WEBVTT - TOOTHBRUSH MURDER MYSTERY 0:00:00.160 --> 0:00:01.400 All from Georgia. 0:00:02.279 --> 0:00:02.559 Hello. 0:00:02.840 --> 0:00:03.519 Oh my god. 0:00:03.600 --> 0:00:06.920 Wait, I'm sorry I didn't Okay, okay, I'm a little surprised. 0:00:07.320 --> 0:00:10.879 I'm George said Georgia. Not very good to be talking 0:00:10.920 --> 0:00:13.480 to you on the Gecko Show. How's life? 0:00:15.440 --> 0:00:18.400 It's complicated, That's actually why I called. 0:00:18.960 --> 0:00:20.320 Okay, tell me what's up. So? 0:00:20.800 --> 0:00:27.800 I have an older brother, right, and he's twenty three, 0:00:28.320 --> 0:00:33.000 I'm nineteen. And I found out that he's been using 0:00:33.040 --> 0:00:37.680 my toothbrush, right. 0:00:37.520 --> 0:00:38.400 But there's more than that. 0:00:40.680 --> 0:00:43.800 And then I wore on my work computer and he 0:00:44.080 --> 0:00:47.640 was buying stuff for like his Xbox and all that, right, 0:00:48.400 --> 0:00:50.760 And then I go to school on the day, right, 0:00:51.040 --> 0:00:53.720 And I had a dog and I would sleep with 0:00:53.720 --> 0:00:55.760 my dog. And he came in my room in the 0:00:55.800 --> 0:00:57.600 middle of the night and was like, I'm going to 0:00:57.680 --> 0:01:00.000 murder you and burn your room down if you sleep 0:01:00.080 --> 0:01:01.920 with your dog and I have to walk him while 0:01:01.920 --> 0:01:02.600 you're at school. 0:01:02.920 --> 0:01:05.160 Wow, this is really escalated fast. 0:01:05.760 --> 0:01:06.040 Yeah. 0:01:06.400 --> 0:01:11.240 Yeah, it just keeps getting bigger, you know what I mean? 0:01:13.319 --> 0:01:14.120 Does it end there? 0:01:15.560 --> 0:01:20.440 No, it doesn't know what finish. So like, for example, right, 0:01:20.600 --> 0:01:27.039 i I'll have like I want to eat very specific foods, right, 0:01:27.680 --> 0:01:30.760 And because I don't feel like cooking, and when I 0:01:30.800 --> 0:01:32.800 come home from school, I just want to make something 0:01:32.880 --> 0:01:35.440 quickly eat it and then go do my homework and 0:01:35.440 --> 0:01:39.080 go to work, right, and he'll eat it all. He'll 0:01:39.080 --> 0:01:41.400 get really high and eat it all. So I had 0:01:41.440 --> 0:01:43.240 to start hiding, like all. 0:01:43.080 --> 0:01:47.360 Of my food and all my what's your name again, Georgia, Georgia? 0:01:47.880 --> 0:01:50.840 Does it get worse? Because you you kind of if 0:01:50.920 --> 0:01:53.560 this fluctuated because you started with he used your teeth brush, 0:01:54.320 --> 0:01:56.240 and then you said he threatened to kill you, and 0:01:56.240 --> 0:01:59.280 then you said it gets worse, but you said, you went, 0:01:59.400 --> 0:02:03.160 he's okay. You went from uh, he used your toothbrush 0:02:03.680 --> 0:02:07.480 to he threatened to murder you and your dog to 0:02:08.000 --> 0:02:10.919 he eats your food. Those they're one of those things 0:02:11.639 --> 0:02:12.520 sticks out to me. 0:02:14.120 --> 0:02:17.040 Yeah, okay, okay, Yeah, I mean he just kind of 0:02:17.280 --> 0:02:20.120 has the habit of taking shit and then murdering me. 0:02:20.240 --> 0:02:23.840 And then I caught him, like so one of my friends, 0:02:23.880 --> 0:02:26.920 she's a lot younger than me, she's like sixteen, and 0:02:27.080 --> 0:02:33.760 I caught him like watching her on dress Jesus. So yeah, yeah, 0:02:34.080 --> 0:02:37.960 like I was kind of I was building up to that. 0:02:41.160 --> 0:02:45.079 See I feel like you should have gone toothbrush eating 0:02:45.120 --> 0:02:48.520 your food and then you know somebody you could intertain 0:02:48.560 --> 0:02:53.239 intertwine that with the murder thing. Yeah, what's the what's 0:02:53.480 --> 0:02:55.680 I I I don't know. I'm at a loss. What's 0:02:55.720 --> 0:02:56.520 the deal with this guy? 0:02:57.720 --> 0:03:05.160 So he all, okay, okay, it's not funny, but it is. 0:03:05.600 --> 0:03:13.960 So he is bipolar, right, and he he was sent 0:03:14.040 --> 0:03:20.440 to the mental hospital because he was like, you know, 0:03:20.639 --> 0:03:24.840 I tried to kill myself and he didn't like and 0:03:24.880 --> 0:03:28.839 I feel shitty saying that I do. But he kind 0:03:28.880 --> 0:03:31.760 of uses it above our heads as a way to 0:03:31.840 --> 0:03:35.320 like get out of being held accountable for all of this. 0:03:37.280 --> 0:03:40.360 And I don't I don't know, Like I really think 0:03:41.000 --> 0:03:44.840 his like mental excuse only goes so far. I just 0:03:44.880 --> 0:03:48.160 think he's a weirdo. He's not my fault. He's my stepbrother. 0:03:48.200 --> 0:03:52.920 He's not my full like brother. But yeah, I don't, 0:03:53.040 --> 0:03:55.560 I don't know. He just it. 0:03:57.040 --> 0:03:59.920 Yeah, and you two live in the same house as 0:03:59.920 --> 0:04:01.560 your your parents. 0:04:02.360 --> 0:04:08.760 Yeah, so we live. Oh well, so we live with 0:04:08.800 --> 0:04:11.120 his dad and my mom, and his dad is really 0:04:11.200 --> 0:04:13.520 like he feels really bad about what happened with him 0:04:13.920 --> 0:04:17.160 because he will be like, oh, I tried to kill myself, 0:04:17.279 --> 0:04:20.080 so what I do doesn't matter, and my mom's not 0:04:20.200 --> 0:04:22.760 like that. But my mom's a paramedic, right, so she's 0:04:22.800 --> 0:04:27.039 gone for like two three days at a time, so 0:04:27.480 --> 0:04:30.000 like there's really nothing she can do, you know what 0:04:30.000 --> 0:04:31.000 I mean, we both we live. 0:04:30.880 --> 0:04:34.839 With both of our parents though, and like have you 0:04:35.120 --> 0:04:39.000 what have your parents done to like, Uh, I don't know. 0:04:39.040 --> 0:04:40.480 I mean, I don't even know what they can do 0:04:40.680 --> 0:04:42.720 to like, you know what, what if? What are their 0:04:42.760 --> 0:04:47.440 thoughts on the sky and on all of his antics? 0:04:48.120 --> 0:04:52.919 So my mom is not a fan. It's kind of 0:04:52.920 --> 0:04:55.760 gotten to the point though, where she doesn't want to 0:04:55.800 --> 0:04:57.720 deal with the arguing anymore. She doesn't want to be 0:04:57.800 --> 0:05:01.560 in the middle of it all because I can't straight 0:05:01.640 --> 0:05:04.240 up confront him, you know, Like I'm a big girl, 0:05:04.400 --> 0:05:07.400 Like I'm five nine, and like I can hold my 0:05:07.440 --> 0:05:08.320 own you know what I mean. 0:05:08.680 --> 0:05:10.240 I mean, I don't know if I don't know if 0:05:10.240 --> 0:05:12.960 the solution is to beat him up, I don't know 0:05:13.240 --> 0:05:18.400 whatether that's necessarily going to like do productively for the situation. 0:05:20.680 --> 0:05:20.800 What. 0:05:21.200 --> 0:05:24.039 No, Like I'm scared he's gonna try and get physical 0:05:24.080 --> 0:05:28.320 with me, okay, So I have to go through my 0:05:28.440 --> 0:05:31.960 mom if anything happens, right, and she'll go to his 0:05:32.080 --> 0:05:39.360 dad but his dad won't do anything like it's it's 0:05:39.520 --> 0:05:42.960 and it's just he's just weird and he's like he'll 0:05:43.000 --> 0:05:45.360 creep on me when I'm on the phone and he'll 0:05:45.360 --> 0:05:48.839 listen to my conversations, or like I'll catch him going 0:05:48.880 --> 0:05:50.760 through my room and then he'll try and tell me 0:05:50.880 --> 0:05:54.159 he didn't when he's in my room, Like, I just 0:05:54.240 --> 0:05:55.680 I don't know what he's doing in here. 0:05:55.839 --> 0:05:57.320 You wait, hold on real quick. Did you say did 0:05:57.360 --> 0:06:00.159 you say rum or room? 0:06:00.240 --> 0:06:03.120 Room? 0:06:03.200 --> 0:06:08.080 Never mind like bedroom m hm. 0:06:10.880 --> 0:06:14.240 And And so I assume you're living at home because 0:06:14.240 --> 0:06:16.120 you're going to school and working and just trying to 0:06:16.120 --> 0:06:20.960 save as much money as you possibly can. Yeah, ah, 0:06:22.360 --> 0:06:24.280 but your parents are not going to do anything about 0:06:24.320 --> 0:06:24.680 this guy. 0:06:26.000 --> 0:06:30.280 I mean, my mom has tried. She'll she'll yell at 0:06:30.360 --> 0:06:36.240 him and she'll confront him. But it only like it 0:06:36.400 --> 0:06:40.000 only makes it like hot, like it only makes it 0:06:40.160 --> 0:06:43.440 more hostile almost because and they won't talk to me, 0:06:43.600 --> 0:06:45.400 you know what I mean, Like I'll get like shunned. 0:06:49.920 --> 0:06:55.159 Mm hmmm mmm mmmm. Are you in genuine fear of 0:06:55.200 --> 0:06:55.880 your safety? 0:06:58.200 --> 0:07:04.960 Uh? No, because he's he can have he'll like lash 0:07:05.000 --> 0:07:07.840 out like he's kind of a bitch. If you know 0:07:07.920 --> 0:07:11.120 what I mean, Like, he's not. He'll like go on 0:07:11.200 --> 0:07:12.960 his rum and cry if you raise your. 0:07:12.920 --> 0:07:13.480 Voice at him. 0:07:13.600 --> 0:07:15.840 Are you saying Are you saying rum to be funny? 0:07:15.920 --> 0:07:16.920 Or is that how you say it? 0:07:18.160 --> 0:07:19.600 That's how I say it? I'm sorry? 0:07:20.040 --> 0:07:21.080 Is that Where are you from? 0:07:22.440 --> 0:07:23.280 I'm from Boston? 