WEBVTT - THE LAST SOVIET - The Lance Files

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<v Speaker 1>Hey, it's Lance here. For the last few episodes, we've

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<v Speaker 1>been hearing all about Sergei Krekilev, the Soviet space program,

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<v Speaker 1>the space race, Russia's messy transition to capitalism. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>heavy stuff. But now we're going to take a slight

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<v Speaker 1>detour from all of that and talk about me, Lance Vass.

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<v Speaker 1>Are you ready all right? Y'all already know how I

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<v Speaker 1>became obsessed with space as a kid after I saw

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<v Speaker 1>a rocket launch at Cape Carnaval, and how from that

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<v Speaker 1>moment I dreamt that one day I'd put on a

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<v Speaker 1>space suit, squeeze into a teeny tiny shuttle piano funnel,

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<v Speaker 1>and blast off into the unknown. But what you don't

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<v Speaker 1>know is some of the crazy things that happened on

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<v Speaker 1>my trip, like meeting buzz freaking Aldron and a bar

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<v Speaker 1>in Moscow. Yeah. So on this episode of The Last

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<v Speaker 1>Soviet I sit down with one of my producers, Asia Folks,

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<v Speaker 1>to talk about how my dream of going to space

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<v Speaker 1>came true. Well almost from Kaleidoscope, iHeart and Exile content.

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<v Speaker 1>This is the Last Soviet. We start in the spring

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<v Speaker 1>of two thousand and two. N SYNC was about to

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<v Speaker 1>go on a six month hiatus. I needed that break,

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<v Speaker 1>but also it was like six months, what the hell

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<v Speaker 1>am I going to do relax poolside with a Margarita. Well,

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<v Speaker 1>an American TV network had other plans for me. They

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<v Speaker 1>were putting together a reality TV show where contestants would

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<v Speaker 1>compete for a spot on a Russian Soyer's space rocket

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<v Speaker 1>to the International Space Station and they were looking for

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<v Speaker 1>a host, but they wanted that host to go to

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<v Speaker 1>Space two. And then one day, the producer was sitting

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<v Speaker 1>at home with a friend discussing where the hell they

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<v Speaker 1>could find a celebrity interested in space, when suddenly his

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<v Speaker 1>friends nine year old says, Lance Mass wants to go

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<v Speaker 1>to space. Turns out she was a huge InSync fan,

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<v Speaker 1>followed all the interviews we used to do on AOL

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<v Speaker 1>chat rooms. Remember those? Yeah, I'm that old. Anyway, it

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<v Speaker 1>was because of that nine year old that one sunny

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<v Speaker 1>day in Florida, I get that faithful phone call from

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<v Speaker 1>my manager. And then that's when the phone call happened.

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<v Speaker 1>And I remember I was in my house in Orlando.

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<v Speaker 1>Cindy calls and says, Hey, I have a question, would

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<v Speaker 1>you like to go to space? I'm like, what, okay?

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<v Speaker 1>And as I know, seriously we got a call and

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<v Speaker 1>they want you to be the youngest person to go

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<v Speaker 1>to space. And my first thought was, all right, Cindy,

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<v Speaker 1>this is a joke because Punked was such a huge

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<v Speaker 1>show at the time with Ashton Kutcher. Okay, here's what's

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<v Speaker 1>gonna happen. We're gonna do something. Celebrity's gonna get pissed,

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<v Speaker 1>and then we're gonna laugh at them. I'm like, Ashton

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<v Speaker 1>is punking me. This is a total punk, but I'm

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<v Speaker 1>not gonna I'm not gonna bite and so yeah, that

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<v Speaker 1>was the end of the conversation for a few days

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<v Speaker 1>until Cindy called back again and she's like, so this

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<v Speaker 1>is legit. This is definitely not an Ashton Kutcher. This

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<v Speaker 1>is definitely not a prank. And that's when it just

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<v Speaker 1>hit me that, Wow, am I really going to have

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<v Speaker 1>this opportunity, an opportunity that I dreamt of my whole

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<v Speaker 1>entire life, my first love, my first passion. And it

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<v Speaker 1>just took off from there. I mean, once you realize

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<v Speaker 1>this is the real deal, You're not being punked, Ashton

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<v Speaker 1>Kutcher is not involved, Like what's going through your head

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<v Speaker 1>when you realize you might actually get to live out

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<v Speaker 1>this thing that you'd been dreaming of since you were

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<v Speaker 1>a little kid. I mean, the thing that was going

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<v Speaker 1>through my head was, you know, it's just it didn't

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<v Speaker 1>seem real. It was definitely surreal. I called my parents first,

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<v Speaker 1>because I just had to tell them. They knew my passion,

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<v Speaker 1>and I also knew that my mom was going to

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<v Speaker 1>be so against it, because you know, sending your son

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<v Speaker 1>into space is not the best thing or a parent.

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<v Speaker 1>I think it's very dangerous and scary. So I think

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<v Speaker 1>her first reaction was like, no, you're not doing this,

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<v Speaker 1>but just kind of like when I joined in sync,

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<v Speaker 1>there was no stop in it. And the other thought

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<v Speaker 1>going through my head was, wow, am I really going

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<v Speaker 1>to be able to live out two of my dreams?

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<v Speaker 1>My two biggest dreams in the world, music and space?

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<v Speaker 1>And how am I lucky enough to be able to

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<v Speaker 1>do both of those weird, very opposite things. There was

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<v Speaker 1>no thought that I was going to turn this down

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<v Speaker 1>at all, and I was just so excited. And I remember,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, going back on tour just a couple of

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<v Speaker 1>days later and telling the guys, and I mean I was, like,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, a kid on Christmas morning, just so excited,

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<v Speaker 1>and they were so confused, like what, Like they couldn't

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<v Speaker 1>even be happy for me because they were just so

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<v Speaker 1>confused on what was going on. Everything starts slowly coming together.

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<v Speaker 1>The plans for your great space adventure. You've now told

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<v Speaker 1>your family, you've told in Sync boys, it's time to

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<v Speaker 1>get into gear. Yeah, and the plan is this, You're

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<v Speaker 1>going to spend six months of intensive cosmonaut training in

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<v Speaker 1>Russia and then shut off to space in October two

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<v Speaker 1>thousand and two. But before all that, you need to

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<v Speaker 1>pass these very stringent medical tests in Russia. Right, and

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<v Speaker 1>it turns out there's something wrong with your heart. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Before you go into training, everyone has to go through

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<v Speaker 1>medical and it's where they study you for a good week.

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<v Speaker 1>So I had my dad with me and a bodyguard

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<v Speaker 1>with me the whole time I was there. But they

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<v Speaker 1>research everything about you. Every little inch of your body

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<v Speaker 1>is studied, I mean everything. So I mean you're sitting

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<v Speaker 1>there completely naked in front of like eight doctors standing

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<v Speaker 1>on a table as they're like poking you and putting

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<v Speaker 1>fingers where they shouldn't be putting fingers, and they just

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<v Speaker 1>wanted to make sure that you're as healthy as possible

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<v Speaker 1>because going to space is, you know, quite dangerous and

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<v Speaker 1>it's a different way of living. So one of the

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<v Speaker 1>criteria for a cosmonaut is you have to have a

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<v Speaker 1>regular heartbeat, and for some reason, I had an irregular heartbeat.

