Speaker 1: All from Georgia.
Speaker 2: Hello.
Speaker 1: Oh my god.
Speaker 3: Wait, I'm sorry I didn't Okay, okay, I'm a little surprised.
Speaker 2: I'm George said Georgia. Not very good to be talking
Speaker 2: to you on the Gecko Show. How's life?
Speaker 3: It's complicated, That's actually why I called.
Speaker 2: Okay, tell me what's up. So?
Speaker 3: I have an older brother, right, and he's twenty three,
Speaker 3: I'm nineteen. And I found out that he's been using
Speaker 3: my toothbrush, right.
Speaker 4: But there's more than that.
Speaker 3: And then I wore on my work computer and he
Speaker 3: was buying stuff for like his Xbox and all that, right,
Speaker 3: And then I go to school on the day, right,
Speaker 3: And I had a dog and I would sleep with
Speaker 3: my dog. And he came in my room in the
Speaker 3: middle of the night and was like, I'm going to
Speaker 3: murder you and burn your room down if you sleep
Speaker 3: with your dog and I have to walk him while
Speaker 3: you're at school.
Speaker 2: Wow, this is really escalated fast.
Speaker 4: Yeah.
Speaker 3: Yeah, it just keeps getting bigger, you know what I mean?
Speaker 2: Does it end there?
Speaker 3: No, it doesn't know what finish. So like, for example, right,
Speaker 3: i I'll have like I want to eat very specific foods, right,
Speaker 3: And because I don't feel like cooking, and when I
Speaker 3: come home from school, I just want to make something
Speaker 3: quickly eat it and then go do my homework and
Speaker 3: go to work, right, and he'll eat it all. He'll
Speaker 3: get really high and eat it all. So I had
Speaker 3: to start hiding, like all.
Speaker 2: Of my food and all my what's your name again, Georgia, Georgia?
Speaker 2: Does it get worse? Because you you kind of if
Speaker 2: this fluctuated because you started with he used your teeth brush,
Speaker 2: and then you said he threatened to kill you, and
Speaker 2: then you said it gets worse, but you said, you went,
Speaker 2: he's okay. You went from uh, he used your toothbrush
Speaker 2: to he threatened to murder you and your dog to
Speaker 2: he eats your food. Those they're one of those things
Speaker 2: sticks out to me.
Speaker 3: Yeah, okay, okay, Yeah, I mean he just kind of
Speaker 3: has the habit of taking shit and then murdering me.
Speaker 3: And then I caught him, like so one of my friends,
Speaker 3: she's a lot younger than me, she's like sixteen, and
Speaker 3: I caught him like watching her on dress Jesus. So yeah, yeah,
Speaker 3: like I was kind of I was building up to that.
Speaker 2: See I feel like you should have gone toothbrush eating
Speaker 2: your food and then you know somebody you could intertain
Speaker 2: intertwine that with the murder thing. Yeah, what's the what's
Speaker 2: I I I don't know. I'm at a loss. What's
Speaker 2: the deal with this guy?
Speaker 3: So he all, okay, okay, it's not funny, but it is.
Speaker 3: So he is bipolar, right, and he he was sent
Speaker 3: to the mental hospital because he was like, you know,
Speaker 3: I tried to kill myself and he didn't like and
Speaker 3: I feel shitty saying that I do. But he kind
Speaker 3: of uses it above our heads as a way to
Speaker 3: like get out of being held accountable for all of this.
Speaker 3: And I don't I don't know, Like I really think
Speaker 3: his like mental excuse only goes so far. I just
Speaker 3: think he's a weirdo. He's not my fault. He's my stepbrother.
Speaker 3: He's not my full like brother. But yeah, I don't,
Speaker 3: I don't know. He just it.
Speaker 2: Yeah, and you two live in the same house as
Speaker 2: your your parents.
Speaker 3: Yeah, so we live. Oh well, so we live with
Speaker 3: his dad and my mom, and his dad is really
Speaker 3: like he feels really bad about what happened with him
Speaker 3: because he will be like, oh, I tried to kill myself,
Speaker 3: so what I do doesn't matter, and my mom's not
Speaker 3: like that. But my mom's a paramedic, right, so she's
Speaker 3: gone for like two three days at a time, so
Speaker 3: like there's really nothing she can do, you know what
Speaker 3: I mean, we both we live.
Speaker 2: With both of our parents though, and like have you
Speaker 2: what have your parents done to like, Uh, I don't know.
Speaker 2: I mean, I don't even know what they can do
Speaker 2: to like, you know what, what if? What are their
Speaker 2: thoughts on the sky and on all of his antics?
Speaker 3: So my mom is not a fan. It's kind of
Speaker 3: gotten to the point though, where she doesn't want to
Speaker 3: deal with the arguing anymore. She doesn't want to be
Speaker 3: in the middle of it all because I can't straight
Speaker 3: up confront him, you know, Like I'm a big girl,
Speaker 3: Like I'm five nine, and like I can hold my
Speaker 3: own you know what I mean.
Speaker 2: I mean, I don't know if I don't know if
Speaker 2: the solution is to beat him up, I don't know
Speaker 2: whatether that's necessarily going to like do productively for the situation.
Speaker 1: What.
Speaker 3: No, Like I'm scared he's gonna try and get physical
Speaker 3: with me, okay, So I have to go through my
Speaker 3: mom if anything happens, right, and she'll go to his
Speaker 3: dad but his dad won't do anything like it's it's
Speaker 3: and it's just he's just weird and he's like he'll
Speaker 3: creep on me when I'm on the phone and he'll
Speaker 3: listen to my conversations, or like I'll catch him going
Speaker 3: through my room and then he'll try and tell me
Speaker 3: he didn't when he's in my room, Like, I just
Speaker 3: I don't know what he's doing in here.
Speaker 2: You wait, hold on real quick. Did you say did
Speaker 2: you say rum or room?
Speaker 3: Room?
Speaker 1: Never mind like bedroom m hm.
Speaker 2: And And so I assume you're living at home because
Speaker 2: you're going to school and working and just trying to
Speaker 2: save as much money as you possibly can. Yeah, ah,
Speaker 2: but your parents are not going to do anything about
Speaker 2: this guy.
Speaker 3: I mean, my mom has tried. She'll she'll yell at
Speaker 3: him and she'll confront him. But it only like it
Speaker 3: only makes it like hot, like it only makes it
Speaker 3: more hostile almost because and they won't talk to me,
Speaker 3: you know what I mean, Like I'll get like shunned.
Speaker 2: Mm hmmm mmm mmmm. Are you in genuine fear of
Speaker 2: your safety?
Speaker 3: Uh? No, because he's he can have he'll like lash
Speaker 3: out like he's kind of a bitch. If you know
Speaker 3: what I mean, Like, he's not. He'll like go on
Speaker 3: his rum and cry if you raise your.
Speaker 4: Voice at him.
Speaker 2: Are you saying Are you saying rum to be funny?
Speaker 2: Or is that how you say it?
Speaker 3: That's how I say it? I'm sorry?
