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Speaker 1: some people think that it has to be a hard,

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00:24:22,760 --> 00:24:26,200
Speaker 1: arduous process, but it isn't. It's just whatever your process is,

426
00:24:26,480 --> 00:24:29,879
Speaker 1: your process. So Kendall, when you were going through this

427
00:24:29,960 --> 00:24:32,760
Speaker 1: process where you ever like worried that it wasn't gonna

428
00:24:32,760 --> 00:24:35,440
Speaker 1: workout or you were just like definitely the whole time

429
00:24:36,520 --> 00:24:40,000
Speaker 1: preparing to go to l A, I was nervous because

430
00:24:40,040 --> 00:24:42,879
Speaker 1: I always say this. I was scared of losing the

431
00:24:42,960 --> 00:24:48,920
Speaker 1: fifteen and the thirtie that's the days I get paid everything. Yes,

432
00:24:49,080 --> 00:24:53,639
Speaker 1: and then also um benefits, health benefits. So I'm like,

433
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Speaker 1: how am I going to do this? And how am

434
00:24:55,720 --> 00:24:59,560
Speaker 1: I going to afford to live there? But I still

435
00:24:59,680 --> 00:25:01,920
Speaker 1: was saying I'm going just going, Yeah, I'm going. I

436
00:25:01,960 --> 00:25:04,840
Speaker 1: don't care. Like I had those fears, but I was

437
00:25:04,920 --> 00:25:07,920
Speaker 1: going outside. I figured it out and like you said,

438
00:25:08,040 --> 00:25:12,720
Speaker 1: this fire that's up under you and it as much

439
00:25:12,760 --> 00:25:15,040
Speaker 1: as I was saying what if, what if? What if,

440
00:25:15,480 --> 00:25:18,600
Speaker 1: it never stopped me from packing my boxes and saying

441
00:25:18,600 --> 00:25:21,120
Speaker 1: that I was going, Um, I think I just got

442
00:25:21,160 --> 00:25:25,240
Speaker 1: to a point to where I just stopped having fear

443
00:25:25,680 --> 00:25:29,840
Speaker 1: and started actually really tapping into faith. And I didn't

444
00:25:29,840 --> 00:25:33,160
Speaker 1: do that until with my thirties. Well I was thirty. Yeah,

445
00:25:33,359 --> 00:25:36,200
Speaker 1: that's when I thought I was thirty. Before that, I

446
00:25:36,400 --> 00:25:38,280
Speaker 1: was not tapping in the faith. I would hear it,

447
00:25:38,320 --> 00:25:41,119
Speaker 1: and you know, you would say it, but um, I

448
00:25:41,200 --> 00:25:44,560
Speaker 1: actually started believing. And when I did that, I just

449
00:25:44,680 --> 00:25:46,960
Speaker 1: had it was like he had his hand on my back,

450
00:25:47,040 --> 00:25:49,480
Speaker 1: like you're going regardless of you asked for what you're going,

451
00:25:49,840 --> 00:25:52,360
Speaker 1: and I just was believing. Um. So you would say

452
00:25:52,359 --> 00:25:54,680
Speaker 1: it was like pretty much solely your faith that drove that.

453
00:25:54,760 --> 00:25:58,960
Speaker 1: Man is definitely my faith, definitely, um. But you had

454
00:25:59,040 --> 00:26:02,800
Speaker 1: times where you second guess yourself because I get a

455
00:26:02,840 --> 00:26:04,840
Speaker 1: lot of d m s and emails from people saying, Hey,

456
00:26:04,880 --> 00:26:06,399
Speaker 1: I really want to do this, but I don't know

457
00:26:06,480 --> 00:26:10,159
Speaker 1: if I can. Is me second guessing myself saying is

458
00:26:10,240 --> 00:26:12,320
Speaker 1: that the way of my my spirit telling me that

459
00:26:12,440 --> 00:26:14,480
Speaker 1: this is informat or is it a form of self

460
00:26:14,520 --> 00:26:20,399
Speaker 1: sabotaging my thing is? I've felt those times, but I

461
00:26:20,480 --> 00:26:22,880
Speaker 1: had to like talk myself out of it. Have y'all

462
00:26:22,920 --> 00:26:26,080
Speaker 1: ever felt a moment where you're like something that's saying

463
00:26:26,080 --> 00:26:27,960
Speaker 1: I shouldn't do this, where you have to verbally say

464
00:26:28,000 --> 00:26:30,440
Speaker 1: out loud like no, I'm doing this because I've learned

465
00:26:30,480 --> 00:26:32,280
Speaker 1: to do that when I work out, like when I

466
00:26:32,359 --> 00:26:34,199
Speaker 1: want to quit, like I'm at the end and it's

467
00:26:34,200 --> 00:26:37,040
Speaker 1: getting hard, I'll say to myself, let's go, Ellis, let's go, LS,

468
00:26:37,080 --> 00:26:39,600
Speaker 1: You've got this, And when I verbally speak it, then

469
00:26:39,680 --> 00:26:41,680
Speaker 1: I feel that energy come. Has there been moments for

470
00:26:41,760 --> 00:26:47,720
Speaker 1: y'all where y'all have had to do that honestly? Well, yeah, definitely, Yeah, yeah,

471
00:26:48,119 --> 00:26:52,440
Speaker 1: I would say that. Coming to Atlanta, Yeah, I was like,

472
00:26:52,840 --> 00:26:54,359
Speaker 1: it's the times I wanted to tell to know I

473
00:26:54,400 --> 00:26:57,240
Speaker 1: don't want to do it. I don't think I want

474
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Speaker 1: to do this, But I just had to keep saying

475
00:27:01,240 --> 00:27:04,280
Speaker 1: you're going, You're going. But the back of my head

476
00:27:04,400 --> 00:27:05,560
Speaker 1: was like I don't want to go. I don't want

477
00:27:05,560 --> 00:27:06,760
Speaker 1: to do it. I don't want to do it, but

478
00:27:06,920 --> 00:27:09,800
Speaker 1: I kept saying you're going, You're going. Um. But going

479
00:27:09,840 --> 00:27:12,800
Speaker 1: to l A, I never had this, never, It was

480
00:27:12,880 --> 00:27:15,520
Speaker 1: no doubt at all. Ever. It was my only thing

481
00:27:15,720 --> 00:27:17,680
Speaker 1: was I'm scared of how I'm going to afford it.

482
00:27:18,320 --> 00:27:20,520
Speaker 1: That was the only thing. And I had people in

483
00:27:20,640 --> 00:27:24,080
Speaker 1: my ear saying it's too expensive out there, like my granddad,

484
00:27:24,119 --> 00:27:28,199
Speaker 1: it's too expensive people people. Yeah, and then it's all

485
00:27:28,240 --> 00:27:30,800
Speaker 1: these people like, oh it's too expensive. Oh you're not

486
00:27:30,880 --> 00:27:33,440
Speaker 1: gonna fit in. And that's what made me want to go.

487
00:27:33,680 --> 00:27:44,080
Speaker 1: I was like, I gotta go see for myself. Expect definite,

488
00:27:44,920 --> 00:27:46,439
Speaker 1: and I do that a lot on the ground when

489
00:27:46,480 --> 00:27:48,800
Speaker 1: people say things and my d m or in my

490
00:27:48,920 --> 00:27:51,280
Speaker 1: comments like they used to say, you all you're gonna

491
00:27:51,280 --> 00:27:55,240
Speaker 1: do is sit on that couch. Okay, okay, let me

492
00:27:55,320 --> 00:27:58,720
Speaker 1: show you something I've been in before, because you've been

493
00:27:58,760 --> 00:28:01,120
Speaker 1: there before. Absolutely, how do you get through those moments

494
00:28:01,160 --> 00:28:02,679
Speaker 1: where you where you feel like you don't know if

495
00:28:02,720 --> 00:28:05,159
Speaker 1: you can what do you do? Um? I think and

496
00:28:05,440 --> 00:28:08,160
Speaker 1: you can probably relate to this as a former athlete

497
00:28:08,280 --> 00:28:16,040
Speaker 1: competition like we are talking yeah, yeah, I was a

498
00:28:16,119 --> 00:28:19,520
Speaker 1: competition cheerleader, and it didn't matter what was going on,

499
00:28:19,840 --> 00:28:23,040
Speaker 1: like you keep going, you know, like your arm is broken,

500
00:28:23,520 --> 00:28:27,000
Speaker 1: bones popping out, finished the routine. So I think with

501
00:28:27,160 --> 00:28:30,399
Speaker 1: that it started off as a young girl, that's always

502
00:28:30,480 --> 00:28:33,520
Speaker 1: been embedded in my brain so that even when things

503
00:28:33,560 --> 00:28:35,639
Speaker 1: start to get hard, I'm like, no, you got this.

504
00:28:36,280 --> 00:28:38,040
Speaker 1: You didn't start, you didn't even get to this point

505
00:28:38,120 --> 00:28:40,680
Speaker 1: for no reason. Keep pushing, keep pushing. But I'm not.

506
00:28:40,800 --> 00:28:42,320
Speaker 1: That's not to say that there weren't times where it

507
00:28:42,360 --> 00:28:46,000
Speaker 1: was really hard, you know, broke and like scrambling for change.

508
00:28:46,040 --> 00:28:49,560
Speaker 1: Just yeah, yeah, Like when I moved here and didn't

509
00:28:49,560 --> 00:28:52,200
Speaker 1: have a job, like I literally was like I had

510
00:28:52,280 --> 00:28:55,200
Speaker 1: a support system, but it was just I was just

511
00:28:55,400 --> 00:28:57,720
Speaker 1: getting by, you know. It wasn't until I got that

512
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Speaker 1: first job. Shout to Divine Stevens, who is a big

513
00:29:00,920 --> 00:29:03,920
Speaker 1: arts development person. He's worked with everybody from like us

514
00:29:04,080 --> 00:29:07,800
Speaker 1: or two I can't, let's goes on, but he gave

515
00:29:07,840 --> 00:29:10,120
Speaker 1: me my first job out here working behind the desk.

516
00:29:10,240 --> 00:29:12,040
Speaker 1: It was another desk job, but it was at the

517
00:29:12,160 --> 00:29:14,000
Speaker 1: arts Development center, so I could go upstairs and work

518
00:29:14,000 --> 00:29:16,440
Speaker 1: in the dance studio. There was a gym next door,

519
00:29:16,560 --> 00:29:18,600
Speaker 1: so it was still like in the realm. And that's

520
00:29:18,600 --> 00:29:21,080
Speaker 1: when I started trying to put myself in places where

521
00:29:21,200 --> 00:29:22,760
Speaker 1: like it was getting me to where I was trying

522
00:29:22,760 --> 00:29:25,840
Speaker 1: to go in some type of way. You gotta plan.

523
00:29:25,920 --> 00:29:27,920
Speaker 1: Did you have a plan? Definitely had a plan. So, okay,

524
00:29:27,960 --> 00:29:31,880
Speaker 1: I want to talk about this because people people always say,

525
00:29:31,920 --> 00:29:34,520
Speaker 1: like when when you have a dream that has to

526
00:29:34,600 --> 00:29:37,480
Speaker 1: be all you see, there can't be no plan B,

527
00:29:37,720 --> 00:29:40,840
Speaker 1: because plan B only the turns from Plan A. I

528
00:29:41,240 --> 00:29:44,120
Speaker 1: tend to differ because Kadena and I always had dreams.

