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Speaker 2: What is going on?

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Speaker 3: Everyone, Emily Evadi Here you are listening to episode two

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Speaker 3: hundred and twenty seven of Hurdle, a wellness focused podcast

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Speaker 3: where I connected with everyone from your favorite athletes to

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Speaker 3: top experts and industry CEOs about their highest highs, toughest moments,

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Speaker 3: and everything in between. We all go through hurdles in life,

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Speaker 3: and my goal through these discussions is to empower you

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Speaker 3: course have some fun along the way. For episode two

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Speaker 3: hundred and twenty seven, I am chatting with pro soccer

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Speaker 3: player Sidney LaRue. She talks to us today about moving

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Speaker 3: to play with the best of the best, ultimately becoming

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Speaker 3: She also opens up about the difficult Hurtle moments that

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Speaker 2: Today.

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Speaker 3: I am sitting down with Sidney LaRue. She is a

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Speaker 2: Sid?

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Speaker 4: I'm good? How are you?

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Speaker 3: I'm so good. I'm excited that we're making this happen.

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Speaker 3: I feel like I right off the bat went in

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Speaker 4: No? I think everyone just calls me. Sid just said.

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Speaker 4: And they're wild and chaotic.

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Speaker 1: Yes, I've basically all my life, I've been just making

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Speaker 4: Just allow them to be whoever they want to be,

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Speaker 4: like yeah, what.

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00:23:52,200 --> 00:23:55,760
Speaker 1: And I really just like I needed a second because

450
00:23:56,040 --> 00:24:00,159
Speaker 1: I didn't know, Like I wasn't ready for that, but

451
00:24:00,640 --> 00:24:03,000
Speaker 1: at the same time, like I was not in a

452
00:24:03,040 --> 00:24:07,879
Speaker 1: really good place. And my mom called me and she

453
00:24:08,119 --> 00:24:11,680
Speaker 1: was like, you know, maybe this baby is the best

454
00:24:11,920 --> 00:24:18,160
Speaker 1: thing ever. And I was like, okay, okay, let's do it.

455
00:24:19,640 --> 00:24:22,280
Speaker 1: And so I went through with it and I got

456
00:24:22,320 --> 00:24:25,200
Speaker 1: Cassius and I'm like getting emotional.

457
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Speaker 2: Oh, I love Cashus's name. You read that in a book.

458
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Speaker 1: Yeah, I found it in a book when my mom

459
00:24:32,840 --> 00:24:38,120
Speaker 1: and I went to Italy, And yeah, I it.

460
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Speaker 4: Was the best best decision I ever made.

461
00:24:43,840 --> 00:24:48,240
Speaker 3: And it's so special reflecting on that now, thinking about

462
00:24:48,400 --> 00:24:54,320
Speaker 3: although it was unexpected to have this beautiful son, especially

463
00:24:54,440 --> 00:24:58,800
Speaker 3: knowing that you had some struggles the second time around.

464
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Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, yeah, I just and like that's the thing is,

465
00:25:06,000 --> 00:25:10,199
Speaker 1: I got pregnant on accident, and you know, it was

466
00:25:10,280 --> 00:25:14,199
Speaker 1: like the best accident ever. But I was not meaning

467
00:25:14,280 --> 00:25:18,080
Speaker 1: to do that, and I was also on birth control,

468
00:25:18,560 --> 00:25:21,520
Speaker 1: but we were traveling around. We had just had our honeymoon,

469
00:25:21,560 --> 00:25:23,679
Speaker 1: and so like I wasn't taking it at the right time,

470
00:25:23,840 --> 00:25:26,359
Speaker 1: and like things were all messed up, and so I

471
00:25:26,359 --> 00:25:27,960
Speaker 1: think that's how that happened.

472
00:25:28,920 --> 00:25:32,600
Speaker 4: And so then that pregnancy was so easy. And then

473
00:25:33,240 --> 00:25:36,280
Speaker 4: I was like, Okay, I I want another one.

474
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Speaker 1: And you know, we try one time and I'm pregnant,

475
00:25:40,160 --> 00:25:43,520
Speaker 1: and I'm like this is easy, Like you know, I'm healthy,

476
00:25:44,200 --> 00:25:48,760
Speaker 1: I'm young, like there's no issues. And I never even

477
00:25:48,920 --> 00:25:52,040
Speaker 1: like I was naive. I never even thought that like

478
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Speaker 1: that was even a possibility.

479
00:25:55,280 --> 00:25:56,679
Speaker 4: And then it was.

480
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Speaker 1: And I found out I was pregnant in July fourth,

481
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Speaker 1: and then and I lost the baby like sometime in August,

482
00:26:05,840 --> 00:26:10,520
Speaker 1: and it was awful. I mean, anyone who's been through

483
00:26:10,520 --> 00:26:14,560
Speaker 1: that before, it's like the worst pain. Like it's awful

484
00:26:14,960 --> 00:26:18,200
Speaker 1: losing a child or having a miscarriage. I mean, it's

485
00:26:18,280 --> 00:26:22,400
Speaker 1: it's brutal. And so I was like, the only way

486
00:26:22,400 --> 00:26:25,359
Speaker 1: I'm ever gonna feel better is like I gotta get back,

487
00:26:25,520 --> 00:26:27,320
Speaker 1: like we gotta like try again.

488
00:26:28,640 --> 00:26:29,080
Speaker 4: And so.

489
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Speaker 1: I tried again and I got pregnant, and ru'se DO

490
00:26:36,040 --> 00:26:38,919
Speaker 1: date was July fourth, and it was the day that

491
00:26:38,960 --> 00:26:42,000
Speaker 1: I found out that I was pregnant. So it was

492
00:26:42,480 --> 00:26:45,760
Speaker 1: a pretty like amazing story. But I will say going

493
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Speaker 1: through Ruse pregnancy, it was so stressful because everything was

494
00:26:50,880 --> 00:26:53,280
Speaker 1: just like, oh, you know, is this gonna happen again?

495
00:26:53,400 --> 00:26:56,919
Speaker 1: Is this gonna happen, Is she gonna be okay? And

496
00:26:56,960 --> 00:26:59,800
Speaker 1: so that I think that pregnancy for me was was

497
00:27:00,080 --> 00:27:02,360
Speaker 1: really tough. And I think, you know, anyone who's been

498
00:27:02,400 --> 00:27:05,119
Speaker 1: through a miscarriage, like the pregnancies the rest of the

499
00:27:05,160 --> 00:27:08,440
Speaker 1: pregnancies you have are very different.

500
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Speaker 3: I believe the statistic is about ten to fifteen and

501
00:27:12,520 --> 00:27:15,840
Speaker 3: one hundred pregnancies end in miscarriage, and then one in

502
00:27:15,880 --> 00:27:21,919
Speaker 3: one hundred women experienced recurrent miscarriages. So that anxiety certainly

503
00:27:22,359 --> 00:27:27,720
Speaker 3: not not unwarranted. And during that time, did you feel

504
00:27:27,840 --> 00:27:30,480
Speaker 3: alone in your struggle or did you find community at

505
00:27:30,480 --> 00:27:33,440
Speaker 3: all with other women who have been through similar experiences.

