WEBVTT - The Whine Next Door with Kendra Wilkinson 0:00:01.920 --> 0:00:05.320 Wind Down with Janet Kramer and I'm Heart Radio Podcast. 0:00:07.040 --> 0:00:14.080 Oh hey kat oh Hi, Hi, how's la. It's really gloomy? 0:00:14.920 --> 0:00:15.400 Oh is it? 0:00:15.520 --> 0:00:20.040 Yeah, because like June gloom Oh yeah. So I packed 0:00:20.079 --> 0:00:24.000 like sun dresses and baiting suits, did not look at 0:00:24.000 --> 0:00:25.800 the weather before I came. And it's been like the 0:00:25.880 --> 0:00:26.840 high of sixty five. 0:00:28.080 --> 0:00:28.560 Oh wow. 0:00:28.640 --> 0:00:31.800 But it's been so great though. Filming has been really 0:00:31.840 --> 0:00:35.680 fun and the kids are having a blast, like so 0:00:35.800 --> 0:00:37.599 much fun. And then after today we're going to hit 0:00:37.680 --> 0:00:41.239 up Universal. We're gonna with Aquarium tomorrow and then yeah, 0:00:41.240 --> 0:00:42.800 and then we say our goodbyes and then I head 0:00:42.840 --> 0:00:43.720 off to the middle. 0:00:43.440 --> 0:00:47.160 Of nowhere and they'll go home and you go, ye yeah. 0:00:47.040 --> 0:00:51.280 Because they've they've got a time with their daddy beach Tuck. Yeah, 0:00:51.320 --> 0:00:53.559 so they'll have fun. So it's been a great it's 0:00:53.600 --> 0:00:59.120 been a great time. Yeah. And I only almost puked 0:00:59.120 --> 0:00:59.880 one sunset. 0:01:01.000 --> 0:01:01.800 Hey, that's not bad. 0:01:02.320 --> 0:01:04.080 I was like, I need cheese and they're like ooh, 0:01:04.200 --> 0:01:06.360 because I was like, I just have one small request, 0:01:06.440 --> 0:01:07.800 like can we just get to have like some string 0:01:07.880 --> 0:01:11.039 cheese on set? And they're like, yeah, no problem. And 0:01:11.120 --> 0:01:15.080 then I asked for cheese and they're like, oh, the 0:01:15.240 --> 0:01:23.200 crew ate it and I was like, it's been so fun. Yeah, 0:01:23.200 --> 0:01:24.000 it's been really fun. 0:01:25.240 --> 0:01:27.720 Yeah I'm so glad. So that's good. 0:01:28.400 --> 0:01:32.319 Oh wait, wait no, not stop right now. I need 0:01:32.360 --> 0:01:35.600 to hear about the Bahamas and the Nick day. I 0:01:35.680 --> 0:01:38.560 need to know everything. What happened? Did you give it 0:01:38.560 --> 0:01:39.480 to him? Tell me? 0:01:39.560 --> 0:01:42.600 Now? Okay, Well it was great. It's great vacation. 0:01:44.080 --> 0:01:47.200 It's kind of anything but relaxing at Atlantis, just because 0:01:47.240 --> 0:01:48.120 it's a lot of walking. 0:01:48.800 --> 0:01:51.880 Well, it's also kids. It's like a family vacation isn't 0:01:51.920 --> 0:01:53.920 truly relaxing exactly. 0:01:54.160 --> 0:01:56.440 So it's like the water park. All that was all great, 0:01:56.480 --> 0:01:57.440 but he gets his day. 0:01:57.520 --> 0:01:59.880 Okay. I mean a lot of days I was just 0:02:00.160 --> 0:02:01.040 like whatever y'all want to do. 0:02:01.120 --> 0:02:04.760 I didn't really care because it was like beachpool, water park, whatever. 0:02:05.200 --> 0:02:07.560 But this one day I was like, okay, you get 0:02:07.600 --> 0:02:09.440 your day, Like what do you want to do? And 0:02:09.480 --> 0:02:11.519 he was like, I want to go into town. He's 0:02:11.520 --> 0:02:13.960 like I just like want to go and like see 0:02:13.960 --> 0:02:15.720 like get regular clothes on and just like go to town. 0:02:15.760 --> 0:02:16.520 I'm like okay, great. 0:02:17.400 --> 0:02:20.160 So he goes up front to the thing and he's like, 0:02:20.160 --> 0:02:22.600 where would be a good place to go, and they're like, well, here's. 0:02:22.360 --> 0:02:24.960 Like our downtown spot. Go there. He's like all right, 0:02:25.000 --> 0:02:25.800 So we get in a cab. 0:02:26.880 --> 0:02:29.680 We go, and you know, he's got like a certain 0:02:29.680 --> 0:02:31.959 amount of cash on him. You know, it's like forty 0:02:32.000 --> 0:02:35.639 bucks to get like two minutes away, and then he's 0:02:35.639 --> 0:02:37.120 got a certain amount of cash he's going to give 0:02:37.120 --> 0:02:38.279 the kids to spend. 0:02:38.000 --> 0:02:38.640 While we're there. 0:02:39.120 --> 0:02:42.519 Well, we get there. It's the most touristy spot ever 0:02:42.919 --> 0:02:47.720 because all the ships, all of the cruises right shop thing. 0:02:48.480 --> 0:02:52.320 So first of all, he hates crowds. He doesn't really 0:02:52.360 --> 0:02:54.280 love being around a lot of people. So anyway, so 0:02:54.320 --> 0:02:57.680 we get there, it's really hot. We find this straw market, 0:02:57.720 --> 0:03:00.720 which is like his version of hell because it was 0:03:00.800 --> 0:03:06.000 literally like ever, like a hundred three hundred people selling things, 0:03:06.080 --> 0:03:08.400 so like the kids are something, every little thing, wanting 0:03:08.400 --> 0:03:09.200 to buy everything. 0:03:09.639 --> 0:03:13.400 Anyway, it ended up being like probably one of the worst. 0:03:13.240 --> 0:03:18.480 Us So lesson, don't give your husband then to pick 0:03:18.520 --> 0:03:18.839 a day. 0:03:19.240 --> 0:03:20.440 Yeah, so the next day I was like, what do 0:03:20.440 --> 0:03:22.200 you want to do? He's like, I make bad decisions. 0:03:22.280 --> 0:03:25.919 Just side just pick guess who just walked in? 0:03:26.760 --> 0:03:28.240 Who Mark Hi? 0:03:29.480 --> 0:03:31.480 Here is. 0:03:33.040 --> 0:03:34.040 Hikin? How are you. 0:03:34.240 --> 0:03:35.119 I'm jealous. 0:03:35.160 --> 0:03:35.520 I'm good. 0:03:35.560 --> 0:03:36.360 I wish I was there. 0:03:36.520 --> 0:03:38.200 I was I thought you might be, and I'm sad 0:03:38.240 --> 0:03:38.600 that you're not. 0:03:39.200 --> 0:03:40.840 Oh, and here comes Katy. 0:03:43.840 --> 0:03:44.920 Oh to talk. 0:03:45.200 --> 0:03:47.160 I have a bone to pick with you in a minute, 0:03:47.160 --> 0:03:50.400 but let's let's talk to you. Oh. 0:03:51.080 --> 0:03:51.600 I love it. 0:03:52.640 --> 0:04:00.800 Hi, Mom, guys, she's here. We got a girl. A 0:04:00.840 --> 0:04:03.080 lot can happen between Wine Down episodes. 0:04:03.240 --> 0:04:08.640 Yes, thankyo. How are you feeling? 0:04:09.880 --> 0:04:12.200 I feel good. I mean the fact that I know 0:04:12.240 --> 0:04:14.200 what day and time it is makes me feel like 0:04:14.240 --> 0:04:15.200 I might be winning. 0:04:17.000 --> 0:04:23.840 Sweet. This is Baby's first podcast those delivering Everything went good. 0:04:24.080 --> 0:04:27.840 Yes, it went really well. I mean hashtag blessed because 0:04:27.839 --> 0:04:30.760 it can be crazier. But I labored a lot longer 0:04:30.800 --> 0:04:32.520 with her than I did with the other two. So 0:04:32.800 --> 0:04:36.039 it just my body is really hurting still, which is 0:04:36.279 --> 0:04:39.520 I feels so lucky. I've bounced back pretty quickly with 0:04:39.560 --> 0:04:41.479 the other two and this one I'm definitely having to 0:04:41.520 --> 0:04:43.560 like pay close attention and list in my body. But 0:04:45.040 --> 0:04:47.560 it's probably meant to be that way anyways, because that's 0:04:47.600 --> 0:04:49.040 what you're supposed to do. Well. 0:04:49.080 --> 0:04:51.360 Apparently Catherine has a bone to pick with us, so. 0:04:52.080 --> 0:04:53.039 Maybe probably does. 0:04:53.520 --> 0:04:55.400 Oh yeah, why am I out? 0:04:56.760 --> 0:05:00.320 Well, you're actually out because you've been a really loyal. 0:05:02.279 --> 0:05:03.679 Oh because I didn't say the name. 0:05:03.920 --> 0:05:05.279 You told her not to tell? 0:05:05.720 --> 0:05:07.120 No, No, I just actually didn't. 0:05:07.320 --> 0:05:09.560 This is the first time I counted on her telling 0:05:10.000 --> 0:05:10.960 and she didn't tell. 0:05:14.000 --> 0:05:15.880 What's the date? June fourteenth? 0:05:15.960 --> 0:05:19.480 Okay, so about the thirteenth, I was like, man, like, 0:05:19.520 --> 0:05:23.000 there's no way she's still pregnant. I heard nothing. No 0:05:23.040 --> 0:05:26.040 one said a word. So I like, send her a 0:05:26.040 --> 0:05:28.440 little message on Instagram. I'm like, are you still pregnant? 0:05:28.520 --> 0:05:29.800 And then in the middle of the night, she was like, 0:05:29.920 --> 0:05:30.800 Jane didn't tell you. 0:05:31.360 --> 0:05:32.760 It's like all the stuff. 0:05:32.920 --> 0:05:35.880 Listen that cat's not even like how are you or 0:05:35.880 --> 0:05:37.719 how are you feeling? She's like, are you still pregnant? 0:05:38.600 --> 0:05:39.279 What's happening? 0:05:39.560 --> 0:05:40.359 I knew nothing. 0:05:40.839 --> 0:05:43.880 Here's the deal. I thought you would just text Queendom 0:05:43.920 --> 0:05:46.720 and be like, she's here, so that's your thing to tell. 0:05:46.839 --> 0:05:49.000 So you know, I guess. 0:05:48.760 --> 0:05:50.920 Now we are making big progress. 0:05:51.000 --> 0:05:51.440 Thank you. 0:05:51.520 --> 0:05:52.359 Let me agree. 0:05:52.560 --> 0:05:54.240 She was like, Jana really didn't tell you. 0:05:54.320 --> 0:05:56.320 I was like, do I seem like someone that knew 0:05:56.320 --> 0:05:58.880 that you had a baby in like any of the information? 0:05:59.000 --> 0:05:59.960 No, she did not tell me. 0:06:00.520 --> 0:06:04.120 Well, Hey, so KB Mark's here in the in the 0:06:04.160 --> 0:06:04.719 in the house. 