WEBVTT - I am Chiquis 0:00:03.200 --> 0:00:05.640 I want to talk about all kinds of subjects, things 0:00:05.680 --> 0:00:08.360 that people don't want to talk about, especially in my culture. 0:00:08.480 --> 0:00:11.040 You know, a lot of things are still taboo. My 0:00:11.119 --> 0:00:13.640 transparency and my honesty can sometimes get me into trouble 0:00:13.720 --> 0:00:19.400 with my team. I'm a very confident woman, and I 0:00:19.440 --> 0:00:22.280 don't care how beautiful a woman is. I love. I'm 0:00:22.280 --> 0:00:23.959 not a hater at all, So I can be standing 0:00:24.000 --> 0:00:26.680 next to a body down woman beautiful and I just 0:00:26.680 --> 0:00:33.720 feel just as sexy as hurt. What up? Everybody? Get that? 0:00:34.040 --> 0:00:38.000 I hope you're all having a wonderful day. Finally, Fault 0:00:38.120 --> 0:00:39.559 is here. And I don't know about you guys, but 0:00:39.640 --> 0:00:42.680 I love fault and winter. It is sweater season, scarves, 0:00:42.680 --> 0:00:45.720 beanie boots. I love it, or, as my assistant only 0:00:45.840 --> 0:00:50.720 calls it, gray sweat season. So my name is cheek Ease, 0:00:50.840 --> 0:00:53.760 and I want to welcome you to my brand new podcast, 0:00:53.880 --> 0:00:56.680 cheek Ease and Chill. This podcast has been in the 0:00:56.720 --> 0:00:58.640 works for years. It's been on my vision board for 0:00:58.680 --> 0:01:01.280 like almost three years now, so I'm excited to finally 0:01:01.320 --> 0:01:05.200 share it with you. And since it's our very first episode, 0:01:05.280 --> 0:01:07.480 I thought it would be the perfect opportunity to do 0:01:07.520 --> 0:01:10.160 a little Q and A, so you have a better 0:01:10.200 --> 0:01:12.760 sense of who I am. So grab a drink, some 0:01:12.840 --> 0:01:18.200 tequila wine, whatever you want, Um, popcorn, pizza, and let's 0:01:18.200 --> 0:01:25.759 do it chickens and chill. Alright. So, as I mentioned, 0:01:25.760 --> 0:01:28.560 today is our very first episode and it's all about me. 0:01:28.920 --> 0:01:31.000 So we're going to pull back the curtain and we're 0:01:31.040 --> 0:01:34.160 gonna get real comfortable. I have my producer to sell 0:01:34.240 --> 0:01:38.400 and Brianna here with me. Hi, guys, cheek ease, thanks 0:01:38.480 --> 0:01:41.800 for having us. You know we're usually behind the scenes here, 0:01:42.080 --> 0:01:45.360 but today we're grilling you because we want to know 0:01:45.440 --> 0:01:49.800 all the exciting and spicy stuff that's going on. First, 0:01:49.840 --> 0:01:55.640 congrats on the podcast and joining my Heart Radios podcast network. 0:01:55.880 --> 0:01:59.240 We're so excited to have you, and I know Brianna 0:01:59.440 --> 0:02:07.320 is Here's why. Oh yes, Brianna Cheeks, how are you good? Good? Good? Um? 0:02:07.440 --> 0:02:10.560 I'm good too, and I am so excited to be 0:02:10.720 --> 0:02:13.880 here and to learn a little bit or maybe a 0:02:13.880 --> 0:02:17.400 little bit more about you. Uh yeah, So I can't 0:02:17.400 --> 0:02:20.720 wait to get started. Oh nice, anything you guys want 0:02:20.760 --> 0:02:23.399 to ask me. I'm an open book, so I ain't 0:02:23.400 --> 0:02:25.839 I ain't scared of nothing, and I want truths here, 0:02:26.160 --> 0:02:30.080 nothing but my mom, I only want truths here, so 0:02:30.840 --> 0:02:34.000 you know, don't don't be lying to us. We need 0:02:34.040 --> 0:02:38.639 the dirt. I promise I won't lie. Scouts. Ready, here 0:02:38.639 --> 0:02:45.520 we go, Get ready, buckle up? Yeah, exactly. Okay. Um, 0:02:45.639 --> 0:02:50.280 so let's start with who is cheekies? Uh say in 0:02:50.440 --> 0:02:54.600 three words? Who is cheeks? In three words? Okay? Three words? 0:02:54.800 --> 0:03:00.600 Um damn. I'm I'm very passionate, very passionate person um 0:03:00.600 --> 0:03:08.160 A woman of integrity. Uh just three okay? Uh? Faith 0:03:08.160 --> 0:03:12.239 and hard working I put into And how much different 0:03:12.280 --> 0:03:15.200 would you say you are in your private life versus 0:03:15.360 --> 0:03:18.160 you know, your your public persona. Is there a difference there? 