506
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Speaker 1: I had my team around me, which was really nice.

507
00:27:37,680 --> 00:27:40,360
Speaker 1: They knew that I was pregnant, and it was in

508
00:27:40,400 --> 00:27:43,199
Speaker 1: like the middle to end of the season and I

509
00:27:43,240 --> 00:27:46,880
Speaker 1: had to step away and then you know, I had

510
00:27:46,920 --> 00:27:50,359
Speaker 1: lost the baby, and like there's something about a team

511
00:27:50,680 --> 00:27:54,960
Speaker 1: and your people and your close friends that yeah, they

512
00:27:55,040 --> 00:27:57,240
Speaker 1: just kind of brought me back and they were there

513
00:27:57,280 --> 00:28:01,520
Speaker 1: for me. But you know, we don't really talk about

514
00:28:01,560 --> 00:28:06,520
Speaker 1: miscarriage that much. It's it's getting better now and people

515
00:28:06,520 --> 00:28:10,159
Speaker 1: are talking about it, but I remember, like, you know,

516
00:28:10,240 --> 00:28:12,320
Speaker 1: I wanted to talk about it, right away because I'm like,

517
00:28:12,359 --> 00:28:16,000
Speaker 1: I did not know that this was like one in four,

518
00:28:16,320 --> 00:28:19,639
Speaker 1: you know, I didn't know that, and especially having like

519
00:28:20,000 --> 00:28:24,240
Speaker 1: a really easy pregnancy with Cassius, I, like I said,

520
00:28:24,240 --> 00:28:25,320
Speaker 1: I was naive.

521
00:28:25,320 --> 00:28:30,000
Speaker 3: To go through that then and deal with the anxiety.

522
00:28:30,280 --> 00:28:32,760
Speaker 3: Do you remember any of the strategies that you used

523
00:28:32,880 --> 00:28:35,199
Speaker 3: to kind of cope when it felt like that was

524
00:28:35,240 --> 00:28:36,600
Speaker 3: beyond your control.

525
00:28:38,720 --> 00:28:40,080
Speaker 1: That if it was meant to be, it was going

526
00:28:40,160 --> 00:28:43,840
Speaker 1: to happen, and if it wasn't, then something was wrong.

527
00:28:44,600 --> 00:28:46,840
Speaker 4: It's out of my control and I can only do

528
00:28:46,960 --> 00:28:47,760
Speaker 4: so much. You know.

529
00:28:47,920 --> 00:28:50,360
Speaker 1: It's like I felt like I lived in like a

530
00:28:50,440 --> 00:28:54,040
Speaker 1: glass house, Like I just like I was scared of everything.

531
00:28:54,120 --> 00:28:55,840
Speaker 1: I was like, I don't I can't work out, I

532
00:28:55,880 --> 00:28:59,800
Speaker 1: can't do this, I can't do that. And so, yeah,

533
00:28:59,840 --> 00:29:04,800
Speaker 1: I got through it, and you know, I started getting

534
00:29:04,800 --> 00:29:07,400
Speaker 1: back to working out and doing things that made me

535
00:29:07,480 --> 00:29:11,160
Speaker 1: feel like me, because you know, for the first little bit,

536
00:29:12,360 --> 00:29:14,120
Speaker 1: I did not feel like me.

537
00:29:14,680 --> 00:29:17,719
Speaker 3: Did it feel freeing when you opened up about that

538
00:29:18,000 --> 00:29:20,480
Speaker 3: on social I mean to think about the amount of

539
00:29:20,520 --> 00:29:23,840
Speaker 3: people that have kind of access to you, being the

540
00:29:23,880 --> 00:29:25,080
Speaker 3: way that the platform is.

541
00:29:25,320 --> 00:29:29,040
Speaker 1: Yeah, I was definitely nervous and I didn't know if

542
00:29:29,080 --> 00:29:30,719
Speaker 1: it was the right thing to talk about.

543
00:29:30,920 --> 00:29:32,800
Speaker 4: But I'm very happy that I did.

544
00:29:33,000 --> 00:29:36,400
Speaker 1: A lot of people, you know, come and say, like

545
00:29:36,920 --> 00:29:39,760
Speaker 1: me too, Yeah, that happened to me, that happened to me,

546
00:29:39,880 --> 00:29:43,280
Speaker 1: that happened to me, And so that was you know,

547
00:29:43,360 --> 00:29:47,600
Speaker 1: it was like a safe space because so many people

548
00:29:48,200 --> 00:29:51,320
Speaker 1: tell you me too, and you don't even realize.

549
00:29:51,560 --> 00:29:54,040
Speaker 2: Isn't that what's so interesting about social media?

550
00:29:54,600 --> 00:29:57,720
Speaker 3: Like at times it can be such like a beautiful

551
00:29:57,800 --> 00:30:00,760
Speaker 3: connection opportunity, and then other times like it just makes

552
00:30:00,800 --> 00:30:03,120
Speaker 3: you so frustrated that you want to walk away entirely.

553
00:30:03,440 --> 00:30:10,760
Speaker 4: Yeah, totally, yes, Yeah, social media is crazy one.

554
00:30:10,840 --> 00:30:12,760
Speaker 1: You know, one day they're with you and the next

555
00:30:12,800 --> 00:30:16,440
Speaker 1: they're not, And there's crazy people. But yeah, I think

556
00:30:16,560 --> 00:30:21,520
Speaker 1: in that moment, for that specific situation with my miscarriage,

557
00:30:22,120 --> 00:30:24,840
Speaker 1: I think that was really important to speak up and

558
00:30:25,200 --> 00:30:27,600
Speaker 1: have a platform and be able to talk about that.

559
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619
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Speaker 3: sharing your struggle was such a help for so so many. Now,

620
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Speaker 3: let's talk about what it was like for you to

621
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Speaker 3: go through pregnancy, have your babies, and get back to sport.

622
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Speaker 2: What was that like for you?

623
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Speaker 1: Hi, Well, I had postpartum depression after Cassius that I.

624
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Speaker 4: Think brought on a lot of anxiety.

625
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Speaker 1: About like who I was going to be and if

626
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Speaker 1: I could come back and what that looked like. With Cassius,

627
00:34:43,600 --> 00:34:45,680
Speaker 1: I would say that it was a little more difficult

628
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Speaker 1: because I just didn't I didn't know. I didn't know

629
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Speaker 1: what to expect. I didn't know what my body was

630
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Speaker 1: going to do. But I was able to come back,

631
00:34:55,480 --> 00:34:58,239
Speaker 1: and you know, I scored my first goal of the

632
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Speaker 1: first game, and I was like, oh, I can do this,

633
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Speaker 1: and you know, he's in the crowd, and that was

634
00:35:04,719 --> 00:35:11,360
Speaker 1: really really special. And then with Rue, I like, because

635
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Speaker 1: I lost the baby before, I was like, well, I

636
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Speaker 1: was supposed to have this baby, and I was supposed

637
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Speaker 1: to come back this season, and now I'm having this baby,

638
00:35:20,320 --> 00:35:22,839
Speaker 1: like super late in the season, and I don't know,

639
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Speaker 1: like if people are expecting me to come back, but

640
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Speaker 1: I'm coming back.

