1 00:00:00,600 --> 00:00:03,520 Speaker 1: Scrubbing In with Becca Tilly and Tanya rad and I 2 00:00:03,640 --> 00:00:07,680 Speaker 1: Heart Radio and two time People's Choice Award winning podcast. 3 00:00:10,600 --> 00:00:17,040 Speaker 1: Hello everybody, we're scrubbing in. That's the sound of Becca 4 00:00:17,200 --> 00:00:22,639 Speaker 1: Tilly's boys. I'm back. I um, We're over zoom. But 5 00:00:22,960 --> 00:00:28,320 Speaker 1: I am functioning more than I have in the last 6 00:00:29,400 --> 00:00:32,199 Speaker 1: how long, like twelve days? Eleven days? And you know 7 00:00:32,240 --> 00:00:35,000 Speaker 1: what's interesting, We do the podcast together every single week, 8 00:00:35,560 --> 00:00:38,400 Speaker 1: but I don't you always intro it. You always do 9 00:00:38,440 --> 00:00:42,159 Speaker 1: the and it's really weird doing it. Like I'm like, 10 00:00:42,240 --> 00:00:44,680 Speaker 1: I felt like how to be like, it's not Becca, 11 00:00:44,880 --> 00:00:48,520 Speaker 1: it's Tanya. You couldn't tell the difference in our voices. 12 00:00:50,280 --> 00:00:53,199 Speaker 1: I know, I was weirdly thinking about that today of 13 00:00:53,400 --> 00:00:56,240 Speaker 1: like you doing the intro and how that must be 14 00:00:56,440 --> 00:00:59,760 Speaker 1: so weird. It is weird. Maybe we should alternate so 15 00:00:59,840 --> 00:01:03,320 Speaker 1: that it's not weird when one of us is out. Yeah, 16 00:01:03,360 --> 00:01:06,800 Speaker 1: it's definitely like a it's an interesting pivot. But yeah, 17 00:01:06,959 --> 00:01:11,200 Speaker 1: you know, I really appreciate you taking control, just being 18 00:01:11,480 --> 00:01:17,280 Speaker 1: the boss that you are headlining the podcast for two weeks. 19 00:01:17,560 --> 00:01:20,160 Speaker 1: I know. You know what's so funny is um on 20 00:01:20,200 --> 00:01:22,759 Speaker 1: the weekend show for the Vibe. EJ was on vacation 21 00:01:22,800 --> 00:01:24,959 Speaker 1: two and so we were like I was doing something 22 00:01:25,040 --> 00:01:28,240 Speaker 1: and I was like, Sisney's in for e J. And 23 00:01:28,400 --> 00:01:30,800 Speaker 1: we had Brad Greski on my podcast for Becca Tilly, 24 00:01:30,840 --> 00:01:32,200 Speaker 1: and I was like, you know, it's summer when just 25 00:01:32,280 --> 00:01:36,640 Speaker 1: like it's just everybody's just filling in for everybody. Yeah, 26 00:01:36,640 --> 00:01:38,800 Speaker 1: well I wish I was like on a nice vacasion 27 00:01:38,959 --> 00:01:43,760 Speaker 1: or something for summer. But um, yeah, I I For 28 00:01:43,800 --> 00:01:48,800 Speaker 1: anyone who doesn't know I had COVID, I um, I 29 00:01:48,800 --> 00:01:51,640 Speaker 1: don't know. I mean it's hard to track where you 30 00:01:51,920 --> 00:01:56,920 Speaker 1: get it right now. But I went to a concert, 31 00:01:57,120 --> 00:01:59,040 Speaker 1: which was the only thing where I was like in 32 00:01:59,080 --> 00:02:01,160 Speaker 1: a big crowd of powl, which I think is where 33 00:02:01,160 --> 00:02:04,120 Speaker 1: I got it. And I a lot of people are asking, 34 00:02:04,560 --> 00:02:06,600 Speaker 1: you know, when I posted on Instagram about it, there 35 00:02:06,680 --> 00:02:09,720 Speaker 1: was a lot of people curious about if I was vaccinated, 36 00:02:09,919 --> 00:02:13,120 Speaker 1: and um, I'm not vaccinated. So it wasn't like a 37 00:02:13,160 --> 00:02:16,280 Speaker 1: breakthrough case. And to be honest, I had had a 38 00:02:16,320 --> 00:02:21,760 Speaker 1: few conversations about getting vaccinated the following week and then 39 00:02:21,800 --> 00:02:25,320 Speaker 1: I got COVID. So as soon as I'm able to, 40 00:02:26,000 --> 00:02:29,399 Speaker 1: I'll be going and getting my vaccine. But it's kind 41 00:02:29,440 --> 00:02:34,000 Speaker 1: of a crazy um like situation right now because I 42 00:02:34,040 --> 00:02:36,120 Speaker 1: know a ton of people who are vaccinated, who are 43 00:02:36,200 --> 00:02:39,920 Speaker 1: breakthrough cases getting it. So it's kind of a you know, 44 00:02:40,240 --> 00:02:43,160 Speaker 1: not to put I don't. I think it's just like 45 00:02:43,240 --> 00:02:46,040 Speaker 1: people being aware and like respecting that the virus is 46 00:02:46,040 --> 00:02:49,520 Speaker 1: still here. But um, I wish if I could go back, 47 00:02:49,560 --> 00:02:52,160 Speaker 1: I would go back and wear a mask to that event, 48 00:02:52,200 --> 00:02:54,720 Speaker 1: and like, knowing I wasn't vaccinated going into a place 49 00:02:54,760 --> 00:02:56,760 Speaker 1: with like a ton of people, I would have, you know, 50 00:02:56,840 --> 00:03:02,360 Speaker 1: weren't a mask. But anyways, I had, Um, I'm trying 51 00:03:02,360 --> 00:03:07,000 Speaker 1: to think. On Tuesday of last week, I posted about 52 00:03:07,040 --> 00:03:10,520 Speaker 1: being like super exhausted. I don't know if you remember it, 53 00:03:10,560 --> 00:03:13,360 Speaker 1: and I was like, I still think I'm like deficient 54 00:03:13,400 --> 00:03:16,200 Speaker 1: in vitamins because on a regular basis, I feel like 55 00:03:16,240 --> 00:03:20,720 Speaker 1: I don't have a normal amount of energy. But um, 56 00:03:20,760 --> 00:03:24,240 Speaker 1: that day I was like I cannot do anything, Like 57 00:03:24,280 --> 00:03:26,040 Speaker 1: I had so much work to do and I just 58 00:03:26,320 --> 00:03:32,520 Speaker 1: could not get myself to go. And um, that next morning, 59 00:03:32,560 --> 00:03:35,360 Speaker 1: on Wednesday, I woke up and I had like the 60 00:03:35,400 --> 00:03:38,480 Speaker 1: back pain that you know, my my mom and my 61 00:03:38,560 --> 00:03:41,920 Speaker 1: aunt had it, both my aunts and my sister, and 62 00:03:41,960 --> 00:03:44,320 Speaker 1: they all talked about the back pain and so I 63 00:03:44,520 --> 00:03:47,480 Speaker 1: rolled over and like my whole spine was just like 64 00:03:47,680 --> 00:03:51,760 Speaker 1: a chy, and I haven't been sick in a really 65 00:03:51,800 --> 00:03:54,360 Speaker 1: long time, like sick with like the fever and the aches, 66 00:03:54,400 --> 00:03:59,400 Speaker 1: and so I just I like knew. I literally said 67 00:03:59,440 --> 00:04:02,120 Speaker 1: a lot of like I have COVID, and I had 68 00:04:02,160 --> 00:04:04,960 Speaker 1: actually taken an at home test because we were going 69 00:04:05,000 --> 00:04:09,200 Speaker 1: to NAPA that weekend, and um, because I wasn't vaccinated, 70 00:04:09,240 --> 00:04:12,600 Speaker 1: we had to take two tests that we did at home, 71 00:04:13,400 --> 00:04:15,600 Speaker 1: and so I had sent that in the day before, 72 00:04:16,080 --> 00:04:19,920 Speaker 1: and then I decided to go um and get a 73 00:04:19,960 --> 00:04:25,479 Speaker 1: test at Urgent Care. And that day on Wednesday, my 74 00:04:25,640 --> 00:04:28,720 Speaker 1: at home test came back positive, which to me, I 75 00:04:28,760 --> 00:04:31,479 Speaker 1: was like, I my only symptom at that point was 76 00:04:31,520 --> 00:04:35,160 Speaker 1: just that being really tired, and I did it myself, 77 00:04:35,440 --> 00:04:38,880 Speaker 1: and so that one came back positive, and then I 78 00:04:38,920 --> 00:04:41,520 Speaker 1: got the call from the urgent Care that it was positive, which, 79 00:04:41,800 --> 00:04:44,840 Speaker 1: like I said, I wasn't surprised. I just like knew, 80 00:04:44,920 --> 00:04:48,560 Speaker 1: I had like a gut feeling that I had it UM, 81 00:04:48,640 --> 00:04:55,680 Speaker 1: and then I just progressively got just more uncomfortable and sick, 82 00:04:55,800 --> 00:04:59,120 Speaker 1: and I just I'm really good at resting, luckily, so 83 00:04:59,240 --> 00:05:01,080 Speaker 1: I was like, I I'm just gonna let my body 84 00:05:01,240 --> 00:05:04,719 Speaker 1: like not do anything. And I was drinking a ton 85 00:05:04,800 --> 00:05:08,039 Speaker 1: of water and fluids and like really on top of it, 86 00:05:08,600 --> 00:05:10,719 Speaker 1: and then I lost my taste and smell, which is 87 00:05:10,760 --> 00:05:14,440 Speaker 1: the weirdest it's the weirdest thing ever. But like I 88 00:05:14,480 --> 00:05:17,240 Speaker 1: remember that morning because we were supposed to do the 89 00:05:17,240 --> 00:05:20,919 Speaker 1: podcast that night. That's when we had Chelsea Handler, and 90 00:05:21,480 --> 00:05:25,000 Speaker 1: I like, the thing I keep thinking about is we 91 00:05:25,040 --> 00:05:27,120 Speaker 1: always do the podcast on Mondays, Like that's just like 92 00:05:27,160 --> 00:05:29,560 Speaker 1: how we just it's that's when we do our podcasts. 93 00:05:29,600 --> 00:05:32,599 Speaker 1: And for some reason, Chelsea Handler couldn't do that Monday, 94 00:05:32,600 --> 00:05:35,000 Speaker 1: so we moved it to Wednesday that week, and had 95 00:05:36,279 --> 00:05:38,120 Speaker 1: we've done the podcast, you would have just been here. 96 00:05:38,160 --> 00:05:40,800 Speaker 1: We would have been next to each other, like I probably. 97 00:05:41,200 --> 00:05:43,600 Speaker 1: I mean again, you hear that I am vaccinated and so, 98 00:05:43,720 --> 00:05:46,279 Speaker 1: but you do hear the breakthrough cases of people getting 99 00:05:46,320 --> 00:05:48,320 Speaker 1: it and you had it and you were right next 100 00:05:48,320 --> 00:05:51,279 Speaker 1: to me for multiple hours, Like I know. It's just 101 00:05:51,320 --> 00:05:54,440 Speaker 1: what are the odds? I know, And to be honest, 102 00:05:54,520 --> 00:05:57,000 Speaker 1: like that's kind of the part that's been That was 103 00:05:57,040 --> 00:05:59,320 Speaker 1: like the hardest part at first was like I felt 104 00:05:59,320 --> 00:06:03,839 Speaker 1: really um like guilty of the people that I had 105 00:06:04,200 --> 00:06:07,839 Speaker 1: potentially exposed, like even the majority of the people around 106 00:06:07,880 --> 00:06:11,760 Speaker 1: me were vaccinated. I still, like, I don't know. I 107 00:06:11,760 --> 00:06:16,160 Speaker 1: had a really hard time thinking about that aspect of it, 108 00:06:16,200 --> 00:06:19,400 Speaker 1: and I had contacted everyone to let them know, you know, 109 00:06:19,560 --> 00:06:22,120 Speaker 1: I racked my brain like making sure I didn't miss 110 00:06:22,120 --> 00:06:26,800 Speaker 1: a single person to let them know, and um, luckily 111 00:06:27,680 --> 00:06:33,400 Speaker 1: everyone so far has tested UM negative. But yeah, I 112 00:06:33,440 --> 00:06:35,440 Speaker 1: think that was like kind of the biggest part. And 113 00:06:35,480 --> 00:06:40,440 Speaker 1: I think, um, like not knowing if you give it 114 00:06:40,480 --> 00:06:43,600 Speaker 1: to someone who might not be able to you know, 115 00:06:43,800 --> 00:06:47,000 Speaker 1: fight it off, which I knew, like in my mind, 116 00:06:47,160 --> 00:06:52,279 Speaker 1: I I felt I never felt like panicked about my 117 00:06:52,360 --> 00:06:55,640 Speaker 1: health or you know, I was checking my oxygen and everything, 118 00:06:55,680 --> 00:06:57,960 Speaker 1: and like I did get like the sowred chest and 119 00:06:58,000 --> 00:07:01,520 Speaker 1: stuff from coughing. But I just it was a lot 120 00:07:01,560 --> 00:07:04,560 Speaker 1: more of the fear of giving it to someone who 121 00:07:05,120 --> 00:07:09,240 Speaker 1: doesn't have the the body to fight it, you know. 122 00:07:09,360 --> 00:07:13,240 Speaker 1: So um, I think it's kind of an eye opener. 