0:06:04.800 --> 0:06:07.800 Hi, congratulations, that's beautiful. What are we allowed to know? 0:06:07.880 --> 0:06:08.680 Can I know her name? 0:06:08.839 --> 0:06:10.560 Your podcast? Grand baby Mark? 0:06:11.160 --> 0:06:13.760 That's weird. It's getting into a weird The metaphor is. 0:06:13.680 --> 0:06:15.360 Getting a little to podcast dad. 0:06:15.520 --> 0:06:16.320 Yeah, I know, I get that. 0:06:16.480 --> 0:06:17.120 I get it. 0:06:17.160 --> 0:06:19.960 I do understand it. It's just getting weird. Yeah, what these. 0:06:19.839 --> 0:06:21.320 People already think it's a little weird. 0:06:22.200 --> 0:06:23.839 What is her name? Can I know that? Or No? 0:06:24.520 --> 0:06:28.680 Her name is Lion l I O N Wow. We 0:06:28.720 --> 0:06:33.279 went for it. Yeah, and middle name is Lockhart, little 0:06:33.320 --> 0:06:34.280 Lion Lockhart. 0:06:35.080 --> 0:06:36.279 Lockhart's a family name. 0:06:37.160 --> 0:06:39.640 It is not. It actually comes from this trip we 0:06:39.680 --> 0:06:43.400 took to Paris in August. Last year was just a 0:06:43.440 --> 0:06:47.000 harder year on marriage for us, and we took this 0:06:47.040 --> 0:06:49.640 trip to Paris and we did the lock Bridge and 0:06:49.680 --> 0:06:52.000 we threw away the key and we've just been really 0:06:52.040 --> 0:06:55.800 like working super hard. So we felt like she is 0:06:55.960 --> 0:06:58.640 the redemption story for a lot of that. So she 0:06:58.839 --> 0:06:59.920 just carries a big meaning. 0:07:00.320 --> 0:07:03.839 Lion Lockhart is a hell of a name, if. 0:07:03.720 --> 0:07:06.080 I may say, I mean, it's it's badass. 0:07:06.240 --> 0:07:06.960 Yes, it is. 0:07:07.200 --> 0:07:09.400 She's going to be a singer or something in lights. 0:07:10.840 --> 0:07:13.360 Yeah, watch this one, watch this one. Be like you 0:07:13.400 --> 0:07:15.280 know what, I think, I'm just going to be a dola, 0:07:15.680 --> 0:07:20.680 a doctor, so legend sweet, like we give her this name. 0:07:20.720 --> 0:07:24.040 That's like like just be like the sweetest thing on 0:07:24.080 --> 0:07:25.120 the base of the planet. 0:07:25.200 --> 0:07:29.240 But it well, there's a lot of babies happening. Mark 0:07:29.360 --> 0:07:31.120 just saw Mark here. Check out the baby. 0:07:31.320 --> 0:07:32.920 Wow a look at that. Wow. 0:07:34.240 --> 0:07:36.120 That third one comes in hot, doesn't. 0:07:35.840 --> 0:07:38.640 It's coming in so hot, all right, because the body's like, oh, 0:07:38.640 --> 0:07:40.200 we get this, we know how this works. Bam. 0:07:40.280 --> 0:07:43.160 I have a question for you. Oh please, when you 0:07:43.240 --> 0:07:45.800 were doing did you know it all? 0:07:46.200 --> 0:07:48.840 I knew nothing, really, no, I knew nothing. 0:07:49.080 --> 0:07:51.760 So like when I got engaged, really she's probably pregnant. 0:07:52.160 --> 0:07:55.160 No I didn't. I mean I know. I mean when 0:07:55.200 --> 0:07:57.800 you were saying announcements and we were brainstorming, that was 0:07:57.920 --> 0:08:01.240 pregnancy was an option that came up. You said engagement. 0:08:01.240 --> 0:08:02.840 I think, okay, well that was it. I didn't think 0:08:02.840 --> 0:08:09.360 there was a double whammy, double whams? 0:08:09.360 --> 0:08:10.040 How I do it? 0:08:10.160 --> 0:08:10.720 Yeah it is? 0:08:11.920 --> 0:08:13.080 Don't you call it? 0:08:16.800 --> 0:08:17.120 Good by? 0:08:17.480 --> 0:08:17.640 Oh? 0:08:17.680 --> 0:08:18.400 Thank you you too? 0:08:18.760 --> 0:08:18.960 Well? 0:08:18.960 --> 0:08:21.120 Thank you? No, you look great, thank you. It's great 0:08:21.160 --> 0:08:23.480 to see you. It's been years. I think since we've 0:08:23.640 --> 0:08:26.200 seen each other. Yes, yeah, you look fantastic. 0:08:25.760 --> 0:08:26.040 Thank you? 0:08:26.120 --> 0:08:28.920 Yeah yeah, yeah, all. 0:08:28.880 --> 0:08:32.000 Right, we'll get to have far longer, you know, sixteen seventeen. 0:08:32.800 --> 0:08:34.359 Well when this air seventeen. 0:08:34.920 --> 0:08:37.480 Yeh that's crazy. Yeah so fast? 0:08:37.800 --> 0:08:39.680 Yeah, well it doesn't feel that way. But I'm like, 0:08:39.720 --> 0:08:41.840 can I just stop being nauseous? Please? 0:08:42.000 --> 0:08:42.160 Oh? 0:08:42.240 --> 0:08:43.040 Is this a rough one? 0:08:43.280 --> 0:08:43.480 Yeah? 0:08:43.640 --> 0:08:44.480 Have they all been rough? 0:08:44.559 --> 0:08:44.800 Yep? 0:08:45.679 --> 0:08:47.920 Just kind of your thing we. 0:08:48.040 --> 0:08:48.880 Just did going back? 0:08:50.040 --> 0:08:52.520 No, we are done and we're done. 0:08:53.160 --> 0:08:53.319 Yeah. 0:08:53.320 --> 0:08:54.400 I don't think you can say that. 0:08:54.920 --> 0:08:55.600 Oh with this? 0:08:55.880 --> 0:08:56.640 Yeah done? 0:08:56.760 --> 0:09:00.440 This is it one, like gazillion percent. I got my 0:09:00.480 --> 0:09:02.280 boob thinking I was done a year two. 0:09:02.920 --> 0:09:05.040 What I'm saying you thought you were done? Then you 0:09:05.080 --> 0:09:06.840 think you're done now you might not be done. 0:09:06.840 --> 0:09:09.040 No, No, I'm like take every organ out you possably 0:09:09.080 --> 0:09:10.240 can when you're in there? 0:09:10.440 --> 0:09:11.600 Is he gett? 0:09:12.720 --> 0:09:15.440 No, I'm having heard all done? Yeah. 0:09:16.000 --> 0:09:17.520 Oh I guess that's final. That isn't it? 0:09:17.520 --> 0:09:18.000 It's final? 0:09:18.080 --> 0:09:18.400 Okay? 0:09:18.520 --> 0:09:22.880 Because I always say delivery Yeah, tye, whatever you got 0:09:22.880 --> 0:09:24.760 because kat you didn't do that, did you. 0:09:24.800 --> 0:09:24.839 No? 0:09:25.160 --> 0:09:26.679 She gave me that option and I didn't. 0:09:27.040 --> 0:09:28.920 And I'm glad because she gave me the option too. 0:09:28.960 --> 0:09:31.520 With the last one, and I'm like, no, I think 0:09:31.559 --> 0:09:33.600 I want to. I don't want to, even though that's 0:09:33.600 --> 0:09:36.280 when I made Mic make do the snip snip, Yes, 0:09:36.480 --> 0:09:38.480 and then remember I changed my mind like the day 0:09:38.480 --> 0:09:39.200 he got it snipped. 0:09:40.040 --> 0:09:42.000 Remember that about. 0:09:43.559 --> 0:09:46.400 Well burn, KB. 0:09:47.520 --> 0:09:49.880 I'm always good for a mic burn, you know I do. 0:09:50.000 --> 0:09:53.720 Actually you're the only one that can. Oh that's exciting. 0:09:53.920 --> 0:09:55.959 Yeah, okay, so this is it. 0:09:56.200 --> 0:09:58.040 This is one million percent. 0:09:58.120 --> 0:10:01.240 But you're not enjoying it. It's rough. You'll enjoy it, 0:10:01.280 --> 0:10:02.599 I know in the other end, but right now you 0:10:02.720 --> 0:10:03.320 have a hard time. 0:10:05.000 --> 0:10:08.720 Yeah, I know you want to check in about five 0:10:08.760 --> 0:10:11.600 days because I think you're also going to be like, 0:10:11.679 --> 0:10:13.959 this is it at five days postpartum too? I think 0:10:13.960 --> 0:10:15.120 it's going to stay consistent. 0:10:15.240 --> 0:10:17.000 Oh yeah, oh no, this is very consistent. 0:10:17.679 --> 0:10:19.960 Yeah, the third baby is really something that. 0:10:20.040 --> 0:10:23.560 Are But I'm very excited. I'm very happy. 0:10:23.960 --> 0:10:25.880 Yeah, with all of your decisions, you're happy. 0:10:25.920 --> 0:10:26.199 I am. 0:10:26.280 --> 0:10:29.120 Oh good, I'm glad. Then if you're happy, I'm happy. 0:10:29.200 --> 0:10:29.520 Thanks. 0:10:29.720 --> 0:10:31.800 I have a quick question. Oh, come on, this is 0:10:31.840 --> 0:10:34.800 this is Easton by the way, long time listener, first 0:10:34.840 --> 0:10:38.560 and call it? Are we going to be doing a 0:10:38.600 --> 0:10:40.319 podcast through the delivery of this child. 0:10:40.520 --> 0:10:47.480 Absolutely not, no one percent? Are you kidding me? That 0:10:47.600 --> 0:10:50.640 was the most embarrassing moment of my life hearing that 0:10:50.760 --> 0:10:51.199 bad thing. 0:10:51.320 --> 0:10:53.600 I would like to advocate for this, like I'd like 0:10:53.640 --> 0:10:55.360 to be the one that says we should do that, 0:10:55.880 --> 0:11:05.319 should what we should podcast through it? I'm dying? 0:11:05.400 --> 0:11:05.920 Am I dying? 0:11:06.679 --> 0:11:07.079 The world? 0:11:07.120 --> 0:11:08.080 Does theave me one more? 0:11:08.120 --> 0:11:11.640 I can't feel my legs and so we know this 0:11:11.720 --> 0:11:12.559 is the last one. 0:11:13.320 --> 0:11:14.160 I can't do it again. 0:11:14.760 --> 0:11:17.720 No, I've traumatized people to now not have kids because 0:11:17.760 --> 0:11:21.000 of my delivery on podcasts. Why did I do that? 0:11:21.000 --> 0:11:22.280 I did too many stupid things. 0:11:22.400 --> 0:11:24.960 Don't I love that say that, Yes, you're all in 0:11:24.960 --> 0:11:27.840 on this podcast. We have nothing but respect from your producers. 0:11:28.440 --> 0:11:31.800 I mean, how cool that is all in on a podcast. 0:11:31.880 --> 0:11:33.160 I mean, I just feel like it's going to be 0:11:33.200 --> 0:11:35.000 the same thing. I'm going to have a panic attack. 