641
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Speaker 4: I'm going to play. I'm going to play the season.

642
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Speaker 1: And so I played my first game ninety three days

643
00:35:32,520 --> 00:35:33,879
Speaker 1: after giving birth to her.

644
00:35:34,239 --> 00:35:37,600
Speaker 3: Yeah, and you also played in March twenty nineteen at

645
00:35:37,640 --> 00:35:40,880
Speaker 3: six months pregnant. I'm sure on both sides of the

646
00:35:40,920 --> 00:35:45,200
Speaker 3: coin people had something to say about you playing pregnant

647
00:35:45,440 --> 00:35:48,279
Speaker 3: and you coming back quote unquote too too talk to

648
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Speaker 3: me through.

649
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Speaker 4: That ones were awful. When I was playing.

650
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Speaker 1: I mean, I think that they thought that I was

651
00:35:52,960 --> 00:35:56,799
Speaker 1: like slide tackling and like playing in games, which is

652
00:35:56,880 --> 00:35:59,360
Speaker 1: like wild because I was just training and just like

653
00:35:59,480 --> 00:36:01,919
Speaker 1: trying to be myself and you know, be a part

654
00:36:01,960 --> 00:36:05,960
Speaker 1: of the team still. And oh that I was like

655
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Speaker 1: that I was going to kill my baby, that this

656
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Speaker 1: was an abortion, and like I just didn't go to

657
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Speaker 1: planned parenthood.

658
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Speaker 4: And it was awful.

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Speaker 1: Honestly, it was terrible reading those things about myself because

660
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Speaker 1: especially because I went through such like a traumatic experience

661
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Speaker 1: with losing the baby.

662
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Speaker 4: And then like seeing all that.

663
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Speaker 1: But then you know, I come back ninety three days

664
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Speaker 1: later with a perfectly healthy baby, and I was like, yeah,

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Speaker 1: I take that because you can't do what I'm doing,

666
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Speaker 1: can't you.

667
00:36:39,080 --> 00:36:42,160
Speaker 3: So I it blows my mind when people don't think

668
00:36:42,160 --> 00:36:43,960
Speaker 3: about the fact that there's like a real person on

669
00:36:44,000 --> 00:36:44,759
Speaker 3: the other side of the car.

670
00:36:44,960 --> 00:36:47,000
Speaker 4: Yeah, people do not care.

671
00:36:49,480 --> 00:36:51,360
Speaker 1: And you think, you know, social media, you can just

672
00:36:51,400 --> 00:36:53,920
Speaker 1: go on there and say whatever you want, right, so

673
00:36:54,320 --> 00:36:56,279
Speaker 1: you know you're not ever going to say that to

674
00:36:56,360 --> 00:36:58,880
Speaker 1: a person in real life. But I also am like

675
00:36:59,480 --> 00:37:03,560
Speaker 1: I wouldn't ever like spend time and like go and

676
00:37:03,600 --> 00:37:07,840
Speaker 1: like talk badly about someone or say something that I like,

677
00:37:07,840 --> 00:37:09,479
Speaker 1: I would just never do that, and I just don't

678
00:37:09,560 --> 00:37:13,600
Speaker 1: understand like how people can do that. But I mean, hey,

679
00:37:13,640 --> 00:37:18,360
Speaker 1: there's millions and millions of them, so yeah, it blows

680
00:37:18,360 --> 00:37:19,120
Speaker 1: my mind that far.

681
00:37:19,280 --> 00:37:21,719
Speaker 3: Yeah, I know there are millions and millions of them

682
00:37:21,800 --> 00:37:24,319
Speaker 3: for sure. And so when you when you show back

683
00:37:24,400 --> 00:37:30,040
Speaker 3: up three months after having your daughter, do you feel

684
00:37:30,320 --> 00:37:32,759
Speaker 3: how does it feel? How does the body feel? Do

685
00:37:32,840 --> 00:37:34,759
Speaker 3: you feel like a completely different.

686
00:37:34,640 --> 00:37:38,319
Speaker 1: Oh, I did forty pounds heavier than my playing weight.

687
00:37:38,480 --> 00:37:42,920
Speaker 1: I'm huge, my boobs are ginormous. I'm breastfeeding before the game,

688
00:37:43,320 --> 00:37:46,440
Speaker 1: at halftime and after. Because Rue never really took a

689
00:37:46,480 --> 00:37:48,960
Speaker 1: bottle until like eight or nine months.

690
00:37:48,680 --> 00:37:49,320
Speaker 4: It was wild.

691
00:37:49,560 --> 00:37:52,480
Speaker 1: Would I do it over again? Absolutely not. I've just

692
00:37:52,520 --> 00:37:55,359
Speaker 1: given my body time. But I am stubborn and I

693
00:37:55,400 --> 00:37:57,279
Speaker 1: said I was going to do something, and that's what

694
00:37:57,320 --> 00:37:57,920
Speaker 1: I was going to do.

695
00:37:58,480 --> 00:38:01,320
Speaker 4: Yeah, my body felt absolutely insane.

696
00:38:01,719 --> 00:38:04,560
Speaker 1: Like so you're like so lax, right, Like your body

697
00:38:04,640 --> 00:38:06,680
Speaker 1: is just like moving all over the place. I have

698
00:38:06,840 --> 00:38:10,680
Speaker 1: no control of anything. But you know, I put it

699
00:38:10,719 --> 00:38:12,120
Speaker 1: in my head that I was going to do.

700
00:38:12,120 --> 00:38:14,920
Speaker 2: That and that was it, and that was it.

701
00:38:15,360 --> 00:38:17,520
Speaker 3: And so did you have any regret or did you

702
00:38:17,560 --> 00:38:19,200
Speaker 3: feel like it was the right decision for you.

703
00:38:20,200 --> 00:38:22,560
Speaker 1: I wish that I would have taken time, but I'm

704
00:38:22,680 --> 00:38:25,120
Speaker 1: happy that I did it because that's what I said

705
00:38:25,160 --> 00:38:26,719
Speaker 1: I was going to do, and I feel like that's

706
00:38:26,800 --> 00:38:29,480
Speaker 1: very on brand with me. But yeah, I wish that

707
00:38:29,520 --> 00:38:31,640
Speaker 1: I would have taken time, but I had, I had

708
00:38:31,640 --> 00:38:34,000
Speaker 1: put it in my head because of the loss of

709
00:38:34,040 --> 00:38:36,680
Speaker 1: the baby, that I was going to come back this season.

