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Speaker 1: So let's begin this week's episode. So, at the age

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Speaker 1: of thirty three, you took a break after your mother

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Speaker 1: passed away to gree but I also felt like this

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Speaker 1: the game. Oh yes, I did, actually UM when my mom.

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Speaker 1: Before my mom passed away, my we loosed our grandmother

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Speaker 1: two months prior to that, so I had stopped UM.

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Speaker 1: I had stopped selling drugs at the time because my

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Speaker 1: That that was my comfort zone. And then I was reckless,

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Speaker 1: and I became real reckless. For for a while, it

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Speaker 1: just just I didn't care and me my reckless. Well,

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Speaker 1: I was selling. I would I would sell no matter

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Speaker 1: caused my demas because I always told my guys never

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Speaker 1: to to sell in parking lots of of a grocery

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Speaker 1: I did. And that's what that's where I got card

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Speaker 1: at too, at the grocery store. But yeah, I went back.

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Speaker 1: I went back hard, and I didn't think or care

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Speaker 1: um about anything. I didn't care who I hurt. I

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Speaker 1: so but didn't nobody never crossed me, so I didn't comflex.

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Speaker 1: But they didn't. They didn't, you know, people didn't you know,

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Speaker 1: Because I wasn't even thinking that. I hope that that

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Speaker 1: he begged me not to leave, and I didn't. So

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Speaker 1: I told him. I said, okay, so you can't tell

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Speaker 1: Heck no, he bet not. And so I told him,

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Speaker 1: I said, I don't go down to the corner drug store,

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Speaker 1: which was actress. I said, I get everything to pat

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Speaker 1: he got about four hundred stitches in and four hundred

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Speaker 1: and so anyway, he got patched up and he said,

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Speaker 1: He probably liked this. How y'all used to interact? He did,

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Speaker 1: was over a thousand inmates. Crazy. I read somewhere that

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Speaker 1: prison like training for jobs that were in high demand,

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Speaker 1: and instead of training y'all for those particular jobs, they

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Speaker 1: were training y'all how to be a florist, and don't

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Speaker 1: show you to the florist. I'm thinking to myself, who

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Speaker 1: wants to be a florist? After the god of jail? Exactly? Yes.

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Speaker 1: And then they wouldn't let me go to school. They

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Speaker 1: said I had too much education. Oh so anyways, since

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Speaker 1: I have so much education, and our foul lawsuits against you,

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Speaker 1: so I'll just use what I know against you. But anyways, yeah, um,

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Speaker 1: you could be a florist. And I'm talking about for

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Speaker 1: the women. They had it for the men too, But well,

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Speaker 1: this woman wants to be a wilder. I mean, who

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Speaker 1: wants to be a florist? I don't even like so, like,

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Speaker 1: come on, like stopping especially you're just getting out of jail.

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Speaker 1: You're not trying to play with no flowers, right, You're not.

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Speaker 1: I mean you're not and you're not going to be

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Speaker 1: a wilder. It's very very few women that want to

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Speaker 1: be a wilder. And and then with us do they

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Speaker 1: have I think they have they have where a little

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Speaker 1: business class so you can learn how to type? No who,

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Speaker 1: they don't matter where you know how to type or not.

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Speaker 1: You need to teach them from skills, you know, you

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Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. And and so no, that needs

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Speaker 1: to be something that's addressed, not more a prisons get

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Speaker 1: you know, opportunities when people get out of prison. Okay,

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Speaker 1: you got you come up with a plan to lock

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Speaker 1: them up, but they do get out. What's the plan?

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Speaker 1: You don't you still don't have one, mm hmm. And

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Speaker 1: that's why they go back. But see, it's a business.

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Speaker 1: See every time, well let's see when I was locked up.

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Speaker 1: Every time that a person go to prison, that is

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Speaker 1: thirty thousand dollars per person. And then they get food

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Speaker 1: stamps per person. So look at all the money and

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Speaker 1: the food stuff that the state is generating just for

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Speaker 1: having prison. That's why you're trying to build America prison.

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Speaker 1: It's all about the money. And and then I received

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Speaker 1: the full pardon too. Why don't you put done there?