123 00:07:13,280 --> 00:07:22,440 Speaker 1: It's like crazy because I I mean, all of a sudden, 124 00:07:22,480 --> 00:07:27,240 Speaker 1: it's like overnight, the cases started going crazy again. And 125 00:07:27,280 --> 00:07:29,200 Speaker 1: like I know so many people. I know so many 126 00:07:29,200 --> 00:07:32,880 Speaker 1: people who have it right now, and it's luckily, I mean, 127 00:07:32,880 --> 00:07:35,800 Speaker 1: everyone I know is okay, but it's it's definitely like 128 00:07:36,240 --> 00:07:39,840 Speaker 1: be aware of it and be vigilant because like like 129 00:07:39,880 --> 00:07:42,240 Speaker 1: you said, we could have just done our podcast normally 130 00:07:42,280 --> 00:07:45,320 Speaker 1: that day and you could have gotten it, and then 131 00:07:45,520 --> 00:07:48,280 Speaker 1: you could have gone and seen Red Star. You know, 132 00:07:48,360 --> 00:07:51,320 Speaker 1: it's like it's spreads and I think it's I think 133 00:07:51,360 --> 00:07:53,760 Speaker 1: for me like after I after I got back to it, 134 00:07:53,760 --> 00:07:56,600 Speaker 1: I almost felt like I had superpowers. You know. It 135 00:07:56,680 --> 00:07:59,000 Speaker 1: was like I can be normal again and do all 136 00:07:59,000 --> 00:08:00,840 Speaker 1: these things. And I was still kind of like I 137 00:08:00,840 --> 00:08:04,120 Speaker 1: still wear my mask at the grocery store, and you know, 138 00:08:04,280 --> 00:08:09,040 Speaker 1: I still wear it sometimes when I'm indoor places, but 139 00:08:09,120 --> 00:08:12,720 Speaker 1: outdoors I don't even think about it. And you know, 140 00:08:12,760 --> 00:08:14,760 Speaker 1: when we go to the concert, I didn't even think 141 00:08:14,800 --> 00:08:17,320 Speaker 1: to put it on, and it's like, yeah, it's it's 142 00:08:17,320 --> 00:08:21,000 Speaker 1: almost like it's just getting really bad again. So it's 143 00:08:21,200 --> 00:08:26,360 Speaker 1: kind of like mask up and yeah, yeah, I agree. 144 00:08:26,440 --> 00:08:29,920 Speaker 1: I think there was even to be honest, like I 145 00:08:30,680 --> 00:08:33,560 Speaker 1: when all the when people were able to get vaccinated, 146 00:08:34,160 --> 00:08:36,320 Speaker 1: so many of my friends like went and got it 147 00:08:36,360 --> 00:08:40,000 Speaker 1: and like you know, like immediately, and a lot of 148 00:08:40,080 --> 00:08:41,880 Speaker 1: I think everyone that I know kind of was like 149 00:08:41,960 --> 00:08:43,640 Speaker 1: run down for a couple of days. And this was 150 00:08:43,720 --> 00:08:45,840 Speaker 1: kind of during the process where I was moving, and 151 00:08:45,920 --> 00:08:48,400 Speaker 1: so I just felt like there were stuff back to 152 00:08:48,440 --> 00:08:50,040 Speaker 1: back to back, and I was just kind of lazy 153 00:08:50,080 --> 00:08:51,920 Speaker 1: about it and everyone was getting it. And then I 154 00:08:51,960 --> 00:08:54,319 Speaker 1: felt like cases kind of went down and almost talking 155 00:08:54,320 --> 00:08:57,160 Speaker 1: about it, and so I kind of like I almost 156 00:08:57,280 --> 00:09:00,280 Speaker 1: felt like I had superpowers because everyone else was back sney, 157 00:09:00,320 --> 00:09:03,400 Speaker 1: which I think is a very ignorant like mentality, but 158 00:09:04,080 --> 00:09:06,440 Speaker 1: but then it's true, like everything was declining, and so 159 00:09:06,480 --> 00:09:09,640 Speaker 1: you're like, okay, like this is good. It's summer. It's 160 00:09:09,640 --> 00:09:13,280 Speaker 1: supposed to be better in the in the heat or whatever. Yeah, 161 00:09:13,400 --> 00:09:16,720 Speaker 1: And so then as I was having more conversations with 162 00:09:16,800 --> 00:09:19,360 Speaker 1: people and people were talking, you know, we were seeing 163 00:09:19,360 --> 00:09:22,679 Speaker 1: more cases coming up. I was like, I'm gonna get 164 00:09:22,679 --> 00:09:24,360 Speaker 1: it next week because we were gonna be back from 165 00:09:24,440 --> 00:09:26,000 Speaker 1: that bed. And I was like, if I go, if 166 00:09:26,040 --> 00:09:28,120 Speaker 1: it makes me a little sick or run down, I 167 00:09:28,160 --> 00:09:29,760 Speaker 1: have a couple of days where I can just chill 168 00:09:29,920 --> 00:09:34,480 Speaker 1: next week. And then I got COVID. So, um, yeah, 169 00:09:34,760 --> 00:09:40,880 Speaker 1: it's been like it's been sucky, like by no means 170 00:09:40,880 --> 00:09:44,800 Speaker 1: what I like, it's you know, being sick is just 171 00:09:44,840 --> 00:09:47,280 Speaker 1: the worst. But like I said, I think it was more. 172 00:09:47,800 --> 00:09:51,360 Speaker 1: I was just glad that everyone I know has stayed 173 00:09:51,400 --> 00:09:56,800 Speaker 1: healthy and well. Yeah. But um, yeah, so Phoebe was 174 00:09:56,880 --> 00:10:01,080 Speaker 1: like been my little sleeping buddy. She's really adapted to 175 00:10:01,440 --> 00:10:04,920 Speaker 1: being very lazy. Yeah, and I'm sure she loves having 176 00:10:04,920 --> 00:10:07,679 Speaker 1: you home all the time. Yeah I'm home a lot, 177 00:10:07,800 --> 00:10:11,400 Speaker 1: but yeah, she's been good. But yeah, that's kind of 178 00:10:11,440 --> 00:10:14,440 Speaker 1: been my update. I thinks to everyone who like a 179 00:10:14,440 --> 00:10:17,640 Speaker 1: lot of people without even knowing a head COVID or 180 00:10:17,720 --> 00:10:21,080 Speaker 1: like checking in and you know, sending me like get 181 00:10:21,080 --> 00:10:24,600 Speaker 1: well messages. And Tanya brought me like a basketful of 182 00:10:24,720 --> 00:10:30,079 Speaker 1: literally anything you could need me in sick, including pop tarts, 183 00:10:30,160 --> 00:10:32,200 Speaker 1: which I can't taste. But I did have one the 184 00:10:32,200 --> 00:10:34,880 Speaker 1: other day because I saw these root Loot pop tarts, 185 00:10:34,880 --> 00:10:38,080 Speaker 1: which I had never seen before. I never even knew 186 00:10:38,120 --> 00:10:39,520 Speaker 1: that was an option. I was like, oh, this will 187 00:10:39,559 --> 00:10:41,480 Speaker 1: be fun for her to try. Then I forgot you 188 00:10:41,679 --> 00:10:46,880 Speaker 1: lose your taste. It's so trippy, Like I remember my 189 00:10:47,080 --> 00:10:49,040 Speaker 1: when my sister, My sister didn't have her taste and 190 00:10:49,080 --> 00:10:53,000 Speaker 1: smell for like a long time, and she would say 191 00:10:53,080 --> 00:10:57,400 Speaker 1: like it's so weird not knowing like if you smell 192 00:10:57,480 --> 00:11:00,840 Speaker 1: bad and in my mind, I'm like, well, I I 193 00:11:00,880 --> 00:11:03,439 Speaker 1: mean not, I'm not saying this in like a bragging way, 194 00:11:03,480 --> 00:11:07,880 Speaker 1: but I rarely like don't smell good because I do. 195 00:11:08,080 --> 00:11:12,480 Speaker 1: I can reek sometimes, so that would be detrimental. It's 196 00:11:12,559 --> 00:11:15,760 Speaker 1: so weird and like I can't I like light candles, 197 00:11:15,840 --> 00:11:18,360 Speaker 1: But I'm like, I hope my house smells nice, which 198 00:11:18,920 --> 00:11:22,079 Speaker 1: you know, once I'm I'm still kind of like recovering, 199 00:11:22,120 --> 00:11:24,120 Speaker 1: have the cough and stuff and kind of like feel 200 00:11:24,160 --> 00:11:26,960 Speaker 1: weird when I sleep and wake up. So once I 201 00:11:27,040 --> 00:11:30,400 Speaker 1: like do my deep clean, I'm like gonna feel better 202 00:11:30,440 --> 00:11:33,520 Speaker 1: about it. But I'm like, does my house smell okay? 203 00:11:33,600 --> 00:11:35,800 Speaker 1: You know, I'm just like it's so it feels like 204 00:11:35,840 --> 00:11:39,760 Speaker 1: you're you just don't have this part of you that 205 00:11:40,400 --> 00:11:44,600 Speaker 1: you're so used to. It's a weird sensation. Yeah. I can't. 206 00:11:44,640 --> 00:11:47,280 Speaker 1: I honestly can't imagine. And I thought I was going 207 00:11:47,360 --> 00:11:49,400 Speaker 1: to be able to eat like super healthy because I 208 00:11:49,440 --> 00:11:51,319 Speaker 1: was like, well, I can't taste anything, so I might 209 00:11:51,320 --> 00:11:54,600 Speaker 1: all just like fill my body with like nutritious foods. 210 00:11:54,640 --> 00:12:00,200 Speaker 1: And I'm still eating horrible really why because I ay 211 00:12:00,240 --> 00:12:03,960 Speaker 1: of like the texture of like comfort food, like what 212 00:12:04,000 --> 00:12:07,040 Speaker 1: like a mac and cheese. Yeah, you have me mac 213 00:12:07,040 --> 00:12:09,040 Speaker 1: and cheese. I've had mac and cheese. Well, mac and 214 00:12:09,120 --> 00:12:11,559 Speaker 1: cheese is nice because it's like hot and like comforting 215 00:12:11,600 --> 00:12:15,080 Speaker 1: on my throat even though it's dairy. And get a soup. 216 00:12:15,200 --> 00:12:17,920 Speaker 1: Just get like a super healthy soup I've had. I've 217 00:12:17,920 --> 00:12:21,000 Speaker 1: had ramon and soup every single day. I'm like so 218 00:12:21,120 --> 00:12:25,080 Speaker 1: over it, like it helps, it makes me feel good, 219 00:12:25,080 --> 00:12:27,800 Speaker 1: so like I'll eat it to like feel comfort. But 220 00:12:27,920 --> 00:12:37,280 Speaker 1: I'm like tired of the the look and texture. But 221 00:12:37,440 --> 00:12:40,280 Speaker 1: my friend from back home he said the same thing. 222 00:12:40,360 --> 00:12:42,319 Speaker 1: He was like, I really thought I was going to 223 00:12:42,440 --> 00:12:45,960 Speaker 1: eat healthy because like, what's the point I can't taste 224 00:12:45,960 --> 00:12:49,439 Speaker 1: And he was like, I'm still eating all my bad foods. 225 00:12:49,720 --> 00:13:04,360 Speaker 1: That's so interesting. Hi, it's Ashley like an Ettie, and 226 00:13:04,400 --> 00:13:06,800 Speaker 1: it's Benjamin Higgins. And you guys may know us from 227 00:13:06,840 --> 00:13:10,880 Speaker 1: the Almost Same As podcast were recap the Bachelor franchise, 228 00:13:11,040 --> 00:13:14,480 Speaker 1: and wow, do we have a Bachelor atte finale to 229 00:13:14,600 --> 00:13:17,960 Speaker 1: recap for you this week And we've got the one 230 00:13:17,960 --> 00:13:21,320 Speaker 1: and only runner up, justin Glaze giving us all the 231 00:13:21,440 --> 00:13:27,320 Speaker 1: tea from what he thinks about Greg's exit to Blake 232 00:13:27,800 --> 00:13:32,960 Speaker 1: and Katie being together. Now, what a dramatic episode. Well, hey, 233 00:13:33,240 --> 00:13:35,480 Speaker 1: make sure you tune in listen to our podcast Almost 234 00:13:35,480 --> 00:13:38,240 Speaker 1: Famous right now on I Heart Radio, app, Apple Podcasts 235 00:13:38,240 --> 00:13:45,199 Speaker 1: and everywhere you listen to podcasts. What's new with you 236 00:13:45,760 --> 00:13:49,200 Speaker 1: up data. I'm just so sorry, Like I'm sorry, and 237 00:13:49,240 --> 00:13:52,040 Speaker 1: I'm sad because, like I mean, in the grand scheme 238 00:13:52,040 --> 00:13:53,880 Speaker 1: of things, is not a big deal. But like we 239 00:13:54,240 --> 00:13:56,360 Speaker 1: pretty much like canceled our you know, we're gonna do 240 00:13:56,400 --> 00:13:59,240 Speaker 1: the podcast in NAPA, and we like red Star and 241 00:13:59,280 --> 00:14:01,480 Speaker 1: I still went because we were just kind of like, 242 00:14:03,040 --> 00:14:06,240 Speaker 1: yeahs go and enjoy. Yeah, but I think he was 243 00:14:06,280 --> 00:14:09,439 Speaker 1: really looking forward to kind of hanging out with