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Speaker 2: What's going on, everyone, Emily Abadi Here, you are listening

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Speaker 2: to another episode of Hurdle, a podcast featuring the mindset, secrets,

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Speaker 2: motivated life and of course, conquer your own hurdles. Today,

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Speaker 2: I am sitting down with Haley Adams. She's a ten

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Speaker 3: Hailey's journey is one of.

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Speaker 2: Incredible highs and challenging lows. A former gymnast, you found

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Speaker 2: her passion for CrossFit at just fourteen years old. She

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Speaker 2: quickly rose to elite status, earning the title of Fittest

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Speaker 2: twenty twenty three. In this episode, we dive deep into

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Speaker 2: Haley's story of resilience and healing. We chat about the

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Speaker 2: weight of expectations, and she opens up about the intense

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Speaker 2: how negative social media comments impacted her body image and

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Speaker 2: her relationship with food. We also talk about finding a

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Speaker 2: talks to me about how she rediscovered the joy in

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Speaker 2: and last but not least, we also reflect.

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Speaker 3: On her remarkable career thus far, including being.

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Speaker 2: It concludes her love for Disney movies and her ever

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Speaker 2: to an axe a Lottel, which I had never heard

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Speaker 2: of before this conversation. And for permit crabs. Make sure

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Speaker 2: at Hurdle Podcasts. You can also check out Iheartwoman's Sports

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Speaker 2: over at Iheartwomen's Sports and Me over at Emily Abadi.

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Speaker 2: Apple Podcasts or wherever you get your podcasts. And with that,

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Speaker 3: Today. I am down with Haley Adams.

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Speaker 2: She is a CrossFit athlete, a new red Bull athlete.

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Speaker 3: Haley, how we doing, Welcome to the show.

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Speaker 1: Oh my goodness, I'm so excited. So many amazing things

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Speaker 1: Yeah, So number one being I did just sign my

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Speaker 1: Our season's getting started, so just ramping up for that,

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Speaker 1: Yeah? So, oh my goodness, that was such a not

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Speaker 2: Thank you, it's insane, and it's such a testament to

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Speaker 1: Yeah, Like of course they follow you because I think

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Speaker 1: Like that's why I try to share more about just

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Speaker 2: But I do want to gain some context also about

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Speaker 2: And then when you started to get back into working out,

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Speaker 1: So obviously my immediate support was my mom. She was

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Speaker 1: I didn't even name, but yeah, amazing team.

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00:21:44,400 --> 00:21:47,680
Speaker 2: How did you know that you were ready to get

441
00:21:47,680 --> 00:21:50,120
Speaker 2: back into it, because I know that you said when

442
00:21:50,160 --> 00:21:53,439
Speaker 2: you shared your truth, when you were transparent with what

443
00:21:53,560 --> 00:21:55,919
Speaker 2: was going on, you weren't even entirely sure if you'd

444
00:21:55,960 --> 00:21:56,960
Speaker 2: ever get back to that point.

445
00:21:57,080 --> 00:21:59,960
Speaker 1: Yeah. No, Basically from the time that I went home,

446
00:22:00,119 --> 00:22:03,680
Speaker 1: so like in the middle of December, for I'm talking months,

447
00:22:03,800 --> 00:22:05,840
Speaker 1: I did not step into a crosswit gym. I was like,

448
00:22:05,880 --> 00:22:07,800
Speaker 1: I don't want to be there, I don't want to

449
00:22:07,840 --> 00:22:09,680
Speaker 1: do it, I don't want to see it. I did

450
00:22:09,680 --> 00:22:12,480
Speaker 1: not do any kind of CrossFit for months. I was

451
00:22:12,520 --> 00:22:14,600
Speaker 1: going to Planet Fitness with my mom and walking on

452
00:22:14,600 --> 00:22:18,840
Speaker 1: the treadmill and doing bodybuilding machines like no crossbit. Like

453
00:22:18,880 --> 00:22:20,560
Speaker 1: you know how people say like, oh, I'm taking some

454
00:22:20,600 --> 00:22:22,760
Speaker 1: time off al blah blah, but they still work out. No,

455
00:22:23,720 --> 00:22:26,359
Speaker 1: that was not me. I was so like done with it.

456
00:22:26,400 --> 00:22:30,000
Speaker 1: I didn't want anything to do with it. Nothing. But

457
00:22:30,119 --> 00:22:33,719
Speaker 1: then around I guess it was in the summer, I

458
00:22:33,800 --> 00:22:36,240
Speaker 1: was like hopped in on the CrossFit workout and it

459
00:22:36,359 --> 00:22:38,919
Speaker 1: killed me, but I was like that was kind of fun.

460
00:22:39,200 --> 00:22:41,040
Speaker 1: Like maybe I kind of missed that a little bit,

461
00:22:41,080 --> 00:22:43,280
Speaker 1: but wasn't like, oh I want to compete. But I

462
00:22:43,320 --> 00:22:45,720
Speaker 1: just slowly started like doing stuff like that again. I

463
00:22:45,760 --> 00:22:48,440
Speaker 1: was like, I kind of missed this. And then I

464
00:22:48,480 --> 00:22:50,920
Speaker 1: think it was September. I was like, you know what,

465
00:22:51,480 --> 00:22:54,199
Speaker 1: I think I'm going to try again. I think I

466
00:22:54,240 --> 00:22:56,080
Speaker 1: want to try again, and it just I literally woke

467
00:22:56,200 --> 00:23:00,119
Speaker 1: up one day and I felt like that, And that's

468
00:23:00,119 --> 00:23:02,280
Speaker 1: literally the best way I can describe it, because that's

469
00:23:02,320 --> 00:23:04,520
Speaker 1: exactly what happened. I was like, I'm just gonna try

470
00:23:04,560 --> 00:23:06,480
Speaker 1: this again, and if it doesn't work, that's okay, or

471
00:23:06,520 --> 00:23:08,879
Speaker 1: if I get overwhelmed or you know, go back to

472
00:23:08,920 --> 00:23:11,760
Speaker 1: bad habits and I'm not gonna do it. But I

473
00:23:11,800 --> 00:23:13,880
Speaker 1: had already put so much work in and like healing

474
00:23:14,040 --> 00:23:16,960
Speaker 1: and just having balance and everything in my life that

475
00:23:17,000 --> 00:23:18,720
Speaker 1: I was like, if this doesn't work, that's okay.

476
00:23:19,400 --> 00:23:23,360
Speaker 2: It's really beautiful to hear that you had this perspective

477
00:23:23,600 --> 00:23:27,080
Speaker 2: of if it doesn't work, it's okay, If it doesn't

478
00:23:27,080 --> 00:23:30,040
Speaker 2: feel like it used to, it's okay. You were truly

479
00:23:30,280 --> 00:23:34,199
Speaker 2: just going with your intuition. For so many there's this

480
00:23:34,359 --> 00:23:37,360
Speaker 2: large sense of fear when you return back to something

481
00:23:37,400 --> 00:23:40,199
Speaker 2: that maybe at one point or another you had a

482
00:23:40,280 --> 00:23:44,719
Speaker 2: negative connotation with. How were you able to set those

483
00:23:44,960 --> 00:23:49,800
Speaker 2: fears aside to embrace the modality for what it was.

484
00:23:50,200 --> 00:23:52,680
Speaker 1: Yeah, Well, the thing I told myself from the beginning

485
00:23:52,800 --> 00:23:55,119
Speaker 1: was that I never ever want to feel like how

486
00:23:55,160 --> 00:23:58,000
Speaker 1: I felt again, Like I was not willing to sacrifice

487
00:23:58,040 --> 00:24:01,359
Speaker 1: anything for that. No amount of trophy placing was ever

488
00:24:01,400 --> 00:24:03,760
Speaker 1: worth that to me, because it was just so miserable

489
00:24:03,800 --> 00:24:05,240
Speaker 1: for so long, and I didn't want to live my

490
00:24:05,280 --> 00:24:07,720
Speaker 1: life like that. So that was the easiest thing for me.

