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I am a long 71 00:05:18,560 --> 00:05:23,040 Speaker 1: time how's a singular? I feel like I'm part of 72 00:05:23,080 --> 00:05:27,359 Speaker 1: the collective. Um. Yes, I'm a I'm a fan and friend, 73 00:05:27,600 --> 00:05:33,040 Speaker 1: friend and fan, truly local more in Italy only that's 74 00:05:33,040 --> 00:05:39,200 Speaker 1: when that applied. Well, I love that, and you go 75 00:05:39,240 --> 00:05:42,880 Speaker 1: to Italy. We all do. I think that we've all 76 00:05:42,920 --> 00:05:48,560 Speaker 1: been having some like Lizzie McGuire Italian like romance nostalgia. 77 00:05:48,600 --> 00:05:51,080 Speaker 1: It's been all over the timeline. I mean, just funny 78 00:05:51,160 --> 00:05:53,520 Speaker 1: that it should come up. The algorithm has been working 79 00:05:53,560 --> 00:05:57,120 Speaker 1: over time with the with the two thousands nostalgia. Honestly, 80 00:05:57,320 --> 00:06:00,880 Speaker 1: I feel true the I don't know if it's a 81 00:06:00,880 --> 00:06:03,760 Speaker 1: pandemic hangover for the now that that's really like like 82 00:06:03,880 --> 00:06:07,640 Speaker 1: catapulted that. But like the way I crave many of 83 00:06:07,720 --> 00:06:11,560 Speaker 1: the early two thousands, specifically Disney Channel movies the way 84 00:06:11,600 --> 00:06:13,160 Speaker 1: I need them back into my life and I've worked 85 00:06:13,160 --> 00:06:17,760 Speaker 1: them back into rotations or just like pivotal life changing movies. 86 00:06:17,800 --> 00:06:20,000 Speaker 1: Be also, I have noticing on your I D like 87 00:06:20,000 --> 00:06:23,200 Speaker 1: like the stuff that like what was your what was 88 00:06:23,240 --> 00:06:25,360 Speaker 1: your bisexual awakening? You know, and like those films that 89 00:06:25,400 --> 00:06:27,760 Speaker 1: I'm just like, yeah, like all the same ones, and 90 00:06:27,760 --> 00:06:31,640 Speaker 1: I'm just like, yes, I love it. There's so many honestly, 91 00:06:31,960 --> 00:06:34,800 Speaker 1: and like you realize it later, like as an adult, 92 00:06:34,960 --> 00:06:37,080 Speaker 1: you don't like maybe recognize it. You see there's like 93 00:06:37,160 --> 00:06:39,680 Speaker 1: this like inkling. There's this like curiosity when you're a 94 00:06:39,760 --> 00:06:41,800 Speaker 1: kid because you're still a kid or you're a teenager. 95 00:06:42,279 --> 00:06:44,159 Speaker 1: But then when you can like process it later as 96 00:06:44,200 --> 00:06:47,480 Speaker 1: an adult, like wait a damn minute, I was attracted 97 00:06:47,560 --> 00:06:50,720 Speaker 1: to this character. It wasn't just that I would like 98 00:06:50,839 --> 00:06:53,640 Speaker 1: love this character. There was like, oh I saw myself 99 00:06:53,680 --> 00:06:57,400 Speaker 1: and this character right all of that. Yes, I'm like 100 00:06:57,560 --> 00:07:00,840 Speaker 1: both like living for the early two thousands like coming 101 00:07:00,880 --> 00:07:03,480 Speaker 1: back and also hating it. I'm like in that weird 102 00:07:03,720 --> 00:07:06,560 Speaker 1: like please leave the fashion there. But yes, bring back 103 00:07:06,560 --> 00:07:10,640 Speaker 1: the pulp culture movies, the stars, give me all of it, 104 00:07:10,640 --> 00:07:13,400 Speaker 1: give me benefit, give me that yes, like I like 105 00:07:14,000 --> 00:07:17,920 Speaker 1: yes to the Manny Santos song. No to Gaucho pants, No, 106 00:07:18,080 --> 00:07:20,920 Speaker 1: thank you forever to Gauchos. I I felt for them. 107 00:07:20,960 --> 00:07:22,800 Speaker 1: I was into them. I I did it, and and 108 00:07:22,880 --> 00:07:25,520 Speaker 1: the layered the V neck with the tank top underneath 109 00:07:26,040 --> 00:07:29,680 Speaker 1: also did it. I'm sorry, I don't know. This is 110 00:07:29,720 --> 00:07:34,559 Speaker 1: my public apology, um, but yeah that uh thinking back, 111 00:07:34,600 --> 00:07:38,440 Speaker 1: like I guess, like retroactively, like no pun intended there, 112 00:07:38,440 --> 00:07:42,000 Speaker 1: but retroactively, like really reviewing all of these moments that 113 00:07:42,080 --> 00:07:44,560 Speaker 1: I that I witnessed like in movies and TV and 114 00:07:44,560 --> 00:07:46,200 Speaker 1: now being an adult and being like, oh my god, 115 00:07:46,200 --> 00:07:48,360 Speaker 1: like there was something going on in my brain and 116 00:07:48,400 --> 00:07:51,160 Speaker 1: now I'm smart enough to process it and looky, I 117 00:07:51,200 --> 00:07:52,360 Speaker 1: kind of want to give myself Like I don't know 118 00:07:52,400 --> 00:07:54,440 Speaker 1: if you guys get this way where you'll remember something 119 00:07:54,520 --> 00:07:57,360 Speaker 1: and the way you your brain was dancing around it, 120 00:07:57,400 --> 00:07:59,000 Speaker 1: and now being an adult, you're almost like a little 121 00:07:59,000 --> 00:08:01,720 Speaker 1: proud of like, man, I wish I could like high 122 00:08:01,760 --> 00:08:04,520 Speaker 1: five little Cristal because she was really onto something and 123 00:08:04,560 --> 00:08:05,880 Speaker 1: at the time she didn't know how to voice it, 124 00:08:05,920 --> 00:08:08,640 Speaker 1: and maybe, you know, maybe she could have been like 125 00:08:08,680 --> 00:08:10,840 Speaker 1: the next Greta on the stage talking about like the 126 00:08:10,880 --> 00:08:17,840 Speaker 1: significance of coyote ugly and yes for the bisexuals of 127 00:08:17,840 --> 00:08:22,280 Speaker 1: our generation. You know, Um, you know what did America's 128 00:08:22,280 --> 00:08:26,200 Speaker 1: next top models? Due to my development and you know, 129 00:08:26,280 --> 00:08:30,360 Speaker 1: being able to process judgment like I I uh, it's 130 00:08:30,400 --> 00:08:33,600 Speaker 1: it was, It's significant. Sorry, hello, Hi, I'm a sagittarius, 131 00:08:33,600 --> 00:08:39,720 Speaker 1: so I'm like about many things today. There we it's 132 00:08:39,800 --> 00:08:42,880 Speaker 1: like hard to even figure out where to begin, because 133 00:08:42,960 --> 00:08:46,160 Speaker 1: we could start with speaking of retroactive. You have new 134 00:08:46,240 --> 00:08:48,760 Speaker 1: music coming out, we could start there. We can start 135 00:08:48,920 --> 00:08:51,360 Speaker 1: with like how we met and how we got to 136 00:08:51,440 --> 00:08:55,959 Speaker 1: this point. I mean there's so many entry ways. Um, 137 00:08:56,320 --> 00:08:58,360 Speaker 1: let's start with how we met. I feel like that's good. 138 00:08:58,400 --> 00:09:00,719 Speaker 1: I think a fun place to start because it's one 139 00:09:00,720 --> 00:09:04,720 Speaker 1: of my favorite stories. Yes, and I'll let you tell it. Yes, 140 00:09:05,800 --> 00:09:11,120 Speaker 1: Diosa was there. We were together and it was all Grito. 141 00:09:11,360 --> 00:09:18,800 Speaker 1: I forget the year. It was several years ago now, yes, 142 00:09:19,880 --> 00:09:23,720 Speaker 1: for there we were just two faces in the crowd, 143 00:09:23,840 --> 00:09:29,600 Speaker 1: two indie podcasters in a sea of gritones for al Grito. Right, 144 00:09:29,720 --> 00:09:33,600 Speaker 1: So we're there and on the steps of city Hall, 145 00:09:34,080 --> 00:09:39,480 Speaker 1: I see a vision in black leather pants and I said, Yosa, 146 00:09:39,920 --> 00:09:45,600 Speaker 1: who the fuck is that queen? She sings, she dances, 147 00:09:45,760 --> 00:09:50,040 Speaker 1: she serves face. Who is she? Tell them? Did I not? 148 00:09:50,320 --> 00:09:56,600 Speaker 1: Was I not? Just like overwhelmed by Cristol's talent. Mala 149 00:09:56,840 --> 00:10:00,080 Speaker 1: was so overwhelmed that I had been put onto you 150 00:10:00,240 --> 00:10:03,040 Speaker 1: because a friend of mine had booked you for like 151 00:10:03,080 --> 00:10:06,520 Speaker 1: a community event. And so my friend says Sad, was like, 152 00:10:06,720 --> 00:10:10,920 Speaker 1: you need to check her, and so I started following you. 153 00:10:11,000 --> 00:10:12,960 Speaker 1: And so then when we saw you at Agrito, I 154 00:10:13,000 --> 00:10:15,160 Speaker 1: was like, Mama, I know who this is. I don't 155 00:10:15,160 --> 00:10:16,959 Speaker 1: know her, know her, but yes, like you need to 156 00:10:17,000 --> 00:10:20,480 Speaker 1: go follow her. And I dot like, I don't know 157 00:10:20,840 --> 00:10:24,120 Speaker 1: everything about you sold you to us, but especially the 158 00:10:24,160 --> 00:10:28,120 Speaker 1: way you you mixed. I think it was a lemonade 159 00:10:28,160 --> 00:10:33,319 Speaker 1: song like from Fyancee album. You mixed it with Selena. 160 00:10:33,440 --> 00:10:36,960 Speaker 1: We were like mind blown. We were losing it. We 161 00:10:37,000 --> 00:10:40,559 Speaker 1: were screaming, we were dancing, we were crying, we were drinking. 