WEBVTT - Duck Duck Goose with Sadie Robertson Huff 0:00:01.920 --> 0:00:05.359 Wind Down with Janet Kramer and I'm Heeart Radio podcast. 0:00:06.360 --> 0:00:09.200 Oh, Catherine, I'm excited for today's episode. You know, I 0:00:09.280 --> 0:00:13.240 was driving and there was something that came up for 0:00:13.360 --> 0:00:16.200 me and I was I wanted to just frame the 0:00:16.280 --> 0:00:21.120 question to you, what is something in your day that 0:00:21.239 --> 0:00:24.320 you are not prioritizing that you know you need to prioritize. 0:00:25.840 --> 0:00:27.840 Oh, I could come up with a couple of things, 0:00:28.200 --> 0:00:33.360 let's hear them. Okay, Obviously working out he was doing 0:00:33.360 --> 0:00:35.320 so good for so long. But what you want to 0:00:35.360 --> 0:00:37.680 do well, I mean I want to want to. 0:00:39.040 --> 0:00:42.279 I want you to want to do I want. 0:00:44.000 --> 0:00:47.800 One hundred percent that's I need the I want the 0:00:47.840 --> 0:00:52.239 watch to do that. No, but for sure, definitely I 0:00:52.280 --> 0:00:54.280 haven't been doing my Bible study in the morning. That 0:00:54.400 --> 0:00:57.000 is definitely one that I could do better at. 0:00:59.120 --> 0:01:03.680 What else that's really it? I think? 0:01:03.800 --> 0:01:04.000 Yeah? 0:01:04.080 --> 0:01:04.960 Mostly what about you? 0:01:05.920 --> 0:01:07.800 I'm just curious on the working out thing though, too, 0:01:07.880 --> 0:01:10.520 because you did do you were doing you were doing 0:01:10.600 --> 0:01:13.600 pans Dam for how many weeks? Was it was like good? 0:01:13.600 --> 0:01:15.280 I did it for the three months three months? 0:01:15.319 --> 0:01:18.280 Yeah, And it's like I think you like you said 0:01:18.280 --> 0:01:20.880 like you wanted to want to want to work out. 0:01:20.959 --> 0:01:23.840 Well, I wanted to like, this is terrible because I 0:01:23.880 --> 0:01:26.400 know that, like I wanted to be like that person 0:01:26.480 --> 0:01:28.200 that when I did that, I was like, oh, I 0:01:28.240 --> 0:01:30.440 have to have it, and I just didn't never feel 0:01:30.480 --> 0:01:32.640 that way. I mean, I was fine when I was 0:01:32.680 --> 0:01:35.319 doing it, and I felt good about myself when I 0:01:35.360 --> 0:01:38.760 was doing it, but it wasn't like a mental release 0:01:38.840 --> 0:01:41.480 for me. It wasn't like that mental time, you know, 0:01:41.640 --> 0:01:43.319 or whatever. So it wasn't like I felt like I 0:01:43.360 --> 0:01:46.600 needed it to be like in the right headspace. Is 0:01:46.640 --> 0:01:50.040 maybe why I don't feel like but I do feel 0:01:50.280 --> 0:01:54.840 not as strong now. It's just it wasn't like a 0:01:54.880 --> 0:01:56.720 mental thing for me where I think a lot of 0:01:56.760 --> 0:02:00.840 people it mentally, you know, I like, yeah, and I'm 0:02:00.880 --> 0:02:03.560 realizing I think that that's why it wasn't this like 0:02:03.600 --> 0:02:06.080 I have to have it as much because that wasn't 0:02:06.200 --> 0:02:10.839 my mental release is better off with Like I can 0:02:11.280 --> 0:02:13.200 be fine with that at the end of the day, 0:02:13.360 --> 0:02:15.839 just reading a book or watching TV or sitting down 0:02:15.840 --> 0:02:16.440 by myself. 