WEBVTT - Why Waking Up Feels So Hard

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<v Speaker 1>You found your way here to waking up with Ryan.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm so glad that you pushed play. This is the

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<v Speaker 1>place you and I come to wake up together. So

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<v Speaker 1>let's take a deep breath and begin. Good morning, my love.

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<v Speaker 1>If your path to your spiritual awakening feels hard right now,

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<v Speaker 1>it's not because you're doing anything wrong. It's simply because

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<v Speaker 1>you're pushing against gravity. Adyashanti, beautiful spiritual teacher, he talks

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<v Speaker 1>about awakening and the process of awakening like a rocket

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<v Speaker 1>that is being shot out into space. If you think

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<v Speaker 1>about a rocket, Why does it need all of that

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<v Speaker 1>fuel and fire and force to take off? Well, it

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<v Speaker 1>needs all of that hard work, that difficult push, because

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<v Speaker 1>it's fighting against gravity. For a rocket to take off,

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<v Speaker 1>it has to push itself, push itself, keep on going,

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<v Speaker 1>keep on going, keep on going, until finally there's a

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<v Speaker 1>moment that it leaves the atmosphere, therefore leaving the atmospheric

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<v Speaker 1>kind of pressure of the gravitational pull downward, and it

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<v Speaker 1>exits the atmosphere into outer space where there is no gravity,

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<v Speaker 1>where it's able to move kind of with very little.

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<v Speaker 1>You've seen the videos of the little, like, a little, like,

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<v Speaker 1>spark of fire, little rockets, just like... And it's able

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<v Speaker 1>to move here and there because it's no longer... at

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<v Speaker 1>the effect of the downward pull of the Earth's center

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<v Speaker 1>of gravity. But it can't get out of the atmosphere

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<v Speaker 1>without the hard work of pushing up against gravity. And

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<v Speaker 1>awakening feels like that because the gravitational pull of the

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<v Speaker 1>ego the personality, who you think you are, is very strong.

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<v Speaker 1>And it is a like full and complete thought system.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, the thought system of the ego, of who

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<v Speaker 1>you think you are, of the body, like that thought

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<v Speaker 1>system is like a massive library filled with thoughts that

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<v Speaker 1>make you you, always pulling you back down, trying to

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<v Speaker 1>maintain a sense of who you are for one reason,

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<v Speaker 1>which is that that's how it feels safe. It wants

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<v Speaker 1>to survive. That's how it feels safe. And so it's

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<v Speaker 1>like you are doing your practices, walking your spiritual journey

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<v Speaker 1>to lift up against the gravitational pull of the ego.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, in a very physical way, isn't that like

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<v Speaker 1>why we do our yoga, why we maybe lift weights

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<v Speaker 1>or work on our posture because there's a gravitational pull

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<v Speaker 1>that's pulling us down. How do we respond to that?

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<v Speaker 1>By lifting up. Well, the same thing is true in

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<v Speaker 1>your spiritual life. The ego is pulling you down into

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<v Speaker 1>trying to get you to believe who it wants you

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<v Speaker 1>That's the spiritual journey of enlightenment is this remembering who

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<v Speaker 1>you are and you are in your practices lifting toward

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<v Speaker 1>that And for a long while, you're still in the

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<v Speaker 1>gravitational pull, the atmosphere of who you've always thought you are.

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<v Speaker 1>And that can become very frustrating because it's like I'm

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<v Speaker 1>doing all these practices. I'm working so hard to remember

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<v Speaker 1>who I am. But then there's all these things in

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<v Speaker 1>life that are just like showing me that I'm not that.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't have enough money. I don't have the love relationship.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't. If I was this beautiful being of divinity

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<v Speaker 1>and grace, wouldn't I have what I want? And what

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<v Speaker 1>I'm here to say to you is, this journey is twofold.

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<v Speaker 1>On one hand, the journey is about putting in the work,

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<v Speaker 1>the time, the energy to practice, to remember, to ask yourself,

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<v Speaker 1>who am I? To force, to use your free will,

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<v Speaker 1>to use your force to lift up. And on the

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<v Speaker 1>other hand, I want you to remember that there is

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<v Speaker 1>this moment when you will move beyond the stratosphere of

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<v Speaker 1>the ego's pull. It doesn't mean that you'll exit it

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<v Speaker 1>and you'll be in bliss and nirvana all the time.