0:07:23.760 --> 0:07:27.840 Is that a Boston thing? It does rum? 0:07:27.920 --> 0:07:31.560 It might be, I don't, I don't know. It might 0:07:31.640 --> 0:07:34.040 just be my accent. I grew up in New Bedford, 0:07:34.160 --> 0:07:37.920 but I go between Boston and Providence. 0:07:38.760 --> 0:07:39.080 That's this? 0:07:39.160 --> 0:07:39.440 Is this? 0:07:39.560 --> 0:07:41.559 Is that's the same accent that that girl from Wolf 0:07:41.600 --> 0:07:43.480 of Wall Street had, right? Or is that New York? 0:07:43.840 --> 0:07:44.760 They sound very similar. 0:07:47.360 --> 0:07:49.640 New York and Boston are pretty similar. 0:07:50.240 --> 0:07:50.560 Uh. 0:07:51.360 --> 0:07:53.280 I don't know if she was from Boston though. 0:07:53.840 --> 0:07:56.040 Wait damn does this Does this guy have a Boston 0:07:56.080 --> 0:07:56.680 accent too? 0:07:59.320 --> 0:08:00.400 Yes? 0:08:00.680 --> 0:08:04.200 Oh he's a fucking menace. All right, here's the thing 0:08:04.360 --> 0:08:06.600 I feel like. First of all, First of all, I'm 0:08:06.600 --> 0:08:08.440 sorry that all this is happening to you, because, like 0:08:08.640 --> 0:08:10.640 you know, when you're nineteen, like living at home with 0:08:10.680 --> 0:08:12.960 your parents, if you have the opportunity to it rocks. 0:08:13.120 --> 0:08:15.800 It's the best you save money, you live life. It's 0:08:15.800 --> 0:08:18.680 like what you should do in my opinion, But if 0:08:18.720 --> 0:08:25.440 you genuinely are feeling like unsafe and like you're just 0:08:25.560 --> 0:08:30.040 in constant fear of this fucking guy, Uh, can you 0:08:30.120 --> 0:08:32.760 afford to like move out and live with a bunch 0:08:32.760 --> 0:08:34.040 of roommates or something like that. 0:08:35.000 --> 0:08:37.640 I can, But I probably should have mentioned this earlier. 0:08:38.360 --> 0:08:42.199 My mom is terminally ill right and she's not well, 0:08:42.400 --> 0:08:47.000 my god right now. She has a genetic disease. And 0:08:47.559 --> 0:08:49.840 so she was for a time, for like a time 0:08:49.880 --> 0:08:52.319 period for like two years, she was you know, like 0:08:52.840 --> 0:08:55.240 if we didn't touch it, and they put her on 0:08:55.360 --> 0:08:57.400 like it's some form of chemo to kind of keep 0:08:57.400 --> 0:08:59.559 it in check. But if they didn't touch it when 0:08:59.600 --> 0:09:04.800 they did, she would have died. But the thing is 0:09:04.800 --> 0:09:06.920 is that when all of that was happening, I was 0:09:06.960 --> 0:09:12.160 the only one taking care of her. So I'm scared. 0:09:12.440 --> 0:09:17.079 Like I'm mainly wanting to stay for my mom because 0:09:17.320 --> 0:09:19.840 like we're like we're more like sisters, the mother and daughter, 0:09:19.960 --> 0:09:22.240 Like we have a really close and good relationship. I 0:09:22.320 --> 0:09:26.360 love her at best, but like it's kind of getting 0:09:26.360 --> 0:09:28.240 to the point where as soon as I get what 0:09:28.320 --> 0:09:31.120 I need to get done, I think I'm going to leave. 0:09:31.720 --> 0:09:33.520 And if she gets sick again, I'll come back to 0:09:33.520 --> 0:09:37.040 take care of her. But I'm just worried that, you know, 0:09:37.160 --> 0:09:38.840 she doesn't tell me, or if she doesn't tell me, 0:09:38.880 --> 0:09:41.400 how bad it is that she's just going to be 0:09:41.480 --> 0:09:43.800 like left on her own because she was like fully bedbound, 0:09:43.880 --> 0:09:46.439 couldn't get up, couldn't go to the kitchen, couldn't get 0:09:46.440 --> 0:09:48.760 to the bathroom. And I was the only one helping her, 0:09:49.240 --> 0:09:51.680 And like when I was at school or when I 0:09:51.720 --> 0:09:54.440 had something to do, she wouldn't eat all day. No 0:09:54.440 --> 0:09:56.040 one would get her a drink, no one would help 0:09:56.080 --> 0:09:58.480 her to the bathroom. You know, I'd be the one 0:09:58.480 --> 0:10:00.520 to have to do all that, And I'm just I 0:10:00.520 --> 0:10:02.560 don't want to, do. 0:10:02.440 --> 0:10:04.400 You think, I mean, I don't. Like then you might 0:10:04.440 --> 0:10:06.720 have to talk to a you might have to talk 0:10:06.760 --> 0:10:10.760 to lawyer gecko here, But like, has this guy done 0:10:10.880 --> 0:10:13.680 enough ship to you that you you you think you 0:10:13.679 --> 0:10:18.120 can get like a restraining order against him? 0:10:18.360 --> 0:10:19.480 I don't, I don't know. 0:10:19.720 --> 0:10:20.920 I don't. 0:10:21.080 --> 0:10:23.079 I think that would be too much because I don't 0:10:23.120 --> 0:10:26.679 think he's like he lives with us because he he's 0:10:26.720 --> 0:10:28.160 never really worked, you know what. 0:10:28.400 --> 0:10:31.960 Yeah, yeah, And I understand why you don't. I understand 0:10:31.960 --> 0:10:33.880 why you wouldn't want to do that either, because you 0:10:33.880 --> 0:10:36.800 know you have it. Don't let me put words in 0:10:36.840 --> 0:10:38.439 your mouth. But it sounds like you have compassion for 0:10:38.520 --> 0:10:40.840 him because he's genuinely mentally ill and that might not 0:10:40.880 --> 0:10:42.320 have anywhere else to go. 0:10:43.400 --> 0:10:45.760 Yeah, Like I don't want to put him on like 0:10:46.360 --> 0:10:50.000 his ass or like them to kick him out. And 0:10:50.640 --> 0:10:52.800 to the point, my mom she was ready to leave 0:10:52.840 --> 0:10:56.679 her husband because she was like, if you leave, I leave. 0:10:57.520 --> 0:10:59.440 And you know, I don't want it to get to 0:10:59.480 --> 0:11:01.760 that point, and I don't want her to like put 0:11:01.760 --> 0:11:05.160 herself in that position, you know what I mean? And 0:11:05.679 --> 0:11:08.200 just like I don't. I just I feel bad, like 0:11:08.320 --> 0:11:12.240 even with everything he's done and how creepy he has done, 0:11:12.679 --> 0:11:14.920 you know, like I just nobody should be living on 0:11:14.960 --> 0:11:16.000 the streets, you know what I mean. 0:11:17.480 --> 0:11:23.439 Man, you're like a You're a grizzled fifty five year 0:11:23.480 --> 0:11:28.480 old Boston dad. You're like a grizzled seventy year old 0:11:29.280 --> 0:11:34.200 Boston grandfather in a nineteen year old girl's body. You 0:11:34.240 --> 0:11:34.600 know what. 0:11:35.000 --> 0:11:37.320 That is actually not the first time I've heard that. 0:11:39.480 --> 0:11:41.880 I mean, good on you, Good on you, Georgia. This 0:11:41.960 --> 0:11:47.080 you're dealing with a This is a lot of stuff 0:11:47.640 --> 0:11:52.560 going on, Yeah, a lot of stuff that you're dealing with. 0:11:54.640 --> 0:11:59.800 Yeah, it's it's complicated, and you know, it's just like 0:12:00.360 --> 0:12:03.000 it's just because I love my mom so much, you know, 0:12:03.240 --> 0:12:08.320 like she's genuinely my best friend, and you know, she 0:12:08.440 --> 0:12:11.000 was a single mother raising me for a very very 0:12:11.040 --> 0:12:13.600 long time. You know. They didn't move in with us 0:12:13.720 --> 0:12:19.640 until my junior year of high school, so pretty much 0:12:19.800 --> 0:12:21.520 until I was seventeen, it was just me and her, 0:12:22.040 --> 0:12:26.000 and I like, it's mainly that I don't feel right 0:12:26.120 --> 0:12:29.040 in giving her the ultimatum, and I don't feel right 0:12:29.160 --> 0:12:30.400 leaving her, you know what I mean. 0:12:34.320 --> 0:12:37.000 Okay, so you're telling me you're dealing with your your 0:12:37.400 --> 0:12:41.080 bipolar brother, your terminally ill mom, and you're going to 0:12:41.080 --> 0:12:45.360 school and you're working and you're only nineteen. Mm hmm, 0:12:45.960 --> 0:12:48.400 Well listen, Georgia. I don't know if I believe in 0:12:48.400 --> 0:12:52.240 a god, or if I believe in karma, or if 0:12:52.240 --> 0:12:55.040 I even really believe that, you know, what you put 0:12:55.080 --> 0:12:58.160 into the universe comes back at you. But I hope 0:12:58.200 --> 0:13:00.720 all those fucking things are true, because because if it does, 0:13:00.760 --> 0:13:05.359 you deserve at all expenses paid trip to the Nickelodeon 0:13:05.400 --> 0:13:06.880 Hotel in Orlando, Florida. 0:13:08.400 --> 0:13:08.880 Thank you. 0:13:12.440 --> 0:13:14.640 Yeah, I don't know what are you going to school for? 0:13:16.280 --> 0:13:20.679 So I'm finishing up my diploma. I didn't have a 0:13:20.679 --> 0:13:23.040 lot of stuff happened and I couldn't finish it at 0:13:23.080 --> 0:13:25.720 the time. And then after that, I want to go 0:13:25.760 --> 0:13:29.280 to college for well, I want to go to film school. 0:13:29.840 --> 0:13:34.480 Cool. Yeah, Georgia, do me a favor. I rarely tell 0:13:34.520 --> 0:13:36.360 people what I mean. I'm sure that's not true. I'm 0:13:36.360 --> 0:13:38.040 sure I tell people to do all the time. But 0:13:38.120 --> 0:13:40.520 do me a favor. If you can get a scholarship 0:13:40.600 --> 0:13:43.600 or like a fast foot or something, then by all means, 0:13:43.600 --> 0:13:45.680 go and have a great time and like fuck around 0:13:45.720 --> 0:13:48.560 and make stuff. But please don't go into debt to 0:13:48.600 --> 0:13:50.280 go to film school. It's a terrible idea. 0:13:51.280 --> 0:13:54.439 I actually so where I live right I get two 0:13:54.600 --> 0:13:58.240 years of college for free. So I was gonna test 0:13:58.280 --> 0:14:01.040 the waters and see how I like it and then 0:14:01.280 --> 0:14:01.920 go from there. 