WEBVTT - The Ali Siddiq Episode 0:00:00.400 --> 0:00:04.040 Yea yet Ghetto Boys, it's back and rehoaded, all in 0:00:04.120 --> 0:00:06.760 your mind, Yeah and a deep throating. This is for 0:00:06.960 --> 0:00:10.720 the streets, the reel, the railroading, the distant franchise, the truth, 0:00:10.840 --> 0:00:13.760 the scapegoating, and they ain't know wing. We speak the truth, 0:00:13.840 --> 0:00:16.279 so they ain't quoted because we wrote it. The North 0:00:16.320 --> 0:00:20.200 South East coat is the gv my keeping your head bobbing. 0:00:20.520 --> 0:00:23.960 It ain't no stopping and wants to be tryd by. 0:00:24.000 --> 0:00:26.320 And then the system is so corrupt they throw the 0:00:26.400 --> 0:00:28.600 rock out of their heads and then blame it on us. 0:00:30.320 --> 0:00:32.960 Don't get it twisted on code and we danceing for 0:00:33.080 --> 0:00:46.320 no buttament biscuits. It's Willie d y'all scarfaces in recovery, 0:00:46.400 --> 0:00:49.959 but he is with us in spirit. Collectively we are 0:00:49.960 --> 0:00:52.800 the Ghetto Boys, reloaded with another episode of information and 0:00:52.920 --> 0:00:56.320 instructions to help you navigate through this wild, crazy, beautiful world. 0:00:57.080 --> 0:01:01.520 In the studio, I guessed I I least Sad is 0:01:01.520 --> 0:01:04.240 in the building. What's up? I leave man? I'm all 0:01:04.280 --> 0:01:06.280 good well it? What's good? Brother man? This is my 0:01:06.400 --> 0:01:08.399 dog family. Want to let you'all know straight out the 0:01:08.400 --> 0:01:12.200 gate man. You got a name, Just start with the 0:01:12.319 --> 0:01:15.800 name what's in the name, I leased a dick. You 0:01:15.880 --> 0:01:21.240 got one of those type righteous spiritual names. You know. 0:01:21.640 --> 0:01:23.840 Now you're a black man in America, How did that 0:01:24.000 --> 0:01:28.080 name come to be? Um? You know, people name me. 0:01:28.880 --> 0:01:31.680 You know your mom actually named you as your mom 0:01:31.680 --> 0:01:34.880 and dad. Damned it, your dad, I hate you because 0:01:34.880 --> 0:01:36.880 a lot of times, you know, people get to go 0:01:37.000 --> 0:01:40.320 to get that black just not even just goes and 0:01:40.319 --> 0:01:42.800 people change that. I think people forget. It was a 0:01:42.800 --> 0:01:45.080 whole wave in the sixty and seven and black men 0:01:45.200 --> 0:01:47.480 was changing their name because they ain't want to be 0:01:47.480 --> 0:01:50.960 connected to the system and saying so because it was 0:01:51.040 --> 0:01:53.480 these are names that was given to us anyway. So 0:01:54.360 --> 0:01:57.920 sometimes your last name, you know, it's it's connected to 0:01:57.920 --> 0:02:01.680 whoever owned your people, and your first name was you 0:02:01.680 --> 0:02:04.800 know who was? If we come from not if we 0:02:04.880 --> 0:02:08.720 come from a continent that indigenous don't even speak English. 0:02:09.120 --> 0:02:12.440 I wanna speak English. So why we named Jane, Paul 0:02:12.520 --> 0:02:15.680 and Mike and Joe and all these Canaus and all 0:02:15.720 --> 0:02:17.880 these names that you know didn't come from the place 0:02:17.880 --> 0:02:19.760 that we came from. You know what I'm saying, that's 0:02:19.800 --> 0:02:24.480 that's that's white folks, um colonizers business. So people change 0:02:24.520 --> 0:02:29.000 their name sixties and seventies. Man, um what my grandfather 0:02:29.000 --> 0:02:32.160 I don't know what my grandfather um name was when 0:02:32.160 --> 0:02:34.360 he came over here, but then he decided he's gonna 0:02:34.360 --> 0:02:37.359 be Bill at one time, and then all of a 0:02:37.400 --> 0:02:44.200 sudden it was Chakwan. I'm like, I'm like the same 0:02:44.320 --> 0:02:48.720 Mr Bill, Like, yeah, hey man, you gotta ditch it, y'all. 0:02:48.840 --> 0:02:52.520 Now every everything house, like Franken said, murder but through 0:02:52.560 --> 0:02:56.480 