Speaker 1: You're listening to Jojosa Now with me Jojo Ciua and
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Speaker 1: I have a podcast for you? Oh my, As you
Speaker 1: all know, Special Forces, World's Toughest Test Season two has
Speaker 1: been the latest and greatest step in I mean, I
Speaker 1: don't want to say career. I want to say latest
Speaker 1: and greatest step in my life. Earlier this year, I
Speaker 1: had the pleasure of going to New Zealand to film
Speaker 1: an incredible show for Fox called Special Forces, but it
Speaker 1: ended up being way beyond a show. Anyone who's watched
Speaker 1: Special Forces you know what it's about. Anybody who hasn't watched. Basically,
Speaker 1: we go into military selection for eight days. Up to
Speaker 1: eight days. You can tap out at any time. You
Speaker 1: can what's called VW voluntarily withdraw. You can't get eliminated, though,
Speaker 1: and so it's your choice. You can if it's medical
Speaker 1: and the doctor says you need to go, that can happen,
Speaker 1: but it's it's your choice. It's your willpower, it's your
Speaker 1: mental strength, your physical strength that can get you through.
Speaker 1: And I I thought I knew what I was getting
Speaker 1: myself into, but I didn't, and I had the most
Speaker 1: incredible eight days ever. And I'm lucky enough that my
Speaker 1: selection experience got to be documented for a TV show.
Speaker 1: It's so weird because you know, Special Forces is a
Speaker 1: TV show, but it is in my brain, not not
Speaker 1: a TV show. It is the It is the weirdest thing.
Speaker 1: And so today, now that the whole show is out there,
Speaker 1: the whole show has aired, I wanted to do a
Speaker 1: podcast special where I just deep dive into every detail
Speaker 1: of Special Forces. Talk about stories, talk about memories, talk
Speaker 1: about the other recruits, talk about the ds, talk about
Speaker 1: the task, talk about what you saw, what you didn't see,
Speaker 1: what you saw versus what it was with some more context,
Speaker 1: talk about the behind the scenes of selection, every minor
Speaker 1: detail that I could say in these next few hours,
Speaker 1: probably have a podcast. I just want to talk all
Speaker 1: about it. I want to read you my journal from
Speaker 1: Special Forces that I kept while I was there, and
Speaker 1: we'll get into literally everything. And to help me do that,
Speaker 1: I have a very very special guest here. I got
Speaker 1: my mom. Hey, Hi. I was okay to do this
Speaker 1: episode alone, truthfully, but then I was like, you know what,
Speaker 1: it's gonna feel weird. I was like, I can only
Speaker 1: talk to myself for so long, and my mom and
Speaker 1: I have kind of wanted to just talk about Special
Speaker 1: Forces and we do a lot, but we always wanted
Speaker 1: to like sit down and read my journal together, and
Speaker 1: like she could just have a solo asked me questions
Speaker 1: without my dad and brother I interrupted, no dogs around,
Speaker 1: no friends around, like just you and me. And I thought,
Speaker 1: who better to do this full sit down with deep
Speaker 1: diving into special Forces than my mom? Because you're also
Speaker 1: not going to be afraid to ask me the things
Speaker 1: that some people might not, you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: So I think having you here and getting to talk
Speaker 1: about this is just she's gonna it's gonna be.
Speaker 2: Great because it's not gonna be like a press interview.
Speaker 2: It's just gonna be like a real.
Speaker 1: Chat chit chat. And I I I cross my heart spreaded,
Speaker 1: I hand on a bible. I'm not gonna I'm not
Speaker 1: gonna sugarcoat anything. I'm not gonna bullshit anything. I'm also
Speaker 1: not gonna embellish anything any stories that I tell. I'm
Speaker 1: a straight up storyteller. You know that about me. I
Speaker 1: don't embellish the truth. A lot of times my parents
Speaker 1: used to think I did. And then they'd find out
Speaker 1: what happened and they'd be like, oh, she literally told
Speaker 1: it straight up as it was. And I mean with this,
Speaker 1: you know, none of the stories need embellishing. They were
Speaker 1: all crazy and the stuff we did was crazy. Uh
Speaker 1: And so yeah, I think I just want to tell you,
Speaker 1: like dig on me, like like asking on you. Okay,
Speaker 1: likes you literally everything you can think of. Well, the
Speaker 1: truth is like, I'm not really gonna have another chance
Speaker 1: to like really tell all these stories like this is
Speaker 1: that one moment to really tell everything.
Speaker 2: So and I always tell everybody that visits, like right
Speaker 2: now to talk to you about it because I know
Speaker 2: you like to talk about it. Yeah, because sometimes people
Speaker 2: are afraid. And even my friend's coming out Monday and
Speaker 2: she was like, I want to talk to Jojo about
Speaker 2: well she mine, and I'm like, no, she loves to
Speaker 2: talk about special Forces.
Speaker 1: It's had thing to talk about. I love to talk
Speaker 1: about every every single element of it, literally like any
Speaker 1: any of it. Okay. I feel like we should just
Speaker 1: start back in March when I got the email at
Speaker 1: the time, it was an email to do the show.
Speaker 1: I got an email from my agent and we were
Speaker 1: on set of x MG Pop our girl group their
Speaker 1: Moves music video, and I think you actually pointed it
Speaker 1: out to me, or did I? I pointed out to me, yeah, mom,
Speaker 1: go check the email off because I saw season one
Speaker 1: on the show and I was offended. I was like,
Speaker 1: why did they not ask me to do this? And
Speaker 1: I had been in the Fox Family, which is the
Speaker 1: network it's on, so I was like, why did they
Speaker 1: not ask me to do this show? Then I was
Speaker 1: actually grateful because where it was filmed in Jordan has
Speaker 1: some sketchy LGBTQ laws and so I wouldn't have been
Speaker 1: able to do it. But luckily where this season was
Speaker 1: going to be filmed was in New Zealand because INCREDIBLEOLOGYBTQ laws,
Speaker 1: and so I was very lucky that I was able
Speaker 1: to say yes. And immediately I told you on said
Speaker 1: I was like, look at the email, and I just
Speaker 1: dropped into a push up and we were like ready
Speaker 1: to go. I was ready to go. And at this
Speaker 1: point it was March thirty first when the email came through,
Speaker 1: and the filming was going to be at the end
Speaker 1: of June, mid June, end of June, top of July. Midgely,
Speaker 1: they didn't really know when, so all those dates were
Speaker 1: on hold and I actually had another project, two other
Speaker 1: projects that were in that time, and I was like,
Speaker 1: tell me how to move Like, I can't do it.
Speaker 1: I can talk about the project the world knows about.
Speaker 1: It was the Dance Mom's Reunion, right. Originally the Dance
Speaker 1: Moms Reunion was supposed to be filmed top of July,
Speaker 1: and I was like, well, tell them I can't be
Speaker 1: there because I'm doing this. So we got the offer.
Speaker 1: I said yes, and you were mad at me. I
Speaker 1: was like, no, you're not doing that, Jojo. My mom
Speaker 1: did not want me to know a show at all. No.
Speaker 1: I was already running around, I said that day, telling
Speaker 1: everyone that I was doing it. I was like, what
Speaker 1: can I do? What can I come up with me?
Speaker 1: And I remember I pulled up the trailer and just
Speaker 1: started showing everyone and being like, this is what I'm
Speaker 1: about to do. This is what I'm about to do.
Speaker 1: And a little side story I had done. I had
Speaker 1: gotten an offer for a project right before I got
Speaker 1: the Special Forces offer that I really wanted to do,
Speaker 1: but my team decided ultimately that it was not a
Speaker 1: good opportunity. Well it was a good opportunity, but it
Speaker 1: clashed with something else too close, and so they made
Speaker 1: me say no to it, and I was pretty devastated,
Speaker 1: Like I didn't want to say no. You were super
Speaker 1: excited about that one too, Yeah, super excited about that one,
Speaker 1: and I was stoked about it, talked about the opportunity,
Speaker 1: but my team was like, Nope, nope, it's too it's
Speaker 1: too similar. And I was like ah, And then I
Speaker 1: got the Forces offer and I would have had to
Speaker 1: say no to Forces. Would you have rather done the
Speaker 1: others versus the cast on that shirt had percent? Also
Speaker 1: side note forces lingo. When I say selection, that means
Speaker 1: filming essentially. When I say bergen, that means backpack heavy, heavy, heavy,
Speaker 1: backpack with a with a sandwagon and we'll get into that.
Speaker 1: When I say recruits, that means other cast. That's pretty
Speaker 1: much the lingo. Okay, dyes, DS is the leader D
Speaker 1: this is the directing staff. Where did you live? What's
Speaker 1: that place called the accommodation? Accommodation. The accommodations is where
Speaker 1: we slept. The base is where our whole base. Uh.
Speaker 1: The parade square is like the little square in the
Speaker 1: middle of our base where we would go out to
Speaker 1: like listen to the ds and then they had their
Speaker 1: stage on the Paride Square. Then we had the mess
Speaker 1: which is where we ate, and then you know, the
Speaker 1: doctor's office. We had the dry room, which was basically
Speaker 1: like a big sauna. If you think about it like that,
Speaker 1: you see the dry room a lot on the dry
Speaker 1: room a lot. That's where all the breakdowns happen. Your
Speaker 1: wet kit. You have a wet kit, a dry kit.
Speaker 1: So a wet kit is if you're wearing. Your kit
Speaker 1: is your clothing. So then if you get wet, that's
Speaker 1: considered wet kit. And then you have a dry kit
Speaker 1: in your bag at all times. We had two dry
Speaker 1: kits in our bergains at all times, bergen bag, backpack. Yeah,
Speaker 1: we'll get into all that, but that's that's some small
Speaker 1: forces lingo. Anyways, I said, yes, you were mad at me,
Speaker 1: and then all of a sudden it was time to
Speaker 1: go to New Zealand. And I got to go to
Speaker 1: the New Zealand a few days actually before it was
Speaker 1: Easter Sunday. We have to talk about Eastern side. Yeah yah, yeah, yeah,
Speaker 1: So we didn't. We didn't actually talk for a minute,
Speaker 1: Like my mom was pretty pretty upset about me. Then
Speaker 1: all of a sudden easter rolled around and she made
Speaker 1: me an easter basket. She was really proud of this
Speaker 1: easter basket. She was like, you're not even ready for it.
Speaker 1: You're not even ready for it. And I was like,
Speaker 1: you're talking to me again. Okay, sick, Well, we were talking.
Speaker 1: I was just annoyed because I didn't want you to
Speaker 1: do it. It was your own safety only talking if
Speaker 1: we had to. There was no like fun mom daughter
Speaker 1: chit chat anymore. It's like she was mad at me.
Speaker 1: But I was like, you know what, I'm gonna be twenty.
Speaker 1: I wasn't twenty yet. I was still nineteen, and I
Speaker 1: was like, I can do anything I want when I'm twenty.
Speaker 1: I can say yes to this. Why because I'll be twenty.
Speaker 1: That was my mentality on it. You can say yes
Speaker 1: to anything. But normally we like agree on it, of course. Yeah,
Speaker 1: and this is like a first like disagreement, especially on
Speaker 1: a project like normally anyway, So it's Easter Sunday and
Speaker 1: she gives me this easter basket and it's all my
Speaker 1: favorites from air one and it has healthy food and
Speaker 1: it's all this goodie stuff. It was a great basket,
Speaker 1: great basket and then it had a bracelet in it,
Speaker 1: and I pulled the bracelet out and it said keep going.
Speaker 1: And you want to say what you say? I keep going?
Speaker 1: So she said the bracelet says keep going, but it
Speaker 1: means don't quit. And you know, somebody asked me, They said,
Speaker 1: what's the best advice your mom here? And I hear
Speaker 1: advice give me. I never took it funny because I
Speaker 1: didn't up quitting. I quit with about eight hours remaining,
Speaker 1: which we'll jump into. But yeah, then she was like,
Speaker 1: I've come to terms. This's just on Easter. She's like,
Speaker 1: I've come to terms with it. You're doing it, and
Speaker 1: now I just have to embrace it. And it was
Speaker 1: sensitive though, like anything you're like, this means you're okay,
Speaker 1: Like you're okay, and I'm like, yeah, like it's gonna
Speaker 1: be okay. But you weren't okay. I just you were fighting. Yeah,
Speaker 1: it still was a sense of subject like now we
Speaker 1: would have mother daughter chit chat. But if I was like, hey,
Speaker 1: I'm going in the garage to break in my boots,
Speaker 1: you would be like annoyed. You'd be annoyed. Yeah, So
Speaker 1: speaking of then I got my boots in you know
Speaker 1: what I mean, so excited. I did not take those
Speaker 1: things off my feet, they said. I asked them of
Speaker 1: the Season one recruits. I was like, hey, any advice,
Speaker 1: and they were like, break in your boots, and so
Speaker 1: I did you know? Once I got my boots in
Speaker 1: the mail, they asked me for my shoes. I set
Speaker 1: it in right away and I did not take those
Speaker 1: boots off. They came everywhere with me. They got worn.
Speaker 1: I worked out in them somehow, though I didn't break
Speaker 1: them in enough, like I mean crazy, And they actually
Speaker 1: sent me a few pairs. They sent me a pair
Speaker 1: that was my pair that I wore, was my first
Speaker 1: pair that I got, and they were they were too big.
Speaker 1: So I was like, hey, they're too big. Can you
Speaker 1: send me a smaller size. They sent me a different brand,
Speaker 1: small size that was still too big, and I was like,
Speaker 1: all right, the other ones are more comfortable. They were
Speaker 1: faster to put on. I was like, I'm sticking with
Speaker 1: the originals, even though they're a little big. So my
Speaker 1: boots are actually a hair big on me. But I
Speaker 1: was like, you know what, I'd rather have a big
Speaker 1: than small. Yeah, did you ever know that I knew?
Speaker 1: You said? They were big. Yeah, they were a little big,
Speaker 1: but I didn't mind because then I could get them off.
Speaker 1: I'd have wiggle room, like you don't want.
