosen. She's like, I'm not performing again,

431
00:22:58,040 --> 00:23:02,800
Speaker 1: so right now, maybe it doesn't matter. Yeah, it is interesting.

432
00:23:02,800 --> 00:23:06,240
Speaker 1: It's just interesting that we um kind of react instead

433
00:23:06,240 --> 00:23:08,399
Speaker 1: of pause, like if we're if we're really going to

434
00:23:08,440 --> 00:23:11,040
Speaker 1: the reflection topic, you know, like this would be the

435
00:23:11,040 --> 00:23:14,000
Speaker 1: perfect example. I also have never been through what Brittany

436
00:23:14,080 --> 00:23:17,360
Speaker 1: went through, and like I will say that I have

437
00:23:17,520 --> 00:23:20,640
Speaker 1: days based off of the small, small things I've been

438
00:23:20,680 --> 00:23:23,080
Speaker 1: through in comparison to her, where I just want to

439
00:23:23,160 --> 00:23:26,320
Speaker 1: write like just fuck it. It's just like you get

440
00:23:26,359 --> 00:23:28,240
Speaker 1: to this place where you're just like, well, you're coming

441
00:23:28,280 --> 00:23:32,160
Speaker 1: at me anyway, or like I've been living under this

442
00:23:32,320 --> 00:23:35,800
Speaker 1: like false narrative for so long. You just want to

443
00:23:35,840 --> 00:23:39,000
Speaker 1: like you do you want to rebel? Well, it's also

444
00:23:39,080 --> 00:23:43,000
Speaker 1: like fuck you. It's none of your business anyway, right,

445
00:23:43,480 --> 00:23:47,680
Speaker 1: you know, Like anyone and look here we are, we're

446
00:23:47,680 --> 00:23:51,720
Speaker 1: talking about our podcast. But um, I think anyone that

447
00:23:51,840 --> 00:23:54,399
Speaker 1: like wants to have a negative opinion and feel like

448
00:23:54,440 --> 00:23:58,960
Speaker 1: they're the authority on it, it's really just looking for clicks,

449
00:23:59,000 --> 00:24:01,639
Speaker 1: Like yeah, you know what I mean. It's like I

450
00:24:01,680 --> 00:24:04,639
Speaker 1: can worry that like maybe she's a little unhinged, but

451
00:24:04,720 --> 00:24:08,760
Speaker 1: like it's none of my fucking business. So and I

452
00:24:09,240 --> 00:24:11,520
Speaker 1: you know, unhinged or not. I feel like she looks

453
00:24:11,560 --> 00:24:13,960
Speaker 1: like she's like enjoying freedom, and I think that's a

454
00:24:13,960 --> 00:24:18,639
Speaker 1: good thing. Yeah, I think to me, the bigger conversation

455
00:24:18,760 --> 00:24:20,720
Speaker 1: when someone was like, well this is an age of

456
00:24:20,760 --> 00:24:23,840
Speaker 1: the missie. Why are you coming at her because she's

457
00:24:23,920 --> 00:24:26,920
Speaker 1: forty posting this picture when she was seventeen, we were

458
00:24:26,960 --> 00:24:32,120
Speaker 1: all praising it and the reflection there in general for

459
00:24:32,240 --> 00:24:39,520
Speaker 1: our culture with um, what we kind of I don't

460
00:24:39,520 --> 00:24:41,800
Speaker 1: know either, what we talk about with women's bodies, what

461
00:24:41,840 --> 00:24:45,000
Speaker 1: we're comfortable with them posting about, like who can do it?

462
00:24:45,040 --> 00:24:48,720
Speaker 1: Who can't? Like there is a bigger conversation here, like

463
00:24:48,760 --> 00:24:50,679
Speaker 1: and the reason I'm saying that is based off of

464
00:24:50,800 --> 00:24:53,600
Speaker 1: even what I said earlier, like the debates I'm having

465
00:24:53,600 --> 00:24:57,320
Speaker 1: within myself. Honestly, where this came from for me was

466
00:24:57,400 --> 00:25:01,000
Speaker 1: in my last relationship there he had you daughters, and

467
00:25:01,359 --> 00:25:05,399
Speaker 1: I started to really think about like the messaging that

468
00:25:05,520 --> 00:25:07,560
Speaker 1: I when they started asking me about stuff like my

469
00:25:07,640 --> 00:25:11,720
Speaker 1: hair extensions or um, you know my bathing suits are

470
00:25:11,800 --> 00:25:14,720
Speaker 1: small and like they would be like you have a

