WEBVTT - “I’M DISABLED AND TERRITORIAL ABOUT IT”

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<v Speaker 1>Hello, Hey, what's up?

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<v Speaker 2>Hi there?

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<v Speaker 1>Who's this.

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<v Speaker 3>Hunter? Hunter? S?

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<v Speaker 1>Hunter S Thompson Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas? Is

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<v Speaker 1>that Hunter? Is that Hunter S Thompson Fear and Loathing

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<v Speaker 1>in Las Vegas? That's him?

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<v Speaker 4>Right?

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<v Speaker 3>Yes?

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<v Speaker 2>I believe that is him. Well, I can only assume

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<v Speaker 2>I got part of my name from.

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<v Speaker 1>There, but you never know it was him Hunter, But

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<v Speaker 1>now it is you. What's going on?

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<v Speaker 3>Man?

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<v Speaker 1>How can I get you today? What's what's happening?

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<v Speaker 2>Well? I guess for all that, for all the viewers

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<v Speaker 2>out there, my name is Hunter. I have a multitude

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<v Speaker 2>of disabilities, and for some reason, I generally like to

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<v Speaker 2>see myself as a more chill person. But whenever I

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<v Speaker 2>meet other people named Hunter or other people with disabilities,

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<v Speaker 2>I get really I can only describe it as territorial. Almost.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, man, it's as uh it says, I get weirdly

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<v Speaker 1>territorial when I meet other disabled folks or other people

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<v Speaker 1>name Hunter. Now, you said territorial is the only way

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<v Speaker 1>to describe this. How would you describe this feeling?

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<v Speaker 2>Almost? I guess the part of it almost feel just

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<v Speaker 2>because I'm you know, I moved around military wise, I'm

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<v Speaker 2>so used to being like almost like one of a

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<v Speaker 2>kind almost, and I think like a weird, weird part

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<v Speaker 2>of me just has kind of like just kind of

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<v Speaker 2>neat on one hand to see, oh that I'm not

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<v Speaker 2>the only one out here with any particular things. But

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<v Speaker 2>at the same time, another part of me almost feels like, well,

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<v Speaker 2>now I'm not special anymore, and that almost almost kind

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<v Speaker 2>of bumps me out a little bit.

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<v Speaker 1>When you were growing up, go.

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<v Speaker 2>Ahead, I was gonna say never never had a real

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<v Speaker 2>problem with any any of any of one. I just

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<v Speaker 2>thought it was just a weird thing that I hopefully

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<v Speaker 2>hold on, Like do you hear input on any sort

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<v Speaker 2>of growing up? I never really had this issue. I

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<v Speaker 2>didn't notice. This is how I more so graduated high school.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hmmm. How old are you now?

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<v Speaker 2>Twenty five?

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<v Speaker 1>Cool? So growing up? Like okay, so growing up, what

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<v Speaker 1>like did you was be it was like the identity

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<v Speaker 1>of being disabled like important to you?

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<v Speaker 4>No?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh, it was for the most part, like I barely

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<v Speaker 2>noticed it growing up. It didn't become more noticeable until

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<v Speaker 2>I got older.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, can I ask and you don't have to tell

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<v Speaker 1>me shit, but what what what is your disability?

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<v Speaker 2>I have cerebral palsy scoliosis, and then my doctor says

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<v Speaker 2>I might have a little bit of arthriis in my back,

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<v Speaker 2>so I got to get checked up for that at

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<v Speaker 2>some point as well.

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<v Speaker 1>And like nowadays, like you would would you consider your

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<v Speaker 1>disability like I would you consider it a big part

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<v Speaker 1>of who you are or how you define yourself or

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<v Speaker 1>your personality or anything like that.

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<v Speaker 2>I think because it's at the point where I can

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<v Speaker 2>actually notice how it affects everything, and just how over

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<v Speaker 2>time this changes what I've done and how I do things.

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<v Speaker 1>Why do you think that when you were a kid

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<v Speaker 1>you barely noticed it, but now at twenty five, it's

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<v Speaker 1>like a cornerstone of who you are?

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<v Speaker 2>Well, I guess because as a kid, you know you're

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<v Speaker 2>you just you have a lot of energy. You use it.

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<v Speaker 2>But of course I always instead of using it to

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<v Speaker 2>take care of myself, I'd rad just went off and

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<v Speaker 2>did whatever made me happy. And I can only imagine

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<v Speaker 2>now a lot of that's just catching up with me.

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<v Speaker 1>Now do you have like like how else I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>aside from being disabled, Like, how else do you define yourself?

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<v Speaker 1>What else is important in your identity?

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<v Speaker 2>Well, identity wise, I I think it's important I guess

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<v Speaker 2>I mentioned I'm on the more uh quiet side initially,

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<v Speaker 2>but I do tend to open up as long as

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<v Speaker 2>someone else starts the conversation. Sure, I generally try to

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<v Speaker 2>be on the more friendly side of things, which is

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<v Speaker 2>why I find my weird I guess my weird feelings

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<v Speaker 2>of meeting other people's with similar ailments to be just

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<v Speaker 2>baffling to me.

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<v Speaker 3>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 2>This is because I never I never have the issue

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<v Speaker 2>with the person as a whole, like as an individual.

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<v Speaker 2>It's just like I can only explain it. I was like, oh, hey,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm I'm I'm the this is this is the space

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<v Speaker 2>I've occupied for so long, You're you're in my space. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>but again this is I don't have a problem with

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<v Speaker 2>them every normally.

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<v Speaker 1>This is one of those I have these two these

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<v Speaker 1>these thoughts that you have or feelings you have that

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<v Speaker 1>are like guttural, and then there's a second part of you,

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<v Speaker 1>deeper in your brain that looks at that feeling, that

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<v Speaker 1>guttural feeling that you have and goes, why the fuck

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<v Speaker 1>am I feeling like this?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh? Exactly, no one on money. And I find it

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<v Speaker 2>funny because it's like, of all the things to like

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<v Speaker 2>have happened. Every time I meet someone similar, it's like

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<v Speaker 2>this is what I think, and not like oh cool,

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<v Speaker 2>I got to meet someone else. It's my first thought of, hey,

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<v Speaker 2>this is this is my turp? Are you coming after

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<v Speaker 2>my friends?

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<v Speaker 3>No?

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<v Speaker 2>One can't have that right.

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<v Speaker 1>Right right right? I feel like there's a way, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>yeah I have. I have that too, where like you're

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<v Speaker 1>talking to someone and you're thinking something and you're like, well,

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<v Speaker 1>the fuck did I think that? I should? You know?

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<v Speaker 1>Where's that coming from? You know? Like I but there's

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<v Speaker 1>I think there's a there's a power in that self

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<v Speaker 1>awareness that you can use, right like, because you can

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<v Speaker 1>theoretically you can, to some degree, I think, train your

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<v Speaker 1>brain to not feel certain I don't know, I'm I

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<v Speaker 1>Actually this is something I have thought about a while,

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<v Speaker 1>Like can you train your brain against these certain guttural feelings?

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<v Speaker 1>You can try. You can definitely, like have be be

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<v Speaker 1>mindful of it. And every time you're talking to another

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<v Speaker 1>disabled person and something in your brain goes like, hey,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm the only motherfucker with cerebral palsy on this block.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, this person's on my turf. You gotta you

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<v Speaker 1>look at that thought and you're like, you know, you

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<v Speaker 1>understand that you do not desire for that to be

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<v Speaker 1>in the in the lexicon of your brain and you

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<v Speaker 1>and you take it and you put it away, you know, right.

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<v Speaker 2>I think I think for me too, at least I'm

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<v Speaker 2>we're an up toward at least in my friend group,

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<v Speaker 2>Like I'm constantly joking about my own my own ailments.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm very self deprivation wise in my in my humor

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<v Speaker 2>love it m So it's it's enough towards like I

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<v Speaker 2>know this isn't really a problem, but you know that

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<v Speaker 2>it's just interesting to think. Definitely think I can definitely

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<v Speaker 2>train myself to not go go to that right away.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, I gotta ask you this. I get it. I

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<v Speaker 1>get where you're coming from, what the cerebral p with

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<v Speaker 1>like the you know, being territorial about disabilities. I get.

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<v Speaker 1>I understand kind of why you might be having those thoughts,

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<v Speaker 1>But I have I have no idea why you're territorial

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<v Speaker 1>about other people named Hunter.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know. I think part of that just comes

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<v Speaker 2>to at least growing up, like I was, finding at

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<v Speaker 2>least all the places I've lived, finding someone named Hunter

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<v Speaker 2>was a rare thing, and now it's becoming more common,

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<v Speaker 2>and the more the more often I hear someone else

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<v Speaker 2>being called that's not me, the more like weird and confused,

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<v Speaker 2>but just I just get confused. And you know the

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<v Speaker 2>part of that, I think also comes back to what

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<v Speaker 2>golf see, I'm not I'm not as special as it

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<v Speaker 2>used to be.

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<v Speaker 4>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 1>You know what, how actually, now that I'm thinking about

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<v Speaker 1>it every time, now that I'm thinking about it in

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<v Speaker 1>the two or three times in my life I've ever

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<v Speaker 1>met another lyle, there is a little part of my

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<v Speaker 1>brain that goes like, yeah, fuck this guy, right.

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<v Speaker 2>And I wonder, I wonder how much of that comes

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<v Speaker 2>to When I was a kid, there was another person

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<v Speaker 2>in my kindergarten class named Hunter s And from what

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<v Speaker 2>I remember.

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<v Speaker 1>I almost have wanted to kill him.

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<v Speaker 2>I thought he was loud and obnoxiousness like I just uh.

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<v Speaker 2>And I wonder how much of my subconscious mind associates

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<v Speaker 2>other people with that specific Hunter, despite you know, everyone

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<v Speaker 2>being so different. It's like, oh, this is a far

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<v Speaker 2>cry from who they used to be when they were

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<v Speaker 2>in kindergarten. I doubt this person named Hunter I'm talking

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<v Speaker 2>to is that.

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<v Speaker 1>And now let me ask you this has this terror,

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<v Speaker 1>this territorial thing that goes It just goes on in

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<v Speaker 1>your brain, right, It's going on in your brain and

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<v Speaker 1>you're looking at it, and you're going, why the fuck

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<v Speaker 1>am I thinking like this? Has there ever been a

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<v Speaker 1>time where any of your these thoughts of territorialness have

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<v Speaker 1>ever creeped their way in or manifested themselves in your

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<v Speaker 1>words or actions to these these other people?

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<v Speaker 2>I want to say no, But a part of me,

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<v Speaker 2>just because I'm typically shire around, you know, meeting new folks. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>I wonder if to a degree that manifests itself as

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<v Speaker 2>almost like a standoutiousness.

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<v Speaker 3>Mm, but I don't think so. Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 1>Well yeah, man, I think, but I think I would

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<v Speaker 1>just uh yeah. It's hard. It's hard to get your

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<v Speaker 1>brain to not think thoughts that you don't want it

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<v Speaker 1>to think. But in the brief moment, I was in

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<v Speaker 1>the brief moments where you do. It's like lucid dreaming,

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<v Speaker 1>you know what I mean. Like when you when you

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<v Speaker 1>when you have that awareness that you're dreaming, and you

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<v Speaker 1>all of a sudden you could control your dreams. You

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<v Speaker 1>can kind of do that with your thoughts too, Like

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<v Speaker 1>you have this awareness that you're acting or thinking in

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<v Speaker 1>a certain way that you don't like, you can take

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<v Speaker 1>you can rein it in and you can go. You

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<v Speaker 1>know what, there's there's room in town for multiple coool

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<v Speaker 1>disabled guys named Hunter, right, And.