Speaker 2: To get like blisters, because I didn't rub weird or anything.
Speaker 2: Of course I had blisters.
Speaker 1: We all had blisters, but I think breaking them in
Speaker 1: so much like when I I did get blisters when
Speaker 1: I was breaking them in at home. Yeah, and then
Speaker 1: when I got there, the blisters were not as bad.
Speaker 1: And now I was thinking too, because like you said,
Speaker 1: your feet were cold a lot. Yeah, they probably shrunk
Speaker 1: down a little bit too, I'm sure. Yeah, probably even bigger.
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, yeah, oh god, these boots they went through it,
Speaker 1: but like crooked. Now my one boot is criokeet. So
Speaker 1: what I did is when I got back to my hotel,
Speaker 1: I literally took my shoes off and put them in
Speaker 1: my suitcase. I unlaced them however they were, and I
Speaker 1: ripped them off and I just put them away and
Speaker 1: I was like, do not touch them, do not move
Speaker 1: the laces like I want to preserved. And yeah, we
Speaker 1: have them in a case now at the house. All right,
Speaker 1: let's cut to now I'm going to New Zealand. You
Speaker 1: can't come with me because you have Look, you could
Speaker 1: have come with me, and for a point in time,
Speaker 1: you were going to come with me. And what happened
Speaker 1: was XOMG Proper Grow Group had some performances. And the
Speaker 1: thing is, my mom didn't want me to be in
Speaker 1: New Zealand a loon in case something happened I ended
Speaker 1: up out a hospital. She wanted somebody there with me,
Speaker 1: which is so valid and I'm very grateful for that. Luckily,
Speaker 1: nothing happened, and I was fine, you know what I mean,
Speaker 1: But she didn't want me to go alone. And totally understand,
Speaker 1: but I was like, you have priorities with XOG. It's
Speaker 1: silly for you to come to New Zealand to sit
Speaker 1: in a hotel room. And also I never really told
Speaker 1: you this. You're going to be mad at me and
Speaker 1: you're going to get offended. We're going to get offended. Okay.
Speaker 1: I didn't want you to come to New Zealand because
Speaker 1: I knew.
Speaker 2: I know.
Speaker 1: I'll tell you why though, Because I knew I was
Speaker 1: going to be in the hotel room for fourteen days,
Speaker 1: eleven days, Yeah, dramatic. I was gonna be in the
Speaker 1: hotel room for eleven days. And I knew the flight there,
Speaker 1: you were going to be a head case in the
Speaker 1: hotel room. You were going to be so mad at me.
Speaker 1: Imagine the day before selection, you would have you would
Speaker 1: have like you you you didn't want me to do
Speaker 1: it so bad, So the flight going there with you
Speaker 1: would have been so hard. It would have been different.
Speaker 1: It would have been so I mean, I would have
Speaker 1: been like a two year old. I would have been
Speaker 1: like supportive, a temper tantrum. But I would have known
Speaker 1: your support was fake. I knew your support was fank
Speaker 1: even when we were here. Imagine in New Zealand. I
Speaker 1: imagine imagine me waking up fake Okay, it's six in
Speaker 1: the morning in New Zealand. We're still on American time,
Speaker 1: so who knows what times on I'm on it's freezing
Speaker 1: cold and pitch black outside, and I'm like, I'm going
Speaker 1: out for a run. That exactly. Yeah, okay, Because even
Speaker 1: when you called me and you're like I'm out running
Speaker 1: by myself, I'm like, is someone with you? But in
Speaker 1: my head, I'm like no, and I'm going to selection,
Speaker 1: like I gotta like, you know, I don't want you
Speaker 1: to get kidnapped. Well I did that anybody literally and
Speaker 1: you know what I mean, Like I know, you know
Speaker 1: what I mean. Yeah, I guess it was like, of course,
Speaker 1: like I wanted you there, but I knew for the
Speaker 1: sake of what I was getting myself into, the best
Speaker 1: thing would have been for you to not be there
Speaker 1: to like probably.
Speaker 2: If I would have come, we should have just been separate,
Speaker 2: like we could have worked it out that way, Like
Speaker 2: I flew different, I got my own hotel room, but
Speaker 2: I just wanted somebody to be there in case something happened.
Speaker 1: Like even with so my friends ended up coming, Rachel
Speaker 1: and Abby, and even with them, you were like, make
Speaker 1: sure that they do not leave the hotel, and I
Speaker 1: was like, mom, they're not gonna sit on their ass
Speaker 1: in the hotel. About eight days, I was like, want
Speaker 1: is Abby's birthday? They're gonna go do things. And I
Speaker 1: was like, dude, like they're not going to Australia, like
Speaker 1: they're gonna stick in the zone, but they're gonna go
Speaker 1: do things. You're like, they need to be in five minutes.
Speaker 1: I just wanted them to be close.
Speaker 2: I just want to I wanted somebody to be there
Speaker 2: for you if you needed.
Speaker 1: That's not such a bad thing. It's not that it
Speaker 1: was just funny. Like I will say, my expectation going
Speaker 1: into it versus the reality of it was a lot different.
Speaker 1: I did understand like, oh no, yeah, they should stay
Speaker 1: close to the hotel. In reality, our base was two
Speaker 1: hours away from the hotel, you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: We didn't know that. It didn't matter where they were.
Speaker 1: But anyways, so that's that's that. So finally in New Zealand,
Speaker 1: I remember when I said goodbye to you guys, and
Speaker 1: I was going to meet Rachel Nabbey at the airport.
Speaker 1: But saying goodbye here was very, very hard. We weren't
Speaker 1: going to see each other. It was only going to
Speaker 1: be gone in New Zealand for nineteen days, but we
Speaker 1: weren't going to see each other for like thirty days
Speaker 1: because of the way that the schedules worked out, and
Speaker 1: it was hard. It was hard to say goodbye. It
Speaker 1: was hard because we knew where I was going. It
Speaker 1: wasn't like I was going on a tropical vacation with
Speaker 1: my girlfriend. It was like, yo, I'm going to Like
Speaker 1: at the time, we were like, yeah, it's gonna like suck
Speaker 1: a little bit and be hard, but like I'll be fine,
Speaker 1: Like I didn't know actually how hard it was going
Speaker 1: to be, and so I didn't know that I went
Speaker 1: to Vegas when you left? Did you really just to
Speaker 1: distract yourself? Just really good night? Honestly? Yeah? Smart, like
Speaker 1: I just got to get out of here. It's like, yeah,
Speaker 1: I don't blame you. And then yeah, I flew to
Speaker 1: New Zealand And, which is far is very far. We
Speaker 1: were in the southern Island New Zealand. We were in Queenstown.
Speaker 1: We didn't fly into New Zealand though, we flew into
Speaker 1: somewhere and then took a flight to Queenstown. What's crazy
Speaker 1: too is our cover story. I was able to memorize
Speaker 1: it because when I saw it it was the same
Speaker 1: flight that I took. It was lax to Auckland, Auckland
Speaker 1: to Queenstown flight n Z eight one to one or
Speaker 1: whatever it was. I don't remember it exact, but at
Speaker 1: the time I was like, that was my same exact
Speaker 1: flight I was on. I can memorize that super easy.
Speaker 1: Is that crazy? Yeah? I thought was helpful me. Rachel
Speaker 1: and Abby had a lot of fun together. We when
Speaker 1: we flew to New Zealand. It was just fun, like
Speaker 1: we we all ended up in one airplane seat at
Speaker 1: one point in time, like it just was fun. And
Speaker 1: then we we Kelly Rizza was on our flight. Okay,
Speaker 1: so Rachel was texting. I was like, Yo, someone by
Speaker 1: your show was sitting by me, and I said, who
Speaker 1: isn't Kelly Rizzo? It's like Google and I saw who
Speaker 1: Kelly Rizzo was, and so then I texted, and you know,
Speaker 1: we kind of figured out like one person. And then
Speaker 1: Kelly was like she knew another person that was doing
Speaker 1: the show. Was like, I think she told me about Jack.
Speaker 1: She knew Jack was cool. Yeah, so and I knew
Speaker 1: Kelly and Jack were doing it right, So that was
Speaker 1: kind of like the first people that I figured out
Speaker 1: was doing the show. And then she knew about a
Speaker 1: basketball player but she didn't know who. And then she
Speaker 1: was like in a couple of other people like that,
Speaker 1: like no one knew but yes, did you never know
Speaker 1: on reality TV? Yeah? I know. Anyways, we get to
Speaker 1: New Zealand and it was great. We got to the hotel.
Speaker 1: Our hotel was beautiful, it was called the Millbrook. We
Speaker 1: were going to stay there. I was going to be
Speaker 1: there for like eleven days, kind of get acclimated to
Speaker 1: the climate, you know, get it so early. I went
Speaker 1: to early. When I got there, Tyler had like just
Speaker 1: found out that he was going to do this show. Yeah, crazy, right, yeah,
Speaker 1: it's crazy. Once we figured that out, we were like,
Speaker 1: well he found out like three days befo where I
Speaker 1: got there. That's crazy. That wow. Yeah, And they kept
Speaker 1: pushing filming back. So originally it was top of June,
Speaker 1: then it was mid June, then it was end of June,
Speaker 1: then it was top of July. Then it was kept
Speaker 1: getting pushed back. Ended up being though we got to
Speaker 1: the Millbrook, I was gonna have like eleven day and
Speaker 1: queen Town, Queenstown, gonna have the time of my life.
Speaker 1: And U went out Day one, went to I Fly
Speaker 1: had got back to the hotel and the crew was like, hey,
Speaker 1: the welfare team. They were like, hey, Paparazzi knows you're here.
Speaker 1: You can't leave the resort, and I was like, sick. Great.
Speaker 1: So we were on this like golf course was beautiful,
Speaker 1: and I was like, all right, well, I guess I'm
Speaker 1: just gonna occupy my time training and getting used to
Speaker 1: the weather and figuring out who else is doing this show.
Speaker 1: Like that's I knew everyone's gonna be staying there, and
Speaker 1: so I spent the rest of the ten days, you know,
Speaker 1: running around in a T shirt and shorts, and mind you,
Speaker 1: it was freezing. My my friends were wearing like snow clothing.
Speaker 1: Oh okay, yeah, and it was like freezing and I'm
Speaker 1: running around in like biker shorts and a T shirt
Speaker 1: or a sport and I was like, I'm just trying
Speaker 1: to get used to the weather. It's literally that called
Speaker 1: for me did not get used to the weather. It's
Speaker 1: fine running hills, thinking that I'm training and taking like
Speaker 1: selfies on top of the mountain. Yeah. Having the time
Speaker 1: of my life at the Millburg Resort, going to a
Speaker 1: little coffee shop, eating healthy, taking electro lights, carving up,
Speaker 1: doing some burpie is like thought I was training. I
Speaker 1: was doing nothing when I went back at it. But
Speaker 1: it was fun, you know. Yeah. Queenstown, New Zealand, it
Speaker 1: doesn't get light out until about like ten am, and
Speaker 1: then it got dark at about four pm, so it
Speaker 1: was very little daylight. So I would wake up to
Speaker 1: go for a morning run at eight and be pitch black.
Speaker 1: And then if I was like, oh, I'm gonna go
Speaker 1: to a night workout at seven pitch black. That's great.
Speaker 1: It was awesome. Yeah, it was fun though. I just
Speaker 1: I mean, I was living my best life. I was chilling,
Speaker 1: and then came time. I never told you about this,
Speaker 1: so I brought my like cute little outfit to wear
Speaker 1: for when we got like when we're gonna go. I
Speaker 1: brought this like really cute off and I was stoked
Speaker 1: about sending my photos and they're like, oh, that's not
Speaker 1: warm enough. And I was like, well, I'll be fine
Speaker 1: and it's not warm enough and I was like, but
Speaker 1: it's cute. They're like, it's very cute, but it's not
Speaker 1: warm enough. I was like, I swear, I'll we find
Speaker 1: I've been running in shorts and a T shirt, like
Speaker 1: I promised, don't worry about me, and they like jojo,
Speaker 1: our health and safety team is not approving this outfit.
Speaker 1: And I was like, okay, we'll go shopping. So then
Speaker 1: I got app able to go. I ended up going shopping.
Speaker 1: I was like, look, this isn't gonna work. I just
Speaker 1: got to go. So I ended up we were trying
Speaker 1: to send someone for shopping and I was like, nah,
Speaker 1: I just got to go. So I went out, went
Speaker 1: shopping and got some cute outfits, brought them all back
Speaker 1: to the room, found, picked and choosed. No, I'm sorry,
Speaker 1: I'm lying that that was before when I went shopping
Speaker 1: for Abby to get her an outfit, because I went
Speaker 1: shopping for bras and underwear. No no, no, no, no no no.
Speaker 1: This is so when I needed that clothes is when
Speaker 1: I couldn't leave the resort. Yeah, yet reached an abbey.
Speaker 1: It was when they facetied me and they sent me
Speaker 1: photos and I was like, just get it all. We
Speaker 1: bought like four thousand dollars like a like a kind
Speaker 1: of like a like Dick Sporting good stuff store. Okay,
Speaker 1: there was a lot of there cold there, so there's
Speaker 1: a lot of a lot of options, and I mean
Speaker 1: we spent like four grand on like snow clothes. And
Speaker 1: after they were like, we're going skiing, and I was like,
Speaker 1: just take this clothes, like oh that's cool. Yeah. I
Speaker 1: was like I don't care, take what you want. And
Speaker 1: they were like we'll return the rest and I was
Speaker 1: like no, literally, you're babysitting me. Like take whatever you want,
Speaker 1: just stay close to the resort. Yeah. So then I
Speaker 1: ended up having a better outfit send it in everyone
Speaker 1: like did it was great? The little Kaki jacket, little
Speaker 1: Kakki outfit. And I was like, I'm still making it
Speaker 1: fashion on top, but I swear I have thermals on under.
Speaker 1: And they were like, okay, that's fine. So then I
Speaker 1: did my Master interview and that day, and that's your
Speaker 1: one with your Sequence shirt and your pinking a Sequence
Speaker 1: shirt and the picker bones so that yeah, the piggyons.