0:14:03.120 --> 0:14:09.160 Okay, just yeah, just because if you're dealing because everything 0:14:09.160 --> 0:14:13.320 you're dealing with right now, if you add like tens 0:14:13.320 --> 0:14:15.720 and tens and tens and tens of thousands of dollars 0:14:15.720 --> 0:14:19.040 of debt into it, it will suck even harder. 0:14:20.360 --> 0:14:22.880 I know, Like I was just having a conversation with 0:14:22.920 --> 0:14:25.480 my friend about this, and she was trying to convince 0:14:25.520 --> 0:14:27.400 me to go to a private college, and I'm like, 0:14:27.480 --> 0:14:30.480 I don't want to put myself in debt. Like I 0:14:30.520 --> 0:14:31.040 just feel like. 0:14:31.000 --> 0:14:33.640 That if you if you told me you wanted to 0:14:33.640 --> 0:14:35.600 be like a doctor or a lawyer or something, then 0:14:35.680 --> 0:14:38.680 go for it. But you know, I mean, you can 0:14:38.680 --> 0:14:42.760 go to film school on YouTube for free, So make movies, 0:14:42.800 --> 0:14:45.240 please buy all by by all means like you know 0:14:45.280 --> 0:14:46.400 you don't. You don't even have to wait to go 0:14:46.400 --> 0:14:48.120 to film school to make movies. You can make movies 0:14:48.480 --> 0:14:52.120 anytime anywhere. But uh, okay, what are you? What are 0:14:52.120 --> 0:14:53.480 you working as right now? What do you? Where do 0:14:53.520 --> 0:14:54.080 you go to work? 0:14:55.200 --> 0:14:57.720 So I work from home, but I work for a 0:14:58.080 --> 0:15:02.480 MS doilling company and pretty much whatever. You go to 0:15:02.520 --> 0:15:05.360 the hospital and you take an ambulance, you get a 0:15:05.400 --> 0:15:08.800 bill for it and or like your insurance does and 0:15:08.960 --> 0:15:11.840 I take all your like medical records and I attast 0:15:11.920 --> 0:15:13.080 them to your file. 0:15:15.400 --> 0:15:15.720 Mm. 0:15:16.920 --> 0:15:19.200 Yeah, I mean it's a pretty good paying job, you know. 0:15:20.280 --> 0:15:23.320 And then once I'm out of school, I will get 0:15:23.360 --> 0:15:26.000 a better job in the company and I'll make more money. 0:15:26.360 --> 0:15:30.160 But I just don't have the time to be working full. 0:15:29.960 --> 0:15:30.640 Time right now. 0:15:32.880 --> 0:15:36.720 Well, geez, Georgia, you're you're more of an adult than 0:15:36.760 --> 0:15:39.240 I am. 0:15:39.400 --> 0:15:42.600 Thank you. I appreciate it. 0:15:42.640 --> 0:15:47.200 Is there, I guess. Is there anything else that you 0:15:47.280 --> 0:15:50.680 wanted to talk about at all, in in in terms 0:15:50.760 --> 0:15:55.160 of this entire situation or or life or anything like that, 0:15:55.520 --> 0:15:58.280 or or if not wanted to say to the people 0:15:58.320 --> 0:15:59.560 of the computer before we go. 0:16:01.040 --> 0:16:02.920 I mean, that's up to you. You know, I have 0:16:02.960 --> 0:16:04.840 other stuff going on in my life with my friends. 0:16:05.000 --> 0:16:05.960 Do you want to hear about it? 0:16:08.200 --> 0:16:12.000 Yeah, sure, I'll hear what's going on with your friends? 0:16:12.560 --> 0:16:13.040 Okay. 0:16:13.240 --> 0:16:16.160 So I've been friends with the same people since I 0:16:16.320 --> 0:16:21.560 was little, right, And I personally I don't date, you know, 0:16:21.760 --> 0:16:24.920 I just feel like I'm not in the emotional state 0:16:25.040 --> 0:16:30.320 and I don't have time. But every once in a while, 0:16:30.600 --> 0:16:32.880 you know, I'll talk to somebody who will date, but 0:16:33.040 --> 0:16:37.920 it's never too serious. Right. And I dated this guy, Michael, 0:16:38.560 --> 0:16:42.200 and we were together for maybe two years off and on. 0:16:42.400 --> 0:16:45.760 He was really toxic. To sum it up, the reason 0:16:45.800 --> 0:16:49.000 we ended up like breaking up for real, was because 0:16:49.080 --> 0:16:52.760 I was at my grandfather's funeral and He's like, where 0:16:52.840 --> 0:16:55.280 is it I can pull up and I was like why, 0:16:55.360 --> 0:16:57.240 and he's like, so we can hook up, like we can, 0:17:00.280 --> 0:17:03.840 and I was like, no, that's not happening. So he 0:17:03.880 --> 0:17:05.760 broke up with me, and I was like, good riddans, 0:17:05.840 --> 0:17:11.480 you know. But then my best friend, uh, Mikayla, she 0:17:12.000 --> 0:17:16.800 dates him and I date my ex. I really don't care, 0:17:16.880 --> 0:17:20.360 you know, like I have no emotional attachment to them. 0:17:20.400 --> 0:17:22.640 But it was just the ex she decided to date. 0:17:23.200 --> 0:17:25.800 I was like, I was a little upset. I was 0:17:25.880 --> 0:17:28.719 like I didn't even like yell at her confront of her. 0:17:28.720 --> 0:17:31.920 I'm like why, like explain, like why do you want to. 0:17:31.840 --> 0:17:32.600 Be with this person? 0:17:32.720 --> 0:17:34.280 You know, like you know he's shitty, you know what 0:17:34.359 --> 0:17:35.880 he's done, and. 0:17:37.359 --> 0:17:39.840 So you're okay, so you brought you break up with 0:17:39.880 --> 0:17:42.720 this guy because he asked you if you wanted to 0:17:42.880 --> 0:17:47.879 fuck him at your grandfather's funeral. And then your friend's like, 0:17:48.040 --> 0:17:51.199 you know what, this guy he sounds pretty awesome. I 0:17:51.200 --> 0:17:52.240 think I'm going to get with him. 0:17:53.400 --> 0:17:55.400 Yes, that's exactly how it went. 0:17:55.760 --> 0:17:58.480 And has that going for your friends? 0:17:59.240 --> 0:18:03.400 So he cheated on her and they ended up having 0:18:03.440 --> 0:18:06.560 to break up. Right, But now MICHAELA has like a 0:18:06.600 --> 0:18:11.400 superiority complex, and she's rubbing in our other friends' faces 0:18:11.440 --> 0:18:14.240 that she's had sex because one of our friends she's 0:18:14.280 --> 0:18:18.320 really inexperienced, and it's it's not like for any she 0:18:18.480 --> 0:18:21.879 just really stand offish, you know what I mean. And 0:18:21.920 --> 0:18:25.080 it's something that she's int tocure about. And she was like, 0:18:25.880 --> 0:18:29.000 at least I have experienced. And I swear to God 0:18:29.119 --> 0:18:33.560 the universe, the universe made sure I wasn't there because 0:18:33.600 --> 0:18:35.520 I would have. I would have plopped it. I would 0:18:35.520 --> 0:18:38.879 have been like, what's wrong with you? And she like, 0:18:39.160 --> 0:18:41.760 even so, she'll still call me and be like, I 0:18:41.880 --> 0:18:44.840 miss Michael. I'm gonna kill myself because I'm still in 0:18:44.880 --> 0:18:46.399 love with him. I'm like, I'm not the one to 0:18:46.440 --> 0:18:46.920 call about that. 0:18:47.040 --> 0:18:49.800 Where Michael. Michael's the guy that wanted to that tried 0:18:49.800 --> 0:18:51.080 to boot to call you at the funeral? 0:18:52.240 --> 0:18:57.880 Yeah, yeah, what is to you, Michael? Bro I don't 0:18:57.880 --> 0:19:01.720 even know. Like he just decided because we got into 0:19:01.760 --> 0:19:05.520 an argument and over him being toxic and I'm like, 0:19:05.680 --> 0:19:08.359 you're not toxic, Michael, Like I'm not having this conversation 0:19:08.440 --> 0:19:13.320 with you when we first started dating, and since then 0:19:13.560 --> 0:19:16.080 he just kept saying getting more and more toxic, and 0:19:16.160 --> 0:19:18.800 his own like he just I don't know. He's just 0:19:18.880 --> 0:19:20.159 a teenage boy, you know what. 0:19:20.400 --> 0:19:23.600 I'm a you know, honestly, Georgia, after everything you've told me, 0:19:23.720 --> 0:19:25.359 I think I'm just gonna blame it on the city 0:19:25.400 --> 0:19:30.919 of Boston. I think it's just filled with crazy people. 0:19:31.160 --> 0:19:36.600 It sounds no, you should like Boston is filled with 0:19:36.640 --> 0:19:39.120 a bunch of broads who don't know they're right from 0:19:39.119 --> 0:19:39.600 their left. 0:19:40.440 --> 0:19:42.280 Hey, come see me at Arts in the Armor. I 0:19:42.280 --> 0:19:45.159 think I think it's the name Arts and Armory in Boston. 0:19:45.200 --> 0:19:48.280 I'm playing there in March. It's gonna be sick. Invite Michael. 0:19:50.040 --> 0:19:53.040 I will try and bring Michael. I will. I'll hit 0:19:53.119 --> 0:19:55.040 him up and be like, you have to come with me. 0:19:57.560 --> 0:20:02.800 Well, Georgia, Georgia again, Uh sude? You know it's you verse. 0:20:02.880 --> 0:20:04.920 It's it's really it really is just you versus the 0:20:05.000 --> 0:20:06.119 city of Boston, isn't it? 0:20:07.240 --> 0:20:07.440 Yeah? 0:20:07.880 --> 0:20:08.159 It is. 0:20:08.840 --> 0:20:11.479 Well, you're doing a great job. Is there anything else 0:20:11.480 --> 0:20:12.679 you want to say to the people of the computer 0:20:12.760 --> 0:20:13.200 before we go? 0:20:15.400 --> 0:20:17.600 Good luck you all have a great life. 0:20:18.359 --> 0:20:19.400 I wish you all the best. 0:20:20.359 --> 0:20:22.960 Hey, take care, Georgia, Thank you too. 0:20:27.280 --> 0:20:27.440 Yo. 0:20:27.560 --> 0:20:32.440 What if we hooked up in the casket that'd be crazy. 