471
00:25:14,760 --> 00:25:21,200
Speaker 1: wedgy and I'm like yeah, and like it made me

472
00:25:21,280 --> 00:25:24,160
Speaker 1: really sad because I don't even think about what I'm

473
00:25:24,160 --> 00:25:26,720
Speaker 1: doing to myself or like what has been kind of

474
00:25:26,760 --> 00:25:29,680
Speaker 1: programmed into me, And like I think I didn't even

475
00:25:29,680 --> 00:25:32,960
Speaker 1: realize I was using my body for attention or you

476
00:25:33,000 --> 00:25:35,639
Speaker 1: know whatever it would be like it was, I was

477
00:25:35,680 --> 00:25:38,920
Speaker 1: so unaware, Like it just literally if you like, I

478
00:25:38,960 --> 00:25:41,679
Speaker 1: think there is I think that we should be allowed

479
00:25:41,680 --> 00:25:44,280
Speaker 1: to love our bodies. I agree. I'm not saying that

480
00:25:44,359 --> 00:25:47,320
Speaker 1: this is why This is the debate, is finding the

481
00:25:47,359 --> 00:25:51,760
Speaker 1: balance between really loving my body and being comfortable in

482
00:25:51,840 --> 00:25:56,200
Speaker 1: my own skin. And like it's like, what's your motivation

483
00:25:56,240 --> 00:25:58,800
Speaker 1: behind it? If your motivation is to feel good, which

484
00:25:58,800 --> 00:26:01,239
Speaker 1: in some ways I feel like it's Brittany's motivation is

485
00:26:01,240 --> 00:26:04,000
Speaker 1: is to be like I feel free and I'm trying

486
00:26:04,000 --> 00:26:07,119
Speaker 1: to get really comfortable in my own skin again, um

487
00:26:07,280 --> 00:26:12,080
Speaker 1: or are you looking for validation or to manipulate? And

488
00:26:12,119 --> 00:26:14,679
Speaker 1: Like there's a lot of ship on the internet that

489
00:26:14,760 --> 00:26:16,159
Speaker 1: I feel like that is what it is. Like you

490
00:26:16,200 --> 00:26:18,960
Speaker 1: talked about all the influencers and it's like, yeah, you

491
00:26:19,040 --> 00:26:20,800
Speaker 1: post a picture of your ass and you're going to

492
00:26:20,920 --> 00:26:25,960
Speaker 1: get a lot of clues. I'm praying for world peace?

493
00:26:27,760 --> 00:26:31,000
Speaker 1: What are you actually doing? And so those are the conversations,

494
00:26:31,040 --> 00:26:35,000
Speaker 1: and I think like just the programming that men and

495
00:26:35,080 --> 00:26:38,119
Speaker 1: women have been through of like what what is acceptable?

496
00:26:38,160 --> 00:26:41,000
Speaker 1: And how do we look at women's bodies? What what

497
00:26:41,160 --> 00:26:44,240
Speaker 1: kind of conversations we're having about that? Who are we judging?

498
00:26:44,359 --> 00:26:47,119
Speaker 1: What are we teaching young girls? Like what I what

499
00:26:47,359 --> 00:26:49,080
Speaker 1: my point of all of that was to say, is

500
00:26:49,119 --> 00:26:52,439
Speaker 1: it became very important for me too then talk to

501
00:26:52,520 --> 00:26:54,640
Speaker 1: myself the way I actually wanted to talk to them

502
00:26:54,680 --> 00:26:57,840
Speaker 1: about who they were on the inside, and like, those

503
00:26:57,920 --> 00:27:00,800
Speaker 1: kind of conversations just sparked like, oh, but I'm not

504
00:27:00,840 --> 00:27:03,920
Speaker 1: telling myself that so like and and I also would

505
00:27:03,960 --> 00:27:07,320
Speaker 1: be like the content that I create, it just became

506
00:27:07,359 --> 00:27:09,320
Speaker 1: more important for me to be like I wanted to

507
00:27:09,359 --> 00:27:13,840
Speaker 1: be helpful to women and being really strong inside and

508
00:27:13,880 --> 00:27:16,920
Speaker 1: feeling beautiful inside, because the rest all falls into place

509
00:27:16,920 --> 00:27:19,760
Speaker 1: when that's the case. So anyway, I think those are

510
00:27:19,800 --> 00:27:22,600
Speaker 1: the conversations to reflect on. And if you guys actually

511
00:27:22,640 --> 00:27:26,440
Speaker 1: have um inside into how you feel about that as

512
00:27:26,480 --> 00:27:28,760
Speaker 1: women or if men, if you're listening, like what you

513
00:27:28,800 --> 00:27:31,440
Speaker 1: think about that? I just think this is an interesting conversation.

