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Speaker 1: Welcome to Carefully Reckless. The production of our Heart Radio

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Speaker 1: and the Black Effects oh Ship were back on the air.

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Speaker 1: Welcome back to yet another carefully Reckless session with your

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Speaker 1: girl just hilarious. Now listen. I took a week off

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Speaker 1: because between the holidays and everything else I had going on,

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Speaker 1: I just launched a new business, Messy I Wear. It

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Speaker 1: is my my own optical line. I'm selling glasses frames.

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Speaker 1: I just added some shades to my inventory. Like, it's

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Speaker 1: a lot going on. I know, if anybody can understand,

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Speaker 1: all of you hard workers out there who listen to

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Speaker 1: me on your way to work, do understand or when

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Speaker 1: you wait home from work, you know. So I just

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Speaker 1: had to take the time to explain to you guys,

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Speaker 1: because I don't want to leave y'all in the dark. Now.

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Speaker 1: As y'all know, I just recently closed on in a

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Speaker 1: state that's a huge home in Maryland, where I still am.

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Speaker 1: So I wanted to do things given, and I've never

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Speaker 1: ever hosted for things given like cooked everything, serve clean.

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Speaker 1: Like I've never you know, entertained and had games and

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Speaker 1: all that, you know, fun and all that type of stuff.

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Speaker 1: I've never been a head of something like that. And

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Speaker 1: I actually did it, and I loved it. My parents came,

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Speaker 1: my cousin, my son's dad, my best friend. Like I

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Speaker 1: had my family there and there was no negative vibes. Listen,

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Speaker 1: I didn't even get on Instagram for Thanksgiving. I took

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Speaker 1: a break not only from carefully Reckless, but from social's period.

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Speaker 1: So you know, I got a lot of work to

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Speaker 1: catch up on. And I do want to say first

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Speaker 1: and foremost that I am sorry that I left y'all hanging,

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Speaker 1: but it was for a good reason. So we're gonna

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Speaker 1: jump right in because I'm back to fix and mess.

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Speaker 1: This person wants to stay anonymous. Dug. Now she gets

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Speaker 1: straight down the business. She didn't introduce herself. She didn't

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Speaker 1: tell me what the ship was gonna be about. She

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Speaker 1: don't have no intro. This is where it starts off.

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Speaker 1: I swear to God. Fast forward. Everything was going great.

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Speaker 1: We had sex. Then weeks later he texted me out

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Speaker 1: the blue saying this isn't going to work. I was

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Speaker 1: devastated because I really liked him and could see us

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Speaker 1: together long term. Shortly after we stopped talking, I found

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Speaker 1: out I was pregnant. I reached out to him immediately

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Speaker 1: to let him know we struggled with deciding to keep

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Speaker 1: the baby or not. In the end, we kept our son,

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Speaker 1: best decision we could have made. But then he throws

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Speaker 1: a bombshall let me, letting me know that he has

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Speaker 1: someone else pregnant as well and was sleeping with her

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Speaker 1: during the same time we were dating. Unfortunately, she ended

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Speaker 1: up having a miscarriage. I actually recently just had our son.

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Speaker 1: I contemplated on truly telling him how I feel because

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Speaker 1: I want us to be a family, and he showed

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Speaker 1: signs that he does too. He thinks if we get

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Speaker 1: together it would only be for the kid, because he

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Speaker 1: is there for my daughter as well, but I don't

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Speaker 1: think so. My feelings for him never went away. He

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Speaker 1: then tells me after our son was born that when

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Speaker 1: our son was two weeks old, that he was dating

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Speaker 1: his ex again. But they're not together now, but he

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Speaker 1: and the kids. Should out let it go or move on? Okay, well,

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Speaker 1: I think it's quite simple. Sometimes I feel like y'all

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Speaker 1: just have to hear me read y'all ship back to y'all,

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Speaker 1: because listening to this, what the hell do you think

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Speaker 1: you should do girl. Now, if a man is just

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Speaker 1: showing signs that he wants a family, if he's just

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Speaker 1: just mind you keyword. Just if he's just a k

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Speaker 1: A only showing you signs and not voicing it verbally

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Speaker 1: See a person, not even only a man, a person,

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Speaker 1: a right man and woman. When we want something, we

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Speaker 1: get it no matter what. And if we want it

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Speaker 1: bad enough, we speak it into existence. We we long

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Speaker 1: for it, we crave it, we make time for it.

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Speaker 1: It's not an option, it's literally a priority. So you

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Speaker 1: would know if that's what he wants. You seem very

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Speaker 1: I have a couple of questions for you, and you're

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Speaker 1: a little confused. You say, when you first started the story,

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Speaker 1: I don't know how long you guys been dating. Because

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Speaker 1: if I'm just going off of what you said, you

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Speaker 1: because you guys were having unprotected sex. People don't understand

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Speaker 1: vice versa. When you have unprotected sex, you're attaching yourself. Okay,

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Speaker 1: men can do this far better than women can. Women

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Speaker 1: very sensual. It's mental and more emotional for women than

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Speaker 1: it is for men most of the time. So you're

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Speaker 1: attaching yourself to him. And you didn't tell me how

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Speaker 1: don't know any red flags other than the fact that

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Speaker 1: after y'all had sex, not too long after did he

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Speaker 1: tell you that y'all made me to break that's because

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Speaker 1: he was probably cheating on somebody with you. He was

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Speaker 1: dealing with you, but there was someone before. You trust

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Speaker 1: me because you then later find out after you had

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Speaker 1: just something that he was actually involved with his ex

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Speaker 1: and even after your son was born, so he had

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Speaker 1: lied about it. He had eventually come clean. But I

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Speaker 1: think you should let it go because this is a

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Speaker 1: back and forth thing. You don't want this to be

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Speaker 1: a Tara Mina and Peter situation. You don't want that.