529
00:29:44,200 --> 00:29:46,600
Speaker 1: But I feel like, because we wanted to have a family,

530
00:29:47,000 --> 00:29:50,760
Speaker 1: our plan A had to encompass, you know, our ability

531
00:29:50,840 --> 00:29:53,800
Speaker 1: to provide why we chase our dream And I try

532
00:29:53,880 --> 00:29:56,880
Speaker 1: to implore people to to utilize that asset. You know,

533
00:29:56,960 --> 00:29:59,600
Speaker 1: you don't just quit your job if you don't have

534
00:29:59,680 --> 00:30:02,160
Speaker 1: a plan. And you had a plan, you had a plan,

535
00:30:02,240 --> 00:30:04,280
Speaker 1: And I want people and even Codeine. When Codeine was

536
00:30:04,440 --> 00:30:07,760
Speaker 1: working at MAC, she wanted to quit her job to

537
00:30:07,840 --> 00:30:10,280
Speaker 1: be freelanced. But if she quit her job, we wouldn't

538
00:30:10,280 --> 00:30:15,320
Speaker 1: have health insurance. And so we made was like this

539
00:30:15,440 --> 00:30:19,880
Speaker 1: money is gonna reside. It's supposed to. But then but

540
00:30:19,960 --> 00:30:22,400
Speaker 1: then then put the onus on me and like you said,

541
00:30:22,440 --> 00:30:25,680
Speaker 1: that fire underneath you, Like, I hate this situation that

542
00:30:25,760 --> 00:30:28,960
Speaker 1: I'm in right now. There is no other way than

543
00:30:29,040 --> 00:30:31,560
Speaker 1: to leave this situation and then do what I gotta do.

544
00:30:32,120 --> 00:30:34,320
Speaker 1: And then that the fire under me to the point

545
00:30:34,320 --> 00:30:36,520
Speaker 1: where I was like, okay, so the vale has health insurance.

546
00:30:36,600 --> 00:30:39,200
Speaker 1: Now now I have flexibility over my schedule. I'm gonna

547
00:30:39,240 --> 00:30:41,400
Speaker 1: build this makeup. I'm gonna take every wedding. I'm gonna

548
00:30:41,400 --> 00:30:43,800
Speaker 1: take every photoshop I can. Now I have flexibility with

549
00:30:43,880 --> 00:30:45,560
Speaker 1: my child. I can stay at home when I need to.

550
00:30:46,320 --> 00:30:49,600
Speaker 1: And then I was making tons more money. Then I

551
00:30:49,840 --> 00:30:55,120
Speaker 1: was sitting behind that counter all day. Didn't just jump

552
00:30:55,120 --> 00:30:57,200
Speaker 1: out the w So the first thing we spoke about

553
00:30:57,360 --> 00:31:00,920
Speaker 1: was man manifesting it, believing it. So we believed it.

554
00:31:01,000 --> 00:31:04,080
Speaker 1: Then we created a plan. The next thing is followed through. Right.

555
00:31:04,760 --> 00:31:08,480
Speaker 1: You talked about people in our life. We've always heard

556
00:31:08,560 --> 00:31:12,160
Speaker 1: people say I can't do that. So I always have

557
00:31:12,240 --> 00:31:14,360
Speaker 1: people ask me questions, what about your friends and family

558
00:31:14,400 --> 00:31:17,520
Speaker 1: who don't believe in you? I tell them, expect people

559
00:31:18,320 --> 00:31:20,959
Speaker 1: not to believe in what you see, because if if

560
00:31:21,040 --> 00:31:23,800
Speaker 1: it was their vision, everybody would do it. You can't

561
00:31:23,840 --> 00:31:25,760
Speaker 1: expect people to see a vision for you that's gonna

562
00:31:25,800 --> 00:31:27,960
Speaker 1: make you great, because if if it was just a

563
00:31:28,040 --> 00:31:30,520
Speaker 1: regular vision that everyone can see, it wouldn't be considered greatness.

564
00:31:30,920 --> 00:31:32,880
Speaker 1: That's like the windows story you told me about before.

565
00:31:32,920 --> 00:31:36,800
Speaker 1: People can only see the looking at what was something

566
00:31:36,960 --> 00:31:39,760
Speaker 1: I gave. I gave an analogy. I gave an analogy.

567
00:31:39,760 --> 00:31:41,560
Speaker 1: I'm trying to explain to my my young men, and

568
00:31:41,640 --> 00:31:44,520
Speaker 1: our mentor about having windows in your room. Right. And

569
00:31:44,760 --> 00:31:47,520
Speaker 1: I use this analogy because they grew up in One

570
00:31:47,520 --> 00:31:49,760
Speaker 1: of the biggest things they were concerned about in Brooklyn

571
00:31:49,880 --> 00:31:53,320
Speaker 1: was prison or dying. So I said, to imagine that

572
00:31:53,520 --> 00:31:56,640
Speaker 1: you're born, you and another young man, two young men,

573
00:31:56,680 --> 00:31:59,000
Speaker 1: I said, imagine that you're both born, and you're born

574
00:31:59,040 --> 00:32:02,400
Speaker 1: in prison, because ultimately, when you're born, your mind can

575
00:32:02,480 --> 00:32:04,320
Speaker 1: be a prison. When you don't know things and you

576
00:32:04,440 --> 00:32:06,680
Speaker 1: have fear, you imprison yourself to your environment of what

577
00:32:06,840 --> 00:32:09,320
Speaker 1: you see. So you're both born in the prison, and

578
00:32:09,400 --> 00:32:11,520
Speaker 1: you're both born them cells right next to each other.

579
00:32:12,160 --> 00:32:15,280
Speaker 1: One cell has a window, one cell doesn't have a window.

580
00:32:15,840 --> 00:32:18,080
Speaker 1: Every day you both get out of this prison and

581
00:32:18,200 --> 00:32:21,400
Speaker 1: you go amongst the prison population and you live your life.

582
00:32:22,200 --> 00:32:25,080
Speaker 1: One prisoner says to the other prisoner, man, when I

583
00:32:25,160 --> 00:32:27,080
Speaker 1: get out of here, I'm gonna do X Y Z.

584
00:32:27,680 --> 00:32:31,280
Speaker 1: And the other prisoner laughs, like what is that? Like,

585
00:32:31,920 --> 00:32:33,440
Speaker 1: how do you even believe that you can do that?

586
00:32:33,480 --> 00:32:35,200
Speaker 1: You're never getting out of here. There's nothing out of here,

587
00:32:35,240 --> 00:32:37,400
Speaker 1: It's just prison. And the guy said, why do you

588
00:32:37,480 --> 00:32:39,480
Speaker 1: believe that there's there's just nothing in here but prison?

589
00:32:39,520 --> 00:32:42,600
Speaker 1: He said, that's all we see the cells and the prisoners,

590
00:32:42,640 --> 00:32:44,440
Speaker 1: and the other guy goes, you don't have a window

591
00:32:44,520 --> 00:32:47,960
Speaker 1: in your cell, and he's just like, nah, don't, what's

592
00:32:48,000 --> 00:32:51,880
Speaker 1: a window. So now you start to realize that these

593
00:32:51,920 --> 00:32:54,000
Speaker 1: are two people born in the same situation, but one

594
00:32:54,040 --> 00:32:56,400
Speaker 1: has a window and one doesn't. Because this person has

595
00:32:56,480 --> 00:32:59,880
Speaker 1: division to see other things, he can see greater for himself.

596
00:33:00,360 --> 00:33:02,400
Speaker 1: I try to tell people a lot of times, your

597
00:33:02,480 --> 00:33:05,640
Speaker 1: vision is because of what you see. Don't expect other people,

598
00:33:05,760 --> 00:33:07,600
Speaker 1: even if they're right next to you, to see what

599
00:33:07,720 --> 00:33:10,240
Speaker 1: you see, because their perspective is different. So when they

600
00:33:10,320 --> 00:33:13,880
Speaker 1: tell you I can't see you doing that, don't be upset.

601
00:33:14,680 --> 00:33:17,400
Speaker 1: They don't got no window in their room, and don't

602
00:33:17,520 --> 00:33:20,040
Speaker 1: don't let their ideas of what you can do hinder

603
00:33:20,160 --> 00:33:22,280
Speaker 1: you from believing you you can do something because you

604
00:33:22,360 --> 00:33:24,720
Speaker 1: saw it. If you believe it and you saw it,

605
00:33:25,200 --> 00:33:26,920
Speaker 1: then you can do it. And a lot of the

606
00:33:27,000 --> 00:33:28,960
Speaker 1: kids were like, dang, I never thought about it that way.

607
00:33:29,000 --> 00:33:31,080
Speaker 1: I said, it's the truth. That's life. And a lot

608
00:33:31,080 --> 00:33:34,440
Speaker 1: of people's opinions come with being either tainted or jaded

609
00:33:34,440 --> 00:33:36,880
Speaker 1: by their own life experience. So something may not have

610
00:33:36,960 --> 00:33:39,520
Speaker 1: panned out for them. They're trying to tell you their experience,

611
00:33:39,560 --> 00:33:42,000
Speaker 1: which they can because that was their experience, but it's

612
00:33:42,000 --> 00:33:44,120
Speaker 1: how you then take that with a grain of salt

613
00:33:44,520 --> 00:33:48,680
Speaker 1: and they continue to move on. During my UM come up,

614
00:33:48,880 --> 00:33:51,440
Speaker 1: when I was still in Detroit, I had to remove

615
00:33:51,520 --> 00:33:54,479
Speaker 1: myself from a lot of those people because they were

616
00:33:54,640 --> 00:33:57,520
Speaker 1: learning my vision. And I said, Okay, it wasn't that

617
00:33:57,840 --> 00:34:00,200
Speaker 1: I wasn't done with them, but I just had to

618
00:34:00,240 --> 00:34:04,959
Speaker 1: step away because I was just yeah, and I had

619
00:34:05,000 --> 00:34:06,960
Speaker 1: to put that. I was putting this plan together, and

620
00:34:07,120 --> 00:34:09,120
Speaker 1: it was like it's like I was building these blocks

621
00:34:09,120 --> 00:34:10,920
Speaker 1: and they kept coming and trying to knock them over,

622
00:34:10,960 --> 00:34:14,560
Speaker 1: and I'm like, hold on, you get back. I'm gonna

623
00:34:14,560 --> 00:34:16,920
Speaker 1: have to keep you at a distance. So, UM, I

624
00:34:17,080 --> 00:34:21,640
Speaker 1: removed some people on my way, and I still think

625
00:34:21,680 --> 00:34:23,640
Speaker 1: they kind of like they're not around, but you know

626
00:34:23,719 --> 00:34:25,120
Speaker 1: what I mean, when you're going to the next level,

627
00:34:25,160 --> 00:34:28,520
Speaker 1: we can't take everybody. They're probably like, damn, Candle actually

628
00:34:28,640 --> 00:34:31,920
Speaker 1: did that right? They actually did that? Have you had

629
00:34:32,000 --> 00:34:35,279
Speaker 1: people you had to move on? Um not move on

630
00:34:35,400 --> 00:34:37,200
Speaker 1: to some similar what you said, like certain things just

631
00:34:37,280 --> 00:34:40,000
Speaker 1: can't talk to everybody about, you know. And then but

632
00:34:40,160 --> 00:34:42,600
Speaker 1: my parents were very like safe and get to go

633
00:34:42,680 --> 00:34:45,200
Speaker 1: to school, get an education, get a good job with benefits.

634
00:34:45,800 --> 00:34:49,920
Speaker 1: And I was always the risk taker. I wouldn't say

635
00:34:49,960 --> 00:34:52,000
Speaker 1: black sheep of the family, but like literally like I

636
00:34:52,080 --> 00:34:55,960
Speaker 1: can do whatever. I didn't care what it was. I

637
00:34:56,040 --> 00:34:58,879
Speaker 1: can do it, Like if I cheated. My mom didn't

638
00:34:58,880 --> 00:35:00,800
Speaker 1: like my outfit. I literally was like, wh I like it?

639
00:35:01,080 --> 00:35:04,000
Speaker 1: She was like this girl is crazy. Like I didn't

640
00:35:04,040 --> 00:35:10,719
Speaker 1: care what anybody thought, and now I'm tying Tyler Perry shoes. Literally,

641
00:35:11,000 --> 00:35:14,680
Speaker 1: So it was more so that I remember working on

642
00:35:14,719 --> 00:35:16,759
Speaker 1: the hill. A friend of mine came in, He's like, hey,

643
00:35:16,800 --> 00:35:19,400
Speaker 1: we got some opportunities for you to work on Obama's

644
00:35:19,400 --> 00:35:22,480
Speaker 1: first campaign. I was like, yes, I'm count me in.