162 00:10:40,559 --> 00:10:47,360 Speaker 1: It was amazing. We made that medley for the batties 163 00:10:47,480 --> 00:10:51,360 Speaker 1: and it rarely goes fully acknowledged. So I'm happy that 164 00:10:51,440 --> 00:10:54,720 Speaker 1: after all these years. I'm happy that that really stuck 165 00:10:54,800 --> 00:10:59,320 Speaker 1: with you because to Queens from Houston hold up is 166 00:10:59,320 --> 00:11:03,120 Speaker 1: in the same in same cord relatively chord progression as 167 00:11:03,200 --> 00:11:05,480 Speaker 1: bbbb bom bum. So we just do this little breakdown 168 00:11:05,520 --> 00:11:07,920 Speaker 1: and that like you have to. I'll try to record it, 169 00:11:07,920 --> 00:11:09,880 Speaker 1: and the samas is back right now, so maybe we'll 170 00:11:09,880 --> 00:11:13,280 Speaker 1: do some actually film my performances. But yeah, okay, guess 171 00:11:13,360 --> 00:11:17,680 Speaker 1: I'm really happy you guys remember that. Um yeah, that's well, 172 00:11:17,720 --> 00:11:20,280 Speaker 1: that's what a lovely memory. Yeah, So from my end, 173 00:11:20,360 --> 00:11:23,560 Speaker 1: I mean, I just remember, they'll be pure madness because 174 00:11:24,679 --> 00:11:26,760 Speaker 1: you know, of course this dukan is right and like 175 00:11:26,840 --> 00:11:29,280 Speaker 1: this like God bless the city of l A. But 176 00:11:29,320 --> 00:11:31,200 Speaker 1: they did not prepare to have I don't think they 177 00:11:31,240 --> 00:11:33,560 Speaker 1: anticipated thukana Is to have such a high level or 178 00:11:33,600 --> 00:11:36,880 Speaker 1: an elite um set up, which I'm just like, well, 179 00:11:36,880 --> 00:11:39,280 Speaker 1: how embarrassing for you guys to not know that, And 180 00:11:41,520 --> 00:11:45,720 Speaker 1: because the city and I will, I will because that 181 00:11:45,800 --> 00:11:47,920 Speaker 1: day I was sick, I was not feeling well. I 182 00:11:47,920 --> 00:11:50,920 Speaker 1: was running around screaming um. Our set got cut by 183 00:11:50,960 --> 00:11:53,920 Speaker 1: like twenty minutes because they let everybody else run over 184 00:11:53,960 --> 00:11:56,040 Speaker 1: and Bukanas were like, I don't care, We're going on 185 00:11:56,120 --> 00:11:58,400 Speaker 1: at what time we're going on. But more the thing 186 00:11:58,440 --> 00:11:59,800 Speaker 1: that kills me is that, like I've always been the 187 00:11:59,800 --> 00:12:03,040 Speaker 1: type a musician to show up on time and it's rare, 188 00:12:03,200 --> 00:12:05,640 Speaker 1: like it's it's really not like the thing that it's 189 00:12:05,679 --> 00:12:08,839 Speaker 1: a lot um. And so we showed up on time, 190 00:12:08,880 --> 00:12:10,840 Speaker 1: but dugans, we're running late and mom, but I'm like 191 00:12:10,840 --> 00:12:12,720 Speaker 1: they've earned it. But of course when the time they 192 00:12:12,720 --> 00:12:15,240 Speaker 1: showed up, they're like, we have our own entire sound rig. 193 00:12:15,320 --> 00:12:18,840 Speaker 1: We don't need anything you provided, so are set up. 194 00:12:18,880 --> 00:12:20,600 Speaker 1: Not only did it get delayed four hours, but they 195 00:12:20,600 --> 00:12:24,280 Speaker 1: basically built an entire other rig next to the thousands 196 00:12:24,280 --> 00:12:26,240 Speaker 1: of dollars of equipment the city of l A rented 197 00:12:26,520 --> 00:12:28,720 Speaker 1: to try to accommodate them. Because they weren't they didn't communicate, 198 00:12:28,880 --> 00:12:31,120 Speaker 1: so then like it was just a mess. So I'm 199 00:12:31,120 --> 00:12:32,840 Speaker 1: glad the show went well because on my end, I 200 00:12:32,920 --> 00:12:35,000 Speaker 1: was like, up until that very moment, I was like 201 00:12:35,080 --> 00:12:37,040 Speaker 1: sweating and I'm like, all right, showtime. It's kind of 202 00:12:37,040 --> 00:12:41,559 Speaker 1: put it away. But like it was a lot um. 203 00:12:41,600 --> 00:12:44,680 Speaker 1: So that was your guys first time seeing me. My 204 00:12:44,720 --> 00:12:47,679 Speaker 1: first time seeing you guys was I think, look, I 205 00:12:47,760 --> 00:12:49,640 Speaker 1: that our radio had already been around for about because 206 00:12:49,720 --> 00:12:54,160 Speaker 1: I went to your second anniversary. Correct, I believe that 207 00:12:54,360 --> 00:12:57,640 Speaker 1: that's what it was at the Civic Center. Yeah, was 208 00:12:57,679 --> 00:13:00,240 Speaker 1: it was it number two? Was it was thinking it 209 00:13:00,320 --> 00:13:03,040 Speaker 1: was number two. It was number two because I had 210 00:13:03,080 --> 00:13:04,960 Speaker 1: seen you guys voting about on my this podcast is 211 00:13:04,960 --> 00:13:08,360 Speaker 1: really dope. You guys are super cute. Wow. And then 212 00:13:08,480 --> 00:13:10,200 Speaker 1: they also followed me, and I was like, oh my god, 213 00:13:10,480 --> 00:13:12,600 Speaker 1: and like at that point I was I'm still I 214 00:13:12,640 --> 00:13:14,439 Speaker 1: was still very green to the scene, so like getting 215 00:13:14,440 --> 00:13:16,200 Speaker 1: in with like a lot of this community. When people 216 00:13:16,240 --> 00:13:18,520 Speaker 1: would follow me or follow me first, especially, I'm like, oh, 217 00:13:20,080 --> 00:13:22,040 Speaker 1: I'm like the type of person like like refreshing all 218 00:13:22,080 --> 00:13:24,240 Speaker 1: the time, just to follow people back and get on that. 219 00:13:24,360 --> 00:13:26,520 Speaker 1: So it's very excited to get connected with you guys. 220 00:13:26,520 --> 00:13:28,640 Speaker 1: And then you guys had DM me to invite me 221 00:13:29,240 --> 00:13:31,360 Speaker 1: to the second year anniversary thing, and I was like, 222 00:13:31,440 --> 00:13:34,600 Speaker 1: holy smack, this feels very cool. I don't feel cool 223 00:13:34,679 --> 00:13:36,920 Speaker 1: enough to be invited to such a cool thing. I 224 00:13:36,920 --> 00:13:38,839 Speaker 1: don't know. It was very like imposter syndrome for a 225 00:13:38,880 --> 00:13:40,960 Speaker 1: little bit when I got When I finally got there, 226 00:13:40,960 --> 00:13:44,360 Speaker 1: you guys were so nice, so so nice. And then 227 00:13:44,640 --> 00:13:46,440 Speaker 1: I met a lot of great people at night, you know, 228 00:13:46,480 --> 00:13:49,640 Speaker 1: Brenda Gerani. We we also like became fast friends that 229 00:13:49,679 --> 00:13:51,520 Speaker 1: evening as well. And then I was just like, you 230 00:13:51,520 --> 00:13:53,439 Speaker 1: guys are the sickest and it was a cool It's 231 00:13:53,480 --> 00:13:56,520 Speaker 1: like it was everything I wanted to start to start 232 00:13:56,600 --> 00:13:58,920 Speaker 1: doing already at that moment, Like you guys put together 233 00:13:58,960 --> 00:14:01,719 Speaker 1: this entire event, you great guests, Like you guys were 234 00:14:01,720 --> 00:14:04,559 Speaker 1: really funny on stage. I was like equally as blown 235 00:14:04,559 --> 00:14:07,200 Speaker 1: away watching this like little universe you guys had like built. 236 00:14:07,240 --> 00:14:09,640 Speaker 1: And it was only the second year. Like in my mind, 237 00:14:09,679 --> 00:14:11,319 Speaker 1: you guys are already like I'm like these your lips 238 00:14:11,400 --> 00:14:13,360 Speaker 1: is great, you know. And then like and and and 239 00:14:13,440 --> 00:14:15,880 Speaker 1: so being in that uh just felt very cool to 240 00:14:15,960 --> 00:14:18,080 Speaker 1: like rub elbows and be around everybody. So that was 241 00:14:18,280 --> 00:14:23,040 Speaker 1: my first experience. But then later we did the what's 242 00:14:23,040 --> 00:14:25,320 Speaker 1: it called it? That little Oh my God, the short 243 00:14:25,320 --> 00:14:31,680 Speaker 1: film Look Yeah. Lokith is anonymous anonymous yes yeah very cool. 244 00:14:31,760 --> 00:14:35,440 Speaker 1: Has been involved now in several of our projects, starting 245 00:14:35,440 --> 00:14:40,000 Speaker 1: with Lokith as anonymous. Um Chris oldis some acting. She's 246 00:14:40,120 --> 00:14:46,680 Speaker 1: looking gorgeous. She's part of the you know um Bitt 247 00:14:46,800 --> 00:14:49,360 Speaker 1: two was her code name. Yes, part of the Lokith 248 00:14:49,400 --> 00:14:52,000 Speaker 1: as Anonymous universe. If you have not seen Lokith as 249 00:14:52,000 --> 00:14:54,720 Speaker 1: Anonymous and did not know that we also right and 250 00:14:54,800 --> 00:14:57,520 Speaker 1: produce an act in short films, you can go to 251 00:14:57,560 --> 00:15:01,840 Speaker 1: YouTube to our YouTube channel and watch LOOKI as Anonymous. 252 00:15:01,840 --> 00:15:06,680 Speaker 1: It's an eight minute short. Thank you say that? Sorry, 253 00:15:06,720 --> 00:15:08,640 Speaker 1: just to go back a little bit, like thank you 254 00:15:08,680 --> 00:15:11,480 Speaker 1: for acknowledging that was year two, because you're right, that 255 00:15:11,840 --> 00:15:17,320 Speaker 1: was year too, be like Okaya blown away? Like you 256 00:15:17,320 --> 00:15:19,400 Speaker 1: and you guys should applaud yourself for that more often, 257 00:15:19,440 --> 00:15:23,280 Speaker 1: because I've been there having to produce shows by myself 258 00:15:23,560 --> 00:15:25,720 Speaker 1: and like get all these people to come in and 259 00:15:25,720 --> 00:15:28,120 Speaker 1: like you're you feel like you feel like you're asking 260 00:15:28,160 --> 00:15:29,720 Speaker 1: for the moon. But then when you actually get the 261 00:15:29,760 --> 00:15:32,000 Speaker 1: genuine support that you need, like you really make something 262 00:15:32,000 --> 00:15:34,720 Speaker 1: amazing happens. But it starts with you, guys being authentic 263 00:15:34,760 --> 00:15:37,560 Speaker 1: and amazing, you know what I mean? And like that 264 00:15:37,640 --> 00:15:39,720 Speaker 1: was year two and it's only gotten bigger and better 265 00:15:39,760 --> 00:15:41,880 Speaker 1: since then, And like look does Anonymous was year three? 