everybody 244 00:14:09,600 --> 00:14:12,480 Speaker 1: and and you know, meeting people for the first time. Um. 245 00:14:12,720 --> 00:14:16,040 Speaker 1: So you know, that was a bummer. But we ended 246 00:14:16,080 --> 00:14:17,880 Speaker 1: up having a really good time and we hung out 247 00:14:17,880 --> 00:14:20,520 Speaker 1: with like Dean and Kaylin and so that was like 248 00:14:20,600 --> 00:14:23,160 Speaker 1: really fun and like playing, like you know, I love 249 00:14:23,200 --> 00:14:27,000 Speaker 1: playing games. Um So we played this really fun fish 250 00:14:27,000 --> 00:14:29,640 Speaker 1: bowl game that I'm going to bring to like every 251 00:14:29,640 --> 00:14:32,600 Speaker 1: single barbecue that I go to from now on. It's 252 00:14:32,600 --> 00:14:36,800 Speaker 1: just like a really fun game. Um And I've just 253 00:14:36,840 --> 00:14:40,280 Speaker 1: been like working a lot. Um but also like the 254 00:14:40,720 --> 00:14:42,840 Speaker 1: other day, I was really run down, Like I think 255 00:14:42,920 --> 00:14:44,200 Speaker 1: it was a day that I came and I dropped 256 00:14:44,240 --> 00:14:47,040 Speaker 1: off the stuff at your house, and I feel like 257 00:14:47,080 --> 00:14:49,720 Speaker 1: I find myself getting so nervous every day, you know, 258 00:14:49,880 --> 00:14:52,200 Speaker 1: Like I was so run down that night and then 259 00:14:52,200 --> 00:14:53,400 Speaker 1: I was like, this is what happened to Becca, and 260 00:14:53,440 --> 00:14:55,120 Speaker 1: then she woke up and she had COVID and so 261 00:14:55,200 --> 00:14:57,440 Speaker 1: like I woke up the next morning and I was like, yeah, 262 00:14:58,480 --> 00:15:00,680 Speaker 1: like I felt okay, you know, I feel like I'm 263 00:15:00,800 --> 00:15:04,600 Speaker 1: reverting back to that, um that's scared feeling that I 264 00:15:04,680 --> 00:15:08,160 Speaker 1: had for a while, which I don't you know, yeah, 265 00:15:08,200 --> 00:15:12,680 Speaker 1: anybody likes, but I know, I, UM, when you came 266 00:15:12,720 --> 00:15:15,080 Speaker 1: over and you were talking about how you felt, I 267 00:15:15,160 --> 00:15:18,600 Speaker 1: was so panicked because it was like you were describing 268 00:15:18,680 --> 00:15:23,760 Speaker 1: exactly how I had felt. And I think there's also 269 00:15:23,880 --> 00:15:27,720 Speaker 1: like just a good old fashioned like cold going around too, 270 00:15:27,800 --> 00:15:31,760 Speaker 1: so people is I think once the world opened back 271 00:15:31,840 --> 00:15:34,560 Speaker 1: up again, it was like we just were We just 272 00:15:34,640 --> 00:15:38,360 Speaker 1: went and we've been drinking and just drinking, and and 273 00:15:38,400 --> 00:15:40,240 Speaker 1: then I still have my normal workload. So I think 274 00:15:40,280 --> 00:15:44,680 Speaker 1: I was just tired, you know, like, yeah, girlfriend, can't 275 00:15:44,680 --> 00:15:49,040 Speaker 1: be drinking multiple nights a week and still functioning and 276 00:15:49,080 --> 00:15:51,280 Speaker 1: waking up really, you know what I mean like it's like, okay, 277 00:15:51,480 --> 00:15:56,320 Speaker 1: thirty four hello, slap in the face. Yeah, yeah, I 278 00:15:56,480 --> 00:16:00,440 Speaker 1: can't do it like you used to. So no, I 279 00:16:00,560 --> 00:16:04,640 Speaker 1: um um, I was really bummed that everything got canceled 280 00:16:04,720 --> 00:16:10,040 Speaker 1: for NAP. I really felt responsibility. I was too tired 281 00:16:10,080 --> 00:16:12,880 Speaker 1: and sick to like really take on the emotions of it, 282 00:16:12,920 --> 00:16:17,920 Speaker 1: but I definitely felt that. Yeah, So the trip was 283 00:16:17,960 --> 00:16:20,880 Speaker 1: fun though, it was like good couples weekends. Yeah, it 284 00:16:20,960 --> 00:16:24,920 Speaker 1: really really was. And like it's just I don't know, 285 00:16:24,920 --> 00:16:26,280 Speaker 1: and I know I've been saying this for a long time. 286 00:16:26,280 --> 00:16:28,120 Speaker 1: It's not like Red Star Red Star and I are 287 00:16:28,200 --> 00:16:31,520 Speaker 1: new by any means, like newly dating. But because we 288 00:16:31,520 --> 00:16:33,920 Speaker 1: were locked down and he wasn't really meeting people for 289 00:16:34,000 --> 00:16:38,600 Speaker 1: so long, it is so nice to like have him around, 290 00:16:38,760 --> 00:16:41,960 Speaker 1: you know, and experience these things that we've experienced, you 291 00:16:42,000 --> 00:16:45,400 Speaker 1: know before he was in my life. And so, um, yeah, 292 00:16:45,440 --> 00:16:48,480 Speaker 1: it was really really fun. You posted a really cute 293 00:16:48,560 --> 00:16:55,200 Speaker 1: Instagram photo with the iconic Taylor Swift lyric because lyric 294 00:16:55,560 --> 00:17:01,000 Speaker 1: just spoke what it needed to well, because is you 295 00:17:01,360 --> 00:17:04,000 Speaker 1: when you all first started dating or like, you know, 296 00:17:04,000 --> 00:17:06,480 Speaker 1: I remember when the song came out, you like really 297 00:17:06,520 --> 00:17:12,720 Speaker 1: resonated with it. The lyrics of um invisible Strength, Invisible Yeah, 298 00:17:12,720 --> 00:17:14,120 Speaker 1: I tell them all the time. I'm like, this song 299 00:17:14,160 --> 00:17:17,639 Speaker 1: reminds me of you because you know, we before we 300 00:17:17,640 --> 00:17:20,760 Speaker 1: met on on Hinge, I didn't know he existed. But 301 00:17:20,800 --> 00:17:23,960 Speaker 1: we also we frequented the same places and walked by 302 00:17:23,960 --> 00:17:27,560 Speaker 1: the same courtyard like like multiple times a week, and 303 00:17:27,600 --> 00:17:29,479 Speaker 1: so it's kind of like we were in this weird, 304 00:17:30,280 --> 00:17:33,480 Speaker 1: same bubble but didn't know each other until it was 305 00:17:33,680 --> 00:17:36,200 Speaker 1: the right time for us, you know. So that song 306 00:17:36,280 --> 00:17:39,080 Speaker 1: really like makes me think of him. Isn't it weird 307 00:17:39,200 --> 00:17:43,320 Speaker 1: that when like I mean a lot of people they 308 00:17:43,600 --> 00:17:46,840 Speaker 1: grow up with someone and maybe end up with them 309 00:17:46,920 --> 00:17:50,359 Speaker 1: or whatever. But then there's people who, like you said, 310 00:17:50,359 --> 00:17:54,679 Speaker 1: there was no awareness of their existence and then they 311 00:17:54,800 --> 00:17:59,840 Speaker 1: become like everything to you. It's bizarre. It's such a 312 00:18:00,119 --> 00:18:06,280 Speaker 1: like romantic mindset of thinking, how we're all wondering, you know, 313 00:18:06,400 --> 00:18:09,560 Speaker 1: searching for that type of love, and it's it's with 314 00:18:09,840 --> 00:18:13,960 Speaker 1: a stranger before it's with that person, you know, they're 315 00:18:13,960 --> 00:18:19,239 Speaker 1: a stranger before they're like total stranger, like total like 316 00:18:19,280 --> 00:18:22,640 Speaker 1: if it was not for that dating app, there's no 317 00:18:22,760 --> 00:18:24,919 Speaker 1: chance in how I would have ever met him, no chance. 318 00:18:24,960 --> 00:18:28,080 Speaker 1: And I'm like, he is my soul, like we are 319 00:18:28,119 --> 00:18:33,040 Speaker 1: literally connected souls, and so it's so bizarre that I 320 00:18:33,080 --> 00:18:35,199 Speaker 1: don't know, it's very weird. Don't get me into it, 321 00:18:35,240 --> 00:18:37,439 Speaker 1: because I was just like, do you think do you 322 00:18:37,480 --> 00:18:40,320 Speaker 1: think that had it not been on hinge you would 323 00:18:40,359 --> 00:18:44,720 Speaker 1: have met otherwise? Do you believe that? I think because 324 00:18:44,760 --> 00:18:46,800 Speaker 1: you know me, I've been on the dating apps for 325 00:18:46,880 --> 00:18:49,840 Speaker 1: so long, like on all of them, and it only 326 00:18:49,880 --> 00:18:52,879 Speaker 1: met with two guys like in real life, off of 327 00:18:52,880 --> 00:18:56,320 Speaker 1: the dating apps, and he was one of them. Something 328 00:18:56,400 --> 00:19:00,600 Speaker 1: was telling me to just go, Sierra, Actually my friend's 329 00:19:00,640 --> 00:19:02,080 Speaker 1: here and my color was here. Was the one who 330 00:19:02,200 --> 00:19:05,159 Speaker 1: was just like go, But I it's just it is. 331 00:19:05,200 --> 00:19:11,479 Speaker 1: It's very very bizarre, very it's an invisible string. It is. 332 00:19:12,160 --> 00:19:15,760 Speaker 1: It's really cool. Dean took those photos. O were cute, right, Yeah, 333 00:19:15,800 --> 00:19:18,360 Speaker 1: they're really cute. Things are really good at what he does? 334 00:19:19,840 --> 00:19:21,520 Speaker 1: I know. I was I wanted to hang out with 335 00:19:21,560 --> 00:19:23,880 Speaker 1: everyone too. I was excited to see him in Kaylin 336 00:19:24,119 --> 00:19:27,920 Speaker 1: and hang out with you and Red Star and um 337 00:19:28,040 --> 00:19:32,960 Speaker 1: Nick and his girlfriend. But um it'll happen again. I 338 00:19:33,040 --> 00:19:37,439 Speaker 1: kept saying, like there, Napa is not going anywhere, tany 339 00:19:37,520 --> 00:19:40,240 Speaker 1: and Red Star an't going anywhere. We'll do it again. 340 00:19:40,359 --> 00:19:45,600 Speaker 1: It'll be okay. I was gonna say, speaking of Taylor Swift, 341 00:19:46,000 --> 00:19:50,720 Speaker 1: she there's she dropped like a teaser for the Red 342 00:19:50,720 --> 00:19:54,919 Speaker 1: Taylor version, and I was kind of like chuckling to 343 00:19:55,000 --> 00:19:59,480 Speaker 1: myself thinking about how aware she is, how like crazy 344 00:19:59,560 --> 00:20:04,000 Speaker 1: she dry everyone, and she like basically admitted it like 345 00:20:04,640 --> 00:20:08,640 Speaker 1: love when she posted I know, she put the caption 346 00:20:08,680 --> 00:20:13,360 Speaker 1: said something like manic man who laughs manically. Yeah, Well, 347 00:20:13,400 --> 00:20:17,520 Speaker 1: because it's so hard, Like I honestly, the Swifties really 348 00:20:17,640 --> 00:20:20,960 Speaker 1: deserve a gold star in every aspect of life because 349 00:20:21,400 --> 00:20:23,480 Speaker 1: these things that she posted, you understand. At times, I 350 00:20:23,480 --> 00:20:26,600 Speaker 1: watched that video screenshot at it and tried to like 351 00:20:26,920 --> 00:20:32,879 Speaker 1: put the letters around impossible, impossible, And then I'm reading 352 00:20:32,880 --> 00:20:35,080 Speaker 1: Twitter and people are figuring it out, and I'm just like, 353 00:20:35,320 --> 00:20:38,560 Speaker 1: how are you buys figuring this out? This is not normal. 354 00:20:39,320 --> 00:20:44,080 Speaker 1: They're literally like FBI agents. Yeah, but I like everybody 355 00:20:44,080 --> 00:20:47,879 Speaker 1: gets annoyed like Taylor Swift just can't just like drop stuff, 356 00:20:47,920 --> 00:20:50,080 Speaker 1: And I'm like, she makes us work for it, you know, 357 00:20:50,280 --> 00:20:53,800 Speaker 1: just we work for our reward, and and then the 358 00:20:53,840 --> 00:20:57,880 Speaker 1: reward feels nicer. I don't, yeah, I think of anything. 