0:03:19.760 --> 0:03:22.320 So that's a good question, Brianna. Okay, So there's cheeks, 0:03:22.320 --> 0:03:24.920 and there's Janney and sometimes Valentina. So let's just focus 0:03:25.000 --> 0:03:27.639 on cheeks and Jennet today. So cheeks is the glitz 0:03:27.639 --> 0:03:30.880 and glam. I love makeup and all this stuff, you know, 0:03:30.960 --> 0:03:33.560 and I love the lights and the wind and singing 0:03:33.600 --> 0:03:37.080 on stage. And it's different, you know from Janet. My 0:03:37.160 --> 0:03:40.720 everyday life is just more at it's you know, I'm 0:03:40.760 --> 0:03:43.960 at home. I'm I prefer not to wear makeup. I 0:03:44.080 --> 0:03:45.760 have my hair up in a bun. I'm wearing sweats. 0:03:45.760 --> 0:03:48.600 I'm running around getting things done. I love doing things myself. 0:03:48.600 --> 0:03:52.640 I love driving by myself. Um, I go eat by myself. 0:03:52.640 --> 0:03:55.840 I've gone to the movies by myself. Um. So I'm 0:03:55.920 --> 0:03:59.000 just I want to say that cheek Ease is extroverted. 0:03:59.040 --> 0:04:00.600 Of course I have to be, that's my job. And 0:04:00.640 --> 0:04:04.880 then Janet is very introverted, like I would rather stay 0:04:04.920 --> 0:04:07.200 at home than go out, you know, and and I 0:04:07.280 --> 0:04:12.240 liked to eat and watch movies. Okay, So cheekies Janet, 0:04:12.400 --> 0:04:15.200 And I think you said, there's Valentina, So tell us 0:04:15.240 --> 0:04:18.920 a little bit about her. What's she like? Okay? So 0:04:19.000 --> 0:04:22.400 Valentina is the bitch? Okay, um Cheeckie is very sweet 0:04:22.800 --> 0:04:26.200 and you know, I am just like all about helping, 0:04:26.200 --> 0:04:28.360 and so is Jane. But you know, here comes Valentina. 0:04:28.400 --> 0:04:30.760 Is like, I'm gonna defend both of you, because sometimes 0:04:30.760 --> 0:04:33.400 we're kind of like pushovers, you know. And Valentina comes 0:04:33.400 --> 0:04:35.359 and brings out the middle fingers and let it be 0:04:35.400 --> 0:04:37.320 known you feel me. She don't come out that much. 0:04:37.520 --> 0:04:41.680 I try to suppress her with meditation. Well, I haven't 0:04:41.680 --> 0:04:44.680 met Valentina yet, and I'm a little bit scared, but 0:04:45.320 --> 0:04:48.800 I can tell you cheekies has a heart of gold. 0:04:48.920 --> 0:04:52.800 From what I've known so far, is genuine through and through. 0:04:53.440 --> 0:04:55.400 And you know, we have a couple of things in common. 0:04:55.800 --> 0:04:59.920 We are both La Natives. You grew up in Long Beach, 0:05:00.000 --> 0:05:04.600 which it is, Michigana. You love your coultura. You're all 0:05:04.640 --> 0:05:11.000 about culture. What's your favorite thing about NUESTRAA Wow, my 0:05:11.080 --> 0:05:16.240 favorite thing about um Damn. That's a hard one too, 0:05:16.240 --> 0:05:18.080 because it's just like, there's so many favorite things. I mean, 0:05:18.120 --> 0:05:20.120 I love the food, I love, you know, I want 0:05:20.120 --> 0:05:22.239 to say the music. I want to say the music. 0:05:22.240 --> 0:05:26.640 There's so many different um sounds, so many different instruments, 0:05:26.680 --> 0:05:28.560 and what you feel when you listen to our music, 0:05:28.600 --> 0:05:33.360 it could go anywhere from BANDA to regeton to I 0:05:33.400 --> 0:05:36.760 think that our music is so beautiful, you know what 0:05:36.760 --> 0:05:38.919 I mean? Like, I just I want to say that 0:05:38.920 --> 0:05:41.479 that's probably one of my favorite things about our culture, 0:05:41.520 --> 0:05:45.600 amongst other things. But that's my favorite. Oh my gosh, yes, food, 0:05:46.200 --> 0:05:49.680 music definitely some of my favorites too. What would you 0:05:49.760 --> 0:05:53.640 say is the best advice you've ever been given by 0:05:53.839 --> 0:05:58.320 your late mom? Music icon Jenny RIVERA shout out to 0:05:58.360 --> 0:06:01.440 my mom up in the sky. Um these times are 0:06:01.480 --> 0:06:03.960 so difficult, like fall in winter, because this is when 0:06:03.960 --> 0:06:06.320 we lost her, you know, so you bring her up 0:06:06.320 --> 0:06:07.920 and I'm like, oh, you know, but it's a good thing. 