Speaker 1: So that happens before you go to selection. Okay, so
Speaker 1: you're there and you do the Master and you don't
Speaker 1: really know what you're talking about, right, But now on
Speaker 1: the way to my Master interview, my driver he was
Speaker 1: like he said something actually that really stuck with me
Speaker 1: throughout the whole thing, and I'll get into that. He
Speaker 1: we I asked him. I was like, so, like have
Speaker 1: you seen him set up or like do you know
Speaker 1: what's going on? Like do you know what anything? And
Speaker 1: he was like, oh, get ready And I was like
Speaker 1: what do you mean? And he was like, I can't
Speaker 1: talk about it, but like get ready. And I was like,
Speaker 1: have they been like doing water stuff and he was like,
Speaker 1: oh yeah, he's like we've watched them, not even like
Speaker 1: the crew. He was like, citizens in Queenstown have been
Speaker 1: watching them rehearse all of your guys stuff that you're
Speaker 1: doing for the last few weeks. It's like no way.
Speaker 1: He's like yeah. And I was like is there water
Speaker 1: and he was like, yeah, lots of water. And I
Speaker 1: was like, okay, just tell me this. What kind of
Speaker 1: wildlife is there? And he was like, we have no
Speaker 1: wildlife that can hurt you here. And I was like,
Speaker 1: I was like, even in the water, because my biggest
Speaker 1: fear at the time was sharks, and he was like
Speaker 1: even in the water. He was like, there's no wildlife
Speaker 1: in Queenstown that can harm a human. And I was like,
Speaker 1: thank god, that's amazing. So that gave me a really
Speaker 1: big sense of relief. But was he like get ready?
Speaker 1: Like he was like it's gonna be nice. Yeah, he
Speaker 1: was like get ready. And then as did scare you? Yes, yeah,
Speaker 1: did your like heart fall? I was just like, okay,
Speaker 1: here we get I mean like I watched his lawn,
Speaker 1: but like I was like, I don't know what to expect.
Speaker 1: And then as we were we're still driving the master
Speaker 1: interview and he goes he goes right over in this
Speaker 1: area is where your guys's bases, and so me being me,
Speaker 1: I'm like, ooh, Apple Maps, and so I went on
Speaker 1: Apple Maps and I saw like the direction that he
Speaker 1: pointed was where a place called Milk Lake, and so
Speaker 1: I sent that to you, being like, this is where
Speaker 1: we're gonna be. And I didn't see it before, but
Speaker 1: I knew that's where it was because that's what he said.
Speaker 1: And so then I was able to like kind of
Speaker 1: google it, kind of like see it, and it was
Speaker 1: I mean, it was it was beautiful. It's awful, but beautiful. Anyways, Uh,
Speaker 1: so I go to my master interview. You don't really
Speaker 1: know what to expect. You was freezing while I was
Speaker 1: doing the master interview. Really yeah, freezing because they could
Speaker 1: have have like heater on because it was loud. And
Speaker 1: the master interview lasts probably three hours just talking. They're
Speaker 1: asking you everything because they have to, you know, accommodate
Speaker 1: for every challenge, right and accommodate for whatever your story
Speaker 1: might be there. I don't really know. And so you know,
Speaker 1: they're asking you about everything. They're asking you about stories
Speaker 1: about family, about how do you feel about water, how
Speaker 1: do you feel about helicopters? How do you feel about
Speaker 1: jumping off a boat, how do you feel about going backwards?
Speaker 1: How do you feel about the dark, how do you
Speaker 1: feel about sharing a room? Like everything they can think of?
Speaker 1: And uh yeah, your Master interview gets deep. Were you like,
Speaker 1: was your mind racing? Like because you knew it was
Speaker 1: they were doing. I more so was like, Okay, they
Speaker 1: didn't ask me about tear gas, and so I knew
Speaker 1: we weren't going to get anything with tear gas. They
Speaker 1: didn't ask me about fire, and so I knew we
Speaker 1: weren't going to do anything with fire. Did Season one
Speaker 1: have tear gas and fire? Yes? Okay? And we found
Speaker 1: out in New Zealand it's actually illegal amaze anything with
Speaker 1: tear gas. Yes, we love New Zealand. But then I
Speaker 1: knew like, okay, submerged in water okay, cold water okay,
Speaker 1: driving like the things they asked me about. And so
Speaker 1: then while we were there, you know, we kind of
Speaker 1: were like, okay, well, in my Master I was asked this,
Speaker 1: well you asked none of us were asked about fire, Kay,
Speaker 1: there's nothing with and none of us were asked about
Speaker 1: gas or stuffing with gas, you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: So like we kind of all chit chatted about what
Speaker 1: we were talking about, and you could figure it out,
Speaker 1: but not everything, like it's so unpredictable. Uh So I
Speaker 1: did my master interview and like two days later selection
Speaker 1: and the whole time you're there, we have this incredible
Speaker 1: welfare team. My two main welfare people's names were Jay
Speaker 1: and Kate, and they were so amazing. They were great
Speaker 1: while we were at the hotel, and then when we
Speaker 1: go just section you never see them. Wow. Found out
Speaker 1: after the fact though. They are watching us around the
Speaker 1: clock to make sure that we are like okay, you're
Speaker 1: not okay, but they're making sure that you're like not okay,
Speaker 1: but okay. Yeah, and so yeah, because I when I
Speaker 1: when I left, Kate was one of the first people
Speaker 1: that I saw, and I mean you would have thought
Speaker 1: that I saw like you did you just hung her, yeah,
Speaker 1: like literally just like crashed into her arms and she
Speaker 1: was like, you did so good, you did so good,
Speaker 1: love it, you did so good. How old is she?
Speaker 1: She's maybe a little bit older than me, a little
Speaker 1: younger than Rachel, Okay, like I would say twenties, twenties. Yep.
Speaker 1: She was so nice and I just remember seeing her
Speaker 1: and I actually saw her one day outside of base,
Speaker 1: you rarely saw crew rarely. One day I saw her
Speaker 1: and I just like looked at her. I was like,
Speaker 1: I just want to hug right now. And I told
Speaker 1: her that when I saw her again, because you couldn't
Speaker 1: speak to him even if you saw him, and I
Speaker 1: was like, I just wanted to come and hug you.
Speaker 1: And she was like, you have no idea, I just
Speaker 1: wanted to hug you. Yeah. So anyways, they were great though.
Speaker 1: I was at the hotel so accommodating, so nice, so helpful. Uh,
Speaker 1: and then yeah, I woke up and I asked her
Speaker 1: before I went to sleep. I was like, do you
Speaker 1: know what my call time is? And she was like,
Speaker 1: we're picking everyone up between six and nine. Be ready
Speaker 1: at six. And I was like, okay, it's me. I'm going.
Speaker 1: I'm oh, I'm you somehow knew you were gonna. I
Speaker 1: literally said, I'm gonna be one of the first people
Speaker 1: to get pulled. I just know it. And I was
Speaker 1: sure enough. I was. Actually I think I was the
Speaker 1: second person to get pulled. I think Brian was the
Speaker 1: first person. Brian Austin Green and Oh. I forgot a
Speaker 1: story when we were when we were training in the
Speaker 1: apartment a hotel, we couldn't use the actual gym, and
Speaker 1: so the special Forces team made like a makeshift gym
Speaker 1: in a hotel room. And by a makeshift gym, it
Speaker 1: was not a chim It had a treadmill and elliptical,
Speaker 1: a rowing machine that didn't work, and a bike, and
Speaker 1: then it had one forty pound dumbell, one twenty pound
Speaker 1: dumbbell in two ten pounds. It was not a gym.
Speaker 1: And I was like, Okay, we're gonna make it work.
Speaker 1: This is fine, this is fine. Anyways, while we were
Speaker 1: in there, one day I found a sheet that had
Speaker 1: a map of the hotel, a dot on every room
Speaker 1: and then the room number with everyone's initials by it.
Speaker 1: And so for the ten days that I was there,
Speaker 1: I was like, oh, I'm making this my mission to
Speaker 1: figure out everyone who's here. Figured out Savanna Chrisly figured out,
Speaker 1: Brian Austin Green, I figured out. I didn't figure out
Speaker 1: Robert Horry, didn't figure out Dez. I ended up seeing
Speaker 1: Nick Viele in a coffee shop at the hotel, and
Speaker 1: Rachel Abby recognized him, and I was like, okay, cool,
Speaker 1: Like who knew that that was gonna become my early,
Speaker 1: didn't know about Tyler. I actually saw Aaron with my
Speaker 1: own two eyes, but didn't know she didn't know who
Speaker 1: she was. Then we figured it out, googled Olympic, Olympic
Speaker 1: people with initials E J, and then I saw her
Speaker 1: picture and then yeah, Aaron Jackson. She's a skater. So
Speaker 1: I kind of spent my time figuring out who some
Speaker 1: of the recruits are. Uh yeah. So then for day
Speaker 1: one we go to selection. Do you want to tell
Speaker 1: them Brian Houston Green story how you surprised him? Oh? Yeah,
Speaker 1: so I So, Brian and I were we were really
Speaker 1: good friends from Dancing with the Stars and so when
Speaker 1: it was time to shine and I saw that he
Speaker 1: was he was there, I was like, oh my god,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna go to his room and just surprise him,
Speaker 1: just go knock on his door. So I called called
Speaker 1: Sharna actually because I didn't know for sure if it
Speaker 1: was him, but like, who else has the initials B
Speaker 1: A G. And so I called his girlfriend Sharna and
Speaker 1: I was like, Hey, where's Brian And she was like,
Speaker 1: oh baby, he's in New Zealand about to film show.
Speaker 1: What's up? And I was like, oh my god, I'm
Speaker 1: here too. She was like, no way, he's gotta lose
Speaker 1: his mind. And I was like, yes he is. I
Speaker 1: was like, is he here here? And she was like no,
Speaker 1: he's flying in today. And I was like, all right,
Speaker 1: text meeting leans, don't say anything, but I'm gonna go
Speaker 1: to his room and surprise him. So then I go
Speaker 1: to his room and I surprise him. And you weren't
Speaker 1: supposed to know any when I was there, and you
Speaker 1: were supposed to each other. So then he was like
Speaker 1: shut up. And so then I went to his room.
Speaker 1: We hung out for a little bit and then all
Speaker 1: of a sudden, production comes knocking on us, and I
Speaker 1: was like, oh my god, So went I just go
Speaker 1: run and hide in his bathroom and I'm just like
Speaker 1: productions having like a ten minute meeting with him. Productionally
Speaker 1: he's I come back out, they come back. I go
Speaker 1: hide the bathroom again. That was fun. And then another
Speaker 1: time I snuck into Savannah Christly's room, uh huh, found
Speaker 1: out she was there. We started messaging on Instagram and
Speaker 1: she was like, dude, can you come help me with
Speaker 1: my hair for my master interview? And I was like
Speaker 1: of course, So I went up to her room helped
Speaker 1: her with her hair. I ended up leaving my comb
Speaker 1: in and she was like, oh, the welfare team's coming
Speaker 1: in five minutes. Leave, so I left. Then I ended
Speaker 1: up leaving my cold in her room and I was like, hey, dude,
Speaker 1: I need my colle and she's like okay, and I
Speaker 1: was like, I'm gonna go for a jog. Drop it
Speaker 1: off your balcony in like three minutes. So then I
Speaker 1: go for a jog and like jogging and circles around
Speaker 1: her balcony that she comes out. I just catch it
Speaker 1: and just keep running like that's hilarious. I didn't know
Speaker 1: that that was that was funny. What she did help
Speaker 1: with her hair with like what she wanted me to
Speaker 1: braid it, but then I didn't end up breaking it.
Speaker 1: I was like, girl, looks good. Let's just leave it
Speaker 1: because I was thinking of her interview. I was like,
Speaker 1: what did you do? Yeah, no, she wanted braids, but
Speaker 1: then she was like, actually gonna like to wait it
Speaker 1: ended up and I was like, no, girl, you look great.
Speaker 1: We're like yeah. So then they we all got picked
Speaker 1: up early in the morning and we drove to base,
Speaker 1: which was not to Base. I'm sorry, we drove somewhere
Speaker 1: we never knew where we drove. We drove to the
Speaker 1: top of a mountain, uh, and we waited for hours.
Speaker 1: So when they picked you up, you were just like
Speaker 1: a regular person, though you weren't blindfolded her. We just
Speaker 1: picked up in a production car, like went up, drove
Speaker 1: maybe an hour away, and then we got miked. It
Speaker 1: was first time you got your waist pack and your
Speaker 1: necklace mike, and you put it on and then you
Speaker 1: sat in the car. I fell asleep in the car
Speaker 1: waited for everyone to get miked. At some point, Kelly
Speaker 1: was like, I gotta go to the bathroom. And they're like,
Speaker 1: all right, just go right down there, and we're like
Speaker 1: she was like okay, So then she goes right down
Speaker 1: there and squats. And I was like, well, I don't
Speaker 1: got to go, but like I'm here for the adventure.
Speaker 1: And I went to the bathroom and it was the
Speaker 1: first time I had ever squatted. I've never squat indeed,
Speaker 1: I mean I'm like a professional at it now, like
Speaker 1: I've done it. I mean like you have to control
Speaker 1: it would be on my leg or something. You have
Speaker 1: to like really like dial it. And I used to
Speaker 1: tell all the boys all the time because you know,
Speaker 1: we'd go this is so wrong. We're like we'd go
Speaker 1: piss together, and like I would be like squatting, and
Speaker 1: like Tyler and Jack would be right there. I'd like,
Speaker 1: you guys don't know how lucky you have it, the
Speaker 1: fact that you can be so easily and I have
Speaker 1: to like balance and squat and aim. Like, well, y'all
Speaker 1: are like and yeah, no wiping, you just like put
Speaker 1: your pants back up and cold it a day. Yeah
Speaker 1: that's so weird. Yeah, So we got miked whatever. Then
Speaker 1: they were like, all right, we're going to go into
Speaker 1: these like big They took us in like two vans, right,
Speaker 1: two vans. Figuring out the stating arrangements on this van
Speaker 1: was impossible. They had half of us in the wrong
Speaker 1: van and we had to come back and switch it up.