0:02:18.120 --> 0:02:20.880 So then then why would you want to add it back? 0:02:21.160 --> 0:02:24.520 Well, because I need to for my health and I've 0:02:24.520 --> 0:02:29.480 gained back way, which is fine. I'm not like down 0:02:29.520 --> 0:02:31.959 on myself about it, but at the same time, I 0:02:31.960 --> 0:02:35.720 would love to have that motivation back to get it 0:02:35.760 --> 0:02:37.960 back and to feel stronger. I was definitely feeling stronger 0:02:37.960 --> 0:02:41.000 lifting weights and I did enjoy that, So I mean, 0:02:41.040 --> 0:02:42.880 I definitely plan on getting back to it. 0:02:42.960 --> 0:02:44.440 I just need that motivation back. 0:02:45.240 --> 0:02:47.240 It's an interesting thought though, because if it's like, if 0:02:47.240 --> 0:02:49.480 it's not something that you enjoy or want to do, 0:02:49.720 --> 0:02:51.840 most people then probably won't make the time then to 0:02:51.880 --> 0:02:53.160 do something I don't enjoy or want. 0:02:53.360 --> 0:02:53.800 And that's me. 0:02:54.160 --> 0:02:57.360 Yeah, but I think we could all probably agree with 0:02:57.480 --> 0:02:59.640 working out, Like, whether you want to or not, we 0:02:59.720 --> 0:03:01.200 kind of need to for our health. 0:03:01.960 --> 0:03:04.680 They say, well, here's the thing though, They say, like, sure, 0:03:04.720 --> 0:03:09.000 there's all the studies about weightlifting and all that stuff 0:03:09.040 --> 0:03:11.359 is good for you, but they also say just getting 0:03:11.880 --> 0:03:14.760 ten thousand steps is really good, right, so you enjoy walking. Yeah, 0:03:15.000 --> 0:03:17.640 So maybe that's the switch where it's like, yeah, okay, yes, 0:03:17.720 --> 0:03:20.680 there are there benefits to lifting weights, sure, but if 0:03:20.720 --> 0:03:24.960 you're going to pick one, which walking is so good 0:03:25.000 --> 0:03:28.799 for your heart health, yeah, and you're cardiovascular and your 0:03:28.960 --> 0:03:33.000 energy and your stress, like go for a thirty minute. 0:03:32.760 --> 0:03:35.280 Walk, Yeah, that's like that, and it's even ten. 0:03:35.160 --> 0:03:37.320 Thousand steps, Like, well, I know they say ten thousand, 0:03:37.320 --> 0:03:38.720 but like thirty minute walks? 0:03:38.720 --> 0:03:40.640 Would you take a thirty minute walk? At least? 0:03:40.720 --> 0:03:42.960 For me, if I would take at least a thirty 0:03:42.960 --> 0:03:46.280 minute walk a day, I would usually hit close to that. 0:03:45.640 --> 0:03:49.120 But I ye, yeah absolutely, so like yeah, so no, 0:03:49.200 --> 0:03:51.160 that's a good point. I mean, and I do think 0:03:51.240 --> 0:03:54.840 that in a way. Society has also kind of like 0:03:55.440 --> 0:03:58.160 made me feel like I have to want to work out, 0:03:58.280 --> 0:03:59.680 you know, but I'm kind of at a place where 0:03:59.680 --> 0:04:01.560 I'm like, you're right, that's a very good point. Like 0:04:01.640 --> 0:04:03.800 I could go walk and it would get for me, 0:04:03.840 --> 0:04:05.920 it got longer. I started with thirty minute walk, but 0:04:05.960 --> 0:04:07.760 it would end up getting longer because I did enjoy 0:04:07.840 --> 0:04:08.240 that time. 0:04:08.440 --> 0:04:10.480 Yeah, so maybe that's. 0:04:10.280 --> 0:04:13.120 Where because A you can be by yourself, you can 0:04:13.200 --> 0:04:16.160 be on your phone, yeah you can, you know, like absolutely, 0:04:16.279 --> 0:04:19.159 and you can get sometimes I'll do I'll just go 0:04:19.200 --> 0:04:21.039 on the treadmill, or I'll do emails or work like 0:04:21.080 --> 0:04:24.000 I know, I save certain things for the walk. But 0:04:24.560 --> 0:04:27.440 I think for you, like and anyone else like and 0:04:27.560 --> 0:04:30.600 for me too, like that is so good. Just do 0:04:31.160 --> 0:04:34.880 that every day, right, right, No, prioritize that, Yeah, good point. 0:04:35.440 --> 0:04:35.920 You're welcome. 0:04:35.960 --> 0:04:36.880 Thanks to check in. 0:04:37.960 --> 0:04:39.880 When do we check in? Because there should be checks 0:04:39.880 --> 0:04:40.440 and balances? 