491
00:24:07,800 --> 00:24:09,760
Speaker 1: I was like, it feels like that again, I'm out, like,

492
00:24:09,840 --> 00:24:12,240
Speaker 1: I don't want to feel like that. But I've found

493
00:24:12,240 --> 00:24:14,880
Speaker 1: ways to make it fun, even though it was so humbling,

494
00:24:15,000 --> 00:24:18,159
Speaker 1: trying to like get in shape again, so humbling, But

495
00:24:18,240 --> 00:24:21,439
Speaker 1: I've found ways, you know, to have balance and not

496
00:24:21,680 --> 00:24:24,240
Speaker 1: take it so seriously all the time. And I just

497
00:24:24,280 --> 00:24:26,240
Speaker 1: put a lot of work in outside of the gym

498
00:24:26,320 --> 00:24:29,080
Speaker 1: that I could obviously see had translated into the gym,

499
00:24:29,160 --> 00:24:31,600
Speaker 1: So that was made it so much easier to transition.

500
00:24:31,920 --> 00:24:34,680
Speaker 2: Finding the fun is a really good piece of advice,

501
00:24:34,800 --> 00:24:38,080
Speaker 2: super applicable both in the situation that you're describing and

502
00:24:38,119 --> 00:24:41,760
Speaker 2: also for anyone that's just getting started. Working out can

503
00:24:41,800 --> 00:24:44,840
Speaker 2: be really challenging, even if you are an.

504
00:24:44,800 --> 00:24:47,400
Speaker 3: Elite CrossFit Games athlete.

505
00:24:47,600 --> 00:24:50,920
Speaker 2: For you, what was going through your mind when it

506
00:24:51,040 --> 00:24:54,280
Speaker 2: wasn't necessarily as easy as it used to be?

507
00:24:55,000 --> 00:24:57,600
Speaker 1: Oh my goodness, it was so humbling. I was like

508
00:24:57,640 --> 00:24:59,720
Speaker 1: I did not even have callouses on my hands, Like

509
00:24:59,760 --> 00:25:02,800
Speaker 1: my hands were ripping. I was like failing things that

510
00:25:03,280 --> 00:25:06,359
Speaker 1: I could do with my eyes closed. But honestly, I

511
00:25:06,359 --> 00:25:09,520
Speaker 1: don't regret it at all, because that's exactly what I needed.

512
00:25:09,560 --> 00:25:12,080
Speaker 1: If I jumped back in right to the same numbers

513
00:25:12,080 --> 00:25:13,840
Speaker 1: and fitness, like, I don't think I would have grown

514
00:25:13,880 --> 00:25:17,360
Speaker 1: any but like forcing myself to like basically start from

515
00:25:17,359 --> 00:25:20,920
Speaker 1: the beginning again and like rebuild everything mentally and physically,

516
00:25:21,080 --> 00:25:22,640
Speaker 1: I think shape the journey perfectly.

517
00:25:23,160 --> 00:25:24,680
Speaker 3: This is about fitness.

518
00:25:24,720 --> 00:25:29,000
Speaker 2: It's not about fitness, right, It's this opportunity to face

519
00:25:29,160 --> 00:25:32,520
Speaker 2: challenge head on and see who you really are. When

520
00:25:32,720 --> 00:25:35,800
Speaker 2: things aren't easy, that's when we have the opportunity to learn.

521
00:25:36,200 --> 00:25:38,240
Speaker 1: Yeah. Oh, and that's exactly what happened.

522
00:25:38,600 --> 00:25:39,359
Speaker 3: Yeah for sure.

523
00:25:39,440 --> 00:25:42,879
Speaker 2: So as you start to get into the weeds again

524
00:25:43,080 --> 00:25:46,960
Speaker 2: doing movements that start to feel a little bit more familiar,

525
00:25:47,440 --> 00:25:53,040
Speaker 2: do you have a understanding pretty quickly that all right, yeah,

526
00:25:53,119 --> 00:25:54,800
Speaker 2: I'm ready to get back to where I was.

527
00:25:56,040 --> 00:26:00,600
Speaker 1: Yeah, for sure. Actually it was in the beginning I

528
00:26:00,400 --> 00:26:02,040
Speaker 1: was I don't even know if I want to do this,

529
00:26:02,080 --> 00:26:03,919
Speaker 1: because this one felt so hard. I was like, I

530
00:26:03,920 --> 00:26:06,879
Speaker 1: have so much work to do, like so much to

531
00:26:06,920 --> 00:26:08,760
Speaker 1: get back to where I was, And I wasn't sure

532
00:26:08,760 --> 00:26:10,280
Speaker 1: if I ever was gonna be able to get back

533
00:26:10,280 --> 00:26:12,359
Speaker 1: to where I was because it felt so far away.

534
00:26:12,840 --> 00:26:15,320
Speaker 1: But every week I just kept showing up and something

535
00:26:15,320 --> 00:26:17,439
Speaker 1: would get easier. I'd be able to lift more, do

536
00:26:17,520 --> 00:26:21,320
Speaker 1: more reps, and every single week just kept getting better.

537
00:26:21,600 --> 00:26:24,600
Speaker 2: Kept getting better. Now you talked about going to North Carolina.

538
00:26:24,600 --> 00:26:27,960
Speaker 2: I know you've also had sometimes spent in Virginia, and

539
00:26:28,040 --> 00:26:32,800
Speaker 2: now you're back in Cookeville. In those other places outside

540
00:26:32,800 --> 00:26:36,720
Speaker 2: of Tennessee, you have been so open about the balance

541
00:26:36,760 --> 00:26:38,880
Speaker 2: that they brought to your life. How do you bring

542
00:26:38,920 --> 00:26:42,479
Speaker 2: that balance with you to Cookeville, knowing that it is

543
00:26:42,600 --> 00:26:46,480
Speaker 2: such an intense CrossFit community over at CrossFit Mayhem or

544
00:26:46,520 --> 00:26:46,880
Speaker 2: your train.

545
00:26:47,359 --> 00:26:50,920
Speaker 1: Yeah, it made me nervous coming back here when I left,

546
00:26:51,000 --> 00:26:54,679
Speaker 1: because I just felt like I associated the environment. Not

547
00:26:54,760 --> 00:26:56,640
Speaker 1: that it's bad here, but like I had just had

548
00:26:56,680 --> 00:26:59,119
Speaker 1: so many bad days here for myself that I was

549
00:26:59,160 --> 00:27:01,240
Speaker 1: scared that it was going to make me feel some

550
00:27:01,359 --> 00:27:04,120
Speaker 1: type of way. But when I came back that summer

551
00:27:04,200 --> 00:27:07,520
Speaker 1: before the Games, I had honestly felt totally fun. Like

552
00:27:07,560 --> 00:27:09,400
Speaker 1: it didn't trigger me. It didn't make me feel any

553
00:27:09,400 --> 00:27:10,600
Speaker 1: type of way or did me feel like I have

554
00:27:10,640 --> 00:27:14,200
Speaker 1: to overtrain or anything. Like. I just felt so much peace.

555
00:27:14,240 --> 00:27:16,320
Speaker 1: So that's how I knew I had like truly healed.

556
00:27:16,880 --> 00:27:20,359
Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean that honesty is really important. Fun fact,

557
00:27:20,480 --> 00:27:22,960
Speaker 2: I've been to Cookville, which is oh such a I know,

558
00:27:23,160 --> 00:27:27,119
Speaker 2: such a random thing. I once came down to Tennessee

559
00:27:27,640 --> 00:27:33,520
Speaker 2: to Mayhem to interview Rich Frowning Okay for an article

560
00:27:33,560 --> 00:27:35,840
Speaker 2: for men's Health and spent like thirty six hours with

561
00:27:35,960 --> 00:27:38,720
Speaker 2: him and his family at the barn. I thought, oh cool,

562
00:27:39,800 --> 00:27:42,800
Speaker 2: all this stuff, and it's such an interesting place because

563
00:27:42,880 --> 00:27:45,679
Speaker 2: for those that know nothing about CrossFit, You would have

564
00:27:45,840 --> 00:27:50,119
Speaker 2: no idea that there was such an ingrained community around you.

565
00:27:50,400 --> 00:27:53,679
Speaker 1: Yeah. No, there's an amazing community here and I'm very lucky.

566
00:27:54,040 --> 00:27:57,280
Speaker 2: Yeah, So what do you think that that community then

567
00:27:57,640 --> 00:27:58,640
Speaker 2: gives back to you.

568
00:27:58,640 --> 00:28:00,439
Speaker 3: You talked about being able to be back.

569
00:28:00,280 --> 00:28:02,840
Speaker 2: In that environment and feeling safe, But bigger than that,

570
00:28:03,359 --> 00:28:06,120
Speaker 2: why is it beneficial for you to be there?