514
00:27:31,480 --> 00:27:34,119
Speaker 1: I think we're shifting out of this patriarchy mindset of

515
00:27:34,160 --> 00:27:37,520
Speaker 1: like the woman is at home or the woman is

516
00:27:37,600 --> 00:27:40,199
Speaker 1: this object of this man and she better want to

517
00:27:40,200 --> 00:27:42,239
Speaker 1: have sex all the time and look hot and like

518
00:27:42,520 --> 00:27:45,959
Speaker 1: owning your sexuality is just being fucking hot and naked

519
00:27:46,040 --> 00:27:47,960
Speaker 1: or something, and it's like, no, it's actually not. There's

520
00:27:48,240 --> 00:27:51,359
Speaker 1: so much more so right us, right into us. If

521
00:27:51,400 --> 00:27:53,320
Speaker 1: you have any thoughts on that, The Edge at velvet

522
00:27:53,320 --> 00:27:54,639
Speaker 1: s edge dot com or you can hit me up

523
00:27:54,640 --> 00:27:57,359
Speaker 1: on Instagram. I'm at Velvet Edge. I was like, what

524
00:27:57,400 --> 00:28:01,880
Speaker 1: am I chip? It is at chip Doors. I'm gonna

525
00:28:01,880 --> 00:28:03,280
Speaker 1: make you do this again. S do you want to

526
00:28:03,280 --> 00:28:06,439
Speaker 1: do it? Wait till the other person we were going

527
00:28:06,480 --> 00:28:08,400
Speaker 1: to talk about is Kim Kardashian, because you know, why

528
00:28:08,400 --> 00:28:11,880
Speaker 1: wouldn't we Why wouldn't we? I mean, praise be to her,

529
00:28:12,080 --> 00:28:14,880
Speaker 1: like she is free. You know, it's funny because so

530
00:28:14,960 --> 00:28:19,880
Speaker 1: she obviously is in a really contentious divorce, and she

531
00:28:19,920 --> 00:28:22,280
Speaker 1: asked the judge for those of you who aren't following along,

532
00:28:22,359 --> 00:28:25,240
Speaker 1: and normally I'm not when it comes to her, um

533
00:28:25,359 --> 00:28:30,960
Speaker 1: or the whole Dashian group. Um, But she asked the

534
00:28:31,040 --> 00:28:34,439
Speaker 1: judge to speed up the part of the divorce that

535
00:28:34,480 --> 00:28:38,600
Speaker 1: would make her legally single while everything else gets worked out,

536
00:28:38,720 --> 00:28:40,320
Speaker 1: because it's going to take a long time and a

537
00:28:40,480 --> 00:28:43,040
Speaker 1: ravel and um. Some of the stuff that I read

538
00:28:43,600 --> 00:28:45,240
Speaker 1: when she first asked for it was like it was

539
00:28:45,280 --> 00:28:48,120
Speaker 1: probably unlikely that a judge would do it, But the

540
00:28:48,200 --> 00:28:52,200
Speaker 1: judge did it. So she is now legally single, which

541
00:28:52,360 --> 00:28:57,280
Speaker 1: obviously is dating. Yeah, she's dating. I mean you have

542
00:28:57,360 --> 00:28:59,760
Speaker 1: to like, I don't know what her motivation for that is.

543
00:28:59,760 --> 00:29:02,240
Speaker 1: Is it like really to be detached from Kanye or

544
00:29:02,280 --> 00:29:04,600
Speaker 1: is it so that she can rush into something with

545
00:29:04,600 --> 00:29:07,560
Speaker 1: with Pete. But she was already doing it and the

546
00:29:07,600 --> 00:29:10,560
Speaker 1: world knows. That's why I was like, I don't I

547
00:29:10,680 --> 00:29:13,040
Speaker 1: have a feeling Kanye was just making as think about

548
00:29:13,040 --> 00:29:16,200
Speaker 1: that although he's dating to so speaking of letting your

549
00:29:16,200 --> 00:29:23,000
Speaker 1: freak flag fly. God, that man is unhinged. He's completely unhinged. Um.

