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Speaker 3: I wanted to do with Shot in the Dark. Shot

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Speaker 3: in the Dark. Now you're ready to run here, Now

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Speaker 3: we're pros. You've been Wow.

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Speaker 1: So cool.

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Speaker 2: Hello everyone, Happy Friday, Happy Friday, Chip.

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Speaker 3: Happy Friday. I know we're faking it, so biz Baby

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Speaker 3: Razzle Dazzle.

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Speaker 2: It's Tuesday for us, but this will be airing on Friday.

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Speaker 2: I'm actually traveling, so we are getting ahead of schedule.

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Speaker 2: I enjoy being ahead of schedule on the podcast.

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Speaker 3: It's less stressful for sure, because I feel like when

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Speaker 3: We gotta get this ship up.

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Speaker 2: you like have the time off, which is amazing, but

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Speaker 2: We're just like real life situations. Do you want to

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Speaker 2: But it was really fun. My client kit Moore was playing,

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Speaker 2: now hopefully it's like no, we know, Chip can't be

442
00:20:21,720 --> 00:20:24,640
Speaker 2: walked all over or whatever it is, and or it's

443
00:20:24,680 --> 00:20:26,360
Speaker 2: going to be called to the table and I'm gonna

444
00:20:26,359 --> 00:20:30,040
Speaker 2: have to actually deal. And so yeah, like I just

445
00:20:30,080 --> 00:20:31,960
Speaker 2: think that you did a really good job. I'm glad

446
00:20:31,960 --> 00:20:33,880
Speaker 2: that like what you had learned here.

447
00:20:34,320 --> 00:20:37,640
Speaker 3: Helped with that. Yeah, look at us changing lots. God,

448
00:20:38,440 --> 00:20:42,360
Speaker 3: it's hey, all you know, if we change one life,

449
00:20:42,359 --> 00:20:46,520
Speaker 3: they've done our jobs.

450
00:20:46,600 --> 00:20:51,440
Speaker 2: Yeah, we don't even know if anyone listening.

451
00:20:52,680 --> 00:21:03,840
Speaker 1: This is like our phone call of the week. I

452
00:21:03,880 --> 00:21:05,119
Speaker 1: had a similar situation.

453
00:21:05,400 --> 00:21:09,040
Speaker 2: There wasn't like there hasn't been a specific action that's

454
00:21:09,080 --> 00:21:11,520
Speaker 2: been taken yet, but I've been kind of grappling. It's

455
00:21:11,520 --> 00:21:15,399
Speaker 2: a work slash friendship situation for me, and it plays

456
00:21:15,400 --> 00:21:17,080
Speaker 2: into some other things going on in my life.

457
00:21:17,600 --> 00:21:18,800
Speaker 1: And when I was talking.

458
00:21:18,480 --> 00:21:21,920
Speaker 2: To Terry she I was really like trying to pick

459
00:21:21,960 --> 00:21:25,840
Speaker 2: her brain about healthy confrontation, because I know I've definitely

460
00:21:25,840 --> 00:21:28,160
Speaker 2: played my part in unhealthy confrontation in.

461
00:21:28,119 --> 00:21:31,240
Speaker 1: The past, like whether it's that I stuffed.

462
00:21:30,840 --> 00:21:33,719
Speaker 2: Things and then I explode or I'm just not dealing

463
00:21:33,720 --> 00:21:35,760
Speaker 2: with things head on so that I'm I'm like people

464
00:21:35,760 --> 00:21:38,520
Speaker 2: pleasing and trying to keep everyone happy versus actually just

465
00:21:38,560 --> 00:21:41,879
Speaker 2: owning my truth whatever it is. I'm definitely contributed. And

466
00:21:41,920 --> 00:21:44,439
Speaker 2: so I was kind of quizzing her because I don't

467
00:21:44,480 --> 00:21:48,640
Speaker 2: know exactly how to handle this certain situation. And one

468
00:21:48,640 --> 00:21:51,080
Speaker 2: of the issues is is that the person that I'm

469
00:21:51,119 --> 00:21:53,879
Speaker 2: in this situation with, I'm not sure how they're going

470
00:21:53,960 --> 00:21:57,240
Speaker 2: to take it, and so like I feel like I

471
00:21:57,280 --> 00:21:59,320
Speaker 2: want a tiptoe and I want to you know, I'm

472
00:21:59,320 --> 00:22:01,639
Speaker 2: doing the thing where I'm like, well, if I just

473
00:22:01,800 --> 00:22:04,960
Speaker 2: say it this one right way, like then everything might

474
00:22:05,000 --> 00:22:07,359
Speaker 2: be fine. And so that puts so much pressure on

475
00:22:07,400 --> 00:22:10,880
Speaker 2: how I handle it, first of all, but second of all,

476
00:22:10,960 --> 00:22:13,719
Speaker 2: it's just like I'm not being authentic again when I'm

477
00:22:13,800 --> 00:22:16,760
Speaker 2: doing that, I'm people pleasing or being codependent or whatever

478
00:22:16,760 --> 00:22:19,480
Speaker 2: you want to call it. And so I really got

479
00:22:19,480 --> 00:22:21,960
Speaker 2: to the fact of like I can only do my

480
00:22:22,200 --> 00:22:25,440
Speaker 2: part in confrontation in general, like I want to make

481
00:22:25,440 --> 00:22:28,399
Speaker 2: sure that I'm bringing the healthiest version of that that

482
00:22:28,480 --> 00:22:32,320
Speaker 2: I can, you know, to the table, but like the

483
00:22:32,400 --> 00:22:34,239
Speaker 2: other side of it is the other side of it,

484
00:22:34,320 --> 00:22:36,640
Speaker 2: and I can't control it, Like I can't control how

485
00:22:36,640 --> 00:22:39,760
Speaker 2: that person reacts, I can't control how they take what

486
00:22:39,840 --> 00:22:42,439
Speaker 2: I say, I can't control what they do with it after,

487
00:22:42,960 --> 00:22:45,159
Speaker 2: and so I have to release them and know that

488
00:22:45,280 --> 00:22:49,280
Speaker 2: Like in my life, I genuinely at this point at

489
00:22:49,440 --> 00:22:54,840
Speaker 2: almost forty one next month, by the way, is it

490
00:22:55,440 --> 00:22:58,520
Speaker 2: just kidding? No, I do I feel good? I love forties.

491
00:23:00,480 --> 00:23:02,959
Speaker 2: But yeah, like at this point in my life, I

492
00:23:03,040 --> 00:23:06,760
Speaker 2: really don't want relationships even if their work or whatever

493
00:23:06,800 --> 00:23:11,640
Speaker 2: they are work friendship's romantic, where healthy confrontation isn't happening,

494
00:23:12,280 --> 00:23:15,479
Speaker 2: or that confrontation in general is just one sided. Like

495
00:23:16,200 --> 00:23:19,000
Speaker 2: if I can't bring that to the table and it

496
00:23:19,119 --> 00:23:21,840
Speaker 2: be received, I'm not sure, that's a healthy situation for

497
00:23:21,840 --> 00:23:23,200
Speaker 2: me to be in period.