0:11:35.240 --> 0:11:38.439 I can't feel my legs, you know, like screaming, crying, 0:11:38.640 --> 0:11:39.400 knock me out. 0:11:39.840 --> 0:11:42.240 We do a lot of podcasts here, and it's like 0:11:42.280 --> 0:11:43.960 pulling teeth to get them to even sit down and 0:11:43.960 --> 0:11:46.200 record it. Sometimes when you're like bring the mic, bring 0:11:46.240 --> 0:11:48.200 the microphone, Easton, come to the hospital. You were like 0:11:48.280 --> 0:11:50.280 let's go. Let's go. And that's so great, and I 0:11:50.280 --> 0:11:51.720 think your listeners appreciate that. 0:11:52.320 --> 0:11:58.559 Well, let's do it. Thing, twist my arm, let's do it. 0:11:58.720 --> 0:12:01.160 I think this is why my baby waited till you 0:12:01.160 --> 0:12:03.120 were out of town, because I think she knew she 0:12:03.280 --> 0:12:04.520 was going to be on the pods. 0:12:04.280 --> 0:12:06.360 One million percent. And you know that I most likely 0:12:06.360 --> 0:12:08.440 would have had like a hidden camera, like I would 0:12:08.480 --> 0:12:12.360 have had something strapped on me to be like, hey, Gabe, 0:12:12.800 --> 0:12:13.480 how are you feeling? 0:12:14.720 --> 0:12:16.480 How are you feeling? Speak louder right here? 0:12:17.760 --> 0:12:18.080 All right? 0:12:18.120 --> 0:12:21.120 Maybe I am, though, gonna see if remember that I 0:12:21.120 --> 0:12:24.640 have not a therapist we've had on before, Grace. I'm 0:12:24.640 --> 0:12:26.760 going to see if she can hypnotize me to not 0:12:26.920 --> 0:12:30.680 freak out during my c section. So I have a 0:12:30.880 --> 0:12:32.880 I have a thing with her in July, so I'm 0:12:32.880 --> 0:12:35.839 going to try and work on because I got just again. 0:12:35.880 --> 0:12:38.520 The feeling of not feeling my legs gives me such anxiety. 0:12:38.559 --> 0:12:41.480 Oh, I can't even imagine that. Plus they're slicing into you. 0:12:41.559 --> 0:12:43.400 I think it's all high anxiety. 0:12:46.200 --> 0:12:46.800 Shane Saw. 0:12:47.240 --> 0:12:50.480 I know I'm helping, but I think I'm trying to empathize. 0:12:50.480 --> 0:12:52.400 I think she's I would have this anxiety too, is 0:12:52.400 --> 0:12:53.320 what I'm trying to say. 0:12:53.520 --> 0:13:02.600 Yeah, take hey you guys, so Mark is take off. 0:13:04.480 --> 0:13:04.840 Oh. 0:13:05.160 --> 0:13:05.400 I know. 0:13:05.559 --> 0:13:07.360 It was funny because I told my doctor, I go, 0:13:07.440 --> 0:13:08.960 and you're gonna have to knock me out again. I 0:13:08.960 --> 0:13:10.960 go the last you knocked me out the first one 0:13:11.400 --> 0:13:13.760 second one Jay had to knock me out too because 0:13:13.760 --> 0:13:16.360 I was just very like what happening? And then that's 0:13:16.360 --> 0:13:18.560 when because the moment I can't feel my legs, I 0:13:18.559 --> 0:13:20.480 will freak out and then when I and then the 0:13:20.480 --> 0:13:22.880 baby's on then I then I kind of remember both 0:13:22.960 --> 0:13:25.920 kids on me, and then then I remember freaking out 0:13:25.920 --> 0:13:28.160 again begging for more's an X because I couldn't feel 0:13:28.160 --> 0:13:29.360 my legs and they're like, no. 0:13:30.200 --> 0:13:33.480 Did they just give you like drugs or do they 0:13:33.480 --> 0:13:34.360 actually knock you out? 0:13:34.400 --> 0:13:37.559 They didn't act. I mean, I was like I was awake, 0:13:37.960 --> 0:13:41.960 but like loopy okay, yeah, but I would like to 0:13:42.000 --> 0:13:46.200 personally be knocked out there with you. Is that bad 0:13:46.200 --> 0:13:48.080 that I want to be like I would like to 0:13:48.080 --> 0:13:48.439 go under? 0:13:48.679 --> 0:13:49.199 Yes? 0:13:49.280 --> 0:13:51.319 Yes, yes, good go. 0:13:52.280 --> 0:13:54.920 This is very la. I'm not I don't like this. 0:13:55.400 --> 0:13:57.280 Well, They're like, don't you want to? Like you know, 0:13:57.320 --> 0:14:00.440 I was like, I'll I'll see her for him right. 0:14:00.280 --> 0:14:02.199 After a lot for the next twenty years. 0:14:03.679 --> 0:14:05.120 I want to do this. 0:14:05.360 --> 0:14:07.920 My wife got the epidural. Yeah, and it didn't take. 0:14:09.000 --> 0:14:12.600 It was a it was a trainee being taught by 0:14:12.800 --> 0:14:14.960 the veteran to He's like, here's how you do it, 0:14:15.040 --> 0:14:16.960 and they like, you know, it's a teaching hospital or whatever. 0:14:16.960 --> 0:14:18.319 I don't want to say the name of the hospital, 0:14:18.360 --> 0:14:24.440 but it rhymes with Schmeiser Schmermanente. But so they stuck 0:14:24.440 --> 0:14:26.080 it in and she's like, gosh, I strimmed in a 0:14:26.120 --> 0:14:27.960 lot of pain for a long time then to come 0:14:28.000 --> 0:14:29.920 and redo it all over again, and oh it was 0:14:30.040 --> 0:14:32.560 it was just a bad deal. No, yeah, she felt 0:14:32.600 --> 0:14:34.960 every bit of that with our first one, who's now 0:14:35.160 --> 0:14:36.520 starting her senior year in high school. 0:14:36.960 --> 0:14:39.720 Wow, yeahs her anxiety. 0:14:39.880 --> 0:14:42.080 You know what, it's so much better. It's still it's 0:14:42.120 --> 0:14:44.240 still every every once in a while it's there, but 0:14:44.600 --> 0:14:47.520 it's better in the sense that she's in a better place. 0:14:47.720 --> 0:14:50.400 She's more but sure now. But we're so much better 0:14:50.960 --> 0:14:54.160 at seeing it coming and knowing what the triggers are 0:14:54.360 --> 0:14:57.880 and diverting and distracting, and we're so much better at 0:14:57.880 --> 0:14:59.960 that than we were. So yeah, it's really it's good. 0:15:00.000 --> 0:15:00.560 It's really good. 0:15:00.720 --> 0:15:03.440 I love it. This is great because I. 0:15:03.400 --> 0:15:05.440 Realized at a certain point that, you know, she's never 0:15:05.480 --> 0:15:09.200 had an anxiety attack when we weren't around. I feel 0:15:09.200 --> 0:15:11.640 like we were responsible for a lot of it. 0:15:11.960 --> 0:15:13.880 I want to put this on the things I wish 0:15:13.960 --> 0:15:15.080 my parents would say to me. 0:15:15.280 --> 0:15:18.120 Mark, Oh, well, I have said that to her, So 0:15:19.080 --> 0:15:19.400 I know. 0:15:19.360 --> 0:15:22.640 That's really wonderful and responsible, and just like that ownership 0:15:22.680 --> 0:15:23.840 is actually really beautiful. 0:15:24.000 --> 0:15:26.000 We just weren't we We would see the flame and 0:15:26.000 --> 0:15:27.920 we would just throw gasoline on it. Yeah, we were 0:15:27.960 --> 0:15:28.600 bad at that. 0:15:28.560 --> 0:15:32.040 And we're better at I mean, yeah, but you know that, 0:15:32.160 --> 0:15:34.720 and that's you know, but that's the same thing you Like. 0:15:34.800 --> 0:15:36.440 I remember with Jace, I was like, what it is like, 0:15:36.800 --> 0:15:38.440 just put the shirt on because of the SPD. I'm like, 0:15:38.480 --> 0:15:40.560 I didn't understand that the tags were ching him in this. 0:15:40.640 --> 0:15:42.480 I'm like, well, I don't understand. Just put your shirt on. 0:15:43.160 --> 0:15:44.760 Being calm and being like, all right, what shirt would 0:15:44.760 --> 0:15:47.720 you like? To hear, buddy pick it out? But takes 0:15:47.760 --> 0:15:48.200 a second. 0:15:48.840 --> 0:15:50.880 You don't know. You've never been through this. I never 0:15:50.920 --> 0:15:52.920 dealt with it, My wife never dealt with it. Ourselves 0:15:52.960 --> 0:15:55.640 we just didn't know what to do. Sure, now we do. No, 0:15:55.760 --> 0:15:56.560 you do, No, We're better. 0:15:57.680 --> 0:16:00.200 Oh, there you go, guys. Let's take a break and 0:16:00.240 --> 0:16:15.400 then we're gonna get Kendra Wilkinson on. All right, So 0:16:15.440 --> 0:16:18.640 we have Kendra Wilkinson coming on the show. She is 0:16:18.680 --> 0:16:21.600 on a show right now called Kendra Sells Hollywood Season two. 0:16:21.680 --> 0:16:25.840 It's out now on Max. You might know the name 0:16:26.280 --> 0:16:29.320 because she was one of Hugh Hefner's girlfriends and she 0:16:29.480 --> 0:16:32.960 was on the E television series The Girls next Door. 0:16:32.960 --> 0:16:33.680 Did you guys watch that? 0:16:35.160 --> 0:16:38.120 I was a loyal watcher and I watched Kendra on top. 0:16:38.960 --> 0:16:42.080 Yeah. I watched both of them too. I loved Kendra 0:16:42.160 --> 0:16:45.080 because she was just out of all the girls, she 0:16:45.160 --> 0:16:46.280 felt the most real to me. 0:16:48.280 --> 0:16:50.240 That's why I was like, it's weird because I'm not 0:16:50.280 --> 0:16:53.640 a big reality TV fan, but something about her was 0:16:53.720 --> 0:16:55.360 so real that I was like, Oh, I need her 0:16:55.400 --> 0:16:59.640 in my life. Yeah, she's very sweet. I have an 0:16:59.640 --> 0:17:01.640 instant care moment about Kendra Wilkinson. 0:17:02.160 --> 0:17:04.040 Oh, no, did you liked did he have like a 0:17:04.080 --> 0:17:08.159 Playboy magazine or over an x an ex lover? Have 0:17:08.200 --> 0:17:10.639 a Playboy magazine with Kendra on the front. 0:17:11.320 --> 0:17:15.919 No, it's my current husband. He did a music video 0:17:16.000 --> 0:17:20.040 with Kendra long before me. It was back when they 0:17:20.080 --> 0:17:24.800 were Low Cash Cowboys. But I remember likes. 0:17:23.880 --> 0:17:26.520 Is literally pulling up the picture right now. 0:17:27.960 --> 0:17:30.800 It's it's when the first time I ever googled my husband. 