550
00:29:23,200 --> 00:29:25,400
Speaker 1: You know, I've never really liked his music anyway, so

551
00:29:25,600 --> 00:29:31,680
Speaker 1: I've I recognize that there is a genius artist in there, um,

552
00:29:31,680 --> 00:29:35,160
Speaker 1: but I've never particularly like been a fan. But now

553
00:29:35,200 --> 00:29:38,479
Speaker 1: I like, actively do not like him. He seems like

554
00:29:38,520 --> 00:29:42,280
Speaker 1: a terrible person, feels like a narcissist. Me, Oh my god,

555
00:29:42,320 --> 00:29:46,320
Speaker 1: it feels like he literally you look up narcissists in

556
00:29:46,360 --> 00:29:54,880
Speaker 1: the dictionary and it should be a picture of him.

557
00:29:54,920 --> 00:29:57,480
Speaker 1: It's like that thing where it's like he doesn't want

558
00:29:57,520 --> 00:29:59,800
Speaker 1: to be with him because weren't they living separately in

559
00:29:59,840 --> 00:30:01,840
Speaker 1: a was all the stuff that it doesn't seem like

560
00:30:01,840 --> 00:30:04,520
Speaker 1: they were actually having a decent relationship anyway. Who knows

561
00:30:04,560 --> 00:30:06,920
Speaker 1: if it was ever even a real relationship. I never know.

562
00:30:07,040 --> 00:30:09,400
Speaker 1: In Hollywood, so many kids like I would hope that

563
00:30:09,480 --> 00:30:11,640
Speaker 1: it is, you know, but you never know. I heard

564
00:30:11,680 --> 00:30:13,880
Speaker 1: it was arranged and he's gay, and you know, there's

565
00:30:13,880 --> 00:30:16,880
Speaker 1: all this stuff and it's like, who knows what's actually happening.

566
00:30:17,440 --> 00:30:19,480
Speaker 1: But it's like even if he doesn't want to be

567
00:30:19,560 --> 00:30:21,520
Speaker 1: with her, he doesn't want her to be with anyone else,

568
00:30:21,560 --> 00:30:23,560
Speaker 1: which is like narcissism one oh one is that he

569
00:30:23,960 --> 00:30:27,080
Speaker 1: will not leave her alone. He wants control over her still,

570
00:30:27,120 --> 00:30:29,640
Speaker 1: which is to me why she had to file for

571
00:30:29,680 --> 00:30:34,440
Speaker 1: that single thing. Um but in reflection and like looking

572
00:30:34,480 --> 00:30:36,120
Speaker 1: at her and I'm like, and then you move on

573
00:30:36,240 --> 00:30:39,400
Speaker 1: to another man who's been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Not

574
00:30:39,520 --> 00:30:42,440
Speaker 1: any no shame, Like I'm not saying that. I just

575
00:30:42,560 --> 00:30:46,520
Speaker 1: I'm like start patterns of like are you doing the

576
00:30:46,560 --> 00:30:50,320
Speaker 1: same thing? It's a pattern. And I just sort of

577
00:30:50,440 --> 00:30:52,920
Speaker 1: was like, wait, is this the moment where maybe can

578
00:30:52,960 --> 00:30:55,880
Speaker 1: reflect and is single for a minute. I don't know

579
00:30:56,120 --> 00:30:58,120
Speaker 1: this is all judge because I don't really know what's happening,

580
00:30:58,200 --> 00:31:01,280
Speaker 1: but must have is that, um what do you call that?

581
00:31:01,320 --> 00:31:04,520
Speaker 1: A coach? She must be codependent? Right, well, I mean

582
00:31:04,800 --> 00:31:06,440
Speaker 1: it's one of those if you spot it, you got

583
00:31:06,440 --> 00:31:08,760
Speaker 1: it kind of things. And I'm like, yeah, ding ding ding,

584
00:31:08,920 --> 00:31:12,760
Speaker 1: save a cheer sister, Like I relate to so much

585
00:31:12,760 --> 00:31:15,160
Speaker 1: of what she does in relationships from what I observed

586
00:31:15,320 --> 00:31:18,360
Speaker 1: right right from the outside, from like I know nothing

587
00:31:18,400 --> 00:31:24,120
Speaker 1: about Kim Kardashian, really, who does TMZ. Yeah, I mean yeah,

588
00:31:24,160 --> 00:31:28,000
Speaker 1: it seems like codependent actions. But I mean, look, I also,

589
00:31:28,440 --> 00:31:31,840
Speaker 1: you know, I'm not intimately involved, and Pete seems like

590
00:31:31,880 --> 00:31:34,680
Speaker 1: a fucking awesome dude. It's like sometimes your heart just

591
00:31:34,760 --> 00:31:39,920
Speaker 1: does things that you can't expect. And um, and maybe