498
00:23:23,240 --> 00:23:26,600
Speaker 3: Right, Yeah, I mean you certainly cannot control anyone else's

499
00:23:26,720 --> 00:23:29,680
Speaker 3: reaction to it. What you control is your method of

500
00:23:29,720 --> 00:23:32,600
Speaker 3: delivering it. It's going to be with kindness and caring.

501
00:23:33,119 --> 00:23:35,360
Speaker 3: You can control like when you do it, because timing

502
00:23:35,400 --> 00:23:37,439
Speaker 3: can be everything you're not going to want to, like

503
00:23:37,880 --> 00:23:39,639
Speaker 3: when it's a really bad moment for the person to

504
00:23:39,680 --> 00:23:42,919
Speaker 3: receive it and drop bombs and yeah and that like

505
00:23:43,080 --> 00:23:44,840
Speaker 3: and also too if you at the end of it,

506
00:23:44,880 --> 00:23:46,399
Speaker 3: you can be like, I hope this is something that

507
00:23:46,440 --> 00:23:49,120
Speaker 3: we can get through. I really value our friendship like totally.

508
00:23:49,720 --> 00:23:51,240
Speaker 3: Then that's all you can do.

509
00:23:51,359 --> 00:23:53,639
Speaker 2: And then it's like up to them to take care

510
00:23:53,640 --> 00:23:56,280
Speaker 2: of their side of the street. It's scary, I would

511
00:23:56,320 --> 00:24:00,000
Speaker 2: I would be lying if I didn't say, especially because

512
00:24:00,000 --> 00:24:02,080
Speaker 2: because of how I've been in the past. You know,

513
00:24:02,160 --> 00:24:04,680
Speaker 2: I think when you're trying to change behaviors, it feels

514
00:24:04,760 --> 00:24:08,000
Speaker 2: really uncomfortable at first, but I also feel.

515
00:24:07,840 --> 00:24:08,719
Speaker 1: Very at peace.

516
00:24:09,040 --> 00:24:12,880
Speaker 2: And this month with our topics, it's just really reiterated

517
00:24:12,920 --> 00:24:16,240
Speaker 2: to me, like I have to confront the my own

518
00:24:16,280 --> 00:24:18,359
Speaker 2: shit in my own life, and that means.

519
00:24:18,200 --> 00:24:19,080
Speaker 1: Good and bad.

520
00:24:19,200 --> 00:24:21,280
Speaker 2: Like we've had a lot of other guests, or I've

521
00:24:21,280 --> 00:24:22,920
Speaker 2: had a lot of other guests on the velvet side

522
00:24:22,920 --> 00:24:29,359
Speaker 2: of things who have faced challenges or themselves and just

523
00:24:29,359 --> 00:24:31,679
Speaker 2: like face them head on and they're like, Hey, this

524
00:24:31,800 --> 00:24:33,520
Speaker 2: is what I want for my life. And I feel

525
00:24:33,600 --> 00:24:35,679
Speaker 2: I feel like very in that time of my life,

526
00:24:35,680 --> 00:24:37,760
Speaker 2: like this is what I want for my life, This

527
00:24:37,800 --> 00:24:40,240
Speaker 2: is the kind of relationships that I want, This is

528
00:24:40,280 --> 00:24:42,840
Speaker 2: who I want to be, and all I can do

529
00:24:42,960 --> 00:24:45,040
Speaker 2: is operate that way and then everything else is.

530
00:24:45,080 --> 00:24:48,240
Speaker 1: Up to the universe. So right, yeah, we should.

531
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Speaker 3: I think it's a really powerful, mature place to be.

532
00:24:50,280 --> 00:24:53,120
Speaker 3: And I know whenever I have someone that comes to

533
00:24:53,160 --> 00:24:58,200
Speaker 3: me and maturely confront something, I always appreciate it.

534
00:24:58,680 --> 00:25:01,879
Speaker 2: Me too, and that but to me, that shows the

535
00:25:01,880 --> 00:25:04,520
Speaker 2: health of the other person, you know, I mean, or

536
00:25:04,560 --> 00:25:08,359
Speaker 2: it's like sometimes we have reactions initially and then we

537
00:25:08,359 --> 00:25:11,080
Speaker 2: can process through them. But like if a person isn't

538
00:25:11,119 --> 00:25:14,159
Speaker 2: capable of that, like what am I doing wasting my

539
00:25:14,280 --> 00:25:16,920
Speaker 2: energy and time? Like I have spent way too many

540
00:25:16,960 --> 00:25:20,919
Speaker 2: years trying to like hold the relationship for both people

541
00:25:20,960 --> 00:25:23,920
Speaker 2: and I cannot do that anymore. Like it it's literally

542
00:25:23,920 --> 00:25:27,840
Speaker 2: almost killed me. So yeah, so I don't know It

543
00:25:27,880 --> 00:25:30,080
Speaker 2: was very freeing when I got to that piece and

544
00:25:30,160 --> 00:25:33,240
Speaker 2: just kind of like settling into you know, I can

545
00:25:33,240 --> 00:25:34,000
Speaker 2: only do my part.

546
00:25:34,200 --> 00:25:36,080
Speaker 1: We'll see what happens there you go.

547
00:25:37,040 --> 00:25:39,359
Speaker 2: We did have a couple of emails come in that

548
00:25:39,440 --> 00:25:44,080
Speaker 2: specifically to me, asked questions that felt confronting. So should

549
00:25:44,080 --> 00:25:47,320
Speaker 2: we should we give the listeners little advice? So we've

550
00:25:47,560 --> 00:25:51,160
Speaker 2: we've not done this in a minute to have started

551
00:25:51,200 --> 00:25:52,240
Speaker 2: reading an email as.

552
00:25:52,119 --> 00:25:54,320
Speaker 3: I said that I'm here, I'm here.

553
00:25:54,359 --> 00:25:59,040
Speaker 1: Are you typing? I'm trying it. Let's confront this. Okay.

554
00:25:59,760 --> 00:26:02,480
Speaker 2: This came from Megan. She said, Hi, love your pod.

555
00:26:02,800 --> 00:26:05,760
Speaker 2: Just ended things with my boyfriend of three point five years.

556
00:26:06,160 --> 00:26:08,639
Speaker 2: Any insight on how to move forward, especially with the

557
00:26:08,640 --> 00:26:12,840
Speaker 2: feeling of shame around being alone but now, but no,

558
00:26:13,000 --> 00:26:16,840
Speaker 2: he's not the person for me in your thirties. So

559
00:26:16,880 --> 00:26:18,600
Speaker 2: she basically got to the point where she's like, this

560
00:26:18,640 --> 00:26:22,280
Speaker 2: is not my person. Timeline sucks because like time's ticking.