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<v Speaker 1>I knew I had an irregular heartbeat. I'd been diagnosed

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<v Speaker 1>without a few years earlier, but was completely benign. But

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<v Speaker 1>that was the one thing that I did not pass.

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<v Speaker 1>So I failed my first medical and it was because

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<v Speaker 1>of the irregular heartbeat. And I was disappointed because I'm like, really,

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<v Speaker 1>this is what's going to stop my dream of going

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<v Speaker 1>to space is an irregular, benign heartbeat. And so we

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<v Speaker 1>found this doctor in Boston that wanted it to do

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<v Speaker 1>an ablation surgery and said he thinks that he could

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<v Speaker 1>fix this and see where it's misfiring. And ablation surgery

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<v Speaker 1>what what is that? It's where they send basically these

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<v Speaker 1>rods up your arteries, about five of them through your

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<v Speaker 1>groin and it goes up to your heart. You're awake

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<v Speaker 1>during the whole thing, so there's all these television screens

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<v Speaker 1>around your head and you're seeing the little cameras inside

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<v Speaker 1>you and seeing where everything is, kind of trying to misfire.

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<v Speaker 1>They're studying in it for I felt like hours. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>listening to Harry Potter's book on tape, but I guess

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<v Speaker 1>it was on CD then because it was two. Yes,

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<v Speaker 1>it was the first time I had listened to a

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<v Speaker 1>book before and it was Harry Potter. So I was

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<v Speaker 1>listening to that for quite a few hours. And then

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<v Speaker 1>when they find the spot where it is misfiring, they

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<v Speaker 1>will burn it. It feels like a match, like being

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<v Speaker 1>put out on your heart. It hurt like hell, but

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<v Speaker 1>you know, in the end it worked, and now to

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<v Speaker 1>this day, I have a regular heartbeat. So going to

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<v Speaker 1>space or not, I'm kind of glad I did it.

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<v Speaker 1>You go through the surgery, it's you know, it's quite

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<v Speaker 1>an ordeal. In Sync finally goes on its six month

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<v Speaker 1>hiatus and you fly into Rush or you fly into

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<v Speaker 1>Moscow and you get to Star City. What are your

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<v Speaker 1>first impressions of the place. Well, when I fly on

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<v Speaker 1>to Moscow, it was just an overwhelming feeling because you

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<v Speaker 1>see all the things that you've studied in history books

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<v Speaker 1>and all these gorgeous pictures of Moscow. It was it

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<v Speaker 1>was beautiful, So you know, I was a good tourist

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<v Speaker 1>for good twelve hours when I first landed there. Of course,

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<v Speaker 1>the first thing I tried doing was going to McDonald's

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<v Speaker 1>because I heard that McDonald's was like the crazy thing

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<v Speaker 1>in Moscow, and of course it's stupid America. It's like,

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<v Speaker 1>I want to see this McDonald which I did. So

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<v Speaker 1>that was a fun sight seeing experience. I mean it

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<v Speaker 1>was exactly what they said, completely packed, huge. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>people were fighting over McDonald's. It was a it's a

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<v Speaker 1>big thing. And then of course seeing the Kremlin and

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<v Speaker 1>all that. I mean, it's just, you know, just history

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<v Speaker 1>right in front of you. I did do Saint Petersburg

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<v Speaker 1>for a weekend and it's gorgeous. But the places that

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<v Speaker 1>I did see outside of those cities could not be

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<v Speaker 1>more opposite of what those main cities were. Like, it's

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<v Speaker 1>a completely different country. The wealth distribution is just insane.

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<v Speaker 1>And then you go to Star City and first time

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<v Speaker 1>I pulled up to is very intimidating. The gates, the walls,

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<v Speaker 1>in the middle of a forest. You've been driving for

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<v Speaker 1>it felt like hours to this just middle of nowhere

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<v Speaker 1>place that looks like it is literally from the sixties.

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<v Speaker 1>And the first thing I noticed is how many guns,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean so many military They always just you know,

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<v Speaker 1>have their guns out, feeling like they're going to just

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<v Speaker 1>pointing out you at any second. And then you get

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<v Speaker 1>into the first gates and you just see this amazing

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<v Speaker 1>city that you feel like, this is exactly what Gagarin saw, right,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, this is exactly the buildings he saw, This

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<v Speaker 1>is exactly where he walked. If you just took pictures,

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<v Speaker 1>you would never know what decade it was. So just

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<v Speaker 1>stepping back in time was really interesting and I just

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<v Speaker 1>loved it. I thought it was just a beautiful feeling.

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<v Speaker 1>So this all sounds really impressive. But what about you?

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<v Speaker 1>Where did you fit into all of this? Tell me

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<v Speaker 1>about where you were living. Oh? So, yes, I was

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<v Speaker 1>living in one of the cosmonaut profies. This apartment complex

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<v Speaker 1>again had been there since the sixties, chipped pain everywhere,

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<v Speaker 1>definitely wasn't kept up that great. There was no air conditioning,

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<v Speaker 1>and when I got there, it was just the beginning

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<v Speaker 1>of summer. You know, I'd always thought, oh, Russia's very cold,

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<v Speaker 1>so I bet the summers are really nice. Oh no,

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<v Speaker 1>it is hot as hell and there was no air

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<v Speaker 1>condition and so you'd have to sleep with the windows open.

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<v Speaker 1>But if you slept with the windows open, the mosquitos

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<v Speaker 1>would eat you alive. I mean so many mosquitos. So

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<v Speaker 1>the first few nights I have to sleep with a

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<v Speaker 1>little sheet over me, sweating my butt off and just

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<v Speaker 1>hearing like little thumps and mosquitos trying to get to me.

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<v Speaker 1>And then I'd wake up in the morning and I

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<v Speaker 1>would just see my whole wall was covered in blood

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<v Speaker 1>because of all the little splats that I would you

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<v Speaker 1>try to kill all the mosquitos, And it was miserable,

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<v Speaker 1>absolutely miserable. It sounds like you weren't really given the

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<v Speaker 1>star celebrity treatment, you know, right, So you were training

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<v Speaker 1>with the Russians, you were living with the Russians, and

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<v Speaker 1>you were getting ready to fly on a Russian Soyuz capsule. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>but as an American, NASA actually also had to approve

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<v Speaker 1>your flight, and there were NASA reps you had to

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<v Speaker 1>meet and impress. How did that go well? I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>especially at the beginning, you know, NASA didn't want me there,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, it was it was ridiculous. Oh my gosh,

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<v Speaker 1>you're gonna get a pop star to come train and

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<v Speaker 1>go to space, you know, that's a slap in so

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<v Speaker 1>many astronaut's faces that have not flown or will never fly.

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<v Speaker 1>So you know, a lot of you know, NASA definitely

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<v Speaker 1>didn't want me there. They thought it was a bad look.

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<v Speaker 1>And I remember the first time that I met with

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<v Speaker 1>NASA officials right before I went into training. They wanted

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<v Speaker 1>to meet with me, need to make sure that I

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<v Speaker 1>had the goods right to do this, and so met

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<v Speaker 1>with them. I thought it was a great meeting, and

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<v Speaker 1>then I find out later that, you know, they thought

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<v Speaker 1>I was like Dama's Rocks, And they also thought that

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<v Speaker 1>I was an alcoholic and drug addict because I was

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<v Speaker 1>a quote unquote rock star, right, yeah, like have you

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<v Speaker 1>seen our group? We're pop stars? Ed? Yeah, far from it.

