WEBVTT - Miss Aubrey O’Day Part 1 0:00:08.600 --> 0:00:12.680 Misspelling with Tori Spelling and iHeartRadio Podcast. 0:00:14.960 --> 0:00:16.239 How have we known each other? 0:00:17.239 --> 0:00:20.639 Definitely by NB Like when we did NBC Upfronts, we 0:00:20.680 --> 0:00:25.799 were together because they did me, you, Russell Simmons, and 0:00:26.320 --> 0:00:29.159 Paris's show all together. They launched us for as like 0:00:29.640 --> 0:00:31.800 the Big what was the network? We were all oxygen, 0:00:32.200 --> 0:00:36.880 the Big Oxygen, like like power House Group. They launched 0:00:36.960 --> 0:00:39.440 us all at the same time to save that network and. 0:00:39.400 --> 0:00:41.080 That we're going to do it rich a girl, it's 0:00:41.080 --> 0:00:41.800 a crime network. 0:00:41.800 --> 0:00:42.640 Now, what do you mean? 0:00:42.720 --> 0:00:45.360 We we killed it but for and. 0:00:45.680 --> 0:00:47.840 We saved that net. We made that network. I feel 0:00:47.840 --> 0:00:48.440 like we did. 0:00:48.600 --> 0:00:49.560 I feel like we did. 0:00:49.680 --> 0:00:52.280 I feel like they too all crime, all crime. Every 0:00:52.280 --> 0:00:53.640 time I hear it was it. 0:00:53.720 --> 0:00:54.920 Was like women empowerment. 0:00:55.160 --> 0:00:57.320 I know, we don't even get reruns because we're you 0:00:57.320 --> 0:00:59.160 know what, I did see my Sewan Apple TV, So 0:00:59.200 --> 0:01:02.560 I guess they sold our shows to somebody. Yep, great, 0:01:02.600 --> 0:01:04.959 and tell my agent that I know, did you get 0:01:04.959 --> 0:01:05.839 back into on yours? 0:01:06.000 --> 0:01:06.200 Yeah? 0:01:06.319 --> 0:01:07.160 Oh good, look good. 0:01:07.200 --> 0:01:09.560 But if I don't tell people like oh so, it'll 0:01:09.600 --> 0:01:11.440 be like one of my shows it was like on 0:01:11.520 --> 0:01:13.960 Hulu and someone told me about it and I was like, oh, 0:01:14.240 --> 0:01:16.160 didn't know it was on there called. 0:01:15.959 --> 0:01:18.080 Yeah, they was just sitting in an account. 0:01:17.720 --> 0:01:18.720 Hundred twenty dollars. 0:01:19.400 --> 0:01:20.120 That's insane. 0:01:20.240 --> 0:01:21.200 I was like, that's how I. 0:01:21.160 --> 0:01:23.520 Feel about my music. I'm like, well, oday, somebody's going 0:01:23.600 --> 0:01:24.600 to tell me where it all is. 0:01:24.680 --> 0:01:25.480 I just don't know. 0:01:25.880 --> 0:01:26.679 How do you find that? 0:01:27.560 --> 0:01:30.480 You know, everybody makes it sound so complicated. I think 0:01:30.520 --> 0:01:34.960 that's on purpose. So right brain thinkers aren't normally like 0:01:35.120 --> 0:01:39.720 especially like highly gifted artists aren't necessarily left brain thinkers. 0:01:39.720 --> 0:01:43.040 To have both qualities equal out is rare, and so 0:01:43.040 --> 0:01:45.399 so many people just get into it, and the excitement 0:01:45.400 --> 0:01:47.400 of being able to create and being able to make 0:01:47.560 --> 0:01:50.800 art is so overwhelming that you're not checking on where 0:01:50.840 --> 0:01:53.760 your money is and what's your percentage on this and 0:01:53.760 --> 0:01:56.720 who's collecting and there's so many middlemen back in the day, 0:01:56.960 --> 0:02:00.680 Like we were discussing this earlier on this morning a 0:02:00.720 --> 0:02:03.880 group of my friends about like old industry versus new 0:02:03.920 --> 0:02:07.600 industry and how different it is and the adjustments that 0:02:07.680 --> 0:02:08.760 it takes are so. 0:02:11.160 --> 0:02:13.600 For people like us. I mean, I think probably a 0:02:13.639 --> 0:02:14.200 little bit. 0:02:14.080 --> 0:02:17.320 