571
00:28:06,160 --> 00:28:08,520
Speaker 3: Specifically for me?

572
00:28:08,680 --> 00:28:12,280
Speaker 1: Now, it's not as much as like the athletes that

573
00:28:12,320 --> 00:28:15,960
Speaker 1: are here, like they're all super cool and good for me.

574
00:28:16,080 --> 00:28:18,840
Speaker 1: It's that I've got a lot of friends here that

575
00:28:18,880 --> 00:28:20,600
Speaker 1: I've known me for a long time. So just to

576
00:28:20,640 --> 00:28:22,600
Speaker 1: be able to like see them every day and work

577
00:28:22,640 --> 00:28:25,080
Speaker 1: out with them every day does so much good for me.

578
00:28:25,160 --> 00:28:28,440
Speaker 1: I don't necessarily need anyone, you know, competing with me

579
00:28:28,560 --> 00:28:31,840
Speaker 1: every day anymore. I'm ten years into this, But just

580
00:28:31,880 --> 00:28:34,360
Speaker 1: having people that I know that support me and love

581
00:28:34,400 --> 00:28:36,119
Speaker 1: me no matter what and just show up for me

582
00:28:36,280 --> 00:28:39,800
Speaker 1: does way more than an athlete beside me push me everywhere.

583
00:28:40,040 --> 00:28:42,800
Speaker 1: So just having like that amazing community here, there's a

584
00:28:42,880 --> 00:28:43,640
Speaker 1: lot of cool people.

585
00:28:44,000 --> 00:28:46,880
Speaker 2: It's it's cool to hear about and it's so interesting

586
00:28:46,880 --> 00:28:49,160
Speaker 2: because you you may get a point to say, I

587
00:28:49,200 --> 00:28:52,920
Speaker 2: don't need anyone. And also the community is really beneficial.

588
00:28:54,080 --> 00:28:57,200
Speaker 1: Yeah. I when I say the community, I'm like, I

589
00:28:57,240 --> 00:28:59,480
Speaker 1: have like just random people that show up for an

590
00:28:59,520 --> 00:29:01,480
Speaker 1: hour a day. They show up for me every day.

591
00:29:01,840 --> 00:29:03,600
Speaker 1: They come and work with me. They do their one

592
00:29:03,600 --> 00:29:05,280
Speaker 1: workout of the day with me. We show up at

593
00:29:05,280 --> 00:29:08,719
Speaker 1: four and we grind just grod. So they're not like

594
00:29:08,800 --> 00:29:11,200
Speaker 1: elite athletes or anything, but they show up. They still

595
00:29:11,240 --> 00:29:12,440
Speaker 1: show up for me every day.

596
00:29:12,640 --> 00:29:16,040
Speaker 2: So, now that you're back truly into the swing of things,

597
00:29:16,480 --> 00:29:20,720
Speaker 2: how are you feeling about where CrossFit is as a

598
00:29:20,720 --> 00:29:22,040
Speaker 2: community and where it's going.

599
00:29:23,640 --> 00:29:26,480
Speaker 1: I think the community is in a much better spot

600
00:29:26,560 --> 00:29:28,000
Speaker 1: right now than it has been in a long time,

601
00:29:28,040 --> 00:29:31,240
Speaker 1: and it's seeing everyone do the open and participate. I

602
00:29:31,240 --> 00:29:34,080
Speaker 1: think it's in a really good spot. And I think

603
00:29:34,120 --> 00:29:36,200
Speaker 1: we all just need to like stick together and like

604
00:29:36,280 --> 00:29:39,680
Speaker 1: get that old CrossFit feeling back. And yeah, I think

605
00:29:39,720 --> 00:29:40,960
Speaker 1: a lot of people feel the same.

606
00:29:41,200 --> 00:29:41,600
Speaker 3: Yeah.

607
00:29:41,720 --> 00:29:43,880
Speaker 2: I know, it's it's been a sticky couple of years

608
00:29:43,880 --> 00:29:46,760
Speaker 2: for crossbit and now with the emergence of so many

609
00:29:46,800 --> 00:29:50,240
Speaker 2: other things, specifically, I mean so many crossfitters now dabbling

610
00:29:50,280 --> 00:29:51,320
Speaker 2: in the high rocks world.

611
00:29:51,440 --> 00:29:54,120
Speaker 3: Yeah, what do you see for yourself personally?

612
00:29:54,240 --> 00:29:56,480
Speaker 2: When we think about moving forward knowing that all of

613
00:29:56,520 --> 00:29:57,640
Speaker 2: that is in the mix.

614
00:29:58,840 --> 00:30:02,720
Speaker 1: Personally, I just love CrossFit and I think that will

615
00:30:02,720 --> 00:30:04,440
Speaker 1: always put a special place in my heart. But I

616
00:30:04,440 --> 00:30:07,720
Speaker 1: also think it's really cool that we have opportunities to

617
00:30:07,800 --> 00:30:11,080
Speaker 1: go do other things like high Rocks and you know,

618
00:30:11,160 --> 00:30:14,160
Speaker 1: these other fitness comps that are starting, And I think

619
00:30:14,160 --> 00:30:16,640
Speaker 1: it's cool that it's not just everything in one basket,

620
00:30:16,720 --> 00:30:18,880
Speaker 1: you know, it's you can go run a race this

621
00:30:18,920 --> 00:30:20,800
Speaker 1: week in and do a CrossFit comp this weekend and

622
00:30:20,800 --> 00:30:22,920
Speaker 1: do this, And I just think that's cool that there's

623
00:30:22,920 --> 00:30:24,840
Speaker 1: a lot of opportunities now.

624
00:30:25,200 --> 00:30:28,080
Speaker 2: Yeah, and as an athlete in a sport that may

625
00:30:28,080 --> 00:30:32,760
Speaker 2: not be the absolute most mainstream, that opportunity can become

626
00:30:33,080 --> 00:30:35,440
Speaker 2: really critical to your livelihood.

627
00:30:35,880 --> 00:30:38,080
Speaker 1: Yeah, you get eyes in all different areas.

628
00:30:38,640 --> 00:30:39,120
Speaker 3: Yeah.

629
00:30:39,280 --> 00:30:43,120
Speaker 2: Now, you mentioned earlier how you were so happy that

630
00:30:43,200 --> 00:30:47,040
Speaker 2: you were vulnerable when it came to sharing your story

631
00:30:47,080 --> 00:30:49,840
Speaker 2: and taking that time off. That vulnerability is something that

632
00:30:49,880 --> 00:30:54,920
Speaker 2: you still maintain, especially with your audiences over on social

633
00:30:55,400 --> 00:30:59,520
Speaker 2: Are there times where it's harder to be open than others.

634
00:31:01,120 --> 00:31:03,239
Speaker 1: Yeah. I mean at the end of the day, like

635
00:31:03,840 --> 00:31:06,040
Speaker 1: everyone struggles and we still have our struggles. I still

636
00:31:06,040 --> 00:31:08,600
Speaker 1: have bad days all the time, and sometimes I'm like,

637
00:31:08,680 --> 00:31:12,120
Speaker 1: I feel like I have an image to uphold of

638
00:31:12,360 --> 00:31:14,800
Speaker 1: you know, being happy and healthy and healed, but like

639
00:31:15,240 --> 00:31:17,600
Speaker 1: I still have bad days and some days or sometimes

640
00:31:17,680 --> 00:31:19,840
Speaker 1: I'm like, you're supposed to be this role model that's

641
00:31:19,920 --> 00:31:23,400
Speaker 1: you know, all these things now, but you know you're

642
00:31:23,440 --> 00:31:25,440
Speaker 1: having a bad day and you know you're not saying

643
00:31:25,760 --> 00:31:27,680
Speaker 1: or you're not following what you tell other people to do.

644
00:31:27,760 --> 00:31:29,960
Speaker 1: So I battle with that a lot. But at the

645
00:31:30,040 --> 00:31:31,480
Speaker 1: end of the day, it's like, that's why I try

646
00:31:31,480 --> 00:31:33,880
Speaker 1: to share everything that I can, Like, Hey, it's okay

647
00:31:33,920 --> 00:31:35,360
Speaker 1: to still have bad days. It's not the end of

648
00:31:35,400 --> 00:31:37,960
Speaker 1: the world. It doesn't mean that you're you know, taking

649
00:31:37,960 --> 00:31:40,080
Speaker 1: a step backwards or going into your old ways. So

650
00:31:40,280 --> 00:31:42,880
Speaker 1: that's why I even when I'm having a bad day,

651
00:31:42,920 --> 00:31:45,760
Speaker 1: I try to share it because I think that, you know,

652
00:31:46,680 --> 00:31:48,320
Speaker 1: a lot of people think that they're the only ones

653
00:31:48,360 --> 00:31:48,880
Speaker 1: in there not.