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<v Speaker 1>Because do you think there are any aspects of being

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<v Speaker 1>a pop star, being a part of in Sync that

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<v Speaker 1>prepared you in any way for being an astronaut? I do.

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<v Speaker 1>It's odd to say that being within Sync and what

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<v Speaker 1>I did and trained within Sync, it really did help

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<v Speaker 1>me with this space training, and I think that was

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<v Speaker 1>started off with work ethic. You know, within Sync, we

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<v Speaker 1>spent hours and hours learning how to dance and singing

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<v Speaker 1>at the same time, which took us months to figure

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<v Speaker 1>that out, running on treadmills and trying to sing. So

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<v Speaker 1>conditioning was a huge part of just being an end sync.

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<v Speaker 1>It was almost like a sport just because of the

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<v Speaker 1>way that we performed. So when I went to Russia,

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<v Speaker 1>I was already ready to work hard. You weren't going

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<v Speaker 1>to see me not paying attention and being exactly what

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<v Speaker 1>they thought. I was going to be, this stupid little

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<v Speaker 1>pop star that is an alcoholic. It's just too dumb

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<v Speaker 1>to learn anything, you know. I was there to work

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<v Speaker 1>and work hard, and then it wasn't until the very

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<v Speaker 1>first week of training and all your tests or verbal

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<v Speaker 1>tests and they rate you one to five and I

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<v Speaker 1>forget even what the first classes were. I know there

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<v Speaker 1>was a lot of math involved, and I think it

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<v Speaker 1>was the makeup of the soya is. I took it

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<v Speaker 1>very seriously. It's amazing what you can get yourself to

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<v Speaker 1>do when you're putting these situations, and especially if you're

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<v Speaker 1>passionate about it. Yeah, And I feel like, especially if

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<v Speaker 1>you have this sort of motivation of someone saying you

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<v Speaker 1>can't do it, you know, you want to prove them wrong.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, exactly. So I mean I was doing rocket sign.

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<v Speaker 1>It's my first week there, and I'm like, I'm going

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<v Speaker 1>to prove you. I want to get to the training

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<v Speaker 1>in just a minute. But before that, what was your

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<v Speaker 1>sort of what was your impression of the Russians that

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<v Speaker 1>you met at Star City? What did you make of them?

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<v Speaker 1>The Russians that I met in Star City? The first

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<v Speaker 1>thing that I thought of is they're just proud, very

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<v Speaker 1>proud people. They're so happy about what they have there

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<v Speaker 1>and what they've developed since the sixties and all their accomplishments.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, they still talk about Gagarin in almost every sentence.

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<v Speaker 1>That is their man. And I had heard of Gagarin

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<v Speaker 1>obviously the first man in space, but as an American

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<v Speaker 1>you don't really get two in depth with a Russian

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<v Speaker 1>space agency and the whole Gagaran story because you know,

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<v Speaker 1>it's a little embarrassing that they bear our country, so

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<v Speaker 1>we have a little revised history sometimes when we study.

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<v Speaker 1>I got to learn so much about Gagarin those first

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<v Speaker 1>couple of weeks, and I was super impressed and became

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<v Speaker 1>a huge fan. And I felt that I felt just

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<v Speaker 1>as proud as they did. But I loved it because

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<v Speaker 1>they you know, I would say probably half the Russian

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<v Speaker 1>Space Agency didn't want me there either. I don't know

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<v Speaker 1>if they thought it might be a bad look. It

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<v Speaker 1>could be something you can make fun of and make

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<v Speaker 1>it the space program look a little less than that.

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<v Speaker 1>They're allowing me to do this, but they never really

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<v Speaker 1>showed that to me. They treated me like a cosmonaut.

0:14:30.400 --> 0:14:33.160
<v Speaker 1>You know, once you're in cosmaut training, you're a cosmaut,

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<v Speaker 1>and they respect cosmonauts so much, and you felt special.

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<v Speaker 1>You felt very very special. I mean, the guy who

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<v Speaker 1>made my space suit made gagarin space suit. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>it was just amazing that the same exact people that

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<v Speaker 1>worked with Gagaron or working with me this many decades later.

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<v Speaker 1>What was a typical day in Star City? Like sort

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<v Speaker 1>of talk me through your day from the moment you

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<v Speaker 1>wake up. I mean every day in Star City, it

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<v Speaker 1>wasn't typical. The only thing typical was you knew you

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<v Speaker 1>were up at five in the morning and you would

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<v Speaker 1>get back to your apartment by ten pm. So the

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<v Speaker 1>days were super long, and you would have at the

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<v Speaker 1>beginning of the week you would get your schedule and

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<v Speaker 1>it always changed, and of course it was all in Russian,

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<v Speaker 1>so I'd have to like figure out what exactly this

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<v Speaker 1>it says because my Russian teacher only spoke French and Russian,

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<v Speaker 1>zero English, and they thought just immersing myself in that

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<v Speaker 1>would make me learn Russian a lot easier, But it's not.

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<v Speaker 1>With zero reference, I had no idea what was going on.

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<v Speaker 1>So I knew how to conjugate everything in Russian, but

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't even know what the word meant. So I

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<v Speaker 1>had to start learning Russian on my own by watching

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<v Speaker 1>you know, the local Sesame Street cartoons and that type

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<v Speaker 1>of stuff. So yeah, so you know, I could conjugate

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<v Speaker 1>and I could read it, but I didn't know what

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<v Speaker 1>I'm saying. But thanks to Sesame Street, I knew the

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<v Speaker 1>certain words, and mainly the things I needed to learn

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<v Speaker 1>were just emergency words like there's a fire, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>things like that. I mean, it was tough. The language

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<v Speaker 1>was definitely tough. Did you eat a lot of Russian

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<v Speaker 1>food while you were over there? I was forced to

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<v Speaker 1>eat a Russian food. I have a very stupid palette,

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<v Speaker 1>I would say, especially twenty years ago. There's many things

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<v Speaker 1>I wouldn't eat, even cucumbers, like that's how bland my

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<v Speaker 1>taste buds were. That was the first time, I had cucumbers,

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<v Speaker 1>and they love cucumbers over in Russian they do, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>and so there's the only thing I could eat and

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<v Speaker 1>actually enjoy and know what it was. They liked their

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<v Speaker 1>shishka babs for sure, so that was nice. But they

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<v Speaker 1>always made me eat this soup and it was horrible.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know what kind of soup it was, but

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<v Speaker 1>that was the one thing at lunch they were always

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<v Speaker 1>like forcing me to finish, So that was always strange

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<v Speaker 1>to me. Yea, we get into this a bit in

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<v Speaker 1>some of the other episodes, but I would love to

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<v Speaker 1>hear more about some of the actual training that you

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<v Speaker 1>went through. So tell me about survival training. What is that.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like most of my training was about emergency

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<v Speaker 1>and survival. So you know, when you come down on

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<v Speaker 1>the soyas, sometimes you miss your mark and you don't

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<v Speaker 1>know if you're going to land in the ocean or

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<v Speaker 1>you're in a land in the middle of Siberia. You

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<v Speaker 1>have no idea, one little mistake and you're halfway across

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<v Speaker 1>the world. So you have to learn how to survive

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<v Speaker 1>for at least a day in case they can't find you.