592
00:31:40,040 --> 00:31:42,800
Speaker 1: maybe she did that the period of time where she

593
00:31:42,920 --> 00:31:49,000
Speaker 1: wasn't with Kanye physically. I mean it's like, yes, from

594
00:31:49,000 --> 00:31:51,080
Speaker 1: the time that they announced that they were splitting to

595
00:31:51,160 --> 00:31:54,480
Speaker 1: her dating Pete Davidson felt like two days. Yeah, So

596
00:31:54,640 --> 00:31:57,560
Speaker 1: but were they really together? I mean there's there could

597
00:31:57,600 --> 00:31:59,840
Speaker 1: have been a lot of time of reflection because he

598
00:32:00,040 --> 00:32:01,960
Speaker 1: was like living in Montana or somewhere and she was

599
00:32:02,000 --> 00:32:05,080
Speaker 1: living in l A. So, um, you know, maybe she

600
00:32:05,240 --> 00:32:07,560
Speaker 1: was actually ready for a new relationship. I mean I

601
00:32:07,600 --> 00:32:12,440
Speaker 1: will say this, like, um, it seems like her and

602
00:32:12,480 --> 00:32:15,080
Speaker 1: Pete have a very sort of normal thing going on,

603
00:32:15,320 --> 00:32:18,480
Speaker 1: you know, like she I don't know, like there's something

604
00:32:18,520 --> 00:32:22,720
Speaker 1: that's like more humanized about her since she started dating him.

605
00:32:22,760 --> 00:32:27,200
Speaker 1: I don't know. Um, yeah, I can't. I can't really

606
00:32:27,200 --> 00:32:28,719
Speaker 1: put a finger on it. I like her more with

607
00:32:28,760 --> 00:32:33,080
Speaker 1: Pete with Kanye. Yeah, you were watching the video. Tell

608
00:32:33,080 --> 00:32:35,840
Speaker 1: me about that video. So Kanye released a music video

609
00:32:35,880 --> 00:32:38,560
Speaker 1: for a song called easy e A S E A

610
00:32:38,760 --> 00:32:44,480
Speaker 1: Z y um and and it's I don't It's like

611
00:32:44,520 --> 00:32:47,800
Speaker 1: it looks like a paper mache version of Pete Davidson,

612
00:32:47,840 --> 00:32:52,840
Speaker 1: but he's kidnapped, decapitated, and then buried by Kanye and

613
00:32:52,880 --> 00:32:58,280
Speaker 1: it just seems so aggressive and threatening. It's just seems God,

614
00:33:00,080 --> 00:33:05,080
Speaker 1: what's the fucking point? Like it makes him look so small?

615
00:33:05,720 --> 00:33:11,160
Speaker 1: Who Kanye move the funk on dude? Like he can't.

616
00:33:12,440 --> 00:33:14,680
Speaker 1: You know. What's so interesting is like he was dating

617
00:33:14,680 --> 00:33:17,000
Speaker 1: that Julia Fox girl, which that was weird to me too,

618
00:33:17,160 --> 00:33:20,560
Speaker 1: But now he's apparently dating some woman who looks just

619
00:33:20,960 --> 00:33:24,000
Speaker 1: like him. What is going on? He must have found

620
00:33:24,040 --> 00:33:28,760
Speaker 1: her at a casting agency, right, I think he's just

621
00:33:28,880 --> 00:33:35,920
Speaker 1: like Look Kanye is. He is a master at manipulating

622
00:33:35,920 --> 00:33:38,880
Speaker 1: the media. He's a master act. Got his own reality

623
00:33:38,880 --> 00:33:42,320
Speaker 1: show happening at all times. Yeah, and um, of course

624
00:33:42,320 --> 00:33:44,840
Speaker 1: he was able to find someone that looked exactly like him,

625
00:33:44,840 --> 00:33:47,960
Speaker 1: you know, like like he has unlimited resources to do

626
00:33:48,000 --> 00:33:51,920
Speaker 1: whatever the funk he wants to do. And um, I

627
00:33:51,960 --> 00:33:54,920
Speaker 1: don't think he cares about how dumb or crazy or

628
00:33:54,920 --> 00:33:58,040
Speaker 1: whatever he looks, clearly not as long as people are

629
00:33:58,040 --> 00:34:02,360
Speaker 1: talking about him. You know, we've experienced that in our

630
00:34:02,400 --> 00:34:08,120
Speaker 1: country a lot lately. Y um, And you know you

631
00:34:08,160 --> 00:34:13,560
Speaker 1: want to get it, but I, um, you know, and look,