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<v Speaker 2>I know at least where I grops. I'm from Washington State.

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<v Speaker 2>It was a very communal you know, if I find

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<v Speaker 2>out other folks with disabilities like it is a community thing.

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<v Speaker 2>We were all Everyone was nice, everyone was friendly. So

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<v Speaker 2>it's like, there should be no reason that this thought

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<v Speaker 2>even occurred to begin with, let alone after high school.

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<v Speaker 1>Alternatively, you could challenge them to a duel, and that

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<v Speaker 1>would I don't know if that'd be healthy, but it'd

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<v Speaker 1>be sick.

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<v Speaker 2>It would be very it would be interesting, But I

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<v Speaker 2>feel like I'd get more stuck on the kind of

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<v Speaker 2>duel and that would essentially have them be aw it

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<v Speaker 2>go away in boredom, because I feel like I'd get

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<v Speaker 2>a little too specific.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, Let's say I'm all right. Let's say I

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<v Speaker 1>roll up to you and I'm Hunter, and you don't

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<v Speaker 1>like the sweat of my brow, and you don't like

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<v Speaker 1>my name, and you don't like that I'm in a wheelchair,

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<v Speaker 1>and you want to duel me? What what? How would you?

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<v Speaker 1>What would the what would the parameters of the duel be?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh, I guys first and foremost said, and I'd have

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<v Speaker 2>to find, of course, something that works for the both

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<v Speaker 2>of us and both of our ailments, because you know,

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<v Speaker 2>I want this to be a fear duel, and now

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<v Speaker 2>a do I consipally want to because I'm while I'm

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<v Speaker 2>han some issues walking, I'm still not wheelchair bount yet,

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<v Speaker 2>so I'd want to make sure to establish some fear ground.

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<v Speaker 2>But ideally we'd find something that we both can we

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<v Speaker 2>could both do to a healthy and skillful enough degree

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<v Speaker 2>to where it doesn't come off as a one sided duel,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, because I imagine if we're gonna have a duel,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, it's gonna be like an old, old Wild

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<v Speaker 2>West movie. There's gonna be a lot of onlookers. Everyone's

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<v Speaker 2>coming to the center of town ready to watch watch

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<v Speaker 2>everything just go down. So I hopefully find time that

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<v Speaker 2>we're both good enough at so we don't quite embarrass

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<v Speaker 2>ourselves in front of everyone else.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you if you're in a wheelchair, can you ride

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<v Speaker 1>a horse?

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<v Speaker 2>You know, I has a good question because I me

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<v Speaker 2>me personally, I've been fortunate enough to where I, like

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<v Speaker 2>I said, only only recently have I really struggled with walking.

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<v Speaker 2>And I think that's more from the scholistice of anything.

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<v Speaker 2>But I do remember seeing this gentleman on TikTok whose

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<v Speaker 2>sister tends to get him a lot of gifts that

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<v Speaker 2>don't quite fit him and his disability. So I know

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<v Speaker 2>and wanted the TikTok. She put her brother on a

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<v Speaker 2>bike and it just kind of fell over with him

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<v Speaker 2>on it. I imagine with a lot of upper body strengths,

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<v Speaker 2>you'd probably be able to hang on to the horse,

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<v Speaker 2>but I don't think you'd be able to get a

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<v Speaker 2>good I guess, like a kicken to push the horse forward.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, So jousting is out if you were to

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<v Speaker 1>all right, let me I'll phrase you this before we go.

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<v Speaker 1>What's your name again?

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<v Speaker 3>Hunter?

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<v Speaker 1>Hunter? If you could pick, what would you pick as

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<v Speaker 1>the as the dueling activity.

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<v Speaker 2>It's gotta be. I feel like there's gotta be a

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<v Speaker 2>spectacle to it for sure.

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<v Speaker 1>Right, you just want to do chest.

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<v Speaker 2>I generally if we can put on a bunch of

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<v Speaker 2>suits of armor and fight with swords or poss some hands,

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<v Speaker 2>like I feel like that'd probably be the way to go.

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<v Speaker 1>Let me know if you do this, because I want to,

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<v Speaker 1>I want to m see it.

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<v Speaker 3>I will keep you posted.

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<v Speaker 1>Good sir, Hunter, thanks for talking about I hope this

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<v Speaker 1>conversation was of of any remote kind of sort of

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<v Speaker 1>minuscule amount of good for you.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh no, it's saying fantastica.

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<v Speaker 3>I appreciate a lot.

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<v Speaker 2>Think you get there.

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<v Speaker 1>Anything else you want to say to the people of

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<v Speaker 1>the computer before we go.

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<v Speaker 2>Hunter, I guess, I guess. I hope everyone else is

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<v Speaker 2>enjoying them some timing, and I say, and also of

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<v Speaker 2>things to be all dark, things will get better. I've

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<v Speaker 2>hand many on and off in the last two years.

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<v Speaker 2>You folks can get through it. You'll have yourself in

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<v Speaker 2>my sight.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you, Hunter, Take care, take care. If there are

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<v Speaker 1>any liles out there who would be willing to accept

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<v Speaker 1>my challenge of fighting to the death with shotguns, let

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<v Speaker 1>me know.

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<v Speaker 3>Hello.

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<v Speaker 1>It's your name, partner, my Corey. It says here you

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<v Speaker 1>texted me saying I used to work for Paul Rudd

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<v Speaker 1>and now I can't stand the guy.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, yeah, dude.

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<v Speaker 1>Off, all right, you know this is the the tell

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<v Speaker 1>all is this the first? This is some real this

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<v Speaker 1>is a hot goss that you're about to drop on

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<v Speaker 1>the Therapy Gecko show. I don't know if I want

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<v Speaker 1>to m Z knocking down my door, but fuck.

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<v Speaker 3>It, I signed an NDA, but you know, enough times

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<v Speaker 3>past I wonder, I wonder.

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<v Speaker 4>I for okay, I think we're good.

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<v Speaker 3>So I worked on a I worked on a show

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<v Speaker 3>with him. The show was called The Shrink next Door.

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<v Speaker 3>In my job, I was a production secretary, which is

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<v Speaker 3>a production office position. Basically, you're like the lackeys of

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<v Speaker 3>the producers. If like the producer wants you to get

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<v Speaker 3>something done, like hire a vendor to do X. I'm

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<v Speaker 3>just the guy who communicates with a vendor and gets

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<v Speaker 3>things done. And we were shooting in Los Angeles. Paul

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<v Speaker 3>Rudd lives in New York. He's from New York. He's

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<v Speaker 3>a New York guy, right. So my job, I was

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<v Speaker 3>assigned the job of helping Paul Rudd find a home

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<v Speaker 3>in Los Angeles for him to stay for like six

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<v Speaker 3>months for the duration of the shoot because he wanted

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<v Speaker 3>like a home home, so I had to I had

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<v Speaker 3>to help him find the home home. So what I

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<v Speaker 3>did was I reached out to realtors and I would

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<v Speaker 3>get the best properties they had in the budget. I

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<v Speaker 3>found out what his budget was for months, and it's

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<v Speaker 3>not his money. He's spending productions paying for him to

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<v Speaker 3>come out, because you know, it kind of makes sense.

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<v Speaker 3>If you're making the guy come live somewhere to shoot,

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<v Speaker 3>you might as well pay for his home. So his

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<v Speaker 3>budget was crazy. And this was back in like twenty

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<v Speaker 3>twenty one, so it was like in the middle of

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<v Speaker 3>the pandemic, so it was tough. I had to like

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<v Speaker 3>find realtors I could work with, so I had a

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<v Speaker 3>bunch of properties.

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<v Speaker 1>I like it. Let me ask you, Let me ask

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<v Speaker 1>you something this real. What's your name again?

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<v Speaker 3>My name's Corey. Are you for a while, so if

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<v Speaker 3>I need to speed it up? Please?

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<v Speaker 4>Are you?

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<v Speaker 1>Are you? Are you sure you're well?

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<v Speaker 4>No?

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<v Speaker 1>This is all Look, here's the thing. This is all

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<v Speaker 1>fascinating information for me. But are you sure you're allowed

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<v Speaker 1>to tell us all this?

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<v Speaker 3>I think the NBA I signed pertains to the pertains

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<v Speaker 3>to the content of the product, which has already been released,

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<v Speaker 3>so like I couldn't tell I had access to scripts.

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<v Speaker 3>I couldn't tell you before it was released what was

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<v Speaker 3>in the scripts? My guess Okay, all right, this is

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<v Speaker 3>a good question.

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<v Speaker 1>I guess. I want to make sure that nobody's gonna

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<v Speaker 1>I want to make sure that Paul Rudd's not gonna

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<v Speaker 1>fucking snipe you while you're on the phone with me.

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<v Speaker 3>This is a good point. I'll avoid numbers going forward. Paul,

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<v Speaker 3>I have if you hear this, I have respect for

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<v Speaker 3>you in your position. You ticks me off a little bit,

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<v Speaker 3>but you know.

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<v Speaker 1>I thought you well, I thought you hate Okay, let's

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<v Speaker 1>let's keep going because I thought you hated the guy.

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<v Speaker 1>I want to hear about this.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh okay, so okay. So he pissed me off, and

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<v Speaker 3>then the same year he pisses me off, he becomes

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<v Speaker 3>like this guy alive. And that's the thing, like like

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<v Speaker 3>he like the guy's always been popular since he's been

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<v Speaker 3>a movie star. But then like this year he exploded,

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<v Speaker 3>of course when he pisses me off.

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<v Speaker 1>So like, why did he piss you off?

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<v Speaker 3>Okay, okay, okay, okay. So like basically I had to

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<v Speaker 3>do like my whole job transition from being a production

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<v Speaker 3>secretary to being Paul Rudd's realtor basically finding him. I

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<v Speaker 3>was in contact with multiple realtors, multiple properties, sending him

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<v Speaker 3>to the properties making spreadsheets and I finally like, narrow it

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<v Speaker 3>down to like four properties. I went to twelve properties.

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<v Speaker 3>He wanted me to be a videographer for him. Video

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<v Speaker 3>all the properties, edit the videos down to like four minutes, synopsises,

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<v Speaker 3>and narrate, so like this was my whole job was falling. Finally,

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<v Speaker 3>Paul read a home for two weeks and he needed

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<v Speaker 3>to move in. I had two weeks to find the

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<v Speaker 3>home and need to move in in two weeks, like

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<v Speaker 3>things needed to move. This was hard. So the work

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<v Speaker 3>was laborious, difficult and frustrating, and the communication from him

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<v Speaker 3>was very poor, and like, we get close to locking

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<v Speaker 3>in one place, and like I thought we had it,

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<v Speaker 3>and then all of a sudden, he's like, I don't

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<v Speaker 3>like the vibe at this place, so we're changing it up.

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<v Speaker 3>So we changed it up. And I was like, I

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<v Speaker 3>was a good sport. That was a good sport. I

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<v Speaker 3>find this, I find a place. It's Gerard Butler's home.

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<v Speaker 3>I might be sharing too much again, are.

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<v Speaker 1>You are you sure? Are you whatever?

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<v Speaker 3>Man, We'll go with it. We'll go with it. Lord, Paul,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm sorry, you know we're good, but moving forward. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>we get Gerard Butler's home, I do video tours with it.

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<v Speaker 3>We we settle on it. Good done, deal, deal is signed,

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<v Speaker 3>and then he obviously is like, wait, Core, are you

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<v Speaker 3>free for more work? I was like, okay, okay, I

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<v Speaker 3>think I should probably get back to the production stuff.