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<v Speaker 1>That's not my experience. But what my experience has been

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<v Speaker 1>is that there's this moment of awakening When it's like

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<v Speaker 1>the ego is still there, the mind is still chirping,

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<v Speaker 1>the challenges still happen. But those things are not pulling

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<v Speaker 1>me in the ways that they used to. I'm able

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<v Speaker 1>to be aware of them. I notice them. But I'm sitting,

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<v Speaker 1>and by the way, when I say I'm sitting, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>not trying to pat myself on the back here. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>just trying to share my experiences. My experience is that

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sitting so deeply in who I truly am. that

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<v Speaker 1>I don't feel at the effect of those pulls anymore.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel this experience that there's been this kind of

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<v Speaker 1>breaking free, this beautiful breaking free from the gravitational pull

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<v Speaker 1>of the noise, of the ego, of the stresses and anxieties.

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<v Speaker 1>Doesn't mean they don't happen. They do. It's just that

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<v Speaker 1>I'm now aware of them as opposed to being at

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<v Speaker 1>the effect of them. So perhaps this message today is

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<v Speaker 1>showing up just to remind you that yes, this journey

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<v Speaker 1>to remembering is tough, comes with having to use your

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<v Speaker 1>force and that there is this energy that's this gravitational

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<v Speaker 1>pull that's pulling you down. And I'm here to say,

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<v Speaker 1>keep going, please keep going. keep going, keep allowing, keep

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<v Speaker 1>taking another step, keep surrendering. A moment will come. It's

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<v Speaker 1>inevitable because this universe is benevolent. This universe is loving.

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<v Speaker 1>There will come a moment, there will come moments where

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<v Speaker 1>you feel that, oh, okay, that took a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>energy to get out of the atmosphere of that pole.

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<v Speaker 1>And now here I am and I'm able to Move

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<v Speaker 1>with life in a way that feels so much more trusting, grounded, alive,

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<v Speaker 1>and present. Okay, let's move into a very short practice.

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<v Speaker 1>So taking a moment to close your eyes if you can.

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<v Speaker 1>Taking a few deep breaths here. And just becoming aware

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<v Speaker 1>of the places in your life, and especially in your

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<v Speaker 1>spiritual practice, where you're pushing yourself. Acknowledge that that push

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<v Speaker 1>is valuable. And now ask, can I soften? Take a

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<v Speaker 1>deep breath. Can I trust that I exist now? as

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<v Speaker 1>a benevolent universe, guides me on the journey of my healing.

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<v Speaker 1>Take a breath. Can you shift the tension of effort

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<v Speaker 1>and hard work to a softening? Even a letting go,

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<v Speaker 1>a trusting in life itself, giving over control, seeing and

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<v Speaker 1>feeling now that this universe is pulling you to your enlightenment,

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<v Speaker 1>to your awakening, to your remembering and pushing you has

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<v Speaker 1>a gentle hand on your back, supporting you, guiding you,

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<v Speaker 1>and a gentle hand on your front, pulling you, guiding you.

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<v Speaker 1>And all you need to do right now is let

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<v Speaker 1>go and allow the benevolent universe to do her thing.

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<v Speaker 1>Take a breath. And let it go. One more breath

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<v Speaker 1>to soften and surrender. Acknowledging yourself and closing for all

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<v Speaker 1>the effort you've put in. For all the effort you

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<v Speaker 1>will continue to put in. And now acknowledging yourself for

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<v Speaker 1>the most courageous thing, which is the softening and the

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<v Speaker 1>surrender to allow, to allow yourself to be carried, to

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<v Speaker 1>be guided, to remember who you are. Let's take one

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<v Speaker 1>more closing breath. And exhale. Exhale. Beautiful. I love doing

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<v Speaker 1>this with you. I hope you're enjoying this journey of

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<v Speaker 1>waking up with me. Thank you for tuning in every

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<v Speaker 1>morning or whenever it is that you tune in. Doing

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<v Speaker 1>this with you is one of the great joys of

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<v Speaker 1>my life. Loving you from right here. Hi, I hope

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<v Speaker 1>you're feeling even just a little bit more prepared to

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