266 00:15:42,800 --> 00:15:45,120 Speaker 1: Like that's wild to me. That's like that that that 267 00:15:45,200 --> 00:15:47,840 Speaker 1: little eight minutes like and then and the film was great, 268 00:15:48,000 --> 00:15:50,640 Speaker 1: Like I really hope I actually was really hoping for 269 00:15:50,720 --> 00:15:53,240 Speaker 1: like like a comic book or like you know what 270 00:15:53,240 --> 00:15:54,720 Speaker 1: I mean, Like, I'm just I'm hoping all this stuff 271 00:15:54,760 --> 00:15:56,200 Speaker 1: so maybe and maybe I don't want to spoil things, 272 00:15:56,200 --> 00:15:59,160 Speaker 1: but I'm hoping all this stuff still happens, because it's 273 00:15:59,160 --> 00:16:03,600 Speaker 1: just such a leave that plant that there, leave that there. 274 00:16:03,800 --> 00:16:09,480 Speaker 1: We will revisit in the future shortly. Yes, anyway, thank 275 00:16:09,520 --> 00:16:12,600 Speaker 1: you so much, but please, please, please enough about us. 276 00:16:14,720 --> 00:16:21,520 Speaker 1: You must be stopped. Sorry. I love it. I love 277 00:16:21,720 --> 00:16:23,320 Speaker 1: I love the way you love your friends and your 278 00:16:23,320 --> 00:16:28,360 Speaker 1: community members out loud. You're very supportive. You're very supportive artists. Yes, 279 00:16:28,960 --> 00:16:31,960 Speaker 1: both like literally right now and literally right at this 280 00:16:32,040 --> 00:16:35,680 Speaker 1: exact moment, and also in the digital space. So thank 281 00:16:35,720 --> 00:16:38,640 Speaker 1: you so much. But you know, we invited you because 282 00:16:38,640 --> 00:16:41,640 Speaker 1: we want to hear about you and your work and 283 00:16:41,680 --> 00:16:44,680 Speaker 1: your upcoming work. All right, let me get vain for 284 00:16:44,720 --> 00:16:49,720 Speaker 1: a second, but yes, like the upcoming the new stuff. 285 00:16:49,800 --> 00:16:51,440 Speaker 1: Let's take it back a little bit and let's just 286 00:16:51,480 --> 00:16:56,360 Speaker 1: do a quick check in. Right, was a garbage fire 287 00:16:56,480 --> 00:16:59,480 Speaker 1: of a year. It was a health gape. We're still 288 00:16:59,480 --> 00:17:02,240 Speaker 1: recovering ing. It's not technically over. It feels like it's over, 289 00:17:02,280 --> 00:17:04,879 Speaker 1: but it's not. So like checking how are you doing? 290 00:17:05,440 --> 00:17:09,960 Speaker 1: You're like California has now reopened at full capacity. You're 291 00:17:10,000 --> 00:17:14,120 Speaker 1: getting booked, Like talk to us, take us and take 292 00:17:14,200 --> 00:17:16,919 Speaker 1: us back to like when the Pandemics started, because I 293 00:17:16,960 --> 00:17:19,440 Speaker 1: remember we were talking about it and like the bookings, 294 00:17:19,560 --> 00:17:23,560 Speaker 1: the shows, the income, like the work, just everything. Take 295 00:17:23,640 --> 00:17:26,880 Speaker 1: us back to then and then bring us to now. Yeah, 296 00:17:27,160 --> 00:17:31,160 Speaker 1: it's it feels like, you know, like in a roller 297 00:17:31,200 --> 00:17:32,720 Speaker 1: coaster when you go up in a loop and you 298 00:17:32,800 --> 00:17:34,840 Speaker 1: just meet at the same point at the bottom and 299 00:17:34,880 --> 00:17:36,959 Speaker 1: you keep going on the roller coaster. That's exactly what 300 00:17:37,560 --> 00:17:40,040 Speaker 1: feels like. And I just got stuck upside down in 301 00:17:40,040 --> 00:17:42,399 Speaker 1: that loop, Like that's what that That's the only way 302 00:17:42,440 --> 00:17:45,000 Speaker 1: I can physically describe how the feeling felt being an 303 00:17:45,080 --> 00:17:50,080 Speaker 1: independent fully supporting myself on music. Um, I was working 304 00:17:50,119 --> 00:17:52,480 Speaker 1: at East Side Love just before the pandemic. I've been 305 00:17:52,480 --> 00:17:54,080 Speaker 1: doing that on and off for like a couple of years. 306 00:17:54,080 --> 00:17:57,879 Speaker 1: But like that really wasn't like paying my rent. You know, 307 00:17:58,000 --> 00:18:01,159 Speaker 1: most of my my my my in come was from music. 308 00:18:01,280 --> 00:18:05,480 Speaker 1: And the pandemics started kind of like you know, being 309 00:18:05,880 --> 00:18:07,800 Speaker 1: being people like places with large crowd like, you know, 310 00:18:07,800 --> 00:18:10,720 Speaker 1: being an industry with like large crowds. Pandemic was really 311 00:18:10,760 --> 00:18:14,320 Speaker 1: like surfacing in those areas, like around February, you know, 312 00:18:14,440 --> 00:18:16,879 Speaker 1: right right right that late January February, people like, oh, 313 00:18:16,880 --> 00:18:18,400 Speaker 1: have you heard about this COVID thing? You know about 314 00:18:18,400 --> 00:18:20,520 Speaker 1: this uhan virus, you know, all these things they wanted 315 00:18:20,560 --> 00:18:24,879 Speaker 1: to call it, and um and I just remember like 316 00:18:24,920 --> 00:18:26,760 Speaker 1: people be like, Okay, maybe we won't do this thing 317 00:18:26,800 --> 00:18:28,960 Speaker 1: in March. We'll see what happens, you know, And it 318 00:18:29,080 --> 00:18:31,199 Speaker 1: was like things that were in the work suddenly got canceled. 319 00:18:31,240 --> 00:18:33,719 Speaker 1: And then I get to the end of February and 320 00:18:33,760 --> 00:18:36,080 Speaker 1: I lost one festival. Just was like, you know, we're 321 00:18:36,119 --> 00:18:38,960 Speaker 1: just not We're not going after it, and then I'll 322 00:18:39,000 --> 00:18:41,679 Speaker 1: never forget it. It was like February, I'm in the 323 00:18:41,720 --> 00:18:44,639 Speaker 1: studio and one thing about what I do or what 324 00:18:44,720 --> 00:18:48,080 Speaker 1: I did pre pandemic. I employ anywhere from like five 325 00:18:48,119 --> 00:18:51,240 Speaker 1: to eight musicians at one time. I I I do 326 00:18:51,359 --> 00:18:54,520 Speaker 1: music directing, a banned direct and I'm no, am I 327 00:18:54,520 --> 00:18:57,600 Speaker 1: there only source of income. No, But I do pay 328 00:18:57,920 --> 00:19:00,040 Speaker 1: my musicians, and I pay I'd like to say I 329 00:19:00,040 --> 00:19:02,200 Speaker 1: pay them pretty well. And we digged a lot. Twenty 330 00:19:02,280 --> 00:19:04,400 Speaker 1: nineteen were very busy, and we were gonna be even 331 00:19:04,440 --> 00:19:09,920 Speaker 1: busier getting into so I we had pretty much stuff 332 00:19:09,960 --> 00:19:12,280 Speaker 1: locked in all the way up until September, and I 333 00:19:12,320 --> 00:19:14,760 Speaker 1: just remember this. One day, I'm in the studio recording 334 00:19:14,840 --> 00:19:18,840 Speaker 1: for my EP Lovely that I dropped in September, and um, 335 00:19:18,880 --> 00:19:20,720 Speaker 1: that was actually slated to come out in the beginning 336 00:19:20,720 --> 00:19:22,760 Speaker 1: of summer to you know, not the fall, you know, 337 00:19:22,800 --> 00:19:26,040 Speaker 1: And so I'm in there doing some tracks, and within 338 00:19:26,119 --> 00:19:31,359 Speaker 1: ten minutes, I get five phone calls. Um, just individually myself, 339 00:19:31,680 --> 00:19:35,240 Speaker 1: I lost about five to six thousand dollars of income 340 00:19:35,359 --> 00:19:38,400 Speaker 1: within those ten you know what I mean, Like that 341 00:19:38,480 --> 00:19:41,280 Speaker 1: was how much like I had writing and then like 342 00:19:41,359 --> 00:19:43,960 Speaker 1: you know, it's equivalent like that's I pay my guy. 343 00:19:44,040 --> 00:19:46,360 Speaker 1: So like they're losing thousands of dollars over a couple 344 00:19:46,400 --> 00:19:50,040 Speaker 1: of months of income for themselves, and it's like, geez, 345 00:19:50,720 --> 00:19:52,960 Speaker 1: what the heck is happening? And this happened within ten minutes. 