WEBVTT - Episode 479: Chin Shot (feat. Finesse2Tymes) 0:00:01.520 --> 0:00:03.960 What's up this lip service? I'm angela yee, I'm g 0:00:04.080 --> 0:00:05.519 g Maguire, Jordi. 0:00:05.360 --> 0:00:07.280 Geor, I'm sorry, Prior Graves. 0:00:07.720 --> 0:00:12.240 Two of them, Like, that's definitely like two of them 0:00:12.320 --> 0:00:14.120 right this maybe four? 0:00:14.160 --> 0:00:17.319 You could see? This is this a normal size? Like 0:00:17.360 --> 0:00:18.119 what would you call that? A? 0:00:19.200 --> 0:00:22.000 Uh? This is right? This is this is normal? 0:00:22.400 --> 0:00:25.319 Okay, it's normal for him. Okay, that's a lot we 0:00:26.760 --> 0:00:29.720 what is that the whole the whole eighth in the 0:00:29.720 --> 0:00:32.239 the the whole eighth and that. 0:00:32.360 --> 0:00:33.200 Thing look heavy? 0:00:36.479 --> 0:00:40.240 Yeah, okay, all right, well for the next two times, 0:00:40.280 --> 0:00:43.520 it's back guys, okay, and a lot has happened since 0:00:43.520 --> 0:00:44.800 he was here for the first time. 0:00:45.920 --> 0:00:50.839 What what you got to say? What I'm a man now? 0:00:52.320 --> 0:00:53.120 He said, that's right? 0:00:55.680 --> 0:00:56.400 You yeah? 0:00:57.120 --> 0:00:57.560 Right or wrong? 0:00:57.600 --> 0:00:58.240 You are right? 0:00:58.360 --> 0:01:01.360 Okay, because last time Finesse two times is here he 0:01:01.440 --> 0:01:03.840 told us about you know, he had a couple of 0:01:03.920 --> 0:01:07.080 ladies and now you kind of changed your mind and 0:01:07.120 --> 0:01:10.120 said you want to be with just one? 0:01:10.640 --> 0:01:12.720 Is that? Yeah? But then I had went back to two, 0:01:12.760 --> 0:01:15.120 but I just recently got back to one. 0:01:15.480 --> 0:01:15.880 Yeah. 0:01:16.160 --> 0:01:19.319 So now that's why Actually Zuri Prior Graves, she has 0:01:19.360 --> 0:01:21.480 a flight to catch, so she's here four minutes. So 0:01:21.480 --> 0:01:23.679 I want to focus the first part of this interview 0:01:23.720 --> 0:01:25.760 because I saw you have put on social media that 0:01:25.840 --> 0:01:30.679 you were thinking about therapy, right, And Zuri is she 0:01:30.959 --> 0:01:33.720 is she does a lot of intimacy. She helps people 0:01:33.760 --> 0:01:35.800 on set, So she's worked on a lot of really 0:01:35.800 --> 0:01:38.880 big TV shows and movies helping people when they have 0:01:38.920 --> 0:01:41.440 like the you know, the sex scenes, intimate scenes, but 0:01:41.520 --> 0:01:45.680 anything that could be like potentially uncomfortable. He had to 0:01:45.720 --> 0:01:48.360 make sure that everybody's safe and taking care of. But 0:01:48.400 --> 0:01:52.520 you also, Zuri, are, you know, a clinician and a 0:01:52.600 --> 0:01:56.520 therapist and a sex therapist, a sex educator, sex educator. 0:01:56.320 --> 0:01:57.600 Educator, sex therapists. 0:01:58.920 --> 0:02:02.800 Yeah, And I think sometimes people go through things, especially 0:02:02.840 --> 0:02:05.040 and I would say especially men, because women we're I 0:02:05.080 --> 0:02:06.800 feel like most of us are a lot quicker to 0:02:06.800 --> 0:02:10.920 be like this happened, you know, I'm heartbroken, da da da, 0:02:11.160 --> 0:02:15.200 I cried, And men more act like they're good, you know, 0:02:15.560 --> 0:02:19.799 between when certain situations happen, and so sometimes men will 0:02:19.840 --> 0:02:22.480 be a lot less likely to look for outside help, 0:02:23.120 --> 0:02:23.320 you know. 0:02:24.000 --> 0:02:26.720 Yeah, I think I think my lack of intimacy come 0:02:26.840 --> 0:02:31.280 from just being incocerated, like just being locked up, like 0:02:31.560 --> 0:02:38.120 not being intimate at all, coming up, not getting out 0:02:38.120 --> 0:02:41.959 a whole lot of kisses and hoogs. You know what 0:02:41.960 --> 0:02:45.119 I'm saying. You know what I'm saying. But it ain't 0:02:45.160 --> 0:02:47.040 no shade or nothing. It's just life, you know what 0:02:47.080 --> 0:02:49.520 I'm saying. I think a lot of us come up. 0:02:49.560 --> 0:02:51.480 You know what I'm saying, come from where I come from. 0:02:51.560 --> 0:02:54.160 We come up and it's tough love. You know what 0:02:54.160 --> 0:02:57.560 I'm saying. I think this where I get my tough 0:02:57.600 --> 0:03:00.359 love from, like even for my keys, for my women. 0:03:00.800 --> 0:03:04.280 But what she's speaking on is like I want to 0:03:04.320 --> 0:03:06.280 come out of the phase like I want to come out. 0:03:06.280 --> 0:03:09.320 I want to be more more intimate, like more of 0:03:09.360 --> 0:03:12.639 the all type of like I did, Like I want 0:03:12.680 --> 0:03:14.440 to counter of be like I want. I want to 0:03:14.480 --> 0:03:16.720 be like that. I try a lot, I try hard like, 0:03:17.080 --> 0:03:19.200 and I do it in front of people. I do 0:03:19.240 --> 0:03:22.280 it like, I try real hard like. But it's still 0:03:22.680 --> 0:03:25.519 like cringey sometimes to me, Like it's cringe just to 0:03:25.639 --> 0:03:29.880 like hug people like it's still it's still it's still 0:03:29.960 --> 0:03:30.520 weird to me. 0:03:31.120 --> 0:03:34.040 Yeah, I say something, I think like you said you 0:03:34.120 --> 0:03:36.480 do it in front of people, and that was the 0:03:36.520 --> 0:03:38.720 only accolade that you assigned to what you just said. 0:03:39.440 --> 0:03:41.520 Does it feel performative, Like is. 0:03:41.520 --> 0:03:44.240 It like you when you are meditating. 0:03:44.560 --> 0:03:50.240 Not necessarily premeditated, but it's not necessarily for you or 0:03:50.280 --> 0:03:53.560 for that you are trying to show those worlds like this, yeah, 0:03:53.760 --> 0:03:56.400 actively like you're trying to show in those. 0:03:56.200 --> 0:03:59.840 Moments because when it's happening, like it feel fake, like 0:04:00.120 --> 0:04:03.160 feel it don't feel genuine, Like but I don't know 0:04:03.200 --> 0:04:06.320 what a genuine hoog is, Like I don't know what, 0:04:06.480 --> 0:04:09.080 Like it could be tight, it could be it could 0:04:09.080 --> 0:04:12.640 be whatever, Like I still feel like it's not genuine. 0:04:12.680 --> 0:04:15.480 I don't know, Like like I could tell the difference 0:04:15.520 --> 0:04:20.479 between a handshake if somebody is being a genuine or not, Like, yeah, 0:04:20.480 --> 0:04:23.720 I can I know when like handshakes with no eye 0:04:23.800 --> 0:04:27.880 contact and you know stuff like but hugs like they different, 0:04:27.880 --> 0:04:31.000 it's more intimate, it's more so. It's kind of like 0:04:31.400 --> 0:04:34.920 what about kissing, I can only kiss like the woman 0:04:35.000 --> 0:04:37.320 that don't with Like I can't kiss like that, Like 0:04:37.400 --> 0:04:41.120 I'm already like I'm not a big Like I'm not 0:04:41.240 --> 0:04:45.000 big on it, not because oh home food, not the 0:04:45.200 --> 0:04:48.479 type of shit, Like it's just like I just can't. 0:04:48.480 --> 0:04:50.400 What about kissing in a non intimate way when it 0:04:50.440 --> 0:04:51.680 comes to family and your children. 0:04:52.320 --> 0:04:54.560 That's what I'm talking about. Why are you talking about 0:04:54.560 --> 0:04:57.799 I'm talking about both ways, Like I'm talking about around 0:04:58.120 --> 0:05:01.719 around like like like like I can do it to 0:05:01.800 --> 0:05:04.800 my my new my new born baby like this here, 0:05:05.360 --> 0:05:08.680 like this the most ever, the most intimate ever, being 0:05:08.880 --> 0:05:11.720 like right, but like we had a home birth, so 0:05:12.400 --> 0:05:14.920 I pulled her. I ain't gonna say pull it out, 0:05:14.960 --> 0:05:22.000 but I like I was like I pulled it, like 0:05:22.040 --> 0:05:24.720 I got her, and it was like like out of 0:05:24.760 --> 0:05:28.719 all my kids, I'd never seen a birth before. Yes, 0:05:28.920 --> 0:05:32.880 so it was like it was super exciting to me. 0:05:32.960 --> 0:05:37.360 And it was like uh in like a different type 0:05:37.360 --> 0:05:37.760 of bond. 0:05:38.080 --> 0:05:42.599 Like I literally like stirred in one spot for probably 0:05:42.640 --> 0:05:45.479 like sixty seconds. Like when she came out and I 0:05:45.520 --> 0:05:47.920 gave it to a moment, it was like a stuck 0:05:48.040 --> 0:05:51.360 moment like I ain't hear nothing, I ain't really see nothing. 0:05:51.400 --> 0:05:54.760 It was like I seen life come into the world 0:05:54.960 --> 0:05:57.760 that was different from me, Like that's real to see 0:05:57.760 --> 0:06:01.520 a human come out of another may're a woman pregnant, 0:06:01.640 --> 0:06:04.839 like okay, she's pregnant, but to see it actually come 0:06:04.920 --> 0:06:05.680 out like. 0:06:05.640 --> 0:06:08.159 This is life, like she're and how many children do 0:06:08.160 --> 0:06:08.719 you have now? 0:06:08.800 --> 0:06:09.080 Five? 0:06:09.240 --> 0:06:09.520 Five? 0:06:11.279 --> 0:06:14.359 Yeah, So it's different and it's and it's like you know, 0:06:14.640 --> 0:06:16.960 and you know, I don't want to kiss no shade 0:06:17.040 --> 0:06:19.839 later on from my other kids. But it's just it's 0:06:19.920 --> 0:06:22.080 just super different, Like I think about it every day 0:06:22.760 --> 0:06:25.560 all day, Like it's just super different from me. 0:06:25.640 --> 0:06:28.039 So you feel like that changed something in you. 0:06:28.240 --> 0:06:31.240 It might like the intimacy, like I'm able to be 0:06:31.279 --> 0:06:32.920 a little bit more like affectionate. 0:06:33.520 --> 0:06:36.920 It's vulnerability too, because I'm the same way with kissing 0:06:36.960 --> 0:06:40.520 and hugging my everybody, Like I'm the worst hugger ever, 0:06:40.640 --> 0:06:43.239 And it's a level of vulnerabiley. 0:06:42.400 --> 0:06:44.760 Though, like just now, like I feel it. 0:06:44.760 --> 0:06:47.360 It's like a protection thing, you know, because that's where 0:06:47.360 --> 0:06:48.240 our heart is. 0:06:48.320 --> 0:06:48.800 I get it. 0:06:49.040 --> 0:06:51.040 So it's like a natural thing to be like. 0:06:52.000 --> 0:06:55.080 And I think sometimes when you come up in this 0:06:55.120 --> 0:06:56.960 world with a lot of like fake love around you, 0:06:57.000 --> 0:07:00.240 it's hard to feel like something that feels genuine cause 0:07:00.240 --> 0:07:03.000 there's so many times where things that you thought was 0:07:03.000 --> 0:07:05.919 real aren't. Yeah, and then it kind of makes you 0:07:06.080 --> 0:07:08.880 jaded where nothing seems like how do I know? This 0:07:08.960 --> 0:07:10.800 might feel real right now, but then later on when 0:07:10.800 --> 0:07:11.640 I look back at it. 0:07:11.680 --> 0:07:14.640 This wasn't it's like, nah, it's if you look at 0:07:14.640 --> 0:07:17.080 it like that, it's like you ain't being fir like 0:07:17.160 --> 0:07:21.400 to yourself if you aks me, because like but I'm 0:07:21.680 --> 0:07:23.840 I've been a victim of it, like it ain't fur though, 0:07:23.880 --> 0:07:26.880 like y, I can feel a certain way because this 0:07:27.000 --> 0:07:29.880 person made me mad and they was faking. They hoogs 0:07:29.920 --> 0:07:32.760 and they cry as one genuine and I take it 0:07:32.760 --> 0:07:35.640 out on there body else, Right, I do that, right, 0:07:35.720 --> 0:07:38.280 I tend to do that. Like but as I'm as 0:07:38.320 --> 0:07:40.640 I as I grow and I'm getting older, I'm starting 0:07:40.640 --> 0:07:44.000 to give like a person they own chance, like you 0:07:44.120 --> 0:07:47.080 got your own chance, Like I decided that everybody and 0:07:47.160 --> 0:07:49.840 everything I'd have been through, even with men, like it's 0:07:49.840 --> 0:07:53.040 shit that I hadn't been through with close partners. This 0:07:53.040 --> 0:07:55.840 this this like damn, I never thought, bruh do me 0:07:55.960 --> 0:07:58.000 like that? But then I can't go look at him 0:07:58.040 --> 0:07:59.720 like that, right, I can't go look at it. 0:08:00.320 --> 0:08:01.000 It's not normal. 0:08:01.040 --> 0:08:03.240 And you can't judge everybody else based off of what 0:08:03.320 --> 0:08:06.080 somebody else did because we are all different trauma. 0:08:06.560 --> 0:08:09.240 And I'm trying to I'm at peace and I'm trying 0:08:09.240 --> 0:08:11.920 to stay at peace, and I understand that dealing with 0:08:12.000 --> 0:08:15.840 past trauma's count of damons creep up, So I count 0:08:15.880 --> 0:08:18.360 of try to stay away from what do. 0:08:18.320 --> 0:08:19.960 You think, Sarry, because I really wanted you to be 0:08:20.000 --> 0:08:21.800 here to at least start this conversation. 0:08:21.800 --> 0:08:26.200 There so many different things you just said, But I think, 0:08:26.360 --> 0:08:27.920 like if we just go off of what you just 0:08:27.960 --> 0:08:29.960 said in terms of trauma, I think we hear that 0:08:30.000 --> 0:08:31.840 word and we think it's such a big word, and 0:08:32.120 --> 0:08:35.520 like if somebody says trauma, it's this huge thing that 0:08:35.679 --> 0:08:38.240 happened and you're gonna have this reaction, And all that 0:08:38.520 --> 0:08:41.240 trauma is in the little moments too. You know, if 0:08:41.280 --> 0:08:43.319 you do something or you're somewhere and all of a 0:08:43.360 --> 0:08:46.600 sudden you have a gut reaction that just doesn't necessarily 0:08:46.640 --> 0:08:48.920 make sense for that moment. A lot of times that 0:08:49.000 --> 0:08:52.120 that's trauma, like being able to be self aware enough 0:08:52.160 --> 0:08:54.679 to notice those itty bitty little things, like when you're 0:08:54.679 --> 0:08:57.480 going to go hug someone and that hug doesn't feel 0:08:57.679 --> 0:09:01.680 quite right. It might be something about that person, or 0:09:01.720 --> 0:09:03.360 it might be something about the way they hug you, 0:09:03.400 --> 0:09:05.720 and it's triggering something you don't even you can't even 0:09:05.960 --> 0:09:07.960 make that connection to it first until you do the 0:09:08.000 --> 0:09:11.120 work and being It's like one of those things is 0:09:11.200 --> 0:09:15.240 people talk about changing and being like, oh, I've done 0:09:15.280 --> 0:09:18.280 the work and I'm better. It's like, no, the work 0:09:18.360 --> 0:09:22.640 is continuous and there's no better. It's all about using 0:09:22.679 --> 0:09:24.760 and there's no changing you. You are who you are 0:09:24.840 --> 0:09:25.440 depending on. 0:09:25.360 --> 0:09:27.679 How old you are. The experiences that you had, they 0:09:27.720 --> 0:09:29.520 are what they are, and you have good days and 0:09:29.559 --> 0:09:30.640 you'll have bad days. 0:09:30.760 --> 0:09:33.320 But it's working with those things. You know, you don't 0:09:33.360 --> 0:09:34.480 have to necessarily change. 0:09:34.520 --> 0:09:36.600 And I think being in prison too and coming home 0:09:36.720 --> 0:09:39.600 after that, like the way that people are treated in 0:09:39.600 --> 0:09:41.880 prison is so different. 0:09:42.000 --> 0:09:46.080 Then it's just it's very I've been a like it's 0:09:46.160 --> 0:09:51.760 just real, like no contact like we on live service. 0:09:51.800 --> 0:09:56.120 I could talk, yeah, even like young when I was younger, 0:09:56.200 --> 0:09:59.800 like just from not have getting it them hoogs and kisses, 0:09:59.840 --> 0:10:03.440 like I never was able to have six missionary til 0:10:03.440 --> 0:10:04.200 I was older. 0:10:04.559 --> 0:10:07.920 Right where you're like looking at somebody and. 0:10:07.920 --> 0:10:11.160 It's not just because I don't want to, because I 0:10:11.280 --> 0:10:14.640 learned that that's one of a women's favorite position is 0:10:15.080 --> 0:10:17.400 to do it right, Like you know what I'm saying, 0:10:18.200 --> 0:10:23.800 But this one of women's like they say, dog, I 0:10:23.800 --> 0:10:26.240 couldn't do it. Maybe from the side. 0:10:26.920 --> 0:10:29.600 Okay, And you went to jail the first time when 0:10:29.600 --> 0:10:32.560 you were fourteen, when you were so imagine at fourteen 0:10:32.679 --> 0:10:35.360 years old, all the things that you didn't learn. 