WEBVTT - RACHEL BONNETTA 0:00:00.360 --> 0:00:02.600 This is cut to It with Steve Smith Senior at 0:00:02.600 --> 0:00:08.879 production of The Black Effect and I heart Radio. I'm 0:00:08.880 --> 0:00:11.680 Steve Smith Senior and I'm a little John and this 0:00:11.800 --> 0:00:15.920 is cut to it. Good do it, Good do it. 0:00:16.079 --> 0:00:19.439 Let's get down to do it. Good do it. We 0:00:19.560 --> 0:00:22.880 asked the questions you always want to know, but no 0:00:22.920 --> 0:00:29.040 one ever asked, let's cut to it. You ain't heard 0:00:29.080 --> 0:00:35.040 about it, then we're about to let you. Now it's all. 0:00:39.360 --> 0:00:44.239 I'd like to welcome a workmate, a person who is 0:00:44.880 --> 0:00:52.280 she's pretty talented, UM reporter, television host for of course, NFL, networking, 0:00:52.520 --> 0:00:56.680 a lot of other things, and from Toronto, miss everything, 0:00:58.080 --> 0:01:04.600 cut to it. Please welcome Rachel, but I'll miss every boy. 0:01:04.680 --> 0:01:08.400 I think, thanks guys, thanks for having me. Thank you. 0:01:08.400 --> 0:01:10.800 I'm looking at your career stuff because you know, obviously 0:01:10.840 --> 0:01:14.200 when you work with someone, you don't necessarily know all 0:01:14.319 --> 0:01:17.920 of the things they've done. And I mean, you've been 0:01:17.920 --> 0:01:22.920 in this game. You've been hustling since You've been hustling 0:01:22.959 --> 0:01:26.240 since toil. But I know you've been hustling toil, but 0:01:26.240 --> 0:01:28.280 you've been hustled a lot longer than that. I've been 0:01:28.319 --> 0:01:34.759 hustling since I've been twelve yea, because she's also she's 0:01:34.880 --> 0:01:39.640 also one of three other brothers, so that's she's one 0:01:39.680 --> 0:01:42.280 of three brothers. So that is like one of the 0:01:43.600 --> 0:01:46.240 only girl. I've got three older brothers. And as soon 0:01:46.280 --> 0:01:49.720 as I tell people that, they're like, oh, okay, now 0:01:49.800 --> 0:01:54.960 you make sense. Do you know why that is? I 0:01:55.040 --> 0:01:58.920 assume it's because I'm a I'm a tomboy and I'm tough, 0:01:59.320 --> 0:02:02.160 and you know, one of the guys. That's kind of 0:02:02.160 --> 0:02:04.760 how I've always taken it. Let me sit my tea. 0:02:05.200 --> 0:02:08.880 It has to do with more of your personality. And 0:02:09.280 --> 0:02:12.720 I'm a father of four and I got three boys 0:02:13.080 --> 0:02:18.440 and one girl, and so I can I know, you know, 0:02:18.560 --> 0:02:23.040 my daughter listens to this periodically. So where is the 0:02:23.080 --> 0:02:27.560 girl in the age spectrum? Well, before our last she 0:02:27.760 --> 0:02:31.200 was technically in the middle. She was the second oldest, okay, 0:02:32.200 --> 0:02:37.920 and so it's soon to be seventeen and seven. But 0:02:38.040 --> 0:02:41.959 she's a girl. So it's kind of that I don't 0:02:41.960 --> 0:02:44.480 want to say, like, what was me, but it's that 0:02:44.560 --> 0:02:47.880 you know, you're the girl, so you are used to 0:02:47.960 --> 0:02:52.400 the spotlight. Yeah, I guess. So there's also a huge 0:02:52.400 --> 0:02:55.200 age difference between me and my and all my brothers, 0:02:55.240 --> 0:02:57.520 Like the oldest one is thirteen years older than me. 0:02:58.120 --> 0:03:00.240 Then it goes ten years older than me, and then 0:03:00.240 --> 0:03:01.760 it goes eight years older than me, and then there's 0:03:01.800 --> 0:03:05.840 a huge gap between me and my youngest brother, um, 0:03:05.919 --> 0:03:08.600 and then there's me. So it's weird. It's like I 0:03:08.639 --> 0:03:12.000 was kind of an only child and the youngest because 0:03:12.040 --> 0:03:13.639 by the time I got to like high school or 0:03:13.639 --> 0:03:17.200 even middle school, they were all gone. So I got 0:03:17.240 --> 0:03:19.560 I got that like I was only the one in 0:03:19.600 --> 0:03:22.360 the house. And then I also got I was a 0:03:22.400 --> 0:03:27.400 part of a huge family. Yeah, generally the only girl 0:03:27.440 --> 0:03:30.480 gets the middle child syndrome without being the middle child. 