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<v Speaker 3>But you know, it's Paul read I'll do. I'll do

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<v Speaker 3>what he wants me to do. He's like, can you

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<v Speaker 3>make me a home gym in Gerard Butler's home? And

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<v Speaker 3>this is like again at the start of the pandemic context,

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<v Speaker 3>it's in Los Angeles, Like everyone's trying to make a

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<v Speaker 3>home gym now because no one wants to go to

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<v Speaker 3>the gym.

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<v Speaker 1>This this this this making a home gym? Is this

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<v Speaker 1>like an extra thing on top of what you already

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<v Speaker 1>get paid from the production.

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<v Speaker 3>No, I would still even be doing a production secretary,

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<v Speaker 3>but I'm hired by a production company that is making

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<v Speaker 3>something that Paul Rudd is an executive producer for. So

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<v Speaker 3>in the structure of things, like I kind of work

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<v Speaker 3>for Paul Rudd, like his assistant should be doing this job.

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<v Speaker 3>But because the indirect way I worked for him and

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<v Speaker 3>his assistant already does enough things. He decided I was

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<v Speaker 3>the guy right, and I already made I mean I

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<v Speaker 3>already made a house appear for him. So it's like, here,

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<v Speaker 3>this guy can do another thing. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I

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<v Speaker 3>get the guy at home gym. But it was like

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<v Speaker 3>the hardest thing. I'd like assemble it from like four

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<v Speaker 3>different rental vendors and I finally get it all set up.

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<v Speaker 3>I hire movers. The costs were exorbitant, Like everyone realized

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<v Speaker 3>the home gym acquipment is so valuable right now, so

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<v Speaker 3>the prices are so high, So like I have to

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<v Speaker 3>hire movers to come things in. I have to install

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<v Speaker 3>a new floor in Gerard Butler's home to protect the

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<v Speaker 3>antique floor, just like rich people problems, so like there's

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<v Speaker 3>some maybe class resentment here too, or I'm like solving

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<v Speaker 3>rich people problems and getting paid Tenny's to do it.

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<v Speaker 3>So then it's all done right, So it's all set up,

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<v Speaker 3>the home gym set up, put my heart and soul

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<v Speaker 3>into it. It was actually excited to do it for him,

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<v Speaker 3>and I face silent. I FaceTime him and I'm like,

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<v Speaker 3>here's the moment. You're gonna show off the house, You're

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<v Speaker 3>gonna show off the home gym. You said all this

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<v Speaker 3>love labor you put into it, and he face silent,

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<v Speaker 3>and I will say, he's a very nice guy. And

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<v Speaker 3>it's like the kind of nice where it's like it

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<v Speaker 3>almost hurts it so nice where it's like he's killing

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<v Speaker 3>you with kindness. So everything he says, everything he says,

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<v Speaker 3>you can't be mad about because he's his tone is

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<v Speaker 3>so sweet. But I show him the room and it's like, oh,

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<v Speaker 3>Corey a great job. But you know, I really, I

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<v Speaker 3>really prefer to do my workouts clockwise around the room, man,

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<v Speaker 3>because I like to go from station to station doing

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<v Speaker 3>my workout right, So I need you to to rearrange

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<v Speaker 3>the room so I can do that, And like the

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<v Speaker 3>mover's just left.

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<v Speaker 1>Wait wait, hold on, hello, Hell he likes so he

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<v Speaker 1>wants to have the machine, so he wants the machines

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<v Speaker 1>set up so that he he rotates through them clockwise.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, so I'm I'm gonna give him some empathy here.

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<v Speaker 3>This is Marvel time. So he's got like a man

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<v Speaker 3>workout routines he's got to do.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, that's you know what, you know what, you know what,

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<v Speaker 1>you're you know what? All right, if we're giving if

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<v Speaker 1>we're giving credit to Paul Rudd on a few things.

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<v Speaker 1>It's a good I'd say, I'll give I'll give this

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<v Speaker 1>to paul A. If Marvel is like paying for me

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<v Speaker 1>to do whatever I want. I'm ringing that tab up.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm ringing that tab up. And what if it's Marvel's money.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like this, this is like if Disney is paying

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<v Speaker 1>for you. I'm like, yeah, let me just you know,

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<v Speaker 1>this is infinite money. So I get him on that. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>and then I get I get I guess you're right.

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<v Speaker 1>I guess if you're like a big fucking movie star,

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<v Speaker 1>like you know, your whole thing is uh, Although who

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<v Speaker 1>really gives a shit about the physique of ant Man?

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<v Speaker 1>Can't he just be like skinny? Isn't that the whole thing?

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<v Speaker 1>It's like he's I don't know.

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<v Speaker 3>They blow him up pretty big when he goes I

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<v Speaker 3>don't know what it's called, when he goes into big

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<v Speaker 3>ant Man. For him, he's pretty big. He's big on

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<v Speaker 3>the screen. You know you gotta look good for that shot? Sure, reckon?

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<v Speaker 1>So he so he wants to do he wanted to

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<v Speaker 1>do the workouts clockwise.

0:23:43.920 --> 0:23:47.000
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, yeah, So I had to like not double my

0:23:47.040 --> 0:23:48.600
<v Speaker 3>budget for the whole space, but I had to like

0:23:48.680 --> 0:23:50.760
<v Speaker 3>hire movers to come back, and it took like three

0:23:50.840 --> 0:23:53.000
<v Speaker 3>or four of them because it's heavy gear and like

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<v Speaker 3>again more considerations with the space being like a classic

0:23:57.119 --> 0:24:01.479
<v Speaker 3>historical house. Uh So, just like the budget went up

0:24:01.520 --> 0:24:08.080
<v Speaker 3>like crazy again and my pay didn't Again class's classics.

0:24:08.119 --> 0:24:09.920
<v Speaker 3>That man, that's the that's the truth of it. Here.

0:24:10.240 --> 0:24:12.679
<v Speaker 3>He was very sweet about it, but I had it

0:24:12.720 --> 0:24:15.240
<v Speaker 3>all sorted out. So all of it was sorted out,

0:24:15.440 --> 0:24:17.720
<v Speaker 3>and this kind of fueled my desire to fucking want

0:24:17.720 --> 0:24:20.440
<v Speaker 3>to leave the type of work I was doing.

0:24:20.720 --> 0:24:22.920
<v Speaker 1>Here's the thing. You'll you'll probably never work in the

0:24:22.920 --> 0:24:26.520
<v Speaker 1>film industry again. But it's a good thing because, as

0:24:26.560 --> 0:24:30.320
<v Speaker 1>you know better than I do, it's a terrible place

0:24:30.440 --> 0:24:34.400
<v Speaker 1>to work. Yeah, yeah, ahead, what were you gonna say?

0:24:34.440 --> 0:24:37.080
<v Speaker 3>I I mean, yeah, I've been abused since I got

0:24:37.080 --> 0:24:39.919
<v Speaker 3>out here. My first job that I worked on was

0:24:39.960 --> 0:24:44.080
<v Speaker 3>Barry and the fucking prop Sky was like emotionally a

0:24:44.160 --> 0:24:48.600
<v Speaker 3>manipulative and abusive. Yeah, I've had a I've had a shit.

0:24:48.440 --> 0:24:53.320
<v Speaker 1>Experience in the so I used to I've never had

0:24:53.400 --> 0:24:56.439
<v Speaker 1>I've never had any there's I've never had anyone like that.

0:24:56.440 --> 0:24:58.680
<v Speaker 1>I would write an expos about or anything like that.

0:24:58.760 --> 0:25:03.040
<v Speaker 1>But you know, yeah, I mean people people are people

0:25:03.080 --> 0:25:07.600
<v Speaker 1>are definitely crazy this. I once had a guy, Well

0:25:07.640 --> 0:25:10.320
<v Speaker 1>you're telling me about all this, like I'm thinking about

0:25:10.320 --> 0:25:11.879
<v Speaker 1>this because you're telling me about like, oh I met

0:25:11.920 --> 0:25:13.600
<v Speaker 1>I was. I thought I was gonna be like on

0:25:13.680 --> 0:25:16.840
<v Speaker 1>the set of Marvel movies, and now I'm like helping

0:25:16.920 --> 0:25:20.239
<v Speaker 1>a guy build a home gym. I was once a

0:25:20.400 --> 0:25:27.360
<v Speaker 1>PA on a show as a PA, and the executive

0:25:27.440 --> 0:25:34.119
<v Speaker 1>producer of the shoot had this like a van that

0:25:34.200 --> 0:25:37.760
<v Speaker 1>he wanted to deck out. So he basically just had

0:25:37.840 --> 0:25:42.920
<v Speaker 1>me like drive the van all around Atlanta, like going

0:25:42.920 --> 0:25:46.120
<v Speaker 1>to various home depots, like getting supplies for a van

0:25:46.560 --> 0:25:48.399
<v Speaker 1>that I'm pretty sure I had nothing to do with

0:25:48.480 --> 0:25:50.560
<v Speaker 1>the show, but he just you know, I was kind

0:25:50.560 --> 0:25:53.040
<v Speaker 1>of his bitch, so I so I did it. But

0:25:53.840 --> 0:25:55.440
<v Speaker 1>you know, those are like, I guess those are the

0:25:55.520 --> 0:25:59.480
<v Speaker 1>kind of I don't know, I guess I guess that's

0:25:59.520 --> 0:26:01.240
<v Speaker 1>what you do, all right, as you're you're kind of

0:26:01.240 --> 0:26:04.040
<v Speaker 1>a bitch for a while, and then eventually you work

0:26:04.080 --> 0:26:08.080
<v Speaker 1>your way up to having somebody else build your home gym.

0:26:08.400 --> 0:26:11.440
<v Speaker 3>Maybe yeah, I mean maybe I feel like it doesn't

0:26:11.440 --> 0:26:13.160
<v Speaker 3>work out like that. After ninety five percent of people

0:26:13.200 --> 0:26:17.119
<v Speaker 3>in the business burnt out and then leave. But my perspective,

0:26:17.359 --> 0:26:19.720
<v Speaker 3>my healthy I get I'm like twenty seven now, so

0:26:19.720 --> 0:26:22.919
<v Speaker 3>I've got a healthy perspective on this. It's I, you know,

0:26:23.119 --> 0:26:25.480
<v Speaker 3>ate ship for a while and didn't get paid a lot,

0:26:25.800 --> 0:26:28.080
<v Speaker 3>but I have some cool stories from it, and I

0:26:28.119 --> 0:26:31.400
<v Speaker 3>think I grew and got some good experiences that helped

0:26:31.400 --> 0:26:33.639
<v Speaker 3>me be a better person from it at the very best.

0:26:33.720 --> 0:26:35.960
<v Speaker 3>But I didn't I didn't. I didn't tell you that

0:26:37.000 --> 0:26:38.600
<v Speaker 3>the worst part of the Paul Red Store. So you

0:26:38.600 --> 0:26:40.480
<v Speaker 3>had me to do all these jump through all these hurdles,

0:26:41.600 --> 0:26:43.199
<v Speaker 3>and then I left the show because I was so

0:26:43.240 --> 0:26:45.520
<v Speaker 3>sick of it. That was like one of the one

0:26:45.560 --> 0:26:48.320
<v Speaker 3>of the breaking points for me. And then the other

0:26:48.560 --> 0:26:50.560
<v Speaker 3>breaking point where I was like the producers made a

0:26:50.600 --> 0:26:53.280
<v Speaker 3>bunch of decisions that were like anti worker and I

0:26:53.440 --> 0:26:55.720
<v Speaker 3>had to be the mouthpiece and tell like spread the

0:26:55.760 --> 0:26:57.639
<v Speaker 3>news to the crew about all the sho things Like

0:26:58.160 --> 0:27:00.399
<v Speaker 3>the producers didn't want to say anything, so had me

0:27:00.480 --> 0:27:05.159
<v Speaker 3>say over them, and then I like would take like

0:27:05.359 --> 0:27:10.159
<v Speaker 3>violate union rules. I would just share information in the

0:27:10.160 --> 0:27:12.119
<v Speaker 3>ways that like I had to tell the crew members

0:27:12.119 --> 0:27:14.199
<v Speaker 3>that they weren't going to get hotels when we were

0:27:14.240 --> 0:27:16.920
<v Speaker 3>doing travel shoots, like I had to be that guy

0:27:17.000 --> 0:27:19.879
<v Speaker 3>sharing information that was like the crew would hate me for.