0:10:35.480 --> 0:10:38.800 So it's thick. It's thick, and I'm I'm catching up now, 0:10:39.080 --> 0:10:42.400 like to where like my girl asked me for kids 0:10:42.400 --> 0:10:47.679 out of nowhere, it's like, huh, like but you like that, 0:10:47.800 --> 0:10:51.400 but I like it, Like no, But one thing I 0:10:51.520 --> 0:10:53.439 learned had you got to tell a person what you're 0:10:53.440 --> 0:10:57.040 going through. So I communicate and be very big on 0:10:57.080 --> 0:11:00.280 communication because I want a person to know who I am, 0:11:00.280 --> 0:11:02.679 so you would know how to handle men, right, so 0:11:02.720 --> 0:11:05.120 you would know because now you don't handle me like 0:11:05.200 --> 0:11:08.079 I'm telling you I'm fucked up. I'm already telling you this, 0:11:08.280 --> 0:11:11.560 so now you know. And she she she helped me, like, hey, 0:11:11.559 --> 0:11:13.240 but give me a kid, like we could be here 0:11:13.280 --> 0:11:20.080 where I'd be like like it's cool, Like it's cool, 0:11:20.600 --> 0:11:23.480 but the average you know, I'm still growing on. 0:11:23.800 --> 0:11:27.480 Yeah, that's we're all in progress in this room, even 0:11:28.000 --> 0:11:29.600 you know. But I do want to say, even when 0:11:29.640 --> 0:11:31.480 you came up on lip servers the first time, you 0:11:31.600 --> 0:11:33.680 definitely were like, you know, not trying to be in 0:11:33.720 --> 0:11:37.840 a monogamous relationship either and so now that is something 0:11:37.880 --> 0:11:39.360 that you want or. 0:11:39.320 --> 0:11:43.080 No, Yeah, I mean like I'm leaving everything in her court. 0:11:43.280 --> 0:11:48.680 Like she's very like she like she she can fall 0:11:48.720 --> 0:11:51.320 in love with a woman like my girl wanted them 0:11:51.360 --> 0:11:54.040 type of people, like she can love a woman like 0:11:54.160 --> 0:11:55.200 for her as her love. 0:11:55.520 --> 0:11:57.520 So just to have some clarity from the last time 0:11:57.559 --> 0:12:01.760 we spoke, there were two. One was more of like 0:12:02.040 --> 0:12:04.000 the main girl or the first girl. This is still 0:12:04.000 --> 0:12:04.880 that she were speaking of. 0:12:05.000 --> 0:12:08.440 Yes, she's still She's still around. She never lived like 0:12:08.559 --> 0:12:11.880 she never she went through everything like I know, y'all 0:12:11.880 --> 0:12:14.240 see a lot of crazy shit about it, like and 0:12:14.320 --> 0:12:16.920 she went through, she went through, She went through the 0:12:17.360 --> 0:12:20.600 trials and tribulations, she went through the storm like you 0:12:20.640 --> 0:12:22.960 know what I'm saying, And I gotta, I gotta, I 0:12:22.960 --> 0:12:24.959 gotta see we got a little time. I got a 0:12:25.040 --> 0:12:27.680 baby mama that I had fell in little with, like 0:12:27.880 --> 0:12:29.360 you know what I saying when I was young, because 0:12:29.360 --> 0:12:31.319 she she helped me out the streets. She helped me 0:12:31.360 --> 0:12:37.320 get out the streets. And and I was just telling 0:12:37.320 --> 0:12:39.400 her that I was I was gonna get better because 0:12:39.440 --> 0:12:41.880 I was striving to be better, like and I was 0:12:41.880 --> 0:12:44.400 just telling him get on my ship, i'na be better. 0:12:44.440 --> 0:12:46.680 You know, I was broke, fucked up, I ain't got 0:12:46.720 --> 0:12:48.559 nowhere to stay here, I ain't got an I d 0:12:49.200 --> 0:12:51.439 like you know, it was that bad. Like you know 0:12:51.480 --> 0:12:54.160 what I'm saying. I feel like the girl who here now, 0:12:54.559 --> 0:12:57.440 I feel like she she she was able to deal 0:12:57.559 --> 0:13:01.080 with everything like it wasn't easy for like, and that's 0:13:01.120 --> 0:13:04.000 what I respected, because she put up a fight. It 0:13:04.120 --> 0:13:07.800 wasn't just no old fuck it, you know, just because 0:13:07.840 --> 0:13:10.719 I'm put up and I can you know I could 0:13:10.760 --> 0:13:13.680 do what I want to do that you know, you know, 0:13:13.720 --> 0:13:15.640 I'm just gonna let you do what you want to do. 0:13:15.720 --> 0:13:18.760 She wasn't quiet at all, Like she put up a fight, 0:13:18.880 --> 0:13:19.360 like she. 0:13:19.600 --> 0:13:20.319 Was getting into it. 0:13:20.400 --> 0:13:25.200 And it made me understand that that that you know 0:13:25.200 --> 0:13:27.679 what I'm saying, that you know that she care. 0:13:28.360 --> 0:13:30.160 You know what I'm saying, because I was wonder that 0:13:30.240 --> 0:13:32.320 like for a guy, if you put a woman through 0:13:32.360 --> 0:13:35.720 so much and she still stays sometimes I'm like, is 0:13:35.760 --> 0:13:36.840 he gonna ever stop? 0:13:37.280 --> 0:13:37.480 Nah? 0:13:38.000 --> 0:13:40.520 I mean, if I'm gonna be honest with you, it's 0:13:40.640 --> 0:13:42.560 me and it's me and not her, Like I ain't 0:13:42.720 --> 0:13:45.520 I don't know all I know is that I always 0:13:45.520 --> 0:13:48.680 had a person dream of being a specific type of man. 0:13:49.520 --> 0:13:52.480 And you know what I'm saying, And I knew I 0:13:52.480 --> 0:13:53.960 was gonna have to grow into it. 0:13:53.840 --> 0:13:55.560 But like what type of man if you have to say, 0:13:55.559 --> 0:13:56.000 what is that? 0:13:56.040 --> 0:13:59.640 Like? Like loyal? Just you know what I'm saying. But 0:13:59.679 --> 0:14:05.320 what helped me was that my girl love women. So 0:14:05.320 --> 0:14:09.120 so I'm just saying, Honey, I'm just gonna I'm gonna 0:14:09.120 --> 0:14:13.319 be one hundred percent every man want to fuck another bitch. 0:14:13.320 --> 0:14:13.880 You think, so. 0:14:18.559 --> 0:14:26.280 Listen, listen, Brol I'm gonna tell you, I feel like 0:14:26.480 --> 0:14:29.480 every woman in this world. Y'all might call it sharing 0:14:29.480 --> 0:14:31.720 a nigga, y'all might call it whatever y'all want to 0:14:31.760 --> 0:14:35.120 call it. If you was to at least if you ain't, 0:14:35.160 --> 0:14:37.640 even if you're not gay, even if you was to, 0:14:37.760 --> 0:14:40.840 let that man, let that man have fun with you 0:14:41.400 --> 0:14:45.480 every blue moon. He'll appreciate that. Me, I think I'm 0:14:45.520 --> 0:14:48.760 coming off for So it's like me and my girl, 0:14:48.800 --> 0:14:51.200 like I ain't cheating in a long time, though you have. 0:14:52.320 --> 0:14:53.360 It's a long time. 0:14:53.960 --> 0:14:57.240 Shell for a man, A long time in nine months, 0:14:57.240 --> 0:14:57.720 a year. 0:14:57.640 --> 0:14:58.040 Okay, So. 0:14:59.560 --> 0:15:02.480 It's been a long time since I want to hear. 0:15:08.800 --> 0:15:11.480 I'm hearing so oh my gosh, so many different things. No, 0:15:11.600 --> 0:15:15.520 but I mean no, but thank you for being honest. 0:15:15.520 --> 0:15:18.320 I think that's I mean, your journey is It says 0:15:18.360 --> 0:15:20.040 a lot about you that you are in this place 0:15:20.040 --> 0:15:22.280 where you're able to communicate these things about yourself. Ask 0:15:22.320 --> 0:15:25.160 for what you need, ask for what you want. I 0:15:25.200 --> 0:15:28.600 do think there is always something really interesting when people 0:15:28.680 --> 0:15:34.400 get into the narrative around like this girl did so 0:15:34.560 --> 0:15:36.720 many different things. They were there, Like you're talking about 0:15:36.800 --> 0:15:40.040 the woman who was there and she withstood all this 0:15:40.120 --> 0:15:44.000 other stuff? Is that a trauma response? Because you are 0:15:44.040 --> 0:15:47.200 attracted to the person who you put through the most. 0:15:47.200 --> 0:15:49.520 The person you love, but you put her through the most. 0:15:49.920 --> 0:15:52.280 Right, And then it's it's it's like, where does that 0:15:52.320 --> 0:15:53.800 come from? What does that need to do that? 0:15:54.240 --> 0:15:56.120 I feel like I told her these two days ago, 0:15:56.240 --> 0:15:59.400 I promise, like I just told her. I told her, 0:15:59.440 --> 0:16:02.400 I said, I wish, I wish you would have never 0:16:02.480 --> 0:16:06.480 met me, like when I first came home, Like because 0:16:06.480 --> 0:16:09.520 I don't feel like you deserve Like even though you 0:16:09.640 --> 0:16:12.680 might not be rich, you might not be known, you 0:16:12.760 --> 0:16:15.520 might not be perfect, Like you know what I'm saying. 0:16:15.560 --> 0:16:17.760 You probably had your share of me in or whatever. 0:16:17.880 --> 0:16:23.040 But you you're You're the perfect woman for me, Like 0:16:23.200 --> 0:16:26.240 you know what I'm saying, like from where I come from, 0:16:26.280 --> 0:16:29.040 Like you know, just the respect and being feminine. You know, 0:16:29.080 --> 0:16:31.560 I'm from Memphis, so we got a lot of aggressive women, 0:16:32.240 --> 0:16:33.480 a lot of women who. 0:16:33.320 --> 0:16:35.200 They that in New York a lot too. I just 0:16:35.240 --> 0:16:39.520 wonder they saying cause like they was like all. 0:16:39.400 --> 0:16:44.640 The street nigga slang. So it's like like so I like, 0:16:44.640 --> 0:16:47.720 like you could be the baddest bitch and say hey bro, 0:16:49.800 --> 0:16:53.760 it's a total turn off. So she one hundred percent feminine, 0:16:53.800 --> 0:16:57.120 like she cooked clean without me axing. I can ask, 0:16:57.320 --> 0:17:00.720 like I can be Finna say hey my shirt knee 0:17:00.800 --> 0:17:03.400 earn and look and his earn like like this type 0:17:03.440 --> 0:17:06.239 of woman she is. Like So it was like her 0:17:06.440 --> 0:17:07.080 just being. 0:17:06.920 --> 0:17:09.760 There for me, and then what do you do in return? 0:17:10.520 --> 0:17:13.520 I'm like I'm giving her like like me like she 0:17:13.640 --> 0:17:16.880 getting she getting me like and I'm I'm here for her. 0:17:16.920 --> 0:17:19.640 Like let me ask you this because and ZERI may 0:17:19.640 --> 0:17:21.879 not know this, but and this was very public and 0:17:21.880 --> 0:17:23.800 you talked about this. You recently found out a baby 0:17:23.800 --> 0:17:25.639 you thought was yours was not yours. 0:17:25.840 --> 0:17:26.880 Right, you did a. 0:17:26.880 --> 0:17:29.879 DNA test, well, your mom did, and then that's what 0:17:29.960 --> 0:17:32.959 led you to realizing that how did she react? How 0:17:33.000 --> 0:17:36.720 did your your lady react to that news? Also with you, 0:17:36.800 --> 0:17:37.840 like what did she say? 0:17:40.760 --> 0:17:43.560 I said yesterday, I wasn't gonna talk about this normal, right, 0:17:43.920 --> 0:17:49.560 because I feel like it's trauma. Like the average the 0:17:49.600 --> 0:17:53.639 everage baby dad that might be able to say, oh shit, 0:17:53.720 --> 0:17:55.280 I ain't got no baby, ain't mine. 0:17:55.359 --> 0:17:59.439 Oh here, Yeah, he wasn't happy, right, and you were 0:17:59.600 --> 0:18:01.320 fine because. 0:18:01.000 --> 0:18:04.000 I'm because I'm because I'm like I'm a family orient 0:18:04.200 --> 0:18:06.960 like I got a small family. I want a big family. So, 0:18:07.560 --> 0:18:10.440 you know, so like there's a chapter in my life 0:18:10.440 --> 0:18:13.600 and I'm learning to like you know how they say 0:18:13.800 --> 0:18:16.800 like if you if you fake like you got over something, 0:18:16.800 --> 0:18:20.040 you ain't really got over it. Like this bullshit to me, 0:18:20.119 --> 0:18:22.439 Like if I go through something this traumatized, and like 0:18:22.480 --> 0:18:26.400 if I'm in peace right now, so give me give 0:18:26.440 --> 0:18:29.240 me four day, seventy two hours, I'm healing. I ain't 0:18:29.280 --> 0:18:32.440 got time to be I ain't got time to be stagnant, 0:18:32.520 --> 0:18:35.040 Like I ain't got time to be stuck on one situation. 0:18:35.760 --> 0:18:38.840 I've been. I've been, I've been behind too long. I've 0:18:38.840 --> 0:18:41.399 been locked up all my life. I can't afford to 0:18:41.400 --> 0:18:43.960 be sitting around streets and to press for three four months. 0:18:44.680 --> 0:18:46.920 I can't do it. I just can't do it. I can't. 0:18:47.160 --> 0:18:49.960 I can't afford to just because he he did some 0:18:50.040 --> 0:18:53.760 fileshit not go hire somebody else, like I got work 0:18:53.800 --> 0:18:54.480 to do, right? 0:18:54.680 --> 0:18:57.040 What do you think about this area as a coping mechanism, 0:18:57.040 --> 0:18:58.880 Like I can't just be depressed. 0:18:58.880 --> 0:19:02.960 Give me four days and I'm over it. 0:19:04.040 --> 0:19:06.440 I mean, I think if you're able, there's a difference 0:19:06.440 --> 0:19:08.320 between being able to be functional. 0:19:08.080 --> 0:19:12.000 May get consideration of cold heart a person and who'd 0:19:12.040 --> 0:19:16.000 have been through cold hearted situations like prison. Yeah, you 0:19:16.040 --> 0:19:18.159 see what I'm saying. So you got to understand that 0:19:18.520 --> 0:19:21.840 I'm already in the mindset like, don't nobody to give 0:19:21.840 --> 0:19:24.879 a fuck about me? No way, I'd have been down 0:19:24.920 --> 0:19:29.320 to my lowers like i'dn't been lonely, so dealing with 0:19:29.359 --> 0:19:33.920 a person I'm really trying for you, like I really 0:19:34.000 --> 0:19:36.280 don't give a f If you keep it real with me, 0:19:38.720 --> 0:19:42.760 we can go. But if you don't, I'm ready for 0:19:42.840 --> 0:19:46.240 that too, because I had not already been through the worst. 0:19:46.720 --> 0:19:48.159 It ain't gonna get no worse than this. 0:19:48.359 --> 0:19:51.640 Like, yeah, and you're talking about a lot of different emotions, 0:19:51.680 --> 0:19:54.439 and I think that the they're the ones that you 0:19:54.560 --> 0:19:56.520 show us when you come on to a show and 0:19:56.520 --> 0:19:59.840 you're like, I'm done talking about that and you need 0:19:59.880 --> 0:20:02.080 to move on publicly. And then it's the things that 0:20:02.119 --> 0:20:05.359 happened behind closed doors and your quiet moments and and 0:20:05.440 --> 0:20:09.600 all of it's okay. So even because even you started 0:20:09.640 --> 0:20:11.800 off this conversation very different than what you how you 0:20:11.920 --> 0:20:13.480 ended it, because it sounds like you're ending it and 0:20:13.480 --> 0:20:15.760 being like I'm good, like I'm done off of it. 0:20:16.320 --> 0:20:18.120 But you started it off saying I can't be one 0:20:18.119 --> 0:20:21.920 of those guys who, uh, you know, is more relieved 0:20:22.119 --> 0:20:24.880 than anything else. So there's a balance between the two. 0:20:25.520 --> 0:20:26.320 Does that make sense? 0:20:26.680 --> 0:20:29.240 Yeah, you started off saying that you're not one of 0:20:29.240 --> 0:20:32.640 those guys that you know because you care right, right, 0:20:32.680 --> 0:20:33.240 you do care? 0:20:33.480 --> 0:20:36.000 Right? There was that thing attachment you were looking forward 0:20:36.040 --> 0:20:38.320 to the family structure of what you are going. 0:20:38.480 --> 0:20:42.000 If I literally put my attention on it, like if 0:20:42.000 --> 0:20:44.200 I if I, if I put my attention on it, 0:20:44.240 --> 0:20:46.600 and I like, what is gonna do? 0:20:46.640 --> 0:20:47.600 There's nothing you can do about it? 0:20:48.240 --> 0:20:50.920 What's gonna happen? What can I do? Like, what can 0:20:50.960 --> 0:20:53.800 I do? Is fucked up? It happened, But what can 0:20:53.840 --> 0:20:55.919 I do? It's not gonna make the child mine is 0:20:55.960 --> 0:21:00.560 not gonna what can I do? So I'm I'm strong, 0:21:00.720 --> 0:21:03.679 I'm head strong. Like so you got to understand, like 0:21:03.760 --> 0:21:08.359 I said, you might not understand how I feel to 0:21:08.560 --> 0:21:14.400 sit in a sale for fourteen months, for twenty four 0:21:14.440 --> 0:21:18.879 hours a day, and it might sound foreign as fucked like, 0:21:18.960 --> 0:21:23.520 and it might just yeah, but it's real life. And 0:21:23.560 --> 0:21:25.320 then get to the point where you would be like, 0:21:26.400 --> 0:21:29.959 what the fuck I'm gonna do? Like, what what am 0:21:30.000 --> 0:21:33.320 I gonna? What am I gonna this? You? I'm what 0:21:33.320 --> 0:21:36.160 I'm what I'm what I'm what I'm what I'm what 0:21:36.200 --> 0:21:38.560 I'm what, I'm a wig out tell them I'm finna 0:21:38.560 --> 0:21:41.560 go commit suicide and then have them come and put 0:21:41.600 --> 0:21:44.399 me in a turtle suit and put me in a 0:21:44.520 --> 0:21:49.040 sale with no toilet or nothing. You're my situations worse. 