710
00:38:37,080 --> 00:38:40,160
Speaker 3: The pressure that kind of comes hand in hand with

711
00:38:40,280 --> 00:38:43,840
Speaker 3: getting back on the field. Financially, was there any incentive

712
00:38:43,920 --> 00:38:46,120
Speaker 3: for you to get back to playing sooner.

713
00:38:47,120 --> 00:38:51,319
Speaker 1: No, No, I don't think like luckily I wasn't like

714
00:38:51,400 --> 00:38:53,840
Speaker 1: I didn't have to worry about like the financials of

715
00:38:53,920 --> 00:38:57,600
Speaker 1: playing or not playing or doing whatever. I just like

716
00:38:57,680 --> 00:39:00,799
Speaker 1: really just wanted to do it because I said that

717
00:39:00,800 --> 00:39:01,200
Speaker 1: that's what.

718
00:39:01,160 --> 00:39:01,880
Speaker 4: I was going to do.

719
00:39:02,280 --> 00:39:05,680
Speaker 3: And you mentioned the word financially, which makes me think

720
00:39:05,800 --> 00:39:10,040
Speaker 3: about the equal pay agreements. Was it rewarding for you

721
00:39:10,120 --> 00:39:14,359
Speaker 3: to be a part of making history. I know with

722
00:39:14,400 --> 00:39:18,759
Speaker 3: the new contracts, we've got identical pay structures for appearances

723
00:39:18,800 --> 00:39:23,560
Speaker 3: and tournament victories, revenue sharing, equitable distribution of World Cup

724
00:39:23,560 --> 00:39:26,680
Speaker 3: prize money. I mean, this is a big deal and

725
00:39:26,760 --> 00:39:29,680
Speaker 3: something that was in the works for just so so long.

726
00:39:30,080 --> 00:39:33,160
Speaker 1: Yes, I think it's rewarding to a point, but there's

727
00:39:33,200 --> 00:39:36,440
Speaker 1: like so much more that needs to be done. I mean, you,

728
00:39:36,840 --> 00:39:39,200
Speaker 1: I'm sure you've seen everything that's come out, you know,

729
00:39:39,320 --> 00:39:42,960
Speaker 1: with what's happened in the NWSL with you know, the

730
00:39:43,040 --> 00:39:47,160
Speaker 1: sexual abuse and just abuse in general. And I think

731
00:39:47,320 --> 00:39:51,080
Speaker 1: like that part also plays a huge role in what

732
00:39:51,719 --> 00:39:55,640
Speaker 1: happens in not only women's soccer, but women's sports in general.

733
00:39:55,960 --> 00:39:59,879
Speaker 1: You know, I've I think you can ask anyone if

734
00:40:00,400 --> 00:40:03,080
Speaker 1: you know they have ever seen something or if they've

735
00:40:03,080 --> 00:40:06,600
Speaker 1: been a part of something that was wrong, and we

736
00:40:06,719 --> 00:40:10,320
Speaker 1: all have the same answer, and that's not okay.

737
00:40:10,360 --> 00:40:12,200
Speaker 4: And that's you.

738
00:40:12,160 --> 00:40:16,680
Speaker 1: Know, having having a daughter, and I like, I make

739
00:40:16,760 --> 00:40:21,200
Speaker 1: this joke because it's true. I don't care that she

740
00:40:21,520 --> 00:40:24,440
Speaker 1: probably will never play, because she'll never have to go

741
00:40:24,560 --> 00:40:29,160
Speaker 1: through any of the crap that we did. And you

742
00:40:29,239 --> 00:40:33,160
Speaker 1: hope that things get better. But it starts, so it

743
00:40:33,280 --> 00:40:37,600
Speaker 1: starts so young. It starts. I mean when I was thirteen,

744
00:40:37,680 --> 00:40:41,880
Speaker 1: I was playing for an absolute pedophile and people knew that,

745
00:40:42,440 --> 00:40:46,920
Speaker 1: and nothing happens and you say something and no one

746
00:40:47,000 --> 00:40:52,000
Speaker 1: believes you. And so I think that part has been

747
00:40:52,520 --> 00:40:55,920
Speaker 1: has been even bigger, you know than the money issue,

748
00:40:56,120 --> 00:40:59,560
Speaker 1: is that what is happening and what has happened in

749
00:40:59,600 --> 00:41:03,839
Speaker 1: women's sports and women's soccer for so long. But I'm

750
00:41:04,360 --> 00:41:07,879
Speaker 1: very happy that things have been like brought to light,

751
00:41:08,000 --> 00:41:10,319
Speaker 1: for sure, but we've been trying to bring things to

752
00:41:10,400 --> 00:41:11,000
Speaker 1: light forever.

753
00:41:12,160 --> 00:41:13,279
Speaker 2: Thank you for sharing that.

754
00:41:13,480 --> 00:41:16,200
Speaker 3: And you know, it's it's hard to think about how

755
00:41:16,280 --> 00:41:20,120
Speaker 3: like that experience for you started at thirteen, right, and

756
00:41:20,239 --> 00:41:23,560
Speaker 3: so you've been playing in the sport for so long.

757
00:41:23,800 --> 00:41:26,239
Speaker 2: That's really only the tip of the iceberg.

758
00:41:26,800 --> 00:41:30,840
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, where do you where do you hope that

759
00:41:31,680 --> 00:41:33,720
Speaker 3: this conversation goes?

760
00:41:33,840 --> 00:41:34,560
Speaker 2: Realistically?

761
00:41:34,680 --> 00:41:38,279
Speaker 3: What do you think that these allegations coming to light

762
00:41:38,719 --> 00:41:41,560
Speaker 3: will do. Do you believe that it's possible to find

763
00:41:41,880 --> 00:41:44,000
Speaker 3: comprehensive change within the league?

764
00:41:44,560 --> 00:41:48,360
Speaker 1: Yes, I do believe that it's possible. But I also

765
00:41:48,560 --> 00:41:52,920
Speaker 1: think and I know that businesses and people will do

766
00:41:52,960 --> 00:41:56,359
Speaker 1: anything to save themselves before they'll ever save any of us.

767
00:41:56,600 --> 00:42:00,239
Speaker 1: And it has taken a lot of people to tell

768
00:42:00,280 --> 00:42:02,839
Speaker 1: their story, and a lot of people's stories come out

769
00:42:02,880 --> 00:42:05,640
Speaker 1: after they're done playing, and that's not fair. And I

770
00:42:05,680 --> 00:42:09,799
Speaker 1: also think that, I mean, there is red flags, and

771
00:42:10,080 --> 00:42:12,640
Speaker 1: we just let those red flags go, and then those

772
00:42:12,680 --> 00:42:16,080
Speaker 1: coaches are able to continue and coach whoever you know,

773
00:42:16,520 --> 00:42:18,279
Speaker 1: and the same pattern happens.