Speaker 1: I ended up being in a van with Brian Black.
Speaker 1: China was in my van. I believe Body was in
Speaker 1: my van. I believe Samana Christie was in my van.
Speaker 1: I don't think Tyler was in my van. I don't
Speaker 1: think Nick was in my van. And we were just
Speaker 1: split fifty fifty. Yeah, and you're in these again just
Speaker 1: like normal humans. And now we are in these vans
Speaker 1: like normal humans. We don't know where we're going, we
Speaker 1: don't know how long we're driving for. Oh, Dez Bryant
Speaker 1: was in my van. It was super nice in my van,
Speaker 1: and we're all just having the time of our life. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I mean it is a celebrities in a van literally
Speaker 1: chit chatting up a store and having fun, like a
Speaker 1: bunch of celebrities that never met each other. Like, are
Speaker 1: you nervous and you're gonna finish? Like yeah, anyways, Uh,
Speaker 1: then literally out of nowhere, I'm talking though, like maybe
Speaker 1: two hours in like, oh you're driving for that long?
Speaker 1: For so long? Out of nowhere, boom bang gun bow
Speaker 1: bow fire, explosion. All of a sudden, door slams open.
Speaker 1: Get down, head down, down, move all of a sudden,
Speaker 1: like what the oh my god? Like you like didn't
Speaker 1: you didn't want to like blink? Yeah? And then one
Speaker 1: by one were the drivers in on it? Yeah? Of
Speaker 1: course the drivers are the people that opened the door,
Speaker 1: were the ds? Yeah? So the drivers the production yeah yeah,
Speaker 1: and so so anyways, the DS slam the door open.
Speaker 1: Then all of a sudden, one by one, you just
Speaker 1: feel a hand grab you and pull you out of
Speaker 1: the van and you just hear it. You hear them
Speaker 1: like clapping on people's hoods. You hear people struggling to
Speaker 1: get out. You hear Tara reeb oh my head. He
Speaker 1: hears a man of Chrisly being like, oh, like you
Speaker 1: just like you just hear noises and you're just like
Speaker 1: waiting for your turn. Anyways, noise back corner of the
Speaker 1: bus and in the back corners. I'm like, they're pulling
Speaker 1: me last. I already know how this goes, and so
Speaker 1: at this point I'm like still in like ooh, we're
Speaker 1: making a TV show, right, Like I'm not in this
Speaker 1: as like real life mode yet. Anyway, so they come
Speaker 1: and he grabs me and dis billy as who came
Speaker 1: and grabbed me, and you know, it's a pretty like
Speaker 1: it's a pretty stone grab like they're not like gentle
Speaker 1: with it. He grabs my like hood of my jacket
Speaker 1: and he pulls me out and he's like step down
Speaker 1: and your they have your head tucked down, so you
Speaker 1: step out of the car. Then he like rips my
Speaker 1: head up right, so I lift my head, lift my
Speaker 1: head up and like I just see cameras staring at me,
Speaker 1: and I was like kind of smiling because like I
Speaker 1: don't know here we go well, like no, I was
Speaker 1: smiling because like I just got pulled by the hair
Speaker 1: kind of hot, like I'm so gay, which is why
Speaker 1: I can like talk about it like this, like not
Speaker 1: actually attracted to any of the ds, but like pull
Speaker 1: me by my hair, like no, wonder I call you
Speaker 1: Daddy Foxy. Like anyways, that was Daddy Billy that did that.
Speaker 1: So I was like kind of giggly. And then I
Speaker 1: get out of the van and I like pulled it
Speaker 1: together really fast, and he puts up a hood over
Speaker 1: your head. You get the hood over your head. This
Speaker 1: is like the black sack. And they take us and
Speaker 1: they you can't see nothing. You can't see nothing, uh,
Speaker 1: And then they put us in a in a line
Speaker 1: on our knees and you're kneeling with your hands on
Speaker 1: the person in front of you's back for maybe like
Speaker 1: twenty minutes. Then all of a sudden, they just they
Speaker 1: say stand up, stand up, but they kind of yank
Speaker 1: you up, and then they're like walk and you just walk.
Speaker 1: And we don't know where we were walking. We don't
Speaker 1: know if we were on the edge of a cliff.
Speaker 1: We still don't go to the stake. We don't really
Speaker 1: air that. We walked for probbly twenty minutes. We don't
Speaker 1: know where, we don't know what. It was pitch black,
Speaker 1: and you're just like following the leader walking and then
Speaker 1: eventually they shove us back in the car, still with
Speaker 1: the hoods overheads. We drive a little bit further. They
Speaker 1: take us off, they line us up, they make us
Speaker 1: stand again. They we walk some more in a line.
Speaker 1: They you put your hands like you're like praying, and
Speaker 1: then they carry you by your thumbs and that's how
Speaker 1: they guide you. And then das will hold on to
Speaker 1: your thumbs and then they like guide you and they
Speaker 1: just say walk is It's just weird not being able
Speaker 1: to so strange, so strange being like, here's this stranger.
Speaker 1: I'm on the edge of a mountain, like I know
Speaker 1: we were driving, but like, huh, so strange. Yeah.
Speaker 2: Wait.
Speaker 1: It was the hood like sealed, so like you couldn't
Speaker 1: like cheat and peak or like you couldn't cheat and peak,
Speaker 1: but you could move it so you could breathe them.
Speaker 2: Huh.
Speaker 1: When they put it on you, they like put it
Speaker 1: to your neck, but then you could kind of like
Speaker 1: chanaggle it a little bit. So that way you could
Speaker 1: breathe better. But yeah, no, it was it was pitch black.
Speaker 1: You can't see anything. And then all of a sudden,
Speaker 1: they lined us up, got us all standing up, and
Speaker 1: they took our hoods off one by one, and you
Speaker 1: would just hear them rip someone's hood off to who
Speaker 1: are you, tyler? What do you do? Stop smarking at me?
Speaker 1: Smoke one more time, and to be the last thing
Speaker 1: you ever do, Like you just hear him talking. Then
Speaker 1: you hear God. I don't remember who they did, do.
Speaker 1: I think it was Savannah Risley and they took her
Speaker 1: hood off and they were like, who are you? And
Speaker 1: she's like, my name is Savannah and they were like,
Speaker 1: what do you do? She's like, I'm gonna really, I
Speaker 1: don't care, and then you know, he ripped Billy, ripped
Speaker 1: my hood off. Dyes, but Billy I eventually got picked
Speaker 1: and he ripped my hood off. Who are you? My
Speaker 1: name is Jojo, and he's like, what do you do?
Speaker 1: I was like, I don't even remember what I said.
Speaker 1: And he was like, now you're a number, Jojo? How
Speaker 1: does that feel? And I was like, kinky, But I
Speaker 1: didn't say that That's what I thought and he was like,
Speaker 1: he was like, I don't like you. And I was like, oh,
Speaker 1: and they actually aired that and I have that written
Speaker 1: down in my journal and I was like, Wow, that's
Speaker 1: my new mission to make this man like me. He
Speaker 1: really said he doesn't like Yeah, but I was like, Oh,
Speaker 1: you're gonna like me. I was like, you don't know
Speaker 1: it yet, because look going into it, I know what
Speaker 1: I look like. I know I look like I'm a
Speaker 1: twenty year old influencer prick. I know I look like
Speaker 1: I'm a ball of energy that never shuts up and
Speaker 1: doesn't have a serious bone in her body. I know
Speaker 1: that's what I give off. But when you meet my core,
Speaker 1: I'm so far from that and so a piece of me.
Speaker 1: It was like, you don't even know you think you
Speaker 1: know me. I don't even know you're gonna love me.
Speaker 1: Just start on Instagram person like yeah, And in my head,
Speaker 1: I'm like, you want a hard worker. You want someone
Speaker 1: who's gonna take this shit seriously. You want someone who's
Speaker 1: gonna care, who's gonna fight for the team. You ain't
Speaker 1: gonna get anyone better than me. Like, if you want
Speaker 1: someone who works hard, I'm a girl. If you want
Speaker 1: someone who's not like that's yeh. But but I know
Speaker 1: that I don't look like that. I know I don't
Speaker 1: give off that vibe. But I know that's my brain.
Speaker 1: And so I was like, you know what, like just
Speaker 1: just you're gonna like me. So you were thinking I
Speaker 1: don't like you either. Oh no, I was like, oh no,
Speaker 1: I have a mission. Yeah. And then all of a sudden,
Speaker 1: you know, they take us, They take us all off.
Speaker 1: They tell us to turn around and we see the trenasium,
Speaker 1: which was our first challenge, and I saw that and
Speaker 1: I was like, okay, here we go, all right, and
Speaker 1: you just see a man do it. We didn't know
Speaker 1: who the man was at the time. It was DSQ,
Speaker 1: but we didn't know who he was. And you just
Speaker 1: see him doing it and you're like, ah, that was
Speaker 1: pretty easy. They're on a rope, they fall ropes, gotch
Speaker 1: you cool. So we turn back around and they chuck
Speaker 1: you your kit, chuck it in trash bags, and then
Speaker 1: they're like, and go but your kid on as fast
Speaker 1: as you catch your kids clothing. Yeah, okay, so you
Speaker 1: just have your clothing. No berg and yet. And so
Speaker 1: they give us our clothing and we put it all
Speaker 1: on and all this when you were changing every single
Speaker 1: time during Special Forces, anything and everything that could go
Speaker 1: wrong went wrong. Shoes, nodded, pants, buttoned, unbuttoned, wrong, buttoned,
Speaker 1: shirt inside out and backwards, arm inside out, pant lake
Speaker 1: inside out backwards, every single armband missing, and you'd have
Speaker 1: to take your whole thing off. I mean, everything that
Speaker 1: could go wrong went wrong. And we did a fitting
Speaker 1: for a kit before, so you knew everything was gonna fit.
Speaker 1: But some people actually had like mismatch, like Tyler and
Speaker 1: I think Tom's got swapped. Oh wow, uh huh, and
Speaker 1: so like they just like made it work. But like
Speaker 1: Tyler and Tom are very different sizes, you know what
Speaker 1: I mean. But they made it work and it was
Speaker 1: fine anyways. So yeah, you put your kid on and
Speaker 1: we had so we had socks and shoes, and then
Speaker 1: we had long johns which are like long thumbal pants.
Speaker 1: Then our our our battle dress, so that's the green
Speaker 1: pants essentially. Then we had our long jawn shirt which
Speaker 1: is the gray shirt. Then we had a fleece, a puffer,
Speaker 1: a jacket, and then our armband and then our beanie
Speaker 1: and our gloves. We were we had a lot of layers,
Speaker 1: so everyone puts everything on it. We all look like shit.
Speaker 1: It's so mismatch. If you watch a difference in everyone's
Speaker 1: choreography and their outfits from episode one to episode three
Speaker 1: when I became wardrobe police, it is actually insane. Like
Speaker 1: episode three, four, five, six, seven, and eight, no one's
Speaker 1: out of place in her outfit. That's because of me,
Speaker 1: and all the boys will attest to that, and the girls.
Speaker 1: Everyone will attested that. Anyways, So we all put our
Speaker 1: clothes on and it's like just strip. Like I literally
Speaker 1: look over and I see Brian in his boxers. I
Speaker 1: was like, what the And like Brian was the only
Speaker 1: one that I knew at this point, so I was like,
Speaker 1: why am I seeing him in his bo Okay, Kelly's
Speaker 1: in her underwear, Like this is just so frange cool, great,
Speaker 1: And then I just step out there and then you know,
Speaker 1: it was just helping you. But like everyone's helping each other,
Speaker 1: like just get each other dressed, like make it happen.
Speaker 1: Then freezing, freezing, but you're the cold is the last
Speaker 1: thing you're thinking about at this point. So that is
Speaker 1: trenasium time, and they call Kelly to go first, and
Speaker 1: we're like, all right, I go get him Kelly, And
Speaker 1: I mean if I would have had it gone first,
Speaker 1: I would have been shitting bricks. So you just see
Speaker 1: Kelly and she goes and she failed. She but fell
Speaker 1: and I saw her hit her leg and I was like, oh,
Speaker 1: that looks like it hurt, right, That's why my mom
Speaker 1: didn't want me to do Yeah, And then someone else
Speaker 1: went second. I don't remember who went second, or maybe
Speaker 1: maybe Brian did go second. Brian went before me, and
Speaker 1: so I saw Brian go and he fell and he
Speaker 1: clipped his leg and I was like, ooh, that hurt.
Speaker 1: So then I go okay, And now when I go
Speaker 1: over to the dasym, they're like, you need to take
Speaker 1: this shit seriously. I was like, oh, you have no idea.
Speaker 1: I am like, I really am, like I know what
Speaker 1: I looked like, like, I mean, really serious person. While
Speaker 1: I was waiting for my turn, I was doing push ups,
Speaker 1: I was doing planks, I was practicing walking and waddling.
Speaker 1: Like there's no like ten minute totorial on how to
Speaker 1: do this, like let's try it on like a practice,
Speaker 1: or it's like here, look at it, huh, and now
Speaker 1: go do it. There's no lesson on how to do it?
Speaker 1: Do you know? That's when you were little used to
Speaker 1: say you can wonder how everyone else is doing things,
Speaker 1: or you can just try to figure it out. Yep,
Speaker 1: that is this. It's just this anyway. So I go
Speaker 1: down and as I'm going down, you have to like
Speaker 1: go through like you have to go on this bridge
Speaker 1: and then you have to go in a hole and
Speaker 1: then you go down a ladder and then you're on
Speaker 1: a platform. And what the Grenadium was was two platforms,
Speaker 1: two wobbly ladders in between the two platforms with like
Speaker 1: a bar in the middle that you had to step
Speaker 1: up and over, and then a drop three hundred foot drop,
Speaker 1: like just crazy, unreal. There was a rescue team at
Speaker 1: the bottom too, just in case like crazy, So that
Speaker 1: was reassuring. So I was like go down. And as
Speaker 1: I'm going down the ladder, my safety rope locks and
Speaker 1: you see me in the episode kind of like flying
Speaker 1: around like a ferry and DS Billy's like get down,
Speaker 1: and you hear me giggle. Well, what actually happened was
Speaker 1: my rope got locked, my safety rope, and so I'm
Speaker 1: dangling there right and he's like get down. I'm like
Speaker 1: I can't, and he's like, get you'll ask down now,
Speaker 1: stop fooling around. I was like, no, literally, look like
Speaker 1: I can't get down, like the rope is holding me up.