0:20:33.720 --> 0:20:35.040 All from Lou. 0:20:36.240 --> 0:20:41.879 Hello, Hi, Hey, how's it going. I'm doing alright? Have 0:20:42.000 --> 0:20:43.080 we ever spoken before? 0:20:43.680 --> 0:20:44.320 We have not? 0:20:44.920 --> 0:20:48.720 Now, Well, very nice to meet you, Lou. What's going 0:20:48.800 --> 0:20:49.480 on with you tonight? 0:20:50.080 --> 0:20:53.040 Yeah? I just I just got home from from a 0:20:53.160 --> 0:20:56.679 work trip and I'm just chilling. 0:20:57.119 --> 0:20:58.639 How was your work trip? Where did you go? 0:21:01.000 --> 0:21:04.800 It was good. I went to Kansas City for like 0:21:04.880 --> 0:21:08.280 our big holiday party. But it was funny because I 0:21:09.480 --> 0:21:12.399 not only was it a holiday party, my first holiday 0:21:12.400 --> 0:21:15.119 party with this company, but like the first time I 0:21:15.200 --> 0:21:18.840 met everyone on my team and my boss and all my. 0:21:18.880 --> 0:21:22.200 Coworkers because you guys are probably all all zoomies. 0:21:23.000 --> 0:21:26.640 Yeah yeah, we all work remote so for the most part. 0:21:26.840 --> 0:21:29.560 But oh yeah, oh yeah my boss kind of did 0:21:30.640 --> 0:21:31.120 That's cool? 0:21:31.359 --> 0:21:31.639 Did he. 0:21:33.240 --> 0:21:33.359 Did? 0:21:33.560 --> 0:21:34.600 Was he weird to anyone? 0:21:38.800 --> 0:21:39.040 Yeah? 0:21:39.280 --> 0:21:43.080 I mean like in a funny way, like in a 0:21:43.160 --> 0:21:46.399 way where like his coworker was a little like like 0:21:46.640 --> 0:21:50.959 chill out, and who's his equal? I live? I live 0:21:51.040 --> 0:21:55.119 in Denver. So they were like they were just immediately like, 0:21:55.359 --> 0:21:58.960 oh do you smoke weed? And the other guy looked 0:21:59.000 --> 0:22:01.959 he was like, my boss is inappropriate ask and then 0:22:02.040 --> 0:22:04.600 he looks at her and he's like the other guy 0:22:04.640 --> 0:22:08.439 He's like, well, like maybe a little bit she reports 0:22:08.480 --> 0:22:11.040 into you, And I'm like, I don't know how to 0:22:11.080 --> 0:22:11.520 answer this. 0:22:12.000 --> 0:22:14.560 Hold on, here's what bothers me. There was alcohol at 0:22:14.600 --> 0:22:19.680 this party, right. That's fucking so I hate. I hate 0:22:19.720 --> 0:22:22.680 how stigmatized weed is. It's so fucking weird. Who gives 0:22:22.720 --> 0:22:25.439 a shit? It's fucking legal, you know. I think if 0:22:25.480 --> 0:22:26.960 he asked you if you did coke and if you 0:22:27.040 --> 0:22:30.040 had any coke right now that he could have, that 0:22:30.200 --> 0:22:33.760 might have been a little inappropriate. But I digress. Do 0:22:33.880 --> 0:22:37.120 you have coke that you can send me over the mail? 0:22:37.240 --> 0:22:37.760 No? Do you? 0:22:39.920 --> 0:22:40.800 What do you do for work? 0:22:42.720 --> 0:22:44.240 I work? I work in advertising? 0:22:45.440 --> 0:22:48.720 Okay, what should I buy? Advertise me something? 0:22:49.680 --> 0:22:52.000 Oh my gosh, like nothing? Will you over consume? 0:22:52.840 --> 0:22:56.640 I think so too? I think so too. Advertising is weird. 0:22:56.720 --> 0:22:58.360 Hold On, you know it's gonna be so funny. I'm 0:22:58.400 --> 0:23:00.399 about to go on a huge rant about average tizing, 0:23:00.480 --> 0:23:02.560 and then right after this call, I'm gonna be doing 0:23:02.640 --> 0:23:06.520 ad reads so perfect. I don't know advertising. It's like, 0:23:07.359 --> 0:23:09.359 I don't get that. I don't understand how it works 0:23:09.480 --> 0:23:13.920 because like, I've never bought anything I've seen off. Actually, 0:23:13.920 --> 0:23:16.320 I don't know if that's necessarily maybe like one, maybe 0:23:16.359 --> 0:23:18.720 there's been like a service, but like, ultimately I don't 0:23:18.760 --> 0:23:23.320 think I've ever bought anything from an ad, have you? Yeah? 0:23:23.640 --> 0:23:26.080 Well, I mean I definitely, like I definitely bought stuff 0:23:26.119 --> 0:23:29.200 I don't need, you know, like if it's really good 0:23:29.240 --> 0:23:32.760 and I like the packaging or like the colors they use, 0:23:32.920 --> 0:23:35.920 because like most of advertising is like what does it 0:23:36.040 --> 0:23:38.320 make you feel? And like if you feel like you 0:23:38.480 --> 0:23:42.800 trusted or like it feels familiar, then you know you're 0:23:42.840 --> 0:23:45.440 gonna you're gonna be more likely to buy it. But like, 0:23:46.440 --> 0:23:49.000 really what advertising is is like finding the people who 0:23:49.080 --> 0:23:52.560 actually need what you have and then and then making 0:23:52.600 --> 0:23:54.960 it easier and convincing them that they. 0:23:54.880 --> 0:23:55.480 Should buy it. 0:23:55.640 --> 0:23:58.800 So right, right, But there's some things where it's like 0:23:59.000 --> 0:24:01.760 who needs that? When I see, like like you're on 0:24:01.840 --> 0:24:04.199 the you're on the bus and you see like an 0:24:04.240 --> 0:24:07.280 ad for like two hundred dollars sunglasses, Who fucking needs that? 0:24:07.359 --> 0:24:08.440 Why do they have an ad for that? 0:24:10.359 --> 0:24:13.159 No one needs two hundred dollars glasses. I've certainly never 0:24:13.280 --> 0:24:16.040 boughten sunglasses that are more than like twenty bucks. 0:24:16.920 --> 0:24:19.800 Un chin, I was, uh, someone asked me the other 0:24:19.920 --> 0:24:21.960 day what I like to, like if there's anything I 0:24:22.119 --> 0:24:26.520 like to splurge on. And I don't know. I'm not 0:24:26.680 --> 0:24:31.200 a fashion guy. I wear the same gecko suit every day, 0:24:31.359 --> 0:24:34.480 and when I'm not wearing that, I'm wearing like a 0:24:34.680 --> 0:24:39.800 T shirt that I got from something I don't Most 0:24:39.840 --> 0:24:42.480 of the T shirts I have in my wardrobe I 0:24:43.000 --> 0:24:45.080 are not things I bought. There's things that I stumbled 0:24:45.160 --> 0:24:48.560 upon throughout living my life, and like a pair of jeans, 0:24:48.600 --> 0:24:51.000 So it's usually just a solid color shirt, a pair 0:24:51.040 --> 0:24:55.080 of jeans, no jewelry, no ice. I'm very lame, so 0:24:55.200 --> 0:25:00.399 there's no fashion. I don't like furniture. My furniture is shitty. 0:25:03.720 --> 0:25:05.040 I don't know. I don't know. I just want I 0:25:05.119 --> 0:25:06.920 want to save. I just want to save so that 0:25:07.040 --> 0:25:09.560 I don't have to like fucking do anything, you know 0:25:09.600 --> 0:25:10.040 what I mean? 0:25:11.240 --> 0:25:14.640 Yeah, I can't. I don't even know. Like I I'm 0:25:14.760 --> 0:25:17.200 not slurging now. The transmission on my car dive, so 0:25:17.240 --> 0:25:19.399 I have to like repair that I use. I mean, 0:25:19.440 --> 0:25:21.000 I feel like most of my money would go to 0:25:21.080 --> 0:25:24.080 like going out to eat and food. 0:25:24.160 --> 0:25:25.879 That's that's that'll be that's a big slurge. 0:25:25.960 --> 0:25:29.600 Yeah, yeah, yeah, but like there's no advertisement for that 0:25:29.680 --> 0:25:32.159 unless you're going to like buffore Wild Thinks or something. 0:25:32.440 --> 0:25:35.560 Which I am. But you know what, I'm gonna do 0:25:35.600 --> 0:25:38.000 a free ad read for buffalo wild wings. You should 0:25:38.040 --> 0:25:42.359 go to Buffalo Wild Wings and you should get you 0:25:42.400 --> 0:25:46.440 should get some wings, some boneless wings tossed in old 0:25:46.520 --> 0:25:48.080 bay and barbecue. 0:25:48.119 --> 0:25:50.800 Ya. That's the way. But what are you getting to drink? 0:25:51.560 --> 0:25:54.399 What am I getting to drink? Well? What kind of 0:25:54.480 --> 0:25:55.160 night are we having? 0:25:56.800 --> 0:25:57.600 It's a Friday night. 0:25:57.880 --> 0:26:01.480 It's Friday night. A man, I might get a this 0:26:01.680 --> 0:26:03.560 is the lame, but I might get a milk stout. 0:26:03.720 --> 0:26:09.040 I'm a big like the dark beers al stout. Interesting, Yeah, 0:26:11.040 --> 0:26:12.919 I mean what yeah? Like food. But here's the thing 0:26:13.000 --> 0:26:15.480 with food. It's like even even like you go to 0:26:15.600 --> 0:26:18.320 a restaurant and you get a chicken sandwich and it's 0:26:19.040 --> 0:26:23.399 you know, uh, forty five dollars now, so just going 0:26:23.680 --> 0:26:27.639 just eating food, eating food is kind of splurging in 0:26:27.760 --> 0:26:30.879 a way. You could save way more money through photosynthesis. 0:26:30.960 --> 0:26:34.960 That's why plants have so much invested in the stock market, 0:26:35.000 --> 0:26:38.600 because they save so much by photosynthesizing that they're able 0:26:38.680 --> 0:26:40.760 to invest it afterwards, and that's how they build wealth. 0:26:41.880 --> 0:26:42.640 Yeah, that's true. 0:26:42.840 --> 0:26:45.720 Why there's so many rich You know, it's funny to 0:26:45.720 --> 0:26:48.600 say that because I actually thinking about it, because I 0:26:49.080 --> 0:26:52.040 was traveling for work, so I got to spend most 0:26:52.080 --> 0:26:53.439 of my meals and I did. 0:26:53.600 --> 0:26:57.080 Splurge on Oh well, that's different if it's on look, 0:26:57.160 --> 0:26:59.960 if it's on somebody else's dime, go crazy. 