0:21:49.359 --> 0:21:52.520 It's kind of like when you've dealt with such bad things, 0:21:52.640 --> 0:21:53.760 what is worse than that? 0:21:55.240 --> 0:21:57.760 It's great, it's the next it's the next thing to death. 0:21:58.160 --> 0:22:01.520 So but I don't care myself like that. I don't 0:22:01.560 --> 0:22:04.640 move like that. I don't walk around and carry myself. 0:22:04.680 --> 0:22:08.800 I carry myself with respect, dignity. I'm a man, I 0:22:09.760 --> 0:22:13.480 demand my respect, I give respect. But in the same 0:22:13.560 --> 0:22:17.200 sentence like I'm looking at it like life, Like if 0:22:17.240 --> 0:22:18.320 you keep it real with me. 0:22:18.359 --> 0:22:20.600 Then should you think you have a bad temper? 0:22:21.320 --> 0:22:22.160 Nah? Not no more? 0:22:22.520 --> 0:22:23.959 All right, because I was just thinking about that. 0:22:24.160 --> 0:22:28.199 Not no more, not no more. I used to, I 0:22:28.320 --> 0:22:28.679 used to. 0:22:28.840 --> 0:22:31.960 But how did you how did you learn to manage that? 0:22:32.160 --> 0:22:35.280 Because that's not an easy thing. Like react differently. 0:22:35.600 --> 0:22:38.879 Oh, let me say this, Na, because I'm gonna be more. 0:22:38.920 --> 0:22:42.359 I'm gonna be MORENA, be more detailing, because all temple 0:22:42.440 --> 0:22:44.520 situation might not leave the jail. It could just be 0:22:44.560 --> 0:22:48.880 in a relationship when it comes to my woman. When 0:22:48.880 --> 0:22:53.760 it comes to women, I learned that women move off emotions. 0:22:54.840 --> 0:22:56.560 They helped me not be mad no more. 0:22:57.280 --> 0:22:57.879 That to me. 0:22:57.960 --> 0:23:02.800 Because like women don't really use they they they hard. 0:23:02.840 --> 0:23:05.560 They use their feelings, and then they use their hard 0:23:05.680 --> 0:23:09.679 after they use their feelings. Like a woman can go 0:23:09.760 --> 0:23:13.760 in and then say, but you. 0:23:13.720 --> 0:23:16.680 Know, it's the words. 0:23:17.080 --> 0:23:19.240 It's like, but they can say the craziest ship in 0:23:19.280 --> 0:23:21.640 the way, and that be the feelings. But you know 0:23:21.720 --> 0:23:24.760 that they really Yeah, I'll be laughing when my woman 0:23:24.840 --> 0:23:27.040 go off on me, like, oh when I see you 0:23:27.080 --> 0:23:27.680 on im. 0:23:27.640 --> 0:23:33.200 Like, do you think that means that she cares more trauma? 0:23:34.880 --> 0:23:38.640 Oh my god, it's a serious traumaban. We got about 0:23:38.680 --> 0:23:40.040 five more minutes with over here, so. 0:23:40.240 --> 0:23:44.040 Okay, but before you leave, what you think of me? 0:23:44.320 --> 0:23:45.160 Yeah? What you think? 0:23:45.200 --> 0:23:46.600 What's your impression of him? 0:23:47.080 --> 0:23:49.320 Last couple of minutes before you. 0:23:49.240 --> 0:23:55.520 I don't want to give you a hug. There we go. 0:23:55.800 --> 0:24:00.639 Look, real one, get a real one, not at the table. 0:24:01.359 --> 0:24:07.000 He needs a real hug. See, this is sweet you. 0:24:07.640 --> 0:24:10.160 I can just tell you have such a big heart 0:24:11.080 --> 0:24:13.680 and sorry, I can just tell that you have such 0:24:13.680 --> 0:24:19.000 a big heart and that you are a good man. 0:24:19.480 --> 0:24:23.119 And I can't imagine how exhausting it is. It sounds 0:24:23.160 --> 0:24:25.680 like when you don't have that example of that, how 0:24:25.720 --> 0:24:27.800 to find that in yourself and do it when you 0:24:27.840 --> 0:24:32.760 haven't seen it, and also having these kind of like 0:24:32.800 --> 0:24:36.840 trauma bonds with these people. It's you've had to have 0:24:36.920 --> 0:24:41.119 people prove that they love you a lot, and you 0:24:41.280 --> 0:24:45.679 found ways to see and to create situations where these 0:24:45.720 --> 0:24:49.359 women can prove that they love you. And I just 0:24:49.400 --> 0:24:52.359 hope that you get to the point where someone shows 0:24:52.400 --> 0:24:54.960 you that they love you and you see it without 0:24:55.640 --> 0:24:58.919 and accept it and receive it without because they see you. 0:24:59.000 --> 0:25:01.920 I can see you like you just I don't know 0:25:01.960 --> 0:25:04.959 you change, but it's like you are so you have 0:25:05.040 --> 0:25:07.520 such a warmth about you, you know. 0:25:07.680 --> 0:25:10.399 I think. I think. I think my anger and my 0:25:10.880 --> 0:25:14.119 and my character like that people get from me. I 0:25:14.160 --> 0:25:18.600 think it comes from me just battling with who I 0:25:18.640 --> 0:25:23.600 want to be versus who I was raised as, Like 0:25:23.880 --> 0:25:27.239 I was raised like this person, but like who I 0:25:27.320 --> 0:25:30.159 want to be is like a totally different person. And 0:25:30.240 --> 0:25:33.840 my and I get mad because shit happens, things go 0:25:33.960 --> 0:25:37.480 on that I'm not used to that I haven't seen 0:25:37.560 --> 0:25:41.440 before in my life, and like it make a nigga 0:25:41.520 --> 0:25:44.040 angry and make a nigga mad, And I last. 0:25:43.760 --> 0:25:46.159 Shout like what do you mean? What type of things? 0:25:46.840 --> 0:25:50.679 Simple things? Like it's simple things like and it's crazy 0:25:50.680 --> 0:25:53.640 that I got to see it again. But like fan 0:25:53.800 --> 0:25:56.600 out of child, ain't you? Like I said, the average 0:25:56.640 --> 0:26:00.160 that's the average dude, Like, but where I'm from, I'm 0:26:00.160 --> 0:26:02.320 the everage nigga fan out a baby and years like, 0:26:02.320 --> 0:26:06.920 oh shit for real, shit, but I ain't gonna lie 0:26:07.000 --> 0:26:12.000 ded lit. But but extality, they really don't give a fuck. 0:26:12.080 --> 0:26:15.199 They feel like they just dodged a bullet. But for me, 0:26:15.280 --> 0:26:19.000 it's like it's bigger than just it's the baby, it's 0:26:19.000 --> 0:26:23.840 the living everything. It's the lord to Like I'm dealing 0:26:23.880 --> 0:26:26.840 with a person that I took off the street. They 0:26:26.920 --> 0:26:29.199 didn't have nothing, they didn't have nowhere to stay, they 0:26:29.240 --> 0:26:31.840 didn't have no car, they didn't have no So I'm 0:26:31.880 --> 0:26:36.439 looking at it like family oriented. So I'm looking at 0:26:36.480 --> 0:26:38.560 it like man were family, Me and my brother and him, 0:26:38.680 --> 0:26:42.000 like we round were family, Like my women were all family. 0:26:42.000 --> 0:26:44.880 They call them brothers. They they's his sister. They it's 0:26:44.960 --> 0:26:47.600 all a family. We eat together, we go everywhere together, 0:26:47.680 --> 0:26:51.480 we protect each other. So you know, it's kind of 0:26:51.560 --> 0:26:52.920 like this lord to betrayal? 0:26:53.280 --> 0:26:53.919 Can you the. 0:26:53.920 --> 0:26:55.240 Baby into all of that? 0:26:55.480 --> 0:26:55.960 Right that? 0:26:56.400 --> 0:26:59.880 Like you get it, but I want to listen to you. 0:27:00.160 --> 0:27:02.159 But I mean that's I think that that that sums 0:27:02.160 --> 0:27:05.080 it up. It sounds like it's not just about the baby, 0:27:05.160 --> 0:27:08.000 it's about what the baby represented for you and that 0:27:08.080 --> 0:27:13.280 relationship that you built around this person who didn't exist 0:27:13.280 --> 0:27:14.119 for very long any. 0:27:13.960 --> 0:27:16.560 Time, you know, And yeah, you get it. 0:27:16.600 --> 0:27:19.040 But yeah, Sary, I really hope that this is going 0:27:19.119 --> 0:27:21.760 to help finess because you, like I said, I saw 0:27:21.800 --> 0:27:24.560 you say I think I might do some therapy, and 0:27:24.640 --> 0:27:27.600 I hope you do because I'm not even saying this 0:27:27.800 --> 0:27:30.800 just to you, but like everybody in this room, people 0:27:30.800 --> 0:27:33.879 will say you think everybody needs therapy Suri like or 0:27:33.920 --> 0:27:34.959 could benefit from it. 0:27:35.080 --> 0:27:38.240 I think absolutely, And I think like people people who 0:27:38.320 --> 0:27:41.120 aren't going for a particular reason, they're called the worried. Well, 0:27:41.640 --> 0:27:44.680 it's like the I got. 0:27:44.480 --> 0:27:47.760 To say something against it. See my mama told me this, 0:27:48.280 --> 0:27:49.720 you know, shout out the mama Pete. 0:27:50.960 --> 0:27:55.719 She don't play. 0:27:55.920 --> 0:27:59.080 She told me like she was like because every time 0:27:59.119 --> 0:28:01.040 she seem she could see me go through something right, 0:28:01.600 --> 0:28:05.080 and then when she see me, she like, what you 0:28:05.080 --> 0:28:09.480 think about when I be like nothing, And she'd be like, well, 0:28:09.520 --> 0:28:12.479 what the hell you mean nothing? Like why you just 0:28:12.560 --> 0:28:15.159 so emotionless? Why you don't? And I was like, ma, 0:28:15.640 --> 0:28:20.840 like I don't, like I'm not really like into like expressing, 0:28:21.680 --> 0:28:23.919 you know what I'm saying myself about certain shit, like 0:28:24.280 --> 0:28:26.480 you know what I'm saying like, and she was like, 0:28:26.640 --> 0:28:28.480 you gotta stop doing it. She was like, but I 0:28:28.560 --> 0:28:31.080 get it. You've been in concentrated so long. And she 0:28:31.240 --> 0:28:33.560 got me down packed. My mama got me down packed, 0:28:33.640 --> 0:28:37.119 like she get it, Like it's like she got the 0:28:37.160 --> 0:28:38.880 gift that I got. I have a gift of being 0:28:38.880 --> 0:28:41.400 able to put myself in people's shoes, like I know 0:28:41.440 --> 0:28:43.320 how to feel. Like that's why I treat people how 0:28:43.320 --> 0:28:47.280 I want to be treated, because don't treat me the 0:28:47.360 --> 0:28:49.400 fucked up because now you're finish, get a whole nother 0:28:49.440 --> 0:28:51.960 fuck them. Say so, I'm gonna do you what I 0:28:52.080 --> 0:28:53.800 want you to do to me, right, you know what 0:28:53.800 --> 0:28:56.080 I'm saying. And my mama told me, she said, oh 0:28:56.240 --> 0:28:59.320 you you know how to self therapy yourself, And she's 0:28:59.320 --> 0:29:02.360 so right. But because the time in jail I spent 0:29:02.800 --> 0:29:06.560 it was to myself. This is why I feel like 0:29:06.600 --> 0:29:10.720 she's right, because I found myself and begin my spiritual 0:29:10.800 --> 0:29:13.240 journey with the allt of war and with the four 0:29:13.320 --> 0:29:18.560 day Laws of Power, with everything I found that talking 0:29:18.600 --> 0:29:22.000 to myself, like I literally had to ex myself. What 0:29:22.160 --> 0:29:25.840 was my problems? How could I solve it? How could 0:29:25.840 --> 0:29:30.320 I do better as a man like me? How to 0:29:30.360 --> 0:29:35.440 stop blaming anybody else for my problems? Like because it's 0:29:35.440 --> 0:29:37.520 still your fault if you deal with them, but damn, 0:29:37.520 --> 0:29:41.360 it's fucked up because you gotta deal with somebody. But 0:29:41.720 --> 0:29:44.480 like you know, that's the fucked up part about life, 0:29:44.480 --> 0:29:47.800 because you have to deal with somebody. Even if a 0:29:47.920 --> 0:29:49.760 mother fucker cross, you still got to go fuck with 0:29:49.800 --> 0:29:51.200 somebody else. You know. 0:29:51.320 --> 0:29:55.720 I think that being able to also have and there 0:29:55.760 --> 0:29:58.320 you worgue with this resources are ways to deal with things. 0:29:58.400 --> 0:29:58.840 Sometimes. 0:29:58.840 --> 0:30:02.200 There's ways that because you're always evolving and growing and 0:30:02.280 --> 0:30:04.800 learning how to do things yourself differently, right right right, 0:30:05.440 --> 0:30:08.120 And there's definitely tools that I think somebody who's an 0:30:08.200 --> 0:30:11.360 expert can provide that could be beneficial for you that 0:30:11.440 --> 0:30:12.360 you don't even know about. 0:30:12.400 --> 0:30:15.400 But they just come with time and me being free. 0:30:16.200 --> 0:30:20.040 It just comes like situations like situation, just being free, 0:30:20.160 --> 0:30:22.720 just being home. Only been home two years now. 0:30:22.760 --> 0:30:23.680 Right, and you've done a lot. 0:30:23.840 --> 0:30:28.240 So let's give it up for that, because there's people 0:30:28.240 --> 0:30:32.160 that's been home like forever and they did you know 0:30:32.160 --> 0:30:34.760 what I'm saying, And that's I'm not even being funny, 0:30:34.760 --> 0:30:37.920 but that is that's amazing to be held in two 0:30:38.000 --> 0:30:39.360 years and to have accomplished with you. 0:30:39.440 --> 0:30:42.000 Yes, let's drink to that. I know you got to 0:30:42.040 --> 0:30:47.000 go have your last step and you can get out 0:30:47.040 --> 0:30:50.120 of here. But but I was I was just gonna 0:30:50.160 --> 0:30:50.440 say that. 0:30:50.520 --> 0:30:52.600 I think that when people think about therapy, they think 0:30:52.600 --> 0:30:54.760 about sitting in a room on a couch. You've got 0:30:54.840 --> 0:30:57.840 somebody with a pencil and paper looking up every once 0:30:57.840 --> 0:31:00.680 in a while, you know, and taking down notes and 0:31:00.680 --> 0:31:03.400 then giving you advice, and you come to that space 0:31:03.400 --> 0:31:06.000 in that situation because you have a problem. I think 0:31:06.040 --> 0:31:10.040 that those are the biggest miss about therapy. And it 0:31:10.120 --> 0:31:13.800 also doesn't have to be traditional talk therapy. That is 0:31:13.840 --> 0:31:17.200 a very particular type of therapy that's cognitive behavioral therapy 0:31:17.480 --> 0:31:22.880 or psychotherapy or whatever what you're talking about, Like somebody 0:31:23.000 --> 0:31:26.280 being able to contact somebody and ask for the tools 0:31:26.280 --> 0:31:29.400 because you can find them. But there are people who 0:31:29.400 --> 0:31:33.560 are specially trained in their ability to communicate certain ways 0:31:33.600 --> 0:31:36.120 for you to be able to do the things that 0:31:36.160 --> 0:31:38.680 you want to do for yourself. So being able to 0:31:38.680 --> 0:31:42.320 do self therapy, I mean, I do think that that's 0:31:42.320 --> 0:31:44.320 the thing. I think people who are self aware enough 0:31:44.320 --> 0:31:45.480 to be able to explore that stuff. 0:31:45.480 --> 0:31:48.880 I think it's I don't recommend it on a street though, yeah, 0:31:49.120 --> 0:31:52.320 maybe behind balls, but on the streets, I self, there 0:31:52.400 --> 0:31:54.920 you got to talk to somebody like you got to 0:31:54.920 --> 0:31:55.640 talk to somebody. 0:31:55.760 --> 0:31:58.920 I can't wait till you do this. I do, I 0:31:58.960 --> 0:31:59.480 really do. 0:32:00.200 --> 0:32:02.520 I think, Yeah, I think it'll be amazing for you 0:32:02.640 --> 0:32:04.880 just to be able to talk to somebody because, like 0:32:04.920 --> 0:32:06.760 you said, you've been through a lot. You've only been 0:32:06.760 --> 0:32:10.040 home for two years. This music business, boy, you need therapy, just. 0:32:09.960 --> 0:32:13.760 Some that to deal with that. You know, it's. 0:32:13.640 --> 0:32:16.320 New, it's new everything. That's that's what I'm trying to 0:32:16.320 --> 0:32:22.720 tell y'all. Everything the fame, the money, the situations. Everything, 0:32:22.800 --> 0:32:25.120 Like like the ship that y'all deal with, I probably 0:32:25.120 --> 0:32:28.120 ain't even made the two years. It's certain ship that 0:32:28.360 --> 0:32:30.720 I'm dealing with it. I'm still trying to that they 0:32:30.800 --> 0:32:32.920 still have the TV. I ain't gonna lie this ship, 0:32:32.960 --> 0:32:36.600 ain't even worrying about but I'm so caught up in 0:32:36.880 --> 0:32:38.680 the treachery of it. 0:32:39.200 --> 0:32:44.320 Like one more reason why probably like but I'm excited 0:32:44.320 --> 0:32:44.800 for you to do it. 0:32:44.840 --> 0:32:46.240 I know you well because I feel like you're that 0:32:46.280 --> 0:32:51.479 type of person, like, let me try it, try music therapy. 