0:27:20.040 --> 0:27:21.840
<v Speaker 3>So then they all like call me screaming at like

0:27:21.880 --> 0:27:24.600
<v Speaker 3>two am in the morning about how I'm I personally

0:27:24.640 --> 0:27:28.000
<v Speaker 3>am violating union rules by following the orders of the producer.

0:27:28.080 --> 0:27:31.320
<v Speaker 3>So I just like quit. I left that show. But

0:27:31.560 --> 0:27:33.679
<v Speaker 3>I heard, so I left the show I happened to

0:27:33.800 --> 0:27:36.640
<v Speaker 3>four months later, I checked in with Paul Red's assistant

0:27:36.640 --> 0:27:38.320
<v Speaker 3>because I wanted I was curious. I had a more

0:27:38.359 --> 0:27:40.360
<v Speaker 3>bit curiosity. I was like, did he did he ever

0:27:40.440 --> 0:27:43.000
<v Speaker 3>use the home gym? And the personal assistant said, I

0:27:43.000 --> 0:27:45.560
<v Speaker 3>can guarantee you he'd never use the home gym once.

0:27:45.800 --> 0:27:50.480
<v Speaker 1>All of this for that.

0:27:52.800 --> 0:27:55.560
<v Speaker 3>Yeah. So then then a few months later he got

0:27:55.560 --> 0:27:58.840
<v Speaker 3>sexiest Man of the Year, I think, so then yeah,

0:27:58.520 --> 0:28:01.680
<v Speaker 3>I got super at them all.

0:28:01.760 --> 0:28:04.760
<v Speaker 1>Damn you know because right, because here's the thing is,

0:28:04.840 --> 0:28:07.040
<v Speaker 1>at least you know, if he had used the home gym,

0:28:07.440 --> 0:28:09.800
<v Speaker 1>at least you could have been like I had I

0:28:09.880 --> 0:28:14.080
<v Speaker 1>played my little part in him achieving his sexiness, but

0:28:14.119 --> 0:28:16.520
<v Speaker 1>he didn't use the gym.

0:28:16.880 --> 0:28:19.360
<v Speaker 3>So I got the frustrations. But well, that's cool.

0:28:19.400 --> 0:28:21.560
<v Speaker 1>That's about. That's Honestly, that's a better story than I

0:28:21.560 --> 0:28:22.959
<v Speaker 1>thought it would be. I thought you were gonna say

0:28:23.000 --> 0:28:24.119
<v Speaker 1>he hit you or some ship.

0:28:25.240 --> 0:28:28.960
<v Speaker 3>Oh no, he's a good guy and it fucking sucks. Sorry,

0:28:29.000 --> 0:28:30.200
<v Speaker 3>I can't. Can I swear.

0:28:32.720 --> 0:28:39.080
<v Speaker 1>You you're totally allowed to uh discuss the financial details

0:28:39.120 --> 0:28:41.760
<v Speaker 1>of of people that you've signed NDAs to not talk about,

0:28:41.760 --> 0:28:43.880
<v Speaker 1>but no, you cannot say fuck.

0:28:45.040 --> 0:28:48.440
<v Speaker 3>All right, well I'm already on my way out of

0:28:48.480 --> 0:28:50.000
<v Speaker 3>the business anyways, mine as well.

0:28:50.400 --> 0:28:53.600
<v Speaker 1>Here's the thing though, is and I I we're getting

0:28:53.600 --> 0:28:56.360
<v Speaker 1>like inside baseball or whatever. But it's all it's like,

0:28:56.800 --> 0:28:58.640
<v Speaker 1>you know, it used to be that you had to

0:28:58.880 --> 0:29:02.320
<v Speaker 1>right yet to go and be a PA and like

0:29:02.560 --> 0:29:05.240
<v Speaker 1>be someone's bitch, and then eventually you just be a

0:29:05.240 --> 0:29:08.000
<v Speaker 1>bitch for a while. And like, right, five percent of

0:29:08.000 --> 0:29:09.880
<v Speaker 1>the people who are lucky, if even that, they get

0:29:09.960 --> 0:29:11.560
<v Speaker 1>to go make a movie, but you don't. Really, you

0:29:11.560 --> 0:29:13.880
<v Speaker 1>don't have to do that anymore because now you can

0:29:13.960 --> 0:29:15.840
<v Speaker 1>just make a movie and put it on the internet

0:29:15.960 --> 0:29:17.120
<v Speaker 1>and do ship that way.

0:29:17.360 --> 0:29:17.560
<v Speaker 3>True.

0:29:17.760 --> 0:29:21.000
<v Speaker 1>You know, I did a little bit of of you know,

0:29:21.120 --> 0:29:23.880
<v Speaker 1>I spent a lot of time as an intern, you know,

0:29:23.920 --> 0:29:28.600
<v Speaker 1>being people's bitch. But then most of you know, whatever

0:29:28.600 --> 0:29:32.080
<v Speaker 1>I've got came from the internet, so it's a little

0:29:32.840 --> 0:29:34.320
<v Speaker 1>a little bit of both doesn't hurt.

0:29:36.000 --> 0:29:37.440
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, No, it's so true.

0:29:39.840 --> 0:29:43.880
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, what what's next for you? Are you always?

0:29:43.920 --> 0:29:44.160
<v Speaker 3>What?

0:29:44.160 --> 0:29:45.720
<v Speaker 1>What? What are you going to go into?

0:29:45.760 --> 0:29:45.920
<v Speaker 2>Now?

0:29:45.960 --> 0:29:49.360
<v Speaker 1>If you're not, what's what's what's next for you?

0:29:50.400 --> 0:29:54.520
<v Speaker 3>Currently? I'm a cinema lens technician and that was going

0:29:54.600 --> 0:29:56.640
<v Speaker 3>great until the strikes. So my my whole life in

0:29:56.640 --> 0:29:59.760
<v Speaker 3>the film industry has been like getting shipped on like

0:30:00.680 --> 0:30:04.160
<v Speaker 3>and then now the strikes. And I support striking workers everywhere,

0:30:04.720 --> 0:30:06.400
<v Speaker 3>but that doesn't mean I'm not impacted by it. And

0:30:06.400 --> 0:30:07.920
<v Speaker 3>I'm not in any union, so I don't really get

0:30:08.240 --> 0:30:11.840
<v Speaker 3>strike funds or union protections. So I'm kind of business

0:30:11.880 --> 0:30:14.800
<v Speaker 3>isn't great right now? I work for a rental company,

0:30:15.160 --> 0:30:19.440
<v Speaker 3>a camera rental company, and you know, shout out to

0:30:19.520 --> 0:30:25.000
<v Speaker 3>be Sinny. It's a really great company. But yeah, I

0:30:25.040 --> 0:30:26.840
<v Speaker 3>don't I don't know. I think I want to go

0:30:26.880 --> 0:30:29.440
<v Speaker 3>into like real estate photography. Honestly, I've always been passionate

0:30:29.440 --> 0:30:32.800
<v Speaker 3>about cameras and I have done a lot of photography

0:30:32.800 --> 0:30:35.480
<v Speaker 3>in the past, but never like architectural or real estate.

0:30:36.040 --> 0:30:39.040
<v Speaker 3>And you know, I I don't know if I can

0:30:39.160 --> 0:30:41.479
<v Speaker 3>make some money off the back of some realtors selling

0:30:41.520 --> 0:30:44.680
<v Speaker 3>investment properties. That feels like a more ethical way to

0:30:44.680 --> 0:30:49.120
<v Speaker 3>go about an industry that's actually proven to make people money.

0:30:49.200 --> 0:30:51.200
<v Speaker 3>I guess I don't know. I'm still working it out, but.

0:30:53.360 --> 0:30:56.040
<v Speaker 1>I do have to say I do have to say this,

0:30:56.200 --> 0:30:59.000
<v Speaker 1>and I think you understand this as well. You know,

0:30:59.120 --> 0:31:01.600
<v Speaker 1>say what you will about Paul Rudd and your experience

0:31:01.640 --> 0:31:06.040
<v Speaker 1>with him, But it sounds like he awakened within you

0:31:06.280 --> 0:31:08.440
<v Speaker 1>this desire to do real estate photography.

0:31:09.720 --> 0:31:13.360
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, definitely. He pissed me off enough to make me

0:31:13.720 --> 0:31:17.520
<v Speaker 3>reject his fucking kool aid. Paul Rudd.

0:31:19.080 --> 0:31:21.080
<v Speaker 1>Wait, but isn't he He's the one who would he

0:31:21.080 --> 0:31:22.480
<v Speaker 1>He told you. He was like, I need you to

0:31:22.960 --> 0:31:25.800
<v Speaker 1>make these short films of each room in the house.

0:31:26.960 --> 0:31:29.280
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, oh dude, he got Oh wait, oh, I see

0:31:29.320 --> 0:31:33.240
<v Speaker 3>your point. I was doing real estate videography and photography

0:31:33.280 --> 0:31:37.440
<v Speaker 3>for him, right, and he is the impetus. Ah Okay,

0:31:38.280 --> 0:31:40.480
<v Speaker 3>So now now it's supposed to like worship him, huh.

0:31:41.040 --> 0:31:43.480
<v Speaker 3>I should be I should be thanking.

0:31:43.240 --> 0:31:48.880
<v Speaker 1>Him exactly exactly that. I'm trying to think of. What

0:31:48.920 --> 0:31:51.440
<v Speaker 1>was the one I don't think I've ever seen ant

0:31:51.520 --> 0:31:52.640
<v Speaker 1>man actually have you.

0:31:55.080 --> 0:31:57.360
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I've seen one in two. This is a third one,

0:31:57.440 --> 0:31:59.880
<v Speaker 3>but that one looked crazy, so I checked out.

0:32:01.280 --> 0:32:03.400
<v Speaker 1>Are you like, are you not going to watch any

0:32:03.960 --> 0:32:05.160
<v Speaker 1>Paul Red movies anymore?

0:32:06.280 --> 0:32:07.880
<v Speaker 3>No? I just watched I Love You Man the other

0:32:07.920 --> 0:32:08.920
<v Speaker 3>day and it was really good.

0:32:09.360 --> 0:32:10.120
<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

0:32:10.160 --> 0:32:14.400
<v Speaker 3>So, yeah, you know you pissed me off. You got

0:32:14.440 --> 0:32:17.800
<v Speaker 3>sexiest man alive. But you know he still has a

0:32:17.880 --> 0:32:18.600
<v Speaker 3>place in my heart.

0:32:20.400 --> 0:32:21.960
<v Speaker 1>He could, he could probably hit me and I would

0:32:21.960 --> 0:32:25.320
<v Speaker 1>still watch his movie.