561
00:26:22,359 --> 00:26:25,560
Speaker 2: I'm sure that's the pressure we feel as women, right, Yeah,

562
00:26:25,600 --> 00:26:27,920
Speaker 2: you've mentioned before that you don't really relate to this

563
00:26:28,040 --> 00:26:28,360
Speaker 2: at all.

564
00:26:29,040 --> 00:26:31,600
Speaker 3: Well no, not really. I mean I can relate to

565
00:26:32,119 --> 00:26:35,200
Speaker 3: the like being in a relationship where you're like, oh, fuck,

566
00:26:35,280 --> 00:26:38,840
Speaker 3: this isn't the right thing. Yeah, but there being other

567
00:26:39,080 --> 00:26:41,760
Speaker 3: factors that make it scary to end it, you know,

568
00:26:41,880 --> 00:26:44,199
Speaker 3: Like you know, I moved here with a boyfriend and

569
00:26:44,240 --> 00:26:46,159
Speaker 3: we were like living in a house together, and it

570
00:26:46,240 --> 00:26:48,879
Speaker 3: was like right, he was going to be homeless, you know,

571
00:26:49,400 --> 00:26:52,240
Speaker 3: I know. Yeah, So I mean there are those those

572
00:26:52,280 --> 00:26:56,320
Speaker 3: things that like affect a decision. But yeah, the ticking

573
00:26:56,359 --> 00:27:00,320
Speaker 3: time of like you know, what's it called nature's clock?

574
00:27:00,400 --> 00:27:01,000
Speaker 3: What do you call that?

575
00:27:03,880 --> 00:27:05,440
Speaker 2: I sort of feel like this is when you send

576
00:27:05,480 --> 00:27:08,000
Speaker 2: me like all the memes about vaginas, Like I love

577
00:27:08,040 --> 00:27:09,400
Speaker 2: when you try to reference.

578
00:27:09,040 --> 00:27:11,200
Speaker 3: Anything about what is that called?

579
00:27:11,240 --> 00:27:11,480
Speaker 2: Though?

580
00:27:12,200 --> 00:27:12,480
Speaker 3: Yeah?

581
00:27:12,520 --> 00:27:16,120
Speaker 1: Like nature? I guess like I actually don't know.

582
00:27:16,119 --> 00:27:18,679
Speaker 3: Something, Yeah, like your internal clock.

583
00:27:18,520 --> 00:27:21,680
Speaker 2: Like internal clock maybe that's yeah, whatever, biological.

584
00:27:21,080 --> 00:27:26,800
Speaker 3: Clock, biological clock, that's that's the wording. Okay, So yeah,

585
00:27:26,800 --> 00:27:29,159
Speaker 3: I mean I that that I don't relate to, but

586
00:27:29,640 --> 00:27:31,880
Speaker 3: I you know, I will say that, like, as scary

587
00:27:31,920 --> 00:27:33,880
Speaker 3: as it is, it's a lot scary to be stuck

588
00:27:33,880 --> 00:27:37,640
Speaker 3: in a relationship that's not for you, Amen, and opening

589
00:27:37,640 --> 00:27:42,520
Speaker 3: yourself up to the possibility, opening yourself up to the

590
00:27:42,520 --> 00:27:47,960
Speaker 3: possibility of finding the right person shouldn't be scary because

591
00:27:48,000 --> 00:27:50,119
Speaker 3: now you can you know, so, I think you have

592
00:27:50,160 --> 00:27:53,439
Speaker 3: to look at the positive side of it, and you know,

593
00:27:53,720 --> 00:27:56,280
Speaker 3: I know loneliness is a thing, but like, don't feel shame.

594
00:27:56,320 --> 00:27:59,560
Speaker 3: You should be really proud of yourself for sure taking

595
00:27:59,560 --> 00:28:01,199
Speaker 3: that step, because if that is scary.

596
00:28:01,800 --> 00:28:04,040
Speaker 2: Yeah, I love that you just said that you shouldn't

597
00:28:04,040 --> 00:28:07,560
Speaker 2: feel shame, because it's like, first of all, I guess

598
00:28:07,560 --> 00:28:09,159
Speaker 2: the main thing that came up for me when I

599
00:28:09,160 --> 00:28:13,880
Speaker 2: initially read this was I totally relate in the thirties specifically,

600
00:28:14,000 --> 00:28:16,480
Speaker 2: I think that women feel that pressure immensely.

601
00:28:17,080 --> 00:28:19,040
Speaker 1: Excuse me, I hick up.

602
00:28:20,560 --> 00:28:23,360
Speaker 2: They feel it immensely because like in your twenties, it's

603
00:28:23,400 --> 00:28:26,359
Speaker 2: kind of all fun and games, like you're just having

604
00:28:26,359 --> 00:28:29,720
Speaker 2: crushes all the time. Maybe it doesn't feel very it

605
00:28:29,720 --> 00:28:31,720
Speaker 2: doesn't like feel like it has to be very serious.

606
00:28:31,720 --> 00:28:34,119
Speaker 2: And then when you get to thirty even it starts

607
00:28:34,119 --> 00:28:37,960
Speaker 2: to feel a little more like, Okay, I can't make

608
00:28:37,960 --> 00:28:40,480
Speaker 2: the excuse of I'm in my twenties anymore. I don't

609
00:28:40,480 --> 00:28:42,200
Speaker 2: need to worry about that. I'm just gonna have fun.

610
00:28:42,240 --> 00:28:43,960
Speaker 2: Like you just kind of start to feel like life

611
00:28:44,000 --> 00:28:46,240
Speaker 2: is a little more serious and you're more of an adult.

612
00:28:46,320 --> 00:28:48,480
Speaker 2: And so yeah, you start to look at things a

613
00:28:48,480 --> 00:28:53,200
Speaker 2: little differently. But the thing about the timelines, and I

614
00:28:53,240 --> 00:28:55,560
Speaker 2: do get that it's a little more difficult if you

615
00:28:55,600 --> 00:28:58,560
Speaker 2: want to have kids, But like, ultimately, the main thing

616
00:28:58,600 --> 00:29:01,280
Speaker 2: that I've learned is that shit is made up, like

617
00:29:01,320 --> 00:29:04,400
Speaker 2: it's beat into our head from day one. But it's

618
00:29:04,480 --> 00:29:08,760
Speaker 2: just this like human construct that we've created that isn't real.