Speaker 2: Is that Where are you from?
Speaker 3: I'm from Boston?
Speaker 2: Is that a Boston thing? It does rum?
Speaker 3: It might be, I don't, I don't know. It might
Speaker 3: just be my accent. I grew up in New Bedford,
Speaker 3: but I go between Boston and Providence.
Speaker 2: That's this?
Speaker 4: Is this?
Speaker 2: Is that's the same accent that that girl from Wolf
Speaker 2: of Wall Street had, right? Or is that New York?
Speaker 2: They sound very similar.
Speaker 3: New York and Boston are pretty similar.
Speaker 4: Uh.
Speaker 3: I don't know if she was from Boston though.
Speaker 2: Wait damn does this Does this guy have a Boston
Speaker 2: accent too?
Speaker 3: Yes?
Speaker 2: Oh he's a fucking menace. All right, here's the thing
Speaker 2: I feel like. First of all, First of all, I'm
Speaker 2: sorry that all this is happening to you, because, like
Speaker 2: you know, when you're nineteen, like living at home with
Speaker 2: your parents, if you have the opportunity to it rocks.
Speaker 2: It's the best you save money, you live life. It's
Speaker 2: like what you should do in my opinion, But if
Speaker 2: you genuinely are feeling like unsafe and like you're just
Speaker 2: in constant fear of this fucking guy, Uh, can you
Speaker 2: afford to like move out and live with a bunch
Speaker 2: of roommates or something like that.
Speaker 3: I can, But I probably should have mentioned this earlier.
Speaker 3: My mom is terminally ill right and she's not well,
Speaker 3: my god right now. She has a genetic disease. And
Speaker 3: so she was for a time, for like a time
Speaker 3: period for like two years, she was you know, like
Speaker 3: if we didn't touch it, and they put her on
Speaker 3: like it's some form of chemo to kind of keep
Speaker 3: it in check. But if they didn't touch it when
Speaker 3: they did, she would have died. But the thing is
Speaker 3: is that when all of that was happening, I was
Speaker 3: the only one taking care of her. So I'm scared.
Speaker 3: Like I'm mainly wanting to stay for my mom because
Speaker 3: like we're like we're more like sisters, the mother and daughter,
Speaker 3: Like we have a really close and good relationship. I
Speaker 3: love her at best, but like it's kind of getting
Speaker 3: to the point where as soon as I get what
Speaker 3: I need to get done, I think I'm going to leave.
Speaker 3: And if she gets sick again, I'll come back to
Speaker 3: take care of her. But I'm just worried that, you know,
Speaker 3: she doesn't tell me, or if she doesn't tell me,
Speaker 3: how bad it is that she's just going to be
Speaker 3: like left on her own because she was like fully bedbound,
Speaker 3: couldn't get up, couldn't go to the kitchen, couldn't get
Speaker 3: to the bathroom. And I was the only one helping her,
Speaker 3: And like when I was at school or when I
Speaker 3: had something to do, she wouldn't eat all day. No
Speaker 3: one would get her a drink, no one would help
Speaker 3: her to the bathroom. You know, I'd be the one
Speaker 3: to have to do all that, And I'm just I
Speaker 3: don't want to, do.
Speaker 2: You think, I mean, I don't. Like then you might
Speaker 2: have to talk to a you might have to talk
Speaker 2: to lawyer gecko here, But like, has this guy done
Speaker 2: enough ship to you that you you you think you
Speaker 2: can get like a restraining order against him?
Speaker 3: I don't, I don't know.
Speaker 4: I don't.
Speaker 3: I think that would be too much because I don't
Speaker 3: think he's like he lives with us because he he's
Speaker 3: never really worked, you know what.
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, And I understand why you don't. I understand
Speaker 2: why you wouldn't want to do that either, because you
Speaker 2: know you have it. Don't let me put words in
Speaker 2: your mouth. But it sounds like you have compassion for
Speaker 2: him because he's genuinely mentally ill and that might not
Speaker 2: have anywhere else to go.
Speaker 3: Yeah, Like I don't want to put him on like
Speaker 3: his ass or like them to kick him out. And
Speaker 3: to the point, my mom she was ready to leave
Speaker 3: her husband because she was like, if you leave, I leave.
Speaker 3: And you know, I don't want it to get to
Speaker 3: that point, and I don't want her to like put
Speaker 3: herself in that position, you know what I mean? And
Speaker 3: just like I don't. I just I feel bad, like
Speaker 3: even with everything he's done and how creepy he has done,
Speaker 3: you know, like I just nobody should be living on
Speaker 3: the streets, you know what I mean.
Speaker 2: Man, you're like a You're a grizzled fifty five year
Speaker 2: old Boston dad. You're like a grizzled seventy year old
Speaker 2: Boston grandfather in a nineteen year old girl's body. You
Speaker 2: know what.
Speaker 3: That is actually not the first time I've heard that.
Speaker 2: I mean, good on you, Good on you, Georgia. This
Speaker 2: you're dealing with a This is a lot of stuff
Speaker 2: going on, Yeah, a lot of stuff that you're dealing with.
Speaker 3: Yeah, it's it's complicated, and you know, it's just like
Speaker 3: it's just because I love my mom so much, you know,
Speaker 3: like she's genuinely my best friend, and you know, she
Speaker 3: was a single mother raising me for a very very
Speaker 3: long time. You know. They didn't move in with us
Speaker 3: until my junior year of high school, so pretty much
Speaker 3: until I was seventeen, it was just me and her,
Speaker 3: and I like, it's mainly that I don't feel right
Speaker 3: in giving her the ultimatum, and I don't feel right
Speaker 3: leaving her, you know what I mean.
Speaker 2: Okay, so you're telling me you're dealing with your your
Speaker 2: bipolar brother, your terminally ill mom, and you're going to
Speaker 2: school and you're working and you're only nineteen. Mm hmm,
Speaker 2: Well listen, Georgia. I don't know if I believe in
Speaker 2: a god, or if I believe in karma, or if
Speaker 2: I even really believe that, you know, what you put
Speaker 2: into the universe comes back at you. But I hope
Speaker 2: all those fucking things are true, because because if it does,
Speaker 2: you deserve at all expenses paid trip to the Nickelodeon
Speaker 2: Hotel in Orlando, Florida.
Speaker 3: Thank you.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't know what are you going to school for?
Speaker 3: So I'm finishing up my diploma. I didn't have a
Speaker 3: lot of stuff happened and I couldn't finish it at
Speaker 3: the time. And then after that, I want to go
Speaker 3: to college for well, I want to go to film school.
Speaker 2: Cool. Yeah, Georgia, do me a favor. I rarely tell
Speaker 2: people what I mean. I'm sure that's not true. I'm
Speaker 2: sure I tell people to do all the time. But
Speaker 2: do me a favor. If you can get a scholarship
Speaker 2: or like a fast foot or something, then by all means,
Speaker 2: go and have a great time and like fuck around
Speaker 2: and make stuff. But please don't go into debt to
Speaker 2: go to film school. It's a terrible idea.