632
00:34:13,600 --> 00:34:16,480
Speaker 1: I'm guilty. We're sitting here talking about him, and I like,

633
00:34:16,560 --> 00:34:18,759
Speaker 1: I don't talk about Kanye very often. I don't really

634
00:34:18,760 --> 00:34:20,560
Speaker 1: care about you. Don't wake up and talk about Kanye

635
00:34:21,200 --> 00:34:22,880
Speaker 1: or yeah or whatever? The fun his name is that

636
00:34:22,960 --> 00:34:27,400
Speaker 1: You're like, who's Skeet? Um? But you know it's I

637
00:34:27,400 --> 00:34:28,960
Speaker 1: think the best way to make people like that go

638
00:34:29,040 --> 00:34:31,520
Speaker 1: away is to stop talking about them. Yeah, but that's

639
00:34:31,560 --> 00:34:37,120
Speaker 1: never gonna happen. Crazy. So apparently they're calling Pete Davids

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Speaker 1: and Skeet and he was like seriously so perplexed by

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00:34:40,120 --> 00:34:42,080
Speaker 1: and he's like, I mean, what is this the combination

642
00:34:42,120 --> 00:34:49,439
Speaker 1: of like skims and Pete skims being underwear? It would

643
00:34:49,480 --> 00:34:51,320
Speaker 1: be I mean, I wouldn't put it past the media

644
00:34:51,440 --> 00:34:54,200
Speaker 1: to do that. I have no idea what skep, motherfucker?

645
00:34:54,280 --> 00:34:57,960
Speaker 1: What did that mean? I don't know. It's a rap

646
00:34:58,000 --> 00:35:00,880
Speaker 1: song from back. What's funny because it's like Kanye sees

647
00:35:00,920 --> 00:35:03,680
Speaker 1: it like he it's a it's a meant to be

648
00:35:03,800 --> 00:35:07,000
Speaker 1: an insult, like look at Skeet, but like none of

649
00:35:07,080 --> 00:35:11,879
Speaker 1: us know what the books some random word that he's

650
00:35:11,920 --> 00:35:16,000
Speaker 1: called Pete. I don't know. I don't even really know

651
00:35:16,040 --> 00:35:19,520
Speaker 1: what the reflection here is. Well, I think the reflection

652
00:35:19,600 --> 00:35:21,680
Speaker 1: was more about like Kim. I was saying, I hope

653
00:35:21,760 --> 00:35:24,600
Speaker 1: Kim is reflection. Well, I don't. I'm not. I can't

654
00:35:24,600 --> 00:35:27,120
Speaker 1: say needs. I don't know what her path has been

655
00:35:27,239 --> 00:35:29,359
Speaker 1: or how long she's even been apart from him. When

656
00:35:29,400 --> 00:35:32,400
Speaker 1: I saw that it was Pete Davidson, I was confused.

657
00:35:32,440 --> 00:35:34,440
Speaker 1: But it's also like, oh, well, she has a type,

658
00:35:34,520 --> 00:35:38,040
Speaker 1: as we all do. And what I am kind of

659
00:35:38,040 --> 00:35:41,479
Speaker 1: bumping up against moving on from another relationship is like

660
00:35:42,200 --> 00:35:44,400
Speaker 1: I don't want to repeat the same patterns anymore. Like

661
00:35:44,440 --> 00:35:47,440
Speaker 1: I'm turning forty, I really want to make changes in

662
00:35:47,520 --> 00:35:50,759
Speaker 1: my dating life and my relationships, and I'm evolving into

663
00:35:50,800 --> 00:35:53,839
Speaker 1: something that I want something different now, you know, And

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00:35:54,360 --> 00:35:56,000
Speaker 1: I don't know if that means I'll get it because

665
00:35:56,040 --> 00:35:57,920
Speaker 1: I haven't started dating at all. I can't even think

666
00:35:58,000 --> 00:36:00,799
Speaker 1: about that yet. But like caring yourself at the moment, Well,

667
00:36:00,840 --> 00:36:04,840
Speaker 1: I'm changing myself and I think like that that to

668
00:36:04,920 --> 00:36:08,560
Speaker 1: me is what reflection is. And god, it's fucking hard

669
00:36:08,880 --> 00:36:11,520
Speaker 1: some days, Like it is really hard to want to

670
00:36:11,520 --> 00:36:13,560
Speaker 1: take this time, Like there's so much of me that

671
00:36:13,600 --> 00:36:15,920
Speaker 1: has had when I'm having my heartest days that I'm

672
00:36:15,960 --> 00:36:17,520
Speaker 1: just like, you know what, fuck it, I should just

673
00:36:17,560 --> 00:36:21,680
Speaker 1: go out and like get drunk or move on or whatever.