774
00:42:18,360 --> 00:42:20,719
Speaker 4: And it's just like my.

775
00:42:20,719 --> 00:42:24,120
Speaker 1: Hope is that everyone who knew anything and who didn't

776
00:42:24,160 --> 00:42:27,200
Speaker 1: do anything about it is never around the sport ever.

777
00:42:27,239 --> 00:42:30,680
Speaker 2: Again, man, it is such like a heavy convo.

778
00:42:30,800 --> 00:42:34,400
Speaker 3: But to your point earlier, the fact that these conversations

779
00:42:34,400 --> 00:42:38,200
Speaker 3: are happening and there is more of an open dialogue

780
00:42:38,239 --> 00:42:41,080
Speaker 3: today than there was let's say, the day before, that

781
00:42:41,160 --> 00:42:45,640
Speaker 3: makes room for tomorrow that conversation to continue and to

782
00:42:45,680 --> 00:42:49,040
Speaker 3: hopefully shed light so that women in the future don't

783
00:42:49,080 --> 00:42:52,800
Speaker 3: have to feel like they're playing and living in.

784
00:42:52,960 --> 00:42:55,240
Speaker 2: You know, these shadows in this scary place.

785
00:42:55,600 --> 00:42:57,640
Speaker 4: Totally. Yeah, I think that.

786
00:42:57,960 --> 00:43:00,399
Speaker 1: I think people are now, you know, feeling a little

787
00:43:00,440 --> 00:43:03,680
Speaker 1: more comfortable and confident that there is going to be change.

788
00:43:04,160 --> 00:43:05,439
Speaker 4: But we will see.

789
00:43:05,880 --> 00:43:09,880
Speaker 3: Speaking of comfortable and confident playing in these days again,

790
00:43:10,000 --> 00:43:13,240
Speaker 3: to babes at home, I know you said obviously having

791
00:43:13,560 --> 00:43:17,000
Speaker 3: to take off a little earlier than desired this season,

792
00:43:17,400 --> 00:43:20,880
Speaker 3: but how does it feel to otherwise be back in

793
00:43:20,920 --> 00:43:23,600
Speaker 3: the swing of things, to be a full on working mom.

794
00:43:23,880 --> 00:43:27,719
Speaker 1: Yeah, I love it. I love being a working mom.

795
00:43:27,800 --> 00:43:31,040
Speaker 1: That is who I am. That's probably always what I'm

796
00:43:31,080 --> 00:43:35,080
Speaker 1: going to be. I think it's important for me, specifically

797
00:43:35,120 --> 00:43:38,360
Speaker 1: for my mental health, to like do something that makes

798
00:43:38,440 --> 00:43:42,200
Speaker 1: me me instead of just being a mom, which I

799
00:43:42,239 --> 00:43:45,560
Speaker 1: love just being a mom, but I also love, you know,

800
00:43:45,680 --> 00:43:48,239
Speaker 1: to do what makes me happy outside of being a mom,

801
00:43:48,280 --> 00:43:52,200
Speaker 1: and that that's you know, playing soccer. So I'm yeah,

802
00:43:52,400 --> 00:43:55,480
Speaker 1: I love it. I love every minute of it, even

803
00:43:55,520 --> 00:43:56,480
Speaker 1: the hard parts.

804
00:43:56,880 --> 00:43:59,239
Speaker 2: Yeah, you mentioned the buzzword mental health.

805
00:43:59,320 --> 00:44:01,680
Speaker 3: Let's talk a little bit about what your self care

806
00:44:01,760 --> 00:44:04,640
Speaker 3: looks like, what it means for you to take care

807
00:44:04,680 --> 00:44:04,920
Speaker 3: of you.

808
00:44:05,120 --> 00:44:07,520
Speaker 2: What are the different components to that recipe.

809
00:44:08,480 --> 00:44:13,040
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean, I absolutely love spending time with my kids.

810
00:44:13,120 --> 00:44:16,680
Speaker 1: I'm a single mom. I you know, my kids are

811
00:44:16,800 --> 00:44:21,200
Speaker 1: my world. I love watching cash Is play soccer. It

812
00:44:21,280 --> 00:44:25,520
Speaker 1: brings me so much joy. Like I never thought that

813
00:44:25,560 --> 00:44:29,240
Speaker 1: I would love something more than watching him score goals.

814
00:44:29,239 --> 00:44:31,640
Speaker 1: I love it more than I love to score goals.

815
00:44:31,719 --> 00:44:35,560
Speaker 1: Just watching him just find himself in the sport has

816
00:44:35,600 --> 00:44:39,879
Speaker 1: been amazing. And I love the relationship that I get

817
00:44:39,880 --> 00:44:42,760
Speaker 1: to see with the kids. I think that's really awesome.

818
00:44:43,120 --> 00:44:47,200
Speaker 1: But for me, you know, I like my alone time.

819
00:44:47,280 --> 00:44:49,439
Speaker 1: I like doing things on my own. I like going

820
00:44:49,480 --> 00:44:52,560
Speaker 1: to eat by myself. I like, like, I'm I've always

821
00:44:52,560 --> 00:44:57,799
Speaker 1: been that way, pretty independent in that sense. But I

822
00:44:57,840 --> 00:45:00,520
Speaker 1: also make sure that you know, I, hey, this is

823
00:45:00,560 --> 00:45:03,239
Speaker 1: the thing. And I always say this to moms like

824
00:45:03,840 --> 00:45:07,640
Speaker 1: and parents period. I think that we have like less

825
00:45:07,680 --> 00:45:10,840
Speaker 1: sleep because once I get the kids to bed, I'm like, Okay,

826
00:45:10,840 --> 00:45:13,799
Speaker 1: this is my time now, and when I'm up until

827
00:45:13,840 --> 00:45:16,239
Speaker 1: three o'clock in the morning, like scrolling wondering why I'm

828
00:45:16,280 --> 00:45:18,840
Speaker 1: tired when the kids come into my room at five,

829
00:45:19,360 --> 00:45:23,160
Speaker 1: you know. But yeah, I just I think, like after

830
00:45:23,160 --> 00:45:24,920
Speaker 1: the kids go to bed, like that's kind of my

831
00:45:25,480 --> 00:45:27,520
Speaker 1: time when I get to like, you know, watch what I.

832
00:45:27,480 --> 00:45:32,520
Speaker 3: Want to watch or scroll and yeah, yeah, you mentioned

833
00:45:32,600 --> 00:45:35,120
Speaker 3: originally kind of getting back into the game being a

834
00:45:35,200 --> 00:45:39,200
Speaker 3: quote unquote bigger version of yourself. I would be curious

835
00:45:39,200 --> 00:45:41,480
Speaker 3: to know if you felt pressure to get back to

836
00:45:41,520 --> 00:45:44,759
Speaker 3: your quote unquote playing weight and what were the factors

837
00:45:44,800 --> 00:45:49,479
Speaker 3: that played into how you got back to feeling more

838
00:45:49,560 --> 00:45:52,319
Speaker 3: like yourself and your body maybe your nutrition or your

839
00:45:52,360 --> 00:45:53,719
Speaker 3: workouts or stuff like that.

