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<v Speaker 1>Welcome to Can't Flee Reckless, the production of iHeartRadio and

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<v Speaker 1>the Black Effects, And just like that, welcome back to

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<v Speaker 1>yet another carefully reckless episode with your girl, Jess.

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<v Speaker 2>Hilarious.

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<v Speaker 1>Listen, I'm gonna jump right into fixing some mess because

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<v Speaker 1>I'm on my way to Puerto Rico, but I have

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<v Speaker 1>to deliver this episode, y'all. And I'm also coming down

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<v Speaker 1>off of a fucking cold, so that's why I sound

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<v Speaker 1>like somebody's granddad. So let's get it popping, Jess. Hey girl,

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<v Speaker 1>I know you have hello people to get to, but

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<v Speaker 1>I need you to fix my mess. And I hope

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<v Speaker 1>you read this one day. First of all, I love

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<v Speaker 1>your podcast, and hey, don't talk about my grammar and

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<v Speaker 1>punctuation because I'm really typing this like you're a homegirl. Anyway,

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<v Speaker 1>let's get to it. It's gonna be long. Let me

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<v Speaker 1>start by saying, I'm twenty five years old and I've

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<v Speaker 1>been dating my boyfriend, who's about to turn twenty eight

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<v Speaker 1>next month, for about two and a half going on

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<v Speaker 1>three years, but we've met in college. I was in

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<v Speaker 1>a relationship from twenty nineteen to twenty twenty one. Around

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<v Speaker 1>twenty twenty, he started a YouTube channel, and I was

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<v Speaker 1>very supportive of his channel until it started taking away

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<v Speaker 1>time for him to spend with me. First of all,

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<v Speaker 1>that was crazy at shitineteen twenty nineteen through twenty twenty one.

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<v Speaker 1>Around twenty twenty, yes, you definitely typing this like my

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<v Speaker 1>motherfucker homegirl because I can barely understand, but bear with me.

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<v Speaker 1>I was always transparent about him not spending as much

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<v Speaker 1>time with me, but he never made an effort to

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<v Speaker 1>change this, and I began to get on dating apps

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<v Speaker 1>and eventually met someone and stepped out of my relationship.

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<v Speaker 2>What should I do? Well, you stepped out of here

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<v Speaker 2>fucking relationship? What do you mean where you should do?

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<v Speaker 2>You should step back in it? I mean did? Okay?

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<v Speaker 1>Now you left no meat on the bone from me.

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<v Speaker 1>You told me this was going to be long, but

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<v Speaker 1>it was in fact very short. All right, So let's

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<v Speaker 1>gather all that we can. So you're twenty five and

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<v Speaker 1>you've been with your boyfriend, who was about to be

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<v Speaker 1>twenty nine for almost three years. Y'all met in college

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<v Speaker 1>and in twenty nineteen, but you are in a relationship.

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<v Speaker 1>This one is kind of confusing, but basically you said

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<v Speaker 1>all that just to say, you cheated on him, you

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<v Speaker 1>stepped out on him, and you don't.

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<v Speaker 2>Know what to do.

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<v Speaker 1>You feel guilty. I think you should go to him.

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<v Speaker 1>You should talk to him, sit down and tell him why.

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<v Speaker 1>A lot of times when people cheat, they do have reasons.

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<v Speaker 1>Not all the time, but more than likely, there is

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<v Speaker 1>a reason why somebody would step out of a relationship

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<v Speaker 1>that they that's fixable, that's doable, that not. I'm not

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<v Speaker 1>going to say that you can tolerate, because when you're

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<v Speaker 1>tolerating somebody, you're literally settling, like all right, I'm tolerating you.

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<v Speaker 1>You're like, no, No, that's when you're fed up and

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<v Speaker 1>you should y'all already grow apart. What I mean is

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<v Speaker 1>is if it's still work on able, Like if you

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<v Speaker 1>can still work on your relationship, then that's what you

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<v Speaker 1>stay and do. I mean, you obviously love this person,

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<v Speaker 1>You've obviously devoted some years, so I would definitely say

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<v Speaker 1>there is still something there, So yes, it's worth a

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<v Speaker 1>sit down. You go and talk to them and tell

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<v Speaker 1>your partner exactly how you feel. We need to stop

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<v Speaker 1>being afraid to communicate in relationships. That's one thing that

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<v Speaker 1>we as people struggle with anyway. Like communicating with each other,

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<v Speaker 1>keeping it a buck, they say. I call it being honest,

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<v Speaker 1>being straightforward without being disrespectful. Now, sometimes communication can go

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<v Speaker 1>bad both ways, like you could either not be communicating

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<v Speaker 1>enough or you can over communicate.