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<v Speaker 1>So one of those if you land in the forest

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<v Speaker 1>is learning how to build shelter, make a fire, find food,

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<v Speaker 1>what things are edible and not edible. That was a

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<v Speaker 1>good I would say two week training Right there. I

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<v Speaker 1>felt like I was back in the boy Scouts, which

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<v Speaker 1>was fun. And then the other survival training was they

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<v Speaker 1>drop you in your Soya's capsule into a huge Olympic

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<v Speaker 1>sized pool and you have to in a certain amount

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<v Speaker 1>of time as you're sinking, get out of your skafand

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<v Speaker 1>er your flight suit, which is very hard because you

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<v Speaker 1>have all these bundles and your clothes and everything just

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<v Speaker 1>kind of pressed up against you. Your whole body is

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<v Speaker 1>numb because you're kneesier in your chest. So then they

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<v Speaker 1>drop you in this water and you have to get

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<v Speaker 1>out in a certain amount of time, and it takes

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<v Speaker 1>a while to get out of that space suit. And

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<v Speaker 1>the first time they did it, I did it in

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<v Speaker 1>a good amount of time, so I was very happy.

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<v Speaker 1>They were happy I got out safe and I was

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<v Speaker 1>able to move on to the next emergency train. You

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<v Speaker 1>also flew a fighter plane. Yeah, that was flying the

0:18:16.520 --> 0:18:18.720
<v Speaker 1>Russian MiG was like that was one of the first

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<v Speaker 1>days in Russia, and this was kind of my first

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know, look at what it was like to

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<v Speaker 1>be a Russian cosmonaut. They took me to this field

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<v Speaker 1>where they had these fighter jets, and I didn't know

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<v Speaker 1>what we were doing, but every cosmonaut has kind of

0:18:33.160 --> 0:18:36.920
<v Speaker 1>a mentor cosmonaut, and so my mentor cosmonaut took me there.

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<v Speaker 1>And we first go to this airfield and we have

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<v Speaker 1>a nice little lunch with some sandwiches and lots of vodka.

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<v Speaker 1>And I did come to find out that the vodka

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<v Speaker 1>thing is real in Russia. They drink it all day long,

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<v Speaker 1>and they do it to celebrate. They do it too,

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<v Speaker 1>oh we finished a class, great? Oh yeah, and they

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<v Speaker 1>do it straight. So I'm having a couple of vodka

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<v Speaker 1>shots and I'm feeling really good and he's like, okay,

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<v Speaker 1>let's go fly. I'm like what You're like, I thought

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<v Speaker 1>we were having a picnic. Oh no, So you know,

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<v Speaker 1>we're pretty drunk, and a commander's drunk, and he's like

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<v Speaker 1>all right. So we take out a little flight plan

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<v Speaker 1>and we're kind of drawing what we're gonna do, and

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, okay, this is great. Like I've never flown

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<v Speaker 1>in anything like this, and obviously I have an amazing pilot.

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<v Speaker 1>So let's do this. So we get in, we you know,

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<v Speaker 1>take off, and then I realized that, no, he wants

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<v Speaker 1>me to do the flight path. I've never I've never

0:19:25.760 --> 0:19:28.240
<v Speaker 1>flown a plane before. You know, he does it first,

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<v Speaker 1>and we're doing circles and flips. It's everything you see

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<v Speaker 1>in Top Gun. And now I realize, he's probably seeing

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<v Speaker 1>how I can handle this, to see how I would

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<v Speaker 1>freak out if I was calm enough to do this,

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<v Speaker 1>and I was. I was not worried at all. Never

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<v Speaker 1>dawned on me that this could be dangerous at all

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<v Speaker 1>because I thought I was in great hands, which I was.

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<v Speaker 1>But then when I took over, it was amazing. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>I was doing all these flips and you know, you

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<v Speaker 1>see in the movie where they go all the way up,

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<v Speaker 1>then they cut the engine and then you fall down,

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<v Speaker 1>and then they cut it back on and then just

0:19:58.160 --> 0:20:00.240
<v Speaker 1>pull it up right above the tree line. We were

0:20:00.320 --> 0:20:04.840
<v Speaker 1>doing all of that and it was amazing, absolutely amazing.

0:20:04.880 --> 0:20:07.960
<v Speaker 1>But then you realize, wait a minute, he's drunk. This

0:20:08.880 --> 0:20:12.040
<v Speaker 1>guy is drunk, So you know, I definitely you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I knew the lever that I needed to pull in

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<v Speaker 1>case I needed to eject out of that thing. Let's

0:20:15.600 --> 0:20:18.359
<v Speaker 1>just say that. So you're getting closer and closer to

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<v Speaker 1>that October launch date. It's going to be you and

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<v Speaker 1>two other cosmonauts packed into this tiny soy Use capsule

0:20:24.880 --> 0:20:27.080
<v Speaker 1>and you were set to spend ten days in space

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<v Speaker 1>at the International Space Station. Yeah, what was your role

0:20:31.080 --> 0:20:34.000
<v Speaker 1>on the mission going to be? Although I was a

0:20:34.119 --> 0:20:37.560
<v Speaker 1>quote unquote space tourist, it wasn't tourism like we think today.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, when you go up, you float around, you

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<v Speaker 1>come back. Every cosmonaut on the soy is has a

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<v Speaker 1>job because there's no room for anything else. So me,

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<v Speaker 1>being in the left seat, I could reach buttons that

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<v Speaker 1>they couldn't reach. So I was in charge of a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of things that could easily ruin the mission or

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<v Speaker 1>kill my crew members. So you had to take it

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<v Speaker 1>very very seriously. And I could understand, coming from their

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<v Speaker 1>view if you thought that, oh my god, a freaking

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<v Speaker 1>pop star that's dumb as hell like is now in

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<v Speaker 1>charge of my oxygen like that, that can't feel very safe.

0:21:10.119 --> 0:21:13.400
<v Speaker 1>It was your job to be the oxygen guy. Yeah, yeah,

0:21:13.480 --> 0:21:15.600
<v Speaker 1>So part of my job was making sure that the

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<v Speaker 1>oxygen was working right. You know. That was a lot

0:21:18.119 --> 0:21:21.120
<v Speaker 1>to put on your shoulders, because that's very very important.

0:21:21.280 --> 0:21:24.040
<v Speaker 1>Oxygen is very important for a mission like that. But

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<v Speaker 1>I think once we had trained together, they saw how

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<v Speaker 1>serious I was about all of this, and I learned

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<v Speaker 1>very quickly. What was that like for you? Kind of

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<v Speaker 1>knowing that all these people underestimated you, you know they

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<v Speaker 1>were they were kind of going like, ah, this guy,

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<v Speaker 1>we gotta go with the Like how did that feel?

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<v Speaker 1>It didn't feel much different from my real life. I've

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<v Speaker 1>always been underestimated my entire life. I was always the

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<v Speaker 1>shortest kid. I was always like the low, total pole person.

