WEBVTT - Reflecting On Our Years - Happy New Year! 0:00:19.360 --> 0:00:24.680 So welcome to this episode in New Year's episode. We're 0:00:24.720 --> 0:00:27.280 recording it three weeks before, so it's a little jarring 0:00:27.400 --> 0:00:30.319 and a little hard for me to comprehend exactly what 0:00:30.360 --> 0:00:33.040 we're filming today, but it'll be good. But I wanted 0:00:33.080 --> 0:00:36.640 to start off with this is for real. The last 0:00:36.680 --> 0:00:38.400 time you see me with the flum flow, and I 0:00:38.440 --> 0:00:42.000 bought an ugly or a cute, disgusting one that tastes disgusting. 0:00:42.120 --> 0:00:45.239 Literally looks like a macho latte. It looks like when 0:00:45.240 --> 0:00:47.040 you go to a really nice macha bar and they're like, 0:00:47.080 --> 0:00:49.040 we put a little milk, then you put the macha, 0:00:49.280 --> 0:00:49.879 then you put more. 0:00:50.159 --> 0:00:53.840 Yeah, but for real this time, I'm literally like your 0:00:53.880 --> 0:00:56.920 addicts friend that is like no, like I'm seriously smoking, 0:00:57.280 --> 0:00:59.320 like it's for real, And then you go two weeks 0:00:59.320 --> 0:01:01.800 and then they're back on it and it's just nothing 0:01:01.840 --> 0:01:05.720 has ever said, but for real this time. Because the 0:01:05.840 --> 0:01:10.480 flavored vapes are banned in California starting January first, So 0:01:10.720 --> 0:01:13.680 next time you see me will be in Texas, or 0:01:13.720 --> 0:01:15.400 I guess I'll be in Texas because we're doing a 0:01:15.440 --> 0:01:18.520 Zoom episode. But next time you see me in person 0:01:18.560 --> 0:01:22.759 in La vapes are banned And is that. 0:01:22.680 --> 0:01:24.360 Really gonna happen though, or is it like when they 0:01:24.400 --> 0:01:26.120 said they were going to ban jewel pods and then 0:01:26.160 --> 0:01:26.919 it's gonna happen. 0:01:27.280 --> 0:01:30.120 I think it's really gonna happen because all of the 0:01:30.160 --> 0:01:33.640 smoke shops are like taking preparations. Like everyone I've been 0:01:33.680 --> 0:01:36.080 to has been like, yeah, they're banned January first, And 0:01:36.160 --> 0:01:38.280 I've asked the same thing, like jewels, and they were 0:01:38.319 --> 0:01:40.880 like no, but jewels such like a big company, and 0:01:40.920 --> 0:01:43.080 like they were just it was probably just a takedown 0:01:43.120 --> 0:01:45.520 by big tobacco. Anyways, They're like an attempt to take 0:01:45.560 --> 0:01:48.280 them down and it just like failed because they lobbied 0:01:48.320 --> 0:01:52.080 in Congress or some shit. But I think flum floats 0:01:52.200 --> 0:01:52.960 are dead. 0:01:53.200 --> 0:01:56.080 I put it is this new little logo like it's. 0:01:56.520 --> 0:01:59.160 Ut like the University of Texas. They're made on the 0:01:59.160 --> 0:01:59.960 campus in Texas. 0:02:00.720 --> 0:02:03.320 Oh they have like twenty year olds making them. Yeah, 0:02:03.520 --> 0:02:05.920 that actually freaks me out the other day because speaking 0:02:05.920 --> 0:02:09.200 of New Year, I've been saying I'm twenty four because 0:02:09.320 --> 0:02:11.359 like I just I always like a month or two 0:02:11.400 --> 0:02:14.080 before start saying my like age that's coming, because I 0:02:14.160 --> 0:02:18.520 like hate it. I hate getting to that age. And 0:02:18.560 --> 0:02:20.320 then trying to transition into it, and then it takes 0:02:20.320 --> 0:02:21.760 me like three months to do it. Do you gee 0:02:21.760 --> 0:02:27.000 what I'm saying. Yeah, But speaking of New Year and 0:02:27.560 --> 0:02:31.000 getting older, I realize like now like college students or 0:02:31.040 --> 0:02:33.400 like start like especially like fresh time, like that it's 0:02:33.440 --> 0:02:35.960 a child Like now I'm getting to the point where 0:02:35.960 --> 0:02:38.359 I'm like, oh, like I'm like an eighteen nineteen year old, 0:02:38.400 --> 0:02:41.000 which I'm sure is someonnnoying because like, of course, when 0:02:41.000 --> 0:02:42.880 you're eighteen nineteen, you don't feel like a child and 0:02:42.919 --> 0:02:45.320 you don't want to be revered as a child. But 0:02:45.400 --> 0:02:47.320 now even I look at myself at eighteen nineteen, and 0:02:47.320 --> 0:02:49.320 I'm like, oh my god, I was so. 0:02:49.280 --> 0:02:54.120 Lost, such a baby. Literally still am lost and still 0:02:54.160 --> 0:02:56.400 feel like a baby. But yeah, now I fully know 0:02:56.440 --> 0:02:58.799 what you mean, like the older the older I get, 0:02:59.080 --> 0:03:01.720 because I'm sixteen now, Like when I was like eleven, 0:03:01.880 --> 0:03:04.040 looking at like eighteen year olds, I thought they were 0:03:04.080 --> 0:03:07.000 like fucking like grown as adults. 0:03:07.040 --> 0:03:09.359 But now that you're sixteen, yeah, they. 0:03:09.000 --> 0:03:11.679 Look younger than me even so I'm just like it's 0:03:11.840 --> 0:03:15.880 very very weird. But yeah, I turned seventeen on March fourth, 0:03:15.960 --> 0:03:18.200 so New Year knew me. 0:03:18.360 --> 0:03:19.919 Like, are you gonna be one of those people who 0:03:19.960 --> 0:03:24.200 throws like a big like last like hurrah before eighteen, 0:03:24.240 --> 0:03:26.320 because eighteen is like when you have to get really serious. 0:03:26.400 --> 0:03:29.160 Yeah exactly. I also lost my license recently. 0:03:29.440 --> 0:03:30.720 Wait what do you mean you lost it? 0:03:31.360 --> 0:03:32.560 Like I got it revoked? 0:03:33.200 --> 0:03:34.440 Oh why what do you do? 0:03:34.960 --> 0:03:36.720 I'm just such a bad driver. 0:03:37.040 --> 0:03:38.480 Oh, I was scared of you were going to say 0:03:38.480 --> 0:03:41.080 you got like like a duy. 0:03:41.040 --> 0:03:44.320 I did, I got Yeah, I got a d I Yeah, 0:03:44.360 --> 0:03:46.880 but it's it's only it's it's only the third one. 0:03:46.960 --> 0:03:49.560 So like I'm not going to see I'm not going 0:03:49.600 --> 0:03:52.720 to see prison because I'm also a child. But yeah, 0:03:52.760 --> 0:03:55.240 it was like the third one. So it's been it's 0:03:55.280 --> 0:03:59.200 been good. But yeah, I'm supposedly never gonna drive again, 0:03:59.400 --> 0:04:00.880 which is good for me. 0:04:01.040 --> 0:04:03.360 But they say that, but like unless they catch. 0:04:03.120 --> 0:04:04.880 You, you know, yeah yeah yeah yeah you can just 0:04:04.960 --> 0:04:08.080 keep going yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah right. 0:04:08.000 --> 0:04:11.320 Right right right. I'm always scared of getting my license 0:04:12.080 --> 0:04:16.920 revoked for reasons I can't say, like I'm a good driver. 0:04:17.600 --> 0:04:20.680 There are just things although I'm twenty four, there are 0:04:20.760 --> 0:04:24.000 just things like I can't get around it doing Yeah, 0:04:24.040 --> 0:04:26.880 and it's fake. It's fake. That stuff is not real anyway. 0:04:26.920 --> 0:04:28.960 That is literally fake and it's not real, but. 0:04:29.960 --> 0:04:33.320 They're probably thinking, like you drinking and driving, but it's 0:04:33.000 --> 0:04:35.680 it's literally it's literally. 0:04:35.440 --> 0:04:39.400 Like PaperWorks, yeah, oriented things. It's like I should go 0:04:39.440 --> 0:04:41.120 wait in the line for something, but I'm. 0:04:40.960 --> 0:04:47.880 Like absolutely absolutely not remember your line arc like you 0:04:48.000 --> 0:04:51.440 being obsessed with lines, dude. 0:04:51.520 --> 0:04:54.279 Yes. And also I kind of tapped back into that 0:04:54.279 --> 0:04:56.920 because me and Josiah after that one event recently, we 0:04:56.960 --> 0:05:00.479 took a Lime scooter back home and it was fucking lit, 0:05:00.560 --> 0:05:02.320 like literally you could pause. 0:05:02.040 --> 0:05:04.520 It, you know, line L I n E. 0:05:05.800 --> 0:05:06.240 Lines. 0:05:06.560 --> 0:05:09.479 Yeah, no, not scooters lines like. 0:05:11.200 --> 0:05:14.000 Line oh when I when I really wanted to like 0:05:14.080 --> 0:05:16.160 make that a series. Yeah, I still kind of want 0:05:16.200 --> 0:05:17.560 to do that. So I'm not going to explain it. 0:05:17.600 --> 0:05:18.840 But I was saying about the other day, I was like, 0:05:18.920 --> 0:05:21.040 that still would be such a funny and stupid idea 0:05:21.080 --> 0:05:23.719 for a video. But I just have no, I don't 0:05:23.720 --> 0:05:27.000 have like the motivation and possess that I used to have. Yeah, 0:05:27.279 --> 0:05:31.000 I just don't have it in me anymore. And like, 0:05:31.240 --> 0:05:32.840 you know what else I don't have is like a 0:05:32.920 --> 0:05:36.080 part of that would be like the ability to kind 0:05:36.120 --> 0:05:38.039 of go and like make fun of people to their 0:05:38.080 --> 0:05:40.800 face and record it and like, I can't do that 0:05:40.839 --> 0:05:43.000 anymore because I also feel like now I'm at a 0:05:43.000 --> 0:05:45.240 position where like I can't really do that. Actually I'm 0:05:45.240 --> 0:05:46.800 just gonna say the idea and if I end up 0:05:46.800 --> 0:05:48.919 doing it, like act like you didn't fucking hear. But 0:05:49.400 --> 0:05:52.400 I had a video idea that I was really obsessed 0:05:52.440 --> 0:05:55.039 with doing for a while and it was like best 0:05:55.120 --> 0:05:57.160 lines in LA and it was gonna be me making 0:05:57.200 --> 0:05:59.760 fun of like all the lines that people fucking wait 0:05:59.800 --> 0:06:02.919 in all the time for absolutely nothing, like people waiting 0:06:02.960 --> 0:06:04.880 in line to spend an absurd amount of money on 0:06:04.920 --> 0:06:07.120 something that will like not really benefit them. But I 0:06:07.160 --> 0:06:08.799 can't really judge that because I buy shit that doesn't 0:06:08.800 --> 0:06:09.960 better for me all the time, but it gives me 0:06:10.000 --> 0:06:12.360 a small dopamine boos, so I like it. But like 0:06:12.680 --> 0:06:15.880 the Supreme line, I'm like, like, in twenty twenty three, 0:06:16.200 --> 0:06:18.839 if you are still lining up at the Supreme store, 0:06:18.960 --> 0:06:21.840 something is clinically wrong with you. And another reason I 0:06:21.920 --> 0:06:23.040 never did is because I was like, why do I 0:06:23.040 --> 0:06:24.560 feel like I would go and get hit in the head. 0:06:24.880 --> 0:06:27.080 Yeah, like one of those guys Like. 0:06:27.440 --> 0:06:29.320 Yeah, one of those guys would literally be like you're 0:06:29.360 --> 0:06:31.400 making fun of me and then grab a mic and 0:06:31.480 --> 0:06:35.000 hit me. Yeah, but like I just wanted to like 0:06:35.040 --> 0:06:36.440 go make fun of them and be like, oh my god, 0:06:36.520 --> 0:06:38.440 this line is so exciting. I'll be here for about 0:06:38.480 --> 0:06:41.240 three hours and then like interview everyone in the line 0:06:41.240 --> 0:06:43.400 and be like, what are you so excited for that 0:06:43.440 --> 0:06:45.280 You're gonna be here for three fucking hours of your 0:06:45.279 --> 0:06:48.480 life that you'll never get back, and then do it 0:06:48.480 --> 0:06:51.160 for a bunch of places like Alfred's Coffee used to have. 0:06:51.240 --> 0:06:53.920 But Alfred's Coffee doesn't have lines like that anymore. But 0:06:54.000 --> 0:06:56.520 like places like that that you have like crazy lines, 0:06:56.560 --> 0:06:59.600 I wanted to go and interview people. Yeah, I'd be like, 0:06:59.640 --> 0:07:01.120 what is wrong with you? Why are you doing this? 0:07:01.200 --> 0:07:05.680 Do you remember when COVID first dropped and we all 0:07:05.720 --> 0:07:09.200 found out we had it or we thought we had it, 0:07:09.240 --> 0:07:11.560 and then we went to the I think this is 0:07:11.640 --> 0:07:14.160 like such a big moment in history that we'll look 0:07:14.200 --> 0:07:17.160 back on and it'll be like aerial photos of the 0:07:17.240 --> 0:07:20.920 Dodger Stadium line for COVID testing and we literally went 0:07:21.000 --> 0:07:23.280 to it on purpose so we could say we went there. 0:07:23.320 --> 0:07:27.360 But like that was such an insane experience, Like how 0:07:27.520 --> 0:07:30.440 like it literally felt like the end of the world, 0:07:30.520 --> 0:07:33.720 like going in and like yeah, like waiting in line 0:07:33.760 --> 0:07:35.400 in your car and then them handing a bag through 0:07:35.400 --> 0:07:37.600 the window, and then you driving up and getting the 0:07:37.640 --> 0:07:40.360 results the next day and like just all this crazy shit. 0:07:40.400 --> 0:07:42.680 And I was like, damn, like I don't know. That 0:07:42.800 --> 0:07:44.320 was just like it just popped in my head because 0:07:44.320 --> 0:07:47.480 you were talking about lines, and I remember we waited forever. 0:07:48.040 --> 0:07:52.000 Also, like for what we weren't doing anything. We could 0:07:52.040 --> 0:07:53.920 have just stayed home and liked it up, but I 0:07:53.960 --> 0:07:56.200 guess we wanted obviously, like most people, we wanted to 0:07:56.280 --> 0:07:59.240 know if we had it. Yeah, we were staying home, 0:07:59.240 --> 0:08:02.040 but like Josh was still going to and from his parents' 0:08:02.040 --> 0:08:04.560 house to see his parents, so we had to make 0:08:04.600 --> 0:08:06.200 sure we didn't kill any family members. 0:08:06.440 --> 0:08:09.480 Yeah, damn, such a crazy time that like we kind 0:08:09.480 --> 0:08:11.800 of all trauma blocked in. Don't talk about because. 