0:06:07.920 --> 0:06:10.200 That's my mom, and I'm proud of who she is, 0:06:10.240 --> 0:06:13.200 what she's accomplished, and what she's done in my life 0:06:13.200 --> 0:06:15.440 and still is doing in my life and so many lives. 0:06:15.440 --> 0:06:19.040 But um, anyway, she taught me so many things. Um, 0:06:19.080 --> 0:06:25.120 the biggest lesson I want to say is not to 0:06:26.120 --> 0:06:29.080 be a victim of my past. Of what I've gone through. Um, 0:06:29.120 --> 0:06:32.960 I've been sexually molested, I was sexually messing by my dad. Um. 0:06:33.040 --> 0:06:35.960 And then obviously her and I had some situations growing 0:06:36.000 --> 0:06:37.960 up as well. It was difficult. She was we're fifteen 0:06:38.000 --> 0:06:41.760 years apart, so we grew up like sisters. So she 0:06:41.760 --> 0:06:43.359 would always say, oh my gosh, why are you so 0:06:43.440 --> 0:06:44.960 like You're not like me? You know, I was like 0:06:45.000 --> 0:06:46.560 a straight a student and this and that. So we 0:06:46.560 --> 0:06:49.760 always had actually you didn't come with Emmanuel. But she 0:06:49.920 --> 0:06:53.080 taught me that no matter what I've gone through, don't 0:06:53.080 --> 0:06:55.240 feel don't be a victim of the past. That does 0:06:55.320 --> 0:06:58.080 not define you. So I think one of those things 0:06:58.080 --> 0:06:59.800 where I'm like, Okay, no matter what has happened in 0:06:59.800 --> 0:07:01.560 my life, if I have to keep going, she'd be like, 0:07:01.720 --> 0:07:03.440 if you fall, you get back up, you brush your 0:07:03.440 --> 0:07:06.560 shoulders off. And that's what's helped me. I think that's 0:07:06.600 --> 0:07:08.440 one of the reasons why I'm still where I'm at 0:07:08.640 --> 0:07:11.400 despite the criticism and all that stuff, you know, the 0:07:11.400 --> 0:07:14.560 adversities I've had to face. Yeah, and you know you're 0:07:14.600 --> 0:07:18.200 so open about that and open about sharing so many things. 0:07:18.200 --> 0:07:20.480 And that's what I believe it's going to make such 0:07:20.480 --> 0:07:23.200 a great Cheekies and Chill podcast. Is you just being 0:07:23.280 --> 0:07:26.600 real and honest? And you know you did mention that 0:07:27.160 --> 0:07:30.160 this time of year is difficult because it's the anniversary 0:07:30.200 --> 0:07:33.320 of your mom's death December nine. You know, how do 0:07:33.400 --> 0:07:37.760 you all still honor her despite you know the fact 0:07:37.760 --> 0:07:41.160 that we've lost her. Yeah? You know what, for me, 0:07:41.200 --> 0:07:45.240 it starts in October. I lost her on October two, 0:07:46.320 --> 0:07:48.760 and then she left in December. So all these months 0:07:48.760 --> 0:07:51.280 they're always really emotionally heavy. And you think it's going 0:07:51.320 --> 0:07:55.400 to get better because it's almost nine years, but I 0:07:55.480 --> 0:07:57.240 it's that's my mom, you know what I mean? Like 0:07:57.280 --> 0:07:59.520 I missed her all the time. It doesn't matter how 0:07:59.520 --> 0:08:01.760 old I am. I still need her advice, you know, um, 0:08:01.920 --> 0:08:04.000 and we do our best to honor her. For me 0:08:04.120 --> 0:08:08.119 and personally, it's having my siblings together now they're older. 0:08:08.200 --> 0:08:09.960 Now I can't necessarily tell them what to do. They 0:08:10.000 --> 0:08:11.720 all have their lives or have their children, they have 0:08:11.800 --> 0:08:14.040 their things or jobs. Before it was like we have 0:08:14.080 --> 0:08:16.000 to be together. We have to like watch my mom's 0:08:16.000 --> 0:08:19.640 favorite movies and you know, her favorite foods. And now 0:08:19.680 --> 0:08:23.280 that they've gotten older, I've learned to respect their decisions. 