0:03:31.960 --> 0:03:33.800 So does that mean that I just like I'm always 0:03:33.800 --> 0:03:36.840 trying to get attention because that doesn't check out. You 0:03:38.040 --> 0:03:41.800 snitch on yourself. I'm not dryt niche in the podcast 0:03:41.880 --> 0:03:45.200 that work with me, honest about that was the rule. 0:03:47.040 --> 0:03:51.800 You come across like you're very needy. Sorry, that's fine, 0:03:51.920 --> 0:03:55.000 not the first time I read that. So let me 0:03:55.040 --> 0:03:57.920 tell you our second interaction, and I have to I 0:03:57.960 --> 0:04:02.280 have to say it so you Obviously Rachel's been on 0:04:02.480 --> 0:04:06.040 for a while on the network. However, in COVID, we 0:04:06.080 --> 0:04:09.200 haven't been able to like actually introduce ourselves to each 0:04:09.200 --> 0:04:12.720 other in personal so you know, I worked from the house, 0:04:12.960 --> 0:04:15.600 she's working in studio or I'm in studio, you know, 0:04:16.400 --> 0:04:19.400 just missing each other. So I met Rachel second time 0:04:19.440 --> 0:04:22.000 I met you, because I don't remember the first time. 0:04:22.160 --> 0:04:26.080 It was very brief. So I said, hey, Rachel, Steve Smith, 0:04:26.480 --> 0:04:34.400 you go, I met you before. Okay, check that off 0:04:34.480 --> 0:04:38.960 the box, that's what you said. I was like, damn, 0:04:39.440 --> 0:04:42.479 that's fine. There's so many people that work here. But see, 0:04:42.480 --> 0:04:45.400 I'm intentional, like I don't ever want to come across 0:04:45.440 --> 0:04:48.239 like I'm snooty, like, oh, I don't speak to people, 0:04:49.360 --> 0:04:52.320 and so I was making sure I spoke. And also too, 0:04:52.320 --> 0:04:53.760 it's like being in the house for two you know, 0:04:53.880 --> 0:04:57.000 being ready for some interaction. Just you see all we 0:04:57.400 --> 0:05:01.320 we hired a few new people, so I'm like, oh, 0:05:01.400 --> 0:05:06.000 they're new, he's new. I've never been a part of 0:05:06.000 --> 0:05:10.480 a company that has so many people working as like talent, 0:05:10.640 --> 0:05:12.640 Like I came from Fox and there's only you know, 0:05:12.680 --> 0:05:16.200 there's only our set lineup of so many shows. But 0:05:16.600 --> 0:05:20.600 NFL Network there's like reporters and hosts and analysts and 0:05:20.640 --> 0:05:22.280 all of these people. It's really cool to be a 0:05:22.360 --> 0:05:25.200 part of you don't need to employee, cook out or something. 0:05:25.480 --> 0:05:28.320 Got to meet something, pizza party, No we met. We 0:05:28.839 --> 0:05:31.719 know we met a six flags something. No we met, 0:05:31.839 --> 0:05:40.599 she said, I'll just talk. I blame you hr pizza 0:05:40.640 --> 0:05:45.040 party that we do. So I'm still like experiencing new 0:05:45.080 --> 0:05:48.320 things here. And apparently there's like a talent Summit. I 0:05:48.360 --> 0:05:51.840 think that they call it, and every literally all the 0:05:52.279 --> 0:05:54.800 every single person at NFL network gets together in the 0:05:54.839 --> 0:05:57.960 summer and does exactly this. We just haven't gotten to 0:05:58.000 --> 0:06:01.280 that yet. I'm book of my work exactly at those games. 0:06:04.400 --> 0:06:07.520 You know, I'm joking. I'm choking. But all right, here 0:06:07.560 --> 0:06:09.679 we go. Let's go. We're gonna start off with some 0:06:09.680 --> 0:06:12.799 some good little ice breakers. You ready, okay, Yeah, alright, 0:06:12.920 --> 0:06:15.960 A little quick quiz, like a little riddle, which is 0:06:16.240 --> 0:06:23.800 faster hotter cold, cold hot because you can easily catch 0:06:23.839 --> 0:06:43.039 a cold. That is Gerard, Gerard, damn you lying? And 0:06:43.120 --> 0:06:46.480 it was like it was it was terrible, It was, 0:06:47.040 --> 0:06:52.160 it was it was I'm on it all right. Um, 0:06:52.240 --> 0:06:57.839 what is the last play song on your playlist that 0:06:57.920 --> 0:07:00.799 you just you know, the last song you heard today 0:07:00.960 --> 0:07:06.200 or yesterday. Um. I recently downloaded TikTok, which has been 0:07:06.240 --> 0:07:13.680 the worst thing that I could have ever doubt I get. 0:07:13.960 --> 0:07:16.400 Sometimes I just need to turn my brain off. I 0:07:16.840 --> 0:07:19.320 have O c D, so my brain is just constantly going. 