619
00:29:09,160 --> 00:29:12,320
Speaker 2: Like everyone in this life is on a different journey,

620
00:29:12,520 --> 00:29:15,280
Speaker 2: and to try to say that we should live our

621
00:29:15,320 --> 00:29:19,160
Speaker 2: lives all the same is fucking ridiculous, Like it's just

622
00:29:19,200 --> 00:29:23,040
Speaker 2: not real. And I'm here to learn my lessons so

623
00:29:23,120 --> 00:29:25,320
Speaker 2: that my soul can evolve, and so are you, and

624
00:29:25,360 --> 00:29:27,440
Speaker 2: so is Megan, and so is her ex and like

625
00:29:27,920 --> 00:29:31,400
Speaker 2: all the things. And if that relationship served its like

626
00:29:31,560 --> 00:29:34,880
Speaker 2: served its purpose for the season that it did, that's okay.

627
00:29:35,040 --> 00:29:38,400
Speaker 2: Like not all relationships are supposed to last forever, and

628
00:29:38,440 --> 00:29:41,240
Speaker 2: in fact, like most won't, you know, But that doesn't

629
00:29:41,280 --> 00:29:44,480
Speaker 2: mean it didn't bring something to your life, into your

630
00:29:44,480 --> 00:29:48,600
Speaker 2: soul for its next evolution. So I guess my like,

631
00:29:49,360 --> 00:29:51,240
Speaker 2: if I have to give one advice, it would be

632
00:29:51,280 --> 00:29:54,000
Speaker 2: to really try to let go of the idea that

633
00:29:54,040 --> 00:29:57,400
Speaker 2: your life needs to look like anyone else's and just

634
00:29:57,520 --> 00:30:00,800
Speaker 2: embrace where you are now and like try to stay

635
00:30:00,840 --> 00:30:03,320
Speaker 2: open to what the universe is bringing to you, because

636
00:30:04,000 --> 00:30:07,080
Speaker 2: you can't bring in new good stuff while you're still

637
00:30:07,080 --> 00:30:09,800
Speaker 2: holding onto the past. Like right, it sounds like that

638
00:30:09,840 --> 00:30:12,720
Speaker 2: relationship wasn't serving you, so like you said, good for

639
00:30:12,800 --> 00:30:15,360
Speaker 2: you for letting it go, and you're just opening yourself

640
00:30:15,440 --> 00:30:19,920
Speaker 2: up to something greater, Like there's only gifts coming your way.

641
00:30:20,040 --> 00:30:20,680
Speaker 1: That's how I.

642
00:30:20,600 --> 00:30:24,800
Speaker 2: Feel, and especially if you stay open to that. Like I'm,

643
00:30:25,120 --> 00:30:27,360
Speaker 2: like I said, about to turn forty one, I have

644
00:30:27,600 --> 00:30:30,000
Speaker 2: absolutely no fear about relationships anymore.

645
00:30:30,120 --> 00:30:30,680
Speaker 1: It's wild.

646
00:30:30,880 --> 00:30:33,320
Speaker 2: Like I used to feel like, oh my god, time

647
00:30:33,400 --> 00:30:36,480
Speaker 2: is ticking, my life is over. I'm never whatever, but

648
00:30:36,680 --> 00:30:39,000
Speaker 2: like I don't feel it, And so it's opened my

649
00:30:39,120 --> 00:30:42,640
Speaker 2: dating life up to so much more fun enjoy and

650
00:30:42,760 --> 00:30:47,360
Speaker 2: everyone who's coming is teaching me something and however long

651
00:30:47,400 --> 00:30:50,560
Speaker 2: they stay great and if they need to go, okay,

652
00:30:50,760 --> 00:30:53,040
Speaker 2: like it's just it'll be okay, you know.

653
00:30:53,360 --> 00:30:54,240
Speaker 3: Right, If you are.

654
00:30:54,120 --> 00:30:57,200
Speaker 2: Worried about kids, go freeze your eggs, start saving your money,

655
00:30:57,280 --> 00:31:01,160
Speaker 2: start doing like you have options, right, So I would

656
00:31:01,200 --> 00:31:04,040
Speaker 2: just really try to let go of fitting your life

657
00:31:04,080 --> 00:31:07,040
Speaker 2: into a little box and like, go do you this

658
00:31:07,120 --> 00:31:08,440
Speaker 2: is the time to shine girl.

659
00:31:08,920 --> 00:31:11,800
Speaker 3: Well yeah, and when doing yourself, that's when someone's going

660
00:31:11,840 --> 00:31:15,160
Speaker 3: to see the authentic you, yes, and be like there's

661
00:31:15,240 --> 00:31:15,960
Speaker 3: my girl y.

662
00:31:16,040 --> 00:31:16,280
Speaker 1: Yes.

663
00:31:17,440 --> 00:31:20,760
Speaker 2: Like getting to know yourself. It's like I kind of

664
00:31:20,760 --> 00:31:23,280
Speaker 2: hate when people talk about you can't love anyone else

665
00:31:23,360 --> 00:31:26,080
Speaker 2: until you love yourself. But I do think the truth

666
00:31:26,120 --> 00:31:30,120
Speaker 2: in that statement is like, until you know yourself, it

667
00:31:30,200 --> 00:31:33,400
Speaker 2: is difficult to find a relationship that works for you,

668
00:31:33,400 --> 00:31:35,280
Speaker 2: you know, because and that was like a lot of

669
00:31:35,360 --> 00:31:37,320
Speaker 2: my thirties was I didn't know who the fuck I

670
00:31:37,560 --> 00:31:40,160
Speaker 2: was at all. I think you guys probably knew me

671
00:31:40,200 --> 00:31:42,160
Speaker 2: more than I knew me, if that makes sense. Like

672
00:31:42,280 --> 00:31:45,440
Speaker 2: I'm talking about my friend group, like you all could

673
00:31:45,520 --> 00:31:48,120
Speaker 2: see who I was more than I could, Like I

674
00:31:48,160 --> 00:31:50,040
Speaker 2: was still testing things out to be like am I

675
00:31:50,160 --> 00:31:51,719
Speaker 2: this person? Am I that person?

676
00:31:51,840 --> 00:31:52,080
Speaker 3: You know?

677
00:31:52,120 --> 00:31:55,640
Speaker 2: And now I can sit a little more confidently and no,

678
00:31:55,760 --> 00:31:58,520
Speaker 2: I am this person. Even the bad parts are like

679
00:31:58,560 --> 00:32:03,280
Speaker 2: the hard parts, and it is interesting, like you said,

680
00:32:03,320 --> 00:32:07,040
Speaker 2: what it's bringing in is so much more aligned and

681
00:32:07,240 --> 00:32:10,640
Speaker 2: makes me so much happier than anything else I've had.

682
00:32:10,960 --> 00:32:13,480
Speaker 3: So look, you're growing too.