645
00:35:22,600 --> 00:35:25,799
Speaker 1: It's paid, let's go. My parents like, m I don't

646
00:35:25,800 --> 00:35:27,640
Speaker 1: know if that's a good idea. You just you've only

647
00:35:27,680 --> 00:35:29,319
Speaker 1: been there for a year with Senator Alexander. I think

648
00:35:29,320 --> 00:35:31,520
Speaker 1: you should stay really big on loyalty, which I respect.

649
00:35:32,000 --> 00:35:34,440
Speaker 1: And they were like, we're not really I mean, we

650
00:35:34,560 --> 00:35:36,200
Speaker 1: want him to win, but you think he's really gonna win.

651
00:35:36,280 --> 00:35:39,279
Speaker 1: I'm like, yeah, yes. After that, they were like, we

652
00:35:39,280 --> 00:35:41,920
Speaker 1: will never tell you what you can do. We've all

653
00:35:41,960 --> 00:35:45,279
Speaker 1: been there with our parents and parents, so many things.

654
00:35:45,480 --> 00:35:48,000
Speaker 1: My parents have told me like that's never gonna happen.

655
00:35:49,560 --> 00:35:52,759
Speaker 1: Don't ever listen to me. My father only believes me

656
00:35:52,840 --> 00:35:56,839
Speaker 1: now because I'm not broken, homeless, you know what I mean.

657
00:35:57,000 --> 00:35:59,200
Speaker 1: I think at this point he finally gets it, like oh,

658
00:35:59,239 --> 00:36:01,960
Speaker 1: because at first he was like YouTube, who is YouTube?

659
00:36:02,200 --> 00:36:04,640
Speaker 1: Who pays you? So YouTube PAGs you would check that's

660
00:36:04,640 --> 00:36:08,680
Speaker 1: a person place your thing. I'm like, it's like all

661
00:36:08,719 --> 00:36:11,200
Speaker 1: this stuff, it's just crap. And then now wait until

662
00:36:11,200 --> 00:36:13,799
Speaker 1: you pull up pops in the driveways. Let me get

663
00:36:13,840 --> 00:36:17,520
Speaker 1: you that gate access. Okay, how about that? So I

664
00:36:17,640 --> 00:36:21,560
Speaker 1: didn't tell my dad anything. His friends, I guess their

665
00:36:21,680 --> 00:36:25,520
Speaker 1: kids start showing their parents like isn't this Kendall Son?

666
00:36:26,040 --> 00:36:28,399
Speaker 1: And then they go to work it's like, your son,

667
00:36:28,480 --> 00:36:30,160
Speaker 1: it's funny, did you see this something? My Dad's like,

668
00:36:30,480 --> 00:36:36,279
Speaker 1: what's these videos? And I'm like I don't know. I'm

669
00:36:36,320 --> 00:36:37,880
Speaker 1: like I don't, I don't know. I was like, I

670
00:36:38,000 --> 00:36:40,960
Speaker 1: just do some this just for fun whatever. But at

671
00:36:41,000 --> 00:36:42,719
Speaker 1: the time, I was getting booked for things and I

672
00:36:42,840 --> 00:36:45,080
Speaker 1: wasn't telling them, and then he was like, what is

673
00:36:45,160 --> 00:36:48,680
Speaker 1: this you did for b et? I started telling him

674
00:36:48,719 --> 00:36:50,239
Speaker 1: and I was like, now it's time to tell him,

675
00:36:50,560 --> 00:36:52,600
Speaker 1: because if he see it, then he would leave it.

676
00:36:52,800 --> 00:36:54,840
Speaker 1: But if I went to him and said this is

677
00:36:54,880 --> 00:36:57,719
Speaker 1: what I'm doing, it would have been just like going

678
00:36:57,760 --> 00:37:02,320
Speaker 1: to college, like here's my residence. It's like when I

679
00:37:02,400 --> 00:37:05,520
Speaker 1: went to college freshman year. You probably should think about

680
00:37:05,880 --> 00:37:07,719
Speaker 1: that major. He probably would have told me, you need

681
00:37:07,800 --> 00:37:10,120
Speaker 1: to think about that. You know, you you got a

682
00:37:10,200 --> 00:37:13,080
Speaker 1: job and stay well, you got benefits. He would have

683
00:37:13,120 --> 00:37:16,840
Speaker 1: asked me everything in the course of what are you

684
00:37:16,880 --> 00:37:21,239
Speaker 1: going to do about health? I'ma're probably gonna be the

685
00:37:21,320 --> 00:37:25,600
Speaker 1: same way. Absolutely, you're gonna be a little different. I'm

686
00:37:25,640 --> 00:37:29,520
Speaker 1: not gonna be like my parents. Concern for making sure

687
00:37:29,600 --> 00:37:32,960
Speaker 1: that they're making that decision. Just having that concern, that's

688
00:37:32,960 --> 00:37:34,719
Speaker 1: what I mean. And not enough that my parents never

689
00:37:34,760 --> 00:37:37,360
Speaker 1: shot me down when I told my parents especially, and

690
00:37:37,400 --> 00:37:39,759
Speaker 1: this is one thing I'll say about my pops. Me

691
00:37:39,800 --> 00:37:42,080
Speaker 1: and my pops have our issues, of course, or father

692
00:37:42,160 --> 00:37:44,640
Speaker 1: and sons. Dude, when I told my father I wanted

693
00:37:44,680 --> 00:37:47,640
Speaker 1: to do something, he had my back. When I wanted

694
00:37:47,680 --> 00:37:50,759
Speaker 1: to walk on to college and I walking there with

695
00:37:50,800 --> 00:37:52,279
Speaker 1: the coach and the coaches like, I don't know if

696
00:37:52,280 --> 00:37:54,359
Speaker 1: you can play here. He was like, you know, we'll

697
00:37:54,400 --> 00:37:56,480
Speaker 1: give you a partial, you gotta earn the rest. And

698
00:37:56,880 --> 00:37:58,960
Speaker 1: my father looked at me and said, you think you

699
00:37:59,040 --> 00:38:00,640
Speaker 1: can play here? I saw, I know I can play here.

700
00:38:00,840 --> 00:38:02,560
Speaker 1: My father said, my son can play here. We'll take

701
00:38:02,600 --> 00:38:05,879
Speaker 1: the partial and earn the rest. And it was like, damn,

702
00:38:05,920 --> 00:38:08,640
Speaker 1: my pops believed in me. And then I had to

703
00:38:08,719 --> 00:38:11,319
Speaker 1: realize that my pops and my mom's are the ones

704
00:38:11,320 --> 00:38:14,240
Speaker 1: who put the window in my cell because they showed

705
00:38:14,320 --> 00:38:16,920
Speaker 1: me other things like they showed me things that they

706
00:38:17,000 --> 00:38:19,440
Speaker 1: exposed me to different things, and that's what I want

707
00:38:19,480 --> 00:38:21,480
Speaker 1: to do with my children. You grew up in in

708
00:38:21,560 --> 00:38:24,120
Speaker 1: a small town in Tennessee. Every sum I used to

709
00:38:24,120 --> 00:38:27,600
Speaker 1: go to Morristown, Tennessee. So many of those people, even

710
00:38:27,640 --> 00:38:29,200
Speaker 1: if they see me on YouTube, say hey, I remember

711
00:38:29,200 --> 00:38:31,239
Speaker 1: you come to Boys and Girls Club. I didn't know.

712
00:38:31,360 --> 00:38:33,959
Speaker 1: I had never thought about doing all of this because

713
00:38:34,000 --> 00:38:35,960
Speaker 1: when you come from a small towner, from a family

714
00:38:36,000 --> 00:38:38,319
Speaker 1: who only sees things one way, a lot of their

715
00:38:38,400 --> 00:38:40,359
Speaker 1: fear comes from the fact that they haven't even seen

716
00:38:40,520 --> 00:38:43,160
Speaker 1: anything else. But um that that also leads me to

717
00:38:43,400 --> 00:38:46,239
Speaker 1: something that you both talked about was consistency. Right. You

718
00:38:46,360 --> 00:38:50,040
Speaker 1: talked about doing videos consistently even when you didn't ever

719
00:38:50,080 --> 00:38:52,640
Speaker 1: want want to come from it. You talked about consistency

720
00:38:52,760 --> 00:38:56,480
Speaker 1: doing background. I've watched Coldean be consistent do weddings when

721
00:38:56,520 --> 00:38:58,880
Speaker 1: she didn't want to do weddings anymore. Let's talk a

722
00:38:58,920 --> 00:39:01,279
Speaker 1: little bit about how important and it is to be consistent,

723
00:39:01,760 --> 00:39:04,640
Speaker 1: especially when you don't reap the benefits of your manifestations

724
00:39:04,680 --> 00:39:07,400
Speaker 1: early on, because that that doesn't it doesn't come like

725
00:39:07,480 --> 00:39:10,319
Speaker 1: it's not I'm manifested tomorrow make money. Talk a little

726
00:39:10,320 --> 00:39:14,919
Speaker 1: bit about the consistency I mean, being consistent. Like I said,

727
00:39:14,960 --> 00:39:17,759
Speaker 1: with the videos, I just kept doing them and you

728
00:39:17,840 --> 00:39:20,160
Speaker 1: weren't making money right away? No, I was not. How

729
00:39:20,200 --> 00:39:22,520
Speaker 1: long was it before you made me? A year and

730
00:39:22,680 --> 00:39:26,520
Speaker 1: some change? So you was making videos consistency, consistently? How

731
00:39:26,600 --> 00:39:31,160
Speaker 1: often every Monday? And then the morning videos at the

732
00:39:31,200 --> 00:39:33,440
Speaker 1: beginning was like every day ever since. I was going

733
00:39:33,560 --> 00:39:35,719
Speaker 1: to work every day, and that was mine like I said,

734
00:39:35,719 --> 00:39:39,719
Speaker 1: that was my call. Yeah, it was bringing people to

735
00:39:39,800 --> 00:39:41,360
Speaker 1: your PA, was bringing people to my page. And it

736
00:39:41,480 --> 00:39:44,879
Speaker 1: was also motivating people because they saw, you know where

737
00:39:44,920 --> 00:39:48,680
Speaker 1: I was going. Um and then yeah, it was about

738
00:39:48,719 --> 00:39:51,080
Speaker 1: a year two thousand seventeen. So I started in two

739
00:39:51,080 --> 00:39:54,440
Speaker 1: thousand fifteen, the end of two thousand fifteen November and

740
00:39:54,600 --> 00:39:59,759
Speaker 1: then two thousand seventeen February making videos everything. You know

741
00:39:59,840 --> 00:40:02,200
Speaker 1: that mine, that's my story too. I was making videos

742
00:40:02,280 --> 00:40:05,640
Speaker 1: every single day and videos a day without making no money,

743
00:40:06,320 --> 00:40:12,320
Speaker 1: and that's when we have fifteen seconds we have. I

744
00:40:12,480 --> 00:40:18,480
Speaker 1: was getting everything out fast. Yeah, yeah, I was getting

745
00:40:18,520 --> 00:40:21,759
Speaker 1: everything out of fifteen seconds like um, and then I

746
00:40:21,880 --> 00:40:25,879
Speaker 1: just stay consistent with that and then um, I want

747
00:40:25,920 --> 00:40:28,720
Speaker 1: to fast forward to me doing the cocktails and rowed.

748
00:40:29,200 --> 00:40:32,600
Speaker 1: So I was doing those and I wasn't making any money.

749
00:40:32,600 --> 00:40:37,279
Speaker 1: I was just making these videos, um, making cocktails. And

750
00:40:37,480 --> 00:40:41,719
Speaker 1: then fast forward months later, boom, because I was staying consistent,

751
00:40:42,120 --> 00:40:45,680
Speaker 1: I got some brandal and then hey, can we send

752
00:40:45,719 --> 00:40:48,040
Speaker 1: you this? And then from there that's when the brand

753
00:40:48,080 --> 00:40:50,719
Speaker 1: deals came. So that's important for people to understand two,

754
00:40:51,200 --> 00:40:54,960
Speaker 1: because they'll make two and three videos and they won't

755
00:40:55,000 --> 00:40:57,160
Speaker 1: have no following and nothing happens, and then they stopped.