0:32:26.240 --> 0:32:28.720
<v Speaker 3>Yeah. I don't know where the line is. He hasn't

0:32:28.720 --> 0:32:33.320
<v Speaker 3>crossed it yet, but there'll be something. Wait. Yeah, I'm

0:32:33.320 --> 0:32:35.479
<v Speaker 3>not going to bring up Israel palacetime, but I think

0:32:35.520 --> 0:32:39.280
<v Speaker 3>he made some comments recently. I don't know. I don't know.

0:32:39.320 --> 0:32:39.719
<v Speaker 3>I don't know.

0:32:46.880 --> 0:32:49.560
<v Speaker 1>Just so just one last ditch effort to get something

0:32:49.560 --> 0:32:56.720
<v Speaker 1>in on it. Yeah, Bro, what's your name again? Cory?

0:32:56.760 --> 0:32:59.240
<v Speaker 1>You're a cool guy, man. I hope uh, I hope

0:32:59.480 --> 0:33:02.880
<v Speaker 1>you you whatever thing you get out of or into

0:33:03.000 --> 0:33:07.000
<v Speaker 1>that you find, find success and peace of it.

0:33:07.120 --> 0:33:09.920
<v Speaker 3>Thanks, Lyle. I don't I don't know you. You don't know me,

0:33:10.000 --> 0:33:11.280
<v Speaker 3>but you know I like you a lot. You're a

0:33:11.320 --> 0:33:13.840
<v Speaker 3>great guy. You do good things. I hope you're taking

0:33:13.880 --> 0:33:15.760
<v Speaker 3>care of yourself because I think you are taking good

0:33:15.760 --> 0:33:18.280
<v Speaker 3>care of everybody that you talk Tom.

0:33:19.160 --> 0:33:22.120
<v Speaker 1>I'm trying my best to do whatever I'm doing.

0:33:23.600 --> 0:33:25.080
<v Speaker 3>Well you can do, dude.

0:33:25.440 --> 0:33:30.160
<v Speaker 1>Hell yeah, Well take care of man, and good luck, sir.

0:33:31.000 --> 0:33:33.160
<v Speaker 1>You're the sexiest man alive in my book.

0:33:34.360 --> 0:33:38.800
<v Speaker 4>Hell yeah, take that Paul later, buddy. Bye.

0:33:41.440 --> 0:33:43.200
<v Speaker 1>Something tells you I'm going to be hearing from some

0:33:43.320 --> 0:33:44.520
<v Speaker 1>lawyers sometime soon.

0:33:45.680 --> 0:33:46.200
<v Speaker 4>Awesome.

0:33:47.840 --> 0:33:50.080
<v Speaker 1>Hello, Hello, Hey, what's up?

0:33:50.120 --> 0:33:50.280
<v Speaker 4>Man?

0:33:50.400 --> 0:33:50.600
<v Speaker 3>Hey?

0:33:50.600 --> 0:33:51.120
<v Speaker 4>What's going on?

0:33:51.240 --> 0:33:52.000
<v Speaker 1>This is Brandon.

0:33:52.600 --> 0:33:53.240
<v Speaker 4>This is Brandon.

0:33:53.800 --> 0:33:55.280
<v Speaker 1>Have we ever spoken before, Brandon?

0:33:55.920 --> 0:33:56.520
<v Speaker 3>We have not?

0:33:56.800 --> 0:33:59.719
<v Speaker 1>Oh beautiful, Well, what's going on?

0:33:59.800 --> 0:34:00.520
<v Speaker 3>Man? Hey?

0:34:00.680 --> 0:34:03.760
<v Speaker 4>So me and my friends are all having a competition

0:34:03.880 --> 0:34:06.240
<v Speaker 4>to see you can get with the most women before

0:34:06.280 --> 0:34:06.960
<v Speaker 4>the end of the year.

0:34:07.680 --> 0:34:10.799
<v Speaker 3>Mm hmm and I am in dead last.

0:34:12.400 --> 0:34:15.560
<v Speaker 1>Uh what was the what was the impetus of this competition?

0:34:15.640 --> 0:34:16.600
<v Speaker 1>How did this come about?

0:34:18.040 --> 0:34:23.080
<v Speaker 3>Because it was kind of just like a last year.

0:34:23.160 --> 0:34:25.239
<v Speaker 4>We kind of thought we're talking and I was my

0:34:25.239 --> 0:34:28.680
<v Speaker 4>body counts is pretty low and all this are pretty high,

0:34:28.880 --> 0:34:30.799
<v Speaker 4>and I was like, well, I guarantee, if I really

0:34:30.840 --> 0:34:33.640
<v Speaker 4>tried to, I could get with more women than any

0:34:33.680 --> 0:34:34.720
<v Speaker 4>of you guys.

0:34:36.160 --> 0:34:40.160
<v Speaker 1>Okay, and are you what does you really trying to

0:34:40.280 --> 0:34:41.160
<v Speaker 1>what does that look.

0:34:41.040 --> 0:34:43.800
<v Speaker 4>Like like actually like going out of my way to

0:34:43.880 --> 0:34:51.120
<v Speaker 4>pursue like a like a like sexual intimacy with other women?

0:34:51.920 --> 0:34:55.640
<v Speaker 1>Sure? How how uh? How has that endeavor been going

0:34:55.680 --> 0:34:55.920
<v Speaker 1>for you?

0:34:56.680 --> 0:34:57.720
<v Speaker 4>Absolutely terrible?

0:34:58.600 --> 0:34:59.880
<v Speaker 1>Why has it been going terrible?

0:35:01.640 --> 0:35:03.160
<v Speaker 4>I'm pretty bad at talking to women, to be.

0:35:03.120 --> 0:35:06.640
<v Speaker 1>Honest, You're bad at You're bad at talk. You're bad

0:35:06.640 --> 0:35:08.320
<v Speaker 1>at talking to women. Is that what you said?

0:35:08.520 --> 0:35:13.000
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, it's not my it's not my strongth Okay, what

0:35:13.080 --> 0:35:13.640
<v Speaker 4>do you are you?

0:35:15.160 --> 0:35:17.839
<v Speaker 1>Are you on Tinder? Are you? Are you? What are

0:35:17.840 --> 0:35:18.280
<v Speaker 1>you doing?

0:35:19.400 --> 0:35:19.920
<v Speaker 2>Uh?

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<v Speaker 4>It's just like an in person thing. We kind of

0:35:22.080 --> 0:35:25.799
<v Speaker 4>just go to parties and kind of just my thing.

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<v Speaker 1>How old are you?

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<v Speaker 4>Twenty two?

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<v Speaker 3>All?

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<v Speaker 4>Right?

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<v Speaker 1>Are you in college? No?

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<v Speaker 4>I'm not.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, m hmm. I mean what's your what's your like?

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<v Speaker 3>Is this?

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<v Speaker 1>Is this an endeavor coming to you because of social

0:35:48.120 --> 0:35:55.439
<v Speaker 1>pressure or loneliness or just sexual frustration? Like? What what

0:35:56.560 --> 0:36:01.719
<v Speaker 1>is is? What is the true motivation behind this quest

0:36:02.440 --> 0:36:03.080
<v Speaker 1>to get pussy?

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<v Speaker 3>I'm not gonna lie to you, right, but.

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<v Speaker 1>The whole getting pussy, there's there's still a motivation behind that.

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<v Speaker 1>I think and again and you and look, the motivation

0:36:16.280 --> 0:36:19.799
<v Speaker 1>behind that could just be he it could look. If

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<v Speaker 1>your truth is that the motivation behind that is is hedonistic,

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<v Speaker 1>then that's fine. But I just want to know what

0:36:25.920 --> 0:36:29.320
<v Speaker 1>you know, what is your the motivation behind getting pussy?

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<v Speaker 4>Oh? I think it's to prove something to myself.

0:36:35.480 --> 0:36:37.560
<v Speaker 1>There we go. All right, that's what I'm that's what

0:36:37.600 --> 0:36:38.359
<v Speaker 1>we're getting at.

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<v Speaker 5>What do you yet?

0:36:41.960 --> 0:36:44.719
<v Speaker 4>For one minute, I'm selling a graphics card for a

0:36:44.719 --> 0:36:45.480
<v Speaker 4>lot of money, and.

0:36:45.440 --> 0:36:47.640
<v Speaker 1>It's going to help me selling a graphics card for

0:36:47.719 --> 0:36:48.520
<v Speaker 1>a lot of money.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, like, are you are you giving up?

0:36:53.560 --> 0:36:55.600
<v Speaker 1>Are you giving up video games? And a and a

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<v Speaker 1>and an attempt to be more attractive to the opposite sex?

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<v Speaker 1>I think so, to be honest, Okay, how long is

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<v Speaker 1>it gonna take you to sell this graphics card?

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<v Speaker 4>One minute?

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<v Speaker 1>Back? All right? You can put me on hold, and

0:37:12.680 --> 0:37:13.960
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna say a munch of I'm gonna say a

0:37:13.960 --> 0:37:16.440
<v Speaker 1>lot of mean things about you while while you're selling

0:37:16.480 --> 0:37:17.319
<v Speaker 1>this graphics card.

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<v Speaker 3>That's okay with me?

0:37:19.600 --> 0:37:24.840
<v Speaker 4>All right, give me give me one minute, please and

0:37:25.000 --> 0:37:25.439
<v Speaker 4>thank you.

0:37:27.040 --> 0:37:29.920
<v Speaker 1>This guy sounds like he smells bad. No, I'm just kidding.

0:37:29.960 --> 0:37:35.600
<v Speaker 1>I don't know who he is at all. Awesome, Okay,

0:37:36.239 --> 0:37:37.960
<v Speaker 1>I really want to hang up on him, but I'm

0:37:38.040 --> 0:37:40.520
<v Speaker 1>I'm fascinated by this play. I actually don't really want

0:37:40.560 --> 0:37:42.399
<v Speaker 1>to hang up on him. I'm fascinated by his plate

0:37:42.480 --> 0:37:50.759
<v Speaker 1>and I would like to hear more. Wouldn't it be

0:37:50.760 --> 0:37:53.799
<v Speaker 1>funny if this guy killed him? Like it was just

0:37:53.840 --> 0:37:55.440
<v Speaker 1>a Craigslist serial killer guy?

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<v Speaker 6>All right?

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<v Speaker 1>I never understood like Mercury or Craigslist or Facebook, but

0:38:08.560 --> 0:38:12.360
<v Speaker 1>like the whole, like meeting up with strangers to sell stuff,

0:38:12.600 --> 0:38:17.399
<v Speaker 1>like when you do the Internet. Although I guess that's

0:38:17.480 --> 0:38:19.400
<v Speaker 1>kind of what this guy is all about. He's like

0:38:19.440 --> 0:38:23.800
<v Speaker 1>on tender and meeting up with strangers anyway. So whether

0:38:23.880 --> 0:38:30.799
<v Speaker 1>it's for you know, romantic sexual interest or to sell

0:38:30.800 --> 0:38:33.839
<v Speaker 1>a graphics card, I guess. I guess this guy's meeting

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<v Speaker 1>up with strangers. It's been more than a minute. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know if I have any more ranting within me.

0:38:45.600 --> 0:38:47.440
<v Speaker 1>You don't have time to call her, you don't have

0:38:47.480 --> 0:38:49.120
<v Speaker 1>time to joke around. You got to get back on

0:38:49.120 --> 0:38:50.880
<v Speaker 1>the fucking phone. I don't want to hear you laughing.

0:38:54.320 --> 0:38:57.000
<v Speaker 1>This guy's yucking it out. I'm on hold. Listen to

0:38:57.040 --> 0:38:59.280
<v Speaker 1>this guy yuck it up with the Craigslist killer.

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<v Speaker 4>This is what I'm talking from.