0:32:52.520 --> 0:32:57.360 Because overall I've been having a thing where people feel 0:32:57.400 --> 0:33:02.680 like I ain't good with women, like women feel like, 0:33:03.400 --> 0:33:05.600 you know, I don't have a big women fan bab 0:33:05.680 --> 0:33:06.720 big woman fan base. 0:33:07.840 --> 0:33:08.520 Two times. 0:33:08.760 --> 0:33:12.040 Yeah, but I feel like women think that I'm like this, 0:33:12.320 --> 0:33:16.160 like I'm not approachable, like I'm not these cool calm 0:33:16.320 --> 0:33:17.000 dude like. 0:33:17.080 --> 0:33:20.560 Because but you're not smiling. They could feel like he's intimidating. 0:33:20.800 --> 0:33:23.880 This is my wrist and phase. Yeah you gotta My 0:33:24.000 --> 0:33:26.160 daughter got it though, Like and I look out and 0:33:26.200 --> 0:33:28.240 I look out all the time, and I'm like, ooh, 0:33:28.480 --> 0:33:33.000 I love it though for the nigga, I love it, 0:33:33.120 --> 0:33:35.200 like you know what I'm saying, But I got a 0:33:35.240 --> 0:33:37.720 wrist and face, but like disliked it. But I'm not 0:33:38.000 --> 0:33:43.240 like like I'm very approachable, like like I like intellectual conversations. 0:33:43.720 --> 0:33:45.280 I like to you know what I'm saying. I and 0:33:45.360 --> 0:33:47.479 grew out a lot of my old ways, Like if 0:33:47.560 --> 0:33:49.520 you would have called me five years ago, I wouldn't 0:33:49.520 --> 0:33:50.400 even take a woman out of. 0:33:50.360 --> 0:33:53.240 The eat my god, you see what I'm saying. 0:33:55.080 --> 0:33:57.320 So I'm real, I really like and I'm trying. I'm 0:33:57.360 --> 0:34:00.680 having daughters and I'm trying to I'm trying to pay 0:34:00.720 --> 0:34:08.879 my dt to the universe before you get treat y'all 0:34:08.960 --> 0:34:11.480 right now, so so so so, so y'all. 0:34:11.560 --> 0:34:17.560 You know, Okay, listen, we're about to order some so 0:34:17.760 --> 0:34:19.359 you wouldn't take a woman out to eat, so it's 0:34:19.400 --> 0:34:20.239 just straight to the career. 0:34:20.400 --> 0:34:24.319 Back then, no, now, at first it was what I'm 0:34:24.320 --> 0:34:28.480 saying five years ago. No, back then, she had to 0:34:28.520 --> 0:34:33.200 have some money, you know what time of time, the 0:34:33.239 --> 0:34:38.440 sugar baby, I did a four three sixty, Like really 0:34:38.520 --> 0:34:43.000 I really didn't like now, like I don't mind you know, 0:34:43.120 --> 0:34:46.920 wining and dying. Now I feel like and especially seeing 0:34:46.960 --> 0:34:50.000 my baby come out, like it made me like really 0:34:50.080 --> 0:34:52.640 cared for a woman the much more, like I want 0:34:52.920 --> 0:34:53.879 everything for her. 0:34:54.120 --> 0:34:55.520 And also women go through a lot. 0:34:55.520 --> 0:34:57.880 When you see that miracle of birth, I feel like 0:34:58.000 --> 0:34:59.600 men could not handle that ship? 0:34:59.760 --> 0:35:00.799 Can you? 0:35:02.120 --> 0:35:02.400 Father? 0:35:02.560 --> 0:35:02.719 Day? 0:35:03.200 --> 0:35:05.440 If her dude don't open the door for her, I 0:35:05.480 --> 0:35:07.400 don't like him. 0:35:07.600 --> 0:35:10.480 Well you shouldn't, so that you got to open doors. 0:35:10.719 --> 0:35:12.120 Yes, you get. 0:35:11.920 --> 0:35:12.560 One more. 0:35:14.320 --> 0:35:16.520 And then I'm trying to do the three sixty because 0:35:16.560 --> 0:35:18.839 like I want them to grow up and be able 0:35:18.840 --> 0:35:23.480 to see like I want how my daddy even with women. 0:35:23.520 --> 0:35:25.080 That's how I want a woman to be with me. 0:35:25.280 --> 0:35:26.400 I'm not a man to be with me. 0:35:26.640 --> 0:35:31.600 Okay, how is your father ship? 0:35:32.360 --> 0:35:34.960 I don't even want to put that into this. This 0:35:35.520 --> 0:35:41.920 you got, we got that's gonna be a whole other conversation, 0:35:41.960 --> 0:35:42.760 and you're not gonna. 0:35:45.040 --> 0:35:54.160 Thank you for having me, And no, you're saying. 0:35:51.040 --> 0:35:55.640 Because hed so he were putting that together. Yeah, you're 0:35:55.640 --> 0:35:59.000 going to have a Yeah you you're ready to have us. 0:35:59.040 --> 0:36:01.279 You're ready to have a saisi let's go. 0:36:01.480 --> 0:36:01.840 Yeah, I. 0:36:05.600 --> 0:36:06.920 Debate like a motherfucker. 0:36:07.040 --> 0:36:14.879 Then that's not what therapy for. Forth, Fine, a debate. 0:36:14.640 --> 0:36:18.200 Thank you, thank you, thank you? All right? 0:36:18.239 --> 0:36:20.680 So your dad back to that. 0:36:19.920 --> 0:36:23.320 That's where I come from. I come from like straight 0:36:23.320 --> 0:36:26.040 from his nest sack, like he was a pimp. My 0:36:26.160 --> 0:36:29.799 dad with pimping. He was a gorilla. He gang bang gang, 0:36:31.480 --> 0:36:33.560 and that's what I grew up around, Like that's what 0:36:33.680 --> 0:36:36.120 I that's what I wanted to be. His name was 0:36:36.200 --> 0:36:40.560 Debo and my nine was little Debot like father like son. Okay, 0:36:41.239 --> 0:36:45.600 So he grew up booking, was booking and taking ship 0:36:46.000 --> 0:36:48.040 like so you know what I'm saying. He grew up 0:36:48.040 --> 0:36:51.560 booking niggas and I grew up booking niggas and then 0:36:51.760 --> 0:36:54.680 laying to me in prison, right you know. And at 0:36:54.719 --> 0:36:57.759 the age of he went to the penitential at the 0:36:57.760 --> 0:36:59.560 age of eighteen. I went in seventeen. 0:37:00.239 --> 0:37:02.080 So it was like really followed. 0:37:02.840 --> 0:37:06.239 I literally like followed him, like I literally followed all 0:37:06.280 --> 0:37:09.759 the way in his footsteps. Like yeah, but. 0:37:10.040 --> 0:37:12.560 Uh, you've changed. 0:37:13.120 --> 0:37:18.040 I changed, and I wish my daddy would have changed women, nigga. 0:37:18.600 --> 0:37:20.040 I mean he still has time. 0:37:21.480 --> 0:37:24.800 Man, my daddy, Like I love my daddy to death, 0:37:25.040 --> 0:37:27.640 but like I got one of them, Daddy's just like 0:37:27.880 --> 0:37:31.600 stuck in his ways, like fifty something me and fifties 0:37:31.600 --> 0:37:35.000 and he really like you don't like you know. 0:37:35.400 --> 0:37:37.480 Because you probably were stuck in your waist until you 0:37:37.520 --> 0:37:37.719 were it. 0:37:38.600 --> 0:37:40.640 Yeah, but I'm young, like and I get it. Like 0:37:40.680 --> 0:37:42.480 if I put it like this, if I had a 0:37:42.560 --> 0:37:46.440 son and my son was for this two times, he 0:37:46.560 --> 0:37:48.960 ain't know where I wouldn't be without my son, right, Okay, 0:37:49.120 --> 0:37:51.640 I don't give a fuck, Like I don't. He'll have 0:37:51.760 --> 0:37:53.799 to tell me a pops, I don't want you there 0:37:53.840 --> 0:37:58.160 and get what. I'll still be outside to one your 0:37:58.160 --> 0:38:01.200 little friend somebody going on and beat him like somebody 0:38:01.280 --> 0:38:03.400 gonna let me know where yet I'm here for mine 0:38:03.560 --> 0:38:05.960 like it is what it is, Like you could be 0:38:06.080 --> 0:38:08.800 mad at me or whatever. Bro, you know what I'm saying, 0:38:08.800 --> 0:38:11.160 but I'm now until you tell me, nigga, I don't 0:38:11.160 --> 0:38:13.719 want you around me. You make me feel just. But 0:38:13.800 --> 0:38:16.000 other than that, I'm here like I ain't you know 0:38:16.040 --> 0:38:18.560 what I'm saying, ain't no amount of money, I ain't No, 0:38:18.880 --> 0:38:22.000 we're coming from where we come from. Ain't no way 0:38:22.200 --> 0:38:24.560 like it wouldn't be nothing to stop me from being 0:38:24.560 --> 0:38:25.640 here with my son. 0:38:25.640 --> 0:38:28.319 Right right, But you know, sometimes it's ego too. 0:38:30.040 --> 0:38:31.880 I don't feel like this should be involved when it 0:38:32.000 --> 0:38:36.200 comes to a father relationship. I don't feel like ego pride, 0:38:36.239 --> 0:38:39.000 this should this shouldn't be involved involved, This shouldn't be 0:38:39.760 --> 0:38:42.239 ego and pride shouldn't even have nothing to do with it. 0:38:42.320 --> 0:38:44.279 Like I don't have ego of pride when they come 0:38:44.360 --> 0:38:45.000 to my kids. 0:38:45.800 --> 0:38:50.440 Yeah, Like, well, I think, who I can't wait till 0:38:50.440 --> 0:38:51.120 you talk to Zaria. 0:38:53.640 --> 0:38:56.480 I don't even do it. We gotta do that Art 0:38:56.480 --> 0:38:56.839 of War? 0:38:57.360 --> 0:38:59.880 Right, So is the album you said for you that 0:39:00.000 --> 0:39:03.479 it's definitely a strategy, you know with Art of War, 0:39:03.719 --> 0:39:05.000 Like that's definitely some. 0:39:05.000 --> 0:39:10.279 Strategy strategy within itself. So talk to me about that, okay, Well, 0:39:10.360 --> 0:39:11.279 the allt of War, like. 0:39:11.239 --> 0:39:14.600 I just and I'm glad I spoke on being incarcerated earlier, 0:39:14.960 --> 0:39:18.560 like it comes from me being incarcerated. Like I said, 0:39:18.560 --> 0:39:21.680 when I did the fourteen months on lockdown, we didn't 0:39:21.719 --> 0:39:25.120 have nothing but books. We had no communication to the 0:39:25.160 --> 0:39:29.080 outside world. We had no communication to It's just us 0:39:29.120 --> 0:39:31.840 on this range and it's probably like seven seven seals 0:39:31.840 --> 0:39:34.239 on this side, seven seals on the other side. So 0:39:34.280 --> 0:39:36.920 it's like fourteen of y'all. And it's weird because y'all 0:39:37.000 --> 0:39:40.120 end up growing to be like a small family, right, like, 0:39:40.200 --> 0:39:43.759 because it's just y'all on his range and y'all not 0:39:43.840 --> 0:39:46.480 going outside. Y'all, you gotta wonder, but this is it. 0:39:46.680 --> 0:39:51.840 But anyway, this book, I picked it up, and this 0:39:52.040 --> 0:39:55.080 older guy taught me how to read, like not read 0:39:55.200 --> 0:39:57.600 read like I knew how to spell and read, but 0:39:58.480 --> 0:40:01.279 he taught me how to read intellectual books like they 0:40:01.320 --> 0:40:06.480 with big vocabulary, with dictionaries. So I picked up a dictionary, 0:40:06.640 --> 0:40:10.080 all the dictionaries, different type of dictionaries, Spanish dictionaries, everything. 0:40:10.200 --> 0:40:13.120 That's great because I want to understand, like, I want 0:40:13.160 --> 0:40:15.799 to understand it because I don't want to just read 0:40:15.840 --> 0:40:18.280 this ship like you know what I'm saying, don't understand 0:40:18.320 --> 0:40:20.759 what I'm reading. Like, So I picked up a dictionary 0:40:20.800 --> 0:40:23.319 and as I'm going like I got my highlighter, like 0:40:23.400 --> 0:40:26.600 I'm really into it. Like, so I understood when I 0:40:26.640 --> 0:40:29.239 started reading All the War, I had already read The 0:40:29.239 --> 0:40:33.319 Four Days of Power, Behold the White Pill Hooys, so 0:40:33.600 --> 0:40:36.920 you know, and when I started reading this book, it 0:40:37.000 --> 0:40:39.560 got deep because at first I thought it was just war, 0:40:40.040 --> 0:40:45.480 just regular you know, shooting, just and that's what that's 0:40:45.520 --> 0:40:47.319 what took a grip on me because it was like, 0:40:47.760 --> 0:40:50.920 you have to have a warlike mentality, you have to 0:40:50.960 --> 0:40:58.000 have a warlike posture, characteristics, personality, you know. And that's 0:40:58.000 --> 0:41:01.480 what kind of humbled me to stick my chests out 0:41:01.520 --> 0:41:03.840 no more, like and I have to walk around with 0:41:03.920 --> 0:41:06.400 a mug on my face no more, because I feel 0:41:06.400 --> 0:41:09.680 like I am who I am, I've done what I've done, 0:41:09.880 --> 0:41:13.360 like and I don't have to portray I don't have 0:41:13.400 --> 0:41:17.600 to let people know I bush your ass. I don't 0:41:17.600 --> 0:41:21.360 got to let you know that. I'm just gonna be cool, 0:41:21.440 --> 0:41:27.080 come and collected and don't want to have to bush hey, 0:41:27.120 --> 0:41:29.960 br just move around, like go on about your bus. 0:41:29.880 --> 0:41:31.840 Is in the music business because people will test you 0:41:31.920 --> 0:41:33.280 and all kind of crazy. 0:41:33.600 --> 0:41:35.400 But when they come to that, when they come to that, 0:41:35.560 --> 0:41:37.560 I see I didn't been the places that they ain't 0:41:37.600 --> 0:41:38.480 been to, right. 0:41:38.640 --> 0:41:40.959 But you wouldn't know that on social media when people 0:41:41.000 --> 0:41:43.720 start talking crazy and saying things and then you're thinking, 0:41:43.800 --> 0:41:46.839 like I really did this and I really did that. 0:41:46.960 --> 0:41:50.520 But I do think people don't care no more, No 0:41:50.560 --> 0:41:50.959 they don't. 0:41:51.080 --> 0:41:53.040 People don't care about what you then did, No more, 0:41:53.040 --> 0:41:56.399 people don't. But I'm saying, I'm saying artists to say 0:41:56.440 --> 0:41:58.920 that I'm not gonna walk around my ship out because 0:41:58.960 --> 0:42:01.120 i know what I'm gonna do, and I'm not the 0:42:01.200 --> 0:42:03.759 guy to really just be thinking twice about what I'm 0:42:03.760 --> 0:42:05.759 gonna do. If I feel threatened, then it's just that. 0:42:06.800 --> 0:42:09.920 But I'm not trying to give off their type of 0:42:10.040 --> 0:42:13.280 energy or none. That's why I come in cool, come collected, 0:42:13.719 --> 0:42:16.000 because I know when it's time, I know what I'm 0:42:16.000 --> 0:42:16.319 gonna do. 0:42:16.640 --> 0:42:18.560 And those are the people that always the most dangerous 0:42:18.800 --> 0:42:20.040 when they walk in cool. 0:42:21.040 --> 0:42:24.399 But I don't have no problem. I'm not tough. I'm 0:42:24.440 --> 0:42:28.080 not like I'm not coming with like an entourage of 0:42:28.160 --> 0:42:32.200 fifty people. I'm not like I'm not coming in TIMI Dayton. 0:42:32.640 --> 0:42:36.040 I'm not trying to step on nobody toes and come 0:42:36.080 --> 0:42:38.879 and respectful, like if I had to take the bank guy, 0:42:39.000 --> 0:42:41.160 take the bank. I ain't you know what I'm saying, Like, 0:42:41.920 --> 0:42:44.160 but people don't know that about me. People don't know 0:42:44.239 --> 0:42:47.120 if it's you or it's a person who I grew 0:42:47.160 --> 0:42:51.080 to be that I've seen I didn't have to be, 0:42:51.160 --> 0:42:53.520 Like I came home and a lot of people old 0:42:53.600 --> 0:42:55.960 for this, for this, for this, because I was still 0:42:56.719 --> 0:42:58.720 you know, and then I had never been a drinker, 0:42:59.280 --> 0:43:01.720 like and then I I'm straight home drinking cost of megos. 0:43:01.760 --> 0:43:08.840 I don't even know what the fuck I wake up with, 0:43:09.320 --> 0:43:12.640 just crazy like like what the fuck? Like and it 0:43:12.800 --> 0:43:14.520 was fun as hell, like who I want to do 0:43:14.560 --> 0:43:17.520 that again? But then like days went back and weeks 0:43:17.520 --> 0:43:20.520 went by, I'm like, like, you know what I'm saying, 0:43:20.680 --> 0:43:24.120 Like the ship happened and serious shit happening. But back 0:43:24.160 --> 0:43:27.680 to the all the war and to the seale like 0:43:27.840 --> 0:43:30.480 this where I learned the all the ward though, like 0:43:30.600 --> 0:43:32.680 and it was more of a mental thing, and it 0:43:32.800 --> 0:43:37.120 taught me how to prepare for battle mentally. 