0:04:40.520 --> 0:04:42.920 Yes, absolutely, Well it's cooling off, so that helps me. 0:04:42.960 --> 0:04:43.600 I love that. 0:04:43.680 --> 0:04:46.120 I like to walk in the cold, which is weird, 0:04:46.279 --> 0:04:48.320 but I hate walking in the heat. 0:04:48.480 --> 0:04:50.960 So yeah, I mean, let's start next week. 0:04:51.320 --> 0:04:54.680 I mean, if you want to a walking partner, like, 0:04:54.760 --> 0:04:55.400 I love to. 0:04:55.440 --> 0:04:57.479 Walk, so I'd like to do that. 0:04:57.640 --> 0:05:01.040 Like she's like, I like that alone, and then that's. 0:05:00.839 --> 0:05:01.880 That's just me being honest. 0:05:02.200 --> 0:05:04.600 Mostly I do like to walk alone, but there are 0:05:04.640 --> 0:05:07.520 two times I love to walk, like if I haven't 0:05:07.560 --> 0:05:09.600 seen you in a while, Yeah, we can catch up 0:05:09.600 --> 0:05:11.240 on so much in a thirty minute walk. 0:05:11.440 --> 0:05:14.760 I mean I mean literally she's like wait, what what what? 0:05:15.040 --> 0:05:17.200 I was like yeah, And then. 0:05:16.080 --> 0:05:19.440 I do look forward to those when I'm in the 0:05:19.520 --> 0:05:21.960 mood to get all the catch up stuff right and 0:05:22.080 --> 0:05:24.000 like I haven't talked to Dan a while, and like, 0:05:24.120 --> 0:05:26.760 so much has happened in your world when we. 0:05:26.680 --> 0:05:27.279 Go on a walk. 0:05:27.680 --> 0:05:30.400 Yeah, so yeah, okay, so we saw soa Yeah, but 0:05:30.440 --> 0:05:32.040 what's the what's the checks and balances? 0:05:35.000 --> 0:05:36.919 I don't know, like in a in a month? Do 0:05:36.960 --> 0:05:40.240 we check back? On December eighteenth, and say sure, and 0:05:40.279 --> 0:05:43.400 then maybe you know what's great. You know how we 0:05:43.480 --> 0:05:47.239 love to check things off. Yeah, you should put walk 0:05:47.320 --> 0:05:50.120 in your calendar every day. Then you can then. 0:05:50.080 --> 0:05:52.440 Show that's what I was doing with my walks and 0:05:52.440 --> 0:05:55.320 workouts before. Okay, but what am I checking you on? 0:05:55.440 --> 0:05:59.360 What do you want to I'm great, No, they don't 0:05:59.440 --> 0:06:00.000 have something. 0:06:00.080 --> 0:06:00.440 No, I know. 0:06:00.520 --> 0:06:03.400 And that's the thing, because I'm like, I like, you know, 0:06:03.480 --> 0:06:07.080 that's like I need that from my mental even if 0:06:07.080 --> 0:06:10.320 it's just walking. Like I only do weights three to 0:06:10.360 --> 0:06:13.120 four times a week, three mostly, and then I run too, 0:06:13.240 --> 0:06:13.560 and then the. 0:06:13.560 --> 0:06:18.120 Other yeah, and then I run and then I walk. 0:06:17.960 --> 0:06:20.679 And then so basically you do a lot. No, no, no, 0:06:20.600 --> 0:06:21.040 that's great. 0:06:21.120 --> 0:06:24.040 No, but like I have to at least walk every 0:06:24.080 --> 0:06:28.800 day no matter what. Like that's just for my own 0:06:28.960 --> 0:06:33.960 like for everyone's sake. But I was thinking about in 0:06:34.040 --> 0:06:37.120 the car because at the end of the day, there's 0:06:37.200 --> 0:06:39.880 just always seems to be things that I didn't do 0:06:40.000 --> 0:06:44.120 or I didn't finish, and I think, so, yeah, I 0:06:44.120 --> 0:06:46.480 prioritize the working out, which is great, but there's other 0:06:46.520 --> 0:06:48.920 things that I want to do, like the nonprofits and 0:06:48.960 --> 0:06:53.280 the the you know, organization stuff, and it's like I 0:06:53.400 --> 0:06:55.719 keep putting stuff aside that I actually want to do 0:06:55.800 --> 0:06:58.000 because I don't have the time. But I'm not making 0:06:58.000 --> 0:06:59.320 the time because I'm like, well, I make the time 0:06:59.360 --> 0:07:01.159 for working out, which then just got me in the 0:07:01.200 --> 0:07:05.440 whole conversation of of you know, what we prioritize versus 0:07:05.440 --> 0:07:07.279 what we don't right right, you know? 0:07:07.640 --> 0:07:08.520 So yeah, it's just. 0:07:08.440 --> 0:07:10.480 We all put things off that we know we need 0:07:10.560 --> 0:07:12.360 to do or even kind of want to want to do. 0:07:12.400 --> 0:07:13.760 I want to do it, like I'm so like it's 0:07:13.760 --> 0:07:15.400 something I really want to do. Is But I think 0:07:15.440 --> 0:07:19.000 sometimes too, when something feels overwhelming, like maybe working out 0:07:19.000 --> 0:07:21.240 and walking to you might seem been something like that, 0:07:21.320 --> 0:07:24.640 you know, starting this foundation and how it's like it 0:07:24.640 --> 0:07:27.680 feels overwhelming. So something feels overwhelming and you're like, oh 0:07:27.720 --> 0:07:28.680 I want to but I. 0:07:29.320 --> 0:07:30.480 It's kind of like where do you start? 0:07:30.600 --> 0:07:33.400 Yeah, and that is that seems so so like for 0:07:33.560 --> 0:07:36.280 that that like makes sense starting a foundation, Where do 0:07:36.400 --> 0:07:40.160 I even start? Where do I I have definitely felt 0:07:40.160 --> 0:07:42.119 that way with working out, where do I even start? 0:07:42.240 --> 0:07:43.920 Or if I start, like oh my god, I have 0:07:43.960 --> 0:07:46.360 to start like with you know, so it's just everyone's 0:07:46.360 --> 0:07:48.720 overwhelming is different for it exactly. 0:07:48.320 --> 0:07:50.240 And there's not one that's like even said like I 0:07:50.280 --> 0:07:52.840 know it's yeah, but they're they're not like it's all 0:07:52.880 --> 0:07:56.680 the same thing truly. So I just thought it was 0:07:56.720 --> 0:07:58.480 a topic of conversation. 0:07:58.600 --> 0:08:03.160 Like I wanted to off my stuff though, because I 0:08:03.200 --> 0:08:03.800 need to start. 0:08:04.120 --> 0:08:06.840 Yeah, it's I need to just start something where it's 0:08:06.880 --> 0:08:12.760 I feel like I'm you know, helping people on a 0:08:13.280 --> 0:08:15.920 whether it's just like yeah, you know, I'll damn people 0:08:15.960 --> 0:08:18.440 that have damned me because you know they'll reach out, 0:08:18.440 --> 0:08:20.920 but I just I want it on a more of 0:08:20.920 --> 0:08:24.000 a scale of helping more people, so you know, I 0:08:24.320 --> 0:08:27.160 don't know, just check in maybe see if I've done something. 0:08:26.960 --> 0:08:28.960 Sure month to will that feel like work to you 0:08:29.200 --> 0:08:29.400 or no? 0:08:30.480 --> 0:08:34.920 So like yes and no no, because I will want 0:08:35.000 --> 0:08:37.080 I like I have like this dream where I'm like 0:08:37.120 --> 0:08:39.559 maybe I'll do like that subscribe or not subscribing, but 0:08:39.600 --> 0:08:42.559 I'll do something where it's like once a month, I 0:08:42.600 --> 0:08:44.880 can like zoom with remember I asked you about zoom. 0:08:44.880 --> 0:08:47.200 I could like zoom with like under people a month 0:08:47.240 --> 0:08:48.840 and then they can share their stories because I feel 0:08:48.840 --> 0:08:51.040 like when survivors or people are going through a divorce 0:08:51.120 --> 0:08:52.439 or they can like we can all get in a room, 0:08:52.480 --> 0:08:54.800 then you feel better. I think I would love it, 0:08:54.840 --> 0:08:56.520 but then I'll also be like, oh god, then things 0:08:56.559 --> 0:08:58.520 get really busy, and then I'm gonna then then that's 0:08:58.520 --> 0:09:00.240 where it feels like work, and I don't want feel 0:09:00.240 --> 0:09:01.800 like work right, So that's why I want to wait 0:09:01.880 --> 0:09:04.360 almost too to like get it right so that it 0:09:04.400 --> 0:09:06.480 doesn't feel like work. It feels like it's something out. 0:09:06.640 --> 0:09:08.319 That's what I was going to say, have