After me is where the cutoff of celebrities stop me 0:02:17.360 --> 0:02:20.640 as in like Danity, Kane Era and after too, but 0:02:20.760 --> 0:02:24.040 it's like right around where it's this cutoff occurred and 0:02:24.080 --> 0:02:27.639 now it's Tiktoker's YouTubers and the lot and there are 0:02:27.800 --> 0:02:30.639 many that get millions of viewers, and so there's they're 0:02:30.680 --> 0:02:34.360 not necessarily looked at for network shows that bring people back, right, 0:02:34.560 --> 0:02:37.440 they're not necessarily seen as you can't go over to 0:02:37.600 --> 0:02:40.360 those network shows and say, hey, get this TikToker. 0:02:40.440 --> 0:02:41.200 Maybe one or. 0:02:41.160 --> 0:02:43.920 Two have been able to transition, but from what I 0:02:44.000 --> 0:02:47.079 understand from most of my agent friends, it's just they 0:02:47.120 --> 0:02:49.160 can do really well on this platform, but when we 0:02:49.200 --> 0:02:51.400 try to give them a cooking show or something else, 0:02:51.639 --> 0:02:54.160 they don't do well on the other platforms. They don't 0:02:54.200 --> 0:02:57.840 translate everywhere. But you know, a celebrity and old school celebrity. 0:02:57.840 --> 0:03:01.000 Before there were no gatekeepers and everything was just widespread, 0:03:01.400 --> 0:03:05.040 and who are the gatekeepers? The gatekeepers are like the 0:03:05.080 --> 0:03:08.040 people that you had to prove yourself to in order 0:03:08.080 --> 0:03:10.440 to get through to be seen by the people. They 0:03:10.480 --> 0:03:13.200 can actually move and shake. In my industry, a lot 0:03:13.200 --> 0:03:16.600 of times it was like known that if even if 0:03:16.600 --> 0:03:19.040 they were talented, frankly, the girls would sleep with certain 0:03:19.080 --> 0:03:21.680 people in order to get in certain rooms. But this 0:03:21.880 --> 0:03:26.160 idea of gatekeepers very much was like, that's where it was. 0:03:26.320 --> 0:03:28.600 No one ever asked me to sleep with them anything. 0:03:28.639 --> 0:03:30.760 Well, you also, you grew up in something. 0:03:30.880 --> 0:03:33.280 You grew up in a family that's so iconic that 0:03:33.360 --> 0:03:36.560 if they did, there probably would have been severe consequences 0:03:36.560 --> 0:03:37.640 for them, potentially. 0:03:37.840 --> 0:03:39.640 Really, I just thought, I was like, why not me? 0:03:40.360 --> 0:03:43.320 No, no, no, they wanted you. Everybody wanted you know, 0:03:43.840 --> 0:03:45.360 and by the way, you don't want to be wanted. 0:03:45.120 --> 0:03:49.280 By those people. No, no, I know it's I wouldn't fuck. 0:03:49.360 --> 0:03:51.160 I don't think anyone would want to fuck with you 0:03:51.280 --> 0:03:54.080 in a way where it would get back to somebody 0:03:54.120 --> 0:03:56.440 who's powerful in the industry. I don't know a ton. 0:03:56.520 --> 0:03:58.560 I mean, obviously I know about your life. I was 0:03:58.600 --> 0:04:00.400 a huge nineo two and zo I was telling you 0:04:00.440 --> 0:04:00.760 the other. 0:04:00.720 --> 0:04:02.240 Day, I had a f Yeah you have a story, 0:04:02.320 --> 0:04:02.760 Oh my god. 0:04:02.880 --> 0:04:06.320 Okay, So I didn't actually, because I was such an 0:04:06.400 --> 0:04:08.400 artist and I was so into creating for most of 0:04:08.440 --> 0:04:10.680 my childhood, I didn't really hang out. 0:04:10.560 --> 0:04:11.920 With the popular kids. 0:04:12.200 --> 0:04:14.400 I was on dance team and a cheerleader and those things, 0:04:14.400 --> 0:04:17.360 because they were talent based activities that you auditioned for. 0:04:17.760 --> 0:04:18.360 But I didn't. 0:04:18.440 --> 0:04:21.719 I wasn't cool or the pretty girl or popular or 0:04:21.800 --> 0:04:23.719 any of that. I mean, I struggled to like not 0:04:23.800 --> 0:04:25.120 get beat up and get through the day. 0:04:25.720 --> 0:04:27.880 So like, which I'm sure is surprising for people to 0:04:27.920 --> 0:04:30.919 hear that. Maybe is that your perception or is that 0:04:30.960 --> 0:04:31.719 how it really was? 0:04:31.880 --> 0:04:34.159 Well, because I grew up in it, that's all I know. 0:04:34.520 --> 0:04:37.520 I think the perception of me is very different, and 0:04:37.560 --> 0:04:39.760 that's a perception. The first perception that was given to 0:04:39.800 --> 0:04:42.120 the world was kind of through Ditty's eyes or the 0:04:42.160 --> 0:04:44.599 eyes of the editors in the MTV editing base. 0:04:45.520 --> 0:04:46.919 But but who I was? 0:04:47.000 --> 0:04:50.080 I mean, man, I just came and was creative and 0:04:50.120 --> 0:04:52.520 whatever I did, and then how I was interpreted was 0:04:52.560 --> 0:04:55.040 what it was but or what it needed to be. 0:04:55.800 --> 0:04:58.359 But in all of that, like, wait, where were we 0:04:58.400 --> 0:04:58.719 on with this? 0:04:58.760 --> 0:05:02.520 I was going to Oh, Okay, So when I grew up, 0:05:02.600 --> 0:05:05.239 I didn't really like because I wasn't popular. I didn't 0:05:05.279 --> 0:05:07.520 go and date the boys or hook up with people 0:05:07.640 --> 0:05:10.320 or do anything. I didn't hook up with anyone. I 0:05:10.400 --> 0:05:14.080 wasn't like, I didn't care about boys. But you start 0:05:14.120 --> 0:05:17.279 feeling it as you get into like maybe I was 0:05:17.279 --> 0:05:19.840 probably later than everyone else because I had skip grades etc. 0:05:20.240 --> 0:05:23.680 But I started having those feelings of like, you know, 0:05:23.839 --> 0:05:26.320 liking a boy or whatever, but I never knew how 0:05:26.360 --> 0:05:28.360 to act on it or how to do anything. And 0:05:28.400 --> 0:05:30.680 so I kind of resonated with you the most as 0:05:30.720 --> 0:05:33.039 a child watching the show because you were this good 0:05:33.080 --> 0:05:35.560 girl on the show and you weren't gonna be out 0:05:35.560 --> 0:05:36.680 there in the streets. 0:05:36.320 --> 0:05:37.320 Like Brenda or Kelly. 0:05:37.400 --> 0:05:39.719 But you fell in love with the one guy, and 0:05:39.760 --> 0:05:42.000 there was this boy that kind of looked like Brian 0:05:42.040 --> 0:05:44.600 Austin Green and like he was like the boy that 0:05:44.680 --> 0:05:47.760 I always liked during that time. And then when you 0:05:47.960 --> 0:05:49.920 and I swear, I want to hug you right now, bitch, 0:05:49.920 --> 0:05:52.280 because when you got cheated on when they played Babyface 0:05:52.320 --> 0:05:55.400 and that fucking limo during that concert when he was 0:05:55.480 --> 0:05:57.280 dating the burnette girl with the curly hair. 0:05:57.600 --> 0:05:58.840 I will never forgive her. 0:05:58.880 --> 0:06:01.400 If I catch her in this, it's gonna be fists 0:06:01.520 --> 0:06:02.640 up and on this. 0:06:02.760 --> 0:06:04.800 I just saw her recently at a convention. 0:06:05.240 --> 0:06:05.480 Yeah. 0:06:05.920 --> 0:06:09.440 I was literally I remember like watching that with the 0:06:09.520 --> 0:06:11.920 TV this far away from me, with tears running down 0:06:11.920 --> 0:06:15.120 my eyes, feeling like I've just lost the Like all 0:06:15.160 --> 0:06:17.600 of this time I spent with you, be doing the 0:06:17.680 --> 0:06:22.240 right thing, loving the right guy ringing like and then 0:06:22.360 --> 0:06:24.800 it just flips when a little who she comes by 0:06:24.839 --> 0:06:26.360 at the concert and Babyface. 