0:08:11.560 --> 0:08:14.680 Like because now it's like now it's like also it's crazy, 0:08:14.720 --> 0:08:20.480 how like big of a like political burst that cause 0:08:20.600 --> 0:08:22.240 like that was literally, like I say all the time, 0:08:22.280 --> 0:08:25.920 like that was just like the like last line of 0:08:25.960 --> 0:08:31.000 like everybody had all these like intense crazy ideas of 0:08:31.080 --> 0:08:33.880 like what they found right and wrong. Politically and then 0:08:33.960 --> 0:08:37.040 how did COVID become the thing to like. 0:08:37.080 --> 0:08:38.240 Make them really smart? 0:08:38.679 --> 0:08:41.000 It literally was like the last straw for like so 0:08:41.120 --> 0:08:43.200 many people where they were like, you can't tell me 0:08:43.240 --> 0:08:46.120 what to do, Like it literally like blew people's brains 0:08:46.160 --> 0:08:48.560 out of their fucking skull. And I like cannot fucking 0:08:48.559 --> 0:08:51.400 believe that because I'm like, it really was such a 0:08:51.400 --> 0:08:54.840 simple fix, and nobody like for like it was so 0:08:54.880 --> 0:08:57.640 simple to get rid of and like just because of 0:08:57.720 --> 0:09:01.240 human like light, like it just like kept going. 0:09:02.160 --> 0:09:05.559 Humans are inherently greedy. But yeah, I remember, I literally 0:09:05.600 --> 0:09:09.240 am still like fiending for that time. I'm like, can 0:09:09.280 --> 0:09:11.480 there be like another pandemic or something, please, like where 0:09:11.520 --> 0:09:13.320 no one dies, but we all get locked inside so 0:09:13.360 --> 0:09:16.400 I can stay inside for six months and have an 0:09:16.440 --> 0:09:19.360 excuse to not see anybody because now that it's all 0:09:19.400 --> 0:09:21.760 said and done. Oh That's another thing I've noticed is 0:09:21.800 --> 0:09:27.160 like after the pandemic, there was like a giant influx 0:09:27.280 --> 0:09:29.280 of like people going out and it was like a 0:09:29.320 --> 0:09:31.800 renaissance and it was really beautiful and fun, and you 0:09:31.840 --> 0:09:34.360 were seeing everybody all the time, and everybody was out 0:09:34.600 --> 0:09:39.280 all the fucking time, And now everybody experienced burnout like 0:09:39.320 --> 0:09:42.760 a year later, six months later, and now everything is 0:09:42.840 --> 0:09:47.600 so vibeless and it's like the pandemic but with no reason, 0:09:47.640 --> 0:09:48.880 and everybody's just burnout and. 0:09:48.840 --> 0:09:51.439 It was literally experiencing the vibe epidemic. 0:09:51.800 --> 0:09:55.360 Yeah, yeah, it really truly is there's. 0:09:55.280 --> 0:10:00.000 No vibes to be had in our especially in our community, 0:10:00.080 --> 0:10:01.760 I know, and it's like where are the vibes? Like 0:10:01.960 --> 0:10:04.160 where are the girls going out? Us? As if we 0:10:04.200 --> 0:10:05.080 would fucking go up. 0:10:05.120 --> 0:10:06.880 I was about to say, like, the only reason we're 0:10:06.880 --> 0:10:08.960 okay with it is because we didn't go out anyways. 0:10:09.720 --> 0:10:14.120 But uh, what's awesome is all the big brands and 0:10:14.200 --> 0:10:16.600 brands in general who really tried to like mark a 0:10:16.640 --> 0:10:19.440 profit off a fucking face mask and putting their stupid 0:10:19.440 --> 0:10:21.640 ass fucking logos on face masks, and now they're like 0:10:21.679 --> 0:10:24.480 three dollars of fucking face masks because you're dumb and 0:10:24.520 --> 0:10:27.400 you made eight million of these masks thinking you were 0:10:27.400 --> 0:10:30.439 gonna sell them all. Yeah, and now you're like really 0:10:30.440 --> 0:10:32.480 trying to push them on to people when people were like, 0:10:32.520 --> 0:10:33.439 I literally don't need that. 0:10:33.600 --> 0:10:35.360 You remember the people stink. 0:10:35.080 --> 0:10:36.680 And they don't work because they're. 0:10:36.480 --> 0:10:39.400 Like claw do you remember the people early and the dude, Like, 0:10:39.640 --> 0:10:43.320 oh my fucking god, like just so much shit happened, 0:10:43.360 --> 0:10:45.400 like and that we just all kind of forgot about, 0:10:45.400 --> 0:10:48.040 like the people that like hoarded all the food and 0:10:48.080 --> 0:10:50.199 the toilet paper and the fucking masks, Like do you 0:10:50.240 --> 0:10:52.760 remember that. I have a vivid image of that dude 0:10:52.800 --> 0:10:56.480 with like eight million masks stacked in his garage while 0:10:56.520 --> 0:11:00.920 like fucking nurses were like treating COVID patients without masks 0:11:00.960 --> 0:11:03.360 because this guy had them on he was like flipping 0:11:03.400 --> 0:11:05.400 them for a crazy price. And it's just like, of 0:11:05.440 --> 0:11:08.199 course he was white, like of course, but like it's 0:11:08.280 --> 0:11:10.199 just crazy. Yeah, it's just crazy. 0:11:10.400 --> 0:11:14.400 Tapping into your DNA in a time of the DNA 0:11:14.600 --> 0:11:16.200 will take control. 0:11:15.880 --> 0:11:18.319 The inherent need for white people to make a profit. 0:11:19.240 --> 0:11:22.319 But like that is crazy. Like the toilet paper thing 0:11:22.400 --> 0:11:26.280 literally was insane, And I like why why was that 0:11:26.360 --> 0:11:29.920 the thing? Because in like Florida, coming from Florida and 0:11:29.960 --> 0:11:34.080 like Miami, and every time there's a hurricane or a 0:11:34.080 --> 0:11:36.840 threat of hurricane, the first thing to goes water bottles. 0:11:36.880 --> 0:11:41.000 But that makes sense because if like pipes break, like 0:11:41.040 --> 0:11:45.080 you shouldn't be tap water during a hurricane because like 0:11:45.120 --> 0:11:47.079 you don't know what's getting into the systems, Like a 0:11:47.120 --> 0:11:49.520 lot of the plant like plants that are filtering water 0:11:49.559 --> 0:11:52.760 are down because of like dangerous whatever whatever, like yes, 0:11:52.880 --> 0:11:57.360 you need bottled water. I've never seen toilet paper go 0:11:57.559 --> 0:11:58.120 like that, like. 0:11:58.320 --> 0:12:02.560 Yeah, the thing because like I'm I think it was 0:12:02.600 --> 0:12:04.920 the thing because people made it the thing, but like 0:12:05.000 --> 0:12:07.800 it could have been anything. But like I think also 0:12:07.880 --> 0:12:10.320 it's just it looked a lot more scary than it 0:12:10.400 --> 0:12:13.120 was because since toilet paper is so big on the shelves, 0:12:13.160 --> 0:12:16.760 it's probably like the biggest item in the grocery stores. 0:12:16.800 --> 0:12:20.120 So like yeah, so like you can't order a lot 0:12:20.120 --> 0:12:22.600 of quantity of it, and it takes like six people 0:12:22.640 --> 0:12:24.800 buying out the shelf for it to look like everybody 0:12:24.840 --> 0:12:28.240 in the world over bought their toilet paper. That And also, 0:12:28.360 --> 0:12:30.960 like imagine wiping your ass with your fucking fingernails, Like 0:12:31.320 --> 0:12:32.840 that's what like you would have to You'd have to 0:12:32.880 --> 0:12:35.040 like go under there with your flat hand and. 0:12:35.000 --> 0:12:36.880 Just like yeah, if you had to wipe it, do 0:12:36.920 --> 0:12:39.640 you wipe from the front of the back from the back? Okay, 0:12:40.640 --> 0:12:42.600 if I wiped from the front, I would literally have 0:12:42.679 --> 0:12:44.200 like a moldy fucking vagina. 0:12:44.440 --> 0:12:47.040 Yeah yeah, yeah, yeah, right right right. I I write 0:12:47.040 --> 0:12:49.959 from the front because I like the little poop spikes. 0:12:52.600 --> 0:12:54.839 How do people do that? How do people do that? 0:12:55.400 --> 0:12:58.280 And I have like also I think it's a lie 0:12:58.480 --> 0:13:00.560 that people say like half the people stand up to 0:13:00.559 --> 0:13:02.760 wipe and havel sit down. I do not believe that 0:13:03.520 --> 0:13:06.040 I need a study. I need this credible study done 0:13:06.160 --> 0:13:08.679 it or do you stand? I like lift my ass up. 0:13:09.000 --> 0:13:11.680 Yeah, I I can do like a mix of both, 0:13:11.840 --> 0:13:15.839 depending on like how like how diligently I need the 0:13:16.040 --> 0:13:16.760 job done? 0:13:17.120 --> 0:13:23.560 Yeah yeah, yeah right. But also this is a new record. 0:13:23.559 --> 0:13:25.600 We went like how long have we gone? We went 0:13:25.640 --> 0:13:29.520 thirteen minutes without talking about shit? Yeah, but we broke it. 0:13:29.559 --> 0:13:34.040 But yeah, but like it's not that crazy because you 0:13:34.040 --> 0:13:35.960 could have just used a fucking towel, Like we could 0:13:35.960 --> 0:13:38.319 have just like became what should have happened in that moment, 0:13:38.320 --> 0:13:41.240 as humans should have progressed into like the day and 0:13:41.360 --> 0:13:45.040 like reusable like wiping technology, like it should have been 0:13:45.080 --> 0:13:48.079 a b day and like towel mix since like Americans 0:13:48.080 --> 0:13:51.160 like need so badly for like the drying part of 0:13:51.360 --> 0:13:55.080 like the butt like us. Like so I every time 0:13:55.120 --> 0:13:58.040 I hear like somebody who's like never encountered a day 0:13:58.040 --> 0:13:59.760 talk about it. They're like, I don't want my ass 0:13:59.840 --> 0:14:02.320 to y'all fucking wet, And it's like, okay, like we're 0:14:02.320 --> 0:14:04.680 not springing down with a fucking fire hydrant hose, bitch, 0:14:04.800 --> 0:14:08.280 Like it's literally not that deep. Also, like you'd rather 0:14:08.320 --> 0:14:11.160 have a flaky butt. That's the thing about Okay, I'm 0:14:11.160 --> 0:14:15.000 not gonna like that's the thing about poop like. 0:14:16.280 --> 0:14:18.480 Is when it dries, it's flaky. 0:14:20.160 --> 0:14:22.360 But yeah, we need to get up a day. Yeah. 0:14:22.360 --> 0:14:24.000 I don't know why we don't have one yet. 0:14:23.880 --> 0:14:25.680 Because we're still a wipe family. 0:14:26.280 --> 0:14:32.240 First. Yeah, my first brand deal that I was like 0:14:32.360 --> 0:14:36.000 ever super excited about, and I'm pretty sure it was 0:14:36.000 --> 0:14:38.480 a fucking scam at this point, but like a bidet 0:14:38.560 --> 0:14:40.640 company reached out and wanted to work with me and 0:14:40.680 --> 0:14:44.920 wanted me to post like I worked their ass up 0:14:44.960 --> 0:14:46.600 to on the price. Like I was like, I was 0:14:46.600 --> 0:14:48.720 about to get paid for this fucking brand and then 0:14:48.760 --> 0:14:51.120 they ghosted me. But I was so excited and I 0:14:51.160 --> 0:14:52.400 was telling everybody. 0:14:52.160 --> 0:14:53.640 It wasn't real, and you were asking to. 0:14:53.840 --> 0:14:56.760 They were probably like, what's your passwords? Yeah, so we 0:14:56.760 --> 0:15:00.280 can log in and see analytics when you were a child? Yeah, yeah, 0:15:00.280 --> 0:15:00.520 it was. 0:15:00.640 --> 0:15:06.200 U now era, Okay, I just remembered I got scammed, 0:15:06.480 --> 0:15:08.280 like not crazy, but I remember the. 0:15:08.280 --> 0:15:09.880 First time I got to tell me about this. 0:15:10.120 --> 0:15:13.400 Yeah, it's when I was like I should have known. 0:15:13.240 --> 0:15:18.000 But like I got scammed recently and it was something 0:15:18.200 --> 0:15:19.160 so embarrassing. 0:15:21.880 --> 0:15:25.120 I got like scammed when I was like fifteen sixteen, 0:15:25.800 --> 0:15:27.320 and I should have known it, but you know what 0:15:27.360 --> 0:15:29.280 it was. It was a big pride moment because I 0:15:29.280 --> 0:15:31.320 would like argue with my parents so much about doing 0:15:31.400 --> 0:15:33.080 the Internet and I was like, no, you don't understand this, 0:15:33.160 --> 0:15:35.160 like one day will be my career blah blah blah, 0:15:35.280 --> 0:15:36.880 and I would argue with them so much on it. 0:15:36.960 --> 0:15:39.200 So then when this happens, like I was like so 0:15:39.320 --> 0:15:42.440 proud of myself. But like this company, like it was 0:15:42.480 --> 0:15:45.640 like a clothing brand sent me hats and was like, 0:15:45.680 --> 0:15:49.240 oh if you post it. The number was insane. It 0:15:49.320 --> 0:15:51.080 was like it was like an unreal number. 0:15:51.080 --> 0:15:53.800 But I was also a kid and like, wait, say 0:15:53.840 --> 0:15:54.240 the number. 0:15:54.280 --> 0:15:56.640 I think it was like anywhere from five to nine 0:15:56.680 --> 0:16:02.080 thousand dollars. Jesus supposed to right, hat in like twenty fourteen, 0:16:02.760 --> 0:16:05.920 which is like no, like twenty fifteen that like at 0:16:05.920 --> 0:16:08.560 that point, like no one was getting really paid anything. 