346 00:19:53,119 --> 00:19:56,640 Speaker 1: And then we go a little more further into March, 347 00:19:56,720 --> 00:19:58,960 Speaker 1: and then it's just like everything shut down. You can't gather, 348 00:19:59,080 --> 00:20:03,640 Speaker 1: you can't see people like we are collaborators, they're my friends, 349 00:20:03,920 --> 00:20:06,560 Speaker 1: you know, and you just don't know. And everybody's going 350 00:20:06,560 --> 00:20:09,080 Speaker 1: through such a weird hard time losing their livelihoods that 351 00:20:09,119 --> 00:20:12,480 Speaker 1: you don't even know how to at a You didn't 352 00:20:12,480 --> 00:20:13,800 Speaker 1: even know how to reach out to somebody say are 353 00:20:13,800 --> 00:20:16,639 Speaker 1: you okay, because you're not okay either. So it was 354 00:20:16,720 --> 00:20:21,080 Speaker 1: really professionally and very personally, very difficult. I feel for 355 00:20:21,119 --> 00:20:23,439 Speaker 1: a lot of not just musicians, but most artists are 356 00:20:23,440 --> 00:20:26,720 Speaker 1: most people that rely on public and open spaces to 357 00:20:26,920 --> 00:20:28,960 Speaker 1: make their income. Um. I know a lot of bartenders 358 00:20:28,960 --> 00:20:32,600 Speaker 1: that were struggling. And um it's also crazy too because 359 00:20:32,800 --> 00:20:35,880 Speaker 1: um as the pandemic raged on, you know, you get 360 00:20:35,920 --> 00:20:39,280 Speaker 1: all this you're inundated with information. You see like a 361 00:20:39,359 --> 00:20:42,280 Speaker 1: lot of people are getting their stride, they're doing really well. 362 00:20:42,320 --> 00:20:44,040 Speaker 1: They're either going you know, they're going on TikTok or 363 00:20:44,040 --> 00:20:46,120 Speaker 1: a lot of people are hiding. And then you get 364 00:20:46,119 --> 00:20:48,520 Speaker 1: this social justice movement that's happening. A lot of us 365 00:20:48,560 --> 00:20:51,120 Speaker 1: are artists who feel empathy, and then you just get 366 00:20:51,119 --> 00:20:53,320 Speaker 1: this weight of heavy like what do I do? I 367 00:20:53,359 --> 00:20:55,760 Speaker 1: wasn't even doing enough before the pandemic, Like what am 368 00:20:55,760 --> 00:20:59,440 Speaker 1: I supposed to do now? And then top it off, 369 00:20:59,560 --> 00:21:04,040 Speaker 1: being a creator who has a family, who's mostly in 370 00:21:04,080 --> 00:21:07,439 Speaker 1: like a normal professional working space. So yeah, they all 371 00:21:07,440 --> 00:21:09,240 Speaker 1: had to work from home for a little while, but 372 00:21:09,320 --> 00:21:11,800 Speaker 1: like nobody in my family really missed a beat, and 373 00:21:11,800 --> 00:21:15,280 Speaker 1: no one missed checks, no one missed you know. Actually, 374 00:21:15,280 --> 00:21:17,159 Speaker 1: if anything, my brother had like two of my brothers 375 00:21:17,160 --> 00:21:18,919 Speaker 1: had kids and like moved on with their lives and 376 00:21:18,960 --> 00:21:21,760 Speaker 1: like had wives and women and and and you know, 377 00:21:21,920 --> 00:21:25,600 Speaker 1: and a lot of blessings happened in my family. So 378 00:21:25,640 --> 00:21:28,840 Speaker 1: I'm internally also not able to voice how hard it 379 00:21:29,200 --> 00:21:32,120 Speaker 1: was on me up until up until I really did. 380 00:21:32,160 --> 00:21:34,760 Speaker 1: You know, I'm sure I'm not. I'm just being very 381 00:21:34,840 --> 00:21:37,360 Speaker 1: transparent about like the mental whole it took because like 382 00:21:37,560 --> 00:21:39,160 Speaker 1: I also try not to be a burden to those 383 00:21:39,200 --> 00:21:43,240 Speaker 1: that I loved, because they're all experienced such happiness in 384 00:21:43,240 --> 00:21:46,440 Speaker 1: this weird time. So it's like you're resentful, but you're 385 00:21:46,440 --> 00:21:49,080 Speaker 1: also happy, and it's like it was weird and you 386 00:21:49,080 --> 00:21:50,760 Speaker 1: want to write about it, but you're also like, I 387 00:21:50,800 --> 00:21:53,000 Speaker 1: don't want to like exploit my own bandit, you know, 388 00:21:53,320 --> 00:21:55,919 Speaker 1: my trauma for my vanity or it's weird. It was 389 00:21:56,119 --> 00:22:02,080 Speaker 1: really weird. And then around September, you know, to to 390 00:22:02,160 --> 00:22:04,640 Speaker 1: shy a, you know, for some positivity. I was happy 391 00:22:04,680 --> 00:22:06,560 Speaker 1: to do, like I really did, like I got back 392 00:22:06,560 --> 00:22:08,280 Speaker 1: into cooking, and you know, you just did all the 393 00:22:08,560 --> 00:22:10,320 Speaker 1: all the like that part of the pandemic that was 394 00:22:10,359 --> 00:22:13,360 Speaker 1: a vibe. Started roller skating, you know, connected with Mala 395 00:22:13,400 --> 00:22:15,359 Speaker 1: and a few other friends people and you Theosa too, 396 00:22:15,440 --> 00:22:18,399 Speaker 1: like friends that I really don't think I would have 397 00:22:18,440 --> 00:22:21,480 Speaker 1: had the time to interact with because I would have 398 00:22:21,480 --> 00:22:26,680 Speaker 1: been so much busier in I my my circle completely 399 00:22:26,720 --> 00:22:29,320 Speaker 1: changed because I started connecting with people because we're a 400 00:22:29,480 --> 00:22:31,960 Speaker 1: having a shared experience. But now we have time to 401 00:22:32,000 --> 00:22:35,280 Speaker 1: talk and it's not networking, and like, hey, nobody's working, 402 00:22:35,280 --> 00:22:37,320 Speaker 1: so I if I'm reaching out to you, it's genuinely 403 00:22:37,320 --> 00:22:39,600 Speaker 1: because like I have the mental energy to and I 404 00:22:39,640 --> 00:22:42,679 Speaker 1: find you interesting and there's a lot more I don't know, 405 00:22:42,800 --> 00:22:46,960 Speaker 1: just so like that was also a very interesting dynamic. 406 00:22:46,960 --> 00:22:48,960 Speaker 1: And the friends that I feel like I solidified over 407 00:22:49,000 --> 00:22:51,600 Speaker 1: the pandemic, we're just like it just felt really rewarding. 408 00:22:52,359 --> 00:22:54,280 Speaker 1: And then getting into September, it's it's been a dream 409 00:22:54,320 --> 00:22:55,800 Speaker 1: of mine since I was a kid to also act, 410 00:22:55,920 --> 00:22:59,159 Speaker 1: but um, yeah, you know, and I never really had 411 00:22:59,160 --> 00:23:00,960 Speaker 1: the confidence to pursue the way that I did music. 412 00:23:02,119 --> 00:23:04,920 Speaker 1: But the one thing, one thing I can finally sum 413 00:23:04,960 --> 00:23:07,320 Speaker 1: this up to of that I learned throughout the pandemic 414 00:23:07,400 --> 00:23:10,840 Speaker 1: is that if the world told me you will never 415 00:23:10,880 --> 00:23:13,119 Speaker 1: be able to sing on a public stage ever. Again, 416 00:23:14,400 --> 00:23:17,359 Speaker 1: what are you gonna do? I'm still gonna find myself 417 00:23:17,440 --> 00:23:20,040 Speaker 1: in a quiet room by myself, banging on a piano. 418 00:23:20,720 --> 00:23:22,800 Speaker 1: You know. I'm still gonna try to sing. I'm still 419 00:23:22,840 --> 00:23:25,719 Speaker 1: gonna try to create and perform. And it's literally the 420 00:23:25,760 --> 00:23:28,720 Speaker 1: only thing I thought of, obviously other than my family 421 00:23:28,760 --> 00:23:30,199 Speaker 1: and loved ones and all that stuff, but it's the 422 00:23:30,200 --> 00:23:32,639 Speaker 1: only thing I thought of for the entire pandemic, was 423 00:23:32,720 --> 00:23:35,720 Speaker 1: how to continue to be the artist that I want 424 00:23:35,720 --> 00:23:41,160 Speaker 1: to be without any monetary like incentive. So it really 425 00:23:41,160 --> 00:23:44,680 Speaker 1: solidified that, like, if you have this dream and you're 426 00:23:44,720 --> 00:23:46,399 Speaker 1: and you were able to like sit with it in 427 00:23:46,440 --> 00:23:48,360 Speaker 1: the trenches with it and still have it and still 428 00:23:48,400 --> 00:23:50,880 Speaker 1: hold onto it and have hope, it's what you want 429 00:23:50,880 --> 00:23:52,640 Speaker 1: to do and it's your purpose on the planet. So 430 00:23:52,920 --> 00:23:57,240 Speaker 1: I let go of this, Like, Okay, I can't act 431 00:23:57,280 --> 00:23:58,800 Speaker 1: because I need to focus on music. I don't want 432 00:23:58,800 --> 00:24:00,040 Speaker 1: people to think it's not part of my brand. And 433 00:24:00,040 --> 00:24:01,920 Speaker 1: I'm like, what, like, I want to add because I 434 00:24:01,920 --> 00:24:04,480 Speaker 1: want to act, or I wanna you know, I want 435 00:24:04,480 --> 00:24:06,080 Speaker 1: to produce because I want to produce, or I want 436 00:24:06,080 --> 00:24:07,679 Speaker 1: to learn people, I want to get better at piano 437 00:24:07,720 --> 00:24:09,159 Speaker 1: because it's part of what I do, you know, and 438 00:24:09,440 --> 00:24:13,359 Speaker 1: not having these like these doubts of um like that 439 00:24:13,400 --> 00:24:15,439 Speaker 1: again that imposter syndrome, or that you're not good enough 440 00:24:15,480 --> 00:24:17,800 Speaker 1: to do certain things. Like I'm like, look like it 441 00:24:17,840 --> 00:24:19,600 Speaker 1: could all go away tomorrow and you're still gonna want it. 442 00:24:19,960 --> 00:24:25,400 Speaker 1: Just do it absolutely like adapting, adapting to the world 443 00:24:25,480 --> 00:24:29,679 Speaker 1: and too circumstances, but still doing the things that we love. 444 00:24:30,200 --> 00:24:32,639 Speaker 1: And I just kind of want to piggyback on on 445 00:24:33,880 --> 00:24:39,040 Speaker 1: also just continuing and going and doing it even when 446 00:24:40,000 --> 00:24:43,800 Speaker 1: literally the world is shutting down. Um, everything seems to 447 00:24:43,800 --> 00:24:47,200 Speaker 1: be against you. There's no money, there seems like there's 448 00:24:47,240 --> 00:24:50,360 Speaker 1: sometimes like the momentum feels like it's slowing down, like 449 00:24:51,200 --> 00:24:55,199 Speaker 1: but just persisting and continuing to put out work. I 450 00:24:55,400 --> 00:24:57,280 Speaker 1: are you. Probably if you listen to this podcast, you've 451 00:24:57,280 --> 00:25:01,359 Speaker 1: probably seen me ranting and raving on Twitter about about 452 00:25:01,359 --> 00:25:04,280 Speaker 1: how Crystal should have been cast as Selena and Selena 453 00:25:04,320 --> 00:25:07,760 Speaker 1: the series because I stand by that ship and because 454 00:25:07,760 --> 00:25:10,520 Speaker 1: I believe it, and because there's so much talent out here, 455 00:25:10,520 --> 00:25:12,879 Speaker 1: and I think of I think of Christol obviously, I 456 00:25:12,920 --> 00:25:15,359 Speaker 1: think of us in our own way. There are so 457 00:25:15,440 --> 00:25:18,840 Speaker 1: many others in our little l a Latin X creative 458 00:25:18,880 --> 00:25:24,440 Speaker 1: community that are hyper talented, that are really funding, self funding, 459 00:25:24,440 --> 00:25:27,480 Speaker 1: self producing really impressive bodies of work. I mean the 460 00:25:27,560 --> 00:25:31,639 Speaker 1: Lovely EP I'm obsessed with. It's so good, Ghost Dream Lovely. 