0:06:26.560 --> 0:06:28.520 So now late years later, I was like. 0:06:28.560 --> 0:06:30.960 Recording in Babyface's studio and I went in and I 0:06:30.960 --> 0:06:33.599 told him like, you're, you know, iconic, and you know 0:06:33.600 --> 0:06:34.760 how much I loved him, And I. 0:06:34.760 --> 0:06:35.840 Was like, I have to be real. 0:06:35.880 --> 0:06:38.120 The first time I actually really was put onto you 0:06:38.279 --> 0:06:41.400 was through nine o two one, and my first thought 0:06:41.440 --> 0:06:43.680 whenever I even heard I was coming to your studio 0:06:43.720 --> 0:06:46.279 to record or meeting you, was you were the song 0:06:46.360 --> 0:06:47.800 that took out Donna Martin. 0:06:47.839 --> 0:06:49.080 When when Brian. 0:06:49.560 --> 0:06:51.880 Hooked up with that fucking burnette with the curly hair 0:06:51.920 --> 0:06:56.160 and the Limo Ariel Ariel, that little fucking skeezy ass 0:06:56.200 --> 0:06:58.919 ho I put in my behavor. Yeah, I was fucked 0:06:59.000 --> 0:07:01.279 up over it for a long time time. But anyways, 0:07:01.320 --> 0:07:02.760 yeah that was my little funny. 0:07:02.839 --> 0:07:02.960 Uh. 0:07:03.080 --> 0:07:05.000 And then every time I see say was he like, 0:07:07.800 --> 0:07:10.200 I don't even know if he remembered. I don't know 0:07:10.200 --> 0:07:12.040 if he remembered. I try, I can't I know how 0:07:12.080 --> 0:07:13.000 to like, he's such. 0:07:12.840 --> 0:07:14.679 An icon, I keep it at a minimum. 0:07:14.680 --> 0:07:16.600 Have you do you see the videos recently where like 0:07:16.880 --> 0:07:19.600 two girls like We're talking to him at the Grammys, 0:07:19.640 --> 0:07:22.000 and then like moved him aside to get to somebody else, 0:07:22.880 --> 0:07:26.360 and everyone was like, these girls need to be fired immediately, 0:07:26.600 --> 0:07:28.840 which I agree, Like I even though I have a 0:07:29.320 --> 0:07:32.160 cheesy story to tell Babyface, I kept it at a 0:07:32.200 --> 0:07:35.000 minimum out of respect for who he is. But that 0:07:35.160 --> 0:07:38.000 is actually like the first time that I when will 0:07:38.040 --> 0:07:39.800 I See You Again? Was the song that he was 0:07:39.840 --> 0:07:42.760 singing and Brian was in the limo, and anytime I 0:07:42.760 --> 0:07:45.679 get into a black limo, like I've always been nervous 0:07:45.680 --> 0:07:48.320 when a curly hair burnette gets around any man that 0:07:48.400 --> 0:07:50.920 I love, because you just don't know which it was so. 0:07:50.840 --> 0:07:52.360 In what is happening right now? 0:07:52.480 --> 0:07:53.520 It was impactful. 0:07:53.560 --> 0:07:56.320 It was it was we don't have these things anymore 0:07:56.360 --> 0:07:59.280 in our culture. My goddaughter does not have a show 0:07:59.640 --> 0:08:03.960 that she watches religiously on a standard network that everybody 0:08:03.960 --> 0:08:04.920 turns on at night. 0:08:05.000 --> 0:08:06.880 That it's not appointment TV anymore. 0:08:07.400 --> 0:08:10.640 It isn't it's whim and watch on your phone quickly, 0:08:10.800 --> 0:08:13.200 or watch while you're on your phone, because we need 0:08:13.280 --> 0:08:14.360 constant distraction. 0:08:14.520 --> 0:08:17.200 Right Well, it's affected me too, like I become like 0:08:17.280 --> 0:08:19.000 that and my friend to think. 0:08:18.800 --> 0:08:21.040 Like that, I can't get through movies lately, and I'm like, 0:08:21.040 --> 0:08:23.200 what is wrong with me? If it's a documentary, yes, 0:08:23.280 --> 0:08:25.800 but an actual movie, I can't do it. 0:08:25.840 --> 0:08:28.559 I'm just so we're being conditioned to adapt with the times, 0:08:28.560 --> 0:08:31.760 and it sucks. Aubrey's dog's here right now and he's eighteen. 