674
00:36:21,719 --> 00:36:24,160
Speaker 1: That seems easier. It seems like the easy way out

675
00:36:24,160 --> 00:36:27,839
Speaker 1: of pain. But I've done that before, and like it's not.

676
00:36:28,040 --> 00:36:30,440
Speaker 1: It actually just brings on more pain and you repeat

677
00:36:30,480 --> 00:36:33,200
Speaker 1: the same patterns and then you hate yourself more. And

678
00:36:33,239 --> 00:36:37,759
Speaker 1: it's like I just I just want, um in my

679
00:36:37,840 --> 00:36:42,359
Speaker 1: own personal life to actually see an evolution. And I'm

680
00:36:42,400 --> 00:36:44,560
Speaker 1: like kind of getting into this place where I'm kind

681
00:36:44,560 --> 00:36:47,120
Speaker 1: of getting hopeful that maybe as a culture, we're bumping

682
00:36:47,160 --> 00:36:49,440
Speaker 1: up against the same thing. Is that true or is

683
00:36:49,440 --> 00:36:57,120
Speaker 1: that well, you know, as we all age, we become

684
00:36:57,160 --> 00:37:00,960
Speaker 1: a little bit more self reflective. At least that's my hope.

685
00:37:01,040 --> 00:37:05,200
Speaker 1: You know. It's like I certainly feel like I'm I've

686
00:37:05,760 --> 00:37:11,160
Speaker 1: like my mature, my maturation. Um, I don't know, why

687
00:37:11,200 --> 00:37:14,560
Speaker 1: don't you just say it like I'm maturing, but like

688
00:37:14,680 --> 00:37:18,400
Speaker 1: my journey to maturing, like I think it's exponential the

689
00:37:18,440 --> 00:37:22,919
Speaker 1: older I get, whereas like between twenty and thirty five,

690
00:37:23,040 --> 00:37:26,200
Speaker 1: I just wanted to be twenty the whole time. And

691
00:37:26,280 --> 00:37:29,280
Speaker 1: like the older you get, like your parents are getting older,

692
00:37:29,360 --> 00:37:32,759
Speaker 1: like you're seeing like I've had friends die last year,

693
00:37:33,000 --> 00:37:36,680
Speaker 1: Like you know, it's life is too fucking short. And

694
00:37:37,360 --> 00:37:40,120
Speaker 1: I think in order for us to live the most

695
00:37:40,200 --> 00:37:43,720
Speaker 1: fulfilled life that we can live, which the older you get,

696
00:37:43,760 --> 00:37:47,280
Speaker 1: the more you realize it's you don't have an endless runway,

697
00:37:47,440 --> 00:37:52,960
Speaker 1: it is to reflect and to change ourselves because we've

698
00:37:53,160 --> 00:37:57,520
Speaker 1: probably tried to change others um along the way and

699
00:37:58,360 --> 00:38:01,040
Speaker 1: it doesn't work. You know. It's just I've never done

700
00:38:01,040 --> 00:38:03,239
Speaker 1: that for um. So if you're not happy in your

701
00:38:03,239 --> 00:38:06,200
Speaker 1: current situation, the only thing that you really can control issue,

702
00:38:06,320 --> 00:38:09,640
Speaker 1: It's so true. Well, with that said, the topic for

703
00:38:09,640 --> 00:38:11,880
Speaker 1: this month is reflection. We're going to be doing a

704
00:38:11,880 --> 00:38:15,040
Speaker 1: lot of different conversations about that. Obviously, we brought to

705
00:38:15,040 --> 00:38:17,720
Speaker 1: you two little pop culture things that we're not really

706
00:38:17,760 --> 00:38:20,719
Speaker 1: sure what to reflect on or what kind of reflection

707
00:38:20,880 --> 00:38:23,960
Speaker 1: is happening. But I think we all can observe the

708
00:38:24,040 --> 00:38:27,719
Speaker 1: situations and kind of take those those experiences. I think

709
00:38:27,719 --> 00:38:30,160
Speaker 1: we've all kind of had similar experiences if you really

710
00:38:30,160 --> 00:38:33,200
Speaker 1: think about it to some capacity. And so what can

711
00:38:33,239 --> 00:38:35,719
Speaker 1: we get from these two examples and what do you

712
00:38:35,719 --> 00:38:38,000
Speaker 1: guys think about them? Email us at the Edge at

713
00:38:38,080 --> 00:38:40,400
Speaker 1: Velvet's Edge dot com or hit us up on Instagram.