756
00:40:57,760 --> 00:40:59,840
Speaker 1: This ain't working because they don't have any patience. You

757
00:41:00,080 --> 00:41:03,799
Speaker 1: just heard a whole year without making any money, consistently

758
00:41:03,880 --> 00:41:06,640
Speaker 1: making videos every day and then sometimes two videos a

759
00:41:06,680 --> 00:41:07,960
Speaker 1: day because you have to make a video for the

760
00:41:08,040 --> 00:41:10,840
Speaker 1: weekly and a video for the day. I was making videos,

761
00:41:10,880 --> 00:41:15,080
Speaker 1: two and three videos a day doing Oh my gosh.

762
00:41:15,280 --> 00:41:17,560
Speaker 1: They used to hate. We'll be in the middle of

763
00:41:17,600 --> 00:41:19,160
Speaker 1: something and I'd be like, wait, wait, wait, this is

764
00:41:19,200 --> 00:41:25,319
Speaker 1: a video, and she'd be like, oh videos. It will

765
00:41:25,360 --> 00:41:28,400
Speaker 1: be at the most inopportune time, like I got my

766
00:41:28,480 --> 00:41:31,839
Speaker 1: head tie on, mid diaper change, breast leaking, and I'm

767
00:41:31,880 --> 00:41:35,080
Speaker 1: like devout. I'm like, this is funny, this is funny.

768
00:41:36,239 --> 00:41:37,480
Speaker 1: They're gonna love it. She used to be like, I

769
00:41:37,560 --> 00:41:40,240
Speaker 1: hate you, I hate you. Get the video, Get the video.

770
00:41:41,320 --> 00:41:42,880
Speaker 1: And she was even taking the kids. We had a

771
00:41:42,880 --> 00:41:45,480
Speaker 1: whole argument for Halloween because I wanted to do a

772
00:41:45,600 --> 00:41:48,480
Speaker 1: Halloween video and Ki was just like, I was gonna

773
00:41:48,520 --> 00:41:51,719
Speaker 1: take the kids out and trick a treat and I

774
00:41:51,840 --> 00:41:53,120
Speaker 1: was like, we can trick a treat, but we can

775
00:41:53,200 --> 00:41:55,680
Speaker 1: record it. So even in the middle of the trick

776
00:41:55,719 --> 00:41:57,080
Speaker 1: a treat and they'll be going to drive like stop,

777
00:41:57,719 --> 00:42:01,719
Speaker 1: let me get this, and she'd be like, gods, go

778
00:42:01,800 --> 00:42:03,719
Speaker 1: to the car, go to the car. That we the

779
00:42:03,800 --> 00:42:05,640
Speaker 1: two of us out here holding the candy corn things

780
00:42:05,680 --> 00:42:07,880
Speaker 1: and bags, dressed like well, I forgot what you was

781
00:42:07,960 --> 00:42:10,719
Speaker 1: dressed as like a fairy and I got Donald Duck

782
00:42:10,840 --> 00:42:12,680
Speaker 1: up on me in the middle of Brooklyn are you

783
00:42:12,800 --> 00:42:15,360
Speaker 1: impointing fingers and stuff, the kids looking out the window

784
00:42:15,480 --> 00:42:18,640
Speaker 1: like what's happening? Then we get the video done. Now

785
00:42:18,800 --> 00:42:21,480
Speaker 1: look look and Gruz you was doing how long were

786
00:42:21,480 --> 00:42:24,000
Speaker 1: you doing background for? UM? I didn't do it for

787
00:42:24,120 --> 00:42:27,759
Speaker 1: that long. I did it probably probably two thousand and

788
00:42:27,840 --> 00:42:30,800
Speaker 1: ten to two thousand twelve, So two years you did background.

789
00:42:30,880 --> 00:42:33,080
Speaker 1: You were a stylist for five years, which you did

790
00:42:33,160 --> 00:42:35,800
Speaker 1: not want to do, but you were consistent because building

791
00:42:35,840 --> 00:42:38,359
Speaker 1: the relationship was important. It was important. And then even

792
00:42:38,600 --> 00:42:41,319
Speaker 1: being like I said about trying to when you're working

793
00:42:41,360 --> 00:42:43,960
Speaker 1: towards ago, trying to put yourself in making money in

794
00:42:44,080 --> 00:42:46,200
Speaker 1: the arena of where you're trying to go. So me

795
00:42:46,360 --> 00:42:49,800
Speaker 1: working on said, I was constantly studying the Tika Sumters.

796
00:42:49,880 --> 00:42:54,080
Speaker 1: I was studying Cicely Tyson, Felicierus, Shine will Be Goberg,

797
00:42:54,280 --> 00:42:56,759
Speaker 1: Chris Rock. When those people coming, I was like sitting

798
00:42:56,760 --> 00:43:00,960
Speaker 1: there literally watching them sponge and higher time. So that

799
00:43:01,120 --> 00:43:04,360
Speaker 1: was very important, UM. And that was part of the consistency,

800
00:43:04,800 --> 00:43:06,759
Speaker 1: you know, not losing sight of what I wanted to

801
00:43:06,840 --> 00:43:09,399
Speaker 1: do and always making sure because I could have gotten like, yeah,

802
00:43:09,400 --> 00:43:11,160
Speaker 1: I'm just here to dress people and not been paying

803
00:43:11,160 --> 00:43:14,600
Speaker 1: attention and staying consistent and studying. But you were smart though,

804
00:43:14,719 --> 00:43:16,600
Speaker 1: And I want to bring this to our last point

805
00:43:16,680 --> 00:43:19,239
Speaker 1: before we get to listen to letters, finding a way

806
00:43:19,320 --> 00:43:24,560
Speaker 1: to turn that manifestation into monetary value. And you said

807
00:43:24,880 --> 00:43:28,239
Speaker 1: about choosing to find something in the arena of how

808
00:43:28,280 --> 00:43:30,120
Speaker 1: you're making money. That's part of your plan. We talked

809
00:43:30,120 --> 00:43:32,560
Speaker 1: about a plan. How did you do that? Because I

810
00:43:32,760 --> 00:43:36,560
Speaker 1: did the same thing with with Omori and yeah, when

811
00:43:36,560 --> 00:43:39,200
Speaker 1: you took a stunt double job, I was in conservatory

812
00:43:39,760 --> 00:43:41,959
Speaker 1: two years at Esper Studio, but I needed to make money.

813
00:43:42,320 --> 00:43:44,279
Speaker 1: Then I got asked to do a stunt double for Power,

814
00:43:44,360 --> 00:43:45,640
Speaker 1: and I was like, wait a minute. I could be

815
00:43:45,719 --> 00:43:47,160
Speaker 1: in a class and learn how to act, or I

816
00:43:47,200 --> 00:43:50,680
Speaker 1: could be around actors. And at the time Power was

817
00:43:50,760 --> 00:43:53,040
Speaker 1: one of the top shows on cable, so I was like, okay,

818
00:43:53,080 --> 00:43:54,480
Speaker 1: I get to be his stunt double. I get to

819
00:43:54,520 --> 00:43:57,200
Speaker 1: sit back and watch how we lead a bleeding black

820
00:43:57,239 --> 00:43:59,920
Speaker 1: mail does his job. So I decided to leave Conserva

821
00:44:00,120 --> 00:44:02,200
Speaker 1: Tory to get paid to be a stunt double. I

822
00:44:02,360 --> 00:44:04,520
Speaker 1: never wanted to be a stunt double, but it was

823
00:44:04,560 --> 00:44:07,279
Speaker 1: like something I chose to do. So talk a little bit.

824
00:44:07,320 --> 00:44:09,920
Speaker 1: I want all you guys to talk about the choices

825
00:44:10,000 --> 00:44:12,239
Speaker 1: you made to find a way to make money while

826
00:44:12,320 --> 00:44:16,719
Speaker 1: pursuing your passion. Um first choice was taking the pH job,

827
00:44:16,800 --> 00:44:19,160
Speaker 1: because you know, that was literally going back. At that point,

828
00:44:19,200 --> 00:44:22,000
Speaker 1: I was like seven, starting all over again. Go and

829
00:44:22,080 --> 00:44:24,279
Speaker 1: get coffee. And it was like, hey, I'm going to

830
00:44:24,320 --> 00:44:28,600
Speaker 1: be seven, getting coffee, running errands, um, doing all the

831
00:44:28,680 --> 00:44:31,120
Speaker 1: grunt work, making cold calls, trying to get brands to

832
00:44:31,200 --> 00:44:33,960
Speaker 1: give us clothes. Hey, this is Chris Lazier calling from

833
00:44:33,960 --> 00:44:37,719
Speaker 1: Tyler Verry Studios, like doing all that, and but it

834
00:44:37,840 --> 00:44:40,840
Speaker 1: was just making sure that I knew what I wanted

835
00:44:40,840 --> 00:44:43,200
Speaker 1: to do. And even when Tyler called me and asked

836
00:44:43,239 --> 00:44:44,680
Speaker 1: me to be his style, and I was like, dang,

837
00:44:44,800 --> 00:44:48,319
Speaker 1: like I just got my first callback, you know, huge.

838
00:44:48,440 --> 00:44:51,520
Speaker 1: I'm like they actually liked me, you know. And then um,

839
00:44:52,120 --> 00:44:54,160
Speaker 1: I just wonder, like in my right because you know,

840
00:44:54,320 --> 00:44:58,000
Speaker 1: that digging me and it's like right there, it was

841
00:44:58,080 --> 00:45:01,680
Speaker 1: the gold. It's like if I right there, and um,

842
00:45:01,920 --> 00:45:03,279
Speaker 1: so I just I was like, you know what, let

843
00:45:03,320 --> 00:45:06,000
Speaker 1: me just build this relationship, you know, And and I

844
00:45:06,120 --> 00:45:08,440
Speaker 1: was still being crazy. I'm a creative, so Stalin was

845
00:45:08,800 --> 00:45:11,000
Speaker 1: I'm still doing something I love, so it wasn't like

846
00:45:11,120 --> 00:45:14,080
Speaker 1: I was losing, you know, And I would pray all

847
00:45:14,120 --> 00:45:16,080
Speaker 1: that God order my steps because I used to be like,

848
00:45:16,360 --> 00:45:18,120
Speaker 1: I want this, this, this is, and they tell us

849
00:45:18,239 --> 00:45:21,919
Speaker 1: be very um, be very clear on what you want,

850
00:45:22,120 --> 00:45:24,800
Speaker 1: ask for what you want. But then as I got older,

851
00:45:24,840 --> 00:45:26,200
Speaker 1: I was like, you know what, God just ordered my

852
00:45:26,239 --> 00:45:28,200
Speaker 1: steps because I know whatever you have for me is

853
00:45:28,239 --> 00:45:30,600
Speaker 1: far beyond what I have for myself. And look at

854
00:45:30,640 --> 00:45:32,960
Speaker 1: my life now. I could never have imagined that my

855
00:45:33,080 --> 00:45:34,920
Speaker 1: first show would be a show that I'm producing. And

856
00:45:35,040 --> 00:45:38,400
Speaker 1: now one of the starts of like that doesn't happen,

857
00:45:38,719 --> 00:45:41,360
Speaker 1: you know, so it doesn't happen. Like that's very different.

858
00:45:41,360 --> 00:45:42,719
Speaker 1: That's part of the reason why we brought you, because

859
00:45:42,719 --> 00:45:46,520
Speaker 1: I was extremely different than you ordered it. Yeah, but

860
00:45:46,640 --> 00:45:48,680
Speaker 1: you did put the work in. Yeah, a lot of

861
00:45:48,719 --> 00:45:51,839
Speaker 1: work for a long time. Ten years. There's a saying

862
00:45:52,000 --> 00:45:56,400
Speaker 1: takes ten years to become because now people like, oh

863
00:45:56,440 --> 00:45:58,440
Speaker 1: my gosh, and all the stuff I was doing then,

864
00:45:58,560 --> 00:46:00,279
Speaker 1: like I just posted a video that I like in

865
00:46:00,360 --> 00:46:07,840
Speaker 1: two thousands and people were like, yeah boo. So everything

866
00:46:08,000 --> 00:46:14,960
Speaker 1: was ding dong because she was getting her master's degree

867
00:46:14,960 --> 00:46:18,960
Speaker 1: and look Wookie for agent receiver, like look at this, Dirwin.