359 00:20:57,960 --> 00:21:00,480 Speaker 1: It's kind of like a build up for the release 360 00:21:00,520 --> 00:21:02,879 Speaker 1: of the album. It's like gives people something to do 361 00:21:03,160 --> 00:21:05,480 Speaker 1: and to like get excited about. I think it's the 362 00:21:05,520 --> 00:21:09,320 Speaker 1: most you know, I am just the biggest Taylor fan. 363 00:21:09,440 --> 00:21:12,240 Speaker 1: I actually watched Miss Americana the other day just to 364 00:21:12,359 --> 00:21:17,240 Speaker 1: like have comfort. I watched the Pond Sessions weekly. Is that? 365 00:21:17,600 --> 00:21:20,879 Speaker 1: Is that not normal? I really want to go to 366 00:21:21,119 --> 00:21:25,480 Speaker 1: like of Airbnb and like a cozy cabin for the 367 00:21:25,560 --> 00:21:29,960 Speaker 1: release of the Red Tailor version. We're in like the 368 00:21:30,080 --> 00:21:33,760 Speaker 1: hundred day window mark, I believe, So should we book it? 369 00:21:34,280 --> 00:21:36,080 Speaker 1: Shall we go ahead and get it booked? Yeah? I 370 00:21:36,119 --> 00:21:38,280 Speaker 1: mean November nine, have it in my counter. It's just 371 00:21:38,640 --> 00:21:43,480 Speaker 1: a little annoying that it's so far away, Like come on, 372 00:21:44,440 --> 00:21:47,920 Speaker 1: what are you? Like, are you most excited to hear 373 00:21:48,040 --> 00:21:51,200 Speaker 1: like the unreleased stuff or than her her the ten 374 00:21:51,200 --> 00:21:56,080 Speaker 1: minute version of All Too Well? Like off this the 375 00:21:56,200 --> 00:21:58,200 Speaker 1: Better Man, because you know she wrote that song for 376 00:21:58,200 --> 00:22:00,919 Speaker 1: a little big town. Yeah, and so this will be 377 00:22:00,960 --> 00:22:04,000 Speaker 1: I'm assuming her singing it, So I think that and 378 00:22:04,080 --> 00:22:08,600 Speaker 1: that song to me just like, so, I think that's 379 00:22:08,640 --> 00:22:13,920 Speaker 1: the one I'm most looking forward to. Yeah, I'm so excited. 380 00:22:14,080 --> 00:22:16,320 Speaker 1: And the ten minute All Too Well is just like yeah, 381 00:22:16,640 --> 00:22:19,679 Speaker 1: it's it's over one and what is your what is 382 00:22:19,680 --> 00:22:22,919 Speaker 1: your line? An embarrassment of an embarrassment? Okay, if we 383 00:22:22,960 --> 00:22:26,199 Speaker 1: wanted to listen to All Too Well six times, it 384 00:22:26,200 --> 00:22:31,800 Speaker 1: would take an hour. Yeah that's crazy. I know. It's 385 00:22:31,840 --> 00:22:36,080 Speaker 1: like and those lyrics of that song are already so 386 00:22:36,160 --> 00:22:40,359 Speaker 1: good that like I can't even imagine adding more. You know, 387 00:22:40,520 --> 00:22:43,560 Speaker 1: there's just liners like lines in there that are I 388 00:22:43,600 --> 00:22:45,080 Speaker 1: know and you know what I think about. So this 389 00:22:45,160 --> 00:22:49,320 Speaker 1: was like the Jake Gillenhall era of Taylor and to me, 390 00:22:49,640 --> 00:22:53,520 Speaker 1: the Red album although it wasn't I think Read nine 391 00:22:53,640 --> 00:22:57,239 Speaker 1: or tied for my favorite. I think Red lyrically is 392 00:22:57,320 --> 00:22:59,879 Speaker 1: just more of like a Tanya album because it's just 393 00:23:00,040 --> 00:23:03,920 Speaker 1: so angsty and like emotional, and you know, like the 394 00:23:04,000 --> 00:23:06,920 Speaker 1: lyrics just like just get me on a totally different level. 395 00:23:07,480 --> 00:23:09,800 Speaker 1: So it's almost like this was her diary, this was 396 00:23:09,800 --> 00:23:12,800 Speaker 1: her her chapter with Jake, and so I think there 397 00:23:12,880 --> 00:23:15,000 Speaker 1: was obviously songs in the Bolt that maybe we're too 398 00:23:15,040 --> 00:23:18,000 Speaker 1: personal for her to release at the time, But now 399 00:23:18,119 --> 00:23:21,320 Speaker 1: she's in the thriving good relationship. This is like, you know, 400 00:23:21,760 --> 00:23:24,080 Speaker 1: she's like so far removed from it that I think 401 00:23:24,160 --> 00:23:29,960 Speaker 1: we're going to get some really really good stuff. I agree. 402 00:23:30,040 --> 00:23:35,600 Speaker 1: I'm I'm very very excited. Um speaking of nothing, but 403 00:23:35,760 --> 00:23:39,439 Speaker 1: something you said triggered my memory. So I read this book. 404 00:23:40,080 --> 00:23:42,959 Speaker 1: Are you're reading? Good for you? I read it in 405 00:23:43,080 --> 00:23:47,120 Speaker 1: two days, and I love to read, but like, if 406 00:23:47,119 --> 00:23:51,080 Speaker 1: a book doesn't have my interests, like your mind wanders, Yeah, 407 00:23:51,160 --> 00:23:53,280 Speaker 1: I just kind of I'll forget about it. But then 408 00:23:53,320 --> 00:23:55,560 Speaker 1: there when I really like a book, I like, don't 409 00:23:55,600 --> 00:23:58,000 Speaker 1: forget about it to an extreme level where I'm like, 410 00:23:58,040 --> 00:24:01,200 Speaker 1: I have to finish this in twenty four hours and 411 00:24:01,280 --> 00:24:05,800 Speaker 1: so um. The book is called The Seven Husbands of 412 00:24:05,840 --> 00:24:12,199 Speaker 1: Emily sorry, okay, the Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo. And 413 00:24:13,040 --> 00:24:17,840 Speaker 1: it was just like incredible and so like I keep 414 00:24:18,080 --> 00:24:20,280 Speaker 1: I'll just be in the middle of my day and 415 00:24:20,320 --> 00:24:24,520 Speaker 1: I'll just think about it. Care to share what it's about? Well, 416 00:24:24,560 --> 00:24:26,640 Speaker 1: I don't want to give away a lot because it's 417 00:24:26,640 --> 00:24:31,240 Speaker 1: about this actress who spoiler alert, Yeah, that's the spoiler 418 00:24:31,320 --> 00:24:34,440 Speaker 1: is it's about this like famous actress and just like 419 00:24:34,600 --> 00:24:40,240 Speaker 1: her love life. But I just found it so beautiful 420 00:24:40,400 --> 00:24:42,760 Speaker 1: and like at the end she kind of talks about 421 00:24:42,800 --> 00:24:49,200 Speaker 1: how her whole life was getting essentially like getting wanting 422 00:24:49,240 --> 00:24:52,879 Speaker 1: the approval of other people, and as she got older, 423 00:24:53,000 --> 00:24:55,560 Speaker 1: she realized, like, that's not where she was fulfilled in 424 00:24:55,600 --> 00:24:57,520 Speaker 1: her life. It was the people in her life that 425 00:24:57,560 --> 00:24:59,639 Speaker 1: fulfilled her in the relationships. And I just thought it 426 00:24:59,640 --> 00:25:02,840 Speaker 1: was like a beautiful you know. I think I related 427 00:25:02,880 --> 00:25:05,760 Speaker 1: to it a lot in the sense of caring so 428 00:25:05,840 --> 00:25:08,800 Speaker 1: much about what people think about my life and sometimes 429 00:25:08,840 --> 00:25:12,680 Speaker 1: living for that approval when they're when that approval isn't 430 00:25:12,760 --> 00:25:16,920 Speaker 1: what feels me or like makes me happy or like yeah, 431 00:25:17,119 --> 00:25:19,840 Speaker 1: you know what's interesting? And um, we actually we had 432 00:25:19,880 --> 00:25:23,080 Speaker 1: this conversation I did Daily Pop and we were talking 433 00:25:23,119 --> 00:25:27,440 Speaker 1: about this, there's this new statistic about women, um not 434 00:25:27,480 --> 00:25:29,800 Speaker 1: wanting to have kids as much anymore these days. I 435 00:25:29,800 --> 00:25:32,159 Speaker 1: can't remember what the actual statistic story was, but the 436 00:25:32,160 --> 00:25:35,640 Speaker 1: conversation that we kind of had from it was how, 437 00:25:36,240 --> 00:25:38,040 Speaker 1: for some reason, it only happens to women. It doesn't 438 00:25:38,080 --> 00:25:39,960 Speaker 1: happen Maybe it happens to men. I don't I'm not 439 00:25:40,000 --> 00:25:43,800 Speaker 1: a man, But for women it's like, okay, so you know, 440 00:25:44,040 --> 00:25:47,840 Speaker 1: when you're single, every conversation is why haven't you found 441 00:25:47,840 --> 00:25:50,240 Speaker 1: a guy? We aren't you gonna find the guy? Dada da, 442 00:25:50,640 --> 00:25:53,920 Speaker 1: like you know, which I was in that state for 443 00:25:53,960 --> 00:25:56,840 Speaker 1: a very long time. I was like, I am trying, 444 00:25:57,200 --> 00:25:59,480 Speaker 1: Like it is not for lack of effort, I am trying, 445 00:25:59,560 --> 00:26:01,879 Speaker 1: but these bozos and I'm dating, like are just not 446 00:26:01,920 --> 00:26:05,000 Speaker 1: measuring up. You know. Then you find a guy and 447 00:26:05,040 --> 00:26:08,680 Speaker 1: it's like when you guys getting engaged, and then that's 448 00:26:08,720 --> 00:26:11,159 Speaker 1: the thing, and that's all they talk about. All the 449 00:26:11,160 --> 00:26:13,720 Speaker 1: pressure it gets put on that and you know when 450 00:26:13,760 --> 00:26:15,679 Speaker 1: you get engaged and it's when you're having a baby 451 00:26:15,760 --> 00:26:17,560 Speaker 1: and then you have it because like Morgan just had 452 00:26:17,560 --> 00:26:19,520 Speaker 1: a baby in the shows and everybody saying, when's baby 453 00:26:19,600 --> 00:26:23,280 Speaker 1: number two? And it's just like there's all these pressures 454 00:26:23,359 --> 00:26:26,640 Speaker 1: just put on and like I don't even think we 455 00:26:26,720 --> 00:26:28,920 Speaker 1: realize it that we don't even think we realize that 456 00:26:28,960 --> 00:26:30,760 Speaker 1: we do it. I don't think we realize that that 457 00:26:30,800 --> 00:26:33,560 Speaker 1: we do feel that pressure, but you really do, because 458 00:26:34,080 --> 00:26:36,480 Speaker 1: I think what I've realized, especially in my relationship with 459 00:26:36,520 --> 00:26:42,600 Speaker 1: Red Star, is you know, we are at different vantage 460 00:26:42,600 --> 00:26:44,920 Speaker 1: points in our life. You know, like I've always in 461 00:26:45,280 --> 00:26:49,520 Speaker 1: like I've always wanted to find this guy that that 462 00:26:49,560 --> 00:26:52,359 Speaker 1: he is, and so I'm ready to dive in full 463 00:26:52,400 --> 00:26:55,840 Speaker 1: force and like do it right. He is not in 464 00:26:55,840 --> 00:26:59,399 Speaker 1: that in that's in that place, but when you boil 465 00:26:59,440 --> 00:27:03,360 Speaker 1: it down. We love our day to day. We get 466 00:27:03,400 --> 00:27:06,119 Speaker 1: along really well. We have a good chemistry. We like 467 00:27:06,280 --> 00:27:09,240 Speaker 1: to live life together. And so that's the thing that 468 00:27:09,440 --> 00:27:12,320 Speaker 1: is what's most important, you know what I mean, Like, 469 00:27:12,359 --> 00:27:14,000 Speaker 1: that's what's going to carry on, is the day to 470 00:27:14,080 --> 00:27:16,240 Speaker 1: day to day. All the other stuff is going to 471 00:27:16,320 --> 00:27:20,160 Speaker 1: fall into place when we both feel good and comfortable. 472 00:27:20,200 --> 00:27:22,920 Speaker 1: But it's like we're so happy and we're so good, 473 00:27:23,600 --> 00:27:26,880 Speaker 1: and you don't realize how much all that other pressure, 474 00:27:27,200 --> 00:27:30,359 Speaker 1: you know, it does subconsciously, I think get to you. 475 00:27:31,200 --> 00:27:35,760 Speaker 1: I mean absolutely. I remember I, um someone on Instagram. 476 00:27:35,760 --> 00:27:40,119 Speaker 1: I did like one of those question boxes boxes and 477 00:27:40,440 --> 00:27:46,280 Speaker 1: um someone said, like, I just I'm like waiting to 478 00:27:46,400 --> 00:27:49,800 Speaker 1: get proposed to, Like all I want is to be engaged, 479 00:27:49,880 --> 00:27:52,359 Speaker 1: Like I just want to marry my boyfriend've been together 480 00:27:52,400 --> 00:27:55,159 Speaker 1: for you know, like five years or something. And I 481 00:27:55,320 --> 00:27:58,920 Speaker 1: was like, in my mind, I think I even answered. 