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<v Speaker 1>So I always loved proving people wrong and I got

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<v Speaker 1>that a lot within sync. When we came out. We

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<v Speaker 1>were so underestimated and made fun of and no one

0:21:59.240 --> 0:22:01.320
<v Speaker 1>took a seriously and we just had to prove ourselves

0:22:01.400 --> 0:22:04.560
<v Speaker 1>by being who we were. I want to shift gears

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<v Speaker 1>a little bit. At this point two thousand and two,

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<v Speaker 1>you were not out of the closet yet you were

0:22:11.840 --> 0:22:15.240
<v Speaker 1>hiding your sexuality even in the States. Yeah, and now

0:22:15.520 --> 0:22:18.879
<v Speaker 1>you're you were in Russia, where attitudes are you know,

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<v Speaker 1>a lot more conservative and where being gay could be

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<v Speaker 1>potentially quite dangerous, and to dial back a little bit.

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<v Speaker 1>I want to talk about an experience that you had

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<v Speaker 1>before the training began as part of the medical tests. Yeah,

0:22:33.160 --> 0:22:36.720
<v Speaker 1>you flew to Russia and you had to have a colonoscopy.

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<v Speaker 1>What happened? How did that go? Yeah? That was an

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<v Speaker 1>eye opening moment. You know, I'd been used to hide

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<v Speaker 1>myself my whole life, right, I mean, being gay in

0:22:45.880 --> 0:22:48.919
<v Speaker 1>the States still was not accepted very well, even in

0:22:48.960 --> 0:22:51.199
<v Speaker 1>two thousand and two. So my whole life, since I

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<v Speaker 1>was five, I knew I was gay, and I knew

0:22:53.280 --> 0:22:55.359
<v Speaker 1>I had to hide it, and very conflicted because I

0:22:55.359 --> 0:22:57.840
<v Speaker 1>grew up very religious, so I always thought there was

0:22:57.880 --> 0:22:59.720
<v Speaker 1>something wrong with me, and you know, I would never

0:22:59.760 --> 0:23:01.919
<v Speaker 1>act on it. But when I went to Russia, it

0:23:01.960 --> 0:23:04.360
<v Speaker 1>didn't even I didn't even think about that because I'd

0:23:04.359 --> 0:23:07.600
<v Speaker 1>already been living such a hidden life that I was

0:23:07.600 --> 0:23:09.399
<v Speaker 1>an expert at it, so there was no way they

0:23:09.440 --> 0:23:11.520
<v Speaker 1>were going to figure it out. But when I get

0:23:11.520 --> 0:23:14.359
<v Speaker 1>there and it's medical training towards the end, you have

0:23:14.440 --> 0:23:17.800
<v Speaker 1>to do a colonoscophy, and I didn't even know I

0:23:17.800 --> 0:23:20.200
<v Speaker 1>was going in for this procedure because they didn't tell

0:23:20.240 --> 0:23:23.520
<v Speaker 1>you anything. So they did the colonoscophy in front of

0:23:23.680 --> 0:23:26.520
<v Speaker 1>many people. My dad was there. Zero sedation. You just

0:23:26.600 --> 0:23:29.280
<v Speaker 1>kind of laid down, went to your side, and they

0:23:29.320 --> 0:23:32.600
<v Speaker 1>did it, and it hurt so much. You know, they

0:23:32.600 --> 0:23:35.200
<v Speaker 1>were pumping the air into your stomach and it felt

0:23:35.240 --> 0:23:37.240
<v Speaker 1>like there was someone like with a knife trying to

0:23:37.320 --> 0:23:39.680
<v Speaker 1>stab outside, you know, to get out of your stomach.

0:23:40.080 --> 0:23:42.200
<v Speaker 1>And I had some tears going down my face because

0:23:42.200 --> 0:23:44.280
<v Speaker 1>it was just it hurts so badly. And they were

0:23:44.320 --> 0:23:48.439
<v Speaker 1>just laughing, like the doctors were laughing, My translator was laughing,

0:23:49.000 --> 0:23:51.760
<v Speaker 1>and I'm looking at my dad. I'm like, so, what's funny?

0:23:51.920 --> 0:23:54.159
<v Speaker 1>And then finally someone's like, oh, They're like, well, we

0:23:54.240 --> 0:23:58.800
<v Speaker 1>now know that you're not gay, and I was like, oh, okay.

0:23:59.080 --> 0:24:02.000
<v Speaker 1>And it was just such a joke, right, And and

0:24:02.080 --> 0:24:05.359
<v Speaker 1>I'd heard several things throughout my training about gay people,

0:24:05.520 --> 0:24:08.159
<v Speaker 1>right and making fun of gay people because it was

0:24:08.160 --> 0:24:11.280
<v Speaker 1>such a macho atmosphere in this Cosmaut training, and you

0:24:11.320 --> 0:24:13.719
<v Speaker 1>just kind of had to laugh along with them. But

0:24:13.800 --> 0:24:17.639
<v Speaker 1>I knew then, like, WHOA, I need to really watch

0:24:17.680 --> 0:24:20.080
<v Speaker 1>what I say. So I was very quiet the rest

0:24:20.119 --> 0:24:25.040
<v Speaker 1>of that training that that sounds awful, and it gives

0:24:25.040 --> 0:24:27.960
<v Speaker 1>you kind of some insight into how pervasive and casual

0:24:28.040 --> 0:24:30.919
<v Speaker 1>homophobia was in Russia, I mean is even more so

0:24:31.080 --> 0:24:34.880
<v Speaker 1>probably today. But did that experience with the kolonoscopy did

0:24:34.920 --> 0:24:38.760
<v Speaker 1>that put you off going? Did it make you reconsider? No,

0:24:38.920 --> 0:24:41.119
<v Speaker 1>it never made me reconsider. I just thought, I mean,

0:24:41.160 --> 0:24:43.200
<v Speaker 1>that's that's just part of it, and that's just what

0:24:43.240 --> 0:24:45.600
<v Speaker 1>you had to do. You had to sacrifice a lot,

0:24:45.640 --> 0:24:48.719
<v Speaker 1>and I was I was ready for that sacrifice. And

0:24:48.760 --> 0:24:52.879
<v Speaker 1>so this this obviously happened before before the training, before

0:24:52.920 --> 0:24:56.840
<v Speaker 1>you moved to Russia, right you once you'd arrived, once

0:24:56.840 --> 0:24:59.520
<v Speaker 1>you were living in Russia. How much was the kind

0:24:59.520 --> 0:25:02.520
<v Speaker 1>of homophobia and hiding your sexuality, how much was that

0:25:02.760 --> 0:25:04.560
<v Speaker 1>part of your day to day? How much were you

0:25:04.600 --> 0:25:08.000
<v Speaker 1>thinking about that? You know, it definitely ran through my

0:25:08.040 --> 0:25:11.240
<v Speaker 1>mind every day I was there. I in fact had

0:25:11.320 --> 0:25:13.400
<v Speaker 1>been you know, it was the first time that I

0:25:13.440 --> 0:25:17.320
<v Speaker 1>had met someone, so I had already kind of started

0:25:17.359 --> 0:25:19.639
<v Speaker 1>talking to someone and having a little relationship. So this

0:25:19.680 --> 0:25:22.920
<v Speaker 1>is the first time I'd ever acted on something like this,

0:25:23.119 --> 0:25:25.920
<v Speaker 1>and I knew that couldn't be found out. And I thought, Okay,

0:25:26.480 --> 0:25:29.040
<v Speaker 1>can't call this guy, can't email this guy nothing. As

0:25:29.040 --> 0:25:31.080
<v Speaker 1>long as I'm there, there's no way I can communicate

0:25:31.119 --> 0:25:33.320
<v Speaker 1>because they're going to be watching what I write and

0:25:33.359 --> 0:25:36.160
<v Speaker 1>listening to every phone call that I have. But other

0:25:36.200 --> 0:25:39.159
<v Speaker 1>than that, I didn't feel in danger at all because

0:25:39.280 --> 0:25:41.240
<v Speaker 1>one I was stuck on a military base, so there's

0:25:41.240 --> 0:25:43.720
<v Speaker 1>no way they were going to find out that I

0:25:43.760 --> 0:25:46.879
<v Speaker 1>was gay. I didn't have any information out there that

0:25:46.920 --> 0:25:50.080
<v Speaker 1>you could find to confirm that. And throughout the training,

0:25:50.119 --> 0:25:52.800
<v Speaker 1>you know, it's just it's a boys club, it really is.