the want. 0:09:08.200 --> 0:09:10.520 But I have the pull of I got too much 0:09:10.520 --> 0:09:11.640 on the play right now. 0:09:11.440 --> 0:09:13.840 You need to do, in my opinion, do something that 0:09:13.920 --> 0:09:16.600 does not feel like work. Yeah, because I think for 0:09:16.679 --> 0:09:19.720 you it's kind of like you have time to prioritizing 0:09:19.800 --> 0:09:21.880 working out for you personally, but that's it. 0:09:21.920 --> 0:09:23.560 Otherwise you feel like you should be working or being 0:09:23.559 --> 0:09:23.880 a mom. 0:09:24.120 --> 0:09:26.720 Yeah, and that's where I think it would be key 0:09:26.800 --> 0:09:28.280 for you if it didn't feel like work. 0:09:29.200 --> 0:09:34.920 Thanks well on this. We have Sadie robertson huff Did 0:09:34.920 --> 0:09:36.520 you watch her on duck Dynasty? 0:09:37.200 --> 0:09:39.080 Not all of it, but yeah, some of it, Okay, 0:09:39.400 --> 0:09:40.559 I like, yeah. 0:09:40.440 --> 0:09:42.600 I think I watch like an episode or. 0:09:42.800 --> 0:09:45.880 Yeah it's yeah, it was good because it's a great family. 0:09:46.280 --> 0:09:48.679 Yeah, but she's got a new book out called The 0:09:48.720 --> 0:09:51.640 Next Step, Fifty Devotions to Find Your Way Forward. And 0:09:53.000 --> 0:09:56.480 she's very obviously active on our social media and her faith, 0:09:56.480 --> 0:09:58.520 which we love to talk about on here. So let's 0:09:58.520 --> 0:09:59.600 take a break and then get her on. 0:10:12.400 --> 0:10:17.320 Hi friend, Hi, how are you? I'm great? Thanks so 0:10:17.440 --> 0:10:18.640 much for having me on. 0:10:19.200 --> 0:10:22.160 You're just like the cutest you really are. You're just 0:10:22.200 --> 0:10:25.120 like so cute. Your family's cute, You're cute. Like it's 0:10:25.200 --> 0:10:28.640 just like your message is cute. Everything's just really cute 0:10:28.640 --> 0:10:31.920 about you. And it's like, is there anything into skeletons 0:10:32.000 --> 0:10:34.440 in your closet, like, give me something. 0:10:34.840 --> 0:10:38.280 We're all human, Yes, absolutely, but that's so kind. I 0:10:38.320 --> 0:10:40.280 appreciate it. Thank you, You're so sweet. 0:10:40.320 --> 0:10:42.640 I'm jan and this is this is my girl Catherine, 0:10:42.679 --> 0:10:45.640 and we'll just dive right on in. It's funny that 0:10:45.679 --> 0:10:47.720 you say, you know, we're all human, because I was 0:10:47.760 --> 0:10:51.839 just listening to church yesterday. My son is in a 0:10:51.880 --> 0:10:55.400 weird kind of nap age right now, so we don't 0:10:55.720 --> 0:10:59.240 go to church on Sundays because of his nap schedule. 0:10:59.280 --> 0:11:01.280 So I've just usually like we'll work out or run, 0:11:01.320 --> 0:11:03.880 and so I was running on Sunday and listening to 0:11:03.920 --> 0:11:07.080 the to the pastor speak, and he was basically saying, 0:11:07.120 --> 0:11:08.520 He's like, if you don't stand up and say that 0:11:08.520 --> 0:11:10.360 you're the biggest sinner in the room, like you're lying. 0:11:10.440 --> 0:11:13.160 He's like, we all we all sin and we all have, 0:11:13.200 --> 0:11:14.480 you know, our stuff we have to work on. And 0:11:14.520 --> 0:11:16.120 it's the people that are kind of being like, no, 0:11:16.160 --> 0:11:19.120 I'm perfect. Everything's great. And I think it's hard because 0:11:19.480 --> 0:11:22.520 you know, even when we go to people's Instagram page 0:11:22.520 --> 0:11:24.600 and we see all the things they're doing, everything just 0:11:24.640 --> 0:11:27.800 looks so perfect that sometimes when you start to compare 0:11:27.800 --> 0:11:30.920 in this world of comparison and going, well, gosh, they 0:11:30.960 --> 0:11:33.240 just look like they have everything going and they do 0:11:33.320 --> 0:11:36.319 nothing wrong. And then you realize, okay, where is the 0:11:37.040 --> 0:11:40.319 Like again, we're not all perfect, but in the society, 0:11:40.320 --> 0:11:43.480 it's hard when everything just looks so beautiful. 