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<v Speaker 1>What do you do. All right, Yeah, all right, Brandon,

0:39:11.040 --> 0:39:14.360
<v Speaker 1>we can we can include those rants. But I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 1>just wait until he comes back.

0:39:19.160 --> 0:39:20.439
<v Speaker 4>I'm back. I'm back, I'm back.

0:39:20.480 --> 0:39:22.239
<v Speaker 1>All right, you're back. There we go. All right. I

0:39:22.280 --> 0:39:24.200
<v Speaker 1>was about all right, all right, sorry about actually was

0:39:24.280 --> 0:39:25.920
<v Speaker 1>I actually wasn't about to do anything. I was. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>in a pretty page.

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<v Speaker 4>Okay, I heard, I heard my name. No no, no,

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<v Speaker 4>no no no no.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, yeah, you were. You were yucking at you were

0:39:32.600 --> 0:39:33.760
<v Speaker 1>making jokes.

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<v Speaker 5>I know, I know what you were hit You were you're.

0:39:37.000 --> 0:39:39.160
<v Speaker 1>Hitting on anyone that moves. You were hitting on the

0:39:39.160 --> 0:39:41.520
<v Speaker 1>person you were selling the graphics card too.

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<v Speaker 4>It was it was a little Asian guy.

0:39:43.680 --> 0:39:46.520
<v Speaker 1>Why not Jesus christ Man? All right?

0:39:46.640 --> 0:39:50.040
<v Speaker 5>Well okay, okay, okay, so let me let me so okay,

0:39:50.200 --> 0:39:52.600
<v Speaker 5>So the whole thing is that I have two bodies

0:39:52.640 --> 0:39:56.360
<v Speaker 5>and all my friends are like mid twenties thirties, and

0:39:56.400 --> 0:39:57.759
<v Speaker 5>it's kind of like a it's kind of like a

0:39:57.760 --> 0:39:59.000
<v Speaker 5>thing that you like, put me down.

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<v Speaker 3>You know.

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<v Speaker 4>It was kind of just to prove something to myself

0:40:03.480 --> 0:40:04.800
<v Speaker 4>that I could not so much prove.

0:40:04.680 --> 0:40:05.160
<v Speaker 3>It to them.

0:40:05.880 --> 0:40:11.759
<v Speaker 1>All right, So what I mean, what exactly are you

0:40:12.400 --> 0:40:17.799
<v Speaker 1>trying to prove to yourself here because because you know

0:40:17.880 --> 0:40:20.839
<v Speaker 1>I I'll tell you this, I've been there. I've been

0:40:20.960 --> 0:40:23.120
<v Speaker 1>like you know, I remember when I was in high school,

0:40:23.160 --> 0:40:26.600
<v Speaker 1>I was like one of the last of my of

0:40:26.640 --> 0:40:31.960
<v Speaker 1>my friends to have sex, and you know, I remember

0:40:32.000 --> 0:40:35.200
<v Speaker 1>that making me, you know, right feel in that way

0:40:35.280 --> 0:40:37.080
<v Speaker 1>like you needed to prove something, like you know, I

0:40:37.120 --> 0:40:41.120
<v Speaker 1>needed to prove something to myself or you know, it

0:40:41.160 --> 0:40:45.600
<v Speaker 1>made me, you know, feel lesser than and whatnot. You know,

0:40:45.920 --> 0:40:50.400
<v Speaker 1>So I I understand where this is coming from. But

0:40:50.400 --> 0:40:53.200
<v Speaker 1>when you when what can you go in more? And

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<v Speaker 1>what you mean when you say you're trying to prove

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<v Speaker 1>something to yourself.

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<v Speaker 4>So I think it's just like trying to give myself

0:40:59.400 --> 0:41:03.839
<v Speaker 4>some type of worth. I don't I don't know if

0:41:03.880 --> 0:41:05.440
<v Speaker 4>that's the right word for it.

0:41:07.360 --> 0:41:09.320
<v Speaker 1>Sure, it's like I'm.

0:41:09.200 --> 0:41:10.759
<v Speaker 4>Kind of something to myself.

0:41:10.840 --> 0:41:13.080
<v Speaker 6>But just when you keep kind of failing, it's kind

0:41:13.080 --> 0:41:16.080
<v Speaker 6>of like it's like I'm starting to get the feeling

0:41:16.120 --> 0:41:22.440
<v Speaker 6>that like this doesn't really matter in a way.

0:41:22.560 --> 0:41:22.840
<v Speaker 3>You know.

0:41:23.680 --> 0:41:31.800
<v Speaker 1>I think I've actually, you know, I remember having several

0:41:31.840 --> 0:41:36.160
<v Speaker 1>moments where I like learned this lesson in real time,

0:41:37.320 --> 0:41:42.680
<v Speaker 1>especially when it comes to like the pursuit of sex,

0:41:43.440 --> 0:41:47.040
<v Speaker 1>you know, and it's like I remember in college, I

0:41:47.719 --> 0:41:51.840
<v Speaker 1>was like, you're the a number, like a number of

0:41:52.040 --> 0:41:55.319
<v Speaker 1>girls that you've slept with. I'm telling you right now,

0:41:55.360 --> 0:42:01.600
<v Speaker 1>it's not going to It is not a long lasting

0:42:01.760 --> 0:42:09.759
<v Speaker 1>solution to any sort of lack of self esteem or

0:42:09.800 --> 0:42:10.800
<v Speaker 1>self worth.

0:42:11.480 --> 0:42:13.840
<v Speaker 4>You know, I think I think that's more what it is.

0:42:13.880 --> 0:42:16.040
<v Speaker 4>It is like I'm I'm a pretty good looking guy.

0:42:16.280 --> 0:42:20.680
<v Speaker 4>Like I'll say, it's not like Hockway, but it's just

0:42:20.840 --> 0:42:23.440
<v Speaker 4>I just don't know how to use my words. Like

0:42:23.480 --> 0:42:26.879
<v Speaker 4>I get nervous. You know, you see a pretty little

0:42:26.920 --> 0:42:29.200
<v Speaker 4>Latino girl standing there, and you just get nervous.

0:42:29.400 --> 0:42:31.439
<v Speaker 1>You got to stop with the race thing. I'm gonna

0:42:31.440 --> 0:42:34.640
<v Speaker 1>tell you that right now. If you just stop stop

0:42:34.719 --> 0:42:37.360
<v Speaker 1>doing that, just stop. I don't know what you're I

0:42:37.560 --> 0:42:40.920
<v Speaker 1>I can already kind of tell why the words aren't working.

0:42:40.960 --> 0:42:43.560
<v Speaker 1>You got to stop doing that. I look, I don't

0:42:43.640 --> 0:42:45.480
<v Speaker 1>I don't think you're a bad guy, and I understand

0:42:45.480 --> 0:42:47.759
<v Speaker 1>where you're coming from, but you gotta stop doing that.

0:42:48.760 --> 0:42:49.400
<v Speaker 3>Absolutely.

0:42:51.440 --> 0:42:53.960
<v Speaker 1>Okay, Where were we?

0:42:56.360 --> 0:42:56.640
<v Speaker 3>What?

0:42:56.640 --> 0:42:58.799
<v Speaker 1>What tell me? Tell me in your in your life

0:42:58.800 --> 0:43:00.640
<v Speaker 1>in general? Do you feel like you have a low

0:43:01.480 --> 0:43:02.439
<v Speaker 1>kind of self worth?

0:43:03.200 --> 0:43:03.799
<v Speaker 3>Astely?

0:43:05.840 --> 0:43:08.640
<v Speaker 4>I really like I grew up, like I was in

0:43:08.680 --> 0:43:10.239
<v Speaker 4>and out of foster care as a kid, and it

0:43:10.320 --> 0:43:16.560
<v Speaker 4>was It's just I feel like that kind of was

0:43:16.600 --> 0:43:21.279
<v Speaker 4>the start of it, like no self worth.

0:43:23.280 --> 0:43:28.719
<v Speaker 1>Mm hm m hmm. Okay, all right, so this is

0:43:28.760 --> 0:43:31.120
<v Speaker 1>like I mean, this is we're in real therapy territory.

0:43:31.160 --> 0:43:34.560
<v Speaker 1>This is like an issue that stems from your childhood.

0:43:37.040 --> 0:43:42.080
<v Speaker 4>Yes, you know my parents, Like I can't really blame them.

0:43:42.080 --> 0:43:48.759
<v Speaker 4>They were like they were mid high school and like

0:43:48.840 --> 0:43:54.040
<v Speaker 4>back then, like abortion wasn't really uh like a feasible option.

0:43:54.880 --> 0:43:55.239
<v Speaker 1>Mm hmm.

0:43:56.360 --> 0:43:57.120
<v Speaker 4>So they're kind of.

0:43:57.360 --> 0:44:03.800
<v Speaker 1>You had you had teenage parents. Yeah, yep, that's rough. Yeah,

0:44:03.880 --> 0:44:05.359
<v Speaker 1>let me ask you. Let me ask you a question.

0:44:05.440 --> 0:44:07.560
<v Speaker 1>Have you ever gone to real therapy to talk about this?

0:44:09.080 --> 0:44:09.319
<v Speaker 3>No?

0:44:10.680 --> 0:44:14.719
<v Speaker 1>Okay, well look, I'm I'm just a dumbass and a

0:44:14.719 --> 0:44:18.319
<v Speaker 1>gecko costume who I'm gonna be. I'm a little high

0:44:18.440 --> 0:44:23.320
<v Speaker 1>right now too, which I'm not normally and I regret

0:44:23.520 --> 0:44:27.400
<v Speaker 1>just now admitting it, but I'm trying to be more myself.

0:44:27.680 --> 0:44:30.200
<v Speaker 1>So I'm gonna be honest with you. But you should,

0:44:30.239 --> 0:44:32.239
<v Speaker 1>if you have the opportunity to, you should go and

0:44:32.280 --> 0:44:35.480
<v Speaker 1>talk to someone because it sounds like there's some deeper

0:44:35.600 --> 0:44:40.479
<v Speaker 1>rooted issues if we can I think establish something from

0:44:40.520 --> 0:44:44.520
<v Speaker 1>just us talking right now, anything, I hope it is

0:44:44.560 --> 0:44:48.440
<v Speaker 1>that you understand. I mean you you clearly understand this

0:44:48.480 --> 0:44:50.279
<v Speaker 1>because you're talking to me about it and I didn't

0:44:50.320 --> 0:44:53.400
<v Speaker 1>even have to, you know, dive too deep into you

0:44:53.440 --> 0:44:56.480
<v Speaker 1>for you to say something. Is that whatever is going

0:44:56.520 --> 0:45:00.680
<v Speaker 1>on with you in terms of this lack of confidence

0:45:00.760 --> 0:45:04.480
<v Speaker 1>or self esteem, it's something deeper that you're not going

0:45:04.560 --> 0:45:08.640
<v Speaker 1>to solve by you know, going and and fucking a

0:45:08.680 --> 0:45:12.719
<v Speaker 1>bunch of different people. So for that so then for

0:45:12.840 --> 0:45:16.600
<v Speaker 1>you to then get sad about the fact that you're

0:45:16.680 --> 0:45:21.120
<v Speaker 1>not fucking a bunch of people and have that be uh,

0:45:22.200 --> 0:45:24.839
<v Speaker 1>you know, limiting, and have that be like a hit

0:45:25.560 --> 0:45:30.680
<v Speaker 1>to your self esteem? Is why are you It's like

0:45:30.800 --> 0:45:34.799
<v Speaker 1>it's like it's meaningless because it's not even the thing

0:45:35.680 --> 0:45:39.640
<v Speaker 1>that is causing your low self esteem. Does that? Are

0:45:39.640 --> 0:45:40.919
<v Speaker 1>you following me? Does that make sense?