0:25:52.920 --> 0:25:54.919
<v Speaker 1>At the end of certain classes and you have like

0:25:54.920 --> 0:25:57.439
<v Speaker 1>an hour you would go sit in the big sauna

0:25:57.600 --> 0:25:59.680
<v Speaker 1>where they kind of take branches and kind of beat

0:25:59.680 --> 0:26:01.840
<v Speaker 1>each other. They're with and you're drinking vodka, and it's

0:26:01.880 --> 0:26:04.720
<v Speaker 1>just kind of this it's a it's a bonding time

0:26:04.840 --> 0:26:07.080
<v Speaker 1>with your crew, with your professors. It's just the time

0:26:07.119 --> 0:26:10.920
<v Speaker 1>that the boys bond. And in those bonding times, people

0:26:10.960 --> 0:26:14.760
<v Speaker 1>are telling jokes and stories and laughing, and a lot

0:26:14.760 --> 0:26:16.399
<v Speaker 1>of the times the butt of the joke would be

0:26:16.400 --> 0:26:19.879
<v Speaker 1>being gay, you know, and I haven't just have to

0:26:19.960 --> 0:26:36.399
<v Speaker 1>laugh along with it. So Lance, you're in the middle

0:26:36.800 --> 0:26:41.200
<v Speaker 1>of this very hectic training schedule, You're you're hyper focused,

0:26:41.320 --> 0:26:44.359
<v Speaker 1>you're eating too many cucumbers than you'd like to be eating.

0:26:44.560 --> 0:26:46.159
<v Speaker 1>But kind of in the background, of all of this,

0:26:46.440 --> 0:26:50.280
<v Speaker 1>there are some financial issues with the project. What was

0:26:50.320 --> 0:26:53.280
<v Speaker 1>going on behind the scenes. What was going on behind

0:26:53.280 --> 0:26:56.320
<v Speaker 1>the scenes is still somewhat a mystery to me because

0:26:56.359 --> 0:26:59.000
<v Speaker 1>I don't know how much truth I was being told.

0:26:59.119 --> 0:27:01.960
<v Speaker 1>But what I from my view, this is what happened.

0:27:02.000 --> 0:27:04.199
<v Speaker 1>So I went there with this company that wanted to,

0:27:04.640 --> 0:27:06.359
<v Speaker 1>you know, send the youngest person to space. And it

0:27:06.400 --> 0:27:08.480
<v Speaker 1>was going to be a part of this television show

0:27:09.119 --> 0:27:11.879
<v Speaker 1>called Mission Space. And they wanted their host, which I

0:27:11.920 --> 0:27:14.760
<v Speaker 1>was going to host the show, to have gone through

0:27:14.920 --> 0:27:17.080
<v Speaker 1>the training and gone to space because the winner of

0:27:17.119 --> 0:27:20.240
<v Speaker 1>the show does the exact same thing, goes into Russian

0:27:20.280 --> 0:27:22.560
<v Speaker 1>training and gets sent off to the ISS. And it

0:27:22.600 --> 0:27:24.800
<v Speaker 1>was going to be a CBS show in America. And

0:27:24.840 --> 0:27:27.040
<v Speaker 1>then that's when they shipped me to Russia. And I

0:27:27.080 --> 0:27:29.919
<v Speaker 1>just started training and again cut off from the world.

0:27:30.240 --> 0:27:32.840
<v Speaker 1>So I was, you know, I was doing the cosmonaut thing,

0:27:32.880 --> 0:27:35.639
<v Speaker 1>but entertainment they were doing their own thing. And I

0:27:35.680 --> 0:27:39.040
<v Speaker 1>guess Russia and Hollywood don't really get along because Russia

0:27:39.080 --> 0:27:40.920
<v Speaker 1>is all about the contract. You know, It's like this

0:27:40.960 --> 0:27:42.679
<v Speaker 1>is how it is and this is how it's going

0:27:42.760 --> 0:27:45.399
<v Speaker 1>to go. And you know, Hollywood can be just very wishy,

0:27:45.440 --> 0:27:48.640
<v Speaker 1>washy and shady, and I think that's what went down

0:27:48.840 --> 0:27:52.200
<v Speaker 1>because Alexander Duretchen, who was the head of Anergia, which

0:27:52.240 --> 0:27:55.359
<v Speaker 1>is you know, their Boeing and basically runs the Russian

0:27:55.400 --> 0:27:58.720
<v Speaker 1>Space Agency, brought me into his office and he said, look,

0:27:58.880 --> 0:28:01.040
<v Speaker 1>your name is not in this track at all with

0:28:01.160 --> 0:28:04.199
<v Speaker 1>CBS or anything. And that was the first Time'm like, well,

0:28:04.560 --> 0:28:07.800
<v Speaker 1>well then why am I here then? And I just

0:28:07.960 --> 0:28:10.360
<v Speaker 1>I still couldn't figure out why they would send me there,

0:28:10.680 --> 0:28:14.159
<v Speaker 1>knowing that they were going to sandbag my flight anyway.

0:28:14.200 --> 0:28:17.240
<v Speaker 1>But it pissed off a Nargia so much that they

0:28:17.400 --> 0:28:20.399
<v Speaker 1>ripped the contract up and said, we're not working with y'all.

0:28:20.840 --> 0:28:23.040
<v Speaker 1>And that's when they kicked me out of my first time.