683
00:32:14,200 --> 00:32:19,080
Speaker 2: I'm trying always. Okay, here's another one. This one comes

684
00:32:19,080 --> 00:32:21,360
Speaker 2: from Nikki. She said, I'm sorry, I was trying to

685
00:32:21,360 --> 00:32:25,520
Speaker 2: write an email. She's slid into my DMS. I feel like,

686
00:32:26,520 --> 00:32:29,600
Speaker 2: but I feel like I or my job is attracting

687
00:32:29,680 --> 00:32:32,440
Speaker 2: so many people that quote unquote want things from me

688
00:32:32,840 --> 00:32:35,680
Speaker 2: or I find out months later friendships were purely one

689
00:32:35,760 --> 00:32:39,280
Speaker 2: sided so they could enjoy the perks. I even had

690
00:32:39,280 --> 00:32:41,960
Speaker 2: an old friend call me out online for not helping

691
00:32:41,960 --> 00:32:46,400
Speaker 2: her business with my job. I mean, apparently I'm doing

692
00:32:46,440 --> 00:32:50,320
Speaker 2: something right that people want from me, but they don't

693
00:32:50,360 --> 00:32:54,520
Speaker 2: invite me trying to connect because I make things happen.

694
00:32:55,640 --> 00:32:58,400
Speaker 2: So basically she's feeling used is the summary of that.

695
00:32:58,680 --> 00:33:00,560
Speaker 2: But I feel like I'm getting played more and more.

696
00:33:00,640 --> 00:33:03,600
Speaker 2: I love connecting with people, like you say, Kelly, but

697
00:33:03,720 --> 00:33:06,040
Speaker 2: lately the balance is off. I don't want to be

698
00:33:06,120 --> 00:33:08,880
Speaker 2: the planner all the time in work and play. I

699
00:33:08,880 --> 00:33:11,000
Speaker 2: guess it would be like if every person you come

700
00:33:11,040 --> 00:33:14,520
Speaker 2: into contact with constantly ask you if their outfit was good.

701
00:33:15,960 --> 00:33:18,320
Speaker 2: That's funny, you ask me if I look at that,

702
00:33:18,440 --> 00:33:21,720
Speaker 2: and I'm like, nope, not worried about you. I invite

703
00:33:21,720 --> 00:33:24,400
Speaker 2: people to my work events because I can, but not

704
00:33:24,520 --> 00:33:27,040
Speaker 2: everyone gets that invite. But I let friends go because

705
00:33:27,720 --> 00:33:29,680
Speaker 2: I let a friend go because she made judgy comments

706
00:33:29,680 --> 00:33:31,680
Speaker 2: about me while I was in work. Mod I had

707
00:33:31,720 --> 00:33:35,480
Speaker 2: to stop because having her for company while out was

708
00:33:35,520 --> 00:33:39,120
Speaker 2: becoming hurtful. My true friends say, you need celebrity a

709
00:33:39,160 --> 00:33:42,520
Speaker 2: micro celebrity boot camp. Everybody wants to be with you.

710
00:33:42,640 --> 00:33:45,600
Speaker 2: But I feel like I'm not screening situations.

711
00:33:45,600 --> 00:33:46,840
Speaker 3: Well help.

712
00:33:48,360 --> 00:33:50,640
Speaker 1: You might deal with this a little bit in your job.

713
00:33:51,000 --> 00:34:00,320
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, I mean I feel like, hmm, yeah, I

714
00:34:00,520 --> 00:34:02,640
Speaker 3: potentially I do. I don't. I feel like I've I

715
00:34:02,640 --> 00:34:05,480
Speaker 3: surround myself with good people. You do that have like

716
00:34:05,600 --> 00:34:08,480
Speaker 3: gotten I mean probably the worst culprit though, would be

717
00:34:08,480 --> 00:34:11,600
Speaker 3: my sister. But I don't ever feel like she's using me,

718
00:34:11,880 --> 00:34:15,480
Speaker 3: you know, Like I just think that like and and

719
00:34:15,520 --> 00:34:19,080
Speaker 3: it's yeah, I think the one thing she doesn't recognize

720
00:34:19,120 --> 00:34:21,200
Speaker 3: is that, like any favor that I ask on her

721
00:34:21,239 --> 00:34:24,200
Speaker 3: behalf is one less favor that I can ask for myself. Sure,

722
00:34:24,280 --> 00:34:26,640
Speaker 3: you know what I mean. So, but I'm happy to

723
00:34:26,800 --> 00:34:29,279
Speaker 3: like I want to get her whatever she wants, you know, Like,

724
00:34:29,400 --> 00:34:32,719
Speaker 3: I'm yeah to do that. So I haven't really you know,

725
00:34:32,960 --> 00:34:36,160
Speaker 3: It's been very rare that I have felt that I'm

726
00:34:36,200 --> 00:34:41,719
Speaker 3: being used. But the interesting thing is, like sometimes in

727
00:34:41,920 --> 00:34:45,759
Speaker 3: like the dating space, I'm definitely recognized when I am

728
00:34:45,800 --> 00:34:48,080
Speaker 3: trying to like use it to my advantage too, you know.

729
00:34:48,280 --> 00:34:54,640
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, so, and sometimes that's dangerous because then ultimately

730
00:34:54,680 --> 00:34:57,160
Speaker 3: you feel like you're being you Like you're like if

731
00:34:57,160 --> 00:34:59,279
Speaker 3: it doesn't, if you're not clicking, you're like, now they're

732
00:34:59,320 --> 00:35:00,439
Speaker 3: just using me, you know.

733
00:35:00,600 --> 00:35:03,640
Speaker 2: And sure, yeah, but then ultimately you were the one

734
00:35:03,640 --> 00:35:04,560
Speaker 2: who started I was the.

735
00:35:04,520 --> 00:35:06,680
Speaker 3: One that started it. So you know, I think we're

736
00:35:06,719 --> 00:35:09,680
Speaker 3: all a little guilty of it because it's Yeah, I

737
00:35:09,719 --> 00:35:15,200
Speaker 3: think sometimes that you know, it's really important with work

738
00:35:15,360 --> 00:35:20,719
Speaker 3: to not let your work define who you are, I know,

739
00:35:20,840 --> 00:35:24,640
Speaker 3: and in those instances that's like me being like part

740
00:35:24,680 --> 00:35:27,600
Speaker 3: of me is like this special access I can get you,

741
00:35:27,680 --> 00:35:30,000
Speaker 3: and that's not me. You know. If this person is

742
00:35:30,040 --> 00:35:31,440
Speaker 3: not going to like me, they're not going to like me.