0:45:41.440 --> 0:45:42.600
<v Speaker 3>Yeah? Yeah, so, I.

0:45:42.520 --> 0:45:45.680
<v Speaker 4>Mean it's not even the fact that like they don't

0:45:45.680 --> 0:45:48.160
<v Speaker 4>necessarily want to sleep with me. It's like I think

0:45:48.200 --> 0:45:50.120
<v Speaker 4>I get more of like a thrive off of just

0:45:50.320 --> 0:45:51.880
<v Speaker 4>the interaction itself.

0:45:52.360 --> 0:45:55.720
<v Speaker 1>Yeah. No, you that's I know, I know what you

0:45:55.719 --> 0:45:58.720
<v Speaker 1>you are you saying you get a throat you thrive

0:45:58.840 --> 0:46:03.479
<v Speaker 1>off of like just this idea, you know, not even

0:46:03.640 --> 0:46:06.840
<v Speaker 1>like you know, like sleeping with someone, but just this

0:46:06.960 --> 0:46:09.880
<v Speaker 1>idea that like somebody would want to sleep with you,

0:46:10.040 --> 0:46:13.080
<v Speaker 1>like that makes you feel attractive. Yes, right, yes, yeah,

0:46:14.040 --> 0:46:16.440
<v Speaker 1>I think I feel like that's a feeling that you know,

0:46:18.600 --> 0:46:20.719
<v Speaker 1>is all people chase. I don't even I don't think

0:46:20.760 --> 0:46:24.359
<v Speaker 1>that's a gender thing even I feel like everyone it's

0:46:24.360 --> 0:46:26.759
<v Speaker 1>a common thing that people. People want to feel like,

0:46:26.840 --> 0:46:33.080
<v Speaker 1>they want to feel attractive. So yeah, but but that

0:46:33.120 --> 0:46:35.759
<v Speaker 1>goes that goes back to why, like why do you

0:46:38.160 --> 0:46:39.439
<v Speaker 1>feel like you need that?

0:46:40.400 --> 0:46:45.080
<v Speaker 4>So every single relationship I've been a part of, I've

0:46:45.080 --> 0:46:48.960
<v Speaker 4>been cheated on mm hmm, and it's you know, it's

0:46:48.960 --> 0:46:53.200
<v Speaker 4>just like like obviously they don't like me or they

0:46:53.200 --> 0:46:56.160
<v Speaker 4>don't want me, or so it's like just just to

0:46:56.160 --> 0:47:02.440
<v Speaker 4>get out there and get that feeling of not love,

0:47:02.680 --> 0:47:07.200
<v Speaker 4>but like just attraction. Right, Like I don't want to

0:47:07.239 --> 0:47:09.560
<v Speaker 4>go into like a new relationship because that's just it

0:47:09.680 --> 0:47:12.759
<v Speaker 4>just opens up scars and then you can I'd rather

0:47:12.840 --> 0:47:15.480
<v Speaker 4>just get that little bit, get that little bit here

0:47:15.480 --> 0:47:18.479
<v Speaker 4>and there to keep me going without having to jump

0:47:18.520 --> 0:47:20.720
<v Speaker 4>in a hole something new.

0:47:22.120 --> 0:47:24.399
<v Speaker 1>Mm hmmm mm hmm.

0:47:24.600 --> 0:47:27.560
<v Speaker 4>But that but then you know, and then but I'm

0:47:27.560 --> 0:47:29.640
<v Speaker 4>not I'm not sleeping with these women. So then it's

0:47:29.760 --> 0:47:32.400
<v Speaker 4>like this whole trade that me and a couple of

0:47:32.440 --> 0:47:35.440
<v Speaker 4>friends are doing is just it's not working out in

0:47:35.480 --> 0:47:39.919
<v Speaker 4>my favor, like for the quote unquote game. But it's

0:47:40.000 --> 0:47:42.200
<v Speaker 4>like it's feed it's feeding me a little bit.

0:47:42.880 --> 0:47:46.600
<v Speaker 1>But I think I I also and this is a

0:47:46.600 --> 0:47:48.520
<v Speaker 1>whole other thing that I want to I have other

0:47:48.560 --> 0:47:50.360
<v Speaker 1>things I kind of want to talk about with this first.

0:47:50.400 --> 0:47:53.480
<v Speaker 1>But I think it's this is a it's a mistake

0:47:53.560 --> 0:47:54.520
<v Speaker 1>to gamify this.

0:47:55.560 --> 0:47:55.960
<v Speaker 3>Mm hmm.

0:47:59.200 --> 0:48:02.239
<v Speaker 1>I think it's a mist to gamify this because that's

0:48:02.280 --> 0:48:05.160
<v Speaker 1>not that's not the game you want to be playing

0:48:06.640 --> 0:48:10.760
<v Speaker 1>because for a well, for for for a lot of reasons. One,

0:48:11.400 --> 0:48:14.920
<v Speaker 1>I don't I don't know if uh this competition is

0:48:14.960 --> 0:48:17.759
<v Speaker 1>something you want to brag to other people about. That's one.

0:48:17.840 --> 0:48:23.920
<v Speaker 1>But two it's like, uh, the games you want to

0:48:23.960 --> 0:48:26.799
<v Speaker 1>play are are going to be games with yourself, not

0:48:27.040 --> 0:48:30.480
<v Speaker 1>games with like oh, how many you know girls can

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<v Speaker 1>I sleep with? Or how much you know external you know, uh,

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<v Speaker 1>positive feedback? Can I get that? Will that will fill

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<v Speaker 1>up my cup? And it's it's weird. I'm thinking about

0:48:43.880 --> 0:48:47.040
<v Speaker 1>it right now. I'm thinking about it right now because yeah,

0:48:47.120 --> 0:48:52.839
<v Speaker 1>when you get that that positive feedback and you it's

0:48:52.880 --> 0:48:56.400
<v Speaker 1>sort of like it's like a quick fix, it's like

0:48:56.480 --> 0:48:59.640
<v Speaker 1>eating fast food something like that. It makes you feel

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<v Speaker 1>really good in the moment, but it's not a it's

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<v Speaker 1>not a great long term uh you know, play because

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<v Speaker 1>you still at the end of the day, whether if

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<v Speaker 1>you're not you know, comfortable with yourself, then you're fucked.

0:49:16.440 --> 0:49:19.680
<v Speaker 1>No no, no amount of you, you know, no amount

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<v Speaker 1>of of of Tinder hookups is gonna to make you

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<v Speaker 1>feel comfortable with yourself.

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<v Speaker 4>Mm hm. And I feel like the game I'm playing

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<v Speaker 4>is just making it worse too, you know, if you

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<v Speaker 4>get denied and then it's like, oh, like the self

0:49:31.719 --> 0:49:35.920
<v Speaker 4>worth drops again, but like the talking brings it back up,

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<v Speaker 4>and then you get shut down.

0:49:37.920 --> 0:49:42.400
<v Speaker 1>You know what, what's your name again? What else do

0:49:42.440 --> 0:49:43.920
<v Speaker 1>you do with your life? Brandon?

0:49:47.160 --> 0:49:53.480
<v Speaker 4>I work, I work, I do, I design, three D

0:49:54.200 --> 0:49:56.759
<v Speaker 4>I three D print a lot of stuff kind of

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<v Speaker 4>like a closet and nerd.

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<v Speaker 3>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 1>Can I can I ask you this then? And I'm

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I'm trying to. I don't want I feel

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<v Speaker 1>like I, by the way, I just gotta like snap

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<v Speaker 1>out of it for a second. I feel like I've

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<v Speaker 1>been going real hard therapy mode.

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<v Speaker 4>I've enjoying just talking to you.

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<v Speaker 1>What what aspects of yourself do you feel at unsettled with.

0:50:30.000 --> 0:50:30.840
<v Speaker 1>Let's say.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't like wearing shorts. I have cankles, not fat,

0:50:37.760 --> 0:50:40.120
<v Speaker 4>I just I just have cankles. I just have really

0:50:40.200 --> 0:50:46.520
<v Speaker 4>thick thighs or like ankles. I don't know. I wear glasses.

0:50:47.200 --> 0:50:49.399
<v Speaker 4>Like my hairlines starting to fade back a little bit,

0:50:50.080 --> 0:50:52.040
<v Speaker 4>but it's not It's nothing like you can't really look

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<v Speaker 4>past you know what I mean? Mm hmm. You can

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<v Speaker 4>still looking mirror and be like, all right, I still

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<v Speaker 4>look good.

0:50:59.239 --> 0:51:01.759
<v Speaker 1>But you know I'm in this. I used to talk

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<v Speaker 1>about this on the stream more. I haven't read it

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<v Speaker 1>in a long time, but I read this book a

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<v Speaker 1>little while ago. It's it's by a guy named Mark

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<v Speaker 1>Manson who wrote he wrote this other book that was

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<v Speaker 1>like super popular called The The Subtle Art of Not

0:51:17.080 --> 0:51:17.800
<v Speaker 1>Giving a Fuck.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh, I remember I remember you bringing that up.

0:51:21.120 --> 0:51:23.640
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I've talked about this this before. He wrote this

0:51:23.719 --> 0:51:26.400
<v Speaker 1>other book that, uh I thought it was really interesting

0:51:26.480 --> 0:51:31.600
<v Speaker 1>called Models that's it's like it's sort of a dating book,

0:51:32.160 --> 0:51:34.719
<v Speaker 1>and the the thesis of it. I really like the

0:51:34.719 --> 0:51:37.719
<v Speaker 1>thesis of it, which is basically, like, you know, it's

0:51:37.760 --> 0:51:42.720
<v Speaker 1>not about what a game or like how to say

0:51:42.840 --> 0:51:45.640
<v Speaker 1>the right thing or anything like that. It's more about, like,

0:51:46.600 --> 0:51:50.879
<v Speaker 1>wh how do how do you like before anything? How

0:51:50.920 --> 0:51:54.840
<v Speaker 1>do you make yourself into a person where you like

0:51:55.320 --> 0:51:58.320
<v Speaker 1>yourself and you like who you are, and you like

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<v Speaker 1>your life and you're living, you know, honest to yourself,

0:52:01.880 --> 0:52:04.919
<v Speaker 1>and then how do you honestly project that out into

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<v Speaker 1>the world. And the idea that if you do those things,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, you just you just become a more naturally

0:52:11.680 --> 0:52:17.880
<v Speaker 1>attractive person, which I think is an interesting thing. A

0:52:18.880 --> 0:52:28.560
<v Speaker 1>guy named Mark manson, Okay, hmm, what do you do

0:52:28.600 --> 0:52:30.480
<v Speaker 1>for work again? You told me, but I forgot.

0:52:31.280 --> 0:52:33.120
<v Speaker 4>Oh I don't think I told you. I worked for

0:52:33.160 --> 0:52:38.200
<v Speaker 4>a recycling company appliance crusher, So I just crush appliances

0:52:38.200 --> 0:52:38.560
<v Speaker 4>all day.

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<v Speaker 1>That sounds awesome. That sounds like it would give me

0:52:42.640 --> 0:52:45.719
<v Speaker 1>all the sexual pleasure that I would need.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh dude, it's it's cool.

0:52:48.560 --> 0:52:50.879
<v Speaker 4>It's it's it's pretty cool. It is pretty cool.

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<v Speaker 1>Are you Is this like kind of the only aspect

0:52:56.160 --> 0:52:58.920
<v Speaker 1>of your life that you're feeling unhappy with. Is is

0:52:59.000 --> 0:53:08.439
<v Speaker 1>kind of the romantic sexual sphere of of humanity?