0:08:31.880 --> 0:08:35.560 He's yeah, he's an old Papa's old obi. 0:08:35.600 --> 0:08:36.160 Oh my gosh. 0:08:36.360 --> 0:08:38.480 So it's interesting, like you're saying this to me, and 0:08:38.520 --> 0:08:40.680 I'm thinking, like, you know me well and you know 0:08:40.800 --> 0:08:41.480 like I don't. 0:08:42.760 --> 0:08:43.120 I don't know. 0:08:43.160 --> 0:08:45.680 I never think anybody knows so I am, or like 0:08:45.760 --> 0:08:47.480 so I am or what I It's hard for me 0:08:47.520 --> 0:08:49.520 to recognize an impact I've had. 0:08:50.600 --> 0:08:53.680 You're not you stay very humble. 0:08:53.760 --> 0:08:57.120 You're not very cocky, which I that's probably the only 0:08:57.160 --> 0:08:59.520 thing about you that I would like amp up in you, 0:08:59.840 --> 0:09:02.199 is that that uh. 0:09:02.360 --> 0:09:03.480 No fucks category. 0:09:03.520 --> 0:09:05.240 I would amp it up a little bit more for 0:09:05.320 --> 0:09:08.120 you because you are so iconic, and I don't think 0:09:08.120 --> 0:09:11.840 that there's any I don't believe that staying humble is 0:09:11.880 --> 0:09:15.320 where somebody who's incredibly talented, who has offered their talent 0:09:15.400 --> 0:09:18.720 to the world and impacted generations of people. 0:09:19.160 --> 0:09:21.839 I don't believe that they need to go and you. 0:09:21.800 --> 0:09:24.400 Know, still self deprecate to the women and whatever in 0:09:24.480 --> 0:09:27.680 order for people to you know, see them as iconic. 0:09:27.760 --> 0:09:29.840 I think you can walk in bold and say, these 0:09:29.840 --> 0:09:31.560 are all the things that I've done. Now, let me 0:09:31.559 --> 0:09:33.760 tell you where I'm going and what I'm expecting to 0:09:33.800 --> 0:09:34.920 do with this room today. 0:09:35.360 --> 0:09:38.880 You don't have that switch though, I don't have what's 0:09:38.920 --> 0:09:40.360 your sign? Taurus? 0:09:40.880 --> 0:09:43.719 Oh god, I don't know enough about toros? Are you Aquarius? 0:09:44.679 --> 0:09:47.680 So we very we very much are like we we 0:09:48.080 --> 0:09:50.679 say a lot of the things that most people don't say. 0:09:52.440 --> 0:09:54.240 We're known to be those type of people. Were also 0:09:54.440 --> 0:09:56.960 like very like highly philanthropic. 0:09:57.160 --> 0:10:01.800 We give, We're very aware and active in regards to causes, 0:10:01.880 --> 0:10:05.600 and so we stay informed. Usually so when I walk 0:10:05.640 --> 0:10:09.400 in places like if we're not speaking the same language 0:10:10.040 --> 0:10:12.880 and I need something to get done, I'm just very 0:10:13.600 --> 0:10:17.000 blunt about what needs to occur, whereas you don't necessarily 0:10:17.000 --> 0:10:18.600 do that. When I've seen you and been with you, 0:10:19.240 --> 0:10:22.000 and I wonder, I don't know exactly how you're growing 0:10:22.080 --> 0:10:24.679 up was so it probably is some type of conditioning 0:10:24.720 --> 0:10:26.040 that happened with your mom and dad. 0:10:26.040 --> 0:10:42.640 I don't know, correct, Yeah. 0:10:35.040 --> 0:10:37.040 And I don't even know if it was so much 0:10:37.120 --> 0:10:40.640 from them, just what I perceived from an early age, 0:10:40.720 --> 0:10:43.800 like being aware at even five, like, oh, I'm a 0:10:43.920 --> 0:10:47.840 representation of my dad. My dad is famous, and no 0:10:47.840 --> 0:10:50.000 one sat me down, no one told me it was 0:10:50.040 --> 0:10:52.160 like