868
00:46:21,080 --> 00:46:23,239
Speaker 1: It was literally the same year that show came out,

869
00:46:23,239 --> 00:46:26,600
Speaker 1: two thousand seven. I was going to the second people

870
00:46:26,719 --> 00:46:28,560
Speaker 1: like they just took your life and put your life

871
00:46:28,600 --> 00:46:35,200
Speaker 1: on U p N Like, Yo, this is wild. But

872
00:46:35,520 --> 00:46:37,239
Speaker 1: talk to us. How how did you find a way

873
00:46:37,280 --> 00:46:40,600
Speaker 1: to turn that manifestation into money and continue to monetize

874
00:46:40,640 --> 00:46:43,480
Speaker 1: your dream because you moved to l A with no job. Yes, so,

875
00:46:44,120 --> 00:46:46,640
Speaker 1: um well I had a plan, right, you had a plan.

876
00:46:47,000 --> 00:46:49,719
Speaker 1: My plan. I kept working until I felt like I

877
00:46:49,760 --> 00:46:52,680
Speaker 1: couldn't work anymore because I was getting booked. I was

878
00:46:52,719 --> 00:46:55,359
Speaker 1: getting booked, I was doing Um oh, so you were

879
00:46:55,360 --> 00:46:57,759
Speaker 1: still working at your job and getting Yeah. I used

880
00:46:57,760 --> 00:47:00,160
Speaker 1: to say in my little mornings, I write, y'all, I'm

881
00:47:00,200 --> 00:47:02,520
Speaker 1: back in the you know what it is. I'm like,

882
00:47:02,640 --> 00:47:06,680
Speaker 1: y'all know, I'm a celebrity on the weekends and during

883
00:47:06,719 --> 00:47:09,000
Speaker 1: the week And people used to because they always ask, like,

884
00:47:09,120 --> 00:47:12,400
Speaker 1: wait a minute, you was just in l A and

885
00:47:12,440 --> 00:47:15,240
Speaker 1: then here you go Monday morning at seven am driving

886
00:47:15,280 --> 00:47:18,160
Speaker 1: back on the few. You do that. Now, that's important though,

887
00:47:18,160 --> 00:47:21,160
Speaker 1: because that also shows consistency, that shows passion but work ethic.

888
00:47:21,719 --> 00:47:24,920
Speaker 1: You were driving, yeah, well I was. I flew. I

889
00:47:24,960 --> 00:47:26,560
Speaker 1: would fly to l A. And then I would have

890
00:47:26,719 --> 00:47:29,239
Speaker 1: them get me a red eye and then when I land,

891
00:47:29,280 --> 00:47:32,040
Speaker 1: I would get back in at like six am. I

892
00:47:32,080 --> 00:47:35,520
Speaker 1: would go home shower, but before I left on Friday,

893
00:47:35,560 --> 00:47:37,920
Speaker 1: I would have my clothes ready for Monday because I

894
00:47:37,920 --> 00:47:40,280
Speaker 1: already knew what was up, and then I will shower,

895
00:47:40,360 --> 00:47:42,160
Speaker 1: put my clothes on, go to work, do my lip.

896
00:47:42,239 --> 00:47:47,239
Speaker 1: More than see, those are the things that people don't see. Right.

897
00:47:47,560 --> 00:47:49,960
Speaker 1: People get an opportunity to watch you now and say, oh,

898
00:47:50,000 --> 00:47:52,080
Speaker 1: he did it, I can do that. Are you willing?

899
00:47:52,280 --> 00:47:54,600
Speaker 1: Oh he just did videos. But he just did videos.

900
00:47:55,719 --> 00:47:58,880
Speaker 1: He was still working and had a job. It was

901
00:47:59,000 --> 00:48:01,839
Speaker 1: finding time to do old until he could leave one

902
00:48:02,280 --> 00:48:04,480
Speaker 1: and pursue the other. And so many people say that's

903
00:48:04,480 --> 00:48:05,480
Speaker 1: not the way you do what. You gotta leave you

904
00:48:05,719 --> 00:48:09,160
Speaker 1: job out the window, just fly there. No, you don't

905
00:48:09,280 --> 00:48:11,759
Speaker 1: ever just quit your job. Make sure you have a

906
00:48:11,840 --> 00:48:14,919
Speaker 1: plan and make sure you saved. Because I was still

907
00:48:15,600 --> 00:48:17,800
Speaker 1: um surviving off my checks and I was paying my

908
00:48:17,880 --> 00:48:20,000
Speaker 1: rent off my checks and whatever I was doing, and

909
00:48:20,040 --> 00:48:21,640
Speaker 1: then the money that I was making from the bookings,

910
00:48:21,719 --> 00:48:25,120
Speaker 1: I was putting it up because I know, at not

911
00:48:25,200 --> 00:48:27,319
Speaker 1: doing another winter in Michigan, I'm getting out of here,

912
00:48:27,719 --> 00:48:30,320
Speaker 1: and I saved all my money because I didn't know

913
00:48:30,440 --> 00:48:32,600
Speaker 1: how long I would be without a job for money,

914
00:48:33,440 --> 00:48:34,680
Speaker 1: and I know how I wanted to live, and I

915
00:48:34,800 --> 00:48:36,960
Speaker 1: know what I wanted to do right I had to.

916
00:48:37,280 --> 00:48:40,520
Speaker 1: I had how I wanted to live and what I

917
00:48:40,600 --> 00:48:43,279
Speaker 1: wanted to do in l A while I'm there, and

918
00:48:43,560 --> 00:48:46,160
Speaker 1: um so I saved all my money and then it

919
00:48:46,320 --> 00:48:50,400
Speaker 1: camera time. June did to bet Awards. My boss saw it.

920
00:48:51,239 --> 00:48:54,640
Speaker 1: She was like, come here. When I came in, I

921
00:48:54,760 --> 00:48:58,640
Speaker 1: was like, but in my head, I don't think it.

922
00:48:59,040 --> 00:49:02,279
Speaker 1: I'm like, hey, this is it. Hey, I'm ready. If

923
00:49:02,280 --> 00:49:04,759
Speaker 1: I got to go, I got yeah, and she's like,

924
00:49:05,440 --> 00:49:09,319
Speaker 1: close my door. I'm like, I closed it. She turned

925
00:49:09,320 --> 00:49:11,440
Speaker 1: around and she turned her chair around. She did this

926
00:49:11,520 --> 00:49:13,480
Speaker 1: and she smiled. She was like how long I got?

927
00:49:14,000 --> 00:49:20,279
Speaker 1: And I was like, you asked it. Yeah, it's kind

928
00:49:20,320 --> 00:49:22,880
Speaker 1: of August. She was like, give me to September. I

929
00:49:22,960 --> 00:49:25,960
Speaker 1: was like, September, that's it, because um I got to

930
00:49:26,000 --> 00:49:27,560
Speaker 1: be in l A by October. She was like, wait

931
00:49:27,600 --> 00:49:30,080
Speaker 1: a minute, so you already had that. I said, oh yeah,

932
00:49:30,239 --> 00:49:32,520
Speaker 1: my lease is up in October. I'm out of here.

933
00:49:32,960 --> 00:49:34,880
Speaker 1: And she was like, okay, give me to September. I

934
00:49:34,920 --> 00:49:37,279
Speaker 1: want to do something nice, but I gotta go out

935
00:49:37,360 --> 00:49:39,040
Speaker 1: of town. I want to come back and do something

936
00:49:39,080 --> 00:49:41,360
Speaker 1: for you. So I was like, okay, UM, got to

937
00:49:41,600 --> 00:49:44,080
Speaker 1: l A. Now here's the thing I am. I getting

938
00:49:44,080 --> 00:49:46,160
Speaker 1: ready to make money because I'm in l A. I'm

939
00:49:46,200 --> 00:49:48,000
Speaker 1: in this place that I don't know nothing about. I

940
00:49:48,040 --> 00:49:51,719
Speaker 1: don't know where to go. Um. You know you both

941
00:49:51,760 --> 00:49:54,320
Speaker 1: of y'all know those brands will reach out to you

942
00:49:54,440 --> 00:49:58,239
Speaker 1: on the ground. And I was doing my videostiersistent with

943
00:49:58,440 --> 00:50:01,520
Speaker 1: my videos. Even though I'm moved, I'm still doing them. Um,

944
00:50:01,840 --> 00:50:04,120
Speaker 1: people like, hey, can you mention my brand while you

945
00:50:04,160 --> 00:50:07,960
Speaker 1: do your videos? Definitely? So you know, with Loving hip Hop,

946
00:50:08,000 --> 00:50:10,360
Speaker 1: I'm talking about weave and everything. So I'm talking about

947
00:50:10,640 --> 00:50:15,759
Speaker 1: hair glue, flippers, people sending me clippers. So that's how

948
00:50:15,840 --> 00:50:19,759
Speaker 1: I was making my money until I figured out, okay,

949
00:50:19,800 --> 00:50:23,080
Speaker 1: I'm getting classes. And then also with BT, I was

950
00:50:23,160 --> 00:50:25,640
Speaker 1: doing a lot with BT and just being around those people.

951
00:50:25,800 --> 00:50:29,560
Speaker 1: Robbie Read. She was like, so, what's what's your vision

952
00:50:29,600 --> 00:50:30,600
Speaker 1: what you want to do? I was like, I want

953
00:50:30,640 --> 00:50:33,279
Speaker 1: to ask. She was like, you want to act? I

954
00:50:33,440 --> 00:50:35,040
Speaker 1: was like yeah. She was like I didn't know that

955
00:50:35,280 --> 00:50:37,239
Speaker 1: this whole time you know, you will come up. So

956
00:50:37,480 --> 00:50:40,160
Speaker 1: that's when Robbie started. She kept me on the radar

957
00:50:40,480 --> 00:50:44,040
Speaker 1: and she will send me auditions until finally she was like,

958
00:50:44,080 --> 00:50:45,800
Speaker 1: are you in class? And I was like no. She's like,

959
00:50:45,880 --> 00:50:48,400
Speaker 1: you need to get in class because you're green and

960
00:50:48,560 --> 00:50:50,640
Speaker 1: you need to know technique. He need to get a

961
00:50:50,680 --> 00:50:53,800
Speaker 1: scene study. And I did that, and she hit me

962
00:50:54,239 --> 00:50:57,480
Speaker 1: a year later with the games people play and I

963
00:50:57,560 --> 00:51:00,080
Speaker 1: didn't think I booked it. I didn't think I've you

964
00:51:00,280 --> 00:51:02,399
Speaker 1: hear nothing from him. I was like no. And then

965
00:51:02,520 --> 00:51:04,720
Speaker 1: I was getting ready going home for Thanksgiving. I'm driving

966
00:51:05,160 --> 00:51:08,360
Speaker 1: and she like, hey, Kendall, you booked a roll up

967
00:51:08,480 --> 00:51:14,880
Speaker 1: m J. And I just like I was one. I

968
00:51:15,000 --> 00:51:17,120
Speaker 1: was like wait what she got out? I just started crying.

969
00:51:17,440 --> 00:51:19,880
Speaker 1: And then I was driving home to screaming out the window.

970
00:51:19,880 --> 00:51:25,200
Speaker 1: I'm like, that's what the fun, That's how you do that,

971
00:51:26,040 --> 00:51:28,560
Speaker 1: you know. I'm just I'm like the same thing you said.