0:16:08.720 --> 0:16:10.080 I don't know why I thought I was the fucking 0:16:10.160 --> 0:16:13.840 chosen one, but like I think because one I was 0:16:13.840 --> 0:16:18.320 a kid, two because like I just didn't really have 0:16:18.400 --> 0:16:20.800 any grasp on money and like also like like that 0:16:20.920 --> 0:16:23.800 was like life changing, like and I like that would 0:16:23.840 --> 0:16:25.760 have literally been life changing. I would have been able to, 0:16:25.760 --> 0:16:27.800 like at that age give my parents money like that. 0:16:27.840 --> 0:16:29.640 And I was like, oh my god, this is insane 0:16:30.320 --> 0:16:32.520 and basically it was not fucking real. And I was 0:16:32.640 --> 0:16:35.480 so fucking mad, and I like I had posted the 0:16:35.520 --> 0:16:38.040 hat and then I think I even left the photo 0:16:38.040 --> 0:16:39.680 op because I thought it was a really good picture 0:16:39.720 --> 0:16:42.200 for me, So I was like, girl, fuck you, like 0:16:42.240 --> 0:16:45.120 I look good. But then I destroyed the hat, not 0:16:45.200 --> 0:16:48.640 destroyed it, but I like sewed a whole new design 0:16:48.720 --> 0:16:51.200 over it, and I wore it like every fucking day, 0:16:51.240 --> 0:16:53.480 like because that was the way this design was fucking lit. 0:16:54.320 --> 0:16:56.080 But I was really mad, and I wish I had 0:16:56.120 --> 0:16:57.880 like had evidence of like what I said to him, 0:16:57.880 --> 0:17:01.160 because I was like, what's funny too, is like I've 0:17:01.280 --> 0:17:03.800 like spoken about this. Is There was another instance where 0:17:03.840 --> 0:17:06.400 like I was done really wrongly by someone older, as 0:17:06.400 --> 0:17:07.960 like a fifteen year old, and I was like, I 0:17:08.000 --> 0:17:09.520 remember I went in on them, and then when I 0:17:09.560 --> 0:17:10.960 look back at the message, I was like, oh my god. 0:17:11.000 --> 0:17:13.359 I was like so articulate and like well spoken in 0:17:13.400 --> 0:17:16.200 this email, and I remember kind of carrying the same 0:17:16.200 --> 0:17:18.439 tone where I was like, something is absolutely wrong with 0:17:18.480 --> 0:17:20.639 you taking advantage of someone like me, Like you have 0:17:20.680 --> 0:17:22.920 no idea what my family situation is, like that money 0:17:22.920 --> 0:17:24.960 would have been like like I was like so like 0:17:25.520 --> 0:17:28.000 I was like really angry, but I was like, I 0:17:28.040 --> 0:17:32.080 was like, I'll show him even though he like scammed 0:17:32.080 --> 0:17:34.560 the fuck out of me, but not you as like 0:17:34.560 --> 0:17:36.639 a twenty five year old scamming a child. You're weird. 0:17:37.160 --> 0:17:39.439 Yeah, I only do I only do brand deals if 0:17:39.440 --> 0:17:43.320 they're like at least one hundred and fifty km above 0:17:44.080 --> 0:17:47.439 like one ID post like yeah, my every time I 0:17:47.520 --> 0:17:51.480 post on Instagram, it's you're seeing three me pocket three 0:17:51.600 --> 0:17:53.159 hundred and fifty thousand. 0:17:52.840 --> 0:17:55.679 Dollars okay, Courtney Kardashian. 0:17:55.359 --> 0:18:01.520 Yeah, no, I'm that's Kylie Kardashian level. That's Carli Jenner. 0:18:02.040 --> 0:18:06.560 Her name, it was Carli Gender. That's Carli Gender level 0:18:06.600 --> 0:18:09.639 of but like maybe even more than her. I probably 0:18:09.640 --> 0:18:11.080 make more money than Carli gender. 0:18:11.640 --> 0:18:15.119 It's insane to think that that's like almost like fully 0:18:15.160 --> 0:18:18.480 ten years ago, but it has been like by the 0:18:18.560 --> 0:18:20.480 time it comes out, it's like two days before. Just 0:18:20.560 --> 0:18:21.840 what I was saying I was like thinking about in 0:18:21.880 --> 0:18:24.960 the bathroom earlier is by the time this episode is 0:18:25.000 --> 0:18:28.280 coming out, we're like really closing in on what would 0:18:28.320 --> 0:18:32.600 have been like a decade ago, like the Internet journey start. 0:18:33.359 --> 0:18:36.800 And I'm like, it's just so insane because I was 0:18:36.800 --> 0:18:38.960 like thinking about it in the bath round. I was like, damn, 0:18:39.000 --> 0:18:41.600 like I really have been because I started on the 0:18:41.600 --> 0:18:44.920 internet like really posting my face when I was fourteen, 0:18:45.040 --> 0:18:46.680 Like I remember, like that's when I started like kind 0:18:46.680 --> 0:18:48.760 of posting pictures of myself and putting myself out there. 0:18:48.920 --> 0:18:51.199 At this point, I had already like been on like 0:18:51.240 --> 0:18:54.040 Twitter and stuff because of one direction like ten years ago. 0:18:54.720 --> 0:18:57.560 But I was like, wow, ten years ago to this 0:18:57.720 --> 0:19:00.840 year is when like kind of vine least started, because 0:19:00.880 --> 0:19:03.400 mine started in twenty thirteen. I think even like maybe 0:19:03.400 --> 0:19:04.520 twenty twelve. 0:19:04.440 --> 0:19:07.560 Yeah, I remember twenty thirteen. Twenty fourteen was like when 0:19:07.600 --> 0:19:10.200 I first strat generating like an audience on there. 0:19:10.359 --> 0:19:12.920 Oh my god. Yeah. January twenty fourth, twenty thirteen, two 0:19:13.000 --> 0:19:15.760 days after my birthday. It started two days after my 0:19:15.760 --> 0:19:20.439 fourteenth birthday. That's great, and I think I like, I whoa, 0:19:20.640 --> 0:19:22.520 oh my god, in twenty thirteen, did I just enter 0:19:22.640 --> 0:19:24.080 high school or was it twenty fourteen. 0:19:25.040 --> 0:19:26.840 I think you were just entering high school in twenty 0:19:26.840 --> 0:19:29.400 fourteen because I was entering high school in twenty fourteen. 0:19:29.760 --> 0:19:31.680 Okay, yeah, no, because I remember I had vine in. 0:19:31.680 --> 0:19:35.040 Middle schoolteen sixt No, I was in twenty thirteen. I 0:19:35.080 --> 0:19:35.879 was in ninth grade. 0:19:36.880 --> 0:19:38.960 Oh okay, so yeah, I was still in middle school. 0:19:38.960 --> 0:19:40.639 I had like a few months left of middle school. 0:19:40.680 --> 0:19:43.560 Wait, no, no, fuck, I haven't literally all wrong. I 0:19:43.600 --> 0:19:45.040 was in ninth grade last year. 0:19:48.680 --> 0:19:50.800 Wait, you're only a sophomore, but you're sixteen. 0:19:51.440 --> 0:19:53.280 Yeah, he flung so many levels. 0:19:53.400 --> 0:19:55.359 No, no, I think it's the opposite. I think you 0:19:55.400 --> 0:19:56.720 might have like flunked a grade or two. 0:19:57.119 --> 0:19:59.520 No, I'm special. I'm special. 0:20:00.000 --> 0:20:02.080 The kids who fucking skipped grades would not shut the 0:20:02.080 --> 0:20:03.639 fuck up. I wouldn't shut the fuck up about it 0:20:03.640 --> 0:20:05.760 because I was supposed to skip grades. But my parents 0:20:05.760 --> 0:20:07.199 wouldn't lend me because they were like, you have no 0:20:07.280 --> 0:20:10.080 business being around fucking eighth graders when you're sixth grader. 0:20:10.440 --> 0:20:12.200 They were so concerned about. 0:20:11.920 --> 0:20:14.399 That gifted and talented. We weren't allowed to skip grades, 0:20:14.400 --> 0:20:17.120 but we got put into special classes called gifted and talented. 0:20:17.720 --> 0:20:21.000 I think we talked about this before, Yeah, yeah, but yeah, 0:20:21.600 --> 0:20:24.960 everybody everybody that are in those classes, that were in 0:20:25.040 --> 0:20:28.640 those classes are like drug addicts. Now, Like I can 0:20:28.720 --> 0:20:33.000 literally look at everybody around me and like, sorry, like 0:20:33.080 --> 0:20:35.680 I'm like thinking from like the perspective of like an 0:20:35.760 --> 0:20:38.119 eighth grader, but like sitting down in class, I can 0:20:38.160 --> 0:20:40.159 like look around and I can name every single one 0:20:40.200 --> 0:20:42.480 of those people and what drug they're addicted to. 0:20:43.320 --> 0:20:45.760 It's because it's like crazy to put that much fucking 0:20:45.760 --> 0:20:46.640 pressure on a child. 0:20:46.920 --> 0:20:51.879 Yeah, and if they actually are gifted, like like you 0:20:51.960 --> 0:20:55.000 have to like self medicate at some point, like you 0:20:55.000 --> 0:21:01.119 you every person that actually like is like igher level intelligence, 0:21:01.240 --> 0:21:03.119 Like even though that ship's all bold like gives them 0:21:03.240 --> 0:21:06.800 talented is bullshit, but they're like people literal geniuses have 0:21:06.840 --> 0:21:09.480 to self medicate or they'll go fucking insane. But sorry, 0:21:09.520 --> 0:21:10.040 what were you saying? 0:21:10.080 --> 0:21:10.680 That's how I feel? 0:21:10.840 --> 0:21:13.119 I just know, I know, like I've I have fucking 0:21:13.359 --> 0:21:16.280 micro porn every every day. 0:21:16.520 --> 0:21:18.919 Porn. Yeah, like you wake up and you have to 0:21:19.000 --> 0:21:20.320 just have like a few seconds of it. 0:21:20.520 --> 0:21:23.120 Yeah, but it's it's self. It's like my self medicating 0:21:23.200 --> 0:21:25.320 journey because I'm so smart and I just have to 0:21:25.359 --> 0:21:27.280 like do something to get out of my head and 0:21:27.840 --> 0:21:28.840 just it's it's healthy. 0:21:28.920 --> 0:21:31.160 Is it like v R porn or is it just 0:21:31.200 --> 0:21:33.040 like no, it's. 0:21:32.920 --> 0:21:36.879 Just like iophone porn. It's just like really basically, I. 0:21:36.960 --> 0:21:39.640 Just didn't where you slide your iPhone. 0:21:39.920 --> 0:21:41.400 Yeah, I just did it just sit in there. 0:21:41.480 --> 0:21:45.960 Oh my god. Yeah, I don't remember what I was 0:21:46.000 --> 0:21:47.439 gonna say. I was just gonna say, yeah, like I 0:21:47.480 --> 0:21:50.360 know people still who like who were in those classes, 0:21:50.359 --> 0:21:52.800 and like that was just too much pressure to put 0:21:52.800 --> 0:21:55.680 on a child. I remember in eighth grade my dad 0:21:55.720 --> 0:21:58.560 got so mad because I had a fucking my older 0:21:58.920 --> 0:22:03.800 sibling literally was like fucking genius kid, like was in 0:22:03.840 --> 0:22:06.880 all those classes and got every award for eighth grade 0:22:06.880 --> 0:22:09.159 at graduation, and then when my dad went so this 0:22:09.280 --> 0:22:11.280 was like the first time I was like I am 0:22:11.320 --> 0:22:15.080 a disappointment my dad, Like God bless him. He just 0:22:15.119 --> 0:22:17.440 like expected way too much because my fucking stupid ass 0:22:17.440 --> 0:22:20.439 sibling put way too much fucking like stop what we 0:22:20.480 --> 0:22:22.760 need to do is lower standards. And from that moment on, 0:22:22.840 --> 0:22:24.960 that's what I knew. I was like, I will never 0:22:25.119 --> 0:22:28.199 set high expectations for my family because I plan on 0:22:28.280 --> 0:22:31.040 going below those expectations. So from that moment on, I 0:22:31.040 --> 0:22:34.280 brought the standard so low, like I never I never 0:22:34.320 --> 0:22:36.919 got higher than a C in class because I was like, 0:22:36.960 --> 0:22:39.600 you will not. What you won't do is expect for 0:22:39.640 --> 0:22:41.399 me to do good in school because I won't be 0:22:41.440 --> 0:22:43.920 doing it. I think like maybe on my report card 0:22:43.920 --> 0:22:46.160 I would have like two b's and then all seas 0:22:46.200 --> 0:22:46.600 and d's. 0:22:46.480 --> 0:22:49.040 And I was like average average. 0:22:49.640 --> 0:22:53.640 But I remember like my dad was like I didn't 0:22:53.640 --> 0:22:56.920 get a single award, and he was like he was 0:22:56.960 --> 0:22:59.560 like what happened? And I was just like I felt 0:22:59.680 --> 0:23:02.600 so bad, Like I literally like I felt so much shame. 0:23:02.840 --> 0:23:05.240 I remember like so dramatic going home and like being 0:23:05.240 --> 0:23:09.399 on the carpet in the bathroom and be like like 0:23:09.520 --> 0:23:11.439 fucking cride my eyes up because I was like I 0:23:11.480 --> 0:23:15.040 didn't bring home a single award, but those things don't 0:23:15.080 --> 0:23:18.240 fucking matter. And then from that moment on, I was like, wait, 0:23:18.480 --> 0:23:21.119 that like is not really everybody else's. 0:23:20.880 --> 0:23:23.879 Great, dude. It is crazy that like the amount of 0:23:23.920 --> 0:23:26.919 pressure that I put myself or put on myself to 0:23:27.000 --> 0:23:30.200 like exceed in school, and like looking back at how 0:23:30.440 --> 0:23:34.439 like obsolete that was to like who I am now, 0:23:34.560 --> 0:23:37.000 like like there was no reason for me to be 0:23:37.359 --> 0:23:40.119 as high ranked in my school and then me sitting 0:23:40.160 --> 0:23:42.880 here in thirteen minutes ago talking about like shitting out 0:23:42.880 --> 0:23:44.160 of my button, like how I won. 0:23:44.760 --> 0:23:46.760 No two minutes ago to talk about. 0:23:46.520 --> 0:23:49.920 Micro Yeah, exactly exactly, but like I wrote it down 0:23:49.960 --> 0:23:51.520 because I was like I don't want to forget this, 0:23:51.640 --> 0:23:56.919 but like very similar situation. It was like fourth grade 0:23:57.160 --> 0:24:01.080 and it was like before okay, well there, let me 0:24:01.119 --> 0:24:05.639 preface this. Like reading and writing is like I think, 0:24:07.560 --> 0:24:09.480 I don't know how to word this, but like I 0:24:09.600 --> 0:24:12.840 like compared to like the average human, like I am 0:24:13.440 --> 0:24:17.320 so below like what every other human is, Like I cannot, 0:24:17.640 --> 0:24:20.919 for the life of me write or read and I 0:24:20.920 --> 0:24:23.240 don't know, it just doesn't click in my brain, like 0:24:23.920 --> 0:24:26.320 especially out loud. Like I can see the words and 0:24:26.359 --> 0:24:28.399 I can read them in my brain and most of 0:24:28.400 --> 0:24:31.439 the time I can comprehend it, but like for some reason, 0:24:31.480 --> 0:24:33.680 there's like a disconnect from my brain to my mouth. 