that used to that lockerfel alone that stayed since. Yeah, 0:02:56.600 --> 0:03:01.240 you know, that's how our life go about having the name, 0:03:01.560 --> 0:03:04.440 like having that Muslim name and being connected to the 0:03:04.520 --> 0:03:07.640 mother Land. I mean, does it give you a certain 0:03:07.680 --> 0:03:10.600 sense of like pride that you don't see in some 0:03:10.680 --> 0:03:13.839 other people that you know that has it was colonized 0:03:13.960 --> 0:03:19.560 names like myself, because you know that's the people are 0:03:20.160 --> 0:03:23.120 who they are. You know. It's like and especially in 0:03:23.120 --> 0:03:26.040 this society. I used to think that your name would 0:03:26.040 --> 0:03:30.480 be just would change who you were it. But it's 0:03:30.520 --> 0:03:33.960 about if you don't change the character how you like. 0:03:34.000 --> 0:03:36.920 I always said I've never met a good Willing. Ever 0:03:37.120 --> 0:03:41.560 then I met you, but I never. But prior to that, 0:03:42.040 --> 0:03:48.240 every Willing I knew was slicked in the can and 0:03:48.240 --> 0:03:52.560 and nobody ever referred to him as a good personal 0:03:53.640 --> 0:03:58.320 Willing saying, then then I mean to you, I'm like 0:03:58.400 --> 0:04:01.040 man Willy, you know, because you are always been, you know, 0:04:01.200 --> 0:04:03.760 one hunted. You know, even when you're in your involvement, 0:04:04.040 --> 0:04:07.240 when you when you this is the thing about understand 0:04:07.280 --> 0:04:12.240 the person and the name that's connected to it. So 0:04:12.400 --> 0:04:15.680 somebody say Willie, now to me, the first thing I 0:04:15.760 --> 0:04:18.520 put a d on in will it d And then 0:04:19.040 --> 0:04:20.320 if you got to till me, that's not who you're 0:04:20.360 --> 0:04:23.600 talking about. If I were talking about some shady business 0:04:24.040 --> 0:04:27.240 and they said, Willie, you're talking about black Willy, dirty 0:04:27.240 --> 0:04:33.039 as from Brown Forest, saying, so it depends on the 0:04:33.080 --> 0:04:36.800 context of what somebody is talking about. You know, how 0:04:36.880 --> 0:04:38.960 you think of this person? You know, I don't, I 0:04:39.000 --> 0:04:43.839 don't know. I don't know any Kims that wasn't sophisticated 0:04:44.480 --> 0:04:48.680 and grown it and like in high school she was 0:04:48.800 --> 0:04:51.520 she was she was too grown from middle school and 0:04:51.560 --> 0:04:53.520 in high school she was way too sophisticated for us. 0:04:53.560 --> 0:04:55.600 You never even talked to him. I never met a 0:04:55.680 --> 0:04:58.839 Kim that was like a ratchet Kim because all I 0:04:58.880 --> 0:05:01.640 connected with the Kims that I knew every king was bad. 0:05:01.720 --> 0:05:04.560 Like I never met a chick that was named Ogre 0:05:05.000 --> 0:05:07.320 that wasn't find all I do because she had to 0:05:07.360 --> 0:05:10.000 be because the name Ogre is a the Trent. Then 0:05:10.040 --> 0:05:15.000 you're like, I'm not over fine. I know one, I 0:05:15.040 --> 0:05:18.159 know two black chick's name over and they probably still 0:05:18.240 --> 0:05:20.880 find to this day because they was ain'ty fine in 0:05:20.960 --> 0:05:25.640 middle school? Man, when you when you in middle school 0:05:25.640 --> 0:05:30.360 and you got helps already, because you know, ain'ty fine. 0:05:30.680 --> 0:05:32.720 Every ain'ty got helps it. I don't really know a 0:05:32.760 --> 0:05:34.440 lot of amimers didn't got here because she's not really 0:05:34.440 --> 0:05:37.760 that because she got your cousin. She already got kids. 0:05:38.160 --> 0:05:41.080 Because you like, boy, ain't and you'll see somebody else 0:05:41.080 --> 0:05:46.120 ain't and you're like, how you know because you're fine. 0:05:46.440 --> 0:05:48.560 Nobody you look at your mom like that. Nobody even 0:05:48.560 --> 0:05:52.040 look at your mom like that with your ain't