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Speaker 1: Welcome to Can't Fully Reckless, the production of iHeartRadio and

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Speaker 1: the Black Effects. Oh shit, we on a air. Welcome

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Speaker 1: back to yet another carefully reckless episode with your girl

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Speaker 1: just hilarious. I'm about to jump straight in just fix

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Speaker 1: my mets now again. These people will remain anonymous. And

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Speaker 1: like I said at the top of every episode now

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Speaker 1: and which is also in the bio and the carefully

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Speaker 1: Reckless page on Instagram, you can send in voice memos,

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Speaker 1: you can send in paragraphs, essays, whatever you want. But

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Speaker 1: if you do send in a paragraph, or if you

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Speaker 1: write it or whatever, please spell check before you submit,

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Speaker 1: because that might be the reason that I don't read it.

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Speaker 1: And your story may actually really be good and I

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Speaker 1: actually may have some really good advice for you, but

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Speaker 1: please spell check. Guys, please please please jumping straight in,

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Speaker 1: Hey Jess, I need help of my baby father and

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Speaker 1: his Oh damn. Okay, okay, I'm gonna start that over then,

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Speaker 1: all right, Hey, Jess, I need help. I'm sick of

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Speaker 1: my baby father and his inconsistent ass. Ways, let me backtrack.

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Speaker 1: We've been together for seven years, have a child together,

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Speaker 1: and all through the relationship there was something that should

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Speaker 1: have caused us to break up, like his first baby

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Speaker 1: mother or the jail stuff. But I stayed and we

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Speaker 1: have a child. Now. One thing she gonna keep telling

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Speaker 1: me is we got that child. Okay, they got that child.

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Speaker 1: So if y'all didn't know for the third time already,

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Speaker 1: and I'm only ten seconds into the story, they have

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Speaker 1: a child, all right. Now. I had to go through

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Speaker 1: so much for my place. I called home on my

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Speaker 1: own with nothing but minimal assistance from him. I got

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Speaker 1: my keys, he lives with me. There's no real bills

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Speaker 1: being paid. He's still got stuff going on with the law.

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Speaker 1: And all he can say for me to not want

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Speaker 1: to give up is because of love or starting over.

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Speaker 1: But it's said because I want to start over. And

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Speaker 1: she wrote that in all caps to y'all want to

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Speaker 1: start over, and not with anyone in particular, just a

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Speaker 1: do over to be happy. I don't feel loved or appreciated.

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Speaker 1: I feel used. I feel like I'm here for comfortability,

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Speaker 1: and the minute he gets go, he's gone. Now I

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Speaker 1: don't know what that means. That could be some new slang.

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Speaker 1: And if y'all know what it means, then y'all tell me.

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Speaker 1: If not, we're just gonna keep on rolling, mainly because

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Speaker 1: I don't try to make him feel bad, but I

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Speaker 1: get mad at him when he thinks he has some

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Speaker 1: say so on some shit in my house. I don't

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Speaker 1: want to be like it's mine, mine, mine, But I

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Speaker 1: worked hard alone with my child and he just piggybacks

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Speaker 1: off of what I do and what I did. I

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Speaker 1: not because he don't know how. He just feels like

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Speaker 1: I'm starting to resent him and I'm not sure what

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Speaker 1: to do. Yes, I love him. Am I in love? No?

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Speaker 1: Do I think I've outgrown this? Yes? But I'm also

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Speaker 1: a Virgo and I do impulsive things when I'm in

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Speaker 1: my feelings. Podcast always gives me clarity on things. Whoo okay,

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Speaker 1: baby girls. So look, I'm gonna start off by saying

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna Quarius and I do impulsive things out of emotion.

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Speaker 1: So I don't think that's a sign thing. I don't

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Speaker 1: think that that's an astrology thing. I think that's more

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Speaker 1: of just an emotional person who you are all women.

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Speaker 1: I'm not even gonna say we're women. So we do

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Speaker 1: that because all women don't react that way to emotions

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Speaker 1: or when they're in their feelings, and all men don't

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Speaker 1: know women that do it. It's just you are very

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Speaker 1: So don't put that on all virgos because I'm pretty

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Speaker 1: sure all the Virgos listeners probably like girl, I'll be

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Speaker 1: doing it, you know. So you ask yourself a series

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Speaker 1: write it once, you wrote it twice. You're done. You're tired.

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Speaker 1: You're tired of him leeching. You're tired of being superwoman

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Speaker 1: You have to be the role model, you have to

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Speaker 1: understand what I'm saying. So I think you're just looking

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Speaker 1: do love him, but you love yourself more. You love

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Speaker 1: That allows you, in some cases to even give power

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Speaker 1: know what you want. You're a woman, a strong, beautiful

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Speaker 1: I'm still trying to figure it out. At thirty five

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Speaker 1: dating community. Come on, stats now, I have never been

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Speaker 1: good at sugarcoating shit, So here we go. Where is

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Speaker 1: And this is not to ignore the many independent, successful

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Speaker 1: black males. I know y'all exists, but this ain't about y'all.

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Speaker 1: Right now, I love her, Okay, you could be doing

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Speaker 1: I try not to judge a man for being on

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Speaker 1: hard times. I met my man at work, but shit,

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Speaker 1: Moving in shit is for marriage, because if you miss

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Speaker 1: me so badly, marry me. Damn Like damn. I want

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Speaker 1: ass woman. You niggas have no education, no experience, get

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Speaker 1: And that ain't what you're teaching your damn daughters to

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Speaker 1: Don't y'all know how I tell him? All right, y'all

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Speaker 1: to your favorite shows.