461 00:25:32,040 --> 00:25:35,600 Speaker 1: Let it be Lovely, bitch Like, it's amazing. The disco 462 00:25:35,680 --> 00:25:38,000 Speaker 1: fields are everything. If you like to skate, this is 463 00:25:38,040 --> 00:25:41,600 Speaker 1: definitely the EP for you. But you know, it's like, 464 00:25:41,880 --> 00:25:43,960 Speaker 1: we know talent when we see it, and you don't 465 00:25:44,000 --> 00:25:47,439 Speaker 1: have to be someone raking in millions of dollars in 466 00:25:47,560 --> 00:25:50,480 Speaker 1: order for us to acknowledge that you're talented, you know 467 00:25:50,520 --> 00:25:52,760 Speaker 1: what I mean, Like one doesn't need a record deal 468 00:25:52,800 --> 00:25:55,080 Speaker 1: in order for us to acknowledge the talent that is 469 00:25:55,119 --> 00:25:58,880 Speaker 1: just there. And um, we wanted also to have Christal 470 00:25:58,920 --> 00:26:01,200 Speaker 1: in the podcast because we've believe that we are catching 471 00:26:01,640 --> 00:26:06,280 Speaker 1: tomorrow's like superstars right like while they're still accessible to us, 472 00:26:06,320 --> 00:26:09,520 Speaker 1: while we can still get to them. And Chris Paul 473 00:26:09,600 --> 00:26:12,840 Speaker 1: is one of those people, So go follow her, go 474 00:26:13,000 --> 00:26:16,359 Speaker 1: stream her music. You have a new body of work 475 00:26:16,400 --> 00:26:19,600 Speaker 1: coming out called Retroactive that I would love for us 476 00:26:19,640 --> 00:26:22,040 Speaker 1: to start talking about to get the people pumped because 477 00:26:22,080 --> 00:26:25,560 Speaker 1: it's coming soon. Yes, Um, yes, yes, yes, yes yes, 478 00:26:25,600 --> 00:26:28,880 Speaker 1: So um, at least one of you throughout during the pandemic, 479 00:26:28,920 --> 00:26:31,800 Speaker 1: like in September or whatever, things started opening up. And 480 00:26:31,840 --> 00:26:34,960 Speaker 1: then I looked back at my catalog and I'm like, 481 00:26:35,000 --> 00:26:38,320 Speaker 1: well again, part of this whole addressing fear, addressing not 482 00:26:38,480 --> 00:26:41,240 Speaker 1: self doubt, not being good enough confidence. And I look 483 00:26:41,280 --> 00:26:42,919 Speaker 1: back at my catalog and I was like, there's some 484 00:26:43,040 --> 00:26:46,560 Speaker 1: good ship here that I talked myself out of releasing 485 00:26:46,560 --> 00:26:49,640 Speaker 1: for a number of reasons. So I kind of went 486 00:26:49,640 --> 00:26:51,960 Speaker 1: in and I'm grateful that I weeded because now I'm 487 00:26:51,960 --> 00:26:55,240 Speaker 1: a much better, more sound musician and I'm able to 488 00:26:55,280 --> 00:26:58,160 Speaker 1: ask specifically for what I want. So um, I wrote 489 00:26:58,160 --> 00:27:00,880 Speaker 1: one brand new track and then there's four there's three 490 00:27:00,920 --> 00:27:04,600 Speaker 1: songs that are I wrote them funny. They were both 491 00:27:04,600 --> 00:27:06,639 Speaker 1: written and all of them each were probably done and 492 00:27:06,680 --> 00:27:08,600 Speaker 1: about under an hour, but they were done and under 493 00:27:08,600 --> 00:27:11,680 Speaker 1: an hour like six years ago. And then uh, they 494 00:27:11,800 --> 00:27:14,360 Speaker 1: just sat there in the desk of demos, as they do. 495 00:27:14,480 --> 00:27:17,879 Speaker 1: And so I kind of made this ton of like retroact, 496 00:27:18,000 --> 00:27:20,920 Speaker 1: like retroactively releasing music that was written from the past, 497 00:27:21,000 --> 00:27:23,520 Speaker 1: but you know, it's it's current now and and and 498 00:27:23,560 --> 00:27:26,560 Speaker 1: it's still of me and Uh, yeah, so I have 499 00:27:26,720 --> 00:27:29,119 Speaker 1: I put them all together, and now I have another 500 00:27:29,160 --> 00:27:32,200 Speaker 1: record that I'm very excited about that a year ago 501 00:27:32,200 --> 00:27:34,440 Speaker 1: I probably would have a year ago, I did talk 502 00:27:34,560 --> 00:27:37,400 Speaker 1: myself out of putting this music out because I don't 503 00:27:37,400 --> 00:27:39,439 Speaker 1: know why. I really don't. I'm like, sometimes I want 504 00:27:39,440 --> 00:27:43,160 Speaker 1: to shake her, you know. Um, But it's the VPS 505 00:27:43,200 --> 00:27:46,960 Speaker 1: title that it's called Retroactive. There's four songs. Um. I 506 00:27:47,000 --> 00:27:49,199 Speaker 1: have a single. The lead single off the of the 507 00:27:49,200 --> 00:27:52,919 Speaker 1: EP is called Juliet. It's gonna drop on July two. 508 00:27:53,280 --> 00:27:55,520 Speaker 1: And then uh, I'm just trying to figure out the 509 00:27:55,520 --> 00:27:57,160 Speaker 1: time I win this will air, but like it'll drop 510 00:27:57,200 --> 00:27:59,280 Speaker 1: on July two. The entire EP is gonna be out 511 00:27:59,359 --> 00:28:03,840 Speaker 1: July twenty heard. Um, I'm very very proud of this 512 00:28:03,920 --> 00:28:06,360 Speaker 1: little body of work. Like I said, it is, it's 513 00:28:06,400 --> 00:28:08,800 Speaker 1: a mix of like me being confident enough to release 514 00:28:08,800 --> 00:28:10,680 Speaker 1: stuff that I had in the vault, but also one 515 00:28:10,720 --> 00:28:13,480 Speaker 1: of those tracks is as a song that I like, 516 00:28:13,480 --> 00:28:15,560 Speaker 1: like I had a huge hand in producing. So I'm 517 00:28:15,640 --> 00:28:18,840 Speaker 1: very very proud of it. Um. And yeah, you know 518 00:28:18,840 --> 00:28:21,280 Speaker 1: it's with my usual collaborators, Demons. He worked with me 519 00:28:21,320 --> 00:28:23,880 Speaker 1: on my first EP. Also brought in someone news names 520 00:28:23,920 --> 00:28:26,440 Speaker 1: Rich Gonzalez. He's a person I wrote that song Adams 521 00:28:26,480 --> 00:28:28,760 Speaker 1: with UM, but he produced two as the tracks on 522 00:28:28,800 --> 00:28:32,040 Speaker 1: this UM trying to make sure I don't forget anybody 523 00:28:32,040 --> 00:28:34,080 Speaker 1: else that's involved. But oh so I worked with some 524 00:28:34,160 --> 00:28:37,240 Speaker 1: vocal work with Brian Gazzo, who plays drums in my band, 525 00:28:37,880 --> 00:28:40,400 Speaker 1: and uh yeah, it's just I'm very, very excited to 526 00:28:40,440 --> 00:28:42,600 Speaker 1: be putting out new music and this is gonna slap like. 527 00:28:42,640 --> 00:28:45,760 Speaker 1: I'm literally listening to it so much that's I'm starting 528 00:28:45,800 --> 00:28:48,800 Speaker 1: to hate myself a little bit. But I'm very excited 529 00:28:48,800 --> 00:28:50,360 Speaker 1: about it. And I'm sure the second is out in 530 00:28:50,360 --> 00:28:51,640 Speaker 1: the world and be like, I don't want to hear 531 00:28:51,680 --> 00:28:53,640 Speaker 1: it ever again, but right now because it's mine and 532 00:28:53,640 --> 00:28:55,480 Speaker 1: I'm kind of just like hugging it before I release 533 00:28:55,520 --> 00:28:58,320 Speaker 1: it to you all, I literally can't listen to anything else. 534 00:28:58,360 --> 00:29:01,240 Speaker 1: And I'm hoping once I give it out to the world, 535 00:29:01,440 --> 00:29:03,760 Speaker 1: you guys will all have the same experience with that 536 00:29:03,840 --> 00:29:06,880 Speaker 1: I did, because it it's great, it's fun. The banger, 537 00:29:07,080 --> 00:29:10,720 Speaker 1: Juliet is a banger. Sure, I'm sure we will all 538 00:29:11,000 --> 00:29:16,360 Speaker 1: love it. Thank you so much for adding or sharing 539 00:29:16,600 --> 00:29:21,000 Speaker 1: that you went into your vault and like pulled some 540 00:29:21,040 --> 00:29:24,320 Speaker 1: songs out right, you revisited past work because I think 541 00:29:24,440 --> 00:29:27,600 Speaker 1: like as artists were so pressure to like create new 542 00:29:27,680 --> 00:29:31,560 Speaker 1: stuff constantly, but sometimes we're like sitting on work that 543 00:29:31,680 --> 00:29:33,800 Speaker 1: like we haven't visited in