WEBVTT - “I NEGLECTED MY LIFE FOR MY MUSICAL” 0:00:00.080 --> 0:00:01.400 All from Connor? 0:00:02.080 --> 0:00:02.520 Hello? 0:00:02.920 --> 0:00:03.239 Hello? 0:00:04.040 --> 0:00:05.320 Is this what I say is echo? 0:00:05.360 --> 0:00:05.520 Guy? 0:00:05.600 --> 0:00:05.800 Yes? 0:00:05.840 --> 0:00:07.200 This is who you think it is. It's the guy 0:00:07.800 --> 0:00:09.360 you're doing buddy? How you doing? 0:00:09.400 --> 0:00:11.280 Man? I'm doing all right. How are you? 0:00:12.600 --> 0:00:21.200 I'm okay, I'm I am. You know, I don't know 0:00:21.239 --> 0:00:23.520 man A lot. So life is a series of uh 0:00:24.400 --> 0:00:27.120 you you you keep going to you wake up and 0:00:27.160 --> 0:00:28.880 you do things and then you go to bed. 0:00:30.160 --> 0:00:32.360 Right, I hear that. 0:00:33.360 --> 0:00:38.760 You hear that, but I know you know enough waxing whatever? 0:00:39.800 --> 0:00:41.960 What's up with you? Man? What's going on? What's your name? 0:00:42.040 --> 0:00:44.640 First of all, my name is Connor. 0:00:45.280 --> 0:00:48.040 I'm I'm just sitting here in the BUCkies parking lot. 0:00:48.040 --> 0:00:50.760 I pulled over because you called and I recognize the 0:00:51.080 --> 0:00:51.760 area code. 0:00:52.200 --> 0:00:53.840 Oh fuck? What did you get at BUCkies? 0:00:55.720 --> 0:01:00.400 I was gonna get gas, but then I saw you collin, 0:01:00.520 --> 0:01:02.320 So I've postponed that for a minute. 0:01:02.360 --> 0:01:04.399 Hopefully my car doesn't run out. I've been sitting here. 0:01:05.120 --> 0:01:05.920 What is the car on? 0:01:07.800 --> 0:01:08.119 Yes? 0:01:09.400 --> 0:01:12.319 Well, well, well, how bunch gas is left in it? 0:01:12.440 --> 0:01:12.839 Right now? 0:01:14.000 --> 0:01:17.320 I have forty nine miles, so we've got a time 0:01:17.360 --> 0:01:19.200 frame here. I'm not turning my air conditioning on. 0:01:20.200 --> 0:01:21.800 Wait are you driving right now? 0:01:22.680 --> 0:01:24.480 No? No, no, no, no, I'm sitting there. I'm sitting 0:01:24.480 --> 0:01:25.000 in BUCkies. 0:01:25.520 --> 0:01:27.280 Oh okay, So why would the car why would it 0:01:27.360 --> 0:01:30.200 run out of Why would either you or the BUCkies 0:01:30.280 --> 0:01:31.119 run out of gas? 0:01:34.760 --> 0:01:37.320 I don't know. I'm real scattered right right now, I'll 0:01:37.360 --> 0:01:37.760 be honest. 0:01:38.160 --> 0:01:40.440 That's all right, man, did you get any beaver nuggets? 0:01:40.520 --> 0:01:42.600 Do you know what a beaver nugget is? The beaver nuggets? 0:01:42.760 --> 0:01:45.440 I do know what a beaver nugget is. I'm uh, 0:01:46.720 --> 0:01:48.800 the food is tempting because I'm really hungry, but I'm 0:01:48.840 --> 0:01:50.600 sitting here with my buddy. We're going to get dinner 0:01:50.600 --> 0:01:54.760 after this. Oh I'm going to try and keep myne 0:01:55.960 --> 0:01:57.680 I've postponed the dinner to talk to you. 0:01:58.680 --> 0:02:01.640 If your friend is in the car with you, he is. 0:02:01.680 --> 0:02:03.840 He just took a picture of me talking to you 0:02:03.840 --> 0:02:04.720 because he knows you too. 0:02:05.560 --> 0:02:06.920 Oh okay. I was going to ask if it was 0:02:07.000 --> 0:02:10.160 kind of pissed off that you just like you were like, Hey, 0:02:10.200 --> 0:02:13.800 I gotta talk to this gecko guy from the internet. 0:02:13.880 --> 0:02:16.239 Let me just ruin our lie, let me just postpone 0:02:16.320 --> 0:02:17.519 our life real quick. 