Speaker 1: And he was like, oh all right, and so then
Speaker 1: the team fixed it and it came down. So now
Speaker 1: in my head, I'm like, shit, this is gonna be
Speaker 1: easy if I got resistance like that, That's what I thought,
Speaker 1: because like, I mean, the rope blocked me like that,
Speaker 1: and now I'm gonna be set. The second you touch
Speaker 1: that platform unlocked, it is a loose cannon, no safety nothing,
Speaker 1: It is loose. So I was like all right, and
Speaker 1: then you step onto this. I mean, the ladder is
Speaker 1: probably an inch and a half thing and you step
Speaker 1: on and it is wobble nation and Billy the whole
Speaker 1: time is eyes forward, don't look down, don't fall. You
Speaker 1: look like a baby waddling too. Mama, Come here, mama.
Speaker 1: Where when like he's just poking and poking and poking
Speaker 1: at you, I was just like, okay, I got this.
Speaker 1: Like everyone was kind of hyping me up before. They
Speaker 1: were like they were like, you're gonna do it, You're
Speaker 1: gonna do it, and I was like, you know what,
Speaker 1: I actually might like go slow stand strong. And when
Speaker 1: I went when it started raining, so it wasn't raining
Speaker 1: for anybody. And then I started the rain, and so
Speaker 1: I was like, oh sick. I was like, don't look
Speaker 1: down like you saw two people fail, Like, just do it.
Speaker 1: I wanted to be the first person that did it.
Speaker 1: I was like, that'd be sick and it would have
Speaker 1: been so cool. And so I start waddling and I'm
Speaker 1: doing great, doing the best out of everybody so far.
Speaker 1: Pass go to touch my toes and I stand back up,
Speaker 1: and the dancer on me is like touchto stand up
Speaker 1: like easy peats. Well, what happened was as I went
Speaker 1: too fast because I just was like, all right, just
Speaker 1: stand up, and my hips just got a little under me.
Speaker 1: And I watched everyone else fall and hit their leg
Speaker 1: or their hip or their back, and I was like
Speaker 1: absolutely not. Billy said, dude, He's like, if you're gonna fall,
Speaker 1: just fall. And so that's why I just like sucked
Speaker 1: in the middle because I was like, going down, don't
Speaker 1: hit your head, don't hit your leg, just go down.
Speaker 1: And so when I knew I was going down, I
Speaker 1: was like, don't even fight for it. I was like,
Speaker 1: just go down. And so then I went down and
Speaker 1: I was like, dang it, Like I was mad at myself,
Speaker 1: and I got over to Billy, and Billy was like,
Speaker 1: you know what you actually did all right? Like I
Speaker 1: thought you were going to do it, and I was
Speaker 1: like thank you Stappan. He was like, but you did it.
Speaker 1: You failed, and I was like, valid failed. Then I
Speaker 1: go up to crawl up the ladder again. So you're
Speaker 1: now on the other platform. Oh mind you after now,
Speaker 1: so you're dangling. They pull you up. You have to
Speaker 1: get your feet back on and they put resistance on
Speaker 1: it now and you still have to waddle across, just
Speaker 1: with resistance now. So either way, all of us waddled across.
Speaker 1: Just if you failed, you then got resistance and it
Speaker 1: was just as hard. Like I mean, okay, that's a lie.
Speaker 1: It was not just as hard with resistance. It was
Speaker 1: much easier with the resistance because he just felt safer.
Speaker 1: But like it's you still had to do it. That
Speaker 1: really sucks. Yeah, so you weren't free from it once,
Speaker 1: you know, once you felt you still had to do it. Yeah,
Speaker 1: Is that because that was the only way to get
Speaker 1: you out or like yeah, they could have like probably
Speaker 1: swung you. But like yeah, it was just the easiest.
Speaker 1: That's not gnarly. So then I go up and I
Speaker 1: go to Foxy DS Foxy and after every task, you
Speaker 1: know a few of the DS would give you like
Speaker 1: a creature, right, So go to das Foxy and he's like,
Speaker 1: and I'm going to be own a swift. Y'all thought
Speaker 1: you had it. Then I blinked and you failed. And
Speaker 1: I look at him dead and I was like, so
Speaker 1: what you're saying is next time you shouldn't blink, and
Speaker 1: he I mean if that is when I learned never
Speaker 1: speak to the DS out of touch like that. He
Speaker 1: was like, a fuck goal with your comments, and I
Speaker 1: was like, nope, valid, valid. I shouldn't have said that.
Speaker 1: I should not have said that. That was very disrespectful
Speaker 1: of me. I should have So I was like sorry
Speaker 1: staff and ran away. But but again he kind of
Speaker 1: like hyped me up. So then I go across the
Speaker 1: bridge and I go over DSQ and DSQ goes, I'm
Speaker 1: gonna be honest with you. I was like, yes, Staph,
Speaker 1: he goes, you looked like a bag of ass out there,
Speaker 1: and I literally was like, he's right, I did. I did.
Speaker 1: I had a shot to look really cool, and I
Speaker 1: failed get your shit together, huh. And that is when
Speaker 1: I learned I'm way too hard on myself looking back,
Speaker 1: but I really took that and I was like, you did,
Speaker 1: look stupid, you failed. Don't do that anymore. And I
Speaker 1: was the only person there that was really hard on
Speaker 1: myself about failing tasks. Then we go back over and
Speaker 1: you have to wait for everyone to finish, and we
Speaker 1: all got really thirsty, and so mind you, we're probably
Speaker 1: in like six hours deep at this point. We're all
Speaker 1: really thirsty, and so we see water jugs and we're like, hey, staff, like,
Speaker 1: can we fill these drugs up? And they're like, go quick.
Speaker 1: So we go and me and Tom Sanderval we're helping
Speaker 1: everybody fill up water jugs. Okay, they're like, all right,
Speaker 1: that's enough. Tom and I didn't fill ours. Fuck. So
Speaker 1: we start filling ours and I start filling Tom's and
Speaker 1: they're like, I said, that's enough for you to get
Speaker 1: your ass back over there and getting a plank. Fuck.
Speaker 1: So now Tom's is filled, Mine still not, uh uh.
Speaker 1: So we're in a plank down, up, down, up, doing
Speaker 1: pushups while everyone's just watching us. They're like, when we
Speaker 1: say something you listen to us, and we're like okay, valid.
Speaker 1: So then everyone felt really bad that I didn't fill
Speaker 1: up the water. Yeah that's the only one now that
Speaker 1: didn't have a wall. And everyone at this point was
Speaker 1: trying to share with me. I'm a germophobe. I don't share.
Speaker 1: I don't share drinks, I don't share food. And I
Speaker 1: was like, no, no, I'm alright, I'm all right, Like
Speaker 1: I would rather have been thirsty. I was like, I
Speaker 1: will be thirsty, I will eventually get water. I'm not
Speaker 1: sharing with these strangers. That's an important detail. That is
Speaker 1: an important detail even to this day, like the fact
Speaker 1: that like, wait till I tell you about dinner at
Speaker 1: Nicks the other night. Okay, anyways, and the concert story
Speaker 1: with nicksho so yeah, I was like, no, I'm not
Speaker 1: sharing waters, No, no way. I was like I'm good, guys,
Speaker 1: thank you, I'm not really that thirstay porched. So then
Speaker 1: everyone ends up finishing like no drinks of water, no
Speaker 1: drinks of water. Still have not taken a drink of water.
Speaker 1: We get into the cars now and we don't know
Speaker 1: where we're going there, Like all right, when I say move,
Speaker 1: you move into those vehicles. Move so we go into
Speaker 1: the cars. We get in the cars and we start
Speaker 1: driving and we're starving now at this point because it's
Speaker 1: like now probably like four o'clock since breakfast. Yeah, and
Speaker 1: so we're starving, and all of a sudden we see
Speaker 1: like these four brown bags up by the driver and
Speaker 1: we're like, what do you think is in those bags?
Speaker 1: There's four bags, there's four of us in the car, like,
Speaker 1: what is it? And we were like, hm, we should
Speaker 1: ask for them, and like the drivers can hear us,
Speaker 1: were like, no, we shouldn't ask, And then like all
Speaker 1: of us were like, you think, like, look if all
Speaker 1: four of us ganged up on that driver, like we
Speaker 1: could take them, Like we could take the driver for
Speaker 1: the brown bags. And so finally we asked to drive.
Speaker 1: We're like, hey, what are those do you got any snacks? Like? Oh,
Speaker 1: those brown bags by chance for us? And the driver
Speaker 1: was like and then all of a sudden someone just
Speaker 1: reached for them and we could take them, but like
Speaker 1: we had to like take the initiative to do it
Speaker 1: real in the brown bag was our lunch. Oh, And
Speaker 1: we didn't take them for about an hour into the
Speaker 1: car ride. Oh, and then finally we grabbed them, and
Speaker 1: there was four four bags. Four sandwich is all different
Speaker 1: and it was mystery. So I was like, all right,
Speaker 1: everyone pick which one you want without seeing it. So
Speaker 1: everyone picked two left. There was a long, skinny bigette
Speaker 1: and there was a thick one. And I was like, well,
Speaker 1: I'm going to be smart that. One of the boys
Speaker 1: was like, you can pick and I was like, I
Speaker 1: want the thick one, like you, I want the meat one. Right.
Speaker 1: I opened it up and it was a smoked salmon
Speaker 1: bangel I have like verbally said out loud multiple times
Speaker 1: in my life, I hate smoked salmon. I opened it
Speaker 1: and I was like, that's what you get for taking
Speaker 1: the thicker that's what you get for being selfish that
Speaker 1: you hate. Good luck you were just trying to get meat, though.
Speaker 1: I ate the whole thing. You would have thought it
Speaker 1: was my peanut butter and jelly like by the way
Speaker 1: I ate it. It was so good, every bite of
Speaker 1: it and now it's like a comfort food. But yeah,
Speaker 1: ate every little bite of it. Uh. And and then
Speaker 1: I was like, okay, was there water in your rag? Nope,
Speaker 1: still don't have water. Still didn't have water. It was
Speaker 1: just a sandwich. So then we eventually got back to
Speaker 1: base and it was like get on, get on the
Speaker 1: bright square. So then we got on the praid square
Speaker 1: and that's when they chucked us our burgains for the
Speaker 1: first time. And they chucked the burgain and they're like,
Speaker 1: don't let it touch the ground, and you know, of
Speaker 1: course a few people did. And they're like, this is
Speaker 1: your reality. They kind of give us like a duk
Speaker 1: on what's going to be. And then they're like, go
Speaker 1: accommodations and they point us to the door and you
Speaker 1: run in there, right, So you run in there and
Speaker 1: then in just a little bit, Daddy Foxy ds Foxy
Speaker 1: comes and he's like, all right, let's go. I'm gonna
Speaker 1: take you on two of your base. Takes us on
Speaker 1: a tour, shows us all around, shows us the mess
Speaker 1: the doctor's office, where to go if we need the doctor,
Speaker 1: the bathrooms. This is where we can hang out. This
Speaker 1: is where you cannot go. You can't go past these lines.
Speaker 1: If you want to go to the bathroom, you can't
Speaker 1: go this way. You have to go around the long way.
Speaker 1: You have to jog everywhere. You have to go in
Speaker 1: buddy system, you have to go in pairs. There's a
Speaker 1: lot of rules, and we got the rundown that night,
Speaker 1: and then we didn't know what to expect for the
Speaker 1: rest of the night, you know, we kind of At
Speaker 1: some point they said, dinner's ready, mess is ready, and
Speaker 1: they assigned duty recruit and first duty recruit I believe
Speaker 1: was black China, and so they assigned her duty recruit.
Speaker 1: And so they said, whatever you need to do to recruit,
Speaker 1: you know, you go to the rock. And so she
Speaker 1: went to the rock and they said dinner's ready, and
Speaker 1: then she came and told us that dinner was ready,
Speaker 1: and so we go in. You had your little fucking
Speaker 1: silver tin canister that you took with you go in
Speaker 1: and it was like rice, peas and carrots and chicken
Speaker 1: and white juice. The chicken and white juice was sucks
Speaker 1: as fuck, but the rice and peas. I was thriving,
Speaker 1: literally my meal before I left. I had my best
Speaker 1: friend make me rice peas, carrots and chicken. Like it
Speaker 1: was just like my dream. Did you have a water?
Speaker 1: I'm still like, God, give my k once I got
Speaker 1: the basic, I didn't get water, okay, Yeah, so then yeah,
Speaker 1: we we we ate dinner and I was like, it's
Speaker 1: actually not a bad like, I mean, you're starving, so
Speaker 1: it's like it is what it is. I love the
Speaker 1: white rice, the peace. I was thriving last night. And
Speaker 1: then you know, we all just kind of like wander
Speaker 1: back to O accommodations. You don't know what's gonna happen.
Speaker 1: Pick where you slept in the room. No, so you
Speaker 1: go in and you had a bed and a box
Speaker 1: with your number on, and in your box there was
Speaker 1: a robe. You could only wear the robe though if
Speaker 1: you were going to her from the shower and you
Speaker 1: could only like sleep with it. You could have like
Speaker 1: lounge around in your robe. And it was like a big, warm,
Speaker 1: dry robe. Some toilet paper, uh, notepad was in our burgains. Uh.