0:17:30.840 --> 0:17:32.520 I was like, let me just get like whatever dirt 0:17:32.560 --> 0:17:34.439 I can get on this guy. And she popped up 0:17:34.480 --> 0:17:36.399 and I was like, you gotta be freaking kidding me, Like, 0:17:37.040 --> 0:17:39.800 how does one date someone who's like been around someone 0:17:39.840 --> 0:17:42.679 like Kendra? Like Kendra's so cute and so fun and 0:17:42.880 --> 0:17:43.680 just the body. 0:17:43.920 --> 0:17:46.480 I mean, wait, what's the headline? Say Easton? Because I 0:17:46.480 --> 0:17:50.439 feel like it's a little juici here. Then uh oh, 0:17:50.680 --> 0:17:54.360 Kendra Wilson Kendrick Wilkinson clears up rumors about going topless 0:17:54.359 --> 0:17:55.720 and low Cash Cowboys video. 0:17:57.040 --> 0:18:00.119 So I just want to welcome everyone to my life. 0:18:00.480 --> 0:18:02.160 Wait, so she was topless in the video. 0:18:02.840 --> 0:18:05.320 I don't I didn't watch the whole vendeo, but now 0:18:05.359 --> 0:18:06.480 I feel like I need to go back. 0:18:06.840 --> 0:18:10.720 I don't think now's the time you're holding your baby's. 0:18:11.160 --> 0:18:12.680 It sounds like she wasn't topless. 0:18:12.920 --> 0:18:15.200 You're holding your baby, your postpartum and fragile. Let's not 0:18:15.240 --> 0:18:16.199 google that. 0:18:16.960 --> 0:18:20.359 Yeah, and Easton's gonna watch it, so we'll let you know. 0:18:20.400 --> 0:18:22.760 We'll give you the updates. In about two seconds, I'll 0:18:22.800 --> 0:18:29.119 report back. He's always needed, always got. I'm sure nothing 0:18:29.240 --> 0:18:32.760 Uncountry would have had anything topless anyways. 0:18:33.240 --> 0:18:35.760 Wow, they were low cash cowboys. 0:18:36.040 --> 0:18:37.800 I mean, I'm just kind of skimming it. It seems 0:18:37.800 --> 0:18:39.480 like she's wearing like a tank top for most of this. 0:18:39.760 --> 0:18:40.920 I think it's I think it's all good. 0:18:41.920 --> 0:18:44.760 They were in their Bachelor era. It's fine. 0:18:45.480 --> 0:18:48.320 I think it's I mean, yeah, because again, you didn't 0:18:48.320 --> 0:18:50.960 even know. Now if he was to do that something 0:18:51.000 --> 0:18:52.480 like that, now, what would you say. 0:18:52.760 --> 0:18:59.400 Oh that would not be happening now, No, ma'am nope, nope, 0:18:59.400 --> 0:19:02.920 times there changeing. We're all set there. 0:19:03.640 --> 0:19:08.120 So did you guys know about her relationship to with Hank? Yeah, 0:19:08.160 --> 0:19:11.280 her husband, Okay. In twenty fourteen, news broke that Hank 0:19:11.560 --> 0:19:14.520 Bassett had an affair with a transgender model while his 0:19:14.560 --> 0:19:20.040 wife was eight months pregnant. That's some PTSD stuff right there. 0:19:21.440 --> 0:19:23.560 So and then they did the show, right, they were 0:19:23.560 --> 0:19:26.639 already doing the show. Oh and then that's when she 0:19:26.640 --> 0:19:28.760 found out. Because I didn't I didn't really follow. I watched, 0:19:28.800 --> 0:19:33.040 I watched the play The Girl next Door. I didn't watch. 0:19:34.000 --> 0:19:36.800 I caught like an episode of two or two of 0:19:36.840 --> 0:19:38.480 The Girl on Top. 0:19:39.440 --> 0:19:44.119 So Kendra on Top was when they were married, and. 0:19:44.080 --> 0:19:47.760 I think it probably happened probably while they were. 0:19:47.600 --> 0:19:49.600 Filming the show. 0:19:49.840 --> 0:19:50.840 Hank was on the show. 0:19:51.240 --> 0:19:53.520 Yeah, they were together on the show Kids and Everything 0:19:53.520 --> 0:19:57.359 for years, though, I mean it was several seasons, but 0:19:57.400 --> 0:19:59.080 I don't know like the whole timing of when it 0:19:59.080 --> 0:19:59.960 happened during the show. 0:20:00.080 --> 0:20:03.479 But well, we've got some questions we're going to ask her, 0:20:03.520 --> 0:20:05.159 So let's take one more break and then we'll Getkendra 0:20:05.200 --> 0:20:20.520 Wilkinson on. All right, Well, we're so excited to have 0:20:20.600 --> 0:20:22.679 Kendra on. And I was just pre chatting with the 0:20:22.720 --> 0:20:27.240 girls back home in Nashville. But basically what I was 0:20:27.280 --> 0:20:31.480 saying is, you know, I the reason I have always 0:20:31.600 --> 0:20:34.280 loved you and liked you, especially from the show that 0:20:34.280 --> 0:20:37.160 you were on on E was because, out of everyone, 0:20:37.240 --> 0:20:40.720 you've always seen like the most authentic person, like the 0:20:40.760 --> 0:20:42.960 only person I could really like relate to, and you're 0:20:43.080 --> 0:20:46.840 just you say it like it is. And the girls 0:20:47.080 --> 0:20:52.280 completely agreed. KB. Down there is guys, she loves you. 0:20:53.440 --> 0:20:55.160 Thank you for having me. 0:20:55.240 --> 0:20:57.440 Do you love you? I don't even like reality TV. 0:20:57.720 --> 0:20:59.840 I did a little tiny shorts and an MTV show 0:20:59.880 --> 0:21:01.720 and I kind of like left a taste in my mouth, 0:21:01.760 --> 0:21:05.480 and so I never reality TV until there was Kendra 0:21:05.520 --> 0:21:07.840 Wilkinson in my life and then I followed you on 0:21:07.880 --> 0:21:10.880 all the shows like you're just a fun chick. 0:21:11.080 --> 0:21:13.639 Oh thanks, and you know not, it's it is an 0:21:13.680 --> 0:21:18.800 authentic journey. So it's you know, some I've noticed fans 0:21:18.880 --> 0:21:21.480 will like me one year and hate me the other 0:21:21.600 --> 0:21:23.159 and come back another and you. 0:21:23.200 --> 0:21:27.720 Know it's, well, Janna knows nothing about that. 0:21:27.720 --> 0:21:29.840 Not at all. But it's interesting is you actually did 0:21:29.880 --> 0:21:32.400 a music video with her husband low cash cowboys. 0:21:32.440 --> 0:21:36.480 Oh my god, oh my no way. 0:21:37.520 --> 0:21:40.280 Yeah, Preston the one that was say a grand theft 0:21:40.359 --> 0:21:42.240 during the time was that's my. 0:21:42.280 --> 0:21:46.400 Husband, Oh my god, small world. 0:21:46.840 --> 0:21:49.960 Tiniest world, cutest blonde. I was just like I remember 0:21:50.000 --> 0:21:53.280 googling him for the first time and being like, oh great, 0:21:53.400 --> 0:21:54.919 like I can deal with a lot of history. But 0:21:54.960 --> 0:21:58.280 then I was like, this is a freaking video with Kendall, 0:21:58.440 --> 0:22:00.000 Like that does one even follow up? 0:22:00.520 --> 0:22:04.159 Oh my god, that was a fun experience doing a 0:22:04.160 --> 0:22:07.040 country music video. I think I liked that more than 0:22:07.040 --> 0:22:12.920 a rap video. At the rap video, I was like country. 0:22:13.000 --> 0:22:17.080 I was just I could be very dirty and wild 0:22:17.119 --> 0:22:20.480 and wild in mud. I was rolling around and really 0:22:20.920 --> 0:22:22.000 was that the music video? 0:22:22.040 --> 0:22:24.120 Yeah, it was thank you for saying in mud because 0:22:24.160 --> 0:22:27.840 for a minute, I was like, okay, alright, But then. 0:22:27.800 --> 0:22:32.119 I've been in nickelback video and that was the Actually 0:22:32.160 --> 0:22:34.280 low Cash was really fun. That was the Yeah, that 0:22:34.400 --> 0:22:37.479 was the main chick in that. But that was a 0:22:37.520 --> 0:22:40.280 fun experience. We flew out. I flew out to Nashville 0:22:40.320 --> 0:22:45.240 for that music video. I spent like a few weeks 0:22:45.320 --> 0:22:49.119 there and I just had the best time. It was 0:22:49.200 --> 0:22:51.879 so much fun. I spent my birthday there and I'm like, 0:22:52.320 --> 0:22:58.320 where's the moonshine? All I wanted was moonshine and it's 0:22:58.359 --> 0:23:01.640 like a thing, you know. So then we just got 0:23:01.680 --> 0:23:04.359 we we had just got done filming the music video 0:23:05.160 --> 0:23:08.679 rolling around in mud, and next thing you know, we 0:23:08.760 --> 0:23:14.840 had a nice, authentic bottle of moonshine. Good. Yeah, So 0:23:14.880 --> 0:23:17.240 when were you were you in the picture at that 0:23:17.320 --> 0:23:18.480 time or no? 0:23:18.640 --> 0:23:21.360 Tell me no, I wasn't think I think this is good. 0:23:21.880 --> 0:23:23.920 I'm getting nervous about where the story keeps going. 0:23:23.960 --> 0:23:27.560 Oh no, no, no, trust me. I don't you said on 0:23:27.600 --> 0:23:30.119 my own brand, I don't go and dating or looking 0:23:30.240 --> 0:23:30.760 or anything that. 0:23:30.800 --> 0:23:31.399 Stuff like that. 0:23:31.520 --> 0:23:33.479 No, I love you. No, I was way after that. 0:23:33.520 --> 0:23:35.680 We've been married. We've been together for almost nine years. 0:23:35.800 --> 0:23:39.840 Oh cool, congratulations, had a little baby, our third baby 0:23:39.960 --> 0:23:43.359 last week. So we're really just like we're just really 0:23:43.359 --> 0:23:45.280 mom and daddying up over here off the road for 0:23:45.320 --> 0:23:46.480 a minute, which is nice. 0:23:46.840 --> 0:23:48.199 Congratulations. 0:23:48.480 --> 0:23:51.040 Do you still talk to the girl the girl's next door. 0:23:52.040 --> 0:23:55.960 No, No, we fell out of touch a long time ago. 0:23:57.400 --> 0:23:59.600 I feel like, was it just like too much, like 0:23:59.600 --> 0:24:02.400 too much of a sorority? 0:24:02.680 --> 0:24:05.080 Yeah? You know I was there from the ages of 0:24:05.200 --> 0:24:09.920 eighteen through twenty three, and can you remember those years? 0:24:09.960 --> 0:24:11.720 I mean it was like ateh. 0:24:11.480 --> 0:24:14.520 I got married, I got divorced, I met a guy 0:24:14.560 --> 0:24:16.280 for like a week and got married to Yeah. Like 0:24:16.320 --> 0:24:19.480 those ages, you're just yeah crazy. 