when we go out, I just was quickly tuned 0:10:52.160 --> 0:10:55.240 into this is probably who I need to be. And 0:10:55.320 --> 0:11:01.120 from that moment on, I watched myself to everybody else's eyes, 0:11:01.160 --> 0:11:03.120 and I've never watched myself through my eyes. 0:11:03.240 --> 0:11:05.120 Do you want to know another human being that said 0:11:05.160 --> 0:11:10.120 the exact same thing to me, almost verbatim. Don Junior Really, 0:11:10.559 --> 0:11:14.920 same thing, same life, same understanding of never really being 0:11:14.960 --> 0:11:18.800 able to find his own identity because the pressure of 0:11:18.880 --> 0:11:23.000 being born into a last name is something that you 0:11:23.120 --> 0:11:27.199 never really get over it. I think you can. That's 0:11:27.240 --> 0:11:30.439 why I was trying to bring him down the path 0:11:30.480 --> 0:11:33.600 of glory in my opinion, but it didn't work obviously, 0:11:34.679 --> 0:11:36.959 So I don't know if you can. But I understand 0:11:36.960 --> 0:11:40.320 that to degrees that without you even having to get 0:11:40.360 --> 0:11:42.400 into it, I understand what. 0:11:42.320 --> 0:11:43.480 You just said very deeply. 0:11:44.280 --> 0:11:48.560 It's just a life that nobody will really understand unless 0:11:48.600 --> 0:11:51.480 you've gone in depth and loved somebody that's gone through 0:11:51.480 --> 0:11:53.520 that or you are a person that's gone through that. 0:11:54.200 --> 0:11:57.000 It's very it's very strange to be born into an 0:11:57.040 --> 0:12:00.559 identity that you had no control. It's very som learned 0:12:00.640 --> 0:12:05.040 therapy and trauma therapy to somebody who gets assaulted at 0:12:05.040 --> 0:12:08.120 a young age or has abuse occurring at a young 0:12:08.160 --> 0:12:11.240 age because they didn't know any better, they didn't ask 0:12:11.320 --> 0:12:13.679 for it. It wasn't a choice that they made, and 0:12:13.720 --> 0:12:17.840 they had to then after that see themselves through the 0:12:17.880 --> 0:12:20.079 eyes of it for the rest of time. 0:12:20.720 --> 0:12:23.120 And that's not really fair, is it. 0:12:23.120 --> 0:12:26.079 It's not what everyone's experience is with life, and so 0:12:26.120 --> 0:12:28.840 they kind of live a life that where they're a 0:12:28.840 --> 0:12:32.040 bit removed from every room that they're in because just 0:12:32.200 --> 0:12:35.600 nobody truly understands what that feels like except others that 0:12:35.640 --> 0:12:36.280 have been in it. 0:12:36.440 --> 0:12:37.120 Absolutely. 0:12:37.600 --> 0:12:41.400 Yeah, my therapist called it on some level and annihilation. 0:12:40.960 --> 0:12:41.520 Of the soul. 0:12:42.280 --> 0:12:45.240 Yeah, I agree with that, definitely, an annihilation of the soul. 0:12:45.280 --> 0:12:49.520 And if you don't correct it, it can get very extreme. 0:12:49.600 --> 0:12:52.400 I mean, drugs are incredible at helping things like that. 0:12:52.880 --> 0:12:55.720 I think all of us celebrities like no, at least 0:12:55.840 --> 0:12:57.760 I'm talking old school celebrity. I don't know what the 0:12:57.800 --> 0:13:00.040 young kids. Everybody's doing pink cocaine. Now I did it 0:13:00.080 --> 0:13:03.079 when it was white, but I yeah, there's. 0:13:02.920 --> 0:13:04.480 Like pink colored cocaine. 0:13:04.640 --> 0:13:06.640 Yeah, it's called something. Do you go. You guys are young? 0:13:06.640 --> 0:13:07.480 What is the pink cocaine? 0:13:07.600 --> 0:13:08.280 Guys are young? 