0:08:23.480 --> 0:08:25.600 You know, I can't force them anymore. And now with 0:08:25.720 --> 0:08:27.840 issues that are going on in my family, we used 0:08:27.880 --> 0:08:31.640 to get together and you know, Karanda drink some tequila 0:08:31.720 --> 0:08:33.880 because as my mama, she loved a party. You feel me. 0:08:34.240 --> 0:08:37.400 But now that things are a little different, Um, I 0:08:37.440 --> 0:08:39.560 think this year, whoever wants to come over to my 0:08:39.600 --> 0:08:42.400 house will be welcome. I always let go, like I 0:08:42.440 --> 0:08:45.480 always let a balloon go into the sky and I 0:08:45.520 --> 0:08:47.280 write her a message. You know. We we've had that 0:08:47.320 --> 0:08:50.800 tradition for all these nine years. So we haven't really 0:08:50.800 --> 0:08:52.800 talked about it, to be honest, for this year because 0:08:52.800 --> 0:08:55.240 things are kind of weird. But I'm hoping I could 0:08:55.280 --> 0:08:57.120 be with my siblings. That would make me really happy. 0:08:57.960 --> 0:09:01.200 And speaking of siblings, you are the eldest in your 0:09:01.240 --> 0:09:06.199 family and I'm actually the youngest, so very different experiences, 0:09:06.200 --> 0:09:08.559 I'm sure, and I'm curious to learn from you about 0:09:08.559 --> 0:09:12.439 some of the hardest parts, some of the easiest or 0:09:12.480 --> 0:09:16.160 best parts about sort of existing in that role. Oh 0:09:16.200 --> 0:09:19.920 that's a good question. Okay. So growing up as the 0:09:19.920 --> 0:09:23.200 eldest was at first very difficult. I would ask my 0:09:23.200 --> 0:09:25.280 mom why, but why am I the oldest. She's I 0:09:25.280 --> 0:09:27.600 don't know, talk to God, because she's like, you're the example. 0:09:27.640 --> 0:09:29.400 You have to be an example to your siblings, and 0:09:29.520 --> 0:09:31.520 they're going to follow everything you do. And I was 0:09:31.640 --> 0:09:34.240 always the second mom, and sometimes to my mom, I 0:09:34.280 --> 0:09:36.200 was a mom, you know, because she was so young 0:09:36.280 --> 0:09:37.920 and she had me sewing, she had all of us 0:09:37.960 --> 0:09:39.720 so young, so she kind of want to wanted a 0:09:39.800 --> 0:09:41.760 party and do her thing. And I'd be like, hello, 0:09:41.800 --> 0:09:44.000 you have kids, and she's like, well, um, that's why 0:09:44.000 --> 0:09:46.960 I have you. So I was like, what the heck? 0:09:47.000 --> 0:09:49.319 Growing up it was difficult, but now I'm so grateful 0:09:49.360 --> 0:09:51.640 that I'm the oldest because now instead of it looking 0:09:51.679 --> 0:09:54.120 looking at it as a chore, I look at it 0:09:54.200 --> 0:09:59.720 as a beautiful thing. It's it's a responsibility. But I 0:09:59.760 --> 0:10:02.360 love to set the example for my siblings and show 0:10:02.400 --> 0:10:04.480 them everything that I'm doing and how I don't give 0:10:04.559 --> 0:10:07.640 up and my perseverance so that they can also follow 0:10:07.640 --> 0:10:14.240 that hopefully, you know. I'm like, so, it's it is 0:10:14.280 --> 0:10:16.480 a huge responsibility. There was a lot of pressure growing 0:10:16.559 --> 0:10:20.240 up and still there is because my mom always told 0:10:20.280 --> 0:10:21.800 me you are the oldest, you have to keep your 0:10:21.800 --> 0:10:24.120 siblings together. I want you guys to be different from 0:10:24.120 --> 0:10:26.840 my family, from my siblings. I want you guys to 0:10:26.880 --> 0:10:29.200 be united. And if you guys fight, you sit down 0:10:29.200 --> 0:10:31.120 and you talk that sh it out, you know. And 0:10:31.240 --> 0:10:33.800 I feel that responsibility like right here. And now they're 0:10:33.840 --> 0:10:36.120 all older and have a mind of their own. So 0:10:36.160 --> 0:10:38.760 I'm like, dude, this is hard. I'm like, Mom, help