I 0:05:52.080 --> 0:05:54.520 ain't find it. So that's a Southern thing though, Yeah, 0:05:54.960 --> 0:05:58.479 I men walk us through what life is like in 0:05:58.560 --> 0:06:03.719 the Sadik household. You growing up in Houston. So the 0:06:03.720 --> 0:06:10.359 thing is periods of life was in Houston because you know, 0:06:10.400 --> 0:06:13.960 my my mom was a g so when she came here, 0:06:14.080 --> 0:06:17.400 my dad brought out here from California with what she 0:06:17.440 --> 0:06:21.280 already had us when she came here. So and how 0:06:21.279 --> 0:06:27.440 old are you? Um? Two three? And they break up 0:06:28.520 --> 0:06:30.840 when they get here because my daddy was, wow, I 0:06:30.880 --> 0:06:33.400 ain't gonna lie. He always say you because he used 0:06:33.400 --> 0:06:36.160 to run into Counic homes with this cad name LC 0:06:36.360 --> 0:06:39.240 mohammedan Oh and this fish King. That's why I always 0:06:39.240 --> 0:06:41.360 loved fish King. That's why I used going with my daddy. 0:06:42.440 --> 0:06:46.159 So my mom Moyen, she was, you know, trying to 0:06:46.200 --> 0:06:49.800 come up, got kids, no education really, so she went 0:06:49.839 --> 0:06:51.560 back to school and she couldn't take care of so 0:06:51.680 --> 0:06:54.440 she sent us, being responsible, she sent us today with 0:06:54.440 --> 0:06:59.120 our sisters. So we're in Mississippi for two years, then 0:06:59.240 --> 0:07:02.599 we and Chicago for two years. Then you know, we're 0:07:02.640 --> 0:07:05.280 just moving around. Then you back in l A. You know, 0:07:05.279 --> 0:07:07.280 we're living with your uncle. So you got what. My 0:07:07.360 --> 0:07:12.160 MoMA had ten siblings, so my uncle, then my uncle 0:07:12.280 --> 0:07:14.200 at back the end was my aunt you and this 0:07:14.320 --> 0:07:17.400 and my aunt Angela and my uncle Donald lived in Mississippi. 0:07:17.720 --> 0:07:20.800 On Angela moved to Chicago, so I left with her 0:07:20.840 --> 0:07:24.000 and went to Chicago. Then we went back to l A. 0:07:24.000 --> 0:07:27.200 After I left from Chicago, then we came, then we 0:07:27.280 --> 0:07:30.800 came here. Me and my sister always traveled together. So 0:07:30.880 --> 0:07:33.880 my mom was very responsible on how you don't leave 0:07:33.920 --> 0:07:36.000 your kids or anybody leave your kids with your family, 0:07:36.520 --> 0:07:39.040 and you know, she took she she would come visit 0:07:39.120 --> 0:07:40.640 and send us money and then she got on her 0:07:40.680 --> 0:07:44.320 feet and boom, we're here. She brought us head. Then 0:07:44.480 --> 0:07:48.440 she had my little sister. When we got back, you know, 0:07:48.520 --> 0:07:52.880 she had with um, we're ron which is my stepdad. 0:07:53.760 --> 0:08:02.280 Stay together. Now, Still, did that instability play a role 0:08:02.400 --> 0:08:07.000 in your becoming a man as far as like not 0:08:07.120 --> 0:08:10.360 having that structure, Like I know that when I I 0:08:10.400 --> 0:08:12.280 grew up, we themn that lived in a new house 0:08:12.320 --> 0:08:14.800 every day. Even though we lived in Houston the whole 0:08:14.840 --> 0:08:16.520 time we lived in a I'm not every day, but 0:08:16.560 --> 0:08:22.160 every year we moved like every single year. So when 0:08:22.200 --> 0:08:26.480 I became an adult, it wasn't hard for me to 0:08:26.520 --> 0:08:30.679 just get up and move to another apartment or house 0:08:30.800 --> 0:08:34.040 or whatever. You know, do you find yourself like in 0:08:34.080 --> 0:08:40.120 the same position. Nah, it was because I didn't see 0:08:40.120 --> 0:08:43.199 that as not being stable. I saw that as that 0:08:43.320 --> 0:08:45.800 was normal to you. That's traveling as a family, that's 0:08:45.880 --> 0:08:49.360 like you with your family. I'm not with strangers. You know, 0:08:49.400 --> 0:08:51.840 if I was like it was like from pillar to post, 0:08:52.240 --> 0:08:54.440 I would you know it would be different. But when 0:08:54.480 --> 0:08:57.760 we I'm with my grandmother and missive when it first 0:08:57.760 --> 0:09:00.320 started out, then my aunts and everybody take care taking 0:09:00.320 --> 0:09:02.920 care of so it's like a family unit. We moved. 