0:24:19.160 --> 0:24:22.920 You're just kind of entering life not thinking, and you know, 0:24:23.240 --> 0:24:26.560 people are going to college, like you said, going to sororities. 0:24:27.359 --> 0:24:32.600 It was like the time I struggled as a teenager bad, badly, 0:24:33.080 --> 0:24:36.159 you know. So when I got invited to live at 0:24:36.200 --> 0:24:40.239 the Playboy Mansion, it was like, oh my god, I 0:24:40.280 --> 0:24:44.640 get to live here. Like and go crazy and party 0:24:44.800 --> 0:24:47.919 and just get what. Oh my god, I used up 0:24:47.960 --> 0:24:50.840 every minute of that place and just enjoy it and 0:24:50.920 --> 0:24:54.280 just partied my ass off, right, And that's what I 0:24:54.320 --> 0:24:58.240 was there for, nothing else, And so you know, if 0:24:58.240 --> 0:25:01.400 nobody was partying, I didn't really care who what else 0:25:01.520 --> 0:25:05.080 was going on? Sure, and I had boyfriends outside the 0:25:05.119 --> 0:25:06.600 mansion the whole thing, and. 0:25:06.600 --> 0:25:08.200 He half was totally fine with all that. 0:25:08.560 --> 0:25:10.240 I just did what the fuck I wanted to do. 0:25:10.359 --> 0:25:10.479 Well. 0:25:10.520 --> 0:25:12.280 I think again, that's why people like you, because you 0:25:12.400 --> 0:25:13.200 just were like. 0:25:13.400 --> 0:25:15.280 Gender for president and saying it. 0:25:15.400 --> 0:25:18.239 I you know, I just did what I wanted to do, 0:25:18.320 --> 0:25:19.800 and I no one ever said anything. 0:25:19.960 --> 0:25:22.840 That's a cool experience though, too. I mean, like eighteen, 0:25:22.880 --> 0:25:24.879 I know it's like hard because it was documented, but 0:25:24.960 --> 0:25:28.440 like really incredible that you just like lived your life. 0:25:29.080 --> 0:25:32.720 Yeah, it was a wild time. And you know, again, 0:25:32.800 --> 0:25:35.080 I struggled as a as a teenager. 0:25:35.200 --> 0:25:36.600 I what did you struggle with? 0:25:36.800 --> 0:25:40.439 Just oh my god, I was suicidal. I was in 0:25:40.600 --> 0:25:44.120 psych wards. I was like, you know, I quit selling 0:25:44.160 --> 0:25:48.760 cocaine at the age of fifteen. I was a runaway. 0:25:49.520 --> 0:25:54.800 I mean I had a really rough, rough teenage years, 0:25:55.119 --> 0:25:58.639 but I pulled myself out of it, got better, chose life, 0:25:59.280 --> 0:26:01.119 and next thing you know, I'm at the Playboy Mansion 0:26:02.119 --> 0:26:05.520 and it was it was it was fun for me too, 0:26:05.600 --> 0:26:08.640 and it was a safe place for me coming out 0:26:08.680 --> 0:26:11.840 of where I was. I mean, I was selling coke 0:26:11.920 --> 0:26:12.920 at the age of fifteen. 0:26:13.080 --> 0:26:14.520 You know, where did that come? 0:26:14.640 --> 0:26:14.840 Like that? 0:26:14.920 --> 0:26:16.919 Where did that stem from? Was that just? Was it 0:26:16.960 --> 0:26:19.720 the upbringing? Because I don't know much of your early upbringing. 0:26:19.760 --> 0:26:20.360 Life was that? 0:26:20.760 --> 0:26:23.000 I mean, it had no one's to blame for anything. 0:26:23.080 --> 0:26:25.560 Life just happens, you know. I just I'm like just. 0:26:25.640 --> 0:26:26.879 The crowder that you were. 0:26:27.400 --> 0:26:31.240 I didn't really blame anything. Like I'm a free spirit, 0:26:31.520 --> 0:26:36.120 and sometimes free spirits can can become lost souls. And 0:26:36.160 --> 0:26:38.680 I am It's either I'm a free spirit or I'm 0:26:38.680 --> 0:26:41.480 a lost soul in some and to this season of 0:26:41.600 --> 0:26:45.760 my of my show at Kendrisseall's Hollywood, I was battling both. 0:26:45.840 --> 0:26:48.040 I was a free spirit, lost soul, free you know. 0:26:48.119 --> 0:26:50.240 So you see a lot of emotions this season on 0:26:50.320 --> 0:26:53.720 my show because I didn't know who I was this year, 0:26:53.760 --> 0:26:55.840 I was like, God, what does God want for me? 0:26:56.080 --> 0:26:59.600 Like what? It was so hard to transition from how 0:26:59.640 --> 0:27:02.720 the world once knew me into a whole new world 0:27:02.720 --> 0:27:07.280 of real estate. So it was so hard to transition 0:27:07.440 --> 0:27:10.880 and change that because you at the end of the day, 0:27:12.000 --> 0:27:15.320 I don't care what people think, but what how people? 0:27:16.359 --> 0:27:19.560 You know, people weren't picking up that I was really 0:27:19.560 --> 0:27:22.240 doing real estate, and it really took a huge toll 0:27:22.280 --> 0:27:24.200 on me. They're like, oh, you're just that girl from 0:27:24.280 --> 0:27:28.399 that mansion. It was so bad and it's not okay 0:27:28.480 --> 0:27:30.600 that we do this to each other, like we you know, 0:27:30.680 --> 0:27:33.680 we have a right to grow out of phases and 0:27:33.760 --> 0:27:36.880 we have to support each other, like. 0:27:36.400 --> 0:27:39.200 Like, you shouldn't be typecasted in just the one thing, yeah, 0:27:39.359 --> 0:27:41.600 or the one headline or the one role or that, 0:27:41.720 --> 0:27:44.520 like you you know, you've found love for real estate. 0:27:44.520 --> 0:27:46.560 It's like you want to be taken serious. 0:27:46.280 --> 0:27:51.320 For yeah day totally. And you know, I'm known on 0:27:51.320 --> 0:27:54.440 one hand, I'm known to be a fun personality and 0:27:54.560 --> 0:27:59.680 a show biz expert, and now you're taking a fun 0:27:59.720 --> 0:28:03.600 while free spirited person and you're putting that personality into 0:28:03.720 --> 0:28:08.119 real estate now where it's professional and clean cut and 0:28:08.880 --> 0:28:10.919 you have to be an expert at everything you know, 0:28:11.000 --> 0:28:13.560 and I you know, so it takes a second from 0:28:13.600 --> 0:28:18.119 going from wild to professional and class and clean. 0:28:18.320 --> 0:28:18.480 Right. 0:28:18.640 --> 0:28:23.920 Yeah, so I'm balancing both worlds right now because sometimes, 0:28:24.000 --> 0:28:27.280 you know, I'm I'm who I am, and what you 0:28:27.359 --> 0:28:31.159 saw through all these years is real. It's just that 0:28:31.359 --> 0:28:34.000 now I have to, you know, in front of the world, 0:28:34.200 --> 0:28:38.360 clean it up and just really get serious in business. 0:28:39.000 --> 0:28:42.720 You know, I don't want to be just a personality anymore, 0:28:43.120 --> 0:28:46.680 and it's important for myself and my kids to you know, 0:28:47.520 --> 0:28:50.440 get this going and really enter the real business world. 0:28:50.720 --> 0:28:52.680 So why real estate too, Like, was that just something 0:28:52.720 --> 0:28:54.800 you've always loved or like, yeah. 0:28:54.600 --> 0:28:58.160 I mean I've always loved real estate, but it all 0:28:58.560 --> 0:29:02.840 happened when I found myself years out of work. I 0:29:02.920 --> 0:29:08.600 was struggling badly alone with two kids, and I had 0:29:08.640 --> 0:29:11.600 all these friends, but no one's gonna hold my hand 0:29:11.720 --> 0:29:15.120 and say, here you go, here's some money. So I'm like, 0:29:16.600 --> 0:29:18.840 I think I should start to figure out what I'm 0:29:18.880 --> 0:29:22.640 gonna do next. I had applications into colleges and stuff 0:29:22.680 --> 0:29:26.360 like that. I was looking into pharmaceutical sales. So TV 0:29:26.560 --> 0:29:29.200 never really influenced, you know, all these shows never really 0:29:29.240 --> 0:29:33.000 influenced my decision to do real estate. So people like 0:29:33.080 --> 0:29:35.920 to think that, but it is so far from the truth. 0:29:35.960 --> 0:29:38.280 I don't even want I don't not turn my TV on, right. 0:29:39.120 --> 0:29:40.840 Well, but I think it's cool though that you're showing 0:29:40.920 --> 0:29:44.720 on the show, you know, again, the real life. And 0:29:44.760 --> 0:29:46.480 then I mean, you know, we talked and you were 0:29:46.520 --> 0:29:48.720 just like I'm closing a deal today, like it's high stress, 0:29:49.160 --> 0:29:53.160 high anxiety, and you know, you're you're busting your butt, 0:29:53.240 --> 0:29:55.280 like this isn't just some like Okay, show up to 0:29:55.320 --> 0:29:57.960 set and like, let's pretend to sell this house. You're 0:29:57.960 --> 0:30:00.479 like no, no, I'm like, oh I am selling, and 0:30:00.520 --> 0:30:02.840 I'm oh, yeah, I feel like some of some of 0:30:02.840 --> 0:30:05.640 those shows, right, they're not like I've been told there's 0:30:05.640 --> 0:30:06.400 some fake deals. 0:30:06.560 --> 0:30:06.760 Right. 0:30:06.880 --> 0:30:11.680 Well, all I know is I cannot fake sh right. 0:30:11.800 --> 0:30:15.840 I'm the worst actor ever. And so I said to 0:30:15.920 --> 0:30:18.960 the production, you know, I started Real Estate with no show, 0:30:19.000 --> 0:30:21.400 and the show asked me to do the show. And 0:30:21.440 --> 0:30:23.480 then it all came back, which was really exciting. So 0:30:23.520 --> 0:30:26.760 then we started to talk about it, me and the producers, 0:30:26.800 --> 0:30:29.200 and I'm like, you know, there's no way I can 0:30:29.320 --> 0:30:33.040 really fake this journey. I cannot celebrate something that's not real, 0:30:33.480 --> 0:30:36.640 or I can't cry over something that didn't happen. So 0:30:37.560 --> 0:30:39.959 I have to go through the real journey. So if 0:30:40.000 --> 0:30:43.280 I don't sell a house, that's the story. And I'm 0:30:43.320 --> 0:30:46.000 okay with that because I'm not here to fake sit right, 0:30:46.520 --> 0:30:49.840 so like, and I don't think that's beneficial in any 0:30:49.880 --> 0:30:53.880 way to inspire women, because a lot of women I 0:30:53.960 --> 0:30:57.520 know need a fresh start in their lives and they 0:30:57.560 --> 0:31:00.720 don't know how. And so I took one for the. 0:31:01.280 --> 0:31:04.400 Especially single moms too with kids. Single moms, Okay, I gotta. 