a long time, and it 544 00:29:33,880 --> 00:29:38,480 Speaker 1: just takes revisiting and like revamping and editing and then 545 00:29:38,920 --> 00:29:41,000 Speaker 1: putting that out into the world in whatever way that 546 00:29:41,040 --> 00:29:44,000 Speaker 1: looks for like each person. Um. And so I love 547 00:29:44,040 --> 00:29:46,160 Speaker 1: that you shared that because a lot of the times 548 00:29:46,160 --> 00:29:47,880 Speaker 1: we've got to step away and then we come back 549 00:29:48,120 --> 00:29:50,840 Speaker 1: and we stay with a fresh set of honestly. And 550 00:29:50,880 --> 00:29:52,520 Speaker 1: then I also think that too, there should be no 551 00:29:52,560 --> 00:29:54,680 Speaker 1: shame in putting something out in a few years, looking 552 00:29:54,720 --> 00:29:57,160 Speaker 1: at it and be like, I'm gonna rework this. It's yours, 553 00:29:57,200 --> 00:29:59,440 Speaker 1: you know, it's yours. You put it out there and 554 00:29:59,480 --> 00:30:02,520 Speaker 1: it becomes somebody else's and maybe you revamp it and 555 00:30:02,560 --> 00:30:04,040 Speaker 1: you think it's better, but someone's like I really like 556 00:30:04,120 --> 00:30:07,840 Speaker 1: the old version, you know. Um. But I I read somewhere, 557 00:30:08,400 --> 00:30:11,280 Speaker 1: um there somewhere just on the Internet, and it just said, 558 00:30:11,280 --> 00:30:14,360 Speaker 1: how like the the moment you release a song is 559 00:30:14,360 --> 00:30:17,480 Speaker 1: the most it's the most like infancy stage of the song, 560 00:30:17,920 --> 00:30:21,120 Speaker 1: because once it's out, that's like there you know, it's 561 00:30:21,160 --> 00:30:23,760 Speaker 1: the newest, it's the earliest, it's it's it's it's it's beginning, 562 00:30:23,800 --> 00:30:25,800 Speaker 1: and you just perform it and you work it, and 563 00:30:25,800 --> 00:30:27,600 Speaker 1: it just by the time you get to the end 564 00:30:27,600 --> 00:30:30,160 Speaker 1: of your life or you get to the next album, 565 00:30:30,240 --> 00:30:33,320 Speaker 1: that song has changed so much. And like so really 566 00:30:33,360 --> 00:30:35,160 Speaker 1: the song, the songs that you put out, or the 567 00:30:35,200 --> 00:30:37,440 Speaker 1: body of work or the writings or whatever, as you grow, 568 00:30:38,000 --> 00:30:39,240 Speaker 1: even if you go back and change it, you know 569 00:30:39,240 --> 00:30:40,880 Speaker 1: what I mean, or like the way you deliver a poem, 570 00:30:40,920 --> 00:30:43,280 Speaker 1: you know what I mean, It's gonna change as you change. 571 00:30:43,560 --> 00:30:45,320 Speaker 1: But that doesn't mean in the beginning of it was 572 00:30:45,360 --> 00:30:47,320 Speaker 1: any less valid or bad. It's just what you could 573 00:30:47,320 --> 00:30:49,160 Speaker 1: do at the time. And you kind of like it's 574 00:30:49,240 --> 00:30:51,120 Speaker 1: like I said, it's all that self doubt and that fear. 575 00:30:52,120 --> 00:30:53,920 Speaker 1: You know, it's not gonna go away. But you have 576 00:30:53,960 --> 00:30:56,640 Speaker 1: to learn either EBB and flow with it or sometimes yeah, 577 00:30:56,760 --> 00:30:58,280 Speaker 1: just like like shut up, I have to do this 578 00:30:58,360 --> 00:31:02,560 Speaker 1: against your perfectionist sensibilities and really just let let it out, 579 00:31:02,720 --> 00:31:07,520 Speaker 1: you know, and divine timing, giving giving it a little 580 00:31:07,520 --> 00:31:09,640 Speaker 1: bit of divine timing really helps because like had I 581 00:31:09,800 --> 00:31:12,600 Speaker 1: dropped these songs six years ago when I wrote them 582 00:31:12,640 --> 00:31:15,560 Speaker 1: and the like ten minutes after I finished them. I 583 00:31:15,560 --> 00:31:17,640 Speaker 1: don't even know where I would be, who i'd be around, 584 00:31:17,760 --> 00:31:21,520 Speaker 1: and if they'd be as good. Honestly, they probably wouldn't. Yeah, 585 00:31:21,960 --> 00:31:26,880 Speaker 1: I echoed thesa sentiment to about needing to put out 586 00:31:26,880 --> 00:31:30,400 Speaker 1: new work. Also with social media and TikTok and the 587 00:31:30,440 --> 00:31:34,840 Speaker 1: algorithm putting out new work every day, multiple times a day, 588 00:31:34,960 --> 00:31:39,280 Speaker 1: just constantly churning out work. We we've never really been 589 00:31:39,640 --> 00:31:43,000 Speaker 1: about that. We can't. It's too much and is the 590 00:31:43,040 --> 00:31:47,120 Speaker 1: stuff good? Is? Does it stand? Does it? What's it for? 591 00:31:47,520 --> 00:31:51,960 Speaker 1: You know? So relieved honestly to like have this conversation 592 00:31:52,440 --> 00:31:55,160 Speaker 1: about like taking a breath and like letting the work 593 00:31:55,280 --> 00:31:57,800 Speaker 1: breathe and grow the way that it should because it's 594 00:31:57,800 --> 00:32:01,880 Speaker 1: a living thing, right rush something It's gonna feel and 595 00:32:01,960 --> 00:32:05,760 Speaker 1: look and sound rashed exactly, And like to be honest, 596 00:32:05,800 --> 00:32:09,880 Speaker 1: like I hate churning out mediocrity for the sake of volume. 597 00:32:10,600 --> 00:32:13,320 Speaker 1: That to me like it because because we're not doing 598 00:32:13,360 --> 00:32:15,320 Speaker 1: like it's one thing to do like story posts or 599 00:32:15,360 --> 00:32:16,680 Speaker 1: like something, you know what I mean? Like you know 600 00:32:16,760 --> 00:32:20,160 Speaker 1: you you do things daily that are like loudest crazy 601 00:32:20,160 --> 00:32:23,120 Speaker 1: commitment posting a selfie is nothing not the same as 602 00:32:23,120 --> 00:32:26,520 Speaker 1: you posting a body of work a music video or 603 00:32:26,560 --> 00:32:29,080 Speaker 1: you know, like, uh, it's not it's not the same. 604 00:32:29,280 --> 00:32:31,840 Speaker 1: I mean, put yourselfies are both of yourselfies are works 605 00:32:31,840 --> 00:32:33,600 Speaker 1: of art. I'm not saying that it's more just like 606 00:32:33,640 --> 00:32:35,120 Speaker 1: but you know what I mean, but think type of 607 00:32:36,720 --> 00:32:39,560 Speaker 1: but it's a different type of like content than you know, 608 00:32:39,560 --> 00:32:42,000 Speaker 1: when you you are creating something else of you, you know, 609 00:32:42,080 --> 00:32:45,440 Speaker 1: and that has to take patients and like my my 610 00:32:45,520 --> 00:32:47,560 Speaker 1: big gripe and I'm gonna get I'm gonna talk my 611 00:32:47,560 --> 00:32:51,239 Speaker 1: ship a little bit because being a proud Latina, you know, 612 00:32:51,560 --> 00:32:55,440 Speaker 1: you know, Latina part of Latin community, I want to 613 00:32:55,480 --> 00:32:57,560 Speaker 1: make sure that I'm a part of this community that's 614 00:32:57,600 --> 00:33:00,720 Speaker 1: turning out quality content. And I'm a firm believer that 615 00:33:00,800 --> 00:33:05,160 Speaker 1: the friends have surrounded myself with our able to deliver 616 00:33:05,240 --> 00:33:07,600 Speaker 1: that quality content. And if we all like make sure 617 00:33:07,640 --> 00:33:10,000 Speaker 1: that we're holding each other accountable to that quality and 618 00:33:10,080 --> 00:33:13,480 Speaker 1: supportive but also being you know, really honest, like you know, like, 619 00:33:13,680 --> 00:33:17,480 Speaker 1: because all it's gonna do is uplift and and create 620 00:33:17,560 --> 00:33:20,320 Speaker 1: you know, set standard, and it's gonna you know, turn 621 00:33:20,360 --> 00:33:22,400 Speaker 1: more eyeballs towards us, Like we really have to be 622 00:33:22,440 --> 00:33:25,760 Speaker 1: adamant about demanding quality of ourselves and our friends. And 623 00:33:25,800 --> 00:33:27,960 Speaker 1: you know, you just need the ship on everybody's work either, 624 00:33:28,080 --> 00:33:30,240 Speaker 1: you know what I mean, Like like but like really 625 00:33:30,320 --> 00:33:33,560 Speaker 1: just like yes, like you see someone shining and it's like, yes, 626 00:33:33,640 --> 00:33:37,400 Speaker 1: let's amplify this because I mean really, like we call 627 00:33:37,440 --> 00:33:39,560 Speaker 1: it the movie scene or whatever, or the film industry 628 00:33:39,640 --> 00:33:41,440 Speaker 1: or the music industry, but really it's all like the 629 00:33:41,600 --> 00:33:44,560 Speaker 1: it's you know, it's it's the it's the gatekeepers, it's 630 00:33:44,680 --> 00:33:46,480 Speaker 1: you know, call it the you know, the white man 631 00:33:46,640 --> 00:33:52,200 Speaker 1: or whatever. It is, like like like Ebern and Groper, 632 00:33:52,320 --> 00:33:54,040 Speaker 1: like they rip each other, you know, like the people 633 00:33:54,120 --> 00:33:57,360 Speaker 1: bring each other apart. You know, they're very critical of 634 00:33:57,600 --> 00:33:59,320 Speaker 1: people that look the same as they do, you know 635 00:33:59,320 --> 00:34:01,720 Speaker 1: what I mean. And like I'm not saying ship on everything, 636 00:34:01,840 --> 00:34:04,960 Speaker 1: but we really need to just be like, hey, let's 637 00:34:05,120 --> 00:34:10,040 Speaker 1: let's amplify