0:07:21.360 --> 0:07:23.320 So sometimes I just need to sit down and turn 0:07:23.360 --> 0:07:27.360 my brain off. And I do that by now TikTok. 0:07:27.520 --> 0:07:30.760 And that stupid Harry Styles song is all over TikTok. 0:07:30.880 --> 0:07:33.280 So whatever the new Harry Styles is, it's not stupid. 0:07:33.280 --> 0:07:36.040 It's a jam. But that's what I last listened to. 0:07:36.360 --> 0:07:38.120 I find it hard to believe that you don't like TikTok. 0:07:38.160 --> 0:07:40.240 You like, you're like a content creator, so why don't you? 0:07:40.600 --> 0:07:42.800 I know, I think I'm always so late to things 0:07:42.840 --> 0:07:45.160 like I think that I uh, like I started in 0:07:45.240 --> 0:07:46.760 YouTube and I was like, I'm not starting to my 0:07:46.800 --> 0:07:48.520 own YouTube channel, Like I just don't want to be 0:07:48.760 --> 0:07:52.600 you know, I just don't want that to be my things. 0:07:53.120 --> 0:07:55.960 I'm not no, I'm not saying that it's the right, okay, 0:07:56.040 --> 0:07:58.400 what you know. I was watching the Met the Red Carpet, 0:07:58.440 --> 0:08:01.080 like half of them are influencers. Such such an old 0:08:01.120 --> 0:08:03.080 school way of thinking, but I still have that mentality 0:08:03.120 --> 0:08:06.800 of being like, you know, I don't want to be 0:08:06.840 --> 0:08:09.640 like known as a TikTok or YouTuber, like I want 0:08:09.640 --> 0:08:11.240 to be all of these things. I think that I'm 0:08:11.240 --> 0:08:14.680 always just like hesitant to join. And also I know 0:08:14.720 --> 0:08:18.760 that I get sucked into these like wormholes of content 0:08:18.880 --> 0:08:22.040 and then I end up sitting back and watching instead 0:08:22.040 --> 0:08:24.280 of making that. That is something that I kind of 0:08:24.280 --> 0:08:27.600 get caught doing. So having TikTok on my phone just 0:08:27.680 --> 0:08:30.280 means that I'm always on it, which sucks. Since you 0:08:30.360 --> 0:08:35.800 play volleyball, favorite, what guys just really did some deep 0:08:35.880 --> 0:08:41.760 deep diving you obviously obviously you have not worked with 0:08:42.760 --> 0:08:45.160 I've never kind of we never really come in half 0:08:45.320 --> 0:08:49.760 as I love this. Yeah, So so what position did 0:08:49.760 --> 0:08:53.000 you play in volleyball? And what position did you what's 0:08:53.040 --> 0:08:57.040 your dream position to play? Okay, so, because of my height, 0:08:57.280 --> 0:09:00.400 I was always put in the libra position, which is 0:09:00.440 --> 0:09:04.160 basically a designated passer. You're always in the back court. 0:09:05.200 --> 0:09:09.439 But sometimes I would get to play power left side, 0:09:09.480 --> 0:09:14.280 which was like just the cranker hitter you have. I did. 0:09:14.400 --> 0:09:17.520 I couldn't really jump, so I would I would have 0:09:17.600 --> 0:09:20.120 this like amazing approach and then I'd get like this 0:09:20.280 --> 0:09:22.360 high off the ground and just slice it right into 0:09:22.400 --> 0:09:25.280 the net and then back to libra, back to Libra, 0:09:25.440 --> 0:09:28.040 you go, but I really had this. I would listen 0:09:28.120 --> 0:09:30.200 to like I remember my my pump up song with 0:09:30.280 --> 0:09:34.360 Gasolina back then, and I just went in warmups. I'd 0:09:34.360 --> 0:09:37.760 just go for these amazing hits and just net every time. 0:09:38.080 --> 0:09:40.839 So I was I was the designated pastor. That's pretty good. 0:09:40.840 --> 0:09:45.240 Did you pick? I think it was just like hot 0:09:45.280 --> 0:09:48.480 at the time, and it got my blood boiling. If 0:09:48.480 --> 0:09:53.959 you could redo, what song would you pick now? Gasolina? 