Speaker 3: I actually so where I live right I get two
Speaker 3: years of college for free. So I was gonna test
Speaker 3: the waters and see how I like it and then
Speaker 3: go from there.
Speaker 2: Okay, just yeah, just because if you're dealing because everything
Speaker 2: you're dealing with right now, if you add like tens
Speaker 2: and tens and tens and tens of thousands of dollars
Speaker 2: of debt into it, it will suck even harder.
Speaker 3: I know, Like I was just having a conversation with
Speaker 3: my friend about this, and she was trying to convince
Speaker 3: me to go to a private college, and I'm like,
Speaker 3: I don't want to put myself in debt. Like I
Speaker 3: just feel like.
Speaker 2: That if you if you told me you wanted to
Speaker 2: be like a doctor or a lawyer or something, then
Speaker 2: go for it. But you know, I mean, you can
Speaker 2: go to film school on YouTube for free, So make movies,
Speaker 2: please buy all by by all means like you know
Speaker 2: you don't. You don't even have to wait to go
Speaker 2: to film school to make movies. You can make movies
Speaker 2: anytime anywhere. But uh, okay, what are you? What are
Speaker 2: you working as right now? What do you? Where do
Speaker 2: you go to work?
Speaker 3: So I work from home, but I work for a
Speaker 3: MS doilling company and pretty much whatever. You go to
Speaker 3: the hospital and you take an ambulance, you get a
Speaker 3: bill for it and or like your insurance does and
Speaker 3: I take all your like medical records and I attast
Speaker 3: them to your file.
Speaker 2: Mm.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean it's a pretty good paying job, you know.
Speaker 3: And then once I'm out of school, I will get
Speaker 3: a better job in the company and I'll make more money.
Speaker 3: But I just don't have the time to be working full.
Speaker 4: Time right now.
Speaker 2: Well, geez, Georgia, you're you're more of an adult than
Speaker 2: I am.
Speaker 3: Thank you. I appreciate it.
Speaker 2: Is there, I guess. Is there anything else that you
Speaker 2: wanted to talk about at all, in in in terms
Speaker 2: of this entire situation or or life or anything like that,
Speaker 2: or or if not wanted to say to the people
Speaker 2: of the computer before we go.
Speaker 3: I mean, that's up to you. You know, I have
Speaker 3: other stuff going on in my life with my friends.
Speaker 4: Do you want to hear about it?
Speaker 2: Yeah, sure, I'll hear what's going on with your friends?
Speaker 4: Okay.
Speaker 3: So I've been friends with the same people since I
Speaker 3: was little, right, And I personally I don't date, you know,
Speaker 3: I just feel like I'm not in the emotional state
Speaker 3: and I don't have time. But every once in a while,
Speaker 3: you know, I'll talk to somebody who will date, but
Speaker 3: it's never too serious. Right. And I dated this guy, Michael,
Speaker 3: and we were together for maybe two years off and on.
Speaker 3: He was really toxic. To sum it up, the reason
Speaker 3: we ended up like breaking up for real, was because
Speaker 3: I was at my grandfather's funeral and He's like, where
Speaker 3: is it I can pull up and I was like why,
Speaker 3: and he's like, so we can hook up, like we can,
Speaker 3: and I was like, no, that's not happening. So he
Speaker 3: broke up with me, and I was like, good riddans,
Speaker 3: you know. But then my best friend, uh, Mikayla, she
Speaker 3: dates him and I date my ex. I really don't care,
Speaker 3: you know, like I have no emotional attachment to them.
Speaker 3: But it was just the ex she decided to date.
Speaker 3: I was like, I was a little upset. I was
Speaker 3: like I didn't even like yell at her confront of her.
Speaker 3: I'm like why, like explain, like why do you want to.
Speaker 4: Be with this person?
Speaker 3: You know, like you know he's shitty, you know what
Speaker 3: he's done, and.
Speaker 2: So you're okay, so you brought you break up with
Speaker 2: this guy because he asked you if you wanted to
Speaker 2: fuck him at your grandfather's funeral. And then your friend's like,
Speaker 2: you know what, this guy he sounds pretty awesome. I
Speaker 2: think I'm going to get with him.
Speaker 3: Yes, that's exactly how it went.
Speaker 2: And has that going for your friends?
Speaker 3: So he cheated on her and they ended up having
Speaker 3: to break up. Right, But now MICHAELA has like a
Speaker 3: superiority complex, and she's rubbing in our other friends' faces
Speaker 3: that she's had sex because one of our friends she's
Speaker 3: really inexperienced, and it's it's not like for any she
Speaker 3: just really stand offish, you know what I mean. And
Speaker 3: it's something that she's int tocure about. And she was like,
Speaker 3: at least I have experienced. And I swear to God
Speaker 3: the universe, the universe made sure I wasn't there because
Speaker 3: I would have. I would have plopped it. I would
Speaker 3: have been like, what's wrong with you? And she like,
Speaker 3: even so, she'll still call me and be like, I
Speaker 3: miss Michael. I'm gonna kill myself because I'm still in
Speaker 3: love with him. I'm like, I'm not the one to
Speaker 3: call about that.
Speaker 2: Where Michael. Michael's the guy that wanted to that tried
Speaker 2: to boot to call you at the funeral?
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, what is to you, Michael? Bro I don't
Speaker 3: even know. Like he just decided because we got into
Speaker 3: an argument and over him being toxic and I'm like,
Speaker 3: you're not toxic, Michael, Like I'm not having this conversation
Speaker 3: with you when we first started dating, and since then
Speaker 3: he just kept saying getting more and more toxic, and
Speaker 3: his own like he just I don't know. He's just
Speaker 3: a teenage boy, you know what.
Speaker 2: I'm a you know, honestly, Georgia, after everything you've told me,
Speaker 2: I think I'm just gonna blame it on the city
Speaker 2: of Boston. I think it's just filled with crazy people.
Speaker 3: It sounds no, you should like Boston is filled with
Speaker 3: a bunch of broads who don't know they're right from
Speaker 3: their left.
Speaker 2: Hey, come see me at Arts in the Armor. I
Speaker 2: think I think it's the name Arts and Armory in Boston.
Speaker 2: I'm playing there in March. It's gonna be sick. Invite Michael.
Speaker 3: I will try and bring Michael. I will. I'll hit
Speaker 3: him up and be like, you have to come with me.
Speaker 2: Well, Georgia, Georgia again, Uh sude? You know it's you verse.
Speaker 2: It's it's really it really is just you versus the
Speaker 2: city of Boston, isn't it?
Speaker 3: Yeah?
Speaker 1: It is.
Speaker 2: Well, you're doing a great job. Is there anything else
Speaker 2: you want to say to the people of the computer
Speaker 2: before we go?
Speaker 4: Good luck you all have a great life.
Speaker 3: I wish you all the best.
Speaker 2: Hey, take care, Georgia, Thank you too.
Speaker 4: Yo.
Speaker 2: What if we hooked up in the casket that'd be crazy.
Speaker 3: All from Lou.
