WEBVTT - Night Terrors 

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<v Speaker 1>Now, what's my night terror? Somebody in my room on

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<v Speaker 1>top of me in bed, trying to cut me? Why

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<v Speaker 1>is that? I mean, I was scared. I was scared

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<v Speaker 1>of the dark. I was scared to go to the bathroom.

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<v Speaker 1>This carried over into college. Why is that? So? I've

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<v Speaker 1>talked to detectives, talked to trauma therapists. Nobody knows how

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<v Speaker 1>to fix this night terror stuff, and nobody knows why

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<v Speaker 1>is it the bad guy in the room try and

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<v Speaker 1>kill me? Do you feel like the bad guy is

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<v Speaker 1>your dad? Yeah? My dad planned these things, premeditated these things.

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<v Speaker 1>Was he practicing that murder in our house? Was he

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<v Speaker 1>practicing Cornerherston closets? You're wondering if that feeling you had

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<v Speaker 1>was maybe him actually in your room in the closet. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>some of suppressed memory where I was scared shitless from

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<v Speaker 1>my dad. Who's to say he wasn't doing something in

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<v Speaker 1>my bedroom. I just would rather know, Like for me,

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<v Speaker 1>I need to know, because once I know that, I

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<v Speaker 1>can deal with it. You can divorce a spouse, you

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<v Speaker 1>can't divorce father. You can't just divorce your dad. Did

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<v Speaker 1>a part of you feel like you wanted to make

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<v Speaker 1>it better? Somehow I wanted to help him, like I'm

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<v Speaker 1>mad at you when one second and I'm worried you're

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<v Speaker 1>cold and dealing with this blanket and this cold sell

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<v Speaker 1>like I love you, I still love you. Do you

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<v Speaker 1>still love him? Oh? Yeah? I mean I told him that,

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<v Speaker 1>and the letters early on, like I love you and

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know what's wrong and I don't know why

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<v Speaker 1>you did this. And I wrote him and I was

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<v Speaker 1>like I'm so sorry, Like I'm so sorry. Something must

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<v Speaker 1>have happened to you. You're just thinking something awful must

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<v Speaker 1>have happened to you to turn you into this, and

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<v Speaker 1>I'm so sorry. You know that you're a loon and

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<v Speaker 1>that we're not with you. Monster. BTK concludes. To hear

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