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Speaker 1: I don't know if you guys are familiar with loving

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Speaker 1: hip hop New York, but Amina, Tara and Peter was

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Speaker 1: like a love triangle. You know. He had babies with Tara,

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Speaker 1: and then he would go back and forth. He married

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Speaker 1: this new girl name Amina without Tara's knowledge of knowing anything,

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Speaker 1: but he was supposedly still in a relationship with Tara.

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Speaker 1: I want to go marry someone, got her pregnant, then

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Speaker 1: goes back to Tara when him and Amina ain't doing good,

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Speaker 1: or when they are doing good. He's just having his

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Speaker 1: but getting them pregnant each time. So I think they

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Speaker 1: each have like three kids. No, I mean it has

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Speaker 1: he will. That's not something he'll ever cut off. You

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Speaker 1: there for your daughter as well, which is good. That's

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Speaker 1: good that he's a stand up guy. And he also

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Speaker 1: accepted your package along with you. But that doesn't mean

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Speaker 1: you have to accept his baggage along with him. He's

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Speaker 1: not gonna leave his ex alone. I feel that they

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Speaker 1: That's not an easy pill to swallow. That's very hard,

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Speaker 1: you know, and I don't know the circumstances. You didn't

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Speaker 1: does not look good for you if you proceed to

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Speaker 1: pursue this as a relationship. He's already telling you everything

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Speaker 1: you need to know. It doesn't matter about the signs

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Speaker 1: that's that's because you know he has you right there

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Speaker 1: for whenever. But I think you should check back in

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Speaker 1: I think you're so busy wanting that family dynamics so

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Speaker 1: bad that you're you're turning a blind eye to everything

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Speaker 1: else that he's doing. You know what I'm saying. You're

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Speaker 1: making it out not to be that bad, and it

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Speaker 1: will end miserably for you if you keep yourself in this.

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Speaker 1: You know, so check back in with me, let me know,

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Speaker 1: give me a little bit more clarity on the back

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Speaker 1: story of you and your man or whatever he is,

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Speaker 1: her man, y'all, man whatever, let me know. Now we

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Speaker 1: I swear I'm gonna beat your ass. Listen. Moving on, Hey, Joss,

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Speaker 1: I've been celibate kind of by choice for almost a

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Speaker 1: year now, and this ship is difficult. I have a

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Speaker 1: parallel tango, but we ended things rocky. We had a

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Speaker 1: very hostile, very volatile relationship at times. So that kind

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Speaker 1: So should I just keep on waiting for the one

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Speaker 1: off with baby daddy. It's too much stuff going around

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Speaker 1: I'm ovulating. I hate being a woman sometimes. Also, even

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Speaker 1: though we ended things rocky, we're still cool with each other.

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Speaker 1: Please help me figure this out. Thank you, and then

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Speaker 1: she sent another message. Sorry, last thing though, don't have

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Speaker 1: to be included with the mess unless you want. But

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Speaker 1: on your last episode of Fix My Mess, the girl

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Speaker 1: Like to the t, could you ask her if his

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Speaker 1: name is Corey because he never told me about having

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Speaker 1: Thank you in advance, girl, No, girl, I ain't asking

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Speaker 1: how that that is so funny. Let's get back to

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Speaker 1: your mess and then we'll address Corey and them. Okay,

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Speaker 1: so you have a baby daddy that you do but

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Speaker 1: you don't want to jump back in bed with because

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Speaker 1: y'all have y'all had a toxic ending, a rocky ending.

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Speaker 1: I wouldn't call a toxic because y'all had a rocky ending. Okay, well,

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Speaker 1: it doesn't matter if you guys had a rocky ending.

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Speaker 1: How are you guys with co parenting because you say

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Speaker 1: y'all are still cool and all that. But if you'll

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Speaker 1: some infidelity type ship. That means it ended where you

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Speaker 1: can't trust Tim, but you know him so you're most

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Speaker 1: sex with him in a year, So that's kind of

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Speaker 1: like having sex with someone new too. I'm pretty sure

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Speaker 1: know everything that he does, and he don't know your

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Speaker 1: every move either. I know, being celebrate as hard. I

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Speaker 1: actually did it for eleven months one time. It is hard,

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Speaker 1: but that's when I introduced myself to toys. Now, if

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Speaker 1: you know um and you know we got all types

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Speaker 1: of toys, bullets, roses, all types of goddamn toys out here.

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Speaker 1: If you don't like to partake in that kind of stuff,

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Speaker 1: I do understand there was a time that I wasn't

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Speaker 1: I can't keep up with you. Now, You've got to

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