0:11:44.080 --> 0:11:46.640 No, it's so true. That is so real. I feel 0:11:46.720 --> 0:11:48.480 like that's such a hard thing to balance because I 0:11:48.520 --> 0:11:51.560 feel like Instagram is a place where it's like not 0:11:51.760 --> 0:11:55.240 the place to show everything, like you can't. It's a 0:11:55.280 --> 0:11:58.599 tiny square and a little caption, and it's like a 0:11:58.679 --> 0:12:00.600 lot of people who don't really know you. So there's 0:12:00.600 --> 0:12:02.160 that level of help born and what do you want 0:12:02.160 --> 0:12:03.920 to be? But I feel like you have to understand 0:12:04.320 --> 0:12:07.040 you are literally seeing an image, You're seeing a moment, 0:12:07.160 --> 0:12:10.200 You're seeing a highlight, which is beautiful, but you can't 0:12:10.240 --> 0:12:14.160 start the comparison game. I mean, shoot, we are so human. 0:12:14.320 --> 0:12:18.160 Every everyone has their stuff. I you know, I'm so 0:12:18.240 --> 0:12:20.800 grateful for platforms like podcasting because I do think you 0:12:20.840 --> 0:12:22.679 get to share a little bit more of that, you 0:12:22.720 --> 0:12:25.640 get to have more real conversations, and so I always 0:12:25.679 --> 0:12:27.920 feel like the podcast people are the real ones because 0:12:27.960 --> 0:12:30.200 they really know what's going on in your life. 0:12:30.480 --> 0:12:32.319 Yeah, until the headline gets a hold of that, and 0:12:32.440 --> 0:12:34.880 then and then they make you feel like you are 0:12:34.920 --> 0:12:37.800 just insane for having this thought or this comment or well. 0:12:37.840 --> 0:12:40.360 I think that's the catch twenty two about podcasting. It's 0:12:40.400 --> 0:12:42.240 like you want to be able to be real and 0:12:42.280 --> 0:12:45.440 show everybody that you're real, but then everyone literally comes 0:12:45.480 --> 0:12:48.240 down on every single thing that you say. I mean, 0:12:48.280 --> 0:12:52.720 it's like you can't be real anymore and show your sins. Essentially, 0:12:52.800 --> 0:12:55.240 it's hard to Yeah, that's for sure, got it. 0:12:55.280 --> 0:12:56.920 I feel like you got to just be anchored and 0:12:56.960 --> 0:12:59.000 know who you are, have the people around you who 0:12:59.040 --> 0:13:01.160 love you, know who you are. And that way. I 0:13:01.160 --> 0:13:03.160 think that the cool thing with podcasting, even if a 0:13:03.160 --> 0:13:05.520 headline gets a hold of it, you know that you 0:13:05.600 --> 0:13:07.680 got to share your story, and if someone goes and listens, 0:13:07.679 --> 0:13:10.160 they get to hear your voice sharing your story and 0:13:10.679 --> 0:13:12.440 hopefully hear your heart in it. But that is a 0:13:12.480 --> 0:13:15.400 real wrestle, definitely. That's actually one of the reasons I 0:13:15.440 --> 0:13:18.319 started podcasting is because I got so annoyed with headlines 0:13:18.600 --> 0:13:21.320 and other interviews that would take something. I'd be like, wait, 0:13:21.320 --> 0:13:23.560 that was actually a really good conversation. Why is like 0:13:23.600 --> 0:13:26.680 the two minutes everyone's listening to not the heart of 0:13:26.720 --> 0:13:29.080 what I was saying. So, yeah, No, it's a gift 0:13:29.080 --> 0:13:30.960 to be able to share in a little bit longer form, 0:13:31.000 --> 0:13:31.400 for sure. 0:13:31.640 --> 0:13:34.040 Yeah, I know for sure. Where do you is on 0:13:34.160 --> 0:13:37.040 that topic, where do you find your struggle within the 0:13:37.120 --> 0:13:39.840 walk and being your authentic self when and then when 0:13:39.880 --> 0:13:42.520 things come up, like where do you find that not 0:13:42.600 --> 0:13:45.920 that temptation, but just like that that struggle to keep 0:13:45.920 --> 0:13:46.440 that faith? 