me. Literally, 0:10:38.800 --> 0:10:40.800 I pray. I'm like, help me with Johnny. What do 0:10:40.840 --> 0:10:43.080 I do? Like, help me with the kids? And I 0:10:43.120 --> 0:10:45.080 just I just pray for patients and I'm like, God, 0:10:45.080 --> 0:10:48.200 help me. But I love it, honestly, would not change 0:10:48.200 --> 0:10:50.800 it for the world. I love being the oldest sister 0:10:51.920 --> 0:10:53.920 and being a friend. Now was always like a mom 0:10:53.960 --> 0:10:56.199 to them. Now I'm that sister, you know, And and 0:10:56.600 --> 0:10:59.679 I never really had that, so it's kind of cool. Um, 0:10:59.720 --> 0:11:01.559 but times I do wish I had like an older sister, 0:11:01.720 --> 0:11:10.800 just sometimes not all the time. All Right, we gotta 0:11:10.880 --> 0:11:13.280 get into a little bit of dirt here, and I 0:11:13.520 --> 0:11:17.280 need to know about your love life, So we're gonna 0:11:17.320 --> 0:11:22.560 transition a little bit into um men women relationships. But 0:11:22.640 --> 0:11:25.880 you know, as your manager, Mr Bull likes to say 0:11:25.960 --> 0:11:29.520 you are every man's dream girl, and I think for 0:11:29.559 --> 0:11:31.600 a lot of women as well. I think you know, 0:11:31.640 --> 0:11:34.559 he says, Oh my god, he says that. He says 0:11:34.600 --> 0:11:37.760 that nice, Mr Bull, thank you. He's right here with 0:11:37.800 --> 0:11:41.520 me that you say I'm every man's dream girl, Mr Bull. 0:11:41.640 --> 0:11:45.520 My dad a Jerky's such a dad. I love him. Yes, 0:11:46.200 --> 0:11:48.959 So what do you think it is that men and 0:11:49.040 --> 0:11:57.199 women physically love about you? You know what? Physically I 0:11:57.280 --> 0:11:59.480 want to say. The first thing that attracts him is 0:11:59.480 --> 0:12:01.360 my ass. You know. It's kind of like, oh, she 0:12:01.440 --> 0:12:05.040 has a fat booty, you know. Um, I want to 0:12:05.040 --> 0:12:07.319 think it's my personality, you know what I mean? But 0:12:08.600 --> 0:12:12.320 you know what, I'm a very confident woman and I 0:12:12.360 --> 0:12:15.199 don't care how beautiful a woman is. I love. I'm 0:12:15.240 --> 0:12:16.880 not a hater at all, so I can be standing 0:12:16.920 --> 0:12:19.600 next to a body down woman beautiful, and I just 0:12:19.640 --> 0:12:22.080 feel just as sexy as her, like I'm I am 0:12:22.080 --> 0:12:24.880 all thicker. But whatever I said, you know, I just 0:12:25.000 --> 0:12:28.240 I think that when you walk with confidence and you 0:12:28.240 --> 0:12:31.280 you have your head held high and you feel beautiful, 0:12:31.480 --> 0:12:34.240 like people feel that and that attracts men. It doesn't 0:12:34.240 --> 0:12:36.480 matter your size. And I learned that very early on 0:12:36.520 --> 0:12:39.240 in my age because my mom always like that. So 0:12:39.679 --> 0:12:42.520 I learned that from her, and now I've tried to 0:12:42.559 --> 0:12:44.800 teach my sisters that and now it's like Jackie is 0:12:44.840 --> 0:12:48.199 so confident, Jennica, she's blossoming right now. So I think 0:12:48.200 --> 0:12:50.079 it's that it's probably my confidence be like, oh, look 0:12:50.080 --> 0:12:51.720 at this girl. She thinks she's you know, she thinks 0:12:51.720 --> 0:12:55.320 she the ship. Yeah, I'm a little bit. And where 0:12:55.320 --> 0:12:57.679 does that confidence come from? You would say from your mom, 0:12:57.679 --> 0:13:01.440 because you know, like all women and you know, latin 0:13:01.520 --> 0:13:06.000 As we struggle with body issues. We don't always wake 0:13:06.120 --> 0:13:09.960 up feeling the prettiest some days, right, But where do 0:13:10.000 --> 0:13:15.040 you find that confidence to like shine? You know what? Initially, yes, 0:13:15.080 --> 0:13:17.320 I learned it from my mama. I saw her. Um. 0:13:17.320 --> 0:13:20.439 She was a thick woman herself, and she was confident 0:13:20.480 --> 0:13:23.600 and never had a problem with gin men. You know. Um, 0:13:23.640 --> 0:13:27.720 But as I've grown, I've learned that true confidence comes 0:13:27.800 --> 0:13:31.960 from knowing who you are. Knowing who you are and 0:13:32.000 --> 0:13:37.679 knowing where you're going, having goals, having knowing that makes 0:13:37.679 --> 0:13:43.199 you so powerful. Yo, I don't go around trying to 0:13:43.280 --> 0:13:55.679 hurt anybody or watch my back because so so I 0:13:55.679 --> 0:13:59.200 think that all of that helps me just be confident. 