743
00:35:31,480 --> 00:35:33,600
Speaker 3: If they're gonna like me, they're gonna like me. Sure,

744
00:35:33,680 --> 00:35:36,440
Speaker 3: no matter what I do. The other stuff is just

745
00:35:36,480 --> 00:35:40,279
Speaker 3: like icing. Yeah, So I do think it's important for

746
00:35:40,360 --> 00:35:43,920
Speaker 3: Niki to like remember that, like her job isn't what

747
00:35:44,000 --> 00:35:47,279
Speaker 3: she does, or isn't her job isn't who she is,

748
00:35:48,120 --> 00:35:51,719
Speaker 3: And if she feels like anyone in her life is

749
00:35:51,800 --> 00:35:54,920
Speaker 3: starting to look at her as her job. Then it's

750
00:35:54,960 --> 00:35:56,960
Speaker 3: probably a good time to stop inviting them to do

751
00:35:57,320 --> 00:36:00,560
Speaker 3: the fun things that your job, you know, in titles

752
00:36:00,600 --> 00:36:04,160
Speaker 3: you too, so that people stop associating and then like

753
00:36:04,640 --> 00:36:08,759
Speaker 3: your real friends will appreciate the time away from work

754
00:36:08,800 --> 00:36:21,600
Speaker 3: with you a lot more. I mean, for us working

755
00:36:21,680 --> 00:36:23,279
Speaker 3: in music, a lot of what I like to do

756
00:36:23,320 --> 00:36:25,520
Speaker 3: in my free time is go to see shows. You know,

757
00:36:25,560 --> 00:36:28,040
Speaker 3: It's just what I love to do. So and it's

758
00:36:28,160 --> 00:36:30,160
Speaker 3: it's harder for me because I don't think of those

759
00:36:30,200 --> 00:36:32,200
Speaker 3: as like work things. I think of those as things

760
00:36:32,200 --> 00:36:34,640
Speaker 3: that I'm getting to do and I want some friends

761
00:36:34,680 --> 00:36:38,000
Speaker 3: to come along with me. So it's a little bit different.

762
00:36:39,280 --> 00:36:41,680
Speaker 2: But don't you feel like, for the most part, like

763
00:36:41,920 --> 00:36:44,520
Speaker 2: you would be talking about when you say friends, you're

764
00:36:44,560 --> 00:36:47,000
Speaker 2: talking about our friends a lot of coworkers well and

765
00:36:47,080 --> 00:36:49,720
Speaker 2: co workers, and it's like people that we've been friends

766
00:36:49,760 --> 00:36:52,880
Speaker 2: with for so long that I think we've developed the

767
00:36:53,080 --> 00:36:57,080
Speaker 2: relationship ahead of time. So like, I guess my point

768
00:36:57,120 --> 00:36:59,640
Speaker 2: is saying, like you made a great point when you said,

769
00:36:59,680 --> 00:37:01,880
Speaker 2: I have to realize when I'm leading with that and

770
00:37:02,080 --> 00:37:05,640
Speaker 2: dating because I don't know these yes, like you have

771
00:37:05,760 --> 00:37:08,800
Speaker 2: to kind of earn that sort that space in your life.

772
00:37:09,040 --> 00:37:11,920
Speaker 2: Mm hm, yes, yeah, correct, I love that point. I

773
00:37:11,920 --> 00:37:16,319
Speaker 2: think that is really great. And also, like I do

774
00:37:16,440 --> 00:37:18,600
Speaker 2: talk about this a lot where I feel like I

775
00:37:18,640 --> 00:37:22,759
Speaker 2: can get in that one sided dynamic where everyone just

776
00:37:22,800 --> 00:37:26,239
Speaker 2: like wants something from me, but like ultimately that's on me.

777
00:37:26,640 --> 00:37:30,440
Speaker 2: It always goes back to me. Like if I have

778
00:37:30,520 --> 00:37:33,200
Speaker 2: actually had a couple friends going through really hard times,

779
00:37:33,880 --> 00:37:37,240
Speaker 2: and I have myself have had a lot on my plate,

780
00:37:37,440 --> 00:37:40,400
Speaker 2: and so I've had to really like catch myself because

781
00:37:40,800 --> 00:37:44,040
Speaker 2: I can start overgiving and taking on their problems as

782
00:37:44,080 --> 00:37:46,239
Speaker 2: my own because I do want to help them. They

783
00:37:46,239 --> 00:37:50,160
Speaker 2: are people that I love. But if it's taking away,

784
00:37:50,239 --> 00:37:52,120
Speaker 2: like if it's giving so much energy that I'm not

785
00:37:52,200 --> 00:37:54,239
Speaker 2: able to function in my own life, that's not good

786
00:37:54,239 --> 00:37:56,280
Speaker 2: for either of us, Like and I know they wouldn't

787
00:37:56,360 --> 00:37:59,640
Speaker 2: ultimately want me to do that, and so that's when

788
00:37:59,640 --> 00:38:01,880
Speaker 2: I have to start setting boundaries. Mostly the boundaries are

789
00:38:01,920 --> 00:38:04,480
Speaker 2: with myself if I'm being really honest, like I feel

790
00:38:04,520 --> 00:38:09,120
Speaker 2: like most of my friends are very accepting of mean

791
00:38:09,280 --> 00:38:12,480
Speaker 2: like needing to stay to boundary. It's mostly like I

792
00:38:12,560 --> 00:38:14,439
Speaker 2: have to watch myself sort of like what you're saying

793
00:38:14,480 --> 00:38:19,080
Speaker 2: with the dating to where I'm holding true to myself

794
00:38:19,160 --> 00:38:22,960
Speaker 2: in my schedule and my needs first, and then when

795
00:38:22,960 --> 00:38:26,000
Speaker 2: i'm my cup is full, saying okay, like what can

796
00:38:26,080 --> 00:38:28,960
Speaker 2: I do? Because if we're depleted in our and we're

797
00:38:29,000 --> 00:38:31,120
Speaker 2: on empty, like we're not good for anyone else either.

798
00:38:31,360 --> 00:38:34,360
Speaker 2: So I think there's it's like a multiple thing. It's like,

799
00:38:34,400 --> 00:38:36,640
Speaker 2: don't lead with that, like you said, like let people

800
00:38:36,680 --> 00:38:39,560
Speaker 2: earn that space in your life. And then also if

801
00:38:39,600 --> 00:38:42,360
Speaker 2: you continuously are finding this dynamic, like it might be

802
00:38:42,400 --> 00:38:45,640
Speaker 2: time to look at why or like how much you're

803
00:38:45,640 --> 00:38:47,799
Speaker 2: giving in a relationship and if you're holding boundaries with

804
00:38:47,840 --> 00:38:51,960
Speaker 2: yourself or kind of cause I think kind of like

805
00:38:52,080 --> 00:38:54,480
Speaker 2: we'll keep attracting the same thing until we learn the

806
00:38:54,520 --> 00:38:58,000
Speaker 2: last thing. So like exactly if you're continuously in that,

807
00:38:58,040 --> 00:38:59,920
Speaker 2: then there's something the universe is trying to show you.