0:09:54.040 --> 0:10:03.800 Probably classic still still gets me going. Why not? You're 0:10:03.840 --> 0:10:11.040 going going nowhere? Though? That is listening into the net athletically, 0:10:12.800 --> 0:10:16.000 just as a parent, because so my daughter played volleyball, 0:10:16.080 --> 0:10:19.000 so I'm yeah, so she was a liberal. You know, 0:10:19.160 --> 0:10:23.400 she's not actually killing in the height department, but she 0:10:23.480 --> 0:10:27.240 can jump serve. Did I say, Libra I met Libero. 0:10:27.400 --> 0:10:30.120 That's how it removed. I am definite. I was like, 0:10:30.120 --> 0:10:32.960 I don't know anything about Bross. I do too, but 0:10:33.120 --> 0:10:41.959 I just let it go. What about I haven't played 0:10:41.960 --> 0:10:47.480 in like ten years? Who I was just letting she 0:10:47.559 --> 0:10:52.520 got it? And uh, well that makes sense now why 0:10:52.559 --> 0:10:56.520 you can never hit it over the neck? Most Liberos 0:10:57.280 --> 0:11:01.040 they're they're not hitting it over the net, no man. 0:11:02.080 --> 0:11:06.880 But I loved watching I love watching um volleyball, also 0:11:06.960 --> 0:11:10.640 hate watching girls volleyball. Here here's the love and the hate. 0:11:11.120 --> 0:11:12.960 The love is I always loved watching like in the 0:11:13.000 --> 0:11:15.120 warm up because you see the ones that's coming, like, 0:11:15.800 --> 0:11:17.960 you know, just me being an athlete, I like to 0:11:18.000 --> 0:11:21.680 try to pick out can't play, can't play, can't play, 0:11:21.920 --> 0:11:27.600 you know, just because that's what No, no, it's it's 0:11:27.640 --> 0:11:32.040 for me. It's it's a good measuring stick of sometimes, 0:11:32.120 --> 0:11:34.720 especially in the football world and sports we're talking about 0:11:34.760 --> 0:11:37.840 how many how many Tarzan's have walked through the door 0:11:38.200 --> 0:11:41.040 and not played like Tarzan, right, So it gives me 0:11:41.080 --> 0:11:43.760 an opportunity. I love the home she looks like she 0:11:43.760 --> 0:11:45.760 could play, or he looks like he can, or she 0:11:45.800 --> 0:11:47.719 looked like she can't. And then you got the one 0:11:47.760 --> 0:11:50.600 that has all the gear, like all the fresh gear, 0:11:52.240 --> 0:11:59.160 can't play a lick. I had the like ankle brasis 0:11:59.360 --> 0:12:05.480 for what I had, the wrist guards, I had all 0:12:05.480 --> 0:12:08.200 my fingers, like I really wanted to show up in 0:12:08.200 --> 0:12:11.600 the gym and like people are probably like, oh my god, 0:12:11.600 --> 0:12:15.280 this bro's gonna destroy us, and then I just like 0:12:15.280 --> 0:12:20.319 stay on the bench. I also notice in young sports 0:12:20.320 --> 0:12:23.920 and obviously and I'm speaking from a female's a female 0:12:24.000 --> 0:12:26.679 volleyball because my daughter is a female, and that's all 0:12:26.720 --> 0:12:31.520 I watched was female volleyball. Right. One thing I noticed 0:12:31.559 --> 0:12:34.440 by young girls, you can see the moment of shift 0:12:35.600 --> 0:12:38.520 quickly in a women's volleyball game. You can see it 0:12:38.559 --> 0:12:42.400 go back and forth, the momentum leaves so quickly, and 0:12:42.760 --> 0:12:47.600 the emotions of mistakes happening, and you can see how 0:12:47.720 --> 0:12:50.560 how a team can rally or not rally, or or 0:12:50.640 --> 0:12:56.040 emotionally they're spent. So I spent so many Saturdays and Sundays, 0:12:56.160 --> 0:12:58.360 you know, we played Big South. That was every year 0:12:58.400 --> 0:13:01.959 in Atlanta. Uh, even if it was Easter Sunday were 0:13:02.280 --> 0:13:07.040 they were