0:13:59.400 --> 0:14:01.200 You know, a woman that I am and the woman 0:14:01.240 --> 0:14:02.880 that I strive to be every single day. I want 0:14:02.880 --> 0:14:04.640 to be the better version of myself every day. And 0:14:04.640 --> 0:14:06.640 I think that gives you a different type of globe too, 0:14:06.800 --> 0:14:12.400 you know. Yeah, so we know what men like about you? 0:14:13.200 --> 0:14:16.920 What do you love physically about men? I guess what 0:14:16.920 --> 0:14:21.920 I'm trying to say is does size matter? Okay, look 0:14:22.320 --> 0:14:27.200 we're going there now. Size to me, it doesn't it? Okay, 0:14:27.200 --> 0:14:30.160 wait hold on, let me answer this correctly, because I've 0:14:30.160 --> 0:14:37.880 had different penises sizes just okay, God, so I think 0:14:37.880 --> 0:14:40.280 the right the right. Maybe a question is do you 0:14:40.320 --> 0:14:43.000 like it longer, thicker like girth? Is it? Is it better? That? 0:14:43.120 --> 0:14:45.560 You know what I mean? But to me, I've had 0:14:45.840 --> 0:14:50.440 a partner that it wasn't that big ish you know, 0:14:50.640 --> 0:14:55.800 but he handled you know, orally perfectly and he knew 0:14:55.800 --> 0:14:57.560 how to work with what he got. So it kind 0:14:57.560 --> 0:14:59.320 of like it really doesn't like, I don't feel like 0:14:59.360 --> 0:15:01.000 you need to have a big penis in order for 0:15:01.040 --> 0:15:03.040 me to be satisfied. It's like how you want to 0:15:03.040 --> 0:15:08.200 satisfy me? You know what I mean? Okay, cool, perfect, 0:15:08.200 --> 0:15:13.760 perfect sense. Yes, but I'd prefer girth anyways, go ahead, 0:15:15.640 --> 0:15:20.080 girth to length two inches, friends, girth two inches. Yeah, 0:15:20.120 --> 0:15:28.040 it's okay. So my next question, so you have basically 0:15:28.040 --> 0:15:31.560 grown up in the spotlight, in the public eye, first 0:15:31.600 --> 0:15:33.840 because of your mom and now because of yourself. I mean, 0:15:34.240 --> 0:15:36.840 you're a singer, you are an author, you are a 0:15:36.920 --> 0:15:39.160 business owner, you're all of these things, and I think 0:15:40.040 --> 0:15:44.720 that with that comes very little privacy. So can you 0:15:44.800 --> 0:15:48.280 tell us how you cope with that? You know, Um, 0:15:48.360 --> 0:15:53.200 sometimes people tell me you have no right to ask 0:15:53.520 --> 0:15:59.360 for privacy because you are exposing your life. And I 0:15:59.440 --> 0:16:03.640 don't like that because obviously, yes, we had reality. I 0:16:03.640 --> 0:16:05.160 was in reality. That's how I started my career in 0:16:05.200 --> 0:16:10.880 reality ten years ago. But um, you grow from that, 0:16:11.320 --> 0:16:13.480 and I learned a lot from that. I learned, like, wait, 0:16:13.520 --> 0:16:15.240 there are certain things that I just don't have to 0:16:15.280 --> 0:16:17.520 talk about. It's okay for me to keep this private, 0:16:18.040 --> 0:16:21.240 my relationships maybe, or just a lot of things that 0:16:21.360 --> 0:16:23.920 I was kind of like, if you ask me, I'll 0:16:23.920 --> 0:16:25.840 be honest, you know what I mean. I'm very transparent, 0:16:26.000 --> 0:16:27.240 but there are things that I'm like, you know what, 0:16:27.320 --> 0:16:29.400 I just rather not talk about this. Now I have 0:16:29.600 --> 0:16:32.960 that voice and that confidence to say wait a second no, 0:16:33.200 --> 0:16:36.400 before I felt I had to. You know, Um, sometimes 