Speaker 2: Hello, Hi, Hey, how's it going. I'm doing alright? Have
Speaker 2: we ever spoken before?
Speaker 4: We have not?
Speaker 2: Now, Well, very nice to meet you, Lou. What's going
Speaker 2: on with you tonight?
Speaker 4: Yeah? I just I just got home from from a
Speaker 4: work trip and I'm just chilling.
Speaker 2: How was your work trip? Where did you go?
Speaker 4: It was good. I went to Kansas City for like
Speaker 4: our big holiday party. But it was funny because I
Speaker 4: not only was it a holiday party, my first holiday
Speaker 4: party with this company, but like the first time I
Speaker 4: met everyone on my team and my boss and all my.
Speaker 2: Coworkers because you guys are probably all all zoomies.
Speaker 4: Yeah yeah, we all work remote so for the most part.
Speaker 4: But oh yeah, oh yeah my boss kind of did
Speaker 4: That's cool?
Speaker 2: Did he.
Speaker 4: Did?
Speaker 2: Was he weird to anyone?
Speaker 3: Yeah?
Speaker 4: I mean like in a funny way, like in a
Speaker 4: way where like his coworker was a little like like
Speaker 4: chill out, and who's his equal? I live? I live
Speaker 4: in Denver. So they were like they were just immediately like,
Speaker 4: oh do you smoke weed? And the other guy looked
Speaker 4: he was like, my boss is inappropriate ask and then
Speaker 4: he looks at her and he's like the other guy
Speaker 4: He's like, well, like maybe a little bit she reports
Speaker 4: into you, And I'm like, I don't know how to
Speaker 4: answer this.
Speaker 2: Hold on, here's what bothers me. There was alcohol at
Speaker 2: this party, right. That's fucking so I hate. I hate
Speaker 2: how stigmatized weed is. It's so fucking weird. Who gives
Speaker 2: a shit? It's fucking legal, you know. I think if
Speaker 2: he asked you if you did coke and if you
Speaker 2: had any coke right now that he could have, that
Speaker 2: might have been a little inappropriate. But I digress. Do
Speaker 2: you have coke that you can send me over the mail?
Speaker 4: No? Do you?
Speaker 2: What do you do for work?
Speaker 4: I work? I work in advertising?
Speaker 2: Okay, what should I buy? Advertise me something?
Speaker 4: Oh my gosh, like nothing? Will you over consume?
Speaker 2: I think so too? I think so too. Advertising is weird.
Speaker 2: Hold On, you know it's gonna be so funny. I'm
Speaker 2: about to go on a huge rant about average tizing,
Speaker 2: and then right after this call, I'm gonna be doing
Speaker 2: ad reads so perfect. I don't know advertising. It's like,
Speaker 2: I don't get that. I don't understand how it works
Speaker 2: because like, I've never bought anything I've seen off. Actually,
Speaker 2: I don't know if that's necessarily maybe like one, maybe
Speaker 2: there's been like a service, but like, ultimately I don't
Speaker 2: think I've ever bought anything from an ad, have you? Yeah?
Speaker 4: Well, I mean I definitely, like I definitely bought stuff
Speaker 4: I don't need, you know, like if it's really good
Speaker 4: and I like the packaging or like the colors they use,
Speaker 4: because like most of advertising is like what does it
Speaker 4: make you feel? And like if you feel like you
Speaker 4: trusted or like it feels familiar, then you know you're
Speaker 4: gonna you're gonna be more likely to buy it. But like,
Speaker 4: really what advertising is is like finding the people who
Speaker 4: actually need what you have and then and then making
Speaker 4: it easier and convincing them that they.
Speaker 1: Should buy it.
Speaker 2: So right, right, But there's some things where it's like
Speaker 2: who needs that? When I see, like like you're on
Speaker 2: the you're on the bus and you see like an
Speaker 2: ad for like two hundred dollars sunglasses, Who fucking needs that?
Speaker 2: Why do they have an ad for that?
Speaker 4: No one needs two hundred dollars glasses. I've certainly never
Speaker 4: boughten sunglasses that are more than like twenty bucks.
Speaker 2: Un chin, I was, uh, someone asked me the other
Speaker 2: day what I like to, like if there's anything I
Speaker 2: like to splurge on. And I don't know. I'm not
Speaker 2: a fashion guy. I wear the same gecko suit every day,
Speaker 2: and when I'm not wearing that, I'm wearing like a
Speaker 2: T shirt that I got from something I don't Most
Speaker 2: of the T shirts I have in my wardrobe I
Speaker 2: are not things I bought. There's things that I stumbled
Speaker 2: upon throughout living my life, and like a pair of jeans,
Speaker 2: So it's usually just a solid color shirt, a pair
Speaker 2: of jeans, no jewelry, no ice. I'm very lame, so
Speaker 2: there's no fashion. I don't like furniture. My furniture is shitty.
Speaker 2: I don't know. I don't know. I just want I
Speaker 2: want to save. I just want to save so that
Speaker 2: I don't have to like fucking do anything, you know
Speaker 2: what I mean?
Speaker 4: Yeah, I can't. I don't even know. Like I I'm
Speaker 4: not slurging now. The transmission on my car dive, so
Speaker 4: I have to like repair that I use. I mean,
Speaker 4: I feel like most of my money would go to
Speaker 4: like going out to eat and food.
Speaker 2: That's that's that'll be that's a big slurge.
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, yeah, but like there's no advertisement for that
Speaker 4: unless you're going to like buffore Wild Thinks or something.
Speaker 2: Which I am. But you know what, I'm gonna do
Speaker 2: a free ad read for buffalo wild wings. You should
Speaker 2: go to Buffalo Wild Wings and you should get you
Speaker 2: should get some wings, some boneless wings tossed in old
Speaker 2: bay and barbecue.
Speaker 4: Ya. That's the way. But what are you getting to drink?
Speaker 2: What am I getting to drink? Well? What kind of
Speaker 2: night are we having?
Speaker 4: It's a Friday night.
Speaker 2: It's Friday night. A man, I might get a this
Speaker 2: is the lame, but I might get a milk stout.
Speaker 2: I'm a big like the dark beers al stout. Interesting, Yeah,
Speaker 2: I mean what yeah? Like food. But here's the thing
Speaker 2: with food. It's like even even like you go to
Speaker 2: a restaurant and you get a chicken sandwich and it's
Speaker 2: you know, uh, forty five dollars now, so just going
Speaker 2: just eating food, eating food is kind of splurging in
Speaker 2: a way. You could save way more money through photosynthesis.
Speaker 2: That's why plants have so much invested in the stock market,
Speaker 2: because they save so much by photosynthesizing that they're able
Speaker 2: to invest it afterwards, and that's how they build wealth.
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's true.
Speaker 4: Why there's so many rich You know, it's funny to
Speaker 4: say that because I actually thinking about it, because I
Speaker 4: was traveling for work, so I got to spend most
Speaker 4: of my meals and I did.
Speaker 2: Splurge on Oh well, that's different if it's on look,
Speaker 2: if it's on somebody else's dime, go crazy.