840
00:45:55,200 --> 00:46:00,080
Speaker 1: Okay, so this is not true for everyone, but everyone's like, oh,

841
00:46:00,280 --> 00:46:01,000
Speaker 1: just breastfeed.

842
00:46:01,520 --> 00:46:05,440
Speaker 4: No, my body held on to all of my.

843
00:46:05,640 --> 00:46:08,799
Speaker 1: Pregnancy weight as I was breastfeeding, so I did not

844
00:46:09,080 --> 00:46:12,400
Speaker 1: lose weight until after I stopped breastfeeding, which was like

845
00:46:12,680 --> 00:46:16,360
Speaker 1: nine months later. And that was really hard for me

846
00:46:16,560 --> 00:46:20,480
Speaker 1: because you know, like my body is my job, and

847
00:46:20,600 --> 00:46:25,200
Speaker 1: like I feel ginormous, I feel and like I feel

848
00:46:25,200 --> 00:46:29,520
Speaker 1: like a cow. I am basically a cow, like a

849
00:46:29,680 --> 00:46:34,200
Speaker 1: milk producing cow, and so that was really hard for me.

850
00:46:34,920 --> 00:46:36,960
Speaker 1: But I also knew that like, you know, this is

851
00:46:37,000 --> 00:46:39,560
Speaker 1: what she needed and I was. I was able to

852
00:46:39,560 --> 00:46:41,000
Speaker 1: do that, and I had a lot of friends who

853
00:46:41,040 --> 00:46:43,280
Speaker 1: weren't able to do that and that they were so upset,

854
00:46:43,320 --> 00:46:45,760
Speaker 1: and there was so you know, there's so much pressure

855
00:46:45,760 --> 00:46:48,239
Speaker 1: around breastfeeding, around doing all of these things that you're

856
00:46:48,280 --> 00:46:51,120
Speaker 1: supposed to do. That was kind of a little, a

857
00:46:51,120 --> 00:46:53,319
Speaker 1: little mind game with myself that I would always have

858
00:46:53,400 --> 00:46:56,640
Speaker 1: to tell myself, like, look, you are, You'll get back

859
00:46:56,680 --> 00:46:57,440
Speaker 1: to your.

860
00:46:57,200 --> 00:46:59,400
Speaker 4: Your playing weight. You'll be fine, You'll be fine.

861
00:47:00,200 --> 00:47:03,200
Speaker 1: And then of course once I stopped breastfeeding, then you know,

862
00:47:03,280 --> 00:47:07,439
Speaker 1: everything kind of came into play and it was, yeah,

863
00:47:07,680 --> 00:47:10,080
Speaker 1: it was I was able to get back to my

864
00:47:10,080 --> 00:47:14,600
Speaker 1: my pre pregnancy weight and yeah, and now I just

865
00:47:14,680 --> 00:47:19,040
Speaker 1: like I even now like I make sure that like

866
00:47:19,160 --> 00:47:23,399
Speaker 1: nutrition is is huge, and especially like as as a

867
00:47:23,440 --> 00:47:24,520
Speaker 1: mom that like is.

868
00:47:24,600 --> 00:47:28,280
Speaker 4: Very busy, Like I forget, you know, I forget.

869
00:47:28,320 --> 00:47:31,080
Speaker 1: So I always keep a perfect bar in my bag,

870
00:47:32,520 --> 00:47:34,799
Speaker 1: even the snack sized ones for the kids because we're

871
00:47:34,840 --> 00:47:38,000
Speaker 1: always on the go. But I always have to make

872
00:47:38,000 --> 00:47:40,640
Speaker 1: sure that I have something because I do get absolutely

873
00:47:40,760 --> 00:47:45,160
Speaker 1: angry hangry, and like it changes my entire mood.

874
00:47:45,280 --> 00:47:47,080
Speaker 4: So that is my thing.

875
00:47:47,200 --> 00:47:52,200
Speaker 3: Now, I totally understand. I don't want to use the

876
00:47:52,200 --> 00:47:56,920
Speaker 3: word addiction because it's not okay, but I had such

877
00:47:57,040 --> 00:48:01,759
Speaker 3: a thing for the coconut peanut butter perfect bar yours.

878
00:48:01,760 --> 00:48:06,360
Speaker 2: Like face, Oh, oh my god, so good.

879
00:48:06,440 --> 00:48:08,480
Speaker 3: I couldn't. I used to be big into CrossFit. I

880
00:48:08,480 --> 00:48:10,839
Speaker 3: couldn't leave the crossbit gym without one.

881
00:48:11,600 --> 00:48:13,959
Speaker 4: Yeah, I literally always have them in my bag.

882
00:48:14,800 --> 00:48:15,520
Speaker 2: Oh my gosh.

883
00:48:15,560 --> 00:48:18,439
Speaker 3: Well, I love that you are, you know, thinking about

884
00:48:18,480 --> 00:48:21,240
Speaker 3: your nutrition on the go, and I would be remiss

885
00:48:21,239 --> 00:48:22,360
Speaker 3: if I didn't double click.

886
00:48:22,920 --> 00:48:23,399
Speaker 2: I'll bite.

887
00:48:23,400 --> 00:48:27,040
Speaker 3: Briefly, you did mention being a single mom and that

888
00:48:27,200 --> 00:48:29,920
Speaker 3: kind of coming off of the heels of I mean,

889
00:48:30,000 --> 00:48:31,800
Speaker 3: it's so weird to say, the heels of the pandemic,

890
00:48:31,880 --> 00:48:33,759
Speaker 3: being that we're still kind of in it now. But

891
00:48:34,280 --> 00:48:35,920
Speaker 3: can you talk a little bit about what that was

892
00:48:36,040 --> 00:48:38,759
Speaker 3: like for you to make that adjustment, being at the

893
00:48:38,840 --> 00:48:41,239
Speaker 3: time a mother of two and also getting back into

894
00:48:41,280 --> 00:48:41,600
Speaker 3: the game.

895
00:48:42,000 --> 00:48:43,040
Speaker 4: Yeah.

896
00:48:43,120 --> 00:48:48,080
Speaker 1: Yeah, the adjustment was was wild because everything just stopped.

897
00:48:49,719 --> 00:48:54,200
Speaker 1: The world stopped, and I was just like, Okay, what

898
00:48:54,200 --> 00:48:58,120
Speaker 1: do we do from here now? But you and like

899
00:48:58,360 --> 00:49:01,080
Speaker 1: remember like when the pandemic first happened, it was like

900
00:49:01,239 --> 00:49:04,040
Speaker 1: terrifying to even go outside, Like we were all just

901
00:49:04,160 --> 00:49:07,759
Speaker 1: like locked in our house, like with no idea what

902
00:49:07,840 --> 00:49:10,440
Speaker 1: was happening in the world, and it was just so scary.