0:02:18.919 --> 0:02:21.840 Yeah. No, he's he's as excited as I am. 0:02:22.560 --> 0:02:26.560 Okay, that's good. All right. This is good because I 0:02:26.600 --> 0:02:28.240 want to talk to both of you. I don't want 0:02:28.240 --> 0:02:29.760 to talk to both of you at once. I want 0:02:29.760 --> 0:02:32.519 to actually, I want to experiment with something. I want 0:02:32.520 --> 0:02:38.079 to have a full, complete conversation with you and then 0:02:38.280 --> 0:02:40.919 talk to your friend. Is that okay? Is that cool? 0:02:41.160 --> 0:02:45.240 Or is that okay? All? 0:02:46.720 --> 0:02:49.240 I heard Sean go oh yeah in the distance, and 0:02:49.280 --> 0:02:51.079 so it sounds like Sean's game. So I don't. I 0:02:51.120 --> 0:02:57.280 don't feel bad anymore than I'm ruining day. Okay, Well, Connor, 0:02:58.320 --> 0:03:02.359 you texted me and you said I just finished directing 0:03:02.400 --> 0:03:05.440 a musical that I had been planning for a year 0:03:05.480 --> 0:03:08.640 and a half and I don't think I'm ready to 0:03:08.880 --> 0:03:11.840 let go. Is that is that accurate? 0:03:11.960 --> 0:03:13.240 Yeah? 0:03:13.520 --> 0:03:18.800 Pretty accurate. We we had our final show yesterday. It 0:03:18.960 --> 0:03:24.280 was Little Shop of Horrors, and uh, I don't know, 0:03:24.360 --> 0:03:27.720 man Like, I feel like I don't know what to 0:03:28.240 --> 0:03:30.000 what to do with myself at this point. 0:03:30.040 --> 0:03:30.640 I've been. 0:03:32.080 --> 0:03:34.200 You know, some of my best friends in my life 0:03:34.200 --> 0:03:38.360 that I have right now, I met after finding out 0:03:38.360 --> 0:03:39.920 that I was going to direct this show. So it 0:03:39.920 --> 0:03:45.360 feels like the whole lifetime has passed and I've gone through. 0:03:46.680 --> 0:03:48.320 I feel like I'm just trauma dumping right now. But 0:03:48.360 --> 0:03:53.600 I guess that's kind of what the show's for. I've 0:03:53.640 --> 0:03:59.240 gone through all kinds of crazy, not crazy things, because 0:03:59.240 --> 0:04:02.400 the stuff that everyone goes through, but like I've dealt 0:04:02.400 --> 0:04:05.280 with some hard stuff in the time of me planning 0:04:05.320 --> 0:04:09.560 this show. The now, and this show like for the 0:04:09.720 --> 0:04:11.920 entire thing was always the light of the tunnel, Like 0:04:11.960 --> 0:04:14.120 I've still got little shop. I've still got little shop, 0:04:15.160 --> 0:04:20.039 and now that's done, and like I don't know, like 0:04:20.160 --> 0:04:23.240 I experienced the whole ego death in the middle of 0:04:23.320 --> 0:04:27.760 preparing for this show. Yeah, And I mean it's just 0:04:27.839 --> 0:04:29.919 gonna be a weird. 0:04:29.720 --> 0:04:32.279 Shift suddenly having time because. 0:04:34.000 --> 0:04:37.560 I work right next to the theater that I've been 0:04:37.600 --> 0:04:39.560 directing at, so I don't. 0:04:39.360 --> 0:04:39.920 Really have. 0:04:41.320 --> 0:04:44.600 A good excuse for the thirty minute drive home between 0:04:44.960 --> 0:04:46.640 work and the rehearsals. 0:04:47.120 --> 0:04:51.400 So for like two or three months now. 0:04:51.279 --> 0:04:56.280 As we've been actually rehearsing for the show, I've been 0:04:56.279 --> 0:05:01.440 away from the house for pretty much seventeen hours a day, 0:05:02.880 --> 0:05:07.120 just you know, working and then working on this passion project. 0:05:08.160 --> 0:05:12.400 And I don't know, I'm excited. 0:05:12.360 --> 0:05:14.440 To be able to focus on the other aspects of 0:05:14.480 --> 0:05:14.800 my life. 0:05:14.880 --> 0:05:20.640 There's definitely stuff that's fallen by the wayside in the 0:05:20.720 --> 0:05:21.880 mania of directing. 