0:09:03.120 --> 0:09:07.280 The only time I felt like out of order is 0:09:07.320 --> 0:09:10.520 when we got up and went to Chicago. It's because 0:09:10.520 --> 0:09:13.840 it's just me, my aunt, my cousin Ricky, my little 0:09:13.880 --> 0:09:17.760 cousin Marvin. There's it. We're not in You're not in 0:09:17.880 --> 0:09:22.800 Chicago with family. So California is the easiest move where 0:09:22.800 --> 0:09:24.440 you got my uncle ed with Charles. You got my 0:09:24.480 --> 0:09:27.160 uncle Moran, you got my uncle Bolton, got his family, 0:09:27.240 --> 0:09:29.679 got my uncle David, and then you've got my uncle Lamont. 0:09:30.120 --> 0:09:32.200 You know, so you got and you got the major 0:09:32.200 --> 0:09:34.960 of our family, which is my aunt Willow. She's still 0:09:34.960 --> 0:09:37.720 alive now, she's a hundred and eight, still in Compton. 0:09:38.280 --> 0:09:41.880 Her house, you know is a is a is the 0:09:41.880 --> 0:09:45.160 staple of our family. So living with your family is 0:09:45.200 --> 0:09:48.400 not unstable. But if I was living with strangers or 0:09:48.440 --> 0:09:50.600 in and out of group homes, I would definitely feel 0:09:50.600 --> 0:09:54.400 like I wasn't stay because everybody This is the key 0:09:54.480 --> 0:09:59.920 dynamics to a testability. In my mind, my mother's rule 0:10:00.120 --> 0:10:03.120 were no different than my grandmother's rules and my aunt's rules, 0:10:03.200 --> 0:10:05.240 my uncle's rules. It's the same. It's the same. I'm 0:10:05.240 --> 0:10:08.520 getting the same spell and changeable what I'm saying. So 0:10:08.920 --> 0:10:12.079 I'm not the The instability came when I made it, 0:10:12.160 --> 0:10:14.120 when I was asking, I made a decision. Which is 0:10:14.280 --> 0:10:18.440 which is the walk through my new special the domino effect. 0:10:19.360 --> 0:10:23.560 It's when I live with my dad. I'm in Houston. 0:10:24.280 --> 0:10:28.240 I'm living with him, and this is not no stable environment. 0:10:28.280 --> 0:10:30.280 And even though he got money, we're living a We 0:10:30.440 --> 0:10:32.000 live in a good place, but I live in some 0:10:32.120 --> 0:10:35.400 All adults live in some. All of those condominiums your 0:10:35.480 --> 0:10:38.000 children an't supposed to be over on the weekend. I'm here, 0:10:38.040 --> 0:10:40.480 this is where I live at. How many siblings did 0:10:40.559 --> 0:10:43.600 you have? But with my dad only me and my sister, 0:10:44.880 --> 0:10:48.920 but Mama, my little sister, and how but who you 0:10:48.960 --> 0:10:52.960 spent the most time with growing up? And my older sister? 0:10:53.520 --> 0:10:57.520 And how how many years? Just too like that's that's 0:10:57.559 --> 0:11:01.560 my second mama, Like that's who. And that's the thing 0:11:01.840 --> 0:11:06.840 about stability. My mama's rules was how you take care 0:11:06.840 --> 0:11:08.800 of your little brother while I'm in I while I'm 0:11:08.800 --> 0:11:11.760 going got two jobs, I go to school. I need 0:11:11.760 --> 0:11:14.360 my My sister's been cooking full course meals. She was 0:11:14.400 --> 0:11:17.079 like six because my mama prepperate and tell my moss 0:11:17.200 --> 0:11:19.480 what to put the oven on and everything. We we 0:11:19.480 --> 0:11:23.439 we um key around last key kids. We got key 0:11:23.480 --> 0:11:25.440 in our pocket and our shoe. We come and gotta 0:11:25.480 --> 0:11:28.240 let ourselves in the house. And my sister's responsibility was 0:11:28.280 --> 0:11:30.079 to take care of me while my mom was around. 