playing, and just watch watching it. You know, 0:13:07.080 --> 0:13:10.880 I really learned a lot about people, right. And then 0:13:10.920 --> 0:13:12.960 you also, you know when you say an adults, you 0:13:13.000 --> 0:13:17.160 watch people you're watching, You're watching people that volleyball game. 0:13:17.240 --> 0:13:19.520 You get a real good, good sense of people right 0:13:19.600 --> 0:13:21.920 who they are, who they are. I also think it's 0:13:21.960 --> 0:13:23.520 interesting that you bring it up. It's kind of made 0:13:23.559 --> 0:13:25.480 me feel like when I was playing. But when I 0:13:25.520 --> 0:13:28.080 was playing for my college, we would always travel with 0:13:28.120 --> 0:13:30.400 the men's team, and the men's team was like just 0:13:30.520 --> 0:13:33.920 so on a totally different level than us. They were 0:13:33.920 --> 0:13:37.160 like winning things and they always just kept it together. 0:13:37.240 --> 0:13:40.000 And because we I just feel like, you know, females 0:13:40.040 --> 0:13:43.640 are inherently more emotional. If something started to shift, like 0:13:43.679 --> 0:13:46.120 that momentum change that you were talking about, we would 0:13:46.160 --> 0:13:49.440 just completely break down. We would start fighting with each 0:13:49.440 --> 0:13:51.960 other like we were just we wanted to be so 0:13:52.080 --> 0:13:55.880 good and we had that skill like in practice, and 0:13:55.920 --> 0:13:57.959 then when we went out on the field, you know, 0:13:58.000 --> 0:13:59.960 when we were actually playing games, it would just complete 0:14:00.040 --> 0:14:04.280 we fall apart because we were so emotional about it. Mhm. 0:14:04.400 --> 0:14:06.640 I appreciate you a mittnute. We'll talk about that later. 0:14:07.840 --> 0:14:09.800 Where are you from in a place you call your hometown. 0:14:12.160 --> 0:14:15.360 I am from this very very small town, like two 0:14:15.400 --> 0:14:18.080 and a half hours outside of Toronto. I grew up 0:14:18.160 --> 0:14:23.640 on forty six acres of land. I had many little 0:14:23.760 --> 0:14:25.800 I had a little four wheeler. I had a dirt bike. 0:14:26.080 --> 0:14:28.120 What's the name of what's the name of the town 0:14:28.880 --> 0:14:33.720 or no Ontario? It's Toronto without the teas or now okay, 0:14:34.480 --> 0:14:36.520 So that's where I grew up. I think also that's 0:14:36.520 --> 0:14:41.360 where I get a lot of my like creativity from. 0:14:41.440 --> 0:14:45.600 It is because there was literally nothing to do. There 0:14:45.680 --> 0:14:51.360 was no one around. We didn't have next door neighbors acres. 0:14:51.640 --> 0:14:58.800 Your neighbor is forty five acres. There was so we 0:14:58.800 --> 0:15:00.560 we had to you know, I had to create like 0:15:00.600 --> 0:15:04.920 my own world. So how and how was that growing 0:15:05.000 --> 0:15:08.280 up with all of your brothers gone? So it's just 0:15:08.440 --> 0:15:14.280 you and mom, dad, grandma. Yeah, it was me and 0:15:14.920 --> 0:15:16.920 my mom and my dad, and I was just My 0:15:17.000 --> 0:15:21.000 dad was a very like outdoorsy guy, and so I 0:15:21.040 --> 0:15:24.600 had a really special relationship with him. We would like build. 0:15:24.960 --> 0:15:28.920 I like I bought my house, um like two years 0:15:28.920 --> 0:15:31.360 ago now, at the beginning of the pandemic. I built 0:15:32.400 --> 0:15:35.720 a deck on my own deck. I built a sauna outside, 0:15:35.760 --> 0:15:37.480 Like I have all of these like back of my 0:15:37.800 --> 0:15:41.120 brain skills. Not a lot of people last I'm watching 0:15:41.400 --> 0:15:43.440 when I'm watching that work, I did not go she 0:15:43.480 --> 0:15:48.920 looks like she built a deck or two. Cool. I 0:15:48.960 --> 0:15:53.360 think when we bought this house, we were kind of like, 0:15:53.400 --> 0:15:55.600 you know, we could pay somebody to do all of 0:15:55.640 --> 0:15:59.160 these things, but it was the