0:13:47.679 --> 0:13:51.400 Man, it's so real. I think that there's like in 0:13:51.440 --> 0:13:53.600 the aspect of how much to share, how much not 0:13:53.720 --> 0:13:56.040 to share, or just in the aspect of just. 0:13:56.040 --> 0:13:58.599 Life in general, just whether it comes to marriage or 0:13:58.640 --> 0:14:00.160 in kids and being a mom. 0:14:01.240 --> 0:14:01.480 Yeah. 0:14:01.520 --> 0:14:03.000 Well we were talking about this the other day, how 0:14:03.040 --> 0:14:05.800 like the enemy, he is an accuser, right, so's he 0:14:05.800 --> 0:14:08.360 gonna get you where it hurts so worse and where 0:14:08.400 --> 0:14:10.880 it seems true. Like last week, we were having just 0:14:11.000 --> 0:14:13.960 a super busy week and everything was crazy and you know, 0:14:14.080 --> 0:14:16.600 trying to balance being a good mom and being a 0:14:16.640 --> 0:14:20.080 great wife and you know, doing my job great, and 0:14:20.120 --> 0:14:21.920 it was like I was just not juggling well, you know, 0:14:22.000 --> 0:14:24.800 everything was just kind of like chaotic, and I was 0:14:24.840 --> 0:14:27.280 struggling with some anxiety, which I used to struggle with 0:14:27.320 --> 0:14:29.400 anxiety a lot back in the day. I hadn't had 0:14:29.400 --> 0:14:32.160 a panic attack in a long time. I had felt 0:14:32.240 --> 0:14:34.640 like I'd kind of come through that season in my life. 0:14:34.680 --> 0:14:38.120 But then last week it was like everything was piling 0:14:38.240 --> 0:14:40.240 up and all of a sudden, I just had this 0:14:41.040 --> 0:14:45.080 panic attack. And you know, actually yesterday I had a 0:14:45.160 --> 0:14:48.200 really great visual for this because yesterday literally speaking of church, 0:14:48.440 --> 0:14:51.360 on my way to church, my gas tank kept like, 0:14:51.480 --> 0:14:54.200 you know, saying empty whatever. And I look at my 0:14:54.200 --> 0:14:56.040 mom and I said, what are the odds run out 0:14:56.040 --> 0:14:59.119 of gas? And she said, well, probably pretty high considering 0:14:59.160 --> 0:15:01.400 your gas tank going off and it's like, yeah, but 0:15:01.440 --> 0:15:03.680 I'm not actually going to run out of gas, and 0:15:03.840 --> 0:15:06.040 because like you never think you're actually going to run 0:15:06.080 --> 0:15:08.320 out of gas. And so then I get to church, 0:15:08.400 --> 0:15:11.520 we make it, we're leaving church, and before we're even 0:15:11.560 --> 0:15:14.200 out of the parking lot, I ran out of gas. 0:15:14.240 --> 0:15:14.680 Straight up. 0:15:14.760 --> 0:15:15.880 God's like, that's cute. 0:15:16.280 --> 0:15:20.200 Yeah. I literally am I a minivan and holding up 0:15:20.200 --> 0:15:23.600 the entire church line because my car just stopped working 0:15:23.880 --> 0:15:26.320 and I had to have like six men from church 0:15:26.440 --> 0:15:29.080 push my car all the way to the gas thing. 