0:05:22.839 --> 0:05:29.320 But yeah, I just I'm kind of waiting for the 0:05:29.360 --> 0:05:31.680 post show depression to hit me. You know. 0:05:35.600 --> 0:05:39.360 Interesting, it sounds like it already has a little bit. 0:05:40.880 --> 0:05:42.640 Oh, it hit me hard last night. 0:05:42.720 --> 0:05:47.479 We went to a little kind of like bar and 0:05:47.560 --> 0:05:51.839 grill place afterwards, and I like, the guy that played 0:05:52.120 --> 0:05:55.279 the main character is like one of my best friends 0:05:55.279 --> 0:05:57.800 in the world, and I like, I sobbed into his 0:05:57.880 --> 0:06:05.159 shoulder for like ten minutes. But yeah, I. 0:06:08.000 --> 0:06:13.080 Don't know if I really need advice or anything. 0:06:13.160 --> 0:06:16.720 I kind of do kind of No, no, no, I don't. 0:06:17.520 --> 0:06:20.880 I don't take that at all. I know what you mean. 0:06:21.320 --> 0:06:23.200 I mean, if you've been out of your house for 0:06:23.240 --> 0:06:28.119 seventeen hours working on the same thing for a year, 0:06:29.160 --> 0:06:31.880 then once it's gone, yeah totally, you're gonna be like, 0:06:31.920 --> 0:06:34.440 what the fuck? I mean? That's happened to me a 0:06:34.560 --> 0:06:41.600 bunch of times. It's a weird and really, I think 0:06:41.800 --> 0:06:45.200 examining that is what makes me feel so fucking like 0:06:45.279 --> 0:06:51.080 existential and crazy is that there is no like the 0:06:51.160 --> 0:06:57.560 perpetual motion of life has driven me crazy a little bit, 0:06:57.880 --> 0:07:00.320 you know what I mean. And then you you kind 0:07:00.320 --> 0:07:03.720 of take yourself out of that perpetual motion and take 0:07:03.760 --> 0:07:06.040 yourself out of your own thoughts by being busy all 0:07:06.080 --> 0:07:07.599 the time. Because you're in the flow state, you're not 0:07:07.600 --> 0:07:13.280 thinking about fucking anything else. But you know, a little 0:07:13.280 --> 0:07:16.640 shop of horrors for a year and a half, and 0:07:16.720 --> 0:07:19.760 so now you have time to think. What have you 0:07:19.840 --> 0:07:23.560 been thinking about now that you've had time to think? 0:07:24.880 --> 0:07:31.520 Mainly work? I mean, my job is kind of kind 0:07:31.520 --> 0:07:35.640 of fucking me right now. So now that I've not 0:07:35.800 --> 0:07:40.040 had to be thinking about coordinating with twenty people on 0:07:40.480 --> 0:07:50.960 making some big, playing pretend project, I've been really irritable 0:07:51.000 --> 0:07:51.440 with work. 0:07:52.920 --> 0:07:54.160 How has work been fucking you? 0:07:56.000 --> 0:08:01.440 Well, pretty much. I was actually just my buddy Sean 0:08:01.440 --> 0:08:10.720 about this. I'm a construction worker and I install shelves, 0:08:10.960 --> 0:08:15.440 bathroom accessories and doorknobs and new construction. And the way 0:08:15.440 --> 0:08:17.720 that I'm typically paid is I'll have a base pay 0:08:17.800 --> 0:08:21.440 for the week, but everything I install has a dollar 0:08:21.480 --> 0:08:24.560 amount of sign to it. So if I pass the 0:08:24.600 --> 0:08:27.280 base pay and that total amount that I've installed, I 0:08:27.280 --> 0:08:31.480 get paid that instead. I've come to find out recently 0:08:32.440 --> 0:08:37.760 that Shun's chucklin' right now because he can see how 0:08:37.840 --> 0:08:42.640 irritated I'm getting. But I've come to find out that 0:08:42.760 --> 0:08:48.960 if I take off a single day of work, I 0:08:49.040 --> 0:08:52.840 forfeit my base pay for the week. So rather than 0:08:52.880 --> 0:08:55.880 getting paid like the full base pay for every day, 0:08:56.520 --> 0:08:58.199 I'm only paid what I install. 