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Speaker 1: Hi.

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Speaker 2: I am Kate Hudson and my name is Oliver Hudson.

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Speaker 1: We wanted to do something that highlighted our relationship.

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Speaker 2: And what it's like to be siblings. We are a sibling.

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Speaker 1: Railvalry, No, no, sibling, don't do that with your mouth, revelry.

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Speaker 2: That's good. Oliver relis Hudson here reporting live from my

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Speaker 2: own mind. I'm on a solo mission. It's just me.

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Speaker 2: You're only going to be hearing my voice for as

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Speaker 2: long as I choose to stay on this podcast episode.

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Speaker 2: I'm sitting my room. I'm looking at my chandelier, which

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Speaker 2: is not in line with the table underneath, and it

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Speaker 2: hasn't been for ten years yet I refuse to move.

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Speaker 2: The table outside my window is the inside of the

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Speaker 2: fence that when the kids were into graffitiing and doing pieces,

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Speaker 2: as they call them, they used the back of this

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Speaker 2: fence to create their artwork. And I like it. And

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Speaker 2: that's where I am right now. I'm alone in my house.

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Speaker 2: My family is in Colorado. I just finished a job.

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Speaker 2: I can't say what it is. Well, it's not like

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Speaker 2: that big of a deal, but I'm hosting a baking competition.

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Speaker 2: I'll just say that first time being a host of something.

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Speaker 2: I really like it. I think it suits me because

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Speaker 2: I get to talk like I am right now and

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Speaker 2: dive into people's lives and make attempts at being funny,

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Speaker 2: hamming it up for the camera, just being authentically Oliver

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Speaker 2: Rutledge Hudson. So it was fun. Though, it was very,

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Speaker 2: very fun. I had a great time, and then, of

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Speaker 2: course I wasn't happy Gilmore too. I guess this is

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Speaker 2: just a podcast of me just ripping off my credits

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Speaker 2: and what I've been up too lately. But no, I

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Speaker 2: was in Gilmore too, and it was so much fun.

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Speaker 2: I spent a month there. I haven't talked about it yet,

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Speaker 2: just because I haven't. I got to work with Scotti,

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Speaker 2: Shuffler and Rory McElroy and Brooks Kepka and Bryson de Shambeau.

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Speaker 2: You know, it's the top golfers in the world, and

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Speaker 2: I'm a golfer myself, so it was just a treat.

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Speaker 2: I was there for a month. It was so much fun.

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Speaker 2: You know, Sandler's one of the greats. I've known him

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Speaker 2: for a long time. Drop name drop, you know, relationship drop.

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Speaker 2: And I got to play a character that well not

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Speaker 2: even a character. I got to do something as an

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Speaker 2: actor that I've never gotten to do before, which is

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Speaker 2: play a weird ass character. His name is Harley if

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Speaker 2: you haven't seen the movie, and he's a golfer that

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Speaker 2: is basically genetically modified and could hit the ball a

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Speaker 2: thousand yards. I had no idea what I was getting into.

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Speaker 2: When Sandler says, you know, I want you to be

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Speaker 2: in a movie, you just say, yeah, you know, do

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Speaker 2: you want to read the script? Whatever? Sure I can,

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Speaker 2: but I don't care if you say that you want

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Speaker 2: me to be in something, I'm in. And I got

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Speaker 2: lucky enough that it was Happy Gilmore too, which of

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Speaker 2: course is an iconic you know, the first one is

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Speaker 2: iconic so much of my childhood and lines from that movie,

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Speaker 2: you know, and uh so yeah it was. I didn't

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Speaker 2: know what the hell I was doing. I get I

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Speaker 2: get to work the first day, and you know, looking

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Speaker 2: through costumes, I'm like, holy shit, Okay, this is real

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Speaker 2: leather skull cap with like a cutoff biker vest and

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Speaker 2: like chains and leather pants. And then I shaved a goatee.

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Speaker 2: And then they when I got into the makeup chair,

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Speaker 2: It's like a tan to make you tan, but it's

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Speaker 2: and darker until I started to turn orange and I'm like,

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Speaker 2: then I turned I turned into like an orange bite

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Speaker 2: Harley my name was Harley in the show An Orange Biker,

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Speaker 2: which turned out to be perfect for it because it

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Speaker 2: was just so over the top and so crazy. But

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Speaker 2: it made such a splash that movie. It's just so crazy.