0:31:04.160 --> 0:31:07.040 Support my kids exactly, And they spend their whole lives, 0:31:07.320 --> 0:31:10.080 they spend every inch of their energy putting into their 0:31:10.120 --> 0:31:12.960 marriages and their kids, and they lose track of time 0:31:13.080 --> 0:31:16.040 and they don't know how to, like, you know, get 0:31:16.080 --> 0:31:19.280 back out there and and and and put one for 0:31:18.800 --> 0:31:23.040 for themselves anymore. And so I took a risk, and 0:31:23.080 --> 0:31:26.120 I said, this is what I'm doing this for. You know, 0:31:26.160 --> 0:31:28.240 I could have easily gone in and said like, oh 0:31:28.280 --> 0:31:32.640 my god, I'm a celebrity in real estate. I'm like, no, 0:31:32.960 --> 0:31:36.760 you know what, I'm gonna play this real. And I 0:31:36.800 --> 0:31:40.920 hope to inspire women to know that it's okay to 0:31:41.160 --> 0:31:45.400 start something new at any age. You know, we are 0:31:45.520 --> 0:31:50.800 told by society, not told, but society pressure that we 0:31:50.880 --> 0:31:56.560 are too old to do something that I'm pissed at that. Dude, 0:31:56.920 --> 0:32:00.760 we gotta fight and and know it's a okay we 0:32:01.080 --> 0:32:04.600 It's okay for us to start something new and fail 0:32:04.680 --> 0:32:07.960 a few times. It's a part of it. And so 0:32:08.080 --> 0:32:10.160 that's what I'm doing. I'm showing that it's you know, 0:32:10.880 --> 0:32:13.320 that's that's the way it goes, I think, and because 0:32:13.400 --> 0:32:16.320 I know that I have what it takes to succeed. 0:32:17.360 --> 0:32:20.239 And I'm telling you, I wouldn't do that if I 0:32:20.360 --> 0:32:22.520 didn't know I had what it takes to succeed. I 0:32:22.640 --> 0:32:27.920 closed a deal today, Yeah you did, girl, and with everything, 0:32:28.080 --> 0:32:33.360 like the show is awesome and it's amazing, but you know, 0:32:33.480 --> 0:32:38.680 it's it's a part of it. It's important to be 0:32:38.800 --> 0:32:43.400 okay with knowing how to fall. And that's what I'm 0:32:43.760 --> 0:32:47.040 trying to show. I know I'm going to succeed, so 0:32:47.200 --> 0:32:50.440 it's okay to show the world that, like, wow, this 0:32:50.520 --> 0:32:54.840 is this, this is hard, and I suck right now. 0:32:55.680 --> 0:32:58.080 And I suck at this right now because guess what 0:32:58.360 --> 0:33:01.080 now everyone's going to be an expert over So it 0:33:01.160 --> 0:33:05.400 takes years. I mean I was just on KTLA this 0:33:05.520 --> 0:33:10.600 morning and I was being asked questions that like experts 0:33:11.080 --> 0:33:12.719 answer and I'm sitting here on the spot like, oh 0:33:12.760 --> 0:33:14.360 my god, how how am I going to answer this? 0:33:14.400 --> 0:33:15.920 How am I gonna answer? And I just you know, 0:33:16.200 --> 0:33:20.360 it takes so long to just talk. And so I'm 0:33:20.480 --> 0:33:24.640 very lucky that I'm very lucky. I'm very blessed that 0:33:24.760 --> 0:33:27.240 I have everything going on right now because I spent 0:33:27.440 --> 0:33:31.120 years on the ground in the dark end cave. 0:33:33.560 --> 0:33:35.560 But I think, I just think that's such such a 0:33:35.560 --> 0:33:38.160 good message too, because I know Catherine and Kristen, like 0:33:38.240 --> 0:33:41.680 we you know, we're all in our forties about to 0:33:41.680 --> 0:33:44.640 be and it's one of those things where it's like, well, 0:33:44.840 --> 0:33:47.480 I just I'm I'm past the point of like it's like, no, 0:33:47.560 --> 0:33:50.680 you're not like KB, go try something society to do 0:33:50.720 --> 0:33:52.800 what you want to do. Are you about to say something? 0:33:53.120 --> 0:33:55.680 Well, I was just gonna say with real estate, especially 0:33:55.720 --> 0:33:57.600 like did it take you a couple of years? Like 0:33:57.720 --> 0:34:00.320 was it hard to get clients? I mean, it's not 0:34:00.440 --> 0:34:02.880 just doesn't happen overnight, you know. I Mean it's like 0:34:03.200 --> 0:34:04.640 that's the other thing, like I know a lot of 0:34:04.640 --> 0:34:07.000 women in their forties. I have a lot of friends 0:34:07.040 --> 0:34:09.680 who are starting real estate now. But I think they 0:34:09.719 --> 0:34:12.680 get frustrated because it's like it's hard. I mean it's 0:34:12.680 --> 0:34:13.520 hard clients. 0:34:13.719 --> 0:34:15.000 Yeah, it in. 0:34:15.000 --> 0:34:15.560 A little while. 0:34:15.719 --> 0:34:19.719 It's hard. First of all, you really you have to 0:34:19.960 --> 0:34:22.800 you know, it's it's there's a lot of competition out there. 0:34:22.960 --> 0:34:25.879 You know, it's not so it's not a long time 0:34:25.920 --> 0:34:28.319 to go to school for real estate. You know, a 0:34:28.320 --> 0:34:32.239 lot of people can enter the real estate business. It's 0:34:32.320 --> 0:34:36.200 just a lot of competition out there. And every everyone 0:34:36.280 --> 0:34:39.080 knows like five people in real estate. So it's it's 0:34:39.160 --> 0:34:41.760 it's it you have to bring something to the table. 0:34:42.600 --> 0:34:45.200 You know, you have to do be yourself pretty much. 0:34:45.320 --> 0:34:51.520 Be yourself, you know, build relationships. Uh you know. And 0:34:51.600 --> 0:34:53.440 my first sale that you see on my show, this 0:34:53.680 --> 0:34:57.200 was was an amazing relationship. It started before the show, 0:34:58.360 --> 0:35:01.800 so it was authentic. Was a real relationship that happened 0:35:01.800 --> 0:35:05.080 before cameras came up and we were able to capture 0:35:05.080 --> 0:35:08.120 it on camera, but the relationship started off a camera 0:35:08.320 --> 0:35:11.239 and they were and they and the the mom, I know, 0:35:11.800 --> 0:35:14.239 she really genuinely just wanted to support me and my 0:35:14.400 --> 0:35:18.640 new business, and it was so incredible. So as as 0:35:18.719 --> 0:35:23.839 I'm moving forward and breaking down these walls and succeeding 0:35:24.480 --> 0:35:26.759 I'm going to be forming my own way as well. 0:35:26.800 --> 0:35:28.919 I'm going to be reaching my hand out to people 0:35:28.960 --> 0:35:32.400 that were in my shoes. I think it's so important, 0:35:32.560 --> 0:35:36.080 you know, we they're they're it's so important to to 0:35:36.320 --> 0:35:38.799 look at someone and be like, you know, I want 0:35:38.800 --> 0:35:40.920 to give you a chance. You know, I want to 0:35:41.000 --> 0:35:45.839 just offer you a chance because or we continue to 0:35:46.080 --> 0:35:49.280 give to one person, and you know, that's the economy. 0:35:49.560 --> 0:35:52.960 We have to support our neighbors, we have to support moms, 0:35:53.680 --> 0:35:57.160 you know, people that deserve a second chance, third chance, whatever. 0:35:58.160 --> 0:35:59.920 You know, in real estate, it's a good place to 0:36:00.080 --> 0:36:02.880 support other people. Yeah, you know, it's a good place 0:36:02.960 --> 0:36:04.640 to look at someone be like, you know what, I 0:36:04.680 --> 0:36:06.640 want to give you a chance. I want it's a 0:36:06.680 --> 0:36:08.239 good it's a good place to do that. 0:36:09.640 --> 0:36:11.279 Yeah, I agree with you on that. I mean I 0:36:11.520 --> 0:36:14.959 don't I don't know the real estate market at all. 0:36:15.120 --> 0:36:17.359 But what again, what I love is that like you're 0:36:17.400 --> 0:36:20.960 showing the different side you're not just like it's not 0:36:21.120 --> 0:36:24.279 made up and you bring you know, when we were 0:36:24.280 --> 0:36:26.600 talking in the green room, like you have anxiety, and 0:36:26.640 --> 0:36:28.959 it's like that's things that people struggle with because again, 0:36:29.040 --> 0:36:31.560 like work is hard, the pressure of life is hard 0:36:31.600 --> 0:36:34.360 in kids and being a mom, Like, how do you like, 0:36:34.400 --> 0:36:35.560 how do you balance your anxiety? 0:36:35.560 --> 0:36:35.840 What do you do? 0:36:35.880 --> 0:36:37.439 Because we talk about anxiety a lot on the show 0:36:37.440 --> 0:36:38.640 because I've struggled with it for. 0:36:38.600 --> 0:36:40.879 Years, but you get it. 0:36:40.920 --> 0:36:43.680 What is like, what's your kind of what do you 0:36:43.760 --> 0:36:45.360 do to help you walk that path? 0:36:47.440 --> 0:36:53.359 Yeah? No, I battle with you know, anxiety depression big time, 0:36:53.640 --> 0:36:57.839 big time. I am alone with two kids. I don't 0:36:57.880 --> 0:36:59.439 like to stay I'm saying, because that at all the 0:36:59.480 --> 0:37:01.799 gates so and for men to come in out. I'm 0:37:01.800 --> 0:37:02.440 not really one. 0:37:02.880 --> 0:37:07.239 You're wanting to be single or just you okay right now? 0:37:07.360 --> 0:37:10.640 Yeah, I just too Yeah, I just have too much 0:37:10.800 --> 0:37:14.520 on my plate right now to look at someone or 0:37:14.600 --> 0:37:17.000 you know whatever. But you know, I like to flirt. 