0:08:58.880 --> 0:09:01.880 And business is very slow right now. 0:09:02.240 --> 0:09:09.280 So this amounted to me making two hundred and seventy 0:09:09.320 --> 0:09:10.760 two bucks. 0:09:10.200 --> 0:09:14.839 For four nine hour days of a physical labor job 0:09:14.920 --> 0:09:18.880 last week because I took off a single day of work. 0:09:19.480 --> 0:09:23.280 Really like like just contractually, you got fucked. 0:09:24.320 --> 0:09:27.959 I got contractually thought, Yeah, that's insane, man. 0:09:28.920 --> 0:09:29.160 Yeah. 0:09:29.200 --> 0:09:31.880 And I had no idea that that that that was 0:09:31.920 --> 0:09:37.480 how taking off a day would affect me until now. 0:09:37.480 --> 0:09:39.680 And I've been working at this company for almost a year. 0:09:44.760 --> 0:09:49.280 You're a You're an interesting combination. I would not expect 0:09:49.440 --> 0:09:55.319 construction worker slash theater director. That's an that's an interesting combination. 0:09:56.559 --> 0:10:01.480 I've been doing theater stuff for a lot longer, and 0:10:01.600 --> 0:10:06.760 my my mo for finding a job was always like, 0:10:06.840 --> 0:10:09.400 if it's something that leaves me room in the evenings 0:10:09.400 --> 0:10:11.640 for theater, that's what I want to do. All I 0:10:11.679 --> 0:10:13.880 need to do is show up and make money, leave 0:10:14.000 --> 0:10:17.200 and then have my evening to do the stuff that 0:10:17.240 --> 0:10:21.199 I give a shit about but and that this job 0:10:21.320 --> 0:10:25.800 was that for a while, but now I'm getting in 0:10:25.880 --> 0:10:29.840 tractionally fucked, as you put it. 0:10:29.920 --> 0:10:31.439 So I'm pretty frustrated. 0:10:35.679 --> 0:10:41.680 So like, where are you directing these like musicals at? Like, 0:10:41.720 --> 0:10:43.920 are you you're not in college still, are you? Are you? 0:10:44.040 --> 0:10:45.400 Is it like a community theater thing? 0:10:45.520 --> 0:10:45.679 No? 0:10:45.679 --> 0:10:49.560 No, No, it's it's a local community theater thing. 0:10:49.679 --> 0:10:53.200 Yeah, cool man, that's that's awesome. And you've been doing 0:10:53.200 --> 0:10:55.880 that since like pretty much your whole life. 0:10:58.080 --> 0:11:01.200 Well, I started acting about four years ago, and this 0:11:01.320 --> 0:11:04.040 is my first time directing, or it was. 0:11:06.360 --> 0:11:10.000 And so about the whole I guess ego death thing 0:11:10.080 --> 0:11:12.800 of like having time to think, which is a very 0:11:12.840 --> 0:11:19.920 real phenomenon. Are you planning another directing about soon? 0:11:21.640 --> 0:11:23.880 I'm not super soon. I was. 0:11:26.480 --> 0:11:29.720 I was asked to come back and direct in about 0:11:29.760 --> 0:11:32.959 two years at the same theater because the whole next 0:11:33.040 --> 0:11:36.480 theatrical season is uh is booked out because they do 0:11:36.520 --> 0:11:40.440 it for like months and months and months in advance. 0:11:41.400 --> 0:11:47.560 But uh, the little shop got enough, UH got enough 0:11:47.600 --> 0:11:50.720 recognition from around that they asked me back. 0:11:51.600 --> 0:11:53.600 So I'm I'm pretty excited about that. 0:11:54.640 --> 0:11:59.880 Wow, two years it'll be Yeah, that's so that's like that. 0:12:00.000 --> 0:12:02.680 It feels like it's like it's not even like a 0:12:02.760 --> 0:12:04.480 comprehendible amount of time. 0:12:05.559 --> 0:12:09.360 No, but like I've had that thought. But then I 0:12:09.360 --> 0:12:11.760 think about the