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<v Speaker 2>I think over communicating.

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<v Speaker 1>Is better because it's better to tell somebody to pull

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<v Speaker 1>back from some of the shit they say than to

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<v Speaker 1>try to pull some shit out of somebody.

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<v Speaker 2>And you never know.

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<v Speaker 1>Your man could have definitely saw the signs and figured

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<v Speaker 1>out that you were messing around, you know what I'm saying.

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<v Speaker 1>So I think you should sit down with your man

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<v Speaker 1>and tell him listen. You don't spend enough time with me.

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<v Speaker 1>I find this quite boring, and I find myself looking

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<v Speaker 1>for attention outside of our relationship behind your back, of course,

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<v Speaker 1>because I don't want to leave you, but I'm not

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<v Speaker 1>happy here.

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<v Speaker 2>What can we do to fix this?

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<v Speaker 1>If you're not mature enough to have that conversation and

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<v Speaker 1>he's not muture enough to listen, then you need to

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<v Speaker 1>let that go because obviously communication is not y'all strong suit.

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<v Speaker 2>That's not a.

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<v Speaker 1>Strength in your relationship. So that's what I think you

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<v Speaker 1>should do. I think you should sit down and talk

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<v Speaker 1>to your man child, because I'd be beating somebody's ass

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<v Speaker 1>up and down if I found out they were cheating.

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<v Speaker 2>Just come to me and tell me.

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<v Speaker 1>You know what I'm saying. Got to save you a

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<v Speaker 1>slap in a punch, all right, all right, check back

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<v Speaker 1>in with me. If you love me, you'll listen to

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<v Speaker 1>this commercial and then we'll be right back.

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<v Speaker 2>Moving on.

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<v Speaker 1>Hey, Jess, I need you to fix my mess. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>not sure if you do parental mess a girl, I

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<v Speaker 1>do it all. But that's what I have to bring

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<v Speaker 1>to the table. For background, I am eighteen. I live

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<v Speaker 1>with my father and stepmother. I am Christian and very outspoken.

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<v Speaker 1>That sounds like my cousin London. And I really am

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<v Speaker 1>loved by a lot of people and try my best

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<v Speaker 1>to be a good person. I have been in therapy

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<v Speaker 1>my whole life, but recently I started with the therapist

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<v Speaker 1>and told her about my parents and how they are

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<v Speaker 1>extremely toxic and abusive mentally and emotionally. I eventually got

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<v Speaker 1>diagnosed with the react of attachment disorder. That's when you

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<v Speaker 1>do not attach any parental figures because they were taken

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<v Speaker 1>from you or abusive. Okay, okay, thank you for enlightening me.

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<v Speaker 2>On that.

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<v Speaker 1>So basically I didn't get modeled what a healthy relationship

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<v Speaker 1>looks like. So all throughout my childhood I have been

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<v Speaker 1>constantly ridiculed and made to feel like I'm an awful person,

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<v Speaker 1>constantly being called selfish and considerate, lazy, and manipulating me

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<v Speaker 1>to believe this about myself for years. Wow, well you

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<v Speaker 1>stop there, babe, But I think I can figure this out.

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<v Speaker 1>Since y'all are leaving me to pick up the pizza

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<v Speaker 1>is this morning, now, let me just go hit on

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<v Speaker 1>and do it. Looking at your profile, you are such

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<v Speaker 1>a breath of fresh air. Looks like you are the

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<v Speaker 1>life of the party. People do love you. You are

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<v Speaker 1>just so happy and bubbly, is what it looks like

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<v Speaker 1>from what I can see.

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<v Speaker 2>So basically, you either.

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<v Speaker 1>Want me to tell you how you can I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know reconcile with your parents, or how you go on

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<v Speaker 1>in life without knowing how a healthy family is structured.

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<v Speaker 2>I'll just give you both, okay.

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<v Speaker 1>So obviously it's something they're deep rooted with your parents,

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<v Speaker 1>which may have led to the abuse. Are you an

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<v Speaker 1>only child? You didn't leave a lot of meat on

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<v Speaker 1>the bone for me? Are you the baby? Are you

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<v Speaker 1>the middle child. Are you the oldest child or are

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<v Speaker 1>you an only child that actually could play a role

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<v Speaker 1>as well?

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<v Speaker 2>Also, when did your parents have you? Did they have

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<v Speaker 2>you early?

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<v Speaker 1>As hell, when they couldn't even beat parents themselves?

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<v Speaker 2>What happened? You know?