0:11:30.880 --> 0:11:34.640 So I remember my mother gave my sister a that 0:11:34.840 --> 0:11:37.000 look because he'd be acting up in the morning. Y'all 0:11:37.000 --> 0:11:38.720 gonna walk to school. If he act up, you whip 0:11:38.720 --> 0:11:40.560 his ass, you and me and I'm standing there like, 0:11:40.760 --> 0:11:43.160 first of all, I don't give get type of authority 0:11:43.679 --> 0:11:47.360 over me. So and my sister would take that serious 0:11:47.840 --> 0:11:50.720 for bring your ass song. Moster is talking to me 0:11:50.920 --> 0:11:58.560 eight bring that sounds like my sister. It's like, say, man, 0:11:58.600 --> 0:12:00.199 I wish you would put your hand and my us 0:12:00.200 --> 0:12:03.000 to beat my ass down to It was like let 0:12:03.040 --> 0:12:05.800 me go. And I never played with him to this day. 0:12:05.840 --> 0:12:08.680 MS raise her hand up. Those they were sowell. She 0:12:08.720 --> 0:12:10.800 raised her hand up and I was like, I wish 0:12:10.800 --> 0:12:12.440 you would have been. She's like, what am I think 0:12:12.480 --> 0:12:15.480 about hing you? But I'm it's still that same. Hey, man, 0:12:15.480 --> 0:12:18.320 don't play with me and I don't play with my sister. 0:12:18.360 --> 0:12:20.439 I don't play with my mom. I did that come 0:12:20.480 --> 0:12:24.040 a time when you would big enough and strong enough 0:12:24.080 --> 0:12:26.920 to actually beat your sister fighting? And you fart your 0:12:26.920 --> 0:12:30.839 sister and hit my sister in the eye and got 0:12:31.080 --> 0:12:35.800 the brakes beat off yours and my daddy whoop my 0:12:37.120 --> 0:12:41.280 to no end to mine. I never get I'm talking 0:12:41.280 --> 0:12:45.800 to my sister ship. My sister told my daddy and 0:12:45.840 --> 0:12:48.959 that nigger told the steps down trying to get to me. 0:12:49.559 --> 0:12:52.160 But all the time that be know you and you 0:12:52.240 --> 0:12:54.560 told him about that, he didn't know. I never I 0:12:54.600 --> 0:12:59.840 never told on it down, like man, it's normal, normal 0:13:00.200 --> 0:13:04.559 and want of your mouth bleeding. Shouldn't get my sitting 0:13:04.559 --> 0:13:06.520 over there bouncing like yeah, I make the other side 0:13:06.520 --> 0:13:09.079 of his near my bleed. Right. You know why I 0:13:09.200 --> 0:13:12.800 ask you that, right because the same thing happened with 0:13:12.880 --> 0:13:19.120 me and mold his sister. My sister was gangster, I mean, 0:13:19.240 --> 0:13:21.720 beat up anybody in the neighborhood. She was two years 0:13:21.720 --> 0:13:26.000 older than me when she still is and used to 0:13:26.880 --> 0:13:29.920 you know, be she just like took her role serious 0:13:30.080 --> 0:13:34.240 as the carekeeper. You know, like after my mom was 0:13:34.280 --> 0:13:37.360 not at home. Anytimes she went on, she just just 0:13:37.920 --> 0:13:41.760 jumped right into the row like start arder year round, 0:13:41.840 --> 0:13:44.920 like you can't go over here, you can't you can't 0:13:44.920 --> 0:13:48.600 go outside, you can't watch television. And and I'm like 0:13:48.880 --> 0:13:51.079 I was on a real like I was always bucking, 0:13:51.559 --> 0:13:54.600 so she was always winging on me. Man, I mean 0:13:54.640 --> 0:13:58.680 whooped me all the way till fourteen. Now. I started 0:13:58.720 --> 0:14:02.320 boxing when I was eleven. I'm boxing dudes, my sides, 0:14:02.480 --> 0:14:06.160 my sisters bigger than me, right and uh and stronger. 