0:16:36.440 --> 0:16:39.680 it gets a little frustrating. Um, just because I want 0:16:39.680 --> 0:16:41.600 to go to Disneyland or something, and I don't get 0:16:41.600 --> 0:16:44.120 frustrated from the fans. I love taking pictures. I'll never 0:16:44.120 --> 0:16:46.600 say no. But I feel bad for the people that 0:16:46.640 --> 0:16:48.920 are with me because we get stopped and stuff like that, 0:16:49.000 --> 0:16:50.960 and I think that can get a little frustrating for them. 0:16:50.960 --> 0:16:54.120 And that frustrates me because I'm like, damn, I feel bad. 0:16:54.120 --> 0:16:55.440 But I'm like, hey, if you're around with you know 0:16:55.440 --> 0:16:57.480 what you're getting yourself into. And this is my job. 0:16:57.520 --> 0:16:59.680 And I love these people and they pay for my bills. 0:17:00.160 --> 0:17:02.160 They helped me, you know what I mean, they and 0:17:02.160 --> 0:17:06.120 and and that's why that's how I see it. Um. 0:17:06.119 --> 0:17:09.879 But yeah, I mean it's it's hard to get to 0:17:09.960 --> 0:17:12.160 have privacy. And do you ever feel like you're being 0:17:12.200 --> 0:17:18.879 too open? You know? Um, maybe to my management, I 0:17:18.960 --> 0:17:22.920 share too much, um, But for my standards and who 0:17:23.000 --> 0:17:26.520 I am and what I've created on my social social 0:17:26.520 --> 0:17:28.919 media platforms and through my reality shows and through my music, 0:17:30.240 --> 0:17:32.760 I feel like I share enough, you know what I mean. 0:17:32.760 --> 0:17:35.800 There's other things that I couldn't share, but I my 0:17:35.880 --> 0:17:38.399 transparency and my honesty can sometimes get me into trouble 0:17:38.480 --> 0:17:40.879 with my team, you know, because you're like, oh, you 0:17:40.880 --> 0:17:42.520 shouldn't be saying that, you know, But I'm like, wait, 0:17:42.560 --> 0:17:46.320 I'm still human. I'm still a woman before a singer, 0:17:46.400 --> 0:17:48.680 before X, Y and Z, you know what I mean? 0:17:48.800 --> 0:17:52.600 And um, but no, I think that sometimes I can 0:17:52.640 --> 0:17:54.600 even share a little bit more. To be honest, I've 0:17:54.680 --> 0:17:56.080 kind of held back a little bit because it was 0:17:56.080 --> 0:17:58.439 a rough year for me, so I've kind of held everything, 0:17:58.960 --> 0:18:01.080 you know, to my self, a little bit of everything 0:18:01.119 --> 0:18:03.880 but some things. But no, way, I think that that's 0:18:03.880 --> 0:18:05.960 the place to do it. Have that that direct contact 0:18:06.040 --> 0:18:09.480 with with your followers. Yeah. And you know, I'm interested 0:18:09.520 --> 0:18:13.760 to know because you post these like incredible pictures and 0:18:13.840 --> 0:18:17.440 sexy pictures and you know you're You're revealing a lot 0:18:17.520 --> 0:18:20.520 of yourself, and it seems that all those pictures make news, right, 0:18:20.880 --> 0:18:24.000 It's like, oh, is this too much? Like stad has 0:18:24.040 --> 0:18:26.720 knew that or this? And that you know, like a 0:18:27.080 --> 0:18:31.040 like the confidence to post that is already huge and 0:18:31.119 --> 0:18:34.800 you've talked about that. But is there backlash? You know, 0:18:35.480 --> 0:18:38.320 are the trolls coming for you and are like shaming 0:18:38.359 --> 0:18:40.760 you in some way? And how do you deal with that? 0:18:41.560 --> 0:18:44.159 You know what to se I think and I've learned that. 0:18:45.160 --> 0:18:46.879 You know, this career is a learning process. Let me 0:18:46.880 --> 0:18:51.040 tell you that it's crazy because I can. I can 0:18:51.080 --> 0:18:57.040 post a picture that a girl that is way skinnier 0:18:57.040 --> 0:18:59.960 than I am, a size two, assize four, the same 0:19:00.040 --> 0:19:05.040 exact picture, and I look vulgar because I'm thicker. But 0:19:05.080 --> 0:19:07.440 if a thinner girl does it, it's not that much 0:19:07.440 --> 0:19:09.280 of a big deal. And that's what I'm not