Speaker 1: I think the only stuff in there was the toilet
Speaker 1: paper and the robe and our our toothbrushes, and you're
Speaker 1: gonna they provided you with that. I was sandwiched in
Speaker 1: between Tara Reid and Tom Sandaval, and then I ended
Speaker 1: up being sandwiched between Jack Osborne and Tom Sandaval, and
Speaker 1: then just next to Tom Sandval. I ended up having
Speaker 1: the end for a few nights. Okay, Yeah, so then
Speaker 1: that was it. We never knew what was gonna happen
Speaker 1: that night. We didn't know if we were gonna get
Speaker 1: called back out, and then all of a sudden, lights
Speaker 1: just went out and our room was pitch black. We
Speaker 1: all got our head lamp out, and we're like, okay,
Speaker 1: like do we call it a night? And we fell
Speaker 1: asleep and everyone, uh the first night we all go
Speaker 1: to fall asleep and we're all now exhausted. Yeah, and
Speaker 1: so we're all like laying in bed and like people
Speaker 1: are noisy. Tom's noisy, Tara was noisy. Tara was snoring,
Speaker 1: slooping or drink like just like you're like, just like
Speaker 1: over it though, right, So you're just laying in bed
Speaker 1: and all of a sudden, out of literally nowhere, Tara
Speaker 1: wakes up and goes hood hair has that and Thomas,
Speaker 1: I'm talking it is pitch black in the room. Everyone's asleep.
Speaker 1: We're all like what and she's like hell and yes,
Speaker 1: John and Thomas a liar and you can't understand what
Speaker 1: she's say and we're like, Tara, what She's like, my
Speaker 1: liar is John and Tom and they said someone else
Speaker 1: here has the liar and Jack osboard. I think it
Speaker 1: was was like Tara, shut the fuck up and go
Speaker 1: back to sleep, and she was like, yeah, I'm so sorry,
Speaker 1: and she fell asleep. Hellow her and yeah she's great,
Speaker 1: and we all just were like, what the fuck was that? Okay,
Speaker 1: so fall asleep. Now we don't know when you wake up.
Speaker 1: Thomas's no one, no one, no one now. So the
Speaker 1: next day we actually, okay, I should pause there now,
Speaker 1: any questions on that first day, first night? Yes, what
Speaker 1: were you like?
Speaker 2: So you're the lights go off, you're laying down, You're
Speaker 2: laying in your bed? Yes, what are you thinking? Are
Speaker 2: you happy to be?
Speaker 1: Genuinely, I was thinking how long do I get to
Speaker 1: be here? How long do I get to be in
Speaker 1: this bed with these lights off? Will I get How
Speaker 1: will I know when to wake up? I was very
Speaker 1: stressed about that. I was like, because I don't want
Speaker 1: to be the one that doesn't wake up like you'reep
Speaker 1: And everyone else is like, yeah, like how will I
Speaker 1: know when to get up? And I was very stressed
Speaker 1: about that when I was like, just fall asleep, like
Speaker 1: you're gonna want to sleep? Uh huh? Was it hard
Speaker 1: to fall asleep for me? No? No, you I have
Speaker 1: this weird thing where the more uncomfortable I am, the
Speaker 1: better I sleep. If I sleep in a warm room
Speaker 1: with nice cozy blankets, I will not sleep. But if
Speaker 1: I'm on a plane sitting straight up with turbulence, I
Speaker 1: will crash, you know what I mean. So like I
Speaker 1: slept great, okay, everyone, So we had we had a
Speaker 1: sleeping bag, okay, and every single human got out there
Speaker 1: sleeping bag at night and this night one and like
Speaker 1: laid it out, got in it, took their clothes off,
Speaker 1: like slept in just like their long John's and like
Speaker 1: a sports bar. The boys slept topless like it just
Speaker 1: like didn't matter. They're in their sleeping bag. And I'm
Speaker 1: laying on the bed with my full gear still on,
Speaker 1: shoes on, laying there with my robe over me, and
Speaker 1: everyone's like jojo no, And I was like yes because
Speaker 1: at some point they're going to be like get ready now,
Speaker 1: And I don't want to deal with putting my sleeping
Speaker 1: bag back in my bergen, no, because you never put
Speaker 1: it in your bergain in the bottom. Yeah. Taught us
Speaker 1: how to arrange our burgen. Oh, that first day we
Speaker 1: had to fill our burgen with sandbags. So we had
Speaker 1: to make our burgen. It was about twenty five kilograms
Speaker 1: and you had to make it from thirty to thirty
Speaker 1: five kilograms. I see, I don't just to make it
Speaker 1: heavier for training. Oh yeah, okay, yeah, And so that
Speaker 1: we had to do. And I was like, I ain't
Speaker 1: getting my sleeping bag out from the bottom of my
Speaker 1: bag every single night to then put it in. No, no,
Speaker 1: no way, that's happening. Because what happened was it went
Speaker 1: sleeping bag. I'm sorry. Your whole burgin was lined with
Speaker 1: a waterproof bag, and so you would have to take
Speaker 1: the sleeping bag was in the bottom of the waterproof bag.
Speaker 1: She would have to take all your dry kid out,
Speaker 1: all of your accessories out, put your sleeping bag back,
Speaker 1: put all your stuff back in, and then put the
Speaker 1: stand back in. Sleep bag goes out the bottom. No way,
Speaker 1: I'm doing that every night. I was like, you'll leave
Speaker 1: it fine. We called. So the first night no Jack
Speaker 1: gassed us out with the fire they asked. So we
Speaker 1: had all these different jobs. We had firewood, dooty recruit,
Speaker 1: washing duty, and cleaning duty. Okay, dotey recruit was in
Speaker 1: charge of everybody. Firewood was in charge of chopping wood,
Speaker 1: making sure it was always stocked up to the top
Speaker 1: in case there was a blizzard. And we couldn't get
Speaker 1: out of chopwood. You always had to have it like
Speaker 1: double stocked. Cleaning was in charge of like making sure
Speaker 1: the accommodation was tidy, and then washing up was in
Speaker 1: charge of making sure the dishes got done by day three.
Speaker 1: We all just were like, okay, everyone makes sure your
Speaker 1: own spot isn't tidy. I always wanted wood, so me
Speaker 1: and a boy would always go to the wood, didn't
Speaker 1: matter who always was me and a boy. I basically
Speaker 1: became dooty recruit. Like I mean, I shouldn't say that,
Speaker 1: because doody recruit did have a lot more roles than
Speaker 1: I took on the role of like making sure everyone
Speaker 1: had it together. That we just kind of thing. And
Speaker 1: then Jack really took over washing up, and Kelly, while
Speaker 1: Kelly was there, really took over washing up, which was
Speaker 1: like prepare the dishes for everyone to be able to
Speaker 1: clean them up. Yeah, it was super great. That's not
Speaker 1: a great job. No, I hated that job. I never
Speaker 1: wanted that job, but I did a lot for everyone else.
Speaker 1: Like I just kind of like made it work. Like
Speaker 1: we all just wore like be self suspicient, like clean
Speaker 1: up your own spot, like just let's get in trouble
Speaker 1: for the big things off the small anyways. So yeah,
Speaker 1: we we did that. So does the room just like
Speaker 1: quiet down and everyone just like we kind of. Tom
Speaker 1: would do his arts and crafts in the middle of
Speaker 1: the night, so night one, you know Tara's snoring. Tom
Speaker 1: didn't do arts and crafts night once, so I won't
Speaker 1: talk about that till night too, But yeah, Tara, Tara snoring.
Speaker 1: Beds are creaky like it just and no one knows
Speaker 1: when to wake up. And if you had a pee,
Speaker 1: you had to go with a buddy. And so I
Speaker 1: told everybody. I was like, look, I pee like a
Speaker 1: freaking dad that drinks too much water. I was like,
Speaker 1: if anyone has going in the bathroom in the middle
Speaker 1: of night, I'm your girl, pack me up. I don't care.
Speaker 1: And so I would wake up with anybody and everybody.
Speaker 1: You would just hear like, in the middle of the night,
Speaker 1: is that anyone to wake the house to go to
Speaker 1: the bathroom, And you would listen, and if somebody was like,
Speaker 1: yeah I do, you would just like fall back asleep.
Speaker 1: But if nobody did, I was always the one that
Speaker 1: was like, ya go, And actually Tom Santaval was the
Speaker 1: other one that was like, yall go. Me and him
Speaker 1: were really good about like going if someone else had
Speaker 1: to go, how come I want you to go with somebody.
Speaker 1: Always have to be in a buddy system in case
Speaker 1: I'm just I don't know, in case war strikes, Yeah,
Speaker 1: it could happen. Not everybody listened to the Buddy system.
Speaker 1: In the beginning. Tom was very bad about listening Buddy system.
Speaker 1: He was like, if I just gotta be in the
Speaker 1: middle of the night, like I'm just gonna go, Like
Speaker 1: I'm fine. We're like Tom, You're gonna get us all
Speaker 1: in trouble. Just follow the world, buddy. Uh yeah. So
Speaker 1: night one. Night one, honestly, like was pretty chill, Like
Speaker 1: it was a big fun sleep like we were at
Speaker 1: freaking summer care. You're not scared, You're not worried. I
Speaker 1: can do that at this point is a vacation. At
Speaker 1: this point like ooh spooky, Like we had to like
Speaker 1: fall down a ladder. Oh, Like it wasn't too high,
Speaker 1: it wasn't too like man, yeah, I mean like we
Speaker 1: did it, like everyone got through it. Everyone did it.
Speaker 1: Like we were chilling. Uh yeah. So then we fell
Speaker 1: asleep night one. We woke up all of a sudden,
Speaker 1: the lights just like turn on. Oh, they just turn
Speaker 1: on out and know we're super bright. And if you
Speaker 1: watch when they turn the lights on, you see me
Speaker 1: shoot up out of it. I was the first one up,
Speaker 1: and I was like, lights are on. Everybody, Like I
Speaker 1: think to dressed this day? Yeah, because I stayed in
Speaker 1: my clothes. Yeah okay, And I mean I'm thinking that
Speaker 1: they're gonna come and be like get all the way
Speaker 1: to that now. Every day when we woke up, we
Speaker 1: had an hour, but I never I was like, I
Speaker 1: was waiting for the day when they were going to
Speaker 1: like beat our ass in the beginning, but they never did.
Speaker 1: They're probably waiting for you to sleep and as wards
Speaker 1: for sure. And then eventually the only thing that I
Speaker 1: ended up taking off when I slept was my shoes.
Speaker 1: So I would take my shoes off and I would
Speaker 1: put them at the edge of my bed fully like
Speaker 1: open and unlace so I could slip them on super fast.
Speaker 1: And then what I would do is I would sleep.
Speaker 1: If I got too hot, I would take my jackets off,
Speaker 1: but I would lay them down like in order so
Speaker 1: I could just slide them back on, and I would
Speaker 1: sleep with my armband on me, so everyone else will
Speaker 1: kind of like take their armband off. But I would
Speaker 1: sleep with my armband on me and my head lamp
Speaker 1: in my hand. That was something that I didn't do
Speaker 1: till probably like day four or five, because sometimes in
Speaker 1: the middle of the night you would need your head
Speaker 1: lamp or what like if somebody had to go to
Speaker 1: the bathroom to grab your toilet. People need your head
Speaker 1: lamp or see somebody. Yeah, and so I would wrap
Speaker 1: my armband on my arm or in my hand. I'd
Speaker 1: i'd lace it to my hand, or I would put
Speaker 1: my and my other hand had my head lamp because
Speaker 1: I was like, I just want to be prepared. I
Speaker 1: just want to be prepared. All I want to be
Speaker 1: as prepared I am prepared. I swear. I want to
Speaker 1: make them like you. That was my only mission today too.
Speaker 1: We woke up, let's go on. No one knows what
Speaker 1: to expect. All of a sudden, you dirty recruit. And
Speaker 1: so Angela was due to her cruit and homegirl is
Speaker 1: out like a light. And so Angela wake up, wake up.
Speaker 1: And that's when you see me going over them like
Speaker 1: good morning sunshine, like yeah, I could and wake up,
Speaker 1: and she did not want to get up. She did
Speaker 1: not want to get up, and I was like, oh shit,
Speaker 1: here we go. So they called her out and they
Speaker 1: were like, breakfast will be up in five. So we
Speaker 1: go out and we go up to breakfast in five
Speaker 1: and uh yeah. We we walk into the mess and
Speaker 1: we don't know what to expect for breakfast. And now
Speaker 1: now everyone's like, okay, we're here, like it's day two,
Speaker 1: like we got this. And we go into the mess
Speaker 1: and it's it's breakfast is up and we see a
Speaker 1: platter of white toast that's not really toast, it's just
Speaker 1: like white bread. We see a bowl of jelly, bowl
Speaker 1: of dried fruits, pot of oatmeal, pot of scrambled eggs
Speaker 1: on our runny and we're like, all right, sick breakfast right,
Speaker 1: like chilling at this. I made oatmeal and jelly. Yeah,
Speaker 1: mix it up, put some fresh the dried fruits in it,
Speaker 1: got some scrap old eggs, ate some toast. By the end,
Speaker 1: we didn't know that we were going to get this
Speaker 1: breakfast every single day. So by the end, this breakfast
Speaker 1: got so old. Yeah, to the point where my end
Speaker 1: in concoction was I kid you not because you just
Speaker 1: wanted to eat fast, literally scrambled eggs, jelly and oatmeal
Speaker 1: mixed together, scooped on bread. Shove it in. Why did
Speaker 1: you want to eat fast? Because you just didn't know
Speaker 1: when you were going to be done eating. That's disgusted
Speaker 1: and you had to clean your stuff and hum, it
Speaker 1: was awful, but like at the time, it was delicious.
Speaker 1: I like, I loved breakfast because I knew what we
Speaker 1: were getting and I was great. Plain oatmeal and scrambled eggs.
Speaker 1: I'm good, Like I can live all that white bread.