Speaker 4: Yeah yeah, I got like the nice this stuff I got.
Speaker 4: It was like barbecue. I got brisket, chance brisket and
Speaker 4: oh yeah, and just a bunch of like Southern style food.
Speaker 4: It was delicious.
Speaker 2: What's the other thing. I I've only flown first class
Speaker 2: one time ever in my life, and that was because
Speaker 2: it was on someone else's dime. But that's a thing
Speaker 2: where I'm like that. I don't know. I don't get that.
Speaker 2: That's like it just increases the price of your trip
Speaker 2: by like double and it's over. Once you land, you
Speaker 2: get you you've gained no anything of any lasting value.
Speaker 4: Was it worth it? Was it worth flying first clock?
Speaker 1: Like?
Speaker 4: Was it a better experience?
Speaker 2: I mean it was, it was a better experience. It's
Speaker 2: it's not one that I would have paid for myself.
Speaker 2: I think, hold on, I'm gonna give another This is
Speaker 2: I'm gonna give I'm gonna give another free advertising shout
Speaker 2: out right now, just because I've been wanting to do this.
Speaker 2: I've been trying. I've been wanting to reach out to
Speaker 2: these guys because I would love to do a partnership
Speaker 2: with them. If they're listening, if anyone's listening, if anyone
Speaker 2: knows anyone who knows anyone, I am, I am. What's
Speaker 2: your name again, Lou, I am the biggest fan of
Speaker 2: Spirit Airlines. Dude, Okay, hold on, bear dude, all right,
Speaker 2: Spirit Airlines. Everyone everyone hates Spirit Airlines. Everyone talks shit
Speaker 2: on Spirit Airlines. Everyone's like, oh, Spirit Alnes, you're flying
Speaker 2: the plane. But you know what Spirit Airlines. This is
Speaker 2: from the bottom. This is like from the bottom of
Speaker 2: my heart. Spirit Airlines. They make it cheap and easy
Speaker 2: to travel, Like that's the like, you know, that's the
Speaker 2: thing is people want to travel places, they want to
Speaker 2: go places and do stuff, but it's it's expensive and yes,
Speaker 2: you know, the seats are tiny and shitty and bad,
Speaker 2: but like you get the most important part of my
Speaker 2: air travel experience is to arrive at the place that
Speaker 2: I wanted to go to, and they guarantee that you
Speaker 2: do that sort of at a at a reasonable price,
Speaker 2: at a competitive price. And I respect that about Spirits
Speaker 2: every time. Every time I see Spirit splant slander out there,
Speaker 2: I'm like, you know, you you make a plane, you
Speaker 2: go do it because you know these guys are doing
Speaker 2: it for cheap. I think, yeah, I like them. I
Speaker 2: like Ryanair, I like Front Tier, all those like low
Speaker 2: cost airlines. I fuck with them. So look, if you
Speaker 2: know anyone, lud, do you know anyone at Spirit Airlines
Speaker 2: that can give me a sponsorship?
Speaker 4: I don't, but Spirit, if you're listening, you should totally
Speaker 4: do some kind of paid partnership with Kak.
Speaker 2: There's also on Spirit Airlines they have and no other airlines,
Speaker 2: even the fancy airlines, they don't do this. At Spirit Airlines.
Speaker 2: They have sweet and sour stir fry. You can buy
Speaker 2: a couple. You can get a cup of noodles, like
Speaker 2: the shitty like six thousand grams of sodium cup of noodles.
Speaker 2: I went last time I was on Spirit. I got
Speaker 2: two of them. They are delicious.
Speaker 4: Are the places bucks? Ten bucks?
Speaker 2: I think No, it was super cheap. I think I
Speaker 2: want ah crap? How long how much was it it
Speaker 2: was between it might have been five dollars. No, it's
Speaker 2: between five and ten. It was very affordable when you
Speaker 2: you know, yeah, when you compare just general airline food prices.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 4: I flew United today, and I don't know, I was
Speaker 4: like kind of surprised because I was sitting there, like,
Speaker 4: and I had the middle seat too, which is the worst,
Speaker 4: and it's like a full flight, and I'm like sitting
Speaker 4: in my middle seat, and I was like, why didn't
Speaker 4: I just fly like a shitty or cheaper airline. I mean,
Speaker 4: I wasn't paying for it, and the time sorts out
Speaker 4: better for me. But I'm like I was kind of
Speaker 4: looking around it, like the seat with I'm like, there's
Speaker 4: really like nothing extra about you know, but I guess
Speaker 4: you United. It could be classified. But I don't know.
Speaker 4: This is the thing everybody has, like when you talk
Speaker 4: about advertising, everybody sees these airlines differently, like partially based
Speaker 4: on experience, but like even like regionally they're different. Because
Speaker 4: United is great out of Denver, but in other parts
Speaker 4: of the country it's terrible. People would fly Frontier O
Speaker 4: Reunited just because maybe like it's better out or something
Speaker 4: like that.
Speaker 2: Somebody in the chat. I know, I'm not supposed to
Speaker 2: read chat, but somebody in the chat suggested that I,
Speaker 2: uh work with Spirit Airlines to get a gecko wrapped airplane,
Speaker 2: a green gecko plane. Let's do it, Come on, it'd
Speaker 2: be it would actually I don't, let's do it, so
Speaker 2: green gecko therapy Gecko's Spirit Airlines.
Speaker 4: Yeah, what if they did like one one gecko seat,
Speaker 4: like one green seat.
Speaker 2: In uh in first class or something too, the green
Speaker 2: first class gecko seat.
Speaker 1: I like that.
Speaker 2: I like that they don't have actually they don't have
Speaker 2: first class. They just have the big seat.
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, that's true.
Speaker 2: Well, this has been a nice conversation, you know, in
Speaker 2: consideration of what the podcast normally is. I feel like
Speaker 2: the podcast it's compiled of calls from different time periods,
Speaker 2: so I don't know what call is going to be
Speaker 2: before this or after this, but I feel like, you know,
Speaker 2: normally we're talking about you know, people's parents trying to
Speaker 2: kill them and you know, crazy stuff. So this was
Speaker 2: this was nice. I mean, by the way, Lou, if
Speaker 2: you have uh you said you tried to call a
Speaker 2: hundred times, I don't know if you have like a
Speaker 2: a real thing, not that you know, talking about Spirit airlines.
Speaker 2: A coup of noodle stir fry isn't real, but if
Speaker 2: you do, you have it. Do you have a real
Speaker 2: thing you wanted to talk about before we go?
Speaker 4: No, like, nothing impressing. I mean, like, you know, typical,
Speaker 4: just bullshit out of everyone's life. But I think this
Speaker 4: conversation was far more interesting.
Speaker 2: I think so too, Lou. Is there anyth else you
Speaker 2: want to say to the people of the computer before
Speaker 2: we go?
Speaker 4: Just do what feels right in real life, enjoy it,
Speaker 4: and don't buy too much shit that you don't.
Speaker 2: Except for whatever I'm about to talk about in the
Speaker 2: following ad read that comes after this call.