0:28:23.080 --> 0:28:24.800
<v Speaker 1>They kicked me out of the training facility and I

0:28:24.800 --> 0:28:27.000
<v Speaker 1>had to go to Moscow. So you got kicked out

0:28:27.040 --> 0:28:31.359
<v Speaker 1>and you just went to Moscow? Yeah, I had to

0:28:31.359 --> 0:28:33.879
<v Speaker 1>sit in Moscow for a weekend until they figured something

0:28:33.880 --> 0:28:35.679
<v Speaker 1>out because they ripped the contract out and there was

0:28:35.720 --> 0:28:39.120
<v Speaker 1>no reason I should be there because without that contract,

0:28:39.200 --> 0:28:40.800
<v Speaker 1>no one was paying for me to be there. I mean,

0:28:40.840 --> 0:28:43.280
<v Speaker 1>I was pissed. I was pissed at my agents. I

0:28:43.360 --> 0:28:46.200
<v Speaker 1>was pissed at CBS. I mean, I'm here in good

0:28:46.200 --> 0:28:49.160
<v Speaker 1>faith doing this and putting my ass on the line,

0:28:49.280 --> 0:28:52.160
<v Speaker 1>being tortured every day, and here you are kind of

0:28:52.160 --> 0:28:54.600
<v Speaker 1>like playing with my life. And again, I don't know

0:28:54.720 --> 0:28:58.040
<v Speaker 1>exactly what went down, but all I know is that

0:28:58.080 --> 0:29:00.240
<v Speaker 1>part of the mission was canceled. It was done, and

0:29:00.280 --> 0:29:03.000
<v Speaker 1>there was no TV show that I was hosting and

0:29:03.080 --> 0:29:07.040
<v Speaker 1>all that. But immediately MTV popped on board and they

0:29:07.120 --> 0:29:08.680
<v Speaker 1>knew it. We had already been shooting some stuff, so

0:29:08.720 --> 0:29:10.720
<v Speaker 1>they're like, well, we'll just do an MTV doc on

0:29:10.760 --> 0:29:12.440
<v Speaker 1>this because it's still the youngest person to go to

0:29:12.480 --> 0:29:15.000
<v Speaker 1>space as a musician. So they kind of picked it

0:29:15.080 --> 0:29:18.000
<v Speaker 1>up immediately and we just continued that next week and

0:29:18.440 --> 0:29:20.440
<v Speaker 1>they were on the line to pay for this. But

0:29:20.520 --> 0:29:23.280
<v Speaker 1>then I went in for a few more months, finishing

0:29:23.280 --> 0:29:27.160
<v Speaker 1>the training, and then it was I guess September, right

0:29:27.240 --> 0:29:30.960
<v Speaker 1>before my launch or maybe early October, and apparently they

0:29:31.040 --> 0:29:33.680
<v Speaker 1>couldn't get the funding they needed right before the mission

0:29:33.720 --> 0:29:37.640
<v Speaker 1>because no one would cover a cosmonaut with insurance. That's

0:29:37.680 --> 0:29:44.040
<v Speaker 1>crazy that that wasn't sorted out before ying. Yeah, yeah,

0:29:44.080 --> 0:29:46.480
<v Speaker 1>so you know, no one would fund a mission that

0:29:46.520 --> 0:29:49.360
<v Speaker 1>can't be insured. No production can go ahead without it

0:29:49.400 --> 0:29:53.040
<v Speaker 1>being insured. So that was the reasoning they said, we

0:29:53.120 --> 0:29:56.680
<v Speaker 1>can't go further because we can't ensure you. And that

0:29:56.800 --> 0:29:59.440
<v Speaker 1>was two or three weeks before my launch, and that's

0:29:59.480 --> 0:30:02.840
<v Speaker 1>when I found out that my mission was canceled because

0:30:03.240 --> 0:30:06.480
<v Speaker 1>of insurance. And it broke my heart. You know, I

0:30:06.480 --> 0:30:09.160
<v Speaker 1>couldn't believe that I was two weeks short of getting

0:30:09.160 --> 0:30:11.960
<v Speaker 1>my certification. I had gone this far, and I'm like,

0:30:11.960 --> 0:30:15.720
<v Speaker 1>are you kidding me? Like I did all this for nothing? Yeah,

0:30:15.760 --> 0:30:18.840
<v Speaker 1>but how did it feel for you? Like the moment

0:30:18.880 --> 0:30:21.800
<v Speaker 1>you found out it definitely wasn't happening. It was a

0:30:21.920 --> 0:30:25.160
<v Speaker 1>dark moment in my life. You know, it was very depressing,

0:30:25.160 --> 0:30:27.520
<v Speaker 1>and I feel like I feel like I still have

0:30:27.600 --> 0:30:29.719
<v Speaker 1>a lot of depression over it because you worked so

0:30:29.760 --> 0:30:32.400
<v Speaker 1>hard on something and just because of, you know, a

0:30:32.400 --> 0:30:34.680
<v Speaker 1>couple of stupid people, it's just kind of pulled away

0:30:34.720 --> 0:30:36.640
<v Speaker 1>from you and they don't even care. They're like, oh, well,

0:30:36.760 --> 0:30:39.080
<v Speaker 1>that's not my problem anymore. Next you just kind of

0:30:39.080 --> 0:30:42.760
<v Speaker 1>felt thrown away. But then Russia said, well, if you

0:30:42.800 --> 0:30:45.360
<v Speaker 1>want to finish the course, which is two more weeks,

0:30:45.720 --> 0:30:47.480
<v Speaker 1>we'll let you finish it so you can get certified.

0:30:47.520 --> 0:30:49.600
<v Speaker 1>So that you can go in case you can work

0:30:49.600 --> 0:30:51.440
<v Speaker 1>this out in the future. You know, you can finish

0:30:51.440 --> 0:30:54.280
<v Speaker 1>out this training, but you'd have to pay a million dollars.

0:30:54.440 --> 0:30:57.880
<v Speaker 1>A million dollars. Yeah, so I had to decide if

0:30:57.920 --> 0:31:00.200
<v Speaker 1>I was going to pay a million dollars out of

0:31:00.200 --> 0:31:03.000
<v Speaker 1>my own pocket to finish the damn two weeks training

0:31:03.320 --> 0:31:05.560
<v Speaker 1>just so I can be certified, just in case I

0:31:05.600 --> 0:31:07.280
<v Speaker 1>want to use it to fly to space in the future.

0:31:07.720 --> 0:31:10.080
<v Speaker 1>And I did, and I'm glad I did. I mean,

0:31:10.120 --> 0:31:13.640
<v Speaker 1>it sucked, but I needed that certification. You know, I

0:31:14.720 --> 0:31:17.920
<v Speaker 1>had to leave there with something positive. But yeah, a

0:31:17.960 --> 0:31:20.680
<v Speaker 1>million dollars to finish two weeks was a lot, but

0:31:20.960 --> 0:31:23.800
<v Speaker 1>you know, I cherished that certificate and maybe I will

0:31:23.840 --> 0:31:26.520
<v Speaker 1>go one day. What was it like for you to

0:31:26.600 --> 0:31:29.440
<v Speaker 1>go back to the US after all that training. I

0:31:29.520 --> 0:31:32.080
<v Speaker 1>had so many emotions about it. One, I couldn't wait

0:31:32.280 --> 0:31:35.840
<v Speaker 1>to get back to my home, my own bed, my family,

0:31:36.280 --> 0:31:38.840
<v Speaker 1>you know, my friends. You know. That excited me. I

0:31:38.920 --> 0:31:42.280
<v Speaker 1>needed that normalcy again. But then the other side of

0:31:42.320 --> 0:31:47.400
<v Speaker 1>me was embarrassed, embarrassed that I wasn't able to finish

0:31:47.520 --> 0:31:50.880
<v Speaker 1>this mission that I was so excited about that I

0:31:50.880 --> 0:31:54.280
<v Speaker 1>had completely stopped my life for that, I felt I

0:31:54.320 --> 0:31:58.320
<v Speaker 1>stopped my whole business for once I got back to America,

0:31:58.400 --> 0:32:01.720
<v Speaker 1>That's when I saw all the press about it. As

0:32:01.760 --> 0:32:04.640
<v Speaker 1>long as I was in Russia, I didn't see the news.