fact that I planned Little Shop for 0:12:11.840 --> 0:12:13.959 a year and a half and it just flew by, 0:12:15.480 --> 0:12:19.640 So like, I have confidence that this show will. 0:12:21.480 --> 0:12:26.120 Get here a lot quicker in my brain than it 0:12:26.160 --> 0:12:29.680 actually is, but it's it's. 0:12:29.559 --> 0:12:31.839 Still a long time, and I'll be acting between now 0:12:31.880 --> 0:12:33.600 and then, of course, But. 0:12:35.360 --> 0:12:38.560 I don't know. I think part of what I meant 0:12:38.559 --> 0:12:42.880 by let go in my original text is it's. 0:12:42.720 --> 0:12:48.360 Going to be really hard to go from being like 0:12:48.760 --> 0:12:53.720 the director over a show to now having to be 0:12:53.800 --> 0:12:57.679 the one taking direction again, I guess, And that sounds egotistical, 0:12:57.880 --> 0:13:06.040 I know, but it'll it'll be a weird shift, I think. 0:13:06.120 --> 0:13:06.160 So. 0:13:06.679 --> 0:13:10.600 So, now that you're not doing this anymore and that 0:13:10.800 --> 0:13:12.600 you're like, Okay, I'm going to come back in two years, 0:13:12.640 --> 0:13:17.280 are you like the time that you were spending directing 0:13:17.600 --> 0:13:20.280 the musical, have you like filled that with anything else. 0:13:22.280 --> 0:13:27.680 I've got a few shows lined up that I'm planning 0:13:27.679 --> 0:13:32.880 on auditioning for to perform in because that's my first love. 0:13:33.000 --> 0:13:37.520 I think if it was between directing and performing. I 0:13:37.559 --> 0:13:43.360 would much rather be a performer, but directing scratches a 0:13:43.400 --> 0:13:45.040 whole different itch. 0:13:45.320 --> 0:13:50.160 You know, what are you trying to audition for? 0:13:53.840 --> 0:14:01.120 We're doing Bonnie and Clyde soon. I'm doing a Christmas 0:14:02.720 --> 0:14:06.600 follow the Christmas Extravaganza. It's like a variety show. I'm 0:14:06.640 --> 0:14:12.080 doing that this December, and then there's a few after that. 0:14:12.760 --> 0:14:14.920 I know SpongeBob is a big one that I want 0:14:14.920 --> 0:14:15.360 to go for. 0:14:15.880 --> 0:14:19.760 Bro I want to see SpongeBob. I want to see 0:14:19.760 --> 0:14:21.440 the play. I haven't seen it. I want to go 0:14:21.480 --> 0:14:24.520 on Broadway to see SpongeBob. I think that'd be sick. 0:14:25.040 --> 0:14:26.760 Who are you going to go out for? Are you 0:14:26.800 --> 0:14:28.680 going out? Are you going out for SpongeBob? 0:14:30.400 --> 0:14:35.000 I want Plankton more than any role I've ever wonted, 0:14:35.400 --> 0:14:38.080 because I mean, you hear my voice, right. 0:14:37.960 --> 0:14:38.320 I hear it? 0:14:38.400 --> 0:14:39.240 Yeah? I would. 0:14:39.280 --> 0:14:41.240 I think you're I was thinking you, but I to 0:14:41.320 --> 0:14:42.920 be uh, I was thinking you would go out for 0:14:42.960 --> 0:14:43.440 squid word. 0:14:45.040 --> 0:14:48.920 I that is a very close second. But this voice 0:14:48.920 --> 0:14:51.280 that you're hearing is coming out of a five to 0:14:51.320 --> 0:14:56.960 six insanely skinny frame. So me playing Plankton would be 0:14:57.040 --> 0:14:58.000 fucking perfect. 0:14:58.120 --> 0:15:02.800 If you ask me, and but is this another like 0:15:02.920 --> 0:15:04.120 local theater production. 0:15:05.360 --> 0:15:07.119 Yeah, it's it's the same theater. 0:15:07.960 --> 0:15:12.200 Same theater. Okay, so the same theater is like in 0:15:12.280 --> 0:15:14.200 the next when and then when is when are they 0:15:14.240 --> 0:15:16.320 doing SpongeBob? Is that in like fucking five years? 