808
00:39:00,680 --> 00:39:03,880
Speaker 2: So that's what I got on that one.

809
00:39:04,360 --> 00:39:04,879
Speaker 3: There you go.

810
00:39:05,239 --> 00:39:09,320
Speaker 2: It's always about looking in the mirror, you know, right, It's.

811
00:39:09,840 --> 00:39:14,040
Speaker 3: Well, especially when it's something that is habitual, is not

812
00:39:14,040 --> 00:39:16,040
Speaker 3: the work. If it's you're seeing it come up a

813
00:39:16,080 --> 00:39:18,799
Speaker 3: lot in your life, Oh yeah, then I think it's

814
00:39:18,800 --> 00:39:20,919
Speaker 3: important to look in the mirror and be like, well,

815
00:39:20,920 --> 00:39:21,600
Speaker 3: maybe it's not.

816
00:39:22,000 --> 00:39:23,200
Speaker 1: What's the common denominated?

817
00:39:24,000 --> 00:39:26,560
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, well yeah, like I talked about that with

818
00:39:27,160 --> 00:39:27,719
Speaker 2: Terry too.

819
00:39:27,719 --> 00:39:28,360
Speaker 1: Should you know?

820
00:39:28,400 --> 00:39:30,520
Speaker 2: Our instinct des humans is to always look at the

821
00:39:30,520 --> 00:39:33,440
Speaker 2: other person. It's so much easier to put blame, like,

822
00:39:33,560 --> 00:39:36,000
Speaker 2: especially when we're confronting new issues in our life. It's

823
00:39:36,040 --> 00:39:38,799
Speaker 2: just like, well they did this, but like, what's your

824
00:39:38,840 --> 00:39:40,719
Speaker 2: part in it? And that's not to say they're not

825
00:39:40,800 --> 00:39:45,160
Speaker 2: doing anything. You just can't control them, so you can

826
00:39:45,160 --> 00:39:54,120
Speaker 2: only control yourself anyway. That's our phase. Uh huh. Do

827
00:39:54,200 --> 00:39:57,960
Speaker 2: you have anything else? I can't even say it without laughing, though.

828
00:39:58,120 --> 00:39:59,320
Speaker 2: Do you have anything else you want to give to

829
00:39:59,360 --> 00:40:02,480
Speaker 2: the people about this month of confrontation or confronting?

830
00:40:03,360 --> 00:40:06,680
Speaker 3: No, I'll just reiterate to like, remember to be as

831
00:40:07,000 --> 00:40:10,440
Speaker 3: kind as possible when confronting things, whether it's to yourself

832
00:40:11,200 --> 00:40:12,360
Speaker 3: or to others.

833
00:40:12,920 --> 00:40:14,880
Speaker 2: Yeah, and if you guys haven't listened to the Terry

834
00:40:14,920 --> 00:40:18,359
Speaker 2: podcast yet, she gave an amazing example of how she

835
00:40:18,440 --> 00:40:22,080
Speaker 2: confronted something with her husband that I loved, Like, she

836
00:40:22,680 --> 00:40:25,080
Speaker 2: sat with it for a minute until she and she

837
00:40:25,160 --> 00:40:27,000
Speaker 2: couldn't like something kept coming.

838
00:40:26,840 --> 00:40:27,319
Speaker 3: Up for her.

839
00:40:27,880 --> 00:40:30,120
Speaker 2: She sat with it to try to figure out but

840
00:40:30,160 --> 00:40:32,520
Speaker 2: it was the behavior he was doing, but it was

841
00:40:32,560 --> 00:40:35,239
Speaker 2: about something in her and she never actually figured out

842
00:40:35,280 --> 00:40:37,040
Speaker 2: exactly what it was with her, but the way she

843
00:40:37,080 --> 00:40:40,560
Speaker 2: approached the conversation with him was with so much ownership

844
00:40:40,600 --> 00:40:42,600
Speaker 2: and then just asking for what you need. And I

845
00:40:42,719 --> 00:40:46,160
Speaker 2: just loved it. It like really helped me. So go

846
00:40:46,239 --> 00:40:48,719
Speaker 2: check out that podcast with Terry Cole. We also just

847
00:40:48,760 --> 00:40:51,120
Speaker 2: had a bunch of fun guests. One I did tell

848
00:40:51,160 --> 00:40:54,080
Speaker 2: you I really the one thing popping up in my life.

849
00:40:54,080 --> 00:40:55,560
Speaker 2: And we're not going to get to this topic today,

850
00:40:55,600 --> 00:40:57,640
Speaker 2: but if anyone else has any thoughts on this al

851
00:40:57,719 --> 00:40:59,319
Speaker 2: Pacino situation.

852
00:40:59,239 --> 00:41:01,600
Speaker 3: Oh lord, I can't get off it.

853
00:41:01,840 --> 00:41:04,960
Speaker 2: Like I literally cannot get off the fact that this

854
00:41:05,040 --> 00:41:06,840
Speaker 2: eighty three year old man just had a baby with

855
00:41:06,880 --> 00:41:11,160
Speaker 2: a twenty nine year old I'm shuk. Yeah, nobody, there's

856
00:41:11,239 --> 00:41:13,040
Speaker 2: one person in my life who gave me the reaction

857
00:41:13,120 --> 00:41:15,120
Speaker 2: I wanted, and everyone else is kind of like why

858
00:41:15,120 --> 00:41:15,720
Speaker 2: do you care?

859
00:41:16,200 --> 00:41:18,200
Speaker 3: I mean, that's kind of where I said, It's like

860
00:41:18,360 --> 00:41:19,120
Speaker 3: why do I care?

861
00:41:19,800 --> 00:41:22,560
Speaker 2: But it's also a lot I don't know, fine, but

862
00:41:23,280 --> 00:41:26,000
Speaker 2: he's eighty three, Like, I can't believe you can still

863
00:41:26,000 --> 00:41:26,480
Speaker 2: get it up.

864
00:41:26,760 --> 00:41:29,279
Speaker 3: I know, well, I'm sure there's a pill involved, but

865
00:41:29,840 --> 00:41:34,040
Speaker 3: maybe but like his sperm is still good. It's the best.

866
00:41:34,000 --> 00:41:37,520
Speaker 1: Stuff fucked up thing about life. The men can have

867
00:41:37,680 --> 00:41:38,640
Speaker 1: kids until.

868
00:41:38,400 --> 00:41:41,960
Speaker 2: Literally the day they die, and we literally have a

869
00:41:42,040 --> 00:41:44,640
Speaker 2: geriatric pregnancy at the age of thirty five.

870
00:41:44,800 --> 00:41:46,120
Speaker 1: Don't even get me started on this.