0:27:01.440 --> 0:27:04.280 Yeah yeah, I got like the nice this stuff I got. 0:27:04.560 --> 0:27:09.040 It was like barbecue. I got brisket, chance brisket and 0:27:09.240 --> 0:27:13.280 oh yeah, and just a bunch of like Southern style food. 0:27:13.280 --> 0:27:14.040 It was delicious. 0:27:14.560 --> 0:27:19.119 What's the other thing. I I've only flown first class 0:27:19.400 --> 0:27:21.800 one time ever in my life, and that was because 0:27:21.840 --> 0:27:25.280 it was on someone else's dime. But that's a thing 0:27:25.359 --> 0:27:28.760 where I'm like that. I don't know. I don't get that. 0:27:28.920 --> 0:27:32.520 That's like it just increases the price of your trip 0:27:32.840 --> 0:27:36.080 by like double and it's over. Once you land, you 0:27:36.200 --> 0:27:39.439 get you you've gained no anything of any lasting value. 0:27:40.800 --> 0:27:43.120 Was it worth it? Was it worth flying first clock? 0:27:43.240 --> 0:27:43.280 Like? 0:27:43.440 --> 0:27:44.480 Was it a better experience? 0:27:45.119 --> 0:27:46.879 I mean it was, it was a better experience. It's 0:27:47.000 --> 0:27:50.080 it's not one that I would have paid for myself. 0:27:50.520 --> 0:27:52.760 I think, hold on, I'm gonna give another This is 0:27:52.800 --> 0:27:55.400 I'm gonna give I'm gonna give another free advertising shout 0:27:55.440 --> 0:27:57.440 out right now, just because I've been wanting to do this. 0:27:57.880 --> 0:27:59.600 I've been trying. I've been wanting to reach out to 0:27:59.640 --> 0:28:01.760 these guys because I would love to do a partnership 0:28:02.200 --> 0:28:04.800 with them. If they're listening, if anyone's listening, if anyone 0:28:04.880 --> 0:28:08.840 knows anyone who knows anyone, I am, I am. What's 0:28:08.880 --> 0:28:13.600 your name again, Lou, I am the biggest fan of 0:28:13.800 --> 0:28:19.760 Spirit Airlines. Dude, Okay, hold on, bear dude, all right, 0:28:20.600 --> 0:28:24.360 Spirit Airlines. Everyone everyone hates Spirit Airlines. Everyone talks shit 0:28:24.440 --> 0:28:26.960 on Spirit Airlines. Everyone's like, oh, Spirit Alnes, you're flying 0:28:27.000 --> 0:28:30.639 the plane. But you know what Spirit Airlines. This is 0:28:30.720 --> 0:28:33.000 from the bottom. This is like from the bottom of 0:28:33.040 --> 0:28:38.000 my heart. Spirit Airlines. They make it cheap and easy 0:28:38.840 --> 0:28:41.080 to travel, Like that's the like, you know, that's the 0:28:41.160 --> 0:28:42.840 thing is people want to travel places, they want to 0:28:42.880 --> 0:28:45.640 go places and do stuff, but it's it's expensive and yes, 0:28:45.760 --> 0:28:49.120 you know, the seats are tiny and shitty and bad, 0:28:49.320 --> 0:28:52.440 but like you get the most important part of my 0:28:52.600 --> 0:28:56.080 air travel experience is to arrive at the place that 0:28:56.160 --> 0:28:58.560 I wanted to go to, and they guarantee that you 0:28:58.720 --> 0:29:03.880 do that sort of at a at a reasonable price, 0:29:03.920 --> 0:29:06.640 at a competitive price. And I respect that about Spirits 0:29:06.680 --> 0:29:09.600 every time. Every time I see Spirit splant slander out there, 0:29:09.680 --> 0:29:13.040 I'm like, you know, you you make a plane, you 0:29:13.160 --> 0:29:14.920 go do it because you know these guys are doing 0:29:15.000 --> 0:29:17.240 it for cheap. I think, yeah, I like them. I 0:29:17.360 --> 0:29:20.320 like Ryanair, I like Front Tier, all those like low 0:29:20.400 --> 0:29:22.080 cost airlines. I fuck with them. So look, if you 0:29:22.160 --> 0:29:24.840 know anyone, lud, do you know anyone at Spirit Airlines 0:29:24.880 --> 0:29:26.200 that can give me a sponsorship? 0:29:27.400 --> 0:29:30.360 I don't, but Spirit, if you're listening, you should totally 0:29:31.120 --> 0:29:32.880 do some kind of paid partnership with Kak. 0:29:33.440 --> 0:29:37.360 There's also on Spirit Airlines they have and no other airlines, 0:29:37.480 --> 0:29:40.320 even the fancy airlines, they don't do this. At Spirit Airlines. 0:29:40.560 --> 0:29:43.880 They have sweet and sour stir fry. You can buy 0:29:44.800 --> 0:29:47.720 a couple. You can get a cup of noodles, like 0:29:47.800 --> 0:29:53.640 the shitty like six thousand grams of sodium cup of noodles. 0:29:54.640 --> 0:29:56.360 I went last time I was on Spirit. I got 0:29:56.400 --> 0:29:57.560 two of them. They are delicious. 0:29:59.280 --> 0:30:00.960 Are the places bucks? Ten bucks? 0:30:01.760 --> 0:30:03.320 I think No, it was super cheap. I think I 0:30:03.440 --> 0:30:06.240 want ah crap? How long how much was it it 0:30:06.360 --> 0:30:08.520 was between it might have been five dollars. No, it's 0:30:08.520 --> 0:30:11.720 between five and ten. It was very affordable when you 0:30:11.960 --> 0:30:16.400 you know, yeah, when you compare just general airline food prices. 0:30:18.160 --> 0:30:18.360 Yeah. 0:30:18.600 --> 0:30:22.120 I flew United today, and I don't know, I was 0:30:22.240 --> 0:30:25.960 like kind of surprised because I was sitting there, like, 0:30:26.120 --> 0:30:28.320 and I had the middle seat too, which is the worst, 0:30:29.040 --> 0:30:31.200 and it's like a full flight, and I'm like sitting 0:30:31.240 --> 0:30:33.600 in my middle seat, and I was like, why didn't 0:30:33.600 --> 0:30:36.239 I just fly like a shitty or cheaper airline. I mean, 0:30:36.280 --> 0:30:38.680 I wasn't paying for it, and the time sorts out 0:30:38.720 --> 0:30:40.920 better for me. But I'm like I was kind of 0:30:40.960 --> 0:30:42.760 looking around it, like the seat with I'm like, there's 0:30:42.800 --> 0:30:45.360 really like nothing extra about you know, but I guess 0:30:45.440 --> 0:30:47.520 you United. It could be classified. But I don't know. 0:30:47.920 --> 0:30:50.400 This is the thing everybody has, like when you talk 0:30:50.440 --> 0:30:55.040 about advertising, everybody sees these airlines differently, like partially based 0:30:55.080 --> 0:30:59.280 on experience, but like even like regionally they're different. Because 0:30:59.360 --> 0:31:01.840 United is great out of Denver, but in other parts 0:31:01.840 --> 0:31:05.040 of the country it's terrible. People would fly Frontier O 0:31:05.120 --> 0:31:10.040 Reunited just because maybe like it's better out or something 0:31:10.120 --> 0:31:10.320 like that. 0:31:12.560 --> 0:31:14.240 Somebody in the chat. I know, I'm not supposed to 0:31:14.240 --> 0:31:17.880 read chat, but somebody in the chat suggested that I, 0:31:18.560 --> 0:31:23.000 uh work with Spirit Airlines to get a gecko wrapped airplane, 0:31:23.240 --> 0:31:26.040 a green gecko plane. Let's do it, Come on, it'd 0:31:26.040 --> 0:31:29.240 be it would actually I don't, let's do it, so 0:31:29.520 --> 0:31:32.520 green gecko therapy Gecko's Spirit Airlines. 0:31:33.680 --> 0:31:36.640 Yeah, what if they did like one one gecko seat, 0:31:36.720 --> 0:31:38.040 like one green seat. 0:31:38.000 --> 0:31:40.800 In uh in first class or something too, the green 0:31:40.880 --> 0:31:42.000 first class gecko seat. 0:31:42.040 --> 0:31:42.440 I like that. 0:31:43.320 --> 0:31:45.040 I like that they don't have actually they don't have 0:31:45.080 --> 0:31:47.440 first class. They just have the big seat. 0:31:49.160 --> 0:31:50.480 Yeah, yeah, that's true. 0:31:52.880 --> 0:31:56.000 Well, this has been a nice conversation, you know, in 0:31:56.080 --> 0:31:58.560 consideration of what the podcast normally is. I feel like 0:32:00.120 --> 0:32:03.560 the podcast it's compiled of calls from different time periods, 0:32:03.560 --> 0:32:04.680 so I don't know what call is going to be 0:32:04.760 --> 0:32:08.720 before this or after this, but I feel like, you know, 0:32:08.880 --> 0:32:12.840 normally we're talking about you know, people's parents trying to 0:32:12.960 --> 0:32:16.240 kill them and you know, crazy stuff. So this was 0:32:17.000 --> 0:32:19.680 this was nice. I mean, by the way, Lou, if 0:32:19.720 --> 0:32:22.880 you have uh you said you tried to call a 0:32:22.960 --> 0:32:24.800 hundred times, I don't know if you have like a 0:32:26.720 --> 0:32:30.720 a real thing, not that you know, talking about Spirit airlines. 0:32:32.000 --> 0:32:33.959 A coup of noodle stir fry isn't real, but if 0:32:34.000 --> 0:32:35.160 you do, you have it. Do you have a real 0:32:35.240 --> 0:32:36.520 thing you wanted to talk about before we go? 0:32:38.160 --> 0:32:41.240 No, like, nothing impressing. I mean, like, you know, typical, 0:32:41.480 --> 0:32:43.920 just bullshit out of everyone's life. But I think this 0:32:44.680 --> 0:32:46.280 conversation was far more interesting. 0:32:47.640 --> 0:32:51.240 I think so too, Lou. Is there anyth else you 0:32:51.240 --> 0:32:52.560 want to say to the people of the computer before 0:32:52.600 --> 0:32:52.720 we go? 0:32:54.800 --> 0:32:58.320 Just do what feels right in real life, enjoy it, 0:32:58.440 --> 0:33:00.080 and don't buy too much shit that you don't. 0:33:01.600 --> 0:33:04.840 Except for whatever I'm about to talk about in the 0:33:04.920 --> 0:33:07.320 following ad read that comes after this call. 0:33:07.720 --> 0:33:10.280 Yeah, and as a side note, I do want to 0:33:10.320 --> 0:33:14.320 say you're Jimmy John's episode that was fantastic. 