0:13:09.679 --> 0:13:12.720 It's called something. But like, yeah, all the kids do 0:13:12.800 --> 0:13:15.000 pink cocaine. I'm like, I don't want my cocaine pink. 0:13:15.040 --> 0:13:17.800 The fuck is I would be scared to die. 0:13:17.880 --> 0:13:22.360 But too sy Trey talks about it in music called 0:13:22.880 --> 0:13:24.000 to Sy to Sy. 0:13:24.280 --> 0:13:27.200 Yeah, And so you'll hear rappers talking about the Two Sea, 0:13:27.280 --> 0:13:29.000 got the girls fucked up in the club on the 0:13:29.000 --> 0:13:31.160 Two Sea, Like the fuck, I'm too old for that shit. 0:13:31.200 --> 0:13:33.400 I don't understand it. And if I saw pink cocaine, 0:13:33.400 --> 0:13:35.200 I wouldn't. I would think we were doing a baking 0:13:35.240 --> 0:13:36.079 recipe or something. 0:13:36.120 --> 0:13:38.600 I would not. I would not. I would not think 0:13:38.720 --> 0:13:39.360 to snort it. 0:13:39.720 --> 0:13:42.640 But that's what I'm saying, is like back in that time, 0:13:42.720 --> 0:13:46.320 I noticed when trauma, when the trauma starts sitting in 0:13:46.360 --> 0:13:48.240 and you're at you know, fame goes. 0:13:48.120 --> 0:13:48.640 Up and down. 0:13:48.640 --> 0:13:50.319 If you're lucky, you get a lot of if you're 0:13:50.400 --> 0:13:52.280 lucky to stay. I mean I came in at like 0:13:52.440 --> 0:13:55.080 I think around seventeen, and I'm forty one now and 0:13:55.120 --> 0:13:57.679 I've not had a real job yet, so like I'm 0:13:57.720 --> 0:13:58.839 still in entertainment. 0:13:59.160 --> 0:14:00.800 So it's there's spend time. 0:14:00.760 --> 0:14:07.080 Around job god, real job, real life, real personality or care. 0:14:07.320 --> 0:14:11.120 I mean, everything I do is from my authentic self. 0:14:11.280 --> 0:14:13.280 I think that's why I think you do. 0:14:13.400 --> 0:14:16.960 Yeah, I create everything I do, So I think that's 0:14:17.040 --> 0:14:20.760 why I'm not I'm not able to move as high 0:14:20.880 --> 0:14:22.600 up as I would like a lot of the times. 0:14:22.600 --> 0:14:24.440 And why I've been around a lot of people who 0:14:24.840 --> 0:14:27.920 are very high up. I see what they're willing to 0:14:28.120 --> 0:14:30.280 compromise in order to get there, and I just can't. 0:14:30.920 --> 0:14:32.840 So when I show up to things, if it gets 0:14:32.880 --> 0:14:37.400 to a degree that is annoying at this point, just annoying, 0:14:37.400 --> 0:14:39.000 it's the word. But back in the day, it was 0:14:39.080 --> 0:14:43.560 like bending my integrity. I'm gonna have to say something. 0:14:43.560 --> 0:14:45.200 And when you say something is when they ask you 0:14:45.240 --> 0:14:47.640 to go home and you're no longer there anymore. So 0:14:47.760 --> 0:14:49.480 anything that you've ever seen me on where I got 0:14:49.480 --> 0:14:52.440 taken out early and it was clear that I should 0:14:52.440 --> 0:14:54.720 have been there a lot longer, That's what really occurred. 0:14:55.200 --> 0:14:58.120 I mean, everyone obviously knows making up the band, and that. 0:14:58.200 --> 0:14:58.760 Was one of them. 0:14:59.120 --> 0:15:00.920 That's when I can talk of There's a few others 0:15:00.960 --> 0:15:03.160 I'm contractually still under, but so. 0:15:03.160 --> 0:15:04.240 That one you can talk about. 0:15:04.680 --> 0:15:06.080 Yeah, I mean, I'll. 0:15:05.840 --> 0:15:07.720 Talk about anything as much as I can. You know, 0:15:07.800 --> 0:15:11.040 some contracts are lower than others. But yeah, I think, 0:15:11.120 --> 0:15:14.840 like i've I saw a lot of integrity lines just 0:15:15.200 --> 0:15:16.120 operating lower. 0:15:16.160 --> 0:15:17.560 And no judgment to those people. 