0:43:37.040 --> 0:43:38.760 Like and each battle is different. 0:43:38.880 --> 0:43:41.040 They teach you that in there until you can't like 0:43:41.120 --> 0:43:43.600 this battle the same way you before you so you 0:43:43.600 --> 0:43:45.399 think you could do the same thing over and over 0:43:45.440 --> 0:43:48.840 again every single wars have a different strategy. 0:43:48.400 --> 0:43:52.080 But it gets deeper than it. Life itself is a 0:43:51.920 --> 0:43:56.839 is a war, like and I'm saying that to say, like, 0:43:56.840 --> 0:43:58.680 like how you just said you can't fight. You gotta 0:43:58.719 --> 0:44:02.960 fight every bottle different Like people don't know that. People 0:44:03.080 --> 0:44:05.880 people think that they can just go on by living 0:44:05.920 --> 0:44:12.080 life like life is really simple if you do to 0:44:12.200 --> 0:44:13.120 just do the right thing. 0:44:13.680 --> 0:44:14.919 Okay, that is true. 0:44:15.680 --> 0:44:21.520 It's I mean, but the unfortunate and the ship that 0:44:21.560 --> 0:44:23.400 we don't want to happen, it's going to happen. 0:44:24.400 --> 0:44:25.319 But it's I. 0:44:25.280 --> 0:44:28.879 Would say, I like that do the right thing phrase. Yeah, 0:44:28.920 --> 0:44:32.920 because even when the unfortunate happens, when at least you 0:44:32.960 --> 0:44:35.640 always know that you leave with good intentions, you did 0:44:35.640 --> 0:44:39.040 the right thing. I did my part, you know, and 0:44:39.280 --> 0:44:42.799 whatever else happens around that, some things are just not 0:44:42.880 --> 0:44:43.600 in your control. 0:44:43.840 --> 0:44:48.200 I did everything I could in my power. And I 0:44:48.239 --> 0:44:51.120 hate it about this, like about the new me, Like 0:44:52.560 --> 0:44:56.120 I hate it because like back in the days you had, 0:44:56.200 --> 0:44:58.680 you ain't even have a chance. It could be a treat. 0:44:59.480 --> 0:45:02.520 I can see, Fuck you bitch all nigga, you do 0:45:02.719 --> 0:45:04.719 get out of here like it wasn't no, like I 0:45:04.719 --> 0:45:08.480 ain't had no understanding, and that leaves me to say 0:45:08.480 --> 0:45:11.480 this right here. I've been having like this thing going on. 0:45:11.520 --> 0:45:14.200 I've been having a conversation with people about me giving 0:45:14.239 --> 0:45:19.560 people chances. Okay, because I give people chances a lot, 0:45:21.400 --> 0:45:26.160 because I feel like I changed, like and I was 0:45:26.280 --> 0:45:29.440 the last person on the earth without I trying to 0:45:29.520 --> 0:45:32.799 like to say some shit I say today or lett 0:45:32.840 --> 0:45:35.280 some shit go that I wouldn't mind. 0:45:37.480 --> 0:45:38.919 I feel like you've learned a lot. 0:45:39.040 --> 0:45:41.680 Like you said you were doing your self therapy that 0:45:41.920 --> 0:45:43.640 I feel like you give people a lot of chances 0:45:43.680 --> 0:45:46.680 because maybe you didn't have that and you kind of 0:45:46.680 --> 0:45:49.759 want to give other people the opportunity to see what 0:45:49.800 --> 0:45:51.000 they can do treat people. 0:45:51.160 --> 0:45:51.759 I want to be trying. 0:45:53.000 --> 0:45:57.239 But it can also be dangerous because you can give 0:45:57.280 --> 0:46:00.200 a person that this slight chance can cause you your 0:46:00.239 --> 0:46:01.240 life or your freedom. 0:46:01.680 --> 0:46:03.200 Yeah, I agree with something. 0:46:03.239 --> 0:46:06.400 It's hard to know, Like some people make honest mistakes 0:46:06.440 --> 0:46:09.160 and you can give them a second chance. Some people 0:46:09.200 --> 0:46:13.480 are intentionally doing up sh to you and you give 0:46:13.520 --> 0:46:14.239 them another chance. 0:46:14.280 --> 0:46:17.000 It just don't you know. I don't know. It's just 0:46:17.040 --> 0:46:19.879 hard to say something another chance. 0:46:19.960 --> 0:46:22.040 I feel like this is how I feel. I mean, 0:46:22.120 --> 0:46:24.839 I don't know. We we was raised different, we grew 0:46:24.920 --> 0:46:28.680 up different, We come up in different type of households. Me, 0:46:30.080 --> 0:46:33.400 I feel like, especially the life that I live today, 0:46:33.760 --> 0:46:35.480 Like a lot of my guys, a lot of my 0:46:35.560 --> 0:46:38.080 people that come around, they ain't used to being in 0:46:38.160 --> 0:46:40.800 no big house. They ain't used to being in no 0:46:41.000 --> 0:46:45.400 rolls Royce. They ain't okay being around niggas that you 0:46:45.440 --> 0:46:48.799 know of certain type of calibers. So they might get 0:46:48.840 --> 0:46:51.799 around and do jerk ship. They might get around and 0:46:51.880 --> 0:46:55.880 do ship that. And you know me, you know, months 0:46:55.880 --> 0:46:58.279 ago eight nine, I used to just cutting niggas off 0:46:58.320 --> 0:47:00.960 of ship like that. And this is just looking at 0:47:01.040 --> 0:47:02.600 it like, damn, bro, I don't really know. 0:47:03.080 --> 0:47:05.279 Yeah, I understand that you don't really know. 0:47:05.520 --> 0:47:08.440 But that's when intention matters, right, because if it's not 0:47:08.520 --> 0:47:11.240 a bad intention, and somebody does something just from not knowing, 0:47:11.840 --> 0:47:17.200 that's different than somebody with intentions of doing something versus. 0:47:16.800 --> 0:47:19.480 You just know right from wrong. You see what I'm saying. 0:47:19.640 --> 0:47:22.680 And it's just, you know, one of the principles I 0:47:22.719 --> 0:47:24.080 stand on, like, we ain't even do that. 0:47:24.320 --> 0:47:26.080 Can we get back to this missionary thing now? 0:47:26.400 --> 0:47:30.760 I mean, when did you start enjoying missionary? 0:47:31.120 --> 0:47:39.920 Man? I probably about twenty one okay, twenty one, twenty 0:47:40.040 --> 0:47:43.680 two okay, one of my first bid and I went 0:47:43.760 --> 0:47:46.719 in at jail house and got freaked out in the 0:47:46.800 --> 0:47:48.839 mind and I was like, when I get out, I'm 0:47:48.880 --> 0:47:49.239 doing that. 0:47:49.640 --> 0:47:58.080 But look in the eye, yeah, can tone kills. 0:47:57.480 --> 0:48:00.279 Might funk around looking forehead and everything. 0:48:00.480 --> 0:48:01.960 Why I'm gonna lie. 0:48:02.000 --> 0:48:05.879 I'll be jumping out there looking for just to say 0:48:05.920 --> 0:48:10.440 I've done, Like what was just saying? 0:48:11.120 --> 0:48:15.200 What else I heard? You can't you say? 0:48:16.239 --> 0:48:17.840 Yeah, I can't be just eating fishing? 0:48:17.960 --> 0:48:18.040 Right? 0:48:18.760 --> 0:48:21.240 Why is two hundred and fifty thousand? 0:48:21.520 --> 0:48:22.239 What's not mean? 0:48:22.680 --> 0:48:28.200 Because ship? They're more for worse something. What you're gonna 0:48:28.239 --> 0:48:28.719 do after that? 0:48:30.280 --> 0:48:33.560 I mean, I mean what I'm like, it make it 0:48:33.600 --> 0:48:34.120 worth more. 0:48:35.520 --> 0:48:37.680 I'm saying, So you're gonna go get some here from 0:48:37.719 --> 0:48:41.959 another nigga that is worth listing my ship. What I'm saying, 0:48:42.000 --> 0:48:45.799 what it got to be a lion with this ship? 0:48:45.960 --> 0:48:50.320 But is it a safety hazard because because their tongue five. 0:48:50.400 --> 0:48:53.000 Oh, I thought it was like dangerous or something like 0:48:53.080 --> 0:48:53.800 you could cut. 0:48:53.640 --> 0:48:57.440 The No, I ain't doing that now. I had about 0:48:57.440 --> 0:48:58.879 three so far. 0:48:58.960 --> 0:49:04.520 Yeah, okay, yeah, so it's just personal preference. 0:49:05.480 --> 0:49:09.000 Yeah, yeah, I have about three four tests runs. My 0:49:09.040 --> 0:49:10.320 test runs turned out. 0:49:10.160 --> 0:49:14.400 To be successful. Okay, so you just are retired. 0:49:15.040 --> 0:49:18.880 No, I ain't retired now, it's just. 0:49:17.880 --> 0:49:27.320 Being more selective, super selected, super selective. 0:49:27.880 --> 0:49:28.719 Yeah I can't. 0:49:29.120 --> 0:49:29.520 I can't. 0:49:29.880 --> 0:49:34.160 So what's the prerequisite, you know, like, what's the what 0:49:33.760 --> 0:49:36.560 the what? What's the qualification? 0:49:37.520 --> 0:49:41.000 First of all, if you got to go through my woman? 0:49:41.719 --> 0:49:44.000 Okay, well that's first anyway, what does she like? 0:49:47.719 --> 0:49:51.960 This? Who spiked my sexual drive? Like my sexual drive? 0:49:52.040 --> 0:49:52.160 One? 0:49:52.280 --> 0:49:55.120 Like this, like I can go around or two I'm tired. 0:49:55.160 --> 0:50:00.320 It's old with like oh like after the second around, 0:50:00.400 --> 0:50:05.440 it's like she where you're going coming up? Mine? I 0:50:05.600 --> 0:50:09.200 was going to sleep, but but but but like after 0:50:09.239 --> 0:50:12.759 so long, I'm like she, when you wake up and 0:50:12.800 --> 0:50:15.359 you get in head, what can you do? Right? You? Right, 0:50:16.239 --> 0:50:22.000 it's time to go. That's how I wake up like 0:50:22.120 --> 0:50:26.520 damn there every day? Yeah, I go to sleep. Good. 0:50:26.920 --> 0:50:30.439 What if she brings somebody else home and she's it's 0:50:30.480 --> 0:50:32.040 okay if you wake up and they're going at it 0:50:32.120 --> 0:50:33.040 and you will still sleep? 0:50:33.120 --> 0:50:35.480 Okay, Nah, I ain't gonna sleep. 0:50:35.880 --> 0:50:37.319 I mean, let's just say you wake up and then 0:50:37.400 --> 0:50:39.040 you didn't you know, you're like oh ship what's going 0:50:39.080 --> 0:50:39.680 on over here? 0:50:40.040 --> 0:50:42.800 Yeah, I'm gonna go brush my teachers, get active. 0:50:42.960 --> 0:50:44.640 I'm glad you brush your teeth first. I don't like 0:50:44.640 --> 0:50:45.399 when people don't do. 0:50:45.400 --> 0:50:52.480 That most and then then it's about time to get active. 0:50:52.600 --> 0:50:54.120 If you be going down like this. 0:50:54.600 --> 0:50:57.359 Now for the third party, for the girl that gets 0:50:57.440 --> 0:50:59.919 brought home, are you allowed to look her in the eye? 0:51:00.040 --> 0:51:00.320 Kissing? 0:51:00.400 --> 0:51:04.520 And I ain't gonna even not lie right the one 0:51:04.640 --> 0:51:09.840 man with women right now, like I ain't, I ain't, 0:51:09.920 --> 0:51:12.040 I ain't. I ain't vulnerable like I used to be. 0:51:13.360 --> 0:51:16.880 I ain't gonna like I got to have a conversation 0:51:16.960 --> 0:51:20.280 in there like I used to be able to just boom, 0:51:20.360 --> 0:51:22.880 meet you at the meet you at the club. Damn 0:51:22.920 --> 0:51:25.640 you think it's here, you bad, it's here. Boom, take 0:51:25.640 --> 0:51:27.960 her to the room. Fucking ship out of here. I'm 0:51:28.000 --> 0:51:30.919 to my hamn on to my hour hour and hand 0:51:31.640 --> 0:51:35.880 honey peck on to my hennessy cost of nego do 0:51:35.960 --> 0:51:39.280 a dirty year to my scene? 0:51:39.920 --> 0:51:42.239 Is there more? What else? I feel like you were 0:51:42.239 --> 0:51:45.440 giving us a whole line of visual that. 0:51:45.400 --> 0:51:53.239 You can visualize. Visualize it, Okay, So like when I 0:51:53.239 --> 0:51:55.440 when I found out that a woman like toys, I 0:51:55.480 --> 0:51:56.520 tell them to bring a toy. 0:51:56.920 --> 0:51:58.480 Okay, bring your toys. 0:51:58.640 --> 0:52:00.720 Bring your toys like I don't, cause you know, women 0:52:00.800 --> 0:52:04.600 be kinter they like they like they tours counter private. 0:52:04.880 --> 0:52:06.640 Well, men sometimes don't like that. 0:52:06.800 --> 0:52:12.360 Men jealous, They get intimidated, right, Yes, a lot of 0:52:12.360 --> 0:52:13.680 men feel like, why do you need that? 0:52:13.719 --> 0:52:15.680 If I got this, now you. 0:52:15.560 --> 0:52:19.399 Put the motherfucking but plug in it ass with them 0:52:19.440 --> 0:52:22.040 back shot ship like that. 0:52:22.440 --> 0:52:23.920 Okay, you get ship. 0:52:23.760 --> 0:52:28.360 Cracking like this, like nigga understands it took for me 0:52:28.400 --> 0:52:31.480 to do it. Let me say this. I can say 0:52:31.480 --> 0:52:40.000 that I was intimidated one I seen all over the bed. 0:52:41.520 --> 0:52:41.759 Yeah. 0:52:42.200 --> 0:52:45.479 See, y'all don't understand that. It's we only we only 0:52:45.520 --> 0:52:48.680 wanted to bring that into not to take your place, 0:52:48.760 --> 0:52:50.839 but just but they go. 0:52:50.840 --> 0:52:55.279 Back to the criteria of the two fifty. Okay, go 0:52:55.360 --> 0:52:59.640 back to the They go back to the criterion. Boom, 0:53:00.640 --> 0:53:02.320 my woman got to like you first. 0:53:02.680 --> 0:53:04.239 Okay, you see what I'm saying. 0:53:04.880 --> 0:53:07.160 So I ain't gonna lie like I ain't really just 0:53:07.160 --> 0:53:10.359 trying to just let know, anybody go on my two fifty. 0:53:10.160 --> 0:53:12.880 Like, yeah, you shouldn't even if you was. 0:53:18.440 --> 0:53:22.000 See see now y'all going deep. Now see I'm just 0:53:22.000 --> 0:53:24.440 talking being detailed about this new grilla. 0:53:24.840 --> 0:53:27.320 See you think before that you was eating anybody? 0:53:27.440 --> 0:53:30.680 I never list ate a total of five women all 0:53:30.719 --> 0:53:35.800 my life. What yes, I don't understand. I've been locked 0:53:35.840 --> 0:53:39.720 up all my life. I ain't never been just no mancha, 0:53:40.360 --> 0:53:40.959 I ain't never. 0:53:41.120 --> 0:53:42.520 But you do have five kids. 0:53:43.680 --> 0:53:47.719 Listen, but they ain't got to keep doing much. I'm 0:53:47.719 --> 0:53:54.040 almost I ain't never puy, I ain't never pusy know. 0:53:53.920 --> 0:53:57.399 How this so sorry? What you mean? 0:53:57.960 --> 0:53:59.759 Listen? I just did? 0:54:00.400 --> 0:54:02.560 Why the second requirement? Like, how do you know where 0:54:02.600 --> 0:54:05.960 it's like? Okay this like of the five? How did 0:54:05.960 --> 0:54:08.719 you know, like you know what she's special. I'm gonna 0:54:08.800 --> 0:54:09.360 let this happen. 0:54:10.200 --> 0:54:10.880 Hold on. 0:54:13.600 --> 0:54:19.880 That you might be count hold on saying it's less. 0:54:20.680 --> 0:54:28.399 Third baby Keisha, Letitia sa I met Now all these 0:54:28.400 --> 0:54:29.920 girls are going to be up. He ain't my plea. 0:54:30.200 --> 0:54:34.440 I swear to god they got me fucked up. And 0:54:34.480 --> 0:54:37.000 the three women that I've been with, but like it's 0:54:37.040 --> 0:54:39.360 crazy because one on them that ate it one time? 0:54:39.840 --> 0:54:44.080 Why because I just know, like, first of all, I 0:54:44.120 --> 0:54:46.239 feel like I couldn't do it. Let me say that 0:54:46.560 --> 0:54:49.520 you feel like like now now I'm. 0:54:49.320 --> 0:54:51.560 Fine, Okay, you got that I don't know. I think 0:54:51.600 --> 0:54:52.440 you need practice. 0:54:52.520 --> 0:54:53.680 I don't need no practice. 0:54:53.800 --> 0:54:54.560 Now he said, he's good. 0:54:54.600 --> 0:54:58.080 Now I'm making she shape. I got she down packed 0:54:58.160 --> 0:55:00.520 like because I'm gonna ex you. That's what I'm saying, 0:55:00.600 --> 0:55:03.920 Like that's my second required. I got to know you 0:55:04.080 --> 0:55:06.560 like I talk to you, like even if my woman 0:55:06.600 --> 0:55:08.480 brings you to the crib, like I want to talk 0:55:08.520 --> 0:55:11.279 to you for conversation. We gotta go out, we gotta talk. 0:55:11.320 --> 0:55:12.840 We got that. I want to I want to be 0:55:12.840 --> 0:55:14.959 because I can tell that they puss it good. 0:55:15.360 --> 0:55:18.440 You can't just from conversations like what's good pussy conversation 0:55:19.440 --> 0:55:20.640 like it's an energy. 