903
00:49:11,400 --> 00:49:15,120
Speaker 1: But I do feel like that year, like with my family,

904
00:49:15,200 --> 00:49:18,680
Speaker 1: with Dom and the kids, like the pandemic year was

905
00:49:18,920 --> 00:49:21,440
Speaker 1: like we were home, you know. It was the first

906
00:49:21,480 --> 00:49:24,120
Speaker 1: time that like we weren't traveling, and we weren't doing

907
00:49:24,160 --> 00:49:26,480
Speaker 1: all these other things, and we had just moved into

908
00:49:26,520 --> 00:49:29,719
Speaker 1: our house. And twenty twenty was like when we had

909
00:49:29,719 --> 00:49:33,480
Speaker 1: that time just at home and like trying.

910
00:49:33,239 --> 00:49:35,800
Speaker 4: To figure out what to do with the crazy kids.

911
00:49:35,800 --> 00:49:36,000
Speaker 4: It was.

912
00:49:36,160 --> 00:49:40,000
Speaker 3: It was really nice the crazy kids and now making

913
00:49:40,080 --> 00:49:44,040
Speaker 3: time for yourselves scrolling until three am? Anything else are

914
00:49:44,080 --> 00:49:47,080
Speaker 3: you in on the meditation breathwork train talk to us

915
00:49:47,080 --> 00:49:48,839
Speaker 3: about other aspects of self care here?

916
00:49:49,320 --> 00:49:55,000
Speaker 1: Yeah, you know, I love going shopping. That is my

917
00:49:55,200 --> 00:49:58,759
Speaker 1: self care. It's probably not good for me, but I

918
00:49:58,800 --> 00:49:59,560
Speaker 1: love shopping.

919
00:49:59,600 --> 00:50:00,439
Speaker 4: That is my thing.

920
00:50:01,480 --> 00:50:01,920
Speaker 2: That is.

921
00:50:02,239 --> 00:50:05,160
Speaker 3: People say that meditation and breath work is good, but

922
00:50:05,320 --> 00:50:07,440
Speaker 3: do they indulge in retailing.

923
00:50:08,239 --> 00:50:09,840
Speaker 4: It's retail therapy for me.

924
00:50:10,200 --> 00:50:15,480
Speaker 3: Yeah, absolutely, So talk to us about what excites you

925
00:50:15,600 --> 00:50:16,120
Speaker 3: right now.

926
00:50:16,560 --> 00:50:18,120
Speaker 4: There are a lot of things now.

927
00:50:18,200 --> 00:50:20,120
Speaker 1: I mean, like I said, I find so much joy

928
00:50:20,280 --> 00:50:22,960
Speaker 1: just like being outside with the kids, and you know,

929
00:50:23,080 --> 00:50:26,040
Speaker 1: being in LA and being around my friends and having

930
00:50:26,080 --> 00:50:29,160
Speaker 1: my family closer. Those are all things that like I

931
00:50:29,200 --> 00:50:34,320
Speaker 1: absolutely love. But I also like I love just kind

932
00:50:34,320 --> 00:50:38,880
Speaker 1: of like getting to know myself again and like just

933
00:50:38,960 --> 00:50:42,440
Speaker 1: like being in like just like being by myself and

934
00:50:42,480 --> 00:50:44,040
Speaker 1: like being okay with that.

935
00:50:44,520 --> 00:50:45,560
Speaker 4: I think that's.

936
00:50:45,360 --> 00:50:49,520
Speaker 1: Been really really amazing. And just being able to play

937
00:50:49,560 --> 00:50:54,280
Speaker 1: soccer I had. I had a tough year in Orlando

938
00:50:54,360 --> 00:50:57,279
Speaker 1: before I came here, so being able to you know,

939
00:50:57,360 --> 00:51:00,200
Speaker 1: unfortunately I got injured, but just being able to play

940
00:51:00,840 --> 00:51:03,640
Speaker 1: for Angel City and have a club that really cares

941
00:51:03,640 --> 00:51:06,080
Speaker 1: about their players has been has been a breath of

942
00:51:06,160 --> 00:51:07,040
Speaker 1: fresh air for sure.

943
00:51:07,360 --> 00:51:11,520
Speaker 3: How do you pick yourself up when things feel really tough,

944
00:51:11,600 --> 00:51:14,120
Speaker 3: Like you said, that year was in Orlando.

945
00:51:16,680 --> 00:51:19,640
Speaker 1: You know, I started going to therapy. I think that

946
00:51:19,760 --> 00:51:22,400
Speaker 1: has been really helpful. Like I was never like a

947
00:51:22,400 --> 00:51:25,239
Speaker 1: therapy person. I was always like it's fine, like I'll

948
00:51:25,239 --> 00:51:27,600
Speaker 1: get over it. But like I think, like being able

949
00:51:27,640 --> 00:51:30,200
Speaker 1: to like do a deep dive into like how you

950
00:51:30,280 --> 00:51:32,799
Speaker 1: feel and like how to get out of these feelings

951
00:51:32,880 --> 00:51:36,160
Speaker 1: or like how to you know, make those feelings positive,

952
00:51:36,960 --> 00:51:39,520
Speaker 1: I think has been really helpful for me, and I

953
00:51:39,520 --> 00:51:40,560
Speaker 1: think everyone should.

954
00:51:40,320 --> 00:51:43,359
Speaker 4: Go to therapy. To be honest, it is so it

955
00:51:43,440 --> 00:51:44,120
Speaker 4: is so helpful.

956
00:51:44,560 --> 00:51:45,680
Speaker 2: I won't even lie to you.

957
00:51:45,760 --> 00:51:48,760
Speaker 3: When I get off of this recording in four minutes,

958
00:51:48,800 --> 00:51:50,960
Speaker 3: that's exactly what I'm going to do.

959
00:51:51,640 --> 00:51:54,280
Speaker 4: I was late because I came from therapy.

960
00:51:54,400 --> 00:51:56,920
Speaker 3: So wow, see, look at us sandwich like this, with

961
00:51:57,000 --> 00:52:01,080
Speaker 3: our prioritizing our mental health exactly.

962
00:52:01,080 --> 00:52:01,600
Speaker 2: I love it.

963
00:52:01,680 --> 00:52:02,120
Speaker 4: I love it.

964
00:52:02,160 --> 00:52:02,399
Speaker 2: Well.

965
00:52:02,560 --> 00:52:06,520
Speaker 3: Someone comes to your Instagram page, they see a beautiful

966
00:52:06,600 --> 00:52:10,560
Speaker 3: mama who also happens to be a soccer player. When

967
00:52:10,560 --> 00:52:13,160
Speaker 3: you look in the mirror, what is it that you

968
00:52:13,239 --> 00:52:15,000
Speaker 3: see looking back at you?

969
00:52:15,640 --> 00:52:20,680
Speaker 4: Wow? Oh, I don't know.