0:33:14.600 --> 0:33:15.320 Ah, thank you. 0:33:16.400 --> 0:33:19.200 That was very well done. I was like, loved it, 0:33:19.320 --> 0:33:20.960 loved it, loved it good good. 0:33:21.080 --> 0:33:21.240 Yeah. 0:33:21.280 --> 0:33:23.320 For those who don't know, I did a I did. 0:33:24.040 --> 0:33:28.680 I did a brand deal with Jimmy John's for their 0:33:28.760 --> 0:33:32.800 pickle chips where I rolled around as a pickle. It 0:33:32.960 --> 0:33:33.320 is fun. 0:33:34.720 --> 0:33:35.400 It's hilarious. 0:33:35.520 --> 0:33:40.640 But anyways, Gay, thanks, thanks for the chat. I have 0:33:40.720 --> 0:33:45.720 a nice Friday night and and uh yeah, nice Chatain God. 0:33:45.600 --> 0:33:52.280 Blessed, Take care, lou bye. Come on Spirit Airlines coupon 0:33:52.400 --> 0:33:56.480 code something. I will get the whole where I will 0:33:56.520 --> 0:33:58.920 get the worlds. That's my that's what I want. I 0:33:58.960 --> 0:34:01.480 want the world to change its mind about Spirit Airlines. 0:34:02.280 --> 0:34:06.320 And just because it's I just I'm just grateful that 0:34:06.520 --> 0:34:10.080 you can, you know, go from New York to Denver 0:34:10.239 --> 0:34:14.239 for forty dollars. I mean, you know, you might break 0:34:14.280 --> 0:34:20.840 a bone getting wedged in between you know, a thousand 0:34:20.920 --> 0:34:25.439 people on the way, but but you'll get there. That's 0:34:25.560 --> 0:34:29.520 that's that's what the that's what the the new tagline 0:34:29.520 --> 0:34:36.279 of Spirit Airlines should be. You'll get there. You might uh, 0:34:36.640 --> 0:34:41.640 there might be some delays, there might be uh some cancelations, 0:34:44.120 --> 0:34:45.600 but you'll get there. God damn it. 0:34:47.080 --> 0:34:47.840 All from. 0:34:49.840 --> 0:34:52.279 Hello. Hello, who is this? 0:34:53.800 --> 0:34:57.799 Oh god, sorry, this is like a no, it's just bread. 0:34:58.000 --> 0:34:58.600 Oh gosh. 0:35:00.520 --> 0:35:03.400 Fred Fred Fred, stay com freend, stay calm, stay calm Fred. 0:35:03.520 --> 0:35:05.839 It's friend Fred, Fred Fred. Are you there? 0:35:07.000 --> 0:35:07.200 Yes? 0:35:07.640 --> 0:35:08.040 All right? Fred? 0:35:08.120 --> 0:35:09.200 I need you to do I need you to do 0:35:09.320 --> 0:35:13.120 me a favorite friend, Red, Red, Red, I need read, 0:35:13.160 --> 0:35:17.239 I need you to take me off of the speakerphone. Sorry, okay, 0:35:17.280 --> 0:35:17.719 are you there? 0:35:19.040 --> 0:35:19.279 Yeah? 0:35:20.920 --> 0:35:26.200 Red? How old are you read nineteen? Okay, what's up 0:35:26.280 --> 0:35:28.800 you sound? You seem distressed immediately. 0:35:29.680 --> 0:35:31.640 Well, I didn't think you'd actually pick up. I mean, 0:35:32.320 --> 0:35:35.120 I mean, even though I call it like a billion. 0:35:34.960 --> 0:35:39.520 Times, that's what happens to you. Yeah, that's what happens. Like, 0:35:39.719 --> 0:35:44.000 that's that's typical. Typically, the idea behind the phone is 0:35:44.200 --> 0:35:47.600 you call and somebody picks up and you talk to them. 0:35:48.000 --> 0:35:50.640 So we've we've done the U calling. We got past 0:35:50.719 --> 0:35:54.000 that part. We we got past the part where I 0:35:54.040 --> 0:35:56.759 picked up, and now we are in the stage where 0:35:56.800 --> 0:35:59.200 we talked to one another. And so I ask you, read, 0:36:00.719 --> 0:36:02.280 what is it you would like to talk about. 0:36:04.320 --> 0:36:04.800 When you like? 0:36:05.000 --> 0:36:11.360 Okay, so when you like do something like something like mundane, 0:36:11.480 --> 0:36:13.880 like a like a random task or whatever. I know, 0:36:14.080 --> 0:36:16.120 this is like a really really weird question. Do you like, 0:36:16.880 --> 0:36:18.799 can you like picture in your head like what you're 0:36:18.840 --> 0:36:20.520 doing when you do that? Is it like a thing 0:36:20.600 --> 0:36:23.200 you obsess over or is it just like or do 0:36:23.239 --> 0:36:25.160 you just like do the thing? So like if I 0:36:25.200 --> 0:36:28.840 were to take a drink of like water, and I 0:36:29.040 --> 0:36:32.920 like drink the water. Right, I'm sorry, this is like 0:36:32.960 --> 0:36:34.080 a really weird plan. 0:36:34.239 --> 0:36:35.359 I'm with you, I'm with you. Keep going. 0:36:36.360 --> 0:36:40.360 It's like when you do like a mundane task, do 0:36:40.440 --> 0:36:42.960 you actually picture yourself like doing that in your head 0:36:43.040 --> 0:36:45.680 as you do it or is it just like subconscious 0:36:47.200 --> 0:36:49.040 m hm m hmm. 0:36:50.600 --> 0:36:57.200 I think well, it depends. Like I'm like today, I 0:36:57.480 --> 0:37:00.520 I I'm I'm I'm living. I'm living out of an 0:37:00.600 --> 0:37:06.719 airbnb right now, and I uh took my clothes out 0:37:06.760 --> 0:37:09.359 of my backpack. Normally I will I will just live 0:37:09.520 --> 0:37:11.320 out of a backpack or out of a suitcase. But 0:37:11.400 --> 0:37:15.520 today I made an intentional decision to take my clothes 0:37:15.640 --> 0:37:20.920 and put them in a dresser in the airbnb, and 0:37:21.040 --> 0:37:24.359 that that was something I thought about and then did. 0:37:25.400 --> 0:37:29.040 Whereas like drinking whereas, but that's because I don't do 0:37:29.120 --> 0:37:31.280 it very often, so I have to make the decision, 0:37:31.719 --> 0:37:34.840 Whereas something like drinking water, I just do it, you know, 0:37:34.920 --> 0:37:36.360 I don't. I don't think about it, you know. So 0:37:36.400 --> 0:37:38.920 it depends on what the task is. Sometimes I'll think 0:37:38.960 --> 0:37:40.399 about a thing and do it, and the other times 0:37:40.440 --> 0:37:43.280 I'll just you know, it's it's it's habitual, it's nature. 0:37:43.800 --> 0:37:45.680 Do you have do you have like a weird out 0:37:45.719 --> 0:37:49.880 of body experience where you fold laundry and while you're 0:37:49.920 --> 0:37:52.720 folding laundry. You're thinking about yourself folding laundry. 0:37:54.160 --> 0:37:57.200 Well, it's more associated this as a home. My god, 0:37:57.239 --> 0:37:59.520 I literally cannot speak more associative. 0:38:00.080 --> 0:38:02.520 Yeah, I don't know. 0:38:03.680 --> 0:38:05.920 I mean I have a more like pressing question, but 0:38:06.160 --> 0:38:09.000 like a little bit worried to like talk about it 0:38:09.120 --> 0:38:09.920 being on it. 0:38:10.400 --> 0:38:14.200 I don't think there's anything more pressing than whatever we 0:38:14.320 --> 0:38:17.080 were just talking about. But well, okay, before you bring 0:38:17.200 --> 0:38:20.040 up this thing, what is there a reason in particular 0:38:20.120 --> 0:38:22.160 why you you might not want to talk about it 0:38:22.960 --> 0:38:23.840 before we talk about it? 0:38:26.719 --> 0:38:30.279 Well, oh gosh, I need to stuff saying that. That's 0:38:30.360 --> 0:38:31.399 corny as I'm. 0:38:31.320 --> 0:38:33.719 Sorry, all good, don't don't don't, don't think about it. 0:38:35.080 --> 0:38:38.239 Okay, it's sort of personal, but I guess that's the 0:38:38.360 --> 0:38:40.720 point of this stream and stuff. 0:38:41.200 --> 0:38:43.800 I mean, look, man, not necessarily you if if if you, 0:38:44.480 --> 0:38:46.840 if you heard other people talk about personal things on 0:38:46.920 --> 0:38:49.120 the podcast and you're like, oh, that sounds like something 0:38:49.160 --> 0:38:51.080 I might want to do, and you're here now and 0:38:51.120 --> 0:38:52.600 you want to talk about it, you can. But if 0:38:52.600 --> 0:38:56.680 you want to keep talking about drinking water while thinking 0:38:56.680 --> 0:38:58.719 about drinking water, we can do that too. It's up 0:38:58.760 --> 0:38:58.880 to you. 0:39:00.040 --> 0:39:04.239 Mm hm. Well, I guess I wanted Okay, well I 0:39:04.400 --> 0:39:07.040 kind of wanted to ask, uh that sort of question 0:39:07.200 --> 0:39:17.160 because like I guess, I just you know, I mean, 0:39:17.200 --> 0:39:32.200 I yeah, yeah, sorry, I guess like every action I 0:39:32.280 --> 0:39:36.880 do and stuff, I you know, like it's like a 0:39:37.200 --> 0:39:40.080 you know, like a like a like a guy, and 0:39:40.160 --> 0:39:40.960 I don't really like it. 0:39:42.960 --> 0:39:44.839 I'm not sure what you just said, but I think 0:39:46.760 --> 0:39:49.920 you are attempting to communicate that you overthink everything that 0:39:50.000 --> 0:39:50.239 you do. 0:39:50.320 --> 0:39:58.320 And say pretty much. I guess that's the point. So 0:40:05.160 --> 0:40:06.799 I hate being seen as a guy, and I hate 0:40:06.840 --> 0:40:09.800 feeling as a guy, and I hate doing everything, you know, 0:40:09.960 --> 0:40:12.480 feeling like one and being seen as one. But I 0:40:12.640 --> 0:40:14.440 just feel like one and I act like one, and 0:40:14.520 --> 0:40:17.480 I hate all of it. Like any simple action I do, 0:40:18.239 --> 0:40:19.680 I just see a guy and I don't like it. 0:40:20.560 --> 0:40:24.239 And it's a little frustrating because like for a while, 0:40:24.840 --> 0:40:29.800 I uh thought, you know, I guess my frands or something, 0:40:30.080 --> 0:40:34.000 and so I started you know, hrt and stuff, and 0:40:34.200 --> 0:40:37.319 like it's weird because I'm falling back into this thing 0:40:37.360 --> 0:40:41.680 where like where like I'm feeling like a guy in them, 0:40:41.760 --> 0:40:44.399 but like it doesn't feel good, right, It doesn't feel 0:40:44.440 --> 0:40:47.000 good thinking about it. So like even if it was true, 0:40:47.000 --> 0:40:51.080 it's like, I just it's just weird. 