0:14:07.400 --> 0:14:10.920 So it took me all the way until I was 0:14:11.200 --> 0:14:14.240 in the seventh grade. One time we get into a 0:14:14.280 --> 0:14:17.600 fight and I get her because now I'm at, I'm 0:14:17.640 --> 0:14:21.400 at I'm really getting strong now, right and I and 0:14:21.440 --> 0:14:23.840 I and these hands are just cold, I'm their hands 0:14:23.840 --> 0:14:27.120 are just very, very dangerous. So I put him on 0:14:27.160 --> 0:14:29.480 my sister. She tried to jump me, and I put 0:14:29.560 --> 0:14:33.440 them hands on her, and boy, my mama came home 0:14:33.520 --> 0:14:37.360 man and beat the breaks off my ass and I 0:14:37.440 --> 0:14:39.800 and I really I felt extra bad because I'm like, 0:14:39.880 --> 0:14:42.000 damn all these things she's been whipping my ass. I 0:14:42.080 --> 0:14:46.480 get one win and I get a beating. Yeah, but 0:14:46.520 --> 0:14:49.760 that was the last time I ever put hands on 0:14:50.920 --> 0:14:54.960 on my sister. Never tell again, like yeah, I know, 0:14:55.080 --> 0:14:57.400 you gotta hit mysels and the eye and she it's 0:14:57.440 --> 0:15:01.920 like one step she was up all the steps, one 0:15:02.240 --> 0:15:05.800 step she was upstairs, and my daddy was downstairs with 0:15:06.000 --> 0:15:09.600 one fools around the whole corner. Everything am I visualizing 0:15:09.720 --> 0:15:13.040 this man? What man came down around the corner, like god, 0:15:13.440 --> 0:15:18.240 damn he fair. I think this pushed me outside through 0:15:18.280 --> 0:15:20.760 the walls and man, my daddy was not playing about 0:15:20.760 --> 0:15:23.960 that little girl man me. And then I got I 0:15:23.960 --> 0:15:26.240 got it from my mama. You know, I still have 0:15:26.400 --> 0:15:29.320 go back to my mouth. And my sister, I was black. 0:15:30.400 --> 0:15:33.640 My mom, because she hadn't seen as my daddy hows 0:15:33.680 --> 0:15:37.600 over the weekend, came back and my sister, I think 0:15:37.640 --> 0:15:40.480 she led in with that eye. She walked in with 0:15:40.560 --> 0:15:45.560 a high first and my mama said, what happened? You're 0:15:45.560 --> 0:15:52.800 goddamn face, And my sister said, your son. I mean, man, 0:15:53.080 --> 0:15:55.040 I'm telling I don't think people realize. Man, it's a 0:15:55.040 --> 0:15:56.960 lot of times I watched my mama put both my 0:15:57.000 --> 0:15:59.960 shoes on at the same time from a seated position. 0:16:00.000 --> 0:16:07.400 My mom, we just jumping her shoes. I still do day. 0:16:07.440 --> 0:16:09.640 I've sit on couches and I've tried to jump in 0:16:09.680 --> 0:16:13.240 both my shoes. Still ain't never managed to do it. 0:16:13.280 --> 0:16:17.840 But my mama, man, because she before eleven, Willie, I'm 0:16:17.880 --> 0:16:20.120 telling you, as soon as she's mad and you were 0:16:20.120 --> 0:16:22.120 sitting there, your mama ain't got no shoes on. And 0:16:22.160 --> 0:16:24.280 before you know, your mom and your chest, and she 0:16:24.360 --> 0:16:29.040 got both you and she. My mama had a mom 0:16:29.120 --> 0:16:33.320 had a couple of moves that she used to even 0:16:33.320 --> 0:16:39.320 when I got bigger than eleven. My mom would turn away, 0:16:39.800 --> 0:16:43.520 like turn her head like she was looking at something 0:16:43.960 --> 0:16:46.960 and chop you in the throat. It was very accurate 0:16:46.960 --> 0:16:50.360 to like your neck is exposed, and that's too much 0:16:50.400 --> 0:16:52.040 for you, Like you too great. You can't be standing 0:16:52.080 --> 0:16:54.360 up on top of her. So she will look away 0:16:55.040 --> 0:16:57.480 and hit you in the throat. And when you turn 0:16:58.080 --> 0:17:00.600 you like this and she's standing up like now, that 0:17:00.680 --> 0:17:06.359 sits your head downs and we can talk. You. I 0:17:06.560 --> 0:17:08.399 had a lot of moves, man, you got that. You 0:17:08.480 --> 0:17:11.040 got that one latle move where she can I don't 0:17:11.080 --> 0:17:13.920 know when my mama started fighting, but with seven brothers, 0:17:14.359 --> 0:17:19.000 probably very early. She could go in to your body 0:17:19.160 --> 0:17:22.240 and hit your knee with her knee, so it puts 0:17:22.240 --> 0:17:24.840 you all balance. So when you're going that way and 0:17:24.920 --> 0:17:27.560 she catch you, so the force of you falling and 0:17:27.680 --> 0:17:30.200 she turning edgine bone and you out with that one. 0:17:30.600 --> 0:17:33.320 That was a class, that was