Speaker 1: I'm good. By the end of it. It was like
Speaker 1: fucking eggs and oameal on toast and call it good. Like,
Speaker 1: doesn't mean I never thought to put someone like the
Speaker 1: dried fruit in your pocket? Tom did? Tom did? Tom
Speaker 1: saved the drive fruit always huh. I a few times
Speaker 1: would take some dried fruit, but he didn't really didn't. Okay,
Speaker 1: So I'm gonna read you my day one journal, okay,
Speaker 1: and then this will kind of maybe maybe lead into
Speaker 1: more stories. Honestly, we probably could just do day one
Speaker 1: like this has been so much. Let's just do day
Speaker 1: one because that's when they found the cigarette tintauris. Yeah,
Speaker 1: we can stories that I like have out of schimical
Speaker 1: because this is gonna lead into that. This is gonna
Speaker 1: lead into the learning the things. I didn't talk about
Speaker 1: learning the things yet. I made a list of who
Speaker 1: I like versus who I didn't like, things I missed. Yeah,
Speaker 1: there's so many details to do day one. Okay, okay,
Speaker 1: so this now, yeah, okay, Yeah, Like I said, there's
Speaker 1: gonna be a lot of parts. I'm gonna do this
Speaker 1: day by day because seriously, there's so many stories, and
Speaker 1: I just I want to go into as much detail
Speaker 1: as possible with all of this, and I want to
Speaker 1: tell every story that I can think of. Solway it's
Speaker 1: out there in the world. I think you're smart to
Speaker 1: do that, because I was wishing there would be like
Speaker 1: a tell all yeah YouTube and stuff like that. I
Speaker 1: have a lot more stories from day one. So let's
Speaker 1: hear journal Day one, all right, Journal, Day one Journal.
Speaker 1: Day one is a full story journal. Day one is one, two, three, four, five, six,
Speaker 1: seven eight pages. All right. The eight journal is a
Speaker 1: half a page. Like I got really over it.
Speaker 2: But these are just like for people I can't see it,
Speaker 2: like little like assignment notebook pages six four.
Speaker 1: Yeah, and the paper's waterproof. Yeah, waterproof, all weatherproof, all right.
Speaker 1: Day one started at six forty five am. Drove to
Speaker 1: Mountain wait until eight forty five, then got an army
Speaker 1: van for an hour drive. Was a really fun ride,
Speaker 1: sat by Brian and we were all having a great time.
Speaker 1: The boom, explosions and fire. Out of nowhere, thean door
Speaker 1: opened and we heard Billy Staff Billy, well, mind you
Speaker 1: have something crossed out before Billy, because it's aid Daddy
Speaker 1: Billy Staff. Billy say, head down, stay down, don't move.
Speaker 1: Then he pulled us out one by one out of
Speaker 1: the van. I was last to get pulled out, first
Speaker 1: by the hood, but then by the hair, which I
Speaker 1: liked it. Then we got bags over our heads, had
Speaker 1: to walk like a Konga line, then drive more while
Speaker 1: being blindfolded. First name Billy called me was Creatia. He
Speaker 1: also said he didn't like me, which it's now my
Speaker 1: mission to make him like me. We went to the
Speaker 1: first task, ladder bridge walk. I went third. I failed,
Speaker 1: which made me mad at myself. Everyone was nice, but
Speaker 1: cue he called me a bag of ass, but also
Speaker 1: he was right. I didn't like failing. I don't want
Speaker 1: to again. After I went, I got in trouble for
Speaker 1: helping someone fill their water. Then we got in a
Speaker 1: new car and drove the Base, which was like an
Speaker 1: hour away. There was four of us in the car.
Speaker 1: They had four random sandwiches. I got a smoke salmon bagel.
Speaker 1: I was so hungry, it was amazing. Then I got
Speaker 1: to Base, took a tour ate dinner chicken, white juice,
Speaker 1: rice peas, sweet potatoes, and carrots. I loved it. Favorite meal.
Speaker 1: Now we're just waiting for the rest of the night.
Speaker 1: I've wanted to call Mom, Kez, Rachel and Abby. It's
Speaker 1: been a fun day and I just want to tell
Speaker 1: everyone about it and hear it. Third days, I felt
Speaker 1: my phone buzz in my head so much. Phantom phone
Speaker 1: syndrome is real. Really, I wondered how it was to
Speaker 1: just shut your phone off and crazy. Yeah, it's eight fifteen,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna get some sleep quick. Uh nine oh seven,
Speaker 1: awake and getting ready. So I slept for like an hour,
Speaker 1: little under an hour, and then they were called us
Speaker 1: ten forty three. We were done for the night. That's
Speaker 1: a long day. Yeah, I'm being very hard on myself. Currently,
Speaker 1: we had a test of character workout with a rock
Speaker 1: oh my god. The rock workout was on day one. Well,
Speaker 1: you had a little rock. We had a test of
Speaker 1: character workout with a rock and we had to speed
Speaker 1: get a rock. One of the boys handed me one,
Speaker 1: and then when we all got back, I had one
Speaker 1: of the smallest. We had a duck walk, lunchwalk, burpie
Speaker 1: and something else. We slammed the rock while Burt being
Speaker 1: and I broke mine. That's how small my rock was.
Speaker 1: I broke it while throwing it. My stamina is by
Speaker 1: far the best, but I know I could have made
Speaker 1: that harder on myself. Then I have whoa. It's seven
Speaker 1: fifty five pm and I just walked into a massive
Speaker 1: between Brian and Angela. I was getting my mic changed,
Speaker 1: but fuck, it's hated. I also have when I failed,
Speaker 1: Daddy Foxy said I thought you had it and then
Speaker 1: I blinked and you failed, So I go next time,
Speaker 1: don't blink. Thought it was funny, but he didn't. My
Speaker 1: budgie held me up like a fairy. Then I had
Speaker 1: a list of who I liked versus who I didn't like,
Speaker 1: but then I ended up crossing that out because I
Speaker 1: was like, if my journal gets red again, I don't
Speaker 1: want that being out there sixth grade. It's literally so
Speaker 1: sixth grade. But the thing is is, I don't have
Speaker 1: anybody tell me just who you liked right on this
Speaker 1: light it was Brian, Savannah, Kelly, and Dez. They were
Speaker 1: my first, but then I aboord a mission. I think
Speaker 1: right away on day one probably would have also been Tyler.
Speaker 1: I didn't know Nick well yet. Tyler. I got a
Speaker 1: good vibe from day one. Yeah, those were honestly like people.
Speaker 1: Day one dead stories. Oh I got good dead stories.
Speaker 1: I got good dead stories. Oh you're talking to the
Speaker 1: Robbert stories. But I got one. So on day one
Speaker 1: they came in and they told us that we were
Speaker 1: gonna need to memorize information. Oh yeah, so I have
Speaker 1: that written down. Muppet clap, grit and NBC Muppet is
Speaker 1: most useless pathetic person ever trained, Clap is clear loud
Speaker 1: as an order, pauses, NBC nuclear biological chemical, and grit
Speaker 1: group range indication type of fire. We didn't know what
Speaker 1: we were gonna need them for, but we found out
Speaker 1: on day two very early. Anyways, Yeah, so Robert Horry,
Speaker 1: when we got back into the accommodations, I didn't really
Speaker 1: understand what a big deal Robert Horry was and he
Speaker 1: was telling some incredible stories about Kobe and playing with
Speaker 1: Kobe and like, I mean, he is a massive basketball player,
Speaker 1: like massive in the NBA, and so everyone really loved
Speaker 1: his stories and he would tell these stories and I literally,
Speaker 1: this is awful. But I was like fuck that, I'm
Speaker 1: going to sleep because everyone was so engaged in his
Speaker 1: stories that I was like, no one's going to come
Speaker 1: in and interrupt this. I'm talking producers too have to
Speaker 1: be in a control room being like, oh I want
Speaker 1: to hear this story. No one's going to interrupt this.
Speaker 1: And so I was sleeping tell his stories. I was
Speaker 1: like I not, No, there was something else while I
Speaker 1: was reading this, and I was like, oh, I want
Speaker 1: to talk about that. Oh the rock workout. Yeah yeah yeah.
Speaker 1: So I basically they called us out to the Paride
Speaker 1: Square and they were like, go get a rock right where.
Speaker 1: So they spread over to the rock pile and one
Speaker 1: of the boys just hands me a rock out of
Speaker 1: the pile and I just take it a run and
Speaker 1: I literally got back into the Prade Square and I
Speaker 1: looked at it and I was like God, damn it
Speaker 1: because I just knew I knew what that challenge was
Speaker 1: gonna be about. It was gonna be like, did you
Speaker 1: pick a big rock word little rock? And I had
Speaker 1: this one of the small lists. If they handed it,
Speaker 1: they handed it to me. But like I should have
Speaker 1: taken initiative. And that's what I learned, Like it's a
Speaker 1: team game, but it's also a solo game. Yeah, And
Speaker 1: so I had my little itty bitty freaking rock and
Speaker 1: did all these workouts and I mean it was hard. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I mean I had like a ten pound boulder and
Speaker 1: like Jack Osborne's over there, and they called him the
Speaker 1: Pillsbury Dope Boy because we had a dunk walkway it,
Speaker 1: which is like when you're squatted down walking and he
Speaker 1: was rolling his because he could have do They're like
Speaker 1: and the fucking Pillsbury Dope Boys did go and I mean,
Speaker 1: like I cackled, like they were so funny the DS.
Speaker 1: I want to know, is there like a book where
Speaker 1: the DS has learned all they're like funny phrases from
Speaker 1: so funny they're phrases I can't even They just roast everyone.
Speaker 1: They roast and they are quick. One day, DS Billy
Speaker 1: looked at me and it was like, stop nodding naughty,
Speaker 1: and I was like, that's brilliant. What do you call
Speaker 1: Tara dippy Dora? Her dippy Dora? It's like, that doesn't
Speaker 1: even make any sense, but it's hysterriby. Day two, what
Speaker 1: they said to Tara was my favorite thing ever. And
Speaker 1: so you'll hear about that on my part two. God,
Speaker 1: this is gonna be an eight part series. I wanted
Speaker 1: to hear about Tara's cigarettes too, So when we were
Speaker 1: at the Trenasium, all of a sudden, well there's two
Speaker 1: stories you're actually So when we're at the Trenasium, Tom
Speaker 1: and Tyler realized that they had mixed up kids. So like,
Speaker 1: let's say we have to go to the bathroom because
Speaker 1: there was an indoor bathroom h here, And they were like,
Speaker 1: let's say we have to go to the bathroom, let's
Speaker 1: go change. Yeah, Well they go into the bathroom. They
Speaker 1: were like, can we go to the bathroom. We'll go
Speaker 1: in a buddy pair. So they go in and they're
Speaker 1: in there. They were in there for like ten minutes,
Speaker 1: Like mind you, yes, they did all have to take
Speaker 1: everything all put anything back on. Well, DS Rudy was like,
Speaker 1: where the fuck did they go? DS Rudy goes and
Speaker 1: finds them in a bathroom changing together and is like,
Speaker 1: you are not They're ship seriously and all of us
Speaker 1: are like, what's going on out there? Right? Like no
Speaker 1: one knows what's going on out there, and we just
Speaker 1: see them come out, and like Rudy was like they
Speaker 1: were changing, what are they going in there? And like
Speaker 1: they were just they were literally swapping clothes. But he
Speaker 1: thought they were like I never thought they were like
Speaker 1: they were making they were like two straight there literally
Speaker 1: swapping clothes. But yeah, they were, they thought. I don't
Speaker 1: think he thought necessarily they were like making out like
Speaker 1: I feel like Rudy's had probably more like comparing dick
Speaker 1: sides or something like. I don't know, but yeah, they
Speaker 1: got so mad at them. And then Tara tried to
Speaker 1: sneak in cigarettes. So she and her clothes that she
Speaker 1: arrived and had him in every pocket, every stock, every bra.
Speaker 1: Well then you had to change, and so when we changed,
Speaker 1: she swapped all her cigarettes and put them in the
Speaker 1: pants and then there's in these socks down in these
Speaker 1: shoes now, so she stocked up a cigarettes, but they
Speaker 1: saw her. So as we're leaving, DS Box was like
Speaker 1: give me your pack, and so she pulls out one
Speaker 1: and he's like, is that it. She's like that's it.
Speaker 1: He's like, open your pocket, and she pulls out another pack.
Speaker 1: Then she pulls out another pack. She had like eight
Speaker 1: packs on her. They ended up letting her keep one,
Speaker 1: they did, Yeah, they did let her keep one. But yeah,
Speaker 1: she had like so many packs of cigarettes on her.
Speaker 1: It was hysterical. Gotta love good old terror. Oh my god,
Speaker 1: any other day one I want to hear about the
Speaker 1: fight that you walked into between Black China and Yeah,
Speaker 1: so even when it aired, it's still confusing, like what
Speaker 1: happened that I Brian. Brian has a personality that if
Speaker 1: you don't understand, you don't understand for sure. And Black
Speaker 1: China is a very strong personality that also if you
Speaker 1: don't understand, you don't understand, and you she is a
Speaker 1: bear that you cannot poke. Brian is a little boy
Speaker 1: with a stick, and that is a recipe for disaster.
Speaker 1: So literally I was I think he's in the restroom
Speaker 1: or something, and I came back in and they were
Speaker 1: just like fighting with each other and like no one
Speaker 1: knew what was happening. That was like, what's going on?
Speaker 1: And everyone was like I don't know. So I look
Speaker 1: at Brian and I was like, hey, bro, like ye
Speaker 1: you okay. He's like yeah, I'm fun. It doesn't matter.
Speaker 1: But I was like what, Like literally everyone was like,
Speaker 1: what happened? Asked her what happened? She didn't know what happened.
Speaker 1: Asked him what happened. He didn't know what happened. I
Speaker 1: was like, Okay, this is just strange. But they were
Speaker 1: like yelling at each other in the accommodations. It was wild.