beginning of the pandemic 0:15:59.200 --> 0:16:01.360 and we were to do at home and there was 0:16:01.400 --> 0:16:03.640 nothing else to do. And so I faced one of 0:16:03.680 --> 0:16:09.320 my brothers, No, probably not, but we were like screw 0:16:09.400 --> 0:16:11.360 it FaceTime one of my brothers, and I was just like, hey, 0:16:11.440 --> 0:16:13.280 give me like the overall scope on how to do 0:16:13.320 --> 0:16:14.520 this and I'll go and do it. And he was 0:16:14.600 --> 0:16:15.960 like just do this, this and this, and I was 0:16:16.120 --> 0:16:18.400 like sweet. And I was at lows that afternoon buying wood. 0:16:19.480 --> 0:16:25.440 So acres, do you have animals? We always had dogs, 0:16:25.480 --> 0:16:27.760 but no, it wasn't like a farm. We had a 0:16:27.800 --> 0:16:30.960 big pond so we could go fishing, and we had 0:16:31.000 --> 0:16:33.680 creeks like streams running all throughout our properties, so we 0:16:33.720 --> 0:16:37.080 would fish a lot um, but no, none of our 0:16:37.120 --> 0:16:40.440 own like like cows or anything kind of dogs. My 0:16:40.520 --> 0:16:44.720 dad used to hunt, which is like but um, so 0:16:44.800 --> 0:16:48.480 he had hunting dogs, so he had um like bloodhounds 0:16:48.480 --> 0:16:51.680 and stuff. I have two little ships now that are 0:16:51.720 --> 0:16:57.840 not hunting dogs, and they got toms with it. What 0:16:57.920 --> 0:17:02.000 do you do? One's name lou sure for Lucifer. That 0:17:02.080 --> 0:17:05.600 gives you an idea of what these countries those dogs. 0:17:08.119 --> 0:17:11.760 The other one's name Lucifer was the other one Bentley. 0:17:12.880 --> 0:17:20.560 What what what breed are there? Once a Chihuahua psychotic 0:17:21.240 --> 0:17:24.000 and then the other is a terrier. But they're both rescued, 0:17:24.080 --> 0:17:26.240 so they just come with a whole slew of issues, 0:17:26.680 --> 0:17:28.120 you know, and you just kind of kind of work 0:17:28.160 --> 0:17:32.760 through them. You trying to say a thing. Yeah, I 0:17:32.800 --> 0:17:36.000 think so. Yeah, that's why. That's why exactly what you 0:17:36.080 --> 0:17:41.840 call them, what you call them say, I love them. 0:17:42.320 --> 0:17:44.719 Rescue dogs. You gotta be careful of One of them 0:17:44.800 --> 0:17:46.680 used to bite me for about a year, but then 0:17:46.680 --> 0:17:50.280 we got past up. We all got to work the 0:17:50.520 --> 0:17:54.359 different but it was it was a chihuahua. Like his 0:17:54.840 --> 0:18:00.199 mouth is like the size of my thumb. We did 0:18:00.240 --> 0:18:04.119 the Lucifer name kick in before after ye six months 0:18:04.160 --> 0:18:06.560 into the bit or No, she's not the bier, she's 0:18:06.560 --> 0:18:08.600 not the fighter, she's just she was just like a 0:18:09.000 --> 0:18:11.280 little terror when we got her, and she wouldn't listen 0:18:11.359 --> 0:18:19.399 to us, So Lou became her name pretty quickly. I 0:18:19.600 --> 0:18:22.520 love cut to It and I love it even more 0:18:22.600 --> 0:18:27.000 when you download us and subscribe, and you can follow 0:18:27.040 --> 0:18:30.160 us on social media to Smithie where where at That's at? 0:18:30.200 --> 0:18:34.440 Cut to It on Instagram, what about Twitter at cut 0:18:34.480 --> 0:18:38.119 to It Facebook, cut to It featuring Steve Smith sing 0:18:38.160 --> 0:18:41.600 your what about online And you can follow us at 0:18:41.600 --> 0:18:44.760 cut to It podcast dot com where you can buy 0:18:44.760 --> 0:18:47.640 merch and you can subscribe to us wherever you listen 0:18:47.680 --> 0:18:52.199 to podcasts. I got all my answers questions. Yeah, I 0:18:52.240 --> 0:18:55.440 got all my questions answered. That's what I'm here for. 0:18:55.480 --> 0:18:59.399 A brother, cut to a podcast dot com tell us 0:18:59.440 --> 0:19:01.960 your journey. I mean, I'm reading all the information. I 0:19:02.000 --> 0:19:04.640 don't want to skip over and and say which. I've 0:19:04.640 --> 0:19:07.280 got a really weird, really weird way of how I 0:19:07.320 --> 0:19:09.879 came into this. Basically when I was in high school. 