okay 0:19:09.320 --> 0:19:12.680 with because why why? Because I have cellulite, because I 0:19:12.680 --> 0:19:14.679 have thick thighs, because I have a fat ass, I 0:19:14.720 --> 0:19:17.000 can't do that. I can't feel sexy in my own skin. 0:19:17.119 --> 0:19:19.600 And that's those are the things that I want to 0:19:19.640 --> 0:19:22.439 break because there are so many women like me and 0:19:22.480 --> 0:19:25.440 I want to be and represent us. You know. Obviously 0:19:25.440 --> 0:19:27.760 there's always room for improvement. I always want to look better, 0:19:27.800 --> 0:19:29.080 I want to work out, I want to lose weight, 0:19:29.119 --> 0:19:30.879 but in reality, this is the body God gave me. 0:19:30.920 --> 0:19:33.440 And I've never really been skinny, you know what I mean. 0:19:33.520 --> 0:19:36.640 So that's what bugs me and I do get backlash 0:19:36.680 --> 0:19:41.800 because I, like Bogardo, is that I'm just like dude, Like, 0:19:42.040 --> 0:19:43.720 I'm a thirty six year old woman. I know I 0:19:43.720 --> 0:19:45.960 may not look it, you know, but I'm a thirty 0:19:45.960 --> 0:19:48.160 six year old woman that feels good about her body. 0:19:48.280 --> 0:19:49.960 And I don't have kids yet, and maybe when I 0:19:49.960 --> 0:19:52.240 have kids, that's going to change. But that's part of evolution, 0:19:52.680 --> 0:19:56.400 you know. But that's where we have the responsibility with 0:19:56.440 --> 0:19:59.680 our children to say, wait a second, teach them certain things, 0:20:00.000 --> 0:20:01.840 and I'd be a very open mother. So I don't know, 0:20:01.880 --> 0:20:04.760 I don't agree with certain things that I'm criticized for. 0:20:05.080 --> 0:20:07.440 But well, no, I think it really does come down 0:20:07.480 --> 0:20:10.080 to size. I think there's my size bothers them sometimes. 0:20:10.640 --> 0:20:17.399 Mm hmmm. So you're clearly very confident, comfortable in your 0:20:17.440 --> 0:20:22.119 own skin. You embrace your curves, which is obviously fantastic, 0:20:22.440 --> 0:20:25.760 and um, I guess my question is do you ever 0:20:25.840 --> 0:20:31.640 feel the need to conform to Western beauty standards now 0:20:31.680 --> 0:20:34.160 that I've gotten older. No, When I was younger, yes, 0:20:34.200 --> 0:20:37.080 I wanted to look like the girls on the magazine. 0:20:37.119 --> 0:20:39.280 Now that I'm in the business, I know that that's 0:20:39.320 --> 0:20:41.879 all kind of a facade, you know. Now, I know 0:20:42.040 --> 0:20:45.879 photoshop exists and all that stuff, And you know, I 0:20:46.359 --> 0:20:51.639 don't feel like I have to conform or or or 0:20:52.640 --> 0:20:54.840 be what I am who I am, and I'm beautiful 0:20:54.880 --> 0:20:58.160 in my own unique way, you know. And I've i've 0:20:58.280 --> 0:21:01.040 now that I'm older, and I just I'm more comfortable 0:21:01.080 --> 0:21:11.200 with it. So we talked about size, yeah, right, and 0:21:12.000 --> 0:21:19.360 men loving your um backside, right, I love. I love 0:21:19.359 --> 0:21:23.560 my producers. They're just like you know, your backside, love it, 0:21:25.000 --> 0:21:27.840 trying to keep it clean. So I'm sure a lot 0:21:27.840 --> 0:21:31.040 of people want to know, especially the men and maybe 0:21:31.040 --> 0:21:33.360 a lot of women out there. Are you single? Do 0:21:33.440 --> 0:21:36.480 they have a chance? Can they slide into your d 0:21:36.720 --> 0:21:39.960 M s? What is the relationship status? You know, even 0:21:40.000 --> 0:21:42.359 if I if I'm married or I have a boyfriend 0:21:42.480 --> 0:21:44.760 or single. Guys do not care. Let me tell you. 0:21:44.800 --> 0:21:47.360 Let me start off with that. Guys are crazy. They 0:21:47.400 --> 0:21:49.399 don't care. They always feel they have a chance like, 0:21:49.400 --> 0:21:51.040 oh you can get divorced, Oh you don't have kids 0:21:51.119 --> 0:21:53.120 yet or whatever. And I get it, and I've gotten 0:21:53.160 --> 0:21:55.399