972
00:51:28,560 --> 00:51:31,600
Speaker 1: I'm like all the way home, I'm like, I don't

973
00:51:31,640 --> 00:51:34,680
Speaker 1: believe I did it, And um, but you took direction

974
00:51:34,760 --> 00:51:37,680
Speaker 1: as well. Yeah you know what I mean. Getting the

975
00:51:37,719 --> 00:51:40,200
Speaker 1: advice from Robbie go into the classes. You did everything

976
00:51:40,239 --> 00:51:43,279
Speaker 1: you did? Yeah, I did and it was hard because

977
00:51:43,280 --> 00:51:45,560
Speaker 1: sometimes I was going to class, like some days class

978
00:51:45,680 --> 00:51:49,839
Speaker 1: was litting. Some days I'm like a struggle, and I'm

979
00:51:49,920 --> 00:51:51,960
Speaker 1: like I felt like being on set. Once I got

980
00:51:52,000 --> 00:51:54,840
Speaker 1: on set, I learned more on set, but also I

981
00:51:54,960 --> 00:51:58,239
Speaker 1: took a lot from class, especially like breaking down that

982
00:51:59,000 --> 00:52:05,000
Speaker 1: wall the wall, and then also um substitution. I used

983
00:52:05,040 --> 00:52:07,319
Speaker 1: that so much like when I got to be mad,

984
00:52:07,400 --> 00:52:09,560
Speaker 1: I just think about things that happened in my childhood.

985
00:52:10,040 --> 00:52:12,680
Speaker 1: I just I take it there. See, it'sn't point for

986
00:52:12,719 --> 00:52:14,680
Speaker 1: people to hear that too, because people think that once

987
00:52:14,719 --> 00:52:16,640
Speaker 1: you make it, or you make a certain level of success,

988
00:52:16,680 --> 00:52:20,759
Speaker 1: you don't have to work to grow anymore. And if

989
00:52:20,840 --> 00:52:25,000
Speaker 1: Will Smith can still take classes, if my one of

990
00:52:25,120 --> 00:52:28,120
Speaker 1: my favorite actors, Adrian Lennox one of Tony Awards, she's

991
00:52:28,160 --> 00:52:31,880
Speaker 1: my aunt, shoutouts on Adrian. She still takes classes and

992
00:52:32,040 --> 00:52:34,000
Speaker 1: she's I think she's going to be in her sixties

993
00:52:34,040 --> 00:52:37,000
Speaker 1: in the late fifties. Why can't I take classes? In fact,

994
00:52:37,040 --> 00:52:39,239
Speaker 1: when I finished first season, I went straight back to

995
00:52:39,320 --> 00:52:43,560
Speaker 1: Aaron Spiders and Shotton Sturgis. I was like, Okay, I

996
00:52:43,640 --> 00:52:45,800
Speaker 1: feel like I was good, but I wasn't great, So

997
00:52:45,960 --> 00:52:48,320
Speaker 1: I went right back to her. I hit up Any Grimly,

998
00:52:48,400 --> 00:52:51,040
Speaker 1: my acting coach, because I'm like, okay, I need to

999
00:52:51,080 --> 00:52:53,200
Speaker 1: be better. And then we got picked up for a

1000
00:52:53,280 --> 00:52:56,239
Speaker 1: second season. I hit them, I went back. I'm like, okay,

1001
00:52:56,239 --> 00:52:59,600
Speaker 1: I gotta I gotta, yeah, I gotta get ready. And

1002
00:52:59,680 --> 00:53:02,840
Speaker 1: I do see the difference between last season and this season.

1003
00:53:03,239 --> 00:53:06,280
Speaker 1: Right now, Um, I got a chance to be serious

1004
00:53:06,640 --> 00:53:10,239
Speaker 1: because everybody put me in for the punch, like we

1005
00:53:10,360 --> 00:53:12,120
Speaker 1: want him to come in and give us the punch lines.

1006
00:53:12,200 --> 00:53:14,279
Speaker 1: We know we're gonna laugh. I'm like, I can do

1007
00:53:14,440 --> 00:53:16,719
Speaker 1: more than that. Let me just show you. And I

1008
00:53:16,840 --> 00:53:19,000
Speaker 1: finally had a scene. I can't really tell y'all, can't

1009
00:53:19,040 --> 00:53:23,360
Speaker 1: wait till you see. I was like, smellow, watch party.

1010
00:53:28,960 --> 00:53:31,400
Speaker 1: Good for that. Oh my goodness, this was such a

1011
00:53:31,480 --> 00:53:37,080
Speaker 1: great talk. I mean, we got to take a breakthrough

1012
00:53:37,120 --> 00:53:42,120
Speaker 1: the patient bills, but we can bring all right. Cool.

1013
00:53:42,160 --> 00:53:43,799
Speaker 1: So yeah, we have listener letters. We're just gonna see

1014
00:53:43,800 --> 00:53:45,359
Speaker 1: what these people writing about. We can get you all

1015
00:53:45,400 --> 00:53:47,239
Speaker 1: two cents in on that and then we'll be back.

1016
00:53:47,840 --> 00:54:00,200
Speaker 1: So we'll be back guys afterwards. All right, we'll back

1017
00:54:01,080 --> 00:54:03,759
Speaker 1: listener letters. I want to see what these people have

1018
00:54:03,880 --> 00:54:09,840
Speaker 1: to say that diving. You want me to read the

1019
00:54:09,840 --> 00:54:11,719
Speaker 1: first one. I got it, you got it? Excuse me?

1020
00:54:12,560 --> 00:54:17,319
Speaker 1: Read slowly and enunciate please, Oh she wild disrespect. I'm

1021
00:54:17,360 --> 00:54:20,240
Speaker 1: not doing now, I'm not doing Sometimes I'll be randoling

1022
00:54:20,360 --> 00:54:23,920
Speaker 1: you sometimes be stuttering on your listening to live, like, uh,

1023
00:54:27,040 --> 00:54:30,160
Speaker 1: can I finish? Can I read it before? Now? Hi?

1024
00:54:31,520 --> 00:54:36,239
Speaker 1: Codeine and de val? Is that enough? Annunciation? And I

1025
00:54:36,440 --> 00:54:40,880
Speaker 1: currently six. Graduated from college back in two thousand and

1026
00:54:40,960 --> 00:54:44,520
Speaker 1: eighteen with a degree in sociology, worked a few office

1027
00:54:44,600 --> 00:54:47,160
Speaker 1: jobs in a coffee shop job when I thought I

1028
00:54:47,239 --> 00:54:49,600
Speaker 1: wanted to focus on becoming a rapper producer, but I

1029
00:54:49,680 --> 00:54:52,680
Speaker 1: hate performing and I'm not very sociable at least you know,

1030
00:54:52,840 --> 00:54:56,680
Speaker 1: how about yourself? Now, I'm unemployed and living with my parents,

1031
00:54:56,760 --> 00:54:58,960
Speaker 1: but in the midst of the enlistment process for the

1032
00:54:59,040 --> 00:55:00,680
Speaker 1: Air Force because I don't don't know what else to

1033
00:55:00,719 --> 00:55:03,640
Speaker 1: do with my life. I genuinely don't like who I'm becoming,

1034
00:55:03,800 --> 00:55:06,799
Speaker 1: and I'm sure and what I'm sure the military will

1035
00:55:06,840 --> 00:55:09,120
Speaker 1: turn me into. But I don't know what else to

1036
00:55:09,200 --> 00:55:13,160
Speaker 1: do in this capitalist society. Wow. As much as I

1037
00:55:13,200 --> 00:55:15,239
Speaker 1: hate the idea of money and what people will do

1038
00:55:15,360 --> 00:55:17,800
Speaker 1: for it, I have to live within this system. Some

1039
00:55:17,960 --> 00:55:19,840
Speaker 1: kind of way, and I'm not the type of person

1040
00:55:20,000 --> 00:55:22,920
Speaker 1: that's really business minded or go getter. I feel like

1041
00:55:23,000 --> 00:55:25,320
Speaker 1: threw away a lot of opportunities I had during college

1042
00:55:25,360 --> 00:55:28,960
Speaker 1: being focused on romantic relationships and weed. What would you

1043
00:55:29,040 --> 00:55:31,560
Speaker 1: suggest to someone in my position that wants to live

1044
00:55:31,680 --> 00:55:35,200
Speaker 1: comfortably and with peace of mind but doesn't have that

1045
00:55:35,360 --> 00:55:38,840
Speaker 1: hustler drive. Well, kudos do you for realizing that you

1046
00:55:38,920 --> 00:55:41,439
Speaker 1: don't have any of those things that you know? Sometimes

1047
00:55:41,440 --> 00:55:44,480
Speaker 1: people just being denial about where what it is that

1048
00:55:44,560 --> 00:55:46,920
Speaker 1: they are, what they're capable of. Um, but do you

1049
00:55:47,040 --> 00:55:50,239
Speaker 1: have any advice for this year old who's kind of

1050
00:55:50,440 --> 00:55:53,759
Speaker 1: don't become a cop. I'm gonna say this right, and

1051
00:55:53,800 --> 00:55:56,000
Speaker 1: it's not supposed to be funny. A lot of people

1052
00:55:56,080 --> 00:55:58,080
Speaker 1: who don't know, are not sure about what they want

1053
00:55:58,120 --> 00:56:01,239
Speaker 1: to do with their life, get into law enforcement, or

1054
00:56:01,239 --> 00:56:03,520
Speaker 1: they go to the military. Right. Listen to how he

1055
00:56:03,640 --> 00:56:08,040
Speaker 1: described himself. He's not sociable, don't like people. Some people

1056
00:56:08,080 --> 00:56:10,000
Speaker 1: like that become police officers because that's the only thing

1057
00:56:10,080 --> 00:56:11,799
Speaker 1: that gives them power, their part of something. But these

1058
00:56:11,800 --> 00:56:13,120
Speaker 1: are the people that we have to deal with in

1059
00:56:13,200 --> 00:56:16,839
Speaker 1: our community every single day enforcing laws. This is why

1060
00:56:16,960 --> 00:56:18,480
Speaker 1: we have the issues we have I know they had

1061
00:56:18,520 --> 00:56:20,880
Speaker 1: nothing to do with the question, but it really reminded

1062
00:56:20,920 --> 00:56:22,799
Speaker 1: me of what we talked about a few days ago

1063
00:56:23,040 --> 00:56:26,480
Speaker 1: of what type of people are becoming police officers. Sometimes

1064
00:56:26,719 --> 00:56:29,120
Speaker 1: it's the type of people who they claim to be

1065
00:56:29,200 --> 00:56:31,279
Speaker 1: the bad apples, but these are type of people that

1066
00:56:31,360 --> 00:56:34,160
Speaker 1: need psyche vowels. Why are you becoming a police officer

1067
00:56:34,200 --> 00:56:36,759
Speaker 1: if you don't like people, if you're not sociable, if

1068
00:56:36,760 --> 00:56:38,000
Speaker 1: you don't know what you want to do with yourself.

1069
00:56:38,040 --> 00:56:39,879
Speaker 1: I don't have a sense of purpose. Do we give

1070
00:56:39,920 --> 00:56:42,600
Speaker 1: this person a gun and telling police people we don't know?

1071
00:56:43,400 --> 00:56:46,799
Speaker 1: That's a whole another podcast, you know. And the reason

1072
00:56:46,840 --> 00:56:48,840
Speaker 1: why brother, because he said he's going to enlist in

1073
00:56:48,880 --> 00:56:51,640
Speaker 1: the air what happens when you come out of the

1074
00:56:51,680 --> 00:56:54,279
Speaker 1: Air Force? And he also says he doesn't know if

1075
00:56:54,280 --> 00:56:56,400
Speaker 1: he's gonna like who he will turn into or become

1076
00:56:56,560 --> 00:56:59,359
Speaker 1: after being in the military. See, I need to talk

1077
00:56:59,400 --> 00:57:01,000
Speaker 1: to him because I want to know why did you

1078
00:57:01,160 --> 00:57:03,640
Speaker 1: enlist in the military, Like, what, what's the it is

1079
00:57:03,680 --> 00:57:07,680
Speaker 1: that do you feel like that's your last resort? He

1080
00:57:07,920 --> 00:57:10,759
Speaker 1: said he wasted time on romantic relationships and weed. So

1081
00:57:10,840 --> 00:57:12,440
Speaker 1: it sounds like the type of person that knows they

1082
00:57:12,520 --> 00:57:14,840
Speaker 1: want structure, but also want to be a part of something.