Speaker 4: Yeah, and as a side note, I do want to
Speaker 4: say you're Jimmy John's episode that was fantastic.
Speaker 2: Ah, thank you.
Speaker 4: That was very well done. I was like, loved it,
Speaker 4: loved it, loved it good good.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 2: For those who don't know, I did a I did.
Speaker 2: I did a brand deal with Jimmy John's for their
Speaker 2: pickle chips where I rolled around as a pickle. It
Speaker 2: is fun.
Speaker 3: It's hilarious.
Speaker 4: But anyways, Gay, thanks, thanks for the chat. I have
Speaker 4: a nice Friday night and and uh yeah, nice Chatain God.
Speaker 2: Blessed, Take care, lou bye. Come on Spirit Airlines coupon
Speaker 2: code something. I will get the whole where I will
Speaker 2: get the worlds. That's my that's what I want. I
Speaker 2: want the world to change its mind about Spirit Airlines.
Speaker 2: And just because it's I just I'm just grateful that
Speaker 2: you can, you know, go from New York to Denver
Speaker 2: for forty dollars. I mean, you know, you might break
Speaker 2: a bone getting wedged in between you know, a thousand
Speaker 2: people on the way, but but you'll get there. That's
Speaker 2: that's that's what the that's what the the new tagline
Speaker 2: of Spirit Airlines should be. You'll get there. You might uh,
Speaker 2: there might be some delays, there might be uh some cancelations,
Speaker 2: but you'll get there. God damn it.
Speaker 3: All from.
Speaker 2: Hello. Hello, who is this?
Speaker 1: Oh god, sorry, this is like a no, it's just bread.
Speaker 1: Oh gosh.
Speaker 2: Fred Fred Fred, stay com freend, stay calm, stay calm Fred.
Speaker 2: It's friend Fred, Fred Fred. Are you there?
Speaker 3: Yes?
Speaker 1: All right? Fred?
Speaker 2: I need you to do I need you to do
Speaker 2: me a favorite friend, Red, Red, Red, I need read,
Speaker 2: I need you to take me off of the speakerphone. Sorry, okay,
Speaker 2: are you there?
Speaker 1: Yeah?
Speaker 2: Red? How old are you read nineteen? Okay, what's up
Speaker 2: you sound? You seem distressed immediately.
Speaker 1: Well, I didn't think you'd actually pick up. I mean,
Speaker 1: I mean, even though I call it like a billion.
Speaker 2: Times, that's what happens to you. Yeah, that's what happens. Like,
Speaker 2: that's that's typical. Typically, the idea behind the phone is
Speaker 2: you call and somebody picks up and you talk to them.
Speaker 2: So we've we've done the U calling. We got past
Speaker 2: that part. We we got past the part where I
Speaker 2: picked up, and now we are in the stage where
Speaker 2: we talked to one another. And so I ask you, read,
Speaker 2: what is it you would like to talk about.
Speaker 3: When you like?
Speaker 1: Okay, so when you like do something like something like mundane,
Speaker 1: like a like a random task or whatever. I know,
Speaker 1: this is like a really really weird question. Do you like,
Speaker 1: can you like picture in your head like what you're
Speaker 1: doing when you do that? Is it like a thing
Speaker 1: you obsess over or is it just like or do
Speaker 1: you just like do the thing? So like if I
Speaker 1: were to take a drink of like water, and I
Speaker 1: like drink the water. Right, I'm sorry, this is like
Speaker 1: a really weird plan.
Speaker 2: I'm with you, I'm with you. Keep going.
Speaker 1: It's like when you do like a mundane task, do
Speaker 1: you actually picture yourself like doing that in your head
Speaker 1: as you do it or is it just like subconscious
Speaker 1: m hm m hmm.
Speaker 2: I think well, it depends. Like I'm like today, I
Speaker 2: I I'm I'm I'm living. I'm living out of an
Speaker 2: airbnb right now, and I uh took my clothes out
Speaker 2: of my backpack. Normally I will I will just live
Speaker 2: out of a backpack or out of a suitcase. But
Speaker 2: today I made an intentional decision to take my clothes
Speaker 2: and put them in a dresser in the airbnb, and
Speaker 2: that that was something I thought about and then did.
Speaker 2: Whereas like drinking whereas, but that's because I don't do
Speaker 2: it very often, so I have to make the decision,
Speaker 2: Whereas something like drinking water, I just do it, you know,
Speaker 2: I don't. I don't think about it, you know. So
Speaker 2: it depends on what the task is. Sometimes I'll think
Speaker 2: about a thing and do it, and the other times
Speaker 2: I'll just you know, it's it's it's habitual, it's nature.
Speaker 2: Do you have do you have like a weird out
Speaker 2: of body experience where you fold laundry and while you're
Speaker 2: folding laundry. You're thinking about yourself folding laundry.
Speaker 1: Well, it's more associated this as a home. My god,
Speaker 1: I literally cannot speak more associative.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't know.
Speaker 1: I mean I have a more like pressing question, but
Speaker 1: like a little bit worried to like talk about it
Speaker 1: being on it.
Speaker 2: I don't think there's anything more pressing than whatever we
Speaker 2: were just talking about. But well, okay, before you bring
Speaker 2: up this thing, what is there a reason in particular
Speaker 2: why you you might not want to talk about it
Speaker 2: before we talk about it?
Speaker 1: Well, oh gosh, I need to stuff saying that. That's
Speaker 1: corny as I'm.
Speaker 2: Sorry, all good, don't don't don't, don't think about it.
Speaker 1: Okay, it's sort of personal, but I guess that's the
Speaker 1: point of this stream and stuff.
Speaker 2: I mean, look, man, not necessarily you if if if you,
Speaker 2: if you heard other people talk about personal things on
Speaker 2: the podcast and you're like, oh, that sounds like something
Speaker 2: I might want to do, and you're here now and
Speaker 2: you want to talk about it, you can. But if
Speaker 2: you want to keep talking about drinking water while thinking
Speaker 2: about drinking water, we can do that too. It's up
Speaker 2: to you.
Speaker 1: Mm hm. Well, I guess I wanted Okay, well I
Speaker 1: kind of wanted to ask, uh that sort of question
Speaker 1: because like I guess, I just you know, I mean,
Speaker 1: I yeah, yeah, sorry, I guess like every action I
Speaker 1: do and stuff, I you know, like it's like a
Speaker 1: you know, like a like a like a guy, and
Speaker 1: I don't really like it.
Speaker 2: I'm not sure what you just said, but I think
Speaker 2: you are attempting to communicate that you overthink everything that
Speaker 2: you do.
Speaker 1: And say pretty much. I guess that's the point. So
Speaker 1: I hate being seen as a guy, and I hate
Speaker 1: feeling as a guy, and I hate doing everything, you know,
Speaker 1: feeling like one and being seen as one. But I
Speaker 1: just feel like one and I act like one, and
Speaker 1: I hate all of it. Like any simple action I do,
Speaker 1: I just see a guy and I don't like it.