0:55:20.719 --> 0:55:23.680 It's not a conversation like like like you can tell 0:55:23.719 --> 0:55:27.120 when they when when she moving and she that pussy 0:55:27.200 --> 0:55:30.400 with she she she squirmed like she she she probably 0:55:30.440 --> 0:55:33.279 got some wet pussy. But see if some women that 0:55:33.520 --> 0:55:35.799 pussy can get wet after they gets dry. 0:55:36.520 --> 0:55:38.240 Okay, see that when I'm. 0:55:38.480 --> 0:55:40.920 Kind of like when y'all get you know, did go 0:55:40.960 --> 0:55:43.520 down after you know it's like that kind of like. 0:55:43.680 --> 0:55:46.839 Yeah, yeah yeah, but she I ain't gonna lie. Ship, 0:55:46.880 --> 0:55:50.600 I'm gonna clean up. She go make some eggs or something. Ship, 0:55:50.640 --> 0:55:57.720 I'm ready, make some eggs. Make me buy two eggs. 0:55:58.000 --> 0:56:01.120 You know what I'm saying. Smoke a blood for a minute. 0:56:01.600 --> 0:56:02.120 What was up? 0:56:04.320 --> 0:56:06.240 He just needed That's what guys, it give me five minutes. 0:56:08.520 --> 0:56:10.480 I got to be able to conversay, talk to you, 0:56:10.560 --> 0:56:12.520 got to have a good vibe to you. 0:56:13.760 --> 0:56:18.200 Munch on you only just crazy. 0:56:19.000 --> 0:56:20.080 We gotta be able to tell you. 0:56:21.320 --> 0:56:23.160 Have you ever used toys that if a man like 0:56:23.160 --> 0:56:25.440 a cock ring or anything like that. 0:56:25.440 --> 0:56:27.600 That's like the ring that you put around your dick. 0:56:27.640 --> 0:56:31.759 That yeah, I did that one time. See what was 0:56:31.800 --> 0:56:49.720 still on? It was. 0:56:45.000 --> 0:56:49.440 Shout out the young drug had. Well he didn't wake 0:56:49.520 --> 0:56:52.759 up with a condom one, but he kept that condom. 0:56:52.640 --> 0:56:54.680 By accident to make said you woke up with the 0:56:54.680 --> 0:56:56.879 cock ring still on. So that means you had such 0:56:56.880 --> 0:56:57.520 a good time. 0:56:57.320 --> 0:57:00.920 You passed out. Yeah, so it was good. So you 0:57:01.000 --> 0:57:02.840 liked it? Like, so what all right? 0:57:02.880 --> 0:57:05.000 Because a lot of guys like be a little bit 0:57:05.040 --> 0:57:08.080 shy about using toys, But those are supposed. 0:57:07.680 --> 0:57:08.680 To work for me. 0:57:08.760 --> 0:57:12.040 I ain't gonna let it help me stay hard. I 0:57:13.040 --> 0:57:15.680 can stay hard out the jump, I could keep on. 0:57:15.960 --> 0:57:17.560 However, when you fall asleep on it, you have the 0:57:17.680 --> 0:57:24.560 risk of you know. 0:57:21.880 --> 0:57:26.040 I know I had probably I had probably by two 0:57:26.080 --> 0:57:26.800 three times. 0:57:26.800 --> 0:57:28.240 So you only use it that one time? 0:57:28.720 --> 0:57:29.040 You did it? 0:57:29.200 --> 0:57:40.160 Job, you only did it one time. 0:57:37.560 --> 0:57:40.000 The only time I can remember. But but like it 0:57:40.080 --> 0:57:43.400 was a female like that. She would like, right here, 0:57:43.480 --> 0:57:46.360 let's do this, and I was like what that is? 0:57:47.000 --> 0:57:49.680 And she would like, I get you down for whatever, 0:57:51.440 --> 0:57:51.840 but she. 0:57:51.840 --> 0:57:53.640 Would like put it on. And when I put it on, 0:57:54.920 --> 0:57:56.760 then they jumped for you're good. She got to suck 0:57:56.800 --> 0:57:59.560 in the head and I'm like, yeah, it's like to 0:57:59.720 --> 0:58:01.560 keep on and then it was up. 0:58:01.920 --> 0:58:04.440 I'm surprised that you liked it and only used it once. 0:58:04.720 --> 0:58:07.760 Because I ain't just gonna go to the It was 0:58:07.760 --> 0:58:11.040 a girl that I ain't finna fucking bound you ask. 0:58:10.960 --> 0:58:12.840 You to leave it? Can you leave that here? 0:58:13.640 --> 0:58:21.720 I love the mother fucking my girl. Break out a 0:58:21.800 --> 0:58:25.800 big ring like I'm gonna be like she is right right, 0:58:26.120 --> 0:58:27.640 I'm gonna go to the stowing back. 0:58:28.160 --> 0:58:34.800 You can order it online. 0:58:35.240 --> 0:58:39.439 Just a look too. You got she got to say, 0:58:39.480 --> 0:58:42.000 they put this on. 0:58:41.200 --> 0:58:43.320 You tell you right? 0:58:43.400 --> 0:58:43.720 Okay? 0:58:44.040 --> 0:58:45.400 So is that what you like? You like to be 0:58:45.440 --> 0:58:46.600 given orders in the bar room? 0:58:47.480 --> 0:58:52.240 You be? I do the fucking I mean, but. 0:58:53.720 --> 0:58:55.640 Yeah, that's not just for her to tell you what 0:58:55.720 --> 0:58:58.520 you do. You're not taking in structure. 0:58:58.560 --> 0:59:02.200 I said, I'm going all ready know like over them, 0:59:02.280 --> 0:59:06.840 I'm gonna get into a sleek sexual conversation and I 0:59:06.920 --> 0:59:09.880 might ask you, like, how you like that thing? Okay, 0:59:10.360 --> 0:59:12.800 they don't mean I'm eating. I just want to know. 0:59:13.200 --> 0:59:17.960 Don't ask me about how if at silly that's taking 0:59:17.960 --> 0:59:19.800 me telling me I can't get a back. 0:59:20.680 --> 0:59:23.200 That's not the same. Like if we're sitting there having 0:59:23.160 --> 0:59:26.920 a conversation, they ain't taking you the lieu of a ton. 0:59:27.880 --> 0:59:31.080 Yes it is. If you asked me. 0:59:31.200 --> 0:59:33.880 So, so every woman like so every woman like it 0:59:34.280 --> 0:59:37.920 different like some women like don't like they hold some 0:59:38.000 --> 0:59:39.960 women like, so, how you how you like? 0:59:40.520 --> 0:59:43.360 If you're asking, then clearly you're. 0:59:43.240 --> 0:59:46.840 Insimulating that you asking me if you're not about to 0:59:46.840 --> 0:59:48.640 do person, don't take me to. 0:59:48.600 --> 0:59:49.240 The store and don't be. 0:59:52.320 --> 0:59:52.560 Something. 0:59:55.680 --> 0:59:59.080 Listen, let's flip this. That's if we on a date. 0:59:59.280 --> 1:00:00.960 And I ask you you like your dick suck and 1:00:01.000 --> 1:00:02.720 then we go fucking I say, I'm not sucking a dick. 1:00:02.760 --> 1:00:03.720 How you asking? 1:00:04.960 --> 1:00:07.600 But but what I'm saying what I'm saying that they 1:00:07.600 --> 1:00:10.640 don't You can't be mad at me because I didn't 1:00:10.680 --> 1:00:10.880 do it. 1:00:11.120 --> 1:00:13.720 Just nobody saying. We're just saying, what's going to ask? 1:00:13.960 --> 1:00:16.240 They're not going to do it. You'll be all right 1:00:16.320 --> 1:00:19.160 to the next time, till the next time you'll. 1:00:18.960 --> 1:00:21.520 Be all you got something to come back to. 1:00:24.920 --> 1:00:26.000 They won't we know next time. 1:00:27.720 --> 1:00:30.600 I really, I really don't think that women's just sleeping 1:00:30.640 --> 1:00:35.720 men if they don't each the same respect about Fanny. 1:00:35.760 --> 1:00:39.920 Women listening to this and fanasic reason because you want. 1:00:41.280 --> 1:00:43.960 Reciprocated. Yeah, we're both gonna do it. 1:00:44.480 --> 1:00:46.680 I just feel like it's kind of like the precursor, 1:00:46.920 --> 1:00:48.160 Like you know, it's like. 1:00:48.120 --> 1:00:52.760 A yeah, nah, this ship ain't this ain't cool? 1:00:53.480 --> 1:00:54.280 What's not cool? 1:00:55.520 --> 1:00:57.200 You can't sit up here and act like you're freak, 1:00:57.280 --> 1:00:58.640 But then you look at your head. 1:01:00.200 --> 1:01:02.840 Every woman that that you have sex with the dad, 1:01:03.000 --> 1:01:04.320 let me say this answer yes or no. 1:01:04.560 --> 1:01:06.520 Let me say this. You got to eat that dick. 1:01:06.960 --> 1:01:11.760 But let me say this right here, let me go back. 1:01:13.240 --> 1:01:13.520 Sport. 1:01:13.720 --> 1:01:15.920 Let me tell you why the days I come from, right, 1:01:16.960 --> 1:01:19.080 you couldn't eat no puss it back in my day and. 1:01:19.040 --> 1:01:22.680 Now he's old school. Okay, come on now, stop. 1:01:22.440 --> 1:01:27.400 It always got to puss ain't always been eight. 1:01:27.680 --> 1:01:32.200 Yes it has, how do you know, star but not 1:01:32.200 --> 1:01:34.240 not not It just hasn't been talked about it, but 1:01:34.280 --> 1:01:35.200 it's always doing it. 1:01:35.960 --> 1:01:39.000 Won't eat no hair, pussy. Listen, motherfucker won't eat no hairs. 1:01:39.080 --> 1:01:41.600 I'm telling you. It's just in a motherfucker like. 1:01:41.920 --> 1:01:42.920 But he did used to be here. 1:01:42.920 --> 1:01:44.400 But let me say this. Let me say this, man, 1:01:44.480 --> 1:01:46.640 let me say this. You say this, still here, Let 1:01:46.640 --> 1:01:48.560 me say let me say this. Let me say this. 1:01:48.920 --> 1:01:51.640 The last time you had Harry pussy, man, I. 1:01:51.560 --> 1:01:58.240 Ain't had no head pussy, big pop up, bigger pop 1:01:58.360 --> 1:02:01.960 up with this bush or something, a little landing strip 1:02:03.040 --> 1:02:03.760 with this ship. 1:02:03.960 --> 1:02:06.680 You don't like no hair none at all? How do 1:02:06.720 --> 1:02:08.160 you know you don't like it? If you never did it? 1:02:08.800 --> 1:02:12.160 I don't won't think why not. I don't want to 1:02:12.200 --> 1:02:13.840 look at I don't want to imagine it. 1:02:14.680 --> 1:02:15.480 Are you bald? 1:02:15.800 --> 1:02:18.280 Yeah? Escape? 1:02:18.360 --> 1:02:18.760 Okay, he. 1:02:20.680 --> 1:02:20.800 Knows. 1:02:22.200 --> 1:02:23.080 I love that. You know that? 1:02:23.280 --> 1:02:26.720 Yeah? I get did you started man escaping now about sixteen? 1:02:27.040 --> 1:02:30.040 Look, I want to say you have great baby hairs, 1:02:30.160 --> 1:02:30.520 right you. 1:02:30.480 --> 1:02:31.400 See his baby. 1:02:32.720 --> 1:02:39.080 Ship? No? I just was thinking about you know. 1:02:39.040 --> 1:02:43.439 How they say due to Drake's master. Yeah he's bald 1:02:43.520 --> 1:02:54.000 down there. Yeah, my face, no man, escape. 1:02:54.640 --> 1:02:56.040 Woman did that for you and then after that you 1:02:56.120 --> 1:02:56.720 just kept it up. 1:02:57.640 --> 1:02:59.600 If feel better, Listen. 1:02:59.360 --> 1:03:02.240 I did that to a man before I did it 1:03:02.320 --> 1:03:02.800 to a. 1:03:02.680 --> 1:03:07.600 Man, a grown ass, old nigga, and his life was 1:03:07.720 --> 1:03:08.480 ever change. 1:03:08.880 --> 1:03:11.720 He was like wow, he. 1:03:11.720 --> 1:03:19.200 Was He was like a little kid. 1:03:23.640 --> 1:03:29.640 Did you shaving cream? Or did with the clippippers. 1:03:30.400 --> 1:03:30.680 Raised? 1:03:32.760 --> 1:03:33.720 But I did his. 1:03:33.720 --> 1:03:37.480 Whole body though, just back okay, all of the region, 1:03:38.160 --> 1:03:39.280 his boodyhole everything. 1:03:40.240 --> 1:03:44.320 I did it all. Speaking of which, speaking. 1:03:43.920 --> 1:03:52.600 Of whole brown, I was letting you know Sexy Red 1:03:52.680 --> 1:03:55.440 came out with her line lift glasses. 1:03:57.640 --> 1:04:03.800 Yes, so different. I want to ask your pocket hold 1:04:03.800 --> 1:04:04.040 on one. 1:04:04.640 --> 1:04:07.440 I want to ask which flavor you think you would 1:04:07.480 --> 1:04:08.120 like the best? 1:04:08.520 --> 1:04:14.760 Puts the whole pink, nut booted, whole brown, coachie juice. Yeah, yeah, this. 1:04:19.040 --> 1:04:22.760 Gun, real blue balls. 1:04:22.800 --> 1:04:25.959 Six on my period. I ain't gonna lie. I'm gonna 1:04:25.960 --> 1:04:27.280 tell you why I got to go with the six 1:04:27.400 --> 1:04:28.080 on my period. 1:04:28.200 --> 1:04:29.560 Okay, go ahead, tell us why? 1:04:29.760 --> 1:04:32.960 Because mine them be a bad down bad time, like. 1:04:33.360 --> 1:04:37.400 Down bad that's the red one. 1:04:38.160 --> 1:04:38.960 Yeah, I got the gun. 1:04:39.480 --> 1:04:40.760 Why is that a down bad time? 1:04:40.920 --> 1:04:42.360 We got the gone getting the shower. 1:04:43.320 --> 1:04:44.280 Okay, so you will. 1:04:44.520 --> 1:04:46.480 It could be three o'clock in the morning. You gotta 1:04:46.520 --> 1:04:47.800 get your ass in the shower. 1:04:49.560 --> 1:04:50.840 How often do you masturbate? 1:04:51.560 --> 1:04:55.520 She I used to do it a lot. I don't 1:04:55.560 --> 1:05:00.600 do that. Ship like no more? She like ship? 1:05:00.960 --> 1:05:04.240 I got it at the crib right, okay, is at. 1:05:04.160 --> 1:05:07.200 The crib now? But like I got a lot of videos. 1:05:07.320 --> 1:05:08.160 U so like. 1:05:09.680 --> 1:05:13.520 I get down, So you watch the video when you're 1:05:13.520 --> 1:05:15.840 traveling some ship like that? 1:05:16.040 --> 1:05:18.760 But not. I ain't just freaked in. 1:05:19.600 --> 1:05:24.320 But when gods masturbated? When y'all come, do you like 1:05:24.400 --> 1:05:31.360 make noise when a tree fall in the farest by myself? 1:05:31.440 --> 1:05:33.160 That make a loud noise. 1:05:35.480 --> 1:05:36.880 When the tree fall in the woods. 1:05:37.040 --> 1:05:43.600 Yeah? Probably, yeah, yeah, yeah, nigga make a noise. 1:05:45.360 --> 1:05:46.800 I definitely make noise when. 1:05:50.320 --> 1:05:55.040 Everything Like women, men like to see women play with themselves? 1:05:55.240 --> 1:05:57.360 Do women like to see me and play with themselfs? 1:05:58.880 --> 1:06:00.280 To me, it's more of a power thing. 1:06:02.120 --> 1:06:05.000 Do we like that? No? If you got the question, 1:06:05.200 --> 1:06:08.400 I want, I will say this because do that. 1:06:08.480 --> 1:06:10.760 No, I will say this. I want to see the ending. 1:06:11.160 --> 1:06:14.840 I want to see I want to see you. I 1:06:14.880 --> 1:06:15.440 want to see you. 1:06:17.040 --> 1:06:19.960 See this still, I go to see it explode. 1:06:20.080 --> 1:06:24.360 So savage that you like when he flow out or 1:06:24.360 --> 1:06:24.880 shoot out. 1:06:25.680 --> 1:06:28.680 I wanted to shoot. I want I wanted to be dramatic. 1:06:28.640 --> 1:06:31.920 I wanted to shoot like math fire watching it FaceTime. 1:06:32.360 --> 1:06:34.320 If you send me a video, if you send me 1:06:34.320 --> 1:06:36.760 a video, I'm with We're always to the end because 1:06:36.760 --> 1:06:37.680 I won't see what's going to. 1:06:37.960 --> 1:06:41.320 Remember when when I was younger, I was I was 1:06:41.360 --> 1:06:43.760 messing with this guy and we didn't have sex. We 1:06:43.760 --> 1:06:46.080 were just like messing around the heat nothing, but it 1:06:46.240 --> 1:06:48.640 like hit his chin. 1:06:49.440 --> 1:06:59.680 I can't do Yeah, that's what do you say? He 1:06:59.840 --> 1:07:03.560 was like, oh, man, I would I wouldn't respect you 1:07:06.400 --> 1:07:10.160 his own crazy. He didn't mean to do that, I know, 1:07:10.280 --> 1:07:12.200 but even then I wanted to hit my chin. 1:07:12.240 --> 1:07:15.040 I don't wanted to hit his chin expecting I don't 1:07:15.040 --> 1:07:16.440 want to hit his because he just. 1:07:16.480 --> 1:07:21.600 Was like we were messing. No, no, we were together. 1:07:22.160 --> 1:07:25.000 We had never had sex before, so I was younger, 1:07:25.120 --> 1:07:27.920 and you know, I guess you didn't expect that to happen. 1:07:27.960 --> 1:07:30.680 And then it just it shot but it hit him 1:07:31.240 --> 1:07:36.720 like yeah he was I don't think I laughed. 1:07:36.440 --> 1:07:37.960 But I was just like a little I was a 1:07:37.960 --> 1:07:38.560 little like. 1:07:38.760 --> 1:07:49.800 Taken aback funny. At least he didn't get in his mouth. 1:07:50.440 --> 1:07:54.920 Oh my god, Wow, what I'm just saying. I thought 1:07:54.920 --> 1:07:57.200 you would to say, gotten his eyes. No, if it 1:07:57.200 --> 1:07:58.760 would have got his eye, that had been crazy, had 1:07:58.800 --> 1:07:59.360 that pink eye? 1:07:59.480 --> 1:08:03.320 Right? No, So what is squirked? I need to hear y'all. 1:08:03.360 --> 1:08:06.600 Op, it's a mixture. It's not some pn it's a 1:08:06.640 --> 1:08:08.520 lot of pe. I've never squirted, so I'm a squirter. 1:08:08.560 --> 1:08:10.439 It's you never did me neither. 1:08:11.200 --> 1:08:13.560 Y'all be the best ones, the ones I aint never did. 1:08:13.600 --> 1:08:15.919 I don't give fuck with it. I like to see 1:08:15.960 --> 1:08:19.200 you when it's come out with her every reaction. I 1:08:19.200 --> 1:08:20.400 don't give a fuck what it is. 1:08:20.400 --> 1:08:25.240 So you think you can make anybody squirt? Yeah? 1:08:25.400 --> 1:08:27.760 They like from Missioneer though, Oh you learn that from 1:08:27.800 --> 1:08:29.479 Missionary like twenty one? 1:08:29.800 --> 1:08:33.920 Yeah? No, no, no, he I learned that like probably 1:08:33.960 --> 1:08:35.880 like my late twenties. 