the quality and not let things fail upwards, right, 638 00:34:10,920 --> 00:34:16,440 Speaker 1: you know it's true it's social because sorry, so I 639 00:34:16,440 --> 00:34:19,839 Speaker 1: don't need to cut you off, but I did want 640 00:34:19,840 --> 00:34:24,320 Speaker 1: to say, like, we notice that when we put something out, 641 00:34:25,560 --> 00:34:28,879 Speaker 1: there are certain people that will engage, and there are 642 00:34:28,880 --> 00:34:31,960 Speaker 1: certain people that you expect to engage in support and 643 00:34:32,000 --> 00:34:35,799 Speaker 1: share an uplift that don't And so just like a 644 00:34:35,880 --> 00:34:38,560 Speaker 1: reminder when your folks, even if they're not your folks, 645 00:34:38,719 --> 00:34:41,200 Speaker 1: right there just someone that you appreciate there are and 646 00:34:41,280 --> 00:34:42,960 Speaker 1: even if there maybe they you don't exactly funk with 647 00:34:43,000 --> 00:34:45,560 Speaker 1: them either, but you do support what they do, like 648 00:34:45,680 --> 00:34:49,480 Speaker 1: that kind of sharing, and especially now with the algorithm, 649 00:34:49,520 --> 00:34:51,040 Speaker 1: Like I think a lot of us are being very 650 00:34:51,160 --> 00:34:54,000 Speaker 1: like conscientious of like, yeah, we're gonna share this and 651 00:34:54,040 --> 00:34:56,600 Speaker 1: we're gonna comment because like we know that the indie 652 00:34:56,600 --> 00:34:59,440 Speaker 1: creators like need that extra boost because if not, it 653 00:34:59,480 --> 00:35:01,160 Speaker 1: will flop. And it doesn't mean that it's a flap, 654 00:35:01,239 --> 00:35:03,520 Speaker 1: but sometimes social media makes you think feel like it 655 00:35:03,600 --> 00:35:05,799 Speaker 1: is a flap. Yeah, it's like a weird dance that 656 00:35:05,840 --> 00:35:07,399 Speaker 1: you have to do where it's like, all right, well, indy, 657 00:35:07,560 --> 00:35:10,160 Speaker 1: we have to band together. But then it's also like 658 00:35:10,200 --> 00:35:11,960 Speaker 1: we also don't want to throw a like or a 659 00:35:12,040 --> 00:35:14,600 Speaker 1: share of follow behind something that we don't truly believe in. 660 00:35:15,640 --> 00:35:18,840 Speaker 1: But then how can you deny when your entire circle 661 00:35:18,960 --> 00:35:20,960 Speaker 1: is incredibly talented, you know what I mean? And that 662 00:35:20,800 --> 00:35:23,360 Speaker 1: that's where I'm more just like looking at your peers 663 00:35:23,360 --> 00:35:25,760 Speaker 1: and being like, hey, we're all like being very cognizant 664 00:35:25,800 --> 00:35:30,359 Speaker 1: of each other's strength, encouraging things, being like, um, hey, 665 00:35:30,400 --> 00:35:33,480 Speaker 1: you know what man like this is like I don't know. 666 00:35:33,640 --> 00:35:35,960 Speaker 1: Like again, people, you don't need my opinions. I'm like, 667 00:35:35,960 --> 00:35:37,640 Speaker 1: it's not I'm not saying your art isn't valid, but 668 00:35:37,680 --> 00:35:39,400 Speaker 1: it's like if we're if we're contributing as part of 669 00:35:39,400 --> 00:35:42,200 Speaker 1: as part of a Latino scene, I'm just like, we 670 00:35:42,280 --> 00:35:45,800 Speaker 1: have to be unafraid to like really deliver honest opinions, 671 00:35:45,920 --> 00:35:48,640 Speaker 1: really give genuine support. It's another thing. If you're not 672 00:35:48,680 --> 00:35:51,840 Speaker 1: getting genuine support, it's just as bad as beiving a 673 00:35:51,880 --> 00:35:54,160 Speaker 1: bad critique because then you're getting you know what I 674 00:35:54,200 --> 00:35:56,520 Speaker 1: mean that you're you're I don't know, it's it's it's 675 00:35:56,520 --> 00:35:58,600 Speaker 1: a weird dance to do because it's like it's, yeah, 676 00:35:58,640 --> 00:36:00,360 Speaker 1: it is your friends were all independent. But I'm like 677 00:36:00,400 --> 00:36:02,480 Speaker 1: I'd much rather have people tell me, like christ All, 678 00:36:02,600 --> 00:36:04,880 Speaker 1: this is like not that good. You know what I mean, 679 00:36:05,960 --> 00:36:08,600 Speaker 1: that's that's not why. Yeah we're like hey, Christal, like 680 00:36:08,640 --> 00:36:12,160 Speaker 1: this is like you know someone who's you know, who's 681 00:36:12,200 --> 00:36:13,920 Speaker 1: willing to mentor me be like hey, by the way, 682 00:36:13,920 --> 00:36:15,799 Speaker 1: I see the potential in this. You miss the mark 683 00:36:15,840 --> 00:36:17,360 Speaker 1: by this much. I've had people straight up tell me 684 00:36:17,360 --> 00:36:19,960 Speaker 1: that in a very nice way, like you're so almost there, 685 00:36:20,000 --> 00:36:23,000 Speaker 1: it's crazy, And I'm like, thank you. Cool. That doesn't 686 00:36:23,000 --> 00:36:24,360 Speaker 1: really know, at the very least, I'm looking in the 687 00:36:24,400 --> 00:36:26,200 Speaker 1: right direction, you know what I mean? That doesn't feel 688 00:36:26,239 --> 00:36:29,879 Speaker 1: like like trash. Um. Yeah, I think I think for 689 00:36:29,960 --> 00:36:33,800 Speaker 1: us a lot of what it is is like, um, 690 00:36:33,840 --> 00:36:37,120 Speaker 1: almost when you see that somebody near you or around 691 00:36:37,160 --> 00:36:41,560 Speaker 1: you is putting together something like truly excellent and amazing, 692 00:36:41,920 --> 00:36:44,840 Speaker 1: Like when we're impressed by the people around us, it 693 00:36:45,120 --> 00:36:47,920 Speaker 1: really makes us Okay, well, how do we how do 694 00:36:48,000 --> 00:36:50,880 Speaker 1: we do something like that? How do we do something similar? 695 00:36:50,920 --> 00:36:54,399 Speaker 1: How do we do something completely different than that? That's 696 00:36:54,400 --> 00:36:57,080 Speaker 1: our own? But you know, it is kind of like 697 00:36:57,400 --> 00:37:01,600 Speaker 1: giving us that same inspiration. Like if the artists and 698 00:37:01,640 --> 00:37:05,440 Speaker 1: the work that you're surrounded by is you know, garbage, 699 00:37:05,719 --> 00:37:09,160 Speaker 1: then maybe you're not as compelled. I don't know. I 700 00:37:09,200 --> 00:37:12,040 Speaker 1: think to each their own, it's different. One thing that 701 00:37:12,080 --> 00:37:14,680 Speaker 1: we do notice is, like you know, on on the internet, 702 00:37:14,719 --> 00:37:18,440 Speaker 1: and we talk about the Internet so much just because like, um, 703 00:37:18,440 --> 00:37:21,560 Speaker 1: it's free PR and that's everything, and we don't have 704 00:37:21,600 --> 00:37:25,040 Speaker 1: PR people and all your favorite artists, everybody who's like 705 00:37:25,480 --> 00:37:29,800 Speaker 1: selling millions and making millions and stadiums. They have pr 706 00:37:29,880 --> 00:37:34,160 Speaker 1: people pushing their ship constantly, like they have teams armies 707 00:37:34,239 --> 00:37:37,440 Speaker 1: of people pushing their stuff to out to you so 708 00:37:37,480 --> 00:37:39,439 Speaker 1: that you know who they are. We don't have any 709 00:37:39,440 --> 00:37:41,400 Speaker 1: of that, right we have to We have to push 710 00:37:41,400 --> 00:37:47,080 Speaker 1: it out ourselves with our itty bitty fingers on our phones. Literally, 711 00:37:47,160 --> 00:37:49,920 Speaker 1: it's just phones on fingers pushing our shipped out to 712 00:37:50,000 --> 00:37:52,360 Speaker 1: you guys. Um. And that's why we talk about it 713 00:37:52,440 --> 00:37:55,480 Speaker 1: so much, because it really does matter. And what we 714 00:37:55,520 --> 00:37:58,160 Speaker 1: see a lot of is some of the biggest accounts 715 00:37:58,239 --> 00:38:01,080 Speaker 1: with the most followers and the most interaction, in the 716 00:38:01,120 --> 00:38:04,840 Speaker 1: most engagement in the Latin X space. Mind. You know, 717 00:38:05,680 --> 00:38:08,799 Speaker 1: there there meme accounts, their meme accounts, their meme accounts, 718 00:38:08,840 --> 00:38:11,080 Speaker 1: and a lot of it is sucking trash as memes, 719 00:38:11,120 --> 00:38:14,640 Speaker 1: I'm gonna say it, trash trash, ask memes, accounts that 720 00:38:14,680 --> 00:38:20,120 Speaker 1: are highly homophobic, that are highly xenophobic, that displante blackness, 721 00:38:20,160 --> 00:38:23,120 Speaker 1: that are really sucking, corny and trashy like in in 722 00:38:23,400 --> 00:38:27,319 Speaker 1: ungod ways, in ways we don't like, you know, but 723 00:38:27,400 --> 00:38:29,400 Speaker 1: they get the most, they get the most engagement and 724 00:38:29,440 --> 00:38:31,759 Speaker 1: the most followers and the most, you know, and so 725 00:38:31,840 --> 00:38:35,040 Speaker 1: it's just a little frustrating because then we try and 726 00:38:35,120 --> 00:38:37,400 Speaker 1: sort of okay, well, this is how the algorithm is working. 727 00:38:37,680 --> 00:38:39,959 Speaker 1: Let's throw a meme on our page that ship gets 728 00:38:39,960 --> 00:38:42,719 Speaker 1: the most likes, in the most engagement, and the most interaction. 