0:24:33.720 --> 0:24:35.879 But that's like I've talked about that a million times, 0:24:36.920 --> 0:24:39.440 especially like when we're reading what we've been writing recently, 0:24:39.520 --> 0:24:41.639 like out loud, Like it takes me a minute to 0:24:41.680 --> 0:24:43.000 like get in a groove and I have to like 0:24:43.040 --> 0:24:47.840 focus so hard on like like reading slowly enough and 0:24:47.920 --> 0:24:49.960 like being able to speak it out loud, like I 0:24:50.040 --> 0:24:55.840 literally just have apraxia, but whatever, I just where you 0:24:55.880 --> 0:24:57.720 can't speak, but you can like think in your brain. 0:24:59.320 --> 0:25:04.440 But I remember in fourth grade or in third grade, 0:25:04.480 --> 0:25:07.840 we took like a reading assessment test, and I remember 0:25:08.880 --> 0:25:11.360 scoring super high, like I was reading at like an 0:25:11.359 --> 0:25:14.240 eighth grade level in like third grade, and I felt 0:25:14.280 --> 0:25:16.880 like such a genius. I felt so sick. I felt 0:25:16.920 --> 0:25:19.240 so cool. And then fourth grade came around and we 0:25:19.280 --> 0:25:23.080 had to do like tax tests where it's like like 0:25:23.119 --> 0:25:27.240 statemanitity testing, And it was the first time I ever 0:25:27.240 --> 0:25:29.880 had a panic attack, and I freaked the funk out 0:25:29.880 --> 0:25:31.960 the night before, like scream crying like I don't want 0:25:31.960 --> 0:25:33.080 to do this, I don't want to do this, I 0:25:33.080 --> 0:25:36.159 can't do this. I took the test fucking flopped. It 0:25:36.240 --> 0:25:39.600 was so bad. And since third grade I have had 0:25:40.080 --> 0:25:42.119 the exact same reading level, like I read at an 0:25:42.160 --> 0:25:45.639 eighth grade level since then. I'm sure it's probably not true, 0:25:45.680 --> 0:25:48.200 but like literally it feels like I read at an 0:25:48.200 --> 0:25:51.800 eighth grade level. And I also like spelling is so 0:25:52.119 --> 0:25:54.800 fucking bad for me, Like if I didn't have autocorrect, 0:25:55.359 --> 0:25:57.879 like it would be over since it's over, like but 0:25:58.240 --> 0:26:01.400 I'm also like if I do have autocorrect, like why 0:26:01.400 --> 0:26:03.040 do I need to know how to spell? Because like 0:26:03.240 --> 0:26:05.679 it's there to help me, and like I'm never writing 0:26:05.720 --> 0:26:06.800 anything physically anymore. 0:26:06.840 --> 0:26:08.680 You need to know how to spell because like it's 0:26:08.680 --> 0:26:09.880 like an essential thing. 0:26:10.000 --> 0:26:13.080 But why we have chat GPD chat AI, Like we 0:26:13.119 --> 0:26:15.400 have the robot that will just tell me everything. 0:26:15.680 --> 0:26:19.160 Now we have like voice to text exactly. 0:26:18.480 --> 0:26:21.040 Or voice memos, Like I don't need to know how 0:26:21.080 --> 0:26:23.320 to text or spell. But yeah, I also took like 0:26:23.359 --> 0:26:27.160 a spelling test and like literally missed every single word 0:26:27.240 --> 0:26:30.000 except for the hardest word because I studied the hardest 0:26:30.000 --> 0:26:33.040 word over and over again and forgot to study everything else. 0:26:33.240 --> 0:26:35.199 And that's how I learned how to study. And then 0:26:35.440 --> 0:26:38.119 since then, I like took school very seriously because I 0:26:38.160 --> 0:26:40.199 was like, I do not want to be an embarrassment. 0:26:40.440 --> 0:26:43.600 I cannot feel that embarrassment ever again. And now looking back, 0:26:43.640 --> 0:26:46.720 I'm like, I cause so much stress and anxiety and 0:26:46.760 --> 0:26:49.480 put so much pressure on myself when genuinely it doesn't 0:26:49.520 --> 0:26:52.520 matter and it probably yeah whatever. 0:26:52.760 --> 0:26:55.439 It's crazy because I like had the complete opposite like 0:26:55.560 --> 0:26:58.480 all my like, I think I suffered from the issue 0:26:58.480 --> 0:27:03.639 that I was like, I don't think I'm necessarily like 0:27:04.720 --> 0:27:07.879 hyper intelligent or anything, like I genuinely am not. And 0:27:07.920 --> 0:27:10.520 I've always said that, like I'm not super intelligent, and. 0:27:10.440 --> 0:27:12.120 I'm like, I agree, I agree, I agree. 0:27:12.160 --> 0:27:14.000 Yeah you said yep, like really like certainly. 0:27:14.080 --> 0:27:19.280 Yeah, it's just like you're just you're just you. You're you're 0:27:19.320 --> 0:27:24.639 gonna say stupid, Yeah, you're stupid, You're stupid. Definitely not 0:27:24.720 --> 0:27:28.320 hyper intelligent. But I love you for who you are, Kay, 0:27:37.520 --> 0:27:38.240 I love you too. 0:27:38.520 --> 0:27:40.960 Yeah, I know, and I'm gonna miss you for these breaks. 0:27:42.359 --> 0:27:46.200 But I've never been like hyper intelligent or anything, and 0:27:46.560 --> 0:27:49.080 I just like, you know what, also, when you were 0:27:49.119 --> 0:27:51.240 like reading and writing is so hard, those have always 0:27:51.240 --> 0:27:53.679 been like the easier strong like, but those are my 0:27:53.720 --> 0:27:56.000 strong suits because I think I've just always been. 0:27:56.000 --> 0:27:58.240 That's why we're so compatible because I have like you 0:27:58.320 --> 0:28:02.520 two number. I do mbers and logistics and you do emotions. Yeah, 0:28:02.560 --> 0:28:05.080 I mean that's like how girls typically are though they're 0:28:05.119 --> 0:28:07.639 like emotional and men are like more stern. 0:28:08.119 --> 0:28:10.600 Like that's why like I shouldn't have a bank account 0:28:10.720 --> 0:28:12.040 or like be able to own a homework. 0:28:12.160 --> 0:28:16.200 That's why I recently had your business managers start wiring 0:28:16.240 --> 0:28:18.080 your money into my account and then now you have 0:28:18.119 --> 0:28:19.120 to ask me for your mine. 0:28:19.240 --> 0:28:21.320 Thank you so much, because it was like really like 0:28:21.359 --> 0:28:23.760 hard for me to figure out like how to like 0:28:23.800 --> 0:28:25.159 figure that out. But if you just put me on 0:28:25.200 --> 0:28:26.720 an allowance, I think I could survive. 0:28:27.000 --> 0:28:30.680 Yeah, yeah, dude, there's mine. I won't get into that. 0:28:31.000 --> 0:28:33.480 But there are relationships, Yeah. 0:28:33.280 --> 0:28:35.640 There are relationships like that. No, there are so many. 0:28:36.880 --> 0:28:38.840 That's a whole different topic. But like as much as 0:28:38.880 --> 0:28:41.760 like people who use the internet, like all of us, 0:28:41.760 --> 0:28:45.160 and like people who were watching this and are like 0:28:45.280 --> 0:28:48.160 super aware of those things and like would do our 0:28:48.200 --> 0:28:50.200 best to not end up in those situations, one, you 0:28:50.200 --> 0:28:52.280 could always end up in a situation like that because 0:28:52.840 --> 0:28:55.000 it just happens. All those people are in that situation, 0:28:55.040 --> 0:28:56.880 because it happens that before they know what they're in it. 0:28:57.000 --> 0:28:59.320 Like I think most people have been in a relationship 0:28:59.320 --> 0:29:01.320 where they walk away and they're like, why the fuck 0:29:01.360 --> 0:29:03.760 did I stay there because I have that. So many 0:29:03.760 --> 0:29:05.400 people I know have had that. I don't have that 0:29:05.480 --> 0:29:09.600 right now, but I've had that, and it's just because 0:29:09.640 --> 0:29:11.400 before you know it, you're like you look around and 0:29:11.400 --> 0:29:12.880 you're like, oh my god, I'm like a shell of 0:29:12.880 --> 0:29:15.600 a human and I've been letting this person like dictate 0:29:15.680 --> 0:29:20.520 my life. But that's a whole other conversations. But I've 0:29:20.720 --> 0:29:24.719 always been like good at reading and writing, and because 0:29:24.760 --> 0:29:27.080 of that, I just like flew under the radar and 0:29:27.120 --> 0:29:29.200 everybody was like, she's so smart. We love her. She's 0:29:29.240 --> 0:29:31.160 so smart. We love her. Until I got to high 0:29:31.160 --> 0:29:34.040 school and then like it was time to like really 0:29:34.080 --> 0:29:37.560 do math, and I was like and science. 0:29:37.600 --> 0:29:41.959 I was like I loved science. I literally love science. 0:29:42.000 --> 0:29:43.760 But I do have a funny story. It was like 0:29:44.000 --> 0:29:47.320 seventh to eighth grade. It was like the jump from 0:29:47.320 --> 0:29:50.760 like doing like algebra to like pre calculus, and I 0:29:50.800 --> 0:29:52.600 was like, yeah, I'm gonna take pre calculus, like I'm 0:29:52.600 --> 0:29:54.240 a genius, Like I can do this shit. It was 0:29:54.320 --> 0:29:57.160 like above my grade. Like I was just like fed 0:29:57.200 --> 0:29:59.280 lies my entire life and everything's like you're so smart, 0:29:59.320 --> 0:30:01.920 You're doing so good, You're so smart. And I got 0:30:01.960 --> 0:30:03.920 in that pre calculus class, and they took like an 0:30:03.920 --> 0:30:07.640 assessment test to see like where we were, and I 0:30:07.720 --> 0:30:12.680 scored so poorly that the same day, the first day 0:30:12.680 --> 0:30:15.240 of school, the teacher pulled me out to the hallway 0:30:15.280 --> 0:30:17.400 and was like, do you have to be honest with you, 0:30:18.400 --> 0:30:22.360 I think you should go to the other class, which 0:30:22.480 --> 0:30:25.680 was like not pre calculus, and I literally cried. I 0:30:25.720 --> 0:30:28.520 cried in eighth grade because my teacher told me you 0:30:28.560 --> 0:30:30.560 were so stupid that you're not ready for this class. 0:30:30.560 --> 0:30:32.160 And all of my friends were in that class, and 0:30:32.200 --> 0:30:33.560 I was so fucking excited. 0:30:34.240 --> 0:30:37.080 And yeah, I was doing so bad in school that 0:30:37.200 --> 0:30:39.240 I wasn't in class with any of my friends because 0:30:39.240 --> 0:30:40.800 I just wasn't doing any of my work. But what 0:30:40.800 --> 0:30:42.280 I would do is I would just skip class and 0:30:42.320 --> 0:30:44.040 go hang out with my friends and be like, get 0:30:44.040 --> 0:30:45.920 to the bathroom, we need to hang out right now. 0:30:46.960 --> 0:30:50.000 But now kids all they do is hit fucking blinkers 0:30:50.040 --> 0:30:52.120 in the school bathroom and get fucking high as shit 0:30:52.240 --> 0:30:54.080 and like get loaded. I mean kids were doing that 0:30:54.160 --> 0:30:55.120 in my school. 0:30:54.760 --> 0:30:57.280 But like with it was like more difficult also though, 0:30:57.280 --> 0:31:00.520 because like to get high when we were in high school, 0:31:00.560 --> 0:31:02.720 you literally had to physically smoke or have an edible. 0:31:02.840 --> 0:31:06.880 Yeah, my friends and I drove all the way to 0:31:06.960 --> 0:31:09.960 Dallas to pick up a modded jewel pod that had 0:31:09.960 --> 0:31:12.280 wheed oil in it because it was so hard to find. 0:31:12.520 --> 0:31:14.800 You told us this because you also meet us. You 0:31:14.880 --> 0:31:17.120 told us, yeah, but because also that was like the 0:31:17.160 --> 0:31:20.280 story where like when y'all were out somewhere, like your 0:31:20.400 --> 0:31:22.960 friend had like dropped his card or somebody dropped a 0:31:23.000 --> 0:31:26.160 card or no, y'all were at a bar or something, 0:31:26.160 --> 0:31:29.480 and somebody this guy used it and then the fucking 0:31:29.520 --> 0:31:32.840 clerk was like that, I know that is not you. 0:31:33.280 --> 0:31:36.720 Yeah, small town Texas shit. But I also remember the drive. 0:31:36.880 --> 0:31:38.000 I don't know if I talked about it, but the 0:31:38.120 --> 0:31:40.760 drive home with that car, like we saw probably the 0:31:40.800 --> 0:31:43.200 most police officers we've ever seen in my entire life. 0:31:43.240 --> 0:31:46.600 And my friend was driving high, which is so stupid. 0:31:46.600 --> 0:31:49.800 Don't do that, but yeah it was. And we were 0:31:49.840 --> 0:31:52.600 all fucking paranoid schizophrenic in that car, freaking the fuck 0:31:52.600 --> 0:31:54.480 out that we're going to get pulled over. And one 0:31:54.520 --> 0:31:57.719 time a cop like did turn around and like surttailing us, 0:31:57.720 --> 0:31:59.440 but then went around us, and we were like, bro, 0:31:59.520 --> 0:32:01.440 we're going to Joe, we are going to jail. We 0:32:01.480 --> 0:32:03.720 are going to jail, but we made it home. 0:32:04.080 --> 0:32:05.680 Also, it was like hard for me to focus on 0:32:05.720 --> 0:32:09.680 school because again back to what started this, what we 0:32:09.720 --> 0:32:12.280 always do when we deep dive into like our childhood, 0:32:13.600 --> 0:32:15.680 is because I was too busy, like doing the Internet 0:32:15.720 --> 0:32:17.400 like I did. I just didn't care, Like I was 0:32:17.440 --> 0:32:20.480 like I was like my life, like I'm an entertainer, 0:32:20.600 --> 0:32:22.479 Like I can't be here, like I'm literally like I'm 0:32:22.480 --> 0:32:25.200 made something different. I'm made to entertain the people. So 0:32:25.280 --> 0:32:27.120 I was like just doing that and it's just so crazy. 0:32:27.120 --> 0:32:29.960 Do you remember where you were the first time of 0:32:30.040 --> 0:32:31.280 vine of yours went viral? 0:32:31.720 --> 0:32:33.360 Yeah? I was on I was literally on the couch 0:32:33.400 --> 0:32:34.840 and I woke up the next day and then I 0:32:34.840 --> 0:32:38.480 immediately posted a Beyonce vine right after that. Immediately you're like, 0:32:38.520 --> 0:32:40.960 I am keeping up with this fucking Yeah, yeah exactly. 