0:37:17.080 --> 0:37:21.839 I still look I'm human whatever, But right now it's 0:37:21.880 --> 0:37:26.279 about right now, in my current phase, it's about myself 0:37:26.320 --> 0:37:29.160 and my kids. And you know, I did gain some 0:37:29.200 --> 0:37:32.680 weight during my birthday week this week, and I'm like happy, 0:37:32.719 --> 0:37:37.040 I feel good, I thank you, I feel good about 0:37:37.040 --> 0:37:39.960 doing that. I walked out of yoga yesterday. I'm like, 0:37:40.000 --> 0:37:41.720 you know what, this the first time in my entire life, 0:37:41.760 --> 0:37:44.399 I'm just too hot. I just want some cake, get 0:37:44.400 --> 0:37:46.719 me out of here. I walked down. I'm like, I 0:37:46.719 --> 0:37:49.480 guess this is thirty eight, like. 0:37:49.640 --> 0:37:51.840 A happy birthday. But do you feel that pressure to stay? 0:37:52.640 --> 0:37:53.080 Yeah? 0:37:53.760 --> 0:37:57.400 Yeah, there's a lot of pressure for women period, just 0:37:57.440 --> 0:37:57.920 to well. 0:37:57.960 --> 0:38:00.239 I think it's what we were used to too, right 0:38:00.360 --> 0:38:02.600 Like what like, I'm sure like you've had a body 0:38:02.640 --> 0:38:04.640 type that you have been used to, right, so, but 0:38:04.680 --> 0:38:05.560 we're gonna get older. 0:38:05.600 --> 0:38:09.480 Things change, it does, but I'm entering that phase. I'm like, uh, 0:38:09.840 --> 0:38:12.239 you know, I am alone, I have no nothing, and 0:38:12.280 --> 0:38:15.960 so like it's I have I can only spend so 0:38:16.040 --> 0:38:19.040 much time doing certain things, and I have a whole 0:38:19.080 --> 0:38:22.200 TV show, I have a whole real estate career, I 0:38:22.239 --> 0:38:26.000 have two kids. I have so much happening on my 0:38:26.040 --> 0:38:28.480 plate that the last thing I think about is like 0:38:29.360 --> 0:38:32.400 being on a workout plan right now, it's so hard 0:38:33.120 --> 0:38:33.439 I can't. 0:38:33.480 --> 0:38:35.759 I'm gonna butcher this saying. But someone's saying, there's there's 0:38:35.800 --> 0:38:40.160 four different let's just call them h wells right where 0:38:40.200 --> 0:38:45.520 it's like health, there's family, there's work, and then there's 0:38:46.440 --> 0:38:48.200 there's one other. But like if you have to pick 0:38:48.239 --> 0:38:50.520 two of them, because only two can survive at the 0:38:50.520 --> 0:38:52.480 same time, like you can not all four And I'm 0:38:52.480 --> 0:38:54.279 like someone's telling me that on set the other day, 0:38:54.280 --> 0:38:55.920 and I'm like, well, but like can't you have like 0:38:55.960 --> 0:38:57.920 the health and the relationship and the work. But it's like, 0:38:57.920 --> 0:38:59.440 if you really want to be good at something, like 0:38:59.480 --> 0:39:03.080 you gotta like the only two things you can really 0:39:03.080 --> 0:39:04.839 pick from. Like, I don't like that. 0:39:05.719 --> 0:39:09.240 I think it's true. I believe that else we're spreading 0:39:09.280 --> 0:39:11.720 ourselves way too thin and we're not really being present. 0:39:12.080 --> 0:39:16.040 We can, we're capable of doing that, and more and 0:39:16.040 --> 0:39:20.160 more than any man can. We're capable of doing that women. 0:39:20.239 --> 0:39:20.480 We are. 0:39:21.160 --> 0:39:26.759 But to remain probably mentally like you know, stable and 0:39:27.120 --> 0:39:29.959 peace and mindful, I think that we can probably only 0:39:30.520 --> 0:39:34.560 accept two of those things. We can do those things. 0:39:34.560 --> 0:39:36.560 Oh yeah, there we go. It's the four burner theory says, 0:39:36.560 --> 0:39:38.439 in order to be successful, you have to cut off 0:39:38.480 --> 0:39:40.880 one of your burners. In order to be really successful, 0:39:40.920 --> 0:39:42.800 you have to cut off too. So the first burner 0:39:42.840 --> 0:39:45.279 represents your family, the second burners your friends, the third 0:39:45.280 --> 0:39:48.239 burners your health, and the fourth burners your work. So 0:39:48.280 --> 0:39:50.080 when you look at it, you're like, well, health should 0:39:50.080 --> 0:39:53.279 be you should that should be a burner. And then 0:39:53.320 --> 0:39:55.400 it's like, but you got your family, but then you 0:39:55.440 --> 0:39:57.439 also have to work and then so that's like where 0:39:57.440 --> 0:39:57.839 it's hard. 0:39:57.920 --> 0:39:58.080 Right. 0:39:58.120 --> 0:39:59.480 Oh, health is gone. 0:40:00.200 --> 0:40:02.360 I feel that so much. I'm like, that's why I 0:40:02.360 --> 0:40:03.680 don't have time for help. 0:40:04.200 --> 0:40:06.480 Who But I feel like that's what the problem is 0:40:06.480 --> 0:40:08.880 is in today's side, because like the mental illness is 0:40:08.920 --> 0:40:12.000 on like the skyrocket. So I'm like, that is what 0:40:12.120 --> 0:40:15.479 the burner should be the biggest focus on in order 0:40:15.560 --> 0:40:17.839 to then be good for the other burners around us. 0:40:17.920 --> 0:40:21.440 Yeah, Unfortunately, like you know, we're in a probably survival 0:40:21.960 --> 0:40:23.840 survival times. 0:40:23.560 --> 0:40:26.359 And sure, I mean I get that. Like the other day, 0:40:26.360 --> 0:40:28.600 I'm set even this is a stupid example, but I'm 0:40:28.640 --> 0:40:30.800 like I was starting to feel nauseous and sick, so 0:40:30.880 --> 0:40:33.000 I'm like, oh crap, I haven't drank or eaten anything today, 0:40:33.280 --> 0:40:35.320 Like I gotta I have to like take care again. 0:40:35.440 --> 0:40:38.280 You're working, so then that burner's like burnt out, Catherine, 0:40:38.320 --> 0:40:39.399 I see you think it over there. 0:40:40.040 --> 0:40:42.799 Well, I was just I literally was thinking about, like 0:40:42.880 --> 0:40:47.200 you're really good, Jana at doing all of those, but 0:40:47.440 --> 0:40:50.640 you're right, when you're working, you'll just work through and 0:40:50.680 --> 0:40:53.400 not eat right, and that's not healthy either, you know, 0:40:53.400 --> 0:40:55.160 because it's like, let's just work through like we got 0:40:55.200 --> 0:40:56.839 work to do. We got so I think it is 0:40:56.920 --> 0:41:00.680 it's really hard to do them all extremely successfully. 0:41:01.120 --> 0:41:02.120 So I think it makes sense. 0:41:02.560 --> 0:41:04.680 Yeah. I mean, look, if you can if you can think, 0:41:04.880 --> 0:41:07.200 in my opinion, if you can think about eating one 0:41:07.239 --> 0:41:10.120 thing healthy a day, in my opinion right now, in 0:41:10.160 --> 0:41:12.959 my phase, that's good enough. So if I can get 0:41:13.000 --> 0:41:15.960 like a like right for instance, yesterday out I had 0:41:15.960 --> 0:41:19.319 the busiest day and I had some celery and I 0:41:19.360 --> 0:41:23.680 had some garlic whip from uh Whole Foods. And that's 0:41:23.800 --> 0:41:27.040 literally win it was. And honestly I just shoved in 0:41:27.080 --> 0:41:31.160 my mouth real quick and that was health, you know. 0:41:31.360 --> 0:41:35.200 And so some green juice if you can every now 0:41:35.280 --> 0:41:40.680 and then, and and if I could just walk, yeah. 0:41:40.000 --> 0:41:42.640 They say, Max, God, I'm gonna do this again East 0:41:42.680 --> 0:41:44.000 and you're gonna be googling this for me. 0:41:44.440 --> 0:41:44.760 Max. 0:41:45.000 --> 0:41:47.920 I can never pronounce his last name, leg Lagarve, Lagarve. 0:41:48.400 --> 0:41:51.400 He said, if you walk, I'm gonna again and butcher it. 0:41:51.760 --> 0:41:53.480 But he just posted about it in his Instagram, like 0:41:53.520 --> 0:41:55.600 if you walk thirty minutes four times a day, like 0:41:55.800 --> 0:41:58.000 what that does for not only like just your overall 0:41:58.040 --> 0:42:01.400 health and your mental like it's everything just thirty minutes. 0:42:01.480 --> 0:42:03.279 Well, i'll tell you. I'll tell you, Like you know, 0:42:03.320 --> 0:42:04.839 I didn't really I don't really open up a lot, 0:42:04.880 --> 0:42:08.160 but I will with you right now. I mean, I 0:42:08.200 --> 0:42:10.800 do open up. The whole show is about me being 0:42:11.120 --> 0:42:15.920 vomited open. I was really struggling for a long time 0:42:16.320 --> 0:42:19.240 after my divorce, Like and you know, we're great co parents, 0:42:19.239 --> 0:42:23.200 everything's really good. But I hit a huge depression. I 0:42:23.200 --> 0:42:25.439 couldn't even get out of bed. It was like four 0:42:25.520 --> 0:42:28.120 years of like do I have to wake up? What's 0:42:28.360 --> 0:42:30.479 what's today? I didn't have any work, I had nothing 0:42:30.520 --> 0:42:34.400 going on, so I'm like, okay, what can I do today? 