Speaker 1: And it's a little frustrating because like for a while,
Speaker 1: I uh thought, you know, I guess my frands or something,
Speaker 1: and so I started you know, hrt and stuff, and
Speaker 1: like it's weird because I'm falling back into this thing
Speaker 1: where like where like I'm feeling like a guy in them,
Speaker 1: but like it doesn't feel good, right, It doesn't feel
Speaker 1: good thinking about it. So like even if it was true,
Speaker 1: it's like, I just it's just weird.
Speaker 2: I was like, so you do so you so you
Speaker 2: do not wish to be a man, but whenever you
Speaker 2: are doing a muntane a mundane task, you envision yourself
Speaker 2: as a man doing it, and that makes you feel.
Speaker 1: Bad pretty much. It's like it's just frustrating. It's like,
Speaker 1: what can you like, like I feel like it, but
Speaker 1: I just I hate it so much. I'm sorry. This
Speaker 1: is like it's just like it's like I keep considering stopping,
Speaker 1: but every time.
Speaker 2: I do stopping stopping your your home art, your hormone therapy.
Speaker 1: Yeah, but whenever I do think about it, like I
Speaker 1: just I don't know, let's do because like I feel
Speaker 1: on a weird spot because like I can't really go
Speaker 1: back because it doesn't the idea of going back so bad.
Speaker 2: But like, well, hilla here here. Well, first of all,
Speaker 2: so I so listen. I mean, I assume that this
Speaker 2: hormone therapy. And by the way, I have no idea
Speaker 2: what I'm talking We're in like medical territory here, so
Speaker 2: I don't know what the fuck I'm talking about, But like,
Speaker 2: are you I assume this hormone therapy was prescribed to
Speaker 2: you by some sort of doctor.
Speaker 1: I mean it was, but be honest, like it was
Speaker 1: informed consent. I kind of just like you know.
Speaker 2: You said you said it was informed consent pretty much.
Speaker 2: So listen, I mean read. I feel like if you're
Speaker 2: having if you're having a well, let me ask you,
Speaker 2: this is all this stuff. Have you talked to your
Speaker 2: doctor about it? And if you have, what have they
Speaker 2: What have they told you?
Speaker 1: I don't know. I mean I've talked to my therapist
Speaker 1: about this stuff, and it's like I don't know. I
Speaker 1: just kind of wanted to get like some outside opinion
Speaker 1: or an outside not opinion, but like you know, an
Speaker 1: outside kind of.
Speaker 2: Well, well, well, well tell me, Well tell me first.
Speaker 2: I mean, when you talk to your doctor or your therapist,
Speaker 2: what what did they tell you?
Speaker 1: Oh? I mean not I brought up like ice because
Speaker 1: I do have that, and uh, I do fixate on things,
Speaker 1: and I do fixate on other things. But like I
Speaker 1: just feel really weird and conflicted because I feel bad
Speaker 1: about things, and I also feel good about things that
Speaker 1: I like, but like it's just I just feel stuck
Speaker 1: in limbo. I don't know what. I don't know. I know, like,
Speaker 1: but it's like such a weird thought, right, I keep like,
Speaker 1: I give myself permission. It's like, you know, if you
Speaker 1: ended up being like a guy or whatever, that's fine,
Speaker 1: you know, I give myself that permission. And then.
Speaker 2: Well, look, I mean I'll say a few things if
Speaker 2: you if if you want, in my perspective, I think,
Speaker 2: I mean, well, first of all, well, well listen, I mean,
Speaker 2: what did you what? Still my question remains, what did
Speaker 2: your therapist and tell you.
Speaker 1: In regards to like being stuck in limbo? Yes, I
Speaker 1: don't actually remember the specifics of the being honest, okay,
Speaker 1: really probably do.
Speaker 2: You remember any crumb of anything helpful that they told you?
Speaker 1: I could try, but like, I guess my thoughts are
Speaker 1: kind of all over the place. But if I remember,
Speaker 1: it's like the idea oory, I don't mean the book.
Speaker 1: I know, this is like a very bizarre like situation.
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, I mean, it's like it's stupid, right, I
Speaker 1: I give myself permission. I'm like, okay, okay, it's trying
Speaker 1: if you stop, you know, and just go back to
Speaker 1: being like just a guy or whatever. Right, But then
Speaker 1: I imagine myself doing that, and I just like I
Speaker 1: can't bring myself to do it because it just sounds bad.
Speaker 1: But it's like it's also weird because I'll have other
Speaker 1: thoughts for like, okay, I'll stop, but then like I'll
Speaker 1: be like, ohoh, but what if I have three months
Speaker 1: remaining of it, you might as well take it. But
Speaker 1: it's like what guy would like want, you know, to
Speaker 1: take hormone therapy. But well it's so I will probably
Speaker 1: someone deluted, I guess, but.
Speaker 2: So Red, so well Red, Okay, I'm gonna tell you,
Speaker 2: I mean just from talking, I mean beyond anything, and
Speaker 2: I can't. I have no business telling you anything about
Speaker 2: you know, what hormones to take or not take. I mean,
Speaker 2: that's that's totally beyond me. But like beyond any of that, Red,
Speaker 2: like just and and beyond anything that even has anything
Speaker 2: to do with with transitioning or gender. It's like it
Speaker 2: just sounds to me. And this is this is my
Speaker 2: armchair therapy observation, is that you sound like you're just
Speaker 2: be and just and I don't know where it comes
Speaker 2: from or anything. And I do it too, and we
Speaker 2: all are you know, U can do it a lot
Speaker 2: of times, but it sounds like you're being like just
Speaker 2: super hard on yourself for for no reason, even just
Speaker 2: now you just said a whole bunch of things, just
Speaker 2: like kind of beating yourself up. You know, So like
Speaker 2: if I mean, give yourself a little bit of credit
Speaker 2: because you know, these issues that you're dealing with, they're
Speaker 2: very difficult issues to be dealing with. You didn't you
Speaker 2: didn't choose them, you know, but you there there are
Speaker 2: things that you have to deal with and they're they're
Speaker 2: tough fucking things to deal with. So you know, give
Speaker 2: yourself like a little bit of credit instead of thinking
Speaker 2: that you suck as one and then two is it
Speaker 2: sounds to me another thing that I do in my
Speaker 2: personal life all the time. She sounds like you're overthinking
Speaker 2: a lot of shit. And you know, I don't know
Speaker 2: what the cure is for that, but.
Speaker 4: You know I.
Speaker 2: Sometimes that can be more detrimental than not and you
Speaker 2: can end up complicating things that are actually simple. So again,
Speaker 2: those are the overthinking and the beating yourself up. Those
Speaker 2: are I those are two just things that I would
Speaker 2: be cognizant of to to you know, think about and
Speaker 2: work on. And there too, they have nothing to do
Speaker 2: with whether or not you take hormones or how you
Speaker 2: identify or anything like that. So I mean just those
Speaker 2: two things in particular, and then I don't know, I
Speaker 2: don't know as far as like the other stuff. I well,
Speaker 2: I don't know. Have you Well, let me ask you first,
Speaker 2: how do you how do you feel inside?