0:32:41.840 --> 0:32:45.160 But I don't remember exactly where I was, but I 0:32:45.200 --> 0:32:49.920 remember I remember the vine. It was my first vine 0:32:49.960 --> 0:32:53.960 I ever posted, and yeah, it was me throwing a 0:32:54.080 --> 0:33:01.000 cheese sandwich at the refrigerator, right. I think that was 0:33:01.040 --> 0:33:02.760 just the weird shit you could get away with on there. 0:33:02.920 --> 0:33:05.360 Yeah, like it was because it was all just like whatever, 0:33:05.400 --> 0:33:07.840 you could do in six seconds, which I like, I 0:33:07.840 --> 0:33:10.280 feel like where you watch this know we came from 0:33:10.400 --> 0:33:13.200 mine just but if you don't. That's how we started 0:33:13.240 --> 0:33:15.400 the Internet is when we were literally children and we 0:33:15.480 --> 0:33:17.760 shouldn't have had access to the Internet, and we were 0:33:18.080 --> 0:33:23.960 posting vines. I was in my geometry class and using 0:33:24.000 --> 0:33:27.840 my fucking iPod Touch because I had an iPod Touch Android. 0:33:28.200 --> 0:33:30.760 Fun fact, I didn't have an iPhone until like. 0:33:30.960 --> 0:33:32.160 I'm not the Android. 0:33:32.320 --> 0:33:34.840 Until I was like I think sixteen, I had been 0:33:34.840 --> 0:33:39.280 posting like everything off. That was literally my thing. And 0:33:39.320 --> 0:33:42.280 that's why I'm sure you've seen me do like slide text. 0:33:42.520 --> 0:33:44.280 That's why I'm good at it and I like using 0:33:44.320 --> 0:33:47.520 it because androids were the first like phones to have that, 0:33:47.560 --> 0:33:49.280 and I would use it all the time. Because when 0:33:49.280 --> 0:33:50.840 I was texting the man who was grooming me in 0:33:50.840 --> 0:33:52.280 class and I was like, I love you so much, brave, 0:33:52.760 --> 0:33:56.600 Like meanwhile, babe, I'm in biology right now, so I 0:33:56.640 --> 0:33:58.000 can't send you a picture of me, but I will 0:33:58.000 --> 0:34:01.360 in a second, give me a second. Crazy, I remember, 0:34:01.600 --> 0:34:03.640 like also like this is just getting into it, but 0:34:03.680 --> 0:34:07.960 I remember, like my friends Tocard, who I'm still friends with, 0:34:08.239 --> 0:34:10.279 I don't even know if I've ever like spoken him 0:34:10.280 --> 0:34:12.560 about this, but no, I think he did know about 0:34:12.560 --> 0:34:14.640 this guy because like he the Card was the only 0:34:14.719 --> 0:34:17.480 other person in my life who like used the internet 0:34:17.560 --> 0:34:19.319 kind of to the same capacity as me, Like we 0:34:19.400 --> 0:34:21.359 both were like Tumblr users, and. 0:34:21.320 --> 0:34:21.560 Like I. 0:34:23.320 --> 0:34:27.759 Know, I love so much I eat that ship you. 0:34:27.760 --> 0:34:30.080 Probably seen, because now he does like fashion and like 0:34:30.160 --> 0:34:31.960 interior design, and. 0:34:31.920 --> 0:34:34.239 We have such similar tastes. We have texted about it before. 0:34:34.239 --> 0:34:37.600 I talked about it before, like the we have the 0:34:37.640 --> 0:34:40.319 exact same taste and we desire the exact same thing. 0:34:40.560 --> 0:34:42.960 I know, Like the Cards come over after a walk 0:34:43.000 --> 0:34:44.719 once and like came in and like I went to 0:34:44.760 --> 0:34:46.799 their into Druid's room and they were like looking at 0:34:46.840 --> 0:34:53.680 Chateau on Zillow. But I remember like during like it 0:34:53.800 --> 0:34:56.239 was like one of the things where like he had 0:34:56.280 --> 0:34:58.520 broken up with me because he's like, you're just like 0:34:59.040 --> 0:35:00.600 you're too young. I can't wait for you. And I 0:35:00.640 --> 0:35:08.000 was like, play, please wait hard. Like when I was 0:35:08.040 --> 0:35:11.279 like I had my bad habit when people would ask 0:35:11.320 --> 0:35:12.920 if I was okay, and I would just start crying. 0:35:12.960 --> 0:35:14.040 And so the Card it asked me if I was 0:35:14.040 --> 0:35:17.080 a kid, I was like you and I like went 0:35:17.120 --> 0:35:18.680 to the bathroom and the card came in with me 0:35:18.719 --> 0:35:23.560 and I was like, oh, crying. 0:35:23.239 --> 0:35:27.799 Over it and like it's dark. That is so dark. Yeah, 0:35:27.840 --> 0:35:30.200 I was just telling you recently that, like maybe I 0:35:30.200 --> 0:35:32.239 even said it on the fucking podcast, but like how 0:35:32.239 --> 0:35:35.600 I like am just now processing what the fuck I 0:35:35.760 --> 0:35:37.919 was doing when I was a sixteen year old. Yeah, 0:35:38.000 --> 0:35:42.640 fifteen year old, like driving illegally to Yeah, it's just. 0:35:42.640 --> 0:35:46.080 It's it's literally it's because it's like now it is 0:35:47.239 --> 0:35:50.680 far enough away and now we are like I mean, 0:35:51.040 --> 0:35:53.640 you're although you're only sixteen year brain is like coming 0:35:53.640 --> 0:35:57.200 to its full development. So now it is like the 0:35:57.440 --> 0:36:01.520 it's like damn, I'm like, I I've been an adult 0:36:01.600 --> 0:36:03.319 for long enough now that I'm like I am an 0:36:03.360 --> 0:36:05.680 adult and I'm looking at like things I did as 0:36:05.719 --> 0:36:08.439 a teenager and now I fully identify teenagers and I'm 0:36:08.440 --> 0:36:10.439 like that is like like I got into an argument 0:36:10.480 --> 0:36:12.120 with my little sister because I was like, girl, you 0:36:12.160 --> 0:36:14.080 are a child, Like you don't like I. 0:36:14.040 --> 0:36:17.239 You like, I promise, I promise you think you know how. 0:36:17.719 --> 0:36:20.160 My child, which again I know, like young people don't 0:36:20.200 --> 0:36:22.120 like to hear it, and I hated hearing it, but 0:36:22.160 --> 0:36:24.759 it is like that annoying thing where it's like when 0:36:24.800 --> 0:36:26.480 you're older, you'll look back and you'll be like I 0:36:26.520 --> 0:36:27.680 was a kid, and yeah. 0:36:27.719 --> 0:36:30.200 And even even like looking back when I thought I 0:36:30.239 --> 0:36:32.839 was older, when I was like twenty one, I was like, yeah, 0:36:32.840 --> 0:36:35.279 that shit's still fucking lit, Like I'm fucking lit for that. 0:36:35.680 --> 0:36:39.720 And now I'm like, oh my god, Oh my fucking god, 0:36:39.800 --> 0:36:42.000 what was I doing, dude. 0:36:42.800 --> 0:36:46.160 But like I remember what we're saying. Oh, yeah, I 0:36:46.239 --> 0:36:52.839 was in geometry when I know, in geometry, I that's 0:36:52.840 --> 0:36:53.320 where I. 0:36:53.200 --> 0:36:55.719 Was on the first five honestly, fucking so sad went. 0:36:55.640 --> 0:36:58.120 Viral your teenage years. 0:36:58.239 --> 0:37:00.680 Yeah, yeah, really sad. 0:37:01.280 --> 0:37:05.319 You know what, I'm here if you want to talk 0:37:05.360 --> 0:37:07.120 about it. 0:37:05.640 --> 0:37:05.719 And. 0:37:07.280 --> 0:37:10.279 We are, I know, our friend group loves sitting around 0:37:10.320 --> 0:37:13.040 and like talking about it, Like isn't that crazy? All right, 0:37:14.040 --> 0:37:19.840 let's watch Car Crash compilation. But yeah, I was in geometry, 0:37:19.840 --> 0:37:22.160 and I remember I had woken up also as I'm 0:37:22.160 --> 0:37:26.800 thinking about it, like we that era of like Twitter 0:37:26.840 --> 0:37:31.040 and Vine was so like dependent on being basically a 0:37:31.080 --> 0:37:34.040 fucking baby journalist, Like it was dependent on being a 0:37:34.080 --> 0:37:38.280 baby pop culture journalist. Because I remember after every VM 0:37:38.320 --> 0:37:43.360 a performance or anything to tweet it and then sometimes 0:37:43.400 --> 0:37:45.600 like I had a strict parent who would be like, 0:37:45.640 --> 0:37:47.799 you need to go to bed, like get off, and 0:37:47.840 --> 0:37:50.160 I would be like fuck. So the next morning I 0:37:50.200 --> 0:37:52.840 was always late to the fucking scraps of the jokes 0:37:53.000 --> 0:37:54.840 and I would be sitting in class and I remember 0:37:54.880 --> 0:37:58.799 that day I was watching one of Beyonce's performances from 0:37:58.800 --> 0:38:01.160 the night before. It wasn't the one where she like 0:38:02.640 --> 0:38:04.640 where she had like the screen behind her. I don't 0:38:04.680 --> 0:38:06.840 remember which one it was, but I remember like watching 0:38:06.880 --> 0:38:11.919 it and then being like fuck, okay, like what's the joke, 0:38:11.960 --> 0:38:13.680 Like what am I gonna say about this? Like, and 0:38:13.719 --> 0:38:17.120 like going to Twitter and then seeing that like the 0:38:17.239 --> 0:38:18.960 tweet of it did pretty good and I was like, 0:38:19.000 --> 0:38:21.600 oh wow. So I like clicked on it and it 0:38:21.640 --> 0:38:24.359 had done like at the time like for me, I 0:38:24.400 --> 0:38:25.960 was like, oh my god, this is like insane, like 0:38:25.960 --> 0:38:29.200 I'm literally viral. It got like eleven k likes and 0:38:29.239 --> 0:38:31.239 I was like, oh my god, like this is it. 0:38:31.320 --> 0:38:33.399 And but that's still when like the app was such 0:38:33.400 --> 0:38:36.040 a baby. Yeah, so that felt like humongous. It was like, 0:38:36.080 --> 0:38:37.480 oh my god, like I don't even know how many 0:38:37.480 --> 0:38:40.680 people are on this app, and I remember being like, fuck, okay, 0:38:40.680 --> 0:38:43.040 when I get home, I have to like to have 0:38:43.080 --> 0:38:44.719 a good joke and I have to like keep it going. 0:38:44.760 --> 0:38:47.080 And I remember every day after school in like middle 0:38:47.080 --> 0:38:50.200 school and high school, I would go to like if 0:38:50.239 --> 0:38:53.960 you have ever seen like my vines, which I would 0:38:54.239 --> 0:38:57.200 actually rather die than anybody like talk to me about 0:38:57.239 --> 0:39:00.840 them now. But there was like a desks that my 0:39:00.960 --> 0:39:02.480 dad had that I would always sit in that chair 0:39:02.480 --> 0:39:04.040 because that was like my after school chair. I would 0:39:04.040 --> 0:39:05.279 sit in it and like spin in it, and it 0:39:05.320 --> 0:39:07.440 was like this big comfy dust chair, and that's where 0:39:07.440 --> 0:39:08.759 I would make all them. And I would go there 0:39:08.920 --> 0:39:10.040 and I would sit there for an hour and I'd 0:39:10.080 --> 0:39:13.560 be like hmmm, and like maybe you'd be like, wow, 0:39:13.600 --> 0:39:14.920 what am I gonna talk about? And then like what 0:39:14.920 --> 0:39:18.000 I would talk about was like the dumbest shit ever. 0:39:18.320 --> 0:39:23.360 But my favorite shit ever was live tweeting American Horror Story. 0:39:24.120 --> 0:39:27.160 I love live tweeting, and then like just like getting 0:39:27.200 --> 0:39:29.839 into the deeper seasons and being like, wow, this show 0:39:29.920 --> 0:39:31.520 fucking sucks. 0:39:31.200 --> 0:39:34.360 Ball getting aggressively so loud. 0:39:34.239 --> 0:39:35.760 So hard, so quick. 0:39:35.640 --> 0:39:37.839 And then if we watched it now, like we would 0:39:37.880 --> 0:39:40.560 be like this fucking sucks. I'm trying to wait, what 0:39:40.600 --> 0:39:41.360 was it called? It was it? 0:39:41.400 --> 0:39:45.759 Asylum with Asylum, Coven Murder House were the three like 0:39:45.840 --> 0:39:46.480 good ones. 0:39:46.840 --> 0:39:49.239 Asylum was the first one. Oh, murder House was like 0:39:49.280 --> 0:39:52.120 the lit one. That's when everyone was really tapped in. 0:39:52.360 --> 0:39:57.120 That was the first season. Yeah, and then Coven super iconic, 0:39:57.440 --> 0:40:00.719 like I think that's their best season, and then like 0:40:00.760 --> 0:40:04.720 the Hotel I think was like the last Like okay. 0:40:04.680 --> 0:40:06.120 Because that's the Waga. 0:40:06.280 --> 0:40:07.600 Yeah, Goga was in it. 0:40:07.840 --> 0:40:11.400 I want to hold you close. I know, Oh that 0:40:11.520 --> 0:40:13.720 was such a good era. But yeah, I just remember 0:40:13.800 --> 0:40:16.120 like that taking up all my life and now I'm like, wow, 0:40:16.200 --> 0:40:20.120 I'm like still doing the Internet. And I was right. 0:40:21.520 --> 0:40:23.399 I knew. I knew I was on a stick too. Yeah. 0:40:23.440 --> 0:40:25.520 I don't think I ever had like a cognitive thought 0:40:25.520 --> 0:40:27.799 where I was like this is like, no, that's a lie. 0:40:27.840 --> 0:40:29.840 I remember having being like no, this is it. But 0:40:29.880 --> 0:40:32.080 I never had really any pushback from like people in 0:40:32.120 --> 0:40:34.799 my life other than like my friends in school, and 0:40:34.840 --> 0:40:36.480 that's the only people I ever knew. And my dad 0:40:36.520 --> 0:40:38.960 obviously was like what are you fucking doing? Like why 0:40:38.960 --> 0:40:40.560 are you dropping out of college? Like what are you? 0:40:40.600 --> 0:40:42.319 Like literally, what are you doing with your life, and 0:40:42.360 --> 0:40:43.120 I was like, did. 0:40:43.040 --> 0:40:45.640 I remember the era of me like begging you to 0:40:45.800 --> 0:40:48.319 like move And I was like, please just do it, 0:40:48.360 --> 0:40:49.799 like please, like yop. 0:40:49.640 --> 0:40:52.040 I always I was very committed to doing it. I 0:40:52.080 --> 0:40:55.080 just had to figure out how to like tell my 0:40:55.160 --> 0:40:57.759 vent And I remember I was literally just like I'm 0:40:57.760 --> 0:41:00.440 moving out and they were like, okay, but are you 0:41:00.440 --> 0:41:01.640 going to go to school? And I was like no. 0:41:01.760 --> 0:41:04.080 And then they were like, okay, well, we're not supporting 0:41:04.080 --> 0:41:05.840 you financially if you're not going to go to school. 