0:15:17.360 --> 0:15:19.600 SpongeBob? Is this coming summer? 0:15:20.440 --> 0:15:23.800 Okay? Okay, so they haven't even casted it yet? 0:15:24.600 --> 0:15:27.119 No, no, no, Were you a theater. 0:15:27.000 --> 0:15:30.600 Kid in high school? Like like now? And I know, 0:15:30.720 --> 0:15:32.880 I know you like you? You Well, how how old 0:15:32.920 --> 0:15:38.760 are you? I'm twenty twenty okay, So so yeah, so 0:15:38.800 --> 0:15:40.640 you started four years ago, so you would have been 0:15:42.080 --> 0:15:44.800 in in high school when you were doing it. Were 0:15:44.840 --> 0:15:47.120 you like a theater kid type of guy? Because you 0:15:47.120 --> 0:15:54.560 don't strike me as like a theatery guy in your demeanor. 0:15:55.920 --> 0:15:59.520 The I mean, I'm flamboyant as fuck, don't get me wrong. 0:15:59.560 --> 0:16:04.680 But the community that we've got around here, there's not 0:16:04.760 --> 0:16:09.280 a whole lot of the like when you think theater kid, 0:16:09.360 --> 0:16:11.560 I don't think you typically think of the kind of 0:16:11.560 --> 0:16:14.880 people that we have hanging around. Because can I go 0:16:14.920 --> 0:16:17.800 on a tangent? Because I love theater and I need 0:16:17.800 --> 0:16:22.280 everyone to hear about it. Community theater is so beautiful 0:16:22.320 --> 0:16:23.680 to me because. 0:16:26.000 --> 0:16:28.400 Unlike the like higher levels. 0:16:28.160 --> 0:16:31.640 Or higher quote unquote levels of like theater where you're 0:16:31.640 --> 0:16:34.640 getting paid to do it and whatnot. Instead of like 0:16:34.720 --> 0:16:37.480 everyone there being like an actor and. 0:16:37.400 --> 0:16:39.960 That's like their thing, you have like. 0:16:42.160 --> 0:16:47.680 Fifty people sometimes showing up and like doing this beautiful 0:16:48.560 --> 0:16:50.440 performing art from. 0:16:50.240 --> 0:16:51.680 All different walks of life. 0:16:51.960 --> 0:16:56.000 Like I've been in shows with pops, I've been in 0:16:56.040 --> 0:17:01.600 shows with doctors. It well, like just people I would 0:17:01.680 --> 0:17:05.280 never interact with in any other setting and we all 0:17:05.320 --> 0:17:08.240 come together to perform and. 0:17:09.600 --> 0:17:13.800 Show our passion to an audience. 0:17:14.400 --> 0:17:20.040 And it's it's such a special thing. It's really really 0:17:20.040 --> 0:17:25.200 important to me. But all that is to say, we 0:17:25.200 --> 0:17:27.240 we don't really get a lot of the typical like 0:17:27.400 --> 0:17:31.880 tiktokie theater kids in the in the community. And I'm 0:17:32.200 --> 0:17:34.159 glad that that bullet missed me. 0:17:37.320 --> 0:17:39.240 And I know I said I was going to talk 0:17:39.240 --> 0:17:41.040 to you guys separately, But what about your boy? Is 0:17:41.080 --> 0:17:43.000 he is he a theater guy as well? 0:17:44.320 --> 0:17:45.520 He is? That's how we met. 0:17:46.600 --> 0:17:49.080 Mm hmm, Okay, I'm ready to talk to him if he's. 0:17:48.960 --> 0:17:56.480 Down to talk you down to Sean. There you go, Hello, what. 0:17:58.040 --> 0:18:01.840 Hey, are are you sure you guys are cool with this, Like, 0:18:01.880 --> 0:18:03.240 you don't you're not like you don't have like a 0:18:03.280 --> 0:18:04.320 reservation or something. 0:18:05.040 --> 0:18:07.320 Oh no, we don't have a reservation. We were just 0:18:07.680 --> 0:18:08.560 going out to dinner. 0:18:09.440 --> 0:18:11.680 Are you also twenty? 0:18:12.080 --> 0:18:12.399 I'm not. 0:18:12.520 --> 0:18:13.720 I just turned eighteen? 0:18:14.520 --> 0:18:15.879 Oh, rock and roll? What are you going to do 0:18:15.920 --> 0:18:18.800 now that you're Now that you're eighteen? 