482 00:27:58,960 --> 00:28:02,160 Speaker 1: I said something like Okay, then you're going to get 483 00:28:02,200 --> 00:28:04,919 Speaker 1: the ring, You're gonna get engaged, and then it'll be 484 00:28:04,960 --> 00:28:08,399 Speaker 1: like waiting for the wedding date. And then the wedding 485 00:28:08,480 --> 00:28:10,359 Speaker 1: date will come and then it's well, when are we 486 00:28:10,400 --> 00:28:13,520 Speaker 1: having kids? I was like there's this innate thing that 487 00:28:14,320 --> 00:28:20,800 Speaker 1: we this society um like expectation that we're kind of 488 00:28:20,840 --> 00:28:24,760 Speaker 1: like born into, and it's like built inside of us 489 00:28:24,760 --> 00:28:27,520 Speaker 1: that like, these are the steps of how it's supposed 490 00:28:27,560 --> 00:28:31,000 Speaker 1: to the steps of happiness. Yeah, these are the steps 491 00:28:31,000 --> 00:28:34,680 Speaker 1: of like happiness and fulfillment. And if and if they 492 00:28:34,720 --> 00:28:38,120 Speaker 1: don't go in this order or on this timeline, then 493 00:28:38,160 --> 00:28:40,640 Speaker 1: you're not going to be happy or fulfilled. And then 494 00:28:41,880 --> 00:28:46,680 Speaker 1: people experience happiness and fulfillment without it, and they question 495 00:28:46,760 --> 00:28:49,600 Speaker 1: themselves like what's wrong with me? And so think too, 496 00:28:49,600 --> 00:28:51,840 Speaker 1: It's like you jump into these things because like I 497 00:28:51,880 --> 00:28:55,000 Speaker 1: have a friend who I fully believe that she just 498 00:28:55,080 --> 00:28:57,800 Speaker 1: got married because she was in her late twenties and 499 00:28:57,880 --> 00:29:00,760 Speaker 1: this guy is the guy she was dating. And she 500 00:29:00,800 --> 00:29:02,520 Speaker 1: didn't think it through, you know what I mean. It 501 00:29:02,560 --> 00:29:05,880 Speaker 1: wasn't they didn't have a similar lifestyle, they didn't have 502 00:29:06,160 --> 00:29:07,840 Speaker 1: it was just this is the guy that I'm dating. 503 00:29:07,840 --> 00:29:10,240 Speaker 1: I'm in my late twenties, I'm gonna get married, and 504 00:29:10,240 --> 00:29:12,280 Speaker 1: we're gonna start a family. And then cut to five 505 00:29:12,360 --> 00:29:17,080 Speaker 1: years from now, not so good, not so happy, and 506 00:29:17,120 --> 00:29:20,720 Speaker 1: it's like, well, you know, I think because we put 507 00:29:20,760 --> 00:29:22,760 Speaker 1: these pressures on we just kind of do it to 508 00:29:22,880 --> 00:29:25,920 Speaker 1: do it, and we don't really think it through. M hm, 509 00:29:26,400 --> 00:29:28,280 Speaker 1: well that's what I'm saying. I mean, it's like, think 510 00:29:28,320 --> 00:29:33,360 Speaker 1: of how many times we do things for other people 511 00:29:33,520 --> 00:29:37,160 Speaker 1: to applaud us or tell us like good job, or 512 00:29:37,200 --> 00:29:40,840 Speaker 1: be like satisfied with our decisions, and it's like they're 513 00:29:40,880 --> 00:29:45,239 Speaker 1: not the ones who are living our lives, you know, 514 00:29:45,320 --> 00:29:49,720 Speaker 1: Like it's like there, their approval is not our happiness. 515 00:29:49,880 --> 00:29:53,920 Speaker 1: And I think we so often like feel pressured by 516 00:29:54,040 --> 00:29:59,440 Speaker 1: that norm that we question ourselves if we're doing it 517 00:29:59,520 --> 00:30:04,040 Speaker 1: different and enjoying it being different. Yeah, I know I have. 518 00:30:04,200 --> 00:30:07,520 Speaker 1: I mean I I question everything I do because I 519 00:30:10,240 --> 00:30:14,880 Speaker 1: my whole life, you know, in Miss Americana, she says, 520 00:30:14,880 --> 00:30:19,800 Speaker 1: like my whole life has been working towards being the 521 00:30:19,880 --> 00:30:24,320 Speaker 1: good girl or being like good And I really like 522 00:30:25,160 --> 00:30:27,680 Speaker 1: took that in because that's kind of how I feel 523 00:30:27,680 --> 00:30:31,080 Speaker 1: to like my whole life has been. I do think 524 00:30:31,080 --> 00:30:33,600 Speaker 1: to an extent, I made decisions based on what I want, 525 00:30:33,680 --> 00:30:36,360 Speaker 1: But I think the bigger thing that was over me 526 00:30:36,520 --> 00:30:39,040 Speaker 1: was making sure that other people thought I was doing 527 00:30:39,040 --> 00:30:41,240 Speaker 1: a good job or that I was doing the right thing. 528 00:30:41,760 --> 00:30:44,600 Speaker 1: See it's funny because for me, it's not the people pleasing, 529 00:30:44,720 --> 00:30:48,680 Speaker 1: Like I don't give to parts of what other people 530 00:30:48,680 --> 00:30:51,640 Speaker 1: think I'm doing with my life. It's it's not there 531 00:30:51,680 --> 00:30:57,080 Speaker 1: what they think. It's it's this the nuance pressure that 532 00:30:57,240 --> 00:31:00,200 Speaker 1: like or not pressure, but the nuance, the SA is 533 00:31:00,240 --> 00:31:03,720 Speaker 1: how it's supposed to go. And this is you know, like, oh, 534 00:31:03,840 --> 00:31:06,400 Speaker 1: you can't do this with that person until you're married 535 00:31:06,480 --> 00:31:08,360 Speaker 1: or you can't do that, you know. It's like, but why, 536 00:31:08,600 --> 00:31:14,400 Speaker 1: I'm just gonna I'm gonna enjoy my life. And I 537 00:31:14,440 --> 00:31:17,040 Speaker 1: don't know, it's been, it's been. I don't know. I've 538 00:31:17,080 --> 00:31:21,280 Speaker 1: been having some some internal conversations just about you know, 539 00:31:21,360 --> 00:31:23,400 Speaker 1: like yes, and I think it's okay to have desires 540 00:31:23,440 --> 00:31:24,920 Speaker 1: of your heart and that is a desire of my 541 00:31:24,960 --> 00:31:29,400 Speaker 1: heart to like get married and you know, but not 542 00:31:29,480 --> 00:31:32,640 Speaker 1: on a certain timeline. Yeah, you know what I mean, 543 00:31:32,880 --> 00:31:36,200 Speaker 1: Like I don't need to be dating somebody for you know, 544 00:31:36,280 --> 00:31:38,560 Speaker 1: however long it is until I'm engaged and then I 545 00:31:38,600 --> 00:31:39,760 Speaker 1: want to be married. I want to have a baby 546 00:31:39,800 --> 00:31:41,840 Speaker 1: by this time. And and I'm like, if one more 547 00:31:41,880 --> 00:31:43,920 Speaker 1: person asks me that or tells me that I should 548 00:31:43,960 --> 00:31:49,040 Speaker 1: freeze my eggs, I'm going to punch somebody, Like I'm 549 00:31:49,080 --> 00:31:51,640 Speaker 1: I don't want to freeze my eggs. I understand that 550 00:31:51,640 --> 00:31:55,320 Speaker 1: that is an option. I have looked into it. It's 551 00:31:55,360 --> 00:31:57,920 Speaker 1: not for me. If you want to do it, you 552 00:31:58,040 --> 00:32:00,120 Speaker 1: do it. But like you don't need to tell me 553 00:32:00,480 --> 00:32:06,000 Speaker 1: to freeze my eggs. Yeah, I'm good. No, No, Like 554 00:32:06,080 --> 00:32:08,080 Speaker 1: we all know how old we are. We all know 555 00:32:08,200 --> 00:32:13,320 Speaker 1: like what like when, like we we all know scientifically 556 00:32:13,440 --> 00:32:18,040 Speaker 1: and health wise, the age limit of when, you know, 557 00:32:18,880 --> 00:32:21,920 Speaker 1: getting pregnant gets harder, Like we're all very aware of that. 558 00:32:22,040 --> 00:32:25,640 Speaker 1: So I find it interesting that people. I think that 559 00:32:25,760 --> 00:32:28,200 Speaker 1: freezing your eggs is an amazing option for people, and 560 00:32:28,240 --> 00:32:31,320 Speaker 1: I think I think it's like, wow, how cool that 561 00:32:31,440 --> 00:32:34,680 Speaker 1: we have the option to do that. But I also think, 562 00:32:34,720 --> 00:32:37,160 Speaker 1: like we're all aware of like how old we are, 563 00:32:37,400 --> 00:32:42,719 Speaker 1: like what what's going on with our body? So I, um, 564 00:32:42,800 --> 00:32:46,440 Speaker 1: I know, I think everyone's always everyone's in everyone's business 565 00:32:46,440 --> 00:32:49,560 Speaker 1: about everything. That's what I'm really learning. Yeah, but you 566 00:32:49,600 --> 00:32:54,840 Speaker 1: know what also like really just irks my people what So, 567 00:32:55,000 --> 00:32:57,000 Speaker 1: Like I was having a conversation with a girlfriend of 568 00:32:57,040 --> 00:32:58,880 Speaker 1: mine who just bought a house. This isn't you know, 569 00:32:58,960 --> 00:33:03,560 Speaker 1: not like pretending to like ca um, And she was 570 00:33:03,600 --> 00:33:05,880 Speaker 1: saying she bought a house. She's single, and she did 571 00:33:05,880 --> 00:33:09,400 Speaker 1: it on her own and which is amazing, by the way, 572 00:33:09,640 --> 00:33:12,760 Speaker 1: and she was like, I have so much to get, 573 00:33:12,960 --> 00:33:14,560 Speaker 1: you know, she went from an apartment to a home, 574 00:33:14,600 --> 00:33:16,200 Speaker 1: and she's like, I have so much to furnish and 575 00:33:16,240 --> 00:33:17,560 Speaker 1: I need to do it in chunks. And she's like 576 00:33:17,560 --> 00:33:19,320 Speaker 1: I wish that, you know, She's like I wish that 577 00:33:19,920 --> 00:33:23,040 Speaker 1: I could have some sort of registry or like you know, 578 00:33:23,800 --> 00:33:26,840 Speaker 1: when you get married, you have a registry and you 579 00:33:26,880 --> 00:33:29,800 Speaker 1: have people buy stuff for your home, and and when 580 00:33:29,840 --> 00:33:33,440 Speaker 1: you're a bachelorette, you have parties and people give you gifts, 581 00:33:33,440 --> 00:33:36,320 Speaker 1: but nobody does it for the single woman who just 582 00:33:36,360 --> 00:33:39,920 Speaker 1: bought a house or just started her own company. And 583 00:33:40,120 --> 00:33:43,920 Speaker 1: it's like it's so asked backwards to me, Like we 584 00:33:43,920 --> 00:33:47,400 Speaker 1: should be supporting the single woman who is starting her 585 00:33:47,400 --> 00:33:50,080 Speaker 1: company and send her if she needs, you know what 586 00:33:50,120 --> 00:33:52,080 Speaker 1: I mean, Like I don't even know, I don't know 587 00:33:52,080 --> 00:33:54,280 Speaker 1: what you need. But like if you need awareness, like 588 00:33:54,360 --> 00:33:56,920 Speaker 1: let's bring awareness to your to your brand and your company. 589 00:33:56,960 --> 00:33:59,880 Speaker 1: If you need pencils, let's like buy you some pencils, 590 00:34:00,120 --> 00:34:03,400 Speaker 1: or you know what I mean, Like it's our mine 591 00:34:03,480 --> 00:34:07,040 Speaker 1: only goes to to sending gifts and doing these things 592 00:34:07,320 --> 00:34:10,000 Speaker 1: when a woman has a partner, when she finds her partner, 593 00:34:10,280 --> 00:34:13,480 Speaker 1: and it's like, what the F I really appreciate, Like, 594 00:34:13,600 --> 00:34:16,560 Speaker 1: you know, lately there's the Amazon wish list for teachers, 595 00:34:16,600 --> 00:34:19,000 Speaker 1: which I love because a lot of teachers are, like, 596 00:34:19,640 --> 00:34:23,440 Speaker 1: you know, people who either have families or some a 597 00:34:23,520 --> 00:34:26,880 Speaker 1: single girl who's maybe struggling financially doesn't have the means 598 00:34:27,000 --> 00:34:30,200 Speaker 1: to like buy things for her classroom. And I love that. 599 00:34:30,200 --> 00:34:32,560 Speaker 1: That's kind of like a way that people have taken 600 00:34:32,600 --> 00:34:35,880 Speaker 1: on helping you know that what you're talking about. And 601 00:34:35,920 --> 00:34:39,600 Speaker 1: I think maybe there should. I think there should be 602 00:34:39,719 --> 00:34:44,719 Speaker 1: more of a normal standard around having a registry if 603 00:34:44,719 --> 00:34:46,960 Speaker 1: you're a new homeowner, because like, buying a home is 604 00:34:47,000 --> 00:34:51,279 Speaker 1: an incredible like accomplishment. Even when I moved into my 605 00:34:51,360 --> 00:34:53,920 Speaker 1: apartment by myself, this is my first time without roommates, 606 00:34:54,320 --> 00:34:57,080 Speaker 1: and I felt overwhelmed. I needed to do it in chunks. 