654
00:31:49,360 --> 00:31:52,320
Speaker 2: Yeah, what did the last bad day look like for you, Hayley?

655
00:31:54,520 --> 00:31:57,760
Speaker 1: It depends. There's different levels. The last one was I

656
00:31:57,760 --> 00:32:01,840
Speaker 1: think I was honestly so exacted. I'd definitely trained too much,

657
00:32:02,400 --> 00:32:05,320
Speaker 1: had a little overtraining day, and then I just it

658
00:32:05,400 --> 00:32:07,440
Speaker 1: just makes me tired, and then I'm snappy and I

659
00:32:07,480 --> 00:32:10,840
Speaker 1: feel like everything you know is going wrong or this

660
00:32:10,960 --> 00:32:13,120
Speaker 1: or that, and I just get down on myself or

661
00:32:13,160 --> 00:32:17,160
Speaker 1: like the way I look or yeah, so just all

662
00:32:17,200 --> 00:32:20,200
Speaker 1: that into one and then ends up in a little crash.

663
00:32:19,960 --> 00:32:22,600
Speaker 3: Out and then how do you pull yourself out?

664
00:32:25,160 --> 00:32:27,000
Speaker 1: It's actually a lot easier to pull myself out now

665
00:32:27,040 --> 00:32:28,720
Speaker 1: than it used to be. But I'm just like, hey,

666
00:32:28,840 --> 00:32:32,000
Speaker 1: it's not that serious, Like it's okay, you know, like

667
00:32:32,520 --> 00:32:34,680
Speaker 1: take take a few minutes, be upset about it, cry

668
00:32:34,680 --> 00:32:37,560
Speaker 1: about it whatever, but move on like it's okay. And

669
00:32:37,600 --> 00:32:40,120
Speaker 1: I I know that sounds like super easy to do,

670
00:32:40,240 --> 00:32:42,800
Speaker 1: but genuinely, I've worked so hard to get to that

671
00:32:42,880 --> 00:32:44,600
Speaker 1: place that that's literally what I do.

672
00:32:45,000 --> 00:32:50,040
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's so challenging and so relatable. Right you are

673
00:32:50,080 --> 00:32:52,960
Speaker 2: there other ways that you cope? Is it reaching out

674
00:32:52,960 --> 00:32:55,760
Speaker 2: to people? Is it journaling? Is it mindfulness? Like what's

675
00:32:55,800 --> 00:32:56,800
Speaker 2: in the toolbox for you?

676
00:32:57,840 --> 00:33:02,040
Speaker 1: Ways that I cope would probably be watching Disney movies.

677
00:33:02,280 --> 00:33:05,840
Speaker 1: I know that sounds really like not a good coping mechanism,

678
00:33:05,880 --> 00:33:09,640
Speaker 1: but and this makes me think about anything else other

679
00:33:09,680 --> 00:33:11,880
Speaker 1: than what I'm upset about. It makes me feel, you know,

680
00:33:12,080 --> 00:33:14,400
Speaker 1: just warm and fuzzy and happy on the inside, and

681
00:33:14,400 --> 00:33:17,400
Speaker 1: I'm like, hey, it's okay, it's not that serious.

682
00:33:18,600 --> 00:33:19,920
Speaker 3: It's not that serious. Now.

683
00:33:20,000 --> 00:33:23,360
Speaker 2: Pivoting back to talking a bit about your training. Are

684
00:33:23,400 --> 00:33:25,520
Speaker 2: we still in the gym twice a day typically?

685
00:33:25,920 --> 00:33:28,720
Speaker 1: Yes, So still in gym twice a day, just I'm

686
00:33:28,760 --> 00:33:32,200
Speaker 1: a bit more careful with my volume though, and like

687
00:33:32,280 --> 00:33:34,600
Speaker 1: try to do things intentionally instead of just working out

688
00:33:34,640 --> 00:33:35,560
Speaker 1: to burn calories.

689
00:33:35,880 --> 00:33:38,920
Speaker 2: And then how do those training sessions typically differ? Because

690
00:33:38,920 --> 00:33:42,400
Speaker 2: someone who may not have a full understanding of CrossFit,

691
00:33:42,480 --> 00:33:45,000
Speaker 2: here's that you're in the gym twice a day, and

692
00:33:45,040 --> 00:33:47,240
Speaker 2: they think, how is that not overtraining?

693
00:33:47,600 --> 00:33:50,520
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean actually every session is different, Like no

694
00:33:50,600 --> 00:33:53,520
Speaker 1: session looks the same. But usually, like my morning sessions

695
00:33:53,520 --> 00:33:56,120
Speaker 1: are from like nine to twelve. You know, they come in,

696
00:33:56,240 --> 00:33:59,280
Speaker 1: warm up, hit a workout that's like twenty thirty minutes,

697
00:33:59,840 --> 00:34:02,960
Speaker 1: and then I'll lift for a while and then I'll

698
00:34:02,960 --> 00:34:05,880
Speaker 1: do one more shorter workout. So it sounds like a lot,

699
00:34:05,880 --> 00:34:07,520
Speaker 1: but it really isn't. And there's a lot of like

700
00:34:07,600 --> 00:34:10,120
Speaker 1: chit chat in there, warm up, cool down, lots of

701
00:34:10,200 --> 00:34:12,960
Speaker 1: chit chat. And then in the afternoon it's kind of

702
00:34:13,000 --> 00:34:16,080
Speaker 1: like the same thing. Maybe like one less workout, but yeah,

703
00:34:16,160 --> 00:34:16,600
Speaker 1: same thing.

704
00:34:17,440 --> 00:34:21,040
Speaker 2: It's impossible to hear this and not think about the

705
00:34:21,080 --> 00:34:25,120
Speaker 2: fact that you are extremely diligent in what you do.

706
00:34:25,239 --> 00:34:28,040
Speaker 2: Would you say that you've always been this way? Is

707
00:34:28,080 --> 00:34:31,239
Speaker 2: this something that was modeled for you as a kid

708
00:34:31,280 --> 00:34:32,880
Speaker 2: as you were coming up within sport?

709
00:34:33,560 --> 00:34:36,319
Speaker 1: I've always been this way. My mom has videos in me,

710
00:34:36,480 --> 00:34:39,160
Speaker 1: like during fifth grade to field day, like selling my

711
00:34:39,280 --> 00:34:41,920
Speaker 1: soul to like win the fifty meter dash or like

712
00:34:42,400 --> 00:34:44,880
Speaker 1: when anything. It's always been in me to try to

713
00:34:44,920 --> 00:34:47,880
Speaker 1: be the best. And yeah, it's just something that I

714
00:34:47,880 --> 00:34:50,040
Speaker 1: haven't been taught. It was just ingrained in me like

715
00:34:50,120 --> 00:34:51,880
Speaker 1: I was born like that, I guess.

716
00:34:53,440 --> 00:34:55,840
Speaker 2: And on the days that maybe you're not feeling the

717
00:34:55,920 --> 00:34:58,080
Speaker 2: most diligent, on the days that you are feeling a

718
00:34:58,080 --> 00:35:00,719
Speaker 2: little bit tired, what helps you show up and keep moving?

719
00:35:01,560 --> 00:35:04,160
Speaker 1: Honestly, it's never even been an option to me, Like,

720
00:35:04,360 --> 00:35:06,520
Speaker 1: of course I wake up tired. Of course I wake

721
00:35:06,600 --> 00:35:10,239
Speaker 1: up not motivated. But it's never even like been an

722
00:35:10,239 --> 00:35:12,040
Speaker 1: option in my head to like, oh I don't want

723
00:35:12,080 --> 00:35:14,120
Speaker 1: to go, or I don't go, you know, like I

724
00:35:14,280 --> 00:35:16,680
Speaker 1: just go, like I know I have to. It's my job.