0:18:20.160 --> 0:18:23.160 I mean, the plan right now is to just get 0:18:23.200 --> 0:18:27.880 finished with high school and then I I've been applying 0:18:27.880 --> 0:18:30.880 to colleges and everything, and I just got my acceptance 0:18:31.000 --> 0:18:35.240 letter to a college called the University of South Alabama, 0:18:35.880 --> 0:18:39.760 and I'm very excited to be able to go. It's 0:18:39.920 --> 0:18:41.399 really what I want to do is to go to 0:18:41.440 --> 0:18:45.960 college and get my bachelor's in nursing so I can 0:18:46.359 --> 0:18:49.960 get my postgrad degree and be a nurse nethicist. 0:18:51.040 --> 0:18:56.720 Cool. Man, that's awesome. Yeah, that's like such a I 0:18:56.760 --> 0:19:00.280 don't know, man, that's like a it's a very like 0:19:01.240 --> 0:19:03.240 that's a real life, that's a real job, you know 0:19:03.280 --> 0:19:06.200 what I mean. Like, that's uh, that's very admirable. 0:19:07.680 --> 0:19:13.679 It's it's scary thought overall, just the fact that I'm like, 0:19:13.920 --> 0:19:17.800 I'm not a kid anymore. I've never felt like I've 0:19:17.800 --> 0:19:24.399 been like the quintessential like teenager archetype or anything. But 0:19:25.920 --> 0:19:32.040 it's weird that I'm like, I'm an actual, like legally 0:19:32.119 --> 0:19:35.560 I am an adult now, and it's it's kind of 0:19:35.560 --> 0:19:39.119 stressing me out. I have to be honest, going like 0:19:40.440 --> 0:19:41.639 man all that. 0:19:41.680 --> 0:19:48.120 Yeah, what I like, Sorry, yeah, go ahead, all right. 0:19:49.000 --> 0:19:52.800 It's just I'm moving away from home for the first time, 0:19:53.440 --> 0:19:56.600 and it's just I don't know exactly how I'm going 0:19:56.680 --> 0:20:00.879 to pay for everything because I'm not I'm not like 0:20:01.400 --> 0:20:04.440 so smart that I can get the best scholarships and everything, 0:20:05.280 --> 0:20:08.399 and it's just it's very expensive to go to college 0:20:08.440 --> 0:20:10.840 for how long I want to, and I just I 0:20:11.320 --> 0:20:14.199 don't know if it's gonna be working out or not. 0:20:15.320 --> 0:20:20.840 Mm hmm. But yeah, you know, you're It's not like 0:20:21.160 --> 0:20:22.760 if you told me you were going into debt to 0:20:22.760 --> 0:20:25.040 get a theater degree, I'd be like, I don't know 0:20:25.040 --> 0:20:26.800 about that, but you're going for like a real fucking 0:20:26.880 --> 0:20:28.240 thing to be like a nurse. 0:20:31.040 --> 0:20:34.440 It's I've one for the longest time to do something 0:20:34.600 --> 0:20:39.880 in the medical field because my great grandfather passed away 0:20:39.960 --> 0:20:44.200 years ago from a heart disease and it runs in 0:20:44.280 --> 0:20:47.440 my family and everything, and I just I just want 0:20:47.480 --> 0:20:51.960 to do something to help others who are like afflicted 0:20:52.040 --> 0:20:58.480 with any kind of diseases or illnesses, and anesthesia specifically 0:20:58.640 --> 0:21:01.440 is what it helps people where they go into surgery, 0:21:01.520 --> 0:21:03.520 it keeps them passed out and everything. 