607 00:34:57,080 --> 00:34:58,400 Speaker 1: It was like I'll do the living room and then 608 00:34:58,440 --> 00:35:00,680 Speaker 1: I'll do my bedroom and then you know what I mean, Yeah, 609 00:35:00,680 --> 00:35:02,799 Speaker 1: that's what you do. But it would have been so 610 00:35:02,880 --> 00:35:04,440 Speaker 1: nice if I had, you know what I mean, if 611 00:35:04,440 --> 00:35:06,319 Speaker 1: I could just like throw up the registry and say, hey, 612 00:35:06,320 --> 00:35:10,520 Speaker 1: can I get can I get a curtain some curtain 613 00:35:10,600 --> 00:35:15,080 Speaker 1: rods for this room, and you know what I mean. Yeah, no, 614 00:35:15,200 --> 00:35:19,080 Speaker 1: I agree, I mean, and maybe that's where you know. 615 00:35:19,480 --> 00:35:23,360 Speaker 1: I think it's also like friends celebrating each other. And 616 00:35:23,400 --> 00:35:25,719 Speaker 1: I was thinking about this the other day, but I 617 00:35:25,840 --> 00:35:28,840 Speaker 1: have like the greatest group of friends. Like I feel 618 00:35:28,840 --> 00:35:31,640 Speaker 1: like we were talking about this about how like we 619 00:35:31,719 --> 00:35:36,480 Speaker 1: celebrate each other and like almost overdo it sometimes to 620 00:35:36,680 --> 00:35:40,080 Speaker 1: like celebrate one another, and like a group of friends 621 00:35:40,080 --> 00:35:42,840 Speaker 1: and how we show up. I mean, I when you 622 00:35:42,880 --> 00:35:45,760 Speaker 1: brought me that basket the other day, I was like, literally, 623 00:35:46,200 --> 00:35:50,040 Speaker 1: I know that you're a rare breed, but I was thinking, 624 00:35:50,120 --> 00:35:52,640 Speaker 1: like how lucky am I to have like a friend 625 00:35:52,680 --> 00:35:55,279 Speaker 1: who's gonna show up like that, you know, And like 626 00:35:56,000 --> 00:35:58,600 Speaker 1: you sat on the like on my porch and we 627 00:35:58,680 --> 00:36:02,759 Speaker 1: talked through the phone, and it like literally lifted my 628 00:36:02,840 --> 00:36:05,520 Speaker 1: spirits so much, just like having even though it wasn't 629 00:36:05,520 --> 00:36:09,880 Speaker 1: like human interaction, it was like seeing someone. By the way, 630 00:36:10,360 --> 00:36:12,000 Speaker 1: do you know how many mosquito bites I got from 631 00:36:12,040 --> 00:36:16,919 Speaker 1: that one hour sitting on your grass? I'm imagining a lot. 632 00:36:17,680 --> 00:36:22,640 Speaker 1: You just look at my legs, it's like yikes, yeah, 633 00:36:22,719 --> 00:36:26,080 Speaker 1: But I think it's like just you know, celebrating each 634 00:36:26,080 --> 00:36:30,440 Speaker 1: other and showing up and like, you know, I don't know, 635 00:36:30,880 --> 00:36:32,839 Speaker 1: I get what you're saying, because I think a lot 636 00:36:32,880 --> 00:36:35,280 Speaker 1: of times it's like unless you are having a baby 637 00:36:35,360 --> 00:36:39,799 Speaker 1: or getting married to someone, you don't get celebrated in 638 00:36:39,880 --> 00:36:44,480 Speaker 1: like life's accomplishments. And I think that, um, it should 639 00:36:44,760 --> 00:36:48,400 Speaker 1: be celebrated. So I feel very fortunate to have friends 640 00:36:48,480 --> 00:36:52,720 Speaker 1: who celebrate me and the big things and the small things. 641 00:36:52,880 --> 00:36:55,680 Speaker 1: But I think everyone should have that. Yeah, when I 642 00:36:55,719 --> 00:36:57,920 Speaker 1: was going to do that big party for my birthday 643 00:36:57,960 --> 00:36:59,520 Speaker 1: and I was like, gonna be a lot of money, 644 00:36:59,719 --> 00:37:04,080 Speaker 1: I like, you know what, I also love that like 645 00:37:04,800 --> 00:37:07,640 Speaker 1: Red Star did it. I mean he didn't do like, 646 00:37:08,040 --> 00:37:10,200 Speaker 1: you know, the whole I was gonna do like it's 647 00:37:10,560 --> 00:37:13,160 Speaker 1: grandiose thing. And I was like, you know what, I'm 648 00:37:13,160 --> 00:37:16,359 Speaker 1: not going to do this to celebrate my birthday. No, no, 649 00:37:16,360 --> 00:37:19,200 Speaker 1: no comes once a year. I'm going to throw this 650 00:37:19,440 --> 00:37:22,319 Speaker 1: banger when my book goes number one on the New 651 00:37:22,400 --> 00:37:25,359 Speaker 1: York Times Bestseller you know what I mean? It could 652 00:37:25,400 --> 00:37:28,239 Speaker 1: be you could do it for all honestly, but I 653 00:37:28,280 --> 00:37:30,399 Speaker 1: know what you're saying. Yeah, I was like, I'm gonna 654 00:37:30,480 --> 00:37:33,120 Speaker 1: make this like it'll be I don't know. I just 655 00:37:33,800 --> 00:37:35,680 Speaker 1: and maybe I start doing it. Maybe I should start 656 00:37:35,680 --> 00:37:37,120 Speaker 1: doing it like for my friends, Like you just bought 657 00:37:37,120 --> 00:37:39,360 Speaker 1: a house, I should. I should set up a registry 658 00:37:39,400 --> 00:37:42,360 Speaker 1: for you so people can send you stuff I don't 659 00:37:42,400 --> 00:37:46,160 Speaker 1: need anymore. So I have about leading the charge, you know, 660 00:37:47,040 --> 00:37:50,799 Speaker 1: leading the charge, I understand. But I if you saw 661 00:37:50,920 --> 00:37:54,600 Speaker 1: my front changing the culture area, all the boxes that 662 00:37:54,680 --> 00:37:58,360 Speaker 1: I have right now, I you already got me a table. 663 00:37:58,480 --> 00:38:00,799 Speaker 1: So I don't need you to do anything else. I'm 664 00:38:00,840 --> 00:38:02,880 Speaker 1: just no, okay, maybe not with you. I need to 665 00:38:02,920 --> 00:38:05,799 Speaker 1: find another friend of mine that's, you know, starting their 666 00:38:05,800 --> 00:38:09,520 Speaker 1: own company and see how I can help, you know, 667 00:38:09,600 --> 00:38:12,320 Speaker 1: like make a registry and send it to their friends. 668 00:38:12,840 --> 00:38:15,400 Speaker 1: Here you go, she's starting her company and she needs 669 00:38:16,040 --> 00:38:21,120 Speaker 1: X Y Z lego. I like that. Do you know 670 00:38:21,120 --> 00:38:24,400 Speaker 1: what I'm gonna do it for? You already got just 671 00:38:24,480 --> 00:38:28,600 Speaker 1: like that. You already got the name. Sure do um. 672 00:38:28,719 --> 00:38:32,080 Speaker 1: So there was this article that came out about Ellen 673 00:38:32,120 --> 00:38:35,920 Speaker 1: Pompeo not acting after Gray's anatomy. Did you see this? Yes? 674 00:38:36,880 --> 00:38:40,600 Speaker 1: What are your thoughts? I have many? Okay, starting with one. 675 00:38:41,520 --> 00:38:46,920 Speaker 1: My biggest takeaway is people like to put women in 676 00:38:46,920 --> 00:38:52,319 Speaker 1: a box. Ellen Pompeo is an actress now, she wants 677 00:38:52,360 --> 00:38:56,160 Speaker 1: to be an entrepreneur. She wants to pivot. She's in 678 00:38:56,160 --> 00:39:01,000 Speaker 1: her fifties, and I effing love it. Why do we 679 00:39:01,000 --> 00:39:03,040 Speaker 1: have to stay in one box our whole lives? Why 680 00:39:03,080 --> 00:39:06,480 Speaker 1: can't we pivot at different stages? I think so much 681 00:39:06,600 --> 00:39:11,160 Speaker 1: of us, like so many women feel like they are um, 682 00:39:11,200 --> 00:39:13,960 Speaker 1: you know, in this profession, I've been doing this for 683 00:39:14,040 --> 00:39:18,200 Speaker 1: ten years, fifteen years, whatever, years. I can't start something new, 684 00:39:18,239 --> 00:39:21,560 Speaker 1: And it's like, why not. We can change the narrative, 685 00:39:21,600 --> 00:39:26,680 Speaker 1: we can change our everything whenever we want. Mm hmm. 686 00:39:27,520 --> 00:39:30,920 Speaker 1: That's what I think about it. So you're saying you 687 00:39:30,960 --> 00:39:35,200 Speaker 1: love that she's doing that, She's like, yeah, same, I 688 00:39:35,840 --> 00:39:38,840 Speaker 1: can't say that. I blame her. I mean she's literally 689 00:39:38,960 --> 00:39:43,000 Speaker 1: led the charge of like this massive show for almost 690 00:39:43,120 --> 00:39:47,520 Speaker 1: twenty years. Eighteen years eighteen season two thousand five. I'm 691 00:39:47,520 --> 00:39:55,319 Speaker 1: not gonna math two minus two thousand five? Is that 692 00:39:55,480 --> 00:39:59,360 Speaker 1: sixteen years? I can't do mental math. I just can't 693 00:39:59,400 --> 00:40:05,640 Speaker 1: do it too. Thousand one minus two thousand five, sixteen years? Correct? Yeah, 694 00:40:05,719 --> 00:40:09,320 Speaker 1: sixteen years while the dead lull of us just staring 695 00:40:09,360 --> 00:40:12,319 Speaker 1: at each other. Yeah, I really hope they keep that in. 696 00:40:12,520 --> 00:40:16,960 Speaker 1: It's so good. Um, I I don't blame her for 697 00:40:17,040 --> 00:40:20,120 Speaker 1: being like I I really thought the quote about like 698 00:40:20,200 --> 00:40:23,200 Speaker 1: sitting in trailers and traveling and waiting to be told 699 00:40:23,239 --> 00:40:25,400 Speaker 1: when I can eat lunch. Like I was like, wow, 700 00:40:26,320 --> 00:40:29,719 Speaker 1: you don't even I know that happens for people, but 701 00:40:29,880 --> 00:40:32,480 Speaker 1: in my mind, I feel like Ellen like runs the show, 702 00:40:32,600 --> 00:40:34,840 Speaker 1: so she does whatever she wants, but it's like, no, 703 00:40:35,040 --> 00:40:39,160 Speaker 1: she's still being directed or being like told timing and 704 00:40:39,760 --> 00:40:43,920 Speaker 1: um it's the hurry up and wait. Yeah, So I 705 00:40:43,920 --> 00:40:46,960 Speaker 1: I can't say that I blame her. I mean, And 706 00:40:47,040 --> 00:40:51,799 Speaker 1: also I do remember when Sandra O left that she 707 00:40:52,040 --> 00:40:55,880 Speaker 1: was kind of like I want to do other characters, 708 00:40:56,400 --> 00:40:59,520 Speaker 1: you know, like I don't want to be Christina Yang forever, 709 00:40:59,600 --> 00:41:02,800 Speaker 1: even though to always be Christina INNG to Me, I 710 00:41:02,840 --> 00:41:04,840 Speaker 1: thought that was really cool. Same with like the cast 711 00:41:04,880 --> 00:41:09,080 Speaker 1: of Friends. It's like they're iconic for those rules, but 712 00:41:10,040 --> 00:41:13,480 Speaker 1: like Jennifer Andiston has done so much since then. Yeah, 713 00:41:13,520 --> 00:41:15,080 Speaker 1: but I also just love her being like I don't 714 00:41:15,080 --> 00:41:16,520 Speaker 1: want to like, yeah, I don't want to P A 715 00:41:16,640 --> 00:41:18,799 Speaker 1: telling me or D A I don't know exactly what 716 00:41:18,800 --> 00:41:22,520 Speaker 1: the terms are, but A D thank you, UM telling 717 00:41:22,520 --> 00:41:24,600 Speaker 1: me like when I can have lunch and stuff, you know, 718 00:41:24,680 --> 00:41:27,520 Speaker 1: And I think I think that's something that you don't realize, 719 00:41:27,600 --> 00:41:30,440 Speaker 1: you know, when you're watching something. Um Like, even for me, 720 00:41:30,680 --> 