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<v Speaker 1>What do you think caused this trauma? You know what

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<v Speaker 1>caused them to be this way? Not justifying it at all,

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<v Speaker 1>but it's almost more often than not a reason why

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<v Speaker 1>parents disconnect with their kids. You know what I'm saying,

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<v Speaker 1>find out how their parents treated them. Is it one

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<v Speaker 1>parent or is it both parents? You know because you

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<v Speaker 1>spoke about the fact that you live with your father

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<v Speaker 1>and your stepmother.

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<v Speaker 2>Where is mom?

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<v Speaker 1>You know, if you don't mind me asking, if you

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<v Speaker 1>don't mind coming back to update me with more information.

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<v Speaker 1>Where's mom? How are you guys' relationship? And what's going

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<v Speaker 1>on with the step mom? Is your step mom a comforting,

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<v Speaker 1>nurturing woman. Do you get what you need from her

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<v Speaker 1>that you never got from your real mother? You know,

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<v Speaker 1>your biological mother. I don't want to say real mother,

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<v Speaker 1>your biological mother. Hear you say, throughout your childhood you

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<v Speaker 1>have been constantly ridiculed and made to feel like you're

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<v Speaker 1>an awful person. What are some of the things you do?

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<v Speaker 1>You said you were being called selfish and considerate, lazy,

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<v Speaker 1>and you are manipulative. What are some of the actions

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<v Speaker 1>that led to people saying this about you? You know,

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<v Speaker 1>because a lot of times, depending on how you were

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<v Speaker 1>treated growing up, that's how you tend to treat others,

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<v Speaker 1>because that's all you know, that's all you've been taught.

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<v Speaker 1>So I wonder if you've become this kind of person

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<v Speaker 1>or you've developed this personality about yourself based on how

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<v Speaker 1>you were treated growing up, or based on who your

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<v Speaker 1>biological parents are. Because a lot of shit is hereditary too.

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<v Speaker 1>Let's not play games, you know what I'm saying. Let's

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<v Speaker 1>just say it for what it is. Sometimes you end

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<v Speaker 1>up like your parents, even if you don't want that.

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<v Speaker 1>Shit is just in your blood. You understand now, I

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<v Speaker 1>don't want you to take offense to that, but I

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<v Speaker 1>don't want to.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't like to coddle my people.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't like to coddle I really don't, because shit

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<v Speaker 1>is real out here, you understand, And you're eighteen.

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<v Speaker 2>You're eighteen, and you've already been through some stuff.

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<v Speaker 1>I can honestly tell you know, but I don't want

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<v Speaker 1>to treat you like, oh my god, I like like

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<v Speaker 1>I pity you, or like you need my pity, or I,

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<v Speaker 1>oh my god, I sympathize so much. No, no, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>an impath and I feel you. I want you to

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<v Speaker 1>tell me exactly. I want you to do some homework.

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<v Speaker 1>You eighteen, I need you do some homework.

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<v Speaker 2>Baby.

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<v Speaker 1>Tell me what you do. Tell me the type of

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<v Speaker 1>person you feel like you are. Tell me if you

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<v Speaker 1>even feel like a good person. Don't tell me what

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<v Speaker 1>somebody else thinks of you. Tell me what you think

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<v Speaker 1>of yourself. You understand. Let me know exactly what you feel.

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<v Speaker 1>You're strong, your your strengths are as opposed to your weaknesses,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, and how you feel you developed them, and

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<v Speaker 1>how it pertains to your life in terms of holding

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<v Speaker 1>you back or pushing you forward or making you permanently

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<v Speaker 1>suspend your family. You know what I'm saying, Expel them,

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<v Speaker 1>because you talk as if you don't you don't even

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<v Speaker 1>want to see them. You just told me you have

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<v Speaker 1>a whole disorder basically where you don't attach parental figures

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<v Speaker 1>because they were taken from you or abusive. You know

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<v Speaker 1>what I'm saying. I don't like that I don't like

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<v Speaker 1>that you struggle with this react of attachment disorder, Like

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<v Speaker 1>I don't like that, you know, so put some more meat.

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<v Speaker 2>On the bone.

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<v Speaker 1>I can't really give you advice because first of all,

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<v Speaker 1>you didn't finish your sentence. I mean, you didn't finish

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<v Speaker 1>You didn't ask me a question. You just told me,

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<v Speaker 1>heyj s, I need you to fix my mess, and

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<v Speaker 1>you explain what was going on. So I do want

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<v Speaker 1>to get to the bottom of it. And you know,

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<v Speaker 1>and because you're young, you're so young, and you have

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<v Speaker 1>so much life to live, and you're so charismatic literally

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<v Speaker 1>scrolling through your profile, you know, beautiful kid, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>So I want you to get back with me. Let

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<v Speaker 1>me know what's going on, like below surface level. You

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<v Speaker 1>know what I'm saying, Get deep rooted with me, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>because if I'm a fiction mess, I'm gonna need all

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<v Speaker 1>love it.