Speaker 1: I thought it was over like the temperature in the room. No,
Speaker 1: he literally like I think he cracked a joke and
Speaker 1: she was like, well I don't joke like that, and
Speaker 1: like he was like, oh, like okay, and she was like,
Speaker 1: don't get sassy with me, and I was like, I'm
Speaker 1: not sassy with you. You'reself like something like that, like
Speaker 1: just like petty, silly, stupid. Like the people that bonded
Speaker 1: in the beginning. Actually was interesting because it's very different
Speaker 1: from how it ended. Like I in the beginning definitely
Speaker 1: bonded with Kelly and Savannah. Tyler and Dez bonded because
Speaker 1: like the like football vibe, Nick and Tyler actually like
Speaker 1: prior to Special Forces. Vocally hated each other, serious publicly
Speaker 1: hated each other. Mm hmm, yeah I didn't know that. Yeah,
Speaker 1: Like we're very open about it, Like I don't know,
Speaker 1: just like Bachelor Nation didn't agree, Like I don't know,
Speaker 1: very different people. I think Nick has said something about Tyler.
Speaker 1: Tyler had said something about Nick. But just like they
Speaker 1: don't mix, you know what I mean. Yeah, probably just
Speaker 1: like me and Christy from Dance Bombs prior to the reunion,
Speaker 1: you just don't mix. You just don't walk on the
Speaker 1: same side of the street. And then like you do
Speaker 1: something like this and you're like, okay, wait, you know
Speaker 1: what I mean. Yeah, Now Nick and Tyler are literally
Speaker 1: like freaking brothers. Yeah, it's it's cool to see. Actually,
Speaker 1: everyone just kind of like bonded to somebody immediately, and
Speaker 1: then those bonds definitely changed. I grew very close to
Speaker 1: Nick and Tyler and body Aaron and Tyler grew really close.
Speaker 1: I grew pretty close to Jack actually as well. It
Speaker 1: just it was cool to see, like who you who
Speaker 1: you eventually like grew very close to well, and then too,
Speaker 1: when people leave and if you're close to them, that
Speaker 1: was hard. That was hard. I knew if Nick left,
Speaker 1: I was going to have a harder time. I think
Speaker 1: during Special Forces I was closer to Nick, and I
Speaker 1: knew if he left, I was going to have a
Speaker 1: really hard time because he like he was like really
Speaker 1: brotherly figured to me, like I don't know something about him.
Speaker 1: While we were there, like just felt like if I
Speaker 1: needed a hug, Nick, give me a hug. Like even
Speaker 1: now to this day, Nick is still one of those people,
Speaker 1: but like while we were there, he was number one
Speaker 1: for me. I like the feet story that you tell
Speaker 1: about Nick. You'll have to wait for you for that's
Speaker 1: a van story. That one too. I like that one,
Speaker 1: the van story when he yeah, yeah too so soon
Speaker 1: the van story was I just saw it in this
Speaker 1: last EPISOD so that I saw and I got really happy. Yeah,
Speaker 1: you gotta wait till day seven because those stories are great.
Speaker 1: Man Day one, I think that's probably it. We fell asleep.
Speaker 1: No one really knew what to expect. We didn't know
Speaker 1: when the lights were gonna go on. We didn't know
Speaker 1: how long we were going to sleep for. We didn't
Speaker 1: know or we're supposed to wear. I fell asleep fully dressed.
Speaker 1: I was like, I'm ready I'm ready. Whenever they call,
Speaker 1: I will be ready. Yeah, we were still looking a
Speaker 1: mess day one. No one had their outfits together. I
Speaker 1: knew day one when they showed us the axe job
Speaker 1: with the firewood, that I wanted that I wanted that
Speaker 1: to be my job. And I knew it was gonna
Speaker 1: be hard for people to get me that job because
Speaker 1: all the boys were like, that's a man's job, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean? And so I knew I was
Speaker 1: gonna have to convince the boys like let me do
Speaker 1: it with them. But eventually you'll hear all my firewood stories.
Speaker 1: And you've never sung an act before. I never saw
Speaker 1: an axe before, never tried wood before. No, heck no,
Speaker 1: now professional at it. I would be interested to see
Speaker 1: if I could do it like still, like how good
Speaker 1: I would be at it? Because I got really good.
Speaker 1: I did it every day. I wonder even go here
Speaker 1: to like chop wood anytime, you know, anytime now I
Speaker 1: see like a like uh like a like wood for sale,
Speaker 1: I always send a picture of it to my boys.
Speaker 1: I'll send it to a group out of me Jack, Nick, Tyler, Bodie,
Speaker 1: because they were who took me out to chop the
Speaker 1: wood with them. They're the best. Oh, I got great stories.
Speaker 1: I ran an axe into my leg. Day two, I
Speaker 1: burned my hand. There's so many stories that word gasoline
Speaker 1: on yourself, Ford gasoline on myself, day six, five or six, Yeah,
Speaker 1: so many stories, so many beastings that nobody saw. I
Speaker 1: remember what I said, Did you cry and you're like
Speaker 1: every day? Every day? I did not cry day one. Okay,
Speaker 1: in the episode, it airs that I cried day one.
Speaker 1: That interview was day six, day one. I no offense,
Speaker 1: did not miss my family, did not miss my friends,
Speaker 1: like I wanted to call everybody to be like dude.
Speaker 1: So today I walked across a wobbly ladder and fell
Speaker 1: down the middle of it and dangled and then got
Speaker 1: pulled back up, then got told I looked like a
Speaker 1: back half, then tried to smoke salmon, and then we're
Speaker 1: on base. I have to carry this thirty five pounds back.
Speaker 1: Supposed to be like in between thirty and thirty five,
Speaker 1: but I made mine thirty six, so that way, like,
Speaker 1: there's no fucking it up. And wait to hear the
Speaker 1: Bergen story too, when when when they wait them oh
Speaker 1: uh huh, Honestly, I'll give a spoiler because I've never
Speaker 1: told you this. So they come in to WAM. Now
Speaker 1: a big lesson that we learned this was on day seven,
Speaker 1: is that we needed to take some initiative. Yeah, and
Speaker 1: that was a big lesson we learned. Maybe it was
Speaker 1: day six actually, And so then they they did a
Speaker 1: pre kidnapping that didn't get aired where they like came
Speaker 1: and kidnapped us and they took our burgains from us.
Speaker 1: And then we're in our accommodations and we asked the DS.
Speaker 1: We were like, hey, when will we get our burgins back?
Speaker 1: And they're like, we'll bring them. Do you don't worry
Speaker 1: about it? And so I go out a base, right,
Speaker 1: I go out of our accommodations to go into the
Speaker 1: mess and I saw our burgens outside of the gate
Speaker 1: and I go back into everybody and I was like, hey, everyone,
Speaker 1: I know we're not supposed to leave base, but our
Speaker 1: burgins are out there and they're being not watched. Yeah,
Speaker 1: And I was like, I think we should go grab them.
Speaker 1: And Aaron was like, I'll come get them with you,
Speaker 1: and I was like, all right, let's do it. We
Speaker 1: didn't know if we're supposed to. We had a lesson
Speaker 1: on taking an initiative, and I told everyone. I was like, look,
Speaker 1: I know we're not supposed to be, but they said,
Speaker 1: take initiative. Right there, I can see them. Someone can
Speaker 1: come with me, we can take initiative. And I think
Speaker 1: what was going to happen is they were going to
Speaker 1: take stand out of them to make someone's not weigh
Speaker 1: the right them out. I think that's what was going
Speaker 1: to happen. But I took the initiative and Aaron took
Speaker 1: the initiative with me to go get them. So then
Speaker 1: they come out to weigh them, They're like, get your buggins,
Speaker 1: get on the bright squat, no heads up that they're
Speaker 1: going to weigh them. Right, we had the stand in
Speaker 1: them out for seven days. They weigh everybody. They put
Speaker 1: me last in line to get wait and DS Billy
Speaker 1: like looked at me and like goes to pick up
Speaker 1: my bag and I'm sitting there with flying colors confidence
Speaker 1: mine's a kilogram over. Yeah, because I was not about
Speaker 1: I told all the boys and you'll hear about this
Speaker 1: on day one and two. I'm sorry. On day two
Speaker 1: and three, I told everybody. I was like, we are
Speaker 1: going to get in trouble. We are gonna get punished,
Speaker 1: but not for something stupid. I ain't getting punished for
Speaker 1: you not having your armband on or you having a
Speaker 1: missing button. If we get punished because someone's button is different,
Speaker 1: no happening on my watch, my way, and so sand
Speaker 1: in my bag. No, I would rather have an extra kilogram.
Speaker 1: So he has Billy goes and he puts mine on
Speaker 1: the scale and he looked out and he was like,
Speaker 1: oh shit, like he like like he thought he thought
Speaker 1: I was gonna be the one that was like slacking
Speaker 1: off the lader bag and I had the heaviest bag
Speaker 1: because I was like not not he like me now?
Speaker 1: He was like, so are we friends? Yet? So many
Speaker 1: good stories though, so many memories? Anything else on day one?
Speaker 1: I don't think there's anything else. I feel like I
Speaker 1: really went in. I feel like it really did too.
Speaker 1: I feel like I really just would want to know
Speaker 1: like more of like what you are thinking? So like,
Speaker 1: were you like nervous? I was very curious. I was
Speaker 1: really curious who the first to go home was. I
Speaker 1: will say night one, I was like, how is Terra
Speaker 1: still here? I really did not know how terror I
Speaker 1: didn't think she was going to make a day one,
Speaker 1: I really didn't, and then she did. She got through
Speaker 1: the rock workout and I was like, damn, like we
Speaker 1: did it. Pull it and I was like all right.
Speaker 1: So then I was kind of like, I wonder who
Speaker 1: the first place to go home was. And it was
Speaker 1: kind of a toss up between what it be Terror
Speaker 1: or Angela who was black China. Yeah, And I was like, well,
Speaker 1: both of them are falling asleep here, like they're both chilling.
Speaker 1: That was something I was thinking. I was very curious
Speaker 1: about who was going to go home. I was curious
Speaker 1: about what was going on at home, my home, Like
Speaker 1: I was very curious as like what my family was doing.
Speaker 1: I was very curious to if everyone had a good day,
Speaker 1: if everyone was okay, Like what if something happened, like
Speaker 1: if I'm missing something. Yeah, that was always thought and
Speaker 1: I just kept telling myself something is ever wrong, you
Speaker 1: will feel it. You will know, like if someone dies,
Speaker 1: their angel spirit will come to you and be like, hey,
Speaker 1: heads up, I died, But like don't worry, like finish
Speaker 1: your time here, you know what I mean? Like I
Speaker 1: kept just keep doing the challenges. I got delusional. I
Speaker 1: really got delusional. Man. I think night one I didn't.
Speaker 1: I didn't miss any one. Night one, I really didn't.
Speaker 1: Having the time of my life. I was like, this
Speaker 1: is stoped. I'm away, like, yeah, yeah, this was hard,
Speaker 1: but like I did it, you know what I mean,
Speaker 1: little did I know how hard it was going to
Speaker 1: get and how bad I was going to miss everyone.
Speaker 1: I mean like day one, two and three were a
Speaker 1: joy ride or came, hardest shit I've ever done. Then
Speaker 1: day five came. It was harder than day four. Day six,
Speaker 1: it was harder than day five. Day seven, day harder
Speaker 1: than eight was. I mean, eight was my limit, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean, it's crazy. Yeah. My priority was
Speaker 1: just making everyone laugh when we were in the combinations.
Speaker 1: Make everyone giggle, make everyone smile, make everyone crack a joke,
Speaker 1: make them laugh however I could, because I knew everyone's
Speaker 1: spirits are going to be down. I knew no one
Speaker 1: had their family. I just wanted to make people laugh.
Speaker 1: I wanted people to like me. I did, and I
Speaker 1: just was like, I ain't going to change myself for
Speaker 1: people to like people like I want to give they
Speaker 1: one a good time, you know what I mean. Yeah, yeah,
Speaker 1: it's such a great experience. I can't believe you did it.
Speaker 1: I can't believe all the way there and did all
Speaker 1: those things. So many things, so many freaking things like
Speaker 1: you literally walked across two mountains like a ladder, like
Speaker 1: wobbly super wobbly, like crazy things Like if I was
Speaker 1: there with you, I'd be like, say, honey, don't go
Speaker 1: so close the edge, save right. And this is like, yeah, gosh,
Speaker 1: literally yesterday I was standing on a chair and You're like,
Speaker 1: be careful, dun dangerous, And I'm like, Mom, this is nothing.
Speaker 1: All right. Well, I feel like we have been chatting
Speaker 1: about day one for a hell of a long time. Yeah,
Speaker 1: but we got a lot more to talk about. I
Speaker 1: feel like day two and three can maybe be a
Speaker 1: combined effort. But who knows, maybe it'll be an eight
Speaker 1: part series of special Forces. Thank you all for listening
Speaker 1: to Jojesia. Now, thank you mom for joining me and
Speaker 1: tell this. You will be back. You will be sitting
Speaker 1: in this chair a lot more sitting on this bed,
Speaker 1: sitting on this bed. But there there are a lot
Speaker 1: of good stories. There's a lot we'll get into the
Speaker 1: death notes. I'll read you my death note. We will
Speaker 1: read every day's journal. I will tell stories from every
Speaker 1: day stuff you didn't see. There's tasks you didn't see.
Speaker 1: There's beastings you didn't see, there's breakdowns you didn't see.
Speaker 1: There's stories with everybody, car rides, dinners, meals at everything
Speaker 1: that didn't get aired because you know, you're taking twenty minutes,
Speaker 1: twenty four hours into forty two minutes. Yeah, twenty four
Speaker 1: hours into forty two minutes. Like think about that. That's right.
Speaker 1: That's like literally not even ten percent, Like it's it's
Speaker 1: a fraction of it. And so it's it's a very
Speaker 1: difficult show to edit, and they gotta do what they
Speaker 1: gotta do, and they got to chop out what they
Speaker 1: gotta chop out. But there's a lot of stories. Eight
Speaker 1: days isn't that long, but it is an eternity when
Speaker 1: you're in it. So get ready. Buckle up, mom, Thank
Speaker 1: you for joining me, thank you for roving here, Thank
Speaker 1: you for listening, and uh yeah, I love you. I'll
Speaker 1: see you soon. Thank you so much for listening. Everybody,
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