0:40:51.800 --> 0:40:54.279 I was like, so you do so you so you 0:40:54.400 --> 0:40:57.000 do not wish to be a man, but whenever you 0:40:57.080 --> 0:41:01.320 are doing a muntane a mundane task, you envision yourself 0:41:01.440 --> 0:41:04.440 as a man doing it, and that makes you feel. 0:41:04.239 --> 0:41:10.239 Bad pretty much. It's like it's just frustrating. It's like, 0:41:10.360 --> 0:41:16.880 what can you like, like I feel like it, but 0:41:16.960 --> 0:41:21.360 I just I hate it so much. I'm sorry. This 0:41:21.560 --> 0:41:29.320 is like it's just like it's like I keep considering stopping, 0:41:30.320 --> 0:41:31.000 but every time. 0:41:30.880 --> 0:41:34.440 I do stopping stopping your your home art, your hormone therapy. 0:41:35.600 --> 0:41:40.000 Yeah, but whenever I do think about it, like I 0:41:40.200 --> 0:41:44.759 just I don't know, let's do because like I feel 0:41:44.800 --> 0:41:47.719 on a weird spot because like I can't really go 0:41:47.920 --> 0:41:51.799 back because it doesn't the idea of going back so bad. 0:41:51.920 --> 0:41:54.279 But like, well, hilla here here. Well, first of all, 0:41:54.960 --> 0:41:57.279 so I so listen. I mean, I assume that this 0:41:57.400 --> 0:42:00.560 hormone therapy. And by the way, I have no idea 0:42:01.000 --> 0:42:03.480 what I'm talking We're in like medical territory here, so 0:42:03.520 --> 0:42:05.000 I don't know what the fuck I'm talking about, But like, 0:42:05.960 --> 0:42:08.920 are you I assume this hormone therapy was prescribed to 0:42:08.960 --> 0:42:10.520 you by some sort of doctor. 0:42:11.680 --> 0:42:14.680 I mean it was, but be honest, like it was 0:42:14.920 --> 0:42:17.040 informed consent. I kind of just like you know. 0:42:19.040 --> 0:42:22.480 You said you said it was informed consent pretty much. 0:42:23.160 --> 0:42:25.560 So listen, I mean read. I feel like if you're 0:42:25.640 --> 0:42:29.360 having if you're having a well, let me ask you, 0:42:29.440 --> 0:42:33.719 this is all this stuff. Have you talked to your 0:42:33.800 --> 0:42:36.480 doctor about it? And if you have, what have they 0:42:36.800 --> 0:42:37.480 What have they told you? 0:42:38.880 --> 0:42:41.480 I don't know. I mean I've talked to my therapist 0:42:41.600 --> 0:42:45.160 about this stuff, and it's like I don't know. I 0:42:45.320 --> 0:42:48.120 just kind of wanted to get like some outside opinion 0:42:48.800 --> 0:42:50.799 or an outside not opinion, but like you know, an 0:42:50.840 --> 0:42:51.640 outside kind of. 0:42:51.719 --> 0:42:53.560 Well, well, well, well tell me, Well tell me first. 0:42:53.600 --> 0:42:55.240 I mean, when you talk to your doctor or your therapist, 0:42:55.280 --> 0:42:56.080 what what did they tell you? 0:42:59.360 --> 0:43:03.600 Oh? I mean not I brought up like ice because 0:43:03.600 --> 0:43:08.839 I do have that, and uh, I do fixate on things, 0:43:08.880 --> 0:43:11.719 and I do fixate on other things. But like I 0:43:11.840 --> 0:43:15.080 just feel really weird and conflicted because I feel bad 0:43:15.120 --> 0:43:17.360 about things, and I also feel good about things that 0:43:17.440 --> 0:43:22.040 I like, but like it's just I just feel stuck 0:43:22.080 --> 0:43:28.279 in limbo. I don't know what. I don't know. I know, like, 0:43:30.320 --> 0:43:33.759 but it's like such a weird thought, right, I keep like, 0:43:34.280 --> 0:43:36.480 I give myself permission. It's like, you know, if you 0:43:36.640 --> 0:43:38.840 ended up being like a guy or whatever, that's fine, 0:43:39.600 --> 0:43:42.720 you know, I give myself that permission. And then. 0:43:45.680 --> 0:43:48.960 Well, look, I mean I'll say a few things if 0:43:48.960 --> 0:43:50.719 you if if you want, in my perspective, I think, 0:43:52.719 --> 0:43:55.160 I mean, well, first of all, well, well listen, I mean, 0:43:55.239 --> 0:43:58.839 what did you what? Still my question remains, what did 0:43:58.880 --> 0:44:00.600 your therapist and tell you. 0:44:05.040 --> 0:44:12.160 In regards to like being stuck in limbo? Yes, I 0:44:12.239 --> 0:44:16.120 don't actually remember the specifics of the being honest, okay, 0:44:16.239 --> 0:44:17.160 really probably do. 0:44:17.200 --> 0:44:20.680 You remember any crumb of anything helpful that they told you? 0:44:23.440 --> 0:44:25.680 I could try, but like, I guess my thoughts are 0:44:25.719 --> 0:44:29.680 kind of all over the place. But if I remember, 0:44:30.120 --> 0:44:35.800 it's like the idea oory, I don't mean the book. 0:44:36.560 --> 0:44:39.280 I know, this is like a very bizarre like situation. 0:44:42.280 --> 0:44:50.360 I'm sorry, I mean, it's like it's stupid, right, I 0:44:51.680 --> 0:44:55.680 I give myself permission. I'm like, okay, okay, it's trying 0:44:55.719 --> 0:44:57.759 if you stop, you know, and just go back to 0:44:57.840 --> 0:45:00.640 being like just a guy or whatever. Right, But then 0:45:00.640 --> 0:45:02.880 I imagine myself doing that, and I just like I 0:45:02.960 --> 0:45:06.479 can't bring myself to do it because it just sounds bad. 0:45:06.920 --> 0:45:09.879 But it's like it's also weird because I'll have other 0:45:10.000 --> 0:45:13.359 thoughts for like, okay, I'll stop, but then like I'll 0:45:13.360 --> 0:45:15.080 be like, ohoh, but what if I have three months 0:45:15.120 --> 0:45:16.960 remaining of it, you might as well take it. But 0:45:17.080 --> 0:45:19.920 it's like what guy would like want, you know, to 0:45:20.360 --> 0:45:25.200 take hormone therapy. But well it's so I will probably 0:45:25.239 --> 0:45:26.520 someone deluted, I guess, but. 0:45:26.760 --> 0:45:30.320 So Red, so well Red, Okay, I'm gonna tell you, 0:45:30.560 --> 0:45:33.920 I mean just from talking, I mean beyond anything, and 0:45:34.040 --> 0:45:37.279 I can't. I have no business telling you anything about 0:45:37.400 --> 0:45:39.680 you know, what hormones to take or not take. I mean, 0:45:39.719 --> 0:45:44.640 that's that's totally beyond me. But like beyond any of that, Red, 0:45:44.880 --> 0:45:48.080 like just and and beyond anything that even has anything 0:45:48.120 --> 0:45:50.440 to do with with transitioning or gender. It's like it 0:45:50.800 --> 0:45:54.480 just sounds to me. And this is this is my 0:45:54.680 --> 0:45:59.719 armchair therapy observation, is that you sound like you're just 0:45:59.840 --> 0:46:03.719 be and just and I don't know where it comes 0:46:03.800 --> 0:46:06.000 from or anything. And I do it too, and we 0:46:06.120 --> 0:46:08.640 all are you know, U can do it a lot 0:46:08.680 --> 0:46:10.120 of times, but it sounds like you're being like just 0:46:10.320 --> 0:46:15.400 super hard on yourself for for no reason, even just 0:46:15.520 --> 0:46:17.960 now you just said a whole bunch of things, just 0:46:18.120 --> 0:46:22.880 like kind of beating yourself up. You know, So like 0:46:24.120 --> 0:46:26.160 if I mean, give yourself a little bit of credit 0:46:26.760 --> 0:46:28.839 because you know, these issues that you're dealing with, they're 0:46:28.880 --> 0:46:32.239 very difficult issues to be dealing with. You didn't you 0:46:32.280 --> 0:46:36.000 didn't choose them, you know, but you there there are 0:46:36.080 --> 0:46:38.319 things that you have to deal with and they're they're 0:46:38.400 --> 0:46:42.279 tough fucking things to deal with. So you know, give 0:46:42.320 --> 0:46:45.520 yourself like a little bit of credit instead of thinking 0:46:45.600 --> 0:46:51.120 that you suck as one and then two is it 0:46:51.280 --> 0:46:53.440 sounds to me another thing that I do in my 0:46:53.520 --> 0:46:56.040 personal life all the time. She sounds like you're overthinking 0:46:56.040 --> 0:47:00.600 a lot of shit. And you know, I don't know 0:47:00.680 --> 0:47:02.200 what the cure is for that, but. 0:47:04.440 --> 0:47:05.200 You know I. 0:47:08.280 --> 0:47:14.080 Sometimes that can be more detrimental than not and you 0:47:14.160 --> 0:47:23.319 can end up complicating things that are actually simple. So again, 0:47:23.400 --> 0:47:26.200 those are the overthinking and the beating yourself up. Those 0:47:26.239 --> 0:47:30.160 are I those are two just things that I would 0:47:30.200 --> 0:47:38.920 be cognizant of to to you know, think about and 0:47:39.239 --> 0:47:41.120 work on. And there too, they have nothing to do 0:47:41.280 --> 0:47:43.759 with whether or not you take hormones or how you 0:47:43.840 --> 0:47:45.920 identify or anything like that. So I mean just those 0:47:45.960 --> 0:47:48.680 two things in particular, and then I don't know, I 0:47:48.760 --> 0:47:58.200 don't know as far as like the other stuff. I well, 0:47:58.239 --> 0:48:01.080 I don't know. Have you Well, let me ask you first, 0:48:01.160 --> 0:48:03.000 how do you how do you feel inside? 