0:41:05.880 --> 0:41:08.799 And I was like, okay, I support myself already, like 0:41:09.120 --> 0:41:11.400 I can do this. I'm fine. And I was just 0:41:11.400 --> 0:41:13.520 telling you there were like moments when I first moved 0:41:13.560 --> 0:41:16.160 to La where I was like broke. I was like, 0:41:16.280 --> 0:41:19.439 oh my god, like like I remember like actually being 0:41:19.440 --> 0:41:21.680 at a point where it was like I have to 0:41:21.719 --> 0:41:24.840 skip this meal so so I can like keep the 0:41:24.920 --> 0:41:27.000 same amount of money so I can like go back 0:41:27.040 --> 0:41:29.040 to Texas for the holidays, and shit, oh my god. 0:41:29.080 --> 0:41:32.960 I remember that like the first like two years of 0:41:33.000 --> 0:41:35.560 being like I remember even the first year being like, 0:41:35.760 --> 0:41:38.319 oh my god, it's so expensive to go home. And 0:41:38.320 --> 0:41:40.160 then I was like this is so much money, and 0:41:40.239 --> 0:41:42.960 like I'm not making money like that, Like and I 0:41:43.000 --> 0:41:44.400 was like, and I want to go home and like 0:41:44.440 --> 0:41:46.840 give my family gifts, but how the fuck am I 0:41:46.920 --> 0:41:49.920 supposed to do that with like this amount? Like it 0:41:49.960 --> 0:41:52.799 was so it was it's still so expensive. Like that's 0:41:52.800 --> 0:41:55.000 why every time the holidays come around, I like think 0:41:55.000 --> 0:41:56.759 about like how many people can't go back to their 0:41:56.760 --> 0:41:59.280 families and it makes me so it is so sad 0:41:59.320 --> 0:42:02.160 because it is one it's a truck, Like it's a 0:42:02.200 --> 0:42:04.400 big commitment to being able to do that and thankfully 0:42:04.400 --> 0:42:07.319 wearn the position where like financially we can and like 0:42:07.440 --> 0:42:11.080 also because we like time our job out however we want, 0:42:11.400 --> 0:42:13.920 we can go back. But like going back is huge, 0:42:14.040 --> 0:42:17.520 Like to go back to Miami is really expensive. Yeah, 0:42:17.520 --> 0:42:20.640 and it's always been so expensive the most like I've 0:42:20.680 --> 0:42:24.360 spent upwards And this sounds gnarly, but like I was 0:42:24.400 --> 0:42:26.279 gonna do it to go see my family. But I 0:42:26.280 --> 0:42:29.200 remember that first year, it literally like ripped my fucking 0:42:29.239 --> 0:42:31.840 brain out of my skull. I didn't realize that I 0:42:31.840 --> 0:42:33.960 should have gotten my ticket way earlier, and I got 0:42:34.000 --> 0:42:35.680 it like a week before I was supposed to leave 0:42:35.680 --> 0:42:38.240 for like a week and a half. And I'm still 0:42:38.280 --> 0:42:40.120 pretty bad at it. Now I've gotten way better, and 0:42:40.160 --> 0:42:44.240 I like, I dig for a cheap ticket, but at 0:42:44.280 --> 0:42:46.720 the time for a round trip from LA to Miami, 0:42:47.000 --> 0:42:50.080 it was twelve hundred dollars. And also I couldn't fucking 0:42:50.160 --> 0:42:51.239 ask my parents, so I. 0:42:51.239 --> 0:42:56.080 Was like, dude. Also, like pre pandemic, like how expensive 0:42:56.239 --> 0:42:59.719 flights were, Like I think like the pandemic was a 0:42:59.760 --> 0:43:01.680 low key like a good thing for the flight industry 0:43:01.719 --> 0:43:04.640 at least as like consumers, because now the flights are 0:43:04.680 --> 0:43:09.880 so expensive. They're just now recently like getting back to 0:43:09.920 --> 0:43:12.520 the price that they were, but like for like three 0:43:12.640 --> 0:43:15.280 years you could fly for literally pennies on the dollar 0:43:16.040 --> 0:43:20.120 and then now it's like expensive again. But like, yeah, 0:43:20.160 --> 0:43:23.799 I remember just like it was. So I remember I 0:43:23.840 --> 0:43:25.640 had to ask my parents to buy me a flight 0:43:25.640 --> 0:43:28.560 at home one time, and they were like, are you struggling, 0:43:28.560 --> 0:43:29.880 Like do you need to move home? And I was 0:43:29.920 --> 0:43:32.160 like no, like I'm genuinely okay, like I need to 0:43:32.200 --> 0:43:33.680 do this because I need to be out here and 0:43:33.680 --> 0:43:37.719 I want I think, Yeah, I was so embarrassed. I 0:43:37.760 --> 0:43:41.760 hate people paying anything for any any amount of money 0:43:41.760 --> 0:43:42.640 for me on anything. 0:43:42.760 --> 0:43:45.800 I remember I've had to ask you for like money 0:43:45.840 --> 0:43:47.520 I've had, I've had to be the person where. 0:43:47.360 --> 0:43:52.000 I'm like some but like I I don't mind giving 0:43:52.000 --> 0:43:54.680 it to people because I literally you're so y'all are 0:43:54.680 --> 0:43:56.520 so integrated into my life that if you don't pay 0:43:56.560 --> 0:43:58.920 me back, I'll just find your family and hurt them. 0:43:58.960 --> 0:44:01.160 Oh my god, wow that just like don't even like 0:44:01.200 --> 0:44:02.919 take like give us the money. 0:44:03.239 --> 0:44:06.719 I caught myself literally like yesterday, like almost doing that 0:44:06.719 --> 0:44:10.080 to Josiah, and then I was like, no, no, like stop, 0:44:10.239 --> 0:44:12.560 like you it's like funny to like. 0:44:12.640 --> 0:44:14.800 It's about but then but then like you're. 0:44:14.640 --> 0:44:17.120 Like, oh wait, this is coming from a real place, 0:44:17.280 --> 0:44:18.640 Like is this coming from a real place. 0:44:18.680 --> 0:44:21.120 It's also funny because like money is just such a 0:44:21.160 --> 0:44:25.240 like contingent point of like for I like think most people, 0:44:25.400 --> 0:44:27.560 like even all around the world. It's crazy how like 0:44:27.600 --> 0:44:31.359 integrated it is into like embarrassment and shame like based. 0:44:31.080 --> 0:44:32.880 On like it's not even fucking real. 0:44:33.320 --> 0:44:35.239 I know none of it is real, but it is. 0:44:35.280 --> 0:44:37.959 But it's crazy because it's so real but it's not real. 0:44:38.239 --> 0:44:40.520 Like the fact that like I could literally print fake 0:44:40.560 --> 0:44:42.520 money right now and like kind of get away for 0:44:42.600 --> 0:44:44.360 it with it for a little bit just proves that 0:44:44.400 --> 0:44:47.799 it's not real. But don't do that. Have I ever 0:44:47.840 --> 0:44:50.920 told that story about me buying fake money? 0:44:51.160 --> 0:44:51.399 No? 0:44:54.080 --> 0:44:56.439 Have I really not. I don't know what you're talking 0:44:56.480 --> 0:44:57.800 about on the dark web. 0:44:58.880 --> 0:45:01.200 Oh no, you have, you have because we've had We've 0:45:01.200 --> 0:45:03.680 had a whole conversation about the dark web too, because 0:45:03.680 --> 0:45:05.560 I was like, what is that? Like, I don't understand what. 0:45:05.600 --> 0:45:09.160 I'm gonna tell it very briefly, just because it's been 0:45:09.480 --> 0:45:13.839 so long, but I it was like around the time 0:45:13.840 --> 0:45:18.120 that I like started the end, like was like kind 0:45:18.160 --> 0:45:20.160 of a thing on the internet, and I remember I 0:45:20.200 --> 0:45:23.719 was like seeing everybody in this same like bracket as 0:45:23.760 --> 0:45:25.920 me online with like a bunch of cool shit and 0:45:25.960 --> 0:45:28.080 like a bunch of money and all this shit, and 0:45:28.120 --> 0:45:31.960 like I was so inconsumable to brands that like I 0:45:32.040 --> 0:45:34.840 never made any cash on anything I ever did, and 0:45:34.960 --> 0:45:38.239 like whatever, not the end of the world. But I 0:45:38.280 --> 0:45:43.759 remember I wanted to be like people. So I attempted 0:45:43.800 --> 0:45:47.080 to buy fake fifty thousand dollars in fake cash on 0:45:47.160 --> 0:45:52.200 the dark web and my uh with like bitcoin, and 0:45:52.200 --> 0:45:54.799 then that's how I had bitcoin. That like that's part 0:45:54.840 --> 0:45:56.359 of the reason why I was able to move out 0:45:56.400 --> 0:45:59.799 here was because it failed yeah, and I it was 0:45:59.840 --> 0:46:02.799 like the first spike in bitcoin, and I sold it 0:46:02.840 --> 0:46:05.680 all when it first spiked. And the only reason I 0:46:05.719 --> 0:46:07.480 had it was because I told my older brother that 0:46:07.520 --> 0:46:11.640 I wanted to buy hallucinogens online. I was like a child, 0:46:12.320 --> 0:46:14.439 and he should have said no, but he was like, yeah, fine, 0:46:14.440 --> 0:46:16.600 I'll give you some cash. But he was also a child, 0:46:17.920 --> 0:46:20.239 and he gave me like some bitcoin because he he 0:46:20.360 --> 0:46:25.080 was like mining bitcoin for years. And then yeah, I 0:46:25.120 --> 0:46:27.440 failed at buying the mushrooms, and then I was like, 0:46:27.480 --> 0:46:30.359 I'm gonna buy fake cash. Fuck it. I didn't even 0:46:30.360 --> 0:46:32.920 attempt buy the mushrooms, but fucking I'm gonna buy fake cash. 0:46:33.640 --> 0:46:35.560 Failed at that. I was so scared because the first 0:46:35.640 --> 0:46:38.239 article I looked up was like fourteen year old kid 0:46:38.320 --> 0:46:41.680 goes to prison for ten years. I know, it's probably 0:46:41.719 --> 0:46:46.520 not even fucking real. But then I just held onto 0:46:46.560 --> 0:46:48.399 it for like three years and then it blew up 0:46:48.520 --> 0:46:51.200 and I was able to move out here that in 0:46:51.239 --> 0:46:52.000 my merch drop. 0:46:52.320 --> 0:46:57.800 But yeah, I what who was like the first because 0:46:57.840 --> 0:47:01.560 also with this year, we like officially come up on 0:47:01.680 --> 0:47:02.320 ten years. 0:47:02.680 --> 0:47:04.719 Yeah, just fucking cause we've been. 0:47:04.520 --> 0:47:06.480 For the past year. We've been like ten years, sen 0:47:06.600 --> 0:47:09.920 years because like, I guess we've kind of known of 0:47:09.960 --> 0:47:12.360 each other for ten years already, but this is like 0:47:12.400 --> 0:47:18.280 ten years of life not speaking, which is actually insane. 0:47:18.320 --> 0:47:22.239 Who was the first like friend, who you're like kind 0:47:22.280 --> 0:47:24.120 of still friends with, who you like had had a 0:47:24.120 --> 0:47:27.279 real conversation with, like who like like or not even 0:47:27.280 --> 0:47:28.799 who you're still friends with. Who was the first person 0:47:28.880 --> 0:47:32.120 you remember like exchange exchanging a phone number with and 0:47:32.160 --> 0:47:33.279 like getting on the phone. 0:47:33.040 --> 0:47:38.480 With Dana really yeah, it was Dana, Sydney and Savannah 0:47:38.520 --> 0:47:41.919 the Holy Trinity. Those are my girls. Like we even 0:47:41.960 --> 0:47:44.880 did like a fucking meet and gree on Club Penguin, 0:47:45.800 --> 0:47:49.000 and it was just like it was them. And then 0:47:49.120 --> 0:47:57.080 that led to Christian who was next. And then I 0:47:57.320 --> 0:48:05.640 met like Josh and Lucas over Zoom and UVU yeah uvu, 0:48:06.840 --> 0:48:13.360 And then I met you through like the internet. 0:48:13.400 --> 0:48:18.960 I don't know, but yeah, I think my first my 0:48:19.080 --> 0:48:21.120 first people who I actually ever spoke on the phone 0:48:21.160 --> 0:48:25.359 with was this guy Chris who I knew, and it 0:48:25.400 --> 0:48:27.319 was Emma And also when we're saying Emma, we mean 0:48:27.400 --> 0:48:31.400 greer and like those are just the first people I 0:48:31.440 --> 0:48:35.160 ever like spoke on the phone. Was like yeah, and 0:48:35.200 --> 0:48:37.000 I like that was like one of my I had 0:48:37.080 --> 0:48:40.480 known Emma for like so long because I used to 0:48:40.480 --> 0:48:43.040 be obsessed with her because I thought she was really 0:48:43.080 --> 0:48:48.319 funny in like twenty twelve, twenty thirteen, because she just 0:48:48.400 --> 0:48:50.840 was already like such a big personality on the internet. 0:48:50.880 --> 0:48:52.560 And I remember I was like obsessed with her, and 0:48:52.600 --> 0:48:54.640 I remember I used to like tweet at her a bunch, 0:48:54.760 --> 0:48:57.480 like I was like so like I was. I literally 0:48:57.520 --> 0:49:01.480 thought she was so funny, and then like we became friends, 0:49:01.560 --> 0:49:04.799 and her really close friend at the time, Chris, we 0:49:04.880 --> 0:49:08.520 all became friends. And like I remember again, I had 0:49:08.560 --> 0:49:10.359 strict parents who, like they were like, do not fucking 0:49:10.400 --> 0:49:11.799 talk to people on the internet, And like when my 0:49:11.800 --> 0:49:13.960 parents weren't home, I got on UVU, and I remember 0:49:14.000 --> 0:49:15.839 Emma used to make fun of me so bad because 0:49:15.840 --> 0:49:18.120 you'd be like, what the fuck your parents think, Like 0:49:18.160 --> 0:49:20.840 we're gonna kidnap you, Like what are you talking about? 