0:32:04.640 --> 0:32:06.640
<v Speaker 1>I didn't have a TV, I didn't read the papers,

0:32:06.960 --> 0:32:08.520
<v Speaker 1>so I didn't know it was such a big deal

0:32:09.160 --> 0:32:11.800
<v Speaker 1>me being over there in such a news story. So

0:32:11.840 --> 0:32:14.400
<v Speaker 1>I started seeing all the news stories about like how

0:32:14.840 --> 0:32:17.000
<v Speaker 1>it was a PR stunt, and then I wasn't really

0:32:17.040 --> 0:32:19.120
<v Speaker 1>over there, and then I get kicked out of Star

0:32:19.200 --> 0:32:22.040
<v Speaker 1>City and I mean, just really making me look like

0:32:22.080 --> 0:32:24.760
<v Speaker 1>an idiot. So you know, going back to that kind

0:32:24.800 --> 0:32:27.680
<v Speaker 1>of darkness, and it was very confusing time, but it

0:32:27.720 --> 0:32:32.160
<v Speaker 1>was life changing. How had you changed kind of physically

0:32:32.280 --> 0:32:35.720
<v Speaker 1>and emotionally after the training? How had it changed you?

0:32:36.760 --> 0:32:39.160
<v Speaker 1>I think it changed me a lot. I had the

0:32:39.200 --> 0:32:41.840
<v Speaker 1>best time. I would do it all over again, but

0:32:41.960 --> 0:32:45.760
<v Speaker 1>I definitely came back a little I don't know, just scared.

0:32:45.800 --> 0:32:47.600
<v Speaker 1>I guess. I don't know what it was, but I

0:32:47.760 --> 0:32:50.720
<v Speaker 1>definitely had changed. I got quieter, and I was already

0:32:50.720 --> 0:32:53.240
<v Speaker 1>a quiet guy, but I felt like I really kind

0:32:53.240 --> 0:32:55.600
<v Speaker 1>of stood back and I'm like, okay, everyone's really kind

0:32:55.600 --> 0:32:58.000
<v Speaker 1>of judging me at all times watching me at all times,

0:32:58.040 --> 0:32:59.960
<v Speaker 1>like I just felt like the Russians were always watching.

0:33:00.680 --> 0:33:03.720
<v Speaker 1>How do you feel now when you look back at

0:33:03.720 --> 0:33:07.280
<v Speaker 1>those crazy six months in Russia? I think it is

0:33:08.200 --> 0:33:10.080
<v Speaker 1>one of the best times I've ever had in my life.

0:33:10.120 --> 0:33:13.600
<v Speaker 1>Also one of the most devastating times of my life.

0:33:13.640 --> 0:33:16.160
<v Speaker 1>Every emotion comes out. It was just no one will

0:33:16.240 --> 0:33:19.200
<v Speaker 1>understand it, no one unless you went through it. You

0:33:19.280 --> 0:33:21.360
<v Speaker 1>just don't get it. You don't get the pressure that

0:33:21.440 --> 0:33:24.200
<v Speaker 1>was on you. You're raised thinking about a country a

0:33:24.240 --> 0:33:27.200
<v Speaker 1>certain way, with all the relations between both countries. Your

0:33:27.280 --> 0:33:30.040
<v Speaker 1>team America, right, and the Russians were the bad guys

0:33:30.040 --> 0:33:33.000
<v Speaker 1>for so long. But when you're there and you work

0:33:33.120 --> 0:33:35.720
<v Speaker 1>with these guys, it was amazing to see all these

0:33:35.720 --> 0:33:40.120
<v Speaker 1>countries working together, and all the bullshit that I had

0:33:40.160 --> 0:33:43.000
<v Speaker 1>always heard just kind of washed away, you know, And

0:33:43.200 --> 0:33:47.120
<v Speaker 1>I started understanding the Russians much better, and how they

0:33:47.120 --> 0:33:49.200
<v Speaker 1>looked at everything in their beliefs, and to see how

0:33:49.240 --> 0:33:52.440
<v Speaker 1>everyone really worked together and was such a team was

0:33:52.480 --> 0:33:55.920
<v Speaker 1>a beautiful thing. Space really brought so many people together.

0:33:56.480 --> 0:34:02.120
<v Speaker 1>So Putin invaded Ukraine last February. Relations between the West

0:34:02.160 --> 0:34:05.080
<v Speaker 1>and Russia are at their lowest since the Cold War.

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<v Speaker 1>At this point. Do you think you'll ever go back?

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<v Speaker 1>What would you like to I would love to go

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<v Speaker 1>back to Russia. I would love to finally get on

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<v Speaker 1>a mission, Soyer's mission, so I could go and train

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<v Speaker 1>a little bit more for that see a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sure there's so many of the same people still

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<v Speaker 1>working there. It was a special place for me and

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<v Speaker 1>I was so young, so I feel very connected to

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<v Speaker 1>Star City and everyone I worked with. I hope relations

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<v Speaker 1>get better. A lot of people that know that I'm

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<v Speaker 1>doing the last Soviet or like, are you sure this

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<v Speaker 1>is the right time to, you know, do a Russian story.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, well, this is the best time to do it.

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<v Speaker 1>It shows you a slice of life from Russia and

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<v Speaker 1>especially a time period where communism was falling. It's the

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<v Speaker 1>perfect time to relive that and study that and educate

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<v Speaker 1>yourself because what's going on now is not too different

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<v Speaker 1>from what is going on back then. And do you

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<v Speaker 1>think you'll still go to space someday? I don't know

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<v Speaker 1>if I'll ever end up in space, but I pray

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<v Speaker 1>that I do. I really do. I just think it's

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<v Speaker 1>one of those things that, you know, if I could

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<v Speaker 1>cross that off the list, I would feel very accomplished.

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<v Speaker 1>You know. I spent a lot of time training and

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<v Speaker 1>putting myself through a lot of misery to you know,

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<v Speaker 1>to get to the point where I could actually go,

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<v Speaker 1>and I am coming so close you just taste it.

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<v Speaker 1>I won't be fulfilled unless I'm able to make it.

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<v Speaker 1>It would be nice to just make it to Space. Fine,

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<v Speaker 1>but my goal I want to live on the ISS.

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<v Speaker 1>I want my ten days up there. I want to

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<v Speaker 1>do my studies. You know. I don't want to just

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<v Speaker 1>go up there and play around and float around and

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<v Speaker 1>oh this was fun. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I just I

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<v Speaker 1>want to do something important and I want to, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>take it seriously. And so my hopes are still there

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<v Speaker 1>that one day this will happen. I can't believe it's

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<v Speaker 1>been over twenty years since those crazy six months and

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<v Speaker 1>I still can't get them out of my head. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>Space just got under my skin and stayed there. No

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<v Speaker 1>matter what I get up to in life or where

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<v Speaker 1>I go, I can't shake its siren call. I mean, here,

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<v Speaker 1>I am hosting a whole podcast about it, and on that.

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<v Speaker 1>We're gonna leave my story for a bit now, and

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<v Speaker 1>we're back next week with Sarah Gays, So I'll talk

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<v Speaker 1>to you then. The Last Soviet is a Kaleidoscope production

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