Speaker 1: I hard to say. I mean, I don't really I
Speaker 1: want to say, like, I don't really feel like too
Speaker 1: much of anything.
Speaker 2: Mm hmm.
Speaker 1: I mean, but then again, I keep having those you
Speaker 1: know thoughts where like you know, I'm doing something and
Speaker 1: I just be like a guy, I just don't. I
Speaker 1: don't like it. But it's like that's why I consider stopping.
Speaker 1: I feel like that. But that just feels like ale
Speaker 1: conclusion that.
Speaker 2: I'm so so I'm confused. Are these are these? Are
Speaker 2: these horror? Are these like tests? Are these hormones that
Speaker 2: like give you testosterone?
Speaker 4: No?
Speaker 1: No, it's so.
Speaker 2: It's estrogen mm hmm. Okay, And so you you have
Speaker 2: this feeling that the hormones aren't working, and that's what
Speaker 2: you want to stop.
Speaker 1: I don't think, no, they're working. I mean I just
Speaker 1: you know, like I mean, I felt pretty good on them.
Speaker 1: You don't even like at the start, but like I
Speaker 1: mean I just had to stop that like where I was, like,
Speaker 1: you know, thinking about like what if it's like what
Speaker 1: if I'm just like like, I don't know, I think
Speaker 1: I took an edible but.
Speaker 2: Random okay, okay, all right, okay, yeah yeah at the beginning,
Speaker 2: all right, it's all good.
Speaker 1: No, No, this is different. This is different. I'm sorry.
Speaker 2: Sorry for do you wait? So you're you're you're very
Speaker 2: high on edible right now? No?
Speaker 1: No, no, not right now, I sound like I am.
Speaker 4: No.
Speaker 2: You just see I read read so I wish. I mean,
Speaker 2: there's there's nothing I can't worm into your brain and
Speaker 2: make you not overthink things. And I'm not a real therapist,
Speaker 2: so I don't. I don't. I'm not a I don't
Speaker 2: know what one says to another to make them stop overthinking.
Speaker 2: But I mean, ship ship, right, Why do you? Why
Speaker 2: do you? Why do you look into go on Google
Speaker 2: and search for strategies to stop overthinking? You're mindfulsh or something?
Speaker 2: Because to because to me, like and really read, I
Speaker 2: think I think like the stuff with the hormones. I
Speaker 2: mean you should totally just go talk to your doctor
Speaker 2: and be open and honest with them about that, you know, whatever,
Speaker 2: your feelings are about it, and heed their advice because
Speaker 2: they're medical professionals and you know, we're we're both pretty
Speaker 2: much gecko's who don't know anything.
Speaker 1: So yeah, I mean I was gonna take, well, this
Speaker 1: is kind of an asshle thing to say, actually say it.
Speaker 2: I don't care.
Speaker 1: I kind of like, well, I don't know. I mean,
Speaker 1: I don't know. I could talk to a therapist all day,
Speaker 1: but like, you know, I feel like getting an outside
Speaker 1: perspectives can be helpful at times, you know, talking to
Speaker 1: these people, like.
Speaker 2: I don't I don't think that was an asshole thing
Speaker 2: to say it. Huh.
Speaker 1: Sorry, I was going to say something along with lines
Speaker 1: of like, you know, like this is like, you know,
Speaker 1: entertainment and all that, and you know, I take it
Speaker 1: somewhat with a grain of salt. But you know, when
Speaker 1: I was calling in, I didn't really want a grain
Speaker 1: of salt, you know. I want to say perspective, and
Speaker 1: that's what I'm getting, and so that's more.
Speaker 2: Than a green of Sloks, like a like okay, good good. Well, uh,
Speaker 2: you know, you know again, if you're asking me from
Speaker 2: an outside perspective, I think I think it's just a
Speaker 2: matter of overthink of, you know, trying to control your
Speaker 2: overthinking and trying to not beat yourself up so much. Which,
Speaker 2: by the way, if you figure out how to do that,
Speaker 2: please come back and let me know.
Speaker 1: I will. I mean, like, yeah, sorry, this is like
Speaker 1: a really weird You've already done something like this.
Speaker 2: Before, right, you ain't gotten nothing to apologize for.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean, okay, before I go, I have a
Speaker 1: quick question. Of course, I know you're like green and everything,
Speaker 1: but like, what's your act looks like? Your favorite color?
Speaker 2: You wanted something crazy? Since I was a kid, or
Speaker 2: at least when I was a kid, my favorite color
Speaker 2: was green. Now it's probably black. When I'm a gecko,
Speaker 2: I'm all green, and when i'm a civilian, I'm all
Speaker 2: dressed in black. So black or green, I would say,
Speaker 2: combine them both and you get blean. So I would
Speaker 2: say blean is my favorite color.
Speaker 1: That's that's a good color. Go ahead, that to the
Speaker 1: brand to bleed blean gecko.
Speaker 2: I'll think about that. I like that, all right, the
Speaker 2: blean gecko, the blean lecko. That'll sound like I'm a blood.
Speaker 1: Mm hmm, all right, Well, I mean, uh, I'm looking
Speaker 1: at chat now. This is all wow, but thanks uh
Speaker 1: for uh, you know, yeah talking. I appreciate it. It's
Speaker 1: not people actually, you know talk.
Speaker 2: Yeah, thanks for calling and good good luck. Right. I
Speaker 2: hope you figure it out.
Speaker 1: Yeah, well all right, have a good day. Appreciate it.
Speaker 2: Take care of dog, all right?
Speaker 4: Take Oh?
Speaker 2: I like Red, I hope. I don't you know what is?
Speaker 2: You know, man, there was a point in that call,
Speaker 2: and it was when I told Red is when Red
Speaker 2: told me they were taking an edible where we just laughed.
Speaker 2: And then for about twenty seconds afterwards, Red I could
Speaker 2: tell they were feeling comfortable talking and then they tensed
Speaker 2: up again a little bit. I don't know why. I
Speaker 2: don't know what it is. So whatever I saw, I
Speaker 2: guess I know that there's something within Red that is
Speaker 2: confidence and feels okay with, you know, saying stuff without
Speaker 2: having to overthink it all the time, Like I was
Speaker 2: saying on the call, I do that all the time.
Speaker 2: I'm myself, you know, have low self esteem in many
Speaker 2: moments and overthink things all the time. So it's hard
Speaker 2: to talk to other people who do the same thing
Speaker 2: because I don't have a you know, I can only
Speaker 2: offer commiseration as opposed to a solution, Like I said, red,
Speaker 2: if you have you ever, if you come up with one,
Speaker 2: you let me know. If you find a good article
Speaker 2: on you know what tea leaves to shove up your
Speaker 2: ass so that you don't think you sound stupid in
Speaker 2: a conversation you had four months ago, you let me know.
Speaker 4: Reped goes on the line taking your phone calls every night.
Speaker 2: The Repink goes to and a ride. He's teaching you
Speaker 2: cloud in the mid of your life, but he's not
Speaker 2: really an expert.