0:15:29.480 --> 0:15:31.360 And you know what's funny, though, is I look back 0:15:31.360 --> 0:15:32.840 at that and I'm like, I should have known I 0:15:32.880 --> 0:15:34.360 was going to run a guess that had all the 0:15:34.440 --> 0:15:36.360 signs telling me you're about to run out of gas, 0:15:36.360 --> 0:15:38.000 but I just didn't listen. And then what do I do? 0:15:38.160 --> 0:15:39.880 Run out of gas? And I was thinking about the 0:15:39.880 --> 0:15:42.560 same thing with like my anxiety. It was like all 0:15:42.640 --> 0:15:46.040 the warning signs are going off, like hey, your stress, 0:15:46.200 --> 0:15:49.360 my like everything was short, but I was like I'm fine, 0:15:49.360 --> 0:15:51.600 I'm fine, I'm fine. Keep doing the thing, keep doing 0:15:51.640 --> 0:15:53.960 the work, keep pushing it, until all of a sudden 0:15:54.000 --> 0:15:56.600 I'm on empty and like I actually have a panic 0:15:56.640 --> 0:15:59.360 attack and so I think the balance is like not 0:15:59.440 --> 0:16:01.760 letting your i'll get to eat, you know, like not 0:16:01.840 --> 0:16:05.320 letting yourself get there, like constantly being for me and 0:16:05.360 --> 0:16:09.000 the Word, constantly being in prayer, being surrounded by people 0:16:09.000 --> 0:16:11.280 who speak truth in my life. Like I think, so 0:16:11.360 --> 0:16:13.440 often we push it until it's too far, and then 0:16:13.480 --> 0:16:15.440 you have like the big breakdown when it's like, hey, 0:16:15.440 --> 0:16:17.680 you don't actually have to get there, like you could 0:16:17.680 --> 0:16:20.800 refuel when you're like, you know, halfway instead of at 0:16:20.880 --> 0:16:24.880 e And it was a good little visual physically of 0:16:25.000 --> 0:16:28.680 kind of what I've been experiencing spiritually and in my 0:16:28.840 --> 0:16:31.720 actual life. And so yeah, I think the balance is 0:16:32.480 --> 0:16:35.160 letting it be that a balance being an everyday thing 0:16:35.280 --> 0:16:37.760 that you don't let yourself go too far too long 0:16:37.960 --> 0:16:40.200 without getting truth into your life. And again, for me, 0:16:40.280 --> 0:16:41.760 that looks like the Word of God, that looks like 0:16:42.080 --> 0:16:45.040 prayer and people who actually speak love around me. And 0:16:45.080 --> 0:16:48.480 I think too often we don't think about those things 0:16:48.560 --> 0:16:52.400 until it's, you know, till it's kind of too late, 0:16:52.440 --> 0:16:54.280 you know, till it's a breakdown. Yeah, and you don't 0:16:54.280 --> 0:16:55.360 have to get there, you know. 0:16:55.960 --> 0:16:58.000 That's so true that the whole fact that you don't 0:16:58.000 --> 0:17:00.320 have to get there because I feel like it's just 0:17:00.400 --> 0:17:03.600 a typical thing now for me about that, Like usually 0:17:03.600 --> 0:17:05.720 around that two to three month mark is when I 0:17:05.760 --> 0:17:07.840 have like an explosion and then I'm fine. But like 0:17:07.920 --> 0:17:09.560 the explosion, it's like you feel all the weight and 0:17:09.600 --> 0:17:11.919 the pressure and like they'll all the stressors and the 0:17:11.960 --> 0:17:13.840 work and the finances and this that and the other 0:17:13.880 --> 0:17:16.520 where it's like and then I have my explosion and 0:17:16.560 --> 0:17:18.760 then I then I do another few months of building 0:17:18.840 --> 0:17:23.200 it all, building it back up to then do it again. 0:17:23.280 --> 0:17:26.320 And it's like because that to me is just the 0:17:26.359 --> 0:17:29.840 way that I've always done it, so you know, but 0:17:29.880 --> 0:17:31.320 like just to your point, like you know, it doesn't 0:17:31.359 --> 0:17:34.080 have to be that way. It's just I don't know 0:17:34.160 --> 0:17:35.960 if I have the tools and just to be like 0:17:36.000 --> 0:17:39.479 super honest about that, because yeah, I go to therapy 0:17:39.640 --> 0:17:42.960 every few weeks, but when you have so many other responsibilities, 0:17:43.200 --> 0:17:47.200 I feel like taking care of yourself and managing those 0:17:47.440 --> 0:17:50.760 expectations of the blow up is another added thing to 0:17:50.840 --> 0:17:53.399 do and to try to not do. So it's like 0:17:53.440 --> 0:17:55.840 I don't even know if I can, if I know 0:17:55.880 --> 0:17:58.480