0:48:05.080 --> 0:48:17.200 I hard to say. I mean, I don't really I 0:48:17.360 --> 0:48:19.759 want to say, like, I don't really feel like too 0:48:19.880 --> 0:48:20.560 much of anything. 0:48:21.320 --> 0:48:21.719 Mm hmm. 0:48:21.840 --> 0:48:24.880 I mean, but then again, I keep having those you 0:48:24.960 --> 0:48:28.880 know thoughts where like you know, I'm doing something and 0:48:28.960 --> 0:48:32.239 I just be like a guy, I just don't. I 0:48:32.320 --> 0:48:37.560 don't like it. But it's like that's why I consider stopping. 0:48:38.560 --> 0:48:40.520 I feel like that. But that just feels like ale 0:48:41.600 --> 0:48:42.239 conclusion that. 0:48:42.239 --> 0:48:46.239 I'm so so I'm confused. Are these are these? Are 0:48:46.320 --> 0:48:48.719 these horror? Are these like tests? Are these hormones that 0:48:48.840 --> 0:48:50.200 like give you testosterone? 0:48:51.600 --> 0:48:51.640 No? 0:48:52.120 --> 0:48:52.880 No, it's so. 0:48:54.600 --> 0:48:59.719 It's estrogen mm hmm. Okay, And so you you have 0:48:59.840 --> 0:49:03.800 this feeling that the hormones aren't working, and that's what 0:49:04.080 --> 0:49:04.800 you want to stop. 0:49:04.840 --> 0:49:09.600 I don't think, no, they're working. I mean I just 0:49:09.840 --> 0:49:11.960 you know, like I mean, I felt pretty good on them. 0:49:12.560 --> 0:49:15.000 You don't even like at the start, but like I 0:49:15.080 --> 0:49:18.080 mean I just had to stop that like where I was, like, 0:49:18.719 --> 0:49:22.239 you know, thinking about like what if it's like what 0:49:22.320 --> 0:49:27.799 if I'm just like like, I don't know, I think 0:49:28.840 --> 0:49:31.520 I took an edible but. 0:49:34.560 --> 0:49:43.400 Random okay, okay, all right, okay, yeah yeah at the beginning, 0:49:43.480 --> 0:49:44.480 all right, it's all good. 0:49:45.000 --> 0:49:48.359 No, No, this is different. This is different. I'm sorry. 0:49:49.880 --> 0:49:53.879 Sorry for do you wait? So you're you're you're very 0:49:54.000 --> 0:49:56.239 high on edible right now? No? 0:49:56.520 --> 0:49:59.480 No, no, not right now, I sound like I am. 0:50:00.120 --> 0:50:00.160 No. 0:50:00.360 --> 0:50:05.120 You just see I read read so I wish. I mean, 0:50:05.160 --> 0:50:07.320 there's there's nothing I can't worm into your brain and 0:50:07.400 --> 0:50:10.760 make you not overthink things. And I'm not a real therapist, 0:50:10.880 --> 0:50:13.520 so I don't. I don't. I'm not a I don't 0:50:13.560 --> 0:50:17.920 know what one says to another to make them stop overthinking. 0:50:18.040 --> 0:50:24.080 But I mean, ship ship, right, Why do you? Why 0:50:24.080 --> 0:50:26.960 do you? Why do you look into go on Google 0:50:27.080 --> 0:50:30.879 and search for strategies to stop overthinking? You're mindfulsh or something? 0:50:30.880 --> 0:50:34.040 Because to because to me, like and really read, I 0:50:34.120 --> 0:50:36.960 think I think like the stuff with the hormones. I 0:50:37.040 --> 0:50:40.800 mean you should totally just go talk to your doctor 0:50:40.880 --> 0:50:44.040 and be open and honest with them about that, you know, whatever, 0:50:44.120 --> 0:50:47.280 your feelings are about it, and heed their advice because 0:50:47.320 --> 0:50:51.560 they're medical professionals and you know, we're we're both pretty 0:50:51.600 --> 0:50:53.080 much gecko's who don't know anything. 0:50:53.600 --> 0:50:58.840 So yeah, I mean I was gonna take, well, this 0:50:58.960 --> 0:51:01.480 is kind of an asshle thing to say, actually say it. 0:51:01.520 --> 0:51:01.920 I don't care. 0:51:02.080 --> 0:51:06.960 I kind of like, well, I don't know. I mean, 0:51:08.120 --> 0:51:11.560 I don't know. I could talk to a therapist all day, 0:51:11.960 --> 0:51:16.640 but like, you know, I feel like getting an outside 0:51:16.680 --> 0:51:20.160 perspectives can be helpful at times, you know, talking to 0:51:20.239 --> 0:51:20.960 these people, like. 0:51:21.040 --> 0:51:23.120 I don't I don't think that was an asshole thing 0:51:23.200 --> 0:51:23.879 to say it. Huh. 0:51:26.280 --> 0:51:29.080 Sorry, I was going to say something along with lines 0:51:29.120 --> 0:51:31.840 of like, you know, like this is like, you know, 0:51:32.080 --> 0:51:33.800 entertainment and all that, and you know, I take it 0:51:33.920 --> 0:51:36.400 somewhat with a grain of salt. But you know, when 0:51:36.440 --> 0:51:38.879 I was calling in, I didn't really want a grain 0:51:38.960 --> 0:51:41.120 of salt, you know. I want to say perspective, and 0:51:41.239 --> 0:51:42.799 that's what I'm getting, and so that's more. 0:51:42.800 --> 0:51:47.400 Than a green of Sloks, like a like okay, good good. Well, uh, 0:51:47.560 --> 0:51:49.040 you know, you know again, if you're asking me from 0:51:49.040 --> 0:51:54.719 an outside perspective, I think I think it's just a 0:51:54.840 --> 0:51:57.319 matter of overthink of, you know, trying to control your 0:51:57.360 --> 0:52:01.759 overthinking and trying to not beat yourself up so much. Which, 0:52:02.000 --> 0:52:04.120 by the way, if you figure out how to do that, 0:52:04.560 --> 0:52:06.080 please come back and let me know. 0:52:07.640 --> 0:52:13.840 I will. I mean, like, yeah, sorry, this is like 0:52:13.920 --> 0:52:17.000 a really weird You've already done something like this. 0:52:17.080 --> 0:52:19.520 Before, right, you ain't gotten nothing to apologize for. 0:52:21.040 --> 0:52:26.800 Yeah, I mean, okay, before I go, I have a 0:52:26.880 --> 0:52:31.200 quick question. Of course, I know you're like green and everything, 0:52:31.280 --> 0:52:33.520 but like, what's your act looks like? Your favorite color? 0:52:35.239 --> 0:52:38.680 You wanted something crazy? Since I was a kid, or 0:52:38.680 --> 0:52:40.439 at least when I was a kid, my favorite color 0:52:40.880 --> 0:52:44.000 was green. Now it's probably black. When I'm a gecko, 0:52:44.080 --> 0:52:47.680 I'm all green, and when i'm a civilian, I'm all 0:52:48.360 --> 0:52:52.319 dressed in black. So black or green, I would say, 0:52:53.239 --> 0:52:57.520 combine them both and you get blean. So I would 0:52:57.520 --> 0:52:58.920 say blean is my favorite color. 0:53:00.360 --> 0:53:08.040 That's that's a good color. Go ahead, that to the 0:53:08.080 --> 0:53:11.040 brand to bleed blean gecko. 0:53:13.800 --> 0:53:16.560 I'll think about that. I like that, all right, the 0:53:16.600 --> 0:53:21.520 blean gecko, the blean lecko. That'll sound like I'm a blood. 0:53:22.360 --> 0:53:27.680 Mm hmm, all right, Well, I mean, uh, I'm looking 0:53:27.719 --> 0:53:32.640 at chat now. This is all wow, but thanks uh 0:53:33.760 --> 0:53:40.279 for uh, you know, yeah talking. I appreciate it. It's 0:53:40.320 --> 0:53:42.560 not people actually, you know talk. 0:53:44.080 --> 0:53:46.880 Yeah, thanks for calling and good good luck. Right. I 0:53:47.480 --> 0:53:48.319 hope you figure it out. 0:53:49.840 --> 0:53:54.080 Yeah, well all right, have a good day. Appreciate it. 0:53:54.800 --> 0:53:57.040 Take care of dog, all right? 0:53:57.080 --> 0:53:59.080 Take Oh? 0:54:01.760 --> 0:54:04.040 I like Red, I hope. I don't you know what is? 0:54:05.400 --> 0:54:07.080 You know, man, there was a point in that call, 0:54:07.239 --> 0:54:11.319 and it was when I told Red is when Red 0:54:11.360 --> 0:54:14.080 told me they were taking an edible where we just laughed. 0:54:15.040 --> 0:54:20.480 And then for about twenty seconds afterwards, Red I could 0:54:20.520 --> 0:54:24.040 tell they were feeling comfortable talking and then they tensed 0:54:24.120 --> 0:54:25.560 up again a little bit. I don't know why. I 0:54:25.600 --> 0:54:28.200 don't know what it is. So whatever I saw, I 0:54:28.280 --> 0:54:30.279 guess I know that there's something within Red that is 0:54:30.480 --> 0:54:34.680 confidence and feels okay with, you know, saying stuff without 0:54:34.760 --> 0:54:38.800 having to overthink it all the time, Like I was 0:54:38.840 --> 0:54:40.680 saying on the call, I do that all the time. 0:54:40.760 --> 0:54:45.719 I'm myself, you know, have low self esteem in many 0:54:45.800 --> 0:54:50.359 moments and overthink things all the time. So it's hard 0:54:50.440 --> 0:54:52.560 to talk to other people who do the same thing 0:54:52.640 --> 0:54:56.399 because I don't have a you know, I can only 0:54:56.480 --> 0:55:00.680 offer commiseration as opposed to a solution, Like I said, red, 0:55:00.800 --> 0:55:02.560 if you have you ever, if you come up with one, 0:55:02.600 --> 0:55:05.240 you let me know. If you find a good article 0:55:05.400 --> 0:55:09.239 on you know what tea leaves to shove up your 0:55:09.320 --> 0:55:11.840 ass so that you don't think you sound stupid in 0:55:11.920 --> 0:55:15.080 a conversation you had four months ago, you let me know. 0:55:16.040 --> 0:55:19.960 Reped goes on the line taking your phone calls every night. 0:55:20.360 --> 0:55:23.040 The Repink goes to and a ride. He's teaching you 0:55:23.160 --> 0:55:25.440 cloud in the mid of your life, but he's not 0:55:25.680 --> 0:55:27.040 really an expert.