0:21:04.920 --> 0:21:05.720 And I just. 0:21:05.560 --> 0:21:09.240 Feel like that's a job that's very underappreciated, and I'd 0:21:09.280 --> 0:21:12.200 love to be able to help people by assisting them 0:21:12.200 --> 0:21:14.400 in that way. 0:21:14.680 --> 0:21:15.840 You're a very wholesome guy. 0:21:15.960 --> 0:21:18.280 Man. Thank you. 0:21:19.840 --> 0:21:26.840 When you said you didn't get to live the teenager life, 0:21:27.320 --> 0:21:28.120 what does that mean? 0:21:29.800 --> 0:21:34.120 I mean, I feel like a lot of the time 0:21:35.160 --> 0:21:39.399 teenagers are kind of like in like media and like 0:21:39.520 --> 0:21:44.159 the news and everything, it's always teenagers are out causing 0:21:44.160 --> 0:21:47.760 a ruckus or going to parties and that kind of 0:21:47.760 --> 0:21:52.240 stuff and hang out with their friends every other day. 0:21:52.280 --> 0:21:54.560 And I try. 0:21:54.119 --> 0:21:56.720 To be with my friends as much as possible, but 0:21:56.760 --> 0:22:00.480 it always feels like sometimes it just doesn't work out, 0:22:00.560 --> 0:22:02.959 and I'm always I spent a lot of time just 0:22:03.160 --> 0:22:07.600 alone at my house more than anything else, and it 0:22:07.760 --> 0:22:11.439 just it doesn't feel like what I thought it would. 0:22:12.200 --> 0:22:14.240 I guess if that makes any sense. 0:22:14.720 --> 0:22:15.800 Yeah, that makes total sense. 0:22:16.160 --> 0:22:16.359 I have. 0:22:17.160 --> 0:22:21.200 I mean, like, were you sitting in your house being 0:22:21.280 --> 0:22:23.959 like I wish I was causing a ruckus or were 0:22:24.000 --> 0:22:26.880 you sitting in your house like all right, this is 0:22:27.000 --> 0:22:27.560 this is fine. 0:22:29.160 --> 0:22:32.400 I was sitting in my house just relaxing. I wasn't 0:22:32.480 --> 0:22:37.160 very stressed out about like not being like a hair 0:22:37.400 --> 0:22:38.520 society or anything. 0:22:39.080 --> 0:22:41.560 Not a terror of society, but you know, like, uh, 0:22:42.160 --> 0:22:43.879 some people get stressed out of it right about like 0:22:45.320 --> 0:22:48.119 that they're not living whatever life they think they should be. 0:22:49.280 --> 0:22:52.600 Yeah, that's one of my biggest fears. I feel like 0:22:53.760 --> 0:22:57.080 that goes back to going to college and for four 0:22:57.160 --> 0:22:59.960 years to get one degree, to go again for three 0:23:00.040 --> 0:23:03.200 you can get another degree. It's just that's a lot 0:23:03.280 --> 0:23:05.080 of time of my life that I'm going to be 0:23:05.440 --> 0:23:08.520 losing out on. And I don't know if that's like 0:23:09.720 --> 0:23:14.320 like I really want to go, but it's almost that's 0:23:14.600 --> 0:23:16.600 seven years of my life is gonna be taken up 0:23:16.600 --> 0:23:19.920 before I even get a chance to get the job. 0:23:19.920 --> 0:23:25.600 I want to get it, and that's just I really 0:23:25.640 --> 0:23:27.280 want to do it. It's just that what if I 0:23:27.320 --> 0:23:31.080 get there and then it's just I don't like it 0:23:31.119 --> 0:23:34.399 And it's just been a waste of time and money 0:23:34.400 --> 0:23:36.520 for the past almost a decade. 0:23:37.720 --> 0:23:41.280 But I don't know the way that you're talking about 0:23:41.280 --> 0:23:45.240 it is very passionate because you're not over here like, 0:23:45.280 --> 0:23:47.160 well my parents want me to do it, or well 0:23:47.240 --> 0:23:50.720 I think I'll make money or this and that. The 0:23:50.720 --> 0:23:52.560 other thing, the way you're talking about it is like, 0:23:52.680 --> 0:23:57.520 this is something I really want to do, you know, 0:23:58.440 --> 0:24:00.840 So I think that taking a shot on something that 0:24:00.880 --> 0:24:03.239 you really want to do is a good idea. Well, 0:24:03.280 --> 0:24:04.520 I mean, what the fuck else would you do? 0:24:07.040 --> 0:24:07.840 That's a good point. 0:24:08.800 --> 0:24:12.600 Yeah, right, well so right, because you're like, oh, oh, 0:24:12.800 --> 0:24:17.240