0:49:20.960 --> 0:49:22.560 And I was like, no, it's just they don't know 0:49:22.600 --> 0:49:24.960 who I'm talking to. And like we would always like 0:49:25.080 --> 0:49:26.799 joke and talk, and like I remember so many times 0:49:26.800 --> 0:49:28.759 I'd be on UVU with them and like we'd just 0:49:28.800 --> 0:49:30.799 be talking and they were actually the first people who 0:49:30.800 --> 0:49:33.160 I ever knew who watched like ru Paul's Drag Race too, 0:49:33.680 --> 0:49:35.480 and they were like they would talk about it, but 0:49:35.480 --> 0:49:37.080 I would kind of just sit in because I didn't 0:49:37.120 --> 0:49:39.040 watch it, and I would just like I would basically 0:49:39.080 --> 0:49:40.520 like a lot of times to watch them talk because 0:49:40.560 --> 0:49:44.720 I was still so shy and like really reserved, because 0:49:44.760 --> 0:49:47.319 like dude, I was just always so reserved. Like I 0:49:47.400 --> 0:49:49.919 literally like I didn't tell anybody about my personal life 0:49:50.000 --> 0:49:53.239 until like I was like twenty or like nineteen, so 0:49:53.320 --> 0:49:55.040 like I was just I was always very like reserved 0:49:55.040 --> 0:49:57.839 in that way. But I remember one time my dad 0:49:57.840 --> 0:49:59.880 came home from getting groceries and I like slimmed the 0:50:00.239 --> 0:50:02.319 talking now and I shoved it under my blankets. And 0:50:02.360 --> 0:50:04.480 then Emma made fun of me so crazy because she 0:50:04.560 --> 0:50:06.560 was like, girl, what the fuck, Like why did you 0:50:06.600 --> 0:50:07.920 get off? And I was like, my dad came home 0:50:07.960 --> 0:50:09.320 and he doesn't know why I talked to you guys, 0:50:09.560 --> 0:50:11.640 and she was like, you were so fucking weird for 0:50:11.719 --> 0:50:13.640 hiding this. You're not doing anything wrong, and I was like, 0:50:13.840 --> 0:50:18.120 you don't understand. And then I remember she I also 0:50:18.239 --> 0:50:21.560 loved Sydney, and she like knew I thought Sydney was 0:50:21.560 --> 0:50:23.320 really funny. And like at this point, I think I 0:50:23.360 --> 0:50:25.399 had I had mutuals with all these people, but because 0:50:25.400 --> 0:50:28.640 I was so reserved and like really like I was 0:50:28.800 --> 0:50:31.360 grown up on the idea that like talking to obviously 0:50:31.400 --> 0:50:33.880 like these strangers, like it wasn't real. So I was 0:50:33.920 --> 0:50:34.960 just like I never reached out there. 0:50:35.040 --> 0:50:37.800 I just didn't even really have an interest too, like myself, 0:50:37.840 --> 0:50:39.640 Like I didn't really like I had all these mutuals, 0:50:39.640 --> 0:50:42.160 but I I kind of was like content with my 0:50:42.239 --> 0:50:46.200 life like outside of the Internet, and then yeah, things changed. 0:50:46.600 --> 0:50:49.879 I think I wasn't like I had friends, but like 0:50:50.320 --> 0:50:53.200 I wasn't like hanging out with people outside of school. 0:50:53.280 --> 0:50:55.200 So like I did have this like kind of gap 0:50:55.239 --> 0:50:58.359 of loneliness within talking to people my age other than 0:50:58.400 --> 0:51:01.080 my siblings. So I was like always kind of craving 0:51:01.120 --> 0:51:05.239 to talk to somebody, which led to other things that 0:51:05.280 --> 0:51:07.960 were naughty, but like I was always craving to talk 0:51:07.960 --> 0:51:10.480 to somebody. I remember one time I think I think 0:51:10.600 --> 0:51:13.680 I maybe Dana and Savannah and then were on this 0:51:13.880 --> 0:51:15.520 because then there was that guy Ed. 0:51:16.160 --> 0:51:17.000 Do you remember Ed? 0:51:17.040 --> 0:51:20.160 Literally I think I do too. 0:51:20.080 --> 0:51:23.279 And like all of them were like like on there 0:51:23.440 --> 0:51:26.080 talking and like Emma was like, oh, I'm gonna call 0:51:26.120 --> 0:51:27.279 you and I was like okay, and she was like, 0:51:27.360 --> 0:51:29.200 just answer and I was like what. I was like, 0:51:29.239 --> 0:51:30.879 it's Chris and she's like no, and I was like okay, 0:51:30.880 --> 0:51:34.160 it's just us. And she threw me into like a 0:51:34.200 --> 0:51:37.360 big chat room with all these people, and I remember 0:51:37.560 --> 0:51:40.879 just being I was so silent, and I remember being 0:51:40.960 --> 0:51:42.880 so fucking mad at her, and I was like, you 0:51:43.080 --> 0:51:45.600 fucking bitch. You were like trying to fucking embarrass me. 0:51:45.600 --> 0:51:48.319 And I was so mad. But then like after I 0:51:48.360 --> 0:51:50.160 was like the happiest ever because I ended up talking 0:51:50.200 --> 0:51:52.480 and like becoming friends with all these people and it 0:51:52.560 --> 0:51:54.160 was fucking awesome. And I was like, oh my god, 0:51:54.239 --> 0:51:56.160 Like all these people find the same things I find 0:51:56.160 --> 0:51:58.359 funny funny, and like we're like getting along so well. 0:51:58.840 --> 0:52:01.200 I truly believe that is like a real thing that 0:52:01.320 --> 0:52:06.080 like like the I don't know how to word it, 0:52:06.120 --> 0:52:09.399 but like you will find the people that you're meant 0:52:09.400 --> 0:52:14.600 to find eventually, like like there's a reason why you Me, 0:52:15.800 --> 0:52:20.160 Josh Lucas, Christian o'riyan, Josiah like all of us, Like 0:52:20.200 --> 0:52:23.160 there's a reason why, like we're all friends together and 0:52:23.239 --> 0:52:26.880 why we all find the same like things funny and 0:52:26.920 --> 0:52:28.520 why we all have the same sense of humor. It's 0:52:28.520 --> 0:52:31.279 just like literally divine intervention, like we were like meant 0:52:31.320 --> 0:52:33.400 to find each other. And I truly believe that, like 0:52:33.480 --> 0:52:35.800 you will find your people, like just based off like 0:52:35.840 --> 0:52:38.040 the energy that you put out into the universe. But 0:52:39.360 --> 0:52:43.359 you said mentioned RuPaul's Drag Race. I remember being like 0:52:43.680 --> 0:52:47.279 literally a fucking child, like like I want to say, 0:52:47.320 --> 0:52:50.759 like thirteen, and like finding RuPaul's Drag Race are like 0:52:50.800 --> 0:52:56.799 whenever Netflix first like had the streaming service, and I 0:52:56.840 --> 0:52:58.880 remember RuPaul's Drag Race was on there. It was like 0:52:58.920 --> 0:53:03.280 season one through eight, and I remember watching that show 0:53:03.719 --> 0:53:08.000 religiously as like a child, and it was so scary 0:53:08.080 --> 0:53:09.759 to be watching it because I would be watching it 0:53:09.800 --> 0:53:12.480 on like my dad's computer or my mom's computer in 0:53:12.520 --> 0:53:14.440 their bed and like while they're gone, and then they 0:53:14.480 --> 0:53:15.799 would come home and it was like I was like 0:53:15.880 --> 0:53:17.759 watching porn or something, and I would hide it and 0:53:17.800 --> 0:53:21.560 like log out and do all this crazy shit and like, yeah, 0:53:21.600 --> 0:53:24.720 I completely forgot that, Like there's like a watch history 0:53:24.760 --> 0:53:26.680 and like you can see like what you're watching, but 0:53:26.840 --> 0:53:31.600 like was absolutely mortified that someone would catch me watching 0:53:31.680 --> 0:53:35.359 RuPaul's Drag Race. But yeah, that shit was lit. But 0:53:35.560 --> 0:53:37.400 the same thing happened to me, where like I was 0:53:37.440 --> 0:53:39.960 thrust it into a group chat with like Lucas and 0:53:40.440 --> 0:53:43.719 Josh and shit and I they say the same thing now, 0:53:43.760 --> 0:53:46.520 but I was like petrified of them. I like looked 0:53:46.560 --> 0:53:47.279 up to them in like. 0:53:47.280 --> 0:53:49.040 Such a crazy way. 0:53:50.160 --> 0:53:52.279 Yeah, and they were saying that like they felt the 0:53:52.320 --> 0:53:53.920 same way about me, and I was like, there's no 0:53:54.000 --> 0:53:56.160 fucking way, because I just like literally don't think I 0:53:56.200 --> 0:53:58.080 was ever funny, Like I don't think I was. I 0:53:58.080 --> 0:54:00.720 don't think I'm funny. I don't. I know I'm funny 0:54:00.719 --> 0:54:02.399 now because I'm like one of the funniest people live, 0:54:02.480 --> 0:54:04.359 But back then I didn't think anything I was doing 0:54:04.400 --> 0:54:06.880 was important or funny. But like Lucas was like saying 0:54:06.920 --> 0:54:08.680 the same thing. He's like, I was like fucking. 0:54:08.440 --> 0:54:10.759 Nervous to I know, we talked about all the time 0:54:10.800 --> 0:54:12.920 because I remember I was like so nervous because I 0:54:12.920 --> 0:54:16.319 I Jenny always the funniest people, especially on Bind to 0:54:16.400 --> 0:54:18.719 Me were Lucas and Josh, like. 0:54:18.920 --> 0:54:20.520 I always thought they were. 0:54:20.719 --> 0:54:24.040 They were just so good and like so comedically inclined. 0:54:24.080 --> 0:54:25.799 And I remember being honestly Christian too. 0:54:26.160 --> 0:54:29.359 Christian was fucking hilarious. It was like so funny. He's 0:54:29.400 --> 0:54:33.680 so stupid, Like Christian is like the weirdest motherfucker I've 0:54:33.680 --> 0:54:34.000 ever met. 0:54:34.440 --> 0:54:38.600 Have I ever talked about the first time I met Orian? 0:54:39.760 --> 0:54:42.080 Dude, No, not publicly. Should we save it for like 0:54:42.120 --> 0:54:44.040 if we ever actually fucking have her on, because I 0:54:44.040 --> 0:54:47.200 have a story about Josh that I like really want 0:54:47.239 --> 0:54:47.520 to tell. 0:54:47.560 --> 0:54:50.239 But I'm like, girl, We're never gonna have ryan on. 0:54:50.800 --> 0:54:51.919 No we will this year. 0:54:52.320 --> 0:54:56.279 Never say never, We'll see, we'll see, but I'll say it. 0:54:56.560 --> 0:55:00.560 But yeah, I just remember, Like it's so funny because 0:55:00.600 --> 0:55:04.160 now these are like all like genuinely my family, Like 0:55:04.280 --> 0:55:07.520 leaving for Christmas, I'm always like, oh, I wish I 0:55:07.560 --> 0:55:09.560 could bring everybody with me. But then I'm like, they 0:55:09.600 --> 0:55:12.360 all have family, and I'm grateful and I'm happy that 0:55:12.400 --> 0:55:14.239 everybody has family they love and can go back to you. 0:55:14.360 --> 0:55:18.680 Mine is slowly dwindling away and expiring. I'm losing so 0:55:18.800 --> 0:55:20.000 many people in my life. 0:55:20.600 --> 0:55:21.640 It's crazy. 0:55:22.280 --> 0:55:24.799 No, no, no, don't say that they're still here and 0:55:24.840 --> 0:55:25.480 they will be here. 0:55:25.960 --> 0:55:27.440 Don't be in my heart forever. 0:55:28.200 --> 0:55:30.759 You'll be in like Bart forever. But yeah, it's just 0:55:30.800 --> 0:55:32.799 so funny that now it's like truly coming up on 0:55:32.840 --> 0:55:35.640 ten years and it's like wow, man, like I was 0:55:35.680 --> 0:55:38.279 a kid like exploring so much on the Internet and 0:55:38.280 --> 0:55:40.839 it's like it was such a new frontier still and 0:55:40.880 --> 0:55:43.560 like I don't know, it's just so funny to think about, 0:55:43.640 --> 0:55:45.960 Like it's crazy. And I remember the second person I 0:55:45.960 --> 0:55:48.600 had ever spoken to like or like, I guess it 0:55:48.680 --> 0:55:52.520 was like the first like like specifically like boy I 0:55:52.520 --> 0:55:55.240 had spoken to so like that made me extremely nervous 0:55:55.239 --> 0:55:57.120 because I was just like, Fuck, my dad finds I'm 0:55:57.120 --> 0:55:58.640 talking to a boy, He's gonna think I'm like gonna 0:55:58.680 --> 0:56:00.719 go get like fucking like kidnapped by like a man. 0:56:01.000 --> 0:56:02.520 If he finds out I'm talking to a boy on 0:56:02.560 --> 0:56:05.160 the phone who doesn't live in my area, he's gonna 0:56:05.160 --> 0:56:05.479 be like. 0:56:05.440 --> 0:56:06.920 Did your dad know that we talked? 0:56:08.280 --> 0:56:10.799 No, my dad, my because my dad was just so 0:56:11.080 --> 0:56:13.719 like for the right reasons, was really fearful of the Internet. 0:56:13.800 --> 0:56:16.799 Like he he wasn't even really using the internet. We 0:56:16.800 --> 0:56:18.480 weren't like an internet like forward. 