0:42:35.000 --> 0:42:38.000 And I literally just started like I just need to 0:42:38.040 --> 0:42:42.080 just walk out that door right now, So like, come on, 0:42:42.320 --> 0:42:44.560 come on. It was so hard to even walk out 0:42:44.640 --> 0:42:48.160 my front door. That's how depressed I was. So I said, okay, 0:42:48.440 --> 0:42:51.160 come on, you can do this. Start walking. Okay, what's 0:42:51.160 --> 0:42:53.840 in the sky. Is there a bird? Yeah, there's a bird. Okay, 0:42:54.200 --> 0:42:56.440 come on, you can keep walking, keep walking. I was 0:42:56.560 --> 0:43:01.839 that depressed, that bad, and I finally start walking. Then 0:43:01.880 --> 0:43:04.439 I start walking up a hill. I'm like, oh my god, 0:43:04.520 --> 0:43:08.080 this feels so good. Start walking, climbing up the sill. 0:43:08.080 --> 0:43:11.080 I started kept going, kept going, kept going. Then I 0:43:11.200 --> 0:43:13.759 entered the top of the mountain and I took a 0:43:13.760 --> 0:43:19.719 look out and I'm like, oh my god, Okay, this 0:43:19.800 --> 0:43:23.279 is an accomplishment. That's all I had at that time, 0:43:23.320 --> 0:43:28.080 besides my two kids. That's how weak I was. And 0:43:28.200 --> 0:43:31.440 that day led to another walk. That day led me 0:43:31.480 --> 0:43:33.040 to walk into a real estate office. 0:43:33.480 --> 0:43:37.759 Hell yeah, so what I mean? You just had to 0:43:37.920 --> 0:43:40.560 You had to get up, you know. And when you're 0:43:41.360 --> 0:43:44.680 in that divorced you know, it feels like your whole world. 0:43:44.680 --> 0:43:47.200 I means, there's like a death. It's just it's just 0:43:47.680 --> 0:43:51.920 everything that you thought you knew and you know, I 0:43:51.960 --> 0:43:54.040 don't know. I'm so glad to hear that you guys 0:43:54.080 --> 0:43:55.520 are on their side. I feel like I'm the same 0:43:55.520 --> 0:43:59.359 with my ex. But having that like that trauma of 0:43:59.400 --> 0:44:02.680 like the fairs, it's like it's really hard and trust 0:44:02.800 --> 0:44:03.960 is like, that's a that's. 0:44:03.840 --> 0:44:06.680 A well it was. I was so mad at myself 0:44:06.719 --> 0:44:08.359 for a long time. At the end of the day, 0:44:08.400 --> 0:44:10.799 it wasn't even him. I was like, why what did 0:44:10.840 --> 0:44:12.600 I do wrong? What did I do what? And I 0:44:12.640 --> 0:44:15.799 had to open up my whole life and existence. And 0:44:15.880 --> 0:44:18.840 I had to go really get into healing myself. 0:44:18.440 --> 0:44:20.120 Because it has nothing to do with you at the 0:44:20.160 --> 0:44:21.400 end of because I did the same thing. I was like, 0:44:21.600 --> 0:44:23.279 was I not pretty enough? Did I not do this? 0:44:23.719 --> 0:44:26.200 Or do you know why? Why? But it's like it's 0:44:26.280 --> 0:44:27.360 not about us. 0:44:27.960 --> 0:44:31.120 Yeah, I just you know, I know that, but I 0:44:31.160 --> 0:44:32.919 had to. It really had me open. 0:44:33.040 --> 0:44:33.239 Yeah. 0:44:33.520 --> 0:44:36.319 I spent years just in darkness because I was just 0:44:36.320 --> 0:44:39.359 what did I do? What happened? What what every day 0:44:39.520 --> 0:44:44.440 was like? I went back to re opening everything and 0:44:44.440 --> 0:44:48.120 and so you know, I just don't want to have 0:44:48.160 --> 0:44:53.000 to go through another phase like that. So I prevent 0:44:53.080 --> 0:44:56.960 myself from opening up to love again. 0:44:57.400 --> 0:44:57.520 No. 0:44:57.680 --> 0:44:59.960 See that's the piece where I'm like, but I can't. 0:45:00.960 --> 0:45:02.799 I'm happy for you, no, but I. 0:45:03.360 --> 0:45:05.440 Just like, you know, when you feel like you're on 0:45:05.480 --> 0:45:07.319 the other side of that, the healing and the you know, 0:45:07.360 --> 0:45:09.560 I know you said you do therapy and so but 0:45:09.680 --> 0:45:12.080 I still like, I would hate for you not to 0:45:12.280 --> 0:45:15.479 feel love again because I feel like everybody deserves love. 0:45:16.560 --> 0:45:19.840 I agree, I agree. I just I think that like 0:45:21.280 --> 0:45:26.279 I'm finding other things that i'm I'm interested in, and 0:45:26.360 --> 0:45:28.840 I think i'm you know, I don't think I'm ready to, 0:45:29.200 --> 0:45:32.880 you know, because I want to ask you. Here's a 0:45:32.960 --> 0:45:35.560 question for you. Go girl, now that you're in love again, 0:45:37.640 --> 0:45:40.759 do you feel like when you do you feel like 0:45:40.800 --> 0:45:44.600 you have to you're entering this, this, this love and 0:45:44.680 --> 0:45:47.319 this relationship. Do you always have do you have to 0:45:47.360 --> 0:45:51.040 have that part of your brain saying this this? What 0:45:51.120 --> 0:45:52.040 if this doesn't work? 0:45:52.680 --> 0:45:53.719 I think that change. 0:45:53.800 --> 0:45:56.279 So it's interestingly and Kat and KB know this, but 0:45:56.320 --> 0:45:57.799 like in the beginning, I'm like, well, but if it 0:45:57.800 --> 0:45:59.920 doesn't work, because it's that's a defense for me to 0:46:00.120 --> 0:46:04.480 go okay. My track record the men that I've dated, 0:46:04.680 --> 0:46:06.799 they mostly you know, the X, Y and Z, and 0:46:06.840 --> 0:46:10.279 so my defense was always right, Catherine, I'd be like, well, 0:46:10.320 --> 0:46:12.200 but if it doesn't work, like I'll be okay or 0:46:13.280 --> 0:46:17.080 or But now it's just like, I don't let that 0:46:17.120 --> 0:46:20.080 even come in. And I'm just like, I pray it 0:46:20.160 --> 0:46:22.640 works and I'm not gonna I'm not gonna bring in 0:46:22.680 --> 0:46:25.680 the like what ifs, because right now I'm just living 0:46:25.719 --> 0:46:29.759 in today and today I know he's loving, respectful man 0:46:29.800 --> 0:46:30.440 I've ever been with. 0:46:30.560 --> 0:46:32.440 That's amazing. I'm so happy for you. 0:46:32.920 --> 0:46:35.680 Anything else, I'm like, that's I don't even want to 0:46:35.719 --> 0:46:38.520 attract that, and it's like, yeah, it comes. I'll know 0:46:38.520 --> 0:46:41.080 what to do this time, and I'm healthier. It's not 0:46:41.120 --> 0:46:44.000 going to kill me like my divorce was trying to. 0:46:44.200 --> 0:46:47.480 Yeah. Oh well, I'm happy that you that you feel 0:46:47.760 --> 0:46:49.880 that good. It's really amazing. 0:46:50.200 --> 0:46:52.400 I just would never want to like turn off and 0:46:52.440 --> 0:46:55.360 be like just because my ex and all the stuff 0:46:55.400 --> 0:46:58.840 we went through. I I want to believe in the 0:46:58.840 --> 0:47:02.120 goodness yea, and the beauty and. 0:47:02.120 --> 0:47:04.520 Well you and you yourself is you are love. 0:47:05.600 --> 0:47:07.839 Yeah, and my kids are love and your kids are love. 0:47:07.920 --> 0:47:08.120 Yeah. 0:47:08.120 --> 0:47:10.839 And so it's so the get you know, and it's 0:47:10.880 --> 0:47:12.799 just a bonus that you have a person in your 0:47:13.200 --> 0:47:16.160 life that probably loves you and accepts you for you. 0:47:16.440 --> 0:47:16.760 Yeah. 0:47:16.800 --> 0:47:18.839 And you know I have friends like that. 0:47:19.840 --> 0:47:20.080 You know. 0:47:20.239 --> 0:47:22.399 You find it in different seasons and different Yeah, because 0:47:22.440 --> 0:47:24.200 I found it in my tribe girls over there. 0:47:24.360 --> 0:47:30.640 I just I'm just one. I'm so stubborn, and I 0:47:30.719 --> 0:47:33.600 just I'm not in the place to really compromise. So 0:47:33.760 --> 0:47:35.960 like all these opportunities that I have right. 0:47:35.800 --> 0:47:37.960 Now, all the burners, I got it. You got your 0:47:38.680 --> 0:47:40.520 kinder sells Hollywood, and you got your kids. 0:47:40.560 --> 0:47:43.239 Can you imagine like if I dated someone they're like, oh, 0:47:43.480 --> 0:47:46.560 can we go to go on a date night. I'm like, dude, 0:47:47.000 --> 0:47:50.000 I'm closing in a house right now, Like, you know, 0:47:50.360 --> 0:47:53.359 I don't have time to compromise on some dude right now. 0:47:53.400 --> 0:47:56.680 But we're gonna find you a businessman. Girl that doesn't, 0:47:56.719 --> 0:47:59.920 they'll bring the date night to you. Don't you snip 0:48:00.040 --> 0:48:01.680 your nose up at me with the businessman. 0:48:02.280 --> 0:48:06.399 We need to find you a brokeer sis. 0:48:08.239 --> 0:48:10.759 We have to be careful because you know, Oh, I 0:48:10.880 --> 0:48:15.719 on the season of the show Kendrisell's Hollywood, there's a 0:48:15.760 --> 0:48:19.080 scene where I was on the spot. There was a 0:48:19.120 --> 0:48:21.920 guy on the show this season, and it was really 0:48:22.640 --> 0:48:26.319 and it was really awkward because I really had to 0:48:26.360 --> 0:48:27.960 make a decision if I would go on a date 0:48:28.000 --> 0:48:32.719 with him or not. I'm like, so I agreed only 0:48:32.719 --> 0:48:35.279 for show purposes. I'm like, I agreed to go on 0:48:35.320 --> 0:48:38.200 a date with him for show, but then but then 0:48:38.840 --> 0:48:39.920 I never ended up going. 0:48:41.200 --> 0:48:44.520 It's okay, that's okay, your gut. 0:48:44.640 --> 0:48:47.600 You know, I know I've got babies anymore, you can 0:48:48.080 --> 0:48:49.960 you just you know when you know, and you know 0:48:50.000 --> 0:48:50.319 when you. 0:48:50.280 --> 0:48:52.160 Don't exactly, and we don't have time to go on 0:48:52.200 --> 0:48:54.240 bad dates. I remember when I was doing the Howkral 0:48:54.239 --> 0:48:56.400 Summer or whatever, I was just like I'd rather just 0:48:56.440 --> 0:48:58.840 be on the couch or hang with my the queendom, 0:48:59.000 --> 0:49:01.200 like then go on the date that I know it's 0:49:01.239 --> 0:49:05.960 not going to be anything. Well, Kendra, thank you so 0:49:06.040 --> 0:49:08.799 much for coming on. Everyone watch Kendra Sells Hollywood. Season 0:49:08.840 --> 0:49:10.520 two is out now on Max. 0:49:11.280 --> 0:49:14.279 Thank you, thank you so much.