1:08:35.640 --> 1:08:38.439 Your late twenties. Okay, so what's the secret? 1:08:39.000 --> 1:08:40.840 She? You got to stand up and you got to 1:08:40.880 --> 1:08:41.960 hit that lit spot. 1:08:41.760 --> 1:08:43.080 Down now, Yeah, okay, that's it. 1:08:43.120 --> 1:08:44.759 You got it. You got to hit that lift button. 1:08:45.120 --> 1:08:48.000 Do the curves matter? Like, if there's a curve. 1:08:48.520 --> 1:08:49.720 I don't know nothing about this. 1:08:50.080 --> 1:08:50.880 You don't have a curve. 1:08:51.240 --> 1:08:52.920 No, I ain't got No, you don't have a curve. 1:08:53.040 --> 1:08:54.679 I feel like every guy has. No, they don't. 1:08:55.560 --> 1:08:57.519 I ain't got no curve, but I know how to 1:08:57.560 --> 1:08:58.679 I know how to heat the button. 1:08:59.320 --> 1:09:02.000 Okay, I experience squirre to here. 1:09:03.760 --> 1:09:06.320 I was with a man for a very long time, 1:09:06.920 --> 1:09:12.240 you hand. I was with a man for a very 1:09:12.240 --> 1:09:12.880 long time with. 1:09:12.880 --> 1:09:14.759 A curve that never made me squirt. 1:09:15.320 --> 1:09:18.400 I was with a man that for us having sex 1:09:18.439 --> 1:09:20.160 for the very first time, and he made me. 1:09:20.120 --> 1:09:22.960 Squirt a whole whole whole whole whole lot of times, 1:09:23.160 --> 1:09:28.080 like nineteen times. Okay, so you think that's straight, all right? 1:09:28.600 --> 1:09:31.599 He but what he did though, once he found that 1:09:31.640 --> 1:09:33.599 spot and knew like how to do it, he kept 1:09:33.600 --> 1:09:35.280 going back, kept going back, kept going back, and then 1:09:35.320 --> 1:09:36.800 it got to the point where he was not only 1:09:36.840 --> 1:09:38.360 finding it with his penis, he was finding it with 1:09:38.360 --> 1:09:38.880 his fingers. 1:09:39.320 --> 1:09:41.160 So it was just and I was a squirting on. 1:09:41.280 --> 1:09:45.400 You feel like you were like addicted to that. It 1:09:45.439 --> 1:09:47.800 didn't make you put up with more from a man 1:09:47.880 --> 1:09:51.000 if he could do that, No, I don't care to squirt. 1:09:51.040 --> 1:09:53.360 It's a orgasm. Is a orgasm that mess up if 1:09:53.400 --> 1:09:53.720 you want to. 1:09:54.000 --> 1:09:56.200 So what keep you with a man? Man? 1:09:57.000 --> 1:10:02.000 Honesty and chemistry. Of course, the chemistry is at. 1:10:01.880 --> 1:10:03.799 The time, what if you brutally honest. 1:10:03.800 --> 1:10:07.680 Though I'm brutally honest, I feel like she can handle that. 1:10:08.600 --> 1:10:11.479 She can like I think, so, I'm I'm I'm brutally 1:10:11.560 --> 1:10:12.280 honest about you. 1:10:15.920 --> 1:10:22.000 I need you to be respectfully honest. 1:10:22.040 --> 1:10:24.120 I don't even I think I need you to be 1:10:24.200 --> 1:10:28.640 more transparent like to me, there's a difference between that 1:10:28.720 --> 1:10:31.519 and honesty, Like if you don't like what I'm wearing, 1:10:31.560 --> 1:10:33.680 I don't want to know. But if you don't like 1:10:34.280 --> 1:10:36.160 me hanging out with so and so, I want you 1:10:36.200 --> 1:10:36.760 to let me know. 1:10:36.800 --> 1:10:40.200 And to me, that's different to tell. 1:10:39.960 --> 1:10:43.280 You that you're wearing some holy shit, but you no. 1:10:43.360 --> 1:10:44.040 I don't even mean that. 1:10:44.120 --> 1:10:45.720 I don't like even if I'm dressed like this and 1:10:45.760 --> 1:10:48.840 you don't like my outfit, like if I'm comfortable with it, 1:10:49.040 --> 1:10:52.400 I want to value me being comfortable, comfortable, and happy 1:10:52.520 --> 1:10:55.080 over what you're telling me. Something that doesn't matter, you 1:10:55.080 --> 1:10:57.400 know what I'm saying. But if it's something that is 1:10:57.479 --> 1:10:59.120 actually hard, I don't. 1:10:58.920 --> 1:11:02.400 Want my woman to looking silly. 1:11:03.800 --> 1:11:04.559 That's a good point. 1:11:05.680 --> 1:11:07.120 I would like for you to tell me if my 1:11:07.160 --> 1:11:09.479 outfit is not flattering or whatever it. 1:11:09.600 --> 1:11:12.200 Is in a way like I don't want to it's 1:11:12.320 --> 1:11:15.200 different than your ship looks like you know what I'm saying, 1:11:15.200 --> 1:11:16.400 Like brutally honest to me. 1:11:16.360 --> 1:11:19.519 Associated a level of it's how you say it. Cruel 1:11:19.640 --> 1:11:21.080 is not what you do. Is how you do it, 1:11:21.439 --> 1:11:23.439 not what you say, it's how you say that. 1:11:23.479 --> 1:11:26.240 Type of person though, like she seems like she she 1:11:26.360 --> 1:11:29.240 got the demeanor to be brutally honest. You could be 1:11:29.280 --> 1:11:33.800 brutal and you could probably still be soft with her 1:11:33.880 --> 1:11:36.840 at the same time, but like you got to be. 1:11:36.800 --> 1:11:40.320 Like soft brutal. 1:11:41.760 --> 1:11:42.920 You might not date me again. 1:11:43.280 --> 1:11:46.599 No, not even chase you for going to a black. 1:11:48.320 --> 1:11:49.719 Chase what you want the car and get away? 1:11:49.880 --> 1:12:00.639 Yeah, you will never speak again. You did that. I'm 1:12:00.640 --> 1:12:03.240 gonna pick you up for that one. They're like, girl, 1:12:03.520 --> 1:12:21.320 yeah we got away from my Yeah that's okay, that's different. 1:12:22.439 --> 1:12:24.200 I probably wouldn't say anything, but I wouldn't with you 1:12:24.320 --> 1:12:27.599 again exactly. It's a good story for my friends. Like girl, 1:12:29.040 --> 1:12:31.400 but because I got too much to you got to 1:12:31.640 --> 1:12:35.280 Yeah I got damn, but I wouldn't telling. 1:12:35.200 --> 1:12:39.479 You but no, nothing. What about the personal side of it, though. 1:12:39.680 --> 1:12:41.200 Why would you do that to me? I think if 1:12:41.240 --> 1:12:43.080 you cared about me, you wouldn't put me in that position. 1:12:44.240 --> 1:12:44.599 We need. 1:12:44.680 --> 1:12:48.280 It's a fun Okay, we leave the club. 1:12:48.600 --> 1:12:49.759 I'm on federal probation. 1:12:49.960 --> 1:12:53.840 Okay, I got some weed in the car. He's not 1:12:53.920 --> 1:12:54.760 really illegal anything. 1:12:54.760 --> 1:12:57.479 I'm just saying, on federal probation, idiot, because you got 1:12:57.479 --> 1:12:58.000 a gun in the car. 1:12:58.040 --> 1:12:59.919 Okay, I got the car okay. 1:12:59.840 --> 1:13:03.679 And not got Angela. You God damn. And I didn't 1:13:03.720 --> 1:13:05.680 think that. And I didn't even not know it was 1:13:05.720 --> 1:13:07.760 a gun in here until somebody colin told me it 1:13:07.840 --> 1:13:11.120 was a gun in here. Police get behind us. We 1:13:11.320 --> 1:13:14.760 in haircat. I got to do what I got to. 1:13:14.840 --> 1:13:20.200 Donna get us away. I don't we get away like 1:13:20.320 --> 1:13:26.920 wet be my friend, But what are your friends? 1:13:27.000 --> 1:13:32.360 I'm not right, take an uber home, but take person taking. 1:13:34.280 --> 1:13:37.360 What if you were just like not you like just 1:13:37.439 --> 1:13:39.240 a female, not the female that got all of this 1:13:39.320 --> 1:13:40.880 to lose the famous person. 1:13:41.040 --> 1:13:42.439 But what if you was just his bitch? 1:13:43.040 --> 1:13:45.080 You know what I'm saying. But it can actually happen. 1:13:45.320 --> 1:13:48.280 But act you have left the club for this two 1:13:48.360 --> 1:13:51.120 times one night, and we just what if? What if 1:13:51.200 --> 1:13:54.679 we in the spectrum when I'm in the New Roads, 1:13:55.120 --> 1:13:57.280 She liked it, and she said, well, let me get 1:13:57.320 --> 1:13:59.839 a ride. We all going to the same place anyway, 1:14:01.240 --> 1:14:01.599 and then. 1:14:03.479 --> 1:14:04.599 Okay, but we got away. 1:14:04.800 --> 1:14:13.920 We got away again. But I ain't getting in young 1:14:14.160 --> 1:14:14.400 no more. 1:14:14.960 --> 1:14:16.240 I didn't seen that. Shit happened. 1:14:17.240 --> 1:14:20.280 I'm not gonna say who it was, but oh wow, 1:14:21.000 --> 1:14:24.439 but listen, oh wow. I'm not gonna say who was 1:14:24.560 --> 1:14:27.360 I think exactly what was in Atlanta? You know what 1:14:27.400 --> 1:14:31.400 I'm talking about? Okay, years somebody was driving the van. 1:14:32.439 --> 1:14:34.599 Somebody in there, un named. 1:14:34.479 --> 1:14:37.120 Rapper had a gun. The cops is and he wasn't 1:14:37.120 --> 1:14:37.560 supposed to. 1:14:38.439 --> 1:14:41.160 Cops came, he know, got out of the van and 1:14:41.400 --> 1:14:44.760 ran and the other person driving got locked up for 1:14:44.840 --> 1:14:45.120 the gun. 1:14:47.760 --> 1:14:52.400 That was a wild time. But I'm not listen. 1:14:52.600 --> 1:14:55.080 I'm sorry, but that is not my life. Maybe when 1:14:55.080 --> 1:14:59.640 I was younger, probably not. Yeah, Jordan's not. 1:15:03.680 --> 1:15:06.320 I had to do that. 1:15:07.600 --> 1:15:11.880 I get that. I get that. I'm just saying, why 1:15:11.960 --> 1:15:12.559 did I need. 1:15:12.520 --> 1:15:16.080 To be in it? Because I couldn't stop, You couldn't 1:15:16.080 --> 1:15:16.439 get out. 1:15:16.680 --> 1:15:18.960 We would call your girlfriend and be like, come get him. 1:15:20.000 --> 1:15:24.880 He almost got us locked up, and I would be 1:15:25.439 --> 1:15:26.200 if I I we. 1:15:26.200 --> 1:15:28.639 Would be concerned for you too. We would be like, listen, 1:15:28.720 --> 1:15:30.240 you don't need to be doing that. You need a 1:15:30.320 --> 1:15:32.400 higher security. You have too much time. 1:15:33.080 --> 1:15:35.720 Get a driver put in. We would be like, you 1:15:35.760 --> 1:15:37.080 don't need to be even driving. 1:15:39.439 --> 1:15:44.320 How you Okay, Now let's just say you and I'm 1:15:44.439 --> 1:15:46.479 driving and I have a gun in the car, then 1:15:46.479 --> 1:15:48.280 I'm not supposed to have No, you're not even supposed 1:15:48.280 --> 1:15:48.800 to be around. 1:15:49.840 --> 1:15:51.240 You got to be licensed. 1:15:51.760 --> 1:15:52.599 I'm not licensed. 1:15:53.240 --> 1:15:55.400 Oh yeah, I don't supposed to being around you. 1:15:56.040 --> 1:15:59.280 I'm not gonna get in What are you not even 1:15:59.320 --> 1:16:01.040 getting in the car and we're all up in the car. 1:16:01.240 --> 1:16:03.800 No, I moved right, I don't move. I don't move 1:16:03.840 --> 1:16:06.640 with me. But you don't know I have it? 1:16:07.120 --> 1:16:09.639 Huh you didn't know it? Just like the same situation. 1:16:10.120 --> 1:16:15.160 Yeah, oh I'm not. I'm not. I'm not a whip 1:16:15.320 --> 1:16:18.160 of nine twenty two g in federal prison. You have 1:16:18.280 --> 1:16:20.960 to be knowing and willingly to be around. 1:16:20.960 --> 1:16:22.960 I'm glad you if I got that, I got in 1:16:23.040 --> 1:16:23.840 the car with you. 1:16:24.200 --> 1:16:27.559 Yes, I know the whole statue. Like they almost took 1:16:27.640 --> 1:16:29.960 my life away from me, so I had to learn this. 1:16:30.720 --> 1:16:32.760 Like so like if I get in the car and 1:16:32.880 --> 1:16:35.160 I don't know you have it, I don't have nothing 1:16:35.160 --> 1:16:35.479 to do with. 1:16:35.560 --> 1:16:39.200 It, okay, but let's just say it's still about Yeah, 1:16:39.960 --> 1:16:41.240 you just gave us this scenario. 1:16:41.439 --> 1:16:43.560 Now you're trying to make it way different for you. 1:16:44.040 --> 1:16:52.639 I'm just saying, that's why, that's why we got That's 1:16:52.680 --> 1:16:53.280 what I'm saying. 1:16:53.400 --> 1:16:57.639 Damn baby, like have some understanding, Like, damn baby performed 1:16:57.920 --> 1:16:58.639 for his freedom. 1:17:00.479 --> 1:17:01.720 What is you got us? 1:17:01.760 --> 1:17:04.120 The funk out of there, baby. 1:17:07.600 --> 1:17:07.760 Say. 1:17:07.840 --> 1:17:10.000 The cop is like, look, I'm gonna let you go, 1:17:10.280 --> 1:17:13.320 but I need you to take that two fifty. It's 1:17:13.320 --> 1:17:15.280 a woman cop, And she said, I need you to 1:17:15.439 --> 1:17:18.680 just take that too fifty and go to work and 1:17:18.960 --> 1:17:20.360 we'll just act like this never happens. 1:17:33.760 --> 1:17:42.120 Everything. I don't get nothing. 1:17:45.680 --> 1:17:48.880 We yall have five infire lives and moment. But listen 1:17:49.080 --> 1:17:52.000 art of board the twenty second that is out. Make 1:17:52.040 --> 1:17:54.720 sure y'all picked that up honestly, like you already see 1:17:54.760 --> 1:17:56.360 what he's like in real life. 1:17:56.400 --> 1:17:57.640 And I know this album is. 1:17:59.800 --> 1:18:04.800 Me Yeah from off just well compared to the last time, Yeah, 1:18:05.400 --> 1:18:06.280 I definitely see some. 1:18:06.360 --> 1:18:10.920 Growth compared to the things you heard, the things you 1:18:11.080 --> 1:18:12.800 see everything well. 1:18:12.840 --> 1:18:15.280 Being as though this is my second time speaking with you, 1:18:15.960 --> 1:18:18.240 I definitely see growth from the last time, which I 1:18:18.280 --> 1:18:22.160 commend you on the fact that you were so willing 1:18:22.240 --> 1:18:25.240 and eager to hear and ask questions and move forward 1:18:25.400 --> 1:18:28.560 with our therapist friend. I commend you on that, and 1:18:29.040 --> 1:18:31.240 I feel like I want to see more. I want 1:18:31.280 --> 1:18:32.960 to see you take this and go to the next 1:18:33.080 --> 1:18:34.719 level and keep going because I know you got. 1:18:34.600 --> 1:18:36.960 It in you. Pray for me. Yeah, yeah, pray for me. 1:18:38.160 --> 1:18:38.760 No, I love that. 1:18:40.880 --> 1:18:42.680 And I can see you already, like you open to 1:18:42.760 --> 1:18:46.040 a lot of things. We had the whole therapy session conversation. 1:18:46.439 --> 1:18:47.439 I think you would love it. 1:18:48.080 --> 1:18:48.800 I'm gonna do it. 1:18:51.960 --> 1:18:52.479 Tell us about it. 1:18:52.760 --> 1:18:55.559 Yeah, yeah, I'm gonna come back or I'm gonna put 1:18:55.600 --> 1:18:57.320 on my stoward or something and that they work. 1:18:59.040 --> 1:19:00.760 I ain't gonna hold you to you said last time. 1:19:00.840 --> 1:19:01.360 What I said? 1:19:01.479 --> 1:19:02.800 Last time, you said you was gonna have a baby 1:19:02.840 --> 1:19:03.439 on the couch with you. 1:19:04.080 --> 1:19:07.400 What baby baby was in the room. She oh, you know, 1:19:07.600 --> 1:19:12.479 she on a federal can. But next time, y'all. 1:19:12.479 --> 1:19:13.360 See her next time. 1:19:13.400 --> 1:19:17.800 Okay, yeah, yeah, that situation. But this baby though, like. 1:19:17.920 --> 1:19:21.439 She real like I don't think we forgotten remember she she. 1:19:21.640 --> 1:19:24.240 She one thousand man, She she got a good heart. 1:19:24.400 --> 1:19:27.720 She might not be perfect, but she got Yeah, who 1:19:27.840 --> 1:19:30.439 is perfect, perfect, and perfect for you is different. 1:19:31.400 --> 1:19:33.280 What I love for you is that you have that, 1:19:33.760 --> 1:19:37.639 because so many men don't, so many younger men, especially 1:19:37.680 --> 1:19:40.839 so many rappers, so many people in the industry, athletes 1:19:40.880 --> 1:19:42.680 and everybody, so many people in the spotlight let's say 1:19:42.720 --> 1:19:46.160 that don't have that, and they out here searching for 1:19:46.840 --> 1:19:49.280 what they missing, and they're getting themselves jammed up. So 1:19:49.360 --> 1:19:51.120 the fact that you have that and you big her 1:19:51.200 --> 1:19:52.639 up so much and you love her so much better. 1:19:53.120 --> 1:19:54.640 See, this is what I want you to understand. What 1:19:54.720 --> 1:19:59.799 I did though. See I didn't go get a rapper 1:20:00.479 --> 1:20:04.880 female I could have. I've been in a relationship, I've 1:20:04.960 --> 1:20:08.439 been in situation where rapper females. I've been in situation 1:20:08.600 --> 1:20:13.400 with females or they got status or whatever whatever. For 1:20:13.560 --> 1:20:16.400 some weird reason, they tend to move wrong. 