0:15:17.560 --> 0:15:19.920 They're doing a lot better, their bank accounts are bigger, 0:15:19.960 --> 0:15:22.000 they run the world. All the girlies want to be them, 0:15:22.080 --> 0:15:24.200 but I know what they were doing to get to 0:15:24.240 --> 0:15:26.600 where they got and there's just absolutely no way that 0:15:26.640 --> 0:15:28.760 I could have done any of that. And I knew 0:15:28.760 --> 0:15:32.480 it very early on. I really tried to become besties. 0:15:31.920 --> 0:15:34.800 With all of the it girls to see what it was. 0:15:34.920 --> 0:15:37.640 And every time I became besties with every single one 0:15:37.680 --> 0:15:42.680 of them, I realized, and after you know, multiple period 0:15:42.960 --> 0:15:47.480 of months or years or time, there's nothing really unique 0:15:47.480 --> 0:15:51.480 and special here. This is just a very big organization 0:15:51.880 --> 0:15:54.840 and it's all very worked through and there are. 0:15:54.800 --> 0:15:55.640 A lot of people. 0:15:56.240 --> 0:15:59.280 Yeah, it's almost like it's what our old manager, Johnny Wright, 0:15:59.280 --> 0:16:01.120 when we first got on making the band he said 0:16:01.120 --> 0:16:03.080 to me. At one point, when you know, there was 0:16:03.160 --> 0:16:06.280 turmoils that were starting to occur. We went out to 0:16:06.320 --> 0:16:08.320 dinner and he said, you know, you're the leader of 0:16:08.360 --> 0:16:08.760 this group. 0:16:08.760 --> 0:16:09.240 You're the star. 0:16:09.280 --> 0:16:11.520 And I'm like, no, we're all we all sing equal, 0:16:11.600 --> 0:16:13.720 We're all equal in this group. None of us would 0:16:13.720 --> 0:16:16.160 ever we sing equally, We danced weekly, we. 0:16:16.080 --> 0:16:16.920 Do everything equally. 0:16:17.400 --> 0:16:19.800 And he was like, yeah, that's cute and all, but 0:16:20.560 --> 0:16:24.360 the audience has decided, the world decided you were the star. 0:16:24.920 --> 0:16:29.400 And because of that, you now have this responsibility to 0:16:29.440 --> 0:16:31.680 make sure that this group stays together. And I want 0:16:31.680 --> 0:16:33.400 to tell you one important thing for you to always 0:16:33.440 --> 0:16:37.680 remember in that position. The manager, the agent, the head 0:16:37.720 --> 0:16:41.800 of the label, your directors at the labels, your A 0:16:41.920 --> 0:16:45.560 and R, all the way down to your lawyers, agents, managers, 0:16:45.600 --> 0:16:46.960 even your fucking CPAs. 0:16:47.400 --> 0:16:49.200 We will all be here for the. 0:16:49.120 --> 0:16:53.360 Next sixteen to sixty girl groups that come after you. 0:16:54.040 --> 0:16:56.720 We will still be here with what comes after you 0:16:56.760 --> 0:16:59.200 and what we make after you. You are the most 0:16:59.200 --> 0:17:03.120 disposable and at the time it felt so. 0:17:03.160 --> 0:17:06.360 Real and the unquote leader, no, the. 0:17:06.440 --> 0:17:10.119 Artist, the person making the creations that the whole world 0:17:10.160 --> 0:17:13.800 falls in love with, is the most disposable piece. And 0:17:13.840 --> 0:17:16.320 that's what none of us understand. When we get in 0:17:16.720 --> 0:17:19.200 and the first time that we're disposed of, it breaks 0:17:19.240 --> 0:17:22.200 our fucking heart, and it breaks our heart so badly, 0:17:22.280 --> 0:17:24.320 and sometimes the pain hurts so much that you need 0:17:24.359 --> 0:17:26.720 to go to a doctor and talk to someone or 0:17:26.760 --> 0:17:29.840 be seen. A lot of times, especially back then, they 0:17:29.840 --> 0:17:32.600 were throwing pills around like crazy. That's why you have 0:17:32.680 --> 0:17:35.040 so many people and a little bit older and my 0:17:35.760 --> 0:17:40.199