725
00:35:17,320 --> 00:35:20,080
Speaker 2: So yeah, yeah, So you're like, yeah, this is just

726
00:35:20,120 --> 00:35:22,000
Speaker 2: how it is. But it doesn't mean that those days

727
00:35:22,040 --> 00:35:22,600
Speaker 2: don't happen.

728
00:35:22,960 --> 00:35:25,359
Speaker 1: Oh, they happen all the time. This morning, I wanted

729
00:35:25,400 --> 00:35:27,680
Speaker 1: to keep sleeping, but like, it's just not an option

730
00:35:27,760 --> 00:35:29,600
Speaker 1: to me to not go, Like, yeah, I know that

731
00:35:29,680 --> 00:35:31,759
Speaker 1: I would beat myself up more if I didn't go.

732
00:35:32,560 --> 00:35:35,319
Speaker 2: You know what's so funny is that so many hear

733
00:35:35,560 --> 00:35:38,359
Speaker 2: that and they think your job is truly to work out?

734
00:35:38,680 --> 00:35:40,440
Speaker 3: What kind of job is that?

735
00:35:40,560 --> 00:35:43,120
Speaker 2: When I say that back to you, can you imagine

736
00:35:43,120 --> 00:35:45,400
Speaker 2: that this is how you found your way here to

737
00:35:45,480 --> 00:35:46,160
Speaker 2: making a living.

738
00:35:46,920 --> 00:35:49,799
Speaker 1: No, it's honestly the coolest job ever. I get to

739
00:35:49,800 --> 00:35:52,240
Speaker 1: go so many places, I met so many cool people.

740
00:35:52,239 --> 00:35:54,280
Speaker 1: I get to do things like this. It's amazing.

741
00:35:54,600 --> 00:35:58,600
Speaker 2: Yeah, as you are now in this tenth year, you

742
00:35:58,680 --> 00:36:01,640
Speaker 2: said before that you hope that it's a good one.

743
00:36:01,760 --> 00:36:05,880
Speaker 2: What would make this year great? Aside from maybe finding

744
00:36:05,880 --> 00:36:06,600
Speaker 2: that top spot?

745
00:36:07,160 --> 00:36:11,040
Speaker 1: Yeah, I've been working so so hard in the gym

746
00:36:11,160 --> 00:36:15,200
Speaker 1: this offseason, just really trying to you know, not that

747
00:36:15,200 --> 00:36:18,440
Speaker 1: it's about placings, but make myself proud even if that

748
00:36:18,600 --> 00:36:21,840
Speaker 1: isn't a top spot. So number one, make myself proud

749
00:36:21,960 --> 00:36:25,280
Speaker 1: because there's not a worst feeling than not being proud

750
00:36:25,280 --> 00:36:28,160
Speaker 1: of yourself and your efforts. And then number two just

751
00:36:28,320 --> 00:36:31,520
Speaker 1: continue to you know, leave an impact on people and

752
00:36:31,640 --> 00:36:32,440
Speaker 1: inspire people.

753
00:36:32,800 --> 00:36:38,120
Speaker 2: And yeah, yeah, when you think about that, that goal

754
00:36:38,200 --> 00:36:41,200
Speaker 2: setting that goes beyond a number, is that something that

755
00:36:41,400 --> 00:36:45,200
Speaker 2: you're continuously auditing. Is that something that you talk about

756
00:36:45,280 --> 00:36:48,080
Speaker 2: a bit with your coach? Where do those goals come

757
00:36:48,120 --> 00:36:48,680
Speaker 2: into the mix?

758
00:36:50,120 --> 00:36:52,719
Speaker 1: I don't really talk about a number anymore, just because

759
00:36:52,760 --> 00:36:55,279
Speaker 1: I feel like that's a slippery slope. But I know

760
00:36:55,360 --> 00:36:58,240
Speaker 1: that when I'm very fit and at my fittest and strongest,

761
00:36:58,320 --> 00:37:01,279
Speaker 1: that I know what I'm capable of. So it's kind

762
00:37:01,280 --> 00:37:04,359
Speaker 1: of like something that we don't really say, but we

763
00:37:04,440 --> 00:37:07,239
Speaker 1: know we want to do, you know, but just don't

764
00:37:07,239 --> 00:37:10,040
Speaker 1: want to put that pressure on myself. Yeah.

765
00:37:10,080 --> 00:37:14,440
Speaker 2: Of course, now as you are, you're saying like kind

766
00:37:14,440 --> 00:37:16,920
Speaker 2: of taking a step back not necessarily focusing on a

767
00:37:16,920 --> 00:37:19,680
Speaker 2: certain number. That doesn't mean that there can't be a

768
00:37:19,800 --> 00:37:22,560
Speaker 2: benefit to having a certain.

769
00:37:22,280 --> 00:37:24,239
Speaker 3: Amount of data around you.

770
00:37:24,440 --> 00:37:28,480
Speaker 2: Right With that said, how do you focus on listening

771
00:37:28,480 --> 00:37:31,400
Speaker 2: to your body when there is so much access to numbers?

772
00:37:32,680 --> 00:37:35,560
Speaker 1: I mean, I usually just take it day by day,

773
00:37:35,600 --> 00:37:37,319
Speaker 1: but I've been doing this for so long that I

774
00:37:37,400 --> 00:37:39,960
Speaker 1: know myself so well, so like I know paces that

775
00:37:39,960 --> 00:37:42,000
Speaker 1: should be hitting, I know numbers that I should be hitting,

776
00:37:42,040 --> 00:37:44,640
Speaker 1: and I know what that would look like on a leaderboard.

777
00:37:44,719 --> 00:37:47,760
Speaker 1: So I just again, I just know myself so well

778
00:37:47,800 --> 00:37:49,520
Speaker 1: that I know where I should be.

779
00:38:05,960 --> 00:38:09,080
Speaker 2: How do you relax? How do you take time for

780
00:38:09,120 --> 00:38:10,760
Speaker 2: you outside of the Disney movies?

781
00:38:11,840 --> 00:38:15,880
Speaker 1: I will not look at anything CrossFit outside of the

782
00:38:15,880 --> 00:38:19,520
Speaker 1: gym once I leave this gym. Nothing. It's either just

783
00:38:19,560 --> 00:38:22,799
Speaker 1: like super girly stuff or Disney or I have lots

784
00:38:22,840 --> 00:38:26,720
Speaker 1: of animals, so keep myself busy with animals, literally, anything

785
00:38:26,800 --> 00:38:28,120
Speaker 1: but working out or CrossFit.

786
00:38:28,719 --> 00:38:30,080
Speaker 3: Tell me about the animals please.

787
00:38:31,080 --> 00:38:35,480
Speaker 1: I have two cats, an Australian shepherd puppy, so good.

788
00:38:36,400 --> 00:38:39,480
Speaker 1: I have an axel lottle. You know what that is?

789
00:38:39,640 --> 00:38:41,480
Speaker 3: No, it's like.

790
00:38:43,320 --> 00:38:45,200
Speaker 1: You have to look it up. But they're rightly popular.

791
00:38:45,239 --> 00:38:46,359
Speaker 1: I'm surprised you haven't seen it.

792
00:38:46,400 --> 00:38:49,280
Speaker 3: No, I've never heard. And then I have four hermit crabs.

793
00:38:49,719 --> 00:38:51,840
Speaker 3: Oh my gosh. The hermit crabs are kind of like

794
00:38:51,880 --> 00:38:53,080
Speaker 3: the biggest wild card here.

795
00:38:53,400 --> 00:38:55,720
Speaker 1: No, the ax a lottle, I've promised the axe lottle

796
00:38:55,800 --> 00:38:56,680
Speaker 1: is the coolest one.

797
00:38:57,320 --> 00:38:58,920
Speaker 3: How did you find yourself with that.

798
00:38:59,480 --> 00:39:01,560
Speaker 1: I saw at a coffee shop and I was like,

799
00:39:01,719 --> 00:39:04,400
Speaker 1: oh my gosh, I really want one of those, and

800
00:39:04,440 --> 00:39:07,319
Speaker 1: then just does some research on it and got one.

801
00:39:07,560 --> 00:39:10,080
Speaker 1: But I love keeping myself busy with animals.

802
00:39:10,239 --> 00:39:11,920
Speaker 3: That's a lot to handle them.

803
00:39:11,960 --> 00:39:14,960
Speaker 2: Yeah, especially when you have to travel and stuff for

804
00:39:15,040 --> 00:39:15,680
Speaker 2: your work.