0:56:18.560 --> 0:56:21.359 That just blows my mind because of how close we were. 0:56:21.400 --> 0:56:25.320 We were talking like every day every My dad. 0:56:25.160 --> 0:56:26.960 Like thought like the people I would like text and 0:56:27.000 --> 0:56:29.320 talk to on my phone were just like my friends 0:56:29.440 --> 0:56:32.120 until we got onto a tour. Then he like that 0:56:32.160 --> 0:56:34.080 will like was like a change, and I really had 0:56:34.080 --> 0:56:35.719 to force my dad to like let me go on tour, 0:56:35.760 --> 0:56:38.040 and I had to fucking beg I remember the moment 0:56:38.120 --> 0:56:40.399 he like said yes to it and agreed to it, 0:56:40.600 --> 0:56:42.680 and it was like I went outside and like it 0:56:42.800 --> 0:56:44.399 was like at the house they still live in now, 0:56:44.400 --> 0:56:46.280 and we like sat on that on those same chairs 0:56:46.280 --> 0:56:48.600 that are out there, and I was like I just 0:56:48.600 --> 0:56:49.759 like looked at him and I was like, if you 0:56:49.800 --> 0:56:51.360 don't let me do this, like this will be the 0:56:51.400 --> 0:56:53.560 most heartbreaking thing ever, and I think, like it will 0:56:53.560 --> 0:56:55.160 be something I regret for the rest of my life 0:56:55.200 --> 0:56:57.360 and like this will this will be life changing for me. 0:56:57.680 --> 0:57:00.440 And like I literally went outside and I it to 0:57:00.520 --> 0:57:02.719 him and then like he just sat there in silence, 0:57:02.840 --> 0:57:04.840 and like it was all always out of like just 0:57:04.920 --> 0:57:08.040 concern for me. Like my dad was just like hyper paranoid, 0:57:08.080 --> 0:57:09.520 Like we didn't grow up in an area where it 0:57:09.560 --> 0:57:12.359 was very safe already, so like obviously like especially for 0:57:12.400 --> 0:57:15.120 like young like girls, So he was just like that 0:57:15.440 --> 0:57:16.800 was just like always on his mind. And then I 0:57:16.800 --> 0:57:19.000 remember he like said yes to it and then he 0:57:19.120 --> 0:57:21.360 was like, he was like, but if some if one 0:57:21.400 --> 0:57:23.640 thing goes wrong, it is done, like you were packing 0:57:23.640 --> 0:57:25.320 it all up and it is done. And then like 0:57:25.560 --> 0:57:27.960 I remember the one the one thing he said to me, 0:57:28.000 --> 0:57:29.960 and I think he was really concerned because again of 0:57:30.000 --> 0:57:32.840 like general history, he was like always really concerned about 0:57:32.880 --> 0:57:37.080 his kids, like ever like drinking or using drugs and 0:57:37.080 --> 0:57:39.120 stuff like which I feel like most parents are always 0:57:39.280 --> 0:57:42.040 concerned for I remember, like the one thing is he 0:57:42.040 --> 0:57:44.560 said to me. He was like, and you just like 0:57:46.320 --> 0:57:49.800 never leave a cup unattended and like he like said 0:57:49.800 --> 0:57:54.600 that to me, and like it wasn't even like over 0:57:54.760 --> 0:57:56.400 like you or anything. He was just he was just 0:57:56.440 --> 0:57:58.680 like never and like that was like the thing he 0:57:58.680 --> 0:58:00.240 said to me. And he was like, and please be 0:58:00.320 --> 0:58:02.480 safe because I think like that weekend because that I 0:58:02.600 --> 0:58:04.000 was pushing it so hard because it was like that 0:58:04.080 --> 0:58:06.040 was like the determining weekend if I was gonna start 0:58:06.440 --> 0:58:09.920 or not. And yeah, but he didn't know I was 0:58:09.960 --> 0:58:12.880 like friends with anybody even up until like I remember 0:58:12.920 --> 0:58:17.400 like even when like Emma passed, like like that was 0:58:17.440 --> 0:58:19.480 so hard to explain to him, Like I was just 0:58:19.480 --> 0:58:20.760 like I remember I was like at the beach with 0:58:20.800 --> 0:58:23.120 my family. I remember that was like so hard to 0:58:23.160 --> 0:58:25.880 explain and I was like no, like because I also 0:58:25.960 --> 0:58:27.880 didn't want to out that I had been using the internet, 0:58:28.080 --> 0:58:30.280 but I was like, no, this is somebody I know 0:58:30.360 --> 0:58:31.840 and he was like it's someone you follow and I 0:58:31.840 --> 0:58:34.680 was like no, it's like and like I like just 0:58:34.800 --> 0:58:36.400 didn't know how to like explain it to him, and 0:58:36.400 --> 0:58:38.760 I was like and he he was like didn't know 0:58:38.800 --> 0:58:41.600 how to help me. He was like he was like 0:58:41.680 --> 0:58:44.160 I don't get it, Like have you seen this person before? 0:58:44.200 --> 0:58:46.960 And I was like yes, but like on my phone. 0:58:47.080 --> 0:58:48.800 Like it was just so funny to like try to 0:58:48.800 --> 0:58:51.000 explain that to him, or like being at the beach 0:58:51.040 --> 0:58:53.479 and just being like and I also was funny because 0:58:53.520 --> 0:58:56.880 like at that time, I like I like had friends, 0:58:56.920 --> 0:58:58.560 but again I was so reserved, like I didn't really 0:58:58.600 --> 0:59:00.000 have anyone to talk to about it, which was all 0:59:00.080 --> 0:59:01.960 so like such a crazy thing. But that's a whole 0:59:02.000 --> 0:59:04.440 other topic, but like, yeah, it's just so funny, Like 0:59:04.480 --> 0:59:07.240 my dad had no idea like I had a whole 0:59:07.280 --> 0:59:12.400 community of like he literally like he was so unaware 0:59:12.440 --> 0:59:12.720 of that. 0:59:12.800 --> 0:59:14.680 It's like Hannah Montana. 0:59:14.320 --> 0:59:16.360 I was the thing of zubble life I literally was. 0:59:16.360 --> 0:59:19.040 Like, was that the first time anybody's cried on the podcast? 0:59:20.520 --> 0:59:21.000 Maybe? 0:59:21.240 --> 0:59:25.000 Oh my god, wow? 0:59:26.080 --> 0:59:30.600 But yeah, I just remember, like my dad just didn't 0:59:30.600 --> 0:59:32.840 fucking know. Dude, he had no idea. I think he 0:59:32.840 --> 0:59:35.800 had an inkling, like he's not like dumb. My dad 0:59:35.880 --> 0:59:37.720 isn't like he wasn't like what's the internet? Like he 0:59:37.760 --> 0:59:41.320 had Facebook, but he wasn't like using it like for 0:59:41.480 --> 0:59:43.800 like to meet different people. I don't even think he 0:59:43.880 --> 0:59:45.320 still is doing that's. 0:59:44.960 --> 0:59:54.040 Like whatever, Well I saw your dad on grinder. M hm, yeah, 0:59:55.680 --> 0:59:56.880 so he is using it to me. 0:59:57.280 --> 0:59:58.520 He didn't like inter them. 0:59:58.600 --> 1:00:04.560 No, we matched and I hit like crazy the second 1:00:04.560 --> 1:00:06.160 time someone's cried on the podcast. 1:00:08.760 --> 1:00:10.320 But yeah, I don't even know why I got into that. Oh, 1:00:10.360 --> 1:00:12.200 but I was just basically, yeah, my dad had no 1:00:12.320 --> 1:00:15.120 idea that I like had so many friends on the internet, 1:00:15.160 --> 1:00:16.880 and I think like even like I think when I 1:00:16.920 --> 1:00:21.120 went to press play, he knew maybe that I knew 1:00:21.160 --> 1:00:23.480 Christian because my dad was like, how did this even happen? 1:00:23.520 --> 1:00:25.520 And I was like, well, one of my like like 1:00:25.560 --> 1:00:28.240 friends who I follow like added me on or whatever. 1:00:28.320 --> 1:00:30.800 Because Christian was also like the second person I had 1:00:30.840 --> 1:00:32.919 like spoken to on the phone. I remember he spoke 1:00:32.960 --> 1:00:34.880 to me on the phone because he was basically recruiting 1:00:34.920 --> 1:00:37.040 me for press Play because we had all been like 1:00:37.080 --> 1:00:39.919 texting and talking so much, like not vocally, but we'd 1:00:39.960 --> 1:00:44.560 been talking so much, like that whole crew that was forming. 1:00:44.840 --> 1:00:47.200 And I was like, he was like, can I call 1:00:47.240 --> 1:00:49.240 you because like I need to ask, like I'm confused, 1:00:49.280 --> 1:00:51.000 like what's your setup? And I was like, oh my god. 1:00:51.040 --> 1:00:52.560 And then Christian ended up telling me that he was 1:00:52.560 --> 1:00:55.440 in the same position that, like his parents still were 1:00:55.520 --> 1:00:57.520 kind of like confused about it, like he was like 1:00:57.560 --> 1:00:59.680 on press Play, but they were still like, don't talk 1:00:59.720 --> 1:01:01.560 to new people on the internet. Like they were like 1:01:01.600 --> 1:01:05.040 still very like don't because like we've seen who you know, 1:01:05.240 --> 1:01:07.440 and we don't want you to keep meeting random people 1:01:07.520 --> 1:01:10.360 because you've lived this far without being kidnapped, but you 1:01:10.400 --> 1:01:11.320 will be kidnapped. 1:01:11.480 --> 1:01:17.160 And he's always surprising that we weren't kidnapped, but shocking. 1:01:17.280 --> 1:01:18.320 I mean we basically were. 1:01:18.480 --> 1:01:23.840 Yeah, we were held, we were held captive emotionally, but yeah. 1:01:23.880 --> 1:01:26.720 I remember with my parents they like genuinely didn't care. 1:01:26.840 --> 1:01:29.600 They were like whatever, like do whatever you want. 1:01:29.760 --> 1:01:32.040 Next episode, will we'll talk about the tour because like 1:01:32.080 --> 1:01:33.840 I can't. We we need to just talk about it 1:01:33.880 --> 1:01:34.920 because we. 1:01:34.880 --> 1:01:36.560 Need Christian on but he'll never do that. 1:01:36.800 --> 1:01:38.120 Yeah, just too much. 1:01:38.240 --> 1:01:40.840 Yeah, it was. It was a lot we did. There 1:01:40.920 --> 1:01:44.800 was a lot of crazy shit that we got into 1:01:44.960 --> 1:01:51.240 that went down this weird, weird vibes. But it was 1:01:51.240 --> 1:01:53.600 also life changing and like I would change it for 1:01:53.640 --> 1:01:54.080 the world. 1:01:54.280 --> 1:01:56.160 And it was fun because I got to see you guys, 1:01:56.160 --> 1:01:58.880 and that's what solidified my friendship. Is like meeting you guys, 1:01:58.920 --> 1:02:00.200 I remember me. 1:02:00.280 --> 1:02:03.560 That's not him. I love you and I loved everything 1:02:03.600 --> 1:02:04.760 we've accomplished together. 1:02:05.160 --> 1:02:08.560 I love you too. Here's to only going up or 1:02:08.640 --> 1:02:09.439 failing in burning. 1:02:10.160 --> 1:02:12.920 We either go up from here or we go down 1:02:13.480 --> 1:02:16.800 and down and down and down, and we make our 1:02:17.280 --> 1:02:22.040 s word pack to come true. Oh that's that's coming soon. 1:02:24.280 --> 1:02:27.080 But yeah, ten years of the Internet, ten years of 1:02:27.120 --> 1:02:33.520 knowing all these goals, two years of this almost two years. 1:02:33.760 --> 1:02:36.000 It's so crazy. It's like fucking insane. 1:02:37.320 --> 1:02:40.240 When is two years? One hundred and four episodes? Damn, 1:02:40.240 --> 1:02:42.440 we have like half of a year, more than half 1:02:42.480 --> 1:02:42.800 a year. 1:02:42.840 --> 1:02:44.280 We haven't been doing this for as long a since 1:02:44.360 --> 1:02:50.760 felt but yeah, just insane that like all of my 1:02:50.880 --> 1:02:54.240 first friends from the internet I like to have contact 1:02:54.320 --> 1:02:56.120 with and like some of them are now or like 1:02:56.400 --> 1:02:59.040 people I see like constantly. 1:02:58.880 --> 1:02:59.760 Or and like I love. 1:03:01.200 --> 1:03:04.840 Yeah, it's like too much. Like sometimes when I like 1:03:05.280 --> 1:03:07.120 every time we're like all in a group, there's like 1:03:07.120 --> 1:03:08.960 always the moment of realization when I look at all 1:03:08.960 --> 1:03:11.720 these freaks and I'm like, oh my god, like. 1:03:11.800 --> 1:03:16.040 We grew up together. We're all as fuck. Now, Well, 1:03:16.080 --> 1:03:18.920 I want to talk about one more thing, one more thing, 1:03:18.960 --> 1:03:22.120 and we'll touch on it just briefly and then we'll 1:03:22.160 --> 1:03:24.760 go we'll see it and then or we'll talk more 1:03:24.800 --> 1:03:29.360 in depth about it in the next episode. But have 1:03:29.480 --> 1:03:34.880 you seen the new SpongeBob Mandela effect. Have you? It's 1:03:35.080 --> 1:03:40.040 really okay. So you know the episode where he plays guitar. 1:03:41.400 --> 1:03:44.160 Yeah, wait the movie where he plays the guitar. Yeah, 1:03:44.320 --> 1:03:46.080 it's like he's like on the strings. 1:03:46.320 --> 1:03:52.120 Yeah. What can you describe the guitar he was playing? 1:03:52.600 --> 1:03:55.880 Oh, it was it like white and big and it 1:03:55.920 --> 1:03:58.800 was like not like super big, but it like it 1:03:58.840 --> 1:04:00.000 had like points. 1:04:00.640 --> 1:04:05.280 Yes, that's what everyone remembers. But this is the guitar 1:04:06.200 --> 1:04:10.480 that is now like in the Mendela Like that's it 1:04:10.600 --> 1:04:12.480 and this is what everybody remembers. 1:04:12.840 --> 1:04:14.280 Yeah, that's that's what it was. 1:04:14.480 --> 1:04:18.760 Yeah, but it's not. This is a fan rendition and 1:04:18.880 --> 1:04:20.040 this is the real one. 1:04:21.560 --> 1:04:23.200 No, because I remember it being pointed. 1:04:23.360 --> 1:04:26.400 I remember it too, and I remember it having two heads. 1:04:26.440 --> 1:04:30.400 For some reason, I remember it different. Yeah, but isn't 1:04:30.400 --> 1:04:31.360 that fucking crazy? 1:04:31.760 --> 1:04:33.760 Are you sure that it just like reanimated? 1:04:34.040 --> 1:04:36.480 No, because you can even go back on the VHS 1:04:36.520 --> 1:04:38.640 tapes and the DVDs or whatever and look at it 1:04:38.680 --> 1:04:42.880 and it's the fucking peanut. I don't the goofy green. 1:04:43.520 --> 1:04:44.720 Yeah, I never noticed that. 1:04:44.800 --> 1:04:47.000 And it's crazy that I asked you and you said 1:04:47.040 --> 1:04:50.440 white and points you because that's literally what everyone fucking remembers. 1:04:50.480 --> 1:04:52.480 And if you don't, you're from a different timeline. And 1:04:52.520 --> 1:04:55.960 you weren't. You were always you didn't shift timelines with us. 1:04:56.040 --> 1:04:59.360 But I have this theory that Mendela effect is like 1:05:01.200 --> 1:05:04.760 quantum hackers like hacking the code and like dropping little 1:05:05.200 --> 1:05:08.560 trinkets or little things into like our reality to make 1:05:08.640 --> 1:05:12.360 us realize that like, oh, like we have these abilities 1:05:12.400 --> 1:05:15.840 to like quantum like affect quantum mechanics or physics and 1:05:15.880 --> 1:05:19.439 like completely shift the timeline forever. That or the CERN 1:05:19.560 --> 1:05:22.800 laser every time it drops, or every time it collides, 1:05:23.080 --> 1:05:25.840 it shifts us into a different reality, and like some 1:05:25.920 --> 1:05:27.960 things are just lost along the way, or some things 1:05:28.000 --> 1:05:31.880 are changed. But like if you remember something from the past, 1:05:31.920 --> 1:05:36.080 reality you shifted, and if you don't, you were already 1:05:36.120 --> 1:05:38.960 here if you remember the so like for example, like 1:05:39.120 --> 1:05:42.160 if you remember the white guitar, you shifted realities when 1:05:42.200 --> 1:05:46.000 Cern zapped its laser, and if you remember the peanut guitar, 1:05:46.680 --> 1:05:51.000 you didn't and you were already in this reality. And you're, yeah, crazy, 1:05:51.760 --> 1:05:52.480 it's crazy 1:05:52.960 --> 1:05:56.080 Or like maybe it's just because like what we assist