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<v Speaker 2>You understand, all right? Well, I love you.

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<v Speaker 1>Hold up, Hold up, I know this shit getting good.

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<v Speaker 1>But listen to just a couple seconds of a commercial.

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<v Speaker 1>If you love me, you'll listen. Last story. Hey Jass,

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<v Speaker 1>I love you and you're my favorite comedian.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh thank you. Boot.

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<v Speaker 1>We've met a few times at your meet and greets

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<v Speaker 1>in my state. Here's my mess. How do you handle

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<v Speaker 1>being disrespected? Recently, I cooked dinner for my wife. We've

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<v Speaker 1>been married a year and a half and I'm blessed

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<v Speaker 1>to have her. After I cooked and sat down to

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<v Speaker 1>scroll on social media, she wanted me to come closer

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<v Speaker 1>to her on the other side of our couch. We

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<v Speaker 1>have a sectional, so I got up and went to

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<v Speaker 1>sit next to her. She wanted to be all on me,

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<v Speaker 1>and I told her one sec I'm watching this video.

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<v Speaker 1>It was a discussion video. She felt that I was

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<v Speaker 1>brushing her off, so she made a shocking comment. She said,

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<v Speaker 1>I'll call someone who wants to be all up on me.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh that hurt me and made me cry.

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<v Speaker 2>I bet it did. Shit.

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<v Speaker 1>We got into it and I went upstairs, but before

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<v Speaker 1>I got up and set their quiet, I felt low.

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<v Speaker 2>And dumb and small. I understand.

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't want to fight with fire, so I didn't

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<v Speaker 1>say anything smart back. I asked her why you would

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<v Speaker 1>disrespect me like that? She followed and wanted to talk. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>so if she following, y'all are pissing me off this morning,

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<v Speaker 1>because basically that's the advice right there. She follows you

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<v Speaker 1>and she wanted to talk. Did you talk to her?

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<v Speaker 1>How did you feel about it? I understand? Let me,

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<v Speaker 1>let me, let me calm down. I understand. I'm not

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<v Speaker 1>going to shy you away or steer you away. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>going to fix your mess because I think I.

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<v Speaker 2>Know what you want. I think I know how you feel.

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<v Speaker 1>Even after her sitting down talking to you, or you

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<v Speaker 1>guys talking, or whether you did talk or not in

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<v Speaker 1>hashing that out, even if she apologized fifty eleven times,

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<v Speaker 1>why the fuck would you say that? What would make

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<v Speaker 1>you want to say some shit like that? I am

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<v Speaker 1>your husband, you know what I'm saying. So that has

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<v Speaker 1>your mind wondering? Are you fucking with somebody? Do you

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<v Speaker 1>already talk to somebody that be all up on you?

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<v Speaker 2>Like bitch? I just wanted to finish a video real quick.

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<v Speaker 1>I just cooked you dinner, damn like you need to

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<v Speaker 1>say your grace and fucking eat like.

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<v Speaker 2>Like you feel me.

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<v Speaker 1>I cook dinner. Let me watch this video. Also, let

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<v Speaker 1>me ask you something else. Is your ass always on

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<v Speaker 1>the phone? I mean, I'm gonna ask you professionally first.

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<v Speaker 1>Are you always on the phone? Do you always be

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<v Speaker 1>on the damn phone? You know, because that's one thing.

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<v Speaker 1>Even in my relationship, my boyfriend hates it. Sometimes I

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<v Speaker 1>can't sleep straight through the night, so I'll wake up

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<v Speaker 1>around like three or four or five, and I don't

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not gonna get up and go in the gym.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not gonna get up, and you know, not right now.

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<v Speaker 1>I do work out, but some times you just want

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<v Speaker 1>to lay there, you know, and I'll grab my phone

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<v Speaker 1>and I'll be on the phone.

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<v Speaker 2>He hates it.

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<v Speaker 1>He hates it because he has this thing. He's like,

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<v Speaker 1>let's talk to God first, let your feet touch the

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<v Speaker 1>ground first, before you get online. It's so many things online.

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<v Speaker 1>It's so many It's a cruel world in real life,

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<v Speaker 1>but it's also even crueler online, you know. But we

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<v Speaker 1>have a choice. We don't have a choice but to

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<v Speaker 1>go out here in the world. We don't have a

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<v Speaker 1>choice when it comes to going out in the world.