805
00:39:16,080 --> 00:39:18,919
Speaker 1: Yeah, thankfully. My mom loves her grandbabies.

806
00:39:19,120 --> 00:39:21,719
Speaker 3: There you go. And so how far away are your

807
00:39:21,760 --> 00:39:22,399
Speaker 3: parents now?

808
00:39:23,400 --> 00:39:25,560
Speaker 1: So I'm from North Carolina and they still live there,

809
00:39:25,640 --> 00:39:27,359
Speaker 1: so it's like five and a half hours, so I'm

810
00:39:27,360 --> 00:39:29,720
Speaker 1: not too terrible, but just far enough.

811
00:39:30,239 --> 00:39:33,520
Speaker 2: What would you say now being back in Cookeville is

812
00:39:33,719 --> 00:39:36,239
Speaker 2: the best part of it for you? Knowing that your

813
00:39:36,280 --> 00:39:39,080
Speaker 2: family is a you know, considerable amount of way.

814
00:39:39,440 --> 00:39:41,640
Speaker 1: For me, I think it's just the community and the

815
00:39:41,719 --> 00:39:46,200
Speaker 1: environment that I've been around here, and it just you know,

816
00:39:46,280 --> 00:39:48,399
Speaker 1: showing up for this crew every day, like both four

817
00:39:48,440 --> 00:39:51,680
Speaker 1: pm crows telling me about like it just brightens my day,

818
00:39:51,719 --> 00:39:53,920
Speaker 1: Like I look forward to that. So I've built some

819
00:39:54,000 --> 00:39:57,240
Speaker 1: things here over the last few years that have really

820
00:39:57,360 --> 00:40:01,839
Speaker 1: just you know, paid the way for me. And yeah,

821
00:40:01,880 --> 00:40:04,080
Speaker 1: I don't think my day to day would look the

822
00:40:04,080 --> 00:40:06,680
Speaker 1: same without them and my happiness here.

823
00:40:06,800 --> 00:40:09,600
Speaker 2: Ten years ago you never anticipated that you'd be doing

824
00:40:09,640 --> 00:40:12,000
Speaker 2: what you're doing now. So when you think ten years

825
00:40:12,040 --> 00:40:14,720
Speaker 2: into the future, what do you envision for yourself?

826
00:40:15,600 --> 00:40:18,359
Speaker 1: Well, I hope that I can keep doing this for

827
00:40:18,600 --> 00:40:20,560
Speaker 1: a couple more years or as long as my body

828
00:40:20,600 --> 00:40:24,840
Speaker 1: allows me to and to keep you know, being myself

829
00:40:24,920 --> 00:40:28,839
Speaker 1: and speaking my truth and honestly, Yeah, just staying true

830
00:40:28,840 --> 00:40:29,480
Speaker 1: to myself.

831
00:40:29,600 --> 00:40:33,240
Speaker 3: And yeah, yeah, just staying true to myself.

832
00:40:33,360 --> 00:40:35,560
Speaker 2: When you I mean, obviously you have an affinity for animals,

833
00:40:35,600 --> 00:40:37,560
Speaker 2: do you think about doing something with that when.

834
00:40:37,440 --> 00:40:39,800
Speaker 1: Oh, yeah, I would love to have like an animal

835
00:40:39,840 --> 00:40:44,080
Speaker 1: farm one day, a big piece of land, like and

836
00:40:44,239 --> 00:40:45,560
Speaker 1: just have a bunch of animals.

837
00:40:45,920 --> 00:40:46,480
Speaker 3: I love that.

838
00:40:46,800 --> 00:40:49,360
Speaker 2: The other thing that I think could be really helpful

839
00:40:49,400 --> 00:40:52,280
Speaker 2: for us to talk about, you talked about so beautifully

840
00:40:52,280 --> 00:40:55,240
Speaker 2: your journey navigating you know, a little bit of disordered

841
00:40:55,280 --> 00:40:59,200
Speaker 2: eating and then also overtraining. Now, what would you say

842
00:40:59,280 --> 00:41:01,160
Speaker 2: your relationship is like with your body.

843
00:41:02,160 --> 00:41:06,640
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's actually super interesting now because I have come

844
00:41:06,719 --> 00:41:09,080
Speaker 1: so far. Back in the day, Like when I was

845
00:41:09,120 --> 00:41:12,880
Speaker 1: really struggling, I would wear like these super huge T shirts.

846
00:41:12,920 --> 00:41:15,279
Speaker 1: And there's nothing wrong with that unless you're doing it

847
00:41:15,719 --> 00:41:17,920
Speaker 1: for a reason of Like you think that you look

848
00:41:18,000 --> 00:41:21,279
Speaker 1: bad or you know, you're just insecure, Like that's all

849
00:41:21,280 --> 00:41:23,960
Speaker 1: I would wear because I truly just believed that I

850
00:41:23,960 --> 00:41:26,960
Speaker 1: looked so terrible and had this terrible image in my

851
00:41:27,000 --> 00:41:30,480
Speaker 1: head of how I looked and just hated myself. But

852
00:41:30,640 --> 00:41:33,719
Speaker 1: whereas now it's like I really love style and I

853
00:41:33,760 --> 00:41:36,279
Speaker 1: love wearing cute gym outfits, and you know, sometimes I

854
00:41:36,320 --> 00:41:38,799
Speaker 1: still do wear baggy fits because they're super cool, like

855
00:41:39,280 --> 00:41:40,960
Speaker 1: you know, style it up and it looks great, but

856
00:41:41,280 --> 00:41:42,920
Speaker 1: it comes from a place now of like I think

857
00:41:42,920 --> 00:41:44,799
Speaker 1: it looks cool, where it's like I'm not doing it

858
00:41:44,840 --> 00:41:48,080
Speaker 1: because I hate myself. So just like in that area,

859
00:41:48,160 --> 00:41:50,800
Speaker 1: I've grown so much, and like my relationship with food

860
00:41:50,880 --> 00:41:54,960
Speaker 1: is like night and day, like so much better and

861
00:41:55,040 --> 00:41:57,920
Speaker 1: it takes a long time, like it does not happen overnight,

862
00:41:57,960 --> 00:42:00,279
Speaker 1: and I still have bad days too, but I have

863
00:42:00,400 --> 00:42:03,120
Speaker 1: worked so hard and like anyone that knows me with

864
00:42:03,320 --> 00:42:06,640
Speaker 1: Josh for this, like I'm a completely different person in

865
00:42:06,640 --> 00:42:07,320
Speaker 1: that category.

866
00:42:07,760 --> 00:42:09,840
Speaker 3: I think that for me as well.

867
00:42:10,440 --> 00:42:13,919
Speaker 2: I was big into CrossFit over a decade ago, and

868
00:42:14,080 --> 00:42:17,600
Speaker 2: when I was into CrossFit, I felt like that was

869
00:42:17,840 --> 00:42:21,640
Speaker 2: a pretty triggering component of it, just seeing so many

870
00:42:21,800 --> 00:42:26,440
Speaker 2: people around you being so diligent with their intake and

871
00:42:26,520 --> 00:42:31,720
Speaker 2: really looking at food specifically as fuel. Would you say

872
00:42:31,760 --> 00:42:34,760
Speaker 2: that now you're looking at it a little bit less

873
00:42:34,840 --> 00:42:37,880
Speaker 2: like fuel and a little bit more like just what

874
00:42:37,960 --> 00:42:38,279
Speaker 2: it is.

875
00:42:38,800 --> 00:42:43,759
Speaker 1: Yeah, Like, honestly, yeah, it still can be hard, so

876
00:42:43,800 --> 00:42:46,080
Speaker 1: I have to be careful with like, you know, how

877
00:42:46,120 --> 00:42:48,120
Speaker 1: I look at food, or you know, even the things

878
00:42:48,160 --> 00:42:50,239
Speaker 1: that you look at on social media, you know, can

879
00:42:50,280 --> 00:42:53,799
Speaker 1: still be triggering. But yeah, like it's just food at

880
00:42:53,800 --> 00:42:55,719
Speaker 1: the end of the day, you know, And it took

881
00:42:55,760 --> 00:42:58,000
Speaker 1: me a long time to get to that mindset. It

882
00:42:58,040 --> 00:43:01,040
Speaker 1: doesn't mean again, still doesn't mean I don't have issues

883
00:43:01,200 --> 00:43:04,319
Speaker 1: or whatever bad days, but it is just food and

884
00:43:04,600 --> 00:43:07,160
Speaker 1: it is fuel too. Like I've gotten better about fueling

885
00:43:07,160 --> 00:43:10,319
Speaker 1: my workouts, Whereas before I would go so long without

886
00:43:10,360 --> 00:43:12,880
Speaker 1: eating because I just wanted to like burn calories. But

887
00:43:12,960 --> 00:43:15,360
Speaker 1: now like learning how to fuel workouts and how the

888
00:43:15,400 --> 00:43:17,359
Speaker 1: science behind that has been really cool too.