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Speaker 2: It's unbelievable the amount of people that streamed it and

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Speaker 2: I'm a lucky man to have been in that piece

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Speaker 2: of history. I say, that's what I say. Who needs Scorsese,

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Speaker 2: Who needs David Fincher, Who needs Spielberg? Come on, you

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Speaker 2: know what I mean? Like, who needs awards? Who needs

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Speaker 2: Emmy's Academy Awards, Golden Globes? I have Happy Gilmore too.

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Speaker 2: You know that's worth all that's worth, all of it.

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Speaker 2: Wouldn't trade it, would not trade it. So that was nice.

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Speaker 2: And then the other thing is Summer's just coming to

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Speaker 2: Even though we're no longer in school. I always treat

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Speaker 2: so what, I'm almost fifty years old, I'm forty eight,

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Speaker 2: Like it's summer, We're not supposed to be working. I'm

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Speaker 2: now it's coming to an end, it all starts up again.

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Speaker 2: It all starts up again. And then Wilder, my oldest,

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Speaker 2: he's gonna be a senior, and so we're in the

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Speaker 2: whole college mode. And that's hell for me because I

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Speaker 2: feel like now I'm going back and doing the applications again.

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Speaker 2: You know, I'm like, oh, fuck, man, like what this

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Speaker 2: on it. You know, before you do your applications, remember

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Speaker 2: being helped for my parents or anyone I maybe they did,

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Speaker 2: you know, but it was all write in. Of course,

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Speaker 2: was nineteen ninety four. So I feel like I just

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Speaker 2: I sent them in and it was very simple. You know. Now,

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Speaker 2: I guess it's so competitive, but these you know, it's like, oh,

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Speaker 2: you need you need someone to you know, you need

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Speaker 2: a counselor oh cool, no, this school has one. No, no, no,

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Speaker 2: you need an outside counselor you know that that really

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Speaker 2: knows the ropes and it's going to do this and

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Speaker 2: it and this this and that, and I'm like, damn,

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Speaker 2: really can't we just can't you just write the essay.

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Speaker 2: But I will say that it does take some pressure off.

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Speaker 2: But the real issue is is, honestly the expense of

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Speaker 2: some of this, Like, no way, it's not happening. Sorry,

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Speaker 2: you know, I did it this way. You can do

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Speaker 2: it this way too, you know what I mean, Like

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Speaker 2: you can write your own essay. I'll help you. Oliver

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Speaker 2: Hudson is one of the great American novelists. In case

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Speaker 2: you listening to this podcast didn't know that I am.

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Speaker 2: I have not written a book yet. But if I

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Speaker 2: might come later in my life. But anyway, that whole

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Speaker 2: college experience, we'll get through it. It'll be great. You know.

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Speaker 2: The kid is deciding onto the whether he wants a

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Speaker 2: But aside from all that, here's the sad part. One,

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Speaker 2: well not one. My firstborn is not going to be

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Speaker 2: in this house anymore. And that's crazy to me. I'm

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Speaker 2: very family connected. It is my number one priority in

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Speaker 2: my life. I have molded my entire life and career

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Speaker 2: around my family. Yes, you have to make sacrifices, as

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Speaker 2: we all do in our work, you know. And I'm

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Speaker 2: lucky because I get to be home for extended periods

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Speaker 2: for extended periods of time. So there are certain jobs

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Speaker 2: and now this boy is not going to be here

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Speaker 2: in a year, and that is crazy. Just the idea

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Speaker 2: the nostalgia that has been built up for seventeen eighteen years.

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Speaker 2: And when they leave, and some of you listening, I'm

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Speaker 2: sure I have already experienced this. That's heart wrenching. It's gonna

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Speaker 2: definitely gonna be shedding a thousand tiers. I'm an emotional person,

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Speaker 2: FaceTime him. He's right there. Everything's gonna be okay. But

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Speaker 2: You're like, holy shit, this guy was a little butterball

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Speaker 2: so that's what we're preparing for this year, counting the days.

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Speaker 2: They'll be here to console me and take care of me.

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Speaker 2: So another thing that I wanted to talk about, and

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Speaker 2: and it was with this guy, his name is doctor

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Speaker 2: It can detect add or ADHD, whatever you want to say.

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Speaker 2: Very well. Anyway, it turns out like I have it.

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Speaker 2: I mean I kind of suspected that I did, you

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Speaker 2: that there were certain things holding me back. So talking

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Speaker 2: that patch. Let's see if it changes anything. I'm sure

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Speaker 2: a lot of these listeners that I'm talking to have

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Speaker 2: Let me know if you like this shit, because if

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Speaker 2: we'd like if you if we like it, I can

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