714
00:38:40,440 --> 00:38:45,759
Speaker 1: I'm at Velvet's Edge, Chip at Chip doors d O

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00:38:46,040 --> 00:38:49,040
Speaker 1: R S c H. You're getting like, I need to

716
00:38:49,040 --> 00:38:53,040
Speaker 1: write a melod A melody, like a melody, okay, saying

717
00:38:53,280 --> 00:38:56,560
Speaker 1: what were you about to say you were going to

718
00:38:56,680 --> 00:39:03,080
Speaker 1: do it? I want to hear it. Okay, that was great, Chip,

719
00:39:03,120 --> 00:39:10,840
Speaker 1: thank you for bringing us that melody today. Um had it.

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00:39:11,760 --> 00:39:13,560
Speaker 1: I was going to say, as you guys move into

721
00:39:14,200 --> 00:39:17,080
Speaker 1: your weekend, what are you going to be reflecting on

722
00:39:17,120 --> 00:39:19,879
Speaker 1: this month? The month of March is all about reflection.

723
00:39:20,400 --> 00:39:23,759
Speaker 1: We've had such a seemingly long winter season. I think

724
00:39:23,760 --> 00:39:25,720
Speaker 1: it's because the last couple of years have just felt

725
00:39:25,760 --> 00:39:29,000
Speaker 1: really fucking long, like it's been a long cold winter. Yeah,

726
00:39:29,400 --> 00:39:34,360
Speaker 1: isn't that? Yeah? It was an album title by Cinderella. No.

727
00:39:34,680 --> 00:39:46,879
Speaker 1: I was like, what it's like six months? Jesus, don't

728
00:39:46,920 --> 00:39:49,560
Speaker 1: get ahead of yourself here. I mean didn't you play

729
00:39:49,640 --> 00:39:53,000
Speaker 1: basketball weather or something in Louisia. We played her high school, Yes,

730
00:39:53,920 --> 00:39:56,160
Speaker 1: we did. Like I dunked on that bit and that

731
00:39:56,200 --> 00:39:57,879
Speaker 1: would be amazing if I had that story. I think

732
00:39:57,920 --> 00:40:01,120
Speaker 1: she was already on the Mickey Mouse Club. Um yeah,

733
00:40:01,200 --> 00:40:03,040
Speaker 1: but like then you also were like, I mean, she's

734
00:40:03,120 --> 00:40:06,319
Speaker 1: sucking forty. But I'm like, I mean shots fired, man.

735
00:40:06,840 --> 00:40:10,240
Speaker 1: I mean, it's like, to me, Britney spears is because

736
00:40:10,239 --> 00:40:13,680
Speaker 1: when Brittany like became part of the pantheon there's another

737
00:40:13,719 --> 00:40:17,160
Speaker 1: word for you. Um, she was younger than me. So

738
00:40:17,200 --> 00:40:18,880
Speaker 1: it just feels like she's always going to be like

739
00:40:18,880 --> 00:40:21,760
Speaker 1: this young. Just keep Brittany in that age. And I'm forty.

740
00:40:22,000 --> 00:40:25,120
Speaker 1: It's like crazy to me, I'm forty six. Like God Jesus,

741
00:40:27,360 --> 00:40:32,200
Speaker 1: they're planning my funeral, plans that melody. Okay, we gotta go.

742
00:40:32,280 --> 00:40:35,680
Speaker 1: But anyway, the reflection pieces here for this month. Email

743
00:40:35,760 --> 00:40:41,600
Speaker 1: us at the The Edge phil sedge dot com with

744
00:40:41,640 --> 00:40:44,480
Speaker 1: all your thoughts about Brittany or Kim or like, are

745
00:40:44,520 --> 00:40:46,719
Speaker 1: we missing something? What do we need to be reflecting

746
00:40:46,760 --> 00:40:49,520
Speaker 1: on here? Are they reflecting or are they just moving

747
00:40:49,560 --> 00:40:52,520
Speaker 1: about in their crazy life? They're just living life and

748
00:40:52,560 --> 00:40:55,400
Speaker 1: not giving us well speaking of living life, as you

749
00:40:55,400 --> 00:40:58,160
Speaker 1: guys move into the weekend and you're out there living

750
00:40:58,160 --> 00:41:00,880
Speaker 1: on the edge, I hope you always remember too, as

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00:41:01,040 --> 00:41:03,520
Speaker 1: casual Sym