871
00:41:46,280 --> 00:41:48,840
Speaker 3: Und don't even get me started. It's just like a

872
00:41:48,960 --> 00:41:51,480
Speaker 3: hold water. We don't have this wild.

873
00:41:51,680 --> 00:41:54,920
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's so it is literally, like it's why you

874
00:41:54,960 --> 00:41:57,319
Speaker 2: guys don't feel the pressure. I mean, like, I know

875
00:41:57,480 --> 00:41:59,719
Speaker 2: you're you're in a gay relationship, and so I think

876
00:41:59,719 --> 00:42:03,160
Speaker 2: it's a little different. But in hetero relationships, like there's

877
00:42:03,200 --> 00:42:05,440
Speaker 2: so much of that Peter Pansy dream, and guys are like,

878
00:42:05,480 --> 00:42:08,760
Speaker 2: what's the rush, And we're like, there's such a rush, Like, right,

879
00:42:09,160 --> 00:42:11,440
Speaker 2: we have to live in the rush, you know, we're

880
00:42:11,480 --> 00:42:14,239
Speaker 2: forced to. And so we're also forced, I think, to

881
00:42:14,320 --> 00:42:16,360
Speaker 2: grow up a lot faster in a lot of ways.

882
00:42:16,400 --> 00:42:19,960
Speaker 2: But yeah, if I was a dude, I'd be like, whoa,

883
00:42:20,400 --> 00:42:22,280
Speaker 2: I can have a baby at eighty three, bitch.

884
00:42:25,920 --> 00:42:28,080
Speaker 3: God. I mean that's but like maybe it is a

885
00:42:28,120 --> 00:42:32,200
Speaker 3: self preservation thing too, because women take on so much

886
00:42:32,320 --> 00:42:34,520
Speaker 3: work in the role of being a mother. Could you

887
00:42:34,560 --> 00:42:36,520
Speaker 3: imagine if you were a new mother at eighty five

888
00:42:36,600 --> 00:42:37,080
Speaker 3: years old.

889
00:42:37,400 --> 00:42:38,319
Speaker 1: You couldn't be.

890
00:42:39,200 --> 00:42:42,000
Speaker 3: You couldn't. I think dad can just like go watch

891
00:42:42,040 --> 00:42:44,040
Speaker 3: TV and like a normal you know at any a

892
00:42:44,400 --> 00:42:46,400
Speaker 3: that's what they're doing. You know, it's like yeah, and

893
00:42:46,440 --> 00:42:49,719
Speaker 3: that's I'm stereotyping. I know it's not every doubt, but

894
00:42:50,080 --> 00:42:50,520
Speaker 3: man's one.

895
00:42:50,560 --> 00:42:52,320
Speaker 1: You think al Pacino is, let's talk.

896
00:42:53,160 --> 00:42:56,040
Speaker 3: Because he know the kid's name, who knows, he probably

897
00:42:56,080 --> 00:42:58,400
Speaker 3: will have trouble remembering it at that age. So I

898
00:42:58,640 --> 00:43:01,040
Speaker 3: just er four, Oh.

899
00:43:00,880 --> 00:43:04,040
Speaker 2: My god, his kids, his other kids are older than

900
00:43:04,120 --> 00:43:05,800
Speaker 2: his new baby mama.

901
00:43:06,000 --> 00:43:08,040
Speaker 1: I'm being so judgy right now. I know.

902
00:43:08,719 --> 00:43:11,400
Speaker 2: It's just one of those topics that I like, saw

903
00:43:11,440 --> 00:43:14,600
Speaker 2: the headline this week and I like skip past it,

904
00:43:14,680 --> 00:43:16,360
Speaker 2: and then I was scrolling more and then I was like,

905
00:43:16,440 --> 00:43:19,880
Speaker 2: wait what And I went back and I went on

906
00:43:20,080 --> 00:43:23,200
Speaker 2: such a deep dive of that girl because everyone too

907
00:43:23,280 --> 00:43:25,160
Speaker 2: was like, well, money can buy a lot or whatever.

908
00:43:25,320 --> 00:43:29,680
Speaker 2: That girl's rich. She's like a royal. They have billions

909
00:43:29,719 --> 00:43:33,160
Speaker 2: of dollars. She doesn't need money. Also, guess who she

910
00:43:33,280 --> 00:43:39,120
Speaker 2: dated before al Pacino? Hell, Nick Jagger in his seventies.

911
00:43:39,440 --> 00:43:41,800
Speaker 3: Wow, she likes at least she's consistent.

912
00:43:42,400 --> 00:43:44,120
Speaker 2: I mean, she doesn't even have daddy issues. She has

913
00:43:44,160 --> 00:43:48,120
Speaker 2: granddaddy issues right heels. I just like there's I don't know,

914
00:43:48,160 --> 00:43:50,120
Speaker 2: I know way too much about this family now, but

915
00:43:51,000 --> 00:43:56,160
Speaker 2: her sister dated Prince Michael Jackson. Prince Jackson. Oh really,

916
00:43:56,520 --> 00:43:59,399
Speaker 2: do you have any questions about this family? You, guys,

917
00:43:59,440 --> 00:44:03,360
Speaker 2: email me at the edge at me velvet dot com

918
00:44:03,640 --> 00:44:05,960
Speaker 2: because I know everything.

919
00:44:06,120 --> 00:44:13,440
Speaker 3: All right, casual, I'm trying my brain sometimes just won't

920
00:44:13,480 --> 00:44:14,920
Speaker 3: let me be anyway.

921
00:44:14,960 --> 00:44:16,719
Speaker 2: Like I said, you can email us at the edge

922
00:44:16,760 --> 00:44:18,440
Speaker 2: at velvet edge dot com. You can also hit me

923
00:44:18,520 --> 00:44:20,920
Speaker 2: up on Instagram. I'm at Velvet's Edge, Chip.

924
00:44:21,680 --> 00:44:24,560
Speaker 3: I'm at Chip DOORSH. It's c H I P D

925
00:44:24,719 --> 00:44:26,520
Speaker 3: O R S C H.

926
00:44:26,760 --> 00:44:28,560
Speaker 2: And as you guys are going into the weekend and

927
00:44:28,600 --> 00:44:31,240
Speaker 2: you're living on the edge, I hope you can remember

928
00:44:31,680 --> 00:44:35,040
Speaker 2: to do this way more than I can and always

929
00:44:35,080 --> 00:44:36,520
Speaker 2: remember to a.

930
00:44:38,200 --> 00:44:38,719
Speaker 3: Casual.

931
00:44:40,160 --> 00:44:42,400
Speaker 2: Wow, you really made us like wait for that one.

932
00:44:43,080 --> 00:44:51,400
Speaker 3: Wow, it was like actual I think maybe too loud. Okay,

933
00:44:52,040 --> 00:44:54,120
Speaker 3: all right, bye bye