889
00:43:17,920 --> 00:43:21,040
Speaker 2: It's helpful, and it's helpful, especially when you see how

890
00:43:21,080 --> 00:43:24,279
Speaker 2: it impacts your body and your performance, knowing that there

891
00:43:24,320 --> 00:43:27,920
Speaker 2: was this whole category, this whole thing that maybe before

892
00:43:28,520 --> 00:43:31,800
Speaker 2: was demonized and now it can be your biggest tool.

893
00:43:32,440 --> 00:43:35,120
Speaker 1: Yeah. No, I mean even just like fueling myself. I'm like,

894
00:43:35,760 --> 00:43:37,439
Speaker 1: how did I not do that?

895
00:43:37,560 --> 00:43:38,359
Speaker 3: For so long?

896
00:43:38,440 --> 00:43:40,600
Speaker 1: I'm like, I go like three hours about food and

897
00:43:40,640 --> 00:43:42,680
Speaker 1: I'm starving, Like how did I do that?

898
00:43:43,600 --> 00:43:45,839
Speaker 2: And I think what's so interesting too, is it's one

899
00:43:45,840 --> 00:43:49,680
Speaker 2: of those foundational components that so many overlook, and by

900
00:43:49,800 --> 00:43:52,719
Speaker 2: overlooking that, you think like, hey, I was one of

901
00:43:52,760 --> 00:43:54,920
Speaker 2: the top ten in the world, and I was hardly

902
00:43:55,000 --> 00:43:57,640
Speaker 2: zoning in on this. But if you think about food

903
00:43:57,920 --> 00:44:00,640
Speaker 2: as fuel and you think about, hey, maybe I should

904
00:44:00,680 --> 00:44:03,680
Speaker 2: prioritize my sleep, it seems so simple, but it can

905
00:44:03,760 --> 00:44:06,120
Speaker 2: be the biggest A mock, Yeah.

906
00:44:05,960 --> 00:44:09,960
Speaker 1: No, it really is. I mean that's like, you know,

907
00:44:10,600 --> 00:44:13,200
Speaker 1: the work inside the gym is like, honestly the easier part,

908
00:44:13,280 --> 00:44:16,319
Speaker 1: Like for me, it was the sleep the nutrition, and

909
00:44:16,440 --> 00:44:18,200
Speaker 1: I'm still working on that, but it's like once you

910
00:44:18,280 --> 00:44:20,879
Speaker 1: get that down it, you know, you feel so much better.

911
00:44:21,440 --> 00:44:24,200
Speaker 3: What does recovery look like for you these days? Haley?

912
00:44:25,600 --> 00:44:30,160
Speaker 1: Honestly, lots of just laying on the couch and with

913
00:44:30,200 --> 00:44:34,920
Speaker 1: my little animals and some stretching. I'm not super great about,

914
00:44:35,080 --> 00:44:37,640
Speaker 1: you know, all the recovery stuff, but a lot of

915
00:44:37,640 --> 00:44:40,120
Speaker 1: the recovery for me is mental. Like I again, I

916
00:44:40,200 --> 00:44:43,839
Speaker 1: don't like talking about watching it. Nothing about crossloit. When

917
00:44:43,840 --> 00:44:46,759
Speaker 1: I'm at home, like that helps me feel refresh and

918
00:44:46,880 --> 00:44:48,279
Speaker 1: just like ready to go. When it's time to go

919
00:44:48,280 --> 00:44:49,680
Speaker 1: to the gym and work, it's time to go. And

920
00:44:49,760 --> 00:44:51,120
Speaker 1: then when it's time to turn it off, it's time

921
00:44:51,120 --> 00:44:52,799
Speaker 1: to turn it off. So that is the biggest thing

922
00:44:52,840 --> 00:44:53,120
Speaker 1: for me.

923
00:44:53,520 --> 00:44:56,160
Speaker 2: Yeah, the mental can be such a massive piece. Yes,

924
00:44:56,320 --> 00:45:00,000
Speaker 2: that's all for you. What would you say you're inner

925
00:45:00,120 --> 00:45:03,360
Speaker 2: dialogue is like these days? And how has your relationship

926
00:45:03,520 --> 00:45:05,880
Speaker 2: evolved with your inner dialogue over time?

927
00:45:07,320 --> 00:45:10,480
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean I feel like I'm still my biggest critic,

928
00:45:10,600 --> 00:45:13,080
Speaker 1: but I've learned to be a lot nicer to myself

929
00:45:13,160 --> 00:45:16,239
Speaker 1: because at the end of the day, like this is

930
00:45:16,239 --> 00:45:18,160
Speaker 1: the voice that you're stuck with, like in your head,

931
00:45:18,239 --> 00:45:22,759
Speaker 1: you know, so might as well make it nice. But

932
00:45:23,080 --> 00:45:25,600
Speaker 1: it's again a lot easier said than done. But I

933
00:45:25,760 --> 00:45:27,880
Speaker 1: really really try to make an effort to not be

934
00:45:27,920 --> 00:45:31,000
Speaker 1: as negative about myself, because you know, I believe that

935
00:45:31,000 --> 00:45:33,520
Speaker 1: those words really do go somewhere when you're constantly saying

936
00:45:33,560 --> 00:45:36,040
Speaker 1: it and putting it out in the universe. But yeah,

937
00:45:36,239 --> 00:45:38,560
Speaker 1: I just I really make an effort to try to

938
00:45:38,560 --> 00:45:40,920
Speaker 1: be nicer in myself and realize that I'm just trying

939
00:45:40,920 --> 00:45:42,600
Speaker 1: my best out here too. You know, I'm doing my

940
00:45:42,640 --> 00:45:45,040
Speaker 1: best and that's all you can do. It's not worth

941
00:45:45,080 --> 00:45:47,240
Speaker 1: beating yourself up over or losing sleep.

942
00:45:47,760 --> 00:45:51,360
Speaker 2: So you're about to step out onto a competition floor,

943
00:45:51,400 --> 00:45:54,040
Speaker 2: what are the things that you're typically telling yourself?

944
00:45:55,280 --> 00:45:58,919
Speaker 1: Well, honestly, I try to keep myself like calm down

945
00:45:58,960 --> 00:46:01,600
Speaker 1: and not too up. So I usually I am just like,

946
00:46:01,719 --> 00:46:03,720
Speaker 1: you know what to do, like this is just another workout,

947
00:46:03,800 --> 00:46:05,759
Speaker 1: Like just go do exactly what you need to go do.

948
00:46:06,480 --> 00:46:09,360
Speaker 1: But also number two, I get really like competitive and

949
00:46:09,440 --> 00:46:11,600
Speaker 1: comp so I also get a little bit fired up,

950
00:46:11,719 --> 00:46:14,120
Speaker 1: like you know, you're going up and you're like, Okay,

951
00:46:14,800 --> 00:46:19,480
Speaker 1: I'm gonna take this. And then number three, one thing

952
00:46:19,520 --> 00:46:21,680
Speaker 1: that I over the last few years after my year

953
00:46:21,719 --> 00:46:24,839
Speaker 1: off was like actually enjoying being out there, like try

954
00:46:24,880 --> 00:46:27,400
Speaker 1: to enjoy the whole process because it could be gone tomorrow,

955
00:46:27,520 --> 00:46:30,880
Speaker 1: you know. Like once I learned to enjoy competing again,

956
00:46:30,960 --> 00:46:32,440
Speaker 1: it was like a whole different experience.

957
00:46:32,719 --> 00:46:36,480
Speaker 2: Yeah, there's so much beauty to be had in the journey,

958
00:46:36,600 --> 00:46:42,240
Speaker 2: and if you're really basing your success on what happens

959
00:46:42,280 --> 00:46:45,080
Speaker 2: at the very end of it, then you're missing the point.