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<v Speaker 2>But we do have a.

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<v Speaker 1>Choice to control what goes in our minds, to control.

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<v Speaker 2>What we look at.

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<v Speaker 1>We do have a choice, you know, and internet is

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<v Speaker 1>one of those choices that we have. And I choose

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<v Speaker 1>to wake up, open my eyes and jump on my phone.

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<v Speaker 1>And he can't stand that. So I compromise with that.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, no, okay, nope, I won't So now I

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<v Speaker 1>won't grab my phone, so maybe round nine ten o'clock.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, I have to work online as well, so

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<v Speaker 1>he understands that. But that shouldn't be the last thing

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<v Speaker 1>you do before you go to bed, and it shouldn't

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<v Speaker 1>be the first thing you do when you wake up.

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<v Speaker 1>So I set all that to ask you is that

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<v Speaker 1>an issue for her?

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<v Speaker 2>Do you? Is that something that you always do? You

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<v Speaker 2>always be on the damn.

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<v Speaker 1>Phone, and she like, look, come on, like I just

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<v Speaker 1>want to kiss you, damn show you some attention. Boom, Like,

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<v Speaker 1>let me know, because you ain't leave a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>meat on the bone either. I do understand that you

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<v Speaker 1>were hurt, you know what I'm saying, and that made

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<v Speaker 1>you cry. I definitely wouldn't have cried, and I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 1>tell you that right now.

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<v Speaker 2>I'd have been like, well, who the fuck is it?

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<v Speaker 2>You know what I'm saying.

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<v Speaker 1>And see a lot of times it depends on the person.

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<v Speaker 1>It depends on the type of person that you're arguing with.

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<v Speaker 1>Because I like to match energy, which is very toxic

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<v Speaker 1>and not good all the time. So I'm not promoting that.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not saying, oh, we should do mash that energy,

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<v Speaker 1>match that energy. No, because you could have easily said, well,

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<v Speaker 1>should I have cast somebody who can be all up

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<v Speaker 1>on me too, or I've cast somebody who give me

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<v Speaker 1>my space?

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<v Speaker 2>Then boom.

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<v Speaker 1>It had been a whole will and fighting a mouffucker.

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<v Speaker 1>So but you didn't say that. You cried and you

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<v Speaker 1>got upset. So you're more emotional and that's fine. So

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<v Speaker 1>that's maybe why she wanted to talk. I know she

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<v Speaker 1>felt bad. Tell me what happened when you guys sat

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<v Speaker 1>down and talked, you know, because I really can't give

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<v Speaker 1>you advice moving forward until you let me know how

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<v Speaker 1>that conversation went. But I can just ask questions and

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<v Speaker 1>request that you update me and you know, keep me posted,

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<v Speaker 1>because this is a story I do want to see

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<v Speaker 1>end well. I mean, you know, I want to fix

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<v Speaker 1>it and see it. You know. See, you guys come

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<v Speaker 1>out of this reconcile for sure. And sometimes as women,

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<v Speaker 1>we can get so fed up and so upset and

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<v Speaker 1>throw temperate tantrums and say things.

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<v Speaker 2>To deliberately hurt you.

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<v Speaker 1>Deliberately say things to hurt you, like intentionally, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>what I mean. So if that's what she was doing,

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<v Speaker 1>she should never do that shit again. Because you're supposed

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<v Speaker 1>to love your husband. You're supposed to protect his feelings.

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<v Speaker 1>You're supposed to you know what I'm saying. You're supposed

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<v Speaker 1>to do that as you're supposed to do for your wife,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, or you know, whether it's a wife and wife, husband, husband, whatever,

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<v Speaker 1>You're supposed to respect and love and encourage your partner,

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<v Speaker 1>you know. And even when you guys are upset with

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<v Speaker 1>each other, you have to love each other, you know

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<v Speaker 1>what I mean. You still have to show that you

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<v Speaker 1>love each other when you're upset, because that's the difference.

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<v Speaker 1>That's the difference. That's how you can really still feel

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<v Speaker 1>somebody loves you. Okay, So definitely definitely tell me how

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<v Speaker 1>you know what happened with that and get back to me. Well, y'all,

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<v Speaker 1>we've come to the end of another episode. John, I

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<v Speaker 1>about to go catch my flight going out put.

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<v Speaker 2>Harico with at Mimian.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, Mimi in thank you, saying Mimi in get back

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<v Speaker 1>to y'all next week.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh and in my deepest fan voice.

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