1:20:17.080 --> 1:20:17.920 What's moving wrong? 1:20:22.160 --> 1:20:26.599 They can't be taught. They feel like they know everything. 1:20:26.720 --> 1:20:29.360 They can't like you can't talk to them, like you 1:20:29.479 --> 1:20:31.599 try to talk to them, and they feel like because 1:20:31.640 --> 1:20:34.559 they already didn't been around such and such and did 1:20:34.680 --> 1:20:37.639 this and singing this and made this amount of money, 1:20:37.960 --> 1:20:41.000 that they can't be taught. That they can't It ain't 1:20:41.040 --> 1:20:43.320 nothing that you can tell them. And then the new 1:20:43.439 --> 1:20:47.719 generation of women they just frown upon me in automatically anyway. 1:20:48.439 --> 1:20:52.680 So I didn't want it. So what I did was 1:20:53.200 --> 1:21:00.599 I was blessed enough to find somebody that was not famous, 1:21:01.880 --> 1:21:08.680 not all the way financially stable, but was gorgeous, had 1:21:08.720 --> 1:21:12.519 a good personality, had a whole lot of potential, and 1:21:12.760 --> 1:21:17.000 was genuine from from the first day. And uh and 1:21:17.240 --> 1:21:19.439 and a lot of women I meet and I liked it. 1:21:19.840 --> 1:21:22.679 Like one thing she did is show me she was genuine. 1:21:24.160 --> 1:21:30.840 Was like, say, I meet a woman that of a 1:21:31.000 --> 1:21:34.960 caliber bit you know, they not going really too fast 1:21:35.200 --> 1:21:39.280 or exposed to me or what they going through or 1:21:39.640 --> 1:21:41.960 or or you know, and I'm that type of person. 1:21:42.120 --> 1:21:45.040 Like I could meet a person and if they asked me, 1:21:45.160 --> 1:21:47.040 like I'm not gonna tell you, but like if you 1:21:47.200 --> 1:21:50.760 ask me you're going through somebody t you, I ain't 1:21:50.760 --> 1:21:53.240 gonna lie. Boy. I just got damn ran into so 1:21:54.760 --> 1:21:57.479 off the top. That made a lot for me. Like 1:21:57.640 --> 1:22:00.519 as soon as we met, it was like usually I 1:22:00.680 --> 1:22:03.600 ride to music, we smoke, we kick it. It was 1:22:03.760 --> 1:22:12.040 like a testimony conversation, like and I got a testimony 1:22:12.240 --> 1:22:14.760 like so like just to hear the testimony and to 1:22:15.280 --> 1:22:17.519 read the body language and to see that it was 1:22:17.680 --> 1:22:21.760 genuine and to see that it was a woman. I 1:22:22.360 --> 1:22:26.360 was in the presence of a woman who who had potential, 1:22:26.479 --> 1:22:30.600 who just didn't had a hard situation dealing with like 1:22:31.360 --> 1:22:35.519 and just learning like me. It just touched me, like, 1:22:36.120 --> 1:22:40.920 you know, like because everybody didn't grow up with it. 1:22:41.360 --> 1:22:43.160 Do you feel like you appreciated her the way you 1:22:43.280 --> 1:22:43.920 should from? 1:22:44.880 --> 1:22:48.080 Nah? I didn't. I didn't even appre like. I liked 1:22:48.240 --> 1:22:51.040 her and I wanted her for me. I knew I 1:22:51.280 --> 1:22:54.840 wasn't ready. But the reason why she respects me and 1:22:54.960 --> 1:22:57.200 love me is because I let her know I wasn't ready, 1:22:58.960 --> 1:23:02.640 which her No, I wasn't ready, Like this is what 1:23:02.760 --> 1:23:05.519 I do, Like, this is what I'm gonna do. I 1:23:05.560 --> 1:23:07.880 ain't gonna beat her. I'm fresh out of jail. I've 1:23:07.920 --> 1:23:11.080 been gone five years. I've been on four months now. 1:23:11.120 --> 1:23:14.720 If you can deal with this. But the blessing is 1:23:14.880 --> 1:23:17.880 I got good energy and I could tell if a 1:23:17.960 --> 1:23:19.920 person is not feeling it. 1:23:20.040 --> 1:23:22.360 So when did you know you were ready? What was 1:23:22.400 --> 1:23:24.960 the turning point for you? Sometimes it's when you almost lose. 1:23:24.840 --> 1:23:29.240 It, Either when you almost lose it or when you 1:23:29.479 --> 1:23:32.560 feel like me, I just felt like I was just 1:23:32.680 --> 1:23:35.800 becoming a man like and I'm like, shit, I got 1:23:35.880 --> 1:23:38.920 a woman. They're like women, they little women? Why not 1:23:39.560 --> 1:23:41.680 like you know what I'm saying, Why why should I 1:23:41.800 --> 1:23:44.800 have to you know what I'm saying? So this at 1:23:44.880 --> 1:23:49.080 this point, it was like it's really disrespectful at their point. 1:23:49.120 --> 1:23:51.400 Like you know what I'm saying, Like you could have 1:23:51.520 --> 1:23:53.160 it all? Why are you outside? 1:23:53.400 --> 1:23:55.400 You know what I'm saying, Like you can still do what? 1:23:55.520 --> 1:23:58.280 You know what I'm saying, Like you know, one of 1:23:58.360 --> 1:23:59.160 them type of women. 1:23:59.280 --> 1:24:00.840 You think you're ever not want to be with other 1:24:00.880 --> 1:24:04.680 women too? Do you think she'll ever not want to 1:24:04.720 --> 1:24:05.320 be the other woman? 1:24:07.520 --> 1:24:11.720 Because like she she got a high six drive and 1:24:11.920 --> 1:24:18.519 like she she she throughout our relationship, we probably had 1:24:18.640 --> 1:24:23.280 like two or three threesomes. Yeah, so she's not really 1:24:23.479 --> 1:24:28.400 like just super just, but like she likes women, like 1:24:28.600 --> 1:24:35.080 she likes the relationship like it's bigger than six. Well, 1:24:35.240 --> 1:24:35.840 when they come to. 1:24:35.880 --> 1:24:42.200 The woman, I'm the opposite don't want. I don't want 1:24:42.240 --> 1:24:43.360 the companionship from a woman. 1:24:43.400 --> 1:24:45.120 I don't want to cuddle after we make each other come, 1:24:45.200 --> 1:24:49.120 I just want to do that and then we God, 1:24:49.760 --> 1:24:52.960 that's what I'm thinking, right, it's her sex higher than yours. 1:24:54.120 --> 1:24:56.559 Yeah, four rounds immediately? 1:24:56.800 --> 1:25:03.840 Yeah do you sometimes? Yeah? And but but that is 1:25:03.880 --> 1:25:06.960 what I'm trying to tell me. Fall in love with 1:25:07.040 --> 1:25:11.800 her though, because everything that I was like that every 1:25:11.880 --> 1:25:14.320 woman you can't tell no one. She never tell me 1:25:14.400 --> 1:25:17.639 no they be feeling the type of way she don't. 1:25:18.560 --> 1:25:22.320 It's like she she I'm over understanding. I'm one of 1:25:22.360 --> 1:25:24.200 the type of people that, like, you could be going 1:25:24.280 --> 1:25:26.640 through something and I over and like I can, I 1:25:26.720 --> 1:25:29.160 can go above and beyond to make you feel comfortable. 1:25:29.800 --> 1:25:32.400 She the same way, like if I say no, it 1:25:32.439 --> 1:25:35.200 ain't no attitude, it ain't no. If I just say 1:25:35.439 --> 1:25:37.840 I just want some head, like she's cool with it, 1:25:38.600 --> 1:25:42.280 like she ain't. She ain't feeling, she ain't feeling bad 1:25:42.400 --> 1:25:42.840 after it. 1:25:43.000 --> 1:25:43.559 She ain't. 1:25:45.640 --> 1:25:47.080 To that though. 1:25:47.240 --> 1:25:50.559 What if she tell you that speak the same? Yeah? 1:25:50.640 --> 1:25:52.320 What if she says to you, I just want some head. 1:25:53.400 --> 1:25:57.880 I'm saying if you like, if you listen, if you 1:25:58.040 --> 1:26:00.600 call me like this, the thing like if she caught me, 1:26:01.200 --> 1:26:03.840 she know, like she can kiss me, like when I 1:26:04.040 --> 1:26:06.559 miss her when I've been gone for five days a week, 1:26:06.600 --> 1:26:08.719 I ain't saying them. I'm finna eat that ass? 1:26:08.960 --> 1:26:13.519 Okay that ass? Yeah okay, yeah yeah. 1:26:13.520 --> 1:26:17.800 Yeah, it's dead like the type of time. But like 1:26:18.120 --> 1:26:20.519 you know, I ain't I ain't trying to be eating 1:26:20.560 --> 1:26:22.320 no ass here day though, right. 1:26:22.280 --> 1:26:23.840 Not every day, just when you've been gone for a 1:26:23.880 --> 1:26:24.360 few days. 1:26:24.960 --> 1:26:31.679 Nah, I got fives, you know what I'm saying. 1:26:32.280 --> 1:26:35.599 But and you did that juice fast before other fruits 1:26:35.640 --> 1:26:36.840 and I did, Yeah, I. 1:26:36.920 --> 1:26:40.920 Did, and it felt good and it was it wasn't 1:26:40.920 --> 1:26:42.360 even as hard as I thought it was. 1:26:42.800 --> 1:26:45.640 I got a question, kind of off subject, But what 1:26:45.800 --> 1:26:49.639 made you decide to cut your hair? Was that part 1:26:49.680 --> 1:26:50.200 of the evolution? 1:26:51.000 --> 1:26:53.600 Nah, I'm growing it back like my. 1:26:56.400 --> 1:26:57.800 It's not as short as it was at first. 1:26:59.160 --> 1:27:02.680 I coult my hair because I wanted a full head 1:27:02.760 --> 1:27:06.559 of her like I had, like the the pushback line 1:27:06.840 --> 1:27:08.760 all the way around. I ain't want it was like 1:27:08.840 --> 1:27:13.639 in a mohawk loan. So you're going back to the braids, 1:27:14.439 --> 1:27:16.040 and I'm going back. You like the braid. 1:27:18.080 --> 1:27:19.439 I think you look more. 1:27:19.920 --> 1:27:22.040 I think I think when you first cut your hair, 1:27:22.160 --> 1:27:25.840 it gave you a more polished, grown up not so 1:27:26.000 --> 1:27:26.759 good nigga. 1:27:26.560 --> 1:27:28.400 Look so like you like the waves. 1:27:31.520 --> 1:27:34.240 No, you're still in that you're still in that range 1:27:34.280 --> 1:27:37.960 of like, you know, suit and tie. You know what 1:27:37.960 --> 1:27:39.720 I'm saying. Not I mean not with all the jewely on, 1:27:39.760 --> 1:27:40.559 but I'm talking. 1:27:40.360 --> 1:27:42.400 From the neck of you know what I'm saying, I'm 1:27:42.400 --> 1:27:48.720 pretty finessed. Yeah, like almost corporate, almost go corporate with that. 1:27:49.200 --> 1:27:51.640 You can't go corporate with them, so you don't have 1:27:51.720 --> 1:27:52.200 to go corporate. 1:27:52.400 --> 1:27:53.800 So what image prefer? 1:27:54.320 --> 1:27:55.240 What makes you happy? 1:27:56.040 --> 1:27:56.560 Everything? 1:27:57.240 --> 1:28:00.000 Like you like the braids because you're growing them back. 1:28:00.080 --> 1:28:02.120 I'm growing it baker because I feel like my heir 1:28:02.240 --> 1:28:03.680 is my strength. There's just some ship I. 1:28:03.720 --> 1:28:08.800 Got that's that that that juice fast probably helped your 1:28:08.800 --> 1:28:09.360 hair grow to. 1:28:11.080 --> 1:28:14.200 Yah, But I got this what sugar, actually got this 1:28:14.479 --> 1:28:17.920 oil that's finna come out. My girl, I invested in 1:28:18.000 --> 1:28:21.519 her some or it's called oh so clever. It's not 1:28:21.560 --> 1:28:24.720 even after my daughter. My daughter name is clever. And 1:28:25.760 --> 1:28:28.080 she been using this all for like six months from 1:28:28.120 --> 1:28:31.280 the girl who make it, and she fired and I 1:28:31.479 --> 1:28:34.720 use her or your hair grow. She got it for 1:28:34.800 --> 1:28:37.120 the babies, she got it for the she got a 1:28:37.200 --> 1:28:41.719 hold like a baby thing. So we went into business 1:28:41.800 --> 1:28:47.479 together and so we got so clever. So it's it's 1:28:47.560 --> 1:28:52.400 it's it's her growth, the shampoo condition and everything. Yes 1:28:52.920 --> 1:29:02.080 that mama not forget her because Mama and Sugar get 1:29:02.160 --> 1:29:05.559 there and sold it because it's actually some real good oil. 1:29:06.200 --> 1:29:07.120 We all use it. 1:29:07.560 --> 1:29:10.080 Looks well, look if this is a testamenty to that. 1:29:17.040 --> 1:29:23.920 Right advertising you want to tell because. 1:29:24.280 --> 1:29:28.479 You know, but yo yo yo yo, Yeah, Sugar, there's 1:29:28.520 --> 1:29:30.439 my dog. There's my dog. There's my dog. 1:29:30.560 --> 1:29:33.160 All right, Well, thank you so much for coming once again. 1:29:33.360 --> 1:29:35.800 Ardur woar November twenty second. I can't wait when the 1:29:35.880 --> 1:29:37.439 next time you come on with what's going to be 1:29:37.479 --> 1:29:40.240 happening then, because every single. 1:29:40.160 --> 1:29:44.120 Time it's a level another level of lot. Yeah, we 1:29:44.240 --> 1:29:44.800 love you. 1:29:44.840 --> 1:29:46.920 Know you've been trying to get in, Sugar. 1:29:47.960 --> 1:29:49.559 By that means they're trying to get a city. 1:29:51.439 --> 1:29:52.360 I think it was Miami. 1:29:52.560 --> 1:29:56.840 Okay, so you would do it, if Sugar want to 1:29:56.880 --> 1:29:57.600 do it, you would do it. 1:29:58.320 --> 1:29:59.280 To a certain extent. 1:29:59.520 --> 1:30:01.640 Okay, I get you. 1:30:02.080 --> 1:30:04.719 I want to just be like you know what I'm saying, 1:30:04.840 --> 1:30:08.080 like because I still like I'm a real good rapper, 1:30:08.520 --> 1:30:12.439 like we know fan base, and I got like a career. 1:30:12.520 --> 1:30:15.280 I want to I feel like loving Pop is a career. 1:30:16.920 --> 1:30:19.080 Maybe his people have been on the fifteen years. 1:30:19.560 --> 1:30:23.479 You know, coming amazing. 1:30:23.560 --> 1:30:24.320 I'm there. 1:30:24.400 --> 1:30:28.040 Like Trina, you know that she's not a super long 1:30:28.680 --> 1:30:31.639 like she already made her Yeah, and it really it's 1:30:31.680 --> 1:30:33.000 all about and this is what I have to learn 1:30:33.000 --> 1:30:33.960 to It's all about the women. 1:30:34.200 --> 1:30:37.000 You guys are just like the sauce. You know that 1:30:37.160 --> 1:30:38.519 you don't got to be on there all the time. 1:30:38.600 --> 1:30:39.400 It's about the women. 1:30:39.520 --> 1:30:42.320 That's like the fact that I have two three women 1:30:42.439 --> 1:30:45.040 at the time what they like. But like, like I said, 1:30:45.040 --> 1:30:47.599 I'm leaving it up to shore. I'm done. 1:30:47.960 --> 1:30:50.519 Okay, I'm done, Like, but you make your appearances on 1:30:50.600 --> 1:30:51.120 there for sure. 1:30:51.360 --> 1:30:53.360 I'm talking about I'm done with the women. 1:30:54.160 --> 1:30:58.799 He's monogamous now, yeah, still get down. Did she brings somebody? 1:30:59.000 --> 1:30:59.760 If she do it? 1:31:00.240 --> 1:31:01.280 But it's not your choice. 1:31:02.880 --> 1:31:07.120 I feel like I feel like I'm you got to 1:31:07.240 --> 1:31:10.160 invest a lot of time and energy and a person 1:31:10.200 --> 1:31:12.080 when you're dealing with them and when you bring them home, 1:31:12.760 --> 1:31:15.400 when you bring around your kids, and when you dealing 1:31:15.439 --> 1:31:16.960 with them day to day. You got to invest a 1:31:17.000 --> 1:31:19.040 lot of time and energy. And when they go bad. 1:31:19.800 --> 1:31:22.519 M Yeah, and it's like the third time and it 1:31:22.600 --> 1:31:25.080 went bad for me. So and she always said, I 1:31:25.200 --> 1:31:27.559 told you let me you. I tell you what YouTube. 1:31:27.920 --> 1:31:31.000 Yeah she probably got a better discernment. Yeah, choose better 1:31:31.040 --> 1:31:31.240 than you. 1:31:33.560 --> 1:31:39.320 So next time y'all see me, we might right, not 1:31:39.479 --> 1:31:43.040 even in her field. Whatever she want to do, all. 1:31:43.000 --> 1:31:44.200 Right, with a revolving door. 1:31:44.400 --> 1:31:48.040 But thank you again, and listen, you're always welcome up here. 1:31:48.120 --> 1:31:50.080 We have such a great time chopping it up with you. 1:31:51.040 --> 1:31:52.800 And next time when you come back and you check 1:31:52.840 --> 1:31:54.519 in with us after the therapy and we see a 1:31:54.600 --> 1:31:59.240 whole nother level unlocked, that's gonna be amazing, amazing. 1:31:59.439 --> 1:32:03.280 Right, all right, nice to see y'all. Yeah, nice to 1:32:03.400 --> 1:32:04.680 meet you. We love that. 1:32:04.680 --> 1:32:07.599 I can't believe he smoked that whole thing right here. 1:32:08.040 --> 1:32:14.720 I could, damn And I was getting hot. I get 1:32:14.800 --> 1:32:17.360 to talking, I get to get hot, ship 1:32:18.160 --> 1:32:21.120 Right, but you're at first it slip service to