960
00:46:45,200 --> 00:46:47,759
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's you miss everything. Like you look back and

961
00:46:47,840 --> 00:46:49,880
Speaker 1: it's all just like what just happened, you know, like

962
00:46:49,880 --> 00:46:51,160
Speaker 1: you don't even remember.

963
00:46:50,840 --> 00:46:53,880
Speaker 3: It entirely, entirely so for you.

964
00:46:54,000 --> 00:46:57,400
Speaker 2: Right now, someone comes to your Instagram page, they see

965
00:46:57,440 --> 00:47:02,040
Speaker 2: this strong woman that has been a doing CrossFit now

966
00:47:02,080 --> 00:47:05,280
Speaker 2: in her tenth season. But when you look in the mirror, Haley,

967
00:47:05,360 --> 00:47:07,279
Speaker 2: what is it that you see looking back at you?

968
00:47:09,120 --> 00:47:10,560
Speaker 1: I think it goes back to what I said at

969
00:47:10,560 --> 00:47:13,600
Speaker 1: the beginning. All I see is a lot of work.

970
00:47:13,760 --> 00:47:16,120
Speaker 1: Like I've worked so hard to get where I'm at,

971
00:47:16,160 --> 00:47:19,520
Speaker 1: and I've been through a lot of things that I

972
00:47:19,560 --> 00:47:22,799
Speaker 1: have shared, some haven't shared. But I just I'm really

973
00:47:22,880 --> 00:47:24,840
Speaker 1: proud of myself and I'm proud of who I've become.

974
00:47:25,000 --> 00:47:27,880
Speaker 1: I'm proud of the image that I've like upheld. And

975
00:47:27,920 --> 00:47:31,640
Speaker 1: then yeah, I'm proud of myself for even just being

976
00:47:31,640 --> 00:47:34,720
Speaker 1: an inspiration to someone else. So, yes, the physical stuff

977
00:47:34,760 --> 00:47:37,440
Speaker 1: is cool, but there's a lot bigger things than that.

978
00:47:37,480 --> 00:47:39,160
Speaker 3: To me, there are bigger things than that.

979
00:47:39,520 --> 00:47:42,480
Speaker 2: And on this journey that you're on of working to

980
00:47:42,640 --> 00:47:46,719
Speaker 2: be vulnerable with your audience, what would you say is

981
00:47:46,840 --> 00:47:49,200
Speaker 2: the most challenging part.

982
00:47:49,920 --> 00:47:53,520
Speaker 1: I think the most challenging part would be, honestly, like

983
00:47:54,480 --> 00:47:57,040
Speaker 1: just a mental side of it, Like I think everyone

984
00:47:57,040 --> 00:47:59,319
Speaker 1: always seems so happy all the time, and you know

985
00:47:59,400 --> 00:48:01,960
Speaker 1: this workout win great, or we're posting this highlight blah

986
00:48:02,000 --> 00:48:04,200
Speaker 1: blah blah, when it's really not like that at all,

987
00:48:04,239 --> 00:48:06,399
Speaker 1: And I think anyone that has social media can relate

988
00:48:06,440 --> 00:48:09,640
Speaker 1: to that, like you see this person that's squatting this

989
00:48:09,680 --> 00:48:11,520
Speaker 1: amount and you can't do that, or this that blah

990
00:48:11,520 --> 00:48:13,839
Speaker 1: blah blah. They look like this, they're wearing this, and

991
00:48:13,880 --> 00:48:17,880
Speaker 1: it's just like a never ending comparison battles. So I

992
00:48:17,920 --> 00:48:21,920
Speaker 1: would just you know, say, just it is what it is, like,

993
00:48:21,920 --> 00:48:23,480
Speaker 1: guess your social media at the end of the day,

994
00:48:23,520 --> 00:48:25,239
Speaker 1: like we all have our own stuff going on.

995
00:48:25,520 --> 00:48:28,840
Speaker 2: Yeah, the comparison trap can be really yeah, really for

996
00:48:28,920 --> 00:48:29,759
Speaker 2: sure to stay out of that.

997
00:48:30,000 --> 00:48:31,040
Speaker 3: Yeah.

998
00:48:31,280 --> 00:48:34,320
Speaker 2: Now, right now, Haley, before I let you go today,

999
00:48:34,600 --> 00:48:37,280
Speaker 2: you have an opportunity to offer yourself a piece of advice.

1000
00:48:37,360 --> 00:48:39,800
Speaker 2: Let's go back to that Hurtle moment, that rock bottom

1001
00:48:39,880 --> 00:48:43,399
Speaker 2: moment in twenty twenty two when you really just felt

1002
00:48:43,480 --> 00:48:46,560
Speaker 2: like you could not do it anymore. Knowing what you

1003
00:48:46,719 --> 00:48:50,160
Speaker 2: know now, what advice would you offer to your younger self.

1004
00:48:52,960 --> 00:48:57,120
Speaker 1: Honestly, like in that moment, I would tell myself to

1005
00:48:57,160 --> 00:48:59,560
Speaker 1: not give up. I'm so glad I didn't give up,

1006
00:48:59,719 --> 00:49:02,000
Speaker 1: because if I did give up, I wouldn't be where

1007
00:49:02,000 --> 00:49:05,000
Speaker 1: I'm at right now. I wouldn't have, you know, gotten

1008
00:49:05,360 --> 00:49:08,160
Speaker 1: all these amazing things. I wouldn't be with Red Bull.

1009
00:49:08,280 --> 00:49:11,640
Speaker 1: But because I took a chance myself and realized, like,

1010
00:49:11,880 --> 00:49:16,239
Speaker 1: sure I was at rock bottom, but it can't get worse. Like, sure,

1011
00:49:16,320 --> 00:49:20,720
Speaker 1: things get hard, but you know, don't give up on yourself.

1012
00:49:21,000 --> 00:49:23,000
Speaker 1: And I'm so glad I did it.

1013
00:49:23,000 --> 00:49:26,799
Speaker 2: It's so special because in that moment when you had

1014
00:49:26,840 --> 00:49:29,160
Speaker 2: to take a step back, there was probably a part

1015
00:49:29,200 --> 00:49:31,400
Speaker 2: of you that thought you're giving up.

1016
00:49:31,800 --> 00:49:33,600
Speaker 1: Yeah, I was like, I'm done. I don't want to

1017
00:49:33,600 --> 00:49:36,279
Speaker 1: do this anymore. And I'm so glad that something in

1018
00:49:36,360 --> 00:49:38,000
Speaker 1: me woke up that day and I was like, no,

1019
00:49:38,080 --> 00:49:39,799
Speaker 1: we're going to do this again, because I would think

1020
00:49:39,800 --> 00:49:41,279
Speaker 1: I would have regretted it for the rest of my

1021
00:49:41,320 --> 00:49:42,000
Speaker 1: life if I did it.

1022
00:49:42,320 --> 00:49:45,960
Speaker 2: By taking that step back, Hayley, you chose yourself, and

1023
00:49:46,000 --> 00:49:47,920
Speaker 2: that's the most beautiful example.

1024
00:49:48,400 --> 00:49:51,319
Speaker 1: Yes, and I think so many amazing things came from

1025
00:49:51,320 --> 00:49:52,800
Speaker 1: that so great.

1026
00:49:52,840 --> 00:49:54,480
Speaker 2: Well, I'm so glad that we were able to sit

1027
00:49:54,520 --> 00:49:57,359
Speaker 2: down today. For those that aren't keeping up with you

1028
00:49:57,400 --> 00:49:59,600
Speaker 2: just yet, give me at your details.

1029
00:49:59,640 --> 00:50:01,279
Speaker 3: Where do they find you on the socials?

1030
00:50:01,680 --> 00:50:04,520
Speaker 1: On Instagram, I'm Haley Adams a h L E Y

1031
00:50:04,719 --> 00:50:07,360
Speaker 1: that's there's fifteen ways to spell it, and then Adams

1032
00:50:07,400 --> 00:50:11,000
Speaker 1: with four s's. I'm on TikTok.

1033
00:50:12,000 --> 00:50:14,640
Speaker 3: Mostly just Instagram, mostly just Instagram.

1034
00:50:14,719 --> 00:50:18,200
Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm over at Emily Body and at Hurdle Podcast.

1035
00:50:18,280 --> 00:50:21,120
Speaker 2: Another Hurdle conquered. Catch you guys next time