1083
00:57:16,360 --> 00:57:18,320
Speaker 1: When you want to be a part of something, whatever

1084
00:57:18,440 --> 00:57:20,760
Speaker 1: that culture is, you start to believe in it and

1085
00:57:20,880 --> 00:57:23,760
Speaker 1: you become it's dangerous for people who don't know what

1086
00:57:23,960 --> 00:57:26,040
Speaker 1: to be or how to be, and then it's become

1087
00:57:26,080 --> 00:57:28,840
Speaker 1: of a cult because part of a culture that's so toxic,

1088
00:57:29,400 --> 00:57:31,040
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. So that's why I broke

1089
00:57:31,080 --> 00:57:32,840
Speaker 1: the whole police officer thing. But I mean, this person

1090
00:57:32,960 --> 00:57:35,760
Speaker 1: at least has described some people I know now who

1091
00:57:35,800 --> 00:57:38,840
Speaker 1: are cops like. And it's not even like a white

1092
00:57:38,920 --> 00:57:40,560
Speaker 1: or black thing, because people think that when you talk

1093
00:57:40,560 --> 00:57:43,240
Speaker 1: about a police officer, is a white police officer. No,

1094
00:57:43,720 --> 00:57:48,080
Speaker 1: there are black, orange, brown, purple police officers who have

1095
00:57:48,160 --> 00:57:51,240
Speaker 1: now believed in that ideology. But now we're given a

1096
00:57:51,320 --> 00:57:54,880
Speaker 1: weapon and some power, and now we as black people

1097
00:57:54,920 --> 00:57:57,200
Speaker 1: in our communities have to deal with those people. What

1098
00:57:57,280 --> 00:57:59,800
Speaker 1: I would tell this young man is find out who

1099
00:57:59,880 --> 00:58:04,440
Speaker 1: you want first. I would say, get some therapy, because

1100
00:58:04,560 --> 00:58:06,720
Speaker 1: it's for him to talk so much about himself this

1101
00:58:06,840 --> 00:58:09,800
Speaker 1: way and self do so much self loathing. I think

1102
00:58:09,840 --> 00:58:11,560
Speaker 1: he has some issues he needs to deal with, but

1103
00:58:11,600 --> 00:58:13,720
Speaker 1: I think he needs to find a purpose to you

1104
00:58:13,760 --> 00:58:16,320
Speaker 1: know a lot of times you think about what drives someone,

1105
00:58:16,440 --> 00:58:18,880
Speaker 1: what gives them that passion or that desire, Like I

1106
00:58:18,920 --> 00:58:20,960
Speaker 1: feel like we each had a desire to do something,

1107
00:58:21,440 --> 00:58:23,320
Speaker 1: you know, and then we manifested in the work towards it.

1108
00:58:23,400 --> 00:58:25,160
Speaker 1: It's hard when you don't have a purpose, so you

1109
00:58:25,200 --> 00:58:27,080
Speaker 1: don't know why you're like, why were you put here

1110
00:58:27,120 --> 00:58:29,720
Speaker 1: on this on this earth? What are you supposed to accomplish?

1111
00:58:29,760 --> 00:58:31,439
Speaker 1: Who are you supposed to touch? What are you trying

1112
00:58:31,480 --> 00:58:33,960
Speaker 1: to achieve? So I think that's what he's lacking here.

1113
00:58:34,000 --> 00:58:36,160
Speaker 1: Now he's telling everything, telling us everything that he knows

1114
00:58:36,240 --> 00:58:39,920
Speaker 1: that he is or isn't, But what feels you? I

1115
00:58:40,000 --> 00:58:41,520
Speaker 1: think he has to really do some soul church and

1116
00:58:41,560 --> 00:58:45,560
Speaker 1: to figure that out. Intelligent though, he needs a squad too, Yeah, yeah,

1117
00:58:45,600 --> 00:58:48,200
Speaker 1: he does some people. I got my squad. He needs

1118
00:58:48,280 --> 00:58:51,400
Speaker 1: some people around him to help him, because sometimes that's

1119
00:58:51,440 --> 00:58:54,200
Speaker 1: all you need, not all you need, but that's part

1120
00:58:54,280 --> 00:58:56,760
Speaker 1: of it. And I feel like he really needs a

1121
00:58:56,840 --> 00:58:59,000
Speaker 1: squad people he can pour into and they can pour

1122
00:58:59,080 --> 00:59:02,000
Speaker 1: back into him and help him out. Like we bounced

1123
00:59:02,120 --> 00:59:05,040
Speaker 1: ideas off of each other all the time, Like with

1124
00:59:05,160 --> 00:59:08,200
Speaker 1: the book, right right, right, right right, very true, you

1125
00:59:08,280 --> 00:59:10,400
Speaker 1: bounce our dias. You find out what's good what's not good,

1126
00:59:10,440 --> 00:59:12,640
Speaker 1: but you have to have people in your corner who

1127
00:59:12,680 --> 00:59:14,680
Speaker 1: are supportive. It sounds to me like he's a loner,

1128
00:59:15,560 --> 00:59:20,040
Speaker 1: it doesn't He talked about fail relationships, not liking people,

1129
00:59:20,720 --> 00:59:23,360
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. He sounds like he's a loner. So, um,

1130
00:59:23,920 --> 00:59:25,440
Speaker 1: it would be hard for him to find the squad.

1131
00:59:25,480 --> 00:59:27,800
Speaker 1: I just don't want him because he also said, um,

1132
00:59:27,840 --> 00:59:30,600
Speaker 1: he doesn't know what else to do in this capitalist society,

1133
00:59:31,160 --> 00:59:34,360
Speaker 1: which means he is aware of what's going on around him.

1134
00:59:34,600 --> 00:59:36,040
Speaker 1: The one thing I would not want him to do

1135
00:59:36,200 --> 00:59:38,400
Speaker 1: is just to go into a system and buy into

1136
00:59:38,480 --> 00:59:41,600
Speaker 1: whatever that system is, you know, especially when so many

1137
00:59:41,600 --> 00:59:46,439
Speaker 1: of these systems are sexist, racist, you know, and also

1138
00:59:46,480 --> 00:59:49,400
Speaker 1: even though they're not capitalists, but they're also had their

1139
00:59:49,440 --> 00:59:52,640
Speaker 1: own issues with within our society as well. So hopefully

1140
00:59:52,800 --> 00:59:57,280
Speaker 1: that some therapy and find a squad first before you

1141
00:59:57,680 --> 01:00:01,400
Speaker 1: buy into anything. All right, Number two, I love your

1142
01:00:01,440 --> 01:00:03,440
Speaker 1: show and you both are such an inspiration to me.

1143
01:00:03,560 --> 01:00:06,320
Speaker 1: Keep shining the way you do. Thank you. Um. I've

1144
01:00:06,360 --> 01:00:09,400
Speaker 1: heard Devours say there's a delusional quality that all successful

1145
01:00:09,440 --> 01:00:12,200
Speaker 1: people have a lot on the podcast, and I just

1146
01:00:12,320 --> 01:00:15,360
Speaker 1: want to know. How do you train yourself to be delusional?

1147
01:00:15,960 --> 01:00:18,120
Speaker 1: I work my job and hustle for my dreams, but

1148
01:00:18,240 --> 01:00:21,840
Speaker 1: sometimes I get tired and fearful and even insecure. What

1149
01:00:22,000 --> 01:00:24,480
Speaker 1: did you both do while coming into your success on

1150
01:00:24,560 --> 01:00:27,240
Speaker 1: a regular basis to stay committed to the belief that

1151
01:00:27,440 --> 01:00:30,200
Speaker 1: you could do, be and have everything that you want?

1152
01:00:30,720 --> 01:00:35,240
Speaker 1: How can I do the same? Mm hmm. It's funny

1153
01:00:35,240 --> 01:00:37,680
Speaker 1: because I don't know if you can necessarily train yourself

1154
01:00:37,760 --> 01:00:40,880
Speaker 1: to be delusional. I think that delusional quality that Devot

1155
01:00:40,960 --> 01:00:44,600
Speaker 1: refers to is very innate. There's like a fire, there's

1156
01:00:44,640 --> 01:00:48,840
Speaker 1: a passion, there's that belief in oneself. That's the manifestation

1157
01:00:49,000 --> 01:00:51,880
Speaker 1: that's me saying anything. I do anything, I say anything,

1158
01:00:52,160 --> 01:00:53,920
Speaker 1: I can be anything I want. So I think a

1159
01:00:54,040 --> 01:00:57,840
Speaker 1: part of that is innate. But I do believe to

1160
01:00:58,000 --> 01:01:01,120
Speaker 1: that there are spaces and there are things, and there

1161
01:01:01,160 --> 01:01:04,800
Speaker 1: are goals or dreams. That then also two can make

1162
01:01:04,880 --> 01:01:07,880
Speaker 1: you delusional in a sense to like almost seeing something like,

1163
01:01:07,920 --> 01:01:11,160
Speaker 1: for example, Crystal you being a background on a show

1164
01:01:11,400 --> 01:01:15,160
Speaker 1: and then seeing you know, Whoopi Goldberg or whoever on

1165
01:01:15,280 --> 01:01:17,360
Speaker 1: set while you're styling, and you're just like, man, I

1166
01:01:17,400 --> 01:01:19,280
Speaker 1: can I feel like I could do that feel like

1167
01:01:19,320 --> 01:01:21,320
Speaker 1: I can be that it's almost tangible for you and

1168
01:01:21,360 --> 01:01:26,480
Speaker 1: that yes, you know what, do you guys think I agree? Um,

1169
01:01:28,400 --> 01:01:30,840
Speaker 1: it's not. Yeah, I don't think. I think I definitely agree.

1170
01:01:30,880 --> 01:01:34,080
Speaker 1: The delusion, the delusional that Devil always talks about, is

1171
01:01:34,120 --> 01:01:37,840
Speaker 1: definitely something that's just kind of in people who dare

1172
01:01:37,920 --> 01:01:40,760
Speaker 1: to dream, like we just there's something and as that

1173
01:01:40,840 --> 01:01:43,120
Speaker 1: kind of blinds us from like the reality certain things.

1174
01:01:43,160 --> 01:01:45,320
Speaker 1: We just like, no, I see that television, I see

1175
01:01:45,360 --> 01:01:47,600
Speaker 1: what I'm going after, I don't see anything else. It

1176
01:01:47,640 --> 01:01:50,600
Speaker 1: doesn't matter, you know, you just kind of black everything

1177
01:01:50,720 --> 01:01:53,280
Speaker 1: we do. Like you said, looking out that window, you

1178
01:01:53,400 --> 01:01:55,480
Speaker 1: just kind of you just see what's in that window,

1179
01:01:55,720 --> 01:01:58,520
Speaker 1: and you you just you go for it. I would

1180
01:01:58,560 --> 01:02:00,600
Speaker 1: have to say I think it's Nate, but I think

1181
01:02:00,600 --> 01:02:03,720
Speaker 1: it's also something that was placed in me. My parents

1182
01:02:03,800 --> 01:02:05,840
Speaker 1: did a great job of making me feel like I

1183
01:02:05,920 --> 01:02:07,960
Speaker 1: can do whatever I want to do. You know what

1184
01:02:07,960 --> 01:02:11,240
Speaker 1: I'm saying. They questioned some of the things I wanted

1185
01:02:11,280 --> 01:02:13,600
Speaker 1: to do when I was younger because they didn't see it,

1186
01:02:13,960 --> 01:02:15,919
Speaker 1: but they put me in places to see other things.

1187
01:02:16,040 --> 01:02:18,000
Speaker 1: So when I saw it, I was gonna do that.