a classic. And then 0:17:33.680 --> 0:17:36.760 the duck down. My mama just ducked down and she 0:17:36.840 --> 0:17:39.600 had throw she'd throw it right right to your stomach, bob, 0:17:39.920 --> 0:17:41.800 and you go for it, and she just trying to 0:17:41.840 --> 0:17:43.880 open you up for the left, and she throw that hook. 0:17:43.920 --> 0:17:46.399 My mama had a man hook. Your mama used all 0:17:46.440 --> 0:17:53.440 these moves on you. Yeah, man, man, once you get once, 0:17:53.480 --> 0:17:56.040 you get fourteen, fifteen, sixteen, and you're talking like you 0:17:56.080 --> 0:17:58.040 ain't coming home, and she got to come out in 0:17:58.040 --> 0:18:00.639 the streets and find you and she won't embarrass you 0:18:00.720 --> 0:18:05.800 in for these they're talking about O man once once, 0:18:05.920 --> 0:18:07.359 And that's how I got. That's how I got to 0:18:07.400 --> 0:18:10.320 look away. Look what you got me to talking about? 0:18:10.680 --> 0:18:15.359 What did you say? Now you take to the streets 0:18:15.400 --> 0:18:17.960 at what age? What? What? At what age did you say? 0:18:18.000 --> 0:18:19.840 I don't care what you're saying, daddy, I'm gone. I 0:18:19.880 --> 0:18:21.879 don't care what you're saying, Mama. I'm going on the streets. 0:18:21.880 --> 0:18:24.879 I'm gonna do what I want to do officially, officially 0:18:26.040 --> 0:18:30.840 fourteen four and dabbling here. You know you did something 0:18:30.840 --> 0:18:33.000 to streets with your boys or whatever, a little bad 0:18:33.000 --> 0:18:37.840 as boys, you know, that's you know, Levin Twill, you 0:18:37.840 --> 0:18:42.440 know like that. But officially in the streets fourteen right, 0:18:42.640 --> 0:18:45.000 And what are you doing out there? I just got 0:18:45.040 --> 0:18:49.400 my first fifty pack. I'm selling dope. I'm fourteen, okay. 0:18:49.800 --> 0:18:53.640 And what does school look like at this point? Going 0:18:53.680 --> 0:18:55.640 to school, because that's the only that's the only way 0:18:55.680 --> 0:18:58.840 I can cap about my money. I never understood they 0:18:58.880 --> 0:19:03.440 talking about drop now, so you drop out? And then 0:19:03.480 --> 0:19:06.200 how you how you show that you got it? Because 0:19:06.240 --> 0:19:07.879 now you're just in the streets of other people like 0:19:08.000 --> 0:19:10.320 I don't want them to know I'm I'm at the school. 0:19:10.800 --> 0:19:14.160 He may look here. Trimp baskets for everybody on me. 0:19:14.640 --> 0:19:19.040 It was a shrimp basket, was big, back back basket. 0:19:19.080 --> 0:19:21.000 That's what I'm trying to tell you. That shrimp basket 0:19:21.080 --> 0:19:23.680 was big, and that chicken tender back that trimp basket 0:19:24.480 --> 0:19:28.919 pall yeah, because yeah, that's what I got to do. 0:19:29.440 --> 0:19:31.959 My son, I mean not my son, but my my 0:19:32.040 --> 0:19:34.280 brother went to par Revid when he used to live 0:19:34.320 --> 0:19:36.080 with me, and he went out there with that fifth 0:19:36.160 --> 0:19:38.760 ward ship and they kicked him smooth up out of 0:19:38.760 --> 0:19:41.720 that what they what They kicked him out once I 0:19:41.760 --> 0:19:45.200 got him back in. But eventually, you know, I take 0:19:45.280 --> 0:19:47.199 him back to Fifth War because he just would not 0:19:47.320 --> 0:19:52.280 comply it. Certain school demographics don't play the type of 0:19:52.680 --> 0:19:55.800 get old games. They be like, hey man, look you're 0:19:55.800 --> 0:19:59.320 fighting that school. Yeah, they're only villa. They didn't want 0:19:59.320 --> 0:20:01.240 want you all out in the bill and we try 0:20:01.320 --> 0:20:03.520 to stir up a little bit. But they had to 0:20:03.520 --> 0:20:07.600 teach over the science. His name Mr Terry. He had 0:20:07.640 --> 0:20:12.280 a board that let Mr Terry have to see you. 0:20:12.280 --> 0:20:15.560 You ain't you have to see But once