00:41:33,000 Speaker 1: I'm sure it's different when you're an actress and when 721 00:41:33,000 --> 00:41:35,000 Speaker 1: you do like carpets and stuff. But I remember, like 722 00:41:35,040 --> 00:41:37,800 Speaker 1: at the Billboard Awards, they were like hurry, like you 723 00:41:37,920 --> 00:41:40,319 Speaker 1: like we needed on the carpet, like DJ Kalett's coming 724 00:41:40,320 --> 00:41:45,720 Speaker 1: at whatever, you know time or something, and um I 725 00:41:45,719 --> 00:41:48,600 Speaker 1: I so I'm like rushing. I'm like running in my 726 00:41:48,680 --> 00:41:51,360 Speaker 1: high heels and like to get there. And then the 727 00:41:51,480 --> 00:41:54,880 Speaker 1: sound check was postponed and then Theda so like his 728 00:41:54,920 --> 00:41:57,759 Speaker 1: schedule got completely changed, so I was still an hour 729 00:41:57,800 --> 00:41:59,480 Speaker 1: and a half earlier. Like whatever it is, you know 730 00:41:59,520 --> 00:42:03,000 Speaker 1: what I mean, Like nobody's fault, nobody being any sort 731 00:42:03,000 --> 00:42:07,160 Speaker 1: of anything. It's just things run behind and like schedules change, 732 00:42:07,239 --> 00:42:10,520 Speaker 1: and so it's like it's yeah, it's this constant pushing 733 00:42:10,600 --> 00:42:14,560 Speaker 1: pull of hurry weight, hurry weight, and it's it's just 734 00:42:14,640 --> 00:42:16,439 Speaker 1: part of it. And for me, like that's the thrill 735 00:42:16,480 --> 00:42:18,000 Speaker 1: of it, you know what I mean. Like I'm like, yeah, 736 00:42:18,360 --> 00:42:20,040 Speaker 1: like I gotta go, you know, And then I'm like 737 00:42:20,080 --> 00:42:22,680 Speaker 1: there and I'm like Okay, cool, I can chill. But 738 00:42:23,200 --> 00:42:25,799 Speaker 1: I imagine when you've been doing a show like that 739 00:42:25,880 --> 00:42:28,160 Speaker 1: for so many years, it's probably like kind of she's 740 00:42:28,200 --> 00:42:32,360 Speaker 1: ready to do something different. Yeah, I on the I 741 00:42:32,360 --> 00:42:35,680 Speaker 1: remember on The Bachelor it would be like, we have 742 00:42:35,920 --> 00:42:38,520 Speaker 1: you have to get up and get ready for you know, 743 00:42:38,680 --> 00:42:42,279 Speaker 1: row ceremony or whatever. And I'd get ready and being 744 00:42:42,400 --> 00:42:46,360 Speaker 1: that freaking uncomfortable dress I was wearing with horrible shoes 745 00:42:46,560 --> 00:42:49,280 Speaker 1: and just be sitting there and like nothing would happen 746 00:42:49,360 --> 00:42:52,360 Speaker 1: for hours and it was so annoying. And that was 747 00:42:52,400 --> 00:42:55,080 Speaker 1: the first time I experienced hurry up and wait and 748 00:42:55,080 --> 00:42:57,560 Speaker 1: it was like all term that was like frequently used 749 00:42:57,600 --> 00:43:00,320 Speaker 1: on the show, and it drove me and like I 750 00:43:00,360 --> 00:43:03,120 Speaker 1: would get so impatient. So I can't imagine doing that 751 00:43:03,239 --> 00:43:08,600 Speaker 1: for sixteen plus years. And but I think it's also different, 752 00:43:08,640 --> 00:43:10,400 Speaker 1: like you were on the Bachelor and it's a reality 753 00:43:10,440 --> 00:43:12,880 Speaker 1: show and you don't really know what you're getting yourself into. 754 00:43:12,920 --> 00:43:14,040 Speaker 1: It's not you know what I mean. Like, I think 755 00:43:14,040 --> 00:43:17,480 Speaker 1: it's different when it's your occupation and you know what 756 00:43:17,480 --> 00:43:20,200 Speaker 1: I mean, Like there's driving passion behind it for you. 757 00:43:20,200 --> 00:43:22,080 Speaker 1: You're like, what the hell am I doing? You know what? 758 00:43:22,800 --> 00:43:28,239 Speaker 1: You're like, Okay, yeah, but I'm saying like even more 759 00:43:28,360 --> 00:43:32,640 Speaker 1: so to yeah, put yourself in that situation knowing, and 760 00:43:33,000 --> 00:43:35,680 Speaker 1: I do think there's driving passion. But even I think 761 00:43:36,120 --> 00:43:39,799 Speaker 1: that's why she started doing like producing and directing the 762 00:43:39,840 --> 00:43:41,880 Speaker 1: episodes because I think she was like, I need more 763 00:43:41,920 --> 00:43:44,680 Speaker 1: of a challenge. I'm not I'm not feeling that anymore 764 00:43:44,840 --> 00:43:48,000 Speaker 1: just acting. So yeah, it's kind of like, um So, 765 00:43:48,080 --> 00:43:53,960 Speaker 1: Benny Blanco is an artists, an incredible um like songwriter, 766 00:43:54,120 --> 00:43:57,719 Speaker 1: song maker, song everything, producer, everything. And I was listening 767 00:43:57,760 --> 00:43:59,600 Speaker 1: to this interview that he gave and he was just like, 768 00:43:59,640 --> 00:44:02,080 Speaker 1: you know, because he was always behind the scenes for 769 00:44:02,120 --> 00:44:04,080 Speaker 1: a really long time. He was just doing it for 770 00:44:04,120 --> 00:44:07,879 Speaker 1: other people, and then he decided to to step out 771 00:44:07,920 --> 00:44:11,520 Speaker 1: and and kind of be an artist. And people were 772 00:44:11,560 --> 00:44:13,360 Speaker 1: asking him like why did you decide to do that? 773 00:44:13,400 --> 00:44:16,200 Speaker 1: Like you were making bank and doing great and da dada, 774 00:44:16,200 --> 00:44:18,160 Speaker 1: and he was just like, it's like, let's say you 775 00:44:18,200 --> 00:44:20,600 Speaker 1: are like the best at making pizza and everybody just 776 00:44:20,640 --> 00:44:22,759 Speaker 1: wants you to make a pizza. You're constantly every day 777 00:44:22,800 --> 00:44:25,920 Speaker 1: you're making pizza. One day you make wake up and 778 00:44:26,000 --> 00:44:29,239 Speaker 1: want to make a salad and try that out and 779 00:44:29,280 --> 00:44:31,680 Speaker 1: see what that's like and test your you know, so, 780 00:44:31,800 --> 00:44:33,359 Speaker 1: I don't know. I think it was like such an 781 00:44:33,360 --> 00:44:36,640 Speaker 1: interesting analogy from music to like cooking, but it like 782 00:44:36,680 --> 00:44:39,240 Speaker 1: really resonated with me. I was like, wow, that's interesting. 783 00:44:40,080 --> 00:44:44,120 Speaker 1: Yeah really did? I really held onto it. Listen to 784 00:44:44,120 --> 00:44:48,200 Speaker 1: that interview in eighteen and I'll never forget it. Yeah, 785 00:44:48,880 --> 00:45:06,719 Speaker 1: really stayed with you, staying with me? Um. I think 786 00:45:06,760 --> 00:45:09,320 Speaker 1: we have an email and I don't know if anyone's 787 00:45:09,360 --> 00:45:13,760 Speaker 1: noticed yet, but Mark and Easton aren't here. So yeah, 788 00:45:13,880 --> 00:45:17,759 Speaker 1: it's just a girl's trip today. It's just you know 789 00:45:19,360 --> 00:45:29,840 Speaker 1: where moder women we Wow, it's a beautiful rendition. Thank you. 790 00:45:29,960 --> 00:45:33,399 Speaker 1: I just created it. Um. Do you want to read 791 00:45:33,440 --> 00:45:36,920 Speaker 1: it because you know, yeah, you're strugg struggling. Yes, I 792 00:45:37,000 --> 00:45:40,359 Speaker 1: see it. I feel that. I'm sorry. Um. Okay, so 793 00:45:40,360 --> 00:45:42,359 Speaker 1: this is from anonymous. I'll try and do it like Mark. 794 00:45:44,760 --> 00:45:47,040 Speaker 1: What are your feelings. I can't do it. I can't 795 00:45:47,040 --> 00:45:50,040 Speaker 1: do more. It's not Mark at all, I know. Okay, 796 00:45:50,760 --> 00:45:53,319 Speaker 1: what are your feelings on comparing your relationship to the 797 00:45:53,320 --> 00:45:55,920 Speaker 1: marriage of your parents. My parents have been together for 798 00:45:55,960 --> 00:45:58,920 Speaker 1: thirty years and have what I see as the perfect marriage. 799 00:45:59,280 --> 00:46:01,120 Speaker 1: I love the way they love each other. I am 800 00:46:01,160 --> 00:46:03,280 Speaker 1: currently dating and I feel like I use my parents 801 00:46:03,320 --> 00:46:06,400 Speaker 1: relationship as a measuring tool of what my possible future 802 00:46:06,440 --> 00:46:09,319 Speaker 1: relationship could look like. Part of me feels like this 803 00:46:09,400 --> 00:46:12,840 Speaker 1: is unreally, this is unrealistic due to the dating culture today, 804 00:46:13,080 --> 00:46:14,880 Speaker 1: and the other part of me feels like it's okay 805 00:46:14,920 --> 00:46:17,920 Speaker 1: to have deal breakers and standards about what I want. 806 00:46:18,160 --> 00:46:21,759 Speaker 1: What do you think? Um? I actually really relate to 807 00:46:21,800 --> 00:46:25,080 Speaker 1: this because I my parents have been together for a 808 00:46:25,160 --> 00:46:28,160 Speaker 1: really long time, and I always say, like they love 809 00:46:28,200 --> 00:46:30,680 Speaker 1: each other, but like even more so, they still like 810 00:46:30,840 --> 00:46:33,239 Speaker 1: each other, like they still make each other laugh, they 811 00:46:33,280 --> 00:46:37,520 Speaker 1: still like are comfortable and like prefer probably just hanging 812 00:46:37,520 --> 00:46:41,600 Speaker 1: out the two of them, um, And so I always 813 00:46:41,680 --> 00:46:44,960 Speaker 1: felt like that's exactly what my relationship was going to 814 00:46:45,080 --> 00:46:49,920 Speaker 1: be like. And I will say, like what doesn't change 815 00:46:50,120 --> 00:46:55,480 Speaker 1: in different cultures and generations is love and like putting 816 00:46:55,520 --> 00:46:59,120 Speaker 1: work into a relationship, Like those things are always been 817 00:46:59,160 --> 00:47:00,960 Speaker 1: the same and we'll all always be the same. And 818 00:47:01,000 --> 00:47:03,719 Speaker 1: I think it's like making the decision of how you 819 00:47:03,760 --> 00:47:07,319 Speaker 1: handle that because I think your parents have probably a 820 00:47:07,320 --> 00:47:12,279 Speaker 1: beautiful relationship, but no marriage is perfect, and I guarantee 821 00:47:12,360 --> 00:47:15,440 Speaker 1: that they've had times where they've had to maybe work 822 00:47:15,520 --> 00:47:18,400 Speaker 1: harder at it in certain times of their life and 823 00:47:18,520 --> 00:47:22,239 Speaker 1: other times. And I think it's very possible for you 824 00:47:22,280 --> 00:47:26,200 Speaker 1: to find a relationship that's like that, that has love 825 00:47:26,480 --> 00:47:30,360 Speaker 1: and you know, the willingness to work at the relationship. 826 00:47:30,440 --> 00:47:33,919 Speaker 1: But I think it really comes down to a lot 827 00:47:33,920 --> 00:47:39,839 Speaker 1: of times. This generation is very much, um, a lot 828 00:47:39,880 --> 00:47:44,120 Speaker 1: more empowered, you know. I do think like women especially 829 00:47:44,120 --> 00:47:48,080 Speaker 1: have a lot more um, I think, courage and power 830 00:47:48,200 --> 00:47:52,560 Speaker 1: than we've ever had before too, to have a say 831 00:47:52,600 --> 00:47:56,560 Speaker 1: in what the relationship looks like and their happiness. And 832 00:47:56,600 --> 00:48:01,800 Speaker 1: I think sometimes we, you know, look at our parents 833 00:48:01,800 --> 00:48:06,160 Speaker 1: and think like it's just perfect. But there's no perfect relationship. 