0:19:10.680 --> 0:19:12.680 My whole life, I've always wanted to be an actress. 0:19:13.760 --> 0:19:17.600 And my dad died when I was sixteen, and that 0:19:18.440 --> 0:19:20.400 through It's okay, it's been a long time, it's through 0:19:20.520 --> 0:19:23.679 my whole life out of whack, and everything kind of 0:19:23.680 --> 0:19:27.520 got put on the back burner and I just started 0:19:27.520 --> 0:19:31.400 to be, I guess like scared of life. And so 0:19:31.600 --> 0:19:33.720 then all of a sudden, I couldn't to get into 0:19:33.840 --> 0:19:36.480 theater school. You have to audition, and I was just like, 0:19:36.520 --> 0:19:39.160 I just can't do that right now. So I ended 0:19:39.240 --> 0:19:41.240 up going to school for broadcast journalism because I was like, 0:19:41.240 --> 0:19:42.840 what's the next best thing, what's the what's the way 0:19:42.880 --> 0:19:44.200 that I can still be in front of a camera 0:19:44.240 --> 0:19:45.959 and kind of like slowly work my way into that. 0:19:46.600 --> 0:19:49.920 So I went to school in Toronto for broadcast journalism. Um, 0:19:50.840 --> 0:19:53.359 And about two years in I went to Seneca College, 0:19:53.359 --> 0:19:56.800 just like a really just small, small school. Two years in, 0:19:56.920 --> 0:20:01.840 I was like, um, my favorite class in school is 0:20:01.880 --> 0:20:04.159 improv And I was like, I'm clearly still doing the 0:20:04.200 --> 0:20:08.159 wrong thing. So I dropped out of school and before 0:20:08.240 --> 0:20:10.159 I got to apply to go back to I was 0:20:10.200 --> 0:20:12.320 going to go back to school for theater. Finally got 0:20:12.400 --> 0:20:15.080 the courage to do it. Um. I was working at 0:20:15.080 --> 0:20:18.960 a bar at the time. I was so poor that 0:20:19.080 --> 0:20:23.119 I was having to steal toilet paper from the sushi 0:20:23.200 --> 0:20:25.359 restaurant that was down the street from my apartment. Like 0:20:25.400 --> 0:20:28.639 I was just so broke, And so I was applying 0:20:28.800 --> 0:20:33.040 for all of these jobs and on my Facebook was 0:20:33.200 --> 0:20:37.400 a job that said the Toronto FC Dream Job Contest. 0:20:37.440 --> 0:20:39.720 Toronto C was our major league soccer team in Toronto. 0:20:39.880 --> 0:20:42.560 And I was like, I don't know anything about soccer. 0:20:42.880 --> 0:20:45.760 I don't I'm not interested in covering sports. But I 0:20:45.800 --> 0:20:48.520 have two years of broadcast journalism experience under my belt. 0:20:48.520 --> 0:20:50.600 I know how to be on TV. Cannot stop you 0:20:50.680 --> 0:20:53.960 before that, though, because I want to you know, what 0:20:54.040 --> 0:20:58.159 was your what what was your mental state to the 0:20:58.240 --> 0:21:03.440 point of like I'll volunteer something. I I remember there 0:21:03.480 --> 0:21:09.280 were times I just still food right because we're struggling, right. 0:21:09.320 --> 0:21:12.000 I had me and my wife when we had our 0:21:12.040 --> 0:21:16.000 son in college, I had to literally I got up. Um, 0:21:15.359 --> 0:21:18.199 you haven't heard this story, but I actually got up, 0:21:19.560 --> 0:21:25.000 unscrewed the license plate off to our car, drove in 0:21:26.160 --> 0:21:28.600 like at five thirty in the morning, six o'clock in 0:21:28.600 --> 0:21:30.920 the morning, drove to the grocery store, told my wife 0:21:30.960 --> 0:21:33.840 make a list of all things we needed, which was 0:21:33.880 --> 0:21:36.960 diapers and all that stuff, loaded up the shopping cart 0:21:37.320 --> 0:21:40.919 and left through it in trunk and drove off. And 0:21:41.240 --> 0:21:47.800 I struggled. I didn't struggle to do it. I struggled 0:21:49.080 --> 0:21:52.560 after because I knew at some point I probably would 0:21:52.560 --> 0:21:55.600 have to do it again. And