729 00:38:43,200 --> 00:38:45,279 Speaker 1: I think. I think one of my highest performing clost 730 00:38:45,360 --> 00:38:47,200 Speaker 1: one time was like a little meme format that I did, 731 00:38:47,200 --> 00:38:50,120 Speaker 1: which is hilarious. But um yeah, you know, I just 732 00:38:50,320 --> 00:38:53,960 Speaker 1: I'm very uncomfortable with the idea of essentializing what it 733 00:38:54,000 --> 00:38:56,440 Speaker 1: means to be Latino, essentializing what it means to be 734 00:38:56,480 --> 00:38:59,200 Speaker 1: a Latin X artist, or especially a female Latino artists. 735 00:38:59,640 --> 00:39:01,959 Speaker 1: You know, I must look or perform a certain way 736 00:39:02,040 --> 00:39:07,200 Speaker 1: like I'm you know, I you know I I want 737 00:39:07,200 --> 00:39:08,680 Speaker 1: to be able to and then you know, even with 738 00:39:08,719 --> 00:39:10,200 Speaker 1: this music, you know what I mean, Like this music 739 00:39:10,200 --> 00:39:11,719 Speaker 1: that i've you know, just hie back to that like 740 00:39:11,719 --> 00:39:14,160 Speaker 1: that I'm putting out. I'm in love with it. I'm 741 00:39:14,160 --> 00:39:19,320 Speaker 1: excited mostly, and I'm also highly terrified because genre wise, 742 00:39:19,400 --> 00:39:22,600 Speaker 1: I don't know, like, if it's what people are gonna 743 00:39:22,640 --> 00:39:26,040 Speaker 1: expect of me, it's definitely a step of where I'm going, 744 00:39:26,080 --> 00:39:27,680 Speaker 1: you know, because even the next album is going to 745 00:39:27,719 --> 00:39:29,560 Speaker 1: be different because I'm growing, you know what I mean, 746 00:39:29,600 --> 00:39:32,120 Speaker 1: And like I keep thinking, well should and people will 747 00:39:32,120 --> 00:39:33,680 Speaker 1: call me straight up like you should do this. Have 748 00:39:33,760 --> 00:39:35,239 Speaker 1: you heard of this artist? You should be like her 749 00:39:35,280 --> 00:39:37,560 Speaker 1: blah blah blahahm, Like but I'm not her. If you 750 00:39:37,600 --> 00:39:39,960 Speaker 1: want her and go hire her, you know, or you 751 00:39:40,000 --> 00:39:41,759 Speaker 1: know what I mean, and and I'm but I'm also 752 00:39:41,840 --> 00:39:45,160 Speaker 1: like I I I it is set essentialization, you know 753 00:39:45,200 --> 00:39:46,800 Speaker 1: what I mean. Like I've had people tell me multiple 754 00:39:46,840 --> 00:39:49,440 Speaker 1: times like, oh, you should be doing low rider Olie stuff, 755 00:39:49,480 --> 00:39:54,360 Speaker 1: and I'm like, you know, I'm like, and I'm like no, 756 00:39:54,560 --> 00:39:56,640 Speaker 1: and and like or like oh, or tell me like 757 00:39:56,640 --> 00:39:58,400 Speaker 1: why don't you do why don't you do Manatti? Why 758 00:39:58,440 --> 00:40:00,799 Speaker 1: don't you do like super pop or whatever or like 759 00:40:01,000 --> 00:40:03,000 Speaker 1: or you know, and then they'll ask me to do 760 00:40:03,120 --> 00:40:04,719 Speaker 1: typical or like that get going, you know what I mean. 761 00:40:04,719 --> 00:40:06,839 Speaker 1: I'm like, I love and appreciate I'm not I don't 762 00:40:06,840 --> 00:40:08,799 Speaker 1: doubt I won't ever write those kinds of songs even 763 00:40:08,880 --> 00:40:11,200 Speaker 1: you know, but like to have that imposed on me 764 00:40:11,239 --> 00:40:13,040 Speaker 1: because it's more comfortable for you to see me as 765 00:40:13,080 --> 00:40:15,440 Speaker 1: a Latino artist in a space that you've essentralized me 766 00:40:15,480 --> 00:40:18,560 Speaker 1: in is something that I'm just trying to like I'm not. 767 00:40:18,800 --> 00:40:22,120 Speaker 1: It's it's like I'm almost like passively or subconsciously breaking 768 00:40:22,120 --> 00:40:24,120 Speaker 1: away from it by like just writing and looking and 769 00:40:24,200 --> 00:40:25,879 Speaker 1: doing whatever I want, you know what I mean. Like 770 00:40:26,320 --> 00:40:27,720 Speaker 1: I like that I'm a little bit of a tomboy 771 00:40:27,760 --> 00:40:29,759 Speaker 1: but can also go very fat. I like that I 772 00:40:29,800 --> 00:40:31,480 Speaker 1: do disco but can also do a ballot you know 773 00:40:31,520 --> 00:40:34,040 Speaker 1: what I mean. I I and if that makes it 774 00:40:34,080 --> 00:40:37,239 Speaker 1: so that I can't go mainstream successful, fine, But I 775 00:40:37,280 --> 00:40:39,560 Speaker 1: also think there's a lot more kids because I'm first generation, 776 00:40:39,600 --> 00:40:40,640 Speaker 1: you know what I mean. Like, I think there's a 777 00:40:40,640 --> 00:40:42,359 Speaker 1: lot more people that grew up like me that are 778 00:40:42,400 --> 00:40:45,280 Speaker 1: just starting to wake up and now they're my age, 779 00:40:45,280 --> 00:40:46,880 Speaker 1: and they have disposable income, you know what I mean. 780 00:40:46,920 --> 00:40:49,280 Speaker 1: They're throwing their their their likes and their money behind 781 00:40:49,280 --> 00:40:51,319 Speaker 1: things that they see that they that resonate with them, 782 00:40:51,600 --> 00:40:53,640 Speaker 1: kind of like you know how you're talking about the earlier, 783 00:40:53,680 --> 00:40:55,080 Speaker 1: Like we look back and we see the things that 784 00:40:55,120 --> 00:40:57,200 Speaker 1: would like really stuck with us when we were younger, 785 00:40:57,280 --> 00:40:59,080 Speaker 1: and now that we're older, we're like, oh, I like 786 00:40:59,200 --> 00:41:02,040 Speaker 1: this the changed me. I had a thought about it. 787 00:41:02,160 --> 00:41:04,919 Speaker 1: I'm older and understand it. Now. Let me now put 788 00:41:04,920 --> 00:41:06,719 Speaker 1: my money behind things that continue to make me feel 789 00:41:06,760 --> 00:41:08,960 Speaker 1: that way because I'm proud of that feeling. I'm proud 790 00:41:08,960 --> 00:41:11,480 Speaker 1: of of of thinking differently and that I was always 791 00:41:11,520 --> 00:41:14,240 Speaker 1: on this path and now I'm old enough to actually 792 00:41:14,239 --> 00:41:22,200 Speaker 1: speak on it. Yes, yes, queen, yes, yes, Well, well, 793 00:41:22,280 --> 00:41:27,719 Speaker 1: my friends, it has a glorious a glorious interview. You 794 00:41:27,760 --> 00:41:30,400 Speaker 1: have not heard the last of Criso. Cres is actually 795 00:41:30,600 --> 00:41:36,280 Speaker 1: music supervisor on our upcoming show marijuan Eda Web series 796 00:41:36,280 --> 00:41:39,040 Speaker 1: about wet a podcast her Potheads. You're gonna hear Crisol 797 00:41:39,120 --> 00:41:41,360 Speaker 1: sing and you're gonna see her dancing and acting and 798 00:41:41,440 --> 00:41:44,399 Speaker 1: all these gorgeous things in marijuan Eda. Not only that, 799 00:41:44,480 --> 00:41:49,560 Speaker 1: but Crisol does have new music coming out with Retroactive 800 00:41:49,600 --> 00:41:52,160 Speaker 1: and her new EP Juliette coming out. Criso, where can 801 00:41:52,200 --> 00:41:54,239 Speaker 1: people follow you? Where can they find find you? And 802 00:41:54,239 --> 00:41:57,719 Speaker 1: where can they listen to your music? Yes? So right 803 00:41:57,719 --> 00:42:00,560 Speaker 1: now I have I currently have EPs titled Lee. There's 804 00:42:00,560 --> 00:42:02,200 Speaker 1: four tracks on there you can check out, and also 805 00:42:02,239 --> 00:42:06,160 Speaker 1: two other singles on Spotify, Apple Music, Amazon, anywhere you stream. Um. 806 00:42:06,160 --> 00:42:08,520 Speaker 1: A new a new EP titled Retroactive is gonna be 807 00:42:08,560 --> 00:42:12,439 Speaker 1: available July. Um do you have a single Juliet's gonna 808 00:42:12,440 --> 00:42:14,120 Speaker 1: be dropping just before that. You can check that out 809 00:42:14,160 --> 00:42:17,480 Speaker 1: that will be available July two. Can follow me on Instagram, 810 00:42:18,160 --> 00:42:20,279 Speaker 1: follow me on TikTok. I promise I'm gonna wake up 811 00:42:20,280 --> 00:42:21,920 Speaker 1: on there at some point. I'm more of a stalker 812 00:42:22,040 --> 00:42:25,360 Speaker 1: right now, little scrolling everybody's content. But you can follow 813 00:42:25,360 --> 00:42:27,360 Speaker 1: me on TikTok as well. I also do have a 814 00:42:27,400 --> 00:42:31,200 Speaker 1: Patreon um that you know, has a few tiers for 815 00:42:31,280 --> 00:42:33,799 Speaker 1: like different types of access. I do exclusive performances for 816 00:42:33,840 --> 00:42:36,320 Speaker 1: Patreon UM. You know, a bunch of cool little stuff 817 00:42:36,320 --> 00:42:39,480 Speaker 1: in studio. That studio they have to record UM, as 818 00:42:39,480 --> 00:42:42,080 Speaker 1: well as a great many other goodies like early access 819 00:42:42,120 --> 00:42:44,799 Speaker 1: to tickets for shows and yeah, YadA, YadA YadA. So 820 00:42:45,200 --> 00:42:47,759 Speaker 1: you can check me out there and yeah, and then 821 00:42:47,800 --> 00:42:50,040 Speaker 1: you can also find me stalking Mona's I g so 822 00:42:50,080 --> 00:43:01,759 Speaker 1: find me in her comments. Same thing for those guys, beautiful. Well, 823 00:43:02,000 --> 00:43:05,600 Speaker 1: that's that we did it. That's the d for having me. Guys, 824 00:43:06,239 --> 00:43:09,040 Speaker 1: this has been another episode. 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