834 00:48:06,239 --> 00:48:08,040 Speaker 1: So that's like kind of what I was picking up 835 00:48:08,040 --> 00:48:10,960 Speaker 1: on the on the email is when she said or 836 00:48:11,040 --> 00:48:14,920 Speaker 1: he I don't know, it's anonymous, Um, the they seem 837 00:48:15,000 --> 00:48:19,760 Speaker 1: to have the perfect marriage. And I think that, um, 838 00:48:20,600 --> 00:48:25,560 Speaker 1: that perception is what screws us all up because there's 839 00:48:25,760 --> 00:48:30,359 Speaker 1: no perfect relationship. I would I don't even think it's 840 00:48:30,400 --> 00:48:34,600 Speaker 1: a stretch to say every relationship has some sort of 841 00:48:34,640 --> 00:48:38,040 Speaker 1: squabble like or some sort of like you were different individuals, 842 00:48:38,080 --> 00:48:41,160 Speaker 1: you were raised differently, you have different lives, you're intertwining 843 00:48:41,239 --> 00:48:44,160 Speaker 1: your lives, you know, Like I obviously think that there 844 00:48:44,160 --> 00:48:46,960 Speaker 1: are some marriages that really thrive and are healthy and 845 00:48:47,000 --> 00:48:50,359 Speaker 1: are happy and the of it is good, but there's 846 00:48:50,360 --> 00:48:53,879 Speaker 1: still disagreements. There's still some point parts where you're gonna 847 00:48:53,880 --> 00:48:57,520 Speaker 1: have to compromise. Um. And so I think, you know, 848 00:48:57,600 --> 00:49:00,399 Speaker 1: sometimes what we see seems perfect, but you don't see 849 00:49:00,400 --> 00:49:02,800 Speaker 1: the full stories. So I think that can really trip 850 00:49:02,880 --> 00:49:05,800 Speaker 1: people up. Is like this belief of what it's supposed 851 00:49:05,840 --> 00:49:07,520 Speaker 1: to look like. I know for me that was a 852 00:49:07,560 --> 00:49:11,960 Speaker 1: really big thing. Like I was always saying, um, is 853 00:49:12,000 --> 00:49:14,439 Speaker 1: it right? Or should it be like this? Or did dada? 854 00:49:14,560 --> 00:49:17,799 Speaker 1: And the answer is, it shouldn't be like anything. Like 855 00:49:17,880 --> 00:49:21,319 Speaker 1: you get to decide what type of relationship you have. 856 00:49:21,560 --> 00:49:23,359 Speaker 1: You get to write the rules if you want to. 857 00:49:24,000 --> 00:49:25,840 Speaker 1: If you want to meet someone and get married in 858 00:49:25,880 --> 00:49:28,120 Speaker 1: two weeks, you can meet someone and get married in 859 00:49:28,120 --> 00:49:29,719 Speaker 1: two weeks. If you want to meet someone and you 860 00:49:29,760 --> 00:49:32,080 Speaker 1: don't want to get married for twenty years, then don't 861 00:49:32,120 --> 00:49:34,120 Speaker 1: get married for twenty years. There's no right and wrong 862 00:49:34,120 --> 00:49:37,160 Speaker 1: and there's no perfect And it's like, I think there's 863 00:49:37,160 --> 00:49:40,439 Speaker 1: something really kind of incredible and empowering when when I 864 00:49:40,600 --> 00:49:43,279 Speaker 1: kind of started to realize that is like there's no 865 00:49:43,440 --> 00:49:45,960 Speaker 1: right or wrong. In any relationship, it's just what feels 866 00:49:45,960 --> 00:49:48,520 Speaker 1: good to you, and so you get to decide, like 867 00:49:48,600 --> 00:49:50,560 Speaker 1: you and your partner get to decide what kind of 868 00:49:50,560 --> 00:49:53,359 Speaker 1: relationship you have. And there's something so beautiful about that, 869 00:49:53,440 --> 00:49:56,080 Speaker 1: you know. Like Red Star and I just you know, 870 00:49:56,160 --> 00:49:58,200 Speaker 1: we were like, we're going to have issues, and we're 871 00:49:58,239 --> 00:50:00,080 Speaker 1: not going to agree on things, and we're gonna have 872 00:50:00,080 --> 00:50:03,399 Speaker 1: different timetables on things. But when we have those conversations, 873 00:50:03,440 --> 00:50:06,160 Speaker 1: we've said, we've said, we're gonna we're coming from a 874 00:50:06,160 --> 00:50:08,839 Speaker 1: place of positivity. Were coming from a place of wanting 875 00:50:08,880 --> 00:50:11,960 Speaker 1: to understand the other person and where they're at and 876 00:50:12,000 --> 00:50:15,440 Speaker 1: what they're experiencing and just talk about it and just 877 00:50:15,440 --> 00:50:18,360 Speaker 1: have the conversation and and come from a place of 878 00:50:18,400 --> 00:50:21,319 Speaker 1: love instead of trying to prove a point or be 879 00:50:21,480 --> 00:50:25,279 Speaker 1: right or whatever it is, because there is no right 880 00:50:25,360 --> 00:50:27,520 Speaker 1: or wrong. It's like it's really weird. Once you kind 881 00:50:27,520 --> 00:50:33,759 Speaker 1: of start to have that perspective, the world changing. Yeah. 882 00:50:33,880 --> 00:50:40,160 Speaker 1: I also think like my parents got married, I don't 883 00:50:40,200 --> 00:50:43,160 Speaker 1: even know, it's like three months and they eloped or something, 884 00:50:43,360 --> 00:50:46,880 Speaker 1: and they you know, had a lot of challenges in 885 00:50:46,920 --> 00:50:51,520 Speaker 1: their marriage, and but they always like fought for because 886 00:50:51,560 --> 00:50:53,839 Speaker 1: they loved each other and wanted to be together. But 887 00:50:53,920 --> 00:50:59,680 Speaker 1: like I always sometimes like romanticized their relationship because it 888 00:50:59,840 --> 00:51:04,640 Speaker 1: was like this fleeting, like they got married and eloped 889 00:51:04,760 --> 00:51:08,080 Speaker 1: because they just wanted to be married, And I always 890 00:51:08,080 --> 00:51:11,000 Speaker 1: thought I would have that, And I'm so the opposite, 891 00:51:11,080 --> 00:51:13,759 Speaker 1: Like I'm scared of commitment. I'm scared of marriage. I 892 00:51:13,800 --> 00:51:17,640 Speaker 1: don't know, like where that fear comes from, because I did. 893 00:51:18,000 --> 00:51:21,160 Speaker 1: I grew up with like a healthy marriage and like 894 00:51:21,520 --> 00:51:25,560 Speaker 1: something that most people would want, you know, So I 895 00:51:25,600 --> 00:51:29,040 Speaker 1: don't know where that comes from. But I always felt 896 00:51:29,080 --> 00:51:31,040 Speaker 1: like something was wrong with me that I had never 897 00:51:31,160 --> 00:51:34,960 Speaker 1: had the desire to meet someone and then get married. 898 00:51:35,080 --> 00:51:38,920 Speaker 1: In fact, I'm like the opposite. So I think sometimes 899 00:51:39,000 --> 00:51:43,000 Speaker 1: like you can have an idea of what a relationship 900 00:51:43,120 --> 00:51:46,160 Speaker 1: looks like that maybe you might have one day. But 901 00:51:46,200 --> 00:51:49,160 Speaker 1: I also think that, like Tanya said, you're such a 902 00:51:49,200 --> 00:51:53,640 Speaker 1: different person. You're they were raised by their parents and 903 00:51:53,680 --> 00:51:56,839 Speaker 1: you're raised by your parents, and the world's gonna look 904 00:51:56,880 --> 00:51:59,719 Speaker 1: different to you, and you're gonna have different relationships than 905 00:52:00,160 --> 00:52:03,480 Speaker 1: than they have. So I think, like being able to 906 00:52:03,520 --> 00:52:07,200 Speaker 1: respect the relationship they have is healthy. Like I think 907 00:52:07,239 --> 00:52:09,160 Speaker 1: you're so lucky to be able to look at your 908 00:52:09,200 --> 00:52:11,520 Speaker 1: parents and see something that you want because a lot 909 00:52:11,520 --> 00:52:15,000 Speaker 1: of people don't have that. But also, like your life 910 00:52:15,040 --> 00:52:17,000 Speaker 1: is going to be your own and it's gonna be different, 911 00:52:17,040 --> 00:52:20,280 Speaker 1: and it's gonna be beautiful, and you're gonna find someone 912 00:52:20,360 --> 00:52:24,360 Speaker 1: who fulfills you in a way that's your own fulfillment. 913 00:52:24,560 --> 00:52:26,239 Speaker 1: But it's true, like you get to write your own 914 00:52:26,280 --> 00:52:29,920 Speaker 1: story and that is effing empowering and cool. But also 915 00:52:30,280 --> 00:52:34,680 Speaker 1: nobody's perfect. So and also like have standards and deal breakers, 916 00:52:34,760 --> 00:52:38,399 Speaker 1: like those things are healthy. Don't totally eliminate that just 917 00:52:38,480 --> 00:52:41,279 Speaker 1: because it's not like you just have to make it 918 00:52:41,360 --> 00:52:44,759 Speaker 1: work with whoever, Like you're talking to red flag, Like 919 00:52:44,840 --> 00:52:46,440 Speaker 1: I had stopped doing on a second day with a 920 00:52:46,440 --> 00:52:49,080 Speaker 1: guy because I saw pull a bar in his bedroom, 921 00:52:49,400 --> 00:52:56,480 Speaker 1: Like yeah, no, not dating situation. Who was that guy? 922 00:52:56,480 --> 00:53:01,600 Speaker 1: In college? Oh wow? At high standards even in college, 923 00:53:01,600 --> 00:53:03,880 Speaker 1: you know, like no, I'm not gonna cut it for me. 924 00:53:05,000 --> 00:53:11,239 Speaker 1: My standards were so like unrealistic in high school. Like 925 00:53:11,360 --> 00:53:15,360 Speaker 1: my old journals are so funny. I still have those, 926 00:53:15,480 --> 00:53:19,120 Speaker 1: Like therapist says, She's like, Tanya, you think that this 927 00:53:19,160 --> 00:53:22,280 Speaker 1: man's gonna come in on a horse with a carriage 928 00:53:22,440 --> 00:53:25,480 Speaker 1: and a glass slipper, and I'm like you damn right, no, 929 00:53:25,800 --> 00:53:28,600 Speaker 1: but like i'd be like, I really please don't let 930 00:53:28,680 --> 00:53:32,720 Speaker 1: him have bad breath in the morning. Oh wow, really 931 00:53:32,719 --> 00:53:36,279 Speaker 1: scrape in the bottom of the barrel. I just like 932 00:53:36,640 --> 00:53:38,799 Speaker 1: had you know, it's a lot of good bath in 933 00:53:38,800 --> 00:53:42,719 Speaker 1: the morning. Nobody. Well, I was hoping for a unicorn. 934 00:53:42,800 --> 00:53:45,080 Speaker 1: I guess I don't think I'm not. I don't know 935 00:53:45,400 --> 00:53:49,560 Speaker 1: one person that doesn't have stank breath in the morning. Anyways. 936 00:53:49,680 --> 00:53:52,920 Speaker 1: I'm just saying like, I think having standards is okay, 937 00:53:52,960 --> 00:53:58,200 Speaker 1: but also like finding where you might compromise, and that's 938 00:53:59,440 --> 00:54:03,640 Speaker 1: your own vision. So on that note, Um, I know 939 00:54:03,800 --> 00:54:06,160 Speaker 1: that this has been this has been more activity than 940 00:54:06,239 --> 00:54:09,239 Speaker 1: you have done in the past two weeks. So I 941 00:54:09,280 --> 00:54:16,359 Speaker 1: will reprieve reprieve you. I'm gonna let you go. Oh 942 00:54:16,440 --> 00:54:19,640 Speaker 1: thank you. I will wrap this up like with a 943 00:54:19,719 --> 00:54:22,120 Speaker 1: nice little bow. It was so nice having you back. 944 00:54:22,160 --> 00:54:25,320 Speaker 1: I've missed you. I hope that you get stronger every 945 00:54:25,440 --> 00:54:28,960 Speaker 1: day and I'll probably talk to you in one hour. Okay. 946 00:54:29,080 --> 00:54:31,160 Speaker 1: I love you. I'm happy to be back. I hope 947 00:54:31,200 --> 00:54:34,560 Speaker 1: everyone takes care of yourself. I you know, I do 948 00:54:34,640 --> 00:54:37,040 Speaker 1: have like a very annoying cough but I was very 949 00:54:37,160 --> 00:54:41,560 Speaker 1: lucky and I was able to get through this with 950 00:54:42,200 --> 00:54:46,960 Speaker 1: m M mostly a positive attitude and a lot of rest, 951 00:54:47,080 --> 00:54:52,279 Speaker 1: and um, you know, that's a fortunate thing that I'm 952 00:54:52,320 --> 00:54:54,920 Speaker 1: able to say. So everyone, please take care of yourself, 953 00:54:54,960 --> 00:54:58,640 Speaker 1: take care of each other, and um, we'll be back 954 00:54:58,680 --> 00:55:14,320 Speaker 1: next week. Happy to be back, all M.