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Speaker 1: But um, I don't know. But our partners is when

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Speaker 1: you are being forgiven of your crimes. And so seven

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Speaker 1: years after I was released, I received a full pardon

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Speaker 1: from state to Alabama, which Alabama states on their website

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Speaker 1: that they rarely give full partners. I don't know if

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Speaker 1: they changed it or not. They could have, but I

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Speaker 1: doubt it, but that's what was on it. So when

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Speaker 1: I applied to get my pardoner, it was over nine

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Speaker 1: thousand people that had applied nine thousand applications. Out of

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Speaker 1: that nine thousand plus applications, Alabama only granted two hundred

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Speaker 1: and forty two, me me being the all in one

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Speaker 1: in North Alabama to receive a full part period because

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Speaker 1: two nothing. Uh, I need something happening. I'm calling you

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Speaker 1: a prayer line. Oh yeah, and I've turned my backyard

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Speaker 1: into my prayer sanctuary. I have a cotton feel back

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Speaker 1: here and U when they feelmed out here, I said,

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Speaker 1: you'd be real careful now, I said, because it's gonna

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Speaker 1: blow up because we are here on holy ground. I

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Speaker 1: just stoked up and down through here ask God for

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Speaker 1: favor like this. So what do you want people to

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Speaker 1: take away from your story? Because you love such a

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Speaker 1: full life? Oh, I want them to be inspired, you know,

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Speaker 1: I definitely want them to be inspired. What I want

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Speaker 1: is a young girl to be inspired by my story,

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Speaker 1: have hope when the task ahead seems truly impossible, and

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Speaker 1: have faith in God and continue to persevere. Why do

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Speaker 1: you think that we always hear about the commodity between

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Speaker 1: men drug dealers, but we don't hear the same for

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Speaker 1: women drug dealers, Like why do you think that women

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Speaker 1: drug dealers couldn't unite and do a lot of things together,

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Speaker 1: because you know, back in the day and even still

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Speaker 1: to this day, but y'all was like bosses, and some

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Speaker 1: of y'all was doing wig crazy more numbers than y'all

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Speaker 1: men counterparts. Well at the time, sad this at the

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Speaker 1: time here, most female was theves that that was they shotlifting,

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Speaker 1: you know, or or check right is something like that

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Speaker 1: j ship right. You know what I'm saying, you know,

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Speaker 1: And and so nobody nobody wanted to sell drugs, no,

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Speaker 1: they they they they didn't have the nerve to sell

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Speaker 1: dry Let's see, I don't have the nerve to steal. Yah,

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Speaker 1: I don't have that nerve uh to to steal, you know.

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Speaker 1: But I've done the check game and stuff. I've done

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Speaker 1: all that to a lot of money doing that. But

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Speaker 1: that was my thing. And uh but I guess that's why.

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Speaker 1: And then most of the time, most females that sell drugs,

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Speaker 1: they look like the typical boy on the street, and so,

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Speaker 1: you know, so the guys treat them, they make they

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Speaker 1: treat them different than they would mean, you know, they

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Speaker 1: treat them like one of the fellas or whatever. And

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Speaker 1: and they subject to get robbed beat because they're a

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Speaker 1: girl and trying to act like a boy. And you know,

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Speaker 1: I've seen that happen, um And and another thing with me,

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Speaker 1: and I know this is just the cover of God,

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Speaker 1: the covenant of Him, because I was never robbed. I've

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Speaker 1: never been cut, stabbed, shot it nothing, nothing has never

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Speaker 1: happened to me, um And And that's the of my

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Speaker 1: covenant with the Lord the Blood of the Lamb, because

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Speaker 1: I have been in some places that that was scared

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Speaker 1: of bugabar and and it didn't phase me none. And

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Speaker 1: and I've always had respect. I mean people always respected me.

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Speaker 1: Now I've shouted folks, I've cut folks. I've done everything

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Speaker 1: everything that I named except for rob I ain't never

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Speaker 1: robbed nobody but um but as for shooting or cutting

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Speaker 1: or or or or slapping people or doing that, I've

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Speaker 1: done that and and and that just didn't happen to me. Wow,

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Speaker 1: I'm super excited about your book coming out. I can't

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Speaker 1: I wait to promote it to my listeners and like,

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Speaker 1: hopefully we can do something else because I'm just like, yell,

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Speaker 1: I know your book is about to be crazy. So

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Speaker 1: your book beyond Yes, Like I'm super excited. Yes we are.