you so so, 0:20:15.600 --> 0:20:19.320 I need to I need to discuss some business with you. Um. 0:20:19.960 --> 0:20:23.080 I have been informed by the faculty and the staff, 0:20:23.800 --> 0:20:29.440 like wait a minute, the custodians come alone, the faculty 0:20:29.560 --> 0:20:32.119 and the staff that you have become some sort of 0:20:32.280 --> 0:20:37.879 nuisance around this campus. And like I have told you 0:20:37.920 --> 0:20:40.800 several times, brother, black men have to have some sort 0:20:40.800 --> 0:20:44.040 of honor and discipline. What I'm saying, So therefore it's 0:20:44.040 --> 0:20:46.240 gonna this is going to be a pleasure for me, brother, 0:20:46.440 --> 0:20:49.040 to invite the discipline into your life, so you can 0:20:49.040 --> 0:20:51.000 give First of all, I'm mad that I'm down here 0:20:51.359 --> 0:20:53.919 and you ain't turned your science working. Now you're gonna 0:20:53.960 --> 0:20:58.440 make this about you, hey, brother saying he'd tell your 0:20:58.600 --> 0:21:10.760 ass up in it office. Were you there when that 0:21:10.800 --> 0:21:17.520 black principle? When the black principle was there? Oh new, yeah, 0:21:17.560 --> 0:21:20.280 that black principle. When by the time my brother got there, 0:21:20.359 --> 0:21:23.479 my brother, my younger brother, he's like he's younger than us, 0:21:24.359 --> 0:21:29.800 of course, but he years younger. But he um, he 0:21:29.880 --> 0:21:32.920 went that man and it was a white kid. Used 0:21:32.960 --> 0:21:35.240 to bother him all the time, and I just try 0:21:35.320 --> 0:21:37.560 to tell him to try to control his temper. And 0:21:37.600 --> 0:21:40.440 so this is the white kid one day tripped him. 0:21:40.760 --> 0:21:43.520 I keep in mind my little brother fifth war for real, 0:21:43.840 --> 0:21:47.399 like attitude, everything come with it. So this little dude 0:21:47.440 --> 0:21:51.800 trip him, and my little brother get dead on his ad, 0:21:52.200 --> 0:21:56.480 you know, break him down. So the little dude dad, 0:21:56.520 --> 0:22:01.919 it was a sheriff. So the little dude used to 0:22:02.040 --> 0:22:04.760 he's the dude was a bully and he used to 0:22:04.760 --> 0:22:08.200 just push people around and you know, and intimidate people 0:22:08.200 --> 0:22:10.960 because his dad would show up in his police uniform 0:22:11.000 --> 0:22:14.359 and stuff like that. So my brother told him, I 0:22:14.400 --> 0:22:17.640 ain't scared of your daddy. You know, my brother will 0:22:17.680 --> 0:22:20.879 it d with the fifth boyd posset have your daddy killed. 0:22:22.840 --> 0:22:25.480 So I didn't know. I don't know this has happened. 0:22:25.560 --> 0:22:31.520 All this conversation is happening, right, So I go to 0:22:31.560 --> 0:22:34.159 the office, you know, after they have a fight and 0:22:34.200 --> 0:22:36.080 they kick him out. I go to the office and 0:22:36.080 --> 0:22:39.680 and the principals the black he's like, and the guy 0:22:39.880 --> 0:22:43.560 the kid is in the room and he's my brother 0:22:43.840 --> 0:22:46.240 is there, and it's and the guy's dad is that 0:22:46.520 --> 0:22:51.200 with the big old tim gallant hat on that he's 0:22:51.240 --> 0:22:53.320 sitting now, that's well, he's just sitting and he's like 0:22:53.440 --> 0:22:58.159 looking at a story, right, And uh actually he was 0:22:58.160 --> 0:23:02.159 trying to look menacing, right. So I was like the 0:23:02.160 --> 0:23:05.680 preacher the past, the preacher the past to the principle. 0:23:07.000 --> 0:23:14.840 The principle goes, so what is uh what was Isaac 0:23:14.920 --> 0:23:21.560 saying about you being a part of the fifth ward posse? 0:23:22.840 --> 0:23:26.400 And uh you know, having uh Mr such such such 0:23:26.520 --> 0:23:29.119 kill you can get Mr Such. I said, Wait a minute, 0:23:29.200 --> 0:23:31.000 I don't know. What are you talking about? He said, Well, 0:23:31.000 --> 0:23:33.480