that's why I'm asking 0:21:56.080 --> 0:21:59.560 not to make fun, but just more to hear where 0:21:59.600 --> 0:22:01.639 you are. Because where you are today you don't have 0:22:01.680 --> 0:22:04.560 to think about toilet paper. But there's people listening that 0:22:05.240 --> 0:22:07.960 can identify with, that can identify with so much more. 0:22:08.560 --> 0:22:11.159 And so you, you out of your story, may not 0:22:11.280 --> 0:22:13.359 even realize that you can give somebody some hope. That 0:22:13.480 --> 0:22:15.480 So that's why that's why I'm asking not to make 0:22:15.520 --> 0:22:17.800 fun or make light of it, but really shine a 0:22:17.880 --> 0:22:21.359 light on where you started and how you got through it, 0:22:21.480 --> 0:22:23.840 especially if we're talking about all the people of mental 0:22:23.880 --> 0:22:27.480 health these days right now, they don't identify. The pandemic 0:22:27.520 --> 0:22:30.800 has shown us that we that what we think who 0:22:30.840 --> 0:22:34.479 we are, we're actually not right. Some people and then 0:22:34.520 --> 0:22:36.480 some people you exactly who you are. There are people 0:22:37.240 --> 0:22:42.880 in the pandemic. The relationships have strengthened, things have been 0:22:43.560 --> 0:22:47.320 weeded out and started to uproot and clarity throughout relationships, 0:22:47.320 --> 0:22:49.879 and there's other some other relationships. People have been Domestic 0:22:50.000 --> 0:22:53.240 violence numbers are up, suicide numbers were all of that stuff. 0:22:53.280 --> 0:22:56.040 So again, I'm not trying to make fun of you. 0:22:56.320 --> 0:22:58.560 I'm more of trying to sit down with you and 0:22:59.040 --> 0:23:02.400 go through that process because if you really think about it, 0:23:02.560 --> 0:23:06.040 where you are today. I watch you on TV. You're great. 0:23:06.240 --> 0:23:08.280 You do a hell of a job. But I would 0:23:08.280 --> 0:23:11.200 have never said I thought this girl that struggle so much. 0:23:11.240 --> 0:23:13.920 She dropped out of school, she also had to steal 0:23:13.920 --> 0:23:18.320 toilet paper, she lost her dad, she's built a deck, 0:23:19.560 --> 0:23:26.480 she's done a sana. Wow, that's impressive. Yeah, I mean 0:23:26.680 --> 0:23:32.040 I think that it's when I was younger, my parents 0:23:32.160 --> 0:23:37.080 were We weren't you know, I wasn't. We weren't like 0:23:37.920 --> 0:23:41.439 rich by any means, but we were definitely comfortable and 0:23:41.520 --> 0:23:45.320 my dad was had his own company, and my mom 0:23:45.400 --> 0:23:50.879 was a school secretary. And then when my dad died, Um, 0:23:51.760 --> 0:23:54.639 we were all of a sudden on the other end 0:23:54.680 --> 0:23:57.600 of the spectrum. So the same as like me feeling 0:23:57.640 --> 0:23:59.040 like I was a part of a big family and 0:23:59.080 --> 0:24:02.560 also an only child old. I was once comfortable and 0:24:02.680 --> 0:24:04.600 felt like I was always going to be taken care of, 0:24:04.760 --> 0:24:07.480 and then that got totally taken away from me, and 0:24:07.520 --> 0:24:11.560 then all of a sudden, I was having exactly exactly 0:24:12.400 --> 0:24:14.200 So still in the back of my mind, I feel 0:24:14.240 --> 0:24:16.080 so blessed that I'm able to own my own home 0:24:16.119 --> 0:24:19.520 and I have things. But because I went through that 0:24:19.640 --> 0:24:24.560 trauma as a child basically of sixteen, I have that 0:24:24.680 --> 0:24:27.919 fear of everything being taken away at any point in time. 0:24:28.400 --> 0:24:31.280 I still have that at three. Yeah. I think it's 0:24:31.280 --> 0:24:33.440 just like, if you have that trauma in your life, 0:24:33.680 --> 0:24:36.080 you'll always kind of have it, not by yourself, keep 0:24:36.119 --> 0:24:40.639 going by yourself. Um. So I think that there was 0:24:40.680 --> 0:24:43.399 a point in time where after my dad died, he 0:24:43.520 --> 0:24:45.560