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Speaker 1: We put a lot of love in it. Um and

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Speaker 1: it's spring. We will have been Yeah, okay, that's what

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Speaker 1: I want to change. No, we got a whole new date.

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Speaker 1: Uh well, we don't even have a date. Were just

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Speaker 1: saying early spring because we had a problem. I noticed,

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Speaker 1: is gonna be a masterpiece? Yeah? Yeah, so we had there.

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Speaker 1: We had to get some people on the team that

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Speaker 1: could could really tell the story, like like the writer

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Speaker 1: ye of bt, but better you know what I'm saying. Uh,

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Speaker 1: So now I got a full team. I got a

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Speaker 1: good team. And so now it's gonna be really good. Uh.

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Speaker 1: It'll have a whole lot of stuff that I touched

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Speaker 1: on and and more um so and and and a

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Speaker 1: lot of inspiration. Also, what I'm writing is a workbook. Uh.

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Speaker 1: And that work book is to change criminals into responsible

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Speaker 1: thinking and to have something for a person to have

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Speaker 1: a guide. And we're gonna have it does work. To

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Speaker 1: have it distributed in all the pis so that everyone

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Speaker 1: can have a copy. Because at the end, in the

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Speaker 1: back of it, I have like a reference like every

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00:38:19,640 --> 00:38:25,120
Speaker 1: state will have a number or email where you can

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Speaker 1: contact whoever in your state for whatever needs do you

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Speaker 1: have for housing for jobs, or or mental or or

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Speaker 1: psychiatrists or something? Yes? Um, and I talk on in

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Speaker 1: in the work book about mental health because what people

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Speaker 1: don't understand is that nine times out of ten when

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Speaker 1: a person go to prison, they have some type of

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Speaker 1: mental health condition, and and and then they're not addressing it,

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00:38:59,600 --> 00:39:02,919
Speaker 1: but just throwing a person into prison and you get

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Speaker 1: no mental health rehabilitation. See that was my next lawsuit,

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Speaker 1: uh before they yah so but but but that needs

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Speaker 1: to be addressed, and it needs to be some type

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Speaker 1: of mental health rehabilitation. Not that makes it worse. Locking

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Speaker 1: a person up that has a mental condition, it makes

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Speaker 1: it worse. And then you turn around and you throw

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00:39:33,960 --> 00:39:36,799
Speaker 1: them out, and then what then? What what do you

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00:39:36,800 --> 00:39:39,600
Speaker 1: want them to do when you throw them out? And

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00:39:39,640 --> 00:39:42,840
Speaker 1: they already stuffering with mental problems? So what they're supposed

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Speaker 1: to do? Now? Did you even go to therapy? Because

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Speaker 1: I feel like you've seen a lot, and you saw

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Speaker 1: a lot at such a young age. No, I I didn't,

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Speaker 1: And they tell me I need to. Um, I'm about

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Speaker 1: I'm not gonna do this about Pholo, so hands down, man,

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Speaker 1: this has been one of my if I wanted to

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Speaker 1: believe you so bad like this ladiest player. Oh man,

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Speaker 1: So no, I know I didn't go to therapy. Um.

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Speaker 1: I actually I took psychology. Wasn't two when I was

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Speaker 1: in school? Uh and uh I just made over. Hey,

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Speaker 1: I guess you could say in sociology, So I can't

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Speaker 1: like you learn. Plus, I used to study people when

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Speaker 1: I was in the street, you know, because my guys

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Speaker 1: are selling for me, so I didn't have nothing to

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Speaker 1: do but watch people, study people. And you know, I

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Speaker 1: just I just learned a lot. Hotell, I have to

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00:41:19,640 --> 00:41:21,560
Speaker 1: I have to ask to meet you. Then I have

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00:41:21,680 --> 00:41:23,920
Speaker 1: to really meet you because this has been one of

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00:41:23,960 --> 00:41:27,920
Speaker 1: my best interviews. And yeah, like I I so appreciate you.

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Speaker 1: I feel like you are. You are such an end.

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Speaker 1: So if you'll have any questions, comments or concerns, please

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Speaker 1: try to email me at hello at the Professional homegirl

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Speaker 1: dot com. And I had so much fun and until

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Speaker 1: next time. Everyone Later