970
00:52:20,800 --> 00:52:25,640
Speaker 1: I see like someone really strong, someone who's been through

971
00:52:25,640 --> 00:52:32,400
Speaker 1: some shit, for sure, but I see happiness. I see

972
00:52:33,200 --> 00:52:37,960
Speaker 1: I'm proud. I'm proud of myself I'm proud of the

973
00:52:38,000 --> 00:52:42,360
Speaker 1: work that I've done. I'm proud of my babies. I

974
00:52:42,520 --> 00:52:45,399
Speaker 1: just yeah, I think like I look in the mirror

975
00:52:45,440 --> 00:52:47,400
Speaker 1: and I'm proud.

976
00:52:48,320 --> 00:52:49,240
Speaker 2: I love that answer.

977
00:52:49,840 --> 00:52:52,560
Speaker 3: All right, winding down here right now, you have an

978
00:52:52,600 --> 00:52:57,040
Speaker 3: opportunity to give yourself a piece of advice. Let's say,

979
00:52:57,320 --> 00:53:00,319
Speaker 3: looking back during those tough times in Orlando, you have

980
00:53:00,360 --> 00:53:04,440
Speaker 3: an opportunity now to look back on that time with

981
00:53:04,719 --> 00:53:07,000
Speaker 3: the wisdom, the intel, the know how you have.

982
00:53:07,320 --> 00:53:11,320
Speaker 2: Now, what advice do you give yourself.

983
00:53:11,840 --> 00:53:16,480
Speaker 1: That I did absolutely everything right, that I stuck out

984
00:53:16,480 --> 00:53:19,960
Speaker 1: for people. Yeah, and I had a voice to do so,

985
00:53:20,320 --> 00:53:22,600
Speaker 1: and I'm really happy that I.

986
00:53:22,600 --> 00:53:23,520
Speaker 4: Used that voice.

987
00:53:24,719 --> 00:53:28,759
Speaker 1: And sometimes you think that you're crazy because sometimes people

988
00:53:28,800 --> 00:53:32,000
Speaker 1: don't believe you, or you know you're the only one,

989
00:53:32,280 --> 00:53:35,520
Speaker 1: or something's happening and nothing's coming out of it. But

990
00:53:36,480 --> 00:53:41,239
Speaker 1: I think doing the right thing always, no matter what.

991
00:53:41,719 --> 00:53:43,799
Speaker 1: And I feel like that's that's what I did.

992
00:53:44,440 --> 00:53:49,440
Speaker 3: To someone who maybe feels like they don't have that superpower,

993
00:53:49,880 --> 00:53:53,560
Speaker 3: that ability to speak up, that ability to stand on

994
00:53:53,600 --> 00:53:56,520
Speaker 3: their own two feet when times feel hard, what do

995
00:53:56,560 --> 00:53:58,120
Speaker 3: you say to them?

996
00:53:58,440 --> 00:54:00,760
Speaker 1: Even if you don't feel like you have a voice,

997
00:54:01,040 --> 00:54:04,840
Speaker 1: you do someone will always be willing to listen. And

998
00:54:05,080 --> 00:54:08,120
Speaker 1: I think that's that's been my biggest thing now being

999
00:54:08,120 --> 00:54:10,560
Speaker 1: a veteran player is like, oh, I'm going to have

1000
00:54:10,600 --> 00:54:13,880
Speaker 1: your back no matter what. Like the young players coming

1001
00:54:13,880 --> 00:54:16,400
Speaker 1: in to like always feel like they can trust me

1002
00:54:17,360 --> 00:54:20,040
Speaker 1: and to always feel like you can talk because I

1003
00:54:20,160 --> 00:54:22,440
Speaker 1: know that that's you know, that is such a big,

1004
00:54:23,000 --> 00:54:25,880
Speaker 1: big problem is that we feel like, oh, maybe I

1005
00:54:25,920 --> 00:54:28,839
Speaker 1: don't have the voice to do this, and you know,

1006
00:54:29,040 --> 00:54:31,279
Speaker 1: I didn't always have the voice to do that, but

1007
00:54:31,320 --> 00:54:34,480
Speaker 1: I always told the truth and I always did what

1008
00:54:34,600 --> 00:54:35,879
Speaker 1: I felt was right.

1009
00:54:36,120 --> 00:54:39,600
Speaker 4: And you know, it took a lot.

1010
00:54:39,360 --> 00:54:43,279
Speaker 1: Of years for sometimes those truths to come out, but

1011
00:54:43,960 --> 00:54:44,879
Speaker 1: they eventually did.

1012
00:54:44,920 --> 00:54:47,960
Speaker 4: And I do feel like.

1013
00:54:47,040 --> 00:54:50,040
Speaker 1: Like you feel crazy in the moment, but now I'm like,

1014
00:54:50,120 --> 00:54:52,719
Speaker 1: oh my goodness, like I did. I did tell the

1015
00:54:52,760 --> 00:54:56,879
Speaker 1: truth and I was right and and those all all

1016
00:54:56,920 --> 00:54:59,600
Speaker 1: were the things, and you know, sometimes they just don't

1017
00:54:59,640 --> 00:55:03,839
Speaker 1: like the me, and that's okay. But I think being

1018
00:55:03,840 --> 00:55:07,440
Speaker 1: the messenger for anyone and speaking up for yourself and

1019
00:55:08,480 --> 00:55:11,840
Speaker 1: saying when something's not right, even if even if you

1020
00:55:12,880 --> 00:55:16,960
Speaker 1: your voice is shaking, you know, I think that is

1021
00:55:17,080 --> 00:55:18,839
Speaker 1: like the best advice that I have.

1022
00:55:19,840 --> 00:55:22,720
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, well, thank you. For using your voice.

1023
00:55:22,800 --> 00:55:25,879
Speaker 3: It makes so many people are better for it, and

1024
00:55:25,960 --> 00:55:29,160
Speaker 3: I appreciate you giving it to us today.

1025
00:55:29,800 --> 00:55:32,640
Speaker 2: For Hurdle. How do the hurdlers follow along with you? Sidney?

1026
00:55:32,640 --> 00:55:35,319
Speaker 2: How do they keep up with you? Give us your details?

1027
00:55:35,520 --> 00:55:39,280
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's just easy. It's just my name, Sydney LaRue.

1028
00:55:40,200 --> 00:55:44,360
Speaker 1: I have Twitter and Instagram and now I'm on TikTok.

1029
00:55:44,520 --> 00:55:45,799
Speaker 4: I'm not very good at it.

1030
00:55:47,400 --> 00:55:49,040
Speaker 3: All right, Well, I'm going to go follow you over

1031
00:55:49,120 --> 00:55:53,239
Speaker 3: on TikTok. I'm over at Emily Bodi and at Hurdle Podcast.

1032
00:55:53,480 --> 00:55:56,560
Speaker 3: Another hurdle conquered. Catch you guys next time