1188
01:02:18,760 --> 01:02:20,480
Speaker 1: And then you know, they didn't see it, so they

1189
01:02:20,520 --> 01:02:21,800
Speaker 1: was like, what you mean, you're gonna do that? But

1190
01:02:21,920 --> 01:02:24,440
Speaker 1: they put me in that position. I think sometimes the

1191
01:02:25,400 --> 01:02:28,360
Speaker 1: exposure as a as a as a youngster, because sometimes

1192
01:02:28,400 --> 01:02:30,560
Speaker 1: so many people have so many insecurities is because their

1193
01:02:30,600 --> 01:02:33,400
Speaker 1: whole life they've been told no, you know, no, you can't.

1194
01:02:33,560 --> 01:02:36,479
Speaker 1: Like when I think about our kids, we had what's

1195
01:02:36,560 --> 01:02:41,720
Speaker 1: what's Delane's the last name Delana Delane, which is my

1196
01:02:41,960 --> 01:02:45,360
Speaker 1: family's name is Zimmerman is mm and Eliss Delna. Zimmerman said,

1197
01:02:45,400 --> 01:02:48,040
Speaker 1: between five and twelve is where you have the most

1198
01:02:48,120 --> 01:02:50,920
Speaker 1: impact on your children, right, And what you don't want

1199
01:02:50,920 --> 01:02:53,520
Speaker 1: to do is you don't want to suppress your children's ideas, beliefs,

1200
01:02:53,560 --> 01:02:57,120
Speaker 1: and thoughts by telling or projecting all of your insecurities

1201
01:02:57,200 --> 01:02:59,600
Speaker 1: on them. Now was the best time to make them

1202
01:02:59,720 --> 01:03:02,440
Speaker 1: feel like they can do anything and then feel empowered.

1203
01:03:02,680 --> 01:03:04,760
Speaker 1: So I feel like from five to twelve, I was

1204
01:03:04,840 --> 01:03:07,680
Speaker 1: in martial arts. I wanted to do basketball, My brother

1205
01:03:07,680 --> 01:03:09,320
Speaker 1: want to do football. You know what my parents did,

1206
01:03:09,720 --> 01:03:12,040
Speaker 1: they script whatever money they had together, that's what you

1207
01:03:12,080 --> 01:03:13,960
Speaker 1: want to do, We're gonna do it. So I never

1208
01:03:14,040 --> 01:03:16,240
Speaker 1: had any point in my life felt like I can't

1209
01:03:16,320 --> 01:03:18,680
Speaker 1: do it. When my parents when we had Christmas and

1210
01:03:18,720 --> 01:03:21,240
Speaker 1: I used to give my Christmas list, my father would

1211
01:03:21,240 --> 01:03:23,120
Speaker 1: always find a way to get it. So in my

1212
01:03:23,240 --> 01:03:25,880
Speaker 1: mind it's like, oh, if I say it and I

1213
01:03:25,960 --> 01:03:28,200
Speaker 1: see it, I'm gonna get it because that's been my life,

1214
01:03:28,360 --> 01:03:31,440
Speaker 1: even small things like Christmas gifts or trying to win

1215
01:03:31,560 --> 01:03:35,200
Speaker 1: first place. So I feel like for adults, when you

1216
01:03:35,240 --> 01:03:36,960
Speaker 1: get to that point, I think it's time for you

1217
01:03:37,040 --> 01:03:39,400
Speaker 1: to start to reflect on why you have these insecurities.

1218
01:03:39,760 --> 01:03:42,480
Speaker 1: You know, you can't really train yourself, but do some homework.

1219
01:03:43,040 --> 01:03:45,520
Speaker 1: Speak to your parents, how was I raised? You know,

1220
01:03:45,600 --> 01:03:47,400
Speaker 1: look at your surroundings and say what is it about

1221
01:03:47,440 --> 01:03:49,880
Speaker 1: me that I'm afraid to dream? I think if people

1222
01:03:49,920 --> 01:03:52,680
Speaker 1: did more homework on why they're afraid to dream, they'll

1223
01:03:52,720 --> 01:03:56,560
Speaker 1: find more. Uh, They'll learn more about themselves and be successful.

1224
01:03:56,680 --> 01:03:58,440
Speaker 1: Rather than saying, well, de Vos said to do this,

1225
01:03:58,560 --> 01:04:01,200
Speaker 1: so I'm going to do that work for Devot because

1226
01:04:01,520 --> 01:04:04,120
Speaker 1: this is what Devot does. It may not work for

1227
01:04:04,240 --> 01:04:06,720
Speaker 1: k you know, or can do or Crystal you know.

1228
01:04:06,880 --> 01:04:09,400
Speaker 1: So I think to do some homework. Do you do

1229
01:04:09,480 --> 01:04:11,760
Speaker 1: some self reflection, find out why you're so fearful, and

1230
01:04:11,840 --> 01:04:17,240
Speaker 1: that will give you the answers, don't oh gay, our

1231
01:04:17,360 --> 01:04:19,880
Speaker 1: times coming to an end. This is an awesome, awesome

1232
01:04:20,040 --> 01:04:21,760
Speaker 1: sit down, and I feel like there was so much

1233
01:04:21,800 --> 01:04:24,080
Speaker 1: more that we haven't even touched. But I feel like

1234
01:04:24,200 --> 01:04:28,280
Speaker 1: as we all continue to grow together, we're gonna have

1235
01:04:28,400 --> 01:04:32,120
Speaker 1: more stories to share. UM, We're gonna still be finding

1236
01:04:32,160 --> 01:04:34,280
Speaker 1: more ways to pay it forward and give back because

1237
01:04:34,320 --> 01:04:37,520
Speaker 1: that's also a very large part of the manifestation process

1238
01:04:37,600 --> 01:04:40,920
Speaker 1: I believe is as you get in abundance, UM, as

1239
01:04:40,960 --> 01:04:43,480
Speaker 1: God continues to provide for us in abundance, we have

1240
01:04:43,640 --> 01:04:46,600
Speaker 1: to continue to be of service to others. UM. So

1241
01:04:46,760 --> 01:04:48,400
Speaker 1: that's very big for me, and I feel like that's

1242
01:04:48,400 --> 01:04:50,400
Speaker 1: the only way we're going to continue to thrive and

1243
01:04:50,480 --> 01:04:53,560
Speaker 1: to grow as if we help people along the way. UM.

1244
01:04:53,800 --> 01:04:55,480
Speaker 1: So thank you all so much for coming. We're going

1245
01:04:55,520 --> 01:04:57,600
Speaker 1: to roll into our moment of truth. But before we

1246
01:04:57,680 --> 01:05:00,320
Speaker 1: do that, if you would like to be feed shared

1247
01:05:00,480 --> 01:05:05,600
Speaker 1: as one of our listener letters, no okay, UM, If

1248
01:05:05,600 --> 01:05:07,400
Speaker 1: you'd like to be featured as one of our listener letters,

1249
01:05:07,520 --> 01:05:10,800
Speaker 1: be sure to email us at dead as Advice at

1250
01:05:10,880 --> 01:05:13,600
Speaker 1: gmail dot com. That's d E A D A S

1251
01:05:13,800 --> 01:05:18,160
Speaker 1: S A d V I c E at gmail dot com.

1252
01:05:18,760 --> 01:05:20,880
Speaker 1: Almost got tripped up because that was actually my moment

1253
01:05:20,920 --> 01:05:23,560
Speaker 1: of truth talking about being of service and paying it forward.

1254
01:05:23,760 --> 01:05:26,280
Speaker 1: So I kind of jumped the gun, but I would

1255
01:05:26,360 --> 01:05:29,040
Speaker 1: like for y'all to share the moment of truth for

1256
01:05:29,160 --> 01:05:31,320
Speaker 1: us is pretty much something that sums up the episode.

1257
01:05:31,360 --> 01:05:33,800
Speaker 1: So we spoke about manifestation, we spoke about faith, we

1258
01:05:33,840 --> 01:05:36,720
Speaker 1: spoke about work ethic. So if there's even a mantra

1259
01:05:36,960 --> 01:05:39,360
Speaker 1: that you want to share or um something that you

1260
01:05:39,480 --> 01:05:43,280
Speaker 1: tell yourself, some kind of positive affirmation, anything that sums

1261
01:05:43,360 --> 01:05:45,000
Speaker 1: up the show that you'd like to leave our guests

1262
01:05:45,080 --> 01:05:47,320
Speaker 1: with for the moment of truth, I would love for

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Speaker 1: you guys to share, so we can start with whoever

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Speaker 1: is ready? Um mine is? I say it all the time.

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Speaker 1: Don't be afraid to be amazing. I have to say

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Speaker 1: that to myself whenever I started feeling fear, um don't

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Speaker 1: be afraid to be amazing. It's been plenty of times

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Speaker 1: since I've been here where I'm like scared to do

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Speaker 1: something or and I'm like, wait a minute, yeah, you

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Speaker 1: know better than this. Don't be afraid to be amazing,

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Speaker 1: Go do it. And once I do it is like,

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Speaker 1: you know, it's like them like, yeah, that's what I thought.

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Speaker 1: I like that. I like that. Yeah, I like that.

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Speaker 1: Here we go. I like that. How about mine? Is? Um?

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Speaker 1: Your living is in your giving? And that's something that

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Speaker 1: was taught to me. Um. Actually Andy at the studio

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Speaker 1: calling one day and he was like, I don't know

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Speaker 1: why God put this in my heart, but you're going

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Speaker 1: places and I just want you to always remember that

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Speaker 1: you're living is in your giving. And that's something I've

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Speaker 1: carried with me Um since then. But it is. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: I mean, I'm gonna p for all three. I'm like,

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Speaker 1: why I put I wanted to say duck till piggy tail.

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Speaker 1: First of all, I'm not gonna be afraid to be amazing.

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna create a new word. I'm a piggy tal

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Speaker 1: or three. All right. I made this mantro my sophomore

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Speaker 1: year of college. Each day I worked to build a legacy,

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Speaker 1: not to be defined by my greatness, but by the masses.

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Speaker 1: I inspired to be greater than myself, which means you

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Speaker 1: gotta give, you gotta pay it forward. I can't be

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Speaker 1: afraid to be amazing, so love it. That's why I'm

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Speaker 1: going to piggy tail off for y'all. And then we're

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Speaker 1: gonna petail on out of here alright, So Kendle Crystal

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Speaker 1: both give us real quick your handles where people can

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Speaker 1: find you all that good stuff so they can continue

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Speaker 1: to support you, guys, um as your endeavors continue to crawl. Okay,

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Speaker 1: you can find me on everywhere Kendle, Kendle, k N,

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Speaker 1: d A L L K Y and d A L

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Speaker 1: L that's Facebook, TikTok, Instagram YouTube, when I get it

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Speaker 1: back up, come on, I get it back up. Also,

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Speaker 1: you can find me every Monday on All Black Social Society.

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Speaker 1: It's lit. The episodes are getting better and better. I

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Speaker 1: can't wait till next Monday. Say y'all can see it,

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Speaker 1: and I can't wait to be back. I hope I

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Speaker 1: watched our episode definitely okay. Um Also, games people play?

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Speaker 1: When is that games people play? We don't know yet.

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Speaker 1: It's either August or October right now, but it's looking

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Speaker 1: like October. We'll be back in October, so you'll be

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Speaker 1: able to find us. I don't know if it's gonna

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Speaker 1: be a Tuesday or Wednesday night, but we're gonna be

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Speaker 1: stay tuned and Krista Um, Yes, you can find me

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Speaker 1: on Instagram and love Christna and it's l u v

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Speaker 1: c R y s t A l r e n

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Speaker 1: e UM. On Twitter, It's I am christ rena Facebook

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Speaker 1: it is just christ Rene. And catch me on Sisters

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Speaker 1: on BT. Coming back to a TV near you on

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Speaker 1: June the ninth. I love it. Yes, y'all got a

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Speaker 1: name the Blue Lights girl? We got I can talk

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Speaker 1: about that. Yeah. Be interested because people always ask me, kitty,

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Speaker 1: how do you deal? Yes about and these seckly and

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Speaker 1: I'm just like, well, we should actually bring we need

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Speaker 1: to do that stuff, this recap or something, all right.

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Speaker 1: Be sure to find us on social media. Dead Asked

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