0:53:08.640 --> 0:53:10.960
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, at the moment, at the moment, right now, Yeah,

0:53:11.000 --> 0:53:12.600
<v Speaker 4>I would. I would say that's kind of my my

0:53:12.719 --> 0:53:19.000
<v Speaker 4>big thing. Mm hmm. But I don't know. I find

0:53:19.040 --> 0:53:20.280
<v Speaker 4>a lot of joy in a lot of things.

0:53:21.280 --> 0:53:25.440
<v Speaker 1>Good, good, keep doing that. I don't know. That's it's

0:53:25.440 --> 0:53:30.600
<v Speaker 1>a hard it's it's it's it's in general and for

0:53:30.600 --> 0:53:34.560
<v Speaker 1>for for for men and women. Really hard to navigate

0:53:34.680 --> 0:53:37.840
<v Speaker 1>that that spectrum of life. And I myself, I am

0:53:37.880 --> 0:53:41.719
<v Speaker 1>pretty fucking terrible at it. So yeah, I don't know.

0:53:42.280 --> 0:53:47.240
<v Speaker 4>But photography is fun. It's really fun to take pictures

0:53:47.280 --> 0:53:48.080
<v Speaker 4>of stuff.

0:53:48.320 --> 0:53:51.520
<v Speaker 1>Like, what's the last thing? You took?

0:53:51.560 --> 0:53:54.520
<v Speaker 4>A picture of the Chicago skyline?

0:53:56.560 --> 0:53:56.799
<v Speaker 3>I was.

0:53:57.400 --> 0:53:59.399
<v Speaker 1>I've been listening to I listened to that song by

0:53:59.520 --> 0:54:01.040
<v Speaker 1>Kanye West Homecoming.

0:54:01.120 --> 0:54:04.359
<v Speaker 4>You know that one? Yeah? Yeah, I know that one.

0:54:04.840 --> 0:54:06.280
<v Speaker 1>It's a six songs about Chicago.

0:54:07.160 --> 0:54:08.719
<v Speaker 3>Yeah yeah, yeah.

0:54:08.840 --> 0:54:12.080
<v Speaker 4>I live like thirty minutes from more uh from where

0:54:12.160 --> 0:54:12.799
<v Speaker 4>yay was?

0:54:14.360 --> 0:54:16.840
<v Speaker 1>I feel like, since I'm Jewish, I'm allowed to listen

0:54:16.840 --> 0:54:18.279
<v Speaker 1>to Kanye West. Is that fair?

0:54:19.480 --> 0:54:21.480
<v Speaker 4>I think everyone should listen to Kanye West.

0:54:23.160 --> 0:54:27.920
<v Speaker 1>You just you just keep you just keep uh you

0:54:28.000 --> 0:54:30.080
<v Speaker 1>just keep raising those flags my friends.

0:54:30.760 --> 0:54:33.080
<v Speaker 3>I know. No, I like Kanye.

0:54:33.880 --> 0:54:35.840
<v Speaker 4>I try not to, like pay attention to the media

0:54:35.920 --> 0:54:36.359
<v Speaker 4>too much.

0:54:36.520 --> 0:54:42.440
<v Speaker 1>You never know, do you you sound like you're are

0:54:42.480 --> 0:54:46.480
<v Speaker 1>you like in the I don't know the I don't

0:54:46.480 --> 0:54:50.440
<v Speaker 1>know what you would call it, the the dark web

0:54:50.520 --> 0:54:51.960
<v Speaker 1>of the internet whatever they call that.

0:54:54.080 --> 0:55:03.800
<v Speaker 4>If you've been Reddit, then yeah, look, go.

0:55:05.239 --> 0:55:08.800
<v Speaker 1>I don't know, lift some weights. Stop referring to people

0:55:08.840 --> 0:55:14.520
<v Speaker 1>by their race. Okay, go go try to talk to

0:55:14.560 --> 0:55:15.080
<v Speaker 1>some people.

0:55:17.040 --> 0:55:20.520
<v Speaker 4>Sam, Wow, I got a question for you.

0:55:21.920 --> 0:55:23.279
<v Speaker 1>I might answer it. What is it?

0:55:23.840 --> 0:55:25.560
<v Speaker 4>What was it like meeting Eric Andre?

0:55:26.640 --> 0:55:29.440
<v Speaker 1>It was cool. He's a cool guy and I'm a

0:55:29.480 --> 0:55:29.919
<v Speaker 1>big fan.

0:55:30.960 --> 0:55:33.240
<v Speaker 4>Oh, Mike, Yeah, it was. It was a lot different.

0:55:33.400 --> 0:55:35.400
<v Speaker 4>The podcast with Eric was a lot different than what

0:55:35.440 --> 0:55:36.360
<v Speaker 4>I thought it was gonna be.

0:55:37.040 --> 0:55:38.200
<v Speaker 1>What did you think it was gonna be?

0:55:40.920 --> 0:55:43.480
<v Speaker 4>Like how you guys talked about like portraying yourself, how

0:55:43.520 --> 0:55:45.880
<v Speaker 4>you portray yourself, like you know, when he's going around

0:55:45.920 --> 0:55:48.319
<v Speaker 4>city putting his tongue in people's mouths, going burnt up,

0:55:48.600 --> 0:55:51.160
<v Speaker 4>you know, I was. It was weird. It was like

0:55:51.200 --> 0:55:52.680
<v Speaker 4>I was seeing a whole different side of him.

0:55:55.320 --> 0:55:58.239
<v Speaker 1>It was I was. It was kind of There was

0:55:58.280 --> 0:56:01.360
<v Speaker 1>a funny moment where I handed like, we take we

0:56:01.480 --> 0:56:06.600
<v Speaker 1>use air pods to like listen to the calls and stuff,

0:56:06.680 --> 0:56:09.000
<v Speaker 1>and so I handed him a set of air pods

0:56:09.520 --> 0:56:13.000
<v Speaker 1>and he he was like, are these clean? And I

0:56:13.040 --> 0:56:16.080
<v Speaker 1>said to him, I was like, I was. I wasn't

0:56:16.120 --> 0:56:19.320
<v Speaker 1>expecting him to ask me that because I have seen him,

0:56:19.440 --> 0:56:22.040
<v Speaker 1>you know, put his fingers in several strangers' mouths. But

0:56:23.800 --> 0:56:25.480
<v Speaker 1>the way he the way he described it was that

0:56:25.520 --> 0:56:30.360
<v Speaker 1>he's he's only you know, he's a totally totally different

0:56:30.360 --> 0:56:33.480
<v Speaker 1>guy when he's performing than he was living his normal life.

0:56:33.560 --> 0:56:35.719
<v Speaker 1>But he was a cool guy. I'm glad. I'm very

0:56:35.760 --> 0:56:37.320
<v Speaker 1>appreciative of him of doing the podcast.

0:56:37.760 --> 0:56:38.640
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, that was. That was.

0:56:39.120 --> 0:56:39.400
<v Speaker 3>I was.

0:56:41.520 --> 0:56:46.600
<v Speaker 4>Oh and and Danny Brown. You had Danny Brown on

0:56:46.640 --> 0:56:47.480
<v Speaker 4>the podcast, didn't you.

0:56:48.480 --> 0:56:50.200
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, Hey, I got a question for you. What's it

0:56:50.239 --> 0:56:53.319
<v Speaker 1>like being friends with Devon.

0:56:54.760 --> 0:56:55.080
<v Speaker 4>Den?

0:56:55.920 --> 0:56:58.000
<v Speaker 1>I took a wild guess that one of your friends

0:56:58.120 --> 0:56:58.920
<v Speaker 1>names was Devon.

0:57:00.280 --> 0:57:02.160
<v Speaker 4>No, I don't have any friends.

0:57:02.960 --> 0:57:05.960
<v Speaker 1>That's not true. You have these weird friends that you're

0:57:05.960 --> 0:57:08.439
<v Speaker 1>making this bet with. Who are these friends? By the way,

0:57:09.760 --> 0:57:10.040
<v Speaker 1>And I.

0:57:09.960 --> 0:57:12.520
<v Speaker 4>Got my boy, I got my boy Carson, and I

0:57:12.520 --> 0:57:16.200
<v Speaker 4>got my boy Dylan, friends and childhood?

0:57:17.000 --> 0:57:18.800
<v Speaker 1>Okay, are they good guys? Are you friends with them?

0:57:18.840 --> 0:57:20.280
<v Speaker 1>Do you like them?

0:57:20.600 --> 0:57:22.080
<v Speaker 3>Absolutely? Yeah?

0:57:22.720 --> 0:57:23.960
<v Speaker 4>Day one, day one homies.

0:57:24.720 --> 0:57:27.640
<v Speaker 1>That's That's the most important thing in life, I think,

0:57:27.760 --> 0:57:28.720
<v Speaker 1>is to have good.

0:57:28.520 --> 0:57:31.680
<v Speaker 4>Friends, something someone that you know you have you can

0:57:31.840 --> 0:57:32.720
<v Speaker 4>lean on a little bit.

0:57:35.400 --> 0:57:39.240
<v Speaker 1>Well, Brandon, I was this conversation remotely helpful for you?

0:57:40.840 --> 0:57:41.080
<v Speaker 3>Lyle?

0:57:41.240 --> 0:57:46.480
<v Speaker 4>Just hearing your voice made it all with it, and yeah,

0:57:46.480 --> 0:57:48.040
<v Speaker 4>it was, it was, It was helpful.

0:57:50.360 --> 0:57:51.640
<v Speaker 1>Is there anything else you want to say to the

0:57:51.640 --> 0:57:52.880
<v Speaker 1>people of the computer before we go?

0:57:58.640 --> 0:58:03.200
<v Speaker 4>Stop buying Kia Souls and Ford Explorers because you look

0:58:03.280 --> 0:58:03.760
<v Speaker 4>like cops.

0:58:06.280 --> 0:58:08.880
<v Speaker 1>You should what you My last piece of advice is

0:58:08.880 --> 0:58:11.040
<v Speaker 1>that you should take more walks in the park than

0:58:11.080 --> 0:58:18.800
<v Speaker 1>you do looking at car facts on Reddit. Maybe that

0:58:18.840 --> 0:58:21.600
<v Speaker 1>will make you I don't know, maybe that'll improve your

0:58:21.640 --> 0:58:24.560
<v Speaker 1>life somehow. Anyway, now that was a dud shooting, we'll

0:58:24.600 --> 0:58:26.680
<v Speaker 1>say take care man, thanks.

0:58:26.480 --> 0:58:30.040
<v Speaker 4>For having absolutely thankfully. I have a great night you too.

0:58:31.320 --> 0:58:34.000
<v Speaker 1>But I feel like I feel like that guy. I

0:58:34.000 --> 0:58:36.800
<v Speaker 1>feel like nothing that I said to that guy got

0:58:37.160 --> 0:58:44.439
<v Speaker 1>was he listened to. I've been that guy. I've been

0:58:44.480 --> 0:58:47.520
<v Speaker 1>in college being like, oh I need to have sex

0:58:47.520 --> 0:58:51.440
<v Speaker 1>with people so that I can feel good about myself.

0:58:51.800 --> 0:58:58.200
<v Speaker 1>It's a terrible, terrible pursuit. Goes on the line, taking

0:58:58.800 --> 0:59:01.440
<v Speaker 1>calls every